She reveals unsureness about Behn, who may have been the first woman to earn a living through her plays but did so by becoming, essentially, one of the boys.

“Being Jewish was this core part of my identity,” he says, yet he felt “a lot of ambivalence and a lot of unsureness” about it.

That sense of unsureness the players felt disappeared.

"And not only were the stories very good, but I think the audience felt comfortable knowing what they were going to see. It’s a bite of nostalgia, a bite of comfort. There is so much unsureness, it’s nice to go for 22 minutes and just sit and watch something that’s simple and about love."

It’s what’s left behind when someone kills themselves, a fog of painful unsureness, a feeling that I filed away as other when I was 16, watching it for the first of many times.