Umshado by Vanrahd

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CHAPTER 1.

This day is not suppose to be like this. What is suppose to be the happiest day of my parents lives has turned
out to be the worst. Just a week before my sister's "so called wedding" must take place, she left a letter
stating that she's not pregnant for the man she has to marry, she doesn't love him and she has eloped to marry
the father of her child. We don't know where she is and everyone has been calling her but her phone is
switched off but I think she changed her numbers.
My mom has been crying non stop all week and dad being him has been roaring like a caged lion because he
can be pretty strict sometimes....who am I kidding most of the time, so this behavior from my sister shook
everyone mostly my parents coz she's the apple of their eyes. So today is the day where the negotiations must
conclude and everyone is on edge coz we don't know what my dad is going to tell her fiance's family.
I'm lungi mazibuko, I'm 25 and I'm the second born, of Thuli and sipho mazibuko. My elder sister is nobuhle
mazibuko she's 30 the one who ran away and then our little brother thami mazibuko who's 20. My dad is 57,
mom is 50 and we live comfortably and we not rich or poor. We live in Mpumalanga province Standerton.
My dad is a correctional officer at the Department of Correctional Services. Mom is a teacher at a primary
school and my older sister was or is working in Joburg for some law firm as registry clerk and I work as a
secretary for some real estate company and my brother is studying civil engineering at TUT.
I know why you're wondering why I'm not living at my own place as I'm 25 well I tried but dad refused when
I told him and he said I'll leave this house the day I get married. I think it's because he wanted to control me.
They provide us with everything we need but it has never been a secret that nobuhle is their favourite child.
So you can imagine the shock they felt when they read that letter.
My brother found it, came to my room and we read it before we took it to them. Dad has been been mum
about it the whole week thinking buhle will show up before the week ends but she didn't so he had no choice
but to call our uncles and tell them what happend.
My uncles and dad have been discussing a way forward since they arrived in the morning because today my
sister's in-laws are coming to finalise the Amalobo negotiations. I know the in-laws of my sister are rich and
so is her fiancee. I have never seen him or heard of him but maybe my parents do but I'm not sure because my
sister came home one day and announced that there's a man who wants to marry her, he's rich and hearing that
my dad's ears started ringing and he agreed to start the lobola negotiations as soon as possible.
Mom told anyone and everyone that her daughter is going to marry a rich man from Joburg who lives in
Sandton. She was so excited and started to interview people who'll do the catering and decor because her
princess deserves only the best. She's in her bedroom right now because she said she thinks she's going to
have a heart attack.
We're in the kitchen and it's me, my cousin simphiwe I call her Sims then her mom who is my aunt. The mood
is sour and it's like someone has died and we're preparing for a funeral.
Sims: " Luh "
Me: " Sim" I look at her as I'm busy gratting the carrots

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Sims:" Buhle really ran away? "
Me:" You heard it yourself when dad read the letter again to everyone "
Sims:" She has always been selfish, look at what she did"
Me:" Shh... You dont want mommy dearest to her you say that"
Sims:" Oh It serves them right"
Me:" Obviously " We both giggle and mom enters the kitchen while we're giggling.
Mom:" You are all laughing because what is happening is funny?, what are you laughing at? " She asks
angrily
Sims:" So we must not laugh now because buhle ran our away?, it's not our fault aunt that she did yoh "
Mom:" Shut up simphiwe! , you are all so jealous of her. You knew that in this family she's the only one
who'll be more successful in anything more than all of you" She looks at me when she says those words.
Sometimes I wonder and ask myself why does my mother hate me so much. I keep quite, look down and
continue what I'm doing.
Sims:" Yeah right she got successful by getting pregnant for another man " She says rolls her eyes
Me:" Sim please don't say anything "
Sims:" Aunt shouldn't say that. We'll also be successful so when she says that it's like she's putting a curse on
us "
Mom:" That's why you have 2 kids with different fathers, it's that big mouth of yours that you open like your
legs. Where are their fathers hmm?, you see what I mean...jealousy" That shuts sims up and she tears up.
Mom leaves the kitchen and my aunts don't say anything, they just keep quiet because they scared of her.
Me:" I'm sorry sims, you know how mom can be"
Sims:" It's okay sis and she is right. Me and my big mouth don't know when to shut it" I hug her and we
continue to cook in silence. We can hear there's a disagreement in the living room about something and then
my uncle who's dads younger brother says " This is wrong sipho" Then at that moment we hear cars hooting
outside and the whole house goes dead quiet.

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Dad:" Why is everyone still in the kitchen, did you not hear the cars hooting outside?, go outside and
welcome them" We all go outside and start ululating, making happy noise. My mom is in her bedroom
sleeping I think, I don't know if she's allowed to be outside and shame I feel very sorry for her but there's
nothing I can do to make her feel better. Sims and I leave our aunts outside and other cousins and we go to the
kitchen to prepare refreshments for the elders.
Sims:" I wonder what's going to happen after they find out that buhle is gone"
Me:" I think they'll just ask for their money back and leave..... I mean there's nothing they can do".
Sims:" I hope so sis"
We finish preparing drinks and snacks then leave them on the table for our aunts to take them to the living
where everyone is sitted then we go to sit in my bedroom and my brother enters and closes the door behind
him.
Thami:" Guys why are you sitting here it's so hot, you should be outside under the tree shade"
Me:" It's also hot outside thami yoh and where were you because I haven't seen you since the morning."
Him:" I went to see my friends couldn't stand the tension in the house"
Sims:" Buhle and her drama, one day she's going to regret what she did"
Him:" I doubt the spoiled princess will regret it " We all laugh.
Me:" Let's take a walk and go to the shops, it's not like we're needed here"
Thami:" Yeah plus maybe we'll buy 12 savanah and hide them then we'll drink them here in your room luh "
Me:" I'll buy them but they shouldn't see us" I take my R300 on my purse then comb my afro then look at my
long sleeve orange maxi dress and I look good then we leave.
Thami:" Aw my beautiful yellow bone sister, if only it was you getting married I would been on top of the
world right now really happy! "
Me:" Ugh please, I need a boyfriend first then all of that will come later" We laugh
Thami:" what happened to Paul I thought you liked him? "
Me:" He got tired of me because you know how dad is and so he couldn't deal with it"
Thami:" He didn't deserve you and it's his loss" He puts his arm around my shoulder and the other around
sims shoulder we continue to walk.
Me:" Ncooh thanks lil bro" I pinch his cheek, he smacks my hand off and we laugh.
Thami:" I'm taller than you so I'm your big brother " I roll my eyes.
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The cars outside our yard, they are huge SUVs all in black color, yoh I have never seen such huge cars. We
pass them then go straight down the road to the shops. We are laughing making jokes and as we're walking
there's this huge Porsche car maroon matte in colour and it looks absolutely beautiful and out of place
because it is just standing there on it's own.
The windows are tinted and you can't see inside but you can make out the figures in the car. When thami sees
the car he makes all kinds noise praising the car and talking about all the stuff it has and does blah, blah, blah
and we laugh at him. As we pass the car about few minutes there's this thing that tells me to look back and I
do and see the window of the car we have passed has been rolled down. Someone has opened it and it feels
like they watching us and it freaks me out.
Me:" Guys maybe we should go back home, I don't feel safe"
Thami:" What's wrong luh? "
Me:" I don't know, there's this weird feeling like something bad is going to happen and it's scaring me "
Thami:" Why don't you guys go back and I'll go buy the stuff. Stay in your room and I'll find you guys there".
He kisses my forehead then leaves and we head back.
We pass that car again and I try to look inside but it's dark. We get home, go to my room and we can hear the
families arguing and it doesn't sound good at all.
Sims:" I think the in-laws have been told that their bride is M.I.A" She laughs but I just shrug my shoulders.
Me:" Cousin I have this feeling at the pit of my stomach that something bad is going to happen "
Sims:" Don't worry sis, the only thing bad that happens is gone and so we don't have to worry. They'll take
their money and go. Simple as that " She claps her hands.
Me:" I hope you are right sis " Right then my aunts come followed by my dad and one of them is crying.
Me:" Ncane what's wrong?"
Dad:" Both of you take these blankets and cover yourselfs and follow your aunt "
Me:" Dad what's going on you're scarring me? "
Dad:" Do as I say Lungi now!"
Sims:" Mama what's going on?"
Her:" I'm sorry Lungi I really am" She takes the big blankets and cover me with it and does the same to sims
and we're just standing there dumbfounded not really understanding what's going on.
She takes my hand and gives it to sims and we hold hands and she takes mine to hers.
Her:"follow me" She leaves I'm in the middle and sims is behind me. We follow her to the living room and it
gets quiet and I finally realise what is about to happen and my heart drops..... No!, God don't let it be
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please!.... Show me that I'm wrong.
Tears fall down on my face behind the blanket and I wipe them off because I know if dad sees them, he'll be
mad at me. They sit us down then I hear my uncle talk.
Uncle:" We hear your demands and it is the right thing to do. These are also the other beautiful flowers you
can choose to replace the one who disappointed all of us. Any of them would make a beautiful daughter in-
law." Oh my God it is really happening. My dad and uncles have decided that one of us is going to replace
ubuhle, how can they do this to us?. My tears won't stop falling
Someone:"we have another request here "
Uncle:" talk"
Someone:" Since your daughter has shamed us and disrespected our son, we want him to choose for himself
who will replace your daughter " huh?, what?
Dad:" But we haven't finished other matters" My dad says angrily
Someone:" That will follow after but for now we want our son to come and choose for himself "
Dad:" Fine. Tell him to come! ". The person leaves to go call my sister's fiancee. I move my hand under the
blanket and search for sims hand and I find it and hold it for dear life. I hear my uncle whisper next to me
Uncle:" I'm sorry my daughter but I know he's going to choose you". This time I don't try to hold back that I'm
crying and I just let it all out.
Dad:" Don't you dare embarrass me like your sister. Do you hear me Lungi? " I keep quiet
Dad:" Do you hear me Lungi? "
Me:"ye... Yes dad"
Dad:" Wipe those damn tears off " I do as he says but they continue to still fall.
The atmosphere changes when they get in. I haven't seen him but I feel him, his presence and aura is too
strong yoh I fell goosebumps covering my whole body and I shiver. I grip sims hand much harder then I hear
her winces I loosen my grip.
He is sitting down somewhere on my left I think because I can feel his eyes on the left side of my head like he
can see me through the blanket.
Uncle:" MaMtshali come on this side so you can take off the blankets off their heads so son in-law can
choose who he wants" I hear my aunt approaching
Person:" Cha" (No) the room goes quiet and I hold my breath thinking he doesn't want any of us and this and I
cross my fingers and pray that I'm right.
Uncle:" What do you mean no? "
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Him:" Ngikhetha lona " ( I choose her). I don't know if he pointed at sims or me and I just hope it's sims hw
chose.
Uncle:" Ok son, maMtshali lift off the blanket so he can see her "
Him:" I'll do it myself " His voice is not to deep but it's scary. I feel like I'm going to pass out. I feel sims
letting go of my hand and standing up and I breathe out deeply and I'm about to thank God that he didn't
choose me, when I feel the blanket being taken off my head and I close my eyes not wanting to open them
because I know I'm going to see the man who has just turned my life upside down.
Him:" Lungi" He says and I fall apart.

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Me:" No.... No dad please don't to this!" I'm crying
Him:" Look at me!" He says with so much authority that I open my eyes and lift my head to look at him and
see that he is standing and my face is on the same level with his crotch. If I were to kneel in front of him, his
crotch would be right on my face. I don't look at him, I just look down again kneeling then make my way to
my dad.
Me:" Baba...I don't want to marry my sister's fiancee please dad I'm begging you, I don't want to! ". I don't
care that I'm creating drama but there's no way I'm going to marry a man I don't know, even love and worse a
man who loves my sister and has slept with her.
Dad:" Stop being dramatic. We have concluded the negotiations and you will step in for your sister and
marry into this family, it is tradition and it has always been done. You and your husband will grow the
Gumede family tree with many children. Do you hear me lungi? " I shake my head no looking at him, straight
in his eyez . I know doing this, is very disrespectful and in front of people because it would seem that I do
not respect him as my father and the head of the whole family.
Dad:" Oh so you are disrespecting me in front of people, your in-laws!. You want them to say I didn't raise
you with values, morals and respect?."
Me:" Kodwa baba anina ndaba ukuth mina ngifunani, why ningaba buyiseli imali yabo babuyele emuva la
baqhamuka khona?" ( but dad you all don't care about what I want. Why don't you give them their money back
so they can go back to where they come from?).
My dad stands up and slaps me across the face so hard I see stars. I cover my face shocked not believing that
my dad has landed his hands on me like that.
Dad:" I tell you what to do and you want to tell me what I must do, who's the parent here? " He tries to slap
me again but my uncle stops him.
Uncle:" Bafo stop. She is still in shock because she didn't know that this was going to happen. Lungi my
child....." he comes and crouches down next to me and holds my face and wipes my tears and I hug him crying
my lungs out.
uncle:" .....shhhh, don't cry my child. it's tradition arranged marriages have been done since the time of our
ancestors, accept your husband. He will love you and you will learn to love him too. He will take care of
you, treat you like a queen that you are. The Gumede's will love you once they get to know what an amazing
young woman you are." I bury my face on his chest and he holds me tighter.
uncle:" I know this is very hard to accept but please do and I promise you, you won't regret it. You are our
only hope and I have put my faith in you so please don't disappoint us, you hear me Luh? ".
It's days like these I wish my father was the one holding me like this and saying all these things but I know
that will never happen. It will be always be wishful thinking and I hope my uncle is right that I won't regret it.
me:" yes uncle I hear you. I agree to marry him and I promise I won't disappoint you". I hear someone
ululating and then everyone on the house is happy I think excluding me.

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My uncle kissea my forehead and stands me up and all the while my 'husband ' to be has been silent and
watching the whole thing and I'm now embarrassed that he had to witness everything. My aunt takes me back
to my bedroom and when we pass the kitchen everyone goes silent. I get to my bedroom and I find my brother
and sims there. She closes the door and I just stand there numb, my mind going through 1000 directions.
I slide down the door and sit on the floor, head on my knees and arms around my legs. Sims comes and hugs
me and my brother too and I let it all out. They don't say anything and just hold me. I'm thankful that I have
them in my life because without them, I wouldn't know what to do right now.
Thami:" we got you luh...us against the world, the three musketeers"
Sims:" he's marrying us too you know, because we're a package. You can't marry one without the others" I
giggle
Thami:" Ew sims, I'm not gay but yeah we're a package, buy one get two free " we laugh
Thami:" in this case he bought one and got 3 for free....lucky son of a gun" I laugh loud through the tears and
thinking what have I gotten myself into. someone tries to open the door and we get up, it opens and it's my
mother.
Mom:" you got what you wanted heh?....my daughter's life. I always knew you were jealous of her but this is
too much. you are going to live the life she was meant to live? " I have seen her angry but this is something
else and why is she still blaming me for her daughters behaviour?.
Thami:" mama this is not right!, buhle left on her own and ran away so why are you blaming luh?" he asks her
getting annoyed
Mom:" shut up, I'm not talking to you "
Me:" why do you hate me so much mama, what did I ever do to you because you are all now punishing me for
something I didn't do? "
Mom:" you are the biggest mistake of my life lungi and I wish you were never born " I feel like I've been cut
into tiny pieces by a very sharp knife and tears that were starting to dry up fall down again.
sims:" nooo aunty...why ukhohlakale kanjena? ". ( nooo aunty, why are you this wicked? " she says with tears
on her eyes
Thami:" it's better that luh is getting married so she won't experience this abuse from you and dad. If it were
up to me she would leave this hell whole we call a home tonight with her husband". mom clicks her tongue
and leaves banging the door behind her.
Me:" Can you guys leave I'd like to be alone "
Sims:" no luh we won't leave you alone" I sit on my bed and I feel my eyes getting heavy because of this
headache that I'm suddenly having.
Thami:" Sims can you give us a few minutes alone? "

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Sims:" sure. I love you lungi and you are the best sister I've ever had and I'm here for you anytime " we hug
and she leaves.
Thami:" let's take this off, it looks like it's giving you a headache " he takes off my head wrap
Me:" you know...sometimes I think that I'm adopted because why would mom and dad hate me so much? "
Thami:" I used to think it too because you don't look like us , you have this huge soft curly afro and plus
you're a yellow bone" he smiles
Me:" you said used to so what changed?"
Thami:" uncle loves you luh like you're his daughter and he calls you 'Luh kababa'. I think maybe mom had an
affair with uncle then she fell pregnant with you? " uhh hold up, what is my brother saying?
Me:" maybe but mom?....no!. she loves dad too much to do that to him"
Thami:" we should ask uncle one day, I know he'll tell us the truth"
Me:" thank you bro I don't know what I would do without you"
Thami:" good thing I'm here and we won't get to find out. married or not I'll always be there for you" we hug.
Thami:" lungi if you don't want to do it then don't. I'll help you run away, I have some money saved up and
you can go to cape town or anywhere where they wont find you" I know he'll do that for me.
Me:" I know you mean well thami but I made a promise to dad and uncle that I won't disappoint them. If
anything I don't want to disappoint uncle at all"
Thami:" I knew you were going to say that and this is why I want to say this to you. Marry him, be happy and
make his life a living hell and the best one. He chose you for a reason, he could have chosen usimphiwe but
he didn't so that means he saw something good in you and he wants it and you in his life. maybe it's fate that
made things to happen like this. love him and make him really happy so much that he'll forget that there were
other women before you especially our sister"
Me:" but how do I do that. I don't even know him, his name or what he likes and he slept with our sister
thami!...how do I even begin to do that with him knowing he did that with our sister? "
Thami:" eish that is hard but you are a woman....you'll know what to do. Look don't stress about that now
you'll cross that bridge when you get to it "
Me:" Only if it were that easy thami "
Thami:" I'm sorry about what mom said. She should be happy and not taking out her anger and stress on you,
promise me that you'll be happy with Mbuso and if he does anything to hurt you let me know okay? "
Me:" wait, how do you know his name?"
Thami:" Because I met him the first time they were here"
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Me:" ok I promise I'll tell you. So this is it....i'm getting married to Mbuso Gumede I wonder when? "
Thami:" you want me to show you his picture?"
Me:" where did you get it?"
Thami:" outside when he was entering the yard, he' is tense"
Me:" yeah I felt it too " then we hear everyone in the house shouting , clapping and ululating, car hooters
going on and off.
Me:" here goes my life....I guess they are done" I tear up
Thami:" let me go outside and see" I nod, he leaves and I lay down on the bed and close my eyes. I must have
fallen asleep because I feel sims shaking me and her mom smiling looking at me with my other aunt.
Sims:" it's done...come now so you can help us dishi the food "
aunt:" I know everything went totally different and we weren't expecting it will end like this but I'm glad it's
you luh who's going to get married " she kisses my cheek then hugs me. Everyone seems happy but not me and
definitely not my parents.
Simsmom:" go wash your face and hold your head high when you get into the kitchen, so you can dish up for
your husband "I almost roll my eyes
Me:" thank you aunty" they leave us and we go to the bathroom and I wash my face. She takes out her make
up bag when I'm done and I look at her.
Me:" no make up sis, I want him to see me looking like this so he knows that I'm not happy at all "
Sims:" he's one lucky man to have you sis because I know you're going to make him really happy and I knew
he was going to choose you "
Me:" really sims and how did you know that? " I roll my eyes
Sims:" don't roll your eyes at me young lady " she says laughing
Sims:" well I knew coz he has been watching you the first time they came here. You didn't see him because
aunt was buy sending you up and down"
Me:" I never noticed but why would he when he was going to marry buhle? "
Sims:" I don't know cousin but the way he looked at you was different to how he looked at buhle. With you
there was hunger and something else and with her when I saw them talking last time he looked bored,
annoyed and mostly angry at her" she laughs
Me:" with buhle well never know the real reason why they were together and wanting to get married "
Sims:" I peeked at him when we were sitting in the living room and his eyes were on you the whole entire
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time" I snort and shake my head.
Me:" let's go before your mom shouts at us " I look at my face and I'm red. ears, nose, cheeks, my eyes red
and puffy.
Chapter 3 Continual.
We go to the kitchen and we find mbuso's aunt. When she sees me she smiles, her smile is warm and inviting
and I can't help it but smile a little. She comes to me and holds my hands.
Mbuso'saunt:" I know I'm not your mom or trying to take her place but I'm here for you too lungi. I'm mbuso's
aunt which means I'm your aunt too now and I'm aunt Lwethu. Let's go to the living so we can give you the
clothes you'll wear when you visit oGumede come".
I follow her to the living room and everyone is there excluding my mom and husband. My aunt ululates when
they see me and start singing, aunt lwethu sits me down the mat and then puts a lovely light blanket on my
shoulders.
Auntlwethu:" Whenever we visit your house or when you are going to visit any of the Gumede households
you must always have this around your shoulders.... " Everyone agrees and I nod
Auntlwethu:"this is a lovely head wrap which from now on you'll use to cover that beautiful hair of yours.
Since you are a new bride. You will always have these on you so every man out there will know you are
taken, you're someone's wife ". Everyone is pretty happy saying things like I look beautiful and I make a
beautiful Makoti hheh these people. I feel numb.... I'm numb. After that she stands me up and we leave the
living room and go to the kitchen.
Sims:" Yoh mtase you look so beautiful " I glare at her and she laughs
Auntlwethu:" Come, your husband is waiting for you. He wants to see you " She says smiling and excited.
Me:" Aunt kmele siphake... " ( we have to dish up)
Sims:" Go mtase I'll dish up" Sims hugs me and I leave with aunt lwethu and I'm so nervous
Me:" Does my dad know I'm going to him now? "
Auntlwethu:" Don't worry he knows " I see many people sitting in the garage drinking and having fun. We
pass them and go outside the yard and she takes me to that Porsche I saw earlier and stand outside the door.
Her:" I'll send simphiwe to come and get you when it's time. Use this time to get to know him" I nod. Before
she can open the area door, he opens it and climbs out.

Mbuso:" Thank you aunty for everything " He says and hugs her then looks at me
Mbuso:" Ngena " (Get in) He says like he's angry or annoyed God I don't know what's going on now. Hearing
that kind of tone just shuts me down, I get in the car and see there's a driver.... Really he has someone who
drives him? Yoh!

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Auntlwethu:" Walk me to the gate" She says to mbuso he closes my door and they leave
Me:" Sawubona"( good afternoon)
Driver:" Yebo maGumede" ( hello Mrs Gumede) then he keeps quiet no how are you? , or hello to you too? ,
something else but nothing yoh.
As I'm inside the car I can see clearly outside and I see mbuso's aunt lwethu talking like she's giving mbuso a
lecture. I wonder if it's about me or what. Maybe he doesn't want this too and he was forced..... God I'm
gonna be stuck with a man who'll hate me. My train of thought is disturbed when he gets in the car. He
breathes out deeply then looks at me and I don't look at him, I just stare at the drivers head gripping my hands
tight.
Him:"drive there" There.... There where? But I don't ask.

Mbuso:" You want some water? "


Me:" Yes please" I clear my voice because I hate how weak and scared I sound right now. He gives me a
bottle of water, I take making sure I don't touch him and I drink all of it.
Mbuso:" You must have been thirsty " He's looking at me and I don't say anything
Mbuso:" Lungi. Look at me!" I turn and look at him and I see he's a very handsome wow. It's like God and his
parents took time to make him, like they weren't in any hurry but there's something scary about him.
Mbuso:" I know I'm ugly but can you at least look at me, I won't bite" Ugly who?, nikka please!
Me:" Where are we going? "
Mbuso:" Are you scared of me lungi? " Ofcos I am but I shake my head no instead. He puffs out, shakes his
head like he's getting frustrated well so am I dude.
The car finally stops and I see we're at some huge house in town. The opens and he gets out first extends his
hand for me to take but I ignore it and get out. He smirks and raises his left eyebrow like really you ignored
my gesture?.
Mbuso:" I'll call you when I need you. Feel free to go anywhere " The driver nods and gets in the car, drives
out and the gate closes. He takes my hand, I try to pull it off but he holds it tight. We walk to the house and
enter through the sitting room then he let's go of my hand and turns and locks the door.
Mbuso:" I rented the house, so don't worry it's just the two of us" Like that makes me feel at ease yoh
Mbuso:" Come let's to the bedroom " Oh my God!. He already wants to sleep with me?
Me:" No. I'm not going there" I shake my head furiously and he looks at me like he's bored
Him:" It's either you come by choice or I make you and you don't want that trust me". My heart is beating so
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Mbuso:" I'm waiting" He puts his hands on his pockets and looks at me and I feel my tears threatening to
come out.
Mbuso:" I'm going upstairs, don't make me come and get you" He leaves me standing there and I cry. Why did
my sister have to run away and why did my dad allow this to happen? . I look upstairs then look at the door
we came in from and look upstairs again and I make my decision.
Running away would have been a better choice for me but I know it would have gotten me into trouble with
my dad and I promised my uncle and him that I wouldn't dissapoint them. I make my way up the stairs and I
see an open door and I get in then I hear water running in the en suite bathroom and I think maybe he's taking
a shower but I only see his jacket in the bed and I stand there awkwardly not knowing if I should sit on the
bed or what but nope I'm going to stand right here, there's no way I'm sitting on that bed.
He comes out of the bathroom still wearing his clothes but his shirt is bloody and he's carrying a first aid kit
on his left hand and his right hand is bleeding and he's covering it with a towel.
Me:" Oh my God what happened? " I rush to him and take the first aid kit from him and pull him back to the
bathroom and then I see he broke the vanity mirror... He punched it. I look at him and he's looking at me then I
take his hand and pull of the towel and see his hand is getting swollen. I open the tap and test it the water is
cold then take the bloody hand and rinse off the blood.
Me:" I don't see any glasses stuck.... Do you feel like there's some still left? "
Him:" No " I take my hands and his bloody one and feel if there's any glass there stuck in his skin but I feel
nothing then I wash it off under the tap then take the towel and dry it.
Me:" Sit here" He sits on top of the closed toilet bowl then I kneel in front of him and take the first Aid kit
and do what my mom taught me once like cleaning the wound and disinfect it. I can feel his eyes on me the
whole entire time, I even forgot that I was crying when he wipes my tears off my face with his other hand. I
won't look at him not when I feel this weak and vulnerable. His hands are strong and big like his one hand
can cover both of mine.

Me:" Nothing is broken and the swelling will go down. The cuts are not that deep they won't need stitching
but I have to cover it so it won't be infected "
Him:" Do it" That's all he says and I do. When I'm done I stand up
Me:" I'll go look for the broom to clean here" I go before he even answers and I look around the kitchen find
the broom, make my way up again then find him sitting on the bed. I sweep the glasses off, go to the kitchen
and dump them in the bin and then I stand there for what feels like forever because I'm scared of going up
there again. I wipe my tears off and make my way there again. I get in and stand next to the door and he looks
at me.
Him:" Come here" He says but not so gently
Me:" Please..... " I beg him
Him:" For the last time lungi come here!" This man scares me, his authoritive voice, just him. My feet carry
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me to him and I stand next to the bed then he looks at me.
Him:" Take off your shoes and get on bed" My eyes get big like bugs eyes and I just want to run out of here.
He stands up so fast I didn't see it coming and I fall flat on my ass crying more because of my embarrassment
now. He takes off my sandals one at a time then takes my hand and help me up.
Him:" Get on the bed I'll be back" He goes to the bathroom and I get my ass on that bed then he comes back
with a glass of water and two pills.
Him:" Drink it's for the headache " I take them and my hands are shaking and I'm thinking what if he wants to
drug me then have his way with me?
Him:" I won't drug you just drink it" I take his word and drink them after I'm done he takes the glass and puts
it on the dresser then takes off shirt and his shoes and lays on the bed and looks at me and I crawl to the
middle of the bed lay down facing away from him.
My body is shaking and I can't sstop myself. He drags my body close to his without any warning and I let out
a loud sob, cover my face and that sob turns into a whole lot of ugly crying. I feel him trying to turn me to
face him but I refuse and I fight him. He's stronger than me because he manages to turn me and I keep hitting
him with my fists and legs but he puts his legs on top of mine and cages me and holds me tight and I fist his
white t-shirt and bury my face on his chest and just cry.

Him:" I'm sorry I know you don't want this"


Me:" Then why do it.... Let me go please, I'm not the one you wanted" He's the only who can stop all of this
charade
Him:" You're the one I want and I'm not letting you go.... Ever" He says and I cry hard.
Him:" Shhhh it's okay, let it all out" He keeps saying that over and over again until my tears ssto falling only
hiccups left.
I feel warm, protected... Wow I love this feeling coz it feels good and the arms that are holding me are
holding me tight like they don't wanna let me go. This feels amazing and hmmm soft, it smells nice too. I rub
my face and I nip on that skin and it's soft, never had I ever had this kind of a dream and I don't want to wake
up. I don't nip at it again but kiss it this time and I get a tingly feeling all over my body and I sigh when I feel
something poking me in my stomach and that feels too real not like a dream. I move my hand towards that
thing poking me and I feel a hand stopping me and then it dawns on me that I'm not having a dream, it's really
happening and I freeze.
Him:" Open your eyes and look at me" I shake my head no but he puts his finger under my chin and moves it
up then I feel his breath on my face and I swallow then open my eyes and see I'm face to face with his mouth
that is full and juicy and I lick my lips.

Him:" Fuck don't do that" He says it like his mouth is dry, I lick them again... Damn what am I doing... This is
not me, nope no ways but it is me and I have no idea what I'm doing.
Him:" You're playing with fire and you'll get burned" His lips are close to mine and if I just move my head
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up again a little our lips would touch.

Me:" I'm not scared of fire " I tell him... Haibo lungi. He buries his hand on my hair and grips tight and I
make the uh sound because that hurt.

Him:" You don't know what you're talking about "


Me:" But I know enough to know that you want me" I point to his dick with my eyes
Him:" I'll break you"
Me:" I'm already broken. There's nothing more left" The phone rings before he answers me.
Him:" What?.., now?....why?.... Ok.... Yes" He hangs up and looks at me
Him:" We have to go back" We get off the bed and I go fix myself in the bathroom then we leave the house
and I see it's already dark.
Me:" Is my dad mad? " I ask him and he pulls me to him and I let him I don't know why or maybe it's that
moment we shared in the house. I lay my head on his chest.
Him:" He won't you ever lay his hands on you again, youre mine now. " I breath out but I'm still scared.
Me:" Will you hurt me? " I ask him looking straight at his eyes
Him:"I won't intentionally hurt you. I promise "
Me:" Thank you for not lying to me" Then he decides to kiss me. Lightly and softly and I gasp then he goes in
and kisses me deeply and I kiss him back and it feels amazing. His lips are soft and his mouth is warm and it
does things to my body then suddenly the door opens we break the kiss and my mom is standing there with
aunt lwethu and I turn red all over my face.
Auntlwethu:" You've been gone for 4 hours mbuso and I've been calling you! " She's mad.
Mbuso:" We were sleeping and I didn't hear the phone ring " He says it like it's not a big deal and worse if
all in front of my mom and she gasps and if looks could kill, I would be dead right now.

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CHAPTER 4.
Here I am at the court room with both my parents, younger brother and sister cousin, my uncle and his wife
then Mbuso with his parents and other family members. I can't believe I'm getting married and never have I
ever thought that it will be in a court room full of strangers and worse I'm getting married to a man I've only
met once, I don't know him and do not love.
Tears have been falling non stop since the weekend because my mother blamed me for buhle's disappearance
and when Mbuso said he didn't hear the phone because we were " Sleeping " When mbuso and hi s family
left and I got into the house I was met by a fist from my father when my mom told her that I had already slept
with umbuso. They didn't even let me explain what really happened and I still have a black eye from my
father.
When Mbuso and his family saw me they were shocked. I tried to cover the bruise but it wouldn't let me...
Being a yellow bone sucks sometimes. I wipe my face as the judge is busy talking about marriage and all you
can feel in the atmosphere is tension. Some of the people are happy but my parents, me and this man standing
next to me we are not. I can feel his anger, hatred and all of that is directed to me. I can't believe my parents
decided to sacrifice me just so their precious name won't be dragged through the mud.
Judge:" Please face each other and repeat after me.... Look at each other " We face each other, I lift my head
then look straight in his eyes and I see annoyance
Judge:" Now since you don't have any vows you wrote for yourselves, please repeat after me"
Mbuso:" Can you skip all of that and just go to the part where we say I do" I hear my cousin gasp in shock but
I'm not shocked at all.
Judge:" Lungi Mazibuko are you here at your own free will and no one is forcing you to be here to marry this
man. If so say yes and if not say no". The temperature in the room changes to like zero degrees despite that
it's summer. I think about what the judge says and 100℅ part of me doesn't want this at all but my family
didn't ask for this too.
Me:" I am here on my own free will" I answer and hear loud sighs and he asks mbuso the same question and
also gives the same answer I did.
Judge:" If there is anyone here who doesn't wish these two to get married speak now or forever hold your
peace" I look at my dad begging him one last time but he doesn't say anything just looks at me with no
emotion whatsoever.

Judge:" Please take her hands and repeat after me " My hands were tucked under my arms coz I'm so cold and
shaking so I pull them out and he takes them and I get shocked to feel that they are so warm. I thought they
would be cold just like how he looks.
Judge:" Do you Mbusowezwe Gumede take uLungile Mazibuko to be your wedded wife. To love and to
cherish. In sickness and in health. In good times and in bad times. For richer and for poor. Till death do you
apart? "

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Mbuso:" I do ". He doesn't even hesitate but answers looking at me like he's bored.
Judge:" Do you Lungile Mazibuko take Mbusowezwe Gumede to be your husband. To love and to hold. In
sickness and in health. In good times and in bad times. For richer and for poorer. Till death do you apart" I'm
literally shaking like I'm going faint.
Me:"I...I... I do" I say mbuso holds my hands tight .
Judge:" I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss your wife" I know he's not going to kiss me but
I'm wrong. He brings my body close to his, puts his hands on my face and kissss me but I don't kiss him back
coz my mouth is closed but then he bites me and I gasp then he takes that opportunity to get his tongue in me
and forces me to reciprocate. His kiss is hard but his lips are so soft and I almost moan but then he stops. I
hear giggles and I get so embarrassed
Judge:" I give you Mr and Mrs Gumede everyone " He starts to clap and soon everyone in the room joins him
and they all clap then they leave us with our witnesses. Mine is my cousin sims and his, is his brother.
We sign our marriage certificate and yes we are married in community of property... Which means what's
mine is his and what's his is mine. As of today I'm rich.... Don't know how rich I am but I am rich and that
doesn't make me feel at ease at all because for all I know he could be criminal. We leave the office and he's
with the same driver he was with on Friday. We sit in the backseat and the driver drives off. He is sitting
next to me and I'm looking outside the window as we pass building after building.
Mbuso:" I'm your husband now. You better get used to me" I ignore him
Mbuso:" How many times must I tell you to look at me when I'm talking to you"
Me:" Why are you doing this... What did I ever do to you? "
Mbuso:" Your sister fucked with a wrong man and unfortunately for you, you're the one who's gonna be
paying for her sins. I feel cold chills run down my back when he says that then my head starts aching.
Me:" Where are we going? "
Mbuso:" The hotel to have lunch with your family then after we fly to Joburg "
Me:" Fly how because we don't have an airport here? "
Mbuso:" You'll see, your dad hit you again? ". Yes and it's all your fault.
Me:" He didn't " He gives me oh really look. We arrive at the hotel and mbuso takes my hand, I try to pull it
off but he grips tight then opens the door. Everyone is here, they came here after they left us at the court. I
look around and see it's like some sort of wedding reception but it's so heartbreaking for me because I never
imagined the day I get married will be the saddest day of my life.
I feel like a part of me died today. My parents are sitting with my now in-laws and I don't see my uncle and
his wife anywhere and my heartbreaks even more. We go to them and sit down.
MaGumede:" Welcome to the family lungi. I'm glad to have another woman in the family " She hugs me
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smiling
Me:" Thank you ma" His dad smiles and looks at me like he feels sorry for me. My parents don't say
anything, I think they don't want to and I'm not sure if I want them to say anything.
Mbuso:" I know that this isn't what we expected to happen but because of buhle's actions I had to protect my
family's name and honor. So since we don't know anything about each other with my wife here, I was thinking
if you all can give us space and time to get to know each other, when we're ready we would invite all of you
over and have a family dinner" He wasn't asking for permission he was basically telling them.
MyDad:" We won't bother you. Take as much time as you need, even years if that's not enough" I couldn't
expect more from him because I know he doesn't care about me at all.
Fatherin-law:" We understand son. You and our daughter in-law can take as much time as you need and we
won't put pressure on you" his mom agrees
MaGumede:" But as for me and your aunt lwethu you can call us anytime, especially when Mbuso gives you
trouble. First thing in the morning I'll be there. Don't hesitate to call us ".
Me:" Thank you ma" I look at my mother and she looks like she wants to stick a knife on my eye "
Me:" Can I be excused, I want to talk to my brother and sister "
MaGumede:" Go ahead dear, mbuso will introduce you to your brother in-laws" We go to their table
Me:" Good afternoon " My brother stands up and hugs me tight. We hug for the longest then let go and I hug
Sims too.
Mbuso:" This is my brother Siyabonga and that is Zipho the last born ".
Me:" Nice to meet you both " I lift my hand to shake theirs
Siyabonga:" No hugs for us?.... Wow. " he says playfully then gives me a side hug
Zipho:" we are family and so we deserve those hugs too. Come here " My heart gets warm a little bit and I
smile for the first time today. He gives me a full tight hug like the one my brother gave me.
Mbuso:" That's enough zipho. Get yourself your own damn wife you can hug like that " The boys laugh. We
sit with them and the guys are talking and laughing and I'm playing with my food. I'm hungry but I can't eat and
this damn headache.
Sims:" Made you don't look good, drink some water "
Me:" Let's go to the ladies room" I stand then mbuso takes my hand
Mbuso:" Where are you going? "
Me:" To the ladies room. Do I need permission to go there.... Can I? " I know I've disrespected him, the
whole table gets quiet
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Mbuso:" You do. Go" Mxm we leave and as soon as I get inside the ladies room I pour water ony face.
Sims:" I can't believe he said that! " .
Me:" I feel like this is one big nightmare that I'm having. A series of bad dreams that continue to happen from
the last 2days and they are not going to stop anytime soon "
Sims:" He likes you luh, the way he looks at you wow"
Me:" Are you serious right now sims? " She's annoying me right now
Sims:" Seriously I have experience with men and I know when a man wants a woman and that man wants to
be in your pants so badb"
Me:" You know what?, I can't with you right now! "
Sims:" He's going to want to tap that ass tonight when you get to Joburg "
Me:" Oh my God just stop! . I don't need this and I didn't ask for this. My parents didn't even care whether I
wanted it or not. It should have been my choice not theirs and you're also busy telling me how mbuso wants
to to fuck me!..." I scream at her
Sims:" Ssshhh..... I'm sorry. It's not fair to you sis, I'm so sorry " We hug then I clean my face
Me:" Can you give me some pills the aching won't stop " She gives them to me and I drink.
Sims:" It's just stress sis, you'll be okay, hold on for me and be strong. You'll get through this " We leave and
go back to them.
Mbuso:"it's time to go I sigh then Sims and I hug and I wipe tears off her face.
Thami:" I'll see you soon okay and well talk on the phone everyday " He kisses my forehead and hugs me too.
I go to my parents and hug them too but they don't hug me back and it's fine.
Mom;" I hope he makes your life a living hell for stealing my daughters happiness "
Me;" How can you say that mama?...baba "
Dad:" Just go"
Mbuso:" Come lungi let's go" God he heard.
Me:" I love you both goodbye". We head inside the and I sit down and buckle up and close my eyes. The car
off it goes to somewhere just outside standerton like were going to Balfour but we take a gravel road that
leads to somewhere. He is looking at me like he's studying me
Him:" How bad is your headache? "
Me:" To a point where I can't open my eyes" He fishes out for something in the glove compactment and
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comes out with pills
Him:" They'll help with the headache drink" I drink them then he presses a button and my seat moves
backwards making it easier for me to sleep then I see him taking out his laptop and I close my eyes aand dose
off.
I feel someone shaking me softly, I open my eyes and see mbuso's face. I look around and see that we're
inside a small private jet that carries about 4 passangers. I don't remember getting inside the jet...he must
have carried me and I'm heavy.
Mbuso:" Wake up. We've landed "
Me:" Did you drug me? "
Him:" Why would I do that?, you had a headache and I was trying to get you some rest " I just nod. I unbuckle
then get up and make our way to the car, my whole body is stiff and the only thing I want to is fall face down
and sleep.
His phone keeps ringing and he declines all the calls. I won't ask who's calling because it's none of my
business. I can feel his eyes on me but I don't dare look at him because I'm scared of what's going to happen
when we get where he lives. He's so silent like he's not in the car with me or even breathing, I don't know
how he does that.
The drive continues for about forty five minutes then we enter a posh neighborhood of houses, the
architecture and lighting of the houses is out of this world and you can tell only the rich live here. Once we
enter the gate the drive continues for another ten minutes then the car drives straight into the garage and stops.
My heart is beating so fast I feel like I'm going to have a panick attack. He gets out of the car and Frank opens
my side of the door and I get out and just stand there.
Him:" Follow me" He looks at me and I look at Frank and I don't know for what reason maybe for protection
or assurance. He's waiting by the door and when he sees me coming he turns and I follow him.
That's all I've been doing since he turned my life upside down is to follow him. We enter what I know is the
kitchen but I don't get to look around because he's not giving me a chance and my head is bowed down too.
I'm not ready to face this reality that I'm now going to live but I made a choice and I have to stick to it.
We get on the stairs and I try to be as fast as him but my legs won't let me, so I stop and take off my wedges,
he stops too and waits for me and when I'm done I follow him again this house is huge. We stop at this door
and he opens it and heads for me to enter and the first thing I feel is how thick and soft the carpet is and I
almost sigh coz my feet enjoy it.
There's this huge bed it's a king size and the headboard almost takes the whole wall and there's some sort of
decoration of steel bars on the headboard, they are part of it....that's weird. His phone rings again and he
declines the call for the eleventh time it's not like I was counting and I wonder who's calling him.
Him:" There's an en suite bathroom and walk in closet there on your right, your clothes are also there with
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Me:" Ok"
Him:" Aren't you hungry because you didn't eat the whole day? "
Me:" I'm not hungry I just want to sleep"
Him:" Fine I'm going out. Dont wait up dear wife "
Me:" I don't care" He looks at me one last time before closing the door then a few minutes later I hear a
sports car driving out.
He's gone and I sigh deeply then make my way to the bathroom and take off all my clothes and get in the
shower. The water is just how I like it hot so I scrub myself clean. I want to cry but I'm too drained... I'm
exhausted.... I feel numb... I am numb.
I get done showering then wear my pj's then throw the many pillows on the bed on different directions of the
bedroom then get in bed. The sheets are silk, they smell fresh and clean. I bury my face on the pillow and
sleep like I'm dead on my stomach.
I'm still sleepy when I hear the shower is on and I look at the clock on the wall and it's 3am. He just got back
from wherever he was at and now he is washing off some woman's smell off of him. I hear the shower door
opening and so I lay on my stomach again and close my eyes so he won't notice that I'm alert of him.
I can't believe he's going to sleep in the same bed I'm sleeping on, why couldn't he just show me the guest
bedroom to use it and not have to worry if he's going to touch me and that thought makes me panick. He
switches off the lights, gets in the bed facing me and I can feel his fresh breath on my face and I know his
body is close, not too close but close enough because the moment he got in the bed I felt this warmth from
him.
I can feel his eyes on me and I don't know if may he's waiting for me to open them up or ask him where he
was at but I'm not going to do that. I turn my head and face the other side and he sighs faces the other way and
sleeps.
I don't know when I fell asleep but I'm awake because my body everyday at 5:30am automatically wakes me
up. I open my eyes and see mbuso is deep in sleep facing me. I go to the bathroom and do my morning routine
then go to the walk in closet and wear my under garments and long dress then leave the bedroom and mbuso
is still sleeping. I still remember the way to the kitchen and I get there and find a woman who's about in her
late fifties stirring something in the pot and she must the help I think.
Me:" Good morning ma " She turns and looks at me and smiles and her smile is warm
Her:" Good morning Mrs Gumede. I didn't realize madam will be up so e early "
Me:" I'm an early riser. My name is lungi mazibuko, oh sorry ma it's Gumede now "
Her:" Nice to meet you madam and I'm Sophie dlamini but you can call me madlamini "
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Her:" Mnumzane gave me strict instructions that I must call you either mrs gumede or madam " Who cares
what he said but it's his house and staff so I won't argue.
Me:" Madam will do, can I help you with anything" For now I say to myself
Her:" Sir said you'll tell me what to do around the house "
Me:" Just do what you've been doing ma but I'll clean our bedroom, do his laundry and I'll also cook "
Her:" Does that mean you're going to cut off my salary and the days I work? "
Me:" No ma I won't do that, you'll continue to get the same salary you've been getting. How many days do
you work here? "
Her:" Monday to Friday from 5:30am then on the weekends 7am to 2pm"
That's crazy why would mbuso work this woman such crazy hours
Me:" Do you have a family? "
Her:"I do madam. I have 5 grandkids that I live with" She takes out her phone and shows me their pictures
and they are all cute.
Me:" Your grandkids are beautiful "
Her:" thank you madam"
Me:" So when you're here this early who's watching them? "
Her:" The oldest who's 15. They understand that I have to work for them "
Me:" Where are their mother's if you do think me asking? "
Her:" They sometimes come home or call and sometimes they don't show up for months"
Me:" I'm sorry to hear that ma. How much is mbu....my husband paying you? "
Her:" Eh eish madam maybe you should ask him " What is she afraid of
Me:" I will. What do you use for transport? "
Her:" I take taxis madam" What?
Me:" Where do you live? "
Her:" Soweto at snake park "
Me:" It takes you how many taxis to get here? "
Her:" 3 madam sometimes 2" You does mbuso know where this woman lives and why is she using taxis
when he can get someone to take her home
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Me:" Excuse me for asking soany questions. I just want to know more about you since I'll be staying here.
You've worked how many years for him? "
Her;" I understand madam. It's going to be a year now " She stars to put everything on the kitchen table and
makes fresh coffee. I start to plate for myself when I hear doors opening and closing, more like someone
banging them closed, then hard thud footsteps like he's in a hurry... Like chill dude.
He gets in the kitchen and my breathing starts to change because I don't know what he's going to say. Will he
say something or ignore me. I feel him standing behind me then he turns the chair I'm sitting in and I see he's
only wearing pyjama pants and his chest is bare and he has that v-thing men have that leads to his crotch. He
tilts my head up with his finger and then gives me a kiss full on tthe mouth. I miss him back shocked at his
action.
Him:" Morning my lovely wife "
Me:" Morning my husband " He smirks
Him:" Madlamini unjani"
Her:" I'm good mnumzane " She leaves us alone in the kitchen.
Him:" I thought you were gone. I wake up and I'm alone in bed"
Me:" I'm an early riser" He turns to go sit on the opposite chair and I almost gasp loud but I close my mouth
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CHAPTER 5.
His back is full of scratches....nail scratches that can you only get from a woman who has long nails during
sex...oh wow I did suspect but seeing the evidence that he came home late because he was fucking
someone...kinda hurt a little. Here I am married to him, my life has changed but for him it seems as if nothing
has changed on his side.
He plates for himself, sits down, eats and totally ignores me. I guess that kiss was for show. I make an orange
juice, have scrambled eggs, bacon, bread and eat. The same door we came in yesterday opens then I see his
brothers and parents walking in. I get up so fast from the chair the realize my head is not covered but at least
I'm wearing a dress...it should count for something.

Me:" Good morning baba nomama, sanibonani bobhuti" The brothers greet back
Father in-laws:" Makoti wami omuhle unjani" ( my beautiful makoti how are you)
Me:" Ngiyaphila baba wena? " ( I'm good dad and you)
Him:" I will be once I eat"
Mother in-law:" Your dad is always grumpy in the morning. How are you makoti, we thought you might be
still sleeping " She comes and hugs me and hugs mbuso too and they all sit down.
Me:" I was hungry ma that's why I woke up early " Well it is the truth and I also didn't want mbuso to wake
up before me. Mbuso, his dad and brothers talk about work. I take the dishes and put them in front of
everyone.
Me:" What can I dish up for you baba?"
Him:" Everything that's here makoti" I do
MaGumede:" I'll dish for myself, sit down makoti and these two will dish for themselves " I sit down and we
eat.
Mbuso:" Baba I thought I asked you to give us space but you're all here, why?" The whole table gets quiet
Gumede:" We're all here because I wanted to talk to you about something before we leave for Cape Town
with your mom. We're taking a mini holiday and mbuso you will not tell me when or when not can I come to
my sons house siyezwana?! "
Mbuso:" Yebo baba, I was just asking " He says then stands up, turns his back and goes to open the fridge
and everyone's eyes are on his back then his brothers look at me like oh I know what you did last night, his
mom gasps and his dad looks at me.... Looks at my hands especially my nails and I know he knows. I quickly
put then on my lap under the table and look down. I can feel my face heating up turning red because of the
embarrassment. Mbuso pours himself some apple juice and notices that everyone is silent watching him. He
sits down slowly looking at his dad then at his brothers who are laughing.
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be he forgot or he simply doesn't care.
Gumede:" My daughter in-law, did you sleep well last night" Oh God
Me:"I did baba"
Gumede:" Hmmm. Can you please pour me coffee" What?, I stand up and take the fresh brewing coffee from
the machine and pour it for him. I'm standing next to him and he's looking at my hands.... Oh mbuso!
Gumede:" Add the creamer only 2 teaspoons " I add and stir. Iook at mbuso and he looks confused at his dad
and his mom continues to drink her tea looking down.

Me:" Can I be excused? "


Gumede:" Sit down and finish your breakfast" This man's big voice is so scary. I sit my ass down.
Mbuso:" Baba is something wrong....did lungi do something wrong? " His mother shakes her head looking at
him
Her:" You are a very smart man but sometimes you can be stupid mbuso yoh! "
Him:" Aw ma what did I do now?" He forgot
Gumede:" You really don't know or you're just disrespecting us here... Especially your wife? "
Mbuso:" What?, I really don't know what you're talking about and disrespect her how? " His voice starts to
get loud
Gumede:" Is that how now you talk to me mbuso?, raise your voice ever at me again and I'll punch you until
you get your senses back" He's as cool as a cucumber but his voice carries so much authority
Mbuso:"I'm sorry baba it will never happen again but I still don't know what wrong I did"
Gumede:" Did you share the same with your wife last night? " group open us and swallow me.
Mbuso:" With all due respect dad I cannot answer that"
Gumede:" Thought as much, well answer me this. Is she the one who put those scratches on your back? "
Mbuso's face goes all white then he looks at his mom, brothers then me and I look down. He stands next to
the fridge turns his body and sees his reflection and he says fuck softly. I go to "our" bedroom and look for
his T-shirt in the closet, come back with it and I give it to him and he takes it, wears it and sits down with his
head bowed down. I would think he is ashamed but hey I don't know this man.
Gumede:" What time did he come back lungi? and one thing you should know about your father in law is you
do not lie to me. We do not lie in this family we always tell the truth no matter what, do you hear me" First
time I hear my father in law call me by my name.
Me:" I hear you baba " I look at mbuso and he looks so guilty, sitting there like a school boy getting
reprimanded by his parents.
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Gumede:" When did he come home last night? "To lie or not to lie
Me:" I was asleep by the time he came back but I woke up when I heard the shower was on and I looked at
the clock and it was 3 am"
Gumede:" So the moment you landed and got home, you left your wife all alone in this house and left to do
disgusting things.....while you were supposed to be here comforting her but you were out making some
woman who's not your wife screaming your name mbuso!. At 3 am that's when a married man comes home? "
Mbuso:" It won't happen again baba. I'm sorry "
Gumede:" The very first day you got married, you left your wife to go and cheat? "
Mbuso:" I didn't cheat on her. We don't have that kind of relationship "
MaGumede:" You know I can just slap you right now mbuso. Wasn't it you who said you need time to get to
know each other?....or you were talking about sleeping with those cheap women you always sleep with
yeh?....talk man! "
Mbuso:" But mo. .... "
MaGumede:" Don't mom me man!. You are a married man now mbuso grow up. Forget about your bachelor
days they are gone. Focus on your wife here or else you'll lose one of the best things that has happened in
your life. Having her as your wife is good for you, you might not see it but I know it mbuso because I'm your
mother. Change your ways or let this poor girl go because she has been put through enough for something she
didn't do or asked to be part of. Do right by her. Lungi let's go upstairs " His mom doesn't wait for him to
answer. She dropped all of that on him...I wonder what his dad is going to say. We leave the men in the
kitchen.
Ma:" Did he show you around the house? "
Me:" No ma, he was going to show me today" I lie. The whole house has 8 bedrooms with en suite
bathrooms, ours has a beautiful verander, private lounge for what kodwa yoh, cold room, pantry room,
laundry room, gym, sitting, dining room that leads to the kitchen then basement has a very cosy almost
intimate like cinema room and garages outside, 2 cottages of which one of then maGumede says it's for
security.
Me:" It's a very beautiful house ma"
Ma:" And I hope you'll turn it into a home " I look down
Her:" I wanted to talk with you so let's sit " We sit at the sitting room
Me:" Ok ma"
Her:" I know you didn't choose this and to be here and it's okay to feel angry and hurt. I'm sorry you were
dragged into this without anyone considering your feelings and it was not fair from all of us" I tear up.
Her:" I wish I can say all the things that will make all of this okay but I what I know is mbuso could've have
walked away when he found out what your sister did but he didn't because he saw you and knew there was
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something about you and he wanted that for himself. We were shocked as you were when he told us that
you'll be the one who'll take your sister's place"
Her:" We may not know what his reasons are and if or maybe he's just being a selfish man and men can be
very selfish lungi. What he did last night was not right at all and he owes you an apology I know you're good
for him and you're exactly what he needs in his life. What am trying to say lungi is give this a chance my
child. Show umbuso the way and let him into your heart and I promise you, you won't regret it ".
Me:" I don't know how to do that ma. It's really hard and I didn't ask for all of this " I'm crying
Her:" Ssshhh I know it's hard and I'm sorry baby. It's going to be okay" She hugs me comforting me and I ask
myself again, why couldn't my mother be like this but I'm glad I have found another mother. Even though she's
my in-law she seems like she is a very carrying and loving woman and I'm glad to have a part of that.
Her:" Everything is going to work out, just give it time. Ubaba is talking with your husband and I'm sure he'll
get through him and hell change his ways and if not, I'm just a phone call away. You call me anytime you hear
me? "
Me:" I will ma. Thank you" She smiles.
Her:" You really are a beautiful woman lungi and you are going to make my son really happy and he won't
know what hit him. Between the two of us I'm glad it's you and not your sister " Heh I look at her shocked.
Her:" I always knew they weren't going to last. Don't look at me like that. . . . Look at how red you are... Go
wash your face. You'll find me in the kitchen, I'm sure my husband is ready to go" She smiles
Me:" Thank you again ma. I needed to hear that"
Her:" Remember that I'm always here for both of you. Marriage is hard lungi and you are going to need all
the support you can get and unfortunately for you it's going to be that much harder but I know you can do it
and pull through. The first year of marriage is always hard but after that everything gets betterand bearable.
Me:" Yes ma" She stands up and leaves. I go to our bedroom and wash my face quickly then look at the
mirror and you can tell I've been crying and I look like a mess. I go down stairs and I find his family about to
leave.
Gumede:" My daughter, your husband has something to say" I look at mbuso then he comes stands next to me
and takes my hands in his.
Him:" I'm sorry for what I did and it will never happen again. Will you forgive me? " I look at this man and
wonder if he's doing it just for show in front of his parents or he really means it.
Me:"I forgive you"
Him:" Thank you"
Gumede:" It's time for us to go. You two take care of each other with love and respect. We will see you soon
and you boys give them space" They agree.

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I hug my mother in law and his brothers and surprisingly my father in law hugs me too then they leave. It's
just the two of us again....well and madlamini too.
Mbuso:" Why didn't you tell me I had scratches on my back? "
Me:" Why?... I'm not the one who put them there" I go to the kitchen to clean up but find madlamini has
already cleaned so I go upstairs and he follows me
Mbuso:" Don't walk away from me when I'm talking to you! "
Me:" You don't get to tell me what to do or what not. I want to sleep in a separate bedroom "
Him:" I'm the man of this house and you'll do as I say" Huh this man... What year does he think this is?
Me:" Ok man of the house I want my own bedroom and privacy"
Him:"why that bed is big enough for the both of us "
Me:"I want my own bedroom so I won't hear or see and smell you, smelling like your girlfriend and coming
back at 3 am that's why "
Him;" You are my wife on paper only. Don't you dare start acting like we have a relationship because we
will not. I will do as I please as I have been doing before you " That hurt... Like really hurt me.
Me:" Then why am I here... Why did you marry me?! " I scream at him
Him:" To pay for you and your sisters sins and to make sure that she's going to pay, I'm going to make your
life as miserable as I can "
Me:" What?, I never did anything bad to you. I didn't even know you or even know about you until she came
home and said some man she's seeing wants to marry her. Why are you punishing me for her running away
and getting pregnant by someone else".
Him:" Stop lying because you knew and helped her. You both stole my 2million Rands!....where is my
money!?"

Me:" What?, 2 million rands?... Me and my sister stole 2 million rands from you?, that's crazy. I don't even
have half of that kind of money and I would never do something like that because I'm not a thief. You can
check my bank account and you'll see just how much I have ". I'm so in shock, I'm literally shaking and so I sit
on the bed hands on my head.
Him:" You such a good actress you know....the way you played my mom acting hurt and all while you knew it
was just an act "
Me:" It is not an act. I am hurt by all of this "

Him:" Just fucken stop it because I have proof!"

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Me:" What proof?...whatever proof you think you have on me is not real or true " He laughs
Him:" Of both of you planning the whole thing and sweetheart you are going to pay. You won't sleep in a
separate bedroom and you better get used to it because we are going to share that bed everyday and do what
married do... I'm going to have you soon" I feel sick to my stomach, how can a person be this cold and
heartless
Me:" I did nothing of such... I did not steal your money! "
Him:" You think I'm stupid neh, that I wouldn't investigate and I'm making all of this up?... Don't you dare
patronize! "
Me:" I hate you mbuso, I hate you!, I hate you! " I scream at him and he laughs
Him:" The feeling is mutual. You messed with the wrong man sweetheart " He then goes to the bathroom not
closing the door and showers. How did my life get to be this complicated, I don't know anything about the 2
million rands Jesus!. What did buhle do with this man's money and somehow involve me. I take my phone
and go down stairs passing madlamini carrying fresh clean laundry.
Me:" Ma about what I said earlier about mbuso's laundry, you can wash it and clean the room and cook
breakfast and lunch. I'll just cook dinner "
Her:" Ok madam" She takes out a handkerchief and gives it to me with pity on her face and I take it.
Me:" Thank you madlamini " I quickly leave before she asks me questions I have no answers to. Don't get me
wrong she sounds like a sweet woman but I don't want her in my business because she'll start getting
involved and forget she's here to make things much better for mbuso. I go to the cinema and switch off the
lights and sit in the dark. I like being in the dark coz I'm hidden. No one can see me, hurt me and it makes me
feel invisible. I try to call buhle but as always her number is on voice mail and I live a bunch of messages
and the last one I leave has me screaming at her and crying. I continue to cry uncontrollable and end up
falling asleep in there.
The smell of cooked meat wakes me up, my body is so stiff. I make my way upstairs and go to our bedroom
and take all of my clothes from the closet to the other bedroom and put them in the closet since it's going to be
my bedroom from now on and I don't care what he said. He's not here in the house, he must have went
somewhere. I take a hot bath and take my time and when I'm done I go to the kitchen and find madlamini
almost done with cooking. I look at the time and it's 2pm.
Me:" It smells amazing in here ma" She smiles
Her:" Thank you madam"
Me:" So much food for just 2 people "
Her:" Sir said he's going to come with some people so I must cook more food " I nod. I'm going to stay in my
bedroom because I don't want to disturb him and his friends. I eat my lunch then head to my bedroom and go
through my phone.
No messages from sims or my brother and well my parents won't bother calling me. I must call them which
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reminds me, I get on my laptop and type a resignation letter with immediate effect to my employer. They
didn't think about my life, my job and my friends well the only friend I have is my cousin sims but still.
Everyone I know is there and everything I've known in my life is all the way in Mpumalanga and I know
absolutely no one here. Ive been to Joburg many times and I know where the malls are and so I decide to go
there.
I download the Uber app and quickly change before mbuso comes back, take my bag and request for one
while I'm waiting and it says it's 5 minutes away.
Me:" Ma?...when did he say you can knock off since he's having a party? "
Her:" After I have prepared everything "
Me:" How far are you? "
Her:" I'm almost done madam"
Me:" Ok after you're done please go home because it's almost winter and it gets dark quickly and I want you
home safe. From now on you'll knock off at 4pm and on the weekends your off" My Uber driver is here
Her:"oh thank you very much madam" She's happy with that decision
Me:" Ok ma " Then I leave and head straight to the mall of Africa I mean where else. I spend my whole day
there and window shop then decide to go get something to eat at the steakhouse because I just love my meat
and order a glass of wine and have a lovely dinner.
I go watch John wick movie and by the time it's done 22:30pm then head home to face my fucked up life.
There are many cars parked outside and the music is too loud. Gosh I hope I'll be able to sleep. The security
stop the Uber driver and when they see it's me they tell him to drop me off here and he agrees and leaves. I
see a car coming then frank pulls up and opens the door for me and I get in.
Me:" Good evening Frank"
Hi:" Evening madam" We drive in and I prepare myself for what I'm about to face. I get off the car and open
the door and there are so many people there and the woman or girls almost a of them are half naked. I get
curious looks like who's this girl that didn't get the memo because I'm just wearing jeans and a sweater.
There's even a DJ playing, no wonder it's so noisy and it looks like I'm inside a club but I'm in this house...
My house?.
I pass people making my way upstairs but then I see mbuso with this girl who has her arms wrapped around
him and talking to him and he's looking at her smiling then he turns and sees that it's me then his face gets
filled with rage. He pushes the girl off of him and walks towards me and I don't know why I do it but I run
upstairs knocking off some people but I don't care then get to my bedroom and lock the door. Mbuso has this
scary thing about him that freaks me out... His aura nje scares me to death.
Him:" Open this door right now lungi! " His banging the door and I keep quiet
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Me:" Mbuso please, I had a long day and I just want to sleep. Go to your party and leave me alone ".
Him:" Who told you to come here?...fuck off and wait for me down stairs" He says to someone and I bet it's
that girl. He gets quiet for a few minutes then I see the door handle turn and the door opens. He closes it
behind him and and stands there looking at me shaking
Him:" Where were you?. Who told you, you can leave this house and who gave you that permission? " He
asks coming to where I'm standing now next to the dressing table
Me:" I don't need permission from you to go anywhere "
Him:" You forget that I own you until I say otherwise. So dear wife I own everything and I mean every little
thing about you is under my command and you will do everything I say"
Me:" Please mbuso I don't want this. I want to go home and back to my life. Please I didn't do anything to
you. I never stole from you " I tear up
Him:" The sooner you understand that You. Are. Not. Going. Anywhere, the sooner you'll get used to it and
those crocodile tears don't move me so they won't work on me. You stole my money and I'll show you the
proof" He thinks I'm pretending that my tears are fake... Why did buhle steal this man's money that I'm paying
for right now?.... I hate her!
Me:" Please just go. I want to sleep" There's no use fighting it. This is my reality and I have to accept it.
Him:" You didn't answer my question " He says getting closer
Me:" I went to the mall, I just wanted to get out of this house "
Him:" Look at me everytime when you're talking with me understand? " I nod and he raises his eyebrow
Me:" I understand "
Him:" You'll have a driver tomorrow who'll take you anywhere you want to go. Wherever you go he goes
with you. If I ever find out that you went somewhere without him there'll be hell to pay, do you understand
me?! "
Me:" Yes" I wipe the tears off my face and look at him
Him:" Why did you move your things out of our bedroom? "
Me:" That's not our bedroom mbuso it's yours. I just want my privacy that's why I moved "
Him:" Your privacy huh?, what about my privacy that you invaded when you stole my freaking
money?...you've got some nerve talking about privacy " He says so calm like it's nothing to him. Someone
knocks on the door and goes to it and opens it just a little
Him:" Fuck off Mel I'm busy" And closes the door on the persons face
Me:" I didn't steal.... "
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Him:" Shut the fuck up!. I don't want to hear it. I better find you in that bedroom when I come back or you'll
know me" He then leaves and I sit own a little then leave to his bedroom.
I take off my clothes and get into the shower and make the water hot and get under it and scrub, scrub, scrub
myself until my skin gets red and start to hurt but I don't leave. I'm used to people being hard and hating on me
meaning my mom, dad and sister and I've learned to deal with it and leave with it but what they did this time
and mbuso treating this way is all too much and I don't think I can take it anymore. I can take so much as a
person but with mbuso is whole entire different level because I think he's the one who's finally going to break
me coz I feel like I'm near that point. I get out, drink headache pills, brush my teeth, wear pj's then get in bed
and sleep.
Very loud moaning and groaning sounds wake me up. The house is quite and I think the party is over but I
guess its not over for some people who are having loud sex and I think it's mbuso and that girl.

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CHAPTER 6.
I get up and go to the bathroom and do my business then I hear the bedroom door opening and closing then
mbuso gets in the bathroom and sees me. He ignores me then takes off his clothes standing in front of me. I
quickly finish up before he gets naked in front of me, then wash my hands and I'm about to leave when he
blocks my way out.
Him:" I'm coming now, don't fall asleep " What??, oh hell no. He kisses my neck and leave not answering
him. I get in bed and face away from his side of the bed and cover myself up to my neck. The moaning and
groaning sounds haven't stopped and if mbuso is here then who are the people fucking... Maybe his friends.
The woman is now screaming " Yes baby, fuck me harder " God it's gonna be a long night. I see mbuso's
shadow and I close my eyes and goosebumps breakout all over my body and my heart beats fast.
Him:" Fuck they are so loud" He gets in the bed and switches the side lamp on and then I get shocked when
he drags my body to his in one swift move and I hold my breath. I feel his naked skin on my back coz my
pyjama top has risen up and then his hand goes under my top and connects with my skin and I hold my breath.
Him:" Breath out slowly or you'll pass out and we don't want that now do we" He says next to my ear and
damn my body shudders and my nipples peeble.
Him:" Clothes are not allowed in this bed sweet, let's take them off" He says getting up and moving off the
blankets and God... He is naked and I can't help myself and look at that happy trail that leads to that tool of
mass destruction and I suck my breath.
Me:" Mbuso.... Please" I beg him
Him:" Ssshhhhh" He kisses my ear and I feel his warm breath
Me:" I'm not ready " Honestly I'm not.
Him:" You're never going to be ready sweet " He says so sweet and tender that a sob escapes my mouth. He
takes his hands and runs them on my boobs and down to my nectar and rubs it with his right thumb and I let
him, it feels good and he's my husband right?, it was only in paper but now it's going to be official.
Me:" Just give me time and we'll do it "
Him:" You don't like this?.... It doesn't feel good?.... I know your mind doesn't want this but what about your
body.... It wants what I'm doing to it now and what I'm about to do to it ".
My top is off now and he is pulling my pants off and he taps on my hips so I can lift my butt and I do and off
they go and I'm completely naked. I try to cover my nectar but he takes my hands off and shake his head.
Him:" You're not going to hide yourself from me sweet. We're going to consummate our marriage now. Lights
on" He says loud and the whole bedroom gets bright. I cover my eyes and they are wet.
Him:" You are so beautiful " He says out loud and I doubt that he meant it for me to hear and I look at him
Him:" Yeah I said it. Even a blind man can feel and see your beauty and it's all mine to do as I wish. Take off
those hands on your face and look at me. Always look at me" I wipe my face before moving my hands.
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Him:" You're even more beautiful when you cry...open your legs " He gets between my thighs and roughly
separates my legs as he gets between them and looking at my nectar. I don't like shaving off all of my pubic
hair. I leave some of it and now I'm embarrassed as I see him looking at me there.
Him:" just how I like it " What?, he says proudly and starts to touch my legs rubbing his hands up and down
then does the same to my inner thighs and I squirm.
His hands move to my nectar and I hold my breath when he separates the lips of my pussy and I feel cool air
there then I feel one finger there brushing my clit and I know he feels how wet I am....my treacherous body.
He groans and continues to brush my clit with his thumb then his other hand goes to my boobs and feels them
one at a time and my nipples peeble hard then he pinches them at the same time as he enters me with his
finger and fingers me. My body gets off the bed arching.
Him:" You are so wet.... You want this as much as I do" My body has its own plans and as much as I don't
want this I'm enjoying it.
He brings his body on top of mine and his skin is so warm, his finger is still inside of me moving in and out
then he adds another one stretching me.
Me:" Aahh" He is kissing my neck and I'm sure I'm going to have marks on my neck tomorrow
Him:" Finally, she makes a sound" He says adding another finger and that's 3 yoh
Me:" aw.... " I try to pull out his hand but he takes both my hands in his and raises the over my head, pinning
them there tight.
Him:" Oh sweet my fingers are snug in here....you feel how wet you are? " He increases his pace moving
them in different directions and rubbing my clit and I start move my hips and I sweat because I know I'm
about to have an orgasm
Me:" Mbuso.....ah" He takes his hand off of mine and wraps it around my shoulders like he's holding me
down with it and also uses his body. He then presses his thumb on my clit and I moan out loud then he rubs it
softly with his warm hand and I'm just there if he can just..........then I feel him enter me hard, rough and fast
and I scream and hold him tight feeling like the bones of my lower body have come undone coz that's what it
feels like, like they just got broken, he freezes.
Him:" Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Lungi, you're a virgin?" My eyes are closed tight and I shake my head no because I
can't talk.
Him:" Look at me and tell me!. " He demands
Me:" I'm... I'm not a virgin okay" He shakes his head
Him:" How many guys have you slept with?" He asks pulling out then thrusts a little depeer than he was
before
Me;" What?... Aaaww"
Him:" How many guys have fucked you? " He asks getting angry and thrusting hard too
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Me:" Not too hard please, just one other than you "
Him:" How long was that and how many times" I can't believe he wants to talk about another man fucking me
while he's inside me...who does that?.
Me:" I don't want to talk about it mbuso just finish" He pulls out and I wince.
Him:" Get on your hands and knees. Face down ass up " He says seriously and I do then I feel him just
watching my behind then feel his rock hard long dick on my nectar rubbing it up and down. He separates my
butt cheeks and points his rigid member there and slowly enters me groaning... I feel full like he's all in me
and I moan in pleasure and slightly pain.

Him:" Relax your body, I'm just halfway. You can take all of me in you sweet. Just relax your muscles and
body " I listen to what he says and the moment I relax my body it feels better and he groans then pulls out then
thrusts in hard burying himself deep in me and I gasp in shock.
Me:" Aaahhhh, you're breaking me"
Him:" Ssshhhh you feel so amazing...fuck luh " He groans then moves his hips up and down and holds my butt
cheeks tight with his fingers deep in my skin and fucks me like a man that was starving and denied food. He
continues to fuck me and I'm just lost in the pleasure and pain. He rubs my clit making me more wet and I
arch my back giving him all of me.... It's that damn dick that's making me moan in pleasure and him groan.
Him:" How many times did he fuck you "
Me:" Aaahhh I don't know... 2 or 3 times I think....mmmm" He slaps both my butt cheeks hard then grabs my
waist tight with his hands and I'm near
Him:" How.many.fucken.times? "Each word he says he thrusts and slaps my ass hard
Me:" Ahhh 3 times okay. Just 3 times 2 years ago " He changes his pace and hits that one spot over and over
again and thrusts hard again and slaps my ass and that pushes me over and I fall.....I have an out of body
intense orgasm I have never felt in my life. I let go calling his name at the top of my lungs. He gently catches
me in his arms coz my body feels heavy then he lays me on my stomach while he's still inside me and lays his
body on top of my wet one and gives me sweet kisses on my face and neck and ear then he gets his hand
between my legs and plays with my sensitive bud awakening it again.
Me:"mmmm oh God " I say moaning
Him:"yes sweet I'm your God " I move my hips and meet him thrust for thrust. I grip his dick inside me using
my pussy muscles and he loses it and gives me the fuck I will never forget and I know for sure I'm not gonna
be able to move off this bed tomorrow.
Him:" How far are you " He asks and his body starts to shake
Me:" I'm..... I'm aaaahhh"
Him:" Oh fuck..... Come with me now" He thrust seven more times then bites my neck and I come
uncontrollably hard with him at the same time calling his name again then his body falls on mine with all of
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his weight on me and damn how is it that his skin is always warm. He pulls out and I wince then feel his
warm seed on my thighs and then it dawns on me that we didn't use protection. He gets up and goes to the
bathroom and comes back.
Him:" Turn around" He says I open my legs and wince when he cleans me. I didn't expect that, I thought he'll
throw the towel at me to clean myself. His voice has gone very deep and gruff and I like it. Oh look at me
catching me feelings what's wrong with m. He cleans himself and I turn the other way when he gets in bed
and covers us with the blanket.
Him:" Does it hurt? " He asks
Me:" It does" He breathes out
Him:" Good " I freeze and feel my heart drop. But what did I expect?, that he would change after fucking
me?....I'm so naive. I'm not gonna cry.
Me:" I hate you "
Him:" Hate me all you want I don't care but your body enjoys my touch and what I just did. This was me
being nice to you and I was getting a taste of the 2 million pussy and I'm going to enjoy it "
Him:" I hope to God that the day when you learn the truth and realise what wrongs you have done to me, you
will regret it".
He doesn't say anything but I know he wants to so he turns and faces the other way. I close my eyes and fight
the tears that want to come out because I don't want to give him the satisfaction that he hurts me.... His words
hurts me. I was a fool to think he would hold me and comfort me. I just feel so alone. He takes me up again in
the following hours and after 3 more rounds he let's me sleep.

I wake up and it's later than I usually do and the sun is out and I'm alone in bed. I make the bed and make
myself a bath because I feel so sore. I take my time and when I'm done I go to the kitchen and I can hear
voices as I'm approaching, male voices and a female one.
I get to the kitchen and the first thing I see is a girl I mean woman, I think she's about the same age as I am.
She's skinny and she's sitting on top of one guy and he's kissing her neck and the other one is kissing her in the
lips, O wow...she's sandwiched between them and mbuso is watching them like he's enjoying the show they
are putting on and I'm just shocked because I have never seen something like this live.
Me:" Good morning " I say clearing my throat and they all turn, look at me and I just there looking awkward.
Mbuso stretches his hand for me to come to him and I do then he opens his legs for me to stand between them
and I do.
He pulls me real close, hands around my waist and my face next to his and I can smell his coffee breath over
face when he breathes and my body just melts... I don't know why. He kisses me full on the lips taking my
breath away and I kiss him back and for a moment forget about the people who are watching us dead silent.
Him:" Morning sweet, did they wake you up? " He asks....concerned?

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Me:" No they didn't "
Him:" Let me introduce you to the guys" he turns me around still holding me then I feel his hard dick on my
ass. Did I give him a boner or he got it from watching these 3?, I don't know.
Him:" This guy sitting down is Paul and the one standing up is Mike " I look at them and see they are tall and
dark skinned and almost same weight not sure but Paul has a tattoo that's visible on his neck and Mike has a
little scar on his left cheek and no facial hair. So who's the girl? and Paul has the same name as my ex.
Me:" Hi I'm lungi, nice to meet you " .
The girl:" Hi lungi, I'm Gugu" She says looking at me up and down, more like sizing me up..okay.
The guys are still looking at me like who are you and where you come from then Paul stands up upruntly and
Gugu almost falls but balances herself with Mike. He approaches and I don't know why but I pull back to
mbuso and he holds me tight.
Paul:" So this is the secret you've been keeping " He looks at me undressing me with his eyes and that makes
me feel very uncomfortable
Paul:" Are we going to share her too? " I gasp in shock and freeze. He is now just two steps away from me
then he lifts his hand like he wants to touch me.
Mbuso:" Touch her and I'll chop off both your hands" He says seriously and Paul laughs.
Mike:" Come on G, we've always shared and so what's special about her other than she's very and I mean
very beautiful and sexy as hell" So they share women?, does this mean they shared buhle too?
Mbuso:" Touch even one little hair on her, not only will I first chop off your hands but I'll also put a bullet
between your eyes " The way he says it sounds like it isn't even him and it's so scary. I feel cold chills from
the nape of my neck to my back.
Mike:" She's one of the women you always fuck, so we should also have a piece like we always do. I mean
we share our girls with you so it's only fair if you do the same" Mike says getting angry and I'm getting pale
from the things I'm hearing.
Mbuso:" Let it be the last time you both say something like this mike or so help me God. This is not some
piece of meat like that cheap girl between the two of you that you fucked under my wife's roof. Don't ever
talk about her like that. Do we understand each other?! "
Paul:" What?, your wife.... When did you get married? " He asks shocked
Mbuso:" That's none of your business, apologize to my wife and I'll tell uSiyabonga you were here.
Apologize to my wife then leave" He says very angry.
Paul:" We apologize maGumede we didn't mean any disrespect. Our old friend here didn't tell us that he's
married now. Please accept our apology.
Me:" I understand "
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Mike:" It will never happen again. G can we talk to you? " They leave the kitchen dragging the girl behind
them who gives me an evil look. Mbuso stands up behind me and kisses my cheek just as madlamini enters
the kitchen greeting going to the store room.
Him:" Are you okay?" He looks concerned.
Me:" I'm okay just shocked "
Him:" What shocked you? "
Me:" The things they said and how you reacted towards me in front of them. I thought..... "
Him:" My private life is my business and I don't want them in my business and you're my business. The other
things they said about me are not your concert" He turns me to face him.
Me:" Why did you pretend to care about me and act like that in front of them? " One minute he's kind and the
next he's as cold as ice.
Him:" Oh but I do care about you, because you're worth 2milllion and so I have to look after my investment.
When we're alone, you are the girl that stole from me but in front of other people we are a married couple
who's deeply in love with each other. Do we understand each other sweet? "
Me:" I don't want all of this mbuso.let me go or let me find work and I'll pay you back"
Him:" That's not how it works here. I make the rules and if I say jump, you ask how high. I have to get all my
money worth. You do as I say or there'll be he'll to pay sweet...don't try me ".
Me:" Please.... " My tears fall and now I know that I'm a prisoner here and there's nothing I can do.
Him:" You won't work ever. The only work you'll be doing is following my instructions doing as I say. I'll be
back, we have something to talk about" He kisses me on the mouth then leave.
I think about running away but where will I go coz I know he'll find me but why isn't he searching for her?....I
sit down and cover my face.
Madlamini:" Madam are you okay? "
Me:" I'm okay ma, I didn't sleep well ".
Her:" Let me make you some breakfast because the visitors finished it all and you'll feel better afterwards but
here's some rooibos tea "
Me:" Thanks ma" I drink it
Me:" I'm going to lay down. I'll have breakfast a little later "
Her:" Ok madam, do you want me to wake you? "
Me:" No ma. Have your breakfast and do what you usually do" She nods then I leave and hear voices then his
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voice in the study and he sounds very angry. I don't listen but go to our bedroom and sleep.
I feel kisses on my face, neck and hands on my boobs then stomach.... Oh no I'm still sore.
Me:" Mbuso....im still sore "
Him:"shhhh I'll be gentle "
Me:"you were rough before "
Him:" Let me make it better then "
Me:" But I.... " I don't get to finish as he undresses me then I noticed he's naked too. He looks at me then
separates my legs with his shoulders and then buries his whole face and muffs me like crazy, his tongue on
my nub biting and sucking it. I moan and hold his head, move my hips and ride his face.
My back arching now and again and hearing him groan drives me crazy and I come all over his face with my
body shaking. He muffs me till I come down then he turns me to lie on my side, lifts my left leg up holds me
tight to him then buries all of himself deep in me and I cry out in pain and pleasure. He doesn't give me time
to adjust to him inside me and starts to fuck me hard and I'm griping the duvet so tight coz he's not having
mercy on me.
Me:" Aaahhhh...be...gentle..." He slows down then pulls out. I'm in my back now and he's between my thighs.
He inserts his dick and looks at the parts that are now connecting us again then lifts his head and looks at me
then puts his whole body on top of mine then his hands on my afro grip me tight. He kisses me then fucks me
hard with long deep strokes and I feel like my womb is going to shift
Him:"ah fuck!, you feel amazing sweet... Your skin, the way you feel and taste how you fit me me
perfectly...ah fuck! "
He says that getting rough with every stroke he gives me and I start to cry coz now I'm not enjoying it.
Him:" Ssshhh we don't want madlamini to hear us now, do we sweet " He says muffing my cries with his
kisses. He's groaning and moaning like he's eating one of the most amazing things he's never tasted he then
moves my legs to his shoulders and his hands to my waist.

Him:" Wrap your legs around dmy neck" I do and he gets deeper.
Me:" Mbuso.....ah, you're too deep" I don't if that excites him but he puts his face on my neck and bite me,
hands on my ass, nails digging on my skin then rubs my clit and I build up and moan.
Him:" You taste so good and I can't enough of your lovely pussy and it's all mine" He rubs, pinches then rubs
my clit again and I'm so wet.
I feel my orgasm coming so I untangle my legs on his shoulders then he streches my legs far apart and bangs
into me. We're both so sweaty, my skin hot and dripping of sweat. He pinches my clit lightly then softly slaps
it 3 more times and rubs it and I come hard screaming his name.
Him:" Fuck baby milk that dick with your greedy cunt...yes....oh shiiiiit...oh fuck! " He climaxes after me then
he falls on top of me then says something but I don't hear him coz he has fucked me back to sleep.
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Something is burning my skin so I open my eyes and it's the sun shining on my face. I turn and I'm sore
between my legs and they are stiff. I hear clicking sounds and look on my right and see mbuso on his laptop
typing fast and I can't stand the site of him. I get up groan and he looks at me.
Him:" You look thoroughly fucked and it suits you" I ignore him, go to the bathroom and shower quickly,
come back and find him still on the bed typing.
Him:" We need to talk. Sit. "
Me:" Can we talk later because I'm hungry
Him:" I wasn't asking. You'll eat when we're done talking " I sit my ass down.
Me:"I'm listening "
Him:" Let me tell you something about me. I make the rules and everyone follows them. Everyone lungi. No
one disagrees with me or say no to me" Ok he's scaring me
Him:" Rule number1: Anytime I call you pick up the phone. It doesn't matter where you are or what you're
doing or what time it is "
" Number 2: Thomas is your driver to take you anywhere you want to go. You do not take an Uber or taxi. If
you give Thomas problems you'll deal with me"
"Number 3: you won't discuss what happens here in this house with my family, your brother, your cousin and
my mother...especially her"
" Number 4: I will continue to do my business as I please and you won't question. Just accept it "
" Number 5: I will have you whenever and wherever I want and you won't refuse me. We will play the
perfect happy couple around everyone and especially my parents so they can see how madly in love we are
with each other " Im sitting here listening to this man telling me about his stupid rules that I have to follow.
Why should we pretend?, it's not like it's ever going to happen....right?. I hate what he's doing to me.
Him:" And lastly lungi you do not ever question me, not follow my rules or anything that I tell you to do and
you will never ever in your life disrespect me in front of anyone or even me here. You will respect me and I
demand it. You hear me? " He says seriously.
This man who's sitting in the bed Indian style like he's going to pray is scary. The way he talks to me is very
cold and it sends chills down my spine. I realise that fighting him is not going to change his mind to believe
me. I just have to accept that this is my reality and I'll have to pay for her debts.....thats what family does
right?, we protect each other and sometimes that means taking the blame and fall for someone.
Me:" I hear you. I'll follow your rules " He seems a bit shocked but quickly masks it.
Him:" Good. Now that is out of the way let's talk about the money you say you didn't steal"
Me:" Mbuso.... "

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Him:" I have the proof lungi. Here " He gives me the his laptop and the first thing I see is my bank account
statement. I look closely and it is my bank account and statements some going back to last year. My emails,
my text messages between buhle and I from my phone... But how no! . There are videos of me going to the
bank alone and in some I'm with buhle. Videos and videos, many emails talking, asking her how far she is
with forgering the documents, transactions from my back account from R50k cash to hundreds of thousands.
Everything in there points to me. But it wasn't me.... How did she do it?.
I can't believe it. Everytime she asked me to accompany her to the bank to withdraw money her boyfriend
sent so she could buy herself clothes and food?, and.... How did she get hold of my phone my bank pin
because I've never told her.... How?.
Mbuso is watching me as I'm going through everything and I feel numb. I feel sick... I want to vomit it I can't
move my legs. I'm shocked, of all the things have she has done to me or I thought she's capable of doing, this
wasn't one of them. I close the laptop and slowly get off the bed then run to the bathroom and vomit only
water coz I haven't had anything to eat. I get up, brush my teeth and leave the bathroom and find mbuso sitting
at the edge of the bed. I stand the and look at him and I'm so scared.
Him:" You still denying it? " I wrap my arms around myself and look down. I shake my head no and he stands
so fats I almost fall on my ass. he walks slowly towards me and I take a step back until he has backed me
against the wall.
Him:" Uthini? " ( what did you say? ) He's angry
Me:" I'm....I'm not denying it "
Him:" I want you to say it. Say what you did! " He roars angry
Me:" I...we stole your money" I choke up
Him:" Damn you lungi! , fucking damn you! " He does the unthinkable and warps his hand around my throat
choking me and I cry and hold his hand and try to pull his hand off my throat but I can't.
Me:" You're... Kill... Killing me" I say gasping for air then he lifts his hand and forms a fist and I scream and
cover my face thinking he's going to punch me but he punches the wall next toy face and I hear bones craking
and I swear I peed on myself a little. He let's go and I fall down and cry hysterically.
Him:" Fuuuck" He roars then leaves the bedroom banging the door and I wrap my arms tightly around my
legs crying.
Who is this man that buhle stole his money from because I doubt they were lovers. He doesn't look like a man
who's heart is broken but a man who wants Revenge. Blood.

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CHAPTER 7.
I don't know for how long ive been sitting here and still am when I hear him coming in and I get scared
shitless. He stands next to me not saying anything then he bends almost like he wants to touch me but I get
scared and scream burying my head on my legs.
Him:" Luh, Lungi I'm ....." He tries to touch me again
Me:" don't touch me, " I scream then stand up and I know he can see that I peed on myself. I go to the
bathroom and take of my clothes and get in the shower set the water really hot. The first touch doesn't sting
alot but the second one stings but it's bearable. I just sit down and let it fall on me.
The pain on my skin that I'm feeling from the hot water is nothing compared to what I feel inside. Never have
I ever been scared for my life like that because I seriously thought he was going to punch me on my face. I
saw another side of Mbuso today and I never ever want to experience it in my life. What am I saying because
it'sthe only side he has been showing me but today it's different. I saw a much more darker side of him.
I hear the shower door opening
Him:" what the hell Lungi! you'll give yourself burns all over body....., fuck this water is hot!" He curses then
gets in the shower and winces when the water touches him and then he switches the shower off.
Him:" come let's get you out of here " he says pulling me up and out of the shower and I let him. He takes the
a towel wraps it around me and another one he dries my hair. I'm scared of his touch but I don't want to show
him, I just want him to stop touching me. I'm only hiccuping now with my eyes closed.
He lifts me up and I moan in pain then he carries me to the bedroom and gently lays me down. I wince when
my back touches the duvet.
Him:" sleep on your stomach so you don't hurt your back. " I turn around and I feel that my body especially
my back is in pain but I don't say anything and just lay on my stomach.
I feel something really cold and it makes me wince and groan in pain
Him:" It's the Aloe Vera gel. It will heal your skin and make it better " he says
Me:" will it make my heart feel better and not hurt too? " I sniff. He stops and takes a deep breath then
continues applying it all over my back and it starts to feel a little better.
Him:" why did you make the water that hot. You could have seriously hurt yourself you know..... What were
you thinking luh? "
Me:" I just wanted the pain to stop. Nothing can hurt me more than you do " I bury my face on the pillow and
sniff some more. I feel him move up the bed like he wants to lay next to me and hold me but he decides
against it.
Him:" Luh, I'm sorry.....i wasn't going to hit you. I could never do that to you" he says it like it hurts him to
know what he almost did.
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Me:" can you leave. I want to be alone. "
Him:" No. I won't leave you alone like this. "
Me:" don't pretend as if you care about what you're doing to me coz you don't. So can you please just give me
sometime to be alone or I'll leave this bedroom!. " I scream at him
He stops, gets up and I think he's looking at me because he is quiet then I hear the bedroom door close softly.
I get off the bed and go wear my pyjamas and then get in bed again. I'm so hungry but I'm scared of how
madlamini is going to look at me because I'm pretty sure she heard us arguing.... Oh what the hell this is my
house too.
I go to the kitchen and look for my food in the microwave then sit down and eat. Madlamini is probably
somewhere in the house cleaning and Mbuso well I don't care where he is.
I hear Mbuso shouting for madlamini and she responds somewhere in the house then I don't hear what he's
asking her and it gets quiet for a while then I feel him behind him....his smell and I almost freeze. He stands
next to me real close and he smells really nice.
Him:" I was looking for you. Why aren't you in bed? ' madlamini enters the kitchen goes to the pantry to cook
for lunch.
Me:" I was hungry. " he sits down next to me, madlamini comes back and starts to cook pretending that we're
not here and like she's not feeling the tension between us.
Her:" can I make you something mnumzane? "
Him:" no ma I'm fine. " his voice is deep and when he's angry or shouting it's very scary and sexy at the same
time....God what is going on with me?.
Him: " do you need anything else she can make? " I shake my head no still looking at my food and not at him.
Him:" when you're done here come to my study, we still need to talk. " so you can hit me this time?.... no
dude.
Me:" we can talk here, now. " I eat.
Him:"Lungi what did I say about you following my rules and instructions? "
Me:" I'm coming!" I roll my eyes
Him:" now. " he says firmly
Me:" thanks ma " I stand up and follow him to his study and I sit down opposite him.
Me:" what did you want to talk about? "
Him:" I don't like your tone and lose that attitude." I want to roll my eyes but I don't.

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Me:" I'm listening "
Him:"I think you realised the times we've been intimate we didn't use any protection and so I'm just.... "
Me:" I'm on birth control and you're the only man I've slept with without a condom so don't worry I'm
clean.....but are you? ' I think he's shocked that I asked him that.
Him:" of cos I'm clean. I'll bring my results from my doctor "
Me:" Good because my sister was and is a hoe so I hope u used a condom every time you fucked her. Is that
all...can I go now?"
Him:" why are you on birth control if you weren't fucking anyone, or you lied to me?"
Me:" I didn't lie. I am because you never know who I might decide to fuck" I say glaring at him.
Him:" You take that back now!"
Me:" why?, you're fucking other people and God knows how many, so why can't I do the same?"
Him:" I swear luh if you dare let another man touch you I'll kill him first in front of you then you'll see what
I'll do to you!" why do I believe?.
Me:" so you get to fuck other women and I'm suppose to take it and keep quiet?....no!. we have an open
marriage right?, so it's fair if I also get a boyfriend" he stands up and comes towards me and I get up too. I'm
tired of getting intimidated by this man.
Him:" You really like getting under my skin huh sweet?, I dare you to try that and you'll see what I'll do to
this beautiful flawless skin you have. My hand is even twitching from wanting to spank you right here on my
desk then fuck you senseless until the only thing you can feel, breath and think about is me. Your pussy will
only get wet for me and no one else ". oh fuck I'm getting wet. why does hearing that turn me the fuck on?.
God have mercy on me. he sees my chest rising and falling
Him:" you look so flushed right on. I bet if I put my fingers in your cunt I'll find it wet. it will clench on my
fingers asking me fuck it, you want me to finger fuck you sweet and make that ache go away...you wanna
come and scream my name?"
Me:" just stop it okay!" he smirks then steps back raising his hands in surrender
Him:" When is your next appointment for birth control " huh?
Me: " why? " I ask him
Him:" because I want to know for sure that you're taking your pills or whatever that you use. "
Me:" oh...you think I'll trap you with a baby?" is he for real
Him:" Yes. " he says looking straight at me and I gasp in shock. I cannot believe he has just said that.

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Me:" don't worry I won't trap you with a kid or kids. I'll be mad crazy to want you to be the father of my kids.
The father of my kids will be nothing like you". wow Luh you standing up for yourself good girl.
Him:" and who said I wanted to have kids with You? ' he asks wanting to laugh and inside I really want to
cry.
Me:" the very same man who fucked me without wearing a condom, so don't worry I'll be keeping my eggs
locked tight where your sperm can't find them. Is that all you wanted to talk about?"
Him:" Yes it is. For now "
Me:" can I go now sir? ' he raises his eyebrow and smirks
Him: " you can go"
jerk i mumble to myself as I leave his office and go to the cinema and watch some cartoons. I love them and
they always make me feel better. I can't believe I was ready to let him fuck me again.
After that incident of him almost hitting me, he slept in the other bedroom and left me alone never wanted
sex. Mbuso demands sex, he always takes it and fucks me really hard and he makes sure I always come. At
least he's not being selfish in that department.
I'm bored out of my mind during the day and at night I always go to bed before Mbuso comes home and wake
up when he's gone to work. Sometimes he comes really late and I'll find myself waiting by my bedroom
window for his car to pull up and when he does I'll quickly get in bed.
Madlamini is suspicious of our relationship although she won't say anything but you can tell she wants too but
doesn't want to overstep and I respect that. I wish I could work but Mbuso wouldn't hear non of that when I
tried to talk to him about it a while ago so I could pay him back for the money I have allegedly stolen but he
point blank refused.
I talk to Sims and her kids and they always make me laugh and happy. I always look forward to their calls. I
haven't told her about what Mbuso is accusing me of because I know she'll be here and probably tell my
uncle and they will be all here and frankly I'm not ready for them to come here while things are still tense. I'm
a patient person and I know sooner or later Mbuso will know the truth on his own and I hope for my sake I'll
be able to forgive him. Thami well is having the time of his life in cape town and what he told me shocked.
He said Mbuso rented him an apartment of his own so he will focus on his studies and so he's not staying in
res anymore and Mbuso is also giving him monthly allowance and they talk almost everyday...wow I never
saw that coming. I don't talk to my parents after I tried many times to call them but they wouldn't answer my
calls. something is going on with them...something doesn't make sense and this thing of buhle stealing from
Mbuso makes me think my parents might know or they know something about it. was it all for show when my
mom pretended to be upset when buhle ran away, did she even run away or are they hiding her?.
Thomas takes me to the mall whenever I want to go and sometimes to company madlamini and i to do some
shopping. it is the only time i get to get out of this house. I talk to my brother and cousin and I miss them
dearly and I wonder if mbuso would agree if they could come visit for the weekend.....I just have to ask him.
Sometimes I wish I had friends here.

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I've been thinking about if maybe madlamini could knock off earlier than she usually does so she can be home
more and spend time with her grandkids but I'll have to talk to Mbuso when he gets home tonight. It's midday
and so I decide to bake some muffins and make a carrot cake, chocolate and vanilla before madlamini knocks
off so she can take some for the kids.
I lose myself and do what I love most and bake and the whole house smells really delicious. By 3 pm I'm
done so i pack some for madlamini and the kids, leave some for mbuso then put some in a beautiful tray and
put it on a dining room table with the vanilla cake then take my phone and dial.
Him:" Madam"
Me:" hi Thomas can you come to the kitchen please?"
Him:" coming madam " he hangs up then few minutes after that he gets in the house"
Me:" I'm in the kitchen" I shout
Him:" madam is something wrong ?" Thomas is tall but not to Mbuso's height, he's buff like he works out alot
, he's clean and dresses well.
Me:" nothing is wrong , I just wanted to ask if you and the guys at the security room would love some muffins
and cake to have before lunch? With coffee or tea because I don't really know who drinks what?"
Thomas is surprised I guess for what I'm doing or saying I don't know but he doesn't mask the surprise on his
face.
Him: " thank you madam the guys will really love them ." I wish he wouldn't call me madam
Me:" can you call them to come to the house and eat. There are five of them excluding you right?"
Him:" Yes madam but I can make the tea and coffee and we'll eat outside in the security room " oh why
doesn't he want to eat in here and I mean there's no space there, how will they put everything there.
Me:" You won't make any tea or coffee and you'll eat here on that dining table. Call them " I turn around and
leave him there.
Me:" madlamini? " I call her
Her:" yes madam " eish I hate that word
Me: " You know what the security guys drink. Can you help me make them some tea and coffee " I am
embarrassed that I don't know their names just Thomas only.
Her:" ok madam " apparently they are all coffee junkies and they drink it like crazy. We get everything ready
and as soon as we put everything down on the table they get in like they don't really want to. My heart drops
Me:" Sanibonani " I greet first I always do and I'm used to it.
Them:" yebo madam" they all say like they are singing then I notice that they are wearing all black outfits.
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Their suits and even shirts are all in black and they all look clean and you can tell those suits are expensive. I
wonder how much Mbuso pays them. I know Mbuso is rich looking at this house but I don't know what kind
of work he does as a business man.
Me: " please sit and enjoy yourselves. There's a bowl there to wash your hands and let me know if you need
anything else" they still standing there looking awkward and then?.
Them:" thank you madam " they all say and I leave so they can be free because they look uncomfortable
around me.
Madlamini:" madam it's my knock off time but I'll wait for these boys to finish then I'll go"
Me: " no ma it's okay you can go and I'll wash the dishes. But before you leave let's have a cup of tea with
muffins " she smiles and goes to make the tea but I stop her.
Me:" today I'm making tea for you ma, you just sit and enjoy " she does. I hear the guys are talking softy and I
can't hear what they are saying. I hope they like them. I serve madlamini her tea and muffins with a slice of
carrot cake and sit down opposite her and we eat in silence and it's not uncomfortable.
Her:" my kids have never made me tea. Only my grandkids " she says smiling sadly
Me:" well I'll be glad to make it for you now and then" I say smiling
Her:" no madam I was making a conversation. These muffins are really good and this cake wow" she giggles
Me:" thank you ma and i don't mind but its okay"
Thomas comes to the kitchen with another guy and they place the empty tray and mugs on the sink and start to
wash the mugs. madlamini and i just look at each other and I want to stop them but she shakes her head for me
to leave them. They wash and wipe them then place them perfectly then look at us.
Him:" we wanted to say thank you for the muffins and cake madam they were really great" says the other guy
who's like 21 or something
Me: " I'm glad you loved them" that makes me happy
Thomas:" all of us really appreciate what you shared with us madam. Thank you "
Me:" if you keep praising them like you did, I might just bake them for you guys every week and oh before I
forget can you take madlamini home "I see smiles on their faces when I say that.
Thomas: "Percy here will take her home "
Me:" thank you. " then they leave.
madlamini:" thank you madam but you shouldn't have. "
Me:" I should ma because you live far. I saved some for you and baked you too a chocolate cake to take
home to the kids"
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Her:" oh madam thank you, thank you very much they are going to love them and the cake wow." she comes
and hugs me tearing up.mad I'm touched because to me this is a small thing I have done.
Me:" enjoy it with the kids and tell me tomorrow what they thought of it. ' she smiles then washes her teacup
and goes. I'm left all alone in this big house.... Sigh.
I decide to cook for dinner before I go shower, so I make dumplings and mutton stew and let it simmer while
I go shower. The green salad I'll do it before plating.
I shower quickly and I notice in the mirror that I look bad like I had let myself go since I've been here and
that's because I have no one to impress but I shouldn't let myself be this drab person. I'm going to go to the
salon and do my hair.
My dumplings look really good and the stew tastes amazing it just needs 30 minutes then it will be perfect. I
take out my phone and decide to put some Sjava music and sing along making the salad. I look at the time and
it's 9 pm and I'm hungry. Mbuso is not home and I guess I'm going to be eating alone again. I dish up for both
of us, put his in the microwave and eat mine. I really wanted to talk to him and it's not like I can just call him
and say "hey, are you going to be home tonight or not? ".
Whenever I go to bed I don't switch off the lights in the house, he does that. I only switch them off in my
bedroom. Mbuso hasn't touched me for almost a month now and I've seen less of him. Maybe 10 times in a
month coz he comes when I'm asleep and leaves before I wake. I switch the lights off then wear my pjs and
get in bed and fall asleep.
I feel really cold hands and a cold body and I gasp in shock terrified.
Him:" don't be scared it's me" he says like he's exhausted and tired. I relax and breathe out.
Him:" take off your pjs. I told you no clothes in this bed " I take them off and throw them somewhere in the
bedroom. He gets off the bed and stands at the edge.
Him:" come here and get on your knees " oh God he's gonna be rough. I do as he says get on my hands and
knees and spread my legs ready for him to enter me even though I'm a little wet. He doesn't enter me but what
he does instead is he slaps both my butt cheeks hard and fast 6 times and I tear up grab the sheets tight. He
rubs and rubs my clit then thrusts into me hard and I cry out.
He isn't gentle at all, he fucks and fucks and fucks me taking my breath away and I'm holding tight to those
sheets burying my face on the mattress. He is angry about something I can feel it on his thrusts, the way he's
breathing and gripping me and I realise he's taking it out whatever frustration he's feeling on me and in my
body. Mbuso is very vocal when he fucks me but today it's different. I realise that this is about him wanting to
let go of something and get something in return also.
So I make it possible for him although he's fucking me like I'm a whore....who stole his money. I relax my
body and let him do whatever he wants to do and he does. He turns me around, I lay on my back and he
continues where he stopped and fucks me. I'll be lying if I said I'm enjoying because I'm not, even though I'm
wet. I can feel he is near because he digs his fingers in me and slams into me and I want to scream but I don't.
He lays his body on top of mine kissing me hungrily then groans but it's like something is preventing him from
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falling so I'll release him.
Me:" do whatever you want to do to me it's okay. I'll be fine " he stops and looks at me deep in my eyes and i
swear i saw regret in his eyes. he kisses me then starts to move again gently then he picks up his pace and
fucks me. He is sweating like crazy then he wraps his hand around my throat and squeezes lightly with every
thrust groaning. He squeezes again tight and I start to panic and slap his hands. That seems to throw him over
the edge because I feel him grow more inside me. I think he likes it because he squeezes some more still
fucking me then my fighting instincts take over and I hit his hands trying to get them off my throat then he
groans very loud and comes filling me with his seed and it's the last thing I remember.
He continues to do the same thing he's been doing. Going when I'm still sleeping and coming back when I'm
sleeping and him fucking me doggy style everyday for the whole month. I think he likes it that way or maybe
he just doesn't want to look at me. I have lost weight drastically and I think its because of the stress I've been
feeling and not being able to talk to Mbuso because he just fucks and then leaves me is adding to that and him
not saying anything about the food I always prepare for him, the cakes and muffins because he always eats
them but a simple appreciation from him would be nice and let me think that he doesn't care.
It's Friday morning just after 10 and yes he came at night turned me over, fucked me then went to sleep in the
other bedroom. I haven't slept with Mbuso in the same bed for the last four months. He is living his life as fun
as he wants to but I'm not allowed and frankly I don't care anymore. I get up, make my bed then shower and
head to the kitchen.
I find my breakfast made and I sit down and eat thinking about calling Mbuso so I can ask him if it's okay for
Sims and thami to come visit because I'm so miserable and phone calls are not enough anymore and I feel
like I'm going to lose my mind any minute.
I finish eating my breakfast then I decide to go to the mall to find good books to read read. I sms Thomas
telling him to be ready before getting my bag upstairs. I see him in the dining room looking at mbuso's family
photos and I think he's wondering why I'm not in any of them.
Me:" hi Thomas can we go?"
Him: " yes madam " he says opening the door, I follow him outside then I suddenly feel tired and hot and I
just want to lay down and close my eyes. I don't know what happens but my body gives out and I fall but
Thomas quickly catches me before i close my eyes and its lights out for me.

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I hear a sound that keeps on beeping then I breathe in and that smell hits me and I realise that I'm in a
hospital. What am I doing here and how did I get here?.....then I remember. I was feeling hot and I must have
passed out. Thomas is the one who brought me here so I look around expecting to see Mbuso but there is no
one I'm alone…as always. I look at myself and see that I'm still wearing my clothes so I get up and take out
the drip they have inserted in me then the door opens, a doctor comes in with a nurse.
Him:" Mrs Gumede you're awake, I'm Doctor Tambo. You took out the drip....naughty are we, how are you
feeling? " he says looking at a chart and smiling.
Me:“ I feel good....I'm just tired doctor ”
Doctor:“ for how long have you've been feeling like this? ” he takes that light thing and shines it on my eyes
one at a time.
Me:“ I don't know. A month maybe. Is there something wrong with me doc? ” I don't like what I'm feeling
now, I'm freaking out. He takes his finger places it on my wrist then feels my heartbeat.
Doctor:“ well how do I put this. You look exhausted like you're stressed, not eating and definitely not
sleeping at all. I think your husband should be here before I tell you this ” he says seriously... huh what's
going on here?
Me:“ doctor I'll be fine. I've been dealing with something that has been stressing me out but I'll take it easy.
You can tell me whatever it is and I'll let my husband know when I get home ”
Doctor:“ but it is important that he is also here he….”
Me:“ Doctor please!. We don't have that kind of marriage with my husband and I seriously doubt he's going
to show up here, so please just tell me so I can go home and rest ” I shout and beg him at the same time losing
my cool, he's shocked then gives me a sad smile.
Me:“ I'm sorry doc I didn't mean to snap at you” I say covering my face becauseI feel like everything is
getting too much for me.
Doctor:“ It's purely understandable Mrs Gumede for a woman who Is pregnant. Congratulations you are 6
weeks pregnant ” what? No! no! no! no! no!…….I can't be!.
Me:“ No doctor I can't be pregnant…..I'm on birth control! ” tears fall down.
Doctor“ These things happen especially when you are stressed because the stress affects your chemical
balance and so any drugs that you take may be affected because of the stress. If God has decided that it's time
then it is. Even science can't deny that but you know you have options. I'll prescribe some antibiotics and
vitamins for you and refer you to a gynea who will be able to help you should you decide to keep the
pregnancy or terminate.” I can't believe I'm actually pregnat. He is going to kill me, he's going to lose it!.
Doctor:“ Mrs gumede are you okay ” he asks concerned
Me:“ I'm….im fine. It's just that I can't believe someone is growing inside of me ” I put my hand on my
stomach and I have mixed feelings about this.
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Doctor:“ I'm sure you'll make a great mother. You're going to need all the support you can get with whatever
decision you decide to make. Remember Mrs gumede no stress please and you lost a huge amount of weight
and you need to get it back so you can be able to carry that child. No stress, no lifting of anything heavy. Eat
and rest. Here are your discharged forms and the details of the Gynecologist and the medicine you have to get
from the chemist, Goodluck.” he then leaves with the nurse following behind him and I'm all alone.
I look at my hand bag and its just next to my bed, I get up and leave the room and see that Thomas is talking
on the phone and he doesn't see me so I sneak out, going to the other direction as quickly as possible. I look
for my phone, find it then request an uber and within 3 minutes it is here. I get in and decide to book myself
into a hotel because I need time to think about what I'm going to do.
I pay for the night then I make my way to my room. I get in locking the door then shower. I don't even order
room service. I switch my phone off and get in bed but struggle to sleep because what I'm thinking is, what if
Mbuso was there and heard that I'm pregnant, what was he going to say or do?. Do I want to keep this
pregnancy, will it change things between me and Mbuso?, will I make a good mother like Sims?, will I love
my child unconditionally and do I know what unconditional love feels like because I have never felt it from
my own parents and the man I'm pregnant for. will he accept him or her, will he be happy that I'm the woman
whom he got pregnant?. Maybe if I sleep i will wake up tomorrow and realise that it was all just a nightmare
and I'm not really pregnant.
I wake up the next morning and I don't want to leave the hotel but I must. I shower then call an uber and then
checkout and make my way to Rivonia.
It drops me off outside the gate and the security guys let me in then get me in a car again that drops me off at
the front of the door. For some reason I'm nervous and I know it's because I don't know how Mbuso is going
react but I open the door and find him on the phone shouting at someone to look harder. I see that guy who
washed the dishes with Thomas who's name is Percy with two other security guys and in the dining room
there are 3 oh so very good looking men and one is on the phone, the other typing furiously on his laptop and
the other drinking whiskey so early this morning.
They stop talking when they see me and Mbuso turns also and looks at me fuming, he is fucking mad like he
hasn't slept the whole night. he looks raged, angry and I almost regret why I came back. I should have ran
away the moment I got a chance.
Mbuso:“ Where have you been Lungi ?” He sounds calm too calm but his posture says otherwise when he's
asking me that and it scares me. I don't answer him. I close the door behind me and face these men.
Me:“ Sanibonani " Mbuso folds his hands across his chest and looks at me.
Them:“ Sawubona nkosazana ” they all say at the same time….uh okay.
Me:“ Can I make you something to eat?” I have manners you know.
Oneguy: “ Madlamini is making us something but we would love to have your famous muffins” I nod then
make way to the kitchen and I know i have to pass mbuso and I'm scared. I look at him and he hasn't moved
ever since I got in.
Mbuso:“ you want me to repeat myself…okay I will. Where the fuck have you been!?” he's now shouting and
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his friends I think get silent.
Me:“ Mbuso please, I just wanted to get out of this house and breathe ” I move past him but he grabs me
halting me and I almost scream.
Him:“ get out of this house! What is fucken wrong with this house? ” tears fill my eyes
Me:" let me go please and we'll talk about it when we are alone Mbuso not now. I want to make them
something to eat".
Him:“ answer me. What's wrong with this house!?” he shouts
Me:“ You. You are everything that's wrong in this house and I wanted to be as far away from you as possible
” the house is dead quiet you'd swear that it's only me and Mbuso.
Him:“ what did you just say?. Where did you Go?, are you fucken cheating on me Lungi !? ” what how dare
he says that when he knows my every move.
Me:“ fuck off Mbuso you hear me. Fuck you! ” I try to pull away from him but he slaps me so hard across my
face and I fall down then my nose bleeds and I'm shocked that Mbuso has just hit me. I look at my bloody
hand then look at him and he is as shocked as I am. That was a klap, the kind that makes you see stars yoh.
tears blind me and I feel my face heating up from the klap.
Him:‘' Sweet……I'm sorry I'm really sorry…. I" he tries to touch me to get me up but I hold my hands out
stopping him.
Me: “ I went to a hotel after I got discharged from the hospital and slept there then I came straight here. I
wanted to be alone at a different environment. This is too much for me…." I use my shirt to wipe myself as I
get up.
Me:“…..you don't want me to work, you don't want me to have friends and I haven't seen my family for
almost 5 months now. I'm always in this house, you know my every move then you have some fucken nerve to
ask me if I'm cheating on you?. I don't give you trouble, I don't ask you any questions where you've been and
with who. Have I given you any reason that I might be doing something with someone because if I was I
wouldn't be this miserable. You came and turned my life outside down and for the worst. The only thing I
know and have received from you is pain and misery and it's all because of something I didn't do, that you
still accuse me of doing. Maybe if I was cheating then that person would give me what I don't have and that is
Love. ” He looks at me shocked and hurt not believing what I'm saying.
Me:“ you didn't come to the hospital to check up on me and to find out what is wrong. You don't ask me if I'm
okay or why I didn't let you know I'm not going to be sleeping here. It has always been about you and what
you want and you have never asked me what do I want, am I okay, am I happy or how do I feel and it's
because you don't care Mbuso, you don't. You take me whenever and wherever you want. You fuck me like
I'm a piece of shit yet still I give you all of me even though you continue to hurt me each and every time. I
can't do it anymore. I tried to make this house a warm home but you've made it very hard. I've reached my
breaking point and I knew it was going to be you who will finally break me. are you happy now Mbuso?. I'm
miserable and you have made good and kept on your promise of making my life a living hell. congratulations
you win, you have gotten your revenge.” I run to my bedroom and lock the door then wear my pyjamas and
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then get in bed. I hold my stomach and i don't know what I'm going to do. I cry myself to sleep.

