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The Great Gatsby, by F. Scott Fitzgerald
CHAPTER 3
here was music from my neighbors house through the summer
nights. In his blue gardens men and girls came and went like moths
among the whisperings and the champagne and the stars. At high tide in
the afternoon I watched his guests diving from the tower of his raft, or
taking the sun on the hot sand of his beach while his two motor-boats slit
the waters of the Sound, drawing aquaplanes over cataracts of foam. On
week-ends his Rolls-Royce became an omnibus, bearing parties to and
from the city between nine in the morning and long past midnight, while
his station wagon scampered like a brisk yellow bug to meet all trains.
And on Mondays eight servants, including an extra gardener, toiled all
day with mops and scrubbing-brushes and hammers and garden-shears,
repairing the ravages of the night before.
Every Friday five crates of oranges and lemons arrived from a
fruiterer in New York every Monday these same oranges and lemons
left his back door in a pyramid of pulpless halves. There was a machine in
the kitchen which could extract the juice of two hundred oranges in half
an hour if a little button was pressed two hundred times by a butlers
thumb.
At least once a fortnight a corps of caterers came down with several
hundred feet of canvas and enough colored lights to make a Christmas
tree of Gatsbys enormous garden. On buffet tables, garnished with
glistening hors-doeuvre, spiced baked hams crowded against salads of
harlequin designs and pastry pigs and turkeys bewitched to a dark gold.
In the main hall a bar with a real brass rail was set up, and stocked with
gins and liquors and with cordials so long forgotten that most of his
female guests were too young to know one from another.
By seven oclock the orchestra has arrived, no thin five-piece affair,
but a whole pitful of oboes and trombones and saxophones and viols and
cornets and piccolos, and low and high drums. The last swimmers have
come in from the beach now and are dressing up-stairs; the cars from
New York are parked five deep in the drive, and already the halls and
salons and verandas are gaudy with primary colors, and hair shorn in
strange new ways, and shawls beyond the dreams of Castile. The bar is in
full swing, and floating rounds of cocktails permeate the garden outside,
until the air is alive with chatter and laughter, and casual innuendo and
introductions forgotten on the spot, and enthusiastic meetings between
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women who never knew each others names.
The lights grow brighter as the earth lurches away from the sun, and
now the orchestra is playing yellow cocktail music, and the opera of
voices pitches a key higher. Laughter is easier minute by minute, spilled
with prodigality, tipped out at a cheerful word. The groups change more
swiftly, swell with new arrivals, dissolve and form in the same breath;
already there are wanderers, confident girls who weave here and there
among the stouter and more stable, become for a sharp, joyous moment
the centre of a group, and then, excited with triumph, glide on through
the sea-change of faces and voices and color under the constantly
changing light.
Suddenly one of the gypsies, in trembling opal, seizes a cocktail out
of the air, dumps it down for courage and, moving her hands like Frisco,
dances out alone on the canvas platform. A momentary hush; the
orchestra leader varies his rhythm obligingly for her, and there is a burst
of chatter as the erroneous news goes around that she is Gilda Grays
understudy from the Follies. The party has begun.
I believe that on the first night I went to Gatsbys house I was one of
the few guests who had actually been invited. People were not invited
they went there. They got into automobiles which bore them out to Long
Island, and somehow they ended up at Gatsbys door. Once there they
were introduced by somebody who knew Gatsby, and after that they
conducted themselves according to the rules of behavior associated with
amusement parks. Sometimes they came and went without having met
Gatsby at all, came for the party with a simplicity of heart that was its
own ticket of admission.
I had been actually invited. A chauffeur in a uniform of robins-egg
blue crossed my lawn early that Saturday morning with a surprisingly
formal note from his employer: the honor would be entirely Gatsbys, it
said, if I would attend his little party. that night. He had seen me
several times, and had intended to call on me long before, but a peculiar
combination of circumstances had prevented it signed Jay Gatsby, in a
majestic hand.
