Table of Contents

1. 2008 - Hedwig’s Theme by John Williams

2. 2008 - Dear Billy by Spawnbreezie
3. 2015 - Unpredictable by 5 Seconds of Summer
My Mixtape Memoir 4. 2017 - Lullaby by Lateeya
5. 2019 - Who You Say I Am by Hillsong Worship
(2003-Present)
By Marissa Caguioa
 Hedwig’s Theme Dear Billy
2008 2008
I tried to read the Harry Potter series in the first grade, but I What would you say if you were off and had no worries by the
didn’t understand too much at that age. I wanted to read it after dolla’? You would be all ova’ TV and there’s no one here to
I had watched a couple Harry Potter movies. I even had a stop to say Billie? What would you say?
Harry Potter themed birthday party.
Now this is what I’d say if I was offered the deal: I’d turn it
I was so captured by the magic of Harry’s world. I wanted to down in a heartbeat, and that’s just how I feel…
feel the crisp parchment paper that Hermione wrote on, and I
I double up my grind just to give my fam a meal…
wanted to use the feather pens and ink wells. I wanted to stir a
cauldron full of weird ingredients. I wanted to wave a wand I don’t need no record label to do what I really did. The only
and learn new spells. Who wouldn’t want to go to Hogwarts? way I’d sign is if it takes care of my kids.
Somehow, these movies made me really excited about school. I My dad likes to give life lessons in the car. No one really asks
wanted to be like Hermione. She always knew how to solve a for it, but I guess you can say that they’ve worked, because he
problem because she had knowledge about it. She was always has taught me a lot about life through these little lectures.
learning, and she was ready to take on any challenge. I wanted
to be like her. I always wanted to learn more. In 2008, I remember that he wasn’t really at home as often as
he used to be, and whenever he was home, he would be doing
Whenever I walked through the halls at my school or when I work on his computer.
would be learning about something new, I could hear the
twinkling, mysterious notes of Hedwig’s theme. Knowledge My dad, my brother, and I were in the car coming home from
was like magic, ready for use and right at my fingertips. Vons, and my dad began apologizing. “Sorry I’m always
working, kids. Your mom is still looking for a job, and I need
to work so we can support the family. Your mom’s a teacher,
and right now it’s really hard to get a job. She had a better
paying job, but she always had to travel, so she gave it up for
you guys. She wanted to be the one to raise you, and look at
you guys, you guys are good kids.”
I still think about how much my parents love and care for me
and my brother. They’ve shown me that family is one of the
most important things in the world. And I am ever-so grateful Unpredictable
for everything they’ve done for me.
2015
While my parents are amazing people, I’ve always seen them
as overprotective. I would rarely ask to go out because I knew
the answer was no, or I would have to have a well-though-out-
plan days ahead of time. I would spend a lot of time at home
trying to keep myself occupied, and I dreamed about what my
life would be like if I was older, if I wasn’t a girl, and if it
wasn’t dangerous for me to go outside.
She sits at home with the lights out, seeing life in different
colors…
I started listening to a lot of alternative bands when I turned 13,
and I guess this was my angsty, pre-teen phase. I wasn’t emo,
but I liked all of their songs.
In my room, I would clean and jump around to 5 Seconds of
Summer while imagining what life could be.
We can run down the street, with stars in our eyes.
We can tear down this town, in the dark of the night.
Just open the door, we got time on our side.
We can make it out alive…
Let’s do something new and unpredictable.
 Lullaby Who You Say I Am
2017 2019
‘Cause when I’m starin’ at the stars, lookin’ at the moon, Who the Son sets free, oh is free, indeed. I’m a child of God.
wishin’ that I could be there with you. Yes, I am.
Young love is weird. I heard these lyrics at my very first Steubenville conference. I
had done adoration before, but I wasn’t ready for the intensity
It was just so rare how easy it was to talk to this guy. I’m not a
of this one. I heard it was 3 hours long and that they had a
fan of surface-level conversations, and he definitely wasn’t
beautiful monstrance.
shallow. Dom became my best friend, and we had a picture-
perfect love story. I anticipated the crying because I’m generally an emotional
person, but the power of these words struck me. I was at a time
It was forbidden love (because I was definitely too young) and
in my life where I felt lost. I didn’t know how long the past
it was falling in love with your best friend. Unfortunately, he
would haunt me, or if I was worth anything, or where I
was a year older than me, so while he was a freshman in high
belonged. There were people I wasn’t free from, and I felt so
school, I was in the eighth grade. There was always this
scared.
longing to be together again. (If you ask me about this now, the
idea of this disgusts me.) However, when I heard these words I was overwhelmed with
this new lightness. It was like God had lifted a thousand
Yeah, we could sit on the phone, bust an all-nighter ‘til the
weights off my shoulders. He gave me my identity and broke
early mornin’.
me free from the chains that held me down. He allowed me to
In order to get around the distance, we would facetime quite know my worth. I was at peace and I felt so much joy that I
often. He’d have trouble sleeping, so sometimes I would sing began to laugh. It was a joy that was unlike any other; I simply
this song and he would be asleep in minutes. can’t describe it.

I regret a lot of these things now, but I guess at the time it was This was the start of my passion for God and my faith life. I
like a disgustingly cheesy, modern Romeo and Juliet story. wanted to feel that joy again, and now my life is focused on
making God the center so that I may come to know his joy.