RUMOURS:

A MEMOIR OF A BRITISH POW IN WWII

By Chas Mayhead

Copyright ©2002 by Chas Mayhead

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Copyright 2002 Chas Mayhead

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Mayhead, Chas

Rumours: A Memoir of a British POW in WWII / Chas Mayhead

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CONTENTS

Prologue:

Before the War

Chapter One:

Life as a Soldier

Chapter Two:

The Middle East

Chapter Three:

Italy

Chapter Four:

Germany

Chapter Five:

End of the War

Chapter Six:

Back in England

Epilogue:

Change in Attitude

Someone says, I hear there’s a train coming in with food supplies. And immediately there’s electricity. Wow. A train. A train! It was never true, ever, not once while I was there, but it kept you going. Or you’d hear there was an air raid, that the Americans or the British or someone got through. Every day you'd hear something like that. Hopeful news. None of it was true. You believed it, though, because you needed to. Prison camp life was all rumours. Constantly. You lived on rumours. Especially food rumours.

THE DESERT

We thought we’d made it. Dawn had crept in and finally we could see the desert, what there was of it to see. Mostly hillocks of sand colored rosy and golden from the sunrise and shaded by the passing night, occasional clumps of vegetation off toward the horizon. We pulled off the road onto a knoll capped by a few scrub trees, climbed into the open back of the lorry, and downed a biscuit or two. We took turns keeping awake since of course we couldn't travel during the day. German aircraft flew overhead, but if they spotted us, they must have thought we were Germans. I suggested we stay put until it got good and dark again. The others agreed.

That evening, we drove away in the direction we thought was right. I was at the wheel. At around one or two o’clock in the morning, I saw something in the distance I could barely make out--a mass of black silhouettes dead ahead. It appeared to be a military camp but I couldn't be certain at that distance. On the other hand, I was too close to them to turn away—that would have been a giveaway. Still, I was afraid they were Germans. I woke the others and told them what was up. I thought we should take our chances and keep going. We didn’t really know who they were, and I didn't think we really had much of a choice. The others agreed, and we went on, very nervously. I'm surprised I could even keep the lorry going in a straight line. It didn't take long to discover that our fears had been realized: They were Germans, a Panzer group. Tanks. I don’t know how many tanks there were, but there must have been more than a hundred, all lined up and spread across the desert. There was one main pathway down the middle. We headed for it.

We knew we were in trouble, but on we went. What choice did we have? It was dark as ink, so we thought we just might make it. We inched our way right down that pathway. A guard or two stood near every few tanks, but no one called out to us. We’d taken our hats off, of course, and our tropical gear didn’t look much different from the German gear, so they obviously thought we were Germans. The lorry was pretty much nondescript, particularly in this darkness. Nobody among us was to speak no matter what happened. That was the rule. Nobody. Act like you’re asleep. I drove very slowly, as though we were tiptoeing along in an attempt to be as quiet as possible. I was so scared I could taste steel deep in my throat. My mouth was dry but my brow was wet with perspiration. We could see the silhouettes of the German soldiers sleeping and occasionally we could see the guards. They didn’t expect us to be British, of course. What kind of crazy British soldier would drive right down through the middle of a battalion of tanks?

I don’t know how many guards we passed, but I knew one of them would say something. I had decided to say nothing if they spoke to me or else they would have known in a second that I wasn’t German. I tried to act as though I was dead beat and just going forward by momentum. Some of them waved, sort of half waves. I waved back, shook my head, and moaned very softly, acting as though I was just going through the motions, trying to stay awake. That’s all. But it seemed to work. I told myself we couldn't win; before long someone will say something and we won’t be able to answer. But it didn’t happen. Unbelievable.

We got to the end of the line. It was probably fifteen minutes, but I swear it seemed like an hour or more. It was near 4:00 a.m. by then, and we just kept going. None of us could believe we’d made it through. After we were out of sight, I finally stopped and said to the others, We’ve made it. And by god, if we made it through that line, we can go anywhere! We felt terrifically relieved. Of course we wondered why those tanks were all stationed there, so close together, and we knew something big was going on. But at least we'd made it through. I got in the back of the lorry to relax and let someone else do the driving for a while. I just wanted to get to our company and tell about the tanks we'd seen.

An hour or two later, with dawn approaching fast, we started talking about finding some cover for the day. Suddenly—Pop! Pop! Pop!—machine-gun fire. Someone was shooting at us! We got out of the lorry immediately, scrambling out like someone had just dropped a bomb in the truck. But then we were in the open with nowhere to hide and, to make matters worse, we didn’t know where the gunshots were coming from. I tried to tell myself it might be the British firing at us, might be our own men who hadn’t been able to identify us. But I didn’t really believe it. We squeezed under the vehicle to escape the shooting, but that didn't really work very well. We then made a run towards a dry river bed and got down low. We were like rats forced to scatter from their nest.

In no time at all, voices in English called out to us: Tommy! Hey, Tommy! This was a reference to Tommy Atkins, a name the Germans had used for the English in WW1. It wasn’t used in this war, though, so we knew these were Germans.