Dressed up in white flannels I went over to his lawn a little after
seven, and wandered around rather ill at ease among swirls and eddies of
people I didnt know though here and there was a face I had noticed on
the commuting train. I was immediately struck by the number of young
Englishmen dotted about; all well dressed, all looking a little hungry, and
all talking in low, earnest voices to solid and prosperous Americans. I was
sure that they were selling something: bonds or insurance or
automobiles. They were at least agonizingly aware of the easy money in
the vicinity and convinced that it was theirs for a few words in the right
key.
As soon as I arrived I made an attempt to find my host, but the two
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or three people of whom I asked his whereabouts stared at me in such an
amazed way, and denied so vehemently any knowledge of his movements,
that I slunk off in the direction of the cocktail table the only place in
the garden where a single man could linger without looking purposeless
and alone.
I was on my way to get roaring drunk from sheer embarrassment
when Jordan Baker came out of the house and stood at the head of the
marble steps, leaning a little backward and looking with contemptuous
interest down into the garden.
Welcome or not, I found it necessary to attach myself to some one
before I should begin to address cordial remarks to the passers-by.
Hello! I roared, advancing toward her. My voice seemed
unnaturally loud across the garden.
I thought you might be here, she responded absently as I came up.
I remembered you lived next door to She held my hand
impersonally, as a promise that shed take care of me in a minute, and
gave ear to two girls in twin yellow dresses, who stopped at the foot of the
steps.
Hello! they cried together. Sorry you didnt win.
That was for the golf tournament. She had lost in the finals the week
before.
You dont know who we are, said one of the girls in yellow, but we
met you here about a month ago.
Youve dyed your hair since then, remarked Jordan, and I started,
but the girls had moved casually on and her remark was addressed to the
premature moon, produced like the supper, no doubt, out of a caterers
basket. With Jordans slender golden arm resting in mine, we descended
the steps and sauntered about the garden. A tray of cocktails floated at us
through the twilight, and we sat down at a table with the two girls in
yellow and three men, each one introduced to us as Mr. Mumble.
Do you come to these parties often? inquired Jordan of the girl
beside her.
The last one was the one I met you at, answered the girl, in an alert
confident voice. She turned to her companion: Wasnt it for you, Lucille?

It was for Lucille, too.


I like to come, Lucille said. I never care what I do, so I always
have a good time. When I was here last I tore my gown on a chair, and
he asked me my name and address inside of a week I got a package
from Croiriers with a new evening gown in it.
Did you keep it? asked Jordan.
Sure I did. I was going to wear it to-night, but it was too big in the
bust and had to be altered. It was gas blue with lavender beads. Two
hundred and sixty-five dollars.
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Theres something funny about a fellow thatll do a thing like that,
said the other girl eagerly. He doesnt want any trouble with ANYbody.
Who doesnt? I inquired.
Gatsby. Somebody told me
The two girls and Jordan leaned together confidentially.
Somebody told me they thought he killed a man once.
A thrill passed over all of us. The three Mr. Mumbles bent forward
and listened eagerly.
I dont think its so much that, argued Lucille sceptically; its more
that he was a German spy during the war.
One of the men nodded in confirmation.
I heard that from a man who knew all about him, grew up with him
in Germany, he assured us positively.
Oh, no, said the first girl, it couldnt be that, because he was in the
American army during the war. As our credulity switched back to her she
leaned forward with enthusiasm. You look at him sometimes when he
thinks nobodys looking at him. Ill bet he killed a man.
She narrowed her eyes and shivered. Lucille shivered. We all turned
and looked around for Gatsby. It was testimony to the romantic
speculation he inspired that there were whispers about him from those
who found little that it was necessary to whisper about in this world.
The first supper there would be another one after midnight was
now being served, and Jordan invited me to join her own party, who were
spread around a table on the other side of the garden. There were three
married couples and Jordans escort, a persistent undergraduate given to
violent innuendo, and obviously under the impression that sooner or later
Jordan was going to yield him up her person to a greater or lesser
degree. Instead of rambling, this party had preserved a dignified
homogeneity, and assumed to itself the function of representing the staid
nobility of the country-side East Egg condescending to West Egg, and
carefully on guard against its spectroscopic gayety.
