“Then Later, His Ghost” by Sarah Hall

The wind was coming from the east when he woke. The windows on that side of the house boxed
and clattered in their frames, even behind the stormboards, and the corrugated metal sheet over the
coop in the garden was creaking and hawing, as though it might rip out of its rivets and fly off. The
wind bellowed. All the structures it hit or ran through sang and moaned. December 23rd. The
morning was dark, or it was still night. He lay unmoving beneath the blankets, feet cold in his boots,
his chest sore from breathing unheated air. The fire had gone out; the wood had burned too high
with the pull up the chimney, or the flames had been extinguished by gusts. It was hard keeping it in
overnight. Coal was much better; it burned hotter and longer, but it was hard to find and too heavy
to carry.

He pulled the blankets over his face. Get up, he thought. If he didn’t get up it would be the beginning
of the end. People who stayed inside got into trouble. No one was going to help them. Part of him
understood – who wanted to die outside, tossed about like a piece of litter, stripped of clothing by
the hands of the wind, then lodged somewhere, dirt blowing dunes over your corpse? Crawling into a
calm little shelter was preferable.

Something hard clattered along the roof, scuttling over the slates, and was borne away. There was a
great ooming sound above, almost oceanic, the top of the sky heaving and breaking. Whatever had
been kept in check by the old Gulf Stream was now able to push back, unfurl and lash around. A bully
of a wind. No wonder people had once created aerial gods, fiends of the air or the mountaintops.
Even he took it personally, sometimes – yelling uselessly at the force, his voice tiny and whipped
away. Not often though, it didn’t really help. When it came from the east a lot of the remaining
house roofs went, and whole walls could topple – another reason not to stay inside too much. You
had to be alert to the collapses. He turned on his side and shivered as the cold crept down his neck.
The sofa he was lying on felt damp. The cushion he was using as a pillow smelled of wet mortar. He
didn’t usually sleep in this room, but Helene was now in his.

Another sizeable object crashed past the house, splintering against the gable and flying off in
separate pieces. He’d heard the wind shifting and strengthening during the night, though he was
used to sleeping with the sound percussing his dreams. He couldn’t remember the last still day, the
trees standing upright and placid, the air itself seeming to vanish, to not exist. Stillness seemed like a
childhood myth, like the glory of August hay-timing, or Father Christmas. Last night he’d slept
restlessly; his dreams were turbulent – wars, animals stampeding, Helene being swept away. After a
night like that it was hard to get up. Other days he almost liked the climate. He liked being one of the
only ones left in the town, the impetus; he liked letting go of the ropes strung between buildings and
jumping so his coat could sail him several feet forward, flying like a spectre.

Get up, he thought. And then, because it was proving difficult, he thought, Buffalo. He pictured the
buffalo. It was enormous and black-brown. It had a giant head and the shoulders of a weightlifter, a
tapered back end, small, upturned horns. It looked permanently, structurally braced. He sat up,
moved the blankets away, and then stood. He found the torch next to the sofa and switched it on.
The cold made him feel older and stiffer. He moved around and lifted his legs gymnastically to get his
blood moving. He did some lunges. There was a portable gas stove in the corner of the room and he
set the torch next to it, ignited the ring, boiled water and made tea. He drank the tea black. There
were no smuts in the grate. Perhaps he’d leave the fire a day to save fuel – the temperature was
about four or five degrees, he guessed, manageable. So long as Helene was warm enough.