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CHAPTER 8.
MBUSO.
I've been stuck in this boardroom since coming to work in the morning having meetings with all the
department heads and the share holders. Everyone bringing me up to speed since we are about to start the
new annual budget meeting and implementing the new ideas to grow the company.
My head is not in this meeting. I keep thinking about Luh and how I left her peacefully sleeping in the
morning. I search my pocket looking for my phone and I don't have it. I must have left it in my office. I look at
my assistant Sihle who's sitting next to me typing.
Me:" Go and get my phone in my office. I left it there"
Her:" It's here sir. I took it when you left it and put it on silent because you said you didn't want any
disturbance during the meeting" I look at her and try to remember when did I tell this girl to touch my phone
Me:" who the hell gave you permission to touch my phone and set it on silence? " it's only her who can hear
me.
Her:" Sir I thought.... "
Me:" Don't you ever and I mean ever touch my phone again"
Her:"I'm sorry sir, it won't happen again" I take my phone and look at it, no calls just emails that I meeed to
go through then I place it down and as soon as I do that, it flashes an incoming call from Thomas and I frown
Me:" Thomas? "
Thomas:" Boss?, madam fainted and we're in the hospital " I stand up so fast the while room gets quiet
Me:" what?, when?, where are you now? "
Him:" Sandton medi_clinic "
Me:" I'm coming now " I feel so cold right now my mind thinking of different reasons why she
fainted....God!. Frank comes in barging through the door.
Frank:" G. we have to go" the guys stand up and look at me
Themba:" G what's wrong? "
Me:" I'll explain later, will you take over the meeting " he nods
Bheka:" You need us to come with you? "
Me:" I'll call you guys if I need you "

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Mandla:" we'll take over. go fix whatever that needs your attention " I take my phone and call her and it
sends me straight to voicemail.
Me:" thanks guys " I leave them and follow Frank then we head to Sandton medi clinic. when we get to the
hospital I see Thomas looking frantic and scared. I get out of the car before Frank even parks and go to
Thomas who's coming towards us.
Me:" Take me to her"
Him:" Boss... "
Me:" what's wrong with her?, is she okay? "
Him:" Boss she's not here"
Me:" what do you mean she's not here, you took her here right? "
Him:" I did boss but when I went to her room after the doctor discharged her she...she was gone" I feel a
very cold chill go down my back.
Me:" what?, were you not suppose to watch over her and protect her? " I punch him hard then go inside and
look for the reception area and see a lady there.
Me:" Hi, My wife was here Mrs Lungi Gumede. I want to see the doctor that was treating her"
Her:" afternoon sir... uhm it was doctor tambo let me call him" she dials the speaks for a few minutes then
some doctor appears
Him:" you must be Mr Gumede? "
Me:" yes I am. what is wrong with my wife and when was she discharged "
Him:" as I told the other gentle here. she signed the papers after I discharged her then I left her in her room."
Me:" doctor what's wrong with wife? "
Him:" I'm sorry but I can't share that information with you but you need to take good her of her. she's
exhausted and needs to rest" fuck what does that mean?
Me:" Doctor please she's my wife. I need to know what's wrong with her so I can be able to help her "
Him:" I understand sir but I can't share that information with you because it is doctor and patient
confiditiality and so I can't diclose that. you need to ask her. Is there anything else? " This doctor won't share
what's wrong no matter what I say.
Me:" No. thanks doc for helping her" I shake his hand and he leaves.
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Him:" already done. let's go" I'm still pissed at thomas. how can he be this stupid?. we go to the security
room and I get in and the guys play the video and I see that she was picked up by an Uber 2 hours ago.
Me:" take the number plates of the Uber and send it to the guys in the house so we can find that Uber driver
and where he dropped her off"
Frank:" on it boss"
Me:" thanks guys. Thomas here will pay you for helping us " the security guys say thank you then we live.
I try to call her phone again but it still sends me to voicemail. The only thing going through my mind is,
where is she and is she okay. what if someone took her... that Uber driver he better have not done anything to
her because we know there are some of them who are sick fucks.
Frank:" boss, the guys have found where the Uber driver is and he's waiting for us"
Me:" let's go to him now" Thomas is already there with the driver at Fourways Mall. He's a young man 24 I
think.
Me:" Sho my outie "
Him:" Sho grootman" we shake hands
Me:" I'm looking for my wife, the one you picked up at Sandton medi-clinic. I just want to know where did
you drop her? " I take my phone and show him her pictures
Him:" I did pick her up grootman and I dropped her off at some hotel in bryanston grootman"
Me:" you wouldn't lie to me now would you... what's your name again? "
Him:" thato grootman". I'll even take you there myself grootman "
Me:" I'll ride with you, Frank and thomas will follow us" i get into his Uber with him and we leave.
Me:" how did she look when you fetched her, was she alone and was anyone waiting for her? "
Him:" she didn't talk grootman and I didn't see anyone waiting for her " I'm hoping and praying that well find
her there. we get there and he shows us the hotel we dropped her. Frank pays him then he leaves. we get
inside and i ask the reception lady to check her name and she does but it says she checked out after an hour.
we look at the security footage and see her walking out and disappearing among the people on the street. I
ask them to send us the footage and they do with a little bribe and I wonder if maybe someone bribed
someone to frame lungi. I'm freaking out.
I go home because I know I won't be able to concentrate at work. I get in and find madlamini waiting for
lungi I think. she stands up when she sees it's me. I throw my tie and jacket on the table and sit down because
I'm so stressed. What if Lungi has finally decided that she has had enough of me and left me. I take the vase
on the table and throw it on the wall and it break into pieces
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Me:" Thomas you had one job! , just one job!. Keep my wife safe at all times but what do you do you heh.
You fucken lose her! " I say screaming, I fold my shirt sleeves.
Me:" What if she's disoriented where she is, hurt, hungry. what if she gets kidnapped and raped...
Fuuucckkkk! Thomas. You better pray that she's not hurt wherever she is or so help me brother you're dead! "
Frank:" G come down. we'll find her"
Me:" Don't tell me to come down. My fucken wife is missing and I have no idea if she's okay where she is.
how do I protect her when she's not here?!.
Frank:" the guys are out there looking for her and soon they'll find something and we'll find her".
Me:" she can't leave me Frank, she can't. what will I do without her? " I sit down and cover my eyes and this
takes me back to when I used to see her sitting down like this and it hurts me everywhere, my mind and my
body.
Me:" you go and look for her and don't you dare come back without her. Fuuuuccckkkk!!!! " I scream leaving
them and go to our bedroom look for her pyjamas and then hold them to my face and smell them. They smell
her, everything in this bedroom smells like her. her scent is everywhere. I want her back.
I take her pyjamas and go to my study then open another secret door and close it. It's my secret room that no
one knows about and it has many screens and footages. Every room in this house has hidden cameras
excluding our bedroom and my office. I search for today's footage and look at my wife as she goes to the
kitchen and has her breakfast and you can see that her mind is somewhere else. she goes upstairs then comes
looks at the pictures thomas is looking at, with longing and I feel ashamed because there's not even a single
picture of her in this house and its all my fault.
They talk and then thomas opens the door for her and what happend....I will never forget. I play that part of
her fainting over and over again and the more I do it is the more I hate myself. I sit in there for hours and
watch Frank and thomas looking for me all over the house. I call her again and it still goes to voice mail. I
open my phone and go through all the photos I have of her and I really look at this women and know that she's
not capable of hurting anyone or even stealing something that big from someone. she doesn't have that in her.
My God.... what have I done. How could I be this stupid?!.
After midnight I finally leave the toom, head to our bedroom and leave her pyjamas where I found them then
go take a quick shower and head down stairs. I find Thomas, Frank my other security guys. I go to the
microwave to take my food then remember she's not here. she didn't cook. I go to the fridge and take a bottle
of water and sit down.
Me:" Nothing on the location where she could be? "
Percy:" Nothing boss. It stops at that hotel and I still think she's there because she turned off her location after
that Uber dropped her off at the hotel."
Frank:" we went there and searched all the rooms. she isn't there ".
Thomas:" Boss I'm so sorry. it will never happen again "

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Me:" Thomas I really like you brother but right now, you really need to shut up before I punch you again ".
We all sit in silence waiting and waiting. The sun comes up then it's 8 am and madlamini is here. She greets
us and she can tell that lungi is not back. She gives me that disapproving look that parents give their kids
whenever they do something wrong. She goes to the kitchen and starts to make breakfast then the door opens
and I stand up fast thinking it's Luh but it's my three best friends.... fuck I don't need this! .
Themba:" She's still not back? "
Me:" No she's not. she disappeared in the street when she left that hotel."
Mandla:" and the doctor didn't say anything? "
Me:" patient and doctor fucken confiditiality "
Bheka:" I sent my guys as well to look for her... they'll find her G don't worry "
Themba:" I can't believe the first time we are going to meet her, we gonna meet her like this "
Bheka:" What exactly were you doing to this poor girl for her to faint from exhaustion? "
Mandla:" He was giving her too much dick, not giving her time to rest" they laugh
Me:" Fuck you! "
Themba:" She's safe, she'll be here and if not we are going on a shooting spree starting with that Uber driver
"
Bheka:" Nah, we start with this fool here Thomas" he points at him
Thomas:" I've said I'm sorry boss. madam outsmarted me"
Me:" Frank take thomas here before we all shoot him and go back to that hotel again. maybe you missed
something " they leave.
Themba:" you okay G? "
Me:" my wi.... my woman is missing and you're asking me if I'm okay?... fuck you Tee"They laugh at me
Themba:" Idiot. I need a drink" . Frank calls again telling me they can't find her and tell him if they come
back without her they are dead. They better look harder if they value their lives. As I'm shouting at Frank on
the phone, the door opens and here comes in my missing wife. I hang up then look at her.
Me:“ Where have you been Lungi ?” I ask her calmly but I'm furious inside. She looks at me scared and
doesn't answer me instead closes the door and faces us
Her:“ Sanibonani " I fold my hands across my chest and look at her.
TheGuys:“ Sawubona nkosazana ” they all say at the same time and I give them what the fuck look
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Her:“ Can I make you something to eat?” so she's going to ignore me and not answer me
Themba: “ Madlamini is making us something but we would love to have your famous muffins” She nods then
makes way to the kitchen and I'm standing here looking at her to tell me where the fuck she has been
Me:“ you want me to repeat myself…okay I will. Where the fuck have you been!?” I ask her furious because
she put her life in danger by being alone out there with no one to protect her.
Her:“ Mbuso please, I just wanted to get out of this house and breath ” she tries to move past me but I grab
her stopping her and wanting to fucken shake her for not giving a damn about her safety
Me:“ You wanted to get out of this house! What's wrong with this house? ”
Her:" let me go please and we'll talk about it when we are alone Mbuso not now. I want to make them
something to eat". I don't care about these fuckers here but about you lungi I don't say that
Me:“ answer me. What's wrong with this house!?” I shout.
Her:“ You. You are everything that's wrong in this house and I wanted to be as far away from you as possible
” the blood drains on my face
Me:“ what did you just say?. Where did you Go?, are you fucken cheating on me Lungi !? ” Ah fuck no what
did I just say!.
Her:“ fuck off Mbuso you hear me. Fuck you ” she tries to pull away from me but I don't know what happens
because the next thing I see is my hand connecting to her face and I slap her so hard across her face and she
falls down then her nose bleeds and I'm so shocked that I have layed my hand on her. Oh I'm deep shit!.
Me:‘' Sweet……I'm sorry I'm really sorry…. I" I try to help her get up but she stops me putting her hands out
in defence.
When she came through that door the only thing I wanted to do is to hold her, ask her if she's okay. Is she hurt,
hungry and what wrong with her so I can fix it.
I watch and listen her as she pours her heart out and tell me how much a screw up I am and how I have ruined
her life. Every word she says cuts me very deep because I know it is true. The only thing I want to do is hold
her and let her cry in my arms but I know that's the last thing she needs. All I have to do is let her say
everything she wants to say and take it like a man and then figure out how I'm going to fix this mess we're in
and most importantly is how am I going to put the pieces of her heart that I have broken.
I could feel she was unhappy everytime I touched her but she let me because she thought it is what she must
do because she owes me. Lungi has no mean bone in her which baffles me how is it that she's the one who
came up with this idea of convincing buhle to steal my money and she agreed because she knew I would fuck
her in my office then get the information. That bitch is going to pay when I get my hands on her.
Me“ leave us ” I say to Percy and they do. I'm left with my three best friends. I turn to go up the stairs but I
don't know what I'm going to day to her.
Themba: “ Don't go up there. She wants to be alone and you're the last person she wants to see ” I sit down
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and cover my face
Mandla“ You're fucked. You fucked up big time"
Bheka:“ She's not her sister and she's nothing like her Bafo. You need to fix this because that woman in there
loves you ”
Me:" I've never seen her like this. She's broken and it's all my fault ”
Mandla:“ did you see her at all or you just saw the woman who apparently stole your money?
Themba:“ you did say that's she's going to pay and I think she has. Let the poor girl go and live your life ”
Me:“ I'll never let her go ever!. ” that thought makes me want to kill someone
Bheka:“ She's been through enough G let her go ” here it goes
Me:“ we are married. ” they are shocked
Themba: “ wait what?, when, how and why don't we know about this ” I tell them what happend from when
we got at her parents house finding her sister gone and until now and my best friends are really disappointed
in me.
Bheka:“I knew there was something you we hiding but never did I think it was this ” he says disappointed.
Madlamini comes with breakfast and sets it on the table and the guys seat and eat and I can't stomach anything
because I'm so sick of myself.
Mandla“ this situation is more fucked up than I thought. You hid this from us because you knew we were
going to stop you. ”
Themba:“ how sure are you that she was also part of the plan to steal your money? ”
Me“ I thought I was sure because she finally confessed but now I'm not. ”
Bheka: "did she say how they did it and why? "
Me: “ No. She just said yes we stole your money.” they look at me like I'm crazy
Bheka:" When did you because this stupid dick?. 2 million rands I nothing to you, hell it's not even worth
this house and how much you pay these guys here and your company. We all know that this is not about the
money. so what's really going on G? "
Mandla:" It's about your damn stupid, bruised ego" he shakes his head
Themba: “ and that's when you almost punched her but today you finally did it. You hit her. I thought we
didn't hit women G?.”
Me: “ I regret it okay and it's never going to happen. I'm sorry guys ”

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Themba:" Oh no brother you're apologizing to the wrong people. You have to ask her for forgiveness to her.
Look I'll look into this whole 2mil thing and see what really happend and I'll let you know."
Bheka: “ Do you love her ” what? I go pour myself a glass of whiskey then drink.
Me: “ I don't. I don't love her” I shake my head fast
Themba:“ if you were to find out that she didn't steal the money and she asks you to let her go, will you give
her a divorce? ”
Me: “ I'll never let her go. She's mine whether she stole it or not. She fits me perfectly, she brings out the
other side of me that I try to hide from women, but with her it's different. Everything is different with her and
I love that.”
Mandla: ‘ what if she meets someone else coz you told her your marriage is on paper only. What if he falls in
love with another guy? "
Me:" I'll kill any man who even thinks of touching her. I'll fucken kill them "
Mandla:" Your twisted self loves her and you kmow you do "
Themba:" So tell us.... Is she... You know" We all laugh
Me:" Yeah she is" I say proudly
Themba:" you lucky son of a gun"
Me:" Damn right I am"
Mandla:" Does she have another sister? "
Me:" Yeah her sister cousin but she's faisty that one"
Mandla:" Just how I like them"
Me:" That one is the type to choke you while you're sleeping if you piss her off" We laugh again
Mandla:" I'll fuck all of that faistiness out of her. Man I'll fuck her to submission "I shake my head
Me:" She is probably going to punch me when lungi tells her what I did"
Bheka: “ well you deserve it and please fix this mess you created before dad finds out. ”
Me: “ I will. ” they finish eating then leave and I go find madlamini and ask her to take the rest of the week
off and she happily agrees but she's worried about Lungi and I don't blame her because I know she blames
me. Yeah me and you both ma
I take my phone go through my contacts and look at that name starring at me on the screen. Not many things
terrify me and scare me but there are 4 people that absolutely terrify me. my parents and these other 2 people
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and I have to call one of them. I debate if I should call that person but I know that if I don't someone out there
might, so I make the call.
Them:" junior ." I feel my forehead sweating
Me:" I messed up...i think I really messed up" I think they stand up
Them:" I was waiting for your call. I know she was missing. Now how did the fuck that happen ? " Oh fuck
Me:" she fainted then went to the.... "
Them:" Don't you dare tell that! . I want to know how did she sneak past your guy. The man you promised me
would guard her like his life depends on it?!."
Me:" It was a mistake. " They laugh... that cold laugh that I hate and makes my blood run cold.
Them:" mistake about her life in danger?, do you know what could have happened between those hours of her
missing? "
Me:" I'm sorry I take full responsibility "
Them:" Did I not ask you to protect her?, did I not ask that you do everything in your power to make sure
she's always protected no matter what?. Did I not ask you to take her out of that hell whole she was living
under and take care of her for me?. I swear junior if I hear that you hurt her or did hurt herin anyway you're a
dead man walking". my throat gets dry.
Me:" it will never happen again I promise" they chuckle
Them:" be glad that there is someone else who watching over her too. Other wise we could be talking
another different story and someone might be dead.... you maybe" and I know they mean it.
Me:" who's also watching her and why didn't you tell me? "
Them:" I make the rules not you. where is that bitch buhle? "
Me:" someone is hiding her but I found a lead "
Them:" I want her dead " then the phone goes dead. Fuck. It's time I fixed my mistakes and be a man and
husband she needs.
My name is Mbuso Gumede I'm 36 years old, the first born of Nkosinathi and Owami Gumede. I have two
very annoying brothers Zipho and Siyabonga. I run a multi millionaire IT company Phakathwayo IT. I have a
master's in IT Computer science and Technology. My brothers work for me and my mom runs her own NGO
organisation and my dad is a doctor who recently retired.
I take a glass of whiskey and drink. I have to go upstairs and talk to my wife. Where do I even begin.

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Mbuso.
One day I was out with the guys and we went to this club they usually go to but it was my first time going
there. I saw this girl she looked good then we started flirting and it had been a while since i was with a
woman so then I fucked her that very same night in the club. Eveytime we went to that club she was always
there and I would fuck her everytime and then one day I took her to my house and fucked her there.
Tom told me to stay away from that girl because he said she was a gold digger and i did see that but I didn't
care because she was a great lay and to me that was it but it turned out to be the biggest mistake of my life,
taking her to my house that is. I shouldn't have done it because she started to come to my house unannounced
and it did bother me but then i I'll be using my dick and not brain and I'll take her to my office and i would
always fuck her there, until this one time I left her in my house to deal with something and I think it is then
that she went through my things and saw confidential papers.
I didn't notice that something was wrong until one day my accountant showed up at my office and asked me
how can 2 millions rands get transfered from my account and not inform him to get the papers ready. I was
shocked then did what i do best and used my I.T skills and boom all the paper trail led to Buhle and her
sister Lungi. I didn't know buhle like that because well what we had was a physical relationship and nothing
more. I never took time to investigate her and find out about her family. so when I decided to investigate I
found out that she has a beautiful younger sister.
Investigated so more and the more I investigated I found out shocking things about buhle's parents. I sent frank
to go to Standerton and follow lungi and her parents and record their every move. The paper trail and
messages started as them joking between themselves then it changed when buhle told lungi about me and how
rich i am then lungi said to the message, it read " well lets steal him and see if he notices. if he doesnt we'll
continue to do that until we leave him with nothing on his personal and business account. Then when he sees
what you did, you'll declare your undying love for him and tell him you wanted to be the only woman in his
life and so what you did was your way of getting his attention. Then he'll have no choice but to marry you"
and buhle being a gold digger she is agreed.
I coulnd't believe it so I called buhle to come over to my place and she did. She thought she was here to fuck
but I had other plans for her. I took her to guest bedroom and the moment i6 closed the door i slapped her,
choked her and kicked her a few times before I tied her up then took my belt and beat the shit out of her
asking her how the hell she has the guts to steal from me and she denied everything and blamed it on her
sister. I could feel the jealousy she had for her sister and it was sickning.
Buhle is an escourt girl. She's what others call a sophisticated call girl. she deals only with rich men. I didnt
know at the time i met her but found out during the time we were fucking and I didnt care because she has
never asked me for money and so I knew that she liked me more than I did and wanted more from me. So I
told her that she was going to work for me as a call girl and pay all my money back and if not i'm going to her
family and i'm going to take everything they own and then tell them that she's a prostitute and not working at a
law firm. She begged me not to and instead offered me her sister because they were in this together.
She said her father is expecting a rich man from somewhere to come and buy lungi off. Basically what she
said is " My father is going to sell lungi to some rich man whos expected to come within the next few
weeks". I was so shocked I couldnt belive what I was hearing. How could this man sell his own daughter and
I was disgusted. So I came up with this plan that I will tell my parents that I want to marry buhle and they
would believe me because twice they found me in compromising situation with her and so it wouldnt be hard
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to convince them. My family would then take the letter to her family and it is then that she will tell them about
how rich i am and after the first time my family comes she would be there but the second time she will go
missing on the week of the negotiations to come here to my house and so she can sign the paper work that she
agrees to work for me and then i'll save her sister and also make her pay too for stealing my money.
I made her sign the papers the next morning because I didn't trust her and she did then during the week i told
my family and that i was in a hurry to marry her because they want to marry her to someone else, I love her
and I don't want to lose her of which all of that were lies.
They didnt waste anytime because my mom has been nagging me about getting married. but first I had to go
and talk to her uncle because frank said the uncle is very close and protective of lungi and so I wanted to be
sure that lungi is really the mastermind behind stealing my money.
(Mbuso's flashback meeting with lungi's uncle.)
We arrive to this town and its okay not bad at all. Frank drives to the section where Lungi's uncle lives and
stops a few houses up the road.
Frank:" G. he lives at that house" frank points to a bid house, i think it has about 6 rooms, a garage and has a
very nice lawn outside. its abeautiful home.
Me:" is he home? "
frank:" yeah he is. You want me to come with you? " i laugh
Me:" you do know i can protect myself right? "
Frank:" and its my job to protect you. i dont care that you know how to " i shake my head
Me:" Ok mr body gaurd lets go "
we get out of the car and make our way to the Mazibuko home and we find the man of the house outside
reading a newspaper. He stops reading and looks at us then stands up and comes to us.
Him:" Not here. lets go" just like that?, frank and i look at each other confused
Me:" Sir, Mr Mazibuko...."
Him:" People like you never come in this location and especially my house. so it means one of my two
brothers daughters is in trouble or it's my nephew who's giving you trouble. so if I'm right lets get in that car
of yours to go talk somewhere and if I'm not feel free to enter my this yard.
Me:" we'll go to my car sir" we get into the car
Him:" ah mr bodygaurd, feel free to drive around " frank gives me what the fuck look and i almost chuckle.
this man sitting next to me is very intimidating and i dont get intimidated that easily.
Me:" sir my name is Mbuso Gumede and I'm here about uBuhle your niece" he shakes his head

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Him:" aw Phakathwayo. what did that child do now?"
Something tells me that I can trust this man and so I decide to tel him the whole truth about how I met buhle
and how she and her younger sister stole my money. He looks at me wanting to laugh.
Him:" Buhle has and always will be very manipulative. She's a very good lier and will say anything to get
out of trouble. The trouble that child has done will shock you and so this her stealing your money doesnt
shock me".
Me:" which is why I'm finding it hard to believe that it was all her sister's idea".
Him:" Lungi doesnt have a mean bone in her body. she doesnt even know how to lie, shes a bad lier and so
you want to tell me that my sweet niece stole your money?, are you fucking with me?"
Me:" Sir im serious.."
Him:" Boy listen to me and listen to me good. lungi didnt steal your money. buhle is the one who did and she
framed her and someone helped her do it. Now is that all you came to talk about?" i dont know if i should tell
him this. What if he doesnt believe what i'm going to say about her brother? but hell I've got nothing to lose.
Me:" there's something else. she said your brother is planning to sell lungi for one million rands to some men
who's expected to show up on the next coming week" he sits up straight looks at me and the next thing I see is
a gun on my face and I have no idea when it came from. Then frank stops the car taking his out and points it to
lungi's uncle
Him:" what the fuck did you just say?" he asks raged
frank:" put the gun down or I'll blow your brains off right here right now"
Him:" tell your bodygaurd here to drop his gun and continue to drive and if he doesnt I'll blow this car right
now".
Me:" we will be all blown then. Sir I'm serious about this. Frank put the gun down...now!" he does and so
does lungi's uncle. I take the laptop that's in the car and show him the part where buhle confesses about her
faher and the plans he has for lungi and what I think we must do. He is so angry, he's fucken raged.
Him:" so this is what will happen. you'll show up on the second time of the negotiations and you'll keep
buhle at your house in the meantime so she won't show up for the negotiations and ruin everything. I'll
convince my brother to let you marry lungi instead so she will be safe and not sold to whatever sick fuck he
wants to sell her to. I'll give you the money and you'll take it as the 2 million buhle stole and the 1 million he
will want."
What the actual fuck is going on here?. Who is this man and how the hell is he going to come up with 3
million rands. Something is going on here.
Me:" who are you exactly "
Him:" just a cleaner" then he laughs. i look at frank and he is spooked.

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Me:" how are you going to get that money because no offence sir..."
Him:" you stop it right there boy. Don't ask questions you are not ready to hear the answers of. I'll be in
touch." he opens the door
Him:" Next time you try to follow me frank don't be seen or I'll blow up that car!, and oh before I forget go to
someone to take that bomb off your igntion key before i change my mind" he closes the door laghing leaves us
looking dumfounded.
frank:" who the fuck is this man G"
Me:" I have no fucken idea" lets get out of here.
Lungis uncle watches them leave then he takes his phone and makes a call
Person:" victor"
UncleVictor:" We have a problem he wants to sell her to someone" he listens as the other person on the
phone curses and break things.
Person:" Tell me everything " he tells the other person what mbuso told him and they both come up with a
plan and then lungi's uncle calls mbuso.
There won't be any POV of Mbuso's because I'll be giving away some of the things that must still he revelead
to Lungi.

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My stomach keeps growling and I feel so hungry. I forgot I hadn't eaten anything since last night and when I
woke up today. I touch my stomach and it hits me again that i am pregnant. God what am I going to do
because he's going to kill me. I roll over and land on something or rather someone. I hold my breath while I
open my eyes and see Mbuso looking straight at me smiling and I'm shocked. why is he smiling, what is he so
happy about because i'm not happy and i can still feel that klap on my face.
I have never seen this man smile and his smile takes my breath away. He has a dimple on his left cheeck and
those pink full almost pink lips that drive me crazy whenever he kisses me. He has full very dark eyebrows
and full lashes and I'm so jealous. His cappuccino smooth skin bold head and that beard that has few silver
hairs. Mbuso has a great body he works out and he's very well toned not too toned like gym freaks but we'll
enough and I love his tall sexy body that has that v-thing on their lower stomach going straight to that long
thick dick. God!.
Him: " breathe out before you faint on me" his breath hits my face as he talks and I swear I get wet or I was
wet before he even said anything. I breath out and look at him.
Him:" you must be hungry. I can hear your stomach growling " I panic and take my hand off but he pulls me
very close to him and I feel his rigid member and I swallow.
Me: " Mbuso...."
Him: ' shhhh let's feed you first, get up. ' I do and he brings me a plate full of English breakfast with water
and juice and I eat. He's looking at me differently and I feel very weird I just wish he would leave me alone.
Me" did madlamini make this?"
Him:" no i did" i look at him shocked
Him:" you dont believe me?"
Me: " no i dont. are you not hungry? "
Him: " No. I did eat something earlier " I don't believe him so I cut a piece of pancake with bacon and eggs
and take it to his mouth
Me: " open. " I say and he smiles, a full blown smile God he's so beautiful.
Him: " you want to feed me?"
Me:" I know youre hungry so open your mouth" he stands up and goes to the bathroom and comes with a wet
cloth then takes my hands and wipes them the he wipes his too.
Him:" use your hands to feed me" oh ok. i take the food and bring it to his mouth then he opens up and i put it
in he takes it from my fingers then i feel his tongue on my fingers nibbling. he does the same and feeds me too
and we're just silent eating the food and watching each other. It feels so amazing like its the most intimate
thing we have ever done to each other. When he swallows, when he drinks the juice and his adams apple
goes up and down I look at it and i just want to put my tongue in there and feel it moving up and down my
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Me:" I'm full, I cant swallow anything else"
Him:" you sure?"
Me:" I am" . We both get silent and I know we can't ignore the elephant in the room. He takes the tray off the
bed and puts it on the dressing table then goes to the bathroom and I the hear water running the he comes
back.
Him:" come and get in the bath" i get up and take off my clothes and I look at my stomach again and I know
its too early for it to show so he won't notice anything. I go to the bathroom and get in the bath and it smells
nice. I sigh when I get in and close my eyes.
Him:" can I join you?" I keep quiet and look at him
Me:" you can if you want"
Him:" I am asking you if I can join you and if it's okay"
Me:" get in mbuso " he takes off his clothes then joins me and gets behind me then drags my body to his, my
back connecting with his front. He washes my back with his hands then his hands come to my front, raps them
around me and lays my head to his chest.
Him:" what did the doctor say, what caused you to faint"
Me:' you are the reason I fainted. You stress me" he breathes out loud
Him:" I know I do and I just dont know what to do and how to do this"
Me:" this what?, this marriage?. I'm the one whos been doing something to make it work and what is it
exactly that you did besides hurting me and abusing me evrytime?"
Him:" abusing you?, i wasn't abusing you. Yes I was a little rough sometimes but I never abused you lungi" I
chuckle
Me:" of cause you'll say that because an abuser will say that. Tell me mbuso what have you done to find
buhle so she can also pay as I am paying. when is she going to get slapped and choked?"
Him:" luh please dont talk like that. She is still missing but Themba said he'll checkout this thing of the
money. There are people who are looking for her and she will be found and she is going to pay for what she
did as you say she framed you".
Me:" let me tell you something about my sister. she's the type to get anything she wants and she'll do
whatever it takes for that to happen. Shes the type of ' if I cant have it, so will you'. everything has to be hers
and hers alone. She's smart but uses her smartness for wrong things and reasons." I move away from him, turn
and face him.
Me:" I dont know the kind of relationship you both have or had but I know you didnt love her. You are not a
man suffering from betrayal and a broken heart but you are out for blood and revenge and I'm the tool you
will use until you get it out of your system"

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Him:" your sister isn't the person you think she is."
Me:" shes not what?. a liar, manipulator, a conniving bitch, a fraud , a thief. she's not all those things?"
Him:" she is all of those things. I thought maybe you are going to say good things about her"
Me:" oh but there are good things I can say about her. She used to love me when we grew up, would look out
for me, did6nt want any boys around me. She was my big sister and I loved her. I was her own personal doll.
She would dress me up and take me to her friends to show me off. But things changed she started pulling
away from me and changed towards me and I knew that it was our mom's doing. She has always been jealous
of our relationship and her wish happend and we grew apart with buhle, but the were times when she will
come back from joburg take me shopping with her,so all the things sisters would do and we'll go to the bank
to withdraw the money you sent her, you her boyfriend. What puzzled me is that she will always withdraw
huge amounts of money and give some to my parents. Mbuso have you asked yourself why our house is that
big and beautiful and both my parents drive the latest Mercedes and even buhle drives a Q7 and she's
working at a law firm and she's not even a lawyer. My mom's a teacher and dad's a warder and you think I
stole your money". he stays quiet listening to me
Me:" You and buhle would have made a great couple because you're both fucked up. Do you ever regret the
things you do to me?, do you feel anything in that cold heart of yours mbuso?. Do you remember what you
said to me when we laid in bed as i was crying in your arms the day we first met?" he looks nervous then
moves forward to me tries to touch me
Me:" dont mbuso. do you remember what I asked you and what you said? " he stops.
Him:" I said alot of things that day. I dont remember?" I sigh disappointed.
Me:" of cause you dont remember because it didn't mean anything to you but to me it did".
Him:" luh I dont how to do this, it wasn't suppose to be like this" I suddenly get angry
Me:" How was it suppose to be like hmm?!, why didnt you call the police and get me arrested?, why aren't
the police involved and searching for my sister? "
Him:" I dont deal with the police. I deal with things in my own way"
Me:" who doesn't deal with the police?, unless.....oh my God" I get out of the bath fast and almost slip and
fall then run to the guest bedroom.
Him:" what are you doing?, youll hurt yourself" he says running after me and I close the door and lock it
before he tries to open it.
Me:" youre a criminal. That is why the police were never invloved. oh my God what did i get myself into?!"
Him:" lungi I'm not a criminal okay?. open the door so we can talk like adults"
Me:" dont lie to me. if you're not a criminal then why do you have bodyguards and drivers. Only criminals do
that."

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Him:" my job is dangerous luh. I have to have people protecting me at all times and all those i..i care about
too"
Me:" you dont care about me, so why are you protecting me?"
Him:" I do care about you and I always want to keep you safe and protected"
Me:" and who's protecting me agaisnt you because you're as bad as the ones you are being protected from"
Him:" We all have people who are watching over us lungi and as bad as this sounds but I am protecting you"
Me:" well then answer me this honestly"
Him:" I'll try "
Me:" no you will answer me this."
Him:" ok I will "
Me:" do you really believe that I stole your money?"
Him:" lungi please!."
Me:" No answer me!" I shout
Him:" NO!. I dont okay? Fuck! " i stand there looking at the door shocked. I open the door and see him
standing there stark naked
Me:" what did you just say?"
Him:" I dont believe you stole the money. This whole thing stinks of your fucken sister" he says looking at me
Me:" when did you come to the realisation that I didnt?"
Him:" I've already said enough and I'm not going to say anything more"
Me:" I deserve to know. This is my whole life we're talking about"
Him:" I can't tell you that okay. just fucken leave it!" he says getting frustrated
Me:" I'm not leaving it. tell me now!" i scream at him
Him:" Its fucken bigger than the both of us okay!. Fuck luh "
Me:" what does that mean, its bigger than the both of us?"
Him:" you dont fucken listen dont you?. I said leave it"
Me:" ok I"ll leave it then. I want a divorce. I want out" He looks at me like i'm crazy and start to laugh. he
actually laughs a deep belly laugh then stops. Tears roll down my eyes as I see him laughing tears and all like
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i'm tickling him or hes watching something funny. I'm that something funny because he's looking at me.
Him:" sweet you're not going anywhere because if you leave this marriage and house you're dead"
Me:" then you might as well kill me now because I'm leaving this house and I want a divorce".
Him:" I mean it when I say you will be dead. It's not going to be me who kills you but your parents"
Me:" you sick fuck!. You now realise that I want nothing to do with you then you think you better accuse my
parents of wanting to kill me so I wont leave you and this sham of a marriage, what is wrong with you?."
Him:" They are not your parents lungi". he says seriously and I look at him and laugh. i'6m the one who's
laughing now. I laugh and laugh. He watches me then comes getting closer to me slowly then my laugh turns
to hiccups then sniffs then cries.
Me:" you know I thought maybe we'll have a chance and make this work but the more I get to know you is the
more I get disgusted of you. How can you say something like that?"
Him:" look at yourself and look at them, the whole family lungi. You look like no one in that family. Even
your extended family members and grandparents look nothing like you".
Me:" maybe they adopted me. Many kids get adopted and its okay but you dont have to accuse them of
wanting to do something like this." I choke up
Him:" they didn't adopt you. They killed your mother and stole you lungi." he looks at me and I see sadness,
regret, remorse in his eyes and see the truth too.
Me:" Nooooooooooooo......God no!, No, No!" i fall on my knees and cry and he holds me.

This can't be true. Why would they kill my mother and not kill me too but decide to raise me as one of their
kids. What kind of people are these?. Where was my father when all of this was happening and where is he
and is he even alive. Did my mother's family know about me?
Me:" I want Frank to go to Standerton to get my uncle. I want him here.... I want Sims and thami here too "
Him:" I thought we would use this time to talk and fix things between us "
Me:" Talk mbuso?. There's no talking. I want out of this marriage. We had time to talk and try to fix things
between us but you we're out and fucking God knows how many women and now you want to fix things?.
Hell no!.
Him:" Luh please! "
Me:" I want my family here before the end of this day Mbuso do you hear me? "
Him:" Why don't I send Frank to go fetch sims and thami then your uncle will come over after some time? "
Me:" no. you're scared that he's going to see how you've been treating me right?, well I don't care mbuso. I
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want answers and I know he's the only one who'll tell me truth. Do I have to call him myself or you'll go and
tell Frank.
Him:" I'll go. let's get you dressed up and warm" He picks me up and takes me to our bedroom, lotions my
body then I go and wear my clothes and leave him getting dressed.
I go to the kitchen and start preparing dinner for my family. I keep sniffing and wiping my tears off
Him:" we can order take aways. you don't have to cook" he says sitting down and watching me
Me:" leave me alone and get my family here"
Him:" don't cut yourself please. " I ignore him and continue chopping.
He looks at me wanting to say something but Frank enters the kitchen
Him:" afternoon Madam "
Me:" Hi Frank "
Him:" I need to talk to Frank in my office before he leaves "
Me:" ok " he sighs then they leave. I breathe out deeply and put a hand on my stomach. what am I going to do.
I want out of this marriage and mbuso out of my life but now I'm pregnant for him. Am I going to keep this
pregnancy?, do I even want to keep it and what about this marriage? "
My trian of thought is disturbed when I hear a phone vibrating and I look up and see mbuso forgot his phone
on the table. Do I look at it or take it to him. We always hear don't ever touch a man's phone because you
might find and see what your looking for but what do I have to lose.... nothing.
I look around and see if he heard it or coming to fetch it but no, so I take it and see that his screen saver is a
picture of me sleeping. I slide across then It unlocks because it doesn't have a pin. Who doesn't put a pin on
their phone. I see a message from an unsaved number so I click on it and it says
Message:" This is getting too much for me and I'm losing my mind. The lies have to stop so I think it's time
we tell her about us " I feel my heart almost stopping. I read the message again and again and I can't believe
what I'm reading. This has to be buhle... it is her. These two have been playing me and laughing behind my
back and stressing me out.
Him:" have you seen my phone, I think i...." He says getting in the kitchen and sees me holding his and he
freaks out
Him:" what are you doing with my phone luh? "
Me:" You fucken bastard!. how can you do this to me? " I scream at him
Him:" what are you talking about? "
Me:" This you fucken bastard! " I throw the phone at him and he ducks then I throw the pan, knife, food at him
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and he runs out of the kitchen ducking and I scream loud and cry uncontrollable.
Why does everything have to be hard for me. why can't I get just a moment of peace. For once in my life I just
want to be loved. Why did they kill my mother?, what did they gain from killing her and who's my father?.
Could my uncle be my father and is that why he loves me?. Oh God I'm not related to sims and thami my
brother. It hurts everything just hurts.I feel him pick me up and take me to our bedroom and lay me down on
the bed.
Him:" Drink this. It will calm you down and help you sleep"
Me:" Is it harmful? "
Him:" No it's not. you'll just sleep". I take it and drink it then close my eyes and sleep.
I feel kisses on my eyelids and cheeks and that smell and my heart melts and I giggle. I didn't realise how
much I missed her. I open my eyes and see my beautiful cousin laying next to me with her beautiful smile and
big eyes.... yeah she's not my cousin and that thought makes my heart break and I sniff.
Sims:" I'm here now sis don't cry..." I turn and look at her and tears just cloud my eyes and I cry. She hugs me
as I cry into her arms. I can feel her chest moving up and down and I know she's crying with me. I hold her
tight and I know that whether we're related or not. Simphiwe is the best sister I've ever had.
Me:" I love you a lot you know" she laughs
Her:" Ofcause you do dummy because you know I'm very special."
Me:" Where is thami? " he's busy with exams but he's gonna be here as soon as he's done".
Her:" I missed you, you know " she says sniffing
Me:" you didn't come with them? " I look at her.
Her:" No they are visiting their fathers and I would have left them even if they were with me because I knew
you we're going to ask me to come".
Me:" I miss them "
Her:" they miss you too. we all did".
Me:" I know they missed me and my cooking because I'm the only who knows how to cook. What were you
feeding my kids Sims ? " we both laugh
Her:" oh come on they are still alive ok and the food they ate didn't kill them plus we would take aways and
fast food"
Me:" I hope they are not skinny" I say giggling

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My body feels so relaxed and warm hmm i love it. I can't remember the last time i slept like this because it
feels so good. I sigh then open my eyes and i see a pair of brown eyes looking at me and then a very hard
thing poking me. That's why I feel so good, its because I slept on top of mbuso. He kisses my nose then my
lips.
Him:" good morning sweet "
Me:" morning, how did i end up here "
Him:" you fell asleep after the second movie, so i took you to bed and we slept "
Me:" ok and how did I end up sleeping on top of you? "
Him:" well you kept on touching my dick then when I tried to touch you, you slapped my hands then when I
stop and finally get some sleep you decide to get on top of me and sleep".
Me:" why didn't you move me to the bed?"
Him:" you looked so peaceful and relaxed and I loved feeling you sleep on my arms. It reminded me of that
day when you were crying as I held you and you slept in my arms and when you started nipping on my neck
thinking you having a dream" I giggle
Me:" it was nice a dream and it felt good "
Him:" hmmm "
Me:" you're getting hard "
Him:" I've been hard the whole night sweet. Why won't you touch me? "
Me:" I am touching you " I'm playing with his beard
Him:" you know what I mean, when we're intimate " I try to get off him but he holds me
Me:" my uncle is coming today and I'm nervous " he takes a deep breath then breathes out.
Him:" don't remind me and don't change the subject "
Me:" you won't let me touch because you always fuck me. you dont want to look at me that's why you fuck me
from behind " he quickly changes positions and now i'm beneath him
Him:" I always want to look at you while I fuck you but I couldn't and wouldn't allow myself because of the
guilt I feel when I always look at you".
Me:" what are you feeling guilty about ?" he doesn't answer me but instead kisses me.
Me:" mb...."
Him:" sshhh let me touch you and make your body sing "
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Me:" lock the door " I want the damn dick, I'm so horny
Him:" I did lock the door when I took you to bed, wouldn't want to make that mistake of your cousin seeing
me giving you what you need"
He takes off all my clothes then looks at me like its the first time he's seeing me naked, then takes off his
pyjama pants and his dick springs free and I see his dick is leaking with precum and i just want to run my
tongue on it. I look at him and he's looking at me smiling and I smile back. I dont know but something is
shifting between us.
I crawl and get off the bed then stand next to him. He opens his arms and holds me. we stand there naked, my
head on his chest listening to his heartbeat beat. His hands touch my ass then he lifts me up like I weigh
nothing. I wrap my legs around his waist and arms around his neck
Him:" you were a size 36 and now I think you're 32. you lost so much weight because of me. I'm sorry sweet,
i'll.... "
Me:" sshhh lets not ruin the moment and talk about that "
I bring my face and kiss him deeply. he moans and starts to kneed my ass grabbing it tight and grinds his dick
on my clit and i moan, he groans and I hold him tight and kiss the living day lights out of him. My body
always melts at his touch and I can't help myself. Feeling his dick against my wet folds and it touching my clit
makes me so wet and I know he can feel my wetness.
Me:" mmmm... put me down "
Him:" Baby please..." he puts me down and I look at him and smile
Me:" ssshhhh"
I get down on my knees and come face to face with his proud, protruding member facing upwards above his
belly button . Mbuso has a type of dick that is like almost a banana shape, its thick long and oh so very
yummy. My mouth waters from just loking at it and I lick my lips then take my hand and wrap it around his
dick but my hand can't wrap all around it, just half of it and he stands still.
Him:" Baby you dont have to do it " he says touching my hand that's on his dick
Me:" I want to " i pull his hand off and look at him as I move my thumb over the head of his dick and he
swallows. I move it around smearing the precum all over it then move my hand all the way down to his pubic
hair then bring my face down close to his dick and swallow his dick and it streches my jaw making me open
my mouth wide then I move my tongue around it and tease that opening on his dickhead and he groans.
I pull my face up and look at him again, the go down on him again and he groans then I feel his hand on head
making me go deeper and I moan making a mmmmm sound and he curses.
I take my other hand and put it on his balls and start touching them softly, feeling them in my hand and it feels
so good having him in my mouth but his pressing my head hard making me struggle to breath a little and he
notices because he moves his hand off my head and brings it to my face and massages my jaw
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then he flexis his hips and moves them a little at controlled pace and i moan again, move my head up and
down using my lips and tongue all around it and it feels so good.
I can feel that i'm very wet, my boobs feels heavy, my nipples are hard and my body is screaming to get some
release but what I'm doing is not for me but for him. I suck that dick like i'm eating ice-cream and my
favourite lollypop then I pull it out of my mouth and it pops out making that pop sound.
Me:" move your legs apart a little " he does and i move my head again and take his balls in my mouth,
sucking them softly and he groans and i continue to suck on them then feel him tense and so i5 stop, go back to
his dick again and take him to my mouth wrapping both my hands around it moving them up and down and
lose myself pleasuring him. He holds my head and start to move his hips and fucks my mouth softly and I
enjoy every thrust he makes, I move my hands off his dick and put them on his tight ass with my nails and he
groans.
His movements get hastly and I moan again making that mmmmm sounds, he groans, goes deep in me and I
feel my nose touching his pubic hair, then he comes filling me with his tasteless cum and I try to swallow
most of it but some comes out of my mouth.
He breathes hard like he's struggling to get air on his lungs then he picks me up and takes me to bed kissing
me, his tongue down my throat and I love it. He lays down with me on top of him
Him:" get your butt on my face" huh?
Me:" what ?"
Him:" fuck my face baby "I've never done this before but how hard can it be, it will be like ridind a dick
right?". I get both my thighs on either side of his head, look down and see that he is face to face with my
pussy. My hands hold on tight to the steel bars on the bed then i bring my ass down and then i feel his hands
on my ass bringing it to his face then feel his tongue on my wet folds and I moan. He holds my waist tight and
eats me, his soft tongue on the entrance of my pussy, my clit, all over my vagina sucking me good and I can't
help myself but scream out loud because it feels good, his beard tickling me on my ass, tongue on my clit
sucking me softly and damn i move my hips and ride that face holding tight to those steel bars and now i
understand why they are on the headboard.
He continues to suck ny clit and i feel myself getting near then I feel his thumb going to the back door and I
almost freeze but he bites my clit a little and i moan, he rubs around outside my back door presses on it at the
same time his tongue presses on my clit then moves it side to side and it makes me lose control and Ii come
all over his face screaming his name.
He takes me to his arms then lays me down on my back while I'm still feeling my orgasm then enters me and
looks at me.
Him:" Youre the best thing that has ever happend in my life" he says and thrusts deep and i moan then i touch
his back, those shoulders, arms and finally his ass and grab it tight pushing him deep in me.
Him:" you're perfect in everyway and don't ever let anyone change you...even me " he continues to thrust
deep and i moan
Him:" I'm sorry for everything i have put you through " he kisses me and i close my eyes

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Him:" look at me baby, don't shut me out please " I look at him and see that he is sad, like he wants to cry and
that makes me hurt
Him:" I wish I can turn back time fix things, say things I should have said so I can have this moment right here
and now for life. Wake up to it everyday of my life...." his pace changes and he starts to move. His thrusts are
deep, long and hard like he is giving me all of him and wants nothing left behind and it makes me cry because
it feels like he is saying goodbye to me. He wraps both his arms around me, kisses me with his eyes closed
and i'm looking at him and see tears on his eyelids.
Me:" mbuso...." he shuts me up with a kiss and continues to make love to me and I cry on his arms holding
tight to him and he continues to make love to me until we come together. We stay like that, holding each other
like it's the last time because it feels like it.

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Mbuso gets up and goes to the bathroom and i turn and face the other way wiping my tears off. He comes
back picks me up and we get into the shower and he washes my whole body quietly and I do the same. We
finish getting dressed and everything and still no one is talking and it makes me wonder what is my uncle
going to say that mbuso knows and is making him nervous.
Me:" what is it that is scaring you? "
Him:" will you hold me " he looks so vulnerable right now and I dont like it at all. I don't like this weak man
that i'm seeing in front of me. I go to him and we we hug. He kisses me on the forehead then looks at me,
takes my hand we leave the bedroom and go downstairs and find sims stuffing her face with food.
Her:" good day love birds " she says smiling
Me:" hey sis "
Mbuso:" hi " he says low and we both look at him
Sims:" you look bad mbuso, did luh not give you some cause I swear I heard her scream your name more than
once "
Me:" ew sims you were listening? "
Her:" hell no i was passing by coming to the kitchen and you decided to scream his name at that exact
moment. Yoh luh youre loud "
Me:" shut up" I say getting shy and mbuso looks at me and smiles, a sad smile.
Me:" you're eating yesterday's left overs? "
Her:" it's food and it still tastes good"
Me:" you want me to make you something? " I look at mbuso
Him:" yeah but i'll be in my office. I have to call frank and find out how far they are from here with your
uncle "
Me:" ok " he kisses my cheek then leaves us.
Sims:" what happend, he looks so sad?"
Me:" I think he wants us to break up and get a divorce " I take things out and start to cook
Her:" what?, why, "
Me:" I dont know. I think it is something to do with uncle and I also told him that I want a divorce "
Her:" oh luh, I know he treated you like shit but do you really want that divorce? "
Me:" we dont love each other sims and i think he is hiding some things from me "
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Her:" maybe he is stressed that he can't find your sister "
Me:" maybe. I can't wait for uncle to get here because I need answers and he's the only one who'll give them
to me "
Her:" what's going on luh? "
Me:" I don't know sims, i don't know "
Me:" sims what did you mean when you said there's something different about mbuso "
Her:" the way he looked at you the first timen was different to how he looked at you now "
Me:" maybe it was lust and you did say that he wanted to be in my pants so bad and so when he did, that
spark left because he got what he wanted "
Her:" you guys make a good looking couple though "
Me:" that's all we're good at "
Her:" and having great sex too "
Me:" shut up sims man " I throw the lettuce at her
Voice:" there are kids who would give anything to have that lettuce " I turn around and see my uncle looking
good and smiling. Mbuso is standing next to him. I stand there and look at this man i've always adored and
loved and thought that when i get married i would like to marry a man who is like him.
Me:" bab' umncane " I smile back
Him:" Luh kababa " I walk slowly to him, stand next to him and look at him.
Me:" How are you uncle? "
Him:" I'm good now that i"m here with you " he opens his arms for me and I hug him. I've always loved his
hugs because they are warm and fuzzy.
Me:" Come, lets get you settled in and then get you something to eat "
Him:" I want to talk to your husband first. We will come eat when we're done "
Him:" I'm so happy to see you "
Me:" nami baba " ( me too dad ) he hugs me again
Him:" and you?, aren't you going to hug me? " he says looking at sms and she comes and hugs him too then
uncle and mbuso leave. There is tension between them and its tense.
Me:" can you help me make them sandwiches while i'm still cooking "

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sims:" okay " sims makes coffee and I make sandwiches because I dont want my uncle to die of food
poisoning from sims.
Me:" I wonder what are they talking about there "
Her:" I dont wanna know. I'm going to take a bath and maybe a nap. I feel so full "
Me:" as you should because you stuffed yourself with that food " she leaves I take the tray and put it on the
dining table and the coffee aswell then head to mbuso's office. As I get closer I hear someone groaning in
pain, my uncle is shouting at him and mbuso is quiet.
I quietly open the door and see my uncle holding mbuso by his throat and by the way mbuso is bigger and
taller than my uncle and I realise that mbuso is letting him beat him. I get so shocked when I see so much
blood
Me:" Uncle what are you doing? , why are you hitting him ?"
mbuso's face is bloody, his clothes and my uncle's aswell.
Him:" get out lungi and close the door " he says angrily
Me:" why are you hitting him though?" I ask him knowing very well why
Him:" look at you lungi, just look at you!, you lost weight, you go missing, he has a nerve to put his hands on
you, who the hell does he think he is? "
Me:" he's my husband uncle. The one you told me to marry! "
Mbuso:" lungi leave us, I'm okay " he says struggling to talk
Me:" no, i'm not leaving. I want the truth. The lies and secrets must stop now!. "
Mbuso:" she's right, it all must stop now "
Uncle:" shut up mbuso. Lungi go to the kitchen we are coming now "
Me:" promise me you won't hit him again " my uncle nods
Me:" mbuso go clean yourself up then come downstairs " he also nods.
I leave them and go to the living room and sit down. Sims shouts from the kitchen
Her:" your food is burning luh "
Me:" switch off the stove sims " I dont have energy to cook anymore. She comes to the living room and sits
next to me.
Her:" what's going on luh and please don't tell me you don't know "
Me:" we'll both find out what's really going on " mbuso comes first and has showered and changed, his face
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looks really bad. He stands next to the fire place and doesn't sit down then my uncle follows too and has
changed his clothes.
Me:" after I came back from the hospital, I went to the hotel and spent the night there and then the following
morning I came back home and we had a fight and he hit me. I told him I wanted out that I want a divorce but
he said I couldn't leave because there's a price on my head by my parents. He said that my parents are not my
biological parents but people who murdered my mother and then stole me." sims gasps shocked looking at my
uncle
Me:" so who am I uncle, who are my parents, why was my mother killed and where is my father? " I ask him
looking at his eyes.
Him: where do I even start lungi? "
Me:" at the very beggining "
Uncle:" Mbuso is the one who should start "
Me:" start talking mbuso, i'm listening "
Him:" I am a hacker lungi, It's what i'm good at. I met buhle at a club and we started having a physical
relationship....." he goes to explain how he and buhle met and how i am involved in stealing the 2 milliom.
Mbuso:" It didnt make sense that you would steal my money just for the fun of it and so buhle can get married
to me once I find out because she was trying to get my attention and then I decided to investigate who buhle
really is and I found out that she has been asking about me, where I live and where I hang out...things like
that. So I went to see your uncle and told him what happend and he told me that you couldn't do something
like that but buhle is very capable of doing it and much more ".
Me:" so you knew from the beggining that i was innocent ?"
Him:" I wasn't hundred percent sure so I digged some more and found out that buhle cloned your phone and
laptop. She took your original phone and gave you a fake one looking exactly like yours and had everything
your original one had and did the same with your laptop. That's why there we messages from "you" but not
really you. She also made a fake I.d with your names and date of birth but used her picture. She made a
private back account same as your account number and that's how she got to transfer the money from my
laptop to her account using your information. She is working with someone who is used to dealing with these
things and we believe that person to be the man you call dad who raised you "
I cannot believe what i'm hearing, buhle did what with my dad?
Me:" how did she know your passwords and everything ?"
Him:" They put a hidden camera in my office "
Me:" why not clone your laptop like mine? "
Him:" because I'm a hacker and I would have noticed and she knew I didnt have cameras in my office " my
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Me:" she did all of that and you still wanted to marry her?....it doesn't make sense " he looks at me then looks
at my uncle and I look at them both then my uncle looks down and mbuso comes and sits on the other side of
me on the couch.
Him:" she also said something else when I confronted her...." he takes my hands in his
Me:" what did she say ? "
Him:" she said that your....her dad was planning to sell you to some man for one million rands "
" what?! " both sims and I say at the same time and I stand up
Me:" and you believed her?.....no they wouldnt do that uncle? " I keep shaking my head no
Uncle:" let him finish lungi "
Mbuso:" she swore that she's telling the truth and she was scared for you lungi and so she offered you to me.
We made this plan that i'll tell my family that I want to marry her and because they had found us having sex a
couple of times so it wouldn't be hard to convince them, then my family would go the first time for the
negotiations she will be there but the second time she will go missing and come here to my house but she
never showed up and is still missing. Then that will force your dad to force you to take buhle's place but it
was never about her. It was was about saving you and I told your uncle what buhle said " oh my God I was
going to be sold for one million rands to God knows who?, tears cloud my eyes and fall.
Uncle:" when mbuso told me what buhle did and what my brother is palnning to do, I offered to pay him back
the 2 million and give him the one million he will use to pay for the lobola negotiations..."
Me:" what?, did you take it mbuso?..did you take it all and still accuse me of stealing from you? " i ask him
screaming
Mbuso:" I didn't take any of it. I refused and used my own money to pay for the lobola negotiations " he says
with his hands on his head
Me:" Is it true uncle, he really didnt take the money? "
Uncle:" He didn't lungi. He used his own money "
Me:" How much did you buy me for ? "
Sims:" lungi dont say that " she says crying
Him:" I didn't buy you lungi. I was trying to save you but i ended up hurting you in the process "
Me:" how much did he buy me for uncle...HOW MUCH? " i scream
Uncle:" calm down lungi "
Me" HOW MUCH? "
Uncle:" he paid 2 million rands for you ". I look at mbuso and he's not looking at me
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Me:" Why would you pay so much money for me mbuso knowing i didn't steal any money from you or owe
you anythinhg, why did you marry me? "
Uncle:" we were worried that, the person who was promised you will come back and want you back and so
we thought that it is better mbuso marries you " they did what
Me:" So they decided to plan my life. Why didn't you take me somewhere to live other than standerton and
not tell anyone uncle where I am in case that person comes looking for me ? "
Uncle:" we were not sure who we were dealing with and how connected they are "
Me:" This marriage that we have mbuso is it real or I'm still here because you're protecting me from him "
Mbuso:" he is no longer a problem. He is dead "
Me:" how do you know that? "
Mbuso:" because i looked for him and killed him" he says not even blinking and I feel cold chills run all over
body and the hair on the back of my neck stand.
Me:" you killed a man for me mbuso why? " i choke up crying
Him:" someone had to do it lungi because you wouldn't be safe and why not me "
Me:" Do you...do you hate me for what you did? "
Him:" I could never hate you luh never "
Me:" what happens to this marriage since he is dead and I no longer need protection " he looks at my uncle
Him:" There is no marriage lungi ? " I feel a piece of my heart being crushed
Me:" so.....so you want us to divorce "
Him:" no I don't want that "
Me:" talk mbuso man, how do you mean? "
Him:" we didn't get married luh, everything was a fake. ask your uncle here, he's the one who came with the
idea of us getting fake married " I look at my uncle and see the truth written all over his face and I feel
betrayal of the worst kind.
Me:" why uncle?, why would you do this to me ? " I ask him crying
Uncle:" we thought we were protecting you. I told mbuso and he agreed, it's not like he was innocent in all of
this. The judge is a friend and the marriage certificate you signed was fake. that's why you never got the real
one from home affairs or change your surname "
Me:" so the only thing real here is that a man was killed for my protection and everything else is a lie. My
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whole life is a lie, my name, my marriage....I could have walked away from all the abuse i endured, I...."
Me:" Wait....who sent you that message mbuso ?" i ask him
Him:" your brother "
Me:" What!....thami? "
Him:" your real bother luh " what?

Me:" my what?,....uncle what is mbuso talking about? "


Uncle:" Lungi dear, I have to tell you something but before I do that, there are people who must be here too "
Me:" no!. Tell me what's going and i'll decide if those people must be here or not "
Uncle:" lungi for you to understand and have everything out in the open, they must be here please " he says
pleading with me
Me:" ok fine " he takes out his cellphone and calls whoever that is, whether it's my real brother or someone
else I don't know "
Uncle:" where are you guys?...ok...uhm not sure, i'm coming " he looks at me then hangs up.
He goes to the hallway to open the door. I keep pacing up and down because I don't know what to do with
myself. Whether to sit down or stand up. I feel like i'm going to faint at any moment.
Mbuso:" sit down luh, you don't look good " i ignore him
I can't believe I have a brother and they all decided to hide that from me and what else do I not know. Do I
know my uncle?, do I know the man i've been sleeping with, do I even know myself?. I hear footsteps of
people coming to the living room and I stop pacing and brace myself for whatever i'm about to face.
The first person I see is my uncle followed by these two men I dont know, have never seen and met in my
life. They stand next to my uncle and the older man looks at me shocked. Both of them look at me shocked i
feel something happening in my body and i can't expalin it. One is older and he limps a little when he walks
and the other one is either the same age as mbuso or older. They look alike...like father and son and i look
like them. He must be my father and that must be my brother. Wow tears cloud my eyes then i hear sims
Sims:" oh my God, you look like them...that's so freaky "
Uncle:" shut up simphiwe. Lungi? "
Older man:" no Victor, let me take it from here ". He walks towards me and I stand there frozen. He sands
close but not too close.
Him:" my name is Zakes Ngcobo, I am your father and this here is your older brother Sicelo Ngcobo....."

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Me:" who am I? "
Ngcobo:" You are my one......one and only daughter, Lungile Ngcobo not mazibuko. You.....you and your
brother are my only children ". he gets teary
Me:" who was my mother?, why was she killed? and why did they steal only me. Why did't you try to find
me, do you know how I grew up?, the emotinal abuse I received everyday and constantly being hated for
reasons I did not know. Slaps I would get from the woman I thought was my mother?, why did you let me be
raised by my mother's killers, why didnt they kill me too with her, why did you let me go why?! why! why!
why! " I get loud with every question, screaming at him crying loud and uncontrollable then I feel his arms
around me comforting me and i cry hard.
Ngcobo:" sshhh don't cry my baby....I'm here now. All is going to be well. Lets sit down " he leads me to the
chair and we sit down with him facing me and he wipes my tears off
Ngcobo:" I was studying Agricultural Sciences and on my last year at the university when I met your mother
and you look exactly like her. It's like i'm seeing her but seeing you".He says that looking at me touching my
face with both his hands and kisses my forehead.
Him:" she was the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. So I courted her, she gave me a run around for
sometime and then she finally agreed and we started dating as you now call it then during school holidays
that same year I sent my family to send a letter to her family in Newcastle and I payed lobola for her. I didnt
want any guy to steal her from me and so I made my move quickly. They accepted but said she will finish her
studies first before we conclude the negotiations and so I waited and I was patient, well half of the time " he
smiles and you can see the love he had for her and still has and it warms my heart.
" She was studying teaching and she was very passionate about it. she was a very passionate person and it's
what I loved most about her. She was had this friend that I didn't like but your mother was a kind person she
didn't want to see the bad in people. I was working back at our farm and would travel to and from Durban to
see her every weekend after I graduated. She eventually graduated and as soon as she did we finished paying
the amalobolo and we had a traditional wedding and after that a white traditional wedding too because she
wanted it and to me it didn't matter because we were already married. "
Him:" We got our own place and she found a job in Ladysmith and worked there as a teacher and then we
had Sicelo after a year in our marriage..."
Sicelo:" wow dad you didn't waste anytime " he says chuckling
Ngcobo:" Scelo man "
Ngcobo:" your mother was still friends with this woman from joburg Thulisile and she will always show up
at our house unannounced and I did mind but she was your mothers best friend and I told her that I didnt like
this woman and she said I 'dont like anyone so I let it go because she believed everyone had some good in
them then one day she came to visit with her husband late a night and what shocked me was, she never
invited your mother to her wedding and she mad an excuse and said it was a spare of the moment thing and
your mother was hurt but understood and i didn't believe her. "
" they stayed for about 3 days then left and would not visit for about 4 months and then show up again and we
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never went to visit them and i didn't want to because I didnt trust that man around my family. After 5 years
living in ladysmith the business was growing fast on our farms and then I decided to go to Durban and
manage everything from there since I was the older brother and then we built our offices in durban and I
moved my family there then when Sicelo was 12 years old we dicided to have another baby you and then you
were born when he was 13 years old ".
Ngcobo:" thuli and her husband Sipho showed up again at our doorstep when you were 2 years and I was
mad at your mother that she told her where we live but she said she didnt and I just knew something was
wrong because that day they showed up she was jittery like something was wrong with her. You were fussy
that day from when you woke up. I asked your mother what was really going on with thuli and she said they
were in trouble and needed some help with money and that's when i found out that whenever she came to
visit she would borrow money from your mother and not pay it back and the total amount was almost R50000
and I was livid with her so I went and asked then how much do they want and they said they needed R20000
and I gave them R50000 and told them in the morning I want them gone and out of our lives forever ".
" We had dinner and slept then late at night I heard your mother and thuli shouting and fighting in the house
and when I got there thuli had a knife and had just stabbed your mother on her stomach and when I tried to
rush to her a gunshot were fired and hit me on my arm and leg and i fell. I screamed and tried to go your
mother but her husband shot me again on my other leg and thuli continued to stab your mother many times to
death and she died immediately. when they saw that I can't move, they asked where do I keep the money I
told them I had given them all the money I had in the house but they didn't belive me so they went to sicelo's
room and came back with him, with a gun pointed on his head and he cried when he saw your mother dead
and me bleeding to death and I was so scared for both of you. I told them I had a safe and where to find it,
thuli had a gun on sicelo's head and you were in your room crying histerically "
Ngcobo:" sipho phoned another man, told him to come to the house and when that man showed up he was
carrying two 20 litre bottles of something and it smelled like petrol. I have never been terrified in my like
how I was that day. I saw my wife being stabbed to death by a woman she thought was her best fried and
now they were going to burn us all in the house, my kids we're going to get burned and I couldn't have that.
Sipho left thuli and told that man to start pouring the petrol all over the house and that man did that and came
back with three other 20 bottle containers and poured the rest of it in the house and on us too. Sipho took thuli
and they went to the safety box to get the rest of the money and it was just me and sicelo and so I told him to
go and get you in your room and run away with you, because the police were going to take a long time to get
here. He was so scared but got up and left with petrol all over his body to go and get you but then I heard a
gun shot and I knew they had shot him and was probably dead, then they came back running and said they shot
sicelo he is dead then they lit the house on fire and had to get out before the neighours saw the house was on
fire then he shot me again then left us like that to die.
" The fire was approaching fast and I tried to get up but I couldn't and so I crawled as hard as I can but then
the smoke was too much and the fire was hot and I just asked God to make you and your brothers death quick
because I didn't want you to feel any pain and that was the last thing I remembered "
Tears were flowing down his face and and mine. my mother was murdered like an animal, she continued to
stab her even when she saw she was dead. how could she?, how could I have ever said I loved that woman
and wanted her love so bad...how could I betray my mother like? "
Sicelo:" I woke up at a hospital and I was all alone. I had lost my memory and I was taken to live at an
orphange and I grew up there until I was kicked out at 18. They used to call me Philasande Msizi I don't
know who gave me that name but I used it. I used to have nightmares about fire, a voice of a child cying and a
man's voice saying I should take my sister and run away. I looked for jobs and would get small one's until I
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got a permanent job as a driver for some big produce company. There was this old man I used to drive with,
he would ask me questions about where i'm from and where I grew up and I will tell him that I couldn't
remember growing and he would say that I look like people from a family in Ladysmith and he would one
day take me there and he did when I was 25"
Ngcobo:" when I woke up I was at the hospital in ladysmith and had no idea how i got from durban to
ladysmith. They told me you had all died and i died too that day when i heard you both didn't survive. I
couldn't even bury you because the house was burnt beyond, everything was gone. When I lost my family I
lost eveything, then your uncles decided to go collect your spirits and cleanse the yard and then my brother
took over the business and managed it because i was a mess. Your mother would come to me in my dreams
always crying and when I would go and consult they would tell me she wants her kids and can't find them. It
was hard and everyday I thought about killing myself because there was nothing i was living for and I wanted
to help her too by looking for our kids ".
" Then one day I woke up and decided that i'm going to kill myself. I had my gun loaded and went to another
room and sat there for hours and just when i had the courage to pull the trigger I heard voices outside and
people screaming. I left room and I saw this young man being surrounded by my family and as I got closer I
could not believe I was looking at Sicelo standing there looking shocked as he saw me approaching. I thought
I had finally gone crazy but I went to him and touched him. He was real then I lifted his the t-shirt he was
wearing and looked for his birthmark and saw it. You have it too just below your left breast ".
Sicelo:" I knew he was my father the moment I saw him. I felt it and I think you felt it too. I owe my life to
that man who took me to my family because without him I don't know what could have happend to me. We
bought him a house, 2 cars for him and his wife then gave him 5 cows and he ritired and I still visit him. A
ceremony was done for me and I started getting my memory back but then I would always hear you crying
when I slept and it would haunt me. I started investigating about mom's friend and her husband and for years
there was nothing and it was like they never existed but I didn't give up. Then one day I had a lead about their
daughter and I had her followed around and then that's when I found out about you and I knew you were my
sister because you looked like our mom then i had you followed too but I couldn't get you alone because there
was someone following you and only to find out it was mbuso's man, so I approached him and we made a
plan to get your D.N.A and frank got it from some resturant you went to with your uhm cousin I guess and I
had it tested agaisn't me and dad and it came a hundred percent correct that you're my sister and that's when I
told dad about you and we came and spent a week in standerton watching you and you never noticed us but
we were also careful that you do not see us."
Scelo:" dad wanted to take you away but we couldn't because that would make the mazibuko's suspicious
because you would have asked them about us and they would figure it out that we are still alive and not dead.
As we were still in standerton my dad saw a man he thought he will never see again, a man that brought the
petrol and poured it all over us and the whole house and burnt our mother's body to ashes "
Me:" who is it?, who was it ?"
Dad:" it was the man pretending to be your uncle. Victor " my face goes what and and i feel my heart stop
Me:" what?, no! no! no!. uncle tell me its not true? "
Uncle:"..............."
Me:" tell me its not true!......, say something!, why are you quiet? "
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Him:" I'm so sorry...I was young and... "
Me:" Shut up. You burnt my mother's body to ashes, you lied to my face everyday saying you love me but you
were busy nursing your gulty conscious.... how could you?. I loved you and took you as my father but you
were also part of the plan to kill me and my whole family.... "
Sims:" I'm so sorry luh. I never knew or I would have told you what was going on. I'm so sorry " she says
crying
Me:" sims I need some water I.....I can't.... I can't breath, I.." lights out.

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My bladder is full and I feel pressed, i remeber that I fainted. I can't believe my uncle...he's not even my
uncle. I can't believe he and them burnt my mother's body to ashes. I wanted the man I was going to marry to
be just like him because i thought he was an honest, loving man and like a father to me. I open my eyes and
see that i am in our bedroom...yeah right there's nothing of mine here.
Voice:" Mrs gumede finally you're awake " When did he get here
Me:" Doctor Tambo. How did you get here? "
Doctor:" well your husband sent his men to come and get me " I Iook around and see that my dad, brother,
mbuso, sims and victor are all here.
Me:" uncle what happend after you left us in the fire? "
Mbuso:" doc can you give us a few minutes, simphiwe can you go and make him some coffee? "
Sims:" follow me yummy doc " she takes his hand and they leave
Victor:" my brother told me to make sure the house is burnt down with all of you inside and they left. I went
upstairs and took you and your brother out of the house then your dad and your mother's body. I put you in my
car and and wrapped your mothers body in plastic and duck tape and put her in the boot of the car then took
sicelo too because he was still breathing and then I called the police and ambulance for your father and left. I
dropped sicelo at a hospital and drove off "
Me:" what did you do to my mother's body "
Victor:" I had heard thuli say she lived in Ladysmith and her in-laws lived there so I drove there the whole
night with you crying and when I got to ladysmith I saw there was a livestock farm and so I stopped the car
and took out my shovel and dug a grave for your mother and buried her there because I had hoped someone
will find her and notify the police and then we left "
Me:" dad did you find mom's grave? "
Dad:" after i saw victor he took us there, we first got lost because he couldn't remember then after 8 hours
we finally found it and she was buried at another farm from a family we knew. We dug her grave and gave
her a proper goodbye, she's buried at our family plot and we'll take you there ".
Me:" how did I end up staying with them and not you? "
Victor:" my girlfriend then, helped me raise you and you stayed with her for two years then one day I went to
visit you guys and my brother followed me because after what happend to your family I stayed away from
them. when I got into the house a few minutes later he got in and when he saw you, he wanted to kill you
because he thought you were dead but I begged him and told him you're still a child and wouldn't remember
and it was either I let you live with them so they can watch you or kill you and I couldn't let that happen and
so he took you "
Me:" uncle I need some time to process this because I don't know what to feel "

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Victor:" I undestand lungi. I hope that one day you will forgive me for what I did to you and you're family "
he says
Mbuso:" please tell the doctor to come "
Uncle:" I will. Zakes we will talk " they shake hands and he leaves.
Dad:" how are you feeling "
Me:" It's alot to take in " the doctor gets in smiling and i bet that smile has sims all over it
Mbuso:" Doctor for the last time, what's wrong with her? " I get up before the doctor answers and run to the
bathroom and throw up nothing because I had not eaten anything. I feel tired and I'm exhausted. I feel mbuso
brushing my back remaining quiet. I'm so scared of telling him that i'm expecting his baby because I don't
know how he's going to react.
I flush the toilet and get up and brush my teeth and mbuso is still there not saying anything. I leave the
bathroom and I see the doctor's disapproving look on his face as I sit on the bed
Doctor:" Mrs Gumede I told you to rest and no stress. when did you last did you eat? "
Me:" I woke up late and I was cooking, I was going to have something to eat but then..."
Dad:" I'll go and make you something to eat. sicelo come "
Me:" baba i'll make it " he looks at me and smiles
Dad:" you called me dad "
Me:" and for the first time in my life it feels right? " i say smiling. he comes and gives me hug then kisses
both my cheeks and sicelo kisses my forehead and they leave me with mbuso and the doctor.
Mbuso:" I'm worried about you, you keep fainting luh, I know you said it's the stress doc but what's really
going on? "
Me:" I'm pregnant mbuso. I'm having your baby, we are going to be parents " he looks at me shocked then
looks at the doctor
Mbuso:" Is the stress affecting the baby...my baby? "
Doctor:" If she keeps getting stressed, not eat properly and doesn't rest she will lose the baby "
Mbuso:" what can I do to make sure that doesn't happen? " is he excited that we're having this baby?.
Doctor:" don't stress her. She needs to gain weight and rest. Did you get and take the medicine I prescribed
for you ? "
Me:" I forgot to get them doctor " he writes something down

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Doctor:" here is the prescription and the gynae's number and remember you have options mrs gumede.
Goodluck and call me if you need anything else "
Mbuso:" thank you doc " he shakes his hand and the doctor leaves.
Me:" I'm sorry, I never lied when I said i'm on birth control. I just don't know what happend, I mean.."
Mbuso:" stop luh. I treated you like trash and I used you for my own selfish needs because I'm like that. I use
woman and then discared them like nothing. I knew you were innocent from the begging yet still I accused
you because at first I enjoyed watching you looking scared of me and it gave me a kick....that's how twistee I
am. I treated you bad because you were slowly getting under my skin and making me feel things I have never
felt and It scares me to death "
Me:" you're not twisted mbuso. you just dont know how to love "
Him:" love luh, my parents have been together for 45 years and married for 20. I've seen how my father
treated my mother and he worships the ground she walks on, he loves her and she loves him. I don't know if I
can do that and be that person to...you"
Me:" you are your own person and not like your dad mbuso. If you won't open your heart how will you know
that you can or cannot be that person. What are you scared of mbuso? "
Him:" I'm scared of you. I'm scared that i'll give you my heart and then one day you'll wake up and realise
that you deserve someone who's better than me. Someone who's never lied, manipulated, kept secrets and hit
you. You'll realise that I'm not worthy of you and it terrifies me. I'm scared that you'll hurt me and so I hurt
you first "
Me:" you did all those things because you wanted to push me away and not get close to you, so when I find
out the truth it will be easier for me to walk away from you? "
Him:" I didn't want to treat you good, make you fall inlove with me while I'm keeping so many things fom you
but I couldn't stay away from you. I tried to just fuck you and not care but everytime I did I cared deeply and
it hurt me to know that I hurt you by just fucking you and leaving you and not giving you my time " am I falling
for him, have i fallen for him?.
Me:" It did hurt me....alot. Sometimes I would wish that you would just hold me all through the the night, let
me sleep in your arms and wake up next to you and kiss you good morning but it never happend ". I sigh sadly
Him:" I would come back after you have slept and I would watch you sleeping everyday. I'll take pictures of
you and look at them when I'm at work. I'm sorry I couldn't be the man you deserve ".
Me:" and now we are going to be having a baby "
Him:" I know and whatever you decide I'll suport you "
Me:" what do you mean mbuso, whatever decision I take you'll support me?, don't you want this baby? "
Him:" After everything I put you through I'll understand if you don't want to keep the baby. You were already
pregnant when I hit you luh God what is wrong with me? "

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Me:" I am keeping this baby and we're having it. You were wrong to put your hands on me and you better not
or else my dad is going to kill you "
Him:" but still I shouldn't have done it "
Me:" you didn't know I was pregnant and that doesn't mean it was okay to hit me "
Him:" I promise I'll never do it again "
Me:" So you're not mad that I'm pregnant? "
Him:" not mad but scared. "
Me:" I'm scared too. So what now?, what happens between us "
Him:" I think we should stop whatever that was happening and focus on the baby and me paying the damages
"
Me:" I think so too. How are you going to explain everything to your family? "
Him:" I'm sick of the lies so I'm going to tell them the truth "
Me:" yeah do that. Why did you send thami money and get him his own apartment? "
Him:" I did that because he's a good kid who's bright and loves you and I knew that you would appreciate it
and I did with sims and her kids because you love them. I would hear it everytime you spoke with them over
the phone "
Me:" thank you "
Him:" no thank you luh for making me want to be a better person. I'm gonna be there for you and the baby "
Me:" so this is goodbye? "
Him:" no its not. I want you to go stay and reconnect with your family because you never had that and now
that you do you must be around them and enjoy it. Be happy and not cry but when you cry it should be tears of
joy "
Me:" yeah " he lays down and looks at me
Him:" I know it's not my place but please listen to me. forgive your uncle, he made mistakes but tried the best
he knew how to fix them and it wasn't his idea in the first place but his brother and his wife. Forgive him..us
for your peace of mind and because you're not the type to hold grudges ".
Me:" I know and i'll try ".
Him:" don't change for anyone luh because you are one in a million and I'm glad I got a chance to know you
even though I blew it up but I'm happy that I have a part of me that will aways connect me to you. Can I feel
your stomach? " I nod
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Me:" thank you for saying that and I'm happy that we are going to have a baby together "
Him:" but I feel nothing in your stomach "
Me:" it's just a fetus and not yet a baby " I say giggling
Him:" I love it when you laugh, your whole face transforms and your smile reaches your eyes "
Me:" stop making me blush " I smile
Him:" so what about a quickie before you guys leave "
Me:" oh no mister. Take me to kitchen and feed me, your baby and I are hungry " ke kisses my stomach then
kisses me and we get up.
Him:" I'm gonna miss you and you know you're always welcome here at any time Mrs gumede" I laugh
Me:" I'm gonna miss you too Mr gumede " we both laugh and hug tight and I look at this bedroom one last
time and we leave.

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After we left joburg we came straight to Ladysmith and sims came with us too. I was scared that I wasn't
going to be accepted but the whole family was excited because my father had told them about me and that I
was alive and not dead as they thought. They took me to my mother's grave and it was a better sweet moment
being there and I didn't cry as much as thought I was going to because I was thinking about the baby and when
I was there listening to my dad and brother tell her about me I felt a sense of belonging and peace. I saw her
pictures and yes I looked like her, I have her eyes and smile.
I have an aunt and two uncles, one of the uncles is the one who took over the business after dad and the other
one lives in Johanessburg handling the business there. I have 4 male cousins and 2 female cousins who have
2 kids each and married. I have a good relationship with all of them but i'm most close to my aunt another
than my dad and brother and she has no kids and she treats me like her own daughter. She's the last born in
the family even though she's 40, never married and dad is very protective over her and I call her ma not
aunty.
There was a welcoming ceremony for me and the whole Ngcobo family was there including their business
assocciates and it was beautiful and I told mbuso about the ceremony and he was happy but wouldn't come
because he didn't want to disrespect my father and the whole family while he is still have to pay the damages
for me getting pregnant. I was scared to tell dad I was pregnant but he told me he suspected that I was and he
was happy and told the rest of the family and I have literally been treated like a baby of the family and I'm
loving every moment. My brother well, he had mixed feelings about it and I didn't blame him.
I talk to mbuso everyday and he would send me R20000 every month for my needs and for whatever the baby
would want as I'm pregnant. I told him it wasn't necessary because my dad and brother make sure I have
evrything I need. Sims left after the welcoming ceremony and I miss her, I told thami a week after I have left
what happend he was shocked and broke down and I haven't gotten hold of him since that day and so I
decided to give him some space to process everything. My father invited uncle victor but he didn't show up
because he still feels I hate him and won't forgive him but I feel like I have forgiven him even though I haven't
said it to him but I know I will, I just need to have courage. Yes he did hurt me but he made sure I was
always taken care of and honestly if my father can forgive and make peace with him, I can too.
My brother lives in Durban and works there but he has been coming home every weekend since I have been
here and we are bonding everytime. Today is thursday and it's my first appointmen with the doctor and
mbuso is coming with me to see the doctor. I'm going to be seeing my baby for the first time and I'm excited.
I'm almost four months pregnant and starting to show and I haven't seen mbuso since I left. I wake up, make
my bed even though we have aunties who help in the house but i like doing things for myself. I do my morning
routine and go to the kitchen and find my handsome dad drinking tea and reading a newspaper..." Isolezwe ".

Me:" sawubona baba " (morning daddy ) I hug him on his shoulders and kiss his cheek and he smiles.
Baba:" I'm never going to get enough of hearing those words, morning baby did you sleep well? "
Me:" I did dad. what are we having for breakfast? "
Him:" ask your aunt?, you woke up early today where are you going? "
Me:" baba I told you on sunday that it's my first doctors appointment today, don't you remember ? " my aunt
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Her:" Morning baby "
Me: morning ma. what are we having? "
Dad:" I'm coming with you " I look at mah asking for her help with dad
Mah:" Zakes you know you cant' go, she's going with her babby daddy "
Me:" baby daddy mah? " I say embarrased and dad has stopped reading the newspaper looking at me
unimpressed
Her:" Well what do I call him because he's not your boyfriend " she says laughing. She knows the whole
story between me and mbuso
Dad:" what exactly is this boy's intentions with you? "
Me:" I don't know dad. We made a decision to break up and so we can both focus on ourselves "
Him:" My daughter will not raise a child alone. He must fix himself, man up and take care of his family "
Mah:" or else we will raise this child and he will not see her or him " i give her aren't you suppose to be on
my side look
Me:" Ngiyezwa baba " ( yes dad )
Mah:" Oh I can't wait i'm so excited, I hope it's a girl "
Dad:" me too. I can't wait to spoil her and do all the things I never got the chance to do for you " he says
sadly
Me:" I'm here now dad and we have a second chance and I'll always be your little girl " I take his hand
Dad:" that's why I am taking my baby girl to her doctor's appointment and I'm going to see my first grandbaby
since your brother won't settle down and get married " mah laughs, I give up . At that exact moment big
brother walks to the kitchen looking like he didn't sleep.
Him:" morning family " we greet back, he kisses me and mah on our cheeks and he reakes of alcohol and
brushes our dad's head and dad slaps his hand off and we laugh
Dad:" don't touch me with those hands because I don't know where they were and inside of what yesterday "
my brother chokes on his water and I flush same time....my dad guys.
Mah:" bhuti?, we have a child here! "
Dad:" She's not a child and she's pregnant and she knows what i'm talking about " but I thought he was happy
that I am
Sicelo:" I was only drinking dad, i didn't...."

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Mah:" Oh please spare us, we don't want to hear about your sex life "
Me:" mah I'm hungry "
Her:" what would you like to have? "
Me:" can you make me your famous soft porrige, I love it "
Mah:" ok baby "
Sicelo:" you mean the baby likes it "
Me:" when did you get here? "
Him:" late last night, didn't want to wake you up "
Me:" ncoooh you missed me " i say pinching his cheek
Him:" you wish. I came because I want to see my nephew or niece " he says touching my stomach
Mah:" Well since everyone is going, I might aswell go too " I sit there quiet because I can't believe I'm
finally receiving the love I have always longed for and sometimes it feels like I'll wake up and all of this
would be gone and taken away from me again.

Mah:" baby you okay ? " she asks me


Me:" I'm okay mah "
Dad:" don't you want us to come with you? " he's hurt, I stand up and go sit on his lap
Me:" I want all of you there daddy and I'm happy you want to experience everything with me " I hug him
Sicelo:" then why do you look so sad baby sis? "
Mah:" she's scared " I look at her smile
Me:" I'm happy and scared mah. I feel like I will wake up and find that it was all a dream and just wishful
thinking "
Dad:" don't be scared baby. No one is going to take you away from us ever again and all of this is....us, its a
reality we never thought we would live but here we are today "
Me:" I'm thankful to have all of you in my life and I love you "
Sicelo:" It's okay to miss thami too and uncle victor "
Me:" thami won't take my calls and I haven't talked to uncle victor but I will " thami wont' take my calls and
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Sicelo:" I'll get somenone to look for him and see if he's safe "
Me:" Thank you " my phone rings and it's mbuso "

Me:" uhmmm excuse me I need to take this " I leave them and go to the sitting room
Me:" Hello? "
Mbuso:"..........."
Me:" mbuso? "
Him:" hey, how are you baby mama? " i giggle
Me:" oh really now?, I'm okay baby daddy and you? "
Him :" I have arrived and can't wait to see you and our baby "
Me:" I can't wait to see you too "
Him:" what time must I pick you up? "
Me:" uhmm about that..."
Him:" what's wrong ? "
Me:" nothing is wrong. It's just that mah, dad and my brother are coming along "
Him:" I knew they would want to and I would have been shocked if they didn't want to come "
Me:" you're okay with it? "
Him:" I am baby, they missed out on your childhood and for them it's their way of making up and catching on
everything "
Me:" yeah you're right. I like the new you " i smile
Him:" I want to be the man you'll be proud of. Why don't you join me for breakfast then we'll go together to
the doctor. They'll find us there "
Me:" I don't think dad is going to allow that? "
Him:" ask your brother, he won't say no "
Me:" he's worse than dad "
Him:" he loves you and can't say no to you. I'll send you the name of the resturant " he hangs up. Mbuso wants
my brother to punch him again. I get up and turn and see my brother standing there with his arms crossed.

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Me:" bhut' wami omuhle engimthandayo kakhulu " ( my handsome brother that I love very much )

Him:" no. " he says smiling shaking his head


Me:" but i haven't said anything and you're already saying no? "
Him:" what do you want? "
Me:" can we go and have breakfast somewhere "
Him:" mah made your favourite porrige, the one you wanted "
Me:" I don't want it anymore "
Him:" I know you want to go see mbuso and we'll go only because there's something I need to talk to him
about "
Me:" what's wrong? "
Him:" just business stuff "
Me:" brother please don't hit him again "
Him:" I won't, go tell mah and dad we're going out, I'm going to change " I go to the kitchen and mah has
dished up for me. I sit down and eat.
Mah:" baby daddy on the phone? "
Me:" mah please " i smile and eat my porrige
Her:" I knew it was him when a smile lit your face up "
Me:" he asked me to go have breakfast with him, can i go? "
Her:" what about your appointment? "
Me:" you will come and we'll meet there "
Sicelo:" huh you're eating? "
Me:" I'm done "
Mah:" go, I'll tell your dad I sent you to the mall " I stand up and kiss her cheek then we go.
Sicelo:" where are you meeting him "
Me:" here " I show him the address and we drive there silently
Me:" are you okay big brother? "

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Him:" I'm okay luh. It's just that the Mazibuko's are in hiding. They vanished the same day we came here but I
have a friend of mine looking for them and he just sent me a message and said they are in Cape town "
Me:" are we all safe from them? "
Him:" very safe. I don't want you worrying about them and stressing. Promise me "
Me:" I won't I promise "
We get to the resturant and head inside and I don't see him. A pretty young girl comes to us.
Her:" good morning my name is thenjiwe. Mr Ngcobo please go to that door and you'll find someone waiting
for you and you Miss Ngcobo please follow me " she says smiling
Sicelo:" you're crazy if you think I'm going to send my sister in there alone. Come Luh, lead the way thenjiwe
" he takes my hand and we follow her and she takes us to the back of the resturant and it's so beautiful
because there are flowers and water fountain there and some people having breakfast
Me:" wow this place is nice "
Sicelo:" I've never been here before and I like it " she shows us to the table and we sit down
Me:" can you go sit somewhere because you're cramping my style big brother " i say giggling
Him:" i'll leave when I see him coming " I roll my eyes and laugh then my brother stops and looks behind me
land I follow his eyes and I can't help it but smile.
Him:" I saw this beautiful lady entering the restuarant looking beautiful but something was missing and I
knew what was missing. This resturant is also a flourist shop so I asked them to make flowers for you
because I knew you will love them" he gives them to me and kisses my cheek. It's a whole buckee of lillies
and then he looks at my brother
Sicelo:" ok fine, I'll be inside but I'm not leaving without you and you better behave Gumede " then he leaves
us.
Me:" Thank you for the flowers I love them " I put them on the side
Him:" My name is Mbuso Gumede and you are? "
Me:" Lungile Ngcobo, nice to meet you Mr Gumede "
Him:" mr gumede is my dad. Call me mbuso "
Me:" and you can call me Luh " thenjiwe comes and we order and I order english breakfast without eggs
because I can't stand them and he orders the same.
Him:" beautiful name and it suits you because you're very beautiful and glowing "
Me:" Thank you, it must be the pregnancy "
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Him:" wow, who's the lucky guy "
Me:" baby daddy is the lucky guy "
Him:" that's his name? " he laughs
Me:" yeah my family calls him that " i smile
Him:" is he in the picture or? "
Me:" We dicided to to break up and work on ourselves "
Him:" what if he misses you and wants things to work out between you two "
Me:" If he has worked on himself and sort out his issues and proved to me that he can be the man I can
depend on, trust and worthy of me then we'll talk about getting back together "
Him:" I'm attending therapy luh and I told my family the whole truth and my mother is not talking to me and I
don't blame her " the food comes and I dig in.
Me:" she'll come around after she has calmed down. I'm glad you're attending therapy beacuse that's very
important "
Him:" I had to face some things about me like my abusive beviour to you and..."
Me:" mbuso it's okay. I forgave you and you need to forgive yourself too and let some issues go ".
Him:" my therapist said the same thing too "
Me:" my dad asked me what are your intensions with us because I won't be raising a baby alone "
Him:" I'm here and I'm not going anywhere " and mumbles something I can't hear
Me:" what was that? "
Him:" nothing baby "
We chat, laugh and talk about many things and I'm starting to see a side of mbuso I never thought I would ever
see and I like it. It's 12:30 pm and our appointment is at 13:00 pm.
Me:" I had a wonderful lunch, thank you "
Him:" I enjoyed your company and lunch too "
Me:" lets go it's almost time and I don't want to upset dad "
Him:" yeah or he'll give me trouble next week " huh?
Me:" what's going on next week? "

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Him:" I meant next time baby. lets go " I take my flowers with me, he pays the bill and we meet my brother
outside his car.
Him:" finally, dad and mah are already on their way lets go "
Mbuso:" I'll meet you there, I want to have a word with your brother " he kisses my cheek and i get in and
open the backseat window and hear my brother say
Sicelo:" I found buhle. She's at my house in durban "

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I have mixed feelings about what I'm hearing. I'm angry, I'm hurt and I feel mad at her, I know she lied and
framed me and that hurt but what if she didn't do all those things where could I have been right now?. I could
have been living with that unknown man, I wouldn't have met mbuso, I wouldn't have known my family and I
wouldn't have been caring this precious cargo that I love so much.
I want to see her and confront her. I want her to look me in the eye and tell me why she did the things she did
to me. Would she lie and blame it on her parents?, will she say they made her do it. I want her to see that I
have toughned up, I'm no longer that meek and sweet lungi she knew, the one she used to walk all over on
because living with mbuso made me have a thick skin and taught me alot of things.
Sicelo gets in the car and we drive out and I'm just thinking if, will I give her a bitch slap when I see her or
will I just listen to her telling me all her lies....I despise liers, why can't just people tell you the truth and hurt
you with it and not tell you lies just to make you feel better... I hate it.
Sicelo:" you're awfully quiet, what's wrong? "
Me:" Brother what do you really think of me? "
Him:" What kind of question is that? "
Me:" just answer me "
Him:" I think you're one tough cookie, smart as hell, have a kind heart and a big one, you don't like to see
people feeling bad or hurt. You are very forgiving and sees the good in everyone and you always hope for the
best in every situation ".
Me:" thank you for saying that, but do you think I'm weak and I let people walk all over me? "
Him:" where are all these questions coming from luh? "
Me:" just thinking out loud "
Him:" having a big heart and being a forgiving person doesn't make you weak Luh. Sometimes people will
use your kindness for their own selfish reasons but you my sister, you're nothing like a weak person. I don't
know how you grew up but from what you told us luh it was hard. Not receiving any kind of love but
emotional abuse always is hard, if you were a weak person you would have ran away, thrown yourself to
everyman and sold yourself. You would have turned into drugs and be an alcoholic but here you are strong
and beautiful. You have scars that still need to be healed and we are here to help you heal every step of the
way. If there's anyone I know who deserves all the love and happiness in the world it's you baby sis and I'll
make sure as your big brother that you're always loved and protected. You and my niece " I wipe a tear off
and kiss his cheek.
Me:" You're the best big brother ever. I love you " we stop outside the doctors office and he gets out, comes
and opens my backseat door and I get out then he takes me into his arms and he hugs me tight and I hug him
back. Mbuso has arrived and he's watching us then mah and dad pull up too.
Him:" I know I don't tell you everyday but I want you to know that I love you very much and I don't ever want
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to lose you again " that's so beautiful, so this is why people go crazy over their siblings because of the love
and protectiveness they have for each other?, I thought I had that with thami but this here is the best ting ever
and not even close to what I have with thami.
Me:" just so you know I'll kick any woman's butt if they ever hurt you in any kind of way " I feel him smiling
Him:" you and aunty are the only women I love and it's going to stay that way " I giggle
Me:" for now " we laugh
Dad:" If I had to die tomorrow I'll die a very happy man. I love you my children.....very much " I break the
hug and go hug him too.
Mah:" lets go inside I'm sure the doctor is waiting for us " I look at mbuso and he's just standing there looking
all broody and silent and my nipples get hard. It's like he can see me and knows what I'm feeling because he
winks at me smirks and I smile. Mbuso has this thing of making me feel shy like I'm still a teenager.
We all go inside and mbuso follows behind with my brother and I give my brother a thank you smile and he
rolls his eyes and I laugh.
Dad:" I'm so happy to see that you're excited "
Me:" I've got my whole family here to share the whole experience, who wouldn't be "
ReceptionLady:" Oh my....uhm sorry Good afternoon and welcome to DR Preston's office and my name is
Candy and how may I help you? "she says starring at the men
Me:" Hi I'm Lungi Ngcobo and we're all here for my 13:00 pm appointment "
Her:" all of them are here for you? " she looks at my dad and I see something in her eyes...hell no sis my dad
is not a blesser
Me:" yes all of us " she looks shocked then her eyes move to my brother and mbuso....I don't like that.
Her:" Please follow me " she walks infront of us shaking her ass and I look at mah and we both laugh. She
takes us to the office and we get in.
Her:" Please go to that room over there and wear this, pee in the cup and bring it with you and I'll let the
doctor know that you're here. Can I get you anything else, water, tea and coffee ? " she patts her hair
Me:" we're fine thank you "
Her:" oh ok, I'll go let the doctor know and remember I'm just outside should you need anything " she leaves
Mah:" who names their child Candy because that sounds like a stripper name? " me and mah laugh and the
men are quiet yoh. I go to the room she directed me too, change then come back and sit on that chair like bed.
The doctor gets in with a huge smile on his face and he looks so stylish and I smile.

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Him:" Hi fam, I'm Doctor Preston but you can call me Dr Pres and you miss ngcobo mommy to be how are
you doing? " I love him
Me:" please call me luh and I'm excited doctor, these are my parents, my brother and baby daddy " He smiles
Him:" oh my...they are so manly " my dad looks uncomfortable and the guys just don't care and me and mah
just wants to laugh at dad.
Him:" Baby daddy come and sit next to mommy here and hold her hand, mommy lay down and lets see this
little human " mbuso looks at my dad first like he's asking for permission and my dad nods then he sits and
takes my hand.
Doctor Pres checks my urine, writes something down and the start to touch my stomach and press down on
the sides not hard just soft and asks me if I feel any pains and I tell him no then takes a stethoscope and
moves it around my stomach and for a moment I get scared because he is very serious and I look at mah.
Him:" can you please lift up the top " I do as he says
Him:" you'll feel some coldness from the gel " he splashes it on my stomach and its cold yoh
Me:" oh it's so cold "
Him:" sorry doll.....fam please look at the screen " he says and takes that sonogram machine mouse as I call it
and moves it around my stomach and I see what looks like a baby's body and I look at mbuso and he's looking
at the screen and has a little smile on his face then he looks at me and mouths thank you and squeezes my
hand.
Doctor:" oh there you are... why are you hiding youself....oh fam look at that little body..." he points to the
screen with his other hand showing us the head and body
Me:" ncoooh my baby is sucking her thumb "
Mah:" that's so cute baby " she has tears on her eyes and I tear up too
Doctor:" lets hear the heartbeat " he moves the machine again searching for the heartbeat and finds it and I
feel this overwhelming love I feel for her or him.
Dad:" that sound right there is life. A life growing inside of you baby. Thank you for sharing this moment
with us " he pats mbuso on his shoulder.
Doctor:" what a lovely family, you guys should adopt me " he says
Me:" thank you doc and you're part of the family from today "
Him:" don't kick me out when I start showing up on sunday for lunch. All seven colours " we laugh, my
doctor is extra
Mah:" you can visit anytime doctor "
Him:" I'll hold you to that. Now tell me mommy and baby daddy, do you want to know the gender so I can
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start to plan the baby shower " huh?
Me:" I don't want to know. I want it to be a surprise, mbuso what do you think "
Him:" whatever you want baby....uh I mean yeah, I want what you want "
Sicelo:" What if we all want to know?, dad, mah you want to know right? "
Mah:" No I dont want to know because as soon as I do I'm going to start buying clothes no ". she's so happy
Me:" dad ? "
Him:" I want to know too but I'm too excited and I know i'll tell you and start thinking of names " mbuso
gives me a do you hear that look and i giggle
Me:" are you okay with my brother knowing ? "
Mbuso:" what if the good doctor here blurts it out one day out of excitement ? "
Doctor:" I'm good at keeping secrets and I swear on my grandmothers grave I won't tell her, scouts honor "
Dad:" saze sazifaka nkos' yam " ( what have we gotten ourselves into) we laugh
Me:" ok you brother you better keep it from me and I swear if i get even an idea from you and the doctor
what we are having I'm going to kill you "
Sicelo:" I swear, scouts honor too " we all laugh. He moves the machine again and he stops and smiles
Mbuso:" so there's nothing wrong with the baby, everything is fine? "
Doctor:" The baby is all fine and healthy and growing. I read her file dr tambo sent me and I see she's doing
better now and we have to continue to keep it that way until the little one arrives. Eat healthy, take your
medicine and no stress and you can have sex mommy with baby daddy because that's healthy but not anything
too rough that will....." oh my God can the ground open up and swallow me in.
Dad:" that's my cue to go. I'll be outside " dad leaves and mah laughs.
DrPres:" oops I forgot daddy is here, sorry guys. let me print these out and you all want copies right? " I nod.
He cleans my stomach and I go and change to my dress and comeback.
DrPres:" here's the prescription medicine you have to take and please anytime you think something is wrong
or you're not feeling well and or you have any questions please don't hesitate to call me. Give me your phone
" I give it to him and saves his contacts.
Me:" Thank you doc for the wonderful experience " He gives us the printout of the baby's sonogram and
whispers something to my brother oh yes the baby's gender and they both smile and look at me and I frown.
Him:" the pleasure is all mine. I'll call you so the three of us can have a lunch sometime " I hug him and we
leave.

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Mbuso:" what just happend in there? "
Sicelo:" bro I'm still confused "
Mah:" we have just gotten ourselves a new member of the family and I love him " we both laugh and I stay
behind with mbuso
Him:" are you happy ? "
Me:" I'm so happy and I feel like I'm ontop of the world " I say touching my stomach.
Him:" the world is yours baby " he too touches my stomach
Me:" are you happy too ? "
Him:" Spend the night with me tomorrow and I'll show you how happy you and my baby make me "
Me:" I can't sneak out mbuso "
Him:" Talk to your aunt baby, she'll make a plan, I miss you Luh "
Me:" okay, I'll try " He kisses my cheek and I go to my parents car and we leave.
Today is the day I'm going to get me some loving and honestly I can't wait to share my body again with mbuso
because I can see that he is trying to be a better person and not the man I first met and even though things
we're not great at first I'm glad we are at this point in our lives. I haven't talked to mah about asking her if she
could make an excuse for me to not be in the house so dad won't be suspicious.
I'm staring at myself in the mirror trying different dresses to wear for tonight and I'm just not feeling them,
they all just look drab and not good at all. I need to go shopping...Yes I'll ask mah to accompany to shop and
we'll use mbuso's money because I haven't touched it yet.
I leave my bedroom and head to hers and I hear her singing and God she has a beautiful and she loves to sing
and I could listen to her everyday. I open her door and she's sorting out her closet.
Me:" mami ? " she turns and gives me her dashing smile and I smile back
Her:" my beautiful babies, you're hungry ? "
Me:" I'm still full mami "
Her:" what's wrong then? " she patts the bed for me to sit down
Me:" nothing, I just thought that maybe you'd like to go shopping with me. I need new clothes and we can
spend mbuso's money "
Her:" I like the sound of that and no offence but honestly your wadrobe depresses me " I take the pillow and
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Me:" Huh, my clothes are fine " I laugh she's right though
Her:" Luh you have to match your bank account and look like it. you need a serious make-over " this is my
chance to ask her
Me:" uh mami I need, can I ask you for a favour "
Her:" well you're past the age of us having your first sex talk, you're already pregnant so we can't talk about
you missing your periods and so out with it? "
Me:" I...well mbuso, he asked me if I can spend the night with him and I don't want dad to know or you but I
can't sneak out because I don't want to disrespect you "
Her:" Luh you know you're old enough to do as you want but I'm pleased to hear and see that you respect us
and you want our approval even though we didn't raise you. As much as I hate to say it, the mazibuko's did
this one thing right with you and that is showing respect always "
Me:" it was uncle victor mah, without him being there for me always, I would have ran away or maybe did
something else worse. I miss him "
Her:" Call him and I don't worry you'll see baby daddy and spend the night with him, God knows one of us
needs to get laid " she sighs
Me:" mah..." we laugh
Her:" what?, I'm still young luh leave me alone "
Me:" eww I don't want to think about you getting laid "
Her:" lets go shopping and spend mbuso's money "
We leave the house and go to town and I thought we'll be going to the mall but mah takes me to some store
and I realise she's taking me to a beatique...wow I've never been to one. We get inside and find this lovely
middle aged woman and she looks beautiful. She introduced herself and mah tells her I need new maternity
clothes and she takes me to the fitting room and I try fitting different types of clothes and I must they are
beautiful, you can tell they are expensive and I feel like a million rands.
After shopping mah takes me to the spa and I get pampered and I come out feeling like a brand new person
and I feel like it's the new me. We have a late lunch and mah books us into a hotel to " spend the night " and
we get a honey moon suit with a bedroom and living room, dining room in the same room. She told dad that
we are having a girls time and wanted to spend some time alone and dad at first didn't like the idea and said
no, we can have it at home because the house is big and we won't even notice that he's there but mah said no.
He finally agreed after I promised him that we'll call him if anything goes wrong.
I have just finished bathing and I'm so excited for what is waiting for me. My aunt helps me get dressed and
she can't stop telling me how beautiful I am. I phoned mbuso and told him where to fetch me and he sounded
excited.
Me:" mah stop or else my head will get big and explode " she laughs
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Her:" I feel like I'm getting you ready for your first date and I'm a proud mami "
Me:" Technically you are. I have never gone out on a date with mbuso, this will be our second date since we
had one yesterday "
Her:" Well enjoy your date and have lots of sex but not to much " we laugh
Me:" mah " the door bell rings, I look at myself one last time and look at mah, shes drinking a glass of red
wine and I could use one right now because I'm nervous and excited. She goes and opens the door making
sure the first thing mbuso sees when she opens the door is me. He is holding to buckee of flowers, lilies for
and roses for mah and a small gift bag, he gets in and stands halfway across from me, looks at me from my
feet to my head and he looks impressed, he smirks then looks at my aunt.
Him:" thank you aunty for making this night possibe, these roses are for you and this bag just to say thank you
" my aunt actualy blushes...wow
Her:" thank you mbuso. Luh I'll take these for you " I nod and she takes both flowers and her gift bag and goes
to the bedroom.
Him:" Wow you look absolutely beautiful, didn't know you can clean up this well " he says coming to me and
kissing both my cheeks.
Me:" thank you and yes I clean up pretty good. You didn't disappoint too because you look amazing " he's
wearing a navy suit and a black shirt and he looks handsome.
Him:" I can't wait to rip that dress off your body but first I have to feed you and my baby lets go " I am
wearing a black silk dress that fits me perfectly not tight but showcases my curves and baby bump
Me:" mah?, we're leaving " she peeks at us from the bedroom
Mah:" enjoy guys and don't make another baby. I love you baby and mbuso please bring back my child in one
peace " mbuso nods
Me:" we won't and I love you too " we leave, get in the car and it drives off.
Me:" where are we going? "

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BUHLE.
Oh God what is happening, there's someone definetley following and I have no idea who it is because I have
crossed so many people. I'm in the mall alone and I was here to do some shopping, when I noticed someone
was in every store I went into and I know it can't be a coincedence. I have been following people around and
I know what to do to not get noticed and this guy is doing a great job.
I go to this beatique and look around for clothes, take a few and go to the changing rooms. I take off the
clothes I was wearing and put them inside my bag and put on the new ones from the store and open the door
but some girl blocks my way.
Her:" Oh I'm sorry I thought there was no one " she giggles
Me:" what can I help you with? "
Her:" can you please help me and zip the dress, i'm struggling with it "
Me:" ok turn around " she does and I zip the dress and it looks good on her.
Her:" thank you very much and I almost forgot something "
Me:" what " she's annoying me now, she turns and looks at me serious and I frown
Her:" this, you bitch! " she blows something like a powder on my face blinding me and I scream choking
from that stuff but she covers my mouth and nose with something that smells sharp and realise she's drugging
me and I lose consciousness.
My body feels heavy like I was hit with a tons of bricks and I can't move my body. I groan and open my eyes
and see that i'm somewhere I don't know, I'm sleeping on this very uncomfortable bed. The room is small,
there are no windows and it's dark and there's also a toilet in there. I know that one of the many people I have
scammed finally tracked me down and I'm scared.
I don't know how they found me because I always change my look so no one can recognise me and find me
but whoever did must have been following me for some time. I think mbuso finally found me and I know that
he now knows the truth and he's going to kill me.
Where are my parents when I need them?, thet disappeared on me and left me alone to fend for myself. They
are now rich from my body, benefiting from it, I'm living this life because I learned from them. At first I was
scared but then my mother would take me with her whenever she had a job to do.
They started coaching me from when I was 16, I sold my virginity for ten thousand and ever since then I was
hooked. I didn't know men paid that much for sex and for different things you would let them do to you and I
have done scary and crazy stuff.
I feel cold water being thrown at me and I scream gasping in shock
Me:" what the fuck is this? "
Voice:" this isn't a hotel, wake the fuck up. You busy day dreaming " says a voice I don't know
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Me:" who the fuck are you and what do you want from me? "
Him:" Bitch who told you to talk?, get up "
Me:" No one tells me what to do asshole "
Him:" get up and take off your damn clothes "
Me:" make me asshole " this mother fucker laughs and he doesn't scare me
Him:" don't make me do it "
Me:" or what you'll beat me up?, give it your best asshole "
Him:" call me asshole one more time and you'll regret it "
Me:" I can see I'm getting under your skin asshole " I laugh and suddenly I feel a punch on my face and it
hurts but it's not that bad and I laugh at him. I don't know who this mother fucker is but he doesn't scare me
not even one bit "
Me:" you punch like a bitch, even I punch harder than you "
Him:" get up and take off your clothes "
Me:" come and take them off asshole, you know you want to " I get up and sit on the bed, somehow that punch
did something to my body.
Him:" I'm giving you one last chance. get up and take off your clothes "
Me:" read my lips asshole, FUCK YOU "
He grabs my braids pulls it tight and I can feel some coming off with my hair and I scream. He drags me off
the bed and I fall down on the floor damn those tiles are cold. I scratch his hand with my nails trying to stop
him but he grabs tighter and more braids come off with my hair but I don't cry, I won't give him that
satisfaction.
He lets go and walks to somewhere in the room, takes something then comes back and throws the water all
over my body then whips me with a cane hard, like he is using all of his strength on me and I scream and cry.
I try to crawl away from him but I feel his right shoe on my back stepping hard, pushing me down on the floor
comntinues to whip my ass, my thighs, my legs then my whole back and my clothes tear up. The cane now is
kissing my skin and scream loud God I feel like I'm going to pass out. He's not talking but continues to whip
me and finding somewhere new where the cane hasn't touched me.
He stops then turns me around, I kick him on his face and he punches me, I feel my jaw snapping. He whips
my whole front and I try to curl up like a baby but he whips my arms making it hard. The only sound you can
hear in the room is the cane kissing my skin and me screaming. This mother fucker can use a whip damn it
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Me:" I'm sorry for whatever I did to you please stop "
Him:" you will be sorry by the time I'm done with you "
Me:" I've had enough please " this mother fucker has no mercy and because he is still whipping me and my
whole boy is feels hot and it hurts and I'm bleeding. I lay still and take every strike he lashes on my body and
I keep saying I'm sorry. He finally stops and he doesn't sound like he's out of breath from what he was doing.
He walks somewhere then the room gets bright with light. My one eye is swollen and my face feels numb. I
move my head so I can see the person who's doing this to me. He turns and looks at me and I get the shock of
my life. Oh my GOD NO! This is worse than I thought
Him:" Cat got your tongue? " He says laughing at me and I look at him the best I can and see that he is bloody,
his suit is covered in my blood and the cane he's holding is also dripping of my blood. He looks mad as hell
and I know I'll be lucky if I get out of here alive. He is here for revenge.
Me:" w....who are you? "
Him:" Who do you think I am? "
Me:" Lungi doesn't have a brother "
Him:" but she does nobuhle " he says my name in a funny way it irritates me, it's like he's making fun of my
name. My parents named me nobuhle because I am beautiful but this man here doesn't even get strucked by
my beauty. Mam love me and they always tell me I am beautful so why isn't he affected?.
Me:" My father said the whole family is dead. You are dead! "
Him:" where are your parents? "
Me:" I don't know, even if I did I wouldn't tell you "
Him:" I can make you "
Me:" give it your best shot asshole "
Him:" you never learn do you? "
Me:" I've had worse " he smirks
Him:" Celeste? " he calls out some women's name and a woman enters and it's the same bitch that drugged
me. she winks at me
Her:" the bitch is awake " she laughs
Him:" cutt off all her hair then take her to sleep in the torture room. I want her to sleep next to the things that
will be used on her body and I want her wide awake. She's a junkie and tomorrow she'll do anything to get a
fix "

P 17-3
Celeste:" yes boss " she looks at me bites her lips, fuck she's a lesbian. I can seduce her and maybe fuck her
so she can get me out of this place...yes that's what I'll do.
This man has the same features lungi has and there's no doubt that he's her brother and he's alive and could
that also mean that their father is alive. Is that why mom and dad disappeared because they know that
Ngcobo's are alive. Am I the only who going to pay and maybe pay for their sins...no it can't be, I won't take
the fall.
He leaves us then another man enters holding scissors, gives them to celeste, presses my body down then
celeste cuts off my braids with my hair. I don't care I will grow it back and she also takes off my torn clothes
off me. Even though my body is red with blood and has lashes all over but I know I still look good, even
celeste is lookingb at me with lust in her eyes.
Celeste:" I'm going to call a doctor tomorrow who's going to come and take off all that plastic you have on
your body...damn you gonna look like a mess. Take her to the dungen " she laughs and I hate her.
This guy grabs me then puts me over his shoulder then leaves the room with celeste leading the way. They
walk for sometime passing many doors then she opens some door with a key and we get it and they guy
throws me down rough and I groan in pain.
Celeste:" I'm scared for what's goiung to happen to you tomorrow "
Me:" what if I have something you want, that could get me out of here? "
Celeste:" something like what? "
Me:" me. Both of you can fuck me anyway you want then when you're done you let me go " she looks at the
guy and they both smile
Celeste:" just like that?, anything we want? "
Me:" yes. You can fuck me anywhere and do anything in and on my body "
Celeste:" I would fuck every chick I hate than to fuck that rotten cunt of yours. I would rather get straight than
to fuck you stupid bitch. The boss did say you were going to offer your body because that's the only thing
you're good at. Dumb bitch " she says that then they leave locking the door behind them.
I look around that dungen and it's full of different tools, some I have seen and some I have never. They scare
me to death and for the first time in my life I am scared because I never saw this coming. That Lungi's family
woill find me because I knew mbuso will give up on finding me once he gets his full with lungi. I wonder
where lungi is and how far they are with mbuso because the last time I talked to my parents they said she is
still living with mbuso.
I thought things will work out with mbuso but I saw that he didn't love me and it made me mad. We could
have been a great couple because I know the things he likes in bed. He's a freak and most of the time
wouldfuck me with his friends. He used to share me and I didn't mind because it was my kind of thing too. He
fucked me only 3 times when it was just the two of us and I would want more of that most of the time but he
wouldn't.