PROLOGUE:

BEFORE THE WAR

We all knew there was something going on in Europe, especially in Germany, at that time, and of course rumours abounded regarding an imminent war, but I had seen in England the antics of Oswald Mosley and the men around him with their marching and saluting, so I didn't pay much attention to it all. I suppose I thought Germany wouldn't go into another war after their defeat in 1918. It seemed crazy. But I didn't realize at the time that Hitler was a madman.

Nobody believed in the possibility of war. In fact, Neville Chamberlain, our prime minister, told the country there was no problem, it would all be straightened out. He traveled to see Hitler in order to avoid a war, and he came back and said, I have it here, the word of Adolf Hitler: No war. And we were all pleased about that because nobody wanted to see another war. Chamberlain managed to avoid war for a year, but it became ridiculous. Hitler and his entourage were monsters.

I was living at home at that time and earning only a small wage. That's the way it was. I was an office boy sitting on a stool and told to write thick and thin in a ledger of sorts, an old pen-and-inkwell job. I felt like something from a Charles Dickens story. About as well off, too! Well, the money I earned was paid to me on Friday, and I gave it to Mum right away; then she gave me a small amount back. Still, I managed to pay my own expenses, put some on the never-never, and pay for an occasional big evening at the local cinema (the price being sixpence with a bar of nougat for one penny). I looked forward to that, an evening with the lads and girls.

It wasn't a bad life. Where I lived everyone seemed to share the same lifestyle, all in rented property known as The Buildings, well known, actually. Nobody could afford to buy a flat or a house. That was a dream. I couldn't see myself getting away from where I was, breaking out, much as I wanted to. The future looked hard. Still there were few real complaints from my friends and neighbors. We all got on with life. I ate at home, Dad worked hard, and the rent was less than a pound a week, eighteen shillings six pence, that is. And the cigarettes were ten for six pence. We got by.

Not far from where I grew up—at the Elephant and Castle District in London— stood a tailor shop called Levy's. It was really a modern tailor shop, even had hand-sewn lapels. You could easily see their suits were well done. That was the real thing to us: a well-made suit. We’d grown up old-fashioned, and I was expected to wear clothes like my father wore. But I wanted to be like one of the boys, not old-fashioned. I wanted one of those modern suits, stylish and up-to-date. And this particular tailor shop was so good, in fact, that they once had Max Baer come by just to be photographed in one of their suits. Max Baer. He was the champion. He happened to be in town to fight a bout, and this shop invited him to come in. And he did it, too. Of course he was a handsome, well-built man, and I'm sure he sold a lot of suits for that shop. I saw him standing outside the shop in the suit they'd fixed for him and I've got to say that alone was an inspiration to buy a suit there.

I often saw well-known people, movie people, around London in those days, in the early thirties, people like John Wayne and Frederick March and Stewart Granger. I was a lad who liked to spot things which I knew weren’t really so important, but I was just interested. I used to go autograph hunting. I liked the idea. I was always aware that I was living a fairly hard life and had very little money. But although that didn’t seem to bother many people around me, it always bothered me. Not because I was ashamed. I figured I was as good as anyone else. But I wanted my life to be better than it was, that's all. Perhaps most of the fellows my age were thinking like me. I don’t know. Maybe. But I knew what I wanted. I wanted to make some money, wanted to buy a home in the suburbs for Mum and Dad and to give them holidays. That was my dream. And I wanted to own a good suit.

Because of the times I‘d walked past this shop, I knew he had the cut that was right for me. So I started to put money aside to buy a suit on the never-never, as we used to say—so much a week.

I didn’t want my suit just so I could be seen, though. My friend Bill Nash was making more money than I was, and he had two suits. He liked to be seen, and I felt a bit envious of him. I just wanted a nice suit, a really well-made suit that would make me feel good. You can’t beat that. And you can’t beat a fitting for a tailor-made suit. Fittings. I’d never had a fitting in my life. This suit would cost me ten shillings more than I’d usually pay, which would have been around two pounds fifty, or eighty bob, as we liked to say. I didn’t care. So I went to this shop and I got the kind of attention they’d give to a celebrity. That’s what I liked about it. They selected the material and laid it out. they asked me to feel it. What did I know? Was it any good? they asked. Sure it was. Of course. They told me what they would do, how the cut would be and how the stripes would come this certain way, and I said, You've sold me. I’ll have the suit.

Yessir, the man said. Very smart.

We agreed on a purchase deal, and a bit embarrassed, I was measured for the suit. It would cost me three guineas and I loved it. This was living, really living. I felt like I was Max Baer. All I could think about coming home was how long it would take until I would get the suit.

I went back in a week and the tailor smiled and said, Don’t worry, you’ll get your suit. He said he’d like me in for another fitting. I said, Why? Was it wrong? And he said, No, but this is what we do. He told me it’ll be half finished and they’ll try it on me and see how it fits. And I thought, I’m living. This is what it's like to live.