He took the torch and moved through the building, to the room where she slept. It was warm. She
slept with the little tilly lamp on. She didn’t like the dark. Her fire was still glowing orange. She was
sound asleep. She was lying on her side and her belly mound was vast under her jumper. He picked
up the cast-off blanket from the floor and draped it back over her. She didn’t move. She seemed
peaceful, though her eyes were moving rapidly behind her eyelids. The wind was quieter this side of
the house, the leeside. It whistled and whined as it slipstreamed away. Little skitters of soot came
down the chimney and sparks rose from the cradle. He looked at Helene sleeping. Her hair was cut
quite short, like his, but hers curled and was black. When they were open her eyes were extremely
pretty, gold-coloured, gold to green. He imagined climbing on to the bed next to her and putting his
arm over her shoulder. Sometimes when he was checking on her she woke up and looked at him.
Mostly she knew he was just checking, bringing her tea, or some food, or more wood for the fire. But
sometimes she looked afraid. He knew she worried about the baby coming; that frightened him too.
He was practical, and he’d found a medical book, but still. Helene was very quiet mostly. She’d done
well, he thought, lasting it out, but she didn’t seem to think so. He thought probably she hadn’t
developed any methods to help, like picturing the buffalo, and he worried about her. She was
probably thirty, or thirty-five. She’d been an English teacher, though not his; she liked sardines in
tomato sauce, which was good because he had lots of tins. She was very polite and always thanked
him for the food. That’s all right, he’d say, and sometimes he’d almost add, Miss. She never said
anything about what had happened to her, or the baby, but he could guess. No one would choose
that now. He had found her in the Catholic cathedral, what was left of it. There were two dead
bodies nearby, both men; they looked freshly dead when he uncovered their faces. She was looking
up at the circular hole where the rose window had been. She wasn’t praying or crying.

He left some tea for her in a metal cup with a lid, and some sardines, and went back to his room. He
did a stock check. He did this every day, unnecessarily, but it made him feel calmer. Calor gas bottles,
food, clothes, batteries, duct tape, painkillers, knives, rope. The cans were piled in such a way that he
could count them by tens. This house still had water, a slow trickling stream that was often tinted
and tasted earthy. He still hadn’t worked out if it had its own well. But it made life easier – he didn’t
have to rig up a rainwater funnel. He’d been collecting packets of baby formula too, but when he’d
showed Helene she’d just looked sad.

There was a box with more delicate things inside, frivolous things, he sometimes thought, other
times, precious. Photographs – of his mother, and his little brother in school football strip – his
passport, though it was useless now, and the pages he’d been collecting for Helene. She loved
reading, and he didn’t have much to read in the house. He’d been hunting for the play for a month or
two and it was a very difficult task. So many books had been destroyed. Once the buildings were
breeched nothing paper lasted; it warped and rotted, the ink smudged. Sometimes just a paragraph,
or a line, was all he could hope for. So dear the love my people bore me, nor set a mark so bloody on
the business: but with fairer colours painted their foul ends. In few, they hurried us aboard a bark,
bore us some leagues to sea, where they’d prepared a rotten carcass of a boat, not rigg’d . . .

****
The town’s library had been demolished in the first big storms. No wonder: it had been built in the
Sixties, part of the civic centre. The older the building, the longer it lasted, generally: people had
gotten very bad at construction, he thought, or lazy. He was good at salvaging. He was good at it
because he was good at moving around outside. He wasn’t timid, but he never took anything for
granted. He wore the rucksack strapped tight to his body, like a packed parachute, taped up his arms
and legs, tested the ropes, and always looked in every direction for airborne debris. He never
assumed it was safe.

He took a tin of sockeye salmon out of the stack, opened it and ate it cold. Ulcers starred his tongue.
He probably needed some fruit, but he’d rather give the fruit to Helene. He was hungry and he ate
too fast. In winter having two meals was important – breakfast and dinner – even if they were small.
This was the fourth winter. Last Christmas he hadn’t really celebrated because he was by himself, but
having Helene made things nicer. He scraped the last flakes out of the tin with his nail and ate them.
He drank the oil, which made him gag. He saved the tin – while they were still greasy they were good
for making flour and water dumplings over the fire, though the dumplings tasted fishy. As well as the
surprise gift, he’d been planning their Christmas meal. He’d had a tin of smoked pheasant pâté for
two years, too much of a boon to eat by himself. There was a jar of redcurrant. A jar of boiled
potatoes. And a tin of actual Christmas pudding. They would have it all warmed. Two courses. He
even had a miniature whisky with which to set fire to the pudding.

