Can You Ever Forgive Me?

I can't stop thinking and my heart stings with regret. I wish with all of my heart
that I could go back and do last week over again. I can't bear the pain that I've
caused you, can't shake the rift that it has created between us. The hurt is like
an emotional earthquake and it has devastated us all. I'm so sorry about
everything. You don't think I care, because you are blinded by your pain, but I do
care.... so much. I feel like a fool, trading your love for illusion...and you have
once again accepted me for who I am, for how childish I can be and you have even
taken responsibility for your part in all of it. You've been big. And I want to
rush back into your arms and weep like a small child.

The grip with which we hold on to our relationship is strong, even though we have
had so many instances where we could have just called the whole thing off. When I
close the door behind me and lock it, there is always a key under the mat. The key
unlocks the door to your heart. We come through it even bolder, stronger, more
beautiful and more alive... Isn't it ironic how we find our deepest love in the
fallout left by upheaval and change?

I am the luckiest woman, to know you and to love you. Yes, we have bad days
sometimes. No, we don't always agree on things, but we watch out for each other. We
have found ways to do what we love, together...and it is incredibly fulfilling. You
and I are still madly in love with each other when the dust and the fallout
settles. I want to watch the sunrise with you and feel the spring breeze through an
open window while we sip coffee and listen to the birds. Growing old will be a
pleasure as long as we are doing it together even through the challenges and the
pain..

You are the most amazing woman I have ever met. To respect my freedom to make
decisions in life that I may regret, and not let that come between us and the deep
unyielding love that is obviously the core of our connection is a rare gift. We
share so much. Let's continue to see the world in new ways, together.

It is when we look away, and we take each other for granted that the energy changes
and we forget how important we are to each other. Thankfully we always end up
remembering. You have not given up on me, nor I you. It's very empowering. I love
you madly. Let's forge through this challenge and come out the other side bolder,
stronger and more aware of the boundless potential that we share.

Yours Forever,

Can you forgive me?...

It is with great sadness that I write this letter to you. I am down on my knees
filled with heartache. The thought of hurting you grabs hold of my gut. I feel like
I want to scream or cry, then I want to reach out and touch you, hold you. Or maybe
it is to have you hold me. Can you ever forgive me?

I am longing for you, longing to feel the touch of your love. I?ve let you down, I
let us both down. I feel like I threw something away, that I never wanted to lose.
And now, here I am down on the ground searching for it. Please tell me it?s not
lost. I?m desperate to find the love we shared. I beg for your forgiveness, I long
for your love.

Forgive me for last night

My Partner, My Lover, My Friend...

I love you! I know you know it. I know that I tell you at the end of every phone
conversation...but I can never let you know how much you mean to me too
often...Last night our argument had me worried that you would consider leaving me.
All of these insecurities were kind of let loose and thrown up in my face. I
thought they were gone... I thought our relationship was strong. But all of my
assumptions burned last night in the fire of argument and discord. Where did all of
that even come from? Yes, we probably had too much wine, but what did we feel that
we were going to accomplish by hurting each other like that?

We both have to take responsibility for it and I know that I do. I hope that you do
to. I am so sorry. The worst thing that I can imagine is that there would be any
kind of an argument that could tear us apart. Our hearts are far too intertwined.
Can you imagine the devastation that ripping them apart would bring?

Please tell me when I am not making you happy. All I want is to make you happy. All
I want is for us to make each other happy. Please fill me in when you feel like
there is more that needs to be said. You know I get blindsided by things sometimes
and maybe I can be a bit too negligent with my feelings.

But I don't ever want you to think that I am tired of what we have going on. There
is no 'other'... there is only you and only us for as long as we both shall live...
at least that is what I'm hoping. Don't think that when I say 'I Love You' at the
end of our phone calls that the expression has been fully presented.

There is no way that I can show or tell you how much I love you. But maybe it is
about time that I consider trying. Maybe we both need to remind each other through
actions, not just through obligated words. Maybe our love needs to take a different
form in order for it to revitalize our tired days and bring us the joy that we know
is possible?

When the sun is rising in the morning, it is the breath of my love for you that
fuels it. Deep in the dark night, as our bodies sleep in peaceful coordination, our
love surrounds and penetrates us and our lives. We bask in the love that we share
even when we are not paying attention. In fact, I think we get so used to it that
sometimes we may even forget just how strong and powerful it is.

But I remember, and I promise you that from now on I will make an effort to let you
know that I remember. Our love gives us spirit and energy and truth and peace. I
will never again take it, or you for granted.

Please forgive me for last night.

Forgive me for the pain I've caused?

The last thing in the world I would ever want is to hurt you. I know I made you
sad, I bruised your feelings, and knowing this breaks my heart for you. Can you
ever forgive me for the pain I've caused you? You are the most precious person to
me. What can I do? I will do anything to move beyond this day. I want so much to
gain your forgiveness.