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I don't think Lungi can satisfy him the way he wants and needs because she's boring. She's the type that will
want a man to take lead in the bed and not lead. Mbuso wants a woman like me, who knows how to pleasure
a man or women.... I remember the times he would have me and another woman at the same time but I most
loved when he was sharing me with someone else I miss his dick.
Tomorrow I'm going to tell lungi's brother that it was all mbuso's idea because he wanted to fuck the both of
us and be in a relationship with sisters. He will believe me I know.
My body hurts like hell, it hurts everywhere. I didn't have a good night because I was sleeping on the floor,
they failed to even give me a sleeping sponge to sleep on because they want to treat me like an animal. They
forget I'm still human like all of them and they should treat me as such because I did lungi a favor by lying
because she could have been sold to some monster like my dad had planned.
I'm shaking, I need a fix, I'm thirsty I want something to drink, I'm hungry too and I need to use the toilet too. I
get up and go bang on the door. I keep banging the door until my hand hurts. I need a bath, I need to look good
like how I usaully do. If only this asshole will come and I'll offer him my pussy because men are weak. As
soon as they see a good looking body and you open your legs that's the only thing they'll think of and see. Men
let their dicks control them so I'm going to do everything in my power to get out of her. My pussy has worked
and made me so much money, it hasn't failed me and it's not going to start now.
Me:" open this damn door now!, I need to use the toilet and hungry! ". I stop and listen if someone is there or
even coming
Me:" Help!.......somebody help me! " I listen nothing
Me:" someone wants to kill me, help me please " I bang the doot again but no answer
Me:" where is that asshole?, open this damn door! " I bang and bang and bang but no one answers. I scream
frustrated.
Someone is unlocking the door and I know who it is, it's that lesbian bitch. I bet if that guy was alone and I
offered him my pussy he would have taken it and I would have been home by now and at my house and I don't
even know where I'm at. I stand up and watch who's going to open the door and it's that celeste bitch but he's
not alone. She's with Mbuso, lungi's brother and other 3 guys that have some features lungi's brother
has....who are those guys ?.
Wow I have seen men... handsome men, good looking drop dead gorgeous men but they all have nothing
against all these men here standing before me. There's this dark aura thing surrounding them and it gives me
cold chills that makes my skin crawl. Was I full of myself yesterday that I failed to notice how this man looks
and this dark thing he has when he looks at me. I refuse to let them intimidate me, I'm the woman here and I
hold all the power...yes my pussy...the power of pussy!. I'm naked and I know they can still see that I'm gifted
because I paid so much money to look this good.
Mbuso walks towards me and I can't read his face. He has changed, he looks more rough, more manly, more
handsome God why did I steal from him. I could have been waking up on his arms everyday. I thought i was
going to lie to that asshole about mbuso and but now I see that I can't.
Mbuso:" we meet again nobuhle " his hands are on his pockets
P 17-5
Me:" Thank God you're here, I knew you would come and rescue me from this man mbuso " I rush to him so
he can hug me but he roughly pushes me and I fall down ouch.
Mbuso:" don't you dare fucken touch me! "
Me:" but mbuso...."
Mbuso:" Where are your parents? "
Me:" I don't know!, just like I told that Idiot over there! " I shout at him
Him:" you know vey well where they are, so tell me where the fuck are your parents!"
Me:" fuck you mbuso. I told you I don't know! "
Him:" you know, lungi once said fuck you mbuso and I slapped her, she fell and bled. Now imagine what I'm
going to do to you, what we're all going to do to you "
Me:' I don't have to imagine because you have done it to me before. You fucked me with other men so I know
" I shake my ass and they all laugh
Him:" worst mistake of my life but I got out one of the best things to ever happen in my life out of meeting
you and that is Lungi "
Me:" she's soon going to bore you, she can't give you what you need, what you crave " His face changes
Him:" ENOUGH!. Don't you ever talk about her like that. She's more woman than you could ever be. She's
not a prostitute and not a junkie. Celeste take her to the chair "
Me:" no what chair?, where are you taking me? "
Celeste tries to take my hand but I slap it away and she smiles like she was expecting it because she throws a
huge punch on my face and I stagger back. This bitch wants a fight and I'll give it to her, I don't care how hurt
my body feels. I'm not going down without a fight.
Me:" you want to fight me bitch come on then "
Celeste:" oooh I'mma smack that fake good looking ass " then men laugh amused.
She laughs, throws another punch on my face and I see stars ok I wasn't ready. She circles me like I'm her
prey then kickes me and I fall and land on my stomach then she sits on my back and hits my ass hard with her
open palm, smacking me where there are bruises and it stings hard. I flinch and and try to get up but someone
kicks me on my face and I blackout.
I feel cold things being placed around my body and I open my eyes and see that guy from yesterday who took
me to this room placing wires on my body. I'm sitting on a chair, my feet are inside a steel basin that has
water inside and my hands are over my head cuffed on the steel chair im sitting on. No!, they are going to
electricute me.

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Me:" NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!... please don't "
Mbuso:" Shut up. Sicelo turn the machine on "
Lungi's brother turns the machine on and I feel my whole body get stiff from the electric shock that runs all
through my veins and body. I scream because the kind of pain I'm feeling compares to nothing I have ever
felt, I scream and scream and scream and they don't stop.
Me:" ok , ok ok. stop I have had enough ".
Mbuso:" who helped you get access to lungi's accounts and clone all her devices? "
Me:" I don't know, dad got someone to do everything. I just agreed " i'm gasping for air to breathe
Sicelo:" where are your parents? "
Me:" I don't know, I swear I don't know "
Mbuso:" do you think this is a joke? "
Me:" I fucken told you I don't know, get me off this thing now "
Sicelo:" EY VOETSEK WENA SFEBE " ( FUCK YOU BITCH ) he turns the machine on again and now it
feels way worse than thet first turned it on and I scream so loud because I'm in so much and I end up peeing
on myself releasing every drop I've been holding.
Mbuso:" I'm going to ask you one last fucken time. Where are your parents? "
Me:" I...I don't know " mbuso takes out his gun, cocks it and then points it on my head
Him:" I'm going to count to 3 and if you don't tell me where they are I'm going to blow your brains off "
Sicelo:" bitch you better talk "
Me:" I don't know "
Mbuso:" KHULUMA SFEBE! " ( BITCH TALK! )
Me:" I don't know " mbuso looks at me like he's going to lose it then he shoots me on my thigh and I scream
Me:" you fucken shot me ! "
Mbuso:" and I'll shoot you again if you don't tell me where they are "
Me:" I don't know I swear "
Mbuso:" it's time you met your ancerstors bitch " he points it again at me
Me:" nooooooooo please " he shoots me again on my shoulder and I scream

P 17-7
Me:" God I'm dying, I'm dying.....aaahhhh " I cry
Mbuso:" you are going to die if you dont tell me where are your fucken parents! " he is mad, he is livid
Sicelo:" Junior stop!, you're going to kill her "
Mbuso:" and you don't want her dead?, were you not the same person who was breathing down my neck
wanting her dead? "
Sicelo:" I want her dead too but death right now will be too easy for her. She needs to suffer "
Sbusiso:" we can't kill her, she first needs to tell us where that moron sipho and his wife are at then we kill
her infront of them "
Philane:" Celeste lets uncuff her and take her off that chair "
Mbuso:" no leave her there!. Tell me first where they are or no one in this room is going to save you. No one!
"
Me:" I don't know " he points it on my forehead and I hear the guys scream then he pulls the trigger and I hear
a gun shot and I pee on myself again because I think I'm dead but then I open my eyes and see I'm still
alive.....oh God I'm not dead, I swear I saw my whole life flash before my eyes.
Mbuso:" where are they? " who the fuck is mbuso?
Me:" the last time I talked to them they said they are visiting thami for a few weeks because they are on
leave. I tried calling them but their phones are on voicemail. I swear " I'm in pain and I'm struggling to
breath....I'm dying and nobody cares
Mbuso:" I'm not going to kill you because that's easy and you still need to work for me. Remember the
contact you signed?....yes it's legit and binding ".
Me:" I'll do anything please don't kill me "
Mlungisi:" guys the doctor is here should I tell him to come in? "
Sicelo:" Celeste go keep him company, we can't trust this bitch...she'll talk to someone and maybe run away "
Mbuso:" don't worry about that I have a plan to make sure she doesn't. Buhle do you remember that time you
were 18 and something happend? "
What?, noooooo, he can't know. Nobody knows even my parents don't know. I made sure I kept it to
myself.....how did mbuso find out? "
Me:" please mbuso I'm sorry about everything I have done to you and lungi. I'm sorry lungi's family, I'm sorry
"
Mbuso:" I'm going to sell you bitch, like how you and your parents planned to sell lungi. Your buyer is
already here and waiting for you "
P 17-8
What no!, this is the last thing I want to happen to me...Mbuso can't sell me.
Me:" mbuso please you can't traffic me please! "
Mbuso:" I'm doing the same thing you and your parents do to other people. I'm giving a taste of your own
medicine. Mlungisi, get the doctor here. You won't die bitch, not on my watch "
Sicelo:" I can't wait to see how you're going to look after all those implants you have on your body come
out...." he laughs
Sbusiso:" ugly ass looking bitch "
Sicelo:" all things get trafficked , even the plastic you have inside your body is trafficked. You're going to
enjoy being used because you like using people. You like using your body and smart mouth to get what you
want but now is the end of the road for you ".
Why can't I just die. Why didn't mbuso just kill me because there is no way I'm going to survive being sold
and treated like a slave.

P 17-9
MBUSO.
I want to kill this bitch so bad but I can't because she has to pay for everything they have ever done to lungi. I
don't believe that her parents are with Thami, after everything I'm doing for that boy he better be not messing
with me because I won't hesitate to kill him if he's protecting them and maybe them being there with him
might explain why he's not picking up lungi's calls. He's not picking up even my calls considering I'm the one
who's paying for his fees since his parents stopped paying them without telling him or giving him a reason
why.
He called me crying, telling me they are refusing to release his results because his parents have not paid for
the whole semester and he didn't know that they haven't. I helped because I knew he was one person who
loved lungi and always protected her and so I hope he has not betrayed luh by helping his parents because luh
told him everything and he asked for sometime to figure things out and I hope he wasn't lying when he said
that. I hope he didn't confront them because I think they will get anyone out of their way who tried to cross
them or even confront them.
I take my phone and call him again but this time it says the number doesn't exist. Thami I hope you're not in
trouble or you have joined your parents in scamming people because that will kill lungi and she will blame
herself for not trying to protect him and then get stressed and put her life and the baby'd life in danger and I
can't have that. I can't have her knowing that we have found buhle because she will want to come to get
answers and whether she gets them or not, they are still going to upset her and I don't want that for her. I'll
protect her from everyone and everything if I must.
I watch luh's cousins take buhle to the other room to get the bullets taken out and those silicones she has on
her body. I wonder how is she going to use her body since the doctor is going to take out all that plastic and
he's also going to insert a chip in her so we can always keep an eye on her and know where she'll always be.
for someone whon used her looks to get what she wants, this is going to be a huge blow to her beauty and that
damn ego.
Me:" God I hate that bitch, I wish I can just kill her and get this over and done with "
Sicelo:" I want to kill all of them "
Me:" I need a drink "
Sicelo:" me too, we all do "
Me:" but I need to wash off this blood first, can I use your bathroom "
Sicelo:" yeah, let me show you to the guest bedroom " he shows me where the bedroom is then leaves. I take
my phone and call frank to bring me my extra clothes that are in the car. I go to the shower and shower
quickly and change to my clothes that frank left in the bed. I go to the living room and find the brothers
drinking. I make myself a glass too.
Me:" where's celeste ? "
Sicelo:" she's with the doctor "

P 18-1
Me:" found thami yet? "
Sicelo:" mluh where is thami ? "
Mlungisi:" He seems to have just disappeard too. His phone is not working and he hasn't been attending
classes for 2 months now "
Me:" I think they took thami by force, he can't just disappear "
Sicelo:" I think so too "
Sbusiso:" but why would they do that because he's their child ? "
Me:" they might use him for something "
Philane:" like what? "
Me:" to hurt lungi because they know she loves him "
Sicelo:" I just want the woman who stabbed my mother repeatedly, I want her husband to watch me while I
peel her skin while she's alive and hear her scream, like how my dad watched his wife being killed infront of
him "
Sbusiso:" they can't die, I think we should make his wife our worker. She sells her body and make us money,
we feed her with drugs and make her a junkie".
Me:" we'll do that " my phone rings and I look at it and smile because it's my beautiful pregnant fiancee.
Me:" baby " she giggles, I love the sound of her laughter
Her:" Phakathwayo " I grin
Me:" My love " she laughs
Her:" boo, how are you ? " yep I'm her boo
Me:" I miss you baby, what are you doing? "
Her:" I'm in bed, still sleepy " I look at the time and I'ts 11:30 am
Me:" are you feeling okay ? " the guys look at me
Her:" No, I'm not feeling good "
Me:" what's wrong?, is the baby okay? " I stand up and scelo stands next me puts his big head next to he
phone and listens and I givce him what the fuck look
Her:" the baby is okay mbuso okay, I'm the one who's not feeling good! " huh...I'm confused and why is she
yelling ?

P 18-2
Me:" ok baby then tell me what's wrong "
Her:" I'M HORNY OK! "
Sicelo:" oh fuck no, I did not want to hear this "
Me:" serves you right for listening to my conversation " I laugh at him
Luh:" oh my God mbuso you have me on loud speaker and my brother heard! " she screams
Me:" baby I didn't put you on loud speaker..... "
Her:" That's my brother's voice I know it, wait you're in Durban with my brother ? " I mouth fuck you to her
brother then leave and go to the guest bedroom
Me:" uh yes, but baby.... " she won't let me finish
Her:" you're there to see her aren't you? "
Me:" see who? " how did she know
Her:" you know very well who, Buhle!. My brother told you she's at his house and you both kept it from me "
Me:" baby don't say it like that, yes I'm here and we kept it from you because we didn't want you to stress
thinking about her "
Her:" when were you going to tell me then, after she's dead?. Are you going to kill her too " Fuck! I knew I
shouldn't have told her that I killed someone for her.
Me:" I don't like what you're trying to imply and I'm not going to have this conversation with you over the
phone "
Her:" but...."
Me:" are you still horny or not? "
Her:" don't change the conversation "
Me:" the reason you called me was to tell me that you're horny right? "
Her:" yes I was "
Me:" and now you're not "
Her:" well...I still am "
Me:" I could be fucking that accusation right out of you, on your hands and knees. Go lock your door and turn
the t.v volume on " I lock mine too
Her:" I've done it " she sighs
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Me:" what are you wearing? "
Her:" I'm wearing nothing " I can hear her smiling
Me:" Lay on your back, bring your knees up and open your legs " her breathing is changing
Her:" ok, "
Me:" put the phone on loud speaker and put it next to your head so I can hear you breathe " she shuffles
around
Her:" you're on loud speaker "
Me:" ok baby, I want you to listen to me and do as I say ok "
Her:" ok....ok " she takes a deep breath in and out
Me:" Close your eyes, imagine I'm next to you and looking at your beautiful body. Take your hands and put
them on those lovely soft boobs and play with them, pinch those nipples with your index finger and
thumb....yes baby just like that, take your right thumb and put it in your mouth and suck on it.....yes baby, now
take it out and flick your nipple like your switching the light on and off... oohhh yes, now squeeze those
nipples a little hard but not too much....you like that baby ? " fuck her sweet moans are making my dick hard,
I go to the bathroom and take off pants and my dick springs free leaking of precum fuck.
Her:" yeees I like it "
Me:" take your right hand and put it in between your pussy lips and open them with your middle finger and
index finger....yes baby just like that....your dripping, all that wetness fuuuckk! I can feel how wet you are,
your pussy dripping all that sweet nectar juice and I just want to bury my whole face and suck all those sweet
juices and feel them on tongue and go down my throat " she's moaning and panting I grab my dick hard and
move it up and down
Me:" play with that clit baby, rub it soft with your middle finger yes......just like that, pinch those nipples
with your left hand...yes they are hard, they want my warm mouth to suckle, just like that clit. It wants my
warm breath, my warm mouth to nibble and suckle... yes. My tongue to flick it up and down, take those
fingers and slide them to your wet pussy that wants my dick....yes put them inside and grip them tight using
your pussy muscles and move them in and out....yes baby, now take your thumb and play with your clit...yes
just like that "
Her:" OOOHHHH yes!, ooohhh God! " I concetrate on her breathing and the sounds she's making and picture
her doing everything I'm telling her to do then grab my dick more tight and continue to give myself a handjob.
Me:" Yes baby just like that.....fuck!, take your other hand and put it ontop of your right hand and fuck
yourself....yes baby open those legs wide, picture me moving in and out ot that wet pussy, fuck yes move your
left hand to your clit and rub it while your other hand is going in and out of that juicy pussy....yes baby your
almost there, rub that clit fast and pump those fingers hard in and out.....yes baby just like that....you're alost
there, rub that clit....yes baby......FUUUCCCKKK COME FOR ME! " She comes screaming my name and
moaning and I squeeze my dick and pump it three times then come hard all over my hand..., Fuck!.

P 18-4
Me:" baby? "
Her:"................"
Me:" baby are you okay?.........."
Her:".........." I hear her snoring soflty and I laugh soflty not waking her up. I can't believe she fell asleep. I
take a quick shower then go join the guys. I find them eating and a young lady comes and serves us.
Me:" that's your housekeeper? "
Sicelo:" shut up fool, were you jacking off? " they laugh and I laugh too
Me:" nah I was your sister scream my name " they stop laughing then throw knifes at me
Me:" Ya'll started it and if those knifes stab me and kill me your sister will hate you "
Sicelo:" What happend to buhle when she was 18 ? "
Me:" She ran away then came back a year later "
Sicelo:" why did she run and where was she ? "
Me:" she fell pregnant and went to live with her friend. Her parents don't know because they thought she was
working because she used to send money every month. I guess it's the money she used to save since she
started 'working' "
Sicelo:" why didnt she tell them she was pregnant ? "
Me:" I don't know but my guess is that maybe she was scared that they'll make her go and have anabortion. So
maybe she thinks it's better to run away, have the baby, and ask her friend to raise it as hers ".
Sicelo:" who is the baby's father? "
Me:" I don't know who the father of the child is but I bet it's daddy dearest "
Philane:" what?, you think he touched her?, his own daughter ? "
Me:" he's not her father and I think he found out then started touching her, she gets scared and doesn't tell
mommy and decides to run away "
Mlungisi:" no wonder she's messed up "
Me:" her secret was safe until her friend started blackmailing her then she goes to her and finds out that her
friend has hidden her child because she refused to pay the money "
Sbusiso:" so her friend took her kid somewhere where buhle didn't know ? "
Me:" yes. she confronts her, they fight and she kills her and pays someone to get rid of the body "

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Sicelo:" how did you find out ? "
Me:" well I asked someone and they shared the information of when buhle disappeare for a year. The rest I
had to pay to get people to talk "
Sicelo:" that family is messed up. I'm glad my sister didn't get twisted like them "
Me:" they shielded her in someways and It's Victor's doing "
Sicelo:" he did the best he could trying to make up and I'll always be grateful for that "
Me:" me and you brother "
Sicelo:" where's the child? "
Me:" still looking " I know where the child is, for now I'm keeping it to myself.
LUNGI.
I blink then close my eyes because the sun is shinning bright on my face, I smile then roll over and look at the
love of my life and think of all the wicked things he did to my body last night. I thought I'll be tired but I'm
not, I'm just hungry. I kiss him then look at him and he doesn't stir. I get out of bed, go the bathroom and when
I'm done I wear a robe and go downstairs and find fresh breakfast. I look around the house and there's no one,
maybe frank brought it.
I take the eggs and cover them with a plate because I can't stand that smell then sit down start to eat. I was
scared when I first found out that I was expecting because I thought I was going to get sick with morning
sickness like sims but I haven't and I guess I'm one of the lucky one's who don't get morning sickeness. I
thought I'll hate mbuso, cry all the time but I'm still me. I guess my baby is going to be sweet like me. I have
to ask dad kind of baby was I.
I smile and get sad at the same time. I have no baby pictures of me and my mom together. I know she was
going to be the best grandmother ever but I have my aunt and I'm blessed to have her in my life. When I was
growing I always thought that me and buhle we were going to experience preganancy together and she'll tell
me that she's going to be the best aunt....but then life happend. I feel a kiss on my hair and I smile
Me:" morning handsome "
Him:" morning baby and my other baby "
Me:" how did you sleep "
Him:" great baby but I was hoping to get a morning glory "
Me:" I was hungry "
Him:" I can see, how do you feel this morning "
Me:" I'm great "
P 18-6
Him:" You like the house? "
Me:" It looks beautiful and I like that It's surrounded by trees "
Him:" I brought it for you " he says biting an apple, I almost choke.
Me:" say what now? "
Him:" The house is yours baby? "
Me:" why did buy me a house? "
Him:" because I want to and I can "
Me:" but I like being at my parents house "
Him:" I know. look I brought this house because I want you to have your own space when you need sometime
alone and when we come to visit your family here. I don't want to sleep in the same house your father is
sleeping in " I giggle
Me:" hey now he's my dad and what's wrong with sleeping in his house? "
Him:" baby I wont be comfortable, I'll be sleeping with one eye open and I won't be able to make you scream
my name and you know yourself baby you're a screamer and now imagine, I fuck you at night then in the
morning I'll have to look your dad in the eye knowing I fucked his daughter under his roof while he was
there....no baby I don't want to die " I laugh
Me:" ok fine I hear you "
Him:" so you're not mad ? "
Me:" no boo, you have a valid reasons but he's not gonna like it "
Him:" you don't have to tell him now...just after my family has came and spoke with your family "
Me:" But you didn't propose "
Him:" baby I have to go and ask your dad for your hand in marriage and I'm terrified "
Me:" don't worry, he won't kill you "
Hi:" are you done eating? "
Me:" yes, I have to go before dad show's up at the hotel "
Him:" frank brought you changing clothes he got from your aunt "
Me:" thank you boo " I kiss him and go the bedroom and he follows me and I take off the robe
Him:" baby? "
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Me:" no mbuso I have to go " he comes and start kissing my neck touching my boobs
Him:" I'll be quick baby I promise "
Me:" you be quick?, please " well...........Three rounds later I'm tired. Mbuso drops me off at the hotel and my
aunt is already waiting for me and she looks like she had a good time alone with that wine.
Me:" good day mami "
Her:" hey baby lets go home, I have a serious hangover and I need some meat "
Me:" why don't we have brunch here then we'll go home later "
Her:" You want your dad to come and pick us up like we're kids?, no thank you " We drive back home and I
tell her all about what happend and she's very excicted for me and I'm so happy.
FEW WEEKS LATER.
Mah:" Luh... baby wake up we're here "
Me:" already ? "
Mah:" yes we're here "
Me:" do they know we're coming? "
Her:" no baby they don't know "
Me:" what if mbuso is not here mah? "
Her:" did you tell him we we're coming ? "
Me:" I didn't "
Her:" then they will call him and we'll wait because he has to be here "
We are outside mbuso's home in Pietermaritzburg. I don't see the reason why we had to come here but they
said it's tradition and a must so I'm here with mah and my other two aunts who are my uncles wives. Our
driver opens the doors we get out and I follow my aunts who are leading the way. They covered me with this
huge blanket that is covering my body and face and i'm sweating like crazy. My other aunt is holding my hand
leading me.
We stop and they press the gate buzzer I think, then I hear someone talking on the other side of the buzzer
Person:" Yes? "
Mah:" can you please let us in?, we are here about one of your sons "
Person:" come in "

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Mah:" who is that rude person luh? " she's annoyed
Me:" I don't know mah "
They let us in and we walk for a few minutes then I hear mbuso's aunt's voice.
AuntLwethu:" follow me " she says rudely yoh!. We follow her and we get inside the house and continue to
follow her.
Auntlwethu:" you can sit down " they do and I look around inside my blanket to see where my chair is but
there's none.
Mah:" my daughter needs to sit down too, where's her chair? "
Auntlwethu:" she'll sit down there on the floor? " huh?
Mah:" what? "
Auntlwethu:" sit down on the floor girlie " my God I struggle to sit my heavy ass on floor then my aunt helps
me sit down and it's very uncomfortable.
Mah:" Are you crazy?, you can't sit her down on that cold tile floor!" mah can't be fighting with mbuso's aunt
because she's soon going to be my in-law and I don't want her to treat me bad.
Auntlwethu:" this is not her mother's house, it's my brothers house "
Mah:" where are the other members of this family ? "
Auntlwethu:" they'll be here at any moment "
Mah:" please tell them to hurry we don't have all day "
Auntlwethu:" You're welcome to leave right now and go back to whatever whole you crawled out of "
I wish mah would just keep quiet and not entertain mbuso's aunt because she seems to be in a bad mood
today. she's nothing like how I first met her. I hear footsteps of people coming and I get nervous.
Voice:" Oh we have guests how wonderful, good afternoon " It's mbuso's dad and they sit down. I wonder
where is mbuso "
Mah:" good afternoon Gumede family "
MaGumede:" this is a beautiful surprise. Aunty you didn't offer them something to drink? " mbuso's mom ask
her
Auntlwethu:" they said they are fine " wow
Mah:" She threatened to poison us, so no thank you. We don't want anything offered by her and we're are not
here for that " I almost giggle
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MaGumede:" How can we help you then? "
Mah:" We are the Ngcobo's and we come from Ladysmith. These are my brothers wives and this is my
brothers daughter that we have brought here. Inja yenu seyidle amaqanda wethu " ( your dog has eaten our
eggs ) wow mah
Auntlwethu:" don't call my brother's kids dogs!. Lonondindwa ingabe uyazi ngempela ukuthi lengane
ayithwele eyalana ekhaya? " ( is this bitch sure that the baby she's carrying belongs to this family? ). I'm
speechless
Gumede:" Lwethu! "
Mah:" Don't you dare call my daughter a bitch. You will pay dearly for calling her such names "
MaGumede:" please forgive my sister inlaw. She has no filter " the tiles are cold, I'm very uncomfortable
and my back is starting to have cramps and this blanket God I just want to get it off me and throw it away
Gumede:" we have three boys in this family. Did she say who is it that has gotten her pregnant? "
Mah:" Mbuso Gumede, your first born son is the one that has forced his way in my brothers kraal "
MaGumede:" how far is she? "
Mah:" She's five months pregant "
Auntlwethu:" YOOOOH!, and she waited all this time why?, did she take this pregnancy and point it to
another family because she wasn't sure right? " she claps her hands , yoh this woman.
Mah:" you should ask your son those questions if you don't know " my cramps are starting to get a little intese
but nothing I can't handle. I take a deep breath out
Gumede:" where is mbuso mamakhe? "
MaGumede:" let me call him babakhe "mbuso's mom stands up and leaves.
Auntlwethu:" uncover yourself girlie. I want to see the girl who claims mbuso has gotten her pregnant " my
aunt takes the blanket off and I'm so bloody sweaty
Mah:" baby are you okay? "
Auntlwethu:" Lungi?, aren't you and mbuso married and since when are you a Ngcobo? " she asks shocked
then nervously giggles
Me:" I'm okay mah " I wipe my forehead. Mbuso's mom comes back with mbuso's brothers and I don't see
mbuso
Mah:" where is mbuso? "
MaGumede:" he's coming....oh there he is "
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Auntlwethu:" mbuso....."
Mbuso:" baby?,......Mama how can you sit her down on the floor like this? " he asks then gets me up and sits
me on the couch, damn my back I breathe out again
MaGumede:" I thought she was sitting on a mat mbuso "
Me:" I'm fine mbuso "
Mah:" you're not fine baby you're sweating and your face is getting red "
Me:" I'm just feeling hot mah that's all. Can we finish then go? "
MaGumede:" bonga go get lungi a glass of cold water "
Mbuso:" dad we all know I'm there one who got lungi here pregnant and I told you guys. Lungi why didn't you
tell me you were coming "
Gumede:" they had to follow tradition mbuso so our ancestors will recognise the baby, accept it and protect
it because it is one of our own " the cramps are strong now and I'm struggling to hide the pain.
MaGumede:" Lungi?, is mbuso the father of that child your carrying? "
Me:" He is ma " I look at mbuso and he smiles. Siyabonga gives me bottled water and I drink it.
MaGumede:" mbuso do you accept that you're the one responsible for this pregnancy, that the baby she's
carrying is ours? "
Mbuso:" she's carrying the next generation of the gumede's. My baby " he kisses my forehead then looks at me
worringly
Gumede:" we accept that we are responsible and have to pay for the damage our son has done. Our family
will be in contact with your family ".
Mah:" thank you mr gumede but we have to leave now my daughter is not feeling well "
Me:" take me to the hospital.....I feel cramps on my back and around my stomach " I hold my stomach and
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Mah, mbuso's mom, my aunts and mbuso's aunt ask me a bunch of questions at the same time and I don't know
which one to answer first. Mbuso can see that I'm getting frustrated because he picks me up quickly, carries
me out the living and walks somewhere then I hear the car engine running.
Mbuso:" watch your head baby " he says then put me down on the backseat and I groan. Mbuso's mom and
mah get in the backseat with me and mah holds my hand. The car reverses and off it goes.
Mah:" Can you feel the baby moving? "
Me:" I've never felt the baby moving, is that why I'm having cramps? "
MaGumede:" no lungi some babies start to play around their mom's stomach when they are six months and
some from four months, so please don't stress " mah wipes my forehead and I can feel she's tense. The pain
keeps getting worse and I groan
Me:" please God I can't lose my baby....I can't lose my baby " tears fall and mbuso's mother starts praying
and we keep quiet and say Amen when she's done.
Mah:" you won't lose your baby luh " she wipes my tears
Me:" where is mbuso mah? "
Mah:" he's driving luh "
Mbuso:" I'm here baby "
Me" I'm sorry.....I'm so sorry, I tried not to stress and worry and now I'm having cramps and I don't know
why.....I didn't do anything wrong I swear " my body is so hot and feels like it's on fire
Mbuso:" Luh listen to me. None of this is your fault baby, you are a strong woman and you have been doing
absolutely great. I want you to be the strong woman I know you are because our baby needs us right now.
Think of all the positive memories you have and just focus on that. Your mom is right here next to you baby,
all the people who love you. Nothing is going to happen to our baby, she's probably just playing and wants us
to notice her. Everything is going to be fine, you hear me baby? "
Me:" I hear you boo " I sniff
MaGumede:" are we there yet? " the car stops then mbuso shouts, there's commotion outside, mah and his
mom get out of the car then I shift and move close to the door then mbuso lifts me and puts me on the
wheelchair and the nurses wheel me in me and take me to the room, undress me then I wear the hospital
gown, I lye down then they put a drip in me then takes my blood pressure. The other nurse asks them a bunch
of questions and writes down.
Doctor:" Miss Ngcobo I'm Doctor Tim. I see that your five months pregnant and you're in pain, tell me where
it hurts " The doctor checks my pulse, my eyes, asks me to open my mouth and say 'a' and I do then he injects
something on my arm.
Doctor:" The injection I have just given you is to help your body temperature to be at it's normal and you'll
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start to cool down and feel better ".
Me:" I'm feeling pain on my back, my waist and under my ribs and my stomach hurts " he takes his
stethoscope and moves it on my stomach then splashes a gel on my stomach takes the ultra sound machine and
moves it around
Doctor:" Lets see what we have right here, here's the heartbeat wow very strong, oh there you are little one
sucking your thumb and hmmmm..." I hear my baby's heartbeat and I feel a huge weight being lifted off my
shoulders
Gumede:" what was wrong doctor?, why was she in pain ? "
Doctor:" this litlle......"
Mbuso:" doc don't tell us the baby's gender, we want to be surprised "
Doctor:" and I almost ruined the surprise. The reason you were in pain is because your baby is growing and
as the baby grows, your uretas is pushing under your ribs making space for the baby to grow well so that's
why you were in pain and your temperature was going to rise because of the pain you were feeling ".
Mbuso:" and her back pain? "
Doctor:" Your high blood pressure is high and it is making your baby to be in distress. You are going to have
an early labour and have a premature baby if you continue to have stress. Avoid stressful situations and
people who stress you. I'm going to have to put you on bed rest at home and your doctor will monitor you and
see how you're doing. If your high blood pressure doesn't come down then he'll have no choice but to
hospitalize you and monitor you there "
Me:" I hear you doctor " I don't want to be bedridden in the hospital
Doctor:" a word of advise miss ngcobo. You seem to be holding on to something and it is stressing you, you
need to forgive where you must and let things go and focus only on your pregnancy and enjoy it and not let
anyone ruin this moment for you because you are going to be bringing in life. Eat healthy and do small
execrises nothing heavy and strainious and please family don't stress these people"
Mbuso:" thank you doctor "
Doctor:" I'm keeping her for the night. You'll take her home tomorrow "
Them:" thank you doctor " mah and magumede say
Doctor:" I'm going to let doctor preston know that his patient is here. Please excuse me and I'm giving you
just ten minutes then you need to leave "
The doctor leaves us and I look at mbuso and he looks so down and stressed. He's probably blaming himself
and thinks maybe I haven't really forgave him and I did.
Me:" mbuso I'm worried about thami because it's not like him to just disappear and you wont tell me what
have you done with buhle because I know, that time you were at my brother's house she was there too. Both
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of you are keeping secrets and I thought I want to see her but I know now seeing her is going to upset me and
I don't want to have this baby before time, so I've decided that I'll see her after I have delivered our baby "
MaGumede:" You're doing the right thing lungi "
Mbuso:" We're still looking for thami and I promise you I'm going to find him and bring him to you. Are you
hungry? "
Me:" yes I am, Can I please have hot chocolate with marshmallows and lots of chocolate cream cookies and
well cooked big juicy steak, potatoes with lots of butter they way mah cooks them and red grape juice ice
cold "
Mah:" ok but where am I going to make you potaoes luh? "
MaGumede:" don't be silly we're family and your welcome in my house and you can cook your famous
potatoes. Babakhe here will make your steak while mbuso stays here with you. We will go home and cook
for you then zipho and siyabonga will bring you hot chocolate and cookies "
Mbuso:" but baby the doctor said eat healthy...all of that food you want is not healthy "
Me:' are you trying to get me upset mbuso?. Your baby wants all of that okay?, now leave me alone "
Mah:" mbuso shut up "
Me:" Mah did you call dad? "
Mah:" one of your aunts did and I called him back "
Me:" what did you say and is he upset ? "
Mah:" I told him that you were'nt feeling well so we decided to take you to the hospital just to be sure that
nothing is wrong. He wanted to come but I told him that the doctor wants to monitor you for the night and if
anything changes I'll let him know and he's worried about you but understood that we'll see him tomorrow ".
Me:" ok ".
Mah:" we are going now, get some rest " I nod and they leave.
Mbuso sits on the edge of the bed then we look at each other. He takes my hand in his then kisses it then
sighs.
Mbuso:" I worry about you baby "
Me:" I'm fine, don't worry "
Mbuso:" I'm thinking of kidnapping you and take you away from here then we'll come come back when the
baby is born "
Me:" dad won't like that and I want to be around everyone "
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Mbuso:" I know. I want to take away everything that is stressing you and fix what I can "
Me:" find thami and bring him home to me then "
Mbuso:" I'll find him I promise "
Me:" I hope they didn't do anything to hurt him. baby? "
Him:"We're not going to talk about people who are going upset you. Whatever questions you have I'll glady
answer them after the baby is born baby I promise "
Me:" that's four months from now "
Him:" I was thinking " really? he changes the subject
Me:" about? "
Him:" where are we going to live once we get married "
Me:" I don't have a ring on my finger " I smile
Him:" I know...after we get married where are we going to live "
Me:" I don't want to go back to that house "
Him:"ok we'll buy another one. You really hate that house "
Me:" I do because it reminds me of bad things that happend between us and I don't want to live in Joburg "
Him:" what?, why? "
Me:" I don't like it and I want to be closer to my family "
Him:" hmmm.....where would you like to live then ? "
Me:" Durban. I want to live there "
Him:" then start looking for your house then "
Me:" really?, just like that....you'll move to durban ? "
Him:" I'll move anywhere for you and we have offices in Durban. I'll move the headquarters this side and ask
themba to relocate to joburg and manage the business there. "
Me:" I can't believe it...what about madlamini ? "
Him:" themba will move to the house if he wants and madlamini will work for him. I won't leave her without
a job "
Me:" thank you boo for doing that "
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Him:" she misses you , you know ?"
Me:" I must call her and invite her over with her grandkids. We'll spend sometime on the farm, I'm sure she
will love it "
Him:" She's gonna be happy to hear from you "
Me:" yeah I just left without telling her.....she's gonna be surprised to see that I'm pregnant " I smile
Him:" call her tomorrow when you're home and I will also call thomas and percy to go pick her up with the
kids "
Me:" thank you boo " I give him a kiss and we kiss deeply then someone clears their throat and we look up
it's the doctor
Doctor:" No sex on the hospital bed, I'm kidding but please we don't want her to get too excited. I wanted to
ask how you're feeling miss ngcobo? " he checks my pulse again and puts a thermometer under my arm to
check my temperature.
Me:" I'm good doctor, I feel so much better "
Him:" your temperature is down and your heart beat is steady. So everything looks good for now "
Me:" doctor when am I going to start feeling my baby playing? "
Him:" for every woman experiencing the pregnancy is different but I'm sure you are going to feel them
playing anytime soon...."
" what ? " mbuso and I say at the same time
Doctor:" ooops...slip of a tongue "
Me:" doctor I'm having one baby, we even saw him or her on the sonogram screen " I'm shocked and happy at
the same time
Doctor:" him or her is hiding themselves. I felt two hearbeats on the sonogram. It was too strong to be just
that of one baby, so when I listened carefully I noticed both of them were beating at the exact same time and
at the exact pace. I've never seen someting like that, It's like the one sucking the thumb is protecting their
sibling" that's so beautiful my babies
Mbuso:" wow doctor thank you "
Doctor:" my pleasure. Have a good evening " he leaves us and we look at each other shocked and we laugh
Me:" wow I'm carrying two big heads "
Mbuso:" you love this big head and those big heads " we laugh
Me:" are we going to tell them ? "
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Mbuso:" lets keep it between us and we'll ask preston to keep it to himself too and not tell anyone "
Me:" great idea, I'm so excited "
He feels my stomach with his hands then lays his head on it and start to recite his clan names and as he
continues I feel movement around my stomach and mbuso stops and the babies stop moving too then he
continues and they play around and continue to do even after he stops.
Me:" I love you " I kis him
Him:" I love you and I love you more baby " he hugs me tight.
His phone vibrates and he takes it out, opens the text message and I try not to look but I see the message and
it's from my brother and it says
" We have a problem, call me " He sighs and looks at me
Mbuso:" I have to call your brother he says something is wrong " I didn't think he was going to tell me.
Me:" Ok call him" He leaves the room and I'm left wondering what is that huge problem they have.
SICELO.
There's is nothing I wouldn't for the people I love especially my sister, I will make sure that nothing hurts her
ever again including her mbuso. It is the only reason why buhle is still alive because if we kill her luh will
never forgive us and I don't want her to to hate mbuso because she loves him and the two of them deserve
their happily ever after. We moved buhle to somewhere safe where she won't escape and where her parents
won't find her.
I can't believe buhle is not sipho's daughter and him raping her might be the reason why she's so messed up.
Her mother was suppose to protect her but she didn't and made it possible for that pervert to touch her. I hope
he never touched luh because death is the last thing he will wish comes before we're even done with him.
People really have messed up parents like that who use their children like that make them think that their
body is the only thing they have that is good an and they must use it to get what they want.
I know uncle Victor made sure that she's always protected and even though they wanted to sell her and
couldn't because mbuso came and saved her and killed the man who was suppose to buy her but I can't help
and think that they had other plans for lungi because she's the one who isn't their child and she's the one who
was suppose to be like buhle...be messed up and everything. What were their plans exactly for my sister?...
My phone rings and it's dad
Me:" Mapholoba " ( their clan name )
Dad:" seun " ( son )
Me:" konke kuhamba kahle? " ( is everything okay ? ) "
Dad:" my contact has just called, he says the mazibuko's are in newcastle staying with someone "

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Me:" what?, they were just under our noses this whole time? "
Dad:" they knew that we were not going to look for them there "
Me:" OK , so when are going to get them "
Dad:" Relax, they arrived two days ago. We have to let them settle in and make them think that we won't
come. My guy is watching them twenty four seven, they won't escape us this time "
Me:" dad these people are smart, we have to get them now before they go missing again because you know
they won't stay at newcastle for long "
Dad:" I'll send you their pictures, they did plastic surgery and you wont be able to recognise them. They think
no one knows it's them so we must be careful and let them relax then we'll catch them when they least expect
it "
Me:" How many people are watching them? "
Dad:" ten of our best guys seun, don't worry "
Me:" keep me updated then "
Dad:" where is their daughter ? "
Me:" she's somewhere safe "
Dad:" mbuso that girl better not escape "
Me:" she won't dad I promise. I'm on my way there now to see her "
Dad:" ok. we'll talk later then "
Me:" sure grandpa "
Dad:" you do realise that your almost fourty and you have nothing "
Me:" I have my company dad, I have luh, aunty, you and my nephew or niece. You're all the people I need "
Dad:" You are going to die an old sad man who has no wife or kids if you keep running away from
commitment "
Me:" Dad you're still single, I haven't seen you with any woman since mom died "
Dad:" your mom was my soulmate and I don't think I'll ever find someone like her "
Me:" ofcause you won't find someone like her, but maybe you'll find someone better. You deserve to be
happy dad and I don't want you to die alone "
Dad:" I have found all my kids, I'm happy and now I'm looking forward to meeting my grandchild then maybe

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God will keep me until I meet your kids and then watch both of you get married and then I'll die a happy man
and be reunited with your mother "
Me:" I wish when I meet someone I will get to experience the type of love you and mom had. It was special
and one of a kind...I miss her dad especiallly now that we found my baby sister "
Dad:" I miss her too seun and she's happy that we are all united. You need to start looking for a right woman
you are not getting younger. You don't want to start palying with your first born when your fourty and second
born fourty five "
Me:" I know dad, I know " I chuckle
Dad:" we'll talk later then "
Me:" ok dad, bye " he hungs up and I groan. We always have the same conversation everytime we talk on the
phone. I leave the office, get in the car and drive, I wonder if buhle and celeste haven't killed each other
because they fight like a married couple. The security lets me through and I park the car and get in the house.
The first thing I see is buhle kneeling down on the floor and wiping it wearing a maids uniform and celeste is
sitting on the couch directing her where to wipe. The uniform she's wearing is so short you can actually see
her sagging butt and she looks black and blue. Damn mbuso must have really beat her up pretty bad and she
looks like her whole body hurts.
Me:" what is going on? " I'm shocked because I wonder what happend that got buhle to be this obedient.
Celeste:" boss, how's it going ? "
Me:" good, why is she wiping the floor? " buhle doesn't even acknowledge me and continues to wipe the
floor.
Celeste:" mbuso happend. That son of a gun can use sjambok boss yoh!, you should have seen him beating her
up with it. For a moment I thought he was going to use it on me too " she shrugs her body
Me:" when did he come ? "
Celeste:" yesterday morning. Buhle started calling him names because she was upset that ya'll took out her
implants, demanded drugs then threw hot coffee on mbuso and he calmly went to his car and came back with
a sjambok and started whipping her. I think he whipped out her stubborness and smart mouth because she
started calling him bhuti (big brother ) mbuso and begged him to stop and she'll never disrepect him again.
Boss I hope your sister never makes him that angry "
Me:" I'll fucken kill him if he ever puts his hands on my sister like that. Did he give her any medicine? "
Celeste:" the doctor came and gave her some medicine "
Me:" buhle can you not piss off mbuso because I'm sure he is close to killing you and one more smart
comment out of your smart mouth he's going to kill you " she stops and looks at me
Buhle:" I promise I will behave, please don't let him beat me again....it's too much now and my body can't
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take any more beatings and I look like a mess. No man will ever look at me again " she sounds so sad
She's right when she says she looks like a mess. We told the doctor to just take out the implants and stitch
where he took out the silicones. Her body is botched, skin sagging and being a crack whore is not helping her
at all.
Me:" when did you have your last fix? "
Buhle:" she won't give it to me, she said I must wipe this whole floor then she'll give me some "
Celeste:" Mbuso said I shouldn't give you any but you busy twitching around me is driving me insane so I'll
give you some. You see I'm the only nice one here " buhle ignores her and continues to wipe the floor.
Me:" I came to see if you two haven't killed each other and I'm glad someone is behaving between the two of
you. Give her a fix after she's done and give her something long to cover all that fucking sagging skin "
Celeste:" sure boss, where are you going now ? "
Me:" none of your business "
Celeste:" someone needs to get laid " she laughs
Me:" I'm out of here. "
I leave these two and go to a club me and my bothers frequent at and find them already there sitting at our
favourite spot with some girls dancing and they are almost wearing close to nothing and my brothers are
concerntrating on these girls and you can tell they look like hungry students. I ignore them and order myself a
drink and look around the club and It looks full. My mind keeps going to the conversation I had with dad
about me settling down and I know he is right. It has been weighing heavly on my mind that I need to settle
down and have a family of my own.
When I go home there is no one to come too and it feels lonely....I do feel lonely sometimes and I want
someone to share my life with but when I think about what hapend to mom and dad and him losing his
soulmate, it scares me to nthink it might happen to me too and I don't know if I can handle that but I have to
try someday and have faith.
I always watch mbuso and see whenever he talks about my sister or read messages she sent him, his face
lights up and I can see that he really loves her. He came to me and asked for her hand in marriage and I
promised to kill him should she ever cry because of him or do anything that will hurt her or cause her harm,
he promised he will do his best not to hurt in anyway then I agreed because she loves him. The only problem
now he is facing is going to ask dad and knowing my dad he is going to make mbuso sweat it out before he
gives him his blessings to marry his only daughter.
I wonder if someone's dad will aslo make me sweat it out like how dad is going to do with mbuso but first
Inhave to find that someone then worry about the rest later. He wants to make her his wife as soon as
possible and that somehow makes me want to have my own family. As I'm busy thinking and drinking my
eyes land on these girls that have just entered the club and I watch them, they are three and two of them look
like they are already drunk.

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My phone vibrates and I take it out and it's a message from celeste.
" Buhle is high and she says he has a child with mbuso "
Fuck no!...I'm going to kill that bitch if she's lying, she's not going ruin my sister's happiness never!. I send
celeste an sms and tell her to record buhle and I'll see her tomorrow then send mbuso ans sms too and he
calls
Me:" mbuso what did you do, you fool ? "
Him:" what are you talking about? "
Me:" get your ass right here tomorrow "
Him:" I have to take your sister home tomorrow because she's at the hospital "
Me:" why what happend and why didn't you tell me? "
Him:" nothing to worry about, the doctor said baby was playing that's why luh was experiencing pain "
Me:" after you drop her off get your ass here in durban " I hang up...Fuck I don't need this stress right now. I
gulp down my drink and order another one and continue to watch those girls dancing.

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SOMEWHERE IN DURBAN.
I'm running really late this morning and I was suppose to have opened the shop by now its 6:30 am and we
open at 6 am, when we have a function to prepare for but someone was just being difficult and I didn't sleep
at all last night God just thinking about it....let me not go there. I park my car outside the shop and see my two
best friends and co-workers have arrived. I'm not going to hear the end of me being late again.
Me:" guys sorry I'm late " I unlock the door and we get inside, they don't say anything and I can feel their eyes
drilling a whole on the back of my head. I make my way to the small kitchen we have and start preparing for
the platters for 40 people we are suppose to deliver for at 10 am at some office where they having a business
breakfast meeting and the platters are all different.
Me:" Guys I apologised now...please don't give me the silent treatment " I turn around and look at them and
they are just standing there folding their arms.
Karabo:" Ayanda this can't go on anymore " she says and I sigh.
Me:" Not now karabo please....it's still early " I look at both of them
Lilly:" the time is never right with you aya...look at you...you're a mess "

Me:" I know friend " I look down and cover my face beacuse I really feel like crying. I feel their arms
hugging me and I hug them back, telling myself I'm not going to cry.
Me:" I know it's hard guys but please don't give up on me because I really need you and can't do this without
you. I'll fix it I promise you"
Lilly:" We know you will but I hope really soon ayanda before he fixes you for good " that's what really
scares me
Karabo:" But we'll kill him before he kills you and we'll hide his body"

Lilly:" we'll burn him first the chop him to pieces and dump them all around south africa so no one will find
him " we all laugh because I know they'll do it and I love them to bits.
Me:" You guys are crazy and I love you just the way you are " we break the hug
Lilly:" why don't you take a cup of coffee and get yourself together then come back "

Me:" Thanks guys I owe you alot...I'll be back " I go to the office we share, make coffee and go through my
phone and no messages from him. I say a silent thank you to God that my boyfriend hasn't phoned me....yet. I
drink my coffee silently then finsh and join the girls. We prepare everything quickly cause yesterday before
we left we had some preparations done so we won't do too much this morning, and by nine am we are done.
Me:"Lets load up guys and deliver." We are excited because the business is only a year old, so getting clients
sometimes is not easy as we had hoped but we're hoping that since other business man and business women
that will be there where we are going to deliver the platters, they'll enjoy our food and ask for us to cater for
their future business functions aswell.
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We arrive at the office and a receptionist takes us to the other side of boardroom and we place all the platers
and drinks then leave.
ReceptionLady:" Here is the other half of the check and thank you for your services "

Me:" Thank you and please don't forget to recommend our business to other people and also you guys can
call us anytime whenever you need us "
ReceptionLady:" we'll do " we shake hands with her and leave.
Karabo:" Done for today....so why don't we go to Mug and Bean and have late breakfast " she suggests and
we all agree and drive there and order
Lilli:" It's friday today so any plans guys? " she asks as were eating
Me:" Nope..no going out for me...I need to rest " I tell them
Lilly:" What happend yesterday....how bad was it? "

Me:" Same as always, it wasn't that bad " I lie to my friends and I feel bad
Lilly:" I dont understand why can't you just leave him "
Me:" You know lilly that leaving a guy like tshepo is not easy....he hangs out with gangsters and you know
how... how scary he can be " I blink fast so they won't see I'm tearing up.
Karabo:" Eish I know girl, I just wish he showed you that side of him when you first started going out" I wish
he did too.
Lilly:" One day he'll meet his match and I'm just surprised that he hasn't broken something in your body yet" I
don't say anything because I know for sure he has broken my ribs and he phoned his doctor friend for help
and give me something and I hid that from them.
Karabo:" Maybe he'll meet more than his match"
Me:" I curse the day I met him " I really do

Karabo:" he doesn't deserve you, and you my friend one day you'll meet someone who'll be worthy to call
you theirs." I place my hand on top of hers
Me:" Yeah right....the day I get out of this situationship I'm not jumping into any relationship, I'm going to stay
single for aslong as I want " we all laugh and we continue talking about everything. I don't check my phone
because I just want to enjoy being with my friends.
Me:" You know what....we should go out and celebrate, I'ts been a while since we went dancing and I think
we should do a sleep over after the club " They squeek and people look at our table and we laugh.
Karabo:" and I know just the place...It's new and they opening it tonight "

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Lilly:" hell yes we are and lilly we're sleeping at your place tonight "
Karabo:"so why don't we go and do a little shopping for tonight and tomorrow " we agree then pay the bill
and leave but first we go and check shop and tell security of the building that we'll be back on monday and
leave.
We go shopping aand I buy a black long loose sleeveless jumpsuit and lilly buys a freakem dress that barely
covers her ass and thando cause she's tall she also buys a freakem dress that exposes her long legs. we leave
the mall and head to my place and I take all the things I'm going to need for the weekend and leave going to
karabo's place so she'll collect her things too and then go to lilly's place where we are going to spend the
weekend. We arrive and they get started on the wine that was on lilly's fridge.
Lilly:" You want a glass of wine?"
Me:" still too early, I'm going to nap guys. wake me up at 5 so I can cook before we leave, we can't drink on
an empty stomachs "
Karabo: " we are starting the party now "
Me:" alcoholics " we laugh and I leave them and go to thando's spare bedroom. Lilly has a sugar daddy that
pays this flat for her and has asked her to stop working because he says he'll take care of her but you know
these man they are unpredictable.
My name is Ayanda Sibiya and I'm 27, originally from witbank, both my parents are dead and I was their
only child. I lived with my grandmother then she died and then I had to live with my father's brother who took
over my parent's house when they passed away. I lived with him and his family until he kicked me out the
second year after I finished my matric. I was doing piece jobs by then and I had managed to save some money
that I will use to go to durban and start a new life.
I met karabo and lilly when we were all working at kfc. Most of the time we would work the same shifts and
so we bonded and became great friends. When I told them that my uncle has given two weeks to get out of his
'house' they were shocked and then I told them that I am leaving Witbank and going to be living in durban and
they said they are coming with me because we come from fucked up families and no one will miss us.
With the money we had, we managed to get a place to rent. We struggled to get jobs because we were knew
in the big city and didn't know that much of it but we get piece jobs, part-time jobs here and there and
sometimes we would go for 3 months jobless and sometimes one of us or both would find jobs. I consider
these girls my family and I'll do anything for them that's how tight and close we are.
I later found a job at Jet, karabo got a job at KFC and lilly was working Spur. We moved out of the place we
lived at when we first relocated when we found better jobs. I found a job at woolworths later that year and
the income was a little bit better cause it made a difference and we went to the CICP to register a catering
business.
Then one lucky day we met this lady who was relocating to joburg and asked us if we wanted to rent a flat
and we agreed because she knew lilly from work and so we moved to her place and we lived there. lilly met
her sugar daddy and he took over and payed the flat 6 months in advance and it was a huge stress reliaver
and we we were so ngrateful.
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This one time we went to mug and bean and there were some guys sitting behind us they arrived after us.
When we finshed eating one of them asked if he could pay for our bill because he said and I quote "Beautiful
women like you are suppose to be spoiled dined and pampered so please ladies allow me to pay your bill "
and we agreed little did I know what I was getting myself into.

He asked to take me out and he was charming so I agreed and we dated and the first 5 months were good then
on our seventh month he showed me his true colours. It's a year now since I've been with him. My friends
know that he physically abuses me slaps here and there but they don't know how bad it gets. It sounds easy
when someone sasy why don't you just get out and leave him but when someone has a hold on you
emotionally...you not going anywhere.
His name is Tshepo and he is 37, he lives at his own place and works for a delivery company, they deliver
expensive furniture that is imported by private clients, the company he works for specialises in that. I have
my own place that I rent it's not fancy just a one bedroom flat with a kitchennete and siting room as well as
the bathroom.
I hear someone calling my name and I can't make out who it is. They shake me roughly this time and I panick
and scream
Lilly:" ayanda! ayanda!, It's me....shhhhh don't cry" I feel disoriented, who's crying now?
Me:" Lilly what's wrong why are you crying? " her face is full of tears
Lilly:" you were screaming for him to stop...kicking you...you were screaming in pain aya" oh God she hugs
me and cries
Me:" hey I was just having a nightmare...don't cry now " I look around the room and see Karabo standing
there looking at me like she wants to kill me and tears are falling down her face.
Me:" karabo....." lilly continues to cry
Karabo:" WHAT AYANDA WHAT?!....we know how bad he hits you okay...we've seen the marks on your
back...yes we know...." she's shouting. " you want tshepo to kill you and take you away from us huh.....look at
you....you miserable ever since you met that scumbag and you're proctect him "
Me:" what NO!, I'm not protecting him! "
Karabo:" yes you are!, everytime we ask you if he hits you or what's really going on...you lie! lie! and lie!.
Why ayanda why!? " I've never seen her this angry
Me:" You don't understand " I say tears rolling down my face
Karabo:" Then make me...make us understand please aya " I look at my friends no my sisters and see what I
have done to them by bringing this man into our lives and it breaks my heart knowing that I hurt them by
keeping things from him.
Me:" he has anger issues and he takes them out on me. I don't say anything because I know it's going to hurt
you guys more than it does me and I don't want that for you."

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Lilly:"but you want it for yourself...right?"
Me:" No " I cry
Karabo:" well I'm not going to lose a sister and one of my best friends, I'll be damned if that happens "

Me:" you're not going to lose me guys " I'm nor sure about that
Karabo:" we already have. You're not happy aya, the laughs and smiles you share with us don't reach your
beautiful eyes...you are always tense and panick whenever he phones you" she breathes out deeply, wipes her
eyes and gets on the bed with us and we hold hands
Lilly:" you have to choose aya. It's either your life and us or him."
Me:" It's you guys always " I tell them.
Karabo:" then break up with him and we'll even come with you so you won't be alone and won't be able to
convince you otherwise "
Me: "I will, on monday I'll call him to come at lilly's place, I promise " I know its the right thing to do and
I'm going to do it. I'm tired of livin my life in fear.
Me:" I love you guys and thank you for being here " we hug
Them:" we love you too "
Karabo:" uhm is this te part where we are suppose to kiss and fuck each other? "
Me:" eeewwwww " I say we all laugh our asses off
Me:" let me go cook so we can eat before we hit the club "
Lilly:" already did...it's seven pm now and you needed the rest " God I'm blessed to have these girls in my
life.
Me:" Thanks guys lets go eat and get ready " we leave the the bedroom and eat steak, gravy and pap...hey
don't judge us, we love our pap.
Karabo and lilly take the bathroom first and I'm the last one, so by the time I get out of the bath, they almost
halfway done and I start getting ready dressing up and do my make up. I hear my phone beep and I know it's
tshepo and for a minute I panick. I look at it see 3 missed calls from him and I delete them and the message
before I even read it because I know it's nothing good.
Karabo:" Aya come out!, we gonna find the club full if we don't leave now" she can be impatient sometimes.
Me:" Coming I'm almost done" I finish dressing up, wearing my wedge sandals with my jumpsuit and then I
take my purse and see if all I'm going to need is inside it then leave.

Lilly:" I wish you'd wear tight clothes you know....you have a great body aya like damn....not that loose thing
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you wearing"
Me:"Stop it, I love what I'm wearing and I feel comfortable"
Lilly:" But...."
Karabo:" no lindi leave her alone, lets go guys" i giggle
Me:" Damn ya'll look hot yeses" we laugh. Lilly is tall and she's wearing that freakem dress and 6 inch
stilettos and a peruvian weave wow, and karabo is short, she's a size 32 and also wearing heels but they not
tall because if she doesn't wear them sometimes she looks like a 18 year old and she hates that.
Karabo:"You too look hot...now let's take these shots and go shake our asses" we drink shots of vodka neat
and i feel my throat getting warm.
Me:" damn this is strong....the uber is here guys...we are not driving because we are going to get drunk. lets
go bitches and turn up! " we scream and leave the apartment and the uber driver takes us to the "Mile High
Club".
We get there and the line of people waiting to get in is long.
Me:" Oh look at the line...there's no ways are we getting in "
Lilly:" Relax I know those bouncers, just follow me bitches "
Karabo:" I'm not surprised" she says and so we follow lilly and stand infront of the other group of girls.
Lilly:" Hey boys " she greets the bouncers and they look at us
"hey you!..can't you see that you have to wait in the line like the rest of us" says some girl who did the whole
contour thing wrong.

Bouncer1:" Ah my girl lilly how you doing baby?" we look at each with karabo
Lilly:" Beautiful as always you know me " she says
Bouncer2:" we sure do and your friends are gorgeous too" he looks at us from head to toe and looks at the
jumper i'm wearing for too long and i start to feel uncorfortable and the other bouncer elbows him

Bouncer1:" I have just the perfect table for you...follow me" then he presses an earpiece and tells someone to
come in the front and the other girl loses it and calls us all kinds of names but we don't hear as we get inside
and we're swallowed by the music inside.
Me:" Wow this place is amazing....it even has a second floor" karabo says
Bouncer:" V.I.P only on the second floor"
Lilly:" thanks mark for getting us in " so the bouncer's name is Mark ohk, I thought he might have a scary
name since he's big and strong
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Him:" anything for you baby girl " he smiles at lilly and I get a sense that there's more going on between these
two and we are going to ask her. He takes us just below a v.i.p area above us that has a glass wall but you
can't see inside maybe it's the office I tell myself.
Mark:" Sorry girls I can't take you to the vip..this is the best I can do "
Me:" thank you mark we are grateful " I smile and he seems to look at me like he's trying to read me or sees
something and I don't know what and I just don't like it.
Mark:" Let me know if you guys need anything. I'll send my girl tina here to get you something, enjoy your
night ladies" lilly kisses his cheek and the he leaves us and we sit down.
Karabo:" ok what was that about? "
Me:" please do tell us " I stare at her
Karabo:" no I meant him looking at you like that " she corrects me
Me:" I know it freaked me out too" I honestly say
Lilly:" He's a good guy. I've known him for a year, so don't worry about him...he's just protective thats all "
huh?
Me:" protective of what lilly?....God I hope you didn't tell him anything about me?"
Lilly:" It might have slipped up okay and I was worried and so I ended up telling him about tshepo "
Me:" I could kill you right ! "
Lilly:" I'm sorry okay. I'm just scared of losing you I'm sorry "
Me:"I know you mean well. I'm sorry for snapping at you " damn liily and talking about my business.
Lilly:" We can't let that scumbag ruin our night "

Karabo:" ncoooh look at you guys....group hug" we laugh and hug then the waitress comes and we order a
bottle of champagne, we can afford it.
We see the girls we left outside passing by us and going to the vip area and their leader gives us a look and
smirks and they all laugh looking at our direction.
Lilly:"I don't like her "
Karabo:" she's just an ugly bitch wearing all that heavy make up to hide that alcoholic face she has under
there." we burst out laughing really hard
Me:" lets not mind them guys, were are here to have a good time." we click cheers to that and right on que the
dj plays rihanna's song cheers to freaking weekend and we stand up with our glasses and start singing loud
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with the song and dancing to it too. The Dj keeps them coming playing one after another and we're singing
non-stop. Man it feels so good to be out with your friends and having a good time and not stressing....but
deep down I am a little. I know tshepo is going to be pissed that I didn't answer his calls and call him back
and I am scared.
karabo:" hey don't do that, don't think about him" this one she knows me
Me:" I'm not " she raises her eyebrow and I laugh
Me:" ok I'll stop" we don't leave our table, we dance there, just chilling having a great time and guys come to
ask if they'll join us but we decline nicely and they leave us alone. It's now midnight and we're feeling hungry
so we order a meat platter
Me:" guys when are we leaving? " I ask them
Lilly:" 2 am " I laugh shaking my head because if it was up to her we'd stay there the whole night and leave in
the morning, thats how much she loves clubs and dancing.
Me:" I'm going to the ladies to powder my nose, would you ladies like to join me ? " I ask them twanging
Karabo:" we good for now ma'lady " she slurs terribly and we crack up. I ask one of the bouncers where's
the ladies room and shows me and make my way there and there's a line and I really wanna go I can't wait
that long.
I come back and make my way to the v.i.p area and ask the bouncer if I could use the ladies room there but he
refuses and I sigh and turn back when he stops me and lets me pass to use the ladies room there and I get
inside and do my business, wash my hands then leave the toilet and collide with that contour gone bad girl
and she pushes me out of the way and I just look ar her...like how old are we?.
I ignore her and I'm about to turn when I feel this shudder from the back of my neck going all over my body
and my skin gets covered in goosepumbs and I freeze not understanding what is going on because this is a
different one and not the one I get when tshepo gets next to me or touches where i just want to crawl out of
my skin and runaway.
This one feels different. I look behind me but all I can see is a passage that is a little dim and there are doors,
I shake my head and push her and walk away and go to where we are sitting. We eat the meat platter and its
kinda okay but hey...then karabo opens another bottle of champagne and we continue to drink. I look at the
time and see it 1:30 am and I know we have to go now.
Me:" Guys we're drunk now so it's time we go home "
Karabo:" yeah...you right...lets go bitches " she's drunk. I waive at the waiter and he comes at our table.
Me:" uhm we'd like to pay our bill "
Waiter:" ma'am everything is on the house. Someone payed your bill" what hell no, we're going to be
kidnaped or owe someone and i don't want that. Fuck is it Tshepo who has paid the bill...Fuck, I'm fucked
Me:"thank you but we had already have our own transport and thank whoever paid our bill " he nods and
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leaves.
The girls and I leave the club and when we get outside we see mark standing next to a huge SUV.
Mark:" girls I 'll be taking you home. Your uber driver was paid so don't worry and I'll sleep better knowing
I left you home where you're safe."
Me:" can we trust him lilly? " I might be drunk but not that drunk to go with a stranger who just happens to
offer us a lift
Lilly:" yes we can don't worry friend" so we get inside with mark driving and he takes us home. We arrive at
lilly's place which he already knows because he didn't ask for direction and we get inside the elevator and
then the flat.
karabo:" thanks mark baby " she says giggling
Me:" thank you marh, good night mark " go sleep in the spare bedroom and karabo doses off as soon as she's
under the covers but before I sleep I check my phone and see 8 missed calls and 10 messages from tshepo
and I delete all of them, then I hear groaning sounds and oh damn lilly and mark are fucking... I fall asleep
hearing those sounds.

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My head is pounding and I feel like a mess and my mouth is dry, it feel like its been filled with cotton. I turn
on my side but I can't because karabo has taken most of the bed.
Me:" Ugh that's why I hate sharing a bed with you cause you kick " she giggles and I do too.
Karabo:" morning sunshine " she says
Me:" morning, how long have you been awake? "
Her:" not long, was awaken by your phone ringing non-stop "

Me:" ugh tshepo? " she nods


Her:" you know he's pissed wherever the hell he is " she says
Me:" I know and I can't ignore him forever. I have to breakup with him today "
Her:" that's my girl and we'll be right here with you" I shake my head no, and get off the bed.
Me:" no karabo. I have to do this alone, I don't want him thinking it's you guys who want me to break up with
him."
Her:" I'm just scared of what he'll do to you when you tell him it's over"
Me:" If I see any signs that he's losing it, I'll immediately call you guys."
Her:" and we'll bring mark with us " she says and we both giggle
Me:" I heard them last night going at it " I say blushing
Her:" oh my god and I missed out damn " she can shock you sometimes.
Me:" what were you going to do? " I ask her
Her:" watch them of course" we both laugh then we hear lilly shouting
Lilly:" Stop talking about my escapedes and come eat you shits " we laugh and we find her stuffing her face
with bacon and it smells amazing
Me:" look who got it all this morning" she smiles not even denying it
Karabo:" oh! oh! oh! mark yes right there, yeeeesssss" she says moving her hips up and down the chair and
we laugh
Lilly:" karabo why are so etxra yeah? " thando asks her, we laugh and I look at the time it's 11 am

Karabo:" I am what I am" she says eating bacon. I leave them and go to the bathroom and shower quickly
then brush my teeth come back find them still eating, I sit down and join them.
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Me:" After brunch I'm going to my place to break things off with tshepo" I breathe out deeply
Lilly:" you want us to come with you? "
Me:" no but I'll call you if I see him losing it" I tell them
Lilly:" not if, when."
Me:" I'll be fine, don't worry and you missy what is happening between you and mark?" she laughs
Lilly:" nothing is going on. we hook up now and then"
Karabo:" what?...how come we don't know? "
Lilly:" because you guys don't live with me anymore that's why " she rolls her eyes
Me:" what about papa smurf? " we laugh cause thats the nickname I gave him. Lilly's sugar daddy has silver
hair and beard so he reminded of papa smurf the cartoons
Lilly:" he won't find out and if he does so what, he's married " she shrugs and we don't say anything. We've
had this conversation with her about being the other woman but she doesn't mind....so yeah its none of our
business.
Me:" Let me go guys I'll call and let you know" they nod and I leave. I get inside my car and check my phone
and see he phoned again and since it was on silent I didn't hear it and it's not like I was going to answer it
anyway.
I drive to my place and call him on the way on loud speaker but it rings and goes straight to voicemail. I see
his car parked outside the flat I live in and my heart drops. He's sitting in the car smoking and he sees me. I
park my car, and get out, take my bag and try to lock it but the keys fall because I'm trembling. He also gets
out of the car and locks it and waits for me to finish then I feel him standing behind me not saying anything
and that freaks me out.
Him:" you ok baby? " he asks me and I nod
Me:" yes...I'm okay" I lie. He takes my keys and bag, holds my hand and we go to the flat. He unlocks the
door we get in then he closes it not saying anything and takes me to the bedroom. This is unlike him because
what I expected is him slapping me on the face the moment he closed that door. He takes off his shoes and I'm
just standing there not knowing what to do.
Him:" Come lets nap, I didn't sleep last night" he gets on my bed and lays down facing up and looks at me
Him:" baby come I'm not going to sleep alone" he says
Me:" Tshepo we need to talk I...." I try to talk but he interupts me
Him:" Can we sleep first then eat and then we can talk " he says bored or tired I don't know so I let it go but
the other part of my brain is telling me to tell him now that it's over and the other not so smart part of my
brain ignores that. I'm wearing yoga pants and a long sleeve top and sneakers so I take the sneakers off and
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get in bed with him. I lay with my back to his front and he drags my body close to his and I tense and shake.
Him:" Stop doing that, everytime I touch you or hold you, you tense up and I don't like it" he says like that
hurts him..yeah right like its my fault that I feel or do that. He starts kissimg my neck and I feel his dick
getting hard and he presses it on my ass. God I don't want to do it.
Me:" Tshepo....." he rolls me to my back and gets between my legs and in my mind I'm screaming no don't
touch me and I don't want to do this but my lips remain closed.
Him:" shhh I missed you and I just want to feel you" I try to talk but he silences me with a kiss and doesn't
stop. He tries to take off my top but I grip it to stop him then he looks at me and I can see he's trying really
hard not to get but he's demeaner says otherwise so I let him take it off along with all of my clothes and I lay
there naked, still waiting for the blows but they never come.
he takes off his clothes aswell and then takes out a condom on my side table and sheathes himself. He opens
my legs and gets between them and start kissing me and those kisses and the way he's holding me reminds me
of the first time we slept together and I feel tears covering me eyes.
Him:" I'm going to make you feel so good baby" he says
He kisses me from my breasts to my stomach and down there and for the first time ever he goes down on me
and eats me. I try to get my body to relax but my mind won't let me because I hate every single thing he's
doing. I skwirm and try to push off his face but he holds me tight still eating me and I fake my orgasm then he
quickly moves up my body and enters me slow and I close my eyes. He buries his hands on my hair and
kisses me deeply and sofly and I can taste myself on him, and he's still moving in and out of me slowly.

Me:" what's going on, why are you being like this?" I ask him tearing up.
Him:" I'm just showing you how much I love you" he changes the pace and flexes his hips and ass and starts
to fuck me fast and I start to shake my body faking my orgasm covering my face then he comes groaning loud.
We lay there not saying anything then he gets up and goes to the bathroom to flush the condom, comes with a
wet towel and cleans me and he's never done that before I always clean myself.
Him:" Lets go get something to eat then we'll talk" I nod and he wears his clothes and I wear mine too but he
stops me ."Why don't you wear that dress I like" he says
Me:" it's not that hot for me to wear that dress " I tell him
Him:" I know baby but it's warm outside and we'll be back before it starts getting chilly "
Me:" ok " I keep asking myself why he wants me wear that dress or maybe he's hoping for another round.
I wear it and then take my bag cause I know my phone is inside then we leave. We take my car he's the one
that's driving and he plays metro fm, the ride is silent we don't talk and I'm growing very uncomfortable with
every passing moment and I try to read him to see where his head is at but it's like he has closed off. We go
to nandos drive through, he orders for both of us as always and then we leave. He takes the direction to his
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Me:" I thought we were going back to my place tshepo? " he looks at me smiles and the hair on the back of
my neck stands and I know its bad.
Him:" there's something I have to do, it's going to be quick and then we'll go to your place" he holds my hand
and kisses it. He drives in and parks his car, gets out and I stay in inside.
Me:" I'll wait here, you go ahead " he looks at me like I'm crazy and comes on my side of the car opens the
door and drags me outside and I take my back with me.
Him:" I want a second round too, please come ?"
Me:" No! " I shake my head and stand still but he holds my hand tightly and drag me inside the house and
locks the door behind me, I try to pull my arm but it's too tight then I feel a hot full slap across my face and I
stagger and see stars. I cover my face but he punches my stomach and I fall on my knees, scream for someone
to help me but I know, no one is going to help me.

Me:'' Tshepo please...don't beat me anymore I can't take it" I beg him crying
Him:"You stupid bitch (punch) you thought I would just let it go huh" he continues to kick and and punch me
where ever his hands and feet land on my body.

Me:" It's over tshepo...I'm done with you, you can't keep using me as your punching bag" I tell him
Him:" You piece of shit!, (punch) frigid bitch! (punch)..where the fuck were you? (kick), I phoned you (kick)
and you ignore my calls (kick) huh...let me show what I do to someone who ignores me" he brutally kicks and
punches me all over.
I cry my eyes out and try to run but I feel his shoe on my back holding me down then I feel a kiss of a leather
belt on my back and I scream try to tug it free from him but he's much stronger than me. He beats me black
and blue and I feel like I'm going to die, I'm tired of fighting and begging him to stop and I just lay there as he
continues to....to whip me with his belt, my body and face hurts so much and I can't even move.

Him:" Answer me you stinking whore..." he laughs and I cry hard...had not accepted to go on a date with him
I wouldn't have met this man and be going through this.
He continues to call me names and asks me where I went, why didn't I tell him, who did I fuck with my cold
vagina who'd want this cold vagina like its dead and I don't answer him which pisses him off even more. He
beats me until my dress is teared up and sticking on my skin. I stop crying and just take the beating, I feel very
hot and my lungs hurt from just breathing and I notice that I'm covered in blood and the floor too.
Him"I love you and you know that...It's you who makes me do this...it's all your fault and you have to make it
up to me.." I don't hear the rest of what he says as I pass out.
I'm awaken when I feel cold water all over my body and I scream because my whole body hurts and it burns
very bad. I open my eyes and see that I'm in his shower and one of my eyes won't open because its swollen
shut.
Him:" I thought you were dead...oh God I thought I killed you" I cough out blood and it hurts.

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He picks me up roughly not caring that I'm hurt and throws me on top of the bed facing up and I notice that I'm
naked. He takes off his pants and underwear and gets on top of me and I try to move but my body can't move
at all and I just cry. He enters me roughly and I'm dry it hurts so much and he starts to rape me so rough I
think I'm bleeding down there and then comes and start laughing like crazy and all I can do is watch him
crying my eyes out.
Him:" At least your good for one thing....opening your legs" he slaps my thighs and gets off the bed and he
goes into the shower and showers, comes out and wears clean clothes looking at me laughing and shaking his
head.
Him:" I'll be back just wait there, exactly as you are..I'm going to see my woman I bet she's worried about
me, so I can't keep her waiting" he then leaves. I hear his car driving out and I try to move but its like every
bone in my flesh is breaking and broken....God why did I agree to come with him and sleep with him..why
did I allow this man into my life?, this is all my fault.
I try move again and this time I do and I fall off the bed and wince. I try to crawl but I just hurt myself more,
so I drag my body to the dining room on my stomach and then see my bag. I get to it afraid that tshepo is going
to be here at any moment and kill me this time. I open it and and look for my phone and when I don't find it I
panick but try again and I find it this time and I speed dial 1 and it rings
Karabo:" Ayanda? "
Me:" HELP ME!...HELP....I'M AT HIS PLACE COME NOW "

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MBUSO.
I'm going out of my mind trying to figure out what the hell sicelo is talking about. He can't be upset that I
whiped buhle because she started it and it is her fault that I ended up beating her. I hope that fool is not
developing feelings for buhle because I want that gitl out of my life and luh's life. I had to tell the people I
was going to sell buhle too, to wait and that I'll let them know when.
Luh:" boo? "
Me:" baby? " we are at our place in Ladysmith, we arrived two hours ago. After they discharged her I took
my family and drove us there. Her dad called her and gave us few hours then he's coming to fetch his
daughter and I still have to ask him for his blessings to allow me to marry her daughter and he might say no
and I don't think luh would marry me without her father's blessing and I wouldn't want that either. If he says
no I'll just have to prove to him that I'm worthy of his daughter's love. I love this woman and I'm tired of not
waking up and she's not next to me.
Her:" mbuso you're doing this again, zoning out when I'm talking with you " she's cute when she's annoyed I
pull her close and kiss her
Me:" I'm sorry baby, It's thinking about our future and how perfect I want it to be for you, for us and our kids
"
Her:" It's up to us to make it perfect boo. We have to believe in our love and know that it is strong and it can
survive anything. We have to be trust each other, have each other's backs, be truthful and honest with each
other mbuso no matter what "
Me:" where were you all my life lungile "
Her:" fate bought us together "
Me:" buhle?, no ways baby " she cracks up
Her:" no boo. Fate used her to bring you to me and then it gave me my family. I have to thank buhle because
she saved my life "
Me:" when our babies are born then you too can meet up and talk to her but for now, I'll make sure stays
away from you "
Her:" promise me you won't kill her mbuso because I know you "
Me:".......fine I won't kill her "
Her:" I love you mbuso and I don't want you to go back to the way you were when we first met. That person
was angry and I don't like that mbuso, promise me you won't change and go back to your old arrogant self "
she giggles, man I love this woman
Me:" I promise I won't go back to my arrogant old self "

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Her:" that's the second promise you're making to me and you better keep this one "
Me:" I know I once promised you that I wasn't going to intentionally hurt you and I'm giving that promise
again. I swear I won't hurt you ever again "
Her:" I believe you "
Me:" I love you Mashiyamahle " She blushes
Her:" I love you too zdaddy "
Me:" hmm...I'm your dzaddy? " I giggle
Her:" yes you are "
Me:" come here...." we kiss and I'm about to take off her clothes when her phone rings and I groan frustrated
because I really want to get some.
Her:" Dad......ok? " he's already here...this man wants me to die from blue balls, she hangs up then looks at
my dick and laughs
Me:" oh you laughing at me? "
Her:" dad is here outside, go let him in while I wash my face "
Me:" does he know this is your house ? "
Her:" no, he thinks it's yours "
Me:" you have to tell him luh "
Her:" you bought me this house and so you tell him "
Me:" let me go before he thinks I'm banging you " she giggles and I get off the bed and fix my hardon then
leave.
I open the gate and he drives in with his car then I meet him halfway when he gets out of the car.
Me:" Good afternoon Mapholoba "
Him:" junior gumede, how are you ? " we shake hands, ok this is good.
Me:" I'm good and happy "
Him:" I see because you have my daughter all to yourself, you want her to cohibitate with you? "
Me:" No sir. Actually I wanted to talk to you about something. I was going to come to your house and ask you
Sir...... "
Him:" mbuso talk? "
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Me:" can we get in the house and sit down "
Him:" the house you brought my daughter? " fuck he knows
Me:" yes sir and I was going to tell you about it now, too " he shakes his head like he's defeated
Him:" fine, lead the way " we get inside the house and I lead him to the empty living room then straight to the
kitchen because that's the only place that has chairs.
Me:" please sit down "
Him:" when are you furnishing it? "
Me:" I told her to hire an interior designer and furnish it whatever way she likes...whatever makes her happy
"
HIim:" hmmm "
Me:" uhm sir. I know me meeting your daughter was under very unfortunate circumstances and things were
just messed up and there are many things I could have done to avoid most of the things I did to her and I
would like to fix all of that and do things the right way if you would allow me the chance " I look at him and
he's looking at me not even blinking
Him:" I'm listening, continue " this man is very intimidating like my dad.
Me:" Sir with your permission I'm asking for your daughter's hand in marriage. I would love to marry your
daughter and make her my wife and build a home with her and make you a grandfather of many grandkids " I
see a ghost smile when I say the last part.
Him:" are you serious about what you're asking mbuso ? "
Me:" with every being on my body sir "
Him:" and if I say no, what are you going to do ? "
Me:" it would break my heart sir I'm not going to lie, but I won't give up on asking you again because I will
prove myself to her and to you that I love her. I will do anything to protect her and I will give anything to see
her always happy. I will prove to you that I'm worthy to be loved by her and that I deserve her to be in my
life because I lost her once because I took her for granted and it was the worst time of my life and I don't
ever want to go through that ever again. My life doesn't make sense without her sir. Please allow me to marry
your daughter ". fuck I'm sweating, I wipe my forehead and look at him.
Him:" go and get lungi " I get up and turn but I see her coming and she smiles and has tears in her eyes, she
was listening. She comes to me and hugs me then looks at me and I wipe her tears. She goes and kisses her
dad on the cheek then we sit down hold hands and look at her dad.
Mapholoba:" Lungile, yesterday I received a letter from the Gumede family. They are requesting a meeting
with me and your uncles and I accepted the letter and told them we will be incontact with them. Mbuso has
asked me for your hand in marriage and before I give him my answer, I would like to talk to you first "
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Him:" Lungile my child, finding you again has brought joy in my life that I never thought I will ever feel again
and I thank god and my ancerstors that we found each other again and it was because of this man sitting next
you, the man who's child you're carrying and I don't know if I have ever said it but thank you mbuso. Thank
you for saving her and doing what you thought was best and sorry for the pressure I put you on." I never
thought I would hear luh's father say this and I'm pleased.
Me:" thank you sir "
Him:" I'm also sorry my child for the things we did to you thinking that we're making right decisions but it
was wrong of us to make decisions without thinking about your feelings, so that's why I want you to tell me
how you feel about this man who wants to marry you ".
Luh:" I forgive him dad for everything and I have put it behind me because it is our past. The man I know
now is completely different to the man I knew then. I know that he loves me without a shadow of doubt and I
believe in him. I know he will do everything in his power to always make us happy and put us first in his life
before anything else. I respect him, I love him dad and I want to be his wife " I'm looking at her all this time,
listening to her and I believe that my ancerstors came through for me when I met lungi.
Him:" I'm happy to hear that you are happy my child. Mbuso uLungile is my child and so please don't hurt her
ever again, she has two dad's. You know she comes from a very rich family even though she didn't grow up
rich but but my daughter forgets that she is rich. You know that she can have everything she wants and needs
and she'll never want for anything. She's a humble person like her mother and that makes her very vunrable
and people will take advantage of that and you must protect her from such people "
Him:" what you both want is not a child's play. When you do this you go all the way for life, traditional
wedding and a white one if you both want it. I don't want to keep both of you from being happy and being
with each other and I want my daughter to be happy and she chooses to be happy with you so I won't deny
you that. I've lived a long empty life and now I just want to be happy with all of my kids and that includes
you too mbuso because you are part of this family now. You have my blessings to get married.
Me:" thank you Mapholoba, thank you vey much! " I stand up and shake his hand but he hugs me... a man
hug.
Luh:" thank you daddy, I love you " she hug him too
Him:" I'm going to ask one thing though "
Us:" anything " we look at each other and laugh.
Him:" can you get married before the baby is born? " I look at luh and she looks
Luh:" dad I'm due in four months and planning a wedding is stressful "
Me:" your mom, my mom, simphiwe, your aunts are all there even your doctor...tell them what you want and
leave the rest to them "
Mapholoba:" I almost forgot the doctor " he shakes his head smiling
Luh:" that's a great idea plus preston is coming to check up on me today....thank you boo and dad we'll have a
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wedding before the baby is born "
Him:" thank you. Now lets go, you need to eat and rest " I walk them out to the car then her dad gives us some
privacy
Me:" I love you and thank you for what you said to your dad "
Her:" I meant every word I said to him. I love you too " I kiss her cheeck open the door for her, she gets in
the car and off they go.
That went better than I thought and a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Now I have to go to
durban and find out what the hell is going on.

MBUSO.
To say I just love Lungi is an understatement. I really love that woman and I'll forever be grateful that she
gave me a second chance to be part of her life again and the children we are going to have. I meant every
word I said to her father and I don't want to make him dislike me or not trust me with his daughters life. I'll
move heaven and earth to give her what she wants or take away everything that hurts or harms her.
I drive in to the house Sicelo and I bought and we placed buhle there with celeste so she can watch her and
the security guys and she better be not the reason why I'm here or whatever sicelo thinks I did to her because
I'm seriously tired of her and her bullshit. I get in the house and find sicelo sitting down and looking
miserable
Me:" what's wrong fool?, you look so miserable " I chuckle
Him:" fool is your ass "
Me:" what's wrong bro "
Him:" I'll tell you later, right now we have a problem or rather you have a problem "
Me:" is buhle dead ? "
Him:" no she's not "
Me:" then what is bro ? "
Him:" I was at a club last night and received a text message from celeste telling me that buhle is high...."
Me:" I told celeste not give her any, why did she do it? "
Him" brother ask her okay, as I was telling you before you kindly interupted me. She says that she has a kid
with you " I laugh shaking my head because this bitch is way more delisional than I thought.
Me:" this bitch is fucked up. where the fuck is she "

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Him:" do you know what this shit is going to do to luh ?, bro why did you fuck that bitch raw ? " he shouts
Me:" man I've never fucked that bitch raw!.... and you believed her lies bro? "
Him:" she was high and you know how it is when you're high, you start spilling secrets "
Me:" did I not tell you that Investigated that bitch and found that she has a child and it didn't cross your mind
that if I had a kid with her I would have found out and told you ? "
Him:" bro you know how conniving this bitch is and keeping secrets is in her D.N.A ."
Me:" I don't have a fucken child with that bitch! and where the fuck is she ! "
Him:" bro come down first before you confront her "
Me:" don't tell me to calm down scelo. Can you imagine if you had written what buhle said on the text
message you sent and your sister happend to see it, would you be telling me to calm down scelo?. We could
be talking about something different now and the doctor said not to stress her and this was going to make her
maybe lose my...fuuck!. buhle get your ass down here now!!!!! "
God why did I promise luh that I won't kill this bitch because her skeaming and conniving ass won't stop here
from spreading lies and causing problems between me and luh.
Sicelo:" I'm sorry I believed her bro but you understand why I had to assume that "
Me:" Sicelo we've known each other almost the same time as I knew your sister and me and you, we got
close. As a friend and your future brother in-law I thought you knew me better than that. You have seen me
fucking up with your sister and I confided in you most of the things my three best friends don't know about
because you understand me better and I think you know me better than them too during the time we have
known each other. I know I have a past with buhle and I realise that it is always going to haunt me for the rest
of my life But for you to just assume brother and believe this shit she's saying, it fucken sucks "
Sicelo:" I panicked because luh was the only person I thought is going to get hurt. look bro you're more than
my sisters husband to be because I consider you as my other brother, my best friend too and we are
connected by blood now which means we're always going to be in each other's cases and throats. I'm sorry
bro " we hug it out
Me:" you fucken ass, I don't need this stress. I need to be focusing on my wife and kid, not this bullshit!. "
Him:" fuck I know okay, lets deal with buhle but we can't kill her "
Me:" I know " I sigh
Him:" we need to teach her a lesson "
Me:" maybe she's doing this because she wants a reaction from me, from us ".
Him:" clearly. let me go get her, she's sleeping "

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This bitch wants me to die of stress before I even see my kids and play with them. I sit down and close my
eyes and think of my beautiful and pregnant wife. She said yes, her brother said yes and her father said yes so
yes she is my wife. I just need to propose and give her a ring not a big one because luh is not flashy like look
at me I have money. I love that but it doesn't mean that I won't give her my money because I do and I want
her to use my money and blow it on whatever makes her happy. I need to find a ring that fits her like a queen
she is.
Sicelo:" she has locked herself in the bathroom and refuses to come out "
Me:" and you couldn't kick the door open?, dude what's wrong with you ? "
Him:" I'll tell you later, lets get this bitch "
We head upstairs and honestly I don't know what's going on with scelo because his mind is not here. I need to
talk with him and find out what's bothering him. We get in the bathroom and it looks like a mess, like it hasn't
been cleaned in weeks. I try to open the bathroom door but it's locked. I wonder what she's doing there, she
better not try to kill herself.
Me:" nobuhle open the door " I ask her knocking and talking calm and not the way she expected.
Her:" I'm in the loo mbuso what do you want? "
Me:" to talk nobuhle. I have a message for you from luh " it's a lie
Her:" what did she say? "
Me:" you should read it for yourself, open the door "
Her:" I hope you're not lying to me "
Me:" I'm not lying, open the door nobuhle "
I see the door handle turning and it clicks open then it slowly opens and she peeks, looking at us. This bitch
is fucking exhausting me seriously.
Me:" come out and sit on the bed " she looks at us suspiciously then comes out and sits on the bed.
Her:" what's going on, why are you here? "
Me:" you sent for me. You told sicelo that there's something you want to confess to me and so I'm here to hear
what you have to say "
Her:" I didn't talk to him and what did I say that involves you? "
Me:" so he's lying, you didn't say anything? "
Her:" I never said anything to him " she looks down
Sicelo:" you're calling me a lier buhle? "
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Her:" I didn't say that "
Me:" ok lets stop this bullshit. sicelo call celeste here now " I take out my gun and point it to her head, he
leaves.
Her:" what the fuck did you want to say to me ? "
Her:" nothing I swear "
Me:" you have five minutes to talk or else I'm blowing your brains off " Celeste comes in with mbuso
looking like she had a rough night.

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SICELO.
We are in the living now and all our clothes are wet from drowning buhle. I look at mbuso and he looks
exhausted and deep in thought. What buhle said and did is really messed up and I think....no, I know it really
fucked mbuso up. He looks deep in thought like he's not even here and I'm worried about him because finding
out that someone raped you, got pregnant for you and then aborted your baby......man that's some fucked up
shit and I still ask myself why didn't mbuso let us drown this bitch.
Me:" bro ?, are you okay ? " he looks at me and he looks like shit, like he has no idea what the hell is going
on. Celeste looks shaken too and keeps starring at mbuso and shakes her head.
Mbuso:" I'm fine. I just need so see luh then I'll be fine....I know " I don't believe him.
Me:" do you want to talk about it ? "
Him:" I don't!. I wish I didn't promise luh that I won't kill buhle because that bitch would be dead by now! "
he throws a glass of whiskey that he was drinking on the wall and it breaks into pieces.
Me:" Look bro, I know what she did shook and scared you... "
Mbuso:" don't you dare talk to me like I'm a victim. Maybe this karma finally getting back to me for what I
have done to luh "
Me:" mbuso!, don't say that!, that bitch fucken raped you! "
Mbuso throws the decadent full of whiskey on my direction and I duck. He is shaken and very pissed and I
don't blame him for what he's doing but if I was in his shoes buhle would be dead by now, promise or not.
Celeste screams and runs out of the living room then it's just me and him.
Me:" calm down bro, luh could call at any minute then feel or sense that you're not okay, what do you think
that will do to her? . I know we are all shocked with what buhle confessed and I can't imagine what you're
going through but you need to not let this get you mbuso. I know you made a promise to luh but sometimes
promises are meant to be broken bro and if you can't kill her I'll glady kill her myself because I didn't make
any promise to her "
Him:" you can kill her because she'll think it's me who put you up to do that and I don't want you fight with
your sister or cause problems "
Me:" then what do you want me to do? "
Him:" just give me keys to your house... I want to rest and change some clothes then talk to my baby "
Me:" what are we going to do with buhle? "
Him:" You remember I told you I was selling her and then I changed my mind?, well she's leaving tonight. I'm
going to call the guys that i promised to sell her to, to come and get her "
Me:" about damn time. Lets go I'll drive, we'll shower, get some food and then get fucken waisted "

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Him:" lets go and I'll call my guys on the way "
Me:" celeste?, we'll be back later " I shout for her to hear
Her:" okay " then we get up and leave but a call comes through on my phone .
Me:" Sbusiso ? "
Sbusiso:" man listen, you remember one of my bouncers Mark ? "
Me:" yeah, the one I asked to take those girls home ? "
Him:'" yes him, well I was here at the club and he just got a call from his girl telling him that they need help
with one of the girls..." I interupt him
Me:" which girl and what happend? "
Him:" the girl you checking out last night, the one you showed me "
Me:" bafo just tell me what happend " ( brother ) mbuso looks at me funny
Him:" he got a call from this chick he usaully fucks asking for help and said her friend is dying because her
boyfriend is beating her up " what the hell?
Me:" are you sure it's about the chick I showed you? , what's her name? "
Him:" man he showed me her picture and it's her, her name is Ayanda Maseko. I'm sending you marks girl
address ,go there and you'll find them and where your girl is ".
Me:" okay, send me her picture aswell. Thanks bro " I hang up and sigh
Mbuso:" what's wrong bro? "
Me:" there's this girl that I saw in the club I was at last nght, she was with her friends and I couldn't keep my
eyes away from her. I told sbu about it and showed her and now he tells me that one of his bouncers
girlfriend is friends with that girl I saw last night and now that same girl I like has a boyfriend and apparently
he's beating her up "
Mbuso:" you want us to go there? "
Me:" No, he sent me the address.. I'll go alone. Just go to my house and I'll find you there. You need some
time to process everything this bitch said but what I need you to do is to find out everything about Ayanda
Maseko, everything bro no stone left unturned ".
Him:" I'll do that but are you sure you want to involve yourself in that kind of situation? "
Me:" I don't know bro but I feel something for her and I can't let it go and not get to know her. If this is how
I'm going to meet her and know her then I'm okay with it "

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Him:" ok, I'll check her out after I call luh and when I'm done showering " I give him my keys and then run
out of the house and get in my car, put in the address on my GPS then drive out like a maniac.
I get to where they live and It's an okay flat but I hate it because it looks like junkies and criminals live here
in this neighbourhood. I stop and park my car when I see Mark and two girls...yes the one's who looked drunk
in the club are now running to get in the car. I get out of the car and run to mark.
Me:" Mark where's ayanda? "
Somelady:" who are you? " I ignore her she's short and looks like a teenager.
Mark:" boss you know her? " I nod
Mark:" I'm driving there now. Follow my car " I run to mine and drive behind them.
AYANDA.
I don't know if they heard me and what I said but I hope they did. I want to close my eyes and sleep but I'm
scared that I won't ever open them up again if I try to. I hear police and ambulance sirens then footsteps of
people running and then the door gets kicked open and I hear their gut renching cries it's karabo and lilly.
They cut deep because I did that to me to us and I hope they'll forgive me someday.
Lilly:" Ayanda?, awake up ayanda it's us " she says shaking me
Me:" I'm sorry, so sorry, forgive me" they cry
Karabo:" Noo aya no, it's not your fault" lindi says and I close my eyes and they inject something on my arm
"You have to hurry she's losing conciousness, she's going to die damnit" its a man's voice that says that and
it's the last thing I hear before I blackout
I can hear people talking but I can make out what they are saying or who they are. I try to open my eyes but
they won't open, I try to get up cause I know I'm in bed but I can't do that too because I know I'm in the
hospital and I still remember what happend, what tshepo did.
I must have made a sound cause I can hear someone calling a nurse. I open my eyes and its super bright
"please close the blinds" my mouth feels like has been stuffed full with cotton. The person closes the blinds.
"You can open them" I open them and see a man standing there, he gives me a glass of water to drink and Ido
and then I look closely at him because I think I know him and it's tshepo's best friend prince and I panick.
Me:" What are you doing here?....where is he?...oh my God he sent you to kill me didn't he?" he tries to touch
my hand but I scream
Me:" Nurse! nurse!....somebody help me"
Him:" come down ayanda, I came to see how you're doing" I don't answer him and keep screaming then a
nurse and a doctor get in followed by lilly and karabo running.
Me:" I don't want him here, get him away from me" screaming
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Karabo:" who told you what room she's in?...go before I call the cops on you"

Prince:" I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare her, I was just worried about her...he's worried too " . Oh God he
sent him, the machines start beeping loudy and I hear everyone screaming then they are pushed out of the
room and they inject me with something andit makes me feel good like I'm high and flouting ...I fall asleep.
I'm dreaming about someone touching my hair, massaging my sculp and it feels so good and I turn my face to
the hand that does that and press my face on it. This dreams happens for the next 3 days or more, I lost
keeping track after the first 3 days. Whenever I would feel those fingers I would try to open my eyes to see
who's doing that but they wouldn't open.
It's really dark when I open my eyes and see that I'm still in the hospital. I look at the clock above the door
and see it's 2am. I felt those hands before I became awake up just now. My body has goosebumps all over
and this feeling of someone watching me is there, very intense like the person is in the same room as me. I
look around and see a figure at the corner sitting down like they've been watching me this whole time and
funny enough that brings me comfort.
Me:" Who are you? " I ask him yes it's a man I can make out the silhouhete
Him:" You not scared " it's a statement not a question.
Me:" I don't know why I'm not...can I have a glass of water " he stands up and I see that he's tall and he's
wearing black clothes, jeans I think or chinos and a long sleeve t-shirt. He gives me the glass and I try to look
at his face but I can't see it, it's like he doesn't want me to see it.
Me:" you didn't tell me who you are " he goes to sit where he was sitting
Him:" yes I didnt" he leans forward and I can see that he has a beard that's all I see.
Me:" why are you here? " I ask him
Him:" I wanted to see if you're okay " he says huh?
Me:" why?, you dont know me " he shrugs
Him:" I do know you but you don't know me " how?
Me:"have we ever met before somewhere? " he scratches his beard
Him:" we did but you didn't see me....or rather notice me " what? I'm confused.
Me:" okay....is it you that has been massaging my head? "
Him:"maybe, did you enjoy it? " he says.
Me:" I did I think, why won't you let me see you? "
Him:" beacause I like it this way. I see you and you don't see me"

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Me:" you sound creepy like a stalker....did he send you too? " he doesn't say anything for a while and that
makes me think he did.
Him:" You mean your boyfriend? no. " he says
Me:" he's not my boyfriend anymore " I face the other way from him.
Him:" I'm sorry he did that. You don't deserve to be treated like that. and you'll never be treated like that."
Me:" what do you want from me?....did he owe you something and now your here to collect from me? "
Him:" he doesn't owe me anything "
Me:" please leave I want to be alone ". He stands up not saying anything and opens the door but before he
leaves he turns and looks at me
Him:" I'ts going to be a pleasure knowing you Ayanda Maseko. I'll tell the nurse you're awake and someone
will come to bring you food. Good night Aya ". He closes the door behind him and leaves. True to his word
the nurse comes checks on me and tells me the doctor will be here in the morning and another nurse comes in
with food a while later says some guy was asked to deliver this to me.
I check it and see its a chicken noodle soup still hot and fresh bread....at this time where did he buy the
food?, I eat and finish the whole thing grateful to the guy. The nurse comes again and helps me showering
since I insisted cause I felt really dirty and sticky. When I get to the shower and see my face and my badly
bruised body i weep blaming myself for allowing this to happen to me. The nurse doesn't say anything but I
can just tell she feels sorry for me. I wear clean silk pyjamas and they look new and very expensive. I
karabo and lilly bought them to make me feel better I think and I'm grateful. I ask the nurse to call them in the
morning and tell them that I'm awake.
Karabo:" Ayanda?, are you're awake? " she says and I smile before I open my eyes and when I do she looks
like a mess..when did I fall asleep?
Me:" and I thought I looked like shit " we chuckle but then she starts crying and I pull her to me and comfort
her. I let her cry it out until she's done.
Me:" I'm sorry...I really am karabo, you told me not go go alone and I didn't listen...please forgive me.
Her:" you know I forgive you and what tshepo did to you is not your fault ".
Me:" you look so ugly yoh, when was the last time you bathed? " she laughs and I feel a little bit better
Her:"nyou should see lilly, how are you feeling though? " she asks
Me:" my body hurts and in pain but it's much better than the first time I woke up "
Karabo:" you are one of the strongest people I know and you'll be fine." I nod
Me:" where is he?" I ask her

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Her:" we don't know where he is. The police have been looking for him ever since, it seems he's just
vanished....what happend aya? "
Me:" not now karabo please sis. Where's lilly? "
Her:" she didn't sleep at her place...I've been staying there ever since that night and.... I think she's back to
drinking everyday " oh lilly
Me:"I did this...I pushed her to this "
Her:" it's not your fault...none of this is your fault ”.
Me:“ she’s drinking and you know what happens when she does that ”
Her:“ she can’t keep numbing her pain by drinking., she must talk to us...not drink like this ”
Me:“ what day is this?”
Her:“ it's wednesday...why? ” she asks me
Me:“ how long have I been here?” she looks at me like I’ve lost my mind
Her:“ I’ts a month now you...you don’t remeber?”
Me:“ no I don’t... I can’t remember?...” there’s a knock on the door and a doctor gets in followed by the
police.
Doctor:“ Miss Maseko I'm doctor Skhondo, your doctor and the police here have some few questions for
you, but after I have examined you. can you all please excuse us" the doctor says to the police and karabo
Me:" My sister can stay " he nods then stays. He examines me with a nurse and starts writing things down
when he asks me how i'm feeling headaches, chest, pain and all that.
Doctor:" well miss maseko you're doing better than I had hoped and your ribs are healing. Three of them
were broken and the swelling on your head has gone dowm. What happend to you is vey unfortunate and
There's no head trauma thankfully or any swelling on your brain but if you feel any dizzyness or headaches
you have to let me know immediately"
Me:" I only felt dizzy when I stood up to go to the bathroom but the nurse was there to help me, it was for a
few minutes. So there's no permanent damage?" I ask him
Doctor:" we did the brain scans and so far everything seems good. Do you remember everything that happend
and how you got here?"
Me:" I do remember doc" I tell him
Doctor:" Miss maseko I don't know how to say this but you're very lucky you survived cause domestic
victims like yourself most of the time end up dead and sometimes paralysed. I would suggest you see the
hospital psychologist to talk about what happend. you need therapy miss maseko and from the time you came
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here until now I've been examining you and the results from the ex-ray machine shows that your ribs have
been broken before". He looks at me expecting an answer or something and I just shrug my shoulders
Karabo:" she'll see the psychologist doc Ill make sure of that " karabo says and the police knock and get in.
Police:" Doctor we also have some questions to ask you, don't leave the hospital " the doctor nods
Me:" When am I getting discharged?" I ask him
Doctor:" tomorrow you'll be discharged but you'll spend the night for more observation "
Me:" ok doctor ". I look at the two male detectives they look like they are in their late thirties or early forties.
"Miss maseko i'm detective Tshabalala and lona u dectective Shongwe" I nod
Tshabalala:" We have some questions for you. do you know who attacked you? "
Me:" yes my ex boyfriend Tshepo Moloi" I tell them
Him:" What happend miss maseko?" I tell them everything from us going out on friday and going to my place
finding him there and going to his place and detective Shongwe nods and writes down
Ttshabalala:" he wasn't mad when you found him at your place"
Me:" no he wasn't, I thinke he pretend to not be upset "
Him:" then you guys had sex right? " I'm ashamed and I look down and karabo holds my hand.
Me:" yes we did "
Him:" so your intention was to break up with him but you ended up sleeping with him miss maseko, did he
force you to? "
Me:"Iwhen i tried to break up with him, he didn't want to hear me say it cause he could tell so he said we'll
talk when we wake up and after we've had dinner " I tell them
Him:" so you never said no to sleeping with him? "
Me:" no "
Shongwe:" you sleep with him then you go out and order and he says what?"
Karabo:" detective she already told you what happend, so why do you want her to relive that? " karabo asks
then getting angry
Shongwe:" miss we're just doing our jobs, we have to be sure."

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THAMI.
My life is so fucked up right now, everything is just a mess. I haven't been attending my classes for a while
now because of all the things I've heard about my parents. The people I love with all their flaws and
everything in me even though they treated lungi bad but as for me and buhle it wasn't bad, I don't want to lie. I
used to think the reason they treated luh bad was because our mom had an affair with uncle victor but I found
out it wasn't that. They did unspeakable, disgusting things that make me sick to my stomach and as much as I
believe luh and what mbuso said, I still want to hear their side of the story.
I fish for my drugs in my pants, find them, empty them on the living room table and make a line using my card
and take a note and sniff them in my nose. I love this feeling of getting high and always feeling high. I don't
have to use my mind and think of many things. I take my whiskey and pour myself a drink, open my phone and
look at my photos with luh and I smile. She's beautiful, she has always been beautiful and now that we're not
related will I still look at her as my sister luh or just lungi?, hmmmmm " I smile to myself
I invite my friends over in the house to chill and it ends up being a party because many people show up. We
buy more alcohol, food and more drugs and we party the whole night high and drunk. This is the life to be
living, not this fucked up life of discovering your parents are a bunch of thiefs and murderes, scammers liers
and who knows what else. Are we even their kids or they also stole us from our real families?, they messed
up my life and it led me to use drugs more.
I am or was an occasional user and I'll only use when I'm studying for exams to concerntrate because
studying civil engineering is hard, It needs you to be at your best always and now ever since I found out what
my parents did, I started to use them everyday and now I can't go without using it more than once. I'm not an
addict, I'm controlling the drug, the drug is not controlling me.
I wake up in the morning and the whole place is trashed and stinks of weed and there are people who are still
sleeping. I wake all of them up, tell them to go then after I sniff one line and go shower quickly, get done and
clean the house, make breakfast and then call my mom's number for the hundreth and hope that she will
answer her phone this time and it keeps ringing until I'm about to hang up then she answers it.
Her:" hello? "
Me:" mama...."
Her:" who are you? " huh?
Me:" what do you mean who am I and why are you answering the phone like you didn't recognise my number
or voice? "
Her:" oh it's you my boy, boy boy " she sounds like she's scared and can't talk.
Me:" mom what's going on and why are you not at home because there's no one here? "
Her:" when did you arrive in standerton? "
Me:" yesterday and I slept really worried and you were'nt answering your phones. What is going on ? "

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Her:" we are on a vacation boy boy and we'll be back soon " I have out grown that name but she still uses it
Me:" mom don't lie to me, Lungi told me everything "
Her:" that bitch!, she's the one responisble for all of this!. Don't believe anything she says, you hear me boy
boy? "
Me:" I want to hear your side of the story too mom, so I can understand why she's lying "
Her:" I can't tell you where I am because your dad will be furious "
Me:" mom I want to help you and dad anyway I'll be able to. Please tell me where you are and I'll get in the
car and come to you guys "
Her:" I see what you're doing, you want to tell lungi and that stupid family of hers where we are ? "
Me:" I'll never do that mom please, you are my parents and I love you. You're my real blood and I want to
help you please, you know I can "
Her:" I don't believe you thami, you love that girl like she's your real sister "
Me:" that's because I didn't know she wasn't my real sister but now I do and I'm choosing my family. I want
to help you please "
Her:" ok I'll tell you but please don't tell anyone thami my child, you are my only hope now "
Me:" I promise I wont, tell me "
Her:" we are at Newcastle but we are might leave tonight or tomorrow morning, so get here before 6pm "
Me:" ok give me your address "
Her:" no, when you get here call me and I'll tell you where to meeet me "
Me:" Ok mom " she hangs up and I sigh shaking my head.
I take the bag I came with and get in the car and drive to newcastle. I really want to hate them for the things
they did but I can't because they are my parents. They deserve to be forgiven and given a second chance
because they are humans and they mistakes and they are not perfect.
One day you wake up and learn disturbing things your parents did and then you don't know how to feel
because it doesn't sound like they are capable of doing all those things and it's hard for me to believe them,
that's why I want to hear from them what really happend and what is going on. Mbuso has been leaving me
messages and calling. I blocked his numbers, lungi's numbers, simphiwe and uncle victor's because to me,
sims and uncle victor betrayed their family and supported strangers. So they mean nothing to me at all. I
won't abandon my parents, I'm going to give them the benefit of doubt and hope for the best and two hours
later I'm in newcastle then call mom.
Her:" you are already here? "
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Me:" yes, I'm at the mall's parking lot "
Her:" send me your location and I'll be there and don't get out of the car and lock it thami "
Me:" ok " that's weird. I send her my loction then wait for her.
Ten minutes later someone tries to open my door and I look up and it's some lady I don't know and she looks
beautiful. She knocks on the window and I just look at her wondering what the hell she wants.
Her:" open the door thami " what?
Me:" mom? " that's my mom?, she knocks om the window again and I unlock the door, she gets in and I look
at her shocked. My mom looks like someone I don't know and if I were to see her walking somewhere, I
wouldn't be able to tell its her.
Me:" what did you do to yourself? "
Her:" I had no choice thami, my past is catching up with me " she starts crying and I hug her.
Me:" don't cry mom I'm here now "
Her:" it's not okay, everything is just a mess. Things were not suppose to be like this. This is not the life I
wanted for myself thami I swear " she cries again and I just hold her.
Me:" mom let's get out of here, where do you live "
Her:" here in town lets go, I'll direct you " I look at my mom still shocked. Whoever did her cosmetic surgery
did everything to make them unrecognisable, new nose full cheecks, eyes, her ears....whole face and body
and she now looks like a stranger but my mom. She directs me and we go to some almost warn down houses,
a place where poor white people live and we stop outside some house. We get out of the car and get in the
house and I'm shocked that my parents live like this, they live in the slums...wow, this I never thought I will
see, them in this kind of situation knowing how extravagent they are?, It is totally confusing and crazy.
Me:" you live here? "
Her:" yes we live here " she sits down and sighs
Me:" but why do you live like this, when you have money to book yourselves into a hotel mom? "
Her:" we live here because no one will think of looking for us here "
Me:" no!, my parents can't live like this I refuse "
Her:" shut up and sit down thami, when you're father comes back and sees that you're here he's going to be
mad but don't worry I'll calm him down then we'll have to talk then leave this city"
Me:" where is dad? "
Her:" he went to see the guy who helps us with things we need "
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Me:" what is going on mom, are all the things lungi said you and dad did true?. Did you really kill her mother
and set the house on fire to kill all of them? "
Her:" it's all their fault!, we were going to be happy but she had to ruin it for me, she had to take away the
only thing that matterd to me and I hate her "
Me:" whom are you talking about?, is it...... "
Her:" DONT EVER SAY THAT BITCHES NAME AROUND ME EVER AGAIN, YOU HEAR ME?!!!! "
she says screaming so loud like she's going to lose it "
Me:" yes mom "
Her:" get me a bottle of alcohol there in the fridge " I go to the fridge and open it and see, six 750ml bottles
of black label and I take one and give it to here and she takes it uses her teeth to open it and drinks it. My
moms drinks a Ngud (cot ) of black label beer and I'm so shocked because I have never seen this side of her
and have never seen her drinking anything other than wine "
Her:" what?, why are you looking at me like that boy boy? " I sit down then look at her.
Me:" mom talk to me please, what's going on? "
Her:" you wouldn't understand. I did what I did because I had a plan and it was a good and it was going to
work but sipho had to mess it all up for me and look at me now " she drinks, burps then start to cry.
I have never seen my mother like this. She looks like some township shebeen woman and not my
sophisticated mother. She looks like a mess and seeing her like this breaks my heart. I move and sit next to
her and take her beer and drink it.
Her:" nobuhle " she then laughs
Me:" where is she? "
Her:" she's now a prisoner of mbuso and the ngcobo's "
Me:" their prisoner just because you all framed lungi? "
Her:" that and more boy boy "
Me:" what do you mean mom? "
Her:" you know how your sister is like, always wanting to shine and take the centre stage and to be the only
one who gets attention, well she couldn't stand lungi once she found out that she's not your real sister..."
Me:" she knew that lungi isn't our sister and you all kept it from me "
Her:" yes she did and we told her not to tell you "
Me:" all of you lying and keeping secrets " she looks at me and laughs
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Her:" let me tell you something about your sister, she was working as a prostitute and would go to some club
then one day she comes home all excited and says to me she met a very rich man in a club and that man wants
her to be his slave. He'll do anything and everything in the world for her but only if she agrees "
Me:" buhle was a prostitute mom and you and dad knew? "
Her:" yes, now let me finish the conversation. your sister says to the man she can't because she already has a
owner but she can get him someone else, she'll sell that person to him at a reasonable price "
Me:" oh my God mom, who did she sell? "
Her:" they agree on the price and the man gives her deposit check of a 1.5 million rands, she takes it and the
other remaining 1.5 she will get when she delivers the person ".
Me:" mom did buhle plan to sell lungi? "
Her:" as she was telling me your dad was listening to us then he asks buhle who did she think she was going
to sell and buhle says she was going to sell lungi and your dad didn't agree, he absolutely refused at first and
I had to convince him and then he finally agreed "
Me:" I cannot believe buhle is into human trafficking mom...you all are "
Her:" we tell her to arrange a meeting so we can meet the man first but then your greedy stupid ass sister
steals from mbuso, tells us mbuso won't notice but mbuso finds out what she did. He finds her and beats your
sister almost to death and then our deal falls off because buhle was the link that was going to connect us to
that man. We later find out that the man was killed and we don't know who did and the last person he was
seen with is buhle and now those people are aslo after us and we don't know who they are and they are
blackmailing us and they ... ".
Dad:" what the fuck are doing telling this boy all these things? " he asks standing at the door looking so
fucken mad.
His voice sounds like him but it doesn't look like him. He's carrying a heavy bag and he sets it down looks
my mom fuming, then he looks at me and I know he's not happy with me being here but I don't care. They are
my parents and I will help them where I can.
Dad:" what the hell are you doing here thami? "
Me:" I came to see you dad and I was worried about you, you and mom both have some explaining to do to
me "
Him:" I am your father not your child that needs to explain anything to you! " he says angrily
Me:" so it is true, the things lungi told me are all true? "
Him:" look at how stupid you look right now. You're high and getting drunk with your mother and you come
here uninvited, who told you where we are? "
Mom:" so much drama, come down sipho and I'm the one who told him where we are. I miss my kids ".
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Me:" I want to help dad, anyway that I can be of help you, that is why I'm here "
Him:" what did your mom tell you " he sits down
Me:" that there are people looking for you other than lungi's family. Did you do the things lungi told me about
her family....did you kill her mother mom and dad, you wanted uncle victor to burn all of them in the house? "
Him:" Your mom is one the one who told me about them and how rich they are. She's always been a jealous
of her best friend and she's a greedy bitch too, always wants everything to be about her, she's even jealous of
buhle her own child "
Mom:" don't talk about buhle like that! "
Me:" my mom is not a bitch dad, she's a beautiful, wonderful and very classy woman " he looks at my mom
and then me then laughs rreally loud.
Him:" Your mom is a prostitude like your sister, always has and always will be. When I met her she was the
lady of the night and studying at the same time ".
Me:" never!, don't talk about her like that you miserable prick " I stand up to go and punch my dad but my
mother blocks me and pushes me back to sit back again on the couch.
Mom:" thami don't talk to your father like that!, sipho why did you tell him that? "
Him:" because he deserves to know what this family is really like "
Me:" mom is it true? "
Mom:" yes okay!, every fucken thing that bitch said is true okay. I killed that whore of her mother and I
wanted to kill those kids too especially that lungi who looks like her "
Me:" no mom!, no!. You are not a killer...why would you kill her though, why? "
Dad:" because she's a killer and it runs in her blood, she's all of it, Prostitute, scammer, thief, lier, worst
mother and don't tell me about being a wife because she is worthless. She seduces men, sleeps with them and
when they fall for her she scams them ". my dad says all of these shocking thing to me.
Mom:" where were you all these times I was doing all those things because you were there!, you were with
me encouraging me and doing the same things. Don't pretend as if your innocent in all of this because you are
not sipho!"
Him:" You did all of that because you love me and you'll do anything to make me happy. I never held a gun to
your head and forced you to do anything "
Mom:" You are the one who came up with everything, I'm in all of this mess because of you, I'm running
away because of you. Ever since I met you my life has been nothing but a nightmare "
Dad:" I didn't force you to stay, if you were living a nightmare and so miserable why did you never leave
me?, why did you stay and continue to prove your love for me ? "
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Mom:" I'm still here because I love you and I'll do anything for your love. I don't regret my life with you
because I'll give anything to make you happy "she stands up and stagers her way to my dad and sits on his
lap.
Dad:" I also do everything for you and I make you happy too so why are you blaming me for the choices we
both took and agreed on? "
Mom:" I'm tired of this life sipho, I want us to stop. Our past is catching up on us and they already have buhle
and It's only a matter of time before they find us too "
Dad:" It's too late to stop now wife, the ngcobo's are after us and that man's family that was killed, which is
why I went to meet mike to get our passports. We are leaving the country tomorrow morning "
I may be still high and drunk but I feel sick to my stomach listening to my parents talk. I can't believe these
are the people that raised us, the one's I looked up to and wanted to be like them when I'm married. They
were just going to leave the country and forget about us?, what kind of parents are these?. My heart feels
heavy and it sobers me a little.
Me:" so you're leaving the country and you were not going to tell me mom? "
Mom:" it's not like you're still a child thami. You are a man now and you can take care of yourself " she says
like my question annoyed her
Me:" I'm still a child mom, I'm 21 not 31. How am I going to survive without you? "
Mom:" mbuso paid for your fees and an apartment, so you just need to get a job and fend for yourself "
Dad:" grow up thami and stop hiding behind your mother's skirt. At your age I was already working and had
my own two room house because I didn't want any hand downs like you "
Me:" you're my parents and you must take care of me not mbuso. He did that because you stopped paying for
my fees and sending me money and he also did that because I was lungi's brother "
Mom:" you were never that bitches brother...Ever! "
Me:" and what about buhle?, you were going to leave without finding her and making sure she's okay, how
could you? "
Mom:" your sister has been in this game for too long, she's smart and she'll find a way to escape. She knew
how dangerous it is and what she's getting herself into "
Me:" she didn't ask you to make her what she is today!!!!, she was just a child and you made her do all your
criminal activities and other sick things, what kind of parents are you? "
Mom:" the one's who love you and are now protecting you boy boy by runnung away "
Me:" when has running away been answer mom?, isn't a mother suppose to put her children first even before
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Mom:" I met your dad first before you, he's the only person I have ever loved unconditionally and to me he'll
aways be my number before you and your sister and that is never going to change ".
Me:" mom please, don't choose this life over us, don't choose dad over you children please mama I beg you "
I beg her crying
Dad:" we love you son but we love us way too much, you'll understand one day "
Me:" no I don't, you are doing this because we are not your kids!, if we were your children you wouldn't
leave us and let people we don't know come after us. They could kill me because of you and the things I don't
know about! ".
Dad:" if we leave then they will stop coming after us and you won't be harmed in any way " I cry
Me:" you'd rather be happy somewhere without us and you expect me to believe that you love us?, NO!. Who
are my real parents so I can go and look for them?, TELL ME! "
Mom:" come down thami and stop screaming, you are our child "
Me:" what about buhle?, is she my sister? "
Mom:" she is your sister but your father is not her father "
Me:" what?, mom!?. Dad did you know? "
Dad:" I know thami and I love your sister "
Me:" does she know that she's not your daughter? " He looks at my mom and mom looks...I don't know and I
don't like it.
Mom:" she doesn't know "
Me:" who's her father? "
Mom:" I don't know "
Me:" I don't believe you mom. What are you hiding!? "
Dad:" don't talk to your mother like that thami "
Me:" I'll talk to you anyway I want. You are not the people I thought you were, you even changed your looks
so people won't recognise you, you were going to leave and forget about us ".
Mom:" we were going to call you and let you know that we're safe boy boy "
Me:" you are liers and thiefs and murderes and I want nothing to do with you, you hear me?, You both are
dead to me. I would rather be an orphan than have parents like you ".
Dad:" you are mad at us and we understand that you don't mean anything you're saying right now "
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Me:" to think I was going to help you and God! the things I was thinking of doing to...,.to the only person
who's ever loved me unconditionally...how could I betray her like this?, I should have never came here! "
Mom:" thami my son..."
Me:" don't call me that! I hate you...I hate both of you and I never want to see you ever again you hear me? "
can this pain i'm feeling stop and I cry
Dad:" son? "
Me:" fuck both of you, I'm calling mbuso now and I'm telling him where you are "
Dad:" I wouldn't try that if I were you "
Me:" I hope to God I never inherited your sick and twisted mentality. You deserve everything that is coming
your way " I take my phone out.
Mom:" don't you dare thami! "
Me:" what?, what!?, you're going to kill me too ? "
Mom:" maybe we should " my blood runs cold and I actually believe that she will shoot me
Dad:" not my son thuli! "
Me:" but my daughter? "
Me:" what does that mean dad? "
Dad:" it means nothing thami. you need to go back to standerton now!, you need to leave thami! "
Mom:" no! it means something boy boy. Give me your phone now! "
Me:" no!, I'm calling mbuso now " I unlock it go through my contacts then I hear someone cocking a gun. I
look up and it's my mother.
Mom:" put the damn phone down now thami! "
Dad:" thuli give me the gun now! "
Mom:" No!, I have sacrificed way too much to let thami give us to those people sipho nooooo!, I refuse. You
know what is going to happen once they get us " I scroll down then see mbuso's number and I press on his
contact and then I unblock his number terrified
Mom:" you son of a bitch!, you think I won't kill you? " She laughs like she's losing her mind
Dad:" thami will not call them baby I promise my love. Give me the gun baby, don't shoot our son thuli
please! " I stand there shaking seeing a side of my mother I have never seen. I look at her and look at my
phone then tap the call button and I see it dailing and I hold my breath and hope to God it connects and he
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answers my call "
Dad:" nooooo! " I hear a gun shot then I feel pain on my chest and I look down and see blood coming out, I
fall and struggle to breath. I look at my mother and see eyes of a killer noy my mother. My own mother shot
me, she shot me because she wants to kill me. I hear my dad screaming.