He went to the back of the house, peered through a gap in the stormboards and watched the dawn
struggling to arrive. Daylight usually meant the wind eased slightly, but not today. The light was
pulsing, murky yellow aurorae. There were the usual items speeding past on the current – rags, bits
of tree, transmuted unknowable things. Sometimes he was amazed there were enough objects left to
loosen and scatter about. Sometimes he wondered whether these were just the same million shoes
and bottles and cartons in flight, circling the globe endlessly, like tides of scrap. The clouds passed fat
and fast overhead, and were sucked into a vortex on the horizon, disappearing into nothing. There
was sleetish rain, travelling horizontally, almost too quickly to see. It was a bad idea to go out today –
too big a wind. His rule was nothing more than a ninety, or what he gauged to be a ninety. But he
wanted to find the last few pages.

He went back to his room and got ready. He put on hefty waterproof trousers and jacket. He cleaned
and put on the goggles. He pulled the hood of the jacket up, yanked the toggles and tied them
tightly. He taped the neck. He taped his cuffs and his ankles, his knees and his elbows. He put on
gloves but left them untaped so he could take them off if he found any more books; he would need
his fingers to be nimble, to flick through and tear out. It might mean he would lose one glove, or
both, but he’d risk it. When he was done he felt almost airtight, like some kind of diver, a storm-
diver, he thought. But it was better not to get too heroic. For a while he’d worn a helmet, but it had
made him feel too bulky, too heavy, not adapted. He weighted the rucksack down with the red stone
– he didn’t like to think of it as his lucky stone, because he wasn’t superstitious, but secretly he did
think it was lucky. It was egg-shaped, banded with pink and white – some kind of polished gneiss. It
had been in the geology lab at school and he’d later found it, looking through the wreckage. It sat in
the bottom of the rucksack like a ballast, leaving enough room for anything that he discovered on his
excursions and wanted to bring back. He had plastic wrapping for anything delicate. He was good at
discerning what was useful and what was not; he hadn’t brought back many useless things, though
the temptation was to save beautiful items, or money. His mother had always joked his birthdays
were easy – as a kid he didn’t need many toys, field comforts, or gadgets. His mother had died in the
flu pandemic. So had his little brother.

****

There were two doors to the house – one on the north side and one on the west. He stood by the
west door and thought, Buffalo. He opened the door and felt the draw of air, then opened it wider
and moved into the alcove behind the storm door. The storm door opened inwards and could be
locked either side. He moved the bolt, forced himself out into the buffeting air, planted his feet and
fastened it behind him. Either side of the house, the wind tore past, conveying junk, going about its
demolition. Behind him, the house felt solid. It’d been a good choice – a squat, single-storey longbarn
on the low-lying outskirts of town, with shutters and big outer doors. He’d modified it a bit, nailing,
building break-walls. The coop in the garden was more hopeful than practical. This was his fifth
house. The first – his mother’s, a white Thirties semi – had gone down as easily as straw, along with
the rest of the row. The brick terraces had proved more durable, he’d lived in two, but they were
high-ceilinged; once the big windows and roofs gave out they were easy for the wind to dismantle.
Before the barn he’d been sharing with a man called Craig in a rank bunker near the market, a sort of
utility storage. It was a horrible, rat-like existence – dark, desperate, scavenging. Craig was much
older than him, but wasn’t clever or good at planning. Things had turned bad. He got out as soon as
he could and wasn’t sorry. A lighthouse would have been best, round, aerodynamic, deep-sunk into
rock, made to withstand batterings. But the coast was impossible – the surges were terrifying. Before
everything had gone down he’d seen news footage; he couldn’t quite believe the towering swells. He
had nightmares about those waves reaching inland.

