PHIL TOMKINS

ONCE A SOLDIER

Even Parachute Regiment training couldn’t prepare him for the ordeals he would face - on and off the field of battle

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Copyright © 2014 by Phil Tomkins

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TWICE A HERO

For Maree, with love and thanks.

Grateful thanks to Chris Newton, Editor, Mereo Publishing,

Mary Berry for copy editing, and to Annie Wittles and Caroline

Tomlinson for proof reading. To graphic designer and family friend

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Philip for his help on IT.

CHAPTER ONE

Ireland

The last thing the recruit soldier expected as he sat on his bed polishing his belt brasses was to see a fellow recruit run through with an eighteen-inch bayonet. Travis, the youngest in the billet, stared at the unreal scene. This can’t be happening. God! Will it be me next?

As the bug-eyed, crazed attacker struggled to pull the weapon from his victim, four other recruits threw themselves at him, unclipped the rifle from the bayonet and forced him to the floor. He screamed and lashed out with his fists and feet until one of the men knocked him unconscious with a blow that burst his lip. The wounded youth slumped to one side with the bayonet still lodged in his body. A tide of blood soaked into his bedding, forming an ever-widening crimson pool on the barrack floor.

Snapping out of his fear, Travis grabbed the pillows from his bed. Running to the injured recruit, he pressed them into the wounds in an effort to stop the flow of blood.

There was no sleep that night for Travis. The medics were quickly on the scene, followed by the Military Police, who arrested the attacker and took the rest of the billet’s occupants away for questioning. The barrack block was now a crime scene, and the witnesses had to spend the night in the guardroom cells.

Lying on a cot in a two-man cell waiting for his turn to be questioned by the Redcaps, Travis was in turmoil. He was shaking like a leaf and shit scared.

Some soldier I’m going to be if I can’t stand the sight of blood. How the hell did I end up in this mess?

As the last thought entered his head, another pushed it out.

Because I had no bloody choice!

He lay there in the darkness, recalling the moment he had handed over the forged letter of consent to his under-age enlistment. The recruiting sergeant sized up his skinny frame and boyish looks and jokingly asked him, ‘Are you sure it’s the army you want to join and not the Boy Scouts?’

Well, I made it, he thought. I’ve been accepted into the military and out of the clutches of my vicious stepmother and a miserable life at home.

He thought about the last five years of meagre food, worn-out clothing and wet feet in shoes beyond repair; the cold winter nights roaming the streets until the small hours of the morning waiting for his parents to return home from their regular late nights out; the continual hostility of his stepmother, both mental and physical, and the total indifference of his father.

I’m going to get over all the upset and get stuck in and make a decent soldier. I’ll prove to myself that I am not cowardly and weak like my father.

For then, recruit training came to a halt. Travis spent long, tedious hours at the general court martial. It appeared to be a straightforward enough case to him. A whole section of soldiers had witnessed that terrible night. But the army had to have its day in court. The fact that the attacker had had a mental break-down had no impact on the letter of military law.

Unknown to Travis his father was also in camp, putting forward a case to have his son discharged from the army as an illegal entrant. The result of this came to light a week after the court martial had ended.

‘Left, right, left right. Halt. Remove headdress.’

Travis stood at attention in front of his Company Commander.

‘We have been informed by your father that you are an illegal entrant to the Irish Army, in that you enlisted whilst under age of consent and without parental permission while using a forged document. Therefore you are, as of now, discharged from the Army. Your Platoon Sergeant will make all the necessary arrangements for return of kit, pay etc. You are dismissed. March him out, Sergeant Major.’

‘Replace headdress, about turn, left, right, left, right...’

His father and stepmother were waiting for him as he stepped down off the bus in Dublin from the army camp in Kildare. His father handed him a brown paper bag which held his work clothes and boots.

‘Go back to the camp and find your real father’ he said. With those words, his parents turned their backs on him and walked out of his life. Before he lost sight of them, he shouted, ‘My mother must be spinning in her grave right now. I’m the bloody image of you, you lying fecker!’