Lets get out, whispered Jordan, after a somehow wasteful and
inappropriate half-hour. This is much too polite for me.
We got up, and she explained that we were going to find the host: I
had never met him, she said, and it was making me uneasy. The
undergraduate nodded in a cynical, melancholy way.
The bar, where we glanced first, was crowded, but Gatsby was not
there. She couldnt find him from the top of the steps, and he wasnt on
the veranda. On a chance we tried an important-looking door, and walked
into a high Gothic library, panelled with carved English oak, and probably
transported complete from some ruin overseas.
A stout, middle-aged man, with enormous owl-eyed spectacles, was
sitting somewhat drunk on the edge of a great table, staring with
unsteady concentration at the shelves of books. As we entered he wheeled
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excitedly around and examined Jordan from head to foot.
What do you think? he demanded impetuously.
About what? He waved his hand toward the book-shelves.
About that. As a matter of fact you neednt bother to ascertain. I
ascertained. Theyre real.
The books?
He nodded.
Absolutely real have pages and everything. I thought theyd be a
nice durable cardboard. Matter of fact, theyre absolutely real. Pages and
Here! Lemme show you.
Taking our scepticism for granted, he rushed to the bookcases and
returned with Volume One of the Stoddard Lectures.
See! he cried triumphantly. Its a bona-fide piece of printed
matter. It fooled me. This fellas a regular Belasco. Its a triumph. What
thoroughness! What realism! Knew when to stop, too didnt cut the
pages. But what do you want? What do you expect?
He snatched the book from me and replaced it hastily on its shelf,
muttering that if one brick was removed the whole library was liable to
collapse.
Who brought you? he demanded. Or did you just come? I was
brought. Most people were brought.
Jordan looked at him alertly, cheerfully, without answering.
I was brought by a woman named Roosevelt, he continued. Mrs.
Claud Roosevelt. Do you know her? I met her somewhere last night. Ive
been drunk for about a week now, and I thought it might sober me up to
sit in a library.
Has it?
A little bit, I think. I cant tell yet. Ive only been here an hour. Did I
tell you about the books? Theyre real. Theyre
You told us. We shook hands with him gravely and went back
outdoors.
There was dancing now on the canvas in the garden; old men
pushing young girls backward in eternal graceless circles, superior
couples holding each other tortuously, fashionably, and keeping in the
corners and a great number of single girls dancing individualistically or
relieving the orchestra for a moment of the burden of the banjo or the
traps. By midnight the hilarity had increased. A celebrated tenor had sung
in Italian, and a notorious contralto had sung in jazz, and between the
numbers people were doing stunts. all over the garden, while happy,
vacuous bursts of laughter rose toward the summer sky. A pair of stage
twins, who turned out to be the girls in yellow, did a baby act in costume,
and champagne was served in glasses bigger than finger-bowls. The moon
had risen higher, and floating in the Sound was a triangle of silver scales,
trembling a little to the stiff, tinny drip of the banjoes on the lawn.
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I was still with Jordan Baker. We were sitting at a table with a man
of about my age and a rowdy little girl, who gave way upon the slightest
provocation to uncontrollable laughter. I was enjoying myself now. I had
taken two finger-bowls of champagne, and the scene had changed before
my eyes into something significant, elemental, and profound.
At a lull in the entertainment the man looked at me and smiled.
Your face is familiar, he said, politely. Werent you in the Third
Division during the war?
Why, yes. I was in the Ninth Machine-gun Battalion.
I was in the Seventh Infantry until June nineteen-eighteen. I knew
Id seen you somewhere before.
We talked for a moment about some wet, gray little villages in
France. Evidently he lived in this vicinity, for he told me that he had just
bought a hydroplane, and was going to try it out in the morning.