I believe in us, in our strength. I believe we are strong enough to overcome this.
Will you forgive me? What I did was not intentional. I never want to see you
suffer. Your happiness is my primary concern; it is what I want for you most. I
hope you will consider my request; it is from the heart, with all sincerity.

I Didn't Mean To Hurt You

I?m Sorry

Today I made a mistake that may have cost me the best thing that has ever happened
to me. Today I thought only about myself, my thoughts were not together. Today, I
have to ask you to forgive me and I know that I do not deserve for you to do this
for me. But, I am sorry.

I didn?t mean to hurt you, but nonetheless I did. I didn?t mean to bring tears to
your eyes and I am sorry more than anything that I let you down. It is through your
love that I see how wrong I can be. It is through your love that I ask for you to
forgive me.

I know today that I could never live a day without you by my side. I know that I
can not wake up to find you gone. I can not think about not hearing your laugh,
smelling your neck and touching your hair. I can not believe that I made such a
mistake that I may never look into your eyes.

Know this, please. Please know that nothing I can say or do can take away what I
did to you. But, I love you, need you and cherish you. I want you to hold my hand
and forget that this even happened. I will not, though, because I am sorry it did.

I Do Value You
I?m sorry that I always end up being so selfish. It?s always around my schedule and
my priorities and I know it?s got to stop. You?ve told me how you felt before and I
usually respond for a little while then eventually I seem to fall back into my old
habits. You?re right your event was way more important than my stupid tournament
that I someone else signed me up for at the last minute.

Okay, I know I keep stumbling. But you?ve got to know in your heart that I?m trying
to get it right because I don?t want to loose you. You?re my one sane lifeline?the
one who can make everything clear for me. I know I?ve been selfish. You seem to be
getting weary of always adjusting your schedule to mine. I don?t blame you. It
shouldn?t be this way. It won?t be this way. I?m sorry I hurt you and made you feel
that I didn?t value you. It?s not that at all. It?s nothing but pure denseness on
my part. How can I make this up to you? Name it. I?m so sorry.

I Need Time
I?m sorry I hurt you. It?s just that right now I need time to sort everything out
in this crazy life of mine and it requires a little space between us. I think you
misinterpreted the whole thing as a sort of finite breakup. And all I was trying to
say is that things have gotten so terribly confusing that I need to spend time on
my own figuring it all out. Of course, I still love you. I can?t even believe you
asked that. It really has more to do with me than you right now. There?s no doubt I
love the thought of you and me.

Somehow, I?ve lost a big chunk of me. And I know now that it was because I always
centered everything on you and your needs. Mine seemed to always take a back seat.
Honestly, if you really regard me and want the best for me you?ll understand.
Hopefully, you?ll give me what I need right now. Meanwhile, I never meant any of
this to hurt you.

I Need to Think Before I Speak

Okay, I was wrong. I?m so sorry I hurt you and I?m even more sorry that I let it
drag on this whole entire week. Honestly, I don?t know what I was thinking. I guess
I wasn?t thinking and that?s the problem. Too many times I am careless and that can
cause a lot of heartache. I need to choose my words better when I?m trying to
express something. Half the time the stuff you get upset over isn?t really a big
deal to me. I need to consider you and learn to be more sensitive. What can I say?
Well for starters?I?m really going to make a stronger effort. You know half the
time I?m just teasing you. It comes out wrong and then there we are in another
argument.

It?s really ridiculous. If you could climb in my heart and get a real sense for how
I feel about you you?d be stunned. You?re the world to me. And I guess it?s just a
matter of learning how to express that more to you. I do think sometimes you expect
a lot of emotional expression and that?s hard for me. Please notice what I do for
you. Those actions are real expressions of my feeling for you. I love you and I?m
sorry I hurt you.

I Never Meant To Hurt You?

I am sorry that these three words have to be expressed to you. You are the one
person that I would never want to hurt. All you have done is bring joy to my life
and it pains me to think that I brought you even the tiniest bit of sorrow or
strain.

You mean the world to me. It troubles me just knowing that my actions could bring
you pain. For all the anguish you have ever felt, I have felt it doubly worse for
you. Knowing that I have imposed this pain disturbs my heart more than ever. I know
that a simple written apology may not be enough, but I promise to do my best to not
make the same mistake again or hurt you.

I Screwed Up
I screwed up. There, I said it and it stands to reason that you should be reading
this and thinking, ?Yes, you did!? Don?t get smug, instead get sympathetic, it?s
clear I made a major mess of things. I should have just told you the truth from the
beginning, but I thought you?d be mad. Little did I know that keeping things from
you only amplified the whole situation, which would have been minor if I just had
explained things to you in the first place. Yet, hindsight is 20/20. So here I am
just asking if you?d forgive me for being such a moron on this one.

Right now, things are heated. Hopefully, someday we will look back on this and
laugh. But for right now all I can say is that if I had to do it all over again, I
would do it the right way because honesty creates intimacy and withholding
information only builds distance between us. I love you.