The bitterness and hatred in his voice at his father’s final act of betrayal was almost tangible. There and then he vowed that it would be a freezing day in hell before he ever made contact with, or spoke to, his father again.

A stab of panic hit him as he realized that he was on his own and would have to fend for himself from this day on. Fighting his feelings, he knew he had to sit down somewhere and make plans for the future.

This was the 1950s, and the serious state of unemployment in Dublin and elsewhere brought mass sit-downs in O’Connell Street in the city centre by thousands of unemployed people waving placards begging for work. Travis had to skirt one such human road block to get to the Rainbow Rooms, a favourite meeting place for him and his girlfriend Melissa in happier times. Shocked at what he had just seen and working his way through a ham sandwich and a pot of tea, he looked at his options.

Travis reasoned that he hadn’t a snowball’s chance in hell of getting a job there. His only option seemed to be to emigrate. His army pay should get him to London, where he had some mates, and he should have a few bob left over to cover himself for a week or so. But what would he do if he couldn’t get work? He would be in deep shit.

Sod it, he thought, I’m in deep shit already. I’ve got to do something to dig myself out.

So, his mind made up, he went to a movie to kill some time. Then, to save money, he spent the night shivering in the doorway of a warehouse in Dublin Docks. Next morning he bought a one- way ticket to Liverpool and joined the end of a long, slow-moving queue at the North Wall to board the B & I (British and Irish) boat for the twelve-hour voyage to Liverpool.

The boat sailed that evening. Standing on the after-deck looking at the Irish coastline fading in the distance, his only regret was not being able to contact Melissa. He would write to her and explain all when he got settled.

It was the only time Travis had ever been on a ship. Heading out into the Irish Sea the wind got up, the rain lashed down, the ship heeled and rolled and he had his first taste of seasickness. The crossing was quite dreadful and the passengers travelled in absolute squalor, with next to no facilities. There was nowhere to lie or sit except on the open deck or down in the hold, a heaving mass of suffering humanity, foul smelling and awash with vomit.

He chose to settle down on the deck, which was littered with empty Guinness bottles which rattled and rolled all night long. Between that and the biting cold, he got little or no sleep. In the grey light of a winter’s morning and as the ship docked, Travis whispered to himself, ‘welcome to Merry England’. He wondered if he had made a big mistake in leaving Ireland.

CHAPTER TWO

England

Finding his way to Lime Street Station, Travis boarded the train for London in the hope of finding some of his Irish friends living and working there. The journey was another ordeal to overcome. It was a long and dirty trip, with black soot from the engine blowing back through the open window into the compartment and coating his face, hands and clothes. Although he was young and fit, he arrived in London a total wreck.

After washing his hands and face in the toilets at Euston Station, he went about finding his mates. He got an enthusiastic welcome from his friends, and one of them took him in and let him share a room with him.

Next a job – plenty of those in the big city. Travis never looked back. He worked hard, played even harder, and had never had it so good or enjoyed such happiness every weekend out on the town with his pals, seeing the sights of London and drinking copious amounts of alcohol.

That is until, after a six-month spell, his call-up papers for National Service dropped through the letterbox.

‘Not a problem’ his friend Mick Callaghan told him. ‘All you have to do is go home to Dublin. Have a short holiday and come back and register for work as Joseph Travis, or whatever the hell you want to call yourself. Then my boyo, you’re on for another six months call-up free work. We’ve been doing it for ages.’

‘I don’t know Mick, I did a short stint in the Irish Army and enjoyed it and I’m not afraid to take the plunge again. But not yet, I’m enjoying life at the moment.’

‘Whatever you do is all right with us. The very best of luck to you, but you’re a daft bastard to give the army a second thought.’

Right or wrong, Travis decided to make his way to his designated recruitment office in Acton, London, to be greeted by a Sergeant of Engineers.

‘What can we do for you, young sir?’ said the Sergeant.

Travis handed him his call-up papers and asked, ‘What are the conditions of enlistment and the weekly pay?’