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MBUSO.
I am so mad at myself for letting my gaurd down around buhle, so much that she thought she can rape me, get
pregnant by me then abort the baby...my baby. I don't know what I could have done had I found out then
before she had an abortion. The hate I feel for buhle is so deep that killing her will give me peace of mind
knowing she's dead.
I take my phone and smile looking at my screen saver, luh sleeping peacefully with my hand on her stomach.
Our kids and her are the only people that matter the most to me now. I know she might be sleeping so I send
her a message " I love you and I can't wait to marry your lovely ass ", I calm down then take my laptop and
start digging about Ayanda Maseko, then after I'm done I call my brother.
Him:" Mbuso? "
Me:" where are you ? "
Him:" what's wrong, I'm home? "
Me:" come to durban now, I'll send you my location and bring me my clothes "
Him:" I'm coming " he hangs up and I sigh.
Housekeeper:" Sir can I make you something to eat? " I wonder how scelo managed to hire a girl as young as
her, to be his housekeeper because she looks like she's lungi's age or something.
Me:" what's your name again? "
Her:" I'm zama sir "
Me:" Can you get me some of scelo's clothes, just sweats and t-shirt and leave them on the guest bedroom. " I
wonder how far lungi is with getting a house because I can't stay here with scelo, I need my own house.
Zama:" ok sir " she leaves and I go to the guest bedroom and take off my clothes and get in the shower and
just let the hot water hit my tense body but it doesn't help because the only thing that will come down is
burying myself deep on lungi and I get hard but I'm not going to jakeoff because it won't sate me. I switch off
the shower and and dry myself then open the door and see zama left the clothes on the bed. Sicelo is almost
the same size as me so his clothes fit. I go down stairs and hear voices in the kitchen and go there and find
scelo with his housekeeper and there's tension between them and they stop talking when they see me and she
leaves the kitchen.
Me:" Rule number 1 brother, you don't fuck the house help " he shakes his head.
Him:" how are you feeling and why do my clothes look better on you? "
Me:" I look better than you that's why "
Him:" says who? "
Me:" you're sister " he takes an apple and hits me with it
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Me:" does taking things and throw them at people run in the family? "
Him:" she threw something at you? " he laughs at me
Me:" bro a frying pan, food , knife man I had to run ducking out of the house. It was that message you sent
about you wanting us to tell her the truth "
Him:" serves you right, who did she think it's from? "
Me:" buhle bro " we laugh
Me:" man I love her, she can never know what buhle did "
Him:" I agree, so when are your guys coming? "
Me:" I'm waiting for siyabonga then we'll call the guys and I want mike there too. I want him fucked in the
ass until he can't move then I'm selling him too "
Him:" doesn't he have a family, anyone who'll niss him? "
Me:" not that I know of, they are my brothers friends and so I'l ask him "
Him:" that bitch is twisted man, I've never seen a messed up girl like her "
Me:" I worry about luh, I worry that she's too forgiving and maybe she's hiding some of the things she went
through living with those people and it terrifies me to think maybe sipho has touched her too. If he did touch
buhle when she was young, maybe it messed her up to be this person she is today and lungi might be hiding
he did to her too to cover the truama maybe she went through. I want her to go see a therapist after she's had
our child, so she can deal with everything "
Him:" I was thinking the same thing too. Lungi is just like our mom, soft kind and very forging and I pray and
hope to God that he never touched her "
Me:" I think she would have told one of us if he ever did touch her but that thought refuses to go away from
my mind and it's stressing me the fuck out "
Him:" tell me about it " he sighs deeply
Me:" what happen to the girl you went to see? "
Him:" that scumbag beat her up again when she went to break things off with him, she looks bad man but
she's gonna make it"
Me:" when are we getting rid of him ? "
Him:" as soon as I find him, I asked some of my guys to look for him 50k to whoever finds him alive "
Me:" make it 100k, it should motivate them, then we'll also sell that bitch with mike "

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Him:" Now I feel better, I knew there's a reason why I liked you cause we're the same mother fucker " we
both laugh
Me:" are you serious about her? "
Him:" hell yeah I am and I'm going all in "
Me:" then you need to get rid of zama. She can't be your housekeeper anymore "
Him:" I know but she knows me and her we're just fucking "
Me:" don't be stupid scelo women never just think you're just fucking only. They want more or you didn't
learn from my situation with buhle? "
Him:" yeah you're right. I'll tell her tonight before I ask ayanda to move in with me " I laugh at this fool
Me:" before you do that remember you asked me to find out information about her and I did "
Him:" just tell me bro....is it bad ? "
Me:" nothing bad, she comes from witbank, she's an only child and was raised by her grandmother after her
parents died then when her grand's died she moved in with her uncle in her father's house that she was kicked
out of two years after she finished her matric. Her dad was working at a mine and left her some money but
uncle her father made his brother her gurdian so he'll be able to raise his daughter for him but brother had
other plans and chowed all her money spending it on his wife and kids. They left nothing for her and that's
when she came here in durban with her two friends, struggled a few months then she got a job and started
saving money and registered her bakery business ". this fool smiles
Him:" hmmm I'm impressed, I never expected that she has a business, I thought she works somewhere. How's
the business going? "
Me:" It's struggling but I'm sure you can help her grow it since she's gonna be part of this family "
Him:" yeah I'll help her even if she refuses my help "
Me:" you got it bad and you haven't even touched her." I laugh at him
Him:" shut up fool and speaking of her, I have to go and see her again. I hope she won't press cahrges against
him so we'll get him "
Me:" her car was reported stolen, I guess he took it "
Him:" anything else? "
Me:" that's all brother. Do you have that recording of buhle? "
Him:" you want it? " he asks me like I'm crazy
Me:" I do "
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Him:" are you sure? "
Me:" I wouldn't be asking if I wasn't sure " we hear footsteps
Zama:" excuse me sir, there's someone who''s here to see you, he's in the living room " she looks at me
Me:" that must be my brother " scelo follows me out of the kitchen and it's him
Me:" little brother " he shakes his head
Bonga:" I'm only two years younger than you fool "
we laugh and hug.
Me:" this is lungi's brother Sicelo Ngcobo, scelo this is my younger brother Siyabonga Gumede "
Bonga:" Mapholoba "
Sicelo:" that's my dad Mnguni "
Bonga:" Mnguni is my dad too " we all laugh
Sicelo:" nice meeting you little brother, lets go to my study "
Bonga:" not you too "
Me:" did you just roll your eyes at us? "
Bonga:" I haven't even had anything to eat in this house and you're already ganging up on me? "
Sicelo:" that's what big brothers do i'll find you in my study. I have to talk to my housekeeper "
Bonga:" that's your housekeeper?....man you like trouble "
Sicelo:" not you too fool, go " he goes to the kitchen and we go to his study and I por us whiskey
Bonga:" didn't you ask luh to get you guys a house? "
Me:" she's still looking I think if she hasn't forgotten "
Bonga:" what's wrong with you? "
Me:" what you mean? "
Bonga:" mbuso? "
Me:" it's buhle "
Him:" what did this bitch do this time and why haven't you killed her brother? "
Me:"she's alive because of my promise to luh okay, let's wait for sicelo "
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Him:" you are getting soft mbuso, meeting luh has made you soft and I like that very much but man don't forget
who we are "
Me:" I know, she brings out the side of me I never thought I have "
Him:" you are our father's son and you take after him more than us and you know how she has him wrapped
around her finger and that's luh to you. You love her like how dad loves mom, you don't want to disappoint
her and I respect that but remember for luh to be happy, at peace and protected buhle needs to die "
Sicelo:" that's what I've been telling him, if he won't do it I will "
Me:" shut up and play the audio scelo "
Sicelo:" are you sure? "
Me:" if there's anyone I would want this to hear it's him besides you "
Sicelo:" ok "
He plays the audio and I look at my brother and he gets pale with every word buhle says and looks really
mad. Siyabonga says I'm the one who took more from dad but he doesn't realise that me and him are very
alike in my things and I know deep down he knows that and that is why I wanted him to know this because I
can't carry it alone.
Bonga:" where is she? "
Me:" with celeste? "
Bonga:" we are selling her to the albanians "
Me:" mike too and tshepo "
Bonga:" who the fuck is tshepo now " we tell her about tshepo and ayanda and he looks at sicelo like he's
crazy. " you haven't even had the pussy and already you want to move heaven and earth for her?, what is
wrong with you two "
Sicelo:" we all need that someone at the end of the day brother even you "
Bonga:" fuck man I know "
Me:" get mike here and don't tell him why then get guys who would love to tear his ass up, guys with huge
dicks bonga " we laugh
Bonga:" leave that to me, but if we get mike then paul probably knows what happend and he too has to be
here. I can't believe we once fucked women with these guys "
Sicelo:" I hope you won't be sharing my sister with anyone "
Me:" you'll go deaf if you knew half the things your sister lets me do to her... " he throws a book at me and I
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duck " but don't worry My dick is the only one that will always make her screem my name "
Sicelo:" fuck you mbuso "
Me:" then don't ask me about what do we do with your sister. Organise a party then invite mike and paul the
albanians "
Bonga:" consider it done "
Sicelo:" but seriously guys, you used to fuck one woman at the same time? " bonga and I laugh
Me:" hell no brother, I've never had a threesome some with him but he would be there watching with mike
and paul then when I'm done they would take over, I always fuck first but there's a guy I used to have share
women with and I stopped doing that when I started to care for luh and I stopped cheating on her ".
Sicelo:" I'll kill you if you cheat on her again. Only men who aren't intimidated by other men dream about
watching their women while another man fucks her. "
Bonga:" he's my brother and I love him and I'll kill anyone who thinks of harming him in anyway including
you sicelo but when it comes to luh I'll help you kill mbuso too " we all laugh
Me:" I've learnt my lesson and I won't. Scelo so you're telling me that you've never fucked two women at the
same time or shared with anyone? ".
Scelo:" fucked two girls at the same time yes, but shared?.... man that's my dream "
Me:" maybe ayanda will let you " we laugh
Scelo:" She won't agree and I can tell "
Bonga:" ask her now as you're getting to know her "
Me:" are you guys exclusive like you talked about, you're only fucking each other? "
Scelo:" I was going to talk to her about that tonight "
Me:" I have an idea, why don't the both of you here fuck zama before you fire her and before you talk to
ayanda because if you talk to her and fuck zama after, you are going to be cheating on her "
Bonga:" who's zama? "
Me:" the housekeeper has a thing for him"
Sicelo:" if zama agrees, I'm in one last time before I commit fully to ayanda, what do you say little brother? "
Bonga:" I'm in "
Sicelo:" Man we're fucked up " we laugh. My phone rings and I'm expecting to see my baby's number but I'ts
thami?, where the fuck has this born been at.
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Me:" guys it's thami " they get silent and I put it on loud speaker , " hello?, thami where are you? " then we
hear a gun shot and a man's voice sceaming 'no' and crying. Sicelo takes out his phone and dials and I ran out
of the study and go the living room and track thami's phone and he's in Newcastle then I hear sipho asking
thami's mother why he shot thami.
Me:" what the fuck is wrong with the mazibuko women?!!!"
Bonga:" lets go, I'll drive to the airport " sicelo comes in running
Sicelo:" dad says his guys heard the gun shots and are in there now. They have them and they called an
ambulance, its looking bad for him brother "
Me:" lets go "
We leave the house and I'm worried about thami but the only person whom I'm really worried about is luh
should thami not make it, why didn't he call me when he got to newcastle!, He's still young to die, he has his
whole life ahead of him, God don't let him die please.
MBUSO.
We arrive in Newcastle and go straight to where the mazibiko's are at and there are cars, many people
outside the house who live in the same street and fuck the police are here. We get out of the car and some guy
sees us and walks towards us.
Me:" who the fuck called the police!? "
Sicelo:" I know that guy, he's a cop don't worry "
Me:" he's on payroll? "
Sicelo:" dad's pay roll "
CopGuy:" Sicelo " he shakes our hands
Sicelo:"Alex these are my other brothers, Mbuso and Bonga Gumede"
Alex:" bo, Phakathwayo " we shake hands with him
Sicelo:" where are they? "
Alex:" I separated them, the woman is in my car and the man is at another one. Don't worry about these guys
here, they are under me so no one is going to report what happend here "
Me:" where is the boy that got shot? "
Alex:" It was bad, she shot him straight in his heart and he didn't make it. He died instantly, I'm sorry guys
and the paramedics did what they could but..." the guys curse and I punch the car window hard and it breaks
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Me:" show me where they are! " I take me gun out
Bonga:" calm down brother, people are looking at us and we don't want anyone to take out their phone and
record us "
Me:" don't tell me to calm down!, thami was a good kid and he was always therer for lungi!, how the hell am
I going to tell her this?! "
Sicelo:" this is fucked up and we can't tell her no matter what! "
Me:" don't you fucken think I don't know that?! "
Bonga:" where is his body? "
Alex:" It is the hospital then I arranged someone to take it to the morgue "
Me:" I need you to arrange for his body to be tranfered to standerton at the best morgue, give bonga your
account details and he'll transfer the money now " I walk to where thuli and sipho are and scelo follows me
Sicelo:" don't shoot them mbuso " ignore him and we see this woman who has caused so much trouble for
everyone. She looks at me smiles evily then looks at scelo and is shocked.
Me:" let us in " I tell the guy who's standing outside the car and he does. We both get in the backseat where
she's sitting handcuffed and we sandwich her. Whoever did the surgery must have charged them so much
money.

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LUNGI.
I know he is not sleeping, it's like he's mind is somewhere else because he's holding on to me so tight like I'm
going to slip out of his hold and he keeps kissing my forehead so tender like I'm a little baby...his little babies
and it doesn't help that his dick is poking my babies, he'll scare my babies for life. I wonder what's on his
mind and what happened when he left me here and I'm willing to bet that he was with my brothervand
honestly these two together the spell trouble.
I love the relationship both my soon to be husband and brother have because I know they'll have each others
backs because they are both very important to me and I would nevervwant to lose either of them. Dad giving
us his blessing made me really happy. I couldn't stop telling him how much I love him and he's the best dad
ever and hev was haapy and very excited to meet the baby, I can't wait the day I give birth and they all
realise I am carrying twins. They are going to love it.
I really love mbuso and I don't want anyone else in my life even though when we first met our relationship
was based on lies and secrets and it was hard, very hard and I never thought I'll be here today with him in my
arms like this. I never want to experience that ever again in my life and I don't wish it on anyone. I have
forgiven him completely and whole heartedly and I know I'll always forgive him again and again because that
is how much I love him.
I can't wait to see what kind of father he's going to be but I know he's going to be the best dad because his
father is the best father to them and he looks up to him very much. I have come to know this man like the back
of my hand and I know that something is wrong and he's not going to tell because he thinks I'm going to panick
and frankly I don't care as long as it's not anything concerning my babies or him and my family. Anything else
can wait, I sigh and open my eyes and look at him and he smiles and I smile back.
Him:" what is this pretty head thinking about? "
Me:" nothing "
Him:" really? " I sigh
Me:" what's wrong boo? "
Him:" Nothing baby, I just love watching you sleeping "
Me:" I love sleeping knowing that you're right here next to me "
Him:" I always sleep better with your warm naked body next to me "
Me:" I'll start believing that you love me for my body only " he tickles me and I giggle
Him:" I have never wanted anything in the world as bad as I want you, your love and well yes your body. But
I need your love most of all "
Me:" you have my love mnguni, all of it " he kisses me passionately and deeply then looks deep in my eyes.
Him:" what I have with you I don't want with anyone else "
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Me:" I want it all with you "
Him:" I'm going to mess up, make you upset but please promise me you won't give up on me? "
Me:" I promise you "
Him:" I promise to always be by your side, be under you and be on top of you " I giggle
Me:" you'll let me ride you ? "
Him:" yes you will? "
Me:" I want to ride you now " he chuckles
Him:" not now, I don't want to hurt my babies "
Me:" but you won't "
Him:" when the babies are born, you can fuck me anyhow you want in everyway "
Me:" I love the sound of that. Is whatever that is eating you have anything to do with us? "
Him:" no baby, it has nothing to do with us and I hope you will keep an open mind when i finally tell you "
Me:" I know whatever that is you're hiding from me is something big and you'll tell me when the time is right
because I believe your intensions for me are always good even when I cannot understand what you do "
Him:" you are the most amazing gift I have ever recieved and I promise to cherish you, value you and
appreciate you for as long as I live "
Me:" I'm thankful to have you in my life "
Him:" you've taught me many things since I met you luh and I value each and everything you've taught me.
Your thoughtfullness, humbleness, kindness and your compassion towards other people and I thank you "
Me:" you don't have to thank me baby, we are in this together "
Him:" promise me will you tell if I start getting intense with you again and scare you? "
Me:" I promise you ".
Him:" I want to fuck you so bad right now and just just lose myself in you "
Me:" what's stopping you? "
Him:" I don't want to hurt you, your pregnant "
Me:" I know you won't hurt me. I trust you "
He doesn't answer me but kisses me roughly and deeply stealing every breath I take. He cups my boobs and
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pinches them softly and I moan in pleasure and slight pain, he reaches between my legs and fingers me so
good that I practically moan when his thumb rubs my erect clitoris. He kisses me and continues his on slaught
on me until my pussy contracts with his hand in me and on my clit.
Me:" I want to feel you in my mouth "
Him:" tell me when you struggle to breathe " I nod. I get up
Him:" don't get up, just lay like that on your side "
He turns and lays on his other side with his dick directly on my face and I drool, his dick has veins and it's
rock hard but the head of his dick is soft, smooth like velvet and precum is leaking with precum so I wipe it
using my lips and tongue and he groans and I swallow him in. I take my hand to his shaft and bop my head up
and down jerking his shaft as I move and he tastes amazing God I love his circurmsized dick. His hips start to
move fast and his dick keeps getting in deeper and deeper and I remember that I must breath through my nose
and I do then my throat opens and he goes deeper and I almost gag then he pulls out a little and I moan.
Both his hands are on my ass kneeding and his beard is teasing my thighs so I strech them open for him and I
feel that I'm very wet and my clit is very swollen it needs him to tender it but it's like he's ignoring it on
purpose because he blows air to it and keeps kissing my inner thighs very close to where I want him. My clit
is begging him to give it attention but he ignores it, I suck him hard and try to swallow all of him in me and
my mouth and I feel him going deep and he's just past my throat and he curses. This dick is going to choke me
to death because it keeps growing,
Him:" fuuuck baby!, can you breathe? " I try to nod but his dick goes deeper again and I just moan and I can
feel my neck and chest wet of my drool and he groans, I pull his dick out a little so I can breathe. I take my
hand, touch his face and mouth, get my fingers in his mouth and he sucks them then I move them to my clit and
yes oh hell yes, I start playing with it and It feels so damn good. I move my hips insync with my fingers on my
clit then feel mbuso mouth on top om hands that are on my clit and I swear it's the most mouth watering, sexy
and erotic thing I have ever felt. I try to move them but he shakes his head no and I continue to play with my
clit while he's also sucking me.
My fingers keep going back and forth on my clit, his mouth in my pussy and I feel like I'm on cloud nine. I
can feel his sack tightning and I know he's gonna come, I use both my hands and wrap them tight around his
shaft and suck him aggressively and he increases his pace then smacks my pussy with his hand then naps on
it, nips and sucks it hard then my pussy contracts and I come all over him moaning then I feel a blast of cum
going down my throat spilling everything in me and It feels good I moan and swallow everydrop. I lick him
clean then pull his duck out and it's still hard like he didn't just come.
Me:" you're still hard "
Him:" I'm not done with you "
I'm still laying on my side when he gets between my legs scissors style and pulls my left leg up and to his
chest then he slides his dick in me and he fills me wonderfully full with his engorged member. I bury my face
on the pillow and grab tight to it as he slams into me hard knocking my breath out but not too rough and he
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Him:" I'm always going to fuck you harder. love you harder and always make you smile" he says increasing
the pace of his stroking making me moan. His left leg is on my front and his right one is on my back then he
brings his body down and kisses me making my leg touch my stomach and bend on over his shoulder.
This style makes my clit to rub with his pubic hair up and down and it drives me crazy and I can feel my
orgasm building again then he goes deep and fucks me viciously and I scream as my orgasm hits me like it's
my first time experiencing this feeling, I screaming his name and he moves off me then fucks me hard andv
fast and you can hear the sound of our wet bodies of skin smacking another skin, he groans and fills me with
his seed and I swear if I wasn't, I would have gotten pregnant now. He gently turns me to lay on my other side
then pulls out and I feel his hot seed spilling down my thighs.
He gets off the bed, goes to the bathroom, comes back gives me a glass of water and I drink all of it then he
cleans me then lays facing me and kisses me and I close my eyes with a smile on my face and let sleep take
over.

I reach for him but he's not next to me. I would have loved to wake with him in my arms again but I guess he
is gone before dad finds him here. I expected to feel tired when I wake up but I'm not. Mbuso is the second
man I've been with and I can't exactly compare him to my ex because sex was just all about him but with
mbuso, man he knows how to please me and to think he used to do that to other women makes me get jealous
but he's mine now, all mine.
I get off the bed and go to the bathroom and shower then wear my dress and I must say I love my new
wadrobe that I have now. I go downstairs and find all my family there including mbuso and his brother
siyabonga and it looks like they are discussing something serious beacuse they are talking very low and I
don't like that at all because they are usually loud and what is mbuso still doing here, dad will think he
sneaked in and slept here, Jesus this man!.
Me:" sanibonani " ( good morning ) I give my dad and mom a kiss.
Them:" morning luh "
Me:" Uncle siyabonga I didn't know we were expecting you? "
Bonga:" I came to see how you guys are doing, how's my nephew or niece treating you? "
Me:" thank you and I'm doing okay, this little one is being very nice to me "
Bonga:" I can tell because you're as beautiful as ever, my brother is one lucky man "
Me:" and he better not forget that " mbuso gives me a what the fuck look and I ignore him
Sicelo:" and now no kiss for your big brother? "
Me:" no " I sit next next to my dad
Sicelo:"what did I do? "
Me:" because you take mbuso away from me then you guys get up to no good " I have this huge feeling that
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makes me want to cry and I don't know why and everyone is looking at me confused then mbuso stands comes
to me
Sicelo:" I'm sorry luh "
Mbuso:" I'm sorry luh, I didn't mean to go for long but look baby I'm here now "
Me:" you always leave me when you get a call and forget that I'm pregnant and I need you here with me.
Scelo calls and up and go and leave me because whatever that is you have to go to is much more important
than being here with me, with us mbuso "
Him:" I didn't know know you felt that way luh and I didn't go because it was much more important than you.
Nothing in this world could ever be more important to me than you and our kids. I promised to put you first
above anything else and I thought I was doing that but now I know that I was in a way neglecting you "
everyone in the house is silent listening to us
Me:" I worry about you when you leave and don't tell me where you are and if you're safe, then you rock up
in the middle of the night like everything is fine " tears fall, he wipes them
Mbuso:" I'll do better baby I promise, whatever you need me to do I'll do it "
Me:" then why haven't you proposed to me and given me a ring? " he looks at me and laughs a little. " what's
funny, me asking you when are you going to put a ring on it is funny!? " I cry
Him:" uhm baby I.........." I run out of the kitchen and go back to my bedroom and get on the bed and just cry. I
feel my mom's arms around me as she holds me and lets me cry.
Mah:" what's wrong baby? "
Me:" I...I don't know "
Her:" It must be your emotions, pregnancy does that. One minute you're feeling fine and the next you cry and
want to kill someone "
Me:" I don't wanna kill him I love him but I don't like him right now " I can feel her wanting to laugh but she
doesn't
Her:" did waking up without him get you upset? "
Me:" no, yes, maybe, I don't know " she chuckles
Her:" it's okay to feel like this, there's nothing wrong with it baby. Being pregnant does that, it messes with
your emotions ". I wipe my tears, turn and look at her and she has a very sad look on her face and it hurts
seeing that kind of emotion from her
Me:" mah. can I ask you something? "
Her:" I know what you want to ask me but ask anyway? "

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Me:" have you ever been pregnant? "
Her:" I saved myself for a man I thought was the one and I was going to spend the rest of my life with. We got
married then we struggled to get pregnant and he blamed me then I went and got tested and we found out that I
couldn't have kids and he divorced me. Then I met someone else and imagine my surprise when I found out
that I was pregnant but what I didn't know was, he was married and he gave me something twice to make me
lose my babies. First time I was three months pregnant and the second time I was two months pregnant and it
led me to not be able to have kids again because he gave me too much of whatever that was " oh my God!
Me:" I'm sorry ma, how did you deal with it? "
Her:" I prayed to God alot and asked him for guidance and to heal me and then one day I was fine by God's
grace "
Me:" what happen to him? "
Her:" his wife left him and he became a drug addict and killed himself "
Me:" You have me and to me you're a mother I know my mom would have been "
Her:" thank you baby and that's the reason why I love babying you even though you're a twenty five year old
woman. I can't wait to spoil the little one you're carrying "
Me:" you are going to be the best grandmother " she laugh and get silent.
Me:" why don't you date or have a boyfriend because you're still young and beautiful? "
Her:" who saud I'm not seeing anyone? " I looked at her shocked
Me:" who is it? "
Her:" You'll meet him one day "
Me:" ooooh mystery man, is he handsone or old and wrinkley struggles to walk? "
Her:" hell no, he's very handsome? "
Me:" mah you have a ben 10? "
Her:"huh lungi a ben 10?, never! " she laughs out loud and I join her we laugh hard and I almost pee on
myself
Her:" how do you feel now? "
Me:" I feel heavy, like I just want to cry hard, I dont know why. My heart feels heavy like I'm going to
receive bad news or something "
Her:" luh, you are pregnant and your only concern now is your health and the baby that you're carrying. Don't
worry about mbuso and where he is because you know he would never do anything that would take him away
from you. Know that whatever he does is because he loves you and wants you to be safe always. Your
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brother too is with him and he won't let him do something stupid while he's there with him "
Me:" I know ma, do you think mbuso will forgive me for being disrespectful to him infront of all of you? "
Her:" never apologise for expressing your feelings. You were concerned and you have every right to tell us
how you feel and they have to respect that and acknowledge it. It was wrong of mbuso to just leave without
giving you an explination and you tlling him you're concerns doesn't mean you are being disrespectful ".
Me:" but he left after we left with dad and still managed to come back and see me and spend the night with
me"
Her:" and what a night it was, thank God you're dad wasn't here "
Me:" you heard us? "
Her:" I heard you baby, God luh you're loud "
Me:" ma? " we both laugh
Her:" I know he came back to spend the night but remember that he's still learning too baby because he was
used to do anything he wants at anytime without telling anyone or you where he was but since both of you
decided to give your relationship a chance again he's been trying. Yes some things are going to take long for
him to change but you have seen that he's a better man to you now than what he was then and that's all that
matters. You don't need to learn his every move but you just want to know if he's okay "
Me:" that's all I want ma because I can't do this without him. I want us to experience everything together
since we are going to be first time parents "
Her:" open up to him and tell him, don't hold anything back "
Me:" thank you mommy "
Her:" I'm here lungile and I'm not going anywhere for all of you "
Me:" because we need you "
Her:" come lets go and make you something to eat, you can't starve my grandchild "
Me:" do you want my kids to call you gogo? " we both laugh
Her:" nope, I'm going to teach them to call me glamma? "
Me:" ok glamma lets go and eat "
We get to the kichen and I find mbuso sitting alone like he's mind is not here and he's deep in thought. Mah
goes to the opposite direction and gives mbuso and I space to talk. He turns and looks at me.
Me:" penny for your thoughts? "

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Him:" I'm thinking that I suck when it comes to this communication thing with you "
Me:" you don't suck boo, I was just feeling emotional and I took it out on you and I'm sorry "
Him:" I'm happy that you told me that you didn't like what I did because I asked you to tell me if I mess up
and you did " he gets me between his legs and puts his hand on my stomach and the kids start playing
Me:" but I shouldn't have done that infront of my family especially your brother. H e will think I don't respect
you as my man "
Him:" I would have loved for you to tell me when we are in private but also it showed your dad that you are
not afraid to tell me when I do wrong and I'm a man who realises his mistakes and will ask for forgiveness. I
don't want him to think that the only time you're able to tell me how you feel is when you're around them.
Promise me that you will call me to talk in private? "
Me:" I promise Mnguni "
Him:" how are you feeling now cause you left crying then I heard you guys laughing? " hand still onmy
stomach feeling the kids playing.
Me:" I feel like crying, like there's this huge sadness I'm feeling and I don't know why " he sighs and hugs me
and I wrap my arms around him.
Him:" it's the pregancy baby, my big headed kids are making mommy feel upset "
Me:" my kids won't have big heads like yours " I giggle he doesn't have a big head I just love teasing him
Him:" you're everything to me you know that? "
Me:" I know boo "
Him:" and I want forever with you, you know? "
Me:" silly man, I know that too " I giggle
He stands up, moves me away from him a little then looks at me like he's scared then he goes down on his
knee, pulls something out of his pants and it's a box ring and I gasp in shock and cover my mouth
Me:" mbuso?, what?, how? "
Him:" I wanted to this the right way, the proposal. I planned this romantic breakfast picnic that I was going to
take you to, sweep you off your feet and then ask you to marry me but then when you asked me crying when
am I going to put a ring on it, I told myself fuck this I'm doing it now but then you ran upstairs crying "
Me:" I'm sorry I ruined the surprise "
Him:" you didn't baby, by now I should know that we do things our own special way "
Me:" that's damn right "
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Him:" Lungile Ngcobo, my promise with this ring is to only have eyes for you. Wear this ring with pride
knowing you're the only woman who'll be standing by my side and when you look at this it I hope it reminds
you of my promise to never stop loving no matter what and I plan to marry you very soon. I love you very
much and I want to spent the rest of my life breathing with you, Will you say yes and accept my proposal and
marry me? " he opens the ring and I'm in awe. It's a square shaped diamond ring and it look so beautiful.
I know he asked me if he could send his family to my family and he did that then asked for my hand in
marriage from my brither and dad and both gave him their blessings and I thought it was it because he never
talked about getting a ring. I thought I will get a ring on my wedding day but here he is surprising me and
proposing in my father's house in his kitchen, who does that?.
Me:" I...I would't trade this moment right here for...for anything even for a breakfast picnic even though I'm so
hungry because to me this is perfect. Mbuso Gumede I'll marry, yes Ill marry you! " He gets up, kisses me
then I hear loud cheers behind me and it's my family and mbuso's dad is here too wow.
They must have been listening to us and waiting for my answer, No wonder my aunt gave us space it's
because she knew. Everyone comes to congratulate us and I look at my father and everyone and they all look
very happy and I'm happy too!.

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MBUSO.
Sicelo:" I hope she doesn't stay mad at me for long and I don't even know what I did wrong "
Me:" she's not mad at you, she's just feeling emotional. I think she can sense that thami is dead but she doesn't
know exactly, that's why she's lashing out on us "
Scelo:" so what do we do now? "
Me:" I have to call simphiwe and tell her not to call luh then I have to block all her social media accounts
incase someone tags her because they know she's thami's brother "
Bonga:" we have to go there and see how we can help victor "
Sicelo:" we have to go today "
Me:" Have the guys arrived with buhle? "
Sicelo:" Yes they did early this morning. They are in the farm and buhle is separated from them, her parents
don't know that she's there and she also doesn't know that they are there."
Me:" and the dad's ? "
Bonga:" they went to standerton "
Me:" Man I wanted to be there and help you guys but I can't leave luh alone, she's needs me right now and I
made a promise "
Sicelo:" people are going to notice that thami's parents and sisters are not there "
Me:" man I know, but his parents don't deserve to bury thami and buhle well she might run away if we let her
go to the funeral "
Sicelo:" and she doesn't know he's dead "
Bonga:" I say we tell luh and let her decide if she wants to go or not "
Me:" I really want to do that but I'm scared that this might make her lose the baby "
Bonga:" I think you guys are under estimating luh. She's a strong woman and not some fragile child. Yes it
will hurt her but she can handle it and she won't let it affect her pregnancy. She deserves to know "
Me:" that would mean telling her the truth that his own mother shot and killed him and we don't know why "
Sicelo:" aunt has to be here when we tell her "
Me:" I'll call my mom too, she's going to need all the support she can get. Bonga tell one of the drivers at
home to bring mom here "

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Bonga:" let me call mom " he goes outside
Me:" where is aunty? "
Sicelo:" she went to town, I hope they won't be mad at you for wanting to tell luh what happend "
Me:" she deserves to bury him because if we do this without her, I'm afraid she'll never forgive me and I
don't want to lose her "
Sicelo:" you're right, thami's death came at the worst time "
Me:" I'm going to call preston, I want him here until the funeral is over "
Him:" maybe I should call ayanda too for the moral support "
Me:" you will use any excuse you have to see her, plus she has a catering company, lets hire her to cater for
the funeral "
Him:" great idea but I don't know if she'll be up to it since you know what happened "
Me:" call her and find out, if she says no we'll get someone else but before you do that we have to hear what
victor says then take it from there "
Sicelo:" I hope we're not making a mistake by doing this "
Me:" me and you brother "
Bonga:" mom will be here in two hours "
Sicelo:" if we're all going to standerton we need a place to stay because we can't stay at that house "
Me:" let me call zinhle to get us a house to rent for the week "
Bonga:" what do we do now "
Me:" both of you need to go shopping for clothes because you don't have any here "
Sicelo:" Man this is my house and I do have clothes here but I think we need to go and buy food for them to
cook during the week "
Me:" scelo can we trust the guys looking after the mazibiko's? "
Him:" those are dad's men and we can trust them. They won't escape "
Me:" call celeste and ask her to come here and then go to town with her, she's a woman and she'll know what
you need to buy " scelo goes to the kitchen
Bonga:" I didn't mean to overstep brother but I think she will surprise us and handle it better than we think
she will "

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Me:" I pray to God that she won't take it very hard but what do I know about losing someone close to you like
that, someone you grew up knowing is your brother "
Bonga:" man this is hard "
Me:" it sucks brother, let me call preston "
Bonga:" who is he? "
Me:" luh's doctor, you are going to love him " I chuckle. I take out my phone and call him
Preston:" my baby daddy " this guy
Me:" how are you doc "
Him:" I'm great now that I'm hearing from you "
Me:" I need your help "
Him:" is my baby mama ok? "
Me:" she is but I don't know for how long which is why I need you to be here to monitor her "
Him:" tell me what happend so I can be prepared "
Me:" she lost her brother and she doesn't know and I'm about to tell her "
Him:" Oh my God I'm so sorry to hear that, is it the brother you came with during her check up?"
Me:" not it's not scelo "
Him:" ok I almost had a heart attack but mbuso, you know that telling her might have a negative impact on the
pregnancy? "
Me:" I know, which is why I need you here to keep an eye on her "
Him:" I'll be right there now "
Me:" I need you for a whole week here with us. I'll pay you whatever amount you want for the days you won't
be at your surgery "
Him:" you don't have to ask me twice, just like I said, I'll be right there send me your location "
Me:" pack a bag for a whole week because we are going to leave late afternoon "
Him:" ok " I hang up and send him the location
Scelo:" was that the good doctor? " we both laugh
Me:" he almost had a heart attack cause he thought it was you who died " we laugh
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Sicelo:" man he's crazy "
Me:" he has a thing for you "
Bonga:" the doctor is gay ? "
Me:" yeah "
Sicelo:" maybe he'll forget about me when he sees you " we all laugh
Bonga:" I bat for the other team man "
Me:" where's celeste? "
Sicelo:" she should be here at any minute "
Bonga:" maybe we should invite zama too "
Us:" hell no! " he laughs. The security let celeste in the house and she looks very serious.
Her:" my bosses " then she looks at bonga
Me:" hey celeste, this is my brother Siyabonga "
Her:" sure small boss, how'z it? "
Bonga:" grand you? " ( good )
Her:" super, where's the boss lady? "
Me:" she's sleeping, you guys should go so we can get ready when you come back " They all agree and leave
and I'm left with only the house helpers and luh. I go to check on her and find her watching tv.
Me:" hey baby I thought you might still be sleeping "
Her:" my phone woke me up, it was ringing non-stop " God!
Me:" who was calling you ? "
Her:" I think it was paul "
Me:" Paul who?, Bonga's friends? " what the hell?
Her:" no boo, my ex Paul " that fucker I'm sure he was calling about thami.
Me:" what did he say? "
Her:" I don't know, I didn't answer it. Why is he calling me after so many years? "
Me:" forget about him. How are you feeling? "
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Her:" stop asking me that I'm good "
Me:" I just want to be sure "
Her:" I love my ring, it's perfect "
Me:" just like you baby "
Her:" boo? "
Me:" yes my love " she blushes and gets red all over her face and gets flustered and I know what she wants. I
give her my best smile
Her:" can we have...uhm " I sit next to her and kiss her between her neck and shoulder
Me:" hmmm, ask me what you want my love and I'll give it to you "
Her:" I want you to fuck me " what? she said that?
Me:" love did you just ask me to fuck you? "
Her:" please boo "
Me:" tell me again "
Her:" fuck me, I'm horny "
Me:" I love it when you talk dirty, lets go to the bathroom "
Her:" you are going to fuck me right? " we go to the bathroom
Me:" I am, but I don't want anyone to hear you scream "
Her:" I'll try not to scream but you make it hard "
Me:" I'm always hard around you love and I'm going to fuck you quick because we have to be somewhere "
Her:" where? " I lock the door and switch the shower on. There's a huge mirrow on the wall and a soft thick
carpet. I drag the carpet close to the mirrow and put it there. I help her take off her dress and fuck man she
looks beautiful, her tits have grown and her ass jiggles when I smack it. I take off my clothes too then take her
hand and stand her infront of me facing the mirrow.
Me:" you are so beautiful my love, inside and out. Look at us on the mirror, don't close your eyes. I want you
to see how we look when we're connected together "
I cup her breats filling my hands heavy then kiss her mouth, go to her ear then neck and she moans arching her
back to me then go back to kissing her neck and her moans drive me crazy fuck!. I move her legs and stretch
them apart then take my hand down to her stomach and plunge my fingers deep inside her sweet nectar and
we both moan and her knees get weak.
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Me:" I've got you, I won't let you fall " she nods, I find her sensitive hard bud and play with it and her pussy
walls grip my fingers and I know her pussy is begging for my dick to be inside her. I bend a little so my dick
can get between her ass cheeks and it is so warm there, I move my waist the same time I finger fuck her and
continue the pace of my fingers and my waist and fuck it feels amazing!.
Me:" look at where my fingers are, look at how they move in and out of your sweet dripping wet pussy that
I'm going to fuck "
Her:" please baby " I tell her kissing the life out of her
Me:" what do you want love? "
Her:" I want you in me now please "
Me:" with pleasure my love " I continue to finger fucking her and my dick is leaking precum and I know it
isn't going to take me long to cum and I can't have that. Her pussy grips my fingers and I know she's near so I
play with her clitoris brushing it softly up, down and side ways and then I plunge my tongue in her ear and
rub her clit fast but soft and her legs start to shake and she climaxes screaming my name and I hold her tight
so she won't fall.
Me:" kneel on the floor and put your hands in the mirrow " I help her down and my dicks rock hard and my
balls feel heavy, they want me to release. She balances herself with the mirror and I look at her and just see
euphoria all over face and if I could take a photo for this moment right here I would.
Me:" love look at us and whatever I do, don't move your hands off " I move off her a little, take her ass
cheeks and separate them then separate her pussy lips and see that pink pussy glistering with sweet juice
begging me to taste it. I look at her in the mirror and she's panting with her mouth wide open then I lick my
lips and bury my whole face on her from behind and my fucken God she tastes better each time I feel her in
my mouth. I suck all that sweet juice and eat her like it is my first time feeling a woman in mouth because it
feels like it. I eat, suck and fuck her with my tongue and she stretches her legs out and arches her back giving
me her whole self then she moves and fucks my face and I groan and play with her bud and she moans.
I can't wait any longer, I have to be inside her now or I'm going to come all over her back and she'll be
pissed. I quickly get up, take my dick, point it to her entrance then slide home looking at her in the mirror and
her eyes are close and she's so wet and very warm and she doesn't flinch when I slide all they way in. We
just moan and I grind my teeth so I don't come at that moment, I pull out a little then thrust a little hard and she
opens her eyes and looks at me. I grab on to her waist and start to fuck her with calculated strokes
Her:" stop being gentle and just fuck me! " I take my hands and grip her hair tight and fuck her. I look at her
tits and the bounce up and down, her face red and her mouth swollen from my kisses fuck me!. I continue my
pace and fuck her fast not giving her a chance to move and she screams and I can see she's now struggling to
hold on to the mirror so I take her to my arms and hold her gently then move, turn us and lay her on her side
so she'll be facing the mirror and see me moving in and out of her. I take her head and lay it on my arm then
raise her leg up and slide back in again and God what is she doing to me beacuse I feel connected to her in a
way I have never felt.
Me:" look at the mirrow and touch yourself love " I move in and out of her and she takes her hand and move
it to her clit then rubs it and she moans and grips my dick and I don't hold back now and fuck her hard like
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she asked me to and she keeps gripping my dick and I'm gonna come. I take my hand to hers and we rub her
clit together while I'm fucking her and I feel it coming from my head and the bottoms of my feet and straight to
my dick.
Me:"how far are you ? " she keeps moaning, I move her head so she'll face me and kiss her deep, tongue
down her throat then pull my dick out then thrust deep in her hard and she moans then fists my dick squeezing
hard and I press her clit and smack it then thrust deep and hard again and then spill my seed in her groaning in
her mouth and her body shakes from her orgasm fucccck!.
We lay like that for a while then I get up and leave her on the floor and I can see she wants to sleep again and
we can't have that. The shower has been on this whole time so I adjust the water to be a little warm then get
her up and we get in the shower and I wash her whole body and she looks so beautiful thoroughly fucked. We
get out and I dry her up and mosturize her and look for another dress
Me:" love which underwear do you want to wear? "
Her:" granny panties "
Me:" they look good on you "
Her:" shut up " she throws the pillow at me. I cloth her then cloth myself.
Her:" did you feel the connection I felt? "
Me:" I did my love and it's...I don't know how to explain it"
Her:" It was like our souls merged and we became one "
Me:" yeah unbeleivable, come my love lets go and get you fed "
We leave and go to the kitchen and my mom is there, luh's mom, my aunt, luh's other aunt, my brother, sicelo
and celeste.
Mom:" hhay mbuso no, ngeke phela uzolimaza ulungi ukhohliwe yin 'ukuthi ukhulelwe usumkhalisa kangaka?
" ( No mbuso, did you forget that lungi is pregant as you were busy making her scream? ) my mom though,
everyone laughs and luh gets embarrased and hides her face on my chest and I chuckle. I need to sound proof
our bedrooms in our house and the house we'll have in Durban.
LUNGI.
I can't believe mbuso's mom just said that infront of everyone. I feel so embarrased right now because I didn't
realise I was that loud unless she came to look for us in my bedroon then heard us. There's no way the whole
house heard us because it is a very big house, at least mbuso is here with me bacause I would have died of
embarrasement.
Me:" Sanibonani " ( good afternoon ) mbuso leads me to sit down and I notice there's a very beautiful almost
tomboy like woman sitting next to bonga, maybe it's his girlfiend I think.
My aunt brings me muesli and yoghurt to eat because most of the time I eat that. They continue to talk and I
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eat but there's this tension and what puzzles me the most is why is everyone here besides my dad and my
father in-law, oh yes they must have heard about the engagement and they are here to congratulate us and I
had also asked my mom to help me with planning the wedding and now they are all here.
Mbuso is talking with my brother and his brother and preston went to the kitchen with mah and I noticed he's
not his bubbly self. Mbuso keeps rubbing my back and I just want to moan cause my babies and I are enjoying
that back rub and it can put me sleep. I get done stand up to take the plate to the kitchen but mbuso's aunt takes
it then goes to kitchen and they all come back, sit down and look at me. Ok this is weird.
Me:" If I wasn't getting married then I would think this is an intervention because you're all here, well not
everyone but you're here not saying anything, just looking at me. What's going on? " I look at mbuso and my
brother then my mom and she comes, sits next to me and takes my hand then looks at me.
Mah:" we have something to tell you, well your fiancee has to tell you? " I look at him
Me:" are you sick or dying? "
Him:" no baby I'm not sick or dying "
Me:" then what is it? "
Him:" I got a call from thami and it sounded like he was talking to someone then we heard a gun shot, I..I
traced his phone to newcastle and when we got there we found out that he didn't make it, he died baby " I
look at mbuso and I have this huge urge to slap him across his face then I look at my brother and he looks
very sorry.
Me:"who killed him and why? "
Him:" thuli killed him and we don't know why and what exactly happend? "
Me:" when did this happen? "
Him:" yesterday " so that's why he couldn't sleep
Me:" where is he now? "
Sicelo:" he's in standerton. Dad and mbuso's dad went to see uncle victor "
Me:" so this whole time, Thuli and Sipho were her under our noses in newcastle and you didn't know? "
Sicelo:" they we're there for a few days before thami showed up "
Me:" so it took thami's death for you to finally find them. Where are they or they ran away again? "
Sicelo:" I don't think you want to know where they are but....."
Me:" please sicelo don't play that card with me, I'm not stupid or naive. We all know that in this family, the
Gumede's and the Ngcobo's we don't let the law, the police solve our problems we solve them ourselves so
where are they? "
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Mbuso:" your dad took them somewhere and we don't know where " oh please!
Me:" I know you know where they are so please don't lie to me and I don't care about them. I asked you
mbuso, I asked you too scelo that please find thami for me before something bad happens to him and what did
you both say to me?, what did you promise me? "
Sicelo:" we..."
MaGumede:" shut up and let her speak her mind scelo "
Me:" you had one job, just one job you had both had to do but failed to do it and you failed me!. I lost the
person who made living with those people bearable, I lost my brother, my best friend and my confidant.
Between the both of you and the money you have, you couldn't find one person?, a 20 year old teenager!? and
you mbuso, you're a hacker but you couldn't find my brother but you managed to find buhle and you we're
busy going to her because she was more important to you than finding my brother right? " he looks at me like
I have just slapped him on his face, he looks hurt and I don't care.
Him:" I know I failed you and I'm sorry I couldn't save him and if I could I would bring him back baby "
Me:" the last time I saw him and physically touched him was when I was saying goodbye and leaving with
you at that hotel. He's gone and I'm never going to see him ever again " tears well in my eyes and I don't want
to cry and upset my kids but I'm really hurting right now and I don't what to do.
Sicelo:" I'm sorry baby sister, we took his situation lightly. I think he went there to confront them about all
the things they did "
Me:" it's my fault that he is dead, it's all my fault! " I hear them saying no I stand up and start pacing
Me:" yes it is!, I'm the one who told him what happend then he goes missing then shows up, confronts his
parents and they kill him because of me. He went there to find the truth for me and he died for it because he
chose me and not them!. How could I do this to him, how could I get him killed Oh God! "
Mbuso:" lungi look at me! " he stands infront of me then puts his hands on my face
Me:" I killed him mbuso I did! "
Him:" baby look at me "
Me:" no I can't, I sent him to them "
Him:" please look at me lungile! " I open my eyes and look at him
Him:" it's not your fault baby, none of this is your fault, you are innocent and so was thami. You were trying
to warn him to becareful of his parents and we don't know what he chose to do and we'll never know. He
might have went there to find out the truth or he might have went there to help them, we don't know and we
don't know what exactly happend for his mom to end up shooting him, it might be because he found the truth
and wanted to warn us or for us to come and get him, we don't know baby " he hugs me and I hold him tight
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Sicelo:" we will get justice for him we promise and even though I have never met thami I know he loved you
very much and he wouldn't want you to blame yourself for his death. He would want you to celebrate him and
let go of him in peace "
Me:" I don't know how to do that "
MaGumede:" you pray lungi, you pray and ask God to accept his soul and for him to find peace "
Mbuso:" you have two gurdian angels now watching over you, your mom and thami. I saw him, I closed his
eyes and asked him to watch over you and our kids "
Me:" He didn't desreve to die so young, he had his whole life ahead of him, it's not fair "
Mbuso:" I know baby I know "
Me:" I want you to promise me something " I look at him
Mbuso:" that woman has taken one last person that really cares about me for the last time and she's never
going to do it again because I want her dead "I hear shocked gasps
Mah:" Lungi!"
Scelo:" you don't know what you're saying lungi! "
Mbuso:" you are upset baby and it's understandable that you'll feel that way "
Me:" I'm not stupid okay?, I know you're going to kill them! "
Mbuso:" baby? "
Me:" scelo you said that you will get justice for him and the justice I want is her dead, I want you to kill her
slowly and painfully! "
Mbuso:" sthandwa sam ngicela ungilalele " ( my love please listen to me )
Me:" you promised me that you'll protect and this is me wanting all of you protected because we all know
that aslong as she's still breathing we'll never get over everything that has happend "
Scelo:" Mah please talk some sense into her " he says to mbuso's mom
MaGumede:" from what I've told that woman has been nothing but trouble for this family "
Mah:" I want her dead too, she made my brother lose his family and we're not suppose to get revenge after
how many years?...No! "
Mbuso'sAunt:" what is killimg them going to bring this family?, leeave it all to God "
Sicelo:" I'll have peace of mind and I'll sleep better knowing the people who turned our lives upside down
are all dead! "
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Bonga:" we are having all this talk infront of the doctor here, what if he goes to the police and reports us? "
Preston:" My family disowned me when they found out I was a gay man and ever since I've been alone until
this family showed up at my surgery and they were open and loving and for the first time I felt like I can have
a family of my own, I can choose my own family and when I invited myself to be part of this family they
never said anything bad but welcomed me. So what I'm saying is your secrets are my secrets and if I have to
prove my loyalty I will "
Sicelo:" you are our brother now preston, your loyalty and word is your bond, we'll protect you in this
family, treat you like everyone else and we'll always have your back and we'll give you the love everyone
receives and it might suffocate you just to warn you but it will not always be like this because we will not
always agree on things and see eye to eye. We fight agaisn't other people not with each other "
Preston:" I already feel the love and I wan't all of it and thank you big brother and so that means it's hands off
to you too Bonga? " I can't help myself and I giggle
Bonga:" we'll get you a boyfriend preston yoh " he shrugs
Sicelo:" what we discussed in this room stays here, I will tell the elders what happend, only them and no one
else " They all agree even my other aunts.
Mah:" we have to leave now and go to standerton "
Me:" is buhle going to be at the funeral ? " they all look at each other
Mbuso:" we will have to ask uncle victor " I nod.
Me:" I know she loved thami and I think she should be at the funeral at least to come and say goodbye, his her
brother too "
Mbuso:" okay baby. Are you okay? "
Me:" I'm not but I will be "
Mbuso:" you know the truth and now we have to focus on laying him to rest and we will all be there with you
"
Preston:" let me check your highblood pressure " I sit down and preston checks me and the babies.
Preston:" your blood pressure is normal but I'm going to be monitoring you and I want you to relax and do
nothing let the grandma's do the work. I f you start to feel even the slightest of pain, you tell me "
Me:" thank you pres " we hugs me.
Me:" what happens now? "
Mah:" we have to go and when we get there we'll find out what help they'll need from us "
Me:" where are we staying? "
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Mbuso:" I forgot to ask my assistant to find a house for us to rent "
Me:" let me call the office I used to work for they always have vacant houses "
TomboyLady:" give me the numbers I'll call them boss lady " I smile and look at her
Sicelo:" this is celeste sis and she works for us "
Me:" hi celeste and I'm lungi not boss lady, you making me feel old "
Celeste:" you're bosses mrs so you're my boss " I give her my phone and the name and she goes outside
Mah:" lungi man let's go, we are waiting for you? "
Me:" lets go guys but what about my clothes? "
MaGumede:" I packed them but didn't finish cause you kids were killing each other in the bathroom "
Mbuso:" Mama? " she laughs this woman though
AuntLwethu:" lets pray before we leave " We all stand and she starts to pray.
Her:" Heavenly Father please bless our families with your love and protect us from harm. Give us grace to
forgive, strength to overcome the difficulties we face, and keep us together when the world tries to pull us
apart. In Jesus Name, Amen. "
Us:" Amen " we get in the cars and leave.
I can't break down now even though I want to cry because of the pain that I feel inside but I won't cause I
have to be strong for my kids.
I know thami wouldn't be dead if only I had kept my big mouth shut, he could be doing whatever it was that
he was doing and I had to go and ruin all of that. I regret it and I blame myself for his death. Please Thami
forgive me, I never wated you to die.

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LUNGI.
I never thought I'll be back here ever again but thami's death has forced me to be here and I must say it's bitter
sweet. It's bitter because he is gone and I'm never going to see him again but on the other hand it's good
because I get to celebrate my brother's life with sims and uncle victor. The car stops outside the gate and the
door opens and my aunts all get out and I stay behind.
There are many cars outside and I don't see my dad's or uncle victors cars anywhere, maybe they are inside
the garage. My aunts well thami aunts I'm sure are busy in the kitchen making tea and I'm sure my
grandmother...I mean thami's partenal grandmother is ordering them around and driving everyone crazy. I
need the strength to get up and go inside because my legs don't seem to function, I look outside as everyone
gathers outside the gate and they start singing. Mbuso opens the door and looks at me.
Me:" can you get sims for me please? "
Him:" you need anything else? "
Me:" just water " he takes a deep breath and looks at me and he looks really worried, I give hin a side smile
Him:" I'll get preston to come and sit with you while I go and get simphiwe "
Me:" thank you " I watch him call preston then I see a car stopping next to us then sims gets off then sees
mbuso and she goes to him and he hugs her comforting her then points at the car I'm in and she comes with
preston following her behind. My dad, uncle victor and mbuso's dad open the gate and then they all get in the
house still singing. Sims gets in the car then preston and they close the door then sims looks at him like, and
then you? then looks at me and I just smile
Me:" long story short, this is preston my doctor slash adopted brother and preston this is my sister and best
friend simphiwe "
Preston:" hey sister bestfriend, I'm preston how you holding up? " preston asks her giving a puppy dog eyes
look and sims looks at preston then looks at us and laughs and we just look at her like she's crazy
Sims:" I'm Simphiwe but you can call me sims and I'm okay now that you're here guys. You know I thought I
was going to ball out my eyes and cry when I see you luh but then brother bestfriend here just made me smile
"
Me:" I know he's one of a kind " I wipe my tears off.
Sims:" Oh My God Luh mbuso finally proposed ? " she asks taking my hand and looks at the ring.
Preston:" what?!, Let me see and how did I not see it? " he takes my hand from sims then looks at sims and
they both scream my God these two
Me:" guys not so loud "
Sims:" are you kidding me, you're getting married bitch " I giggle
Preston:" when did he propose and how? "
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Me:" Today midday at my parent's house and it was beautiful " I tell them about how he proposed and when
I'm done we're all wiping our tears off.
Sims:" I didn't think this day was going to turn out to be like this and I didn't think you were going to come
until friday "
Me:" I think they were'nt going to tell me and someone or something changed their minds "
Preston:" they were worried about how thami's death was going to affect you and the babies "
Sims:" what?, you're carrying twins? " I look at preston and he giggles
Him:" well I had to share with sister bestfriend but I swear no one else will know, wait how did you know?
"
Me:" that doctor in Pietermaritzburg let it slip, he thought we already knew "
Sims:" wow this is blessing luh, I can't wait to spoil them " she hugs me
Me:" it's only the four of us who know and please guys we want it to be a surprise to everyone, you better
swear to keep it to yourselves or else you are not going to be my bridesmaides " they both scream and hug
each other
Preston:" are you thinking what I'm thinking? "
Sims:" you bet I am " they scream again my God these two are going to be a handful
Sims:I can't wait to find tlove too luh. I'm so happy for you my sister I really am "
Preston:" me too because I only meet men who want me to help them financially, lie to me, use me then
throwm me like a used condom "
Me:" you will find love guys, I never thought I would be this happy with mbuso but look at us "
Sims:" thami would be very happy right now that he was going to be an uncle "
Me:" then teach my kids to steal meat in the oven, eat it then go outside to drink water so no one will notice
and when he comes back his face would be full of gravy and when we ask him what happen he would he say
( I didn't steal and eat the meat in the oven ) " we laugh
Sims:" or that time when he was six and wanted to play with us and we told him to go and fetch his shoes
then we ran away and left him behind and when we came back he didn't sleep with us that night "
Me:" but when we woke up he was sleeping peacefully between us and made us apologise to him"
Us:" say askies my apple, my banana and I'll forgive you " we say at the same time laugh and preston laughs
too
Sims:" the three muskateers "
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Me:" he made us watch that movie so many times that we ended knowing most of the lines " we laugh
Preston:" he sounds like he was the best brother "
Us:" he was "
Preston:" I'm happy that I now have sisters like you guys " the way he said it made me tear up because you
can hear that he wants to feel loved and be accepted.
Me:" preston we accept you as you are and we'll never change you. I love you as you are and you don't need
to be someone you're not to try to fit in with us "
Sims:" I don't like people I don't know around my space and circle but you, you're the puzzle that was
missing "
Preston:" I was scared you we're not going to like me sims "
Sims:" I think me and you are similar in many ways and you're stuck with us now "
Me:" I love you guys but I'm pressed. I need to use the loo "
Sims:" we'll get through this luh as long as you're alll here, we'll get throught it together "
Preston:" lets hug before we go " we have a group and and take a few minutes of silence then we get off then
I see uncle victor standing outside alone smoking looking at us.
Me:" guys you go ahead I need to talk to uncle victor " They nod and I go to him and he quickly tries to
squash it off with his hands but it burns his finger and I laugh.
Me:" I didn't know you smoke " I say smiling he looks at me and smiles, I honestly didn't realise how much I
missed him
Him:" luh kababa " he opens his arms and I go to him, hug him tight and he hugs me tight too.
Me:" I missed you baba " ( dad ) I mean it.
Him:" me too ndodakazi " ( my daughter )
Me:" I forgave you dad, I just didn't know how to say it to you "
Him:" I know you did because it's in your nature luh. You're never one to hold grugdes "
Me:" I love you dad, you are my dad too and I want you to be part of my life again because I still need you "
Him:" thank you my daughter, you're so beautiful, glowing and your pregnancy suits you " his hug is warm
and loving just like how he always hugged me.
Me:" did I ever tell you that I love your hugs " I can feel him smiling then he kisses my forehead

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Him:" I now do know "
Me:" I still can't believe he's gone and I feel guilty " he pulls me back and looks at me
Uncle:" What did I teach you about a guilty conscious? "
Me:" it lives free in your mind and heart, that it eats you, takes away your happiness and changes you to be
someone else but we always ask for forgiveness if we feel that, what we did makes us feel very giulty. We
ask whoever we did wrong to forgive us so we can move on with life and not be stuck in that moment "
Him:" did you force thami to go and see his parents? "
Me:" no "
Him:" did you pull the trigger and kill him? "
Me:" no "
Him:" then I do not want to hear of this talk about you feeling guilty ever again. You we're trying to keep your
brother safe and unfortunately things didn't go as we planned. There are two people who are guilty here and
it's his mother and father not you. You hear me Luh kababa? "
Me:" yebo baba " ( yes dad )
Him:" is he treating you good "
Me:" he is dad and he proposed "
Him:" your dad told me, congratulations baby "
Me:" you are going to be at the negotiations right? "
Him:" I'll be the one counting the money " we both laugh
Me:" I love you "
Him:" I love you lu kababa. Lets go inside and greet everyone because they have been asking about you "
I first go and use the loo then come back and greet the elders in the room where they are sitting and they make
me drink some water that thami's grandmother stirred with her finger then they ask me to lay down and call
mah to come and take coal ash from the stove and rub it between her hands then smear it around my stomach
and when she does that my kids start to move and we can actually see my stomach moving.
I haven't seen my all the dad's, mbuso, scelo, bonga and other males of the family since I got in the house,
they must be busy with the preparations. No one asks about where thuli, sipho and buhle are at and I think the
dad's said something about them missing. I still want them dead, I was serious about that.
We would spend the night at the house we rented then leave in the morning and come back when we have to
sleep. I have been doing nothing and just helping where I can, Paul has been calling me non stop and I think
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they said he came with some local choir and asked for me but I was asleep. I took sims kids to sleep with me
because she was busy and well because Mbuso will come when I'm sleeping and be gone by the time I wake
up and he would sleep like he's dead and when he first saw them sleeping in our bed he said but the house is
big and he wanted to cuddle but then we ended up sleeping with them between us. He seems really tired
when he gets in bed and I hope he's eating well.
Friday comes and we have the most beautiful night vigil for thami, all his friends from childhood, school and
university show up and say beautiful things about him like how he threw a party here in the house and it was
like he was saying goodbye cause he kept saying he loves them and we also hear something about him taking
drugs and I don't keep that in mind.
The day of the funeral comes and we go and see thami outside the yard where they made a lovely place to
keep him because he's not suppose to enter the yard and I look at him for one last time and it's like he will
open his eyes and laugh and call me his yellow bone sister. I wipe my tears.
Me:" You were everything a sister could ever ask for in a brother and I will always cherish and remember
the times we had together. I will miss your loud personality, goofy side and adventurous side, You were not
afraid to go out there and try new things and piss of your parents and you got a kick out of it, you took a peace
of my heart when you left me but I know that God had other plans for you and he needed you more than I did.
Please watch over me and sims and our kids because life will never be the same without you thami. I hope
you will forgive me and take away this guilt that I feel. I love you brother and may your soul rest in peace ".
Mbuso takes my hand we go to the tent and and wait for the program to start then I see celeste wheeling
someone in with a wheelchair and I look closely it's buhle and she looks like she's not here. She goes to
where thami is and starts crying and apologising to him then comes back and celeste takes her to where the
elders are sitting and stands behind her. I look at mbuso through my glasses and he kisses my cheek.
The programme start and it goes well and I was afraid that there will be some huge drama but everything
goes smoothly. We go to the cemetery and they bring a shovel that has soil and we take it and throw it on
another empty shovel and when I look at thami's coffin going down tears fall, I look at sims and go to her and
we hug and I let a loud cry and we cry in each others arms. I cry so hard, I cry and let everything out that I
have been keeping inside about his death. I feel someone wanting to pull me off sims but I shake my head no
and continue to cry and mbuso brushes my back while we're still standing and crying.
Mbuso:" It's okay my love, it's over now lets go "
Me:" I don't want to leave him here "
Mbuso:" please baby lets go "
Me:" he's going to be all alone mbuso, I don't want to leave him, I can't, make him come back please....wake
him up and tell him I still need him please, he can't leave me! " I sob on sims shoulder and she's also crying
then I feel something cold and on my arm then I feel like I'm floating on air then my eyes close.
LUNGI.
He has been awfully quiet since we got back from standerton and I think it's because he's worried about me
and I don't blame him. After preston injected me I woke up at the hospital in Trichard and they were worried
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but preston and the doctor he was working with put me on bed rest because of my blood pressure even though
the kids are fine but they are really worried about my pregnancy because now they said they are at the point
of me being in high risk if I continue to get upset I might lose one of the kids or both of them.
Mbuso was really freaking out and he still is and he won't leave my side. I got discharged the next day and
when we got back in standerton I was cleansed and mbuso too because we had sex and we shouldn't have
done that because I was mourning. Thami's grandmother, mah and magumede and the other elders gave me
something to drink to protect the kids since me and their dad had sex and they promised me it wasn't going to
hurt the kids and I drank it, it was tasteless and ugh it was bad.
We left later that day and grandmother made me promise that I'll come back to visit her once the kids are
born, she didn't want me to leave and was so sad but understood that I had to go back. I asked sims to
relocate with the kids next year so we can all be in durban and she said she'll think about it. It's been a few
days since we've been here and I'm at my house and dad didn't like the idea but understood that mbuso can't
sleep in his house while he is not yet welcomed traditionally in his house. We are sitting outside the verander
and the birds are chirping, sun is shinning hot and the wind is blowing slowly....I love this kind of weather, I
look at my fiancee and he looks like he's deep in thought brushing my hand.
Me:" boo? "
Him:" I was thinking that we get a helper to help you around the house since you are on bed rest "
Me:" but mah helps us "
Him:" well technically she's my aunt too even though she's 2 years older than me and it's very weird that I
call her aunty, I think I'm going to start calling her granny that way I'll think she's way, way older than me. I
can't believe your grandparents were still getting it on to have a child almost the same age as their grandson
" we laugh
Me:" eeewww boo I don't want to think that " I hit him with a pillow
Him:" but seriously love, mah is family and she can't be helping us like she's our helper "
Me:" I know and they should all be focusing on planning my wedding and I don't know how far are they "
Him:" but I heard you speaking to sims in the morning "
Me:" I asked her and the only thing she said is everything is under control between her and preston and the
grannies "
Him:" I gave them a card to use on everything and I told them the only time I want to know something is when
they are going to tell me about choosing suits "
Me:" hmmm I can just imagine you wearing a dashing pink suit preston chose " we both laugh
Him:" hell no but I trust preston because he dresses well "
Me:" and he's not your typical flamboyant gay guy, when you look at him you'll never know he's gay until he
opens his mouth and starts talking " we laugh
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Him:" preston is one free and open person and I like that about him "
Me:" He's gonna be here a little later for brunch "
Him:" which is why you need someone to help you around the house and to prepare brunch, ask mah to get
you an aunty to help you baby "
Me:" he said he will bring something, but we gonna be moving soon so I don't see the need "
Him:" soon?, you're on bed rest and we can't move out of town until you give birth and love you haven't even
looked for a house "
Me:" mbuso I'm carrying two people, I'm always hungry, hot and I'm always horny and I'm on bed rest and
getting a house that I really want is turning out to be stressful for me so I don't know "
Him:" you are hot my love and very very sexy and I'm horny aswell, ngiphe phela haw " { please give me
some }
Me:" we had sex in the morning mbuso, you're not getting some because I'm tired and preston told you to stop
sexing me and let me rest " I giggle and lightly slap his hand off
Him:" baby the clothes you're wearing don't help, look at how hard I am right now and you're the one who
asks me to fuck you and I have to do what pleases my woman " I'm wearing a see through light long dress, no
bra, no undewear and he makes me blush when he says that
Me:" go take a cold shower honey or jack off, anyway as I was saying what's the use of getting a helper here
when we are going to live in durban "
Him:" it doesn't matter, when we get a house there she'll come with us "
Me:" why does our maid have to be a she? "
Him:" uh because most maids are women "
Me:" I want a male one "
Him:" what?, hell no! "
Me:" why not? "
Him:" because he will look at you , want you and I'll probably kill him "
Me:" boo not those words around my kids and men always look at me boo "
Him:" look why don't you take one of the maids at your dad's house, you know them and they've been working
for your family for years "
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Him:" but who? "
Me:" I think madlamini "
Him:" she has grandkids that are going to school, who will take care of them while she's here? "
Me:" she can relocate with them ? "
Him:" baby no, she has five grandkids "
Me:" exactly and she needs that money "
Him:" I know she does but then we'll have to get them schools, buy her a house "
Me:" yes, she can rent the one in soweto then the one we'll buy will be part of her pension money, look we
don't have to buy her a very expensive house but just enough for her,6 bedrooms for her and each child, 3
bathrooms "
Him:" property is expensive baby here in durban and a house with as many rooms as you want might be over
3 milliom "
Me:" I worked with properties so I know, boo I can use my own money that I get money from my shares from
all the business the family has, share's from dad's business. shares from my brother's business and on top of
that they send me money every month, you send me money too and it's all just sitting there "
Him:" I sometimes forget you're rich my love and I wish you'd spend my money like all women do, you'll
have shares too in my business when we get married. Can you "
Me:" oh honey just wait until I have these babies and I'll show you. So are we getting madlamini here? "
Him:" no! "
Me:" why not, is it about the money ? "
Him:" baby you know very well it's not about the money, hell I don't care about the fucken money! "
Me:" you're getting worked up, what's wrong? "
Him:" I'm not getting worked up, it's just that having her here will remind me of how I used to treat you love
and I don't want that for us. I want to forget about that time "
Me:" we are past that boo and I'm sure she knows I forgave you and you said it yourself that she misses me "
Him:" I once fucked his daughters when she got sick two months after she started working for me, one day
this one showed up to clean and I fucked her and the next day another one showed up and I did the same. I
don't want them to show up in future and cause problems for us my love because they trouble " God mbuso
and dick of his he keeps dipping in many things mxm!
Me:" that's what you're afraid of? "
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Him:" yes and you'll get upset and maybe leave me because of my fucked up past...baby I'm sorry I shouldn't
have told you that "
Me:" do I need to prepare myself that one day some woman is going to show up and claim to have a kid or
kids with you? "
Him:" no baby I swear that's never going to happen. The only woman I want to have kids with is you, you're
the only one who'll carry my seed and birth my children ".
Me:" don't worry about mamdlamini's daughters, if they think they can come and cause problems for us then
they clearly don't know you mr gumede and I know that you have a past and we can't change it. I don't care
about the flavors of the month because I',m the it boo "
Him:" yes you are " he kisses me
Me:" are they still alive ? "
Him:" baby no! "
Me:" I want you to not kill them until I have delivered my kids because I want to confront them "
Him:" baby please! "
Me:" I wasn't playing when I said I want them dead mbuso, I want them to die but after they she has told me
everything I want to know "
Him:" I don't think your dad will agree "
Me:" I 'll tell him, well I'll ask him "
Him:" why is it important to you to want to be there? "
Me:" because I want closure so I can move on whole heartedly from them "
Him:" we can record them and ask them whatever you need to know, you don't have to be in the same room
as them "
Me:" but I want to look at them in the face "
Him:" all this talk is making me hungry " and he changes the subject
Me:" don't you miss work? "
Him:" I work from home baby, being a boss has those perks "
Me:" but sometimes you must be at the office cause you're needed "
Him:" are you already bored with me? " he says scratching his beard and pouting trying to look like he's hurt
and I laugh at him.
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Me:" no baby, I enjoy having you here "
Him:" but what? "
Me:" you're a man who enjoys working and I can see that you miss being hands on in your business "
Him:" maybe I do but I love being here with you and as I have told you that I'll move the head quartes to
durban for you and I'm busy doing that "
Me:" what?, when? " I'm excited
Him:" I bought a piece of land and well since your brother is an engineer and bonga is an architect I hired
them to build my office from scratch and I'll be seeing the security stuff which brings me to this point "
Me:" which is what? "
Him:" I want to build you a house and and you can design it whatever way you want, I don't want to live in a
house someone else built baby please honey love "
Me:" we can always renovate though "
Him:" it takes long, it's better if we build it the way we both want '
Me:" ok do it. how long do you think it will take? "
Him:" I bought 3 houses in mount-egdecombe and they are already being demolished as we speak and we are
going to build a house for this huge family we have "
Me:" I like the sound of that " I smile
Him:" can we take a break from everyone and go away for sometime just the two of us before the kids are
born? "
Me:" I want that but I think we should do it when the negotiations are done "
Him:" that's fine with me. I jus want you all to myself, no stress no anything just lots of sex, food and rest "
my phone rings and it's a number I don't recognise
Me:" hello? "
Voice:" hello lungi " it's a male voice I don't recognise and he says my name like he knows me and that
scares me, I put my phone on loud speaker then signal for mbuso to keep quiet and he looks at me confused.
Me:" who is this? "
Him:" I know you but you don't know me " mbuso gets up and takes his laptop and start to type and I think
he's trying to track the call then takes his cellphone and types again
Me:" can I help you with something? "
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Him:" he stole you from me and I want what's mine back ? "
Me:" excuse you? " I laugh
Boo:" who the fuck is this and what the hell do you want from my wife? "
Him:" she's not yet your wife, you stole her from me!, she was suppose to be carrying my kids now but you
and that family stole her and I want her back " mbuso takes the phone from me gets me up, takes the throw
blanket and covers me with it, takes his laptop gives it to me takes the car keys and I'm literally shaking
Boo:" tell me who the fuck you are so we can meet and sort this out man to man and why the fuck did you call
my wife and not me? " we leave the house and get in the car and he drives out
Him:" I want her back, she's mine and I will get her back! "
Boo:" I will find you where ever you are and when I do, you will wish you never called my wife and scared
her. I will kill you with my bare hands " I look at him and see no emotion or anything and he's driving fast
Him:" not if I kill you first!, she's mine gumede and I am going to take her back just watch and see " his
laptop pings and I think he found the location, I see another car driving behind us close and I start to get
scared. I look at mbuso and he sees the car and presses the accelarator and off it goes and I can see we're
almost home and that car is still following us
Boo:" we're almost home baby don't worry, don't panick, nothing is going to happen to you "
Him:" she is mine not yours you hear me! "
Boo:" I swear if my wife loses her kids, I will kill all your family members infront of you before I kill you
myself "
Him:" mighty gumede, you think I don't know you?, you think rubbing and running shoulders with that huge
family is going to save you? "
Boo:" so it's not about me and my wife, it's about them!, what the fuck do you want from me!? " the security
has already open the gate and we get in and the car that was following us stops outside
Him:" I want what was promised to me. I want my LUNGI BACK! " he shouts this guy is a psycho I'm now
his what the fuck!?. My dad is already waiting for us. I get out of the car and go to my dad
Boo:" who the fuck promised you my wife? "
Him:" you'll soon find out gumede "
Mbuso:" Enough!, this stops now little boy.You listen to me and listen carefully, you better run and hope to
your fucked up ancerstors that I don't find you cause you're a dead man walking! "
Him:" ohhhh I'm scared look at me shaking " this psycho laughs
Boo:" I don't make idle threats, I will find you and I'm going to make an example out of you to everyone to
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NEVER EVER FUCK WITH ME AND THE ONE'S I LOVE MOTHER FUCKER! "
Him:" come with them, all of them I'm not scared of you all "
Boo:" watch your back and sleep with one eye open " he hangs up and looks at me.
Dad:" lets get in the house "
Me:" that car that was following us is still at the gate, they want to enter what if it's him? "
Boo:" you're safe baby nothing is going to happen to you "
Me:" mbuso why can't my life be normal like everyone else's?, just when I think I can breath and relax cause
all the people who meant me harm are held somewhere and now this?, why me? "
Him:" it's okay baby don't worry, you'll upset the kids and this person is talking rubbish. Don't upset yourself
" he's right, my kids come first but it seems that the universe doesn't want me to have these kids I mean what
else could it be?.
Dad:" we'll find whoever it is baby don't worry. Your aunt is in the house go " I get in the house and leave
them outside and they I see them going to the gate.

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AYANDA
I have been out of the hospital and staying at karabo's place and it has been good I guess because I haven't
heard from tshepo and he is nowhere to be found. I moved back to my place after I stayed at karabo's place
for a week and lilly has gone on a mini holiday with papa smurf and she does call to let us know how she's
doing and what they are doing and she sounds really happy and it makes me wonder what lilly really thinks
about this relationship she has with mark.
The business suffered since I was at the hospital and lilly gone too didn't help at all because everything was
on karabo's shoulders. I don't have a car because of tshepo and it wasn't insured because insurance these
days is really expensive especially for second hand cars and I'm now regretting not insuring it because it's
back to taxis again for me .
The bruises have gone down on my body but my face hasn't exactly gotten the memo because my left eye still
has a lttle bruise that cover with makeup. I avoided going out especially to the mall cause the first time I went
there after I got back from the hospital the looks people gave me you could see pity and jugdement from
others and I told myself I'm going to leave my flat when I'm all healed up.
I kept staring at my phone wishing that scelo would call me or even show up where I live but I haven't seen
or talked to him since the last time I saw him at the hospital. It hurts me when I think about maybe he just
couldn't handle my drama even though he said he's serious about me but with with men these days you can
never know and I still find it hard to believe a good looking man like him is single...he might be but I know
he's getting some from someone cause he doesn't look like the type that will be celebate.
Karabo:" I think that counter is squeeky clean now aya " damn
Me:" I wasn't even aware that I've been wiping the same spot again and again " I sigh
Karabo:" what's bothering you? "
Me:" it's scelo, I haven't heard from him and I think maybe he changed his mind about me and.... "
Karabo:" I saw him twice and I can't exactly say that he is that kind of person who just walks away from
something they want which is you and from what you told me about him , he sounds like a busy man and
maybe he's busy with work and will call you and see you when he gets time ayanda man ".
Me:" yeah maybe "
Her:" I can't wait to see him again and just look at him "
Me:" you can look but don't touch "
Her:" I just want to get just one hug from him and feel those muscles then I'll be fine "
Me:" I hope you don't fantasize about him when you're sleeping "
Her:" me?, never " she blushes
Me:" you haiffer I can't believe you " I throw the dish cloth at her and we laugh
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Her:" we haven't gotten any orders for a while now "
Me:" I know but I hope something will come up soon or else we are going to starve or we'll have to shut the
business and look for jobs "
Her:" I know but I have faith that something will pop up and don't forget we have a page on all social media
and were on the database too so don't worry aya "
Me:" I wish I was lilly now "
Her:" me too " we giggle then we hear the door opening and we look up and it's scelo and he looks
absolutely gorgeous.
Him:" good afternoon ladies " he smiles and my heart melts, he's wearing black short and a yellow polo golf
shirt and track shoes, baseball hat and he looks so damn sexy.
Me:" hello " I smile
Him:" I missed you " then he smiles and I hear karabo sigh and I look at her and she looks like she's about to
drool jesus karabo and her wondering eyes.
Me:" scelo this is my best friend karabo,I think you remember her and karabs this is scelo the man I was
telling you about "
Her:" I still remember him aya, how are you scelo? "
Him:" I'm good karabo "
Me:" can you excuse us karabs? "
Her:" sure, nice meeting you sicelo "
Him:" likewise " karabs leaves us alone and I just stand there and look awkward.
Me:" how are you? "
Him:" I missed you " I smile
Me:" I thought you forgort about me "
Him:" come and kiss me to remind me who you are again "
Me:" that's not funny "
Him:" come here and kiss your man "
Me:" someone might walk in "
Him:" and you care because? "

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Me:" because it's my workplace and I don't want to make anyone feel..uhm uncomfortable "
Him:" you're making me feel uncomfortable cause you're refusing to kiss me. Get your cute butt over here " I
smile and leave the counter and go to him and as soon as I stand next to him, he grabs my waist and that
makes me put my hands on his hard chest and I feel my body reacting. He brings his face down and looks at
my lips and I involuntary lick them and he kisses and I stand on my toes and kiss him back and it feels so
damn good. I feel his hands go down and they grab my ass and and brings it close and I feel his hard girth
poking my stomach and I moan and try to pull out from the kiss but he takes his other hand and holds my head
and kisses the living day lights out of me.
Me:" scelo..."
Him:" hmmmm"
Me:" stop...." and he does and looks at me
Him:" I'm sorry I got carried away, I just missed you that's all " he hugs me and he smells great too
Me:" I missed you too "
Him:" can I use your bathroom quick? "
Me:" yeah sure, it's in my office follow me "
Him:" I don't think that's a good idea to be alone with you in your office because I want to do so many things
to you "
Me:" ok I'll show you and leave " I step back and look at his pants and his dick is pointing forward.
Me:" you might want to cover that cause I don't want karabo to see " he pulls his polo shirt off his waist and
it tries to cover it but you can still see his dick
Him:" you think she might like what she sees? "
Me:" she will, you saw the way she was looking at you "
Him:" do I need to get worried about your friends? "
Me:" no, they would never hit on you " I giggle well karabo won't but lilly?, I'm not so sure
He follows me to the office and thank God karabo is not there, I show him our mini bathroom
Me:" are you going to jack off? " oh hell no I did not just ask him that and he looks at me surprised and
shocked that I asked him that.
Him:" I was going to just pour cold water on it but hey if you could help me out I'll be more than welcome "
he says looking at me amused
Me:" here's my face cloth use it to wipe yourself after the cold water has calmed you down.
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Him:" close and lock the door " he says unbuckling his pants
Me:" scelo..."
Him:" do it " I lock the door and turn and look at him and I think he's going to want us to.....do I want that?.
He takes off his pants same time with his underwear and I see his huge dick springing free and I close my
eyes blushing
Him:" what's wrong yaya? "
Me:" uhmmm nothing "
Him:" then look at me "
Me:" uhm nope "
Him:" you might aswell look cause the two of you soon are going to be really great roommates
Me:" roommates? "
Him:" yes he's going to be living in there soon " I shake my head and smile
Me:" can you please go to the bathroom and help yourself? "
Him:" are sure you don't wanna look, touch and smell him? " gosh the way he says it
Me:" scelo man " he put that thought in my head and I'm sure it's the only thing I'm going to be thinking about
now
Him:" ok open your eyes my yaya " I open my eyes and see his very cute behind going to the bathroom and
something heavy hanging between his legs and I swallow hard. His pants and underwear are on top of my
table and I just to go there and touch his underwear and feel it. I hear the water splashing and he curses and I
almost go there thinking that maybe he's hurt but nope I'm not going there.
Me:" are you okay in there? "
Him:" yeah...you want to help me? "
Me:" no! " he laughs this fool. He comes back after a few minutes and I look at him again and he looks like
he's still hard
Me:" didn't the water help him? "
Him:" I did until he felt your eyes on him again "
Me:" put on some clothes please "
Him:" I like walking around naked "

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Me:" karabo might knock and God knows what will she see "
Him:" am I making you feel uncomfortable? "
Me:" yes " he takes his underwear and wears it and God I just want to put my hands inside there....they are
itching for me to do it
Him:" I left your face cloth there, didn't know where to put it "
Me:" I'll take care of it " I go to the bathroom, see it and I pick in up and imagine his dick and balls moving
all over my face cloth and I get wet just thinking about it.
Him:" are you okay yaya? " I'm day dreaming about scelo dick and balls what is wrong with me?
Me:" I'm coming "
Him:" no yaya you won't be saying it like that when I'm making you come "
Me:" you have such a filthy mouth "
Him:" and you love it " he puts his pants on again and fixes he's clothes and I get a little jealous when I think
he could have been with some other woman.
Me:" uhm you want to sit down? "
Him:" I want to take you out for late lunch, are you guys busy? "
Me:" no business has been slow since I've been recovering "
Him:" what were your partners doing? "
Me:" well karabs is a mess when it comes to cooking and she mostly deals with paperwork and lilly well
she left with her boyfriend they are on a mini holiday "
Him:" mark went on a holiday?, that's so unlike him " oh boy
Me:" uhmmm, it's not mark " he raises his eye brow
Him:" she has two boyfriends? "
Me:" yeah lets put it like that "
Him:" hmmm "
Me:" what? "
Him:" nothing, lets go "
Me:" can you wait for me at the front, I want to freshen up "

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Him:" but I freshened up with you here, why can't you do the same? "
Me:" because I'm not forward like you " he chuckles and it sounds sexy
Him:" you have a smart mouth yaya "
Me:" I know, it can get me into trouble sometimes "
Him:" I already see that. I'll go chat to karabo don't take long "
Me:" ok " he kisses me then leaves and I take a deep breath out
I lock the door take off my clothes then take my toiletry back and quickly get in the shower and shower fast
using my face cloth scelo used to wipe his dick, after I'm done I mosturise and look for my back of clothes
that I always keep wear fresh clean underwear incase, wear my summer dress then my sandals and comb my
hair, put on make up to cover my eye, huge hoop earings, perfume then take my bag and sunglasses and leave
the office and I find karabo and scelo talking then they laugh and he has a beautiful white full teeth sigh.
Me:" I hope you two are not talking about me "
Him:" wow yaya you look beautiful " he comes and kisses my cheek
Me:" thank you "
Karabo:" wow he even has a pet name for you isn't he just amazing yaya? "
Me:" wipe that dreamy look off your face karabo and perfect well I don't know know about that cause for all
I know he could be a woman underneath " he smirks and shakes his head
Him:" the day I'm going to fuck this smartness out of you, you'll know I'm a man baby " he whispers in my ear
Me:" I don't think you'll last more that five minutes " he chuckles and I know I'm pushing and I don't know
why maybe I'm still pissed that he hasn't told me why he's been missing and not calling me.
Him:" I'm not going to touch you and fuck you until you beg me to do it and baby it's not gonna be easy to
convince me "
Me:" hmm it took you less than five minutes to get hard and you almost came in your pants kissing me so
we'll see who will beg who "
Him:" is that a bet miss maseko? "
Me:" no it's a promise "
Him:" you're playing a dangerous game and you will lose "
Me:" we shall see then "
Karabo:" wow!, you two are having this conversation infront of me and you don't even care that I can hear
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you? "
Me:" you''re not a virgin karabo "
Him:" lets go "
Me:" lock up karabs, I'll see you later "
Her:" have fun and use lots of condoms "
Me:" bye friend " mbuso looks at me and I feel a slight tremor of fear, damn me and my big mouth.
Him:" after you "
We leave the bakery and get in his car wow it's BMW M8 then he drivces off silenty and I look at him and
he looks at me smiles and the hair on the back of my neck stands.
AYANDA.
The way he's griping the steering wheel it's like he's pissed and that scares me because it reminds me of how
tshepo would get whenervhe was upset he would do the same thing before I feel a hot slap on my face but
obviously I don't learn because the way I talked to him infront of karabo is not okay at all.
Me:" where are we going? " I didn't want to say that
Him:" we're going to eat "
Me:" I know but where? "
Him:" does it matter? " he still won't look at me, I want him to look at me.
Me:" I guess not "
Him:" are you in a hurry to be somewhere? "
Me:" no I don't "
Him:" then can I please drive? "
Me:" don't snap at me! "
Him:" did I snap at you? " he looks at me annoyed
Me:" yes, the way you answered me "
Him:" is it that time of the month? "
Me:" what no!, why would you even ask me that? "
Him:" because you're moody as fuck and not the sweet woman I left at the hospital "
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Me:" yeah the last time I saw you and you didn't even bother to call me and find out if I'm okay "
Him:" why didn't you call me too, to find out if I'm okay?. I could have been dead and my family would have
buried me but you wouldn't know because you didn't even think of calling me, did you even think of doing
that? "
Me:" how will I call you when I don't even have your phone number scelo? " he looks at me shakes his head
then takes out his phone
Me:" please keep your eyes on the road " he ignores me then he taps still driving and looking at the road
Me:" don't you know the rules of the road?, no driving or texting or talking on the phone with one hand while
driving " ugh!
Him:" I've been driving even before you were born " he taps then I hear my phone ringing and I take my bag
and fish for it, find it and when I look at the screen it says { your man is calling } and I laugh
Me:" you are so full of yourself "
Him:" insult me yaya again yaya "
Me:" fuck you scelo " he chuckles.
I don't know why I act around him this way and I can't help myself because for the first time he makes me feel
like I can be myself around him and I like that about him. I don't have to pretend to be someone else, I can
just be myself. Oh my fucken God he's taking me to the Shandu Ka Ndaba Resturant, from the famous Mbatha
family Oh my God I have always wanted to come here .
Me:" wow scelo this place is amazing, I have always wanted to come here thank you " I hug him excited
Him:" look who's touching who now " he smirks
Me:" fuck off scelo "
Him:" hmm" he chuckles
Me:" wait, don't you have to book in advance to come here? "
Him:" lets just say I know someone who knows someone "
Me:" wow impressed " a waitress comes
Her:" hello I'm thandi and I'm going to be your waitress, did you reserve a table or can I get you a table for
two? "
Sicelo:" we have a reservation sicelo mbatha " I will never get over how he pronounces his name, he says it
in full not scelo but sicelo yoh this man!. I giggle and he looks at me and our watress here has her eyes all
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Her:" oh here it is, please follow me mr ngcobo " we follow her and my girl here is shaking her booty and I
almost laugh. I look at scelo and he's looking at it. I elbow him and he pretends that I hurt him.
Him:" what? "
Me:" do that again and I'm going to take out your eyes "
Him:" ohh you are jealous "
Me:" oh please! " I roll my eyes
Him:" don't worry yaya , your ass is the only one I want "
Me:" of course you do cause I'm the only one who can stand you " he laughs a deep belly laugh and me and
thandi look at him. I don't blame her but she has to stop it, it's enough now.
Me:" is this our table thandi? "
Her:" oh yes it is " she looks flustered
Me:" you can look at him but his dick only gets hard for me, I took him to my grandmother and she did the
things. Watch what I'm going to say. Baby you know that I'm fucking your best friend and you at the same time
and you're okay with that right? " God what am I doing, scelo is going to kill me, he looks at me and smirks.
Him:" yes my love I know and I don't mind because I share with my brothers "
Her:" wow sister, can you please hook me up with your grandmother too? "
Me:" remind me when I leave " she nods then gives us our menus and I order red mine and scelo orders
whiskey then order our food then she leaves. We look at each other in silence then laugh our asses off and
some people look at us like we're crazy.
Him:" oh aya, aya, aya. You are trouble "
Me:" that's because you bring out the best in me " he looks at me intensely and I start to get uncomfortable.
Him:" you really mean that? "
Me:" yeah, for the first time in my life I feel like I can be myself and it's you who's making me feel that way"
Him:" I'm glad to hear that but I can't take all the credit. You're taking your life back in your hands and you're
doing great baby "
Me:" thank you " our starter comes and we dig in, the food in this place is out of this world. We talk and we
laugh alot and I can't remember the last time I was this happy and carefree not worrying about pissing
someone off.
Him:" you're frowning, what are you thinking about? "

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Me:" where were you? "
Him:" After I left you at the hospital when I got to my place, my sister's fiancee was there with his brother, I
take them as my brothers that's how close we are and so we got a call that my sister's other brother was shot
and we had to go to newcastle and we found out that he died. He was from Standerton and we had to go there
and help with the funeral and my sister is pregnant and so her fiancee had to tell her and she took it better
than we thought "
Me:" wow, I'm so sorry for your loss scelo " It take his hand to mine and hold it.
Him:" I would tell you some other time how we're all related cause it's a long story. My sister on the day of
the funeral was crying hard and so preston who's a doctor injected her to calm her down and she was taken to
the hospital and she's now on bedrest "
Me:" I hope she's okay now and the baby is fine "
Him:" she is, she's one strong woman and when you meet her you are going to see what an amazing woman
she is " he smiles and you can see the love he has for his sister.
Me:" I can't wait " I really mean it and I wonder if she's anything like him.
Him:" you want to see her ? "
Me:" yes please " he takes out his phone and he has a picture of her as his screen saver and I feel a stab of
jealousy that it should be me there then I feel guilty how can I be jealous of his sister my God what is wrong
with me?!.
He unlocks his phone with his thumb then goes to his gallery then he shows me pictures of the most beautiful
girl I have ever seen. Wow that's his sister and she looks like him even though she's light skinned and her hair
is insane and she has a very beautiful warm, kind smile that's very inviting and I smile back and just looking
at her picture you can feel her aura it's very calm and poistive " he shows me other pictures of her and I'm in
awe, then he shows me another picture where she's sitting and laughing there's his dad and a woman and a
man who looking at her.
Me:" wow she's beautiful scelo and is this her fiancee? "
Him:" yeah that's Mbuso and she's Lungile but we call her luh and that's my dad and my aunt " he chuckles
and shakes his head
Me:" wow the way he's looking at her it's like he sees only her and no one else "
Him:" who? "
Me:" Mbuso "
Him:" why do you say that? " he frowns and I giggle
Me:" it's his body language, his eyes...his whole demeaner that intense look, wow it is..." I get goosebumps
all over my body
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Him:" unexplainanble? " exactly that
Me:" yes " he must really love her
Him:" you'll meet them soon and they'are gong to love you "
Me:" you're saying this for the second time scelo, do you mean it? "
Him:" I told you that I want only you and I'm serious about you so yes I mean every word " I smile and we
continue to chat and I must say I have really strong feeling for scelo....I really like him. My phone rings, I take
it out of my bag and I see a number I don't recognise but I answer thinking it might be a potentila client.
Me:" Ayanda Maseko hello? "
Him:" I see it didnt take you long to move on without me cause you're already out and dating some frog " I
freeze the moment I hear his voice and all the colour leaves my face and then I start to shake.
Scelo:" aya?....aya? " I look at scelo calling my name
Me:" he's here, he's here scelo, tshepo is here watching us " I look around but don't see anyone as my eyes
well with tears, I drop the phone and scelo picks it up.
Scelo:" you have some fucken guts to call her while you know there's a fucken price on your head " scelo
says and I don't hear what tshepo says but it seems that whatever he's saying is pissing scelo more and more.
Him:" you better pray and hope the police find you before I do" he says then hangs up and looks at me.
Scelo:" lets get out of here " I take my bag and he takes out his wallet and throws a bunch of notes on the
table then takes my trembling hand and looks at me.
Him" I've got you ayanda, he won't hurt you ever again I promise " we leave the resturant and go to his car
and we drive off.
Me:" can you please take me to my place?"
Him" what? hell no,! you're not going to your place. I'm not going to leave you alone while that sick fuck can
come and get you "
Me:" I'll call karabo to come so I won't be alone"
Him:" that's why I'm taking you to her place " I look outside the window and see we're almost there damn.
Me:" I'll be fine don't worry "
Him:" you're shaking ayanda and I want to take you to my place "
Me:" scelo please! "
Him:" I'm your man and I want to protect you but you won't let me and I don't want to force you to do anything
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you don't want to do. come " I use my key and let myself in.
Him:" I shouldn't leave you alone here yaya, please come with me! "
Me:" I just want to be alone scelo don't you get it?! " I shout at him
Him:" fine, call karabo and let her know you're here. You'll tell me when you want to see me " then he closes
the door and leaves.
I pour myself a glass of wine, sit on the couch go through my phone then block the number that called me,
fuck you tshepo I hate you!.

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SICELO.

This girl is stubborn and she doesn't understand that that psycho knows where her friends live and if he
doesn't find her at her place he might come here and find her. As much as I want to go back to my place and
leave her I can't because he might show up and hurt her and possibly kill her this time. I leave karabo's
complex and go to a garage near where she is, park there and call celeste.

Her:" boss? "

Me:" I'll send you the location of where I'm at, I think ayanda's ex is following her and might show up at her
place later and he saw the car I was driving so I left her at her friends place and I'm at the garage now and I
want us to exchange cars and tell the other guys to come too so we can catch him if he shows up "

Her:" okay boss man " I send her my location and wait and 20 minutes later she's here, she gets in the car and
sits.

Me:" that was fast "

Her:" I wasn't busy, I need her friends address so I can send the guys to watch the place " I give her the
address and her picture and karabo's complex number and she sends it.

Me:" she's so damn stubborn "

Her:" why didn't you take her to your place? "

Me:" she said she wants to be alone and I didn't want to overwhelm her and push her cause she's still hurting
over what her ex did and me putting pressure on here will just push her away from me. I'll give her space she
needs and hopefully she'll call me once she comes down I think "

Her:" she sounds like she's a handful "

Me:" that she is and that smart damn mouth of hers " she laughs.

Her:' can't wait to meet her? "

Me:" you'll like her " we get out of the car

Her:' you want me to stay with you? "

Me:" do I look like I need a babysitter? "

Her:" yeah you do, you look pissed and you might just hurt someone " she laughs at me

Me:" get in celeste and what I want is for ayanda to do as I say follow my rukes that's all... "

Her:" she doesn't sound like the type to follow someone's rules "
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Me:" when I first saw her amd met her I thought she was the submissive kind but now I'm not sure "

Her:" you can always bend her to the way you want "

Me:" I'm not sure "

Her:" let me go get us something to drink, what do you want? "

Me:" just water "

Her:" are you sure cause you look like you need something strong? "

Me:" I do, just get me can of heineken "

Her:" now that's my boss " she leaves and I take out my phone and think of calling ayanda but I leave it.
Celeste gets back and we sit in the car for almost 3 hours and tells me the guys told her that ayanda orderd
uber eats and the guy delivered and then left.

Me:" I'm going home, tell the guys to change shifts but I want her watched 27/4 and call me if they see or
even suspect anything "

Her:" I'll stay behind too, I'll leave at midnight just incase that punk shows up "

Me:" sure " I get in the car and drive straight to my place and the smell of food hits me, I smile and go to the
kitchen and find zama there cooking. I know she knows that I'm here but she doesn't acknowlegde my
presence and continues to cook and I don't like that.

Me:" hello zama " I sit down and look at her behind the stove

Her:" good evening sir " what ?

Me:" zama? "

Her:" yes sir? "

Me:" look at me " she ignores me and keeps stirring the pot

Her:" the food is almost ready, can I dish up for you sir? "

Me:" will you stop calling me sir and look at me " she still won't fuck!, what is it with women today?. I get
off chair and go to where she is and try to turn her so she'll look at me

Her:" please don't touch me! " I ignore that and I turn her and see that her face looks red and puffy like she's
been crying for a while and it does something to my heart.

Me:" hey, what's wrong?, why are you crying? "


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Her:" nothing, can I please dish up for you sir? "

Me:" stop calling me that "

Her:" why?, wasn't it you who told me that things have to be professional between us? "

Me:" I know I did but I don't want you to be this cold towards me? "

Her:" scelo what the hell do you want from me exactly?, I follow and do whatever that is you want from me
but it's still not enough. I begged and begged for you to leave me alone but you wouldn't, you kept on
persuading me until you left me no choice but to give in. I tried to date but you would sabotage that and
threaten them to leave me alone and I have no life besides being your play thing that you use whenever you
want to and I don't complain because I give myself to you. I have people always following me, I have no
freedom cause they report to you whatever I do or wherever I go and I get introuble for wanting to have a life
and then you decide that you've had enough of me and you toss me away like a piece of shit that you're done
using and I must just accept and I did exactly that!. You would bring women here and fuck them with me
under the same roof and yet still I never complained because I knew my place and I would still allow you to
be inside and not complain but no more, it's enough now! ". her tears fall hard with every word that stings my
heart and I just stand there because everything she says is the truth.

Me:" I was doing all of this because I wanted to protect you, I thought..."

Her:" thought what scelo?, that I wouldn't fall inlove with you, that it wouldn't hurt me when you tell me that
you've met someone and you're serious about her and I have to accept it cause there's no future with us and
there never was?. Did you ever take a minute and think how did I feel when you told me all of that?. I gave
myself to you with my heart, body and soul because I thought that maybe just maybe you would see me as a
woman and not just your housekeeper that you fuck. I know I'm not in your league and I'm not the type of
woman you would want to bring to your family and it's okay, I understand that now, but what I want from you
sir is to leave me alone ".

Him:" zama I thought you didn't mind because you never said anything why d...." my phone rings and I look at
it and it's ayanda fuck! I look at zama and she shakes her head and looks really hurt

Her:" answer it sir someone else needs you " she goes and leaves me in the kitchen and I watch her go to her
room and I stand there and look at her.

Me:" ayanda? "

Her:" please come and get me "

Me:" what's wrong? "

Her:" nothing, I just miss you "

Me:" I'm coming "


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I look at where zama disappeared cover my face with hands shake my head then take my car keys and leave
my house. I get off the car and go to her to karabo's flat and knock on the door and I wait for few minutes
then she opens the door

Me:" you just opened the door and didn't ask who it is, are you crazy? "

Her:" oh please, I knew it was you! " she rolls her eyes and she reeks of alcohol

Me:" why don't you care about your safety ayanda?, or did you forget what tshepo did to you? "

Her:" because I know how he knocks okay, I would have known if it was him "

Me:" that sounds stupid and very reckless "

Her:" I didn't ask you to come here so you'll tell me about how reckless and stupid I am okay "

Me:" yes you are reckless because you're drunk, you open the door and you don't ask who it is!, Tshepo
could have been the one that was knocking and he would have done something to you easily because you're
drunk! "

Her:" don't you dare call me easy okay?, I'm not easy! "

Me:" ayanda I never said you're easy, I meant in the state that you are in now it could have been easy for him
to hurt you, doesn't that scare you? "

Her:" I'm not worried about that cause you're here now " fuck this woman!

Me:" how many glasses did you drink? "

Her:" a whole bottle, I'm about to open another one, do you want some? " what?

Me:" no, I'm good, why don't you drink some water so you'll feel better? "

Her:" don't tell me what to do, tshepo used to that and I swore that I'm not going to let another man tell me
what to do so stop it! "

Me:" why do you talk to me like that using that tone? "

Her:" what tone scelo gees, you're so uptight you need to losen up, live a little man " wow

Me:" where is karabo? "

Her:" I don't know probably getting dicked down wherever she is " she laughs

Me:" ok get your bag and lets go "

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Her:" ok, but lets go to club after, yes the one that you saw me at " she gets up stumbles and I hold her.

Me:" no, you need sleep that wine off and we both had a long day "

Her:" you are no fun, you're boring " she says taking her bag

Me:" give me the keys, I'll lock up " she gives them to me and I lock up, get her in the car and drive to my
place. She talks a bunch of things and I just listen to her.

Maybe ayanda is not really ready to be in a relationship with me or anyone and I don't know if she's acting
out because of the abuse or maybe she's really showing me her true self but I think she needs some
counselling to deal with the truma she experienced and then maybe she'll heal and be better. I won't give up
on her, she needs my help and I'm going to help her and be there for her every step of the way as long as she
lets me.

Her:" don't ignore me I'm right here " she slurs

Me:" I'm driving ayanda I'm not ignoring you "

Her:" when are we getting to your place? "

Me:" we're here " I drive in and park the car , ayanda gets off I do too then take her hand and lead her to the
front door and open it." this is my home welcome "

Her:" wow, your house is big and it looks very expensive and nice, I like it "

Me:" welcome "

Her:" what is that smell? "

Me:" food, you're hungry? "

Her:" no "

Me:" then lets get you to bed "

Her:" but I want to see the house first? "

Me:" you'll see it tomorrow, come "

Her:" ooh you're in a hurry to take off my clothes and fuck me aren't you? "

Me:" ayanda come, you're drunk and you must sleep "

Her:" ugh lets go " I take her to the guest bedroom

Me:" you'll sleep here, here's the bathroom and I'll get you something to wear while you shower "
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Her:" is this your bedroom? "

Me:" no "

Her:" why didn't you take me to your bedroom? "

Me:" because I want you to feel comfortable and not think that I want to sleep with you "

Her:" but I want to sleep with you "

Me:" no, not like this "

her:" then get out and leave me to sleep "

Me:" good night ayanda, call me if you need anything " she ignores me and I close the door then stand for a
few minutes then hear her mumbling stuff then she gets in the bed. I open the door a little and see that she's
already knocked out sleeping. I switch the lights off then close the door.

Somehow my feet take me to zama's room cause that's where I'm standing now, right outside her bedroom
door. I'm about to knock when I hear her soft cries and I stand there and listen to her crying. I want to go there
and comfort her but I don't know what to say and I don't want to hurt her further so I swicth all the lights off
and go to my bedroom take off my clothes, shower, get in bed and zama's words keep playing in my head
over and over until I fall asleep.

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I hardly slept because I kept tossing and turning all night thinking about ayanda zama. I wake up, go shower
then go and check on ayanda to see if she's still sleeping or awake. I knock softly on the door cause I don't
want to wake her up incase if she's still sleeping, she doesn't answer so I open the door and poke my head,
she's still sleeping off the wine. I close the door and go to the kitchen I'll ask zama to make her greasy
breakfast cause she's going to wake up with a huge hangover.

I get to the kitchen and I notice that there's no smell of the fresh brewing coffee or breakfast made. Zama is
usually awake by this time and is cleaning somewhere in the house or maybe she's sick cause I left her crying
last night. I go to her room and knock soflty.

Me:" zama?, are you okay? " she doesn't answer me. " can you open the door for me?........ok I'm coming in "
I open the door and she's not there, her bed is perfectly made then I look at her dressing table and a picture
frame of her mom is not on there, where is it cause it has always been there?. A slight fear of tremour hits
me, I go to the bathroom and her feminine toiletries are not there. I open her closet and its empty.....no wait!,
she's not gone!.

I leave her bedroom and head to the cottage, maybe she moved out of the house to give me and ayanda space,
yes I'll find her there. I don't knock just open the door and get in hoping to find her but the cottage is also
empty. It's in the same way I remember and she's not there, she left, she fucken left me!.

I go to the house, get my phone from the bedroom, go to the living room and call her phone but it says the
number doesn't exist fuck zama where the fuck are you at?!. I call the security guys to come to the house and
they get in.

Me:" when did zama leave? "

Dan:" like two hours ago boss "

Me:" what was she carrying anything with her? "

Dan:" only her handbag sir "

Me:" where did she say she was going? "

Dan:" she said she's going to the garage to get something "

Me:" and when and hour passed you didn't find it strange that she's not back? "

Dan:" we thought that maybe she went somewhere or maybe she met a friend there "

Me:" and you didn't think to go look for her or let me know that she's not back?, go to that garage and find out
where she went or if she's there " they leave and I try to tell myself that she didn't leave, she's still at the
garage but deep down I know that she's gone, she made sure that she'll leave while I'm still sleeping but when
did she start moving her things out?, was it when I told her about ayanda or when we went to standerton? " I
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call mbuso cause he's the only one that will track her last location and I know I'll find her.

Him:" Mapholoba? "

Me:" Mnguni, how's it going brother? "

Him:" I'm great man but I could ask you since you're the one who's calling me "

Me:" where's luh? "

Him:" my rib?, she's right here sleeping why? "

Me:" man I need to talk to you "

Him:" what's wrong? " I hear shuffling

Me:" fool are you putting some clothes on? "

Him:" yeah I have just put your sister to sleep " he laughs

Me:" man fuck you "

Him:" brother you sound moody you need to get laid " we laugh

Me:" zama left "

Him:" how do you mean? " I hear a door closing

Me:" she packed her things and left, she left me " I sigh and close my eyes

Him:" left you?, you guys were not together so how did she leave you brother, what happened? "

Me:" well she told me.... " I tell him what she said to me.

Him:" ok let me get this right, you told her that you guys are just fucking and it's nothing serious but then you
cock block her from guys who want her and her from the guys she wants to date?, is that what you did? "

Me:" yeah I couldn't fuck her while I knew that she was fucking some other guy "

Him:" yet you said you're just fucking but it's only you who gets to fuck other women and not her and you
thought that she wouldn't feel a certain way and catch feelings? "

Me:" but why didn't she say anything? "

Him:" bro you made the rules and she followed them because she thought that maybe if you don't want her to
see other people then that means there might be something between the two of you "

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Me:" bro I didn't make her any promises "

Him:" you actually did with your actions but not words, how many girls have you fucked since you met her ?
"

Me:" many "

Him:" and did you set ground rules for them too like you did for her? "

Me:" no I didn't "

Him:" did you punish her when she did something you told her to not do? "

Me:" I did "

Him:" why her and not the others you were just fucking too like her? "

Me:" because they didn't mean anything to me "

Him:" and zama means something to you? "

Me:" I know hurt her when I told her about ayanda but I really care about her, she's a good person "

Him:" yes you did hurt her because she thought she might have a future with you but then you tell her about
this woman and she accepts and decides to remove herself from that situation so you can be with the woman
that you want but you're upset that she's gone? "

Me:" I just didn't expect her to leave, she didn't have to leave "

Him:" so you expected the woman who claims to love you ,watch you love someone else? "

Me:" man I don't know "

Him:" brother she's respecting your choice and decision and maybe you should do the same "

Me:" I'm worried about her bro, help me find her "

Him:" and when you find her, what are you going to do? "

Me:" I don't know, I just want to know if she's safe "

Him:" if she wanted you to know she would have told you that she's leaving and where she's going, just leave
her brother and focus on your relationship with what's her name again?....yes ayanda. Focus on her cause I
don't think she would like hearing all this talk about finding zama your housekeeper, the woman you were
fucking "

Me:" look I'll send you her number but it says it doesn't exist and her account number, I need you to track it
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and let me know if she makes any transactions "

Him:" ok send them, hold on your sister wants to talk to you "

Me:" ok let me know how it goes "

Him:" sure bro "

Her:" sawubona bhuti scelo " { hello big brother } man I always love it when she calls me that, I smile.