I never told a soul. I never said anything to anyone at home. I went back to the shop for a second fitting. Sleeve, arm, four buttons or three? Four! I was getting a suit that was good enough for anybody in the West End of London. Anybody. It was about a month, but it seemed twice that, before it was ready. I went up there to get it and paid what they asked for. That suit was everything I could have expected. The quality was there, the fit was there. It was perfect. It was navy blue. And it had a small design in it. I knew what I was doing.

I took it home with a hanger they supplied, a hanger bent so the suit wouldn’t be damaged. The hanger had the firm’s name inside. I still have that hanger. And I almost didn’t want to put the suit on. I knew that anybody who wore this suit would be looking good. On Sunday I went out in it for the first time. I’d bought a James Cagney hat, or what I thought was a James Cagney hat. This was the thirties, remember, and Cagney was big. I pulled the brim down right over my eyes. The suit hung nicely. Not too tight. Just right. I wondered if Maggie, the girl down the street, would notice me now.

When I first came out in my suit, though, Dad never said a word. My sister told me it looked lovely. My brother didn’t say anything either, and I think he was jealous. He probably had it in mind that he’d end up wearing it someday. (He did, too.) Those were days when you had good friends who would say, I’ve got a date this evening and you haven’t. Would you lend me your suit? Well, you’d tell him, watch what you do with it when you're having fun and games and perhaps getting your trousers off. The suit was important to me. I was eighteen. Nearly a man, I suppose.

One reason I'm telling this little snippet on the suit is I remember when, in 1944, I was a prisoner of war in Germany and I received a letter from my brother telling me he was wearing my suit. It was his idea of comedy, I suppose, like he was trying to cheer me up. He said he wore it to take it out for an airing. I've got to confess it upset me, but he couldn't have realized what the double-breasted meant to me. It's enough to be angry out there, and I guessed it would be cleaned and pressed for my return home.

*****

I had purchased a bicycle for three pounds when I was about sixteen, and I often used to ride out to the parks in Dulwich and Clapham back in 1938, and I liked to sit on the grass and read a magazine. I began to look around more and wonder what I could do to improve my future and to possibly, someday, afford some higher standard of life. Maybe even buy or rent a good home in the suburbs for my own family, with a car and a real garden. Then I could go and fetch Mum and Dad and give them some of the good times they deserved. Dreaming in the park.

One morning in the spring of that year my good friend John Haysen and I had planned to go to see a football game together, but at the last minute he came by to tell me he'd made a date with a girl and wouldn't be going with me. I wasn't overly pleased about this because I used to look forward to those once-a-week outings. It hurt and I guess I was envious, but I decided to take a long walk alone just to think. I'll not forget that walk since it was then I decided to take some evening classes to try to improve myself. I enjoyed writing and wanted to learn another language than English, don't ask me why. I was going to be nineteen years old shortly and had been after many jobs, but none of them seemed to hold much prospect of a future like the one I dreamed of. So I knew I'd better get with it and stop feeling sorry for myself if I wanted to move up. Most of the fellows I knew were in the same boat I was in, but they didn't seem concerned. They were mostly just interested in girls. And why not?

When 1939 came around, I turned twenty years of age (in January), and British law had it that every man of twenty had to enter the military for six months' service. Around April I got notification from the government telling me I had to go to the nearest Labor Exchange on June 30th and sign on.

By coincidence, the firm I worked for, Stanley Sports of Syndenham, decided to have a holiday on June 30th, the very day I was to sign in—boss’s treat! We were all going to the coast at Margate in one large coach. Lots of girls, lots of fellows. And I was able to take my friend John (who had let me down the last year—you forget those things). I had my eye on one particular girl, so I was especially interested in going on the holiday even though it complicated my sign-up. I’d been told by the Law I had to sign my induction papers on that Saturday morning, and I wasn't about to ignore that responsibility. That was the way it was.

Anyone who knows about England before the war knows that coach outings were glorious booze-ups, and any felicitations from the females were bonuses. And so about halfway to Margate, somewhere along the Kent coast, we pulled in to a pub and had a pint and bought another two or three cases for the road. Also during this stop we were able to move seats around and I could sit next to this girl I'd had my eye on. She had a friend, fortunately, and John was taken by her. So things looked good. The day was beginning to shine and we were all happy.

When we got to Margate, the driver pulled next to another pub—they want your business before, during, and after the day’s outing. He pulled into a carpark next to the pub and we popped in and had another beer, and then we were taken by bus on in to the town center. I immediately started looking for a Labor Exchange office so I could sign up since I had to do it before noon. Luckily, I found one.

So I went in to find dozens of other men signing in. I didn’t live in Margate, but I told the man in charge I'd been ordered to report. He said, What do you want to be? I said I wanted to sign up for the air crew, and he and some other men laughed and told me the air crew are full up.

Well, then, I don’t want to go in, I said. I really wanted to join the air crew.

The man I was talking to looked like an ex-sergeant-major, and he didn’t even smile. I thought I was being pretty funny, but he didn’t seem to agree. He just said, You don’t have any choice. You’re in. Sign here.

I was naïve, and I said, Okay, I’ll take the other option. I’ll go into the navy.

Another man said,