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    Changes Deranges: A Memoir of Sorts
    Changes Deranges: A Memoir of Sorts
    Changes Deranges: A Memoir of Sorts
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    Changes Deranges: A Memoir of Sorts

    By Catherine E. Goin

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    p>God Says:

    “I must say

    her life appears a mess—

    a real live maiden in distress.

    Unless I choose

    to get involved

    it is unlikely

    her problem will be solved”.......

    I say:

    “Gracious me! I do declare

    I have nothing to wear!

    My hospital wardrobe is small

    I hardly have anything at all

    in my size.”

    I continue:

    “Oh God, most wise,

    you know that talking with God

    seems a little odd.”

    God then says:

    “Talking with you

    seems peculiar too.”

    Catherine E. Goin, who was diagnosed with an acute schizophrenic episode in 1974, is on a mission to share with others what she learned from her doctors about mental health issues throughout her forty years of outpatient psychotherapy.

    In a collection of poems inspired by nature and brought to life by original black and white illustrations, Catherine reflects on God as well as her humorous and most horrifying personal experiences while leading others through the four seasons of her life entitled, “So Cool,” “A Fool,” “Such Grief,” and “Ah, Relief.” Now happily in remission, Catherine lyrically explores her new beginning as a miracle from God while inspiring others to never give up hope, despite their seemingly insurmountable obstacles.

    Changes Deranges: A Memoir of Sorts shares one woman’s poetic exploration of mental health, life, miracles, and everything in between.

    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherWestBow Press
    Release dateOct 24, 2019
    ISBN9781973677314
    Changes Deranges: A Memoir of Sorts
    Author

    Catherine E. Goin

    Is her story real? Did it happen in reality? It happened in 1974 in SFO. The events of that time escapes memory. She met Lufti in 1974, just before going into the hospital. He knew her as Betsy. The character of Eileen existed only in her mind. Does she exist now?

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      Book preview

      Changes Deranges - Catherine E. Goin

      Copyright © 2019 Catherine E. Goin.

      All rights reserved. No part of this book may be used or reproduced by any means, graphic, electronic, or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, taping or by any information storage retrieval system without the written permission of the author except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical articles and reviews.

      This book is a work of non-fiction. Unless otherwise noted, the author and the publisher make no explicit guarantees as to the accuracy of the information contained in this book and in some cases, names of people and places have been altered to protect their privacy.

      WestBow Press

      A Division of Thomas Nelson & Zondervan

      1663 Liberty Drive

      Bloomington, IN 47403

      www.westbowpress.com

      1 (866) 928-1240

      Because of the dynamic nature of the Internet, any web addresses or links contained in this book may have changed since publication and may no longer be valid. The views expressed in this work are solely those of the author and do not necessarily reflect the views of the publisher, and the publisher hereby disclaims any responsibility for them.

      Any people depicted in stock imagery provided by Getty Images are models, and such images are being used for illustrative purposes only.

      Certain stock imagery © Getty Images.

      Interior Image Credit: Catherine E. Goin and Adrienne Payette

      Scripture taken from the King James Version of the Bible.

      ISBN: 978-1-9736-7730-7 (sc)

      ISBN: 978-1-9736-7732-1 (hc)

      ISBN: 978-1-9736-7731-4 (e)

      Library of Congress Control Number: 2019916550

      WestBow Press rev. date: 10/17/2019

      Contents

      Acknowledgments

      So Cool

      Butterfly, Butterfly

      The Buzzard Bounce

      The Rock-and-Roll Dragons

      Yahu and the Mousies

      Filene the Fish

      Dandelions

      Spring Poem: The Appearance of Tiger Lilies

      Ode to Spring

      Hi

      The Stars

      It’s Hard to Be Sad

      The Last Day of Autumn

      The Jungle Fight

      Not Your Style

      A Fool

      A Fool

      Sort of a Sonnet

      At Night on the Plane

      Aloha!

      Bouncing over the Sea

      The Banana Patch

      Then I Met Madame Pele and Wahu

      Madame Pele’s Flaming Tresses

      Wahu

      The Lava Fields

      The Golden Gate

      Oh, Mr. Cop at the Top

      Dark Night of the Soul, Easter Morning 1974

      The Voices Stopped

      Heartbreak

      Never Satisfied

      My Trouble Just Begun

      Earth of Granite

      I Need a Beer

      Such Grief

      Psychotherapy

      How Did I Get Here?

      Place

      Grace

      Space

      Lucy and I and Doc

      My Heart, It Broke

      God Is Good

      No ifs, ands, or buts.

      The Electric Zone, the Electric Zone

      Matisse and Me

      An Essay on Dance

      Good Lord, I Am Sick

      Rosemary

      Going to Church

      Help, Help, I Need Help!

      Could It Be?

      Fat Melts Away

      Free Style

      I Need a Coach

      Our Last Meeting

      Ah, Relief!

      Baptism

      A Psychotic Break

      I Thought and Thought

      Day Is Done

      Inferior Interior

      It Was a Slippery Day

      The Grand Display in the Sky, March 28, 2012

      My Lean, Gray Shadow

      Changes Deranges, No. 1

      Changes Deranges, No. 2

      Changes Deranges, No. 3

      Changes Deranges, No. 4

      Changes Deranges, No. 5

      Changes Deranges, No. 6

      Yes, Indeed, I Hear You, Doc

      Why I Like to Dance

      Walking in Paris

      Late at Night

      Olde Man

      Tremors

      Thoughts on the Plane at Night

      Thanksgiving

      Winter Is Here

      Winter Poem about Snow

      Icicles through the Ages

      The Bird, the Worm, and the Butterfly

      The Crows

      A Late Fall Evening

      When I Go Beyond

      Winter and Snow

      About the Author

      Acknowledgments

      Catherine Goin for her drawings and cover art

      My brother, Russell Goin, without whose help this book would not be possible.

      Cynthia Rafala for her encouragement and help in understanding relationships and mental health.

      Dr. David Goldstein for his help in the development of creativity, mental and physical well-being.

      I will extol thee, O Lord; for You have lifted me up, and have not let my foes rejoice over me.

      O Lord my God, I cried to You, and You healed me.

      O Lord, You have brought my soul up from the grave; You have kept me alive, that I should not go down to the pit …

      You have turned for me my mourning into dancing: You have put off my sackcloth, and clothed me with gladness:

      To the end that my glory may sing praise to You and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give thanks to You forever.

      —Psalm 30: 1–4; 11–12 NKJV

      God says,

      I must say

      Her life appears a mess,-

      A real-live maiden

      In distress.

      Unless I choose

      To get involved,

      It is unlikely

      Her problem will be solved.

      I say,

      The doctor said I must be fed,

      Unless, instead, I wish to be dead.

      I thought

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