WHAT CAN YOU DO

What Can You Do

stories

Cynthia Flood

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WINDSOR, ONTARIO

Copyright © Cynthia Flood, 2017

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Library and Archives Canada Cataloguing in Publication

Flood, Cynthia, 1940-, author

What can you do / Cynthia Flood.

Short stories.

Issued in print and electronic formats.

ISBN 978-1-77196-176-9 (softcover).--ISBN 978-1-77196-177-6 (ebook)

I. Title.

PS8561.L64W33 2017 C813’.54 C2017-901947-3

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Edited by John Metcalf

Copy-edited by Emily Donaldson

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Published with the generous assistance of the Canada Council for the Arts, which last year invested $153 million to bring the arts to Canadians throughout the country and the financial support of the Government of Canada. Biblioasis also acknowledges the support of the Ontario Arts Council (OAC), an agency of the Government of Ontario, which last year funded 1,709 individual artists and 1,078 organizations in 204 communities across Ontario, for a total of $52.1 million, and the contribution of the Government of Ontario through the Ontario Book Publishing Tax Credit and the Ontario Media Development Corporation.

To the new generation—

Lachlan, Gabriel, Shea, Rowan, Isis

WHAT CAN YOU DO

When we camped twelve years ago at Rosie’s Park, the RVs took most of the sites, leaving for tents only some rough grass by the river. We four slept under canvas and woke to the sounds of moving water, of poplars trembling. Early in the morning a silent covey of quail crossed that green, to slip through a hedge to the meadow beyond. The plumed mother hustled her chicks along, speckled puffs.

Josh and Meghan still remembered those quail. Even at nineteen and twenty-three they’d imitate, giggling, the tiny scurry. They’d loved Rosie’s raucous laugh, too, and her yard crowded with whirligigs—but this time our kids weren’t with us.

When we parked by the hut marked Office, no Rosie. No one at all. Door locked, though the felt-board outside stated Hours 9-7. Some letters had shifted: Sani ary dump fee, No oise after 10 p. Rosie’s plump figure, trotting about her property in capris and floral tee, didn’t appear to call, Havin’ a good time, folks?

Few cars. No other tents, so we’d have the greensward to ourselves. Most of the RVs now housed, we saw, not roamers but retirees. Solid furniture and bird-feeders stood under the metal awnings, near planters full of daisies, alyssum. Curtains—drawn.

A brindle dog, sole occupant of one gravelled site, slept in a cage beside a cook-stand with a portable barbecue atop, padlocked.

Where is everyone?

Nap-time? My husband guessed.

The river ran fast.

Isn’t it higher than before?

Mmm. Mosquitoes maybe, he said. After supper let’s walk to the village. Remember that store? The bridge?

You want candy.

He smiled. You like antiques.

So-called.

The dog rose clumsily off his haunches, nosed at the chain-link.

A bad limp, friend. My husband fondled the soft stripy ears.

I did too. Was he here, before?

Dunno.

We brought the car close to the river, got our chairs and books and iced tea, found poplar shade.

Dozing, I breathed menthol.

A nasal voice said, Rosie’s gone away. I’m Dearie."

My eyes opened to a thin old child. No, woman.

Lines scored her face. Cigarette in hand. Worn cut-offs. Flip-flops. A shabby tank. Grey roots, split blonde ends. Bandages round bony ankles, one strapped with a small black oblong.

Yeah, Dearie. Tents, fifteen. Just the one night? Got cash?

Exhaling, she folded the bills in with her Cameos. Pointed out stand-pipe, washrooms, trash cans, the high river.

Rosie’s all upset about mosquitoes. She’s got me foggin, foggin, yesterday, s’morning, tomorrow. Takes me hours.

If we hadn’t that day driven three hundred miles in our steel box, if we hadn’t sat down to read, chosen our tent-site, we’d have decamped to another brief home. Instead my husband changed the subject, his strategy for avoiding difficult moments.

Sorry not to see Rosie. We stayed here years ago, with our kids, and she was a lot of fun.