He inched along the barn wall, towards the open. He’d planned a route through town. He would keep
to the west side of streets wherever he could, for protection, but that meant being in the path of
anything collapsing. In the past he’d outrun avalanching walls, he’d been picked up and flung against
hard surfaces and rubble heaps, his collarbone and his wrist had been fractured. There were only so
many near misses. He would need to judge the soundness of structures, only venture inside a
building if the risks seemed low. He would go into the Golden Triangle – some of the big Victorian
houses there were still holding and they were more likely to have what he was looking for. At the
corner of the house he knelt, tensed his neck and shoulder muscles and put his head out into the
rushing wind. The force was immense. He checked for large oncoming objects, then began to crawl
along the ground. Staying low reduced the possibility of being knocked over, or decapitated. What
had once been the longbarn’s garden was now stripped bald of grass. Clods of earth tumbled past
him. The wind shunted his backside and slid him forward. He flattened out and moved like a lizard,
towards the farm buildings and the first rope. He had different techniques, depending on the
situation. Sometimes he crawled miles. Sometimes he crouched like an ape and lumbered. Other
times he made dashes, if there were intermittent blasts, cannonballing the lulls, but he could get
caught out doing that. Sometimes it was better to walk into the wind head on, sometimes leaning
back against it and digging your heels in was best.
It had been a while since he’d been out in anything as strong. It was terrifying and exhilarating. The
fury bent him over when he tried to stand, so he stayed low, a creature of stealth and avoidance. He
clung to the cord that ran between the buildings. He’d tested the bindings only a few days ago, but
still he gave a good yank to make sure it hadn’t begun to untether. This rope he’d put up himself, and
he trusted it. A lot of the ones in town he’d redone too. He traversed it slowly while the wind bore
between the buildings. After the farm, there was a dangerous open stretch. The Huff, he called it,
because the weather always seemed filthy-tempered there. It had been a famous racecourse. Then
the town started properly: its suburbs, its alleys and piles of stone. Once it was a town of magnificent
trees. Plane trees, beeches, oaks. The big avenues had been lined by them, their leaves on fire in
autumn, raining pollen in spring. Now they were mostly gone – uprooted and dying. There was a lot
of firewood to haul away, though. He hardly ever saw anyone else taking it. He could probably count
on one hand the number of people he saw in a month. Occasionally, a big armoured vehicle passed
through, military – its windows covered in metal grilles. The soldiers never came out. A lot of people
had gone west because it was supposed to be milder, there was supposed to be more protection and
organisation. He’d never wanted to leave. He didn’t believe it anyway.

When he got to The Huff he almost changed his mind and went back. The air above was thick with
dirt, a great sweeping cloud of it. Every few moments something rattled, fluttered or spun past,
bounced off the ground and was lobbed upwards. On tamer days he’d sledged across the stretch on a
big metal tray, putting his heels down to slow the contraption and flinging himself sideways to get
off. Today, no larks, he’d be lucky not to break his neck. Crossing it would mean agreeing with the
wind rather than fighting it, becoming one of many hurled items, colliding with others, abraded, like
a pellet in a shaker. It was too wide a tract of land to rope; he had to go without moorings.

There was no let-up, so he gave himself a moment or two to prepare and then he let go of the farm
walls and began to crawl across. He tried to move his limbs quickly to keep up with the thrust of the
current, but it was too strong. Within moments the wind had taken him, lifting his back end and
tossing him over. He felt the red stone slam into his spine. He started tobogganing, feet first. He
tucked his head in, rolled on his side, brought his knees up and felt himself scraping along. The
ground was hard and bumpy and vibrated his bones. He put his hands down and felt debris filling his
cuffs. Something sharp caught his anklebone and stung. Shit, he thought, shitshitshit. He went with it,
there was nothing he could do, and after a while managed to slow himself and regain some control.
But still he was propelled. He hoofed his boots down and tried to brake. He was nearly at the edge of
the racecourse, where the old, outer flint wall of the town began. The wind shoved him hard again
and he went tumbling forward. His shoulder and knee hit the pointed stones. He lay for a moment,
dazed and brunted against the structure, dirt pattering around him. It was hard to breathe. The air
tasted of soil.