I Was an Idiot
Once the words left my mouth and hit the air I knew that I would be sorry. I was
angry and careless. Of course you must know that I don?t feel that way at all.
Sometimes I need to be more careful with my words, especially when I?m angry and
can?t see past my own emotions. That?s why it?s so important for you to know how
truly sorry I am. Please forgive me.

It?s sad how when we?re angry we only end up saying things that drive us further
apart. You?ve got to know that wasn?t my intent. It was stupid. I was stupid. I
think you are so special and it kills me that I hurt you so badly with something
that slipped out in anger. I can?t stand the silence between us. Please answer me.
I want to make this up to you. You deserve someone who respects and adores you. I?m
that person?I just messed up. Can we talk?

I?m Sorry and I?m Ready To Be More Open?

It is really hard for me to apologize because it makes me feel vulnerable. For my
entire life, I have never been one to truly and clearly express my emotions. But, I
realize that this reluctance to share has created a gap between you and me. I
realized this week that you are very important to me and I should be able to share
myself with you as you have done with me. It is going to be an arduous learning
process for me to be more expressive, but to keep you in my life,

I am willing to discover how I truly feel. I know that when we argued the other
day, you became frustrated with my inability to really show you how I felt. I saw
the frustration in your eyes every time I responded with an ?I don?t know.? From
now on I will really focus on that, for you and for us. I love you.

I?m sorry for the argument we had last night?

I've been walking around in a daze this whole day. I?m feeling so lost and empty.
The sadness I feel is the result of the ridiculous argument we had last night. I
hate it when we fight and I know you do too. Granted there will always be
disagreements, but this feeling I have is the worst. I?m sorry for my part in the
argument, I?m sorry for my behavior, for my words and for the whole thing. I didn?t
mean to let you down. I feel as close to alone as one could possibly feel today.

I?m struggling to find ways for us to create a fresh start. I need your help. I'm
sorry last night didn't end the way we would have liked. Let?s talk it over today
and find a fresh place from which to begin. I love you so much. Please call.

Let?s forget the past?

Let?s forget the past. Let?s forget it all, the bad along with the good, and start
again. Perhaps it is the only way to clear the path for you to feel the depth of my
feelings and for me to truly share my never-ending love with you. You deserve my
love, and nothing else, none of the problems I?ve brought to you. I never want to
let you go.

I know I?ve made some mistakes, more than I wanted. In any relationship mistakes
are made. I only hope ours is strong enough to forgive the wrongdoings. It?s up to
you. Can we let it all go? Can we start again? I love you deeply. We can?t give up
now. Not yet, not now, not ever.

Open the door to your heart again?

Please let me in?you have shut the door, but everything I have ever wanted,
everything I love, is on the other side. Please open the door to your heart again.
My heart is yours and yours alone. You are everything to me. You fill my heart with
love, my mind with thoughts of our life together. My every breath is filled with
you.

You are so much a part of me; I never want to be without you. Please unlock the
door, unlock your heart. I promise never to hurt you again. Can we please talk; I
will be gentle and listen to your thoughts. Please let me in.

Please understand and forgive

My Dearest love,

I understand that you don?t want to see me and I really don?t blame you. I saw the
hurt in your eyes and the pain of my words cut deep. I saw the tears you tried to
fight back and I am deeply ashamed. I never meant to say the words that hurt you, I
never meant to cause you such pain, I was angry and I just wanted to hurt you as
you had hurt me. I am so sorry and I will never forgive myself for those hurtful
words.

I know I can never take them back and I know that they will always be there but my
darling I am truly sorry. I love you, you know I love you and you know I didn?t
mean what I said. You know I never meant to hurt you, how could I, I love you too
much.

I?m sorry I didn?t stay, I?m sorry I don?t have the courage to tell you all this to
your face but rejection is too hard to take and I just couldn?t bear it if you
wouldn?t forgive me. I couldn?t bear it if I had ruined it all. I love you so much,
more than I could ever have known and these past few hours have been torture for me
knowing that I have hurt you so deeply. I really am so sorry.

Forgive me please, my darling.

Poem expressing sorrow for hurt?

The music plays in the background
As my thoughts turn to you
The violin tugs at my heartstrings
Because I might have hurt you
If I could only say something I believe is really true?
My life is nothing, if it weren?t for you.

You?re My Life
These last few months have been so stress-filled. It seems that we have less and
less time together, which is sad. We spend time crazed at work and somehow forget
about how important our relationship is. I?ve been the worse offender and I want to
say I?m sorry.

It?s all about priorities. I want to make sure you?re my #1 priority. Work gives
you a living, but not a life. You give me a life. So I?ve decided to make a huge
effort to putting our relationship first. It?s one thing to say you?re the most
important thing in my life, but if I can?t back it up with action then the words
are void of any meaning. Let?s sit down and figure out our schedules. Let?s look at
how we can spend more time together and enjoy the things we love. Without you,
nothing else really matters. I?m sorry if I haven?t made you a priority. You?re my
life.