Want to go with me, old sport? Just near the shore along the
Sound.
What time?
Any time that suits you best.
It was on the tip of my tongue to ask his name when Jordan looked
around and smiled.
Having a gay time now? she inquired.
Much better. I turned again to my new acquaintance. This is an
unusual party for me. I havent even seen the host. I live over there I
waved my hand at the invisible hedge in the distance, and this man
Gatsby sent over his chauffeur with an invitation. For a moment he
looked at me as if he failed to understand.
Im Gatsby, he said suddenly.
What! I exclaimed. Oh, I beg your pardon.
I thought you knew, old sport. Im afraid Im not a very good host.
He smiled understandingly much more than understandingly. It
was one of those rare smiles with a quality of eternal reassurance in it,
that you may come across four or five times in life. It faced or seemed
to face the whole external world for an instant, and then concentrated
on you with an irresistible prejudice in your favor. It understood you just
so far as you wanted to be understood, believed in you as you would like
to believe in yourself, and assured you that it had precisely the
impression of you that, at your best, you hoped to convey. Precisely at
that point it vanished and I was looking at an elegant young rough-
neck, a year or two over thirty, whose elaborate formality of speech just
missed being absurd. Some time before he introduced himself Id got a
strong impression that he was picking his words with care.
Almost at the moment when Mr. Gatsby identified himself, a butler
hurried toward him with the information that Chicago was calling him on
the wire. He excused himself with a small bow that included each of us in
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turn.
If you want anything just ask for it, old sport, he urged me. Excuse
me. I will rejoin you later.
When he was gone I turned immediately to Jordan constrained to
assure her of my surprise. I had expected that Mr. Gatsby would be a
florid and corpulent person in his middle years.
Who is he? I demanded.
Do you know?
Hes just a man named Gatsby.
Where is he from, I mean? And what does he do?
Now youre started on the subject, she answered with a wan smile.
Well, he told me once he was an Oxford man. A dim background started
to take shape behind him, but at her next remark it faded away.
However, I dont believe it.
Why not? I dont know, she insisted, I just dont think he went
there.
Something in her tone reminded me of the other girls I think he
killed a man, and had the effect of stimulating my curiosity. I would have
accepted without question the information that Gatsby sprang from the
swamps of Louisiana or from the lower East Side of New York. That was
comprehensible. But young men didnt at least in my provincial
inexperience I believed they didnt drift coolly out of nowhere and buy
a palace on Long Island Sound.
Anyhow, he gives large parties, said Jordan, changing the subject
with an urbane distaste for the concrete. And I like large parties. Theyre
so intimate. At small parties there isnt any privacy.
There was the boom of a bass drum, and the voice of the orchestra
leader rang out suddenly above the echolalia of the garden.
Ladies and gentlemen, he cried. At the request of Mr. Gatsby we
are going to play for you Mr. Vladimir Tostoffs latest work, which
attracted so much attention at Carnegie Hall last May. If you read the
papers, you know there was a big sensation. He smiled with jovial
condescension, and added: Some sensation! Whereupon everybody
laughed.
The piece is known, he concluded lustily, as Vladimir Tostoffs
Jazz History of the World.
The nature of Mr. Tostoffs composition eluded me, because just as it
began my eyes fell on Gatsby, standing alone on the marble steps and
looking from one group to another with approving eyes. His tanned skin
was drawn attractively tight on his face and his short hair looked as
though it were trimmed every day. I could see nothing sinister about him.
I wondered if the fact that he was not drinking helped to set him off from
his guests, for it seemed to me that he grew more correct as the fraternal
hilarity increased. When the Jazz History of the World was over, girls
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were putting their heads on mens shoulders in a puppyish, convivial way,
girls were swooning backward playfully into mens arms, even into
groups, knowing that some one would arrest their falls but no one
swooned backward on Gatsby, and no French bob touched Gatsbys
shoulder, and no singing quartets were formed with Gatsbys head for one
link.