"Oh she can be that, mother-in-law. Pause. But she’s not here. S’all up to me. Trash, the damn residents, the town goin on about back taxes. And he don’t do much."

My strategy is to ask questions, but Dearie left before I chose one.

We set up tent and stove, fetched water.

Dearie, how old?

He made a Dunno face. Forty maybe.

That skin, the awful hair! Fifty at least.

Could be.

We zipped the sleeping-bags together, then ate our meal, with river and trees as dinner music.

Before our walk, we locked the car.

In the women’s room, a sign by each lethargic toilet read Hold lever down ’til clear. Think of others! Rosie’s curly script appeared again by the tampon machine’s broken coin slot, Ladie’s Supplies at Desk. The shower curtain crackled with scum. I sighed. The night before we’d camped at a forestry site, the sole amenity a pit toilet.

En route to the village’s tiny business area, we walked by peach trees, plums, apples, their branches loaded with June’s hard green. Morning glory, wild rose wreathed the hedges. Kids and dogs ran everywhere.

The store’s bell jangled us in. Still that pyramid of junk food—years ago, how our children gasped!

No shoppers, no one at the cash register. We browsed the aisles of furniture, mirrors, indeterminate objects treasured once, resented now. Last time we’d happily bought an old citrus-juicer, heavy green glass.

Wouldn’t Josh love this oak desk?

Maybe too big for the car?

I was just imagining him. Sitting there.

He sighed. I imagine nice things too.

Seeing no price tag, we moved on to treats, and a tired woman emerged from the back as we neared the till.

That oak desk?

Seven hundred.

Wow, he said.

Yeah. I keep telling the owner he over-prices, and then he complains stuff don’t sell. You at Rosie’s? She rang up our purchases. That fog floats uphill. Stinks. We gotta close our windows. She won’t listen. Well. What can you do. On do, her voice sank.

The door jingled us out, and we found the little bridge.

No cars, bikes, pedestrians. Again we admired the line of hills, distant beyond the river’s glitter that vanished round a curve. Poplars and willows dipped into the blue-brown green, while half-submerged bushes waved as if struggling to get out. We leaned on the rail, eating sweet. Dragon flies and water boatmen sparkled.

Standing close, I wanted to touch him. We hadn’t, in months.

Swallows darted dipped swerved.

Instead I asked him if he thought Dearie’s tracker had scraped her ankles, admitting infection? Or—just sensitive skin? Why house arrest? Why not wear a concealing runner-and-sock combo? To offer the world a general Fuck you?

When we’d gutted these topics I stupidly asked aloud what I’d so often asked myself, on this, our first escape in a year.

What do you think we’ll find at home?

He took my hand. I keep remembering this morning. Those kids. The boy.

At a cafe in a coastal town we’d stopped for coffee.

Newspapers, board games lay on a shelf. A boy and a younger girl drank smoothies and played chess, watched by a big brother? Cousin? He had golden curls.

My big-city paper featured, in Living Today, photos of a rose show just opening. Such colours! Perhaps we could…

My husband said, Oh no.

He’d chosen the town’s tabloid. Page One: a boy’s grad photo topped 18-Year-Old Drowns/Dad Saved/Near Harbour.

I read the standard tale: change in weather, huge wave, boat overturned, life jackets MIA, yada yada.

How could they be so stupid?

He looked puzzled. It isn’t that simple.

Why not?

Not if you’ve lived by water all your life.

What excuse is that?

He shrugged.

In the capsize, the fisherman dad broke his arm. Neither he nor the boy’s best pal, along for the celebratory trip, could find him sunk where tidal waters slammed up against fresh. The friend hauled the father to land.

The young girl held a pawn, thinking.

I finished reading about roses. You don’t want to discuss this, do you?

He hesitated. Sometimes I wonder what people say about us, Josh’s parents.

What do they know?

Well. He spooned up sweet foam. I’m not a hundred percent sure we’ve always done the right things.

Didn’t we get him into treatment? Isn’t it up to him now?

"As I said