Me:" my favourite woman and sister in the world that I love more than anything "

Her:" your only sister you mean, how are you? "

Me:" I'm good, how is the baby treating you? "

Her:" this little person is the best, she loves her mommy and makes her eat and sleep and being on bedrest
has actually made me gain weight and get lazy "

Me:" you should exercise "

Her:" I do enough of that with mbuso....oops sorry " she giggles

Me:" hey now I don't need to hear all of that but I'm happy for you sis, mbuso is a good man and he loves you
"

Her:" and I love him too. You sound down are you okay? "

Me:" I am, I just miss you guys, I miss being at home "

Her:' yeah you're all alone there with no one, you should come home so we can spend sometime together, we
can have a memorial braai for thami you know, just friends and family "

Me:" yeah that would be nice, how are you feeling now? "

Her:" I forgave myself and had a good cry that day so I'm great. I'm just ready for the negotiations to start and
be over, get married and then have this baby "

Me:" hang in there sis "

Her:" can't wait for you to be an uncle "

Me:" me too sis "

Her:" we'll talk later then, I love you "

Me:" I love you too " she hangs up and I shake my head and smile.
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Ayanda:" who were you telling that you love them? "

Me:" good morning ayanda, did you sleep well? "

Her:" I did, who was it? "

Me:" I'm good too thanks for asking, how's your headache? "

Her:" I asked you a question scelo, who was that?! "

Me:" my sister, what would you like for breakfast? "

Her:" you're lying to me aren't you, it wasn't her, give me your phone now! " she says screaming at me and I
look at her

Me:" why would I lie about that? "

Her:" because it's the way you said it! "

Me:" how I said it?, how did I say it? "

Her:" like you're saying it to a lover " this bitch is fucken crazy!

Me:" I don't have time for this, so early in the morning come one ayanda "

Her:" that's because you know it's the truth, I know men like you scelo "

Me:" men like me? "

Her:" yes the lying, cheating and abusing kind! "

Me:" you dont know me like that so please don't paint me in the same brush with that of your ex " I'm really
trying to not let her words get me worked up

Her:" or what scelo hmmm? "

Me:" nothing ayanda or nothing. Why don't you go shower then come back, I'll make you something to eat in
the meantime "

Her:" feeling guilty cause I caught you talking to your lover! "

Me:" for the last time ayanda I was talking with mbuso and my sister okay "

Her:" then give me your phone so I can see for myself "

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Me:" I don't fucken owe you an explanation or prove to you who I was talking with but I'll do it so you'll stop
nagging me " I take out my phone and put it on loud speaker so she will hear for herself, it rings and mbuso
answers

Him:" bro? "

Me:" did I call you just now? "

Him:" yes, why? "

Me:" did I talk to luh? "

Him:" yeah you did, what's going on bro? "

Me:" nothing man, we'll talk later " I hang up and look at her " you satisfied, you happy now? "

Her:" whatever I know he covered for you "

Me:" you know what I don't care what you think "

Her:" truth hurts right? "

Me:" you wake up, you don't ask me how I am then you accuse me of talking to my lover, call me a lier, a
cheater and an abuser. Have I lied to you, cheated on you and most importantly put my hands on you ayanda?
"

Her:" but soon you will it's only a matter of time! "

Me:" really?, that's what you think of when you look at me? "

Her:" don't act as if you're perfect and have never done those things! "

Me:" I never said I was perfect and yes I have done things I'm not proud of but I haven't done anything to you,
for you to condemn me like this. Is this how we are going to start a relationship, with you always arguing and
accusing me of stuff? "

Her:" I know what I heard and you can deny it all you want, I'm telling you how I feel and you call it
arguing?, fine then I don't care "

Me:" we ayanda, kuzokusiza ukuthi uma ukhuluma nami uzehlise, ukhulume nami ngenhlonipho engikubonisa
yona siyezwana? " ( it will help you to know that when you talk to me,you calm down and you show me the
same respect I show you when I talk with you, do we understand each other? )

Her:" hmm cause if I don't I might find myself in the hospital again or probably dead " I shake my head
frustrated cause she hasn't heard anything I said to her.

Me:" you need help ayanda, you need someone to talk to who will help you get through the trauma you
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experienced "

Her:" you want me to talk to a shrink because you think I'm crazy? "

Me:" you know for someone who's a business woman you sound very stupid right now "

Her:" don't you dare call me that you son of a bitch! " she picks up a glass centrepiece on the table and
throws it at me and I cover my face and it hits my arm and it hurts. I didn't expect her to do that because she
did it so fast.

Me:" don't you ever in your life call my mother a bitch and hit me me with anything! "

Her:" fuck you scelo, I don't need this bullshit! "

Me:" then what are you still doing in my house? "

Her:" I don't need you, you hear me I don't fucken need you! "

Me:" I heard you, I'll get one of my drivers to take you home " I send Dan a message to come

Her:" fine run away from your responsibility "

Me:" what responsibility are you talking about? "

Her:" me! "

Me:" you're not my respobility ayanda, I want to help you get better but how will I do that if you keep
accusing me and insulting me? "

Her:" call it whatever you want but we both know it's the truth "

Me:" you know what?, Iv'e had enough of this. Here is the number of the person I arranged for you to see, she
will help you " I send her the number.

Her:" is she one of your lovers, are you fucken her? "

Me:" are you still drunk ayanda? "

Her:" do I look like I'm drunk to you? "

Me:" yes, do you hear the things that are coming out of your mouth? "

Me:" you mean me telling you what everyone else is afraid of telling you? " this bitch is delusional

Me:" for the love of God woman stop it okay?!, stop it! "

Her:" fuck you scelo I don't need you, I'm out of here and don't ever fucken call me. Me and you are done! "
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Me:" we didn't start anything and I'm glad you showed me your true colours before I even began a
relationship with you. Tell me ayanda, the woman I met at hospital who is she, where is she, why did you
change? "

Her:" you saw me at the club and talked to me at the hospital twice and then you assumed that you know me?
"

Me:" I guess I was wrong "

Her:" this is me being real, take it or leave it "

Me:" there is no man who wants to be with someone, who belittles them, shows them no respect and accuses
them of things "

Her:" then I guess you've met women who let you walk all over them but not me, rich or not "

Me:" what does me being rich have to do with anything we're talking about?. We can't be together unless you
change your attitude and start showing me respect "

Her:" respect is earned, you don't demand it "

Me:" I never demanded anything from you goodbye ayanda "

Her:" good riddance to bad rubbish "

Me:"you calling me rubbish?... your driver is outside "

Her:" you are going to regret that you let someone like me go "

Me:" no I wont " I get up and open the door for her and she leaves, gets in the car doesn't even look at me and
they leave.

How could I have been so wrong about her?, was it the morphine that was in her blood that made her a nice
person cause she is right when she says I don't know her but I really wanted to get to now her. I thought she
could be the one but within two days she showed me who she really is and I hope to God she's nothing like
buhle. Did I invite trouble in my house cause it sounds like I did.

I have never been so insulted by one person in my life and I still can't believe that I kept my cool. Ayanda
really knows how to get under someone's skin and what confuses me is, if she's like this then why did she
allow her ex to abuse her like this cause she sounds like she's the type that if you hit her she'll hit you back. Is
that how her ex got her inline by abusing her?, was she even being abused?.

Is she taking out her anger and frustrations out on me, is this the way she's dealing with things cause I will not
accept being insulted and accused. Her attitude is bad and she needs to fix it. I look around my house and it
feels empty cause zama is gone. There is no smell of her perfume, the smell of food and it feels like she took
all the warmth from the house and left with it and I don't know where she is.
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MBUSO.
I have no idea who this man is, who claims that lungi is his and she was promised to him cause I know for
sure that I killed the man that was promised lungi. I know cause he confessed before I killed him. I made sure
I killed the right person now this one who claims lungi is his, I have no idea who he is and what he wants
exactly where was he at all this time and why was he quiet.
He decides to show himself now when I think all of this is going to be over soon for lungi and she will live
her life in peace knowing that everyone who meant her harm is dead but now there's this unknown person and
I don't recognise his voice to have an idea who he might be. Did buhle promise her to someone else too or
did sipho and his wife make a deal of their own and they were going to double cross the guy I killed and
make their own money, fuck these people!, we have to get answers soon and kill them.We can't wait for lungi
to give birth cause by then how many more people will come forward and threaten her life?, it's better if we
get answers now and deal with everyone.
Mapholoba:"are you sure that you dont know who that man is? "
Me:" I have no idea and I know I killed the right person "
Him:" sipho better have not promised my daughter to someone else that we don't know about "
Me:" I think he made a deal of his own and now the person is here to cliam what he thinks is his "
Him:" but why come forward now, where was he? "
Me:" I think he was trying to reach sipho but when he couldn't get hold of him, he decides to call lungi "
Him:" but where did he get her numbers? "
Me:" lungi doesn't know him too, what if it's someone close and we don't know who he is "
Him:" that makes him dangerous, he might know us but we don't know him "
Me:" no one is taking lungi away from me, if it means I have to kill every man then that is what I will do "
Him:" did you call scelo? "
Me:" I will deal with this, lungi is going to be my wife and as her man I should be able to fix things "
Him:" and I respect that but remember were dealing with someone we don't know and he may be dangerous "
Me:" I've dealt with worse things than this mapholoba, it's nothing "
Him:" I called him when you were on your way here, he's coming mbuso. We need all hands on deck "
Me:" lets see who these guys are " we get out of the car and they do too cause security wouldn't let them
through. The first thing I notice is they are bodygaurds cause they are dressed like my man and the security
guys here. The security have thier guns pointed to them and they raise their hands up.

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Him:" we are not here to fight "
Mapholoba:" who sent you? "
Him:" we were sent by our boss to come keep you mr gumede safe? " what?
Me:" me?, who the fuck is your boss? "
Him:" Sbusiso Mbatha sir "
Me:" what?, sbu sent you? "
Them:"yes sir he did "
Me:" then why didn't you identify yourselves man? "
Him:" sorry sir, we thought you might be introuble cause you left in a hurry and we couldn't let anything bad
happen so we had to follow you close "
Mapholoba:" guys put your guns down "
Me:" I'm confused now, why would he send people to watch over me?, ok guys you can go I'll call him "
Him:" sorry sir we take orders from our boss, we'll stand back when he tells us to "
Me:" fine stay here then "
Mapholoba:" sibusiso mbatha, old money famous mbatha family? "
Me:" yes sir "
Mapholoba:" how do you know these people? "
Me:" I work with them, lets go inside "
Him:" who did you piss off mbuso? "
Me:" I have no idea unless him sending some of his men to watch over me connects with that guy who claims
lungi is his "
Him:" it might be, you need to call him and find out what happend, lets go to my study " we get in the house
and lungi is in her room. I take my phone and call sbusiso
Sbusiso:" Mnguni, I was expecting your call but not this soon "
Me:" Shandu KaNdaba, why didn't you tell me you're sending your men to watch me fool? "
him:" only you would call me that, you're still the same asshole I know " we laugh
Me:" how are you? "
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Him:" I'm working hard but hey, how's the soon to be mrs "
Me:" you know everything don't you, what's going on man? "
Him:" dude you fucked up, you fucked up big time "
Me:" what did I do? "
Him:" there's a price on your head "
Me:" who wants me dead? "
Him:" it's the brother of the man you killed "
Me:" what man? "
Him:" the man who wanted to buy your pregnant fiancee "
Me:" how did he find out it was me? "
Him:" I don't know but someone let it slip, who were you with when you went to kill the guy? "
Me:" I was alone "
Him:" man think, you told someone and that someone told him "
Me:" other than my in-laws my friends "
Him:" then one of your friends betrayed you "
Me:" I never told them the name of the guy "
Him:" but you told them the details, one of them figured it out and told the guy in exchange for money "
Me:" who is he exactly? "
Him:" he's a nobody but apparently he hired a guy to take you out who's a trained killer man and works for
the government"
Me:" you mean he wants me dead so he can take luh away from me? "
Him:" yes apparently they were going to have her as their slave but then you came and changed everything "
Me:" I'm not afraid of him, let them all come and I'll deal with them "
Him:" I know you have your own team but sending some of my men will help '
Me:" you can help me by sending your men to hear what's the word out there, as for the killer and brother
leave it to me "

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Him:" I'll do that but let me know if you need anything "
Me:" I'll do that, thanks brother for looking out for me "
Him:" just returning the favour, did your brother inlaw enjoy his date at our resturant? "
Me:" it was good man, thanks for hooking them up "
Him:" don't forget I'm just a phone call away "
Me:" I won't fool " we laugh
Him:" or before I forget will we have...."
Me:" man shut up.....there's no way in hell that is happening "
Him:" you scared she'll leave you for me? " we both laugh
Me:" in your dreams man "
Him:" she's it? "
Me:" yeah she is "
Him:" I'm happy for you brother but let me know if both of you change your minds "
Me:" fool we won't, not with her "
Him:" hope I'll be able to say that too one day "
Me:" you will, keep me posted "
Him:' I will brother " he hangs up and I shake my head
Mapholoba:" what did he say? " I tell him well except for the part that sbu wants me to share lungi with him
and have a threesome like we used to which is never going to happen.
Him:" so we get the brother and kill him "
me:" when I was tracking the guy there was no mention of a brother "
Him:" maybe he's partenal or maternal brother they didn't live together or close or maybe they didn't want
people to know they are related "
Me:" maybe, I was thinking that it's time we got the mazibuko'z all together "
Him:" victor is coming on the weekend, he has to be here too "
Me:" he needs to get closure "

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Him:" I need you to focus on luh and leave everything to us "
Me:" but...." the door opens
Sicelo:" dad is right, I'll deal with whoever that guy is. Just find out wo he is and where we'll find him and
we'll bring him here "
Me:" you look like shit "
Him:" man you have no idea. Mapholoba how are you? "
Mapholoba:" I'm good seun but you? " ( son )
Sicelo:" I don't know "
Him:" what's going on? "
Me:" women trouble "
Sicelo:" fool shut up "
Mapholoba:" talk seun " ( son )
Sicelo:" dad lets deal with one thing at a time, I'll tell all of you what happend but for now lets deal with this
guy and get him out of the way "
Me:" next week the negotiations are beggining and I don't want anyone to disrupt that "
Mapholoba:" that's true "
Sicelo:" who were the guys that were following you " I tell him everything including the phone call between
me and sbu
Me:" could it be that the very same guy who's wants me dead, is the one after sipho and thuli? "
Scelo:" it could be or it could be other people they pissed off "
Me:" so we are going to kill all three of them? "
Scelo:" yes, all of them " Someone knocks on the door and it's my lovely baby
Me:" baby? "
Her:" dinner is ready, oh you're here? "
Scelo:" the last time I checked it's my father's house! "
Mapholoba:" scelo!? "
Luh:" I'm sorry bhuti I didn't mean it like that " ( brother )
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Scelo:" luh?....."
Me:" brother what's going on? "
Him:" I don't want to talk about it " he gets up and leaves.
Mapholoba:" talk to him mbuso, he'll tell you what's wrong "
Me:" I will dad "
Him:" lets go and eat, we'll finish this conversation later " we leave the study and she's at the dining room
waiting for us
Mapholoba:" where is you're brother? "
Her:" I don't know "
Me:" baby he didn't mean to snap at you "
Her:" I know "
Mah:" what happend? "
Mapholoba:" scelo is having women trouble and he snapped at his sister "
Mah:" who is she? "
Lungi:" mbuso knows " they all look at me and I keep quiet like I don't know anything and honestly I don't.
Mapholoba:" nonkululeko call scelo "
Mah:" why me? "
Mapholoba:" he won't snap at you " she calls him puts him on loud speaker
Her:" where are you?, we want to eat "
Him:" eat without me, I'm somewhere right now "
Her:" what's wrong scelo? "
Him:" not you too aunty " then he hangs up
Her:" oh well I tried " she says grace and we eat and have light conversations
Luh:" dad can mbuso sleep over please? " I stop eating and look at her
Him:" he can baby, more cows for me " he says shaking his head and luh looks at me smiling
Me:" thank you mapholoba " we finish our dinner then go to bed, I call scelo but he doesn't pick up.I wonder
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what happened between her and ayanda, I hold my baby and we sleep.

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LUNGI.
Dad and mbuso left after having breakfast and I think they are trying to find out who was that man that claims
I'm his and at this point I just want all of this to be over, I want buhle and her parents out of my life and I
don't care what they do with them cause I feel like it they are kept alive I'm always going to have a target on
my back and I'll have to look over my shoulder everytime.
I'm laying on the couch and reading a magazine about parenting when my brother walks in looking like he did
not sleep. He stops when he sees me and comes and sits next to me and he sighs deeply like he has the weight
of the world on his shoulders.
Me:" are you okay? " we speak at the same time
Him:" I'm sorry " we look at each other and we both smile then laugh
Me:" I'm not mad at you, I'm just worried about you cause you don't look like yourself "
Him:" I'm sorry about yesterday, I didn't mean to snap at you "
Me:" it's water under the brigde, come and let me, us make something to eat "
Him:" thank you sis, I'm hungry. Where's mah "
Me:" she left looking all good and said something about meeting someone for a date "
Him:" she's dating "
Me:" of course she is, she's still young "
Him:" I wonder who "
Me:" as long as she's happy I'm good "
Him:" what do you want to eat? "
Me:" chicken mayo sandwich please but can I have milk and cookies first? " he looks at me and smiles
Him:" you know when you were little, you used to love cookies and milk, you'll take my hand and lead me to
the cookie jar mom used to have and it was full chocolate chip cookies then I'll give you a glass of milk and
you dip the cookie and say you want one " he smiles " I used to hate it at first but then it grew on me and it
was something we did almost everyday....it's funny cause I had forgetten that memory until now " I smile
wipe my tears off
Me:" I wish I had that memory " he takes my hand
Him:" I promise you that I'll do it with your kids and you'll do it with my kids and when one of us needs to
talk we'll do that, only the two of us will know "

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Me:" I promise too, thank you for giving me that "
Him:" no thank you for being the light we didn't know we needed until you came "
Me:" you're going to make me cry " we hug
Him:" you've always been a cry baby "
Dad:" just like her mom " dad say with a smile on his face and mbuso is smiling too
Sicelo:" I'm sorry dad, I'm sorry brother for yesterday "
Dad:" it's fine "
Mbuso:" no apologies needed "
Me:" all my favourite men in one room and they all get along I'm so lucky "
Dad:" I'm your only favourite man "
Me:" yes you are dad " I wink at mbuso
Dad:" I saw that " we all laugh.
Me:" anyone else hungry? "
Mbuso:" you're not cooking, I'll cook "
Me:" I don't wanna die "
Him:" baby I've never cooked for you so let me show you what my mama taught me "
Me:" oooh yes sir " scelo gives me my cookies and milk and they have beer and they start talking about
soccer and I just watch them and again I'm thankful to have all of them because I know they'll die for me and
I'll die for them too.
Mah:" wow some of us are planning a wedding and the rest of you are chilling and having fun, no stress or
anything "
Preston:" Imagine the day we had...stressful, big brother can I have a glass of white wine "
Sicelo:" preston I'm cooking "
Preston:" you can cook? "
me:" he's making me a chicken mayo sandwich "
Mah:" does he know how to make it " she looks like she's going to get sick and we all laugh
Scelo:" the lady from orphanage taught me how to cook, so I know my way around he kitchen "
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Preston:" you lived in an orphanage? " he asks shocked
Sicelo:" yeah I did " he tells him how we all ended up being here now and he is a mess crying
Preston:" wow, you know some family don't have this unity, accept strangers, be kind and treat them like
their own...I mean to even their own sons " he says getting teary
Me:" you have us now " I try to lighten the mood
Preston:" I do but why haven't you asked me where I'm from "
Dad:" because you'll tell us when you're ready and also we don't let just anyone near us preston. I know
where you grew up and where you're from but I what matters is who you are right now with us. Don't stress
yourself "
Preston:" can I call you baba too " we all laugh
Dad:" yes you can son " ncooohhh he gives dad a manly hug and we laugh.
Mah:" who knew this house would be filled with so much love and laughter?...God is good "
Us:" Amen " we say at the same time then laugh
Me:" how is everything coming along with the weddding "
Preston:" sis prepare to be shocked " he says moving his head with each word then snaps his fingers.
Me:" I can't wait...when is my fitting for the dress "
Mah:" we'll let you know don't worry "
Sicelo:" and the colours for the wedding? "
Preston:" I'm thinking green suits " he says laughing
Mbuso:" hell no!, there's no way I'm going to be wearing a green suit on my wedding day " he says panicking
and we all laugh at him
Preston:" I'm just pulling your leg, don't worry we're all gonna be handsome including dad here " he says
smiling and dad shakes his head.
Me:" dad can we have a wedding after I've given birth "
Him:" no!, I had you when I was married and you're going to do the same "
Me:" but I don't want to look fat "
Mbuso:" baby you have a very...excuse me dad but she has a very sexy bump, my kid is treating you well " I
blush

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Dad:" hmmm " he says.
Preston ends up helping sicelo cook a full meal and it smells devine but I can't help craving for the
something.
Me:" uhm preston can you make me toasted bagels with cream cheese and pickles, like I want the whole jar
of sweet and sour pickles " everyone goes silent
Sicelo:" wow " then they laugh
Mbuso:" don't worry baby I'll go and get them "
Me:" no don't leave, mah can you send sis nontobeko to get it please? "
Mah:" pregnancy will show you flames, I'll send nontobeko " and right at that moment she comes to the
kitchen
Nontobeko:" Sir the security says there's a woman outside to see you and they want to know if they can let
her in " she says looking at scelo
Sicelo:" me? "
Her:" yes sir "
Sicelo:" did they say who it is? "
Her:" no sir "
Him:" could it be zama?, tell them to let her in "
Mah:" zama your housekeeper? "
Sicelo:" she left me "
Dad:" she left you or left her job? "
Sicelo:" no dad, she left me, I hurt her and....." we look at each other then nonto comes with a woman who's
my age or older and she looks beautiful I guess cause she has so much make up it's crazy.
Her:" hi everyone " she says cheerful and I look at mah and preston's mouth is open shocked and I want to
giggle
Sicelo:" you!, what the fuck are you doing here? " he asks her angrily and I have never seen sicelo angry or
even mad and right now he looks like he might just kill her...is this zama?
Her:" I came to see you scelo man " huh what? I look at mbuso and he shakes his head
Sicelo:" how the fuck did you know where I live? "

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Her:" uhm I kinda like asked your workers at your house and they told me you went home and I took the first
taxi out and I asked around and wow I must say you guys are famous, everyone knows this family "
Him:" you fucken asked around about me and came to my home uninvited?, you better take those bags you
came with and go back to whatever hole you crawled out from "
Her:" scelo calm down so much drama? " she says with so much attitude and she rools her eyes
Dad:" ntombazane who are you? " ( girly )
Her:" my name is ayanda maseko and I'm sicelo's girlfriend "
Sicelo:" she's not my fucken girlfriend " he says annoyed
Dad:" hmmm "
Her:" you must be the parents, lungi, and wow mbuso pictures don't do you justice wow! and I don't know
who you are " she says ignoring preston and I don't like that, I don't like her cause she rubs ne the wrong way.
Mah:" nontobeko take her bags to the guest bedroom and ayanda would you like to freshen up? "
Her:" I'm fine, but I'm starving "
Mah:" nonto when you're done please go and buy these things for luh " she nods then takes ayanda's bags. She
comes and stands next to me and looks at me like she's studying me and that freaks me out
Her:" when scelo first showed me your picture, I was like she's beautiful then I googled you and saw your
pictures on instagram but I didn't know that you're pregnant...." she says wanting to touch my stomach.
Me:" I'm going to punch you if you touch my stomach! " she stops
Her:" I just wanted to feel it "
Sicelo:" mah I want her gone! "
Mah:" you were not raised liked that scelo, we don't kick guests out. Ayanda this is scelo's dad, I'm his aunt
and this is preston, scelo's brother and you seem to know mbuso and lungi "
Her:" just by pictures only, why doesn't he look like lungi and scelo? "
Me:" he was adopted "
Sicelo:" I've lost my appetite "
Mah:" sicelo, you are going to finish cooking, dish up for everyone then we'll all sit down and have dinner
then go to bed "
Her:" wow scelo, now I see where you got your good looks from " she eyes my dad and we look at her
shocked, I almost want to slap her
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Sicelo:" what are you doing here? "
Her:" I came to see you, I felt like we had a misunderstanding and you need to apologise to me that you were
wrong and then we'll all move on "
Sicelo:" you are fucken crazy ! "
Dad:" be nice scelo "
Sicelo:" dad you don't undertsand "
Dad:" I do son, calm down "
Mbuso:" where is nontobeko? "
Me:" she'll be back baby "
Ayanda:" wow so you live with luh's parents?, wow I didn't take you for that kind of man " she says looking
at mbuso
Preston:" I have never been this speechless in my life and it takes alot to shut me up "
Mah:" amen "
Ayanda:" are you gay or bisexual preston cause you give me those vibes? "
Me:" why does it matter? "
Her:" I just want to know "
Sicelo:" oh look here is nonto, thank you sisinonto "
Nonto:" my pleasure sir "
Ayanda:" are you flirting with the maid? " preston almost chokes drinking
Mah:" ayanda we don't call our housekeepers maids, we call them by their names here " I look at dad and
he's so quiet watching ayanda
Her:" but they are maids, so what's the difference? " mbuso and scelo are having a quiet conversation with
their eyes
Dad:" so she's the reason you came home upset? "
Her:" ncooh baby, you were upset too? "
Sicelo:" God what did I do?! " preston makes me my food and we sit down in the living room and eat but
we're all listening to ayanda talking about how rich we are and she knows how rich mbuso is and damn she
gulping that wine not drinking, I try to eat but I have lost my appetite.

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Me:" can I be excused? "
Her:" why?"
Me:" I'm tired and my feel hurt "
Her:" but you've been sitting down this whole time since I've been here? "
Me:" dad can I be excused? "
Preston:" you feel okay? "
Me:" yes it's just my back that's all, I need to lie down "
Mbuso:" are you sure? "
Her:" she said it's nothing what's the big deal people "
Dad:" it's okay baby go and rest "
Me:" please spend the night? " I ask preston and he laughs
Him:" you don't have to ask me sis I'm staying "
Her:" you don't live here? "
Preston:" yes I have my own place "
Her:" what do you do for a living?...oh don't answer I know "
Preston:" really? "
Her:" yes, you have a rich old gay white man who takes care of you " wow the whole table goes dead quiet
Preston:" know ayanda I've met many people who have that kind of mentality and who like to stereotype
people like me. I don't have have a rich sugar daddy cause I take care of myself "
Her:" oh you're a stripper "
Preston:" no I'm a doctor "
Her:" wow, you don't look the type "
Sicelo:" brother lets go outside and take a walk " scelo and preston leave the table
Me:" good night daddy " I kiss him and hug him and my kids play and we both laugh
Dad:" can I feel? " I take his hand and he feels them for the first time and he looks so happy. " wow....don't
they hurt you when they do that? " I giggle

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Me:" they don't "
Dad:" ok baby good night, good night mbuso "
Mbuso:" good night family "
Me:" night mami "
Her:" don't leave me with her cause I think I'm going to kill her " she whispers in my ear and I laugh
Me:" no you won't, good night ayanda "
Her:" night " we leave then I see dad leaving too I giggle, then ayanda asks a question
Her:" where is scelo bedroom? "
Mah:" scelo will kill you if he finds you in his bedroom, stay away from him".

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MBUSO.
It's early the early hours of the morning and she's sleeping and I don't want to wake her up but I have to cause
we need to talk, I wanted to talk to her but she fell asleep the moment she got in bed. I miss us being alone at
our house but for now this will do cause I have to keep her protected but I have to go and I don't know how
she's going to take it. I look at the time and it's 2 am and by 3 I'm suppose to leave and I don't know when I'll
come back.
Me:" baby....love? " I brush her face and she sighs and smiles, I keep brushing her face and she doesn't wake
up so I brush my beared on her face and she moves her face frowning and I almost laugh
Her:" boo? "
Me:" wake up baby, we need to talk " she opens her eyes and looks at me
Her:" you smell fresh.... where are you going? "
Me:" sit up baby, so we can talk "
Her:" did you sleep though? "
Me:" no I was watching you "
Her:" talk to me boo "
Me:" I have to go baby, I have to look for the man who wants you? "
Her:" did you find out who he is? "
Me:" yeah I did but I need you to be strong for our kids, for you and for me baby cause I can't do this knowing
that you're not going to be okay ".
Her:" I don't have any other choice but to be strong mbuso, I want all of this to be over "
Me:" me too baby and I need you to know that I'm going to do everything in my power to keep my family safe
"
Her:" who is he? "
Me:" it's the brother of the man I killed, he wasn't just going to buy you for himself. He was going to share
you with his brother but then I killed him and now he wants you "
Her:" but how did he find out it was you, I mean he could have been killed by anyone? "
Me:" I think one of my friends betrayed me cause they are the only people who knew excluding your uncle
father and brother "
Her:" who can we trust mbuso when people close to us keep betraying us? "

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Me:" I'm going to end all of it cause I'm sick and tired of all the lies and people showing. I'm done baby I just
want some peace and quiet "
Her:" but do you have to go? "
Me:" I have to go and eliminate every threat out there that wants to take my happiness away. No one is going
to take you away from me lungi even if it means I have to kill everyone out there to make the world a safe and
better place for you then that's what I would do. You were made for me and me only, no one else ".
Her:" Promise me that you'll come back to us "
Me:" I promise baby, promise me that you won't get stress and believe and know that I'm coming back to you
"
Her:" I promise you, I don't wanna lose you mbuso so make sure you come back back in peace when they are
all dead "
Me:" I love you "
Her:" not as much I love you "
Me:" You're my world lungile, you and my kids "
Her:" You're my everything mbusowezwe gumede "
Me:" I have to go baby "
Her:" you want me to walk you out? "
Me:" I don't want to get in the car and watch you, watch me leave "
Her:" go before I cry " I get her up and hug her as best as I can and hold her tight. I kiss her all over her face
then give her a light kiss on her lips. Then lay her on the bed again and look at her lovely stomach and kiss it
then wipe tears off her eyes, take my phone then go. I don't look back cause seeing her crying breaks my heart
and I might decide not too go.
Her:" mbuso? "
Me:" please don't tell me not to go " I hear her getting up then she looks for something then she comes
towards me
Her:" turn around and look at me " I turn. " when we went shopping for groceries with mah last week I saw
this shop and something lured me in there. It was a jewellery shop and I told them that I had gotten engaged
and I wanted them to make something special for you, so here it is " I turn the lights on and it's a ring and it's
bronze, silver and gold and I love it.
Me:" wow baby I love it, when did you collect it? "
Her:" mah and preston came with it today "
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Me:" thank you baby It must have cost a fortune "
Her:" no it didn't, I want you to wear this and never take it off until you come back " she says tearing up.
Me:" I'll take it off when we you put on my wedding ring " she puts it on my ring finger and I must say it suits
me
Her:" I love the sound of that, now go and get' em tiger " I kiss her again then close the door and stand behind
it and listen to her crying softly then she stops and goes to bed.
Sicelo:" is she okay? "
Me:" yeah she will be, she gave me this "
Mmapholoba:" it looks nice "
Sicelo:" you're officially off the market "
Me:" I was off the day she got my heart "
Sicelo:" are you sure you want to do this alone? "
Me:" Bonga will be with me and sbu said he will tag along "
Sicelo:" I should be there with you "
Me:" I need you here to watch over everyone and help dad, plus you need to sort out this issue you have with
ayanda "
Mapholoba:" mbuso is right, you're not in the right frame of mind and you might get yourself hurt "
Sicelo:" I know "
Me:" I need all of you to make sure luh and the baby are okay and she's not stressed and worried about me
cause if we all leave she will not cope "
Mapholoba:" I'm giving you two weeks if you don't come, I'm taking your dad with me and we're coming to
get them "
Me:" don't worry dad I'll be back "
Sicelo:" keep in contact everyday brother just like we talked "
Me:" I will brother, let me go "
Me:" oh brother I almost forgot, there's a package that is going to come tomorrow and I need you take good
care of it "
Sicelo:" what is it? "

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Me:" you'll see it "
Him:" ok brother good luck "
Mapholoba:" may your ancerstors be by your side and my God protect you and bring you back to my daughter
"
Me:" thank you mapholoba " we hug then I get in my car and go to my house where bonga and sbu are at. We
do our daily ritual when we go to hunt and we get done.
Me:" you ready guys "
Sibusiso:" I missed this lets go! "
Bonga:" hell yes " We get in the car, head to where the helicopter is going to pick us up and then head to Port
Elizabeth.
AYANDA.
I can't let scelo go just like that, he's the one for me I know that but I have to keep myself in line and try to
behave so we can have a relationship. I didn't expect my other side will come out this soon, I thought I could
it hidden but there's something about him that makes me feel like I don't have to pretend. Why should I be this
person everyone expects me to be when I know this is the real me cause even my friends know me, the real
me.
I have tried to change and to tone it down but damn I can't help myself, scelo made a promise to me and said
he's all in so he better keep his promise cause I'm not going anywhere even if it means I have to pretend.
When I googled I found out that they are a very close and very private family, there's not alot about them
personally but only business stuff and so when I found out that he is rich and his family is rich too I had to
come and try to convince him that we have to be together.
All I have to do is to be this sweet yaya he remembers then get him to fall inlove with me, sleep with him and
get pregnant then he will have no choice but to marry me. I have to get pregnant and have his kids then I know
I'll be set for life cause there's no way I'm going to be poor again, not when I have found myself a ticket to get
out of this life. I know he will help me build my bakery to they way I want and he'll use his connections to get
me tenders and he'll give me money as his wife but first, I have to play nice to his sister cause I saw that he is
very fond of her and loves her and if she doesn't like me then I doubt he will want to be with me.
I have to be her best friend and start playing nice cause I'm not going to lose scelo to anyone that I know and
I'll make sure I remove every threat there is standing in my way. Tshepo saw the real me and he told me a
couple of times to change the way I speak to him and my attitude but I didn't listen and that's when he started
getting physical with me and karabo warned me to change my ways or else I will get introuble and he did
keep to his word and ended me in hospital.
I know scelo is a powerful man and he will sort tshepo out because he will do anything to make me happy ,
he has too, what he felt for me can't just disappear like he it was never there. The only way I will bring that
side out of him again is for me to be submissive to him then he won't know what hit him. God give me the
strength to keep my mouth shut and be nice so all these people here will like me.
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I'm on my way to the kitchen when I hear them talking so I listen to them as they talk about mbuso leaving for
somewhere and scelo is going to stay behind but what is that package that is coming tomorrow that mbuso
wants scelo to take good care off?, hmmm I wonder or maybe he bought lungi something. Mbuso scares me
and I think he was going to see through my bullshit but now that he is not here I have to make sure I play my
cards right and make scelo fall inlove with me before mbuso comes back.
I don't know how lungi got a man like mbuso cause she looks like she's a weak person and she's too soft for
my liking and mbuso is scary the man hardly smiles but wait maybe I have to be like lungi too so scelo will
believe that I have changed. Great idea ayanda, I smile to myself as I go back to the guest bedroom that I'm
using for now, operation get scelo back starts when I wake up.

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LUNGI.
When I get to the kitchen everyone is awake including our not invited guest, I'm surprised to see my brother
here cause I thought he would have left with mbuso but he is here and if he's here who did mbuso leave
with?.
Me:" good morning " I sit down
Them:" good morning luh "
Nonto:" can I make you something sis luh "
Me:" just yoghurt and muesli, thanks nonto "
Dad:" are you feeling okay baby "
Me:" I'm fine dad " I keep quiet, take my food and eat and I feel all eyes on me.
Mah:" Luh? "
Me:" mah I'm fine, actually I'm not. Why did mbuso go alone to face that man wherever he is? "
Sicelo:" I didn't go with him cause I have to make sure that everyone in this house is safe and he has bonga
and his other friend sbu, so don't worry about him "
Me:" how could I not worry scelo I love him and now he's gone to look for someone who wants to hurt me,
I'm always putting his life indanger and what if he doesn't come back to me and they kill him? "
Brother:" mbuso is one tough man luh and he will make sure that he comes back to you no matter what, I
wouldn't have stayed behind knowing that he might not come back. Don't worry sis "
Preston:" and remember you're on bed rest and we don't want to upset the baby "
Me:" I know "
Dad:" he's got this baby, don't worry okay? "
Me:" ok daddy "
Sicelo:" cookies and milk? "
Me:" maybe later "
Him:" are you sure? "
Ayanda:" I would love some " I ignore her
Me:" I am " I give him a half smile, he gets up and comes to me and takes my hand.
Him:" he has a tracker on him, we know his every move and should anything happen we will immediately
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know "
Me:" thank you " he kisses my forehead then goes back to his seat.
Ayanda:" uhm, can I have everyone's attention? " we all look at her. " I just wanted to apologise for my
behaviour last night, I didn't mean to disrespect anyone or make anyone feel uncomfortable "
Mah:" apology accepted "
Ayanda:" and I'm sorry baba for disrespecting you and your house "
Dad:" hmmm "
Ayanda:" now that you have accepted my apology I would like to cook lunch for you to show how sorry I am
and the housekeepers can focus on other things while I cook for you "
Me:" we don't trust you and you're never ever going to cook for us! "
Sicelo:" you want to poison and kill all of us? "
Ayanda:" what? no, I'm just trying to apologise for my behaviour scelo! "
Me:" what changed? "
Her:" nothing, I just like scelo very much and I want us to fix things "
Sicelo:" you think you can just decide that I'll just forgive you and we'll magically fix things when you've
disrespected me in my father's house and called me names no one has ever said and you show up here and
you think I'll just forget about it? "
Ayanda:" scelo I'm sorry okay I don't now what changed or what happend to me, please give me another
chance to be your girlfriend and you'll see that I'll make a good wife and mother to your kids "
Sicelo:" I'm going to say this one last time and you better get that through that fucked up head of yours.
Nothing and I mean nothing between us is ever going to happen between us ayanda, it ended before it even
began. Accept it and move on with your life "
Ayanda:" no!, no!,no!,no! " she bangs the table hard shocking everyone
Mah:" why are you banging the table? "
Me:" you said you googled us right ayanda? "
Her:" yes I did "
Me:" why? "
Her:" because I wanted to find out more about scelo? "

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Me:" before or after you guys ended things? "
Her:" after okay! "
Me:" and what did you find out exactly? "
Her:" that you guys are a private family and you have many businesses and you're all rich "
Preston:" AH HA! "
Me:" so that's the real reason you're here right? "
Her:" uhhh yes, I mean no!, how dare you ask me that? "
Me:" lets cut the bullshit ayanda!, stop this friendly looking confused girl act. I don't know you personally but
I can read a person and you smell like bad news, there's something sinnister about you and it smells bad "
Ayanda:" I don't know what you're talking about okay, I'm not a bad person! "
Me:" I hear you but you need something from my brother or us, what is it, what is the real reason you're here?
"
Ayanda:" what?, me?, what would I need from you guys ? "
Dad:" same thing that brought you here "
Ayanda:" well I just want to be scelo girlfriend and get married to him "
Dad:" and you'll live the life you never thought you will "
Her:" uhmm well I guess but I am scelo girlfriend he made a promise to me that he is all in, so I want him to
keep that promise! "
Dad:" asilethi izintombi lana emzini kababa ayanda, siletha abomakoti " " in my father's house we don't bring
girlfriends, we bring only brides "
Ayanda:" but here I am ready to be scelo wife! " she starts to get upset
Dad:" who brought you here ayanda? " she stands up
Her:" .......I did "
Dad:" sit down ayanda! "
Her:" I'm fine just standing thank you very much "
Me:" wow! "
Preston:" the audacity ayanda! "

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Dad:" how much money do you want so you can get out of my son's house? " she smiles
Her:" really? "
Mah:" Oh my God! "
Dad:" yes I'm serious "
Me:" name your price ayanda cause we know you only want money "
Her:" well, I love money more than you scelo so hmmm let me think "
Sicelo:" you disgust me ayanda "
Her:" oh get over yourself the world doesn't revolve around you! "
Dad:" bring me my check book scelo "
Sicelo:" dad no! "
Dad:" go get it " scelo leaves and ayanda sits down and leaves
Her:" I have made my mind. I want one million rands "
Preston:" bitch your fucken loco!, you're coo coo! " ( bitch you're fucken crazy! )
Me:" oh my God " I laugh, a laugh a deep belly laugh, then preston joins me but mah and dad are just looking
at us like we're crazy and ayanda looks like she wants to kill me, bitch get in line like the rest.
Ayanda:" don't laugh at me! "
Me:" we are laughing at the amount of money you want! "
Preston:" do you know how hard you have to work and how many years you have to work to make and get
that kind of money? "
Her:" I don't care, that's my price! "
Dad:" then that's what you'll get "
Sicelo:" here it is dad "
Dad:" do you want a check or you want me to transfer the money? "
Her:" no I want the check cause transfering the money would make my bank ask a lot of questions and it will
take days, so it's better I take the check " she says very excited
Preston:" I'm gonna be sick! "
Dad:" check it is "
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Nonto:" bhut scelo, frank is here to see you " we get quiet
Sicelo:" tell him to come in " she leaves then a few minutes later frank comes and he looks worried and my
heart almost stops.
Me:" frank what's wrong?, is it mbuso? "
Him:" ah madam how are you? "
Me:" I don't know, tell us what's wrong? "
Him:" no madam the boss is okay, uhm scelo mbuso sent me to get something for you "
Sicelo:" what is it?, where is it? "
Him:" it's not a a thing, it's a person "
Us:" what? "
Sicelo:" no he didn't, that fool!, where is she? " he says smiling wow okay
Frank:" I locked her in the car cause she almost drove off with the car " scelo laughs and wow he looks
excited.
Ayanda:" uhm excuse me who is he talking about and why do you look so happy? " she asks scelo mad
Preston:" she's none of your business "
Me:" are you talking about zama frank? "
Him:" yes madam, " I still hate that name
Sicelo:" I fucken love your mbuso " he says and hugs me then leaves us in the kitchen and frank follows him.
Me:" so mbuso asked frank to go look for zama and bring her here... wow ! "
Ayanda:" who is this zama woman you're talking about? "
Mah:" the one who's hopefully going to be our bride, she has scelo's heart "
Ayanda:" what?!, hell no scelo is mine and mine only! "
Dad:" no, the money is yours and here it is " she takes the check and looks at it and screams smiling
Her:" oh my God!, oh my God! Oh my God!, its all mine! "
Dad:" now take your backs and get the fuck off my property and you better not set foot here ever again or
contact my son. Do you hear me? " my dad sounds so different right now
Her:" I hear you sir "
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Dad:"if you try to contact any member of my family or find you or hear that you were anywhere close to them
you will be sorry! "
Her:" I, I hear you sir, I will go now " she stammers takes her check and goes to the guest bedroom to pack
her things.
Me:" I don't trust her "
Mah:" nonto go and check and see if she doesn't steal anything of ours " she leaves.
Me:" dad did you really just give her a million rands? "
Dad:" that girl reminds of thuli and if her surname wasn't maseko, I would swear she's thuli daughter cause
the way she behaves...she's obsessed with scelo "
Me:" was thuli obsessed with you dad? "
Dad:' not that I know of cause the only woman who had my heart and eyes was your mother " hmmmm.
Scelo walks in with a woman and she looks like she has been crying even though her face is facing down
cause she keeps wiping her tears off. My brother looks like he is worried and I wonder what's going on
between them. She lifts her head and she's a beautiful full curvy woman, she looks at us and our eyes connect
and she offers me a side smile and I give her my full one.
Sicelo:" ah mah and dad, you remember zama. Zama this is my sister lungi you haven't met and this is preston
my adopted brother, guys this is Zama Shange the woman I want to build a future with "
Me:" Hi zama nice to meet you "
Her:" sanibonani baba nawe aunty, hi Preston, hi lungi, nice to finally meet you. I have heard so much about
you "
Me:" nice things I hope and call me luh " she smiles hmmm I can see why my brother would like her
Ayanda:" oh this is the trash you left me for? "
Sicelo:" please go ayanda! " zama looks at scelo hurt and she takes a step away from him then scelo takes her
hand
Ayanda:" No I'm not going anywhere!, you want me gone so you can be with her? "
Sicelo:" I'm giving you one last chance ayanda, be gone! "
Her:" or what scelo, what will you do to me? "
Sicelo:" I will kill you right here, right now and no one, I mean no one will ever find your body! " he says
taking out his gun and pointing it to her head and I see her shaking looking scared
Her:" you wouldn't dare shoot me infront of everyone " she says smiling my God who smiles when they have
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a gun pointed at them?
Sicelo:" ayanda I told you to stop pushing me but you just keep doing it, you want me to prove it that I'll shhot
you infront of everyone then I will " he cocks his gun and is about to pull the trigger and I stand there shocked
thinking my brother is really going to shoot ayanda.
Ayanda:" you are a weak man scelo, weak!. That is why you can't handle a strong woman like me and then
run to this pathetic looking thing you call a woman you want to build a future with "
Mah:" this girl doesn't ever know when to stop, shut up ayanda! " she shakes her head frustrated
Me:" just leave ayanda, leave us in peace please! "
Ayanda:" oh shut the hell up lungi I'm not talking to you "
Me:" don't piss me off ayanda, you will not talk to my brother that way and call him weak! "
Ayanda:" well he is a weak, stupid, confused little bo......" she doesn't get to finsh what she was going to say
cause zama comes and gives her a hot full bitch slap on her face and that shuts her up....wow!
Preston:" yes girl!, oh she deserved it ! "
Zama:" never in your life will you call him weak or any other kind of name. I gave you a chance to have the
love of this wonderful man and you blew it!, When he told me about you, I respected his decision and left
him cause that's what I thought his heart is at and yes it hurt me when he told me about another woman but I
told myself that he saw something in her and knew that his happiness is with her but obviously it wasn't".
Ayanda:" I was his first choice and he left you for me, and he will again. How does it feel to know that you
were his second choice not first? "
Sicelo:" she was never my second choice because I always made sure she was taken care of and had
everything she needed, her happiness was my first priority and yes I did many stupid things cause I took her
for granted and you coming into my life was a wake up call I didn't know I needed. You see ayanda there are
many things I have done in my life, horrible things but I rarely regret them but you are the greatest mistake I
have ever made and I regret knowing you and allowing you to come into my life "
Ayanda:' you will regret this scelo, I swear you will "
Sicelo:" that is if you're still alive "
Ayanda:" you know what I am out of here, stay with this ugly fat bitch! "
Sicelo:" be gone but always know that I'll always be watching and one step ahead of you, one wrong move
I'll kill karabo, then lilly and finally you! "
Dad:" you got your money now go ayanda while we're still asking you "
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Me:" wow!, did you ask frank to take her to the taxis? "
Sicelo:" he's waiting for her "
Me:" so she's just going to go just like that? "
Dad:" she'll be back and cause problems for you seun, deal with her cause I see you having the same
problems I had with your mother and we don't want history to repeat itself "
Sicelo:" I'm on it dad! "
Me:" yoh what a day, zama I'm sure you want to freshen up, let me show you your room and I'm hungry "
Sicelo:" I need to talk with zama "
Me:" let her freshen up, eat and rest then you guys will talk, find out where mbuso is and tell him to call me "
I take her hand and we go.

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SICELO.
I follow luh and zama to the guest bedroom, cause I really want to talk to her but I don't think she wants to
hear anything from me. She doesn't deserve the humilation I put her through, I didn't stop her when she left me
in the kitchen and I wish I could change that moment. I will regret not stopping her or running after her, they
get inside and luh shows her the bathroom and she takes her bag gets inside and closes the door and she still
won't look at me cause I disappointed her and I feel disappointed at myself too.
Me:" luh can we talk? "
Her:" sure, what is wrong? "
Me:" I messed up "
Her:" yeah I think you did even though I don't really know what's going on but I can see that she's hurt, You
hurt her "
Me:" I don't even though where to start or what to say "
Her:" you start by apologizing to her and then you listen to her when she says something cause there's alot I
think she's going to say "
Me:" but what if she doesn't want to listen to what I have to say "
Her:" don't get me wrong brother but from what I picked up, she used to listen to you alot and maybe now it's
time for you to listen to her "
Me:" how will I talk to her when she won't even look at me? "
Her:" you beg her "
Me:" I messed up, I really fucked up and hurt her "
Her:" yeah you did, brother no woman wants to feel like she's someone's else's second choice and I think
zama did cause you chose ayanda over her "
Me:" but she's not my second choice, she never was "
Her:" did you tell her that and make her feel like she's the only one? "
Me:" no, I never did "
Her:" then how do you think she felt when you chose ayanda? "
Me:" hurt "
Her:" you hurt her "
Me:" how did you do it? "
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Her:" do what? "
me:" forgive mbuso " she smiles
Her:" I forgave him cause I loved him and my love for him over powered all the bad things he did to me, I
chose to focus on the good things he did, I just want him to come back to me "
Me:" He is coming back sis "
Her:" I know ".
Me:" I wanted to ask you if you could borrow me the keys to your house, I want to talk with her cause we
need to be alone, so we can properly talk "
Her:" hmmm don't use sex to get her to forgive you scelo, the keys are in the kitchen I think " she giggles and I
am planning to do that too
Me:" I won't sis "
Her:" you can always win her body but before that you have to win her mind first "
Me:" How do I do that? "
Her:" she has to trust you with her heart again and believe that you won't hurt her again "
Me:" thank you sis "
Her:" I'm always here for you brother " zama opens the door and she looks so beautiful with, how did I not
see her?. She goes to sit next to luh like she seeks protection from her and I almost laugh but it makes me
happy to see that she trusts my sister even though she has just met her.
Me:" come, I want to take you somewhere so we can talk "
Zama:" I'm not going anywhere with you " she says with a little bit of attitude and I fold my arms and look at
her
Me:" Zah. Now! "
Zah;" I'm done following your rules scelo, I'm done ". I look at luh to give us some space
Her:" I think I'm going to eat, help me up scelo "
Zah:" I'll help you " she helps her get up then luh gives me an intimidating look she thinks but it's cute and I
laugh.
Her:" don't make her do something she doesn't want to do cause you'll push her away and you don't want that
" she closes the door after shee leaves and I sigh and look at zah
Me:" I really want to have a talk with you but I can't do that here with everyone around "
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Zah:" you mean you can't fuck me to submission cause everyone in the house will hear? "
Me:" that too but we have to talk first before you let me fuck you "
Zah:" I don't want you to use me anymore sicelo, I can't " she snifs.
Me:" lets go to luh's and mbuso's house so you can scream at me all you like and throw things at me "
Zah:" I won't do that "
Me:" I know you won't but if it will make you feel better "
Her:" no it will hurt me more if I hurt you "
Me:" lets go zah....please "
Her:" I'm scared of what you'll do to me when we're alone "
Me:" I won't hurt you "
Her:" you're angry scelo and I know how you get "
Me:" I promise you I won't hurt you "
Her:" but you did "
Me:" I know and I want to make it right " I sigh
Her:" ok "
Me:" thank you, come " I take her hand we leave using the back door cause I know my aunt will shout at me
for wanting to be alone with zama. We get in my car and I drive to mbuso's place, and she's looking outside
the window.
Me:" I'm sorry I hurt you zah, I shouldn't have left you and ran to ayanda "
Her:" what happemd between you two? "
Me:" she's not what I thought she was "
Her:" If she was the person you thought she was would I be here right now? "
Me:".......I thought she would be like you "
Her:" you wanted someone else to be like me, but not me?....wow "
Me:" I didn't know it at that time "
Her:" do you love her? "

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Me:" I don't love her "
Her:" but you told me about her, you were so sure she's the one and now she's not, what happend? "
Me:" I saw her at the club and I liked her, payed for her bill then asked mark to take them home then I get a
call that her boyfriend is beating her up and we get there, take her to the hospital.... she looked bad "
Her:" so the nights you came late and would wake me up and fuck me...hurt me, were the nights you went to
see her? "
Me:" yes "
Her:" then what?, you declared your undying love for her? "
Me:" no I didn't, I told her I wanted to get to know her and she should give me, us a chance. She was sweet
and I was excited but then we went to standerton and when I came back I went to see her at her bakery and
she was kinda mad. I took her out for late lunch then her ex called and she freaked out "
Her:" I would too "
Me:" then I took her to her friends place and I wanted to be there for her but she asked to be alone and then
she called that time when you were telling me about how you feel "
Her:" I wish I didn't. I wish I never said anything then what happend? "
Me:" she started acting crazy, calling all sorts of names, threw that centrepiece you love at me and it broke,
she hurt my arm "
Her:" wow but she gets to leave with a million rands "
Me:" she's not going to get it "
Her:" how ? "
Me:" you don't come to my house and disrespect my father and his whole family, she's going to pay "
Her:" I wish I never told you I love you " she said love so I still have a chance.
Me:" I wish you could have told me earlier "
Her:" why am I here scelo cause you didn't come looking for me? "
Me:" I asked mbuso to help you look for you, I asked him to track you down "
Her:" I knew that you might reject what I feel for you and when my exact fear came true and happend it killed
me "
Me:" I didn't reject how you feel for me "

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Her:" you never said anything either "
Me:" my biggest mistake, I took you for granted and I'm sorry "
Her:" I felt so vunlerable opening up to you and stupid after " I open the gate and drive in and close it then
look at zah.
Me:" I have known you since you were 19 zama, I took your virginity, the greatest gift anyone could have
ever given me and you're right I used you. I wanted to protect from men would use you and hurt you but it
was me doing that very same thing I was trying to protect you from and I'm sorry " I get out of the car and
open her door and take her hand and lead her to the house.
Me:" are you hungry? "
Her:" no " I take bottles of water and give her one.
Me:" You did everything I asked you to do without questioning it "
Her:" cause you promised to protect me always "
Me:" I brought women and fucked them while you were "
Her:" it hurt me everytime "
Me:" and I was selfish because I didn't care about how you would feel, I just did cause it was my house and I
called the rules "
Her:" then you would ask me to make them breakfast and clean all your messes and then I would still
welcome you in my body and let you have me cause I thought just maybe one day you will see that I'm here, I
could be the woman you're searching for "
Me:" you are that woman zah, I want a future with you. I know it took me long, well it took ayanda to open
my eyes to see what a fool I have been to you "
Her:" when you look at me sicelo, what do you see? "
Me:" I never should have walked away from you, you gave me peace and I took it for granted, you made my
house a home and I don't think I can forgive myself for the ways I used you and I'm sorry. You always put my
needs first before yours, you are the one I always confide in cause I know my secrets are safe with you. I
trust you with my life " fuck this is hard.
Me:" when I look at you I see a woman who is strong, selfless, puts people's needs first before hers even
happiness. I see a woman who has always been there for me, you comfort me, you take all my frustrations
that I take out on you and you have never once complained. You always make sure that me and my house
we're taken care of, I look this good cause it's because of you. "
Her:" no you do that, you work hard so your home has everything you need "
Me:" my house is not a home without you, when you left you took the warmth I always feel when I open the
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door and get in. I always look forward to going home cause I know you're there waiting for me and I need
you back home cause it is not the same without you. I need you back in my life zama cause without you I'm
just lost "
Her:" I'm scared sicelo, what if you meet another beautiful girl and think she's the one? "
Me:" I was stupid then and my eyes were closed, I've learned my lesson and I know now what they mean
when they say ' you never what you have until it is gone " I don't want to lose you again because of my
stupidness "
Her:" then why do I feel like I'm your second choice cause if things did work out with you and ayanda I
would be still heartbroken "
Me:" maybe things happend this way so I can see that you are what I need in my life, the woman I want to
spend the rest of my life with...." I get on both ny kness and take her hands in mine and look at her. " I took me
long to see it but I think I fell inlove with you the day you held me as I cried and told you I have found my
sister. Do you remember what you said to me? "
Her:" no.... "
Me:" you said I have now found the missing piece that was missing, so I can now stop trying to run away
from love cause I think I don't deserve it. I looked at you different from that day and it scared me cause I
started to feel things I didn't want to admit "
Her:" I understand "
Me:" no zah you don't, I tried to run away from the love I feel for you cause it scares me, it makes me feel
like I can't control myself when I'm around you and you know that I excersize control in all things "
Her:" get up scelo, don't kneel for me "
Me:" a king kneels before his queen, her only and no one else. I'm not going to run anymore "
Her:" then don't run "
Me:" please give me another chance to make things right between us and give me your heart again to love "
Her:" I'm scared scelo "
Me:" I love you zama shange and I want to adore you for the rest of my life. You don't have to say you love
me or anything but please give me another chance to show you that I can treat you the way I know you
deserve, I really do love you and I promise not break your heart or make you feel like you're my second
choice cause, you are the only one I want, my only choice, my only woman that I love and want to get
pregnant as soon as she she lets me into her heart again " she looks at me and smiles
Her:" I love you sicelo but please don't ever choose someone else again "
Me:" I promise zah, there is no one else but you. I mean it when I say I love you. I'm not saying this cause I
think it's what you want to hear no, you know me and you know I always tell you the truth "
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Her:" did you mean it when you said you want to share me with mbuso's brother " what the hell!
Me:" you were listening to us? "
Her:" no I came to give you food but then I heard that and I quickly left "
Me:" I meant it but only if you would agree " she blushes and looks down. " do you want us to have a
threesome with bonga? "
Her:" ask me when I completely trust you again "
Me:" you never sieze to amaze me zah "
Her:" it's all your doing "smile
Me:" you forgive me? "
Her:" I forgive you, do you forgive me too? "
Me:" for what? "
Her:" for not telling you earlier how I feel about you "
Me:" I didn't make things easy for you baby but I want you to always know one thing "
Her:" what? "
Me:" don't ever doubt your place in my life or my heart ever again and I will never make you feel like you
have to doubt it or prove your love for me cause you always showed me that you love me and me only. Now
it's my turn to prove my love for you "
Her:" but you have in your own way "
Me:" how? "
Her:" sicelo you took me to school, I'm going to be graduating next year and it's all because of you "
Me:" that is nothing baby, I'm going to show you what this man does for someone they love "
Her:" you don't have to prove anything, your word is enough for me "
Me:" I am going to show you "
Her:" ok fine, get up "
Me:" Do I have permission to touch you? "
Her:" no scelo, it's too soon "
Me:" I just want touch you, I won't fuck you or make you do anything you don't want to do "
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Her:" ok "
Me:" what's your safe word baby? "
Her:" Fire "
Me:" take off your clothes " I say getting up and taking my clothes off too.

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CONTINUAL OF CHAPTER 30.
SICELO.
When she’s done taking her clothes off I take her hand and bring her body close to mine and look at her
beautiful curves and run my hands on her ass and it jiggles. Her body is so warm, I lead her upstairs to the
guest bedroom. This house is not yet fully furnished and I’m wondering when is luh going to furnish this
whole house. I look at Zah and she looks like she’s scared that I might her and I don’t blame her cause she
knows I can get rough and lose focus cause I have done that before.
Me:“ I won’t hurt you baby ”
Her:“ don’t make that promise scelo ”
Me:“ I want you to stop taking pills ”
Her:“ scelo, you don’t mean that ”
Me:“ I do, I want to get you to have my babies ” she shakes her head
Her:“ I’ll think about it ” then she laughs
Me:“ you have no choice ”
Her:” there is no bed here “
Me:” we don’t need a bed, I’m going to fuck you on the floor “ she gasps
Her:” well at least there’s a carpet on the floor
Me: “wait here, I’m coming “ I go to luh’s bedroom and take the fleece blanket on the bed then go to the
living room take my belt off my pants and pick up her underwear and take it with me, then come back and lay
the blanket on the floor, look at zah then take her hand and lay her down on the blanket and she opens her legs
for me and I see that sweet glistening juice and my mouth begs me to bury my face and eat that sweet juice, I
can smell her arousal, her scent calling me to take her and makes my mind lose all rational thought. I bring
my body down on top of hers and kiss her deeply, my cock is hard and throbbing.
Me:” I’m going to devour you and tear that pussy up “ she licks her lips and I groan. I insert my two fingers
deep into her pussy and feel all that wetness with my fingers and finger fuck her kissing her deeply and she
makes those sweet noises that I love. She spreads her legs wide making my fingers go deep into her.
She takes my dick and grasps it and strokes it hard smearing that pre-cum all over my dick and I can’t wait
any longer I have to be inside her. I keep kissing her full plum lips then put pressure on her clit with my
thumb and she starts to shake and I know she’s going to come at any moment
Me:” don’t hold back baby…..come for me “ I pump my fingers fast and deep into her and she throws her
head back and screams calling my name and gripping my fingers in her tight snatch. I keep finger fucking her
until she comes down from her high.
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Me:” open your mouth and give me your hands” she does and looks at me flushed then I take her underwear
and put it in her mouth gagging her then take the belt and bind her hands tight with it. “ does it hurt? “ she
shakes her head no
Me:” raise your hands over head “ she does and that makes her breasts to raise up. My mouth waters just
looking at them and seeing those dark nipples. I bring my head down and suck them and she sighs and I
wonder what they would taste like if she was pregnant and milk coming out of them, my dick gets really hard
when I think that.
I take my dick and point it to her entrance and look at her and her eyes are shut, mouth tightly shut. I grab her
legs and ram into her hard and impale her deeply and she tries to scream but she really can’t cause her
underwear is making hard and I groan and her muscles contract tightening the grip on my dick and I thrust into
her again then I move my hands from her hips and grab her ass cheeks and spread them wide and fuck the shit
out of her, have no mercy on her pussy.
I bring my head down and take her nipple into my mouth and suck on it then bite it hard and she groans then
do it again to her other nipple then she uses her elbows to tap my shoulder and I look at her and see spit
drooling from her mouth to her neck and I lick it them take her mouth into mine and kiss her lips with her
underwear still in her mouth and her smell on the underwear drives me fucken crazy. I keep thrusting into her
hard looking at her face and she looks like she’s struggling to breath and that my cock swells hard in her.
Me:” can you breath baby? “ she nods, we are sweating like we have just got out of the shower and it’s damn
hot outside and having sex while the weather is hot is so fucken amazing.
I move my upper body off of her and look at her pussy then pull my dick out then take it into my hand and hit
her clit with it a few times then slip the head in again and fuck her with it and her pussy contracts and she
moves her hips fast, I pull it out again then thrust deep into her and hit her cervix and she groans loud and
then she comes and squirts all over me. She has never done that before and it’s fucken sexy
Me:” OH baby….fuck yes “ I pull out the underwear from her mouth and it’s wet and I hear her sweet noises
as she’s screaming and I fuck her through her orgasm watching her face and bite her neck leaving a mark
there.
Her:” Oh God, OHHHH! “
Me:“ you look so fucken beautiful baby, you ready to come again? ”
Her:“ yes I am ” I pull out my dick out from her warm snatch and she moans. I kneel between her thighs then
move backwards then bury my face on her pussy and worship it like it deserves. She grabs my head, grips
her thighs on my face tight then she fucks it and I fucken love it.
I tongue fuck her then move my hands and grip her waist so she won’t be able to move her hips and play with
her clit using my thumb while still eaten her and she moans and screams loud and comes again.
Me:“ get up and turn around ” I help her get up then unfasten the belt on her hands.
Me:“ get on your knees face down then give me your hands “ she does then I take her hands and fasten the
belt not too tight again and they stay put on her back.
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I spread her ass cheeks and see that round pink rim of her ass and for a moment I think of getting my dick in
there but I know it will hurt her cause I haven’t prepared her for that but I am… . I am going to have her ass
soon. I take my hand and smack her ass and pussy hard and she winces and groans in pain and that makes my
dick get hard and pre-cum leakes from my dick.
I keep hitting it over and over again using all my strength then when her skin starts to turn really pink and
pussy looks swollen and wet I stop and point my dick in her, grab the belt that is between her hands with my
both hands and thrust hard into her snatch and she screams and I fuck her hard not giving her time to breath. I
fuck her hard and mercilessly not giving a fuck about the cries she’s making.
Me:“ you want to say your password baby? ”
Her:“ no… .. No ”
Me:“ that’s my baby, keep your hands right there and don’t move them ”
I move my hands from the belt to the cheeks of her ass, spread them as I thrust into her hard then take my
thumb and begin to rim the tight opening of her ass and as I do that she begins to shake, vibrates.
Her:” oh God yes, yes ” hearing her say that I push against her sphincter muscle and the tip of my thumb
enters her and I push it in and out of her fucking her ass with my thumb and she moans. “ oh fuck!, fuck me! ”
Me;“ you fucken like that don’t you?! ”
Her:“ fuck yes! ”
Me:“ you want my dick in there? ”
Her:” yes, oh God yes!, I’m cumming oh God I’m cumming ” I groan as I furiously pump into her and groan
deep as her pussy clenches and milks my dick then I feel that tell tale sign in my nuts that I’m going to come
and I’m going to come hard.
Me:;“ Baby, I’m gonna cum! Fuck baby! Fuuuuucckk” I groan as my nuts and cock get hard and swells deep
inside her and I spill my seed deep inside her warm cocoon making me dizzy and losing my breath and her
legs give out and she falls and lays on her stomach. I unfasten the belt then massage her hands where the belt
was and lay on top of her soft body.
Me:“ that was amazing baby ”
Her:“ mmmmmm”
Me:“ I love you Zama ”
Her:“ mmmmmmm ” I chuckle and look at her and she has fallen asleep. I pull out from here and my seed
comes out too and I smile. I watch her as she sleeps and she knows I’m not done with her. I look at her ass
and see my hand prints looking red and lovely on her skin and my dick gets hard again. I’m gibing her thirty
minutes to rest a bit then I’m going to fuck her again. I go the kitchen and my phone rings and it’s mbuso.
Me:“ brother, how’s it going ”
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Him:“ man I’m the only man who’s allowed to walk naked in that house, put some clothes on”
Me:“ I fucken forgot about the cameras I’m the house” we both laugh
Him:“ how’s my baby doing ”
Me:“ she’s okay, how’s everything going there ”
Him:“ Percy is here too and we managed to get him to work for the guys as a gardener ”
Me:“ man that’s great ”
Him:“ I need you to be on the lookout for the hired killer, I’ll send you his picture ”
Me:“ do it brother, tell me when you guys find him ”
Him:“ Percy will put cameras in his house, we just need him to seduce the housekeeper so he’ll be able to
check if there are any ”
Me:“ man it’s not even a day you’ve been there but you have managed to get Percy a job ”
Him:“ I’ll do anything man for luh to have peace and know that she’s safe and no one will hurt her. Just want
all of this to be fucken over ”
Me:“ I hear you brother, you have to be back before the negotiations start cause luh will lose it if you’re not
back by then ”
Him:“ I will brother, let me call her ”
Me:“ ok brother
Him:“ and sicelo don’t have sex in my wife’s kitchen ”
Me:“ I won’t fool and thanks brother for getting zama here, I really appreciate it ”
Him:“ that’s what family does, later brother ”
Me:“ be safe ”
Him:“ you too brother ” I hang up and take bottles of water and drink one. I go to the guest bedroom and
watch Zama taking a nap and she looks so young, everything she knows about sex she learned from me. She
knows how to please both in bed and out of bed and now I have to be the one to please her and show her that
I really love her and won’t break her heart again but as for ayanda I’m not done with that bitch.
I am going to show her what happens when someone disrespects my father, me a and my family, she’s in for a
huge surprise cause she’s mot gonna get any money from my dad. I hope drank took her where I told him to
take her.

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CHAPTER 31.

MBUSO.

We are staying at a hotel and Percy managed to put the hidden cameras in that fools house. The whole hotel
room has surveillance cameras and we’re watching this fools every move. He’s on edge because he knows
that I’m coming after him, only if he would know that I’m already here. After we leave this place I’m going to
deal with sipho and his wife cause it’s time now they face the music.

Bonga and Sbu are out following that fool, he wants luh to use her as his sex toy and fulfil his sick desires
with her, The man is a fucken lunatic cause the things I found in his personal computer made me feel
disgusted. He is married and has kids with his wife but from what we saw he’s treating her like an animal
cause the things he does to her and his kids make me think that they would rather live happily without him
than live like this.

I know that when he dies his wife would live a very comfortable life without him cause she would get all the
money for her and her kids. I’ll be doing her a favour by killing this fucken lunatic and I don’t want to waste
time busy following him, I want to do it as soon as possible but I know I have to learn all his moves before
we take action. Percy opens the door and gets in.

Me:“ you back early today? ”

Him:“ I am boss, apparently on Fridays the gardener works a half day ”

Me:“ how’s the woman and the kids? ”

Him:“ she looks bad boss, I heard her telling her housekeeper that she wants to leave her husband but she’s
afraid that he will kill her or take her kids and shell be left with nothing ”

Me:“ well lucky for her then cause I’m about to make things better for her ”

Him:“ do you think that maybe we should get her to help us? ”

Me:“ don’t even think about that Percy cause she might freak and tell him or worse when he’s dead get the
cops to come after us. She has to believe that he died cause of an accident ”

Him:“ I hear you boss, so when are we actually doing it ” this boy he’s so eager to get his hands dirty

Me:“ I’ll be the one getting my hands dirty not anyone of you, you know what you have to do but if I want you
to do something else I’ll let you know ”

Him:“ I know boss, where are the others? ”

Me:“ following him but they should be back cause they have already put a tracker on his car ”

Him:“ boss what about the guy who is sent to kill you, do you think he knows were here? ”
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Me“ if he did, Ngqakula would be very careful and more alert, both of them have no idea we’re here ”

Him:“ that’s true boss, you want a beer? ”

Me:“ I’m good ” he gets up then Sbu and bonga get in closing the door behind them and they look like they
have just gotten lucky. “ what are you both so happy about? ”

Bonga:“ man you see the women down on the lobby waiting for us ”

Me:“ you have women waiting for you? ”

Sbu:“ we do, at the bar and I’m not going there ”

Bonga:“ why the hell not now? ”

Sbu:“ you can go with percy, I want to sleep man ”

Me:“ yeah you came at 4 am, she kept you up all night ” we laugh

Him:“ more like I kept her up all night ”

Me:“ guys can we agree that you’re not going to bring women here? ”

Bonga:“ oh come on! ”

Me:“ no brother, if you want to fuck someone then get a room. Remember why we’re here and we don’t need
any destructions ”

Bonga:“ then let me go and get some one last time ”

Percy:„ I’m coming with you ”

Me:“ two hours guys, that’s all you’re getting ” sbu’s phone beeps, he takes his phone and reads it

Sbu:“ nope you guys are not going anywhere, we have to go somewhere ”

Me:“ where are we going? ”

Sbu:“ let’s suit up guys, one of the men we hired has sent me an address where Ngqakula likes to visit, he
thinks there might be something there ”

Me:“ It’s too early for us to go now, we have to go midnight so no one will see us but tell that guy we’re
coming but he won’t see us, we’ll see him ”

Sbu:“ great idea “ he calls him


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Me:“ you guys can go and get some but be back in two hours ”

Bonga:“ nope I’m good, my adrenaline is already pumping just thinking about what we might find once we
get there ”

Percy:“ I’m good too boss ”

Me:“ I’m gonna call my wife in the meantime ”

Bonga:“ my beautiful sister in-law, man you got really lucky with her ”

Me:“ shut up fool, my underground gang really looked out for me when I met her ”

Bonga:“ look at how he’s smiling man I’m gonna be sick ”

Me:“ green is not your colour brother ” we all laugh. I leave them and go to my en-suite bedroom. I take my
phone and check the camera’s in luh house to see if everything is still okay, then I see that fool walking naked
in my wife’s house and I laugh, what the hell is he even doing there?. Then I remember Zama is already there,
which means they are at our house. I call him.

Him:“ brother how’s it going ”

Me:“ man I’m the only one who’s allowed to walk naked in that house, put some clothes on! ” we laugh and
talk some more. I hang up and call my baby love. It rings and she doesn’t talk for a while and I start to get
worried

Her:“ sthandwa sam ” I smile

Me:“ you make me feel like I’m still a young man, you know? ” she giggles

Her:“ oh do I? ”

Me:“ yes you do cause I’m laying on the bed now facing up and smiling talking with you love. How are you
baby? ”

Her:“ I’m good, I was mad I thought that you left alone ”

Me:“ but I have my brothers here baby ”


Her:“ I know that now, scelo told me, are you safe and okay? ”

Me:“ I am baby, how are my kids ”

Her:“ they are good, when you’re done you’re coming back home right? ”

Me:“ yes baby, to you ”

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Her:“ where are you and where are you staying? ”

Me:“ we’re at at a hotel baby and I can’t tell you where I am but don’t worry all of you there are safe ”

Her:“ ok I have to go now ”

Me:“ where are you going? ”

Her:“ to get something to eat, I’m hungry”

Me:“ tell me how your day is ”

Her:“ oh my God baby, you’re not going to believe this!, dad gave ayanda a million rands to stay away from
scelo ”

Me:“ what?, as in cash? ”

Her:“ no, he wrote her a check and she was so excited you could swear she won the lottery ” hmmmm

Me:“ wow and she kinda did, I wonder if that check is real our not ”

Her:“ you think dad gave her a fake check? ”

Me:“ I don’t know baby but I will ask your brother ”

Her:“ I don’t trust that girl, there’s something very wrong with her ”

Me:“ I’ll get frank to watch her ”

Her:“ I hope she won’t come back and cause us problems, I like Zama though ”

Me:“ she seems like she’s a nice young woman ”

Her:“ she does, boo can I ask you something? ” oh what does she want to know now?

Me:“ what do you want to know love? ”

Her:“ do you know who’s the man mah is dating? ” oh fuck no

Me:“ ah baby, why don’t you ask her? ”

Her:“ I have a feeling that says she won’t tell me ”

Me:“ baby she won’t lie to you, ask her and she’ll tell you ”

Her:“ ok boo I’ll do that ” she sighs

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Me:“ I love you baby ”

Her:“ I love you more ”

Me:“ I have to go now baby we’ll talk later okay ”

Her:“ ok boo, be safe ”

Me:“ always ” she sighs and hangs up.

I take quick shower then go and join the guys and we talk then luh sends me a sexy picture of her naked with
fingers in her pussy and I smile cause I think she struggled to take this picture and the thought of her taking
different pictures and poses and seeing her like this makes my dick hard. I get up making sure the guys don’t
see me then go to the bathroom and take a picture of my hard dick and send it to her then take a cold shower.
I’m not calling her cause we’re going to end up having phone sex. I join the guys again and when it’s
midnight we go change and wear all black with bullet proof vests and put the guns in a duffel bag.

Me:“ there’s a fire escape door we will use ” They nod

Percy:“ can we trust those guys and what if they are trying to ambush us? ”

Sbu:“ then they would be very stupid considering the amount of money we’re paying them ”

Me:“ we’ll take two cars and then when we’re near, we will leave them somewhere and walk on foot in case
it’s an ambush ” they agree then we put the guns, lock up and go. It pays to have money cause you can
literally have just about anything you want.

Me:“ send me the location of where we’re going ” he does send it to me and I log it in on the phone, laptop
and on the car. We stand outside the hotel before we leave

Me:“ this is a suburb and it looks like there are people living there and the house is under that fools name.
Okay guys we’ll leave our cars a kilometre before we get to this house then check the security and try to get
inside without being noticed but if it does happen that someone sees us, you know what to do ”

Bonga“ he has an electric fence, so how are we going to get in? ”

Me:“ that’s easy I will cut off the electricity for a minute and by then everyone must be inside the yard so
they won’t be suspicious, they’ll just think it’s power failure”

Bonga:“ ok brother ”

Me:“ remember guys we’re just going there to see what’s inside. Time now is 1:15 am by 1:25 am everyone
must be here ”

Them:“ sure ”

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Sbu:“ I’ll take the front of the house with bonga and you guys take the back ”

Percy:“ do you think he has another family living in there boss? ”

Me:“ maybe or maybe he has people living there and keeping them as slaves, your ear pieces are working
right?....then let’s go guys ” We get in the cars and then drive out, when we get to where we’re going to leave
the cars and start walking in the shadows.

As we approach I see that there are two guys guarding the house in the front gate and it might be possible that
there are more people inside the yard and so whatever that is they are guarding is big.

Me:“ guys we might have more guys guarding the house, be careful, as soon as the lights go out jump in and
use your thermal night vision goggles ”

Sbu:“ on it ”

Me:“ Percy you ready? ”

Him:“ I am boss ”

We go to the back of the yard then get to the fence and I take my phone out and get into the municipal database
and switch of the lights then quickly jump and Percy follows me. We can hear someone shouting asking
another one to go check if the back up generator is working fuck!.

Me:“ guys they have a back up generator, we have five minutes then we leave ” the back door opens and
some guy comes out looking like he’s drunk or high then we quickly get in house and I can see people in
bedrooms chained to beds and there are cameras and in some rooms there are women and men and they have
the women chained and having sex with them… What the fuck!, we go to the corridor and I look to my right
and see a young girl or woman crying in the bathroom and she looks like she’s chained in there. I look at the
time and we have three minutes.

I go to the bathroom and open it slowly and she gets in the shower and crawls back, how does she see coz
it’s dark?. I tap Percy on his shoulder and motion for him to leave the house and he does. I get in the
bathroom and the girl bows her head down.

Her:“ who’s there?, please don’t hurt me again! ”

Me:“ sssshhh you don’t want them to come here, what’s your name and how old are you ? ”

Her:“ I’m 18 sir and my name is nompumelelo, who are you cause you don’t sound like the men from here? ”

Me:“ shhnnn I can’t stay long but how did you get here? ”

Her:“ I was kidnapped, I want to go home to my family ” she cries

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Me:“ we are going to come and get all of you out of here, what did they do to you? ”

Her:“ they give us something then take videos of us naked and they… they rape us ” I look at the time fuck I
have to go!

Me:“ I have to go now but please don’t tell anyone there was someone talking to you, you hear me
nompumelelo or else I won’t be able to come and help all of you here ”

Her:“ I won’t sir, I promise I just want to go home to my family. Please come back ”

M:“ I will ” I quickly leave the bathroom and almost run to someone but then I look and it’s Percy fuck this
boy I told him to go. We leave the same way we got in and the moment we jump off the fence, the lights kick
back in again… . Fuck we almost got caught!. I run and Percy runs too until we get to the cars and when we
get there sbu and bonga come too and they look like they were running too.

Sbu:“ fuck man that was close! ”

Me:“ let’s get out of here guys ” we drive straight to the hotel and park in the basement and park the cars then
take the elevator to our room. We get inside and we all heard for the alcohol and we look at each other then
laugh

Me:“ we have to get all of those women out of there ”

Bonga:“ I thought I have seen some weird and sick things but this no! ”

Me:“ we have to kill this idiot tomorrow, he has to die ”

Sbu:“ I’m with you on that one. There’s no way I’m going to be able to sleep, man I think there was a 10 year
old girl there and she was fucken chained ”

Me:“ any of those kids there could have been our kids… this is so fucked up! ”

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MBUSO.
We sit down and have drinks, everyone is fucken shocked from the things we saw at that house. So this is
what he wanted to do the woman I love, chain her, video tape her doing sick things to her... I want to fucken
kill this animal and I want to kill him now.
I take my laptop and look for pet shops around P. E online and find one, then pay and click collect at what
time cause I'll send Percy to go and collect it and I smile cause he's going to freak when he sees what he'll be
collecting. I get on the hotel website and pay for three rooms that we're going to need.
Me:" sbu get your guys ready, tell them to come here now!, we're going in now before that mother fucker
wakes up "
Sbu:" hell yes!, I'm on it brother " he does
Bonga:" let's get him cause we weren't going to sleep "
Percy:" I'm still in shock "
Me:" Percy did I not tell you to leave the house and wait for me outside? "
Percy:" Boss I couldn't leave you alone there, not after the things we saw, I stayed at the door and kept watch
so I can see if there's anyone who will come and see us. You hired me to protect you and I was doing my job
boss and you wouldn't have asked me to be here if you know knew that I don't have your back "
Me:" I know and it wasn't that, I said that cause I couldn't let us all get caught if they did saw us "
Him:" but they didn't, you know I'm as good as Frank boss, that why I'm here "
Me:" I know, are they here yet brother? "
Sbu:" they must be here right about now " someone knocks on the door and bonga opens it and they all get in
and they looked shocked when they see all the surveillance cameras in the room and some look nervous
good.
Me:" who's in charge here and how many are you guys? "
One guy:" I am and there's 10 of us " he says stepping forward "
Me:" wrong, I'm in charge here!, what do they call you? "
Him:" sorry boss, they call me jama "
Me:" sbu is he the one who sent the location? "
Sbu:" that's him "
Me:" ok listen to me very carefully, sbu and bonga will devide you guys and I'll just take the two of you here
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with Percy and the rest of you will be devided between my brothers "
Sbu:" ok guys we're going to that place again and we are going to get all of those girls locked up in there and
take them and bring them to this hotel here and to these rooms " he gives jama and another guys keys
Bonga:" you will not man handle any of the women and children in there, you shoot to kill any of the guards "
Me:" but the man involved in the making of videos and who are raping the women in there I want them alive,
you will shoot them with these tranquilizers and get them in one room " I take a bag filled with tranquilizer
darts and give it to them.
Bonga:" you want me to call the Albanians? "
Me:" call them now and find out if they have someone who can take and hold theses guys somewhere cause I
want that house burnt down to the ground " he takes his phone and call them
Percy:" why can't we kill all of them in there?, burn all of them? "
Me:" we can't cause the neighbors will smell human flesh and call the cops plus having many dead bodies
will lead to many questions and investigations. We are going to do this thing as quietly as possible "
Sbu:" and remember that all of you signed none disclosure documents and we have all your information in
there, your family wives, girlfriends and your kids. We know everything so if you don't want to be part of this
leave now! " we look at them and no one leaves
Bonga:" you really don't want to mess with us and you don't want to know what will happen should you tell
anyone, even your wife or pastor or mother. We will know and we'll come after you "
Me:" we not sure what we'll face when we get there and some of us could die but you have to fight and know
that you have a family that is depending on you and you can't afford to lose them. But should it happen that
you die, don't worry cause we look out for our own. I'll make sure that your family is taken care of and they
can take care of themselves too. I'm going to ask you again, is there anyone who wants to leave cause you are
free to go? "
Them:" no boss, we are not leaving "
Me:" ok then Percy and jama and one of your guys go and get us petrol 25 litres each container, here's the
money buy 20 of them " I give Percy the money cause we don't want any paper trail following us and I know
when we leave this place I'm going to wipe out any information they have on us in this hotel. " and guys
avoid cameras at the petrol station, use the truck we have in the basement "
Percy:" sure boss, do we come back here again? "
Me:" I'll wait for you at that fools house down the street and jama you'll gear up when you get there, hurry up
it's 2am , I want us to be there I n thirty minutes " they leave then sbu and bonga devide the remaing eight
guys.
Me:" gear up guys, here are the guns with silencers, bulletproof vests, night vision goggles and each of you
must have at least five tranquilizer darts " they start getting ready.
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Sbu:" me and bonga will get the girls to safety but I'm worried that that they might scream when they see us, I
think they might think we're also there to kidnap them "
Me:" yeah but when they see that you're there to rescue them, they might come down "
Bonga:" they don't trust men brother, we might have to drug them too "
Me:" we can't drug them cause those sick fucks we're already drugging them and they might end up being
addicts, "
Sbu:" we'll use those police badges so they will think that we're special cops " we laugh
Me:" I think the women in the will comfort the little ones cause I think they know each other now and have a
bond I think "
Bonga:" yeah that's true, man Alex came through with those badges "
Me:" I think that will work, pretending to be cops, they'll feel at ease "
Sbu:" they will cause we haven't seen any dirty cops working with that fool "
Bonga:" he can't be working alone and running this thing "
Me:" I checked and he us, remember this is his dirty secret life he's living, I think we should get all the
camera equipment so we can see who else has been in there, doing the same things he does "
Bonga:" we'll do that but are you sure you want to go see that fool alone brother? "
Me:" the safety of those kids and women is important, I have been through worse situations than this one "
Sbu:" but as soon as we bring them here and see if they are okay, we're coming to you "
Me:" ok brother "
Bonga:" how are we going to get everyone where they live? "
Me:" they first have to tell us who they are and where they are from then we'll take it from there?, what did
the Albanians say? "
Bonga:" they said they have people in cape Town and they'll be here in the morning and I'll tell them where
to meet "
Me:" good brother, let's go and end this sick fuck, as soon as I switch the lights off you get in "
Sbu:" everyone ready? " they all nod and we leave some using the fire exit door and others using the
elevator. I get in the car, sbu takes the truck and bongs takes another car, we all leave andI take a different
route to Ngqakula's house. I park down the road five houses down then switch off the lights and check on
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Me:" guys how far are you ? "
Bonga:" we're almost there, just waiting for you to give us the go ahead "
Me:" Percy where are you? "
Percy:" I'm almost there boss, jama is on his way to you bonga "
Bonga:" oh here he is, do you want me to send him back to you guys? "
Me:" no he's going to take 20 minutes I don't have. Sbu are you ready brother? "
Sbu:" I am brother, cut off the electricity " I see Percy pulling up behind me with the other guy and I get out
too taking the bag I brought with me then I don't give them instructions I just run towards Ngqakula's house
and when I'm at the gate I take out my phone, hack the database again and switch off the lights
Me:" let's get them boys " I jump over the fence, these two follow me and walk beside me and we take our
guns out
Me:" we are going to enter in the kitchen, Percy you have the keys? " He nods
Him:" you'll get the kids and lock them in one bedroom Percy since they know you and you, come with me,
let's go, before they call this fool " we quickly and quietly go around the house and get to the kitchen and
Percy unlocks the door and we get in and I go upstairs, go to their bedroom and open the door slowly.
I see them sleeping peacefully and I signal to the guy to keep quiet and hive him the bag and he takes it. I go
the wife's side of the bed and then shake her softly and she opens her eyes and looks at us shocked. I signal
for her to keep quiet and get out of bed and lucky for me she does and she's looking at her husband scared and
she's naked.
The moon is shining bright outside so she can see two men in her room, Percy opens the door and she sees
him and quickly runs and throws herself to him... . Ok. I jump on the bed and he gets startled and opens his
eyes and is about to scream or say something but I don't give him a chance cause I just punch him with my gun
and knock him out.
Me:" Percy can she put some clothes on and make sure she talks to her kids and they don't call anyone?, get
me a damn chair and give me that bag "
Her:" who are you and what do you want from us? "
Me:" we're here cause your husband messed with the wrong man "
Her:" what did he do? "
Me:" do you want to leave your husband and start a new life? " she looks at Percy for a long time then looks
at me nods, does she like him?
Me:" say it! "

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Her:" I want to live him but I know he'll find us "
Me:" he won't cause he's going to die, do you want to watch him die? "
Her:" yes, this son of a bitch has been making my life a living hell so yes I want to see him begging for his
life "
Me:" then it's your lucky daycause you might just get your revenge " Percy comes with a chair and we drag
this fat bustard and sit him on the chair. I take out the hand cuffs and cuff each leg on the chair and cuff his fat
hands. " get me a bucket of water to wake up this fool " she goes to the bathroom and I look at Percy cause he
has some explaining to do. She comes back with the bucket and she has put some clothes on.
Me:" brothers how far are you guys? I need to put the electricity back on "
Bonga:" the women and the kids are all in the quantum, and we're busy dragging these men to the truck "
Sbu:" man we need at least thirty minutes so we can get all the equipment here "
Me:" guys hurry before they wake up and we need to burn that house before I switch on the lights again,
works fast brothers "
Sbu:" give us 15 minutes then "
Me:" ok then, lady go check on your kids and make sure they don't hear anything "
Her:" ok but I want to here "
Me:" when he hits you what do they do? "
Her:" they go to our housekeeper and sleep with her "
Me:" take them there and don't say anything to your housekeeper, Percy go with her " they leave and I take the
bucket and throw it all on this fucker and he wakes up screaming and gasping for air.
Me:" wake up mother fucker, I'm here "
Him:" who the fuck are you? " I laugh
Me:" you wanted me, so here I am "
Him:" you!, how did you get here Mbuso Gumede? "
Me:" you don't get to ask questions here!, what did you think will happen?, you'll threaten to take my wife
away from me then send someone to kill me and you thought I'll just wait for you and not come after you? "
Him:" you won't get away with this, he will find you and kill you "
Me:" no, I'll find him like I found you, nobody threatens and gets away with it "

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Him:" where is my wife, where are my kids, what dis you do to them? "
Her:" oh I'm right here husband, finally you have met your match, I can't wait to see you need for your life
and die.! " she says getting in the room
Him:" you are working with them too, how could you betray me you whore! " she takes the side lump and
throws it on his face and he bleeds. I look at the time and we are left with 5 minutes before I have to light
again.
Me:" how the hell do you live with yourself you sick fuck!, how could you kidnap and rape kids and make
pornographic videos of them? " the mother fucker laughs and his wife gasps shocked.
Him:" they loved it, each and everyone of them loved it and they made me so much money, their videos are
all over the world and there are some streaming live now! " I take the baseball bat from the bag and hit both
his knee caps hard with all my strength and I feel his bones cracking and he screams.
Me:" you have kids you fucken psycho, how can you do this to other kids and not think about your own?! "
Him:" I have never touched my kids and I will never but you, mbuso, that lovely looking pregnant fiancée of
yours would make me lots and lots of money "
Me:" no one will do anything to her, not as long as I live! " I hit both his arms with the baseball bat and they
break and I see bones sticking out of them and he screams so hard.
Me:" scream all you want but no one is coming to save you, your house is big and your neighbours are far.
Him:" fuck you gumede, you hear me, fuck you! " I laugh and take out the gas torch and light in and he looks at
it and scream.
Me:" I have something that might take away the pain, I can save you and not kill you "
Him:" please don't kill me, I can change and stop what I'm doing please make this pain go "
Her:" no!, you can't do that, you promised me that he will die "
Me:" lady shut up and watch, if he apologies and promises to stop then maybe he deserves another chance "
Her:" you son of a... . "
Me:" you better not say what I think you're going to say and shut your fucken mouth before I shut it for you.
Where was I okay second chance, tell me where is that sniper you hired to kill me? " he's groaning in pain a
Him:" he is in Ladysmith now, he called me 5 hours ago, give me something man I'm dying here "
Me:" before I do that I'm going to give you an address and you tell him to go there cause that's where he will
find me. He will enter the farm and go straight to the barn cause we'll be having a meeting there, your inside
contact told you that, do you hear me! " he's in pain and I doubt he'll tell him exactly as I said.
Him:" ok., ok I'll do it please man don't burn me with that thing " I take my phone and call sicelo and he
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answers on the second ring
Him:" what's wrong cause I can see you're still alive? "
Me:" the sniper is going to come to the farm, I want you guys to be ready for him and capture him, go now
and tell everyone to get in position cause he's already there and wear my clothes and walk like me so he'll
think you're me "
Him:" you found ngqakula? "
Me:" yes he's going to call him now, man the things we found will make you sick "
Him:" kill that fucker "
Me:" you bet I am, be safe, well talk later " he hands up. " guys talk to me, how far are you? "
Sbu:" we're done and we're on the way to the hotel "
Bonga:" I'm taking the man to the place the Albanians sent me and we'll wait until they show up and the house
is burning down as we speak "
Me:" okay, I better hurry up then, where is his phone? " I ask the wife and she looks for it and gives it to me.
I take his thumb and unlock it " what's his contact? "
Him:" sniper " I look for it then look at him
Me:" you say anything else I'm going to have my guys here fuck you in the ass before I kill you, you get me? "
he nods and this mother is going to die soon, weak ass fucken psycho. I dial the sniper's number and it rings
and I put it on loud speaker.
Sniper:" boss man "
Ngqakula:" killer, I want you to go.... " surprisingly this mother fucker tells him everything I told him to say,
he really thinks I'm not going to kill him and I smirk this fool.
Sniper:" I'll go boss but why are you talking like you're in pain "
Ngqakula:" because I was fucking my wife before I got the call a and she is biting me fuck! " he's even a
better actor wow!.
Sniper:" ok boss I'm going there now cause I was sleeping "
Ngqakula:" call me when the job is done " then I hang up.
Me:" you convinced him and now you deserve your reward " I take my phone and bring the power back on
again and I look at the time and it's 2:30 am. I give the lady the baseball bat and she takes it looking scared.
Me:" time to get your revenge if you still want "

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Her:" I have been dreaming about this for years, it's time youet your fucked up ancestors mother fucker! "
Ngqakula:" baby please, I'm sorry my love don't do this! "
Her:" goodbye mother fucker, this is for me, my kids and all the women that have suffered in your hands " she
swings the bat like a baseball player and hits her husband on the face hard, breaking his bones and they crack
and he screams.
Me:" do you want to hit him again? "
Her:" no I'm good " I nod and take the gas torch, light it and bring it to his face
Me:" give me something to gag him " she goes to the laundry and comes back with his socks and I take them
and put them forcefully down his throat.
Me:" say hello to hell for me " I take the torch and bring it to his chest and burn him and the smell of human
flesh burning is disgusting. He screams and screams and I continue to burn him until I see his rib bones then I
hear Percy , the wife and the guy all puking. I burn him and see his heart and I turn the heat on and burn him
until he pisses and shits on himself then stops moving and dies. I look at them and they look sick.
Me:" now it's your turn Mrs? "
Her:" you're going to kill me too? "
Me:" you know Percy here and you might call the police on us, so why should I kill you too? "
Her:" please sir, I could have done that but I didn't and I trust Percy cause he told me you are aan I can trust
and you're here to help is "
Me:" well be watching you but if say anything to anyone I'll come after you myself, you understand ? " a
message gets in and it's from sicelo and he says they have captured the sniper and I smile.
Her:" I do sir " I had to say that so I can sure that we can trust her but meant what I said about coming after
her should she say anything to anyone.
Me:" the police are going to have many questions as to what happened here, so we have to make it like you
got ambushed and attacked in your own home. Percy is going to beat you up and you have to be strong this
one last time then it's over. Percy just hit her twice on the face but don't break anything then you can hit her on
her body"
Her:" I can take it " I nod at Percy and he nods. He punches her hard and she winces but doesn't say a word
then he punches her again and she tears up then he takes out his belt and hits her hard five times
Me:" ok stop Percy that's enough " he stops " lady are you okay? "
Her:" I'm fine, what now? " she asks getting up
Me:" we leave you call the police crying hysterically and tell them you got attached, they tortured your
husband cause he owes them money and they didn't get any in the house then beat you up and threatened to kill
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you and your kids when you tried to run away. Percy will call you after a week and please lady do as I tell
you! "
Her:" I will " she looks at Percy and he mouths I'm sorry and I think these two like each other. I pack all my
things including the baseball bat and take ngqakula's cell phone then take the DNAOUT Invisible solution
spray.
Me:" you don't know us, we were never here but we'll see you again " she nods then kisses Percy on the
mouth then I take the spray and spray it around the bedroom, kids room and where we walked when we got
into the house, the fence we jumped then the gate opens and we leave and run to our cars get in and drive off
to the hotel.

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MBUSO.

I get inside our hotel suite and all the guys are there excluding bonga, they are talking softly but get silent
when they see me. I look at all of them and some look shocked and shaken. I stand in the middle of the room
and look at each and everyone of them in the eye.

Me:“ I want to thank you for a job well done guys, you did great and you saved the women and children
today and we have saved their lives for the better and now we will return them to their families. You should
be proud of yourselves for the job well done and you get something a little bit extra in your bank accounts
before the day ends but remember what happened here, stays here guys ” they nod.

Sbu:“ you can leave now, well take it from here but jama you’ll stay behind ” they nod and leave.

Me:“ how many women and children were there? ”

Sbu:“ four women, four teenagers and five kids, the two rooms. I wanted to divide them they absolutely
refused and they are afraid that they are going to be sold again ”

Me:“ yeah it makes sense but how are they doing now that they are out of that house? ”

Him:“ man they are still scared and it’s going to take them long to trust men and be out in the public ”

Me:“ I don’t blame them, who’s guarding them? ”

Him:“jama's right hand man ”

Me:“ ok, I’m just glad that they all safe and will return to their families ”

Him:“ man they are going to need lots and lots of therapy especially the little ones… . Man I’m so mad I
want to fucken kill someone! ”

Me:“ you’ll get a piece of the sniper and take it out on him ”

Him:“ you found him”

Me:“ yeah, I set a trap for him and now scelo has him ”

Him:“ damn brother, you don’t waste time ”

Me:“ nobody messes with my family and gets away with it, Percy tell me what the fuck is going on between
you and that woman ”

Percy:“ boss… uhm the first time I saw her we clicked, I felt something for her but I didn’t show it and I was
just as surprised as you when she threw herself at me and hugged me ”

Me:“ nothing happens between the two of you before that? ”

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Percy:“ I swear boss, nothing happened ”

Me:“ I’m going to tell this for your own good, if you are going to pursue a relationship with her know that she
will always know what happened to her husband. You will be that constant reminder especially when she
looks at her kids and when they asked her who killed their father and why, obviously you didn’t I did but
when you guys argue one day she might use that against you and that is very dangerous. I will not hesitate to
kill her if I even suspect that she might be up to something, I’ll protect my family Percy and you are my family
so you better be sure if it’s her you really want ”.

Percy:“ I hear you boss and I’ll think about it ”

Sbu:“ you’re fucken crazy if you think you can build something with that woman, we don’t need her in our
lives cause she’s going to be a constant reminder and what happens when she meets luh and luh finds out that
she’s the wife of the man who wanted her as his slave… Come on brother think about that! ”

Me:“ she’ll be mad at me and I can’t handle that, I can’t lie to her. Look Percy I know she’s innocent in all of
this cause she too was his victim but I can’t have her around luh ”

Percy:“ I get it boss but I still haven’t decided if I want her that way or maybe it was just physical attraction.
We can’t blame her for her husband’s actions, it’s not fair ”

Me:“ I will not have someone in my life who will always have a hold on me, I don’t live my life looking
over my back scared that someone who knows something about me might show up and cause problems not
only for me but for you too Percy ”

Sbu:“ you can always get another girl who has no baggage Percy and leave this woman, it’s either you leave
her and don’t contact her ever again or we kill her ”

Jama:“ or we kill you Percy. You haven’t even fucked her but here you are busy talking all this shit! ”

Percy:“ shut the fuck up, you were not there what do you know? ”

Jama:“ I know that we fucken get rid of liabilities and she is one. I have something that we can give her and
she won’t remember anything that happened last night ”

Me:“ what the fuck?, where did you get it? ”

Jama:“ I know people who make this stuff ”

Me:“ get it now and you?, I’m going to book her a room and you’re going to ask her to come here and you’ll
give her the stuff. You’ll act all concerned and worried about her and you’ll give it to her ”

Him:“ she could be the one though boss ”

Me:“ go and call her ” he goes to the bedroom. “ get more of that stuff, I’ll pay and we’re going to give it to
Percy too. I don’t want him to remember anything from being here in P. E cause it looks like he really likes
her and we can’t have that ”
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Sbu:“ great idea cause he makes me want to just punch him ”

Jama:“ they say they’ll deliver it in two hours and they want R20. 000 ”

Me:“ what the hell!, how big is that thing? ”

Jama:“ 2 litre boss, you just use a drop of it and in 15 minutes it will knock them down and they won’t
remember anything and it’s not traceable on the blood ”

Me:“ I hope they don’t use that thing on drugging and raping women ”

Jama:“ no sir they sell it and use it on people who have severe cases of trauma ”

Sbu:“ fuck man, we need to work with these people ”

Me:“ does the government know about this drug? ”

Jama:“ no sir, cause they know if the government finds out they will take it from them ”

Me:“ but you told us about it, why? ”

Jama:“ I saw you bosses how you work and you care for the people who work for you and I want to be part
of that and so I thought bringing this to the table would be my way of getting in and being one of the man you
trust too ” he’s smart, I like smart man. I look at sbu and he’s impressed too.

Me:“ welcome to the family jama ” we shake his hands, Percy comes back

Percy:“ she’s coming boss ”

Me:“ who is she going to leave the kids with and is the police done at their house? ”

Percy:“ she said the police are almost done and her sister is already there and the housekeeper too ”

Me:“ go and get a room and keep her company. When they deliver the drug I’ll call you then hand up and
you’ll use the land line and pretend to order something then Jama will come as a waiter and bring you guys
champagne that you’ll drink, cause you’ll ask jama to open it and pour it then Jama will spike her drink, you
get me? ”

Him:“ I hear you boss ”

Me:“ go then ” he leaves “ drug them both but we have to make sure that we get her back at her house before
the drug kicks in. We’ll call her and pretend to be the police ” Intake out my phone and call bonga

Me:“ where are you? ”

Him:“ I’ll be there in an hour ”


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Me:“ have they arrived ? ”

Him:“ they are flying in in thirty minutes then I’ll wait for them to make the payment and then I’ll be there ”

Me:“ we should be gone before the sum rises ”

Him:“ don’t worry safe and I’ll be there ”

Me:“ ok brother ” I hang up.

Sbu:“ so what do we do with the women and children? ”

Me:“ I was thinking that we go and talk to the women first and find out if they know where the kids are from
and take it from there because we don’t want to be caught with them and be accused of human trafficking ”

Sbu:“ let’s go, Jama you stay here and let us know when your people are here ”

Jama:“ sure my bosses ” We leave and go to the other room opposite to our suite and knock

Him:“ your boss, open up! ” he opens the door and I look the women and children are all sitting down in
group at the corner, hands around each other

Me:“ we are not here to harm you, you don’t have to be afraid of us. We are going to take you back to your
families, who’s speaks for you ”

Girl:“ I remember your voice sir, you’re the one who found me in the bathroom and promised to get me out of
the and take me to my family… .. Thank you sir, thank you! ” the chain that was around her neck is gone but
you can still see the bruise around her neck.

Me:“ you don’t have to thank us cause you don’t deserve what happened to you but it’s over now, who
speakers for you? ”

Voice :“ I will ”

Me:“ who are you ” I ask a woman who looks so skinny like she was bring starved of food.

Her:“ my name is thando and I’m from Joburg, all of them found me there ” she says sniffing

Sbu:“ how did they kidnapped you? ”

Her:“ I was coming back from work and there was no taxi so O requested a meter taxi then the driver
sprayed something in the car like air freshener and then I woke up there naked and chained ” wow.

Her:“ All these kids are from ages 8,9,10,10 and 11 and they all have one thing in common ”

Me:“ what is it? ”


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Her:“ they are all orphans and they live at an orphanage in Alex ” fuck!

Me:“ Fuck he was targeting orphanages cause he knew that no one will look for those kids cause they have
no one ”

Sbu:“ he could have done a fake adoption, paid someone to falsify the documents ”

Me:“ unless if the orphanage is working with him, we need to shut it down and move the kids that are living
there cause they might be selling the kids to someone else too ”

Sbu:“ I’ll take them to Durban to my family’s orphanage, they will live there ” the kids start crying and man it
breaks my heart.

Sbu:“ and you ladies? ” the girl who remembers voice speaks

Her:“ I was coming back from the library at night when I felt like someone was watching me then I ran but
bumped into another guy and he hit me and then I woke up at that place, I’m from Pretoria and I was studying
at Wits University ”

They tell us how they got kidnapped, one was drugged at the club, another was sold by her sugar daddy, the
other was pimped out by her friends, another was hit from the back at the toilet in the mall, the other one too
was at the club when a guy and bought them drinks then followed them where they live and took her cause
that’s the last thing she remembers and the last one was walking to the shops when they took her.

They tell us they raped them and would film and stream it while the rape was happening and we’ll see all of
that in the equipment we took and they tell us that, that fucker Ngqakula would get requests from people and
they would do what the views want them to do to them and the things they say make us sick to our stomachs
and it makes me feel like I can go and kill that fucker over and over again. Six women are from Joburg
including the girl and the lady who was telling is about the kids then the other two women are from
Bloemfontein and Ermelo.

Jama calls and we leave the women and go to our room then bonga gets in the room too.

Him:“ Damn you look like someone has died, what happened? ”

Me:“ you’ll watch and see, I need you to go with jama and he will fill you in about the deal I want us to do
then you’ll take that women back to her place then you guys come back and were leaving this place, sbu get
the jet ready and I saw that they were dressed thank you brothers ”

Sbu:“ we saw a clothing store opened and we bought them clothes, they couldn’t walk around naked ” I nod.

Me:“ go guys and get the drug, drug them then take her home and come back, do it quick ” bonga and jama
leave then sbu calls the pilot then we start packing up all our equipment and jama's right hand helps us as we
take the women and kids to the quantum and he keeps guard. We pack everything in the other quantum all the
equipment from Ngqakula and ours then wipe out all D. N. A from the suite we were using to the one where
the women were placed and the elevator then jama comes dragging Percy who’s drunk putting him in the car
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then they take the women and put her in the other car and leave hers at the hotel and they drive her to her
place, they’ll think she’s drunk then we spray again the basement then get in our cars sbu driving the quantum
with women and I drive the one with Percy, jama's man and the equipment.

We drive to the private airport then we wait for jama an bonga to arrive and when they do I get n my laptop
and jack the hotel’s system and hard drive and wipe everything making sure that there’s no trace of us then
load the equipment and the kids and women, Percy in the private jet.

Me:“ you can come with us and stay for a few days ”

Jama:“ I have to be your eyes and ears and see what’s happing here but when everything has gone down I’ll
definitely come boss ”

Me:“ thanks men, you’ve been a real help and I’ll settle your man's accounts and yours ”

Him:“ I trust you boss plus I have to clean the cars we rented ”

Me:“ well see you and your man soon ” we all shake hands with them and then we board the plane and leave
P. E and you can see the relieved faces on the women and kids. Luh baby I’m coming home!.

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LUNGI.

My brother left with Zama and I hope he will apologize to her properly and not use sex to make her forgive
him not I know she forgave him for what he did cause she came here. I hope my brother will find the love he
deserves actually both of them, I hope Zama is nothing like ayanda and I hope it was the last time we saw that
girl. Preston and Mah come and sit next to me.

Me:“ my favourite people, what’s app? ”

Preston:“ we have to talk about your dress ”

Me:“ I really don’t want to get married pregnant cause I’m going to look like a fat cow, imagine looking at
my wedding photos five years from now ”

Mah:“ they’ll be beautiful baby and you can always get married again when the kids are a year old ”

Me:“ Preston just make me look beautiful like I’m the only girl in the room that mbuso will see. ”

Him:“ girl have you seen how that man looks at you?, you can bring naked girls and stand them in front of him
and he won’t even see them ”

Me:“ he’s a man pres and men have wondering eyes ”

Mah:“ mbuso will never cheat on you luh, he loves you that much and look at him now, he’s there fighting for
you ”

Me:“ sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve him mah cause all of the things he’s done and is doing for me. I
feel like he will say he’s had enough ”

Pres:“ now that’s your emotions talking not you ”

Mah:“ he’s doing all of that because he loves you and because your well being and safety is his number one
priority, tell me how many men would go out of their way to do that? ”

Me:“ yeah I know I’m just being silly ”

Pres:“ you’re not being silly luh, he’s coming back to you and the kids and you guys are going to get married
” I sigh

Mah:“ I’m just glad that ayanda girl is gone ”

Pres:“ I don’t know much about her but from what big brother told me, he said when he first met her she was
this sweet person and not this woman we saw. He said she changed after her ex called her and she’s being
like that since ”

Mah:“ your brother didn’t know that girl at all, the only thing he saw is her ass and nothing else. That girl
has just something wrong with her and I’m glad she’s out of our lives because I don’t trust her ”
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Pres:“ I think she’s either bipolar and she knows but she’s not taking her medication or her family has a
history of mental illnesses. She needs very intensive therapy to determine what is wrong with her ”

Me:“ it might explain the way she was behaving ”

Mah:“ maybe but I still say those were her true colours we saw and your brother better be glad that she
showed him now rather than later, by the way where is sicelo and Zama ”

Me:“ they went to my place to talk ”

Pres:“ and we all know what language they are going to be talking “ we laugh

Mah:“ he needs to talk to her and apologize, if I was her I would let him anywhere near me. I would starve
him ” we laugh

Pres:“ ok, ok, let’s talk about your dresses baby sis ”

Me:“ okay, have you found someone to design it? ”

Pres:“ there’s a guy I know who’s a designer and he’s going to be here tomorrow and his work is amazing,
he’s going to be designing both your traditional and white dress ”

Me:“ ok what about the bridesmaid and the groom and the groom’s men, my dad and uncle Victor? ”

Mah:“ he’s doing all of that ”

Me:“ not everyone is here mah, how is he going to take the measurements? ”

Pres:“ money talks luh he’s going to be here for the whole week that’s why we need at least everyone to be
here ”

Me:“ I don’t even know how many groom's men mbuso wants and who’s going to be his best man… . I need
to talk to him about that ”

Mah:“ who’s going to be your maid of honour and how many people have you asked to be your brides maid?

Me:“ I want sims to be my maid of honour but I haven’t asked her yet, then it’s going to be you mah, and you
brother then I’m thinking of asking Zama too cause I don’t have many friends and because I think mbuso is
going to ask bonga to be his best men, then his other brother zipho, maybe our brother scelo then his other
friend sbu then we’ll all have four each ”

Pres:“ thank you luh for including me ”

Me:“ you don’t have to thank me pres ”

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Mah:“ I’m thankful too luh, I have never been someone’s bridesmaid before and I’m so excited ”

Pres:“ ok now that is out of the way, we found a venue and it’s gorgeous and it can accommodate up to 500
hundred people and so how many people would you like to invite? ”

Me:“ I wish mbuso was here but he said the only think he wants to know is when and where so he will show
up. I want something small and private, five hundred people is way too much for me. I only want our families
and close friends that’s all, so maybe let’s say three hundred cause mbuso has a big family and I don’t want
anyone to feel excluded ”

Mah:“ I’ll call her and find out how many people she would like to invite ”

Me:“ family and only their closest friends and about the venue well… . I want to get married at our families
farm because it is beautiful, the first time dad took me there I knew this is where I was going to get married
and because my mom and all my ancestors are buried there so I want everyone living or not there with me so
they can protect me, my kids and my marriage ”

Dad:“ you really mean that ” he says sitting next to me and he looks so emotional

Me:“ of course daddy, I want to get married there, traditional and white wedding and you’ll be walking me
down the isle and giving me away to mbuso ” he takes my hand and kisses it.

Dad:“ It will be my honour baby but I was thinking something else too ”

Me:“ what is it? ”

Dad:“ I think you should ask your uncle Victor too, so we'll both walk you done the isle cause I think he has
earned that right too ”

Me:“ ngempela baba and you don’t have a problem with it? ” ( really dad… )

Him:“ he has raised you to be the wonderful woman you are today and he deserves that honour too baby ”

Me:“ thank you daddy, thank you very much ” I hug him and he smiles.

Dad:“ now let me leave you alone, I’m going to the farm, I’ll see you guys later ” he says standing up

Me:“ baba? ” ( dad) he looks at me. “ did you really give ayanda one million rands? ”

Dad:“ for my children’s safety baby, I’ll give away all the money I have cause it wouldn’t replace you ”

Me:“ you’re the best dad ever and I love you ”

Dad:“ thank you baby and I love you and remember that I’m the best dad when the negotiations start ” what
does that mean, he kisses my forehead then leaves.

Pres:“ that’s so beautiful, the bond you have with each other ”
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Me:“ it’s the bond you’ll have too when your relationship grows ”

Pres:“ yeah I hope so… ” he looks like he wants to say something but decides against it. I take my hand and
hold his and he smiles and wipes a tear off.

Me:“ when you’re ready to talk, I’m here for you ”

Him:“ I know baby sis, I’m just thankful that you guys welcomed me with open arms and I won’t disappoint
you guys ”

Mah:“ kids disappoint their parents all the time pres but that doesn’t mean we should love them less, we love
them harder and show them the way ”

Pres:“ y’all are ruining my make-up, okay group hug ” pres though I giggle. We group hug.

Mah:“ did you have colours in mind cause we thought of champagne theme and décor ”

Me:“ champagne and something sparkly like diamonds ”

Mah:“ you want diamonds at your wedding, real diamonds? ”

Pres:“ oh my God I love that idea! ” he says screaming and we laugh

Me:“ well they don’t have to diamonds but I would love some real one’s to be incorporated into the
wedding. Just some to complement the champagne colour.

Pres:“ sims is going to go crazy over this ”

Me:“ we should have face timed her ”

Pres:“ she’s at work sis but she’s coming on the weekend and were bringing her up to speed with everything

Me:“ ok I’ll ask mbuso to find us diamonds, when am I meeting the interior designer ”

Pres:“ baby there’s no way in he I’m going to allow my sister’s only wedding to be done by someone else ”

Me:“ what?, pres no!. You’re working and when are you going to get time to make everything happen?, it’s
going to get too much for you ”

Him:“ I have a team sis besides mah, here. I’m going to give you everything you want in your wedding ”

Me:“ ncoooh you’re the best brother ever! ”

Pres:“ of course I am ” we laugh

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Mah:“ the designer comes with a make-up artist, so that’s covered and the theme too for the traditional
wedding is also champagne colours? ”

Me:“ is it possible? ”

Pres:“ anything is possible with me and money, we have the black card remember? ”

Me:“ oh I had forgotten about that card, who’s catering? ”

Mah:“ we are still for someone cause we want the best ”

Me:“ okay mah, I’ll leave that up to you… . ” my phone rings and I look at it and it’s my husband to be. “
excuse me guys, it’s my man I have to take this, pres help me get up ”

Mah:“ they way your stomach keeps growing everyday you’d swear you’re carrying twins ” what?, I look at
pres and he shakes his head lightly

Him:“ or she might be carrying a big baby ” we laugh he gets me up and I go to my room and answer the call.