I beg your pardon.
Gatsbys butler was suddenly standing beside us.
Miss Baker? he inquired. I beg your pardon, but Mr. Gatsby would
like to speak to you alone.
With me? she exclaimed in surprise.
Yes, madame.
She got up slowly, raising her eyebrows at me in astonishment, and
followed the butler toward the house. I noticed that she wore her
evening-dress, all her dresses, like sports clothes there was a jauntiness
about her movements as if she had first learned to walk upon golf courses
on clean, crisp mornings.
I was alone and it was almost two. For some time confused and
intriguing sounds had issued from a long, many-windowed room which
overhung the terrace. Eluding Jordans undergraduate, who was now
engaged in an obstetrical conversation with two chorus girls, and who
implored me to join him, I went inside.
The large room was full of people. One of the girls in yellow was
playing the piano, and beside her stood a tall, red-haired young lady from
a famous chorus, engaged in song. She had drunk a quantity of
champagne, and during the course of her song she had decided, ineptly,
that everything was very, very sad she was not only singing, she was
weeping too. Whenever there was a pause in the song she filled it with
gasping, broken sobs, and then took up the lyric again in a quavering
soprano. The tears coursed down her cheeks not freely, however, for
when they came into contact with her heavily beaded eyelashes they
assumed an inky color, and pursued the rest of their way in slow black
rivulets. A humorous suggestion was made that she sing the notes on her
face, whereupon she threw up her hands, sank into a chair, and went off
into a deep vinous sleep.
She had a fight with a man who says hes her husband, explained a
girl at my elbow.
I looked around. Most of the remaining women were now having
fights with men said to be their husbands. Even Jordans party, the
quartet from East Egg, were rent asunder by dissension. One of the men
was talking with curious intensity to a young actress, and his wife, after
attempting to laugh at the situation in a dignified and indifferent way,
broke down entirely and resorted to flank attacks at intervals she
appeared suddenly at his side like an angry diamond, and hissed: You
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promised! into his ear.
The reluctance to go home was not confined to wayward men. The
hall was at present occupied by two deplorably sober men and their
highly indignant wives. The wives were sympathizing with each other in
slightly raised voices.
Whenever he sees Im having a good time he wants to go home.
Never heard anything so selfish in my life.
Were always the first ones to leave.
So are we.
Well, were almost the last to-night, said one of the men sheepishly.
The orchestra left half an hour ago.
In spite of the wives agreement that such malevolence was beyond
credibility, the dispute ended in a short struggle, and both wives were
lifted, kicking, into the night.
As I waited for my hat in the hall the door of the library opened and
Jordan Baker and Gatsby came out together. He was saying some last
word to her, but the eagerness in his manner tightened abruptly into
formality as several people approached him to say good-bye.
Jordans party were calling impatiently to her from the porch, but
she lingered for a moment to shake hands.
Ive just heard the most amazing thing, she whispered. How long
were we in there?
Why, about an hour. It was simply amazing, she repeated
abstractedly. But I swore I wouldnt tell it and here I am tantalizing
you. She yawned gracefully in my face: Please come and see me. . . .
Phone book . . . Under the name of Mrs. Sigourney Howard . . . My aunt .
. . She was hurrying off as she talked her brown hand waved a jaunty
salute as she melted into her party at the door.
Rather ashamed that on my first appearance I had stayed so late, I
joined the last of Gatsbys guests, who were clustered around him. I
wanted to explain that Id hunted for him early in the evening and to
apologize for not having known him in the garden.
Dont mention it, he enjoined me eagerly. Dont give it another
thought, old sport. The familiar expression held no more familiarity than
the hand which reassuringly brushed my shoulder. And dont forget
were going up in the hydroplane to-morrow morning, at nine oclock.
Then the butler, behind his shoulder: Philadelphia wants you on the
phone, sir.
All right, in a minute. Tell them Ill be right there. . . . good night.
Good night.
