This poem describes Brahmarakshas, a man who lives alone in an abandoned well near the ruins of a city. He spends his time in the darkness of the well, constantly trying to cleanse himself of impurities while reciting mantras and engaging in philosophical discussions with himself. He believes the sun and moon worship him when their lights enter the well. The poem reflects on Brahmarakshas' isolation and madness as he lives cut off from the world in the confined space of the well.
This poem describes Brahmarakshas, a man who lives alone in an abandoned well near the ruins of a city. He spends his time in the darkness of the well, constantly trying to cleanse himself of impurities while reciting mantras and engaging in philosophical discussions with himself. He believes the sun and moon worship him when their lights enter the well. The poem reflects on Brahmarakshas' isolation and madness as he lives cut off from the world in the confined space of the well.
This poem describes Brahmarakshas, a man who lives alone in an abandoned well near the ruins of a city. He spends his time in the darkness of the well, constantly trying to cleanse himself of impurities while reciting mantras and engaging in philosophical discussions with himself. He believes the sun and moon worship him when their lights enter the well. The poem reflects on Brahmarakshas' isolation and madness as he lives cut off from the world in the confined space of the well.
This poem describes Brahmarakshas, a man who lives alone in an abandoned well near the ruins of a city. He spends his time in the darkness of the well, constantly trying to cleanse himself of impurities while reciting mantras and engaging in philosophical discussions with himself. He believes the sun and moon worship him when their lights enter the well. The poem reflects on Brahmarakshas' isolation and madness as he lives cut off from the world in the confined space of the well.
On that side of the city near the ruins an abandoned, empty well and within, in cold darkness in waters deep within amid deep-sunken stairs in the old stale puddle I cannot follow these seeming foundations these depths
encircling that well, entangled silently stood the fig trees in them hang the abandoned owl-nests, brown, round
the smells of a hundred past pieties green, jungly, raw swim in the air and become the weighted doubt of some unknown quality that unsettles the heart
on the railings of the well, beguiling, green elbows resting leans the white flowered tagar tree
and nearby, a flashing red flowered cluster my kanher calling me to that edge of danger where the black mouth of the well glances upward toward the skys emptiness almost island- winter 2011/ page 3
in the emptiness of the wells thick darkness sits the gatekeeper Brahmarakshas and from within rises echo after echo like the mutterings of the insane speculations, defilement. to wash away, at every moment the shadow of impurity day and night, to make clean Brahmarakshas, scouring his body with the claws of his hand, again and again hands chest mouth still it stays still it stays
andfrom his lips strange strotras, mantras fevered curses in chaste sanskrit, lines on the forehead weave glistening strands of thought in a continuous streams maddening flow lifes sympathy blots
but when, in the wells deep inner wall oblique sun-rays fall and motes rise, light surfaces he thinks the sun has bowed and saluted him. when a moonbeam forgets its way and its rays stagger off the walls he thinks it worships him as the venerable knower.
body and mind pierced, yet he rejoices, feeling the sky almost island- winter 2011/ page 4
too has humbly accepted him. and with a twofold, frightening potency his understanding mind ranges through the folk-tales of Sumer-Babylonia, mellifluent Vedic hymns todays chands, mantras, theorems, theories of Marx Engels Russel Toynbee Heidegger Spengler Sartre even Gandhi everyones proof commented on afresh all this as he bathes in the wells dense greenness.
this thundering, echoing, moving darknessbringing up phonemes obscure words revolving anew each word dividing its resonance each form battling its reflection maimed becoming the echo that wars with its echo
upon the wells rails beguiling green elbows rest, and the white tagar flowers listen to these echoes the delicate fruits of the gooseberry tree listen, the ancient fig listens, I too listen to the tragedy that drifts in this mad allegory barred within this old well.
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very high a dark savorous stairway its ill-lit step they of a strange interior universe. a stepping-up and a falling; almost island- winter 2011/ page 5
again, a stepping-up and a-slipping, with twisted feet and on its chest many sores. more fierce than when good and evil meet calamity between good and a greater good
small fortune, more likely misfortune!!
an exorbitant fullness anguish is dear geometrys eye constructs a moral investiture
self-consciousnesss subtle moral recollection
when has it been easy to placate an exorbitant completeness
all explanation is precious!!
the sun comes out anxietys red haemorrhaging-river flows into the day; the rising moon on the wound dazzling white bandages on its disarrayed forehead. stars scatter the skys edge from uncountable decimals come decimal-drops on all sides: in the transposed spreading field beaten, he comes to use, and lies spread almost island- winter 2011/ page 6
chest and arms open extended, a purifier.
his person a tender quartz, temple-like, in that temple a stairway
it is hard to climb the lonely stair. with emotion with thought the coordinated formed matter the stair of assimilated arithmetic i left for him. that thought-emotion, that work coordinated and formed in research amidst all pandits, all thinkers he in search of a guru drifts!!
but the age turned and he came trading fame his only wealth from work now, from that wealth a heart & mind, and, subject to wealth, from within truths glint ever smolders.
self-consciousness and yet in this loves discord a world consciousness unmade!! at greatness feet an agitated dejected mind! if only i had met him those days then living his anguish myself i would have told him his worth his greatness! of his, and his greatness, use to people like us almost island- winter 2011/ page 7
i would have spoken of that inward greatness!!
powdered within and outside between two stone slabs this is a farcical tragedy!!
in the well himself endlessly inside the mad symbols how he within the dark room kept at his arithmetic and died in dense barbed undergrowth in a dark cavity dead bird like departed that flame unknown slept forever this happened: why! why did this happen!! Brahmarakshas breast-fed student i so wished to be whose incomplete works whose pains source collected, extracted, risen I could bring.