Me:“ sthandwa sam ” ( my love) I can feel him smiling, we talk on the and I miss him more and he sounds
like he’s exhausted and it’s on the tip of my tongue to just ask him to come home and forget about that kan but
I know he won’t do that. We hang up and decide to show him something that will make him smile.

I take off my dress and go stand in the mirror and try to take pics I struggle at first and I laugh at myself but I
finally get one that I know he will love. It’s me laying down on my side on the mat, facing the mirror like that
time he fucked me here, I raise my left leg up making sure I get the right angle then snap and send and wait . I
turn and face up looking at the ceiling when a text gets in and wow, it’s a picture of his dick and it’s hard…
no caption. I get wet the moment I see it and so I take my hand and play with my hard nub, looking at his dick
and it doesn’t take me long to cum then I just lay down there cause how the fuck am I going to get up, I laugh
at myself. I turn get on my knees then hold on to the bathtub and get up and go shower.

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LUNGI.
After taking a shower I go and join mah and Preston, they are having a deep conversation about something
and I guess it’s about the wedding cause I don’t hear a word they are saying. I wonder what these two are
talking about.
Me:“ what are you two gossiping about? ”
Pres:“ just wedding stuff ” he smiles hmmm
Me:“ I don’t believe you ” I say smiling
Mah:“ ok, we thought you might be having phone sex with your husband to be ” they giggle
Me:“ mah, you can’t say that and we weren’t ”
Pres:“ they why are you sleeping like you have just taken a shower? ”
Me:“ I did cause I was sweaty ”
Mah:“ the way your blushing says otherwise ” I smile and look down cause they don’t wanna know what I
was doing to myself… I wonder what mbuso would think if I told him.
Me:“ leave me alone,. Mah I have beeneaning to ask you something ”
Mah:“ go ahead ”
Me:“ why did never get married after the years mom died ”
Mah:“ you’re dad was mess for years and when sicelo came back into our lives again he got so much better
and I thought height meet someone serious and get married again but he never did cause he always said your
mother is his soulmate ”
Me:“ but he shouldn’t live his life alone mah, he deserves to be loved again. Is he not seeing anyone ” she
smiles
Mah:“ no lungi baby I don’t know, would you like him to meet someone? ”
Me:“ yeah I would like to see him have someone in his life who will make him feel loved again ”
Mah:“ your dad is old school luh, where will he meet someone? ”
Me:“ I think I have someone in mind and I’m going to invite them to the wedding ” I say smiling
Pres:“ hmm do you think that’s a good idea? ”
Me:“ I’m just going to invite her and let the rest take care of itself, so mami ”
Mah:“ what is it now ” she asks annoyed then laughs

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Me:“ why are you getting annoyed? ” I ask her laughing
Her:“ cause when you call me that you usually want to ask me for a favour and if it includes your dad’s love
life count me out ”
Me:“ it’s not about him, it’s actually about you ” she gets quiet
Her:“ what about me? ”
Me:“ well I just wanted to know if you don’t mind me asking, who’s the person you’re dating ”
Pres:“ uhmm I’m gonna go and make something to snack, you want some luh? ”
Me:“ just water pres ”
Mah:“ sit down Preston ” she says to him with a serious look to her face. “ why is it important to you? ”
Me:“ I’m just curious that’s all ”
Mah:“ does it matter who’s the person I’m dating,? ”
Me:“ no it doesn’t mah, as long as you’re happy ”
Mah:“ I am happy and that’s all that should matter to you, not who he is and what he does ”
Me:“ I wasn’t judging mah, maybe I’m just curious to know why we haven’t met him yet and you never talk
about him ”
Mah:“ that’s because my private life is mine only and not anyone else’s. When I want you to meet him, you
will meet him ” she says getting a little bit angry
Me:“ why are you getting upset, it was just a simple question? ”
Pres:“ maybe we should… . ”
Mah:“ I’m a grown woman lungi and I don’t need you to be asking me such questions ”
Me:“ mah you’re acting like you’re hiding something, or the person you’re dating. Do we know him? ”
Mah:“ usuyangi phaphela manje! ” ( you’re being too forward with me now!)
Pres:“ aunty she was just asking, maybe you… . ”
Mah:“ shut up Preston or I’ll slap the both of you for not minding you’re business! ” she says getting up
Me:“ I’m sorry mah I didn’t mean to be noisy, I was just asking ” she doesn’t say anything and leaves then
Zama and sicelo get in.
Sicelo:“ you look angry, what’s wrong? ” she asks mah

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Mah:“ nothing ” she bangs the door behind her
Pres:“ yoh ! ”
Me:“ why is she keeping it a secret? ”
Sicelo:“ what happened? ”
Me:“ I was asking her who she’s dating and why we haven’t met him unless it’s someone we know ”
Sicelo:“ oh ”
Me:“ what does that mean ”
Him:“ nothing ”
Me:“ you know who she’s dating right? ”
Him:“ it’s not my place to tell you but she will when she’s ready ”
Me:“ does dad know him? ”
Him:“ he does ”
Me:“ and mbuso does too, pres do you know? ”
Pres:“ no baby sis I don’t know ” hmm I don’t believe him so I let it go.
Me:“ is my house still okay? ”
Zama:“ you have a beautiful house ”
Me:“ thank you Zama. I hope you two didn’t use my bed ” she blushes
Sicelo:“ we used your fleece blanket that’s all ”
Pres:“ we did not want to hear that! ”
Me:“ oh too much information brother ” he gets a call and leaves us. “ uh Zama if you don’t mind I would
like you to one of my bridesmaids ”
Zama:“ really?, O wow I would love too. Thank you for asking me ”
Me:“ don’t sweat it I’m going to lay down a bit, you guys bond ”
Pres:“ ok baby sis we'll make dinner while you go and rest a bit ”
Me:“ thanks guys ”
I go to my bedroom, sit on the bed then take my laptop and start ordering furniture for my house here, I want
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them to deliver before the end of the week. I order from this great furniture shop that make their own stuff,
locally made so I order everything from kitchen utensils to bathroom towels and everything else I will need.
But the time I’m done I realise that I have spent so much money and I smile, who knew spending so much
money can make someone feel so good ”
I must have fallen asleep because Zama wakes me up. I look at my phone and it’s 8pm and see if there are
any missed calls from mbuso but there’s none.
Zama:“ I thought you were never going to wake up ”
Me:“ I was ordering furniture for my house but then I got stuck on what to do for the room of the baby, I want
mbuso and I to do it together ”
Her:“ that’s nice, do you guys know what you’re having ” I smile
Me:“ healthy beautiful bouncing baby with all fingers and toes, that all I want Zama ”
Her:“ does the baby feel heavy? ” I giggle
Me:“ no but I don’t know when the time goes, I’ll have to ask pres ”
Her:“ I like him, he’s funny ”
Me:“ he’s amazing, did you guys talk? ”
Zama:“ yeah we did but I can’t tell you cause he’s your brother ”
Me:“ I know but I’m just glad if you guys managed to sort things out ”
Her:“ me too, let’s go they are waiting for us ”
Me:“ I’ll be right there, just let me wash my face ”
Her:“ okay ” she leaves. I get up, go and wash my face then join my family in the living room and everyone
has seated and I sit next to my dad.
Me:“ good evening family ” they greet back and I look at mah and she’s looking down. “ the food smells
nice, what are we eating? ”
Pres:“ macaroni and cheese ”
Me:“ hmm yummy ”
Sicelo:“ everything is yummy with you ” we laugh
Mah:“ let’s say grace ” I look at her and she’s not looking at me, I sigh and close my eyes. “ father we thank
you for the food you have blessed us with today and we ask you watch over us and all those we love who are
not here enjoying the meal with us today Amen ”

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Us:“ Amen ” I open my eyes and everyone plates and we eat in silent and I’m wondering if mbuso is eating
too or has he eaten his food.
Dad:“ maShenge when we have dinner in this table we are usually never this quiet but tonight is different and
I don’t know why ” I keep eating my food looking down, I don’t dare look at dad or mah.
Sicelo:“ I think we all had a long day and we just want to rest ”
Mah:“ and maybe we said things we shouldn’t have said ” I raise my head and look at het
Me:“ I said I’m sorry mah ”
Dad:“ what’s going on? ” he asks sitting still the head of the table concerned
Us:“ nothing ” all of us say excluding Zama the we look at each other smile and then laugh and dad looks
confused.
Mah:“ I’m sorry for snapping at you, I know you meant well and I’ll tell you okay? ”
Me:“ I forgive and as long you’re happy that’s all that matters to me ” we smile then continue to best and talk.
I leave them and retire to my because the make and cheese I had was good and I ate too much if it and I’m
now tired and feeling sleepy. I take my phone and look at mbuso and I really miss him. I touch my stomach
and my babies play. Mah is right my stomach grows everyday.
I can’t wait to meet my kids, touch them , hold them, smell them and kiss them. I can’t wait for our life to start
as husband and wife and parents. I know mbuso is going to be an amazing cause he grew up surrounded by
both parents with a home filled with love but for me, I’m scared of what kind of mother am I going to be but
what I know for sure is my kids won’t grow up the way I did cause they’ll have not just me and mbuso and
his family only but my family too.
I want to get married to mbuso and show him my love for him each and everyday of my life cause that man
deserves it. I have all of this now, my family because of him. No one in this world would love mbuso like the
way I love him. He’s my Yang to my Ying and I’ll continue to show him that he’s the king of my heart, my
one and only soulmate. I sleep with a smile to my face.

I’m in the kitchen when Zama walks in looking like a mess like she didn’t sleep and has been crying.
Me:“ good morning, what’s wrong? ”
Her:“ morning luh, I didn’t sleep well ”
Me:“ hmmmy brother kept you up all night ” I giggle but she tears up, God what did scelo do now!, “ look
Zama I know you don’t know me and I’m scelo sister and you’ll feel uncomfortable sharing certain things
with and I understand but I want you to know that if you ever need to talk to me I’m here, I’ll listen, I won’t
take sides or judge you ”
Her:“ thank you luh, he left last night ”
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Me:“ left when cause I left you guys still talking ”
Her:“ he left in the early hours of the morning ” what?
Me:“ did he say where he’s going? ”
Her:“ no he didn’t, he just said something important has come up, he has to go ”
Me:“ then he just left? ”
Her:“ yeah, what if he left me again and went to see ayanda? ”
Me:“ no he didn’t go to see ayanda, if he left that time then it means it’s something to do with mbuso… my
God what happened? ” I take my phone call mbuso but it takes me straight to voicemail, then I call sicelo and
it does the same. I don’t want to think the worst but why isn’t he picking up his phone?
Zama:“ luh are you okay? ”
Me:“ I’m fine zama don’t worry ” she goes to the fridge and pours me cold water and I drink.
Her:“ I think I know what you’re worried about, you think your husband is hurt right? ” I nod “ if he was I
think you would have a feeling in your stomach that tells you something is wrong, for you feel it? ”
Me:“ no I don’t but it doesn’t mean something isn’t wrong ”
Her:“ don’t worry yourself about that cause if something was wrong from that time up until know, you would
have known about it ”
Me:“ they could hide it Zama because they are afraid I might go to an early labour ”
Her:“ do you have leggings and a loose shirt? ”
Me:“ I do ”
Her:“ go and change and I’ll meet you in your bedroom ” I got to my bedroom and change then sit on the bed
then after 10 minutes she knocks and I open the door.
Her:“ does your dad knock when he comes to your bedroom? ”
Me:“ always ”
Her:“ then good cause I was wearing this underneath my dress ” I giggle, she takes off her dress and Zama
looks good
Me:“ what are we going to do? ”
Her:“ yoga, I’m going to show you see simple poses you can do when you find yourself stressed or about to
panic and don’t worry they are safe for your pregnancy. ” she opens my door and comes back with two mats
lays them down on the floor
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Me:“ do you take yoga classes? ”
Her:“ yeah your brother pays for them ”
Me:“ even for people our size are allowed cause I always see fit people there ”
Her:“ the one I go to does and I’ll take you there if you want after you’ve had the baby ”
Me:“ I’d like that very much ” we giggle then she shows me simple moves and I follow her lead and by the
time I’m done I feel so relaxed and calm. I love yoga mow
Me:“ thank you for showing me this and doing this with me ”
Her:“ don’t mention, let me go shower and change, I’ll meet you in the kitchen f or brunch ” she helps me get
up then wears her dress then goes to her bedroom or my brother’s I’m not sure and won’t ask.
Me:“ ok ” I lay on the bed, take a deep breath out and close my eyes and dose off.

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MBUSO.
We flew for an hour and thirty minutes and we have been here for five hours and we landed at the airport
then went to Sbu’s house. He called his family to let them now that we are coming and so they have to get
rooms ready for the kids. The women who work at the orphanage came and took the kids and left with them
and surprisingly the kids didn’t refuse or cry. The women and the teenagers who live in Joburg are getting
ready to be taken to the airport and back to their families and also the one who lives in Bloemfontein, but the
one who lives in Ermelo will never driven there. The women from the orphanage came and brought them
clothes and they are now showering and getting ready to go.
SBU:“ man you did great today, you saved all of these women and I’m sure their parents and families are
forever going to be grateful ”
Me:“ but it’s you who made me aware that someone is coming after me, I couldn’t have done this without all
of you brothers ”
Bongs:“ we take care of our own brother and where you die, I’ll die with you ” I nod.
Me:“ always brothers, Percy could have fucked this whole thing up, catching fucken feelings for that women

SBU:“ I’m just glad that he won’t remember anything about being in P.E ”
Me:“ I’m ready to go home now and see my woman but first I have to go and see that sniper being held at the
farm ”
Sbu:“ I’ll like to go with you but I need a different release, if only you could still share ” he days chuckling
Me:“ man that will never happen! ”
Bonga:“ I could use one too ” we all laugh
Sbu:“ there’s someone I’m going to call, you game? ”
Bonga:“ hell yes! ”
Sbu:“ you know you watch since you won’t join us ” I shake my head these two are fools
Me:“ nope, this dick only gets hard for one person and one person only ” we laugh.
Sbu:“ man I don’t blame you, I have seen how she looks and it makes me wonder how she fucken looks when
she comes ”
Bonga:“ she looks breath taking man ” what?
Me:“ What the fuck Siyabonga?! ” He laughs
Bonga:“ relax brother, I’m just kidding ” they both laugh at me

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Me:“ if you or even think of watching us Siyabonga, I swear I’ll kill you! ” well I don’t mean it literally
Sbu:“ can I come and watch you guys? ” he asks laughing
Me:“ man fuck you both, no one is allowed to see luh naked or how she looks when she comes, it’s only me
who’s allowed ”
Sbu:“ asshole ” they laugh
Voice:“ uhm ” we turn and look and it’s that young girl and O can’t remember her name and she’s looking at
us
Me:“ are you all done? ”
Her:“ they are all almost done, I wanted to ask if I can use your phone and call my family ”
Me:“ oh sure… . ”
Sbu:“ there’s a phone in the kitchen, you can use it ”
Her:“ no, I want to use a cell phone ” she looks at me
Me:“ why a cell phone not a landline phone? ”
Her:“ because I don’t want them to think I was here in Durban all this time ” we look at each confused
Bonga:“ little girl, we’re grown ass men here and we know what you’re trying to do! ” she looks down
Her:“ what am I trying to do? ”
Me:“ look it’s fine here’s the phone call your parents of family and put it on loud speaker ”
Her:“ it’s okay sir I’ll just use the landline ” she goes to the kitchen
Me:“ did I miss something here? ”
Sbu:“ that little girl has a crush on you ” I look at them like they are fucken crazy
Me;“ what? hell no! ” we laugh
Bonga;“ I’ve seen the way she looks at you ”
Me:“ what way ”
Sbu:“ the look that teenagers give when they like you ”
Me:“ fuck no I don’t want that, look guys she’s just a confused little girl and she feels vulnerable. I won’t
entertain that stupid crush you guys say she has ”
Bonga:“ why would she want your cell phone to use and not use the landline ”
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Me:“ I’m not having this stupid talk ” we laugh.
Lady:“ we are all done now and ready to leave ” thank God, cause I’m ready to get the fuck out of here.
Sbu:“ everyone is here? ” they all nod.
Lady:“ we just want to say thank you for saving us from that monster and we’ll never forget what you did for
us. Well be forever grateful ” we nod.
Me:“ just be careful and trust your instincts if something doesn’t feel right cause it won’t lie to you ”
Sbu:“ the women from the orphanage gave you the information and details you will use when you get home to
see counsellors who will help you ”
Me:“ be safe out there cause if it happens again you won’t be this lucky, I wish you well and I hope to never
see you guys again in trouble ”
Bonga:“ all of you follow me ” they take their little bags and follow bonga out then that little girl stays
behind and comes and stands next to me.
Her:“ thank you sir for saving me and I’ll never forget you ” she stands on her tip toes and is about to kiss my
cheek I think but I still here and grab her arms.
Me:“ hold it right there!, I’m old enough to be your father so this crush you think you have on me better stop
cause I’m not the nice man you think I am little girl. We saved all of you cause you could have been our
daughter or niece. Go home, live your life, be careful and date boys your age, now go ” . She looks at me
shocked then leaves.
Sbu:“ we told you ” I shake my head
Me:“ let’s go ” we see them getting into a car and the one that lives in Ermelo gets in another one and they
leave.
Sbu:“ you’re also leaving now ? ”
Me:“ Right now but I’m going to see sicelo first before I go see my woman who’s waiting for me ”
Bonga:“ wish I could and enjoy the show but there’s someone we need to fuck first” this fool I laugh
Him:“ it’s nice to have someone to come home too ”
Me:“ brother, it’s the best feeling ever ”
Him:“ we’ll I’ll see you tomorrow then ”
Me:“ we could all go now and you can take that girl with you, or find someone else at Ladysmith then book
yourselves into a hotel cause I’m not about to make my wife’s house a fuck pad ”
Sbu:“ let me call this girl man, give me 10 minutes and then she’ll be here and we’ll all go ”
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Me:“ If she’s not here in in 15 minutes I’m leaving your asses behind ” we get in the house and the
housekeeper gives us food and we eat and my mind is no longer here cause I just want to see my baby.
Thirsty minutes later the housekeeper cones to the kitchen with a short, dark skinned girl… ..
Sbu:“ you made it, I almost left without you ”
Her:“ but I’m here now ” she says smiling
Sbu:“ these are my friends, Mbuso and Siyabonga ”
Bonga :“ buy you baby can call me bonga ” I look at him bored
Her:“ Hi bonga and mbuso, I’m Karabo ” I knew I recognized her from somewhere, she’s ayanda friend…
fucken hell.
Me:“ let’s go guys, we’re taking two cars right? ”
Bonga:“ no, we’re all using one car ” fuck!
Her:“ wow sbu, you never told me your friends are this hot… Wow”
Me:“ I’ll be in the car ” I leave them and get in the car. Sbu is fucking ayanda's friend and I hope to God
she’s not crazy like her friend.
I’m in the drivers seat and they all get in and sit in the backseat sandwiching karabo between them, it’s g king
to be a long drive. I connect my phone and listen to luh’s favourite singer Sjava and sing along. I must one
day take her when he’s playing somewhere so she can watch him live. I look at the rear view mirror and see
that karabo's top is unbuttoned and sbu has his head buried on her chest and bonga's hand is inside her pants
between her legs and is kissing the hell out of her.
Me:“ are you guys seriously going to do this while I’m driving? ”
Bonga:“ just drive brother ”
Me:“ fool ” I shake my head and continue to drive but the smell of arousal is too much so I slide down the
window and turn the music up cause she’s now screaming. The NN3is not busy today so I press on the
accelerator and drive off cause I want to be out of this damn car and two and half hours later we arrive in
Ladysmith and the girl couldn’t stop screaming from being fucked by both of them and sucking both dicks.
Thank God sbu always keeps condoms in his car or else hmmm. I stop outside the hotel.
Me: guys here’s the hotel, I’m dropping you off here cause I’m going to the farm ”
Sbu:“ well see you later bro ”
Me:“ not anytime soon ” they get off and take their bags and I drive off to the farm. I park the car and see
sicelo's car, my dad’s car and luh’s dad’s car is also there. I get out and Frank comes when he sees me
Frank:“ boss you look like a mess ” we laugh and hug each other tight

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Me:“ you have no idea, I just need luh a bath and some sleep ”
Him:“ they are waiting for you, is it all over? ”
Me:“ not until those three are dead ”
Him:“ how is that fucked up Percy? ”
Me:“ we left him at Sbu’s house and one of Sbu’s guys is watching him ”
Him:“I should have asked you to take him with you, he could have fucked up this whole thing ”
Me:“ man I know, how you holding up? ”
Him:“ man you don’t want to know ”
Me:“ that bad? ”
Him:“ I’ll sort it out brother ”
Me:“ let me know if there’s anyway I can help. ”
Him:“ sure ” I’m worried about him, I get inside the barn and see all of them surrounding what I think is that
sniper guy ”
Dad:“ son, you’re back ” says my dad and why is he always here
Me:“ I am ” I look at the guy and he looks like hell cause there’s blood everywhere ”
Mapholoba:“ where’s your brother and friend ”
Me:“ they went somewhere ”
Dad:“ take that 5 litre bucket and go down the river and wash yourself before you go and see umaNgcobo ” I
nod
Sicelo:“ you want to have your piece too? ”
Me:“ I’m good bro, just kill the mother fucker ” I take the bucket and leave them and frank follows me. I go to
the river, take off my clothes and wash myself with that water while I’m inside the running river. After I’m
done I out my clothes back on again and go back to the farm.
Mapholoba:“ we need to deal with sipho and thuli and you must decide what you want to do with her but we
all agree here that she should die.
Me:“ I agree but what about her son? ”
Dad:“ she has a child? ”
Me:“ yes, she thinks he is dead and he’s living with other people who are raising him ”
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Mapholoba:“ and you’re telling us this because? ”
Me:“ I think buhle is Victor’s daughter and he doesn’t know. I think we should take her DNA and match it
with Victor’s to be sure then if we kill her then he can be able to raise his grandson ”
Sicelo:“ or we don’t tell him and just kill her ”
Dad:“ how old is the boy? ”
Me:“ 12 years old ”
Mapholoba:“ let’s do a DNA test first then see what the results say but mbuso if this girl lives and makes my
daughters life hell again I will blame you ”
Me:“ I won’t let that happen, I’m going to see her now ”
Mapholoba:“ the money I am going to fine you for sleeping with my daughter under my roof ”
Me:“ I don’t care as long as she’s going to be my wife ” I say smiling
Dad:“ don’t ask for too much money Ngcobo ” we laugh
Me:“ I’m going to take luh to our house , I’ll see you I don’t know when ”
Mapholoba :“ but she’s fine here ”
Me:“ I want us to grow our kids without worrying if someone will hear us ” we all laugh excluding
Mapholoba.. He takes the blade and shoves it on the snipers thigh and the guy screams. I get in my car and
drive to luh’s Father’s house. I park the car then get in without knocking
Mah:“ where are your manners mbuso, why didn’t you knock”
Me:“ hello aunty, have you told luh who you’re fucking? ”
Her:“ fuck you mbuso ” I laugh and leave her looking pissed and go to luh's bedroom and find her sleeping
peacefully. I look at the time and it’s 4pm, I sit down next to her, take my hand and feel my kids and they play
and I smile watching her sleeping.
My phone vibrates and it’s a text message from a number I don’t know.
“ thank you for saving my nieces life. If you ever need anything use this number and I’ll help ” how did they
know it was me and where did they get my number?...i'll look at it tomorrow. I smile then look at luh and lay
down then bring her body close to my mine and whisper in her ear “ I’m home baby ” and she sighs.

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LUNGI.
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My body gets covered in goose bumps and my back feels so hot like I’m on fire, I smile and wiggle my ass to
mbuso's dick that is poking me. My boo is back but God what is that awful smell that is all over my bedroom,
smelling like someone herbs but not mice ones?. I remove his hand on my stomach slowly then face and turn
to him and he’s watching me smiling and I giggle.
Me:“ you smell so bad baby ” I say laughing
Mbuso:“ that’s not a way to greet the man you love, love ” he says tickling me and I laugh.
Me:“ what did you bath with cause you smell so bad ” he continues to tickle me “ mbuso, I’m going to pee on
myself if you don’t stop ” I laugh hard and oh my God I’m going to pee
Him:“ I’ll stop tickling you if you tell me what I want you hear ”
Me:“ I’m so happy you’re back home safe, I love you now will you please let me go pee boo? ”
Him:“ I know all of that but you know what I want to hear ” I smile and look at him “ stop blushing and tell
me ” he says softly taking my mouth and kissing me and I moan
Me:“ I want you to fuck me, and fuck me hard ”
Him:“ I love it when you talk dirty ” he says kissing me deeply
Me:“ you still smell and I need to pee, get up boo ” he gets up and helps me get up then takes me to t he
bathroom and I sit down and pee and he’s watching me. “ are you really going to watch me pee? ”
Him:“ I’ll even watch you take a dump ”
Me:“ what is wrong with you? ” I ask him laughing, I wipe myself get up, flush then wash my hands
Him:“ that’s what lovers do love, Let’s go to our place so I can feast myself in you and make your body sing

Me:“ hmmm I like that ” he takes my hand and I take my bag and we leave my bedroom and there’s no one in
the house “ what time did you get here cause it’s now dark outside? ”
Him:“ around five pm, let’s get out of here before someone sees us ”
Me:“ aren’t we in a hurry? ”
Him:“ yes we are ” I laugh, we get in the car and drive to our house, we lock the gate and door then go
straight to our bedroom.
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Him:“ if I shower with you I’m going to fuck you there and I don’t want that, so you shower first then I’ll
shower after you are done ”
Me:“ ok ”
Him:“ five minutes love don’t take long ”
Me:“ I won’t ” I take my clothes then get in and shower. After a few minutes he comes and takes off his
clothes and watches me shower. His dick is standing proud facing up with veins all over it and my mouth
waters and I press my legs hard together. He gets in the shower, takes my washing cloth and washes my back,
my legs and ass. I try to touch his dick but he stops me.
Him:“ patience love ” he closes the tap, opens the door then takes my towel and dries me slowly and
perfectly and I just want you feel his hands all over my body
Me:“ boo ”
Him:“ shhhh ” he shuts me up with a kiss and I try to touch him again but he stops me, why won’t he let me
touch him?.
Me:“ I want to touch you ” he chuckles
Him:“ and you will love, go to bed and watch the television and don’t change the channel baby, watch what
is playing ” but I don’t want to watch the TV.
Me:“ ok, what is playing? ”
Him:“ you’ll see love and when you are on the bed turn the volume up ” he kisses me again then takes the
towel off and looks at me smiling and I shake my head smiling then go to our bedroom and I go straight to
bed, take the TV remote and sit on the middle of the bed and then watch the TV and oh my God I’m shocked!.
I look at the bathroom door expecting to see him there but he’s not. My God he wants me to watch this?,… .. I
turn the volume up and hear those soft sounds of kisses and moans.
There’s a porn movie of lesbians playing and wow I’m speechless cause I never expected that I’ll be
watching this. I take the pillows and put them perfectly behind my back then lay down and watch two girls
making out and I must say it is one of the most erotic things I have ever seen. The way they kiss each other
with their lips, how they touch each other and oh man now one girl is laying on top of another and rubbing
herself against her leg wo!.
I feel my hands making their way down my legs and I open them and play with my clit and I’m so damn wet
from watching two girls kissing each other, the other girl is now opening her legs so the other one can get
between them to make their vaginas touch and oohhh God they start to rub against each other scissors style,
clit on clit and Fuck me it looks so damn hot. The sounds they are making are making me feel hot all over my
body, I moan and rub myself, close my eyes then feel mbuso’s hands taking off my and I look at him and he’s
looking and me like he’s going to ravish me, I shake a little.
Mbuso:“ look at them and don’t stop watching and don’t touch me love ” he says laying done on his stomach
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Me:“ I… I don’t think I can ooooh God! ” he nips my clit and sucks on it then goes to my pussy hole and
tongue fucks me and I move my hips the best I can and fuck his face but he holds me down on my waist.
Him:“ I’m going to stop cause you’re not watching love ” he says eating me like a watermelon the groans and
I look at the TV again and now the girls are both kissing and finger fucking each other and I moan loud and
play with my sensitive boobs and they feel so heavy. I pinch them then take my other hand and go rub my clit
with it and I’m so slippery, very wet. I move my hand between my clit to inside mbuso's mouth and fuck me
his mouth is so warm and his beard rubbing my inner thighs is creating that feeling which drives me crazy
Him:“ fuck yes baby, rub yourself! ” I rub my clit and moan then he holds my ass and raises To his face, his
forearms on the bed, my ass in the air then he separates my ass cheeks and run his tongue from my pussy to
my other hole and I freeze. “ you stop, I stop baby watch the damn TV luh ! ” I watch the girls again and now
they are eating each other’s pussies and the way they move their tongues around the clit makes me feel like
they are the ones sucking mine but I stop watching them cause the sight before me takes my breath away.
I watch as mbuso flexes his ass on the bed, moving his hips up and down like he’s fucking me but he’s
fucking the bed while eating me….oh God then his tongues goes back again there to my tight ring and tongue
fucks it gently and my body start to shake fuck me I’m going to come. He goes to my clit again and nips it,
then rubs his chin sideways on my pussy hole and tongues my clit at the same time and I forget about what he
said about not touching him cause I raise my legs up high and hold his head down and he groans then I fuck
his face and cum screaming his name over and over again shaking, then he quickly gets up, jerks his dick up
and down then his hot seed shoots out hot and heavy landing on my stomach, boobs and some on my chin and
I take it with my fingers, bring it to my mouth and swallow all of it and it tastes yummy.
Him:“ rub it on your breasts and stomach ” he says groaning looking at me still jerking off the last of his
warm seed. I do as he says and he looks at me very proud. “ do you know how much I love you Lungile ? ”
the way he says it reminds of that first time he said my name and my skin gets covered in goose bumps and a
chill runs all over my body.
Me:“ I do know ”
Him:“ you are more than my soulmate, you are my soul lungi, only you have the power no one in this world
no one could ever have and that is to destroy me ”
Me:“ are you okay baby? ”
Him:“ I’m blessed to have you baby, and our kids are blessed to be carried by such an amazing and
wonderful woman ” he turns and lays me on my side facing him then he takes both my legs and puts them over
his right thigh, then enters me softly and we both moan.
Him:” take my hand and look at me ” we bind our hands together and he plays with my ring finger while
making love to me so soft and tender, nice and slow. He brings his upper body close to my stomach and starts
suckling on my nipples and I moan he picks up the pace and takes my legs into his arms and holds them
together then fucks me deep and hard and I cry out with every deep stroke he gives me
Him:“ did you enjoying watching two girls fucking each other? ” he says going deeper
Me:“ mmmmmm……..”
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Him:“ tell me love did you ” he almost pulls out then thrusts back in again hard knocking the air out of my
body
Me:“ yeeeees, yes I did ”
Him:“ did you imagine another women sucking and fucking this sweet and juicy pussy baby ? ”
Me:“ oh God… . ” I grab the sheets cause he’s fucking me so good and the things he’s saying are doing things
to my body “ yeeeeees I did ”
Him;“ you want to rub your clit against another clit love? ”
Me:“ no! … . Yes! … . No! … . I don’t know!.... Mmmmm ”
Him:“ do you think she can fuck you like I fuck you? ” he's now fucking me hard and his balls are slapping
my ass fuck yes!
Me:“ never! ”
Him:“ imagine her eating your pussy, begging for it, being greedy for it, soft breasts rubbing against you, her
mouth on your mouth ” he takes my lips and shoves his tongue down my throat and kisses me stealing my
breath and I moan
Me:“ I’m going to cum ”
Him:“ not yet love, watching two girls turns you the fuck on love! ” It wasn’t a question but a statement, I’m
close!
Me:“ please let me come boo ! ” he takes his hands, opens my legs and I can feel wetness on my thighs and
ass then he rubs my clit and fucks me
Him:“ answer me baby!, does watching two women fuck turn you the fuck on? he flicks my clit with his
thumb and I moan
Me:“ yes it does! ” he groans then adds pressure on my clit and rubs it fast and soft
Him:“ what about two dicks love, one in your pussy and another one, stuffed and fucking that pretty mouth of
yours?! ” that imagine and thought drives me over the edge
Me:“ fuck yeeeeeees!, I’m Cumming!, oh God yes! ” My body shakes and he pulls out and gets me on my
knees and fucks me hard grabbing my ass and slaps it hard then he cums groaning loud filling me with his
seed
Him:“ I fucken love you Lungile! ”
Me:“ I love you Mnguni ” he pulls out then some of his seed comes out too then I feel fingers in my pussy like
he’s taking some of it out then his finger plays with the rim of any anus and I moan cause it feels foreign and
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Him;“ relax baby, let your body relax. I won’t push it in, how does it feel? ”
Me:“ it feels weird, like I want you to move your finger off from there ” he stops touching it and I sigh
Him:“ lay down baby and relax ”
Me:“ mmmmm ”
Him:“ you look so beautiful love ”
Me:“ I’ll always look beautiful to you ” I say giggling
Him:“ how would you feel if I told you that there was someone watching us now? ” I turn and look at him not
shocked as I expected but surprised.
Me:“ really? ”
Him:“ you don’t sound shocked? ”
Me:“ I’m surprised at myself too, is there someone watching us? ”
Him:“ answer my question love ” he says kissing my ass and I giggle cause he’s tickling me with his beard
Me:“ I don’t know how I feel about that but I know you’ll never do something like that without talking with
me about it first ”
Him:“ the trust you have in me is amazing love and it’s makes me feel humbled by you. I worship the ground
you walk on luh and before you only I’ll kneel ”
Me:“ you make it easy for me to give you all of my trust and love, was there someone watching us? ”
Him:“ no love ”
Me:“ do you want to invite someone to watch us while we are making love? ”
Him:“ no honey love, do you? ”
Me:“ I don’t know ” I say smiling and giggle
Him:“ let me fuck you then cause it looks like I didn’t tire you out ”
Me:“ show me what you’re made of boo ”
Him:“ let me fuck that mouth first ” he gets off the bed and stands and I sit then take his dick to my mouth and
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MBUSO.
SNL
She sits on the bed and takes my cock to her mouth and swallows me and we both moan, then she pulls it out
again licks my shaved balls while stroking my hard cock. She opens her mouth and continues to suck on my
cock while her right hand reached down at plays with herself and fuck me she looks so beautiful.
I watch as her head bops up and down and feel her tongue going around my dick and playing with my swollen
head of a cock, loving the taste of it deep in her mouth. She then takes her other brand and wraps both of them
around my dick and stroke it and I fucken groan cause I can feel myself throbbing, pulsing in her mouth and
it’s making me want to fuck her greedy mouth hard. I grab her head gently and thrust deeply but so fly and she
moan and that moan travels from my head, to my feet then straight to my heavy sack of balls and I groan loud.
I want to keep fucking her mouth buy her tight grip on my dick and her mouth and lips inside her warm fucken
mouth make it hard and I find myself holding back cause I know I’ll hurt her if I’m not careful and I’m so
fucken hard right now I want her beautiful pussy wrapped tight around my dick. I go deep on her throat and
hold her there for a few seconds with her nose right on my small pubic hair and she gags a little then I pull
back her head and pull my cock from her mouth with a wet pop and splash and spit drools down from her
mouth to her neck and I want to run my mouth and taste all of it.
Me:“ get up baby ” I take her hand and help her get up then move the mattress and little making sure she’ll
feel comfortable laying her body there. “ kneel on the base baby and lay your stomach on the mattress and she
does that
Me:“ are you comfortable love? ”
Her:“ uh huh ” luh is so soft even when she speaks and right now she’s so horny it and gets my dick really
Hard when she talks like this cause I just want to fuck her and never stop.
Me:“ pull back a little, arch your back and just lay your face on the mattress then grab your ass cheeks ” I
help her hey positioned and when she grabs those ass cheeks and pulls them apart and I see her wet glistening
pussy and pink lips and her tight pink ring her anus, I get on my knees put my hands on top of hers and open
her some more then suck on her pussy and she moans and I groan. I swear to God nothing tastes sweeter or
better than luh's pussy and I’ve had many but right here is manna from heaven. I eat her pussy making sure
nothing is left behind then go up with my tongue to her pink tight ring, go around it and give it my love as I
tongue the fuck out of it while I stroke her clit at the same time and she starts to shake uncontrollably and her
anus keeps opening and contracting making me get in a little and I groan cause she feels fucken amazing and
breathes hard then I flick her clit and brush it and she shakes some more then I push my tongue to her tight
opening, move it a little and it’s damn hot in there and she screams and cums and I hold her, don’t stop
fucking her with my tongue and she pushes my face off of her ass and I laugh
Her:“ oh please get inside me and fuck me I need you now! ”
Me:“ I’m all yours love, yours alone ” I get up and precum is dripping from the tip of my dick and it is so
hard begging me to ram inside her pussy and ravish her.
Me:“ grab the mattress and push back when I slide my cock in you ” she nods, “ words love ”
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Her:“ yes ” I slide my cock into her wet nectar and push my head in and stop and take a deep breath cause I
almost came. Her fucken pussy pulsates around my dick so I thrust myself in her hard “ yes fuck me! ” she
says pushing back moaning.
I can never say no to the woman I love when she tells me to fuck her cause it’s my job to please her and
that’s what I’ll do. I pull my dick out of her leaving the head in then drive it deep inside her and she screams,
and I fuck the shit out of her and lose myself in her. I fuck her good and I fuck her sweet like how she
deserves. My thrusts grow faster, less coordinated as I keep ramming deep into her my fucken balls feel very
tight and heavy and my cock gets more hard and wants to release then she screams and cums all over my cock
, my blood is rushing all over my body, I am sweating profusely, I lean forward and hold down her shoulders
and fuck her and I can feel her body shaking and I think she’s crying softly.
I feel my orgasm closing in and I know I’m going to come hard so I slam in her hard and release all thick
white cum liquid in gushes deep into her greedy cunt and she milks me until I stop, breathing heavily I pull
out, get her up and fix the mattress then get her in bed bed and take her to my arms. Her tears fall off her
cheeks to my chest as I hold her, kissing her forehead and brushing her back and let her let it all out. She
finally stops crying and looks at me and smiles and kisses my chest and then we just lay there entwined in
each other arms not saying anything but our bodies doing all the talking. I am happy, I am content.
Me:“ are you okay love? ”
Her:“ I am baby ”
Me:“ did I hurt you when… . ” she covers my mouth with her hand.
Her:“ no, you were absolutely perfect ”
Me:“ but you were crying ”
Her:“ cause you were fucken king me so good Mnguni ”
Me:“ and it made you cry? ” she giggles
Her:“ yes boo it did ”
Me:“ You satisfy me in everything and every way love and you are more than enough for me ”
Her:“ you are all the man I need mbuso, no one else but just you ”
Me:“ I am content when I’m with you ”
Her:“ I am complete because of you ”
Me:“ no man will ever experience the love and happiness you always make me feel. You are mine and mine
alone, you belong to me and only me ”
Her:“ You’re mine mbuso and no woman will ever succeed trying to take you away from and our kids, this is
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Me:“ this is home baby and my dick only gets hard for you ”
Her:“ I’ll chop it off if it ever does ”
Me:“ baby your love is like a portion that keeps getting stronger each and everyday ”
Her:“ maybe I should give you a love potion ” we both laugh
Me:“ do it baby cause with or without it, I’m not going anywhere. Only death will take me away from you ”
Her:“ is it over? ” I sigh
Me:“ yeah it is, but we still need to deal with buhle, sipho and thuli ”
Her:“ I know, but maybe buhle deserves another chance boo ” not this again, I get up cause anything that
reminds me of what that girl did to me makes me want to kill her
Me:“ let’s go and take a bath together ”
Her:“ no we are still talking ” she says sitting up
Me:“ I don’t want to talk about them now ”
Her:“ when are we ever going to talk about her? ”
Me:“ love let this go please ”
Her:“ she saved me and you know that, in her fucked up way she did and I think I owe it to her to at least give
her a second chance”
Me:“ I want that woman out of our lives forever luh and I mean it ”
Her:“ I hear you but that doesn’t mean she has to die though ”
Me:“ how much more trouble do you want buhle to cause luh cause incase you have just forgotten, the man
who I went and killed was also going to be using you as his sex slave and use you for pornographic movies
and other sick things. The man who’s brother buhle promised you! ”
Her:“ but that doesn’t mean we should ignore the one right thing she did! ”
Me:“ are you fucken kidding me right now luh?, what is that right thing she did? ”
Her:“ she gave me you ” she says tearing up and I sigh and sit down and take her hands and look at her
Me:“ love, me and you were destined to be together and we were going to meet even if I didn’t know her
cause I know fates brought us together not that damn girl ”.
Her:“ I know but I don’t want her death to be on my conscience ”
Me:“ believe it’s not cause one way or another buhle's sins were going to catch up on her and if it wasn’t us
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who got her someone somewhere would have gotten her and she would be probably dead by now, so her
death is not going to be your fault ”
Her:“ I hear you ”
Me:“ you have to stop this thing of blaming yourself for other people’s decisions and actions ” she says
looking at me
Her:“ I know ”
Me:“ I have to tell you something ”
Her:“ that sounds serious ”
Me:“ it is but I’m not sure how you’re going to take it ”
Her:“ is it that bad? ”
Me:“ I don’t know how you’ll look at it ”
Her:“ tell me ”
Me:“ I don’t want us to start our marriage with lies and secrets ”
Her:“ what did you do mbuso? ”
Me:“ what happens was before I knew about you and I didn’t even know myself until that time you were in
the hospital at Pietermaritzburg when I got that message from your brother ”
Her:“ I’m listening ” she looks so serious right now and I didn’t think it was going to be this hard to tell her. I
look at her
Me:“ well you know that we were keeping buhle at sicelo’s house so he was at a club when Celeste sent him
a text message telling him that buhle is high on drugs and saying something ”
Her:“ what was she saying? ”
Me:“ sicelo then tells me to come to Durban and you remember I left that day and went there and when I got
there Celeste played me the video ”
Her:“ where is the video, I want to see it? ”
Me:“ sicelo has it ”
Her:“ I know you have it too and you’ll show me it but what exactly did she say ”
Me:“ in the video she said that we have a child together ” she tries to pull her hands off from mine but I grip
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Her:“ mbuso, let go of me! ”
Me:“ no, we are going to sit here and you’ll listen to everything I have to say ”
Her:“ listen to you telling me that you have a fucken child with her?, buhle?! ”
Me:“ will you please listen to me and stop shouting ”
Her:“ and if I don’t? ”
Me:“ you’ll upset my kids and be hospitalized for the rest of your pregnancy and I’ll be forced to be here in
this house all alone, do you want that? ”
Her:“ go ahead I’m listening ”
Me:“ she lied at first then when she saw how mad I was and I forced it out of her she finally said that we
have a child together and I couldn’t remember the time where I fucked her and not used protection so I asked
her ”
Her:“ you mean, you would fuck her and not remember? ”
Me:“ luh, please let me finish the you can judge me all you want ” that shut her up. “ I forced it out of her and
that’s when she said that , there was this one time in the club and I was stressed about something, I can’t
remember what then she bought me a drink that she spiked and then drugged and had her way with me ”
Her:“ wait!, you say buhle bought you a drink that was drugged and you didn’t know, you took it then passed
out and she raped you?! ”
Me:“ yeah cause I didn’t remember us sleeping together and then she got pregnant with my child ”
Her:“ oh my God! ”
Me:“ Mike was there and so he helped her get me to the house after she was done and I woke up the next day
not remember anything but only that I was drunk the night before ”
Her:“ I think Mike is the same friend that told that man that you’re the one who killed his brother ”
Me:“ it is him ”
Her:“ wow, so how come you didn’t know about the pregnancy until now cause I too have never seen buhle
pregnant ”
Me:“ she got scared when she found out that she was and knew that I will find out and so she had an abortion
and killed the child ”
Her:“ your child mbuso, she raped you then killed your child ” she says so said and soft
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Her:“ I can’t believe buhle is this wicked ”
Me:“ you know but you still want to see the good in her ”
Her:“ I’m sorry she did all those things to you, why did you decide to tell me ”
Me:“ cause I didn’t want secrets between us and because I have to do a cleansing ceremony, name the child
so it can be known by my ancestors and so it won’t cause harm to my kids that you’re carrying ”
Her:“ how do we know she really did have an abortion? ”
Me:“ there are. Medical records ”
Her:“ here I thought that I am going to be the only woman who’s ever going to carry your kids but buhle did it
first as always ” fuck no!
Me:“ look at me and listen to me carefully luh. You are the only women who will carry my kids and not
anyone else before you matters especially that girl. These are my first kids and many more will come out
from this womb only, do you understand? ”
Her:“ I understand, how do you know about this cleaning thing? ”
Me;“ Cassie bonga’s ex girlfriend once had an abortion without telling him and he started having problems
the lost his other child the girl decided to keep and when my family went to see the traditional healer he told
them it’s because the first child didn’t want to be alone and felt unrecognized by the ancestors and so I don’t
want that for my kids ”
Her:“ thank you for telling me ” but she sounds down now and I don’t what to say to make her feel okay.
Me:“ but you don’t sound okay love ”
Her:“ I’m just sad that she violated you and here I am busy asking you not to kill her ”
Me:“ I’m okay my love and I get why you were saying that ”
Her:“ I’m going to bath now, can you over is something to eat? ”
Me:“ you don’t want me to join you? ”
Her:“ no cause well end up fucking each other again and I need you to keep your hands to yourself cause I’I
sore ”
Me:“ ok baby, you need help? ”
Her:“ help me with the water then wash my back and feet ”
Me:“ let’s go ” I help her get up and she hugs me with our kids playing,
Her:“ she will pay ” she says so soft and I almost didn’t hear her and I look at her and she kisses my chest
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and drags me to the bathroom and I wonder what she means by that, I let it go for now.

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SICELO.
The sniper drops dead in the floor and the life drains out of him, we have killed the last person who is a
threat to my sister other than the mazibuko's. I can’t believe mbuso thinks that Victor is buhle's father, I mean
what else does he know that we don’t know. The guys clean up the mess and go burn the body of the sniper.
Me:“ are we going to watch the videos and footage the guys brought? ”
Dad:“ I can’t look those videos and see young kids like that, I have nieces and nephews that age and I’m
qbout to be a grandfather and I don’t want lose my mind watching those things and think what if it happens to
them… . It could have happened to your sister had mbuso had not intervened and saved her ”
Me:“ it scares me to think that maybe there’s more we don’t know ”
Gumede:“ what I know about my son is that he will move heaven and earth for your daughter ”
Dad:“ you raised a good man gumede, you should be proud ”
Gumede:“ your children are great mapholoba and they take after their parents ”
Me:“ thank you dad’s ” they chuckle
Dad:“ now this thing of Buhle and Victor, what do we do? ”
Gumede:“ we are starting the negotiations soon and I want everything to be smooth and those people gone
cause we can’t keep postponing and waiting for mangcobo to give birth ”
Dad:“ Victor will be here tomorrow and we will put all of them in the room and hear what secrets they are
going to tell us. I’m tired of knowing that they are still alive. I want it over too ”
Mapholoba:“ if buhle is Victor’s daughter then that would mean he met thuli first and got her pregnant but t
hen how does she end up being with his brother? ”
Me:“ maybe they were playing tag team ” they look ate like I’m crazy then burst out laughing
Dad:“ what is wrong with you seen? ”
Mapholoba:“ the things these kids do will shock you ”
Me:“ it’s just a thought dad ”
Dad:“ nah I guess we will find out tomorrow ”
Me:“ did you really give ayanda one million rands? ”
Him:“ yes I did ”
Me:“ why would you give her that? ”

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Him:“ sicelo the day you have kids you will understand why you would do anything to make sure your kids
are safe and protected, no matter how old they are. That girl you invited in your life is going to cause
problems ”
Me:“ when we took a walk with Preston, he told me that ayanda might be bipolar, well he said he’s sure that
she has bipolar that’s why when I met her she was a completely different person than what you guys saw ”
Him:“ which means she stopped taking medication ”
Me:“ it is possible ”
Mapholoba:“ or she might have schizophrenia ”
Me:“ but how mapholoba? ”
Mapholoba:“ people with bipolar are usually depressed and often isolate themselves and may experience
psychotic episodes but people with schizophrenia experience delusions, hallucinations and psychosis so
sometimes schizophrenia might be confused to bipolar ”
Me:“ then she definitely is schizophrenic cause the delusional she would have were too much for me ”
Dad:“ where did Frank take her? ”
Me:“ she’s right here, in one of the rooms in the basement, next to where buhle is ”
Mapholoba:“ what are you planning to do to her? ”
Me:“ I thought I would just keep her locked up and maybe she’ll straighten up and get in line ”
Mapholoba:“ you have to admit her to the hospital psychosis centre so she can treated before her psychosis
gets worse ”
Me:“ I’ll admit her tomorrow ”
Dad:“ no sicelo, call them now and they will come and take her ”
Mapholoba:“ no I’ll call them and go with her to the hospital cause she has to be evaluated before she can be
admitted ”
Me:“ mapholoba please make sure you keep her there for as long as she can stay cause if she gets out still
worse I might have to get rid of her ”
Dad:“ she’ll stay away if she knows what’s good for her, what was the tension in the house about between
your sister and your aunt? ”
Me:“ she asked aunty who she’s dating and she didn’t like that ”
Dad:“ well she has to tell her at some point, she can’t keep hiding it ”

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Me:“ maybe she’s afraid that she won’t accept him ”
Mapholoba:“ whom is she dating, do I know him? ” we and dad both chuckle
Dad:“ oh you know him very well my friend ” we all laugh
Mapholoba:” let call the hospital in Durban ” he gets up and calls them.
Me:“ when did you last talk to the mazibuko’s ? ”
Dad:“ yesterday, sipho is still broken over the loss of his son ”
Me:“ yeah thami didn’t deserve to die ”
Dad:“ well they are dying too tomorrow and I hope they go to hell ”
Me:“ what are you going to do them ”
Dad:“ the rats are already here and they are hungry ”
Me:“ I hope I don’t get sick watching them getting eaten ”
Dad:“ it’s going to be music to my ears ” he laughs
Me:“ I never thought we will ever get this day, get our revenge ”
Dad:“ it’s finally here ”
Me:“ I’m sure they are nervous cause they heard that fool screaming ”
Dad:“ they should be ”
Mapholoba:“ first thing tomorrow morning they will be here ”
Dad:“ let’s go home then and get something to eat ”
Mapholoba:“ I miss mangcobo's cooking”
Me:“ we are definitely not going to their house ” we all laugh
Mapholoba:“ my beautiful shy daughter in law ”
Me:“ she’s not that shy when she’s with mbuso ”
Them:“ shut up scelo! ” I laugh and get in my car and they follow behind me. My phone rings and I look at the
number it’s bonga.
Me:“ where are you fool? ”
Him:“ man I’m having the time of my life ” huh?
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Me:“ having the time of your life where and with whom? ”
Him:“ sbu and some girl, mbuso dropped us off at the hotel but we’re done here? ”
Me:“ are you telling me that you and sbu had a threesome? ” I asked him shocked
Him:“ the best, done and dusted ” I can feel his smile and I chuckle
Me:“ you lucky son of a gun ”
Him:“ we are going to come and see you, so we can talk about what we are going to do to the footage and
that orphanage in Newcastle ”
Me:“ ok brother I’m on my way home ”
Him:“ oh sbu asks if you don’t mind if we bring the girl with us? ”
Me:“ as long as you won’t continue where you left off under my fathers house ”
Him:“ man I’m not my brother ”
Me:“ hmmm, I’ll see you guys just now ” I hang up and shake my head. I left Zama sleeping, didn’t call her
the whole day and it’s late now and I know she’s very pissed. I get in the yard, park my car and the dads too
park theirs then I get in the house and find mah, Zama and Preston cooking and laughing. She fits perfectly
with my family, they don’t see me so I go to my bedroom and shower quickly and change then join them in the
kitchen. Zama has gotten all shy and is now not talking but just cooking and the only thing missing now is her
barefoot and pregnant, I smile to myself.
Dad:“ dad’s love son, it makes you smile alone like you’re crazy ” they all laugh
Me:“ it’s the woman who’s cooking our dinner that’s making me smile ” she looks at me a little and smiles…
damn she’s beautiful.
Mapholoba:“ I wonder what will her family say when they hear she’s already doing her wifely duties ”
Me:“ I won’t tell ”
Zama:“ but I will ” they all laugh
Me:“ don’t worry maShenge I’m going to send my family to yours after luh's wedding ”
Man:“ are you proposing marriage sicelo? ”
Me:“ yes mah ” I say smiling
Dad:“ well it looks like soon this house will be filled with many children ”
Mapholoba:“ and you Preston when are you having kids? ” he goes quiet

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Preston:“ we’ll bab' uGumede I can’t exactly have kids ” he says sadly
Mapholoba:“ are you infertile? ”
Preston:“ not that I know of ” he wipes his forehead
Mapholoba:“ then what is the problem? ”
Me:“ uhmmm dad ”
Mapholoba:“shut up scelo I’m talking with you ” this man is worse than my dad
Preston:“ I… for me to do that it would… ”
Mapholoba:“ Preston look at me when I’m talking to you ” Preston is shaking now, man I don’t like seeing
him this way, he looks at mapholoba.
Mapholoba:“ Preston I know that you are gay and I don’t have a problem with it, I only asked you when are
you having kids that’s all. This is a new South Africa and gay men are allowed to get married and I think you
can adopt kids too or buy an egg cause women now sell their eggs then have a surrogate to carry your child
or partners child. Don’t you want to have kids? ” Preston breaks down and cries then zama holds his hand
and mah hugs him.
Preston:“ I don’t know what to say… . I.. I have never been accepted by my family, they beat it out of me and
when that didn’t work they forced me to change and date women and still I was still me then they decided to
get criminals who mugged me and they…they raped me thinking I will change. My father said he hired those
man to show me that it is something I don’t want then disowned me, now why would I want to bring kids to
this messed up world? ”
Mapholoba:“ I’m sorry your own family did that especially your fathe Preston. Kids are a gift that comes
from God and it doesn’t matter what shape or form they come out with. As parents we must accept and love
them for who they are not what they have and I am sure you have realized that in this Gumede- Ngcobo family
we love and accept everyone who only has pure intentions for these families and you being here is not by a
mistake. Sometimes the family we choose for ourselves is the best one than the one we were born with and
these families are for you. You claimed them and they claimed you back, well I do as the head of Gumede not
your brother mbuso ” we all laugh, that was deep, I hope Zama heard.
Preston:“ thank you dad ” he says crying.
Mapholoba:“ come and give dear old dad a hug ” he goes to him and they hug, dad pats me on my shoulder
and I look at him and smile then look at zama and mah they are wiping their tears off.
Mah:“ who needs some wine ” she says breaking the tension and we all. Laugh
Me:“ I need something strong cause the onions your cutting are making me cry ” we laugh
Mah :“ go set the table scelo ”
Me:“ but mah sis nonto is going to set the table ”

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Her:“ go man scelo, is luh and mbuso, Oh never mind! ” we laugh again. I go to the dining room and start
setting the table when I hear bonga's loud laugh in the kitchen, they are already here. I add three more plates
for those two and their guest. I go to the kitchen and see those two fools, well I know of sbu but we haven’t
actually met and the girls they came with is facing away from me so I can’t exactly see her face.
Me:“ how’s it guys ”
Bonga:“ brother, this is sibusiso Mbatha, mbuso’s friend you’ve heard about him… well he’s our friend ” he
says we broke hug
Sbu:“ nice to finally meet you brother ” we shake hands and bro hug
Me:“ me too man and who’s your lady friend ” he looks at me and I raise my eyebrows and three of us laugh.
Sbu:“ oh this is our friend karabo ” hh?, I round the kitchen island and go stand next to Zama and see the
karabo who is in my kitchen is the same karabo who is ayanda's friend.
Me:“ karabo? ”
Karabo:“ hi scelo ” she says shyly looking down and embarrassed
Mah:“ you know each other? ” I look at zama and she’s looking at me
Me:“ uh..yes I know her, she’s ayanda’s friend ”
Mah:“oh Jesus ” Zama shakes her head
Mapholoba:“ who’s your boyfriend between the two? ” he asks her
Karabo:“ we are just friends sir ”
Mah:“ hmmmm ”
Me:“ where is ayanda? ” I ask her cause I want to know what she knows and if ayanda did call her
Her:“ I haven’t heard from her in days, I don’t know where she is ”
Me:“ what is really wrong with her? ”
Zama:“ why do you care? ” she asks softly
Karabo:“ who is she? ”
Me:“ she’s nothing to you, answer my question ”
Her:“ she’s not sick if that’s what you’re asking me, she just forgets to take her medication ”
Me“ what kind? ”
Her:“ did you dump her?, is that why she was acting all crazy ”
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Mah:“ so she is crazy? ”
Me:“ I’m the one asking questions here ”
Her:“ her family has a history of mental illness but she’s taking her medication and she was doing well until
she met tshepo and he started abusing her but then she said you’re cheating on her and many other things ”
Mah:“ are you crazy too? ”
Her:“ no I’m not ”
Mah:“ hmm the company you keep sbusiso, bonga and you scelo…”
Me:“ but… ”
Her:“ ay shut up man, nonto can please find something this girl will wear to cover herself up cause she looks
naked ” I look at her and she’s wearing a dress that has her arms and shoulders bare, it stops just above her
chest, I feel Zama kicking my leg and I look at her shocked
Me:“ why are you kicking me? ”
Her:“ cause your eyes are wondering ” nonto gives her one of her dress aprons and it looks big on her and
Preston laughs then stops.
Mah:“ let’s go to the dining room and have dinner, all of you wash your hands here! ” she says then leaves
then Zama and Preston follow here and karabo stays behind.
Karabo:“ does that mean you’re now single? ” she asks me and I look at bonga and sbu to deal with her. I
wash my hands then leave them and sit down where I usually sit and the dads come and sit too. Karabo sits
next to me where luh usually sits and Zama is opposite facing me, I look at her smiling and she doesn’t look
happy.
Mah:“ let’s say grace ” we close our eyes and mah prays then we did up and start to eat when I feel karabo
feeling my dick and I almost choke on my drink. I take my hand and grab hers hard and I hear her wincing in
pain but she still won’t stop instead she grips it tight and strokes it through my pans and I feel my dick getting
hard. Fuck!
Plates are and forks are clicking, the dads are talking and the guys and fuck me karabo continues to stroke my
dick and it is hard now and getting tight in my pants. I grab her hand again and it’s like this girl is intolerant
to pain. I close my eyes and think of ways to make my hard on not so hard
Karabo:“ so, what’s your name again cause I didn’t catch it? ”
Zama:“ I didn’t throw it ”
Karabo:“ so you must be scelo current girlfriend? ”
Preston:“ we don’t bring girlfriends in this family, we bring brides and grooms. Which one are you? ”

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Zama:“ no. ” what the fuck! I look up and see her like she wants to cry
Me:“ what the fuck does that mean Zama? ”
Zama:“ can I be excused baba? ” she asks my dad and my dad nods and she gets up and I get up too
Me:“ Zama what is wrong? ” she gasps shocked looking at my… . Oh fuck me!!!!!!. I cover myself and look
at her and she looks shattered then she leaves the table with her head held high and I go after her
Me:“ Zama, Zama wait, I’m sorry! ”
Mah:“sies scelo, sies man!, why do you like making a fool out of this girl? ” I hear mah shouting after me. “
and you should be ashamed of yourself!, if it isn’t your friend it’s you hhay man and you stupid boys brings
these stupid women in my brothers house better be the last time! ”
Zama locks the door before I even get there and I knock and she doesn’t answer instead I hear her soft cries
damn, I’m such a screw up, after I promised her that I won’t hurt her again but yet again I just did ”

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SICELO.
I keep knocking and knocking but she still won't let me in. How can I be this weak and stupid. How could I
embarrass the woman I love?, I basically proposed marriage to her in front of my family then I go and
become a week little boy who has just gotten his first experience of getting his dick felt. I fucked up, I really
did and the reason I did that is because the picture of bonga and sbu fucking some woman at the same time
kept on playing on my mind and that is not an excuse as to why I kept letting her touch my dick cause I don't
well know I could have stopped it at any time.
I go back to the living room and mah is fucken livid. She has never looked at me this way so disappointed
and I don't blame her. I look at this bitch and I just want to fucken blow her brains off.
Dad:" so this is the man my son has come to be? " they get quiet and I just stand there like a teenage boy that
has been caught sneaking back from getting drunk with his friends.
Me:" Cha Mapholoba " ( no dad)
Dad:" are you man who let's his dick control him? "
Me:" no dad "
Mnguni:" is this the kind of company you keep Siyabonga and you Sibusiso? "
Them:" Cha Mnguni "
Mnguni:" you are all a disappointment, look at how mbuso has cleaned up his act and manned up, you all
should follow his lead and stop this thing of yours fucken women at the same time " what the hell?, we look
at each other shocked.
Dad:" you kids think we are stupid and we don't know what happens in our kids lives heh? " we don't say
anything
Mnguni:" we keep tabs on everything kids and you should always know that whatever you do we are always
one step in front of you "
Bonga:" baba we are just having fun "
Mnguni:" bonga having fun is us having a braai and drinking with our friends and family that's having fun.
Using someone's daughter to satisfy your urges is not. "
Dad:" this thing you are doing was fun and good when you were young men but grown men don't do this thing.
All of you here are supposed to be married and having your own families but you don't cause you're busy
satisfying your dicks and dicks don't get satisfied. You can have relations with this girl in the morning and at
midday you would want another one. Are you going to be the kind of men who are controlled by their urges
and what their dicks want? "
Mapholoba:" do any of you here see this girl as someone you could marry? "
Us:" No!. " karabo looks at us shocked and embarrassed. I know for a fact that I could never want another
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Dad:" girlie you should stop letting men like these use you as their toy they use when there are bored. Know
your worth and don't be someone's play thing" she nods looking down embarrassed
Mah:" all of you are almost forty fucken years old but you are behaving like twenty two year olds busy
bringing rubbish in this home!. Sibusiso your parents are going to be so disappointed when they hear what
riff raff you hand around with. Scelo you proposed marriage to that girl an hour ago but you couldn't pass the
opportunity to embarrass her again, it was ayanda at first then her friend. What the fuck is wrong is you?! "
She says then leaves, I have never heard mah use the fuck word before and see her this mad.
Dad:" let it be the last time all of you bring women here unless you know they are your future wives, do you
understand me? "
Us:" we do mapholoba "
Me:" I'm sorry everyone "
Preston:" Zama deserves better than this brother " he's disappointed too
Me:" pres... . "
Pres:" save your sorry for Zama " he leaves and I know he's going to her and I hope they don't call luh and
tell her fuck she's going to be so mad. The dads leave and it's just us left.
Me:" karabo what was your intension exactly? "
Her:" don't pretend like you didn't like it "
Bonga:" what exactly happened? "
Me:" she was giving me a hand job, I stopped her and she continued to do it "
Her:" and you liked it cause if you didn't, your dick would get hard for me. Let's face it scelo you wanna fuck
me too like them. So the question, is do you three want to fuck me or you want Zama and me only? "she says
coming towards me.
Zama:" touch him again bitch and you'll see what I'll do to you! " I hear Zama saying followed by Preston
Karabo:" you'll do want cause I'm not scared of you?! "
Zama:" you don't want to know "
Karabo:" bitch don't get ate just because his dick got hard for me!, deal with your man. "
Zama:" oh believe me I will but now I want you to stay the hell away from my man, get your own damn man
that you can touch and do whatever the fuck that is you want. "
Karabo:" you keep saying he's you man but I haven't heard him claim you as his "
Me:" not that you need to know but she's mine and mine alone "
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Karabo:" you mean she's yours now until you meet someone else cause it wasn't that long before you were
with ayanda and now you're with this dull bitch!, don't make me laugh "
Me:" she has been with since she was 19, she's been there with me through it all not that you need to know.
Ayanda was just a phase and a forgotten memory, now it would do you better to stop talking nonsense. "
Sbu:" a car is waiting for you to take you back to the hotel karabo "
Karabo:" what?, step you guys coming too? "
Bonga:" no we are going to sleep here "
Her:" so you brought me all the way from Durban to switch me here just because miss piggy here is upset and
those old men did all those things? "
Bonga:" watch your words karabo cause those are our parents and no one disrespects them like that "
Her:" but I'm not insulting them cause they are old and you are behaving like little boys still wanting their
daddies approval, grow the fuck up!. I don't play with boys, I roll with men who know what they want and go
after it. "
Zama:" that's enough karabo, you clearly have no idea what men want and need. This person I'm looking at
which is you is a hell fucken no and I don't blame them. To me you're just a sperm dish they use to take out
their frustrations and experiment on. You should be worried sis when men start looking at you as a thing than
a person "
Her:" they want me cause I give them what they want and they can't get enough of me like sbu here " I look at
him and he looks embarrassed.
Zama:" you might give them what they want at that time but what about what they need?, what you need
karabo. How do you feel when they leave you after they have had their feel of you and go back to the people
they need something from. Doesn't that bother you cause it does bother me " my woman
Karabo:" men are never satisfied Zama no matter what you do, they will always look somewhere else for
something to fulfil what they crave the most, look at your man here "
Zama:" I'm not stupid karabo and yes scelo has mad a fool of me many times but that doesn't I should allow it
and let him do whatever he pleases because he's a man. You can't keep feeding your cravings because one
day they'll be the death of you. How do you feel karabo when you're alone and looking at yourself in the
mirror?, Are you happy with the person that is staring at you at the mirror? "
Karabo:" you don't know me, so don't you dare talk to me like you know me! "
Zama:" you ate right karabo I don't know you personally but I do know a troubled person when I see one and
believe me I'm not judging you for your life's choices cause at the end of the day, we do what makes us happy
and I think you should ask yourself this karabo. Are you happy with what you are doing with your life, how
you let other people use you for their own selfish needs. "
Preston:" couldn't have said it better myself "
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Sbu:" take your bag and go karabo, don't worry about the hotel bill, everything is taken care of. Someone will
come and take you. Back to Durban "
Zama:" you see?, they used you and now they don't need you. Selfish men. "
Karabo:" fuck you!, fuck all of you mother fuckers! " she says taking her bag and leaving. Bonga follow s and
then comes back after a few minutes.
Bonga:" she's gone "
Sbu:" fuck me!, what is wrong with that girl?, I can't believe she did that. Zama I'm so sorry "
Bonga:" I'm very sorry Zama, I and no idea she's that kind of person and is ayanda's friend "
Zama:" yeah well it happened "
Bonga:" why do we attract crazy girls? "
Preston:" cause you're all fucken crazy!, I can't believe people I look up to are this... . Ugh! "
Me:" baby I'm sorry, I'm really... . "
Zama:" let's go pres "
Me:" where the fuck are you going? "
Her:" did you get my bags? " fuck no!, she can't leave me because of this stupid thing
Preston:" let's go get them "
Me:" stop right there brother, there are no bags leaving this house!, you are not fucken going anywhere! "
Zama:" forget the bags pres I don't need them, let's go unless you want to stay with your brothers "
Pres:" I'm leaving with you sis "
Me:" did I not make myself clear zah? "
Her:" your days of telling me what to do are over!. They were over the minute you let that girl touch you! "
Me:" I fucken stopped her from touching me! "
Her:" is that why your dick got hard cause you didn't want her to touch you? "
Me:" Zahl baby please!, I know what happens hurt you and I don't know how to explain it but I know I
betrayed your trust nay and I'm sorry "
Zahl:" if you can get this easily aroused by another woman sicelo then that means you can easily cheat on me.
You did that in front of your family and embarrassed me. Am I enough for you sicelo? " she says and tears
fall, fuck!
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Me: baby you are more than enough for me. Zah I love you and I keep fucking up and hurting you and... I hate
myself for what I did, O promised you that I won't hurt you and it hasn't been more than three days and yet I
fucked up again and hurt you. You can't leave me again zah, YOU FUCKEN CAN'T! "
Her:" I will, I can and I will. I will not let you hurt me again and continue to make a fool of me. I'm walking
out that door and you will not stop me. This is the life you want to live scelo, fucking women with your
friends and so I don't want to stand between you and that life. Go ahead and do what you want to do cause I'm
not going to be here, watch the man I love do all those things. You have my full blessing scelo not that you
need it " she's fucking leaving me for real... noooo!
Me:" Nooooooooooo!, you are not fucking leaving me zah, you hear me? " She folds her arms and looks at
me
Her:" you are going to do what sicelo stop me then beat me? "
Me:" I fucken love you and I'm sorry I made a mistake, please forgive me zah! "
Zah:" I have let many things go and forgave you but it's still not enough cause you continue to hurt me sicelo
and I can't take it anymore "
Me:" zah please, you can't live me. How will I survive without you baby please " fuck I feely heart breaking
and my eyes... no!
Zah:"I'm leaving. Pres let's go "
Me:" OVER MY DEAD BODY YOU WILL. I'LL KILL YOU AND THEN KILL MYSELF! " I say taking my
gun out and pointing it to her and she looks at me scared shitless
Sbu:" what the fuck scelo? "
Bonga:" what the fuck are you doing? "
Me:" you better not come anywhere near me or else I'll fucken kill her!, she's mine, she's fucken mine. She
knows no other man but me and it is going to stay that way until we are both old, grey and have grandkids!
She's mine! "
Preston:" Babaaaaaaaaaaaa! " he screams shouting.

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SICELO.
Me:“ you are not leaving me Zah because of some stupid mistake that I made ” She looks so scared, she is so
terrified and it’s because of me.
Her:” really scelo?, you are now pointing a gun at me? ”
Me:“ what do you want me to do baby, you want to fucken leave me! ”
Dad:“ what is wrong with you boy? ”
Me:“ she wants to leave me dad and she can’t! ”
Dad:“ is she your wife scelo?, are you her father? ”
Me:“ I’m not… . ”
Dad:“ then who are you to tell her what she can, or can’t do? ”
Me:“ I made a mistake and she doesn’t want to forgive me ”
Dad:“ and pointing a gun on her is going to make her forgive you? ”
Me:“… .. ”
Dad:“ stop pointing that gun at her ” I lower t he gun and he takes it
Me:“ I’m sorry Zama, I really am ”
Dad:“ pres take zama to mbuso’s house, they are expecting you ”
Me:“ zama?.... ” she doesn’t even look at me, president takes her hand and they leave.
Dad:“ scelo what were you thinking? ”
Me:“ I wasn’t thinking ”
Sbusiso:“ you could have just let her go so she can calm down ”
Me:“ I fucked up ”
Dad:“ grow up scelo and stop behaving like a horny teenager man! ” he says then leaves.
Bongs:“ we shouldn’t have brought her here ”
Me:“ I could have stopped her but I… fuck!, I’m going to talk to her ”
Bonga:“ I don’t think that’s a good idea, she’s scared of you now brother cause you pulled a gun at her ”
Sbu:“ don’t force her to forgive you ”

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Me:“ I know, I keep messing things up with her ”
Bonga:“ I can’t help but feel like it’s somehow our fault cause we are the one’s who came with karabo ”
Me:“ all these women a real fucken crazy! ”
Sbu:“ she’s a beautiful ”
Me:“ get your own woman ”
Bonga:“ so do think she’ll agree to have the threesome with me? ”
Sbu:“ wait what? ”
Me:“ f uck no!, there no way in hell I’m ever going to allow another man to even touch her like that ”
Bonga:“ man what changed? ”
Me:“ love, I lover her ”
Bongs:“ goodbye zama phat ass ”
Me:“ man fuck you! ” we laugh
Bonga:“ let’s go and sleep, we’ll talk in the morning ”
Me:“ I won’t be able to sleep ” they go to their rooms and I go to mine. I take my phone and think of calling
her but I know it’s a bad idea so I don’t.
AT LUH'S HOUSE.
LUNGI.
Mbuso:“ mapholoba?....what?, they are coming now?, ok I’ll open up. ” why is my dad calling mbuso this
late?
Me:“ what’s wrong? ”
Him:“ your brother pulled a gun on zama ”
Me:“ oh my God!, why would he do that though? ”
Him:“ I don’t know what exactly happened but your dad told Preston to bring zama here, they are coming ”
Me:“ baby we don’t have a bed, they are going to deliver the furniture tomorrow ”
Him:“ for the whole house? ”
Me:“ yes I did and they are going to decorate it the way I want. ”

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Him:“ Preston will help you ”
Me:“ or he might take over ” we laugh
Him:“ I’ll ask your dad to send one of the security guys to bring them a sponge to sleep on. ”
Me:“ ok baby, I’m worried about zama, scelo can’t keep hurting her like this ”
Him:“ we don’t know exactly what happened ”
Me:“ that shouldn’t be excuse, to pull out a gun and point it at someone you say you love?... No that’s just
wrong ”
Him:“ I know baby, I’ll talk to him, let me go wait for them ”
Me:“ let’s go ” we leave our bedroom and go to the living to wait for them and then we hear a car driving in
then mbuso goes and opens the door for them, they get in and Preston doesn’t look okay and zama looks like
she has been crying the whole way.
Me:“ zama are you okay? ” she comes to me and bursts I not tears crying and I hold her as she cries. “ I’m
sorry he pointed a gun at you, he shouldn’t have done that ”
Her:“ I was so scared…. . I thought he was going to kill me ” I keep comforting her
Preston:“ selfish prick that scelo, I mean he disrespects zama then he has the guts to point a gun at her?, why
didn’t he do it to that girl? ” huh?
Me:“ what girl? ”
Mbuso:“ what happened pres? ”
Pres:“ so sbu and bonga came with this girl, Amanda’s friend and then she was sitting next to scelo and she
was giving a hand job, disgusting bitch!, I mean she does this during the people what is wrong with that girl!
And oh don’t get me started on that scelo!. ”
Me:“ wow, he allowed that to happen? ”
Pre:“ he enjoyed it cause his horny dick was hard and we all saw it, imagine zama shock and horror then he
has the guts to pull out his gun when zama said she’s leaving! ”
Zama:“ I just wanted to get some air, I was going to come here Luh, I wasn’t really leaving him ”
Me:“ maybe you should leave him, so he can see that the things he does hurt you. You don’t deserve to be
treated like that. Where is that girl now? ”
Pres:“ oh the bitch left, she fucked both of them at the same time ” I look at mbuso and he looks so guilty
Me:“ do you know anything about this girl? ”

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Him:“ huh… how do you mean baby? ”
Me:“ do you know her. .. Wait did you guys drive down with that girl? ”
Him:“ huh, yeah sbu invited her ”
Me:“ and where did you leave them? ”
Him:“ ah baby does it matter? ”
Me:“ answer the question mbuso ”
Him:“ why does it feel like I’m in trouble for something I didn’t do ”
Me:“ you will be if you don’t tell me what I want to know ”
Him:“ ok love, I left them at the hotel ”
Me:“ so all of you are in this thing of fucking women in threesomes? ”
Him:“ lungi! ”
Me:“ what mbuso?, so it means that while you were driving here, sbu and bonga were fucking that girl in the
car and you heard and saw everything. Is that why you asked me if I would mind if I knew someone was
watching is having sex, is it because you wanted one of them to come and watch?!” he looks at me shocked
Him:“ can you guys give us a moment? ”
Me:“ no!, you saw what they were doing and it reminded you of your past, things you used to do, do you miss
doing that mbuso? ”
Him:“ are you hearing what you’re saying right now? ”
Me:“ I asked you a question ”
Him:“ that’s a stupid question that I’m not going to answer ”
Me:“ why cause it’s the truth? ”
Him:“ baby, I don’t like what you’re thinking right now ”
Me:“ do you miss doing that? ” he looks at me annoyed
Him:“ I don’t fucken miss it okay!, and why are we even talking about this and why am I the bad guy now? ”
Me:“ hmmm just so you know I’ll fucken leave you if you ever think of doing the shit scelo did ”
Him:“ don’t piss me off love, is this how you talk to me now? ”
Me:“ maybe you would like to go and join your brothers in arms ”
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Him:“ are you kicking me out of my house? ”
Me:“ no baby but I’ll be sleeping on my bed alone ”
Him:“ what?, why are you punishing me for your brothers actions? ”
Preston:“ uh luh… . ”
Me:“ pres you’re my only favourite brother now so please don’t say anything that might remove you from that
list ”
Mbuso:“ baby let’s go to bed and sleep. Pres someone is going to come and bring you a sponge to sleep on,
I’m taking Luh to bed. Zama I’m sorry for what scelo did ” he says and takes my hand and we go to our
bedroom and he closes and locks the door. I look at him and he is pissed.
Me:“ mbuso… .. ”
Him:“ yes love, now can say whatever that is you want to say, it’s just the two of us now. So go ahead love ”
Me:“ but I… .. ”
Him:“ what love?, you still want to accuse me of more things? ”
Me:“ no, it’s just that… .. ”
Him:“ have I ever said to you that I miss my old life? ”
Me:“ no ” I say shaking my head
Him:“ have I ever said to you that I’m not happy about our sex life? ”
Me:“ no ”
Him:“ have I ever made you feel like you are not enough for me? ”
Me:“ no ” it’s been a while since I have seen mbuso this pissed and he starting it scare me.
Him:“ I’m open to you about our sex life, I ask you things and I don’t demand them from you or expect you to
do things you’re not comfortable doing. Your happiness, love and safety is my number priority. Do you know
that love? ”
Me:“ I do know ”
Him:“ then why couldn’t you wait to ask me those things in private? ”
Me:“ I… .. ”
Him:“ you what love?, you want Preston and zama to know what happens in out bedroom? ”
Me:“ no baby I don’t want them to know? ”
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Him:“ then why ask me things we do in private in front of them Luh? ”
Me:“ I’m sorry baby ”
Him:“ are you scared to talk to me Luh about things that bother you in our bedroom? ”
Me:“ no baby it’s just that when pres said something about that girl. Having a threesome with bonga and sbu,
it made me think that maybe you wanted to have one with me and someone else and when you asked me how
would I feel if there was someone watching us, it made me feel like you miss that ”
Him:“ yet you couldn’t wait to ask me when we are alone then you want to kick me out of my bedroom for
someone that I didn’t do ”
Me:“ I’m sorry ”
Him:“ am I always going to be punished for something others did? ”
Me:“ no boo,… . I’m sorry ”
Him:“ do you think I would talk about our bedroom dealing with anyone? ”
Me:“ no ”
Him:“ cause what happens in this bedroom or any other bedrooms we are going to have and the rooms even
kitchen I’m going to fuck you in is private. It begins and stays here, you don’t tell press, Sims, or even zama.
Siyezwana Lungile? ” ( do you hear me lungile? ”
Me:“ yes… I hear you ”
Him:“ I’m your man luh and I’m going to be your husband and this, what you did in there better not happen
again ”
Me:“ it won’t happen again ”
Him:“ cause if it does, I’ll fuck you senseless and not let you cum and I’ll punish you in ways that you won’t
like. ”
Me:“ it won’t happen again, I’m sorry ”
Him:“ I’m trying Luh, I’m trying the best I know how and I wish that there are things in my past that you
didn’t know but you do and I can’t change that. I can’t change my past but I’m no longer that man I was then.
I’m your man and I want to be the best one and do everything right but sometimes I feel like I’m not doing
enough. ” oh my God no!,
Me:“ mbuso I love you just the way you are, you and your past cause that makes you the man you are now and
I wouldn’t change anything about you. I’m sorry that I make you feel like you should be this perfect person
and do more. I know there’s no man in this world who would do the things you have done for me. It’s more
than enough what you do for me and do wish that one day I’ll do for you half of the things you have done for
me. ”
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Him:“ you do that every time you look at me like I’m the world’s greatest and the love you show me baby.
My world starts and ends with you Luh, only you and our kids ”
Me:“ you are more than the world’s greatest. Words are not enough for me to tell you what you are but Ill
always show you each and every day. ”
Him:“ come here ” he takes my clothes off and his too then we get in bed and he holds me.
Me:“ are you going fuck me? ” he laughs, we both laugh
Him:“ uthanda ugwayi wena ” ( you love my dick)
Me:“ umnandi moes ” ( it’s best dick) we laugh
Him:“ I think these kids are making you love sex ”
Me:“ nope it’s you and your amazing dick and sex moves ”
Him:“ let’s sleep, I’m not fucking you or making love to you ”
Me:“ your dick disagrees ”
Him:“ he’ll be fine. ”
Me:“ boo really? ”
Him:“ yes my love, no dick for you tonight ”
Me:“ let me give you a hand job then ” we both laugh loud.

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LUNGI.
I’m in the kitchen when preston walks in looking like a hot mess. I wonder if they did manage to sleep or they
were busy talking. I feel bad that I didn’t comfort her yesterday and talking to mbuso that way in front of them
was very wrong and I feel so embarrassed.
Me:“ good morning, you look like you didn’t sleep ”
Him:“ morning sunshine I didn’t sleep at all ”
Me:“ was she crying the whole night, damn I feel so bad ”
Him:“ oh sunshine it’s worse than that ”
Me:“ what do you mean?, is she feeling okay? ”
Him:“ she left, she has left him ”
Me:“ oh my God, when did she leave ”
Him:“ four hours ago ”
Me:“ oh pres why didn’t you wake us up ”
Him:“ she asked me not to and it was her decision Luh, I had to respect that ”
Me:“ I know, scelo brought this on himself and you know what I don’t feel sorry for him cause zama deserve
better than that ”
Him:“ she does ”
Me:“ did she say where she’s going and how did she leave? ”
Him:“ she didn’t say but I drove her to a garage and a friend of hers picked her up and they left and I came
back. She asked me to apologize to you and the family for just leaving like that after she was welcomed with
open arms ”
Me:“ I understand and maybe this distance between them will give them clarity and if it’s meant to be they
will find their way back to each other again ”
Him:“ I hope so too, I’m going to miss her ”
Me:“ me too ”
Mbuso:“ you are going to miss who cause I’m right here ” he says standing behind me and kissing me “ hello
beautiful, hey bro” man that’s my man.
Me:“ morning baby, you smell so yummy ” I say giggling, we kiss

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Pres:“ hello I’m still here ”
Mbuso:“ green is not your colour ” we laugh
Pres:“ don’t forget that some of us are single and lonely ”
Mbuso:“ who are you going to miss? ”
Me:“ zama, she left ”
Him:“ oh, what’s for breakfast? ”
Preston:“ you’re not surprised? ”
Mbuso:“ I saw you guys leaving and so I knew she’s leaving him again ”
Me:“ he’s not gonna be happy ”
Mbuso:“ he will deal with it ”
Preston:“ what does that mean? ”
Mbuso:“ exactly that ”
Me:“ are you going to help him find her again? ”
Him:“ no love, I tried to help last time but look what happened. If he really wants her then he will go and
look for her ”
Me:“ uhm guys, I wanted to say something ” they both look at me. “ I wanted to apologize to my future
husband about how I talked to you last night in front of Zama and Preston. I disrespected you as the man if
this house and my man and I shouldn’t have done that. I’m sorry Mnguni ”
Mbuso:“ thank you love ” he kisses me.
Preston:“ ok I’m going to make breakfast ”
Me:“ I need both of you not to leave, they are going to deliver furniture any minute from now ”
Preston:“ finally ”
Me:“ shut up press ” we laugh, he starts making breakfast
Mbuso:“ when are we having someone to help us around the house love? ”
Preston:“ and you need nannies ”
Me:“ I don’t know baby, I’ll ask mah to find us someone ”
Him:“ please do ” the gate bell rings and so as my phone, mbuso picks it up “ hello?.... Yes this is her
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husband, what company are you from again?.... Ok give us five minutes ” then he hangs up
Me:“ they are just a furniture company boo ”
Him:“ we can’t take chances baby, I have to check the security footage how many are they. I don’t want
strange men in my house around my pregnant wife ” he leaves I guess to do a background check on them and
we look at each other with press and he sighs and I shake my head. He comes back after ten minutes and
opens the gate for them. I go the living so I can direct them on where to put the furniture.
Mbuso comes back and is followed by two women, they are walking behind him and clearly checking him
out, I smile and shaking my head. I don’t blame them cause of I was them and saw this fine man I would be
all over him like white on rice, he comes to me then kisses me.
Me:“ hello ladies I’m lungi and this is my husband ” I greet them smiling
Lady1:“hello mrs… . ”
Me:“ just call me lungi ”
Mbuso:“ I’ll be in my office love ”
Me:“ but I asked you to help out ”
Him:“ don’t worry they have enough hands and pres is here too but tell me if you need my help ”
Me:“ I’m sorry to bring this now but I wanted to ask you something concerning pres ”
Him:“ what’s wrong? ”
Me:“ I wanted to ask of its okay with you that we have a bedroom for him, not just a guest bedroom but his
room ” he smiles
Him:“ will that make you happy? ”
Me:“ kakhulu ” (very)
Him:“ it’s fine with me love. ” I smile
Me:“ thank you baby, I’ll bring your breakfast ” he kisses me then leaves and I lol at the two women and gosh
they are eye fucking him and they sigh after he leaves what the hell . “ ok ladies, what are your names again?

Lady1:“ thembi ”
Lady:“ zonke ”
Me:“ ok you have your laptop with you right? ”
Thembi:“ yes I do ”
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Me:“ ok let’s go to the kitchen so I can see I was you how I want the whole decorated. ” they follow me to
the kitchen and find press cooking a storm. “ so much food pres? ”
Him:“ they are coming here ”
Me:“ they who? ”
Him:“ the whole family ”
Me:“ oh pres where am I going to sit everyone? ”
Thembi:“ we can start putting the furniture in the dining and living room ” she says taking out her laptop
Me:“ I hope you didn’t say anything about zama”
Him:“ hell no, I ain’t saying nothing ”
Me:“ ok, uhm zonke can you tell them to start cleaning the living since we’ll start there ”
Her:“ ok mam ”
Me:“ let’s work thembi ” I show her how I want everything to be placed and decorated in the house using her
and which furniture to go to which room. I hear the cleaning machine making noise and I’m glad that when
they come to deliver the furniture you have the option of asking for house to be cleaned. Thirty minutes down
were almost halfway when I decide to quickly make mbuso a sandwich cause pres ditched breakfast and is
now making brunch. I quickly make it for him then take it to his office and his head is buried in papers and
laptop and his phone keeps ringing. He looks so sexy wearing glasses and I just want to jump his bones but I
give him his food and leave him alone so he’ll get back to work and me too but first I go to my bedroom and
lock it cause I don’t want anyone snooping in there.
I go back to the kitchen and continue where I left off with thembi and zonke shows them where to put it. My
house is finally becoming a home and I love it.
Me:“ I believe we are done, I have showed you how I want everything placed in the house so do your best
thembi ”
Her:“ ok sis lungi ” she leaves and joins zonke.
Me:“ pres did you mean my dad, mbuso’s dad, mah, bingo, scelo and sbu? ”
Him:“ yes sunshine ”
Me:“ oh God, I’ll be back I’m going to change before they get here ” I go to my bedroom, decide to take a
quick shower then leave and go to my closet look for a light presentable dress and find it then mbuso walks
in and he smiles
Him:“ hmm perfect timing ”
Me:“ for what boo ”
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Him:“ a quickie love ”
Me:“ the house is full of strangers boo ”
Him:“ it’s our house and I don’t care ” I giggle
Me:“ no ways ”
Him:“ are you going to leave me looking like this ”
Me:“ you hanging pretty well baby ”
Him:“ you want me to walk around the house hanging like this and show your property? ” we laugh
Me:“ you better not ”
Him:“ then let’s have a quickie love, I promise will be quick…please ” I smile shaking my head. I turn and
face away from him but look at him through the mirror then take off my underwear, he smiles, comes and
stands behind me.
Me:“ I’m ready ” I say shaking my ass a little and we both laugh and he spanks
Him:“ you know how to drive me crazy and I love it ”
Me:“ feed me my dick ”
Him:“ yes mam, spread your legs, arch a little…yes then hold on tight baby ” he says pulling down his
sweatpants, puts his finger in me and finds me already wet plays with my clit then thrusts in and we both
moan. “ look at us love ” I do look and smile. Thirst minutes later we leave the bedroom and I feel great.
Which knew sex could make someone feel like they are on top of the world, we pass the ladies again and
thembi flushes red when she looks at us.
Me:“ did you see her getting flustered? ”
Him:“ no ”
Me:“ boo you didn’t even look at her ”
Him:“ exactly ”I laugh
Pres:“ I was about to go and look for you but the I remembered if one of you is missing then something is
going down or up and… ”
Mbuso:“ pres you have a big mouth ”
Pres:“:“ I was just saying, I’m hungry let’s eat cause the others are not yet here ”
Me:“ I’m hungry too, please dish up ” we hear loud male voices and oh god here it goes. “ boo can you tell
them to come through the garage please ”
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Him:“ ok love ”
Preston:“ are you ready for when scelo loses his mind? ”
Me:“ oh pres ” they get in laughing and talking then it gets quiet.
Boo:“ baby I want you to meet my other brother sibusiso Mbatha, sbu this is my…”
Sicelo:“ ay she’s my beautiful sister lungile Ngcobo ” we all laugh
Bonga:“ he’s busy looking for words to describe what she is to him but we all know ”
Sicelo:“ his one and only ”
Bongs:“ reason for breathing ” we all laugh but why are they embarrassing my man like this
Boo:“ you are all so jealous, brother this is the woman who owns my soul ”
Sibusiso:“ hello future Mrs Gumede, it’s nice to finally meet you after I have heard so many beautiful things
about you. You are indeed one of the most beautiful woman I have ever seen ” am I blushing cause I think I
am. Sibusiso is one handsome man but not as handsome as my man.
Me:“ nice to meet you too sibusiso ”
Sibusiso:“ my brother really got blessed with you, I’m so jealous ”
Me:“ thank you ” he gives me a light hug then looks at mbuso and kisses my cheek then runs
Boo:“ I’ll fucken kill you sbu ” they chase each other around the kitchen like school boys and I like seeing
this carefree side of mbuso.
Me:“ Preston cooked for us, anyone hungry? ” They stop chasing each other and sit down
Bongs:“ we are so happy that the house is finally getting furnished hey we were tired of sitting in the kitchen

Me:“ no one goes in my living and dining room bonga, not today that is ” they all laugh
Sicelo:“ where is zama?, is she helping out? ”
Me:“ no she’s not ”
Preston:“ she’s… ”
Sicelo:“ she’s still mad at me? ”
Me:“ I would too ” I say stuffing my mouth with food.
Mbuso:“ she left ”

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Sicelo:“ where did she go too? ” he says looking at Preston and me
Mbuso:“ she has left you brother and I think it’s for good this time ”
Sicelo:“ you mean to tell me that zama left and you allowed her to leave? ”
Me:“ allowed her to leave?, do you hear yourself scelo? ”
Mbuso:“ I didn’t know she had to ask permission from me to leave ”
Preston:“ she’s a grown ass woman scelo who makes her own decisions and is allowed to do what makes
her happy ”
Sibusiso:“ she has left you before? ”
Preston:“ oh she has and she’s done it again ”
Sicelo:“ brother you know how much she means to me and you let her leave without telling me mbuso damn
you! ”
Mbuso:“ you need to calm your ass down brother ” mbuso says so calmly while my brother is mad as hell.
Me:“ you can’t be mad at us for what you did, zama left use of you ” my dad, mah, mbuso’s dad, uncle
Victor walk in right at moment and watch my brother
Sicelo:“ shut the hell up luh! ”
Mbuso:“ don’t talk to her like that scelo! ”
Dad:“ scelo!, how dare you disrespect mbuso at his house! ”
Scelo:“ kodwa baba? ” ( but dad )
Dad:“ is this how we have raised you scelo to disrespect another man’s home?, your sister’s home?. The
very same home you of the man you call your brother? ” My brother looks down
Mah:“ what has gotten into you scelo? ”
Sicelo:“ I’m sorry, I’m sorry everyone ” he says crying my God what is going on with my brother?!.
Dad:“ Gumede, Mnguni, boPhakathwayo please forgive my son. I have to take him somewhere. Baby I’m
sorry ”
Me:“ where are you going? ”
Dad:“ I’m taking him to the farm, there’s more going on with your brother ”
Me:“ ok dad ”
UncleVictor:“ I’ll go with you ”
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Mnguni:“ I’m coming too ”
Dad:“ let’s go scelo ”
Mbuso:“ can we come too? ”
Dad:“ no boys you stay here. We’ll see you tomorrow ”
Mnguni:“ I was looking forward to eating your food Mangcobo cause I miss it but please cook for me
tomorrow ” I smile
Me:“ I will baba ” ( I will dad)
UncleVictor:“ I’ll see you tomorrow baby ” he says to me and they all leave. We remain quiet.
Mah:“ I’m hungry ”
Me:“ are you okay mnguni? ”
Him:“ are you okay ”
Me:“ I’m worried about my brother ”
Preston:“ I knew he was going to lose it but not like this ”
Bonga:“ man I’ve been there, a heartbreak fucken hurts ”
Sibusiso:“ it will make you go fucken crazy ”
Mbuso:“ I didn’t bath the whole week stalking her ” i shake my head.
Mah:“ I’ve seen this this before ” she says shaking her head and we all look at each other then Thembi walks
in
Her:“ uhm….uhm…sorry to disturb you but can I have a word with you sis lungi? ” she says looking at me
then looks at bonga and sbu and she blushes. I get up and we go to the living room and my God it is beautiful
I need to renovate my bedroom when mbuso is away so it can be a surprise.
Me:“ is something wrong? ”
Her:“ uhm not exactly, I wanted to ask the other bedroom that is locked you never said anything about it ”
Me:“ that’s my bedroom and don’t worry about it I’m going to renovate it myself ” I say to her smiling and
she nods then stands there and I feel like she wants to say something. “ was that you wanted to ask about ”
zonke comes to us
Zonke:“ two more bedrooms then were are done ”
Me:“ you guys work fast, I like that and maybe I might just hire you to furnish my house in Durban when it’s

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finally done being built ” they smile
Thembi:“ we would love to ”
Zonke:“ so uhm… we, are the others single? ”
Me:“ who? ” I ask them smiling
Thembi:“ your brothers or brothers in-law ” I giggle
Me:“ yes they are single ”
Zonke:“ wow, do you think they might like us? ” what?
Me:“ uh I don’t know, maybe ”
Thembi:“ how did you meet your husband ? ”
Me:“ uh that’s a personal question and you’re here to work and not ask personal questions about me? ” I
mean they are here to work not to compare notes
Mbuso:“ she stole millions of rands from me that’s how we met. Are you done? ” thembi looks at mbuso
shocked
Zonke:“ uhmm yes sir ” they leave us there.
Me:“ why did you tell them that? ”
Him:“ cause they are nosy, come ”

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MBUSO.

I don’t know if scelo is suffering from a heart break or there’s something seriously wrong with him cause a
losing the woman you love can make a man go crazy almost as if he’s losing his mind. I’m glad the finished
decorating the house and left. I look at luh and I know she’s worried about her brother and we are all
worried.

Me:“ love do you want to go show someone something? ” she looks at me confused, I move my eyes from her
to Preston she then gets it and smiles.

Her:“ oh pres, we have a surprise for you ” she says so sweet almost like singing

Him:“ really? ”

Her:“ yes, follow us ”

Me:“ you go with him baby, there’s something I want to talk to the guys about ”

Her:“ ok boo, mah, pres let’s go ” she excited I smile shaking my head watching her leave and her hips
swaying, I fucken love them.

Sbusiso:“ so that’s what it feels like? ”

Me:“ what is? ”

Him:“ being in love? ” I chuckle

Me:“ that and more brother ”

Bonga:“ I’m ready to settle down too, I’m tired of fucking different woman every time ”

Sbusiso:“ yeah it’s too much and it can get exhausting ”

Me:“ I wish you all the luck brothers ” we laugh. “ I got a message from an unknown number tafter I left you
at the hotel and went so see luh ”

Sbusiso:“ what did it say? ”

Me:“ thank you for saving my niece’s life, if you need anything I’ll be happy to help ”

Bongs:“ man this is bad, so you think they know it was us who was there? ”

Sbusiso:“ it’s obvious cause they thanked mbuso. We can’t be worried about people we don’t know but who
know things about us ”

Me:“ I don’t think they mean any harm cause he thanks us and offered his help in return should we ever need
anything, they are indebted to us ”
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Bongs:“ you know who they are? ”

Me:“ I tracked that number it’s the family of that girl… ”

Bongs:“ oh fuck no!, that girl who has a crush on you? ”

Me:“ not so loud man or you want luh to hear us? ”

Him:“ sorry but is it her? ”

Me:“ you cut me of before I could even explain and no, not that crazy girl. It’s the family of the one from
Ermelo ”

Sbusiso:“ what?, but how did they know it was exactly you ”

Me:“ I think she explain how I look like and maybe they got a picture of me from the Internet. They might
have gotten my numbers from someone who knows me ”

Bongs:“ then we don’t have to worry ” we hear Preston screaming

Me:“ Preston is such a girl ” I say laughing

Bonga:“ what’s happening ”

Me:“ luh asked me if it’s okay if Preston has his own room here and I agreed ”

Bongs:“ ncooooh you guys are my role models ” we laugh

Me:“ we aim to please brother ”

Bongs:“ big head ”

Me:“ shut up fool ” we laugh

Sbusiso:“ ok tell us what did you find out about them ”

Me:“ they own two coal mines in Mpumalanga and a mine in the North West ”

Bongs:“ really ” he says excited

Sbusiso:“ it looks like we finally getting what we’ve always wanted ”

Me:“ they mine Uranium, Limestone, Gold and Copper but they mostly deal with Uranium and Gold ”

Bongs:“ fuck yes! ”

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Sbusiso:“ who runs it? ”

Me:“ the brothers and their uncle ”

Bongs:“ you have to set a meeting with them ”

Me:“ after the kids are born. I don’t want any surprises popping up now and ruining my luh's life. You guys
should deal with it ”

Bongs:“ man we’re still building an entire empire from scratch, we need all of us to come together with the
parents and talk about how we are going to approach those guys. ”

Me:“ I’m paying you guys a lot of money so you better deliver ”

Bongs:“ and we pay other people too so don’t worry brother we’ve got you covered ”

Sbusiso:“ do you think scelo is going to be fine ”

Me:“ yeah I think so, you heard his aunt saying he has seen this before ”

Bongs:“ yeah she said that, she’s a fine aunty too ”

Me:“ man you’re disgusting, she’s older than you ”

Bonga:“ but not in bed ”

Sbusiso:“ oh he’s so going to kill you when he hears you said that about his girl ” we laugh

Me:“ then we need to deal with Paul and Mike ”

Bonga:“ oh brother didn’t I tell you?, they are coming here. I told them that we are throwing you a small
goodbye party since your getting married soon. ”

Sbusiso:“ I can’t believe those fools did that. We need those idiots too who told that fucker about what you
did to his brother ”

Me:“ whoever told him what I did knows now that he is dead and they are scared. ”

Sbusiso:“ we will see them during the wedding and we will find out who became a bitch and snitched ” the
women get in the kitchen and Preston hugs me from the side and it startles me cause I was not expecting it.

Me:“ and then? ”

Him:“ thank you, thank you, thank you big brother I love my bedroom!, you guys are the best of the best ” I
hug him back

Me:“ you’re welcome pres ”


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Aunty:“ we are happy for you pres ”

Bonga:“ and jealous too ” pres sticks his tongue out at bonga.

Aunty:“ you are all always welcome here in my house but please, no crazy women ” we laugh

Preston:“ let me cook you guys dinner to say thank you. ”

Aunty:“uhm guys I have something to say ”

Me:“ we don’t have to here for that right? ”

Aunty:“ you do mbuso ”

Luh:“ is something wrong? ”

Aunty:“ no, well I don’t know how you are going to take it ”

Luh:“ is this about the person you’re dating? ”

Aunty:“ yes, well I know you have been curious about who he is and… . ”

Luh:“ are you and baba victor dating mah? ” huh?

Aunty:“ what? Oh hell no!, I’m not in a relationship with victor luh, what gave you that idea? ” she says
laughing

Luh:“ I don’t know cause you’ve been secretive about it ”

Aunty:“ I was keeping it between us cause I wasn’t ready to share with all of you ”

Luh:“ but everyone else knows about it except me and that makes me feel like you don’t trust me or you don’t
want to share certain things with me ”

Aunty:“ I didn’t know you feel this way luh, I’m sorry I made you feel that way baby. I think I was scared at
how you’ll look at me? ”

Luh:“ loving someone is a great gift and we shouldn’t be afraid to tell people who we love. No matter who
you love I’ll still love you and look at you the same ” that’s a beautiful thing she has just said. Preston is busy
cooking and doesn’t want any help, well it’s not like we were going to help him

Aunty:“ thank you baby, so the person I’m seeing is… ”

Frank:“ it’s me madam, I’m the secret boyfriend she has been keeping from you ” I look at luh and her mouth
opens and she forms an O with her lips

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Luh:“ mah, you and Frank?, wow I never expected it and please Frank don’t ever call me madam I hate that
word ” she says laughing and shaking her head

Mah:“ so you don’t mind that I’m seeing him ”

Luh:“ what? Hell no!. I had always thought that maybe Frank is gay ”

Us:“ what ” we laugh

Luh:“ yes cause I’ve never heard him talk about his girlfriend so I thought… ” she says blushing

Frank:“ well I’m glad to tell you that I’m not gay and I love your aunt very much ”

Luh:“ I’m happy for you guys, you look great together.”

Aunty:“ thank you baby ”

Luh:“ does that mean I have to call you uncle now or baba Frank? ” what?, we all laugh like crazy

Frank:“ hell no!, Frank will just be fine ”

Her:“ ok baba Frank ”

Me:“ baby Frank is the same age as me, so that won’t work? ”

“ says who? ” luh and Preston say at the same time

Mah:“ I kinda like it… baba Frank ”

Frank:“ oh you can call me that baby ” aunty blushes

Luh:“ too much information ”

Aunty:“ says the people that fuck like rabbits ”

Luh:“ huh mami! ” she blushes and everytime she does that I just want to fuck her harder

Me:“ leave us alone. ”

Voice:“ Honey I’m home! ” what the hell!, luh and Preston scream their lungs off

Luh:“ oh my God I missed you! ” she says crying

Sims:“ I missed you too sis ” they hug tight and Preston joins them.

Mah:“ took you long enough to get here ”

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Sims:“ hello, I’m simphiwe luh’s sister and you are? ”

Sbusiso:“ I’m sbusiso mbuso’s brother ”

Sims:“ hmm not bad ” sbusiso gives me what the fuck look and I shake my head

Luh:“ you came with uncle victor ? ”

Sims:“ yes I did and before you get mad I went to meet with your designer and I’m glad that everyone is here
well besides scelo and your dads where are they cause I expected everyone to be here? ”

Luh:“ he’s not okay so the dads took him somewhere ”

Sims:“ what’s wrong with him? ”

Bonga:“ why are you concerned about him? ” I look at bonga surprised

Sims:“ this house is amazing guys, I love it. Mbuso thank you for inviting me ” I nod

Luh:“ You did that baby? ”

Me:“ I knew you missed her ”

Luh:“ you the best, thank you baby ” she comes and kisses me

Bonga:“ I asked you question simphiwe! ” luh looks at me then bongs and sims

Sims:“ you want to show me around the house? ” she ignores him again and sbusiso laughs

Luh:“ uh yeah ”

Preston:“ ok girls let’s go to my room ”

Sims:“ wait you have a room in this house? ”

Pres:“ oh yes darling you are going to love it ”

Sims:“ but… . ”

Luh:“ you have something bigger than a bedroom, where are the kids? ”what does she mean?, oh hell no,
those kids always want to sleep with luh

Me:“ Sims I love your kids but I’m not sharing my bed with them again ” luh laughs

Her:“ don’t be mean baby ”

Sims:“ they went to their dads ”


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Bonga:“ why did you leave them behind? ”

Sims:“ they are my kids and not yours ” she says that to him and I actually see my brother flinch. Did these
two?, are they?,

Preston:“ ok what the hell is going on? ”

Luh:“ I would like to know that too ”

Aunty:“ are you guys having a situationship? ”

Sims:“ there’s nothing going on ”

Bonga:“ so I’m nothing to you now? ”I am so confused right now cause I never saw this coming. Sims and my
brother?. Sbusiso looks at me shocked and I shake my head wanting to laugh.

Sims:“ we just fucked and that’s all what it was, get over it ”

Luh:“ maybe you guys would like to talk in private? ”

Bonga:“ we didn’t just fuck and you know it. You ran away like a scared little girl when you realised you
couldn’t handle a man like me ”

Sims:“ you are right about me not being able to handle a man like you, a liar and a cheater. I don’t want that
kind of man ”

Bonga:“ how did I cheat on you when we are not in a relationship? ” Sims flinches too then turns around

Luh:“ come with me ” she takes her hand and they leave then Preston and aunt follow them too giving my
brother nasty looks.

Me:“ pres you can’t leave your pots? ”

Aunty:“ baba Frank will cook ” she says and this idiot smiles

Frank:“ you are in trouble ” he says to bonga

Bonga:“ I need a drink , a fucken strong drink! ”

Me:“ what the fuck is going on with you two? ”

Bonga:“ you heard her, we just fucked nothing more, nothing less ”

Sbusiso:“ but there is more ”

Bonga:“ I don’t know… maybe ”


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Me:“ why didn’t you say anything? ”

Him:“ cause we agreed that it will stay between us and seeing her now made me feel a certain way ”

Me:“ when did it start? ”

Him:“ we fucked after thami's funeral, she was stressed and worried about luh and they lost a brother so we
comforted each other ” sbusiso and I laugh

Sbusiso:“ you mean you were the one doing the comforting ”

Bonga:“ I was and it was great. I couldn’t get her out of my mind after that so I went back to Standerton and
we fucked again then after that she told me to never come back and I respected that and kept my distance until
now ”

Me:“ but she called you a cheater? ” he sighs deeply

Bonga:“ she once called me and some girl answered my phone and while I was in the shower ”

Frank:“ you are really fucked ”

Sbusiso:“ shut up Frank, can’t you see the man is stressed ” he says laughing, this fool.