He spat, turned his head. When he opened his eyes one pane of the goggles was cracked, splitting his
view. He was all right, but he had to move. He crawled along the boundary wall, around trolleys and
piles of swept rubbish. His knee throbbed. A superbruise. At the first gap he went through. He sat up,
leant against the sharp flint and caught his breath. He cleaned his goggles, emptied his gloves.
Reckless idiot, he thought. Don’t fuck it up. He did want to live – moments like this reminded him.
Moments like this made him feel more real than he ever had before. He became more skilful because
of them. He evolved.
The boundary wall was twelve feet thick. Whoever had built it had meant business. Sections had
been restored when he was a kid. It was holding up well. He looked at the town. Something
catastrophic had passed over; that’s how it looked now. Razed. Roofs and upper floors were gone;
cars were parked on their backs, their windscreens smashed. The big storms had left domino rubble
in every direction, scattered fans of bricks and tiles, bouquets of splintered wood. Old maps meant
nothing. New streets had been made, buildings rearranged. He had to keep relearning its form as its
composition shifted.

He got up, crouched low, surveyed the route and limped off. It was a mile to the Golden Triangle. He
saw no one. He kept to the safer routes and used the secure ropes when he had to, hauling himself
hand over hand. He squinted through the broken goggles, seeing an odd spider-like creature in front
of him, but he didn’t take them off – the last thing he needed was to be blinded. The ruins were
depressing, but he occasionally saw miraculous things in them. An animal, though they were rare.
There were no birds, not even distressed gulls; nothing could cope in the torrid air. The rats had done
OK, anything living below ground level. Cats and dogs were few, and always emaciated and
wretched. There was no food, nothing growing, not much to kill. People’s survival instincts were
worse, he often thought, but they could at least use can openers. Two years ago he’d seen a stag. It
was standing on the football field in front of him, reddish, six points on each antler. It was standing
perfectly still, like something from the middle of a forest, and it didn’t panic or run. It was standing as
if it had always stood there, as if tree after tree had been stripped away around it, until the forest
was gone and there was nothing left to shield it.

He’d seen awful things too. A man sliced in half by a flying glass pane, his entrails worming from his
stomach. Craig’s broken skull. The good things had to be held in the mind, and remembered, and
celebrated. That was why he had to get the pages for Helene and why they would have a nice
Christmas.

****

He made his way slowly through the town, forcing his body against the blast. He kept leeside
wherever he could and watched for flying timber and rockslides. He crossed the little park at the
edge of the Golden Triangle. There were stumps where the central pavilion had stood. The trees lying
on the ground were scoured bare. Sleet had begun to gather along their trunks. He hoped it wouldn’t
turn to snow and lie; it was hard enough keeping his footing. When he got to the Victorian district he
was surprised to see smoke leaking from one of the heaps. He made his way over, cautiously, but it
was just a random fire burning along a beam, some stray electrical spark, perhaps, or friction. Two
rows away the houses were in better shape. Some only had holes in the roofs and lopped-off
chimneys. The windows were mostly out. He could hop through the bays if the lintels were safe.

He always called out to make sure they were empty first. It wasn’t really etiquette. It wasn’t really
robbing. It was retrieval of what had been abandoned. He’d been in some of them before, checking
for food, batteries, essentials. They had been lovely places once, owned by doctors and lawyers, he
imagined. There were remnants – cast-iron fireplaces, painted tiles; even some crescents of stained
glass hanging on above the door frames. Damp and fungus and lichen grew inside the walls. He tried
a couple, searching through the downstairs rooms – he never went upstairs if he could help it, it was
too dangerous. The wind moaned through the rooms, shifting wet curtains and making the peeling
wallpaper flicker. There were pulpy masses on the shelves, rotting covers, the sour smell of
macerating paper.