‘One pound eight shillings a week’ the Sergeant said.

‘I don’t think I’ll join your army, thank you.’

‘It’s against the law to try to dodge National Service and you could end up in prison.’

‘Not me, I’m Irish, and I have the option of going back home. There’s no call-up there.’

‘What’s your problem son? It’s a good life in the modern army.’

‘Maybe so, but it pays bloody silly money.’

‘Look lad, instead of serving eighteen months’ National Service, why not sign on for three years’ Regular Service? The pay’s three pounds three shillings a week.’

Despite himself, Travis was showing interest. ‘That’s a lot better than one pound eight.’

‘Better yet, if you join the Parachute Regiment you’ll get another two pounds two shillings, which would bring you up to five pounds five shillings a week.’

‘Now you’re talking. But, who the hell are the Parachute Regiment when they’re at home?’

‘They’re the élite of the British Army and they go into battle by aircraft and by parachute. If you think you have the balls to jump out of a plane, this could be the mob for you. Last but not least, they are the highest-paid troops in the British Army.’

Travis’ grandmother had told him his dad had been a crap soldier who had spent his career as a waiter in the officers’ mess. He couldn’t soldier if his life depended on it. He had also been a moral and physical coward. If Travis could do this, it would prove he was a better man than his father.

Much impressed with what was on offer and the opportunity to test himself to the full, Travis signed on the spot. He spent his first night in the home of the British Army, Aldershot, with forty or so other hopefuls all bedded down in double bunks in a draughty barrack block. He found difficulty in sleeping due to the sobbing of some of the young lads on their first time away from home.

This started the whittling-down process of the new recruit platoon. Despite his previous army training, he found the weeks of Para Basic to be gruelling in the extreme. With no respite, it went from one phase to another.

There was drill, map reading, field craft and weapons training. There was cross-training in learning how to handle a rifle, sub machine-gun, light machine-gun, pistol, rocket launcher (anti-tank weapon) and mortar. The Paras worked on the principle of ‘slick skills produce quick kills’. Weapons training was followed by a scary trip to the grenade range, where each trainee had to throw two grenades, then duck as the base plate of the grenade and pieces of shrapnel came winging back at the thrower.

Radio and radio procedure, battlefield first aid and guard duties and day and night exercises were interspersed with the military side of training. This was the tough, physical aspect, with ten-mile runs and route marches carrying full kit. The Paras call the ten and twenty-mile runs ‘tabs’ (Tactical Advance to Battle). They placed considerable stock in a future Para being able to sustain the pace, complete long, forced marches and arrive at his destination ready for battle.

On Travis’ first tab, he came down with the biggest blister on his right foot he had ever seen. During a quick break, the accompanying medic lanced it and left him to struggle getting his sock back on. When he stood up the pain was indescribable. In no time at all, he was well back from the main group. He broke down and cried from the pain and cursed every member of the training team to hell and gone.

You bunch of heartless bastards. You don’t give a monkey’s whether I live or die. It’s all right for you feckers in lightweight trousers and maroon singlets, posing in your red berets. God, I just want to die. What the hell am I doing here anyway?

One of the corporals dropped back to encourage Travis to keep going and help him catch up with the main bunch. Bloody hell, one of the evil sods is coming back to bollock me. Drop dead, you feckin’ arsehole, just leave me alone!

‘Come on Travis you can do better than that, I’ve watched you, you have the balls to do this. All you need is the belief. Try and up the pace a little. Come on, you can do it.’

It’s all right for you, you smug bastard. I’d like to see you with a feckin big hole in your heel and a bag of bricks on your back. See how bloody tough you would be then.

When Travis failed to up his pace, the corporal’s mood changed.

‘OK Travis forget it, you’re done. Break off and I’ll bring up the Land Rover and get you a cushy ride right out of the Regiment. Just pack it in, you bloody wimp.’

Sod you, you gobby bastard, I’ll show you who’s a wimp.