Me:“ do you like her, I mean really like her? ”

Him:“ I think I do, seeing her again just made me feel things for her ”

Me:“ why do we hurt the women we love?, I hurt luh when I met her, Scelo hurt Zama and now it’s you
Bonga hurting Sims. Why do we do these things? ”

Frank:“ this food smells amazing ”

Me:“ shut up fool ” I say chuckling

Bonga:“ I don’t like you right now Frank ”

Frank:“ you bonga, sbusiso and scelo, this thing of playing around has to stop. You’ve had your fun now it’s
time to finally grow up. ”

Me:“ I hope they heard you brother ”

Them:“ we did ”

Bonga:“ I have to go and talk to her ”

Me:“ you don’t want to do that, right now they all hate you ”
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Bonga:“ fuck me, why is this love thing so complicated ”

Me:“ you’ll pull through brother just like I did. ”

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SIMPHIWE.
Luh, takes me to her guest bedroom and I must say she has outdone herself cause this house looks absolutely
amazing. It’s my first being here and I already love it. Having her in my life has always been a blessing,
cause she and our brother thami, we were very close and the whole family knew that it was always us against
everyone. To me she’s my sister, blood or not cause she has always been there for me even when I hid my
pregnancies from my parents.
I’m a proud mommy of two amazing boys and I love them to death, my first born Melusi is ten years and my
last born Katlego is 8 years young and even though they have different dads you would never say cause my
kids love and are protective of each other. I work as a receptionist at a doctor surgery, the little I earn I use it
to take care of my kids cause their dads sometimes can be dead beat and even though they don’t support them
I always make sure that whenever they come, they are able to see their kids cause I don’t want to be the kind
of mother that uses their kid against their father just because I don’t get along with their dad.
I’m Simphiwe Mazibuko and I’m thirty years old, I live in town renting a town house nd I’m single well I
think I am. After thami’s death me and bonga fucked and it was good, nope I’m lying it was fucken amazing.
Of all the men I’ve been with bonga is the first man to actually make love to me and fuck my brains off and he
can handle my over the top self. I really like him but I know that he’s a fuck boy and I don’t think he’s the
kind of man that can commit to a woman.
I know I told him that we just fucked but matter of fact is I want more with him but I’m scared that he will
break my heart. I haven’t been in a serious relationship since I had katlego cause when I think about loving
someone else again and giving them my heart they could stomp on it. Dating as a woman who has different
baby daddies society tends to judge you and think that maybe you are promiscuous and loose girl. I was
young and I made mistakes but I learned and grew from them and now I’m a grown woman who now knows
better.
I would never change my life or trade it for anything because my kids are my biggest blessings. I’m the
woman I am today because of my kids and what they have taught me as a young mother. I would do anything
and give them the life they deserve and make sure they never grow up the way I did. I will give them the kind
of life I want them to live.
When I phoned Bonga that day and a girl answered his phone it hurt me very much cause to me it seemed as if
what I shared with was just another fuck and I know we agreed that it wasn’t going to happen again but then
he showed up at my place, we fucked then we agreed that it was going to be the last time and never again.
Luh:“ sis what is going on? ” I wipe my tears off
Me:“ it was just suppose to be a hook up but then… ”
Luh:“ ncooh, I’m so happy right now ”
Pres:“ she’s crying and you’re happy? ”
Luh:“ yes cause we are sisters and we are going to be sister in-laws ”
Me:“ luh I doubt it is going to get that far ”
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Luh:“ I think so cause I saw how he looked at you when he saw you ”
Mah:“ these gumede men can be stupid but when they love they love hard. Look at how mbuso is obsessed
with luh and how much he loves her, I think siyabonga loves you ”
Me:“ I don’t know ” I say sighing.
Luh:“ I think he does too cause why would he get upset that you left the kids behind? ”
Me:“ you know he calls the boys and talks to them almost everyday and they love him ”
Luh:“ncooh that’s so beautiful ”
Pres:“ he must love you cause why would he make an effort to talk to the kids if he’s not serious about you
and only wants to hit and run ”
Me:“ I don’t want him to make my kids love him and then the next thing then he disappears ”
Luh:“he’s already met them? ” she asks me smiling and she’s so excited
Me:“ yeah when he showed up unannounced and introduced himself as mom’s special friend.” We laugh
Luh:“ he does love you, no man makes an effort to get to know your kids if he doesn’t see a future with you ”
Me:“ I’m scared luh, I don’t want him to hurt me ”
Luh:“ that’s a chance you are going to have to take if you love him. Do you love him ”
Me:“ oh sis I don’t know cause I’m confused ”
Luh:“ I think you guys need to talk and clear things out ”
Me:“ I don’t think he wants to talk me, you heard the way he talked to me ”
Mah:“ well when he asked about the kids you told him they are not his and that hurt him ”
Me:“ it’s the way he said it ”
Luh:“ just talk to him and know where you guys stand ”
Preston:“ just hear him out sis then take it from there ”
Mah:“ I’m sure you guys will sort everything out ”
Me:“ thank you guys ”
Luh:“ we are going now and we’ll… ”
Bonga:“ uhm sorry guys can I talk to simphiwe? ” they nod and leave us alone, he sits on the bed with me and
sighs. “ I’m sorry ”
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Me:“ for what exactly? ”
Him:“ for hurting you ”
Me:“ you didn’t hurt me ” I say looking away from him
Bonga:“ I did and you know it, I… ”
Me:“ why are you here exactly? ”
Hi I’m:“ cause we have to talk ”
Me:“ talk about what bonga?, if I didn’t come here today were you going to call me to ask if we can meet and
talk? ”
Him:“ how could I when you told me we can’t have anything between us? ”
Me:“ you agreed too cause we didn’t want things to be awkward between us and make luh and my brother
feel uncomfortable ”
Him:“ what we do is none of their business ”
Me:“ it is cause luh is my sister?, what if we decided to have a relationship then things don’t work out
between us and then everyone else would be put in an awkward position ”
Him:“ we are grown adults simphiwe not some kids okay and how would we know if things would have
worked out or not if we didn’t have it a chance?, what are you exactly worried about cause I doubt it
involves luh ”
Me:“ I’m scared okay! ” I say getting up and he looks at me weird
Him:“ scared of what ? ”
Me:“ you wouldn’t get it siyabonga ”
Him:“ I don’t get it cause you won’t tell me what you’re scared of ”
Me:“ I’m scared that you’ll hurt me ”
Him:“ I won’t hurt you baby? ”
Me:“ uncle victor told me that baba ngcobo called him and told him that you guys brought a guest with you
and scelo ended up pointing a gun at Zama ”
Him:“ baby?... ”
Me:“ you slept with her didn’t you? ”
Him:“ yeah we did ” he says embarrassed

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Me:“ wow, you and sbusiso? ”
Him:“ yes ”
Me:“ hmmm ”
Him:“ are you mad? ”
Me:“ no ”
Him:“ we were not together so.. ”
Me:“ I know and it’s okay ”
Him:“ have you been with anyone since?.... ”
Me:“ no ” I say embarrassed and he smiles
Him:“ why not? ”
Me:“ just because ”
Him:“ are you lying to me? ”
Me:“ no ”
Him:“ look at me baby”
Me:“ I’m not your baby bonga ”
Him:“ look at me sthandwa sam ” ( look at me my love)
Me:“ I’m not your love ”
Him:“ you are my love ”
Me:“ oh please ” I say rolling my eyes
Him:“ I’m not lying ”
Me:“ why did it take me coming here for you to declare your love for me ”
Him:“ I called you my love, I haven’t declared my love for you ”
Me:“ siyabonga! ” he laughs
Him:“ I admit I was wrong to wait this long for me to tell you how I feel and yes it took you getting here for
me to realize that I want more with you even though I didn’t show or say it the right way. When I first met you
I saw this beautiful big brown skin girl who has a big mouth and a smart mouth. I mesmerized with you. You
fascinated me and I would find myself thinking about you a lot but I couldn’t do anything cause you are. Luh’s
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sister and I deleted those thoughts I had about you wrapping your thick things around my neck and I kept my
distance. ”
Me:“ really? ” I say like I’m bored but deep inside my skeleton is dancing.
Him:“ I’m serious baby then when thami died and you and luh started crying at the cemetery I wanted to take
you in my arms and let you cry in my chest but I couldn’t again and I watched you as you fell apart and it hurt
me. I wanted to be your man at that right moment but I knew it wasn’t the right time. Then when luh went to
the hospital and we stayed behind and started drinking then I took you at your place and well you showed me
flames girl ” I giggle
Me:“ it was amazing ”
Him:“ we don’t have to stop doing that baby ”
Me:“ I’m scared that you’ll hurt me and leave me ”
Him:“ I won’t do that baby ”
Me:“ I have kids simphiwe and… ”
Him:“ I love you and I love your boys like they are my own and I promise I won’t hurt you or them. They
already know me baby and our relationship is growing everyday and that is why I was mad that you came
here without my kids ” it’s the first time I’ve heard him say that
Me:“ bonga… ”
Him:“ no simphiwe, I love them like they are my own and to me they are mine and it hurt me when you said
they aren’t my kids. Don’t you ever say that to me cause I take care of those kids like how mbuso and luh do ”
tears well on my eyes and they fall. Besides luh and since mbuso and luh started sending me money every
month I moved my kids and I to a new place and I rent a town house and the money bonga started sending me
after the first time we hooked up I’ve been saving for my kids university fund. I’m blessed to them in my life.
Me:“ I’m sorry I said that ”
Him:“ we can fight and all but we won’t use our kids. This thing of my kids, my kids, stops today simphiwe,
you hear me? ”
Me:“ I do. ”
Him:“ you guys are my family and I want all of us to be together ”
Me:“ luh brought me a flat in Durban, I have only seen the place in pictures but she bought it and it’s in my
name and she asked me to move to Durban next year when they also leave to live there ” he smiles
Him:“ then we’ll but a house and keep the flat for the boys when they grow up so they can use it ”
Me:“ you’re scaring me when you talk about the future bonga ”

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Him:“ I’m serious about us and when luh gives birth and everything has settled down I’m going to marry you
and our kids ”
Me:“ bonga wait ”
Him:“ I’ve had fun and now I’m ready to be a father and have someone to come home to, my wife and kids
and not an empty flat ”
Her:“ will your family accept me and my kids though? ”
Him:“ why wouldn’t they baby, have seen your crazy self ”
Me:“ bonga mam ” we laugh
Him:“ on a serious baby they know you and they are going to love you and I know mom is going to go
grandma crazy on the boys. I hope luh gives birth to a girl ” I smile too they are in for a surprise for when she
gives birth, I can’t wait
Me:“ I hope so too so she can wrap mbuso around her little finger just like her mom ”
Him:“ he’s gonna be a big softie ”
Me:“ do you want kids? ” he gives me a sad look.
Him:“ there was a girl I was in a relationship with and she aborted our first child and didn’t tell me then the
second one she decided to keep the baby but unfortunately she miscarried ”
Me:“ I’m sorry to hear that ”
Him:“ so yes, I want us to have kids. As many as I’ll put in that womb of yours ” I laugh
Me:“ Siyabonga I love you very much and please don’t hurt me.”
Him:“ hurt you and miss the opportunity to hear your smart mouth talking and doing things to me hmmmm
never baby ”
Me:“ I don’t have a smart mouth anymore, I have toned it down ”
Him:“ smart mouth or not baby I love you ”
Me:“ does that we are now exclusive, you are going to stop fucking other people and having threesomes? ”
Him:“ yes we are exclusive and no more fucking other people and having threesomes ”
Me:“ I want one ”
Him:“ you want what? ”
Me:“ a threesome ” he laughs like really laughs

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Him:“ baby no.. Are you serious? ”
Me:“ I’m serious, I’ve done it before you know ” he looks at me shocked
Him:“ what? ”
Me:“ yes I have, it was me and the guy I was seeing. We invited another girl we knew, she was a bisexual
and we had it ”
Him:“ I’m so fucken jealous right now that you had a threesome without me baby ” we laugh
Me:“ so what do you say? ”
Him:“ baby I’ll do whatever makes you happy cause at the end if the day, I just want to make you happy. Do
you want us to have it with another girl? ” I look down and blush and he laughs
Me:“ I want another guy, we can invite a girl next time ”
Him:“ there’s gonna be a next time too? ”
Me:“ yes my love ”
Him:“ but when and if it gets too much for either of us we’ll stop ”
Me:“ yes we will baby ”
Him:“ so you where are going to find another guys cause it has to be someone we both trust and know that
what we do in our nedroom and sex life stays between us. ”
Me:“ We don’t have to look further ” I say smiling and he laughs
Him:“ oh really?, who were you thinking about? ”
Me:“ that friend of yours, sbusiso baby ”
Him:“ but you’ve just met him love? ”
Me:“ exactly, I don’t know him and I don’t want to know him like that. I just want us to have a threesome ”
Him:“ Ok baby I’ll talk to him and well all talk then about what is expected ”
Me:“ thank you you baby ”
Him:“ ok let’s go and tell the others that we are officially ttogetherbut kiss me first ” I laugh then pull him to
me and we kiss then leave the guest bedroom. I thought he was going to say no about the threesome but
obviously I was wrong.
Bonga:“ everyone we are officially together ” they all get excited for us.
Preston:“ it’s only sbusiso and I the odd men in here without their partners ” we laugh
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Mbuso:“ welcome my future sister in-law, I’m happy for you guys and our family is growing ”
Sbusiso:“ can we get some wine and celebrate two relationships? ” they all agree and luh hugs me excited.
Mbuso:“ there’s no alcohol in this house ”
Aunty:“ I’ll ask nonto to bring it ”
Me:“ another relationship? ”
Aunty:“ yes baby, me and baba Frank ” she says smiling and he kisses her wow!, I never saw that one
coming.
Me:“ congratulations to us! ”
Them:“ hear, hear! ”

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SICELO.
We arrive in the farm and dad takes me to my grandparents bedroom where they used to share. We left the
uncles outside and it’s just the two of us now, he looks really worried and I’m scared cause I have no idea
what is going on with me. I just broke down and cried cause Zama left me and I don’t know where she went
and how I’m going to find her cause mbuso refuses. I can’t believe I talked to him that way, how could I
disrespect him like that at his own house. I have to apologize to him and my sister and his dad too.
Me:“ baba kwenzakalani ngami? ” ( dad what is wrong with me?)
Dad:“ don’t worry my son you’ll be fine, there’s someone who’s going to come and explain to you what is
wrong ”
Me:“ is it our traditional healer? ”
Him:“ it’s our neighbour from that other farm, you remember that he is a seer? ”
Me:“ yes ”
Him:“ he will explain everything ” he says that then someones knocks on the door and dad opens the door
and it is him, baba uNgwende, he gets in and they close the door behind.
Me:“ sawubona baba ” ( good morning dad )
Ngwende:“ sicelo take off your shoes and shirt, sit down crossing your legs ” I do as he says without asking
any questions and dad does the same. He sits down facing me with a bowl between us then lights white
candles and a sage and . He lights the sage then takes my left hand and touches and starts praying then says
our clan names and I start to feel a little better. When he’s done he looks at me.
Ngwende:“ when did it start? ”
Dad:“ It started yesterday but I could be wrong ”
Me:“ dad what are you talking about? ”
Ngwende:“ I see, sicelo has your birth mark been itching to a point where it hurts? ”
Me:“ I don’t understand baba? ”
Ngwende:“ sicelo, your birthmark the one you all have, has it been causing you to feel pain? ”
Me:“ it would do that, I would scratch myself until it hurts. Do you know why baba? ”
Ngwende:“ your dad when through the same thing when he was much younger than you sicelo ”
Me:“ I’m still confused baba, what happened to you? ”
Dad:“ you see my son every man in this family for generations has gone through this and your cousins will
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also go through it because all of you have not found your soulmates ”
Me:“ what? ”
Ngwende:“ your father when he was about to meet your mother he experienced something like he was having
a nervous breakdown but that was not it, the same thing that happened to him is happening to you and it will
happen to your sons too ”
Me:“ I haven’t met my soul mate?, but I thought zama was, is my soul mate. ”
Ngwende:“ I see two women, one is a very troubled soul and the other one you have hurt. Both of them were
not your soul mate, your soul mate is waiting for you. She’s praying for you that you find her and she’s
waiting for you ” what?
Me:“ I’m still confused baba ” what the hell is going on!.
Dad:“ sicelo the reason why your birthmark has been itching and you acting out and causing trouble is
because the time has come for you to be one with the person you were meant to be with. ”
Ngwende:“ if you don’t find her your birthmark will grow and cover your whole body and the itching will
get worse. That’s why you always attract crazy women or women you just use, at this age you were supposed
to have met her and gotten married and have a family. Your father met your mother very early and he knew
she was the one, you will know too when you meet her but be warned sicelo. If you make her, your soul mate
leave you, you will go crazy just like your dad almost did ”
Me:“ mom almost left you? ” I didn’t know that!.
Dad:“ she did for a month I couldn’t find her and you and I will not tell you why she left sicelo ”
Me:“ did you cheat on my mother? ”
Dad:“ I never cheated in your mother, I loved her very much! ”
Ngwende:“ tell the boy why she left so he will know that if he ever thinks of even doing something he will go
crazy ”
Dad:“ we were having an argument about thuli and it turned into a fight and I hit her sicelo, I hit yoirother my
boy and I’m not proud of that. I was so frustrated cause she couldn’t see that thuli was using her and I lost it.
She was so scared of me and didn’t feel safe so one day when I celebrate back from work she was gone. She
took a sick leave from work and left with you.
Me:“ where were we? ” I'm shocked to hear this.
Dad:“ she left to see her aunt, I had forgotten about her until your aunt reminded me that she still has an aunt
living in free state. I was close to losing my mind son when I found her again and I was a mess. I don’t wish
for you to through what I went through. ”
Me:“ but why didn’t you tell me dad? ”

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Him:“ because I had thought that you’ll meet her and when you didn’t I thought maybe it’s not time. I think a
part of me was maybe waiting for this to happen so I can confirm that it’s not Zama cause O thought she could
be your soul mate ”
Me:“ this is crazy dad, how long do I have to find her? ” where am I going to start and how will I know?
Ngwende:“ she’s praying for you everyday son. You will know it and feel it. ”
Me:“ will I get worse and continue to have these outbursts cause I don’t want to hurt my family and friends
baba? ”
Ngwende:“ I will give you something to drink everyday, bath with so the itching will stop and not hurt. I
think your birthmark has grown if you have noticed but when you and her are finally one, it will go back to its
original size. ”
Dad:“ whatever you do when you meet her son, be truthful and honest with her and don’t make her leave you
cause only you will make her leave you by your actions and how you treat her. Learn from my mistakes son. ”
Ngwende:“ you will inherit good things when you meet her. She’s going to be a blessing that you need. ” he
gives me my hand back
Me:“ I hope so. ”
Him:“ drink this water now and then you’ll use half of it to bath here in your grandparents bedroom. Did your
dad tell you why he brought you here and specifically in your grandparents bedroom? ”
Me:“ he didn’t baba ”
Dad:“ your umbilical cord was buried on this yard, this is where your roots are, this is where you and your
wife will come when you face serious problems and need help from the family. Not your friends sicelo but
here with Ngwende, your aunts and uncles and me your father. Do you understand? ”
Me:“ I do dad. ”
Ngwende:“ go and wash yourself ”
Me:“ can I ask something baba? ”
Ngwende:“ yebo ” ( go ahead)
Me:“ so if I don’t meet her and maybe meet the wrong one I will spend the rest of my life crazy? ”
Ngwende:“ you will die and leave her and she will never experience love. ”
Me:“ I thought maybe I was suffering from a broken heart but baba is shocking, I’m still shocked. ”
Dad:“ I was too when your grandfather and ngwende explained to me what is happening. Now you will
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Me:“ dad is that why you said here at home we only bring brides and not girlfriends, you were talking about
this thing? ”
Dad:“ exactly my son. Only brides of this family are welcomed, you will see it too. ”
Me:“ thank you dad and thank you baba ngwende. I feel better than when I first got here ”
Ngwende:“ don’t thank us sicelo, it’s all up to you now. ”
Me:“ let me leave you. ” I get up and go to my bedroom taking the water with me, fill the bath with water and
add this one ngwende have me and then get in and bath. I look at my birthmark and he is right cause it has
grown, just thinking about meeting someone new and I don’t even know when and where and how we are
going to meet stresses me. I get done then clean it and go to my bedroom and wear my other clothes and go to
the living room and find the uncles there with dad, ngwende has left I think.
Me:“ uhm baba Mnguni I’m sorry for disrespecting you and your son’s house. It was never my intention and I
don’t have an excuse as to why I did it. I hope all of you will forgive me, daa, uncle victor I’m sorry. Please
accept my apology. ”
Mnguni:“ you are forgiven son, your dad explained what is happening. ”
Victor:“ sicelo grow up man, you are not getting young my boy. You don’t want to be a fourth five year old
man hammrunning after his one year old son, you’ll be too old ” they laugh at me
Me:“ what happened today opened my eyes uncle and made me see life in a different way ”
Dad:“ this is what I was hoping you are going to say. I’m proud of you son. ”
Me:“ thank you dad, I’m going to see mbuso and luh and apologize ”
Dad:“ buy her flowers and lots of chocolate chip cookies, she’ll forgive you ” I smile
Me:“ I will dad. ”
Dad:“ tell the boys to be here at night, tonight is the night we bring siphoned and his family under one roof
and hear what they have to say ”
Me:“ should I tell mbuso too? ”
Mnguni:“ tell him, mangcobo will be fine. ”
Victor:“ I came with simphiwe so she will be fine. ”
Me:“ ok, I’ll let him know. ” they nod
Me:“ dad tell aunt I took her car, one of the guys will bring it back. ” He nods then I leave.
I go to town and go by flowers for the women including Preston, by luh lilies then go buy the guys whiskey.
As I pass I see a beauty spa so I get in and ask about their services then pay and give them luh’s address and
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leave. I get in the car and take my phone and call Zama, I really hope she answers. I call again five more
times and then she finally picks up.
Her:“ sicelo ”
Me:“ hey, are you okay?. Are you safe there? ”
Her:“ yeah I’m okay. You don’t sound like you’re mad ”
Me:“ I was but I’m better now. ”
Her:“ there’s something different about you, you sound different. ”
Me:“ Zama I wanted to apologize to you. I have used you from the moment I met you and I was wrong, I was
very wrong and I’m sorry. ”
Her:“ wow sicelo, I never thought you would say that ”
Me:“ I finally realized that I treated you like I owned you, like you were my property and not a human being
and sorry for that too. I’m sorry I pointed a gun at you too but I was never going to shoot you zah inpromise
you. ”
Her:“ I forgive you sicelo. You did many good things to me too than the bad things and for that I’ll never
forget you, you gave me something that no one will ever take away from me and that is education. Thank you
Mapholoba. ”
Me:“ a part of me will always love you and care about you Zama. Whenever you need anything don’t ever
hesitate to call me ”
Her:“ I will always love you too sicelo but we need to cut all ties between us so we can move on and not be
reminded of the past. ”
Me:“ you are right maShenge, but my offer still stands. Anytime Zama ” she chuckles
Her:“ ok I will. Take care of yourself and treat the next woman you meet better than all the women you have
met sicelo. ”
Me:“ I hope the man you will meet will know what a blessing you are and not take you for granted. ”
Her:“ I’ll let him know ” we laugh
Me:“ I’m going to send you money. I want you to by yourself a house Zama and a car and not depend on
anyone. This is my gift to you for all the times you’ve been with me and stuck by me. ”
Her:“ thank you Mapholoba. I will do that ”
Me:“ take care girl ”
Her:“ you too homeboy” we both laugh and I hang up. I feel so much lighter. I drive to luh’s place.
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SICELO.
I thought that she might be mad at me curse at me or even scream and tell me how much she hates me but she
didn’t cause she’s not that kind of person and she has never been. I really thought she might be the one but
she’s not and after talking to her my heart new and I made peace with it. I drive to luh and mbuso's place and
I hope I have ruined my relationship with them. The gates opens and I drive in and park aunts car then take all
the flowers and whiskey then get in the house. Preston is the first one to see me and he smiles looking at the
flowers
Preston:“ are those for all of us, cause I love ” he says taking them, putting them on the table. I look at luh and
she looks at me worried. I go to her and give her, her flowers then she gets up and hugs me tight and I
whisper I’m sorry and she nods. I give aunt her flowers and kiss her cheek then Preston and Sims cause I
knew she was coming.
Mbuso:“ you feeling better brother? ” he asks concerned.
Me:“ I’m okay I guess ”
Him:“ what’s going on, there’s something different about you ”
Me:“ I’ll tell you all about it later.”
Him:“ ok man, as long you are feeling better then I’m okay. ”
Me:“ uhm guys can I have your attention? ” I see Sims with bonga and I’m surprised. I know they hooked up
in Standerton but I didn’t think they talked after that. They all look at me. “ I would like to apologize to you
Mbuso for disrespecting you in your house, I should have never talked to you that way as a man and as your
brother. I never meant to not respect you as the man of your home. I’m sorry luh for talking to you that way
and taking my frustrations and anger out on you. I promise to never do that and I’m sorry to everyone for
showing disrespect and to show you how much I’m sorry I bought all of you those flowers and you guys some
whiskey. ”
Mbuso:“ we forgive you brother ” we share a man hug and the guys too
Luh:“ I forgive you big brother I’m glad you are feeling better now ”
Mbuso:“ something is different about you, you sound different ”
Aunty:“ It shouldn’t have taken you this long sicelo but I’m glad you are good too” I nod at her.
Bonga:“ you look like you've grown since we last saw you in the morning.” They laugh, these morons
Me:“ I feel different. ” I truly do.
Sibusiso:“ it’s like a different man is standing before us ” I chuckle
Me:“ nah it’s the same old me. So bonga and Sims?, how the hell did that happen cause I thought it was a hit
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Bonga:“ she had me at we are doing this for the last time and I was like hell to the no!. ”
Me:“ you do know that if you do anything to hurt her she’s going to kill you and bury you ” fits of laughter
fills the whole kitchen.
Bonga:“ man I love her crazy ass ”
Sims:“ I love you too baby” she says smiling.
Me:“ our family is growing, it was luh and mbuso, mah and Frank then now we have bonga and sims. ” I say
taking a seat.
Mah:“ it’s only you two boys left and time is running out ” she says that looking at me and we both know
what she means. I nod.
Me:“ uh the dads wants to see all of us guys, excluding the women ”
Luh:“ what’s going on? ”
Mbuso:“ preparations for the negotiations love ”
Her:“ ok. ”
Bonga:“ they want to see us now? ”
Me:“ they said later but we can go now too ”
Mbuso:“ I’ll go change, lets go love ”
Her:“ I’m good baby ” we all laugh.
Mbuso:“ baby I need you to pick out something for me to wear ”
Her:“ since when do I pick out clothes for you? ”
Mbuso:“ but baby?... ”
Her:“ oh we almost forgot, the designer is coming to take your measurements so you guys can’t go just yet. Is
that okay? ”
Me:“ yeah that’s ok, we can leave after we are done. ”
Bonga:“ plus I’m waiting for Mike and Paul and they should be here in two hours. ”
Mbuso:“ well then I’ll go change alone ” he says the last part looking at luh and she laughs, he leaves.
Luh:“ did you find out where Zama is? ”
Me:“ yeah, I called her and we talked. “ I say sighing.

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Sims:“ I was looking forward to meeting her ”
Me;“ well that’s not going to happen. ”
Preston:“ she didn’t tell you where she is did she? ”
Me:“ she didn’t and I didn’t ask her ”
Sibusiso:“ why didn’t you? ”
Me:“ cause we both knew that it is over between us. ”
Luh:“ oh my God brother I’m so sorry ”
Me:“ I’m sorry too but it’s for the best cause things wouldn’t have worked out between us. ”
Preston:“ but you don’t know that for sure. ”
Mah:“ he does know cause he got a wake up today ” they look ataj then me
Luh:“ what is that supposed to mean? ”
Me:“ we went to see a traditional healer or seer if you can call it that and he told me something’s that made
sense and opened my eyes.
Luh:“ well then I’m glad he put things into perspective for you. ”
Me:“ me too sis. We both talked and I apologized for the things I did to her that hurt her and she forgave me. I
told her anytime she needs me or something she must let me know. ”
Luh:“ thank you for that brother ”
Preston:“ you are going to be short of one brides maid ”
Me:“ I’ll ask two of my cousins then it will be five each. ”
Mbuso:“ that reminds me of what I wanted to ask you brother. ” he says looking at bonga
Bonga:“ what is it? ”
Mbuso:“ will you my best man? ”
Bonga:“ for real? ”
Him:“ yeah man for real ”
Bonga:“ then I accept whole heartedly ” he hugs him excited
Me:“ fool stop grinning like that, you’ll scare Sims away ” he chuckles

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Mbuso:“ the three of you and zipho will be my grooms man ”
Me:“ your brother is very scarce ”
Him:“ he’s 23 enjoying life not hanging around old people ” we laugh
Luh:“ then I’ll add another cousin then that’s it. I have to call them and get them here. ” she takes out her
phone and calls them.
Me:“ plus I came with aunts car, they might be in town. Call them and let me know where they are so I can go
and fetch them while we are still waiting for the designer. ”
Luh:“ no, call them then ask one for the securities guys to go fetch them and baby please call zipho and ask
him to go to someone who will take his measurements then send them to us. ”
Mbuso:“ I’ll do that ”
Preston:“ I’ll call the designer and find out where he is. ”
Me:“ I can’t wait for the negotiations to start and get you guys married. ”
Luh:“ then after we are getting you married Sims ” Sims blushes.
Me:“ brother we are the only one’s single in this house ”
Sibusiso:“ not for long cause maybe I might just fall for one of your cousins ”
Us:“ no!. ” me, luh and mah say at the second time.
Sibusiso:“ why not guys ” he asks confused then laughs.
Me:“ they are all married so it’s a no. ” I tell him and he looks disappointed.
Him:“ oh man.” We laugh
Preston:“ he’s outside the gate, can you open up ? ” mbuso nods.
Me:“ luh where are they? ”
Her:“ sis thandie and khethiwe are in town at the mall then sis ntombenhle is at her house but she’s coming. ”
Me:“ ok, let me quickly go fetch uthandi no khethiwe while the designer takes your measurements and I’ll be
back before he even finishes. ”
Luh:“ please do ” I give her an assurance smile. Mbuso comes in followed by one men and two ladies and he
looks like he’s pissed.
Sims:“ James you finally made it ” so the guy is James
James:“ told you. Hi guys I’m James Zwane and these two are my assistants. “ he doesn’t say their names.
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Me:“ brother walk me out. ” mbuso nods, we leave the house and stand outside my aunts car. “ ok out
withnit, what’s wrong? ”
Him:“ did you see that guy?, he’s the one who’s going to be touching luh? ”
Me:“ is that what has gotten you pissed? ”
Him:“ well I thought it was a woman. ” I chuckle.
Me:“ it doesn’t matter cause that guy over there is going to make your bride to be look very beautiful. ”
Him:“ I don’t think I want him to touch her ”
Me:“ jealous are we?, look man luh has eyes for you and you only. That guy is here to do his job and if he
starts getting out of line they you’ll deal with him. ”
Me:“ man he is cause it’s part of his job. Stop being so jealous, she loves you ” I laugh at this fool.
Him:“ I know that. ”
Me:“ I have to go fetch my cousins from town, I be back and well talk and put a smile on that face. “ I get in
the car and drive out to town., I go to the mall and it’s full. I park my car then send khethiwe a text message
where they will find me. I sit in the car for fifteen Minutes then they show up and get in the car and I drive
them to luh’s place.
We get there and they are all in the living room aamd sis khethiwe is also there and the way mbuso is
watching james is so funny. He is Measuring luh, one lady is measuring mah and the other is writing down
the measurements. One by one they do that until we all done and exhausted. Preston shows them out after we
are done and they leave at around 19:30 pm.
Me:“ guys lets go it’s late. “ they nod. Bonga kisses Sims, frank kisses mah them mbuso and luh kiss briefly
then we all leave.
Mbuso:“ finally we are getting everyone in one room. ”
Me:“ man it’s been long, the day is finally here and I want all the answers.
Mbuso:“ me too. ”we continue to drive until we get in the farm. The lights in the barn are shining bright. We
get out and make our way there and go to the basement and find the dads sitting down and laughing like what
we are about to do is nothing to them.
Mapholoba:“ at last you are all here. ”
Us:“ yebo baba” ( yes dad)
Mapholoba:“ well then guys bring that fucken shit sipho first and bring me that box I gave you earlier and
those other things. ” he says to one of his guys and they go and come back with a steel box and it sounds like
there are rats in there. What the hell?. The other guys come with sipho and they sit him down in the chair that
is in the middle, has chains on it and they lock then around his legs, waist, wrists then out a huge steel choker
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around his neck that has a large chocker.
Mapholoba:“ take off his blind fold. ” the guy takes it off and it takes a while for sipho to get used to the
bright light in the basement cause where he was it was dark. He finally sees clearly then looks shocked at his
brother.
Sipho:“ Victor?, you are part of this too? ”
Victor:“ I was a part of it in the begging and now I am a part of it in the end. It’s your end tonight. ” sipho
laughs and laughs hard like he’s crazy. Me and the guys look at each other confused cause this is not the
depressed man we left here at the farm.
Sipho:“ well then of it is the end of me and I’m going to die and meet my son then I better tell you this Victor.
Buhle is your daughter and her mother pimped her to me that’s how much she fucken loves me and I enjoyed
popping that cherry and fucking her every chance I got. ” he says laughing and I look at Victor and he looks
so shocked and mad. fuck me!.
Victor:“ you bustard!, you fucken sick bustard!, how could you do that?!. ” he says screaming and goes
punches sipho hard on his face twice and blood gushes out of his nose.
Sipho:“ because even after all these years she couldn’t still forget the day you fucked her and got her
pregnant. She hated that baby she was carrying and I did you favour and convinced her to keep the baby
cause I had plans for her and calm I did ” uncle Victor takes out a knife and is about to Stan sipho but mbuso
and Frank stop him.
Dad:“ you can’t kill him Victor, not now at lease cause we all need answer’s.”
Victor:“ buhle is my daughter and she’s so messed up because of my brother, her own blood and uncle raped
her repeatedly and I didn’t know!. ” he says crying this shit is fucken hard.
Mapholoba:“ go and bring thuli. ” dad says and he’s pissed. Everyone is tense and we want blood. Sipho,
thuli and buhle’s blood. I don’t care that buhle is Victor’s daughter that bitch is dying even if I have to do it
myself cause while she’s still alive my sister will never be safe and I can’t have that and I know mbuso will
agree. They killed my mother so I’m going to kill their daughter. It’s all fair.

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MBUSO.
I always suspected that sipho did something to buhle and hearing him now confess that he raped her and took
her virginity makes me sick to my stomach. How can thuli allow this to happen to her own daughter and who
did she meet as Victor is buhle's father?. Could the boy her friends raised and be sipho’s son?.
The guys bring in the annoying and screaming thuli who looks very scared right now and when she sees how
badly bruised up her husband is she losses it and curses us. I fucken hate this bitch and her daughter. All
three of them deserve to die, I don’t give a fuck that she is Victor’s son.
Me:“ Mapholoba is the video on? ”
Him:“ it is on don’t worry ” luh will see this video after she has driven birth to our kids not before.
Me:“ doesn’t buhle need to he here too to hear what a screen up of a mother she has? ”
Dad:“ you are right, she needs to hear this with her own ears. Bring her boys. ”
Mapholoba:“ Victor I’m so sorry for what has happened to your daughter. No child deserves to go through
all of that. ”
Victor:“ I understand Zakes, it’s fine. ” so he does know that buhle is going to die too that we can’t let her
live?, hmmmm. They bring buhle in and she looks like she has lost 10 years of her life. She hasn’t been
getting any drugs and now she looks like a street kid.
Buhle;“ mom and dad?, you are both here and even you uncle Victor?. Sipho what happened to you?, are you
okay? ”
Thuli:“ oh my God sipho what did they do to you my love?, can you hear me? ” sipho laughs looking at his
wife.
Sipho:“ tell them, tell them how you bathed and prepared your daughter for me to pop her cherry you whore!.
You killed my son!, my only child. ”he says screaming at her.
Buhle:“ mom so it was you who killed my brother? ”
Thuli:“ he wasn’t your brother, he was some whores son. ”
Victor:“ why didn’t you tell me that you were carrying child thumb? ”
Thuli:“ because I wanted to abort that little bitch but then sipho convinced me to keep the baby and raise it
and I did just that.. Why are not you happy? ”
Buhle:“ uncle Victor is my dad and you wanted to abort me mom, how could you! ”
Thuli:“ I should have killed you the day I found out cause ever since you were born you have been nothing
but a damned curse in my life! ”
Buhle:“ you were just jealous because he loves me more than he loves you!. You couldn’t stand the attention
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he gave me that is why you were always bitter and sad!. ” what?
Thuli:“ love?, you telling me that he loves you?. Sipho doesn’t love baby he destroys everything he touches.

Buhle:“ but you let him touch me. You offered me to him and specifically told me to do anything he say so he
can be Happy. You pimped me out to him, your own daughter!. ”
Thuli:“ my own mother did it to me so why shouldn’t I do it to you as well? ”
Victor:“ to my brother thuli?!, her own damn uncle! ” he says furiously.
Buhle:“ it doesn’t matter because we love each other. Sipho loves me and I love him, tell them that baby! ”
what the fuck is buhle saying?.
Sipho:“ I don’t love any of you, the only person I have ever loved is Lungi. I was going to take her away
from all of you and start my new life with her but damn you buhle for making a deal with this devil. ” my
blood boils, I’m fucken livid. Thuli laughs like she’s possessed and buhle looks at sipho hurt.
Mapholoba:“ what did you just sipho? ” he looks enraged like he can span his head off his shoulders. My dad
opens that box wearing a glove then pulls out a huge rat like Alexandra rats. Mapholoba then takes a steal
bucket then they both go to sipho and dad puts the rat into the basket attaching it by putting the basket against
his stomach and him so he won’t move around and he sobers up same time.
Dad:“ bring the gas lighter torch boys. ” they bring it and and they light it then dad starts heating the steal
bucket and the rat screams inside cause it is getting hot and that makes sipho scream too
Sipho:“ hheeeyyy, hhheyy stop!, stop!, the rat wants to eat my stomach please stop I’ll tell you everything you
want to know. He says screaming and crying.
Mapholoba:“ you sick bustard!, you thought you can run away with my daughter and you fucken love her!.
After you killed her mother! ” he punches him on the face repeatedly until my dad pulls him off of him.
Sicelo:“ talk sipho, you don’t have a lot of time. ”
Buhle:“ please don’t kill him, I love him! ”
Victor:“ stop this nonsense right now buhle! ” he reprimands her and she cries.
Thuli:“ I knew you loved that little witch, I knew it!. ”
Me:“ where were you going to take lungi? ”
Sipho:“ I was going to ask her to company me somewhere then drug her then leave the country with her. ”
Buhle:“ is that why you never wanted to sell her because you loved her and not me?!. After everything I have
done for you and sacrificed you were going to choose her and not me?. How could you!. ” we are all
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Thuli:“ oh shut up you little tramp, this is all your fault. Why don’t you tell them that it was you who came up
with the plan to sell lungi?. Zakes, buhle you all know is a prostitute right?, so one day she comes home and
says to me she met a man who told her that he wants her buhle, this one to be his slave. She told him she can’t
cause she already has a owner which is sipho, so she tells the man that she can sell him someone else at a
reasonable price and they agree to a price of 3 million but the man gives her a check of 1.5 million rands and
the rest she was supposed to get it when she delivered your daughter to him” what the fuck!
Me:“ you bitch!, you lied to me and told me that it was sipho who wanted to sell lungi when it was actually
your idea! ”
Sipho:“ I was listening to them and I didn’t want them to sell her because she was mine!. Thuli begged and
begged me until I agreed but then buhle had to steal from you mbuso then we didn’t get to meet the man
because buhle was the only one who knew him. ”
Frank:“ boss, Paul and Mike are here ”
Dad:“ bring them in so they can watch what we do to people who betray us ” Frank leaves and cones with
them and they see the mazibuko's and they look shit scared.
Thuli:“ there are other people who are after us cause they were blackmailing us demanding money cause they
think that we are the ones who killed that man. ”
Me:“ I’m the one who killed that man. ”
Sipho:“ I knew it was you! ”
Me:“ shut the fuck up sipho! And you bitch!, you wanted to sell lungi then you drug me and rape me, get Mike
to help you then you get pregnant and abort the child I never knew existed or how it came to exist because of
what buhle! ” I roar in anger
Dad:“ she did what?. ”
Mike:“ she’s lying mbuso I never did that! ”
Me:“ exactly what I’m saying dad. Victor I’m sorry but there is no way buhle is not dying. I’m going to kill
this bitch! ”
Thuli:“kill her, kill that bitch. She has been nothing but jealous of everyone. She changed when she found out
that lungi wasn’t her sister and started being jealous of her. ”
Buhle:“ I was jealous because I saw how sipho looked at her and when I asked him why he looked at her that
way and not me he then told me that lungi isn’t my sister but she’s adopted. I didn’t know that they both, all
three of them killed her mother. ”
Thuli:“ all of you ruined my life, all of you. You Victor I was fucking your brother behind your back for a
while before you found out about it the I left you for him and like the dumb fuck you are you simply gave in.
Zakes you are the only man I have ever loved and I’m the one who saw you first and not samkelisiwe. She
took you away from me and lived my life and I let that happen, I couldn’t watch her live my life before my
eyes and be happy for her so she had to pay. ”
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Mapholoba:“ I loved her and not you!. The moment my eyes laid on her I knew she was the one for me not
you!, you killed her cause you were jealous that I love her and not you! ”
Thuli:“ yes I was jealous and I was going to make sure that I cause as much problems between you two as
possible, then that’s when I told sipho about you and how your family is rich then we came with a plan to
take the money and kill all of you ”
Sicelo:“ and you succeeded cause you killed my mother and tore our family apart. You bitch! ”
Buhle:“ she’s a dog a fucken dog and I blame you thuli for all my problems!. ” I look at luh's dad and the way
she’s watching thuli makes my skin crawl and it’s something that never happens to me.
Thuli:“ well you are just like me buhle sick and twisted baby. We are cut from the same cloth and you can’t
run away from that. Everything you know I’m the one who taught you. ”
Sipho:“ I should have never allowed you to convince me to steal from them cause at the end of the day you
betrayed me too and killed my son. My only son”
Thuli:“ he was weak just like you but I tolerated you sipho and did many things to keep you happy but you
were never satisfied because all you wanted was that bitch lungi, just like how you wanted her mother! ”
Sipho:“ she was special to me and I was going to take her and thami and leave you two alone. ”
Thuli:“ don’t make me laugh sipho, she was special to you?, you think she was just going to allow you to
make her your thing? ”
Buhle:“ I gave you everything sipho, my body, my mind and my heart and my soul but it was never enough
even when I got pregnant for you sipho! ”
Victor:“ what?! ”
Thuli:“ what the hell are you talking about buhle!, you don’t have a child with my husband!. ”
Buhle:“ but I do mommy dearest, I gave birth to a boy and I left him with my friend and she died ”
Me:“ remember when she was 18 and ran away for a year?, she was already pregnant and she gave birth to a
baby boy then left the baby with her friend who later started blackmailing her about the child then buhle goes
to her demands to see her son but her friend refuses cause she has hidden her child and then they fight and
buhle kills her and pays someone to get rid of the body.”
Buhle:“ how did you find out cause I made sure no one knows! ”
Me:“ I always get what I want buhle, I thought by now you already know that. ”
Sipho:“ where is my son buhle? ”
Buhle:“ I don’t know, mbuso please tell me where he is ”
Me:“ he’s somewhere where he won’t be touched by your evilness. He is raised by a family who adopted
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him. ”
Buhle:“ I need to see him please just once. ”
Victor:“ never!, you will not see him both of you will never see my grandson!. ” thuli laughs like she’s crazy
Thuli:“ oh this is so good, look at you sipho looking all touched and what not. Zakes you could have been my
husband, the father of my kids and you what I did a good thing buy making sure that your other two kids don’t
see the light of day! ” oh my fucked God!. Mike and Paul look like they would rather be anywhere else than
here.
Mapholoba:“ uthini?! ” ( what did you just say? ) he asks her furious and sicelo curses.
Thuli:“ it was luck I think cause everytime I went to see sam she would suspect that she’s pregnant, so I
would poison her drink or food then the next day she would have her periods. I did that twice after sicelo
and she never suspected it that dumb bitch!” mapholoba takes the gas torch lighter and goes to thuli and burns
her face and she screams in agony and we stand there shocked at what she just said.
Sicelo:“ you killed my sisters or brothers!. Why!, why would you do that! ” he says screaming, his dad stops
burning thuli on her face and the whole basement smells like burned flesh. ”
Thuli:“ burn sipho too cause he touched luh, from the ages of 5,6 and 7 he would drug her then finger her.
That’s why she doesn’t know or remember because most of the she was out of it ” oh God no!, my worst
fears have been confirmed. Sipho used to molest luh when she was little.
We look at each other with sicelo and it’s like he can read my mind. I see a hammer and nails and I take it
then go to sipho point the nails to his thigh then hit it hard and I hear his bone cracking and I do the same to
his other thigh and he screams but I want to do so much more to him. Sicelo comes with a container of acid
and pours it all over sipho and he screams, they all scream.
Me:“ let’s switch the cameras off. ” mapholoba nods and his guy switched it off and I make sure that it is
indeed off.
Dad:“ is there anything else all of you would like to say before you die. ” sipho groaning in pain and can’t
talk and thuli is crying too.
Thuli:“ zakes I just wanted you, I wanted to be your wife. ”
Buhle:“ please forgive me!, I need to live for my son I’m sorry!. ”
Me:“ thuli who was helping you with the plans to skip the country? ”
Thuli:“ it was those two, Mike and Paul ”
Paul:“ mbuso brother she’s lying. I didn’t help them I have no idea what they are talking about. ” he says
scared and literally shaking.
Mike:“ I don’t know these two people, I have never met them in my life., I swear mbuso!, bonga my friend
you believe me right? ”
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Bonga:“ fuck off, you think you can mess with my family the get away with it?, you obviously forgot who
mbuso is. ”
Mapholoba:“ any last words sipho? ”
Sipho:“ just kill me and put me out of my misery, I’m done and I don’t care anymore. ”
Mapholoba:“ and you thuli? ”
Thuli:“ I love you zakes always know that. ”
Sicelo:“ do you regret the things you did to our family? ”
Her:“ no I don’t. ”
Dad:“ Victor you don’t have to stay and watch this ”
Victor:“ she has had enough of this world, let me take her out of it please. She deserves to rest now. ” I’m
sorry for Victor but not for buhle.
Mapholoba:“ she’s your daughter Victor so do it. ” Victor pulls his gun out and points it at buhle and she
cries.
Victor:“ I wish I knew you were mine cause I would have tried to protect you from the things these two did
to you. You deserve to rest now cause you’ve had a long hard life my child.” He says then pulls the trigger
and shoots her point blank on her head and twice on her heart and I see tears falling down his face. That has
got to be the hardest things I have ever seen. He drops the gun then sits down and cries. Fuck!.
Mapholoba:“ boys give me the petrol ” they do and it’s 3 twenty five litres of petrol. I go and help him pour
it all over sipho, sicelo and dad pour it over thuli. Mapholoba then opens this door that’s on the corner of
the basement on the floor and they help him pull the door up and open it. “ let’s get them in there ” we drag
them and throw them down the deep whole then we pour the remaining petrol over them. “ sicelo would you
like to do the honours? ” we all gather around the whole including Victor and we watch them
Sicelo:“ whole heartedly ” he takes the match lights it then looks at them and they look scared. “ you are the
ones today that will die burning and you’ll burn in hell too. I’ll sleep better knowing my mother’s killers are
no longer roaming the roads of this earth and a world is a better place without you two in it.” He says then
throws the match and they scream wrenching cries as they burn. May they rot in hell. We close the door and
their cries are no longer loud but you can still hear them.
Dad:“ kill these two and throw their bodies where people will find them. ” he says then bonga and Frank
shoot Mike and Paul so fast they didn’t see it coming then the guys who work for mapholoba wrap them in
plastic.
Me:“ drop them somewhere close to Joburg and not here. ”
Them:“ ok boss. ” then they drag their bodies out.
Me:“ I’m sorry you had to do that. ” I say to Victor, we lay buhle body down and wrap her with a blanket.
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Him:“ I’m sorry too for all the things she did to you. To all of you I’m sorry.
Dad:“ what are you going to do with her body. ”
Him:“ I have to bury her, I’ll drive down with her body now and tomorrow morning we will bury her. ”
Dad:“ we will go with you, now guys take her body and put it in that body bag with lots of ice. ” they nod
and leave taking buhle’s body.
Him:“ thank you. ”
Mapholoba:“ you know what time to check on them then pour the acid to make sure that nothing is left behind.
Tomorrow Ngwende will come to cleanse the basement and all of us. Victor can you collect all their souls. ”
he tells one of the guys and Victor then I go to the computer and remove the hard drives of all the footage.
Sicelo:“ yeah man take it, we can’t afford to have lose ends. ”
Me:“ I will install a new security system just to be on the safe side. ”
Bonga:“ man seeing Victor cry got me. ”
Frank:“ there was no hope for buhle, she was a damaged soul. ” dad, mapholoba and Victor come back and
we all stand there.
Mapholoba:“ what happens tonight stays with us only. No one will know about what happened here but only
the people who were here. Mbuso I know you don’t want to lie to luh but this my son is not something you
are going to tell her. We will come up with a plan as to what happened to buhle but when she has given birth.
She can never know that sipho molested her when she was young. ”
Dad:“ it’s a blessing in disguise that all these years she has not had vivid memories of that time, but should it
ever happen or even suspect we will have to do something ”
Me:“ it’s for her own good dad, I know. ”
Mapholoba:“ we are done, no more lose ends or people we have to kill right? ”
Me:“ my friends, I think one of them betrayed me not I’m not sure which one. ”
Sicelo:“ we think that one of them told ngqakula that it was mbuso who killed his brother and it was only us
and them who knew. ”
Dad:“ we will sort that out, for now we have to go and be back before midday tomorrow or they will start
calling and getting suspicious. ”
Me:“ ok dad. ”
Victor:“ after everything has settled will you please show me where my grandson is? ”
Me:“ don’t worry, I will do that, he’s being taken care of, I made sure of that. ”
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Him:“ thank you mbuso. ”
Me:“ don’t thank me uncle Victor. All of you here gave me lungile and that’s what I’ll forever be grateful for.

Mapholoba:“ let’s go to Standerton guys. ” we all hug Victor.
Me:“ I hope this is the last time we are going to Standerton to bury someone. ”
Victor:“ I think I’ll take luh on her offer and move from there cause that place now has only bad memories
for me. My sisters are there so they will take care of my mother.”
Me:“ you need a fresh start. ”
Mapholoba:“ at lease we have something good to look forward to, the negotiations ”
Sicelo:“ you are going to pay lobola for luh again, my sister is lucky man ”
Me:“ I’ll keep doing it over and over again. No amount of money could measure up to her. She’s worth every
dollar, rands and penny I have.” They laugh. The mood lifts a little bit. We get in the cars then leave.

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LUNGI.
We are having dinner in the kitchen, they are drinking wine and I’m drinking my glass of apple juice. I’m so
happy that Sims is here, the designer has taken all of our measurements excluding my dad, uncle Victor and
mbuso's dad but mah promised to take their measurements and send them to the designer. I’m so excited that
finally everything seems to be going well, the negotiations are going to begin and I’ll be mbuso's wife legally
and traditionally.
Me:“ mah I wanted to ask you if you can help us by getting someone we can trust to help around the house
since it is now furnished and mbuso has been complaining about us getting help. ”
Sims:“ why can’t you guys get a cleaning company to come and clean the house.”
Mah:“ she’s pregnant Sims and needs someone to be here all the time. I think nonto should come and help you
guys since we trust her and she has been working for us for years.”
Preston:“ that’s a great idea and I still have to find you nannies that you guys will interview and agree on
cause I know mbuso won’t let anyone he doesn’t trust around you and his kids. ”
Mah:“ they all won’t. ”
Me:“ thank you mah.”
Mah:“ do you want her to live with you guys? ”
Me:“ yes she has to and so will the nannies too. ”
Preston:“ good thing is, there is a cottage outside that they can all live in and not in the house. ”
Me:“ what’s wrong with them living in the house ”
Sims:“ they might hit on your husband, you have seen how mbuso looks right ”
Me:“ I trust him and I know he will never cheat on me Sims ”
Sims:“ I know but men cheat when you are pregnant but I’m not saying that mbuso is cheating on you. ” I
cannot believe she has just said that.
Mah:“ Sims what’s wrong with you? How can you even say that? ”
Preston:“ mbuso loves luh too much, the man is basically obsessed with her and then you think he might even
look at another like how he looks at luh simphiwe? ” he asks her getting annoyed.
Me:“ are you trying to tell me something sims, or you want me to start being paranoid and suspicious of him?.

Her:“ no luh I was only saying that most men cheat when a woman is pregnant that’s all. I mean it happened
to me. ”

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Me:“ I know it happened to you cause I was there, your experiences were only yours and it doesn’t mean that
what happened to you will also happen to me too simphiwe. I know mbuso is not perfect like the rest of us
and yes he has made mistakes in the past but he is not the man who was when I first met him. He has changed
and I thought that you saw it too cause you have seen what has happened between us… . ”
Her:“ I know but… ”
Me:“ no let me finish. My mbuso loves me and I know he will never hurt me like that because I trust him
completely and I know that he would rather die that hurt me again in anyway. Whatever that is going with you
in your head you better stop it because I will not have you speaking bad things about the man I love. ”
Her:“ I’m sorry luh, everything I said was coming out from a good place not because I want to cause
problems between the two of you. ”
Mah:“ if I didn’t know better I would say you are jealous Sims.”
Sims:“ what no? How can you say that?. Luh is my sister and I love her, I just don’t want to see her hurt again
that’s all. ”
Preston:“ look at her, she’s glowing, she’s happy and she’s in love is about to get married to the man she
loves and they are expecting kids. What would hurt her or rather who would hurt her? ”
Her:“ I am not jealous of her!. I would never hurt the only person who loves me and my kids. ”
Mah:“ good then because if you do mbuso and sicelo will kill you just so you know. Even bonga won’t
protect you.”
Me:“ Sims what’s going on?, talk to me?. Did your talk with bonga not go okay?. ”
Her:“ it went okay and we talked. I don’t know maybe I’m just scared that he will cheat on me and hurt me.
I’m sorry luh. I know mbuso really loves you and would never do anything to hurt you. ”
Mah:“ Sims listen, you and luh could be sister in-laws if bonga marries you and so when he does something
you can’t make luh think that mbuso might be doing the same thing too cause you are going to plant a seed of
doubt in her head and cause problems between them. Luh loves you and trusts you, your opinion matters to
her. Talk to bonga and tell him your fears. ”
Her:“ I will aunty I’m sorry guys. ”
Preston:“ luh told me how she met mbuso, did you feel rejected by him when he chose her and not you? ”
Sims:“ no I didn’t because I knew he was going to choose her. He has been watching her from the first day he
saw her. ”
Preston:“ hmm I don’t know because I think maybe a part of you wishes that what could have happened if he
chose you?. You could have been living the life luh is living and so maybe you are a little bit jealous don’t
you think? ”
Me:“ pres she’s not jealous of me come on. ” I say defending her and she looks hurt.
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Her:“ I’m not jealous of her life Preston okay!. ”
Preston:“ I mean he chose luh not you then we find out that you and bonga are sleeping together I mean….. If
you can’t get the man you want why not settle for his brother ” what is he saying?!. That’s crazy.
Me:“ Preston please stop okay!. Just stop. She apologized and I know that she doesn’t want mbuso or even
looks at him that way. ” I believe that.
Mah:“ Preston has a point though, why didn’t she tell you that she slept with bonga?. You guys are best
friends so why did she keep that information away from you?. ”
Sims:“ because a lot was happening to her and she was out on bed rest. I will not allow you guys to make me
the bad guy and accuse me of wanting mbuso. She takes care of me and my kids, both of them do. I do not see
him that way and choose his brother because he didn’t want me. Bonga is the only man I want whether he is
mbuso's brother or not. ” I look at her and she sounds hurt.
Preston:“ if it looks, smells like jealousy then it is jealousy. ”
Me:“ pres stop it please. Mah please. ”
Mah:“ pres leave it alone. ” she says and I sigh. I look at the time and it’s 11 pm.
Me:“ are you okay? ” I ask Sims?
Her:“ I’m fine ” but she doesn’t sound fine.
Me:“ you’ll use the bedroom next to Preston’s and mah you’ll use the one opposite Preston’s. I’m going to
bed, I don’t think the guys are going to be back anytime soon. ”
Mah:“are you okay luh? ”
Me:“ I’m fine mah, good night guys ” I tell them
Preston:“ you want me to come and cuddle with you? ” I laugh
Me:“ mbuso won’t like finding you in his bed and Sims is the one who could use some cuddling. You two
should talk. Night night. ” I leave them and go to my bedroom. I close the door, go to my bathroom and
shower. Get in bed and sleep. I won’t entertain what Sims said and what Preston and mah think.
Morning comes, I wake up alone in bed. Mbuso didn’t come back home last night. I key phone and call him
but it puts me on voicemail.
Me:“ hey baby are you okay?, you didn’t tell me that you won’t ne coming back home. I hope you are safe
call me. ” I hang up and go shower. I get to the kitchen and my house smells devine and I smile. “ hello sis
nonto you are already here? ” I ask her sitting down.
Nonto:“ morning sis luh. When aunty phoned me last night and asked me if I wanted to come and work here I
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Me:“ thank you, I just hope dad won’t be mad that we took his favourite housekeeper ” she smiles
Her:“ he won’t mind plus the other two ladies are there and they will manage. ”
Me:“ we will talk about your salary and benefits when mbuso comes home but the whole house is yours. ”
Her:“ you have a beautiful home sis luh, I’ll make sure intake care of it. ”
Me:“ thank you, there’s a cottage outside that you will use if you want to live here or we can arrange a
transport to fetch you from your place. ”
Her:“ I’ll be staying at my place sis luh ” she says blushing ok she has a man.
Me:“ ok then, are the others awake? ”
Her:“ only your aunt, she’s the one who let me in. I think she’s showering. ”
Me:“ it smells devine I here, but I want pap and ox liver sis nonto ” she laughs
Her:“ pregnancy cravings. I’ll ask the guys outside to go buy an ox liver while I cook you pap. ”
Me:“ when did they get here? ”
Her:“ I don’t know , when I got here they were outside. ” I nod.
Me:“ let me go get the money, I’ll be back. ” I go to my bedroom, take the money, come back and give it to
her. Sims comes in looking like she didn’t sleep at all.
Her:“ morning luh ”
Me:“ morning, you look like you had a rough night. ”
Her:“ yeah I didn’t sleep well ”
Me:“ why? ” I ask her eating an apple.
Her:“ they didn’t come back last night. ”
Me:“ I know. ”
Her:“ dis mbuso tell you where they are or what they are doing? ”
Me:“ no. ”
Her:“ hmm ”
Me:“ Sims don’t start!. ”
Mah:“ start what? ”

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Me:“ nothing mah, good morning ”
Mah:“ morning baby, morning Sims ” she kisses my cheek.
Preston:“ morning fam, today is a beautiful day ” he says smiling and I giggle.
Me:“ don’t you have a surgery to run? ”
Him:“ I will go and see if the person I left is still managing. ”
Me:“ I need to work after I give birth. ”
Mah:“ or you can start your own real estate company ”
Me:“ I was thinking the same thing too, Sims could help with the paper work and you too mah. ”
Her:“ nope, I’m good managing our farm thank you very much. ”
Sims:“ I would love that. ” she smiles playing her food.
Preston:“ and what about me? ”
Me:“ sorry, we don’t own a hospital ” we laugh
Mah:“ why aren’t you eating? ”
Nonto:“ she wants pap and an ox liver ”
Mah:“ did you tell the guys to go to our supermarket butchery and get the liver there? ”
Her:“ I did and it should be here I’m 10 minutes. ”
Me:“ mah did you hear from dad? ”
Her:“ I did and they all slept at his house but I think they will be here late in the afternoon.
Me:“ is everything okay? ”
Her:“ it is baby, apparently they all got drunk and decided to sleep so now they are nursing their hangover ”
Me:“ men ” I say chuckling. My liver gets delivered and it’s a whole cows liver my God I’m so going to eat
it until I get full. Nonto cools it and it smells wonderful. “ can you tell the guys to come and have breakfast? ”
she leaves and comes back with them, they are only two. They greet, nonto plates for them and they eat. She
cooks the liver for me and it smells amazing. I dig in when my pap has cooled down. The guys finished they
food and thanks me then leave.
There is awkward silence between mah, Preston and Sims and I hate it. I’m not going to ask them or what is
the uncomfortable silence about because I thought everything that happens last night has been forgotten. My
phone rings and it’s my man.

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Me:“ morning baby ”
Him:“ love are you okay? ”
Me:“ I am boo, how’s the hangover? ” he chuckles
Him:“ bad but I’ll be fine. Did you miss me? ” I smile
Me:“ I did baby ”
Him:“ I did too, but I’ll be there soon to show you how much I missed you ” I giggle
Me:“ I can’t wait. ”
Him:“ there are people who are outside now. I’ll tell the guys to open for them ”
Me:“ what kind of people? ”
Him:“ something your brother decided to do for you. I have to go baby, I love you ”
Me:“ ok, I love you more. ” he hangs up.
Me:“ nonto can you go open the living room door and let those people in. ”
Sims:“ what’s going on? ”
Me:“ sicelo decided to do something for me and I guess we’ll see what that is. ” I get up and go to the living
room, look outside my window and see a truck and I smile.
Mah:“ his way of saying sorry? ”
Me:“ it is. ” nonto let’s them in.
Lady:“ hi we are from paradise beauty spa and a Mr Sicelo sent us here to come and give you, your own spa
day in your home. ” We all scream.
Me:“ you can set up here and call us when you are ready for us. ”
Lady:“ here are your own gowns, please go and change into them. ” the four of us leave to our bedrooms and
change. My brother is the best and I haven’t been in a beauty spa for years. I take my phone and type “ thank
you big brother, you are the best and I love you. ” and send it.

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I really enjoyed the massages, laying on that bed that can also accommodate pregnant woman has been
wonderful. I am a going to this again for myself and mbuso too, yes!. I have an idea what going to do. He
could really use the rest because he has been running after people for a long time now and I just want my man
to relax and not worry about anything else. Even though the massages were great the mood is not right and I
have to address this.

Nonto is preparing a late lunch, mah is somewhere on the house and Preston let to check out his business,
Sims decided to take go and take a nap after talking to the boys. I’m in my living watching TV when the door
opens and it’s my baby. I get up and run to him wrapping my legs around him, he catches me laughing.

Him:“ now this is a welcome home I was looking forward too.” I plant kisses all over his face and he
chuckles.

Me:“ I missed you ” I say kissing him

Him:“ I missed you too baby but come and feed me I’m hungry then later you’ll show me how much you
missed me ” he speaks between kisses.

Sicelo:“ please stop I don’t want to be blind.” I look on the side and smile. Mbuso puts me down, I give my
brother a big hug.

Me:“ I loved the massage thank you very much. ”

Him:“ it was my way of saying sorry sis.”

Me:“ you were forgiven but this was the icing on the cake. ”

Sicelo:“ where’s everyone? ”

Me:“ Sims is taking nap, mah I’m not sure where she is then Preston went to see how things are going in his
surgery. ”

Mbuso:“ come and feed me ” he says taking my hand

Me:“ nonto is cooking but I think she’s almost done. ”

Him:“ she’s here? ”

Me:“ yes, she’s our new housekeeper baby ”

Him:“ sis you talk about her salary and other things? ”

Me:“ I thought we will do that together ”

Him:“ love you’re the woman of this house and whatever you decide is fine by me. Just give me her banking
details and documents. ” we get in the kitchen and sit down.
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Them:“ Hi sis nonto? ” they greet her

Her:“ good afternoon sirs ”

Mbuso:“ thank you for agreeing to work for us ”

Her:“ my pleasure sir. ”

Sicelo:“ what are eating? ”

Her:“ food sicelo ” we laugh. “ you will be having seven colours. Are the others coming or must I dish for
only you? ”

Sims:“ good afternoon, I would like some food. I’m famished. ” I smile.

Sicelo:“ are you sick or something? ”

Her:“ no why? ” she asks frowning

Sicelo:“ you were taking a nap. The Sims I know would have drank the whiskey we left behind ” he is right
we all laugh.

Her:“ man I forgot about it. But can I pour you guys one? ”

Mbuso:“ I’m good, I just need food and sleep. ”

Sicelo:“ I’ll have one too ” she gets up and fixed the both of them a drink.

Me:“ where are the others? ”

Mbuso:“ the dad’s went to see someone, bonga, sbu and frank are smoking outside. ”

Sims:“ I hate that he smokes but I love the smell of nicotine on him. ” she says blushing.

Me:“ have you ever smoked baby? ”

Him:“ never love ”

Me:“ and you don’t have tattoos either ”

Him:“ I donate blood so I stay clear of any ink on my body. ”

Me:“ they would have looked amazing on your skin ” he chuckles

Him:“ do you have a thing for guys with tattoos love? ”

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Me:“ I have a thing for you only ” I blush he kisses my cheek.

Sicelo:“ guys we are still here ”

Sibusiso:“ I’m going to throw up ” we laugh

Bonga:“ hey guys, hey baby? ” Sims smiles, she really looks happy. She should just talk with bonga and tell
him her fears about their relationship.

Sims:“ hello ” they kiss lightly

Me:“ ohhhh” we all laugh. Frank and mah join us then pres too joins us. “ Sims can you help me put the
dishes on the table? ”

Her:“ sure sis ” we look at each other and giggle. We put the plates on the table, help nonto dish up the food
and sit down.

Mah:“ sims can you say grace? ” I look at her and I feel mbuso looking at me.

Sims:“ let’s close our eyes. Father I thank you for all the blessing I have in my life and the blessing you are
still going to bless me with and I thank you for blessing me with this family that I have and I apologize for
offending anyone. Thank you for this food sis nonto prepared for us Amen. ” she says and she sounds hurt and
I don’t like that.

Us:“ Amen. ” I look at her and she gives me a side smile. I look down and eat my food. The while table is
quiet only the sounds of plates and knives clicking.

Mbuso:“ ok what is going on? ”

Sicelo:“ cause when we left there was no tension between all of you but now?. ”

Bonga:“ baby did you and luh fight? ”

Her:“ no we didn’t ”

Mbuso:“ love what’s wrong? ”

Me:“ nothing boo ”

Preston:“ sims might have said that you might be cheating on luh. ”

Me:“ shut up Preston she didn’t say that!. ” I shout at him

Bonga:“ you said that? ”

Sims:“ I didn’t say that mbuso is cheating on her, I just said most of the time men cheat on their pregnant
wives. ”
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Mbuso:“ and I might be one of those man? ” he says so calmly

Mah:“ that’s what she insinuated ”

Bonga:“ what made you come to that conclusion baby? ”

Me:“ we were talking about me and you hiring nannies and that they would have to live with is in the house
and Sims was concerned that they might hit on mbuso and I told them that I trust you and somehow mah and
Preston thought that she might be jealous of me which she is not. She was just concerned about me wanting
other people to live with us in the house. ”

Preston:“ it was the way she said it though that suggested that she might be jealous of luh and you. ”

Mbuso:“ you don’t know the kind if relationship luh has with Sims. They grew up together the three of them
with thami and I am pretty sure that if she was jealous of luh she wouldn’t be sitting here with us. ”

Mah:“ then she shouldn’t have planted that thought of doubt in her head. ”

Me:“ mah stop. She didn’t plant anything in my head or insinuated that mbuso is cheating. I trust him and
that’s that. Sims is my sister and best friend and she knows she can tell me anything, share her fears with me
because she trusts me and I won’t judge her. What she said came from a good place and she meant no harm to
me or mbuso. ” I see sims treating up and it breaks my heart.

Sibusiso:“ Preston did Sims say it that made you think she was jealous?, was she saying bad things about
their relationship? ”

Preston:“ no but maybe she feels like… ”

Me:“ stop it Preston!. She explained again and again to you and mah that what she said came from a good
place and apologized to you too and to me but you still want to make this thing a big issue when it’s nothing.

Mah:“ then why did she not say anything to you about her and bonga? ”

Me:“ enough with this bullshit talk!. She has every right to share what she wants me to know and what not
like I do. Sims doesn’t owe me any explanation and I will not let you and Preston come between us and cause
problems. She is my sister whether she does good or bad and I love her the same, what she said means
nothing to me cause I know she meant no harm and she was just beings her loud mouth self. I know her, you
don’t know her, I grew up with her and I will not let you make her feel uncomfortable and unwelcomed in my
house. Preston don’t ever speak for Sims like you know her more than me and mah what sims said is my
business and mine alone unless I come to you asking for help. This is the last time we will have this
conversation and you will not make Sims feel like she’s not important to me cause she is. I’ve known her
more than all of you combined in this table and I would know if she was jealous of me. None of you the
things we went through and how many times she has protected me. You hurt her, all of you in this table you
will deal with me. I’m Lungile Ngcobo and no one messes with the people I love. ” mbuso looks at me with
pride in his eyes smiling and I smile back. Sims takes my hand in hers and we hold hers tight.
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Sibusiso:“ who knew you beneath all that sweet, submissive woman was a bad ass chick. Man I love you ”
he says palming his cheek and mbuso throws a knife at him and we all laugh.

Me:“ you and Frank excluded from what I said. ”

Frank:“ for a moment there I thought you were going to kick all of us out of your house. ”

Me:“ I almost did that ” I mean it.

Mbuso:“ do you feel threatened by their relationship? ”

Him:“ uhm no I don’t. I was just looking out for luh ”

Me:“ Preston I am a grown ass woman and I don’t need to be looked after from my own sister like I am a
God damn child.”

Sibusiso:“ or maybe you are the one who is jealous of luh and Sims.”

Him:“ no I’m not. ”

Sicelo:“ am I in trouble too?, cause you are scaring me. ” I giggle

Me:“ no you are not ”

Sicelo:“ thank God!. ” he says wiping his forehead, I shake my head laughing.

Me:“ both of you need to apologize to Sims.”

Mah:“ I’m sorry simphiwe, O room this thing a wrong way and I apologize. ”

Preston:“ I’m sorry simphiwe, I don’t want us to fight and have problems. All of you here are my only family
and I don’t want to lose you. I’m sorry luh.” I nod.

Mbuso:“ I understand where all of that is coming from. Simphiwe it’s because you know how I was with luh
and me hurting her, did hurt you too and maybe I never apologized to you for hurting your sister but I am now
and I am sorry. Whatever that is my brother did to hurt you I apologize on his behalf because he can be stupid
sometimes but rest assured that I will never cheat on luh and yes you are right about us having nannies live in
the house. Baby that’s not going to happen here on in Durban or whichever city we are going to have a house
in. They will leave outside in the cottage. ”

Me:“ ok baby. ”

Sims:“ thank you all of you and I apologize to all of you too for speaking without thinking first sometimes.” I
smile

Me:“ my ride or die. ” she laughs now this is the sim I love who’s always carefree, speaks her mind.
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Sims:“ thank you for having my back. ”

Me:“ always and it’s time I looked out for you as you have been with me ”

Bonga:“ I’m sorry for hurting you and I apologize for all the man who have hurt you and made you feel like
you are enough because you are to me and I love you just the way you are. ”

Sims:“ I love you too Siyabonga. ”

Me:“ so I was thinking that tomorrow we have a little braai with our close friends and family and celebrate
thami's life. To say goodbye properly his way. ”

Sims:“ dance and get drunk!, I am all for that. ”

Mbuso:“ but love I wanted to relax and get some sleep just the two of us. ”

Me:“ we can still do that after tomorrow baby. I’m not going anywhere ”

Sicelo:“ we could really use a braai man, just tomorrow only them we will all be out of your hair and let you
guys grow your children in peace. ”
Mah:“ luh and mbuso have sex for all of us. ”

Me:“ but mah you can’t say that in front of baba Frank ” we laugh

Frank:“ she it right, the two of you are worse than all of us. ”

Mbuso:“ they are jealous baby. ”

Preston:“ is your bedroom sound proof because I don’t want to be scarred for life. ”

Me:“ can you guys stop talking about our sex life! ” geez.

Mbuso:“ yes please stop it. ”

Mah:“ we will see you tomorrow guys, I have to go and take are of my man. ”

Sicelo:“ too much information aunty yoh! ”

Sibusiso:“ we don’t need to know that. ”

Frank:“ lonely man, I feel for you guys but don’t worry soon you will be cuffed too. Later ” they go.

Sicelo:“ let’s go and get drunk sbu, Preston you coming? ”

Preston:“ I could do with many drinks. ”

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Sibusiso:“ I’m coming too. ”

Sims:“ you bonga? ”

Bonga:“ hell no. I want to sleep. ”

Me:“ baby go and join them, I’ll see you later ”

Mbuso:“ are you trying to get rid of me? ”

Me:“ no boo, I thought that maybe you guys would like to still chill. ”

Him:“ we did last night and now I want you all to myself. ”

Me:“ ok baby. ” I smile.

Sicelo:“ I guess it’s only use single boys. Let’s go. ”

Me:“ are you guys going to sleep here or at dad’s place? ”

Sicelo:“ this house is finally furnished so you bet we will be coming here and sleeping. ”

Mbuso:“ don’t bring any woman in my house guys ”

Me:“ or men Preston ” he laughs.

Preston:“ unless he takes me home ” he winks, we laugh. They leave.

Sims:“ excuse us too, we will see you later. ” she takes bonga's hand and the leave us.

Me:“ sis nonto when will you knock off? ”

Her:“ I don’t know sis luh. ”

Mbuso:“ she will knock off at 5 pm and but you will work everyday and some days we might need you to
work a little late. ”

Her:“ yes sir I understand.”

Mbuso:“ I know you know what is happening in this family and I know we can trust you but I will still need
you to sign the non disclosure agreement. ”

Her:“ no problem sir. Sis luh do you need me too cook supper? ”

Me:“ please do cause my brother is going to come back hungry ”

Mbuso:“ her too. ”


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Nonto:“ ok I will cook supper. ” she says and leaves the kitchen.

Me:“ your kids are making me hungry”

Him:“ are you okay though with what they were saying about Sims?. ”

Me:“ I didn’t like it and I’m actually annoyed at them but I’ll ne fine. ”

Him:“ you know that I love you very much luh and believe me I will never cheat on you. ”

Me:“ I know and I trust you my love. I trust Sims too. ”

Him:“ ok baby, let’s go to bed. ”

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MBUSO.

“ I’m sorry they got you upset. They made a big deal out of nothing, I think maybe they are jealous of your
relationship with Sims. ”

“ that’s crazy though. What could be the reason for them to be jealous of her. I mean we welcomed Preston in
our family with both arms and mah, she’s my aunt. I love her and nothing is going to change that. ” she says
sitting on the bed.

“ they met you again as an adult, they still don’t know many things about you but only Sims does. Maybe she
feels like she missed out on most of your childhood and she’s feeling threatened by your relationship with
Sims. ”

“ then she should tell me how she feels and not accuse problems between me and sims. I hate that. No one is
going to come between me and sims. ”

“ I know baby. I’m going to run us a bath. ”

“ are you okay cause you look a little down? ” she asks me concerned

“ I’m ok baby, I think I drank way to much than I should have done. ”

“ ohk. “ I know she doesn’t believe me cause of the way she’s looking at me. Lungi knows me and she knows
that I’m not okay. I keep thinking about what thuli said about sipho molesting luh for 3 years and drugging her
so she won’t be aware. That makes me so mad. It makes me want to kill sipho again and again. I want to
punch something so bad until I feel numb and my body hurts.

“ baby are you okay? ” she asks turning the tap off. Fuck the water was almost full in the bath.

“ I’m okay love, was just thinking. ” I take the bath salts, bubble bath and oils pour them in the water. It has
the right temperature. “ is the water okay? ” she tests the water and nods.

“ come and join me ” I undress, take her hand we both getting in with me behind her. I pull her to my chest,
put my hand on her stomach and my kids move.

“ when are we having another ultrasound? ”

“ next week baby. ”

“ I can’t wait to meet them ”

“ I can’t wait to hold them, breastfeed them and smell them. ”

“ you are going to smell our babies? ” she giggles and that makes me feel a little better.

“ you are going to do it too. Babies smell great and I used to smell katlego and melusi. ”

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“ I hope our kids will look like you. ” so they can wrap me around their little fingers like their mom.

“ but I want them to look like you ” she says whining and I chuckle.

“ they are going to look like us baby. What matters is we are going to have healthy bouncing babies. ” that’s
all I want.

“ I hope sims will be here when I give birth, your mother too. ”

“ don’t forget aunt lwethu cause I’m sure she’s probably going to move in with us. ”

“ you think so? ”

“ I know so love. ”

“ I’m a first time mother and so I’m going to need all the help I can get. I learned many things from Sims as
she was raising her children but I know it’s not the same for everyone. I just hope I’ll be a good mother to my
kids. ”

“ you are a great aunt, I’ve seen you with sims kids. You are going to be the best mom and it is going to drive
our kids crazy. ”

“ we are going to be great parents and if we have problems along the way, we have our parents and we can
always ask for advise. ”

“ that’s right baby. ”

“ you know that after I’ve given birth we are not going to have sex for like six months ” she says looking at
me.

“ love don’t joke about this cause it is not funny. ” she laughs

“ I’m serious baby. No sex for six months and of your aunt is going to be here she’s going to make sure that
we don’t do it. ” that’s crazy!

“ whole six months love that’s absurd!. Who came with these stupid rules?. ”

“ I have to heal down here first before we get intimate again. ”

“ that’s like half a year of me not touching you. ” she laughs

“ we can do other things but no penetration of any kind. ”

“ so you won’t even blow me love? ” she laughs fits of giggles.

“ that one you will get. ”

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“ wow I can’t believe I’m going to have to wait six months for me to make love to you. That’s not fair love. ”

“ it is what it is baby. ”

“ you haven’t started with the nursery for the twins. ”

“ I was thinking of asking sims to decorate it cause she loves decorating. Oh wait I think I have an idea what
the both of us are going to do. ”

“ ok what are you planning?. ”

“ well I was thinking that after I have given birth I should register my real estate business. I want to go back
to work but I want to be my own boss. ”

“ you want to work right after you have given birth to our kids? ” she’s crazy

“ I’ll work from home and we will have all the help we can get. Our families and the nannies baby ”

“ so you are going to leave our kids and go to work? ”

“ no baby, I can work from home until the kids are grown maybe when they turn a year old. ”

“ so how does sims fit in all of that. ”

“ she loves to decorate and I think she missed her calling as an interior designer, so I was thinking that sims
can decorate the houses will be selling. Some of the people want to move in and not worry about decorating
the house and that’s where sims come in. We can be partners and run our business. ”

“ I like that love. I have an idea too. ”

“ what is it? ”

“ I can buy you land, get bonga’s company to design the houses, your brother's company to build them and my
company will install state of the art security system in the house. You sell them and sims decorates them.
What do you think? ”

“ O wow I love it. If you do that what will you get in return from our company?. Are you coming in as an
investor or what cause I want our company to be 100 percent owned by just me and sims.”

“ look love starting that kind of company from scratch needs lots of money and you have it but you still need
investors in you company to help it grow and be the way you want it to be. Sims doesn’t have that kind of
money and so she might feel a certain way about owning a company with you equally when she didn’t put any
amount on it. So you have to convince her that it’s not about the money but about the two of you building a
legacy for your kids. That’s where all of us come in and invest in your company. I would do it alone but I
know they won’t have that. ”

“ you right baby, you know I didn’t look at it that way and k owing her she wasn’t going to agree. She was
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going to say it’s better if she works for me and I don’t want that. I want us to be partners equally. So will you
buy me land anywhere I want and in any province?. ”

“ yes love anywhere you want. Consider it as my gift to you for carrying my babies and making me the
happiest man on this earth. ” she kisses me

“ thank you baby. We buying an empire for our kids. ”

“ yes we are. Whatever that makes you happy, makes me happy too. ”

“ we are going to buy already built houses and buildings too. Renovate, decorate and then sell them. ”

“ my hot business woman. You are taking my surname when we get married right? ”

“ hell yes. I want to be Mrs mbuso Gumede. I can’t wait baby. ”

“ me too love. ”

“ let’s get out of the water. You will catch pneumonia. ” I help her get out of the bath. We dry ourselves,
moisturize and go to the bedroom.

“ it’s summer and it’s hot outside baby, I won’t get sick. ”

“ I won’t take chances with your health. ” we lay on top of the duvet facing each other.

“ mbuso? ” she says my name so sweet and gently.

“ yes love. ”

“ are you really okay? ” she’s worried about me. I sigh

“ why do you keep asking me that. ” I kiss her lips.

“ you don’t sound like yourself. You sound down. ”

“ I’m fine baby, nothing is wrong. ”

“ I know you didn’t drink last night. ” what?

“ how do you mean, I was drunk last night. ”

“ you were not drinking last night. You weren’t feeling of alcohol.”

“ I drank a lot of water cause I didn’t want to reek of alcohol. ”

“ why are you lying to me? ”

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“ I’m not love. Get on top of me. ”

“ no you are avoiding my question. ” she says sternly.

“ what question? ”

“ did you not make a promise to me that you will never lie to me?. ”

“ I did and I am not lying to you. ” damn why won’t she let it go.

“ you are lying to me. Where were you last night. ”

“ I told you where I was and what we were doing. What more do you want me to say luh?. ”

“ then if you were drinking all night and nursing your hangover this morning then why did you smell like the
time you came back from killing that man?.” fuck no!. I thought I didn’t smell.

“ you think I was out last night killing someone? ”

“ I’m asking you where were you and why you were smelling like that. ”

“ isn’t my word enough?, don’t you trust me now when I tell you where I was and what I was doing?. You
don’t believe me and you question me lungi then you accuse me of being out last night killing someone?. ”

“ I didn’t say you killed someone, just that the smell, odour was the same as last time. I trust you and you
know that. I trust that you will trust me enough to tell me the whole truth no matter how difficult it is. ”

“ I know that. ”

“ I don’t think you trust me enough to tell me the truth. Mbuso we are going to be married soon, we are going
to be husband and wife. You can’t hide things from me. I don’t care what my dad or your dad said. We are
going to be one, this marriage is ours not theirs and you can’t keep things from me because they said so. You
are going to be my husband and I shouldn’t be left behind in the dark. I’m not some naïve little girl that needs
to be protected always cause maybe all of you think I’m fragile cause I’m not!. ” she says getting up from the
bed and I sit up. “ I was raised by thuli, that cold woman and you think she could raise a weakling of a child?
No!. She is cold and heartless but what she taught me is to be strong and not let anyone walk all over you.
You can’t fight for what you want and believe in it. Weakness isn’t part of that woman’s vocabulary. Yes she
treated me and but also there good things I learned from her too. So all of you should stop making decisions
on my behalf and think that you all know what is best for me. I am sick and tired of all of you doing that and it
has to stop!. ” where has this woman been hiding cause my baby is coming out of her shell.

“ no one is making decisions about your life love. ”I really don’t want to have this conversation but I see that
it has been weighing heavily in her mind. It has been bothering her and lungi is not the type of person who
talks.

“ you are, all of you. It’s like you are dictating what I should know what not I should know and I’m sick of it.
This is my life and no one has any right to decide what is best for me but only me mbuso!. You are going to
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be my husband and we should make decisions together not let my father or your father tell you what is best
for me cause I know that your dad doesn’t hide anything from your mother and my dad wouldn’t hide anything
from my mother if she was still here. If you are keeping things from me now while we are not married then
what is going to happen when we are married? ”

“ I know baby and I get your point and no one is dictating how your life should be. ” she is right though, I
have let the parents make most of the decisions and that has to stop.

“ when you are hiding bad things from me that are happening that is dictating mbuso. Who said I only want to
know good things that are happening around us?. I’m not fragile or weak or a naïve. I’m fucken pregnant
that’s all and I want you to be the man that I know you are and lead your house and makes decisions for your
family. Our parents should take a step back and let us do what we think is best for us and if we fail then that’s
fine cause we learn and we will ask for help when we want it. ”

“ I’m sorry love I didn’t realise that I was doing that. Maybe I was busy trying to make up for the bad things I
did to you and for them to accept me as your man.”

“ I’m happy that you wanted them to accept you as my man but it wouldn’t change things between us whether
they accepted you or not cause I do and that’s what matters to me. They would have had no choice but to
accept you too cause I love you and that is never going to change. I’m here with you mbuso for the good, the
bad and the ugly and scary things. ”

“ one thing I will always be grateful for is that you gave me a chance again to be part of your life and our
kids lives. I love how you love me and only me. Your love and faith that you have on me makes me feel like I
can do anything in the world just to see you happy and smiling. I walk tall and proud cause you make me feel
like I’m a fucken king. ”

“ you are the king of this castle. Only you and no one else. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise cause where
you lead I will follow. ”

“ your love humbles me lungi. It makes me feel like I’m not doing enough to show you how much you mean to
me. ”

“ you have done more than anyone would have down for me.. I’m the one who should do more to show you
how blessed I am to have you. ”

“ marry me tomorrow then I don’t want to wait anymore. ” she looks at me shocked.

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LUNGI.

He looks at me expecting an answer. I’m shocked, we are going to get married. I just don’t understand what
is the hurry now.

“ baby we are going to get married. We are planning a wedding ”

“ don’t tell me about that wedding. I want to marry you tomorrow. I can’t wait. ” he looks so handsome right
now.

“ you really are serious aren’t you? ”

“ have you known me to joke about serious things? ”

“ nope. ”

“ baby I can’t think straight with you standing there naked. I need my answer now ”

“ I gave you my answer when I accepted your ring boo. ” he kneels down on one knee. Looks at me smiling.

“ lungile Ngcobo my rib. My everything. I can say all the right words there are but the only words I want to
say to you now is. Will you marry me tomorrow morning?. I want the sun to set tomorrow with you as my
wife. ”

“ I can’t take you serious looking like that. You are aroused, your kneeling down naked and the only thing I’m
focusing on is that heavy sack between your legs and that hard dick. ” I say chuckling.

“ so you want me to propose to you while I’m inside of you, making love to you?. I can do that too you know
” he smiles God he’s so handsome. I love this mam.

“ I’ll marry you even now if it was possible but I will marry you mbuso Gumede tomorrow.”

“ you know we can make that happen right? ”

“ what? Get married now? No!. ”

“ tomorrow it is then. Come here and let me make you happy. We miss you. ” he says moving his hips up and
down. His dick bounces too heavily.

“ what are you doing? ” I ask him laughing my head off.

“ getting ready for you baby. I’m about to love you tonight. ” he does push ups

“ well mister since we are getting married tomorrow then I have to love you and leave you. ”

“ what do you mean love? ” he gets up.

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“ well then say it’s bad luck for the groom to see his bride the night before the wedding. So I’m going to put
my clothes on and I’ll see you tomorrow as my dad and uncle victory walk me down the isle. ”

“ no love don’t joke like that ” I laugh out loud.

“ I’m serious boo. ” I leave him and go to the closet and wear my dress.

“ You really are serious. ”

“ we have a wedding to prepare for tomorrow since we both can’t wait anymore. You will love me
tomorrow as your wife. I will call you, keep you phone close to you. ”

“ baby then let’s do a quickie please?. Look at how hard I am. ” he grabs his dick and I see precum leaking
Jesus!.

“ go and take a cold shower boo, you’ll be fine. ”

“ you are not being fair right now. ”

“ We will have all the time in the world tomorrow. Right now we don’t cause we have a lot to prepare for. ”

“ look baby it’s not even 5pm so we can still get someone on the last minute. I won’t take even 30 minutes I
swear. ” he looks at me like he is sad but he’s really not. He’s just horny.

“ my love I’m not going anywhere. Tomorrow you can do wicked things to me as long as they won’t hurt my
babies. ”

“ ok fine. I hate this ” I giggle and kiss him.

“ call the others and tell them to come. I’ll be in the living room ”

“ where are we getting married? ”

“ since it’s just going to be our families only then I think we can do it at my father’s house. It has a big
backyard that can accommodate all of us and mbuso please call your brother and tell him to get his ass right
here. ”

“ I will but baby why can’t we just invite our families only then a reverend. I will give you your dream
wedding after the kids are a year old ”

“ my first wedding was a sham, my second wedding will not be the way I had envisioned cause my dad
wants me to get married before the kids are born then you want us to get married tomorrow. Am I ever going
to have the wedding of my dreams mbuso?. ” he’s getting me upset.

“ baby I swear you will. Let’s get married tomorrow then we focus on the traditional wedding and then after
you can go crazy and plan your wedding. You have a year to do all you have ever wanted. The way you
planned it even the dress baby and you hopefully wont be pregnant by then. ” is this man crazy?.
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“ I will not be pregnant by then mbuso. Our kids will still be young. I can’t focus on many things then have to
worry about being pregnant. I’m going to take birth control. ”

“ hell no!. You won’t be taking any birth control!. ” he puts his clothes on.

“ ok then we will use condoms. ”

“ don’t piss me off lungi don’t!. ”

“ then what do you suggest we do?. ”

“ we continue having sex and let nature take it’s course.”

“ fine there’s no arguing with you. ” I am going to take birth control after I give birth. I have to make sure that
he doesn’t find out at least until the kids are 2 or 3 years old.

“ good. ”

“ then let’s talk about something else. ”

“ no!. ”

“ you haven’t even heard what I want us to talk about. ”

“ I know you want us to talk about the prenuptial agreement and the answer is still no!. ”

“ why not mbuso. If anything happens to us God forbid what will we do? ”

“ you and the kids will survive and live a very comfortable life. I made sure of that. I have accounts luh all
over the world with different names should anything happen to me. We can wake up the day after tomorrow
go bankrupt and I would still have money. You would still have money and not worry about anything. I do
understand your fears baby cause we don’t know what could happen tomorrow so here’s what we are going
to do. ”

“ I’m listening. ”

“ what I made before we get married is mine, that applies to you too. The money you have is yours. But from
tomorrow the moment we sign our marriage certificate what ever amount of money we both make is ours. I’ll
ask my lawyers to draw up the papers now and you can ask your cousin to look at them and see if everything
is as we have discussed and legit. Deal? ”

“ deal Mr Gumede. ” we shake hands.

“ I want you to understand that I will not share something with you regarding my work baby. It’s not because
I don’t trust you but it’s because I have to be discreet and I’m also protecting you should anything happen
cause I don’t want you to be in any trouble. Do you accept that?. ”
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“ I do but you must know that I will never tell or betray you mbuso no matter what they can do to me. I will
die protecting my family and I will kill for my family too. ”

“ I know baby and it scares me to death. I think I’m being a bad influence on you. ” I chuckle.

“ it’s in my blood baby. You keep awakening me from the slumber I was in. ”

“ I don’t want you to change. ”

“ and I don’t want you to change too just because you want to impress my family. I’m your ride or die. Your
woman. I’ll stand by you even if everyone turns their back on you. ”

“ Queen of my castle. I fucken love you baby. ”

“ I love you too. Let’s go and plan our wedding. Call your lawyer, zipho and mam Dlamini. I want them all
here. Oh and you better call your mom and aunt. ”

“ so no quickie? . ” I laugh, leave him in our bedroom. I knock on sims door.

“ who is it?. ”

“ It’s me. Come to the living room. We are getting married tomorrow. ” I hear shuffling. I leave and go to the
kitchen, find sis noto about to leave.

“ you are leaving? ”

“ I am sis luh. Do you want something? ”

“ we are getting married tomorrow ”

“ really?, O wow!. I’m so happy for you. I thought you were getting married later ”

“ yeah well mbuso can’t wait. Can you come a little bit early tomorrow to help out with food and stuff. I’ll
pay you double. ”

“ don’t worry about the food we have it covered. I’ll ask some of the maids from the farm and your dads
house to come now so we can prepare. ”

“ really sis nonto?, thank you and tell them they will be paid. ”

“ I will sis. ”

“ here’s your shopping card that you will use to buy the food. The meat we will get in from the farm but I
don’t know cause dad is going to get a fit. I have to call him. ”

“ good luck ” she says giggling. I sit down and call my dad. Here it goes. His phone rings. He picks up
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“ Mangcobo ”

“ sawubona baba unjani? ” ( good afternoon dad, how are you?)

“ I’m good. What is the matter. ”

“ are you home? ”

“ I’m at the farm. Why? ”

“ I wanted to talk to you about something. ”

“ you can talk now. What is troubling you? ”

“ uhm I know that you asked us to get married before I have the baby and we agreed but now… ”

“ now what?, you have changed your mind lungile?. ”

“ I have baba but not like that. ”

“ explain then ” I hear him sighing.

“ I want to get married tomorrow. ” I hold my breath cause I don’t know what he might say and what if he
says no?. I hope he doesn’t say no.

“ you want to get married tomorrow? ”

“ yebo baba. ” yes dad. He laughs. You know the kind of laugh that says ( these kids are crazy) yep that one.

“ oh my child. Are you sure? ”

“ I am dad. I really want to marry him. I know this is not how things are done and I’m sorry. We are not
trying to disrespect you and I would understand if you say no. ”

“ you really want to marry him and spend the rest of life with him? ”

“ I do dad. ”

“ you accept him for who he is and what he is?. ”

“ I love all of him just the way he is and I wouldn’t change anything about him. I wouldn’t change how we
met and how we ended up here right now. Please dad allow me to marry him please. ”

“ if I say no would you still go ahead and marry him? ”

“ I’m sorry to say this but I would dad. I would marry him even if you said no.” I mean it. We would elope
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and get married.

“ I know you would. You have my blessings to marry him. I’m happy for you my child. ”

“ thank you you daddy. ” I smile

“ ok baby. Will there be an isle? Am I still walking you down the isle? ”

“ why don’t you dads come here at our house. ”

“ we are coming. ”

“ tell uncle Victor the good news. I can’t wait to see him. I missed him so much. ”

“ I will baby. I’ll see you later ”

“ thank you dad bye. ” I smile. I’m about to hang up when I hear mbuso’s dad say “ I told you he wasn’t going
to wait that long give me my money. ” I can’t believe they put a bet on us.

“ you would really marry me against your fathers wishes? ” he asks standing behind me. I almost scream.

“ don’t sneak up on me like that mbuso, you know I hate how you move sometimes ” he laughs

“ sorry for scarring you love. ” he kisses my cheek.

“ yes I would marry you even if my father said no. ”

“ I was going to kidnap you if he said no. ”

“ I was thinking that we would elope if he said that. ” we look at each other then bursts into laughter.

“ I called all of them and they are on their way. Percy is coming with mam dlamini. ”

“ I can’t wait for dad to meet her ”

“ baby don’t play matchmaker please. ”

“ I’m not. I just said I’m excited that’s all. ”

“ hmm. ”

“ ok let’s plan this wedding. ” sims say

“ why can’t we get on the internet and find someone. What good does it do to have money and not spend it.
People need jobs and this someone somewhere is looking for this opportunity. ”

“ ok laptops and phones out. The Wi-Fi is free so start workings. The food is already sorted. Where are the
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others? ”

“ you guys are such mood killers. ” says mah looking like she was being ravished hmm.

“ we are here guys ” says Preston. “ you guys are seriously getting married tomorrow? ”

“ yes Preston. Call your people and let’s compare notes. And find a beautique store for all of us. ”

“ I know someone who always has ready made clothes. He can come here. ” sibusiso says.

“ please tell him to bring everything and tell him that the bride is pregnant. ”

“ yes ma’am ” he says.

“ where are we getting married? ”

“ my dad’s house. ”

“ Preston it is lungi's wedding and mine. Ours alone. You are not getting married to me. ” mbuso says,
everyone laughs.

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LUNGI.
Lucky for us we have three different wedding planners that are working rather wonderful together. Each one
of the has their own specific job to do, Preston and sims are making sure of that. I cannot believe everything
is coming together so wonderful at such a short period of time. My dad said we cant slaughter a cow because
the Gumede family have not paid my bride price. Mbuso’s mom couldn’t stop crying when she got here
because one of her kids is finally getting married for real. Well aunt lwethu when started burning the sage all
over the house chasing bad spirits away at our house.
I am happy that they are all excited even though they lectured us about rushing things. According to them they
thought maybe when I’m 8 months pregnant that’s when we will tie the knot but they know their son is very
impatient.
We are now at my parent’s house and what dad did when he came to my house was take me to the farm, to
our grandparents room and burned the sage with bab’ Ngwende as they connected to my ancestors. They also
took me to all their graves including my mom’s. I’m glad my aunt was there with my brother and other aunts
as dad talked to her because I got emotional and started crying but I felt this wonderful sense of peace like
she was there covering me with a blanket in her arms as my aunt hugged me.
We left to my fathers house. When I got there it was crazy, filled with all kinds of people going up and down.
Cars outside the yard and trucks in like it’s crazy. I haven’t seen mbuso since we left our house but I know he
is here around somewhere. Dad instructed me to go my bedroom and not come out until tomorrow of which
is crazy cause we are not having a traditional wedding just a simple white wedding. But what I saw outside
is nothing simple. The planners are doing their best and I know for sure that tomorrow. I’m going to be in
awe. I’m laying in bed when the door opens. It’s my husband to be. I smile “ what are you doing here baby? ”
He doesn’t say anything. He locks the door looks at me and smiles. “ I came to spend some time alone with
you before we get married. How did it go? ”
I wonder if scelo told him I was crying. “ I got a little emotional thinking about everything and how far we
have come in less than a year baby. It’s crazy. ”
The way he looks at me as he sits and turns the TV volume down makes me feel like he is looking deep in my
soul. It’s different and makes my skin breakout in goose bumps. “ you have been through a lot love. We have
been through a lot my love but all of that led us to be here today. There are things I wish I could have done
different love but I can’t cause they happened and I can’t change them ”
Mbuso still carries a lot of guilt for the things he did and I realise now that he hasn’t truly forgiven himself. “
mbuso you need to forgive yourself I have told you this before. What happened is all in the past. You need to
let it go, close that door and throw away the key. I don’t want you regretting anything because that would
mean you regret meeting me. ”
He looks at me like I’m crazy shaking his head. “ no man would regret meeting you baby. I for one have no
regrets love. ” he says claiming my mouth like he hasn’t kissed me in a long time.
“ baby, stop before dad comes in here knocking. I’m pretty sure they know that you are here with me and they
will think that we are probably having sex right now. ” I say giggling.

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Laying on his back facing upwards he signs. He plays with his ring that I got him smiling. “ we are getting
tomorrow and we don’t have rings? ” we laugh.
“ it’s all your fault that we don’t have rings. ” I tell him. He shakes his head. We lay in the bed not saying
anything in comfortable silence, in each other’s arms. His hand on my stomach, another one around my
shoulder. My leg is between his, head on his chest listening to the steady heartbeat in his chest. “in a few
hours time you’ll be Mrs Gumede ”
I can’t remember the last time we laid like this in comfortable silence. I love this feeling, I really do. “ you
have to go baby ” he groans “ I know I don’t want you to leave too. I can’t wait to call you my husband. ”
“ I love you baby. ”
“ I love you too. ” he kisses me again. Kisses my stomach. “ I’ll see you tomorrow love don’t be late. ” I
giggle. “ you are the one who better be there on time. Baby please don’t drink? ” he chuckles. He’s about to
say something when someone holds the door handle and knocks. “ I won’t drink baby I promise. ” he opens
the door and leaves. Sims, Preston and all my cousins get in holding bottles of champagne. They join me in
bed and scream excited that tomorrow I’m getting married. They offer me a glass of non alcoholic
champagne, play music dancing. The moms and aunts join us and it turns out to be a party for all of us in the
bedroom. They share with me how happy they are that I’m finally marrying mbuso, what I mean to them and a
whole of things.
Tears are shared too as I tell them how grateful I am for each and everyone of them. They drink up until aunt
lwethu tells them to stop, they will drink again after the wedding. They understand, leave my room but Sims
stays behind and sleeps with me. “ I knew this day will come for one of us. I knew that one day we will be
happy and get the love we deserve. ” she says slurring.
“ we are going to be sister in-laws I can’t wait. ” I say excited. She giggles like someone is tickling her. “
who would have thought, that we would fall for brothers? ” she says.
She is right cause never in a million years have I ever thought that We would fall for brothers or even get
married to the same family. I hope bonga will one day propose to her. “ I’m glad though that I’m marrying
into a lovely family. Imagine if his mother didn’t like me and hate me? ”
“ I’m scared that she might not like me. ” she says sadly.. I look at her and see that it bothers her. “ did she
say something to you? ”
She shakes her no looking at me. “ no she hasn’t but I have two kids with different baby daddies and bonga
doesn’t have any kids. What if she wants him to be with someone who doesn’t have kids? ”. I take her hand “
she’s a nice woman sis and she knows you. She knows that you are a great mom to your kids, we don’t know
if bonga has said something to her about you guys but you will cross that bridge when you get there. I think
bonga did tell you he lost his kids so I don’t think she can judge you for that.. ”
“ yeah you are right. I hope what we have with bonga will grow into something big. I look up to you guys you
know. You and mbuso are an inspiration and you have been through a lot but everyday your relationship gets
stronger and stronger. Mbuso loves you luh and you are the only woman he sees no one else. He worships the
ground you walk in and will do anything to make you happy and that makes me happy cause I know you will
always be safe and protected. You remember when I said that there is something different about mbuso that
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he is not the man I first met. He is not intense like before? ”
I hated that when she said it but I never told her. “ yeah I remember. ” she drinks again straight from the
bottle then looks at me. “ he wasn’t intense like before because I think he finally found love, you changed him
luh. He isn’t as scary as he was before because when he is with you he is a completely different person. You
tamed mbuso and I’m not saying this because I think I know him no sis. I’m saying this because as we were
helping outside he has this aura of don’t talk to me, I don’t smile and I’m very scary ” she says imitating
mbuso’s voice and I laugh. “ but when he is with you he is easily approachable, smiles, laughs and talks a lot
something he doesn’t do when you are not there, ok maybe with his brothers I don’t know but you get what I
mean. ” I do.
“ he has too toughened you up a lot and I love seeing this don’t mess with me luh person. I wish you the very
best luh, I hope God will bless you with everything you have ever wanted and wish to have. I wish you the
best in your marriage and as you start your family with mbuso. God will watch over you two and always
know that no matter how difficult things get you have a shoulder to cry on cause I’m always going to be here
not going anywhere. But first you talk to God and invite him into your marriage, he is the only third person
allowed in your marriage and no one else. I thank you for not cutting me off from your life when you found
your real family because I was scared that you will not need me. Thank you for everything you have done and
keep doing for us. I’m blessed to have you as my sister and I promise you, no one will break or come
between this bond we have. I love you ”
I wipe tears off sit up, high her tight pouring my love for her. Blood or not sims is my sister and I will always
make sure she lives the life she wants to live with her kids. They are my family too. “ you have always
watched over me and now it’s my turn to take care of you and your kids. I love you so much sis. Thank you
for always being my rock and shoulder to cry on. ” we wipe each other’s tears off then laugh.
We talk all night like we used to until I fall asleep. Someone shakes me a little and I almost think it’s sims
kids but it’s my brother. He smiles, I groan, he laughs “ why did you wake me up though ” I don’t like him
right now. I look at the time and it’s 6 am. “ look at the time scelo ” I say whining. “ get up, I want to take you
somewhere. ”
“ I’m not running away scelo!. I’m marrying mbuso okay!. ” he laughs so deep sims ends up joining him and
they laugh at me. “ you are not a morning person sis. ” he says still laughing.
“ she never was. She was worse when we had to go to school during winter. She was always late. ” sims
say and I remember. We laugh. “ there’s only one person who is missing here. ” my brother says. We get
quiet.
“ he would be so excited right now. He would have woken us up like you did. He would have woken
everyone in the house with so much noise telling everyone who cared to listen that his yellow bone sister is
getting married. ” he would have done exactly that.
“ I miss him you know but I know he’s happy and watching over us from up there ” I tell them they nod. “
where are we going brother? ” He smiles and helps me get up. I’m wearing just my nightie, he gives me my
robe and I put in on and wear my slippers. “ I’m going to pee I’ll be back. ” I go to the bathroom. Do my
business then come back. “ let’s go. ”
“ sims you can come too and join us. ” she shakes her head no and covers herself with a blanket. The house is
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still packed, full with other people I haven’t met. We greet them then get in the car and drive off heading to
the farm. He stops the car, opens my door and I get out. “ what are we doing here? ”
He smiles takes my hand and I follow him as he continues to walk up until we get to this hill or something not
too high for me but with my brothers help I finally stand on top of it and see so much green grass, trees and a
river flowing it looks so beautiful. We go to this tree and I see that he has made a picnic breakfast for us. I
laugh hugging him. “ whoever is going to marry you is going to be the happiest woman. ” he smirks. “ thank
your for preparing this for us. ”
The food laid down has everything. Whoever made this thought of everything and I just want to eat all the
things I’m here cause they look delicious.“ I wanted to take you out for breakfast and talk before you get
married. ” I sit down, he pours me cold apple juice and it tastes great. “ I wanted to talk to you about mbuso.
I know you love him and everything but I want to be sure as your brother that you know what you are getting
yourself into by marrying him. ”
“ brother I know that you are looking out for me as your sister but you shouldn’t worry yourself. Knowing,
living and loving mbuso has taught me many things. He has opened my eyes to see that the life isn’t just
colours of rainbow but also dark and very scary. I know that he has killed people for me but I don’t know
how many. I know that he will do it again if someone threatens my safety or wants to harm his family. He
will always have this dark aura around him cause he is it and I love him just as he is. I will kill for him, take
a bullet for him and make sure that whoever means him harm doesn’t see the light of day. You all killers
sicelo, I’m not going to pretend that I don’t know that side all of you have, that it doesn’t exist. He is mine
and I am his. No one will take him away from me.”
“ I’m glad you know that cause I didn’t want you walking I’m blind. ” he says and that’s a problem. “ you
need to stop deciding what is best for me. My mistakes are mine to learn and grow from them. I know the
will come a time where mbuso will leave this other life behind but for now I am going to support him in
every way. ”
He looks at me with so much respect like maybe he didn’t expect all these things to come out of mouth. “ but
if he hurts you again I won’t hesitate to fight back. ”
I know he won’t and I don’t want that. I don’t know what the future holds for me and him but I’m going to
stress about what if situations. “ I’m going to need all of to step back and let us figure things I’m our
marriage. When we need help we will let you but scelo you have to know that in relationships and marriages
too there are problems that we face and still are going to face. I need you as my brother to be just there for
me and not get involved too much. We don’t fight with each other scelo. We fight with people who want to
fight with the Ngcobo and Gumede family that’s all. ” I’m saying all of these things stuffing my face with
food. “ you have grown up luh, from the time I met you again and now, you have grown so much and mbuso is
rubbing off of you really well cause you need to be tough and strong as mbuso’s wife and not let anything
shake you down. You face it head on and deal with it. ” I nod.
“ I wish you the best sis. I wish mom was here to share this beautiful moment with you. Dad is probably
going to cry his eyes out. ” he says and we laugh. “ mbuso better cry too or I’m going back and walk down
the isle again until he cries. ” we both laugh out loud.

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LUNGI.

When we got back from my breakfast picnic that my brother made for me, the house was in chaos. I so badly
wanted to go to the backyard and see how far they are from finishing but sims and Preston would have none
of that. I went to shower and went to do my make up and hair for almost 4 hours and by the time they were
done I was over it. The photographer and videographer record everything from the moment I stepped in the
house.

Mah came and helped me get in my dress. Whenever she would try to talk tears would just fall down, I told
her I know how she feels, she’s proud, maybe scared but for sure happy for me. We shared along tight hug
then she left. Mbuso’s mom came too with aunt lwethu and they expressed how happy they are that I’m going
to be part of their family and for taming mbuso we laughed. They wished us the best in the journey we are
about to take and then she gave something borrowed which was her tiara that she wore when she got married
to mbuso’s dad. It’s a vintage tiara and I appreciate it very much. I thank her and they left with tears in her
eyes.

I’m standing in front of the mirror watching myself and I look like a completely different person. I have never
seen myself looking this beautiful. The makeup artist Preston found did an amazing job. He didn’t put too
much make up but enhanced my natural beauty. Mbuso won’t know what hit him when I walk down the isle
and he better cry.

Sibusiso is a God sent because the designer he knows from Durban came prepared like he has clothes for
plus size women too and I was so happy because everyone, including the dads got something to wear. He
said he had to pull some strings when he heard that the bride is pregnant to get a dress and Oh my God it is
beautiful and I couldn’t be more happier. I did let the designer who is making my dress that I’m getting
married but he shouldn’t worry cause I am still going to need his services and he understood. I can’t believe
I’m really getting married to the man of my dreams.. I’m finally marrying this man that I love very much.

The girls are all looking amazing with their bridesmaid dresses even Preston but I haven’t seen that men at
all and I’m wondering how they actually look. Sims has been a mess crying non stop making me cry too. She
gave me something blue for me to wear and it is a blue lace garter and it fits me perfectly. We held each
other and cried tears of joy. The make-up artist finally had enough of us crying and kicked sims out. It was so
funny.

Someone knocks on the door. “ Come in ” I say it’s uncle Victor. He looks so handsome with his champagne
suit and cream shirt. He looks at my bridesmaid and they nod, leave to give us some privacy but the
videographer and photographer stay behind. He stands next to me and wipes my tears off gently with his
handkerchief. “ we don’t want Preston to kill is now do we? ” he says and he sounds and looks so emotional.
“ no we don’t. Thank you for being here. ” he smiles takes my hands in his.

“ I am so proud of the woman you have become. Years ago you were just this little baby running around in
front of me but look at you now. All grown up, expecting my grandkid and getting married. I knew this day
would come and I thought I had prepared myself to let you go but now I’m not sure. ” a tear fall down his
cheek.

“ you have been a perfect daughter lungile. You have never given me trouble or well other than that time you
got really drunk and wouldn’t leave the club ” we both laugh. “ but you have been a disciplined child and I
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am proud to call you my daughter. When I told you that time that I knew mbuso is going to choose you I had
hope that you guys would really make it and after everything you have been through you did. You two are
meant for each other and no one can separate you. When you need me always know that I am here and I will
continue to do anything a father does for their kids. Love mbuso, respect him as your husband and the head of
his family. When things get tough you ask for a family meeting and not talk to your friends baby about your
marriage problems. Watch out for your family and make us proud. Stand your ground and let mbuso or
anyone know that they can’t walk all over you. I love you my child and I wish you all the best. ” I hug him
tight.

“ I love you too baba. Thank you for the advise and wise words. Thank you for being there and raising me to
be the woman I am today. My child is going to have three very over protective grandfathers. I hope she’s a
girl to drive all of you crazy. Thank you baba. ” I wipe his tears off smiling, we laugh. “ I’ll see you when
we walk you down the isle. ” he says and kisses my cheek and leaves.

Whew that was so emotional and touching. I’m worried about him though because he was too emotional like
something was wrong with him but maybe it’s just my imagination and he’s really emotional cause I’m
getting married. There’s a knock again and the door opens and wow it’s zipho. The Gumede's last born. “
wow! Wow! Wow!. My brother is going to faint the moment he lays his eyes on you sis luh. You look so
beautiful. I have seen weddings and have been to many but I don’t think I have ever seen a bride as beautiful
as you. I’m lucky to have a sister in-law who’s so very beautiful. ” this one has always been a charmer.

“ thank you zipho, you look so handsome and I bet many women have their eyes on you waiting for you to ask
them out. ” he chuckles smiling. He looks like he’s brothers but you can see that he is a smooth talker and
would charm any girl. “ I have a little something from my brother, he said he hopes this will make up for
what he couldn’t give you today. ” he says. ok what is that?. He fishes for something in his breast pocket and
takes out velvet box. “ what do you have in there? ” I ask him smiling. He chuckles, he looks cute.

“ he said this is something new and he hopes you will love it. He asked me to put it on you if that’s okay. ” I
nod. He opens it and shows me the most beautiful diamond necklace I have ever seen. It has diamonds, a
huge one is in the middle and the small one’s are surrounding it and wow it absolutely breath taking.

“ wow zipho, I love it. Oh my God I can’t believe he got me a diamond necklace and it is so beautiful. This
diamond is huge. ” I tell him. A beautiful woman like you deserves only the finest things in life. Turn around
and let me put it on. ” I turn around and he puts it on me and it is cold as it touches my warm skin. I look at
myself in the mirror and it suits me. Zipho is almost as tall as his brothers but mbuso is taller than the both of
them.

“ pregnancy looks beautiful on you. Our child is treating you really good and I can’t wait to meet him or her .
” zipho though he says looking at me through the mirror. I smile. “ can I touch your stomach and feel it? ” I
nod. He puts his hand and my babies move and he chuckles. “ does it hurts when she does that? ” I giggle. “ a
she?, no she doesn’t . I love it when she or he moves and plays. ” I really do.

“ wow!. This is beautiful. I’m going to spoil her and I really hope it’s a girl so she can drive her dad crazy ”
we both laugh. “ let me go before my brother kills me but before I leave I want to say to you thank you for
bringing change into his life and making him a better brother, a better son and a better man than he was before
you came into his life. Thank you sis lungi.” He says, kisses my cheek and leaves. I stand there looking at my
diamond ring. I’m in awe.
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The only thing now left is something old and I wonder who is going to give it to me and what is it. My dad
comes in with his son following behind and they look very handsome. “ my two favourite men in the whole
wide world. Are you ready to take me down the isle? ” I ask them smiling and dad is looking at me with tears
in his eyes. “ dad please don’t cry. ” he has tears in his eyes.

“ you were this little baby that loved to smile and follow her big brother around wherever he went and it
used to drive him crazy. Then one day our lives changed and I lost all of you then found you again. Whenever
I look at you I still see my little girl but I know you are a grown woman now and sometimes it is hard for me
to accept. ” he stops and takes a deep breath. “ I’ll will always be your little girl baba no matter how old I
get. ” he smiles.

“ no baby. You are a woman who is getting married in a few hours time. I have seen you growing up these
past few months and I am very proud of you lungile. I promise to stand back and let you and mbuso do things
your way, I wont interfere in your marriage until you ask me to. Your brother told me that you feel like we
are getting over involved in your affairs and I agree even though I don’t want to. I always want to protect
because I couldn’t all these years you weren’t here. ”

“ dad what happened we all had no control over it and I don’t want you to feel guilty or feel like you have to
make up for not being in my life. What I need from you both is to spoil and be there for her or him. You will
not miss anything important that involve all the kids I am going to have. Your kids too sicelo, we will not
miss anything. I love the both of you very much and thank you for accepting mbuso as another son of this
family. I need you sicelo to watch him and protect him like he is your brother because I know he will do the
same for you. I will not survive if anything happens to him. I need him in my life. He is the only man I will
always love and need in my life. ”

“ don’t worry sis. Mbuso is my brother and I will not let anything happen to him no matter what. ” I nod. “
we have something for you but we need you to close your eyes.” I close my eyes giggling excited. “ what do
you have for me? ”. I hear shuffling, a door opening and closing then sicelo stands next to me.

“ I wish she was here with us today but I know in spirit she is. I know she would have loved to give you this
herself or maybe something else but I thought you would really love this something old. I took it to your
uncle’s wife cause she’s the best at these things so she can bring some life into it and well your aunt said it
looks beautiful but I don’t know if it will match with your dress. Son help me ” he says. I feel something
being placed over my head and it falls down covering my arms and back. Tears fill my eyes as I realise that
it is my mother’s veil. I’m going to walking down the isle wearing the same veil my mother had when she
married my dad.

“ open your eyes baby and see how beautiful you look. ” my dad says. I open my eyes and see both of them
standing on my sides looking at me at the mirror. My mother’s veil looks beautiful and it almost matches my
cream dress. Tears of joy fall down my cheeks cause I am wearing something old that belongs to my mother
and it makes me feel so much closer to her than I have ever felt. “ thank you baba for giving me this veil that
mom wore. I will cherish this moment for as long as I live and I will pass it down to my kids too when they
get married. I love you guys. ” I say choking up. Dad hugs me and my brother too, I wrap both my hands
around them. “ we love you too baby. I’m sure your groom is waiting for you baby let us not keep you. ”

“ thank you for being the best parent for me baba and I promise I will make you proud and not disappoint
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you. ”. “I know you will baby. The Gumede family is very blessed to have you as their daughter too. You
build that family and make it stronger than it has ever been. ”. “ I will dad. ” they both kiss my cheeks.

The door opens again and it’s my whole family. My uncles, aunts, cousins the whole Ngcobo family is here
with Sims, uncle Victor and Preston too. They get in and close the door. “ stand in the middle baby we have
to pray for you. ” my uncles wife says. I stand in the middle, they form a circle around me and then sing
Joyous Celebration- Unikiwe ” with my aunt leading, she can sing that one. We sing while I’m standing in the
middle with them surrounding me and when the song ends, they stretch their hands to me. We close our eyes
and everyone begins to pray. I feel their love, protection and best wishes.

When we are done praying they all leave, leaving me alone. I look at myself one last time then leave my
father’s bedroom. Sims gives me my beautiful bouquet. We walk until we stop where my dad and uncle
Victor are waiting for me. She walks for a while “ okay dads when the music plays, you walk her down the
isle. ” Preston says. I look at him and he blows me a kiss.

The music plays, they both hold my arms and walk me down the isle but midday uncle Victor stops, we stop
too and I look at him. He kisses my cheek through the veil. “ your dad has it covered from here. ” I nod, look
at my dad and continue to walk. I was looking down the whole time. I look up and my eyes land on mbuso
and he looks like he has just stepped out of a high end fashion shoot. My baby is drop dead gorgeous wearing
his cream or ivory suit I don’t know what colour it is but he looks amazing.

I look at his face and see those beautiful tears falling down his face to his beard. He covers his eyes and his
shoulders shake as he cries. His brother clamps his shoulder comforting him. We stop next to him and he
wipes his tears off and looks at my dad.

“ who gives away this woman to marry this man? ” the reverend asks

“ I do ” my dad says. He gives mbuso my hand. “ love her, protect her and honour her. If you fail to do that or
you feel like you have had enough please bring her back home. You out your hands in her ever again I will
kill you and she will mourn you. Good luck son I wish the both of you the best. ” he says. “ I will make her
very happy mapholoba. ” They hug and my dad leaves.

“ you look beautiful maNgcobo ” I smile.

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MBUSO.

She is and will always be the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on. She looks so beautiful like I’m
seeing her for the very first wife. I can’t believe she is all mine. She gives sims her bouquet, I take her hands
in mine and look at her. These stupid tears won’t stop falling and I don’t care cause they are tears of joy. I
put my hand under her veil, wipe her tears off and she kisses my palm.

“ I knew he was going to touch her ” my mom says so loud we all laugh. She lifts her hand too and wipes my
tears too and I do the same and kiss her soft palm. She flashes me her beautiful smile and I can’t help myself I
grin and wink at her. I hear people cooing, that makes luh blush. I forget sometimes that she can be shy.

“ We are all here today to celebrate the relationship of Lungile Ngcobo and Mbusowezwe Gumede, to be
witnesses and supporters of the commitment they share with one another. Together you are a group of the
most important people in their lives and they have brought you here to publically recognize that you have all
played some special part in the love they share today.” The reverend says. I wonder where they got him
unless he is luh's aunt reverend. but I think money also played a very important role.

“ Marriage gives permanence and structure to a couple’s love. Marriage is telling the person you love that
you are not going anywhere. A good marriage must be built on the foundation of trust and commitment to each
other. Lungi and mbuso do not go to bed and sleep angry with one another. Marriage is about standing
together and facing the world, you forgive each other and forget, you do not hold grudges. Little things matter
in marriage like saying ““ I love you, hold hands, how was your day and I miss you” those titles are very
important and do not take them for granted or each other.” I promise to do that and more. I will show her the
world and bring the world to her as long as I live.

“ The road that has brought Lungi and Mbuso here today has not been easy. It has been filled with challenges
that they we’re not prepared for. But together they stood strong and faced every challenge together as one and
used those experiences to strengthen their love and not weaken it.”

“ Lungi and Mbuso. The vows you are about to make are a way to share your love, trust and commitment to
each other in your own words. Those vows are a way of openly declaring your promises to each other as
well as your family and friends who are here to celebrate this beautiful union.” He says. I wish the reverend
would skip everything and just go to the part of our vows. But I don’t want that because everything has to be
perfect for her. Her second wedding is going to be better and more beautiful than this.

“ Before you declare your vows to one another, I want to hear you confirm that it is indeed your intention to
be married today. Mbusowezwe Gumede do you come here freely and without reservation to give yourself to
Lungile Ngcobo in marriage? If so, answer “I do.”

“ I do.” I tell the reverend. She smiles… my heart.