He stepped among the detritus, broken glass and broken furniture, digging through piles, tossing
collapsed volumes aside. He’d been dreaming about finding a complete works – that would really be
something special – bound in plastic perhaps, unviolated. But, like Bibles, they were the first to go,
their pages wafer-thin and frail. He’d studied the play in school, not with any particular enjoyment.
He could remember bits of it, the parts he’d had to read out. As wicked dew as e’er my mother
brush’d with raven’s feather from unwholesome fen drop on you both! A south-west blow on ye . . .
Perhaps Helene had taught it. Reading it again might help her, if she could begin to think differently.
She could read it while she nursed the baby. She could think about the good things that remained. All
he needed were the last two acts. He’d found sections of the rest, dried the pages, sorted the scenes
and put them in order, as best he could. There’d been some extensive gluing – it wasn’t an attractive
gift, by any stretch.

After ten or eleven houses he was starting to lose hope and worry about the daylight. The wind was
not letting up: if anything it was gaining power. There had been a couple of worryingly big bangs
nearby, something shattering. He went back out on to the street and made his way further into the
Golden Triangle. There was a big house further along, free-standing, walled. It had upper bays as well
as lower. A vicarage, maybe. Part of the roof was gone. The gate was padlocked but the frame had
come away from the post and he forced his way through the gap. In the garden the plant pots and
urns were smashed apart but one of the small fruit trees was still standing, defiantly, petrified black
globes hanging from its lower branches. He went through the lower window, down a hallway. He
knew, even before he got to the big room at the back of the house, that he was going to find what he
was looking for. Fortune favours the brave, he thought. He forced a swollen door into a parlour. The
walls had once been red but were now darker, browny, like blood that had dried. There was a
fireplace, heaped full of clinker and charred wood, pieces of chimney brick and sleeving. There was a
man sitting in a chair, a corpse. His eyelids were shrinking back; some wisps of hair left on his head.
The skin was yellow and tight and retreating off the bone. A blanket was wrapped around his
shoulders. There was no bad smell. He didn’t look too closely.

He went to the shelves. There were rows and rows of hardbacks. He could even read the titles on
some of the spines. There was a collection of Shakespeares, mottled, mould blooming along them,
but readable. He found it in the middle. He took off his gloves and opened it carefully; the edges of
the paper were moist, stuck, and they tore slightly when moved, but it held together. He flicked
gently to the end. I’ll deliver all; and promise you calm seas, auspicious gales and sail so expeditious
that shall catch your royal fleet far off.
He smiled. He took off his rucksack, wrapped the book in a plastic bag and a towel and put it inside
one of the small compartments. He put the rucksack back on, clicked the straps across his chest,
drew them tight, and put on his gloves. It would be a good house to go through for other things, but
he didn’t want to get caught out and not be able to get across town and over The Huff to the
longbarn. He didn’t want to leave Helene alone longer than he had to. She might be having the baby.
He would come back, after Christmas, and search properly.

He closed the door on the dead man. On the way out he saw his reflection in the dusty, cracked hall
mirror. The hood was drawn tightly around his head; he was earless and bug-eyed, like an alien. The
metallic tape around his neck looked like grey scales. His face was filthy and covered with cuts. He
put out his sore tongue. Suppose he wasn’t really human any more, he thought. Suppose he was a
kind of demon, made in this place. How would he know? But he felt human; he remembered feeling
human. His knee hurt. And he could use a can opener. And he liked Christmas. He turned away from
the mirror and climbed back out of the window. Snow was driving past on the wind.
This article appears in the 19 December 2013 issue of the New Statesman, Christmas Triple Issue

Published in the NewStatesman, 6 January 2014.

https://www.newstatesman.com/culture/2013/12/then-later-his-ghost

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