Good night. He smiled and suddenly there seemed to be a
pleasant significance in having been among the last to go, as if he had
desired it all the time. Good night, old sport. . . . good night.
But as I walked down the steps I saw that the evening was not quite
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over. Fifty feet from the door a dozen headlights illuminated a bizarre
and tumultuous scene. In the ditch beside the road, right side up, but
violently shorn of one wheel, rested a new coupe which had left Gatsbys
drive not two minutes before. The sharp jut of a wall accounted for the
detachment of the wheel, which was now getting considerable attention
from half a dozen curious chauffeurs. However, as they had left their cars
blocking the road, a harsh, discordant din from those in the rear had
been audible for some time, and added to the already violent confusion of
the scene.
A man in a long duster had dismounted from the wreck and now
stood in the middle of the road, looking from the car to the tire and from
the tire to the observers in a pleasant, puzzled way.
See! he explained. It went in the ditch.
The fact was infinitely astonishing to him, and I recognized first the
unusual quality of wonder, and then the man it was the late patron of
Gatsbys library.
Howd it happen?
He shrugged his shoulders.
I know nothing whatever about mechanics, he said decisively.
But how did it happen? Did you run into the wall? Dont ask me,
said Owl Eyes, washing his hands of the whole matter. I know very little
about driving next to nothing. It happened, and thats all I know.
Well, if youre a poor driver you oughtnt to try driving at night.
But I wasnt even trying, he explained indignantly, I wasnt even
trying.
An awed hush fell upon the bystanders.
Do you want to commit suicide?
Youre lucky it was just a wheel! A bad driver and not even TRYing!
You dont understand, explained the criminal. I wasnt driving.
Theres another man in the car.
The shock that followed this declaration found voice in a sustained
Ah-h-h! as the door of the coupe swung slowly open. The crowd it
was now a crowd stepped back involuntarily, and when the door had
opened wide there was a ghostly pause. Then, very gradually, part by part,
a pale, dangling individual stepped out of the wreck, pawing tentatively at
the ground with a large uncertain dancing shoe.
Blinded by the glare of the headlights and confused by the incessant
groaning of the horns, the apparition stood swaying for a moment before
he perceived the man in the duster.
Whas matter? he inquired calmly. Did we run outa gas?
Look!
Half a dozen fingers pointed at the amputated wheel he stared at it
for a moment, and then looked upward as though he suspected that it
had dropped from the sky.
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It came off, some one explained.
He nodded.
At first I din notice wed stopped.
A pause. Then, taking a long breath and straightening his shoulders,
he remarked in a determined voice:
Wonderff tell me where theres a gasline station?
At least a dozen men, some of them little better off than he was,
explained to him that wheel and car were no longer joined by any
physical bond.
Back out, he suggested after a moment. Put her in reverse.
But the wheels off!
He hesitated.
No harm in trying, he said.
The caterwauling horns had reached a crescendo and I turned away
and cut across the lawn toward home. I glanced back once. A wafer of a
moon was shining over Gatsbys house, making the night fine as before,
and surviving the laughter and the sound of his still glowing garden. A
sudden emptiness seemed to flow now from the windows and the great
doors, endowing with complete isolation the figure of the host, who stood
on the porch, his hand up in a formal gesture of farewell.
Reading over what I have written so far, I see I have given the
impression that the events of three nights several weeks apart were all
that absorbed me. On the contrary, they were merely casual events in a
crowded summer, and, until much later, they absorbed me infinitely less
than my personal affairs.
Most of the time I worked. In the early morning the sun threw my
shadow westward as I hurried down the white chasms of lower New York
to the Probity Trust. I knew the other clerks and young bond-salesmen by
their first names, and lunched with them in dark, crowded restaurants on
little pig sausages and mashed potatoes and coffee. I even had a short
affair with a girl who lived in Jersey City and worked in the accounting
department, but her brother began throwing mean looks in my direction,
so when she went on her vacation in July I let it blow quietly away.