Lost in his own mind-numbing world of pain and fatigue, he started to get used to the pack filled with bricks and gradually the pain from his blistered heel began to ease. With a supreme effort of will he was in among the pack, while others dropped back and some dropped out. This helped his confidence. Now all he had to do was make the time set for the course.

Finally, his nightmare ended. He had made it on time and could get some proper medical attention to set him up for the next tab.

Travis’ favourite skills lesson was the radio. He could disassemble and reassemble the various sets better than any weapon he had to learn. Unfortunately, his instructor deemed him unsuitable to become a radio operator because of his accent and poor pronunciation. He would say ‘tree’ for three, ‘tirty’ for thirty and ‘turd’ for third. In the years ahead, this problem would come back to haunt him.

Interspersed with the basic training was Pre-Parachute Selection, or ‘P’ Company. This was a series of rigorous physical tests, the toughest course, after SAS Selection (Special Air Service), in the British Army, designed to determine if a recruit had the right mental attitude and qualities to succeed in the Parachute Regiment. Travis and his fellow hopefuls had to show the right amount of aggression, initiative and self-reliance for the next stage, parachute training.

The proud history of the regiment was drummed into the recruits during sessions on regimental history. The drops on ‘D’ Day in Normandy and Arnhem, Holland, where the Paras had had to hold a bridge across the Rhine for forty-eight hours and the remnants of a single battalion had held it for three days and nights.

Ten thousand Paras dropped into that cauldron and only two thousand came out.

Luckily for Travis, he found that his pride and self-belief helped him to build the right mental attitude to face the seventy per cent failure rate for potential Paras. He believed that if he was ever going to prove himself a better man than his father, selection for the Paras would be the ultimate test of balls, brains and physical fitness.

This was tested to the extreme on a forty-four foot high structure of scaffolding poles, loose planks, ropes and nets call the Trainasium. The whole contraption swayed like a willow in the wind. Having arrived at the top of this monstrosity he had to do a ‘look Mam no hands’ shuffle across two parallel bars on top of this nightmare.

Success on the Trainasium was followed by the ‘Log Race’, which he felt should be renamed the ‘Telegraph Pole Race’. Along with seven other victims and carrying a long, heavy pole with the aid of toggle ropes, a three-foot length of thick rope with a loop at one end and a toggle at the other, he had to race along a mile and a half course, uphill, down dale, through mud and shale, all the while harassed by the PTIs (Physical Training Instructors), armed with hockey sticks, which they applied to the backside of any dawdling recruit.

Before Travis and his team got their breath back they were into ‘milling’, a toe-to-toe style boxing match or, as it turned out, a slugging contest. If the recruit ducked or dived at any time during the match or, in fact, failed to complete or qualify to the highest standard in any aspect of the tests and training, he would be out of the regiment. Should he or any of his fellow recruits fail, for any reason, they would be back-squadded to try the whole torturous trail again. If they were unlucky, and had been transferred in from another arm of the forces, they would be returned to their previous unit, or if not, into civilian life again.

Travis and the remaining recruits were not allowed see or speak to the rejects. The system was to spirit failures away from the platoon before their fellow recruits returned from some training stint. In effect, the rejects were not given the opportunity to influence the mindset of the remaining trainees, or knock their confidence in any way. There was just an empty bed space where their erstwhile friend used to sleep, never to be heard from or seen again. It was rumoured that rejects were sent to a Siberian salt mine and truth to tell, Travis never met a former reject for the rest of his life. He had the sneaking suspicion that there might be some truth in the old story.

When the going got really hard, he thought back to his schooling under the nuns at his convent school. The old gits had put the fear of themselves first and the fear of God second into their five to seven-year-old charges. The sisters looked angelic as they glided around the classrooms as if they were on castors, with their rosary beads wrapped around their waists and their bunches of keys. In fact, they were awful, nasty old biddies. He remembered the swish and crack of their bamboo canes and the cries and screams of the kids being thrashed in the classrooms and corridors. More often than not, he was one of them.

The convent was a great preparatory school for the next step of his education with the Christian Brothers, or bastards, as the boys called them. In the