I took dinner usually at the Yale Club for some reason it was the
gloomiest event of my day and then I went up-stairs to the library and
studied investments and securities for a conscientious hour. There were
generally a few rioters around, but they never came into the library, so it
was a good place to work. After that, if the night was mellow, I strolled
down Madison Avenue past the old Murray Hill Hotel, and over 33rd
Street to the Pennsylvania Station.
I began to like New York, the racy, adventurous feel of it at night,
and the satisfaction that the constant flicker of men and women and
machines gives to the restless eye. I liked to walk up Fifth Avenue and
pick out romantic women from the crowd and imagine that in a few
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minutes I was going to enter into their lives, and no one would ever know
or disapprove. Sometimes, in my mind, I followed them to their
apartments on the corners of hidden streets, and they turned and smiled
back at me before they faded through a door into warm darkness. At the
enchanted metropolitan twilight I felt a haunting loneliness sometimes,
and felt it in others poor young clerks who loitered in front of windows
waiting until it was time for a solitary restaurant dinner young clerks
in the dusk, wasting the most poignant moments of night and life.
Again at eight oclock, when the dark lanes of the Forties were five
deep with throbbing taxi-cabs, bound for the theatre district, I felt a
sinking in my heart. Forms leaned together in the taxis as they waited,
and voices sang, and there was laughter from unheard jokes, and lighted
cigarettes outlined unintelligible 70 gestures inside. Imagining that I, too,
was hurrying toward gayety and sharing their intimate excitement, I
wished them well.
For a while I lost sight of Jordan Baker, and then in midsummer I
found her again. At first I was flattered to go places with her, because she
was a golf champion, and every one knew her name. Then it was
something more. I wasnt actually in love, but I felt a sort of tender
curiosity. The bored haughty face that she turned to the world concealed
something most affectations conceal something eventually, even
though they dont in the beginning and one day I found what it was.
When we were on a house-party together up in Warwick, she left a
borrowed car out in the rain with the top down, and then lied about it
and suddenly I remembered the story about her that had eluded me that
night at Daisys. At her first big golf tournament there was a row that
nearly reached the newspapers a suggestion that she had moved her
ball from a bad lie in the semi-final round. The thing approached the
proportions of a scandal then died away. A caddy retracted his
statement, and the only other witness admitted that he might have been
mistaken. The incident and the name had remained together in my mind.
Jordan Baker instinctively avoided clever, shrewd men, and now I
saw that this was because she felt safer on a plane where any divergence
from a code would be thought impossible. She was incurably dishonest.
She wasnt able to endure being at a disadvantage and, given this
unwillingness, I suppose she had begun dealing in subterfuges when she
was very young in order to keep that cool, insolent smile turned to the
world and yet satisfy the demands of her hard, jaunty body.
It made no difference to me. Dishonesty in a woman is a thing you
never blame deeply I was casually sorry, and then I forgot. It was on
that same house party that we had a curious conversation about driving a
car. It started because she passed so close to some workmen that our
fender flicked a button on one mans coat.
Youre a rotten driver, I protested. Either you ought to be more
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careful, or you oughtnt to drive at all.
I am careful.
No, youre not.
Well, other people are, she said lightly.
Whats that got to do with it?
Theyll keep out of my way, she insisted. It takes two to make an
accident.
Suppose you met somebody just as careless as yourself.
I hope I never will, she answered. I hate careless people. Thats
why I like you.
Her gray, sun-strained eyes stared straight ahead, but she had
deliberately shifted our relations, and for a moment I thought I loved her.
But I am slow-thinking and full of interior rules that act as brakes on my
desires, and I knew that first I had to get myself definitely out of that
tangle back home. Id been writing letters once a week and signing them:
Love, Nick, and all I could think of was how, when that certain girl
played tennis, a faint mustache of perspiration appeared on her upper lip.
Nevertheless there was a vague understanding that had to be tactfully
broken off before I was free.
Every one suspects himself of at least one of the cardinal virtues, and
this is mine: I am one of the few honest people that I have ever known.

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