“ Lungile Ngcobo do you come here freely and without reservation to give yourself to Mbusowezwe Gumede
in marriage? If so, answer “ I do. ”

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“ I do ” she says smiling. They clap hands.

“ Mbuso and Lungi, having heard that it is your intention to be married to each other, I now ask you to
declare your marriage vows. Please face each other and hold hands. Mbuso you will start. ” Finally whew. I
take a deep breath because I feel so emotional.

“ The whole night I was awake thinking about my vows, thinking what am I going to say to you but then I
realised that when it comes to you I don’t have to think. What I want to do with you or say to you comes
naturally. Luh, you know me better than anyone else in this world, you know all my flaws and my
imperfections but somehow you still manage to believe in me. You are my one and only true love. My best
friend and soul mate. I still can’t believe that we are standing here today getting married and I’m the lucky
man who gets to marry you. ” Fuck I’m such a mess. I give her my handkerchief cause she’s crying.

“ nothing will divide us because I know that with your love I will always have strength. Without you my life
has no meaning I promise that each kiss will be filled with love than the last one. I vow to devote my life to
you and always be true. Let us build a home, a life and a family that we have already started to build from
our bonds of true love. Take my heart, love me forever and I will never leave your side. You and I are one. I
never knew that life could be a dream until I met you, I will comfort you, hold you close, prize you above all
others and remain faithful to you all the days of our lives. I love you lungile . I am yours and you can have it
all.” The way she’s looking at me as I say my vows to her?, it feels like she’s hearing me tell her that I love
her for the very first time. She’s a crying mess. I’m sure she wiped off her make up with that handkerchief I
have her.

“ bride say your vows to your groom ” her face is so red from crying, I don’t know is she’s going to be able
to say all of them.

“ what you said baby was beautiful. I love you, I really do. Whenever I am with you I get this feeling that I
cannot describe and it is something I would hate to lose. I vow to always uplift you even when you make me
mad by drinking milk straight from the carton. ” laughter is the only sound we can hear. Even the birds chirp
in laughing. “ I vow to be always honest with you even when it’s hard to hear , I hate that you always leave
the toilet seat up. There is no man in this world like you mbuso and fortunately for me I have the best one.
Sorry dad and uncle victor. ” man I love her vows. I chuckle.

“ all that I have, all that I am, I offer to you in love and in joy. I admire how you act towards your family,
friends and complete strangers. You helped me to grow as a woman, Thank you for boosting myself
confidence, for always reminding me that I am a smart, beautiful woman. You are my true love, my rock and
my peace. I give you my heart and my soul. I promise to cherish you, love you, honour you and respect you. I
promise to also care about you, protect you, comfort you and stay with you for eternity. I promise to submit to
you as my husband, build a warm home for you and our children. In good times or bad times. I will ways be
there as your number one cheerleader even when it’s hard.” She stops and takes a deep breath. I brush her
hands encouraging her to continue.

“ Mbuso my body , my soul and my heart are all yours. Everything that I have and everything that I am
belonged to you long before today. I promise you that I am yours forever. I will follow you anywhere you go
and anywhere you lead me to. Hand in hand. Heart in heart. Side by side. Let’s get on with this so that we can
grow old and grey together!. ” she says the last part very excited. She’s going to be a very hot grandmother
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and by God’s grace I hope I would still be hitting it hard. She blushes like she can read my thoughts.

“ The bride and groom will now exchange rings to symbolize their commitment. A ring is customarily worn
on the ring finger because it is the only finger with the vein running directly to the heart. Your wedding ring
are the outward and visible sign of the inward and invisible bond which already unites you two hearts in
love. Where are your rings groom?. ” I look at luh and she looks embarrassed like really baby.

“ baby you didn’t think I would ask you to marry me without actually giving you a ring did you? ” I ask her
chuckling.

“ I thought we would actually and I was okay with that. ” you see why I love her?!.

“ boys the rings please. ” sims boys come and give the reverend the rings. He takes them and prays for them
with both our hands on the Bible and his hand on top of ours.

“ Mbuso place the ring on Lungis’s finger and repeat after me…” the reverend says.

“ I give you this ring. Wear it with love and joy. As this ring has no end, My love is also forever.” I repeat
after the reverend slipping a diamond ring on her finger. She looks at the ring then at me in awe. I will never
get tired of seeing her looking at me like that.

“ lungi place the ring on mbuso’s finger and repeat after me… ”

“ I give you this ring. Wear it with love and joy. As this ring has no end, My love is also forever.” She slips
my ring that she made for me on my finger. I love that ring and I don’t think I want to change it.

“ May the wedding rings you exchanged today remind you always that you are surrounded by enduring love. I
would like to offer these good wishes to you on your special day. May your life together be filled with
Prosperity and good health. May you cherish the home and family you already have created together may all
the years to come be filled with moments to celebrate life and love. May your love be full of excitement,
contentment, affection, respect, and devotion for one another. And so now by the power vested in me
Reverend S. Mtshali, it is my honour and delight to declare you husband and wife. You may kiss the bride. ”
I look at our friends and family and see how happy they are. I laugh shaking my head. I stretch my fingers, get
down and do five push ups and they laugh at me. I’m getting ready to kiss my wife. My beautiful wife. I get
up, lift up her long veil and see my beautiful wife.

“ ngiyakuthanda mama bantwana bami. ” ( I love you mother of my children.) I bring my face down, pull her
close to me and kiss my wife short and sweet. I don’t want to scar my family plus my aunt would make sure I
never hear the end of it. I kiss her forehead and hug her tight to me. She’s mine. She’s mine.

“ ladies and gentlemen, I am pleased to present the newlyweds. Mr and Mrs Mbuso Gumede! ” We face our
families smiling as they clap, cheer and ululate happily for us.

“ She’s mine!, She’s my wife finally!. We finally did it ” I shout for the whole world to hear.

“ my husband let’s go to the house. We have to go and sign our marriage certificate ” she says raising her
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eyebrow. She has just called me her husband and she’s already telling me what to do. I love it!.

“ lead the way my wife. I can’t wait to say to the guys ’ I’ll have to ask my wife, my wife says no, my wife
is’… ” she laughs a deep belly laugh.

“ can you be serious ” she’s still laughing hard. That’s what I want to see, her happy, tears of joy. I’ll make
sure I make her laugh always. We go to the house, sit down.

“ the terms are still as we discussed right?. ”

“ they are my wife ” she smiles, I grin. I lied and gave her 80 percent of everything I own.

“ can you confirm that? ” she asks her lawyer. He nods. She looks at me, smiles and signs our marriage
certificate and I do the same.

“ guys if you are done can you follow me? ” Sims says after she signs as the witness and bonga too. We get
up and follow her. We go to the lounge and our whole family is there ok what is going on?.

“ get in the middle and kneel down. ” mom says. There’s a cushion for luh to kneel on. I help her down and
kneel too. They form a big circle around us. “ we are going to pray for both of you to ask for blessings and
protection for your marriage. Please pray for yourselves too. Let’s close our eyes. ” I entwine both our hands
together. Lay my chin on her head as she rests her head on my chest.

“ God I know that I am a sinner and a killer and I don’t think I deserve to be under your presence but I’m not
here asking anything for me but for my wife. Help me to love, cherish, respect, adore, and protect her the way
that she deserves. I will lay down my life for her. Please God don’t let me screw up and hurt her but teach
me to be a better husband to her everyday. Please continue to watch over her as you have done before. Thank
you for blessing me with her. Amen. ” I’m done. After a few minutes everyone else is done too.

“ we are going to give you sometime alone. Sims will come and get you guys, go to luh’s room. ” luh’s aunt
says. We nod and go to luh’s bedroom.

“ good afternoon my wife. ” she blushes.

“ my husband ” those words go straight to my heart.

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LUNGI.

“ I love the sound of that coming from your sweet lips love. I can’t believe we are actually married. Holly
shit we fucken did it baby ” I laugh.

“ we are really married for real this time. No fake marriage baby. ”

“ did I tell you how much I love you and proud that you chose me and you get to call me your husband? ”

“ nope I don’t remember but you can tell me again. ”

“ sir down baby, do your feet hurt? ”

“ no I’m wearing sleepers ” I say giggling we sit on the bed.

“ your love humbles me Mrs Gumede. You are one in a million. Your beauty shines from within and it makes
everything around you beautiful like you are. ” he sounds so emotional right now. In brush his face.

“ you make it easy for me to love you. I would do this with you all over again. We are not joined together for
life. ” he smiles.

“ the only thing left now is to get the traditional wedding out the way. ”

“ can we not do that after I’ve given birth to the kids? ”

“ no. The planners are already planning it baby. I want everything done so we can focus on the birth of our
kids. I want to focus on you and nothing else. ”

“ oh God. When did they say they can get it done? ”

“ you’ll have to ask sims, she’s the one handling everything. ”

“ getting married while your pregnant is exhausting. I really have no energy of going through another wedding
but I know we have to do it so since your whole family is her, why don’t you guys start the negotiations
tomorrow cause we are already married. ”

“ wow baby you won’t believe this but we had actually talked about it and decided that tomorrow we will
have the negotiations. ” that is great then.

“ I’m glad then that we are on the same page. ” someone knocks in the door and I think it’s sims.

“ come in. ” sims pokes her head. We get up. I’m so hungry though.

5“ Congratulations you guys!. You finally got married. ” she’s so excited. She hugs me and hugs mbuso too.

“ thank you sims for being there for luh all this time. Thank you ” my husband says.

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“ she’s my sister and I know she would do the same for me too. we are ready for you Mr and Mrs. Gumede
and prepare to be blown.” she say smiling clapping her hands.

We get up and follow her and she takes us to where we are going to shoot our wedding pictures and the
space they created is absolutely beautiful. The family is there waiting for us. We sit pose and do all kinds of
things taking photos with every one. An hour later we are still taking pics and I am so done. It’s hot, the dress
is starting to feel heavy and I am hungry. I try to be patient by thirty minutes later I’m done.

“ ok we have taken thousands of picture and they are enough guys. I’m hungry. Can we go and eat so I can go
and rest.” They laugh.

“ ok guys you see that huge frame tent over there?, please go to it. The bride and groom will follow you just
now. Let’s go guys, come on. ” Preston says. They leave us and after a 10 minutes we follow them.

“ can we skip the reception and go home?. ” they both laugh.

“ that would be rude love. ”

“ is there a program? ” I sims.

“ Preston made sure that there is. ” just great I hope they won’t talk for long.

“ who’s the MC? ” mbuso asks

“ it’s bonga. ” she says. We stand outside the marquee. The music is playing, our families are laughing
enjoying themselves and the food smells absolutely divine. I’m sure. Sis nonto and the other ladies outdone
themselves. Preston sees us and he says something to someone on the ear piece then there’s silence.

“ ok guys, go ahead. ”

We walk and then the curtains open and I am in awe. I am so shocked because I didn’t think this was possible
I’m only just one day. Not even a whole day. I look at my husband and he’s as shocked as I am. They all
stand up and clap for us as Bonga introduces. I look around and it’s like I’m in someone else’s wedding. One
of the planners guides us to out chairs and we sit down. The reverend opens with a prayer then the program
begins. Both our families share their lovely wishes for us, our friends, best man and the maid of honour. We
eat, we share our first dance as husband and wife, with my dad. We cut the cake, feed each other, give the
other to his mom and he gives the other one to mah.

The time to throw the bouquet comes, all the single ladies line up. I check to see if everyone single lady is
there and when I see everyone is there I throw the bouquet then watch and see sims catch it. I really wanted
her to catch it. I sit down and it’s mbuso's turn to take off the garter. He kneels down gets inside my dress and
kisses his way up my leg until he reaches the garter nut he keeps kissing my leg. I’m just glad that his hands
are not there. I don’t know why mbuso does this because he knows I blush easily. I cover my face and they
all laugh.

He grabs it with his mouth and uses his teeth to pull it down my leg and finally emerges from under my dress.
He grins the kisses me. Lifts the garter up and all the guys line up. He throws it but some run away when he
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does and it lands on sibusiso. He’s the one who catches it, he grins then puts it around bonga's head.. Ok. We
all laugh. Bonga goes to sims and kisses her and she gets shy. Sims getting shy, who knew?.

We thank everyone for coming and supporting us in every way. Bonga closes the ceremony with a toast to us
and our friends and family join him. We go to the dance floor and dance for only two songs then me and my
husband leave. They all gather outside forming two lines and we walk between them as they cheer and throw
flowers on us. We get in the car written “ just got married ” with frank as our chaperone. He takes us home
and leaves us there and the gate closes after him then my husband picks me up and I almost scream.

“ what are you doing baby, I’m heavy. ” I ask him giggling.

“ carrying you over the threshold wife. Stealing you from your family and beginning a new life with me as
your husband. ” he says walking to the living room door opening it and closes it with his leg. He walks in
carrying me and continues to walk on until he puts me down on our bed. I sigh cause I missed my bed. I lay
on my side and look at him. He goes to lock up and comes back.

“ I’m going to run us a bath. Don’t sleep baby. ” he says and I laugh. He goes to the bathroom then cones
back. “ get up. ” I do as he says. “ turn around my love. ” I do. He takes off the veil and my head feels loose.
I didn’t realise it was that tight. “ where did you get this veil love? ”

“ dad said it was mom’s. I forgot to ask him where he got it cause I thought everything got burnt. ”

“ maybe it was left here before they moved. ” I think so too

“ I wonder if her dress is here too. I’ll have to ask dad cause if it is too then I want some of it to be included
in my wedding dress. ” he kisses my nape.

“ that would be lovely. You looked beautiful in this one too. ” he unzips my dress and it falls down. He
chuckles.

“ what’s funny my husband ” we both laugh. God I’m tired.

“ I love seeing you in granny panties. ” I turn and poke him lightly. “ I’m serious baby you look hot in them.
Your breasts have grown too and I love them. Can I suckle on them? ”

“ you want to taste breasts milk? ”

“ yeah why not?. It’s healthy and I read it tastes good. ” I laugh.

“ gosh I can’t with you. ” he kneels down and takes my granny panties off. He stands and I help him get out of
his clothes. We go to the bathroom and get in the bathtub. I lay my head on his chest and we stay silent just
listening to our hearts and enjoying the moment.

“ I live being here like this with you. ”

“ I love it too baby. Do you think we are boring? ” I ask him

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“ ngeke baby kungani ushonjalo? ” ( no baby why do you say that?.) We laugh.

“ I mean look at us. It’s our wedding day, we left the party, came home so it can be just the two of us and we
are in the bathtub sitting. ”

“ we are having a precious moment I would rather have that than dance and drink. You are pregnant baby,
you need me and you are still on bed. The times for going out and taking you to dinner, spoiling you like you
deserve will come baby. There’s nothing boring about us. ” he so thoughtful when it comes to me. It's one of
the things I love about him.

“ thank you for this Phakathwayo myeni wami. ” ( thank you my husband. )

“ let’s get out and go rest in bed. ” no wedding sex for us, I mean I’m not complaining cause I really want to
sleep.

“ are we going to have sex boo? ” I ask him smiling.

“ you want me to sex you love? ” I giggle. He gets up, helps me get up too and we get out of the bath. He
dries me and wraps the towel around me then dries himself. I take the tissue oil and bring it with me to the
bedroom.

“ baby? ”

“ yes love?. ” he says pulling the pillows off from the bed.

“ can you bring me a clean town and lay it down on the floor, here in the middle? ” He brings it and lays it
down.

“ lay down baby I’m going to give you a massage. You had a long day and you didn’t sleep at all last night. ”
he grins, this idiot. I change the TV channel and put the radio on and play Radio 2000. I turn the lights to dim
and to give it that romantic atmosphere.

“ I have never gotten a massage before. This will be my first time love and I love the music. ” he chuckles.

“ I hope your first time will be very memorable. Lay on your back baby. ” he lays down and I sit on top of
him. I drizzle the oil all over his back and begin to massage his broad shoulders and his back. My hands
move sleek and softly on his skin. I massage each and every muscle and he relaxes his body groans. I move
down to his cute Shapley buttocks I giggle. I massage them, his hard harry thighs too, legs and feet. The mmm
sounds he makes vibrate from deep within him and they make me wet.

“ turn over baby my love. ” he lays on his back and he’s full erect. “ oh hello there Mr Gumede, you so oh
yummy. ” he laughs.

“ he needs some attention love. ” I smirk. I sit on top of him and my vagina on top of his dick facing up and
over his belly button. I drizzle the oil again, massage his neck, arms, his chest God his chest. I move off a life
so I can be able to massage his stomach, I do so avoiding his dick that is on my face. I get off him completely
and go downward massaging his long legs and feet then move up again and give his proud member some
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attention.

I pull his legs apart and massage his balls. They are so heavy, hard and I want them in my mouth. I leave them
and attend his proud member that’s leaking pre-cum wrapped my hands around it and look at him. He keeps
biting his lips, his eyes are focused on me and his dick gets harder and harder the more I keep jacking him
off. I love seeing him like this letting go and giving me control. I get up, sit on top of him then lift my hips,
take his dick in my hands and ease myself in him taking every inch of him one at a time. We both groan, I lift
my hips up again and go down taking all of him in me God it feels so good.

I begin the tempo slowly of me moving up, down and sideways every way possible. My boobs bounce up
and down and I grind on top of him. He lifts his body up and claims my mouth. He tastes so good like the
glass of while he drank earlier. We kiss hungrily, desperate to feel each other. I want to be inside his skin,
deep in his soul and take over. I push him back to his back and place my hands on his stomach and move my
hips and waist. His dick feels so good buried deep in me. His pubic hair brushing against mine makes my
blood boil. I get up, turn and sheath myself in him again facing away from him so he can get a proper look of
my ass and his dick coming in and out of me. I hold on to his knees and move my hips, ass and bounce on his
dick. I fuck him reverse style and he loves it. He grunts and groans making me shake that ass hard. He spanks
it and curses. He’s loving it.

He grabs my waist and takes over and fucks me that way hitting every nerve in and out of my vagina. I can
feel myself getting ready to cum but I don’t want to. I pull his dick out, turn and take him in me again with me
on top of him. I bounce, grind and make it clap as much as I can with my two babies in me. He grabs my
waist and takes control again and I almost laugh. He flicks my clit once, twice and it’s enough for me to cum,
my pussy muscles contracting all around his dick. Fuck sex is fucken amazing when you’re doing it with
someone you love and they love you back.

He picks me up, takes me to our bed and enters me from the side. We make sweet passionate love as husband
and wife.

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LUNGI.

TWO MONTHS LATER.

The last two months have been hectic for us after the wedding cause the next day they held the negotiations
and my family accepted the lobola money. I have no idea how much they asked for my hand in marriage but it
made me happy that everything went well. The next week we had our traditional wedding and I must say it
was the longest day of my life. By the time we were done I was over and done with it cause I was exhausted
so you can now call me Mrs Gumede officially traditionally.

Our wedding was really beautiful and seeing mbuso doing his traditional dance was the icing on the cake and
on being smeared with the bile and tasting it even though it is bitter and almost made me vomit but other than
that everything was just a perfect priceless beautiful moment. There were so many people in our wedding, it
was crazy. I have no idea who invited them but the gifts we received were crazy. Well I did my new bride
duties at his parents house for a week. Well I wouldn’t call it my “ Makoti ” duties cause all I did was just
make them tea and sandwiches. My in-laws didn’t want me to do anything but I did help out in the house
when they were not around. I am lucky that I married into a good family cause most people don’t get to have
that kind of experience.

I’m 7 months pregnant now and well the secret is out that we are having twins cause Preston blabbermouth
told everyone when we were having lunch and mbuso almost killed him literally. I don’t know if it’s the
wine he was drinking or maybe he doesn’t know how to keep things to himself. It made me worried that if he
can’t keep such a small thing to himself then what about the other things he has heard and maybe saw in this
family?. I hope we won’t regret welcoming him into our family. I wonder if mbuso knows where Preston
comes from and why he’s really distanced from his family. .

“ sis luh?, the security says there are cops outside the gate. ” nonto says. Cops?, why are they here and what
do they want?.

“ did he call my husband and let him know?”

“ I don’t know. I can ask him though ”

“ uhm I’ll him nonto, tell him to let the police in. We don’t want to keep them waiting ”

“ ok sis luh. ” I call mbuso.

“ lovey, baby, sweetie, my beautiful wife. Miss me already? ” I giggle

“ I saw you in the morning baby. Mbuso there are cops outside. ”

“ what?, what do they want? ” his tone changes.

“ I don’t know. I told nonto to let them in cause we don’t want to keep them waiting. Where are you? ”

“ you did good. Let them in but don’t say anything. I’ll be there in ten minutes. ”
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“ ok. ” I hang up. I wonder what could the police want.

“ sis luh here they are. ” she says behind me.

“ please take a sea…” I say getting up and turning but I don’t get to finish cause I’m shocked as I see the
person in front of me. What the hell?.

“ Paul? ” that’s my ex Paul f rom standerton. He’s a cop. He’s with his partner Dumisani. What are they
doing here?.

“ hello lungi, wow you’re pregnant? ” he says looking at me shocked then he surprises me and hugs me. I
stand there awkward. I don’t return his hug.

“ what are you doing here? ” I ask him and he looks at me and smiles.

“ we are here to ask you some questions. ” says Dumisani.

“ you can sit down. Questions about what cause I don’t live in Standerton anymore? ” they sit.

“ about your parents and sister. ” what the hell!.

“ they are not my parents. What happened? ”

“ they are missing. All three of them are missing and no one has seen them in months. The last time we saw
buhle was at your brothers funeral with some strange men and your parents were not there ”

“ I told you they are not my parents!. ”

“ Lungi what…. ”

“ that’s Mrs Gumede to you not lungi. ” I’ll never get used to him doing that. He is followed in by my brother
and father. Paul and Dumisani stand up.

“ Mr Gumede, Mr Ngcobo, Mr Ngcobo junior. I’m detective Nkabinde and this is my partner detective
Hlongwane. ” he knows my family so what is Paul playing at?.

“ sit down. What can we help you with? ” he sits next to me. My dad sits next to Paul and sicelo sits next to
dumisane. They are caging them in. Dumisane looks at them nervously.

“ Mr Gumede we are here to ask your wife about her parents. ”

“ they are not my parents Paul!, how many times must I tell you that? ” my husband looks at me then looks at
them.

“ which one of you is Paul? ”

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“ I am Paul Nkabinde. I guess she told you about me? ” this fool laughs. Does he know who mbuso is?.

“ I am her father. Her only parent. Those people are not her parents. ”

“ we know that you are her father but we can’t ignore the fact that she used to live with the mazibuko's and
they were her parents. We have some questions to ask her. ”

“ ask then what are you busy wasting our time? ”

“ luh.. Mrs Gumede when was the last time you saw Mr mazibuko’s and his wife. ”

“ I last saw them when they married me off to my husband here. That’s the last time I saw them or talked to
them. Why are you asking me about them? ”

“ we are the one’s asking the questions here not you lungi. ”

“ this is her house, she will ask whatever questions she wants to ask if you want answers to your questions
too. Mrs Gumede.”

“ ok Mr gumede. Mrs Gumede when did you last see your… u buhle? ” Dumisani asks

“ I saw her at the funeral. We didn’t talk cause she left with the man she came with and no I don’t know that
man or have seen him anywhere else before. ”

“ why didn’t you ask victor about his brother and decided to come here? ”

“ we came here because victor doesn’t know anything. We did ask him questions and he doesn’t know the
whereabouts of his brother and his wife. ”

“ and you thought my sister would know? ”

“ we doing an investigation here cause his mother reported him missing. Last week and we have been
investigating, people don’t just leave everything. Their jobs, house and cars and family then disappear.
Something happened and buhle's behaviour at the funeral was very strange.”

“ well as she told you she doesn’t know where they are. Is that all? ” mbuso says.

“ actually that’s not all. Do you know where they are Mr Gumede? ” what? Dumisani asks him.

“ why would I know where they are? ”

“ Mr Gumede ever since you came into lungi’s life many strange things have been happening with the
mazibuko’s. Things that make no sense. ”

“ things like what detective Nkabinde? ” I ask him

“ like thami's death. Then the disappearance of the mazibuko’s family. Everyone is missing, one is dead but
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the only person who is still around is you lungi. ” Paul says.

“ what the hell are you trying to say?. ” I ask Paul. This fucker.

“ it seems like someone is getting rid of people from your past. They want to eliminate that part of your life
like it never existed.”

“ someone like who Nkabinde? ” he is pissing me off.

“ it could be your husband or your new found family. ”

“ that’s enough. She has answered your questions but I will not let you accuse us of doing somethings to
people we have no idea of where they are. If you have any questions you will send them to our lawyer. ”

“ we are still investigating Mr Gumede and we will find the truth. We will be back. ” he says then they get
up, Paul looks at me and then leave.

“ where are they baba? ”

“ who baby? ”

“ Uthuli nosipho, nonibuhle? ” they get silent. I look at mbuso and he sighs.

“ they are dead love. ” I’m not shocked. I expected that.

“ u buhle? ”

“ she’s dead too. ”

“ I can’t believe all of you. I thought I asked you to not kill them until I give birth baba. ”

“ we couldn’t take the risk of keeping them alive until you give birth baby cause we they were liabilities.
They had to die. ” my husband says.

“ well did you at least record everything like I asked you? ” I ask him.

“ us recording would mean there is proof of us killing them. We don’t leave any evidence luh, you know that.
” mbuso says

“ did she really have to die though? ”

“ she was lost cause baby. We had to. ” my dad says.

“ I guess it doesn’t matter now. ” I feel hurt though that she’s dead. I still had hope for her.

“ what did you do with their bodies? ”

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“ we buried buhle in Standerton. ” sicelo answers

“ did she die quick and painless? ”

“ we made sure baby. ” my dad says.

“ the other two bodies? ”

“ Luh you don’t need to know that. ”

“ dad the police were here and they are investigating all of us. It’s not just me and mbuso. They are
investigating all of us. What if next time they come with a search warrant for the farm. Will they find anything
suspicious? ”

“ they won’t luh. I promise you. ” sicelo says.

“ where are their bodies then? ”

“ we burned them and got rid of any trace. ” mbuso answers

“ why didn’t you just kill them then leave their bodies somewhere for someone to find baba?. Cause now
they are suspecting us. ”

“ we didn’t think of that. ”

“ you didn’t cause you hid things from me. I know I’m pregnant baba but that doesn’t mean you should hide
something’s from me. You need to find two bodies that were involved in an accident or fire, unrecognizable
and plant their DNA so they will think it’s them. I have no idea where are you going to find their DNA. ”
mbuso looks at me speechless.

“ I know someone that might help us with that. ” my brother says.

“ I’ll find the bodies. ” mbuso says.

“ no you won’t. Dad and sicelo will fix this. I need you here with me. ”

“ I’m sorry baby. I know you still loved her and wanted her to be better and you didn’t get the answers you
wanted from her. I’m sorry we took that away from you. ”

“ I’m hurt mbuso. It hurts me to know that she’s really dead. She was once a good person and she loved me.
Something changed and made her different. But she’s at a better place now. ” he holds me.

“ she is healing baby. But she left something behind. ”

“ what is it? ”

“ a child. He’s 12 years old and he lives with another family. Victor has met him and they are building a
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relationship. ”

“ I would like to meet him too. Who’s his father? ” they look at each other.

“ we don’t know. ” my dad says.

“ no you know. Tell me. ”

“ sipho is his father. ”

“ oh my God he raped her?!. No wonder buhle was this messed up. ”

“ she said they were in a relationship. ”

“ they weren’t in a relationship. Buhle used to cry when she was alone with sipho. I was little and so I
thought sipho was punishing her cause she did something wrong. He would take her to their bedroom and
lock the door then after I would hear her crying. I would ask her then she would sometimes say I will know
too some day that’s why I never caused any trouble cause it scared me to think sipho would punish me like he
punished buhle. ” I wipe my tears.

“ did he ever touch you in way that would make you feel scared. ”

“ mbuso man what the fuck!. ” sicelo says getting up. I look at my dad.

“ no I don’t remember, I don’t think he has or I would have known and told uncle Victor. ” I look at my dad
and he sighs.

“ he’s dead now. He won’t hurt anyone else ever again. ”

“ are you going to be okay? ” dad asks me.

“ I will be once Paul and his partner get off our backs. Deal with him. ”

“ we will. Son let’s go. We will see you later. ” I hug him and hug my brother then they leave.

“ you want anything? ” he asks me

“ no boo. ”

“ are you mad at me that I hid this from you. ”

“ a little but I know that you would have told me some time. I knew that day that something bad happened
when you came back and I asked if you are okay and you said yes. I think I knew that they were dead cause
whenever you go take care of someone you come back sleeping that smell. ”

“ I love how you know me. I don’t even have to say anything to you and say I’m not okay. You just know. ”

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“ like how you know me. ” he kisses me.

“ let’s go cuddle then. ”

“ let’s cuddle here on the couch ”

“ I don’t want to get a boner in front of sis nonto love. Let’s go to our bedroom. ” I giggle. We go to our
bedroom

“ I’m not having sex with you while sis nonto is in the house. ”

“ she knows you are pregnant and loves sex. ” we lay on the bed and face each other.

“ can I tell you something? ”

“ you sound serious baby. ” it is.

“ promise me you will not to look at me differently. ” I’ve been keeping this to myself and or scares me to
tell him about it.

“ you know all the things I do love and you have never looked at me differently. What you tell me would
never make me love you less, respect you less or adore you even less. ” he palms my cheek.

“ I think I was six or seven when sipho would bath me he would finger me. It used to hurt and he would tell
me not to tell anyone or else he would take me somewhere and leave me alone to be eaten by a lion then he
would make me play with his dick until it got hard. It used to scare me and I didn’t know what was
happening. ” I say shaking my head.

“ I’m so sorry baby. I’m sorry for everything he did to you. I wish I can kill him over and over again. ” he
brushes my stomach.

“ I can’t remember when it stopped but it did after a few months. He never touched me again ”

“ I’ll kill anyone who ever tries to touch you or our kids like that. No one would ever hurt you again. ” I
believe him.

“ I know you my love. ”

“ so that’s your ex? ” he says laughing, I laugh too

“ he is ”

“ I can’t believe you dated that skinny guy ” he laughs

“ I was young ok ” we laugh.

“ but you upgraded baby, I mean look at me ” I laugh.


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“ damn right I did. ” we laugh. “ can we keep this between us what I told you. I don’t want my family to
know. ”

“ you don’t have to ask me baby. Your my wife, my responsibility. I think you should talk to something
though. ”

“ I think so too. ”

“ I’ll find you a good therapist. ”

“ ok love. ” he entwines our hands and we look at each other. I love him.

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SICELO.

Seeing my sister getting married to the man she loves was the best day of my life. She is happy with him and
they both love each other. I know I don’t have to worry about her cause I know mbuso will move heaven and
earth to make her happy and she will do the same.

“ where are you going to get someone who will help us with their DNA? ” my dad asks as we leave their
house.

“ we have to call victor and let him know that those detectives were here and he must go to their house and
give us anything that has their DNA. I’ll send one of the guys to go collect it cause I have to go to Durban to
talk to the guy who will help us. ”

“ ok son. I just wonder why victor didn’t call and let me know that his mother reported sipho missing. ”

“ Or the guy could be lying dad. Do you know he is luh's ex boyfriend? ” I laugj

“ he is?, which one? ”

“ the skinny one ” we both laugh.

“ that boy has a death wish, going to mbuso’s house like that?. ”

“ I know. ” we arrive home

“ I’m going to call Alex in Newcastle and tell him to watch out for those detectives in case they show up
there and start asking questions. ”

“ ok dad I’m going to pack up then leave. ”

“ are you okay son? Ever since ngwende told you all those things you’ve been different. ”

“ it opened my eyes dad, that I can’t live my life like a bachelor forever. I have to have my own family and
seeing luh and mbuso get married made me long for that kind of love too.”

“ don’t put too much pressure on yourself son. You will meet her ”

“ thanks dad, let me go and pack so I can leave. ” he pats my back then leaves. I go to my bedroom and
begging to pack. I take the bags to my car

“ I have phoned victor and he says that police man is lying. No one came to mask him any questions and his
family didn’t report sipho missing. ”

“ then what are they playing at?. ” I ask hin

“ he said he will get to the bottom of it and he will send someone here today to bring things that will have
their DNA. ”
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“ ok dad. Let me go then. ”

“ drive safe son and call me when you get home. ” my dad says.

“ I will. ” I hug him then get in the car and drive off..

Since everything is almost back to normal I have to focus on finishing building mbuso’s company with bonga
then focus on my company. This year a lot has happened and I’m glad that most of the things are over and we
can now all move and focus on our lives but then those detectives just came out of nowhere unless someone
is feeding them information.

I call zama and see how she’s doing cause I’m still keeping taps on her. I know she bought a house in Joburg
and a car like I told her. She still does as she’s told. It rings. “ sawubona mapholoba ” ( hello) I chuckle.

“ maShenge unjani sthandwa sam? ” she laughs. ( how are you my love? )

“ ngiyaphila sthandwa sam wena? ” ( I’m good my love and yourself? )

“ I’m good too. ” she sighs.

“ You don’t sound like you are fine? ”

“ just thinking a lot I guess. How are things going? ”

“ things are going great. I bought a house and a car and I think you already know that. My family lives here
with me, I relocated them ” I chuckle..

“ I’m happy to hear that. Is everything okay?, do you need anything else? ”

“ I’m graduating next year so don’t worry about me. But I’m struggling to find a job here.. It’s not as easy as I
thought. ”

“ Zama I told you to let me know if you need anything from me. Do you still have money? ” I don’t want her
to struggle not when I can help her.

“ I do have enough money to take care of everyone sicelo stop worrying. I just need a job cause you know
I’m still going to study part time. ”

“ give me a week and I’ll have something for you. Other than that are you okay? ”

“ I am mapholoba and thank you very much for everything. ”

“ I’m just looking out for my homegirl ” we laugh.

“ Thanks homeboy. How is your sister doing cause I saw her traditional wedding pictures on her Instagram
and she looked so beautiful sicelo wow. ” I chuckle
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“ it was a beautiful ceremony, she’s great and she’s waiting to give birth. ”

“ I will call her and send my congratulations. ”

“ she would really like that. ”

“ thanks for calling and checking out on me. ”

“ remember I’m just a phone call away. ”

“ I know that. I’ll wait for your call then ”

“ Ok maShenge. We’ll talk later then. ”

“ bye ” I hang up. She sounds happy and good and that’s what I was hoping. I think about ayanda and I know
she’s getting the help she needs from the hospital. I call one of my guys.

“ boss? ”

“ did I not ask you to find tshepo for me? ”

“ you did boss but then Celeste told us to drop it ”

“ do you work for me or for Celeste? ”

“ For you boss. ”

“ then find me that guy!. ” I hang up. Damn Celeste.

In two and half hours I’m in Durban. I go straight to my house cause I want to relax and call the guy to
prepare a meeting with him. My guys let me in but they look nervous.. I drive in and see many cars parked
inside my yard. What the hell is going on here!.

I find space and park my car. I get out and go to the front door, open it and see many different woman of all
shapes , sizes and skin colour. I stand there and look at them and they are having a party. In my house, it
smells of alcohol and cigarette and I don’t even smoke. I look around and I don’t see Celeste. I am the only
man here so this must be a lesbian party or something. I walk between bodies and find the sound system.

I take the remote and switch it off and they all make noise and some look at me like who invited this man.

“ hey! Hey! Hey!, I told you guys not touch the sound system!. ” Celeste yells from somewhere and sounds
like she’s running towards me and when she sees me she stops and looks at me shocked. Even though I’m
taller than all these women here, I stand on top of my coffee table.

“ If you know that you don’t live here please Get. The. Fuck. Out. Of. My. House. Now!!!! ” I shout and they
look at me like this man is crazy!.
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“ boss? ” Celeste says. These women think I’m playing. Ok!. I pull out my gun and cork it and when they see
it they all go out running.

“ but boss?! ”

“ I’ll deal with you later!. When I come back I better find my whole house clean and spotless or else you will
know me!. ” I get off the table and leave the house. I get in my car and I drive off until I find myself at the
beach. I park my car and walk to the beach and sit down. I think I’ll stay until the sunsets.

I close my eyes and listen to the waves and feel the sea breeze on my skin. I’m glad I’m wearing shorts cause
it is hot. I take off my running shoes and feel the sand between my toes. I close my eyes and just feel the
breeze when I hear this soft voice that keeps laughing. It stops and laughs again. I open my eyes and look at
the ocean and there are people there playing but the voice doesn’t come from there. It laughs again and I wear
my shoes, stand up and follow her laughter. I walk about few metres when I see her cause she’s laughing
again. I sit down and watch her as she plays with her kids. They are playing soccer one is a girl and the other
is a boy and they look like they are 7 and 8 years old. They are all playing, passing the ball to each other,
laughing and they sound so happy.

I find myself smiling looking at them and wanting to join them. She’s wearing a long floral dress that’s
covering her body and it fits her well. She’s a full figured woman and has a beautiful waistline. She has
dreadlocks, nice. They stop playing. She opens her bag and takes out a towel and she lays it down and they
all sit on it with her in the middle..

She looks for something and takes out a chocolate and shares it between the three of them and the kids look
so happy. They eat it while watching the sunset and I’m watching them. She wraps her hands around both of
them and brings them closer to her chest and they lay their heads in her chest. This is beautiful.

I look at her face and see that she’s looking at me fuck!. My hearts beats so fast I quickly look away but
something pulls me to look at her again and I do. She is getting up and packing her towel. I quickly get up
and go to them.

“ Mr you have been watching us from the moment you got here and you are beginning to scare me. ” she
really sounds scared. She does have a lovely voice.

“ I’m sorry I didn’t mean to scare you. ” she ignores me and takes her kids hands and they walk away. I
follow them. “ can I talk to you please?. ”

“ no!. Please leave us!. ”

“ let me take you back to your hotel cause it is not safe right now. It’s about to be dark and you don’t want to
be alone with the kids on the streets. ” I tell her. Well it is not safe.

“ sir please you are scarring my children. Lease us alone. ”

“ lady let me walk you to your hotel and I promise after I see that you are all safe I will leave you alone
cause I won’t forgive myself if anything happens to you. ”
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“ why do you care? ”

“ I care because they need you and you need them. ” she stops and looks at me.

“ ok but no funny business. ” I chuckle.

“ no funny business. Lead the way. ” I walk beside the little girl. “ so can I ask what your name is? ”

“ you don’t need my name, you are just walking us. ” ohk.

“ mama we didn’t greet uncle. ” the boy says. I smile.

“ He’s not uncle, he’s a stranger. ”

“ but you are talking to him and you always tell us that we must greet adults. ”

“ and I taught you not to talk to strangers too kagiso ” the boy looks at me then looks down.

“ my name is kamohelo ” says the little girl with her front two teeth missing. We stop walking and I smile and
crouch down to her level.

“ hello kamohelo my name is uncle Sicelo ” she smiles, she’s adorable.

“ mine is kagiso uncle ” they are cute.

“ how are you champ? ”

“ I’m good uncle. Mom tell him your name. ” she smiles shaking her head and I laugh. I get up and look at
her.

“ well are you going to tell me your name ? ”


“ nope. ”

“ I guess I’ll call you mom then ” she laughs I love her laugh.

“ please don’t!. ”

“ tell me then. ”

“ fine. I am lesego. ” I smile.

“ beautiful name. So our kids are all going to have sotho names?. ” she walks on and laughs. I join them and
kamo holds my hand. I look at her and she smiles. This is big cause if kids don’t like you they don’t and you
will know cause they don’t pretend. Her holding my hand means a lot to me. Cause it shows trust and
acceptance.

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We walk until she stops outside this hotel and it looks dodgy. I don’t like this place. “ we are booked here.
So thank you for walking us. ”

“ let me at least walk you to your door cause this place looks dodgy. ”

“ I know. It’s nothing like how it was on their website but I can’t do anything cause I have already paid the
money. ”

“ let’s go. ” We get inside and this place looks like prostitutes live here and that means drugs and different
men come here. We get in the elevator and there are people inside. I pick up kamo and put kagiso in front of
me. It stops on the second floor and the smell of cigarettes and alcohol is very strong. She goes to her room,
unlocks the door and we get in and it’s even worse. I look at the door and it looks like it doesn’t lock from
the inside. I put kamo down and go to the bathroom and it’s okay but not fit for kids. I look at the windows
and some are broke covered with plastic. And the bed looks old and worn out.

“ how many nights have you slept here. ” she’s looking at her suitcase

“ we got here today. I think someone went through our things. ”

“ did they take anything? ”

“ Uhmm no, but I didn’t leave our things like this. ” I switch the tv on and look for a cartoon channel and
okay it for the kids.

“ kids go and watch TV, I want to talk to your mom. ” they go and sit on the bed. I pull her away from them. “
I know you have just met me and you don’t trust me or know me but lesego please!. You can’t sleep here with
the kids. The door doesn’t lock from the inside, look at the bathroom and someone was here and went through
your things. This place is not safe for you and your kids.”

“ I know that.. I don’t have enough money to book is into another hotel. I asked for a refund and they told me I
can’t get it back cause I had already paid and agreed to the conditions. ” she sighs.

“ let me take you and the kids to my place. You will be safe there I swear to you. I’m not a criminal and I
will not do anything dodgy to you. I can give you my family’s phone numbers and you can call them and ask
them anything you want. ”

“ honestly I was scared to sleep here with my kids. ”

“ then let me take you to my place. You’ll stay there and you’ll be safe. ”

“ your wife won’t mind? ”

“ I don’t have a wife or girlfriend. I have a woman who works for me and she’s a lesbian and I found her
having a party in my house without letting me know. I told her when I come back I better find my house clean.

“ does she live with you?. ”


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“ hell no. ” she laughs.

“ I choose to trust you Sicelo don’t make me regret it. ”

“ I promise you, you won’t. ” She packs some of the things that were on the bed then I help her carry the bag.

“ kids we are going to go with uncle Sicelo to his place. We are not going to sleep here. ”

“ but mom you said he’s a stranger? ”

“ he’s not a stranger anymore. He’s a good uncle who’s helping us okay? ”

“ okay mommy ” they are so well mannered.

“ is there a tv in your house uncle? ” I laugh

“ there is a big one.. You’ll watch all the cartoons you want to watch ”

“ can I play with my ball outside the street? ”

“ you’ll play in the backyard. Let’s go guys. ” l pick up kamo and take the bag. Lesego takes kagiso’s hand
and we leave locking the door. She looks at me and I wink at her. We checkout of the hotel and we walk to
my car for like 15 minutes.

“ wow mama such a big car!. A BMW mama yoh ” kagiso says and we laugh. I put kamo in the backseat and
put the safety belt on and do the same to kagiso. I out their bag in the boot then open the door for lesego.

“ after you madam ”

“ thank you ” she gets in. I walk to the drivers side, get in then drive to my place.

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SICELO.

I’m in my office, going through some papers when someone knocks on the door. “ come in ” I tell them.

“ my boss, how is it? ”

“ good Celeste, you are early today? ”

“ I’m working boss ” she takes a seat and she’s carrying a big envelope. Has she already found out
information about Preston. I lean back on my seat and fold my arms on my chest.

“ what is inside there? ”

“ Oh this?, your dads man was just here now. He said this is from your dad and you would know what to do
with it. ”

“ thanks Celeste. ” I take the envelope from her and put it in my safe. “ have you found tshepo and what about
Preston? ” she shakes her head.

“ I haven’t boss. There’s nothing about him other than he owns his surgery and he’s a doctor. ” she’s huffs
frustrated. “ but I’m still investigating. ”

“ I don’t think he’s originally from Ladysmith, maybe he’s from surrounding areas here in KZN or Joburg, but
we need mbuso on this to find information about him. “ he’s the only who can find who really preston is.

“ you think that’s a good idea? ”

“ for luh's safety and all of us it is. Let’s go and make them breakfast before they wake up. ”

“ oh our new bride is awake and she’s making us breakfast. She thought you might still be sleeping and my
guess is she wanted to serve you breakfast in bed.” She wiggles her eyebrows.

“ I’m not entertaining your nonsense Celeste. ” the smell of bacon hits my nose and my stomach grumbles. We
get in the kitchen and the first thing I see is her beautiful behind and fuck me cause my dick instantly gets
hard. She’s busy stirring something in the bowl and her ass keeps jiggling. If I had to spank it, it will jiggle
and wiggle nice on my hands and also when I am fucking her from behind. It’s the T-shirt she’s wearing
that’s has a knot on the back exposing her skin and those damn leggings she’s wearing cause they fit her
perfectly that are making me hard.

I turn making sure Celeste doesn’t see me and fix my hard on. I go around the kitchen island, stand behind her
and cage her in. She freezes and her breathing changes because I can see the pulse on her neck and the deep
breaths she’s taking. I move my head down to her ear “ good morning baby ” I whisper in her ear and she
swallows air. I kiss her cheek and I think I heard her moan. “ aren’t you going to say good morning too? ” I
look at her hands as she grips the bowl tight.

“ good morning sicelo, did you sleep well? ” she says with her sweet honey dripping voice. I really want to
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taste that honey dripping out from her voice.

“ turn around and look at me.” I tell her.

“ I can’t cause you have caged me in. ”

“ am I making you feel uncomfortable? ” I kiss her nape. She furiously shakes her head. “ then turn and look
at me lesego. ” she turns and her ass makes contact with my dick. I know she felt that. Her breasts are
touching my chest and she’s blushing beautifully. “ you look so beautiful when you blush. ”

“ Thank you ” she says biting her lip.

“ look at me. ” she lifts her eyes and they land on my mouth first then eyes. She licks her lips and bits her
bottom lip. “ stop doing that. Biting your lip. ”

“ why? ” she asks. I move my body closer to her so she can now really feel what is happening on my body.
Her breath hitches and her mouth opens and forms an O. Oh fuck this!. I claim her mouth, kiss her and taste
that honey that drips on her sweet lips when she talks or laughs. She tastes really good. She puts her hands on
my T-shirt and fists it pulling me to her. I go deep on the kiss and she moans in my mouth fuck me!. I lift her
up and put her on the kitchen counter not breaking the kiss and she wraps her legs around my waist “ waiiiiiit
you guys!!!. I’m still here. You are not going to have sex in front of me and in the kitchen where the kids can
walk in and catch you two like this!. ” oh fucken hell!. I totally forgot about Celeste being here in the kitchen.
We stop kissing and she’s breathless. I can see her nipples through her T-shirt. She is not wearing a bra. She
blushes furiously and hides her face on my neck, I chuckle and plant a kiss on her hair. “ you look so
beautiful when you blush. It makes me wonder where else in your body are you blushing. ” she laughs.

“ I’m wet sicelo ” she whispers then giggle. Oh fuck why did she tell me that.

“ I am so hard right now cause I can smell your arousal, the feel of your body and the sweet kisses you give
me. I want to fuck you so hard right now and lose myself in you and make you feel like you took ecstasy
cause you will be so high and lost in our love making. Will you let me touch you and do things to you? ” she
looks at me and nods.

“ yes ” she says. I kiss her lightly.

“ go wipe that wetness between your legs and while you’re doing that imagine it’s mouth wiping all that
sweet wetness. Do you touch yourself when you are alone? ” she blushes again.

“ I do but not always. ”

“ when you get in the bathroom you will touch yourself and think that’s it’s me. You will imagine all the
things you think I will do to you until you make yourself cum. Later you are going to tell me what you thought
about when you were touching yourself and it better be good cause that’s the last time you are ever going to
touch yourself while I’m not there. Do you understand? ”

“ I do. ” she says whispering. “ but what about you and your situation? ” she calls my horny dick a situation?.
I chuckle.
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“ don’t worry about it. I’ll just look at Celeste and my situation will resolve itself. ” she laughs at my
answer. “ go, the kids will be awake at any minute now. ” this time she surprises me cause she takes my face
between her hands and kisses me hard then she jumps off the counter and runs to the bedroom.

“ I would tap that ass at any moment if she was bating for my team. ”

“ get your own damn girl ” she laughs.

“ she is hot though. 2 kids and she looks like that? Man I don’t blame you for wanting to fuck that hot mama
right here and now. ” she sighs and I chuckle.

“ make some food and stop talking about my woman. ” yeah she is. Celeste laughs.

“ I like her for you. From what I have seen and observed, she’s a great mother and you Mr ngcobo are great
uncle to them. Those kids are really taken by you. You would make a great dad sicelo. ” that means a lot.

“ thanks my right hand woman. ” we both laugh.

“ good morning uncle. Good morning aunty.” the kids say.

“ hey kids.” Celeste says drinking her coffee. I turn around and look at them. They have already bathed but
they still look sleepy or tired. I go to them and crouch down to their level.

“ morning princess ” I hug her she giggles. “ morning champ ” I hug him too and we do a fist bump. I look at
their mother and wink at her. She smiles. “ why did you wake up so early? ” I ask them. I sit them on the
chairs. They are way too high and they are not safe for the kids. I have to change them.

“ we were already awake when mom came to the bedroom uncle. ” kagiso says. Lesego continues to make
breakfast.

“ ok. So what are we doing today? ” I ask them.

“ Can we go to Shaka Marine and then swim and then watch movies? ” they are going to be tired by the time
we watch movies. Kagiso says and his sister nods.

“ mom what are we doing today? ” I ask her.

“ Don’t you have to go to work? ”

“ no I don’t. Are you getting rid of me? ”

“ I’m not. I don’t want to keep you from doing things and baby sit us. ” she plates for all of us.

“ I want to be here with all of you if you would have me lesego. ” she smiles and nods. She sits and the kids
say grace and we eat. They tell us about their friends and how much they are going to be jealous that they
were in Durban and staying at a big house. But what I notice though is that they don’t talk about their
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grandparents or uncles and aunts. Even their cousins. Kids love their grandparents and they would never stop
telling you about them and it makes me wonder what their living situation is like at home. I have to talk to
lesego.

Her phone hasn’t ringed since she has been here and she hasn’t phoned anyone to let them know how she’s
doing and the kids and where she is. “ have your parents called you and find out how you and the kids are
doing? ” she stops eating and the kids get quiet too.

“ I talked to them in the morning and they can’t wait for us to come back. ” I know she’s lying. kagiso drops
his fork and looks at his mom angrily then he jumps off the chair and runs. “ kagiso?!, kagiso?! Kagiso? ! ”
she calls after him, we both run after him.

“ what’s going lesego? ” she shakes her head. We open the door the bedroom door and kagiso is sitting down
crying. What is going on?.

“ kagiso? ” she kneels next to him and touches his shoulder but kagiso shakes off her hand. He’s angry at her.
I kneel next to him too.

“ champ what’s wrong? ” he’s crying softly. He lifts his head up. Then throws himself in my arms crying. I
hug him tight and comfort him. “ it’s okay champ. Let it all out, we are right here for you. ” lesego has tears in
her eyes and she wipes them. His little cries are breaking my heart. I look around and see that kamo didn’t
follow us and so maybe kagiso will talk about what is bothering him. “ do you want to talk about what is
making you cry? ” he shakes his head no. “ ok champ. What can me and mom do to make you feel better? ” he
stops crying but doesn’t let go of me. “ Mom wants to hold you. Is that okay? ” he doesn’t say anything for a
while then he nods. She takes him, closes her eyes and tears fall and she apologizes to him.

Is her family abusing her and the kids? Are they treating them different? Or maybe my question upset him?.
God I have no idea what the hell is going on. I get up and give them some space to talk. I go to the kitchen and
see Celeste and kamo eating ice cream in the living room and laughing. I need a housekeeper. I sit down on
the couch and she comes and sits next to me.

“ hey princees, are you okay?. ” she nods. Celeste mouths what’s wrong and I shake my head.

“ is my brother okay? ” she’s worried. I don’t like it.

“ he is. He’s talking with mom. ” she nods again “ can I have some ice cream too ” she giggles. We sit down
around the coffee table and eat ice cream. Lesego and kagiso come down and join us. He looks a little better
but I know he’s not okay. Lesego has to tell me what’s going on.

“ are you guys ready to go to Shaka marine? ” they nod. “ tell the guys to be ready. You’re coming with too. ”
I tell Celeste.

“ like I was going to stay behind. ” she gets up and leaves.

“ Do they have their swimming costumes? ” she nods. “ go and get them so we can leave and please look for
my swimming shorts in my closet and my wallet on the dressing table. ” she gets up and we continue to eat
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“ uncle? ” kagiso calls me.

“ yes champ? ”

“ I… .. I like it here. ” I smile.

“ I like it too since you are all here. ” I brush his head.

“ I wish we can stay here kagiso ” Kamo says.

“ well you can visit me as much as you want. You, your brother and mom can come here and visit me anytime
you miss me. ”

“ don’t worry uncle I will call you when I miss you ” she smiles. I chuckle.

“ I will call you too princess. I promise. ” I assure her.

“ but we don’t have cell phones and all our friends at school have cell phones ” kagiso says. They are too
young to have cell phones.

“ I’ll call you on moms phone okay?. ”

“ yes uncle. ” they both say. Lesego comes back and is carrying a bag with her.

“ here’s your wallet and phone. We can go if you guys are done eating ice cream. ”

“ kids, go to the car.” They get up and run to the car.

“ don’t run!. ” lesego says and they stop and walk.

“ what’s going on lesego?, why did kagiso get angry when I mentioned your parents? ” she avoids my eyes
and touches her neck. She’s nervous.

“ nothing is going on, he just misses them. ”

“ Don’t lie to me. Do they not like your kids? ”

“ of course they do. They are their grandkids. ”

“ then what is going on. I know you are lying about them calling you cause they didn’t. No one in your family
has called you and find out how are you and the kids. ”

“ sicelo please leave it. ” I touch her face.

“ talk to me baby. I don’t like seeing the kids upset and crying. What’s going on?. ”

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“ I will tell you okay but for now can we go and have fun and forget about what happened?. I came here with
the kids so they can be happy, have a great time and forget about home for a while. Can you do that for them?
” I wipe the tears that are falling.

“ okay baby. Whenever you are ready to talk you will tell me and I’ll listen. I just want to make you happy
lesego and love you with your kids. I need you to give me a chance so I can be the man you want and need. ”
she hugs me and cries. I hold her tight. She kisses my lips then takes my hand and we leave.

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SICELO.

“ she won’t let go of me? ” we both giggle softly. Kamo has a death grip on me. She won’t let me put her
down.

“ let me help you. ” lesego takes her from me and kamo easily let’s go and slips her arms away from me. She
looks dead tired. Both of them are tired. Kagiso fell asleep the moment he got in the car. I help her take off
kamo's shoes off then she lays her down on the bed.

We stand and watch the both of them sleeping and they look like they are at peace. They really had a great
time at the marina and swimming obviously made them tired. They enjoyed playing in the water. “ Let’s go
before she wakes up. ” she takes my hand and closes the door. She’s been doing that a lot today and I’m not
complaining. I fucken love it.

We go downstairs, sit on the longue. It’s just the two of us now. I sent Celeste to go and deliver the package
to my guy who’s going to help is get the mazibuko's DNA. “ can I make you something to drink? ” she look
nervous right now.

“ I’m good. Talk to me lesego baby. What is going on with you and the kids. ” she keeps touching her neck
and ear, she’s nervous. “ hey. You can talk to me. I won’t judge you, I just want to know what is going so I
can help you. I don’t like seeing the kids upset and you too. ”I brush her face, my phone rings before she can
answer me. I want to ignore it but I can’t. I take it out and see Sims name popping up and she’s face timing
me.

This better be good because she has just interrupted me “ Sims? ” she smiles. “ hey bhuti sicelo how are
you? ” I smile back. “ I’m fine Sims. What’s wrong? ”

She looks at me shocked like I have just offended her. “ can’t I call my big brother that I love so much. ” I
laugh “ now I know you definitely want something. Spit it out. ” we both laugh. I look at lesego and she looks
uncomfortable. “ baby, are you okay? ” I ask her and she nods but I can see she’s moving away from the
phone so Sims won’t see her. Which is fine by me cause I want her to meet luh first.

“ who are you talking to? ” she asks me leaning forward to see who I’m talking to. “ Sims I’m very busy so
tell me what you want. ” I tell her

She sighs disappointed and I laugh. I know that if she sees lesego, luh would know and soon the whole family
and I don’t think she’s ready for that. I am ready for that though but I don’t want to scare her away. “ well I
am planning on throwing luh and mbuso a baby shower but I want it to be more like a photo shoot between
them and the family then we will all have lunch or dinner. They have been through so much and I just thank
them and surprise them with this. ”

“ that sounds great sims but where do I fit in all of this cause you have Preston I think and mah? ” she keeps
quiet for a while and doesn’t say anything. “ what’s wrong? ” she sighs sadly

“ well you know ever since they both accused me of being jealous of luh and wanting to be like her, our
relationship has not been the same. I want to do this for them because they have done many thing for me and
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my kids. I need you to take them away while I prepare everything. ”

I didn’t know things were that bad between them. “ where are you planning on having that photoshoot? ”

“ at their house, you can take them to visit your dad or something while I plan everything then I’ll call you
when I’m done. ”

“ I can do that. When are you planning on having the photoshoot? ” I hope she doesn’t say tomorrow cause
I’m not going to agree.

“ well I was thinking next weekend cause I think they have to go to Pietermaritzburg. Will you be available?
” I look at lesego and she looks at me. “ yeah I’ll be available and I will even bring someone. ” I say smiling
and lesego look at me shocked.

“ O wow I can’t wait to meet her. ” she says excited.

“ do you need money? ” I ask her and she laughs shaking her head furiously. “ oh no mister. I’m good but if I
need anything else I will let you know. Sicelo can we keep this between us? ”

“ don’t worry about it. Well talk then ” I assure her.

“ bye pretty lady ” Sims says laughing and I hang up and look at lesego. “ Come here baby ” she blushes. I
open my legs and she gets between them. I pull her forward so she can lay her head in my chest. I brush her
back and she sighs.

“ that’s a nice thing she wants to do. Who is she? ” that’s a long story and I want to hear her story now not
tell her ours. “ I’ll tell you about all of us but for now I want to hear your story.” She takes a deep breath out
then draws something on my chest..

“ I met the father of my kids when I was 18 and we dated for a few months and I fell pregnant with kagiso
when I was 19. When I told him that I was pregnant he ran and left me like that. I was three months that time.
My parents were very mad at me. They wanted me to have an abortion but I refused. They kicked me out and
I went to live with my grandmother then a month later my parents came and asked me who was the father and
I told them. My uncle and mom’s sister took me to thuto's house to tell them that he impregnated me, my mom
and dad came with us but they stayed behind in the car. When they saw that thuto’s family is well of they
started being nice to me. ”

I cannot believe her parents wanted her to abort kagiso and then they kick her out?. “ we go inside his house
and he denied that he is the one who got me pregnant. He called me a liar and I wanted to pin this pregnancy
on him cause I want to ruin his future and I don’t know who got me pregnant. They chased us out and I was
broken after that. The whole family turned on me and called me a disappointment and all sorts of names. I
continued to stay with my grandmother until I gave birth. No one came to see me at the hospital or help me
with the baby’s clothes and I blamed myself cause I put myself in that situation…. . ” she sniffs and my hear
breaks. I hold her close to me.

“ my grandmother came and took me home. She helped me but she was also afraid cause my mom threatened
to cut her off if she spends her money on me but she would help me with most things. They never came to see
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the baby, all of them and I knew I had my grandmother only to help me. I went and applied for a child support
grant and would do piece jobs so I can be able to take care of my son. Kagiso was 9 months if I’m not
mistaken when my family showed up. I was washing our clothes and they walked in happy and pretended like
everything was fine between us… ”

“ I made them tea, my dad told me to sit down cause he has great news for me. Apparently thuto came with
his family to pay damages and to claim kagiso as his. They accepted the money and now they were here to
take me back home because tomorrow the Maboa family will come to see kagiso. I was so hurt and felt like
my family betrayed me because this boy denied the pregnancy and called me a whore in front of everyone but
they forgot about that cause they saw money. I didn’t want to go but my grandmother forced me to go with
them. ”

Just like that, the mother fucker was forgiven even though he tarnished her name. They don’t come and see
her and child and find out if they are still alive and well?. That is making me feel real mad. “ I knew I was
going to regret leaving with them but I listened to my grandmother, packed our clothes and left. We got home
and we pretended to be this happy family they even held kagiso and played with him. Next day his family
came and had brought kagiso clothes and everything. Thuto was even there too. I didn’t want to be there
cause everything just felt wrong. I wanted my grandmother. My mother asked me to go buy something in the
shops and it was late so thuto offered to take me there with his car. We left and on our way he drove past his
house cause he said he forgot other clothes he had brought for kagiso and asked me to help him carry it and
stupid me didn’t see anything wrong with that. How could I cause when we talked about kagiso, he was nice.
I was hurt that he couldn’t even say I’m sorry for lying and accusing you of wanting to trap me with the
pregnancy. We walked in and he went to his bedroom and came with kagiso's other clothes. I was glad that I
wasn’t going to be here for long, so I helped him carry the clothes when I felt him grabbing my hair from
behind and throwing me on the couch. I fought him of but he was stronger than me….” Fuck no! No! No! No!

“ he pinned me down…. ..raised my skirt up, tore my under and then he, he…..……forced himself in me. I
haven’t been with a man since I was pregnant and it hurt. I was so in shock and I couldn’t do anything. My
body went into shock. I couldn’t move or speak. He dragged me to his bedroom and forced me to take off my
clothes and shower. I did then then I put my clothes on and we left. I forgot about what my mom asked me to
buy. He told me if I told anyone that he would deny it and tell them that I offered myself because I was horny
and wanted to fix things between us and he agreed cause he wants to make the mother of his child happy. I got
out of the car and went in the house and when my mom saw that I didn’t have what she sent me to buy she
was angry…. ”

Her cries break my heart and I want to kill that son of a bitch. “ she smelled me and felt I was smelling of
water she slapped me and accused me of opening my legs for thato because that’s what I’m good at. I tried to
tell her what happened but she wouldn’t listen to me. Him and his family left a little later and my mom told
my dad that I slept with thato and he beat me up. The next day I ran away with kagiso and went to my
grandma house and they came to fetch me back because thuto came and told them that we had sex and now
I’m accusing him of raping me. They believed him and not me. I told my dad every detail that happened but
my mom said it happens to most of us and I must deal with it. How can I accuse the father of my child of
raping me. They took me home and when I discovered that I was pregnant again with his child I lost it sicelo.
I didn’t know how I was going to deal with the pregnancy. Not only did he rape me but he impregnated me
too. I didn’t want to have an abortion cause I was scared. It scared me so I hid the pregnancy until I couldn’t
when I was five months pregnant. I went and told my grandmother and she told them. They once again tuned
on me and started being abusive with words and hitting me. My grandmother died and it’s was hard for me
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cause I knew that I was really alone this time. They went to tell his family and he agreed and they also found
out that he was getting married. My dad was so mad when he heard that cause he threw me out of the house
and they built a shack for me to live in. I gave birth and they did the same thing to kamo that they did to
kagiso. No one came and I was alone. I struggled until I got a job as a cleaner at the school, I worked until
they offered me a job as a clerk at the school. I saved money and built myself a one room bedroom with a
kitchen that I live in with my kids. I pay rent for electricity and water or else if I don’t pay they switch it off
from me. I’m expected to babysit their kids, wash their laundry and contribute to the house but my kids are
not allowed inside the house or even eat there. When thuto sees me and the kids he passes them like he
doesn’t know them. ”

I have never felt so many different emotions all at once. She has been through a lot and I’m proud of her. I am
so mad because of the things she experienced and I want to shield her from it and make everything better for
her. He raped her then lied to her family!. Hmm This boy!. “ kagiso is aware and knows what is going. That’s
why he got upset when I asked about your parents?. ”

She wipes her tears. “ he knows and sees how everyone treats them, us different from everyone else. I used
to hide that from them and always come up with excuses but as he grows up he watches and listens. ”

“ Baby? ” she cocks her head up and looks at me. I kiss both her teary eyelids then wine her tears with my
thumbs. “ let me in your heart and let me take care of you and your kids. Let me love you and them. Let me be
your man, husband and let me be the father to them. I want them to know and experience the love that was
taken from them the love they never got to feel. I want to be a father to them. I want them to call me dad, baba
or papa. I want you to lean on me and know that I will take care of your our kids. Let me fix this and love you
in every way possible. I knew you were mine the moment I heard your laughter. I called on to me and I knew
that I have finally found my chosen one. I can promise you the moon and the stairs and everything but what I
want to promise you now is that I will love you, cherish you, adore you, respect you. Put your needs and the
kids needs first above my own. I want to have a home with you, have more kids with you and love you like
crazy. I need you in my life lesego and I need you to be part of my family. Will you have me Lesego
Motaung? ”

She buries her head on my neck and sobs. My eyes well with tears and one tear falls. I quickly wipe it and
kiss her forehead. I hold her tight to me and comfort her as she cries. “ I’m scared sicelo, I really am. ” she
says sobbing. “ I know you are scared baby but trust me and let me in. I promise you, you won’t be sorry. ”
That boy is going pay. All of them.

“ promise me that you will never discriminate my kids and treat them differently when we have kids? ” I
smile.

“ our kids. They are our kids. I love them like they are my own and that will never change. ”

“ what about your family? What are they going to say about me having tow kids? What if they say I must
leave them behind? ”

She’s scared and I understand because I would have the same concerns she does. “ they are going to love you
and I would never let you leave our kids behind that toxic environment, even if it wasn’t, I still would never
allow you or allow anyone else to expect that of you. My dad is going love them and spoil them like crazy
and my aunt she’s going to love them too but luh she’s crazy about kids. She loves them and they love her,
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she’s going to be the best aunty. ” I smile thinking about all of them meeting her and the kids.

“ I hear you but don’t make me choose between you and our kids cause I would never expect that from you
too. ”

“ I hear you baby and when we fight don’t say my kids cause that will just piss me off. ” she smiles. “ that’s
more like it. ” I peck her cheek. “ I need something from you. ”

“ what is it? ”

“ I need you to let me deal with thuto. My own way without involving the police. ” she looks uncertain.

“ what does that mean? ”

“ I won’t kill him if you are worried about that. ”

“ I’m not worried about him. He’s better off dead than alive in my eyes. But I don’t want your hands to be
filled with his blood. ”

“ tell me what I want to hear lesego. ” she giggles.

“ What? ” I tickle her and she laughs.

“ I am yours Sicelo Ngcobo. All of me. Me and the kids are all yours now. You can have us. I am your
woman. ” she blushes.

“ let’s seal it with a kiss ” I don’t wait for her to answer cause I claim her mouth and devour her lips.
Someone or people are going to die.

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SICELO.

“ baby? ” we are still on the couch cuddling. I didn’t know cuddling could be this much fun and I think I’m
going to love doing that and a lot of things with her. “ yes baby? ” she giggles, I kiss peck her cheek.

“ can you share the bed with me?, I just want to feel you know my arms and I promise you we will not do
anything until the both of us are ready ” I don’t know what I’m asking her because I know for sure I’m going
to have a boner the whole night. She looks at me unsure. “ I’m asking you to trust me and know that I won’t
hurt you. I want you I feel you on my arms and wake up next to you that’s all I want baby. ”

She gets up and I think she’s going to refuse me but she takes my hand again and I get up and we go to my
bedroom. We get there and she moves the pillows off the bed and places them neatly and opens the duvet. “
can I use your bathroom and shower? ” her cheeks get pink and I smile.

“ you can baby. ” I tell her. She turns to leave but I stop her. „ where are you going? ”

“ to get my pyjamas and toiletry bag. ”.

“ ok, I’m going to use the shower in the other guest bedroom. Feel free to take your time. ” she nods and
leaves. I take my things and go to the other bedroom and take a cold shower. I shower quickly cause I’m
trying to not let images of lesego showering in my bedroom fill my mind. I pass by the kids bedroom when
I’m done and they are still sleeping. I switch the lights to a little dim but still light incase the kids wake up
and half close the door. I open my bedroom door and not close it. I go to the closest, throw the towel in the
laundry basket and wear a tank top and basketball shorts. It’s been years since I have slept wearing clothes
and I hope they won’t choke me at night.

The water is still running in the shower, she’s not done yet. I get in bed and wait for her. My phone keeps
beeping and I know someone sent a text message. I ignore it cause I know if it’s important the person would
be calling. I think about everything she has said and I am pissed. I have to talk to the guys cause I am going to
need their help. I am not going to kill him but I want him, his family and lesego's family to see how happy I
am going to make her and our kids. I have to tell dad about her and the plans I want to do. If it’s money I will
have to cough out then that’s nothing cause I’m going to make sure that they are all mine and that thuto guy
won’t one day show up and claim them as his.

She comes out wearing a tiny pyjama set and closes the bathroom door. How the hell am I going to ignore all
that skin and curves and those nipples pointing at me?. Damn!. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. She
goes to close the bedroom door. “ baby don’t close the bedroom door. ” she looks at me confused. “ we have
kids in the house and they are not yet used to all the rooms. They might wake up at night and not find you in
bed and panic. We have kids in the house now and so our bedroom door is always going to be open.” I
explain to her and I don’t know if she understands.

“ but what about when we… .. ” she asks getting in bed and she sighs. I chuckle and pull her close to me. “
what about what baby? ” I want her to say it. “ what about when we are having sex and they hear us or worse
catch us. ”

“ well I guess we would have to be not so loud and have as much sex as possible when they are at school.
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Are you loud baby? ” her cheeks get pink with blushes. “ I don’t know… . I don’t remember. ” she says.

“ don’t worry, we will find out soon and if you are then I will have to gag you. ” her breath hitches then she
covers herself with the duvet laughing. I put my hands under the duvet and tickle her and she laughs so loud. “
shhh you’ll wake the kids up!. ” I continue to tickle her “ stop… I mean going to pee on myself sicelo I’m
very ticklish!. ” she says laughing and kicking the duvet and exposing her legs. I stop and cover us again. She
catches her breath then looks at me.

“ you know the only time I laugh like this, is when we are alone in our room and they telling me funny stories
from school or maybe we are just watching TV. Thank you for this sicelo, for everything.” I pull her to me. “
I haven’t even started doing anything for you and the kids but you will see and experience it. I take care of
everyone who is close to my heart and you and the kids are my number now. ” she draws patterns on my
chest.

“ you know I used to pray and ask God to ask my soulmate to find me and save me from the misery I’m living
under with my kids. I would pray everyday and then I began to save some money cause I wanted to take my
kids to Durban cause the last time I went was when I was their age and I never went again. My family come
here very year and ever since I fell pregnant I was left behind. If I knew sooner that coming here, I was going
to meet the love of my life then I would have came years ago. ” she says.

“ I think this was the right time for us to meet cause we both need each other. I have not been the best partner
to the people I was dating but I have grown from my mistakes and learned a lot from them. Do I have regrets
on how I treated them yes but there’s nothing I can do about it now. What I can do though is be your best
lover, partner, best friend, husband and a damn great dad to our kids like how my dad is. My dad has taught
me many things and if I can be half the man and father he is to us then I would know that I’m doing a great job
cause that man is the world’s greatest and he is going to embrace kagiso and kamo and welcome them with
open arms and love. ” she entwines our hands.

“ tell me about you sicelo. Who are you?. ” I smile and look at her. “ you should have asked me that before
you agreed to be my woman. ” she pinches my chest laughing. “ baby stop playing ” I chuckle. I tell her
everything about me growing up with my parents, luh and how we got separated then finding all of each other
again and how. My business and what I do, I tell her about the guys, frank, mah, Sims then zinhle and ayanda,
but I don’t tell her about how the mazibuko’s including buhle being dead and I just tell her they went missing
and I don’t say who killed thami and oh Preston also, how can I forget. She knows everything about me but
not the illegal stuff that we do.

When I’m done she is speechless. “ wow, all of you guys have been through a lot. The things you went
through and finding each other again is beautiful and rare. I think I’m going to love being part of your family.
I just wish my parents were like that too. All of us too be tight and have each other’s backs but that’s wishful
thinking because they already have that with each other just not with me. ” I hate that they treated her
different. “ in our family we have lots of love to give baby. Including luh’s in laws will welcome you and
love you too. We will always have your back and no matter what. ” she squeezes my hand.

“ Thank you for telling me about everyone. I feel like I already know them. ” I can’t wait for them to meet her
and know her too. “ You will baby. ” I yawn fuck I’m tired. She laughs. “ let’s sleep before you swallow my
head ” she says and my mind goes there and blood rushes to my dick. “ see what you do to me, talking about
swallowing heads. ” she laughs, I get up turn the lights to dim, pick up a pillow and get in bed and put it
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between us so she won’t feel my hard on. “ good night baby kascelo. ” she yaws too. “ good night
mapholoba. ” I kiss her head and spoon her.

I hear soft giggles and laughs. Soft little hands are brushing my beard. I smile inside cause I know those small
hands belongs to those two making me feel old. I open my mouth wide and yawn load then chew on air. They
laugh, I want to laugh too but I don’t want t hem to know that I’m awake. “ mama is going shout at us for
waking uncle ” kamo says giggling. “ no she won’t. She’s making breakfast and she thinks we are brushing
out teeth. ” kagiso says.

“ do you think uncle is going to lose his teeth like me? ” I almost laugh. I peek at them and see them on both
my sides. They are on my chest looking at each other talking about me like I’m not here. “ no kamo. He’s a
grown up and grown ups have teeth. ” he shakes his head. “ but that grandpa from school has no teeth like
me? ” kagiso shakes his head and palms his cheek. “ he is old and old people don’t have real teeth. They
wear fake teeth. ” kamo gasps in shock them they get quiet for a while. “ kagiso? ”

“ hmm? ”

“ do you think uncle us going to be our dad and he will drive us to school and pick us like the other kids who
have dads? ” that breaks my heart. I want to hear what kagiso's response is going to be. “I don’t know kamo.
I wish he was our dad. ”

“ do you know our dad? ” she asks him and I wonder if lesego has ever had this talk with kids but I guess not
cause if she has then they wouldn’t be talking about it. “ I don’t know him. ” they keep quiet then I open my
eyes and yawn loud again. I startle them then they laugh. “ good morning kids? ”

“ good morning uncle ” they both say singing. I smile. “ did you have a good sleep? ”

“we did uncle. Mama is making breakfast for us. ”

“ yummy and I am so hungry. I feel like eating someone.” They both scream laughing.” what were you two
doing playing with my beard with your little hands hmmm?, I’m going to tickle you until you have hair on
your face too ” I grab both of them and tickle them and they laugh. I let them go and they jump off the bed and
run out. I get up and follow them and they are running to their mother laughing. I hear her reprimanding them
to stop running in the house, the stairs and in the kitchen. She is right cause they might get burnt with
something. I round the kitchen island and see that she’s wearing my T-shirt and her pyjama bottoms. She
looks so freaking sexy. “ good morning mommy ” she laughs. I kiss her on the lips before she even greets
back. The kids giggle looking at us and their mom blushes. “ really? In front of the kids? ” I peck her cheek
and they all giggle. “ they have to get used to us kissing and showing physical contact like hugs and kisses so
it will not be awkward for all of us when they see us doing that. ” she nods. “ kids let’s go to the living room
and have a meeting. Mommy switch the stove off. ” she does.

We all go to the living room and we help the kids sit down. “ so once a week we are going to have a meeting
and everyone will tell us how we spent our week at school and at work right guys?. ” they nod. “ the first
rule of every morning is we kiss mommy good morning, hug her and ask how she slept, we greet each other
and hug everyday in the morning. ”

“ yes uncle ” they say. “ ok kids, you are going to do one good thing every day and when we have a meeting
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on Sunday, you will tell us what you did. You can do anything from helping mommy with the chores, brushing
school shoes or making sure that your rooms are clean and your toys are where they stay. When you do that,
mommy and daddy will pay you. You will earn money doing your chores on top of your pocket money. ” fuck
that just slipped out but it felt right and I didn’t plan on saying it. I hope lesego is not mad at me cause I didn’t
talk to her about this. She looks at me shocked and tears well in her eyes. I take her hand I’m relieved when
she doesn’t snatch it back.

“ mommy are you sad? ” kagiso asks her and she shakes her head no and wipes her tears. “ kids can you go
and brush your teeth. Uncle wants to talk to mommy?.” They stand up and begin to run “ no running. ” I tell
them. They walk.

“ I’m sorry lesego. That just slipped out and I didn’t plan on saying that but it just happened and I… .. ” she
silences me by putting her hand on my mouth.

“ sicelo you talk a lot about the future and I’m scared that this is too good to be true. Things like this don’t
happen in my life and I’m scared that once we leave here… . You… you will forget about us and that will
not only break me but it will very much hurt my kids. ” I sigh frustrated.

I take her hands in mine and make her look at me. “ woman I love you and I want you and our kids in my life
everyday of my life. They are now my kids too lesego. I love them like I love you. I mean everything I am
saying to you. The promises and everything I mean them. I am not trying to charm you just to get something
from you. I know life has been cruel and unkind to all of you but that stopped the moment you accepted me in
your lives. I want them to call me dad because I am a father to them now. I don’t want my kids to call me
uncle. I am not going to be a step father to them, I am their father. My life has been filled with so much
happiness ever since I met you, girl I’m even waking up late and I don’t do that. I’m asking you to put faith
and trust in our love baby. I love you lesego please believe me.” She sobs and I hold her.

“ I believe you. I’m not mad about you wanting them to call you dad. I think it’s beautiful. I’m giving you my
heart sicelo. Please don’t break it. ” I’m relieved. “ I’ll g crazy if you leave me ” she giggles. She doesn’t
know that I’ll literally go crazy.

“ we need to talk to the kids about their biological father. They were in our bedroom and they thought that I
was sleeping and they talked about they don’t know their dad and they are curious because they see other
kids with their father’s but theirs is not in their lives.” She shakes her head. “ what do I say sicelo?, the both
of them can never know how kamo was conceived and I don’t want him in their lives. I don’t!. ”

“ hey it’s okay. We will figure it out baby I promise. ” she nods. “ wipe those tears on your beautiful face
and let’s eat breakfast as a family. We will have a braai just the four of us and spend time together as a
family before I drive you back tomorrow. ” she nods and get up. The kids come and I help her plate food. “
boy boy go and get my phone in our bedroom and don’t run. “ yes dad ” he says. I chuckle. This is love and
pure joy. I mouth thank you to lesego.

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SICELO.

The kids have been quiet since they woke up and they are not playing or saying anything. I tried to talk to
them and they are just giving me yes and no answers. They must really hate where they live. Even their
mother is quiet and she keeps touching her neck. I really don’t like how they are all feeling. If it was up to
me, they wouldn’t be going back home at all. But I have to do things properly and it’s only two months left
before the school closes and the holidays begin.

I’m driving them back home with Celeste and the guys following me behind. She insisted that she comes.
Radio 2000 fills the car with their soothing sounds. I look back and the kids are sleeping. I entwine our hands
together and she sighs. “ you could have told me not to take you back home baby. ” she looks at me then looks
ahead.

“ we have to go back sicelo. The kids still have school and I have a job waiting for me too. ” she sounds
depressed.

“ I know baby but look on the bright side. In two months the school closes for the holidays and that means
you and the kids can come and spend all the holidays with me in Durban. ”

“ I know baby. I just wish things were different you know. ” she says.

“ different how lesego? ” she looks at me.

“ I wish we didn’t have to go back. Our kids have never been this happy and now you see how depressed
they are because we are going back there. It doesn’t even feel like home anymore. I’m just worried that when
we get there, things might be worse for us. ”

“ did you tell them where you are going? ” she shakes her head.

“ I told my youngest sister but I doubt she told them. I didn’t tell them because I was scared that they would
demand the money I was saving for the trip and we wouldn’t have met you and… . ”

“ hey, we would have met somehow cause I believe that my ancestors would have made a plan for me to
meet their daughter in-law. I’m not going anywhere lesego and your family will know that.” I tell her firmly.
We are in Pietermaritzburg now and I think of stopping but I don’t want to wake the kids. I want us to drive
straight to Bethlehem and get there.

“ what were you busy with in the morning in your office cause you talked a lot on the phone?. ” so she
noticed.

“ I was dealing with work stuff and I talked to mbuso. I wanted to know how everything is going with luh and
her pregnancy cause she is still on bed rest. Mbuso is frustrated cause my sister decided to renovate their
bedroom and the kitchen. Mbuso hates it when there are strangers in his house.” I chuckle

“ he sounds like he values their privacy. Actually I think all of you do from what I have gathered. ”

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“ we do baby. Love, honesty, trust and loyalty. That’s all we want and what I need from you. ” I hope she
gets what I’m trying to say.

“ don’t worry baby. I will never share your secrets or family’s secrets and betray all of you. I am a bad liar
sicelo so if it does happen that you do something illegal please don’t tell me in case the police come to ask
me questions. I have the worst poker face. ” wow she has just surprised me with this.

“ what gives you the idea that maybe one day the police might come and knock at our door? ” she gives me
the really look?

“ please sicelo. You have security detail always following us wherever we go like even now. I know
Celeste is like your body guard or something and that means there are things she’s going to do for you. You
are rich sicelo and rich people always have enemies. ” I squeeze her hand.

“ nothing will ever happen to you and the kids. Even when I’m not there just know that there are people who
will always be watching over you and you might not see them but they will be there.”

“ you can trust me sicelo. I’ve got you baby. Whatever you need from me, I’ll be right here. ”

“ You don’t know how happy it makes me feel to hear you say that. ” I kiss her hand. “ are the kids not hungry
or want to go to the toilet?. ”

“ they will wake up and tell us, don’t worry about them. They slept the whole way too when we went to
Durban. ” she says. We drive and the more we get closer, the tense lesego gets. We are finally in Bethlehem
almost five hours later. This place is far but for them I will drive down.

“ we are finally here. Direct me to your place, is it in the location? ” she nods. “ lesego, are you okay? ” she
nods again. I know she’s not. “ tell me that you don’t want to go back to your house and I won’t take you
there. ”

“ I have to. Can you drop us like around the corner. I don’t want them to see us getting off in this fancy car of
yours. ”

“ Why? ” I wasn’t although I want to but dad would kill me for disrespecting another man’s house again.

“ please baby. It will just cause problems for me. ” she begs me. I drive around as she directs me to a garage
and park there. Celeste’s car park too and wait?. Is that mbuso's car?. It must be frank cause he sometimes
drives it. I look at lesego “ I’m going to ask Celeste to come in the car and she’s going to sit in the front and
you’ll sit with the kids in the back. We are going to drop you off and make them think that we gave you ride
back and Celeste is your friend. ” she keeps quiet.

“ And what will she be to you? ” I laugh. “ are you feeling jealous baby?, you do remember that Celeste is a
lesbian. ”

“ But they won’t know that she is? ” she’s sulking and it is cute. I pull her by her nape and kiss her. “ does it
matter that they know baby? ”

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“ No it doesn’t. ” I kiss her again. “ then stop worrying about people who don’t give two cents about you and
our kids. We are going to drop you off at the gate but firstly I want to wake the kids up and say goodbye.” She
nods. I switch the engine off and we both get out of the car and open the back set doors and they yawn and
wake up.

“ daddy are we already here? ” kagiso asks me

“ hey champ, don’t you want to go to the bathroom first? ” he shakes his head “ no dad. ” he says sadly. I look
at kamo and lesego picks her up. “ I’m going to take her to the toilet. ”.

“ ok baby. ” I sit in the back seat with kagiso. He looks so sad. “ what’s wrong champ? ” I ask him.. He looks
at me and I see that he wants to cry.

“ are you going to leave us and never come back too? ” I take a deep breath.

“ No champ I’m not. You are my kids and I’ll never leave you. I love you kagiso.” I wipe his tear drop. “ but
you don’t live here with us and you are going back.”

“ That doesn’t mean that you will never see me again champ. ” his tears fall and it is breaking my heart. “ I
want to live with you and mama and kamo. I don’t want to go back daddy please! ” I feel like my heart is
being ripped out of my chest. I pick him up and he hugs me very tight and sobs. I look at Celeste who has
been listening and her eyes are teary too. I close my eyes and one falls. I wipe it off. Lesego comes back and
she also looks like she was crying in the toilets. She gets in, I take kamo from her and hug all of them. My
family. I hear their soft sobs but they are gut wrenching.

This feels like the hardest decision I have ever made in my life. I didn’t know being a parent was this hard.
Seeing your kid cry and begging to not leave them is very hard. Now I understand why bonga was upset that
Sims left the kids behind. I kiss their forehead. “ kids look at me. ” my little Angel’s face is so red. I kiss her
cheeks. “ don’t cry my little angel. Daddy will always be here for you no matter where he lives. When the
school closes for the holidays I will come and get you and take you to your home in Durban ok?. ”

“ yes daddy. ” she says. I look at lesego and she has her head buried on my chest. “ kagiso I need you to be
strong and be the man of the house while daddy is not here to watch over you until I come back to get you.
Can you do that?. ”

“ yes daddy ” he says. My little man. “ and mom, I need you to be strong. Take care of my kids until I come
back and take my family back with me home. Can you do that lesego? ” she nods. I hate this. I really hate
this!. “ Celeste you know the direction. Drive. ” she wipes her tears then drives out. I have my arms wrapped
around my family and every time the car takes a corner my heart feels like it is being stabbed with knives and
it makes it harder for me to breath. I can’t breakdown and cry in front of the kids. They need me to strong and
if I breakdown now they not be able to handle it and cry. I take a deep breath in and then out.

The car stops and she snakes her arm around my waist tight and the kids hold me tight. I hug them tight too. “
boss we are here. ” I nod.

“ remember what daddy told you. It doesn’t matter where I am because I love you all very much. You are my
family and I will never leave you or forget about you. Promise me that you will always know that and
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remember it.” They nod. “ my little angel kamo. Daddy loves you okay? ”

“ I love you too daddy. ” she says sniffing. “ give daddy a hug and a kiss here. ” she laughs. “ no daddy you
hair will grow on my face too if I kiss it. ” she says. “ where are you going to kiss me then? ” I ask her.. She
giggles. “ here. ” she places her soft hands above my beard. Palms my face, kisses my forehead and then
gives me a hug. “ I love you too daddy. ” pure love. You can’t buy that.

I look at kagiso and his eyes are pleading with me. I don’t want to disappoint him but I have to do this right. “
my little man. You are going to be strong just like me your dad. There are many things we are going to do
together like father and son. But for me to do that dad has to do things the right way for all of us okay? ”

“ ok dad.” I wonder if my dad was ever faced with something similar to this. “ I love you champ don’t forget
that or let anyone else tell you it’s not true. ” he wipes his tears then hugs me. “ I love you too daddy. I’ll take
care of mom and kamo. ” I hug him tight and close my eyes.

I look at this beautiful, strong and wonderful woman next to me. She has been wiping her tears ever since we
got here. Her life has been filled with pain and misery and I promised her to take away all of that but it feels
like I’m failing her cause I’m taking her back where she is not wanted. “ mama kagiso no kamohelo.
Uyimbokodo wena, indlovukazi yami. Lapha enhlizweni yami kubusa wena kuphela mama. Konke osondlule
kuko kukwenze waba yilomuntu onguye namhlanje. Unothando, unozwelo. Ungumama oqotho and ngiyabonga
ngokukhulisa lezizingane zethu uwedwa kungana muntu okusizayo. Musa ukukhala sthandwa sami.
Izinyembezi zakho zizosulwa yimina. Kudala ukhala uNkulunkulu ekulalele uhlala ukhala kuye. Wakuzwa,
wathumela abaphansi basekhaya ukuthi bangitshele ukuthi wena uyangidinga. Sengikhona sthandwa sami.
Kusukela manje uzokhala izinyembezi zenjabulo. Ngiyakuthanda kakhulu maMotaung. ”

Translation: “ kagiso and kamohelo’s mother. You are a strong woman. My queen. You are the only one who
has my heart lesego. Everything you have experienced in your life made you the person you are today. You
are a loving, caring woman and you sympathise with others. You are a great mother to our kids and I thank
you for raising our kids alone with no one to help you. Don’t cry my love, I am here now to wipe away your
tears. God has heard your cries and prayers. He sent my ancestors to me, to tell me that you need me. I am
here now my love. From now onwards you will only cry tears of joy. I love you maMotaung. ” she kisses me
then sobs in my chest.

“ I love you too Mapholoba. ” we hug and stay silent. Now this is the hard part. Letting them go. “ let’s get
out of the car. ” kagiso shakes his head. “ no daddy please!. Take us with you!. I want to go with you! ” he
says crying. My champ. Celeste gets our of the car and comes to open my side of the door. I step out carefully
watching their heads cause I have both my kids on my chest. I look around and see that the cars have drawn
out some attention. I look behind me and see mbuso and bonga. My brothers are here with me. I tear up. They
come and put both their hands on shoulders offering support.

Celeste takes their bags out of the car and put them close to the gate. I see people coming out of the house.
Only silent tears are falling off lesego’s face. I put the kids down and crouch to their level. I hug them tight
and kiss both their heads. “ I love you guys. ” I tell them they are now sniffing. I try to get up but they don’t
want to let go of me. “ kids we talked about this ” my voice is breaking. They slowly let go then go to their
mother. “ hey look at me? ” I palm her face. She looks up. Her eyes are so red. “ I will call you and
remember everything I told you okay my love? ” she nods. I kiss her then hug her tight. It’s hard to let go but
we must. “ please take the kids. I don’t want to say goodbye to them. ” my tears fall. She looks at me and
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wipes them.

She takes both of their hands and kagiso loses it and screams. “ daddy please! Please daddy! ” I look at him
and the connection I have with him is very strong. His gut wrenching cries tear every wall I have ever built
around myself. “ I can’t watch this! ” bonga says and leaves. I watch lesego drag kagiso by force and my
little angel is just watching me crying. My tears fall and I don’t bother wiping them off. I want them to see
that it is killing me and hurting me like them.

“ Qina ndoda. We will fix everything. I promise you brother. ” ( be strong man.) I hear kagiso again
screaming my name and I just can’t take it. I get in the front seat of the passenger seat and break down. I hear
the door closing and an engine roaring. “ sicelo are you sure about this?. ” mbuso asks me. I nod. He curses.
He reverses then drives. It’s like I’m leaving my heart, life and abandoning my family. This feels wrong. I
can’t!.

“ what the Fuck?!” mbuso says and stops the car. I look at him then look at the back and see kagiso running
behind the car crying and lesego is running after him and another man too is running after them. We both get
out and run. I run to kagiso, pick him up and give him to mbuso, he gives him to bonga. I run to the man
chasing after lesego and get between them.

“ who the fuck are you and my are you chasing them? ” I roar. He stops and looks at me.

“ I am her brother, who the fuck are you? ” ignore him. “ lesego where is kamo? ” I ask her. “ she’s… She’s
in the house. ”

“ go and get my child or I swear to God I will get in there and take her myself!. ” I tell her. Celeste pulls her
and they leave.

“ who the fuck are you and what are you doing with my sister’s children? ”

“ voetsek msunu!. ” mbuso says to him. I will kill this guy right here if he stands in my way.

“ hey who the hell do you think you are talking to me like that? ” he says shouting. One thing you never ever
do is shout at mbuso unless your luh but she also doesn’t shout at him.

“ say one more thing out of your stinking mouth and your family will bury you next week. ” I tell him. That
shuts him up. Celeste comes back with lesego and kamo with their bags. Kamo runs to me and clings for dear
life. I hold my little angel tight. I go to the car when kagiso is still crying and he jumps to me. I grab him too
and get in the car with my kids.

Lesego comes in too and sits. Mbuso is driving and Celeste is sitting on the front with him. Bonga goes to
mbuso's car. “ where to now brother? ” mbuso asks me.

“ drive to lesego house. ” she stops crying and looks at me shocked. I pull her to me too.

“ I wasn’t leaving. I could never leave you guys.” I tell them and hold my kids to my chest and comfort them.

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SICELO.

“ what do you mean we are going to my house sicelo? ” she hiccups. “ stop crying baby. The kids don’t like
to see you crying. We will talk when we get home. ” she nods.

“ daddy? ” kamo calls me. I look at mbuso and he smiles. “ yes my little angel? ”

“ are you sad too? ” she asks me and I smile. “ I am angel. But daddy will be fine. ” she nods. “ it’s okay to
cry daddy.” I chuckle and kiss her forehead. I look at kagiso and his head is on my chest. He has stopped
crying but I sense his anger. He is very angry. I kiss his head and sigh. Mbuso drives around then drives in to
this house he sent me pictures of.

It is huge and beautiful and I know that it is my sister who found it. He parks outside the garage. “ baby take
the kids and go check out your new home.” Mbuso gives her the keys. She nods and takes them. “ kids go
with mom to the house. I want to talk with your uncles.” Kagiso shakes his head no and refuses.

“ kagiso I’m not leaving you son. We will be here in the car. ” he still shakes his head no. “ can I stay with
you here daddy please? ” he asked me this once and I told him something else and now that he’s asking me
again, I cannot refuse him and say no twice. ”

“ ok champ. Baby take kamo and go in the house. Celeste will be with you. ” she nods.

“ I just wanted to say thank you all for being here. I know you don’t know me but what you did for all of us
today I will never forget. Thank you and I’m sorry meeting you for first time was like this. ” she says to
mbuso and bonga. I don’t like that she looks ashamed.

“ don’t ever apologize for a situation you had no control over and never feel ashamed around us. You are our
family now and whatever you go through, we all experience it with you.” Mbuso ssays “ thank you ” she
says.

“ these kids are also our kids now. We will do anything to protect you and our kids. No one messes with our
family. ” bonga says. I’m really grateful to have them in my life. “ thank you again. ” she takes kamo and they
go to the door. She unlocks the house then gets in. I see her shoulders shaking. She’s crying. They get in and
close the door behind them.

I look at my brothers and sigh. I am so emotionally drained and very mad. “ thank you for being here with me.
I don’t know what I could have done if you were not here. ”

“ we are brothers and you know we always have your back. We wouldn’t let you come here alone after
telling us what was happening to them. ” bonga says. I nod. “ how did you find us cause I didn’t tell you
where we were in the road. ” I ask them.

“ you know I’m tracking everyone. We drove here before you then followed you to the garage. I had to see
for myself and find out more about them. ” I knew he would do that.

“ thank you brothers. Thank you. ” they nod. “ we will talk once this little man let’s go of me. ” they smile.
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“ you really are great with them. The love you all have for each other is amazing mam. I’m happy for you
brothers I really am.” Mbuso says.

“ I understand now why bonga was mad when Sims didn’t show up with the kids. I thought I was going to
have a heart attack seeing them in that state. ” I tell them.

“ yeah man when kids love you, they wholeheartedly love you. I love those boys man. I would do anything
for them. ” we nod and then get silent.

“ daddy? ” kagiso says looking up at me. “ hey champ?, you feeling better now? ” he doesn’t say anything.
I’m worried about him. “ uncle hit mama and grandma pushed kamo and she fell. Grandpa wanted to hit
mama too but I ran away to tell you that they were hurting them daddy. I was scared daddy. ” I bring him to
my chest and hold him. “ it’s okay champ. Daddy and your uncles will fix it okay? ” he agrees. “ yes daddy.”

What I feel now is nothing compared to what I thought I felt. I’m enraged and I want blood. “ go and be with
your family. There’s food in the house. They need you now more than ever. We've got this.” Mbuso says. He
knows what I want and I know he will get and put him somewhere. “ Thank you brothers.” I get out of the car
and go to the house. The house is still empty but tomorrow we have some shopping to do. We follow their
voices and it sounds like they are in a bedroom. At least they bought us a bed. I chuckle. I open the door and
we find them sitting down on the carpet and there’s a picnic type of thing going on there. I place kagiso down
take off my shoes, he does the same and we sit down and join them.

“ what do we have here. Oh I am so hungry ” I say. Kamo gets up from where she was sitting and sits on my
lap. “ we are having a picnic daddy, look there’s so much food for all of us. ” I bit a samosa

“ and it tastes yummy. So let’s sit down and have a meeting. ” lesego looks at me, kamo gets up and sits
down and looks serious. I chuckle and she shows me her perfect smile. Lesego is not okay at all but she’s
putting a brave from for the kid’s sake. I take her hand. “ so dad would like to apologize to all of you for
what happened at your grandparents house. I’m sorry I took you there and left you. I didn’t feel right leaving
you behind and just as I was to stop the car…. I..saw you guys running to the car and that will haunt me. I was
not leaving you my kids. I wanted to surprise you tomorrow. I was going to show up in the morning and drive
you to school.” Their eyes get huge with excitement eating their sandwiches. “ I was going to come and pick
you up from school with mom and then I was going to surprise you again and bring you here and show you
your new house daddy bought for mommy and you. ” they scream get up excitedly and attack me with hugs
and kisses. I laugh out loud.

“ really daddy?, this is our house and we are going to live here? ” kagiso asks me with so much enthusiasm. “
yes champ. You are never ever going to live with your grandparents. This is your new home. ” for now.

“ wow and we get to choose out own rooms? ” he asks again and I chuckle. “ yes champ. ” they let go of me
and sit down. “ daddy I want this room to be my room. ” kamo says licking her hands.

“ no baby. This is our room. Me and your dad are going to be sleeping here. ” she looks at us frowning. “ I
will sleep with you and daddy then. ” she says. Lesego and I look at each other and smile. “ only babies
sleep with their parents kamo. ” kagiso says.

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“ I’m not a baby!. I’m a big girl right daddy? ” kids. “ you are my angel and big girls have their own rooms
and sleep alone. ” she huffs. “ ok daddy I’ll sleep in my room and I promise I won’t cry. ” I chuckle, kagiso
rolls his eyes. We laugh. I love these kids. My kids. My family. “ but tonight we are all going to sleep in
here. We have to go and buy you pyjamas. ” they exclaim excited.

“ do you all forgive me? ” I ask them.

“ yes daddy ” they sing. Lesego nods.

We finish eating then we get up, wear our shoes and leave. Mbuso, bonga and Celeste are outside talking. “
want to join us for shopping and maybe have a bite to eat before you guys drive back? ” I look at the time it’s
still early. Mbuso can make it home by 7pm if he leaves around 5 pm.

“ let’s go guys but I won’t eat too much cause my wife would literally kill me if I tell her I’m not eating her
food. ” we laugh. I get in my car and my family rides with me. We drive to the mall and the kids are so
excited they can’t even hid it. Their mother however is a different story. “ love? ” she smiles but it doesn’t
reach her big beautiful eyes. “ can you try to be happy and excited for the kids cause if they see you sad and
not excited like them, they will not enjoy this. ” she palms my beard.

“ why would I need to pretend when I’m already happy. I wish you could see the happiness that I’m feeling
inside. Sicelo man like you are rare and hard to find. I promise you that I will never disappoint you. I’ll
show you everyday that you made the right decision by loving all of us. I wish I could repay you for what you
have done for me. ” oh lesego is still scared and thinks that all of this is going to be taken away from her. The
only way that could be achieved is if someone kills me but that still won’t make her go back to the life she
was living because she will be fucken rich, well she is rich now. She justdoesn’t know it yet. I smile.

“ what are you smiling about? ” she asks me. “ I was thinking of a way you can repay me.” She laughs. “ ok
I’m listening, spit it out. ”

“ all you have to do is respect me, love me and trust me. That’s how you can repay me. ”

“ you already have all of that baby. You don’t have to ask me. ”

“ oh and give me lots and lots of kids. ” she laughs. “ I can’t wait to start practising making babies with you.
” I wink at her and she laughs blushing. We park at the mall and step out of the car. The kids step out and are
excited. We are going to be doing many things as a family. I hope lesego is ready for the love she’s about to
experience with this family. I take her hand and walk to the mall.

LESEGO.

He takes my hand and we walk in. All eyes are on us because I am walking with three very drop dead
gorgeous handsome man I never knew existed. Men I read about on romance novels. Men who command
attention without even speaking. I’m in the middle between my man. Yes my man and his brother mbuso who
has kagiso hand and bonga who is holding kamo’s hand with Celeste. They way they are walking I feel like
I’m being protected.

I squeeze sicelo's hand and he kisses me.. I giggle and I can’t stop myself from smiling. Women stop and look
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at the men walking with us. Celeste has to be the hottest lesbian woman I have ever seen. Mbuso is scary and
very intense. He has this thing about him that tells you respect me, I’m not your friend and you don’t fuck with
me. My man is like that too but not so scary like his brother who would make my dad shit his pants. I would
love to see that happen. Bonga is like his brother too but he’s not scary and I feel like he’s the one I could
make a conversation with without being scared and want to shit myself.

I love uSicelo. I love this man very much and I’ll feel forever grateful to him. One day I hope I will show
him how much I love him. “ where are we shopping mama? ” the way he says mama to me hits me deep in my
heart. It makes me feel warm and fuzzy. “ we can go to my parents house and collect their school uniform
and books and all our clothes. ” I tell him.

“ guys go to Woolworths we will find you there. ” they take the kids with them. “ love what do you really
need from your back room? ” he asks me. “ their birth certificates and school books. Our clothes too sicelo
because I don’t trust them.” He sighs.

“ okay baby. ” we go to Woolworths and begin to shop. They take kagiso and go to the boys section to look
for some clothes. Celeste helps me select school clothes and the men join us we and up buying so many
things and unnecessary things because the uncles both want to buy the kids stuff. I look around and notice that
there are many women in the shop now than when we arrived. It must be the Zulu giant men here in the shop.
They pay and give the security guys some of the shopping and take the rest to the cars we came in. They come
back and I look at my handsome man and I know and truly believe that God blessed me. He does answer our
prayers in the end.

He comes to me, picks me up and spins me around and I laugh. He kisses me and people are looking at us
even the one’s I know and I’m sure my whole family now knows and I don’t care. We go to spur and all the
girls who work there rush to us. “ remind me to never go shopping with you guys. It’s a nightmare, the women
my God!. ” Celeste says irritated as we sit down. Three girls come to serve us and their eyes are on all these
men. I shake my head and chuckle. The kids go and play.

“ we don’t care about women who look at us or even try to get our attention. We are all taken by the women
we love and who love us and who are not afraid to kill us.” mbuso says. Sicelo pecks my cheek and I blush.
I’m not used to this kind of attention but I absolutely love it. My life has changed and for the best. Thank you
my Guardian Angel who ever you are out there for looking out for me. They bring our drinks and I order for
the kids and myself. Celeste orders for herself then the men look at me. Ohk what’s going on?

“ what’s wrong? ” I ask them but looking at my man.

“ our wives are not here and you are not ordering for us or even your husband. Bafo we are going to starve
here ” mbuso says then they all fold their arms. What? Their wives order for them and now I must order for
them too?. Celeste looks like she wants to burst out laughing.

“ uhm I’m sorry bhuti mbuso but I don’t know what you eat. ” I tell him.

“ we eat the same thing your man eats. ” bonga says. I have never been this confused in my life and sicelo is
not helping me at all. He looks so amused. So I order for them medium rump stakes the last number they have
with vegetables. They look at me shocked.

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“ you really are going to make us eat vegetables? ” bonga says like he wants to vomit. What’s wrong with
vegetables cause they all look like they eat healthy. “ lungi knows I hate vegetables and I don’t eat them.” Is
mbuso sulking?.

“ Bathong hanthi lebatla hoja eng?!. ” ( what exactly do you want to eat?) I ask them confused. They look at
me and I see their mouths moving then they all burst out laughing loud. What the hell? I end up laughing and
joining them. Sicelo kisses me full on the mouth still laughing.

“ Relax mama. They are just playing with you. ” he is still laughing.

“ welcome lesego. But please don’t starve us when we visit your home. ” mbuso says chuckling. He knows
how to joke and smile. I’m shocked!.

“ I promise I wont. Celeste why didn’t you warm me? ” I ask her.

“ they are idiots ” she whispers. I laugh.

“ thank you for everything you have done for us since we met you aunty Celeste ” they all laugh.

“ oh hell no!. I’m always going to be Celeste. No. Aunty here ” we laugh.

“ lesego?, lesego?. ” the whole table goes quiet. I look up and it’s my sister with her husband who is holding
an envelope. My smile vanishes that same moment. The whole mood shifts around us on the table. What the
hell does she want.

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LESEGO.

The mood instantly changed around the table. She takes a seat no one told her to take and is about to sit down
but mbuso gets up and sits next to sicelo. Mapaseka looks at him confused then her husband sists next to her
and she’s sitting next to bonga who looks bored. I open my mouth to ask her what the hell she wants but my
man shakes his head. “ oh wow lesego. When mom said you left with some men who looked shady, I didn’t
realise she was talking about the famous business man, It Guru Mbuso Gumede, you know he holds a PhD in
IT right? And that’s his brother who’s an architect? ” she points at bonga. How the hell does she know them?.
“ and then siqelo ngcobo one of the best engineers south Africa has like wow! . Did you know that his family
supplies the biggest supermarkets here in South Africa with meat and… . ”

“ kahle!. ubani wena ntombazane ongakwazi nokubulisa? ” yep, don’t mess with mbuso. “ wazimema wahlala
phansi then you begin telling us our CV’s?. Didn’t your parents taught you manners? ” ( wait!, who are you
girlie who doesn’t know how to greet people?. You invite yourself and sit down…. …. .). Mbuso asks her.

“ Oh I thought you know me? ” mapaseka says. The guys and Celeste look at each other they burst out
laughing loud. She looks at them confused..

“ now why the hell would you think that. What gave you that idea? ” bonga asks. She looks at her husband
Tefo who’s looking embarrassed.

“ well I am lesego's sister and I thought she told you about me?. ”

“ She told who? ” Celeste asks her.

“ uhm I mean all of you. I know mbuso that you are married to your very beautiful wife so my sister is maybe
seeing your brother or siqelo. I mean wow lesego, you go to Durban then you come back with these rich
business men wow sis. How did you do it?. ” she says laughing to herself. Her eyes keep going to mbuso and
she blushes a little. This bitch.

“ did what mapaseka? ” I ask her

“ oh please you know what I mean. Look we came here cause my husband is a business man and he has this
really great business idea. So since my sister is seeing one of you I thought that hey let me bring my husband
here then you guys can help him out since we are all going to be family now. ”

“ how did you know we are here mapaseka? ”

“ dad followed you after you left. So which one is yours sis? ” she asks me and I cannot believe what she has
just said. The nerve of this woman and now she’s going to pretend that me and her have this sisterly
relationship?.

“ Tefo take your wife and go back to the whole the both of you crawled out of and never do what you did
here. ” I tell mapaseka's husband.

“ Oh please lesego. All you have to do is tell me that you are not seeing one of them. I mean you dating one of
these men?!. ” she laughs and claps her hand. I get so angry I want to slap her and wipe that smug smile of her
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face. Sicelo grabs my hand. I look at him and he smiles and I smile too.

“ I love you ” he says. Mapaseka gasps in shock

“ I love you too ” he kisses me then looks at tefo.

“ get up!. ” sicelo says looking at tefo then mapaseka. They look at each other confused. “ I said get the fuck
up! ” they both stand. Tefo looks scared now and mapaseka the stupid one stands up smiling shaking her
saggy hips. She’s is still looking at mbuso who’s not even paying her attention.

His phone rings and his whole face and demeanor changes. He smiles a full blown smile and I hear
mapaseka sighing. I know mbuso is handsome and he has that thing about him but mapaseka is totally being
disrespectful to her husband. I hope now he sees what trash he married.

Mbuso answers his phone. “ khanyo?,” he chuckles my God the man is handsome but I only have eyes on the
man I love but that doesn’t mean I don’t see how handsome mbuso is. “ I’m coming baby. I’ll be there in an
hour and thirty minutes. I love you khanyo. ” he listens then chuckles shaking his head. He hangs up and looks
at sicelo. Who is khanyo now?. My man shakes his head. “ I have to go brothers I’lll see you tomorrow. ” he
says to sicelo and bonga. They bro hug then he looks at me. “ I’ll see you too tomorrow maMotaung. Tell the
kids uncle mbuso had to leave but I’ll see them tomorrow ”

“ thank you again bhuti mbuso. ” he nods. “ Celeste walk me out. ”

“ sure boss ” she says and they leave. Mapaseka is still looking at mbuso with lust in her eyes and her mouth
is open. She’s fucken disgusting right now. “ close your mouth!. You are fucken disgusting and disgracing
your husband right now and stop lusting after other people’s husbands..” She gasps in shock and I am
shocked to because I never swear.

“ I wasn’t lusting after him. I was just looking and there’s nothing wrong with looking. ” she says annoyed.

“ Tefo that’s your name right?. Take that piece of trash you call a wife away from here while you still have
some of your dignity left. ”

“ brother please I just need to have a meeting with you and tell you about my idea. Please I could really use
an investor. ” he says desperately and I almost feel sorry for him but I don’t. In fact I’m annoyed.

“ I’m not your brother. Don’t ever call me that. Get the fuck off! ” sicelo says annoyed. “ but lesego talk to
him ”

“ You heard my man. Now fuck off!. ” I tell her. Bonga laughs.

“ we are family lesego. Talk to him. I’ll be expecting your call.”

“ you talk to much mapaseka. For fuck’s sakes leave. ” bonga says. Tefo takes his envelope and leaves
mapaseka who is standing there like her shoes are glued to the floor.

The kids come back running and laughing then they stop when they see mapaseka. “ daddy ” kamo says. “
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come here angel. ” she sits next to her dad and kagiso sits next to bonga. “ wow they are calling him dad
already?. Does thuto know that you are making his kids call another man dad?. ” she says shocked.

“ ohk we have entertained you for long now leave!. ” bonga says.

“ I am going to tell him lesego. He has to know what you are doing with his kids!. What did he give you?, oh
my God you are already pregnant for him aren’t you!. That is the only reason why they would be here!. You
trapped him with a baby like how you trapped thuto…” I quickly get up and slap the shit out of her face.

“ lesego did you just slap me!. ” she says trying to slap me back but sicelo gets up quickly to block the slap
but then Celeste pulls her back by her weave and she screams. “ they are attacking me, they are attacking me
arrest them!. ” oh my God I cannot believe I just slapped her.

“ ma'am please leave the restaurant. You are causing a scene and disturbing our guests. ” the manager says to
mapaseka. “ sir I’m sorry for this woman ruining your dinner. Security!, security ” he calls the mall security,
they come and drag my sister out screaming and threatening me.

“ I’m sorry I didn’t mean to hit her. I have never hit anyone in my life. ” I apologize. They bring our food and
the kids eat.

“ she deserved that and more baby. Let’s eat and leave. The kids have school tomorrow. ” I nod.

“ you should have slapped her the moment she started talking smack about you. You handled yourself well
cause if it was my woman? Man we would be talking a different story. ” he says shaking his head smiling.

“ yeah Sims is crazy. They would have kicked all of us out ” they laugh and just like that we have forgotten
about my sister. We have light conversations as we are eating. I don’t know how much they tipped the
waitress but I’m sure it was a lot because they screamed with excitement. We are at the parking lot. The kids
get in the car when the three suddenly look at me serious.

“ what’s wrong? ” sicelo sighs then looks at me.

“ Celeste and the guys went to your parents house to get your clothes and when they got there… . ” he gets
hesitant.

“ they chased them away? ”

“ no baby. They found them burned. They burned all of your things including those of the kids. Everything is
gone. ” I look at him then bonga and Celeste and I can see their worried faces. Tears well in my eyes.
Everything I have worked hard for years is gone because they hate that much?!. “ why do these things happen
to me sicelo? Why does my family hate me this much?. What did I ever do to them to do these things to me?.
Why can’t I just have a moment of peace? ” I break down and cry in his arms. He holds me and comforts me.

I wipe my tears and look at him. “ it’s okay. I can always get new birth certificates for them. They had along
day and tomorrow it’s a school day. We don’t have beds in our house so where are you going to sleep? ” I
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ask bonga and Celeste.

“ we booked into a hotel. We will stay there but some of the guys are coming with you. To watch out in case
anything happens since your father was following us cause I think he knows where you live now. ” bonga
says. I nod.

“ we will see you tomorrow girl. ” Celeste give me a hug and surprisingly bonga too then we get in the cars
and leave. We get home and the security guys help us take everything in the house. I take the toiletries to the
bathroom then run a bath for kids. “ kamo, kagiso come and bath. ” I hear sicelo shouting and telling them not
to run. They come in running still. They take off their clothes then get in the bath. I bath them then put them in
their new pyjamas.

“ where is your dad? ” I ask them.

“ he was on the phone mommy ” I nod. “ ok get in bed. ”

“ can daddy come and put us to bed like those kids we see in the TV? ” I smile.

“ daddy is here and he wouldn’t miss this for the world ” he says picking up both of them up. He is so strong
and so sexy. My man is everything. I open the duvet and he puts them in the middle of the bed and I cover
them.

“ daddy? ” kagiso says.

“ champ?. ”

“ when we wake up in the morning you will be here right? ” sicelo palms his face. “ I made a promise to you
that I am never going to leave you and I won’t. I will be right here in the morning and take my champ and
princess to school. ”

“ ok dad. ” he says.

“ now sleep cause tomorrow your friends will be excited to see you. ” they nod. He kisses both their cheeks.
I miss them too.

“ good night kids. ” he says.

“ good night mommy, good night daddy. ” kagiso says and kamo repeats after him. He smiles. I can see the
love he has for my kids and I know it comes from his heart. Thank you God for blessing me with this amazing
man and his family.

“ love you daddy ” kamo says smiling. He looks her and smiles.

“ I love you more angel. I love you too champ. ” she giggles and kagiso nods. We switch the lights to dim and
half close the bedroom door. “ come with me. ” he says taking my hand and leads me to another bedroom.
The whole house is empty. I wish the house came with furniture cause I have no clue about decorating a
house this big but I hope sicelo's sister can help me. I will ask sicelo for her numbers.
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He takes me to the bathroom and I see that he was lighting candles all around the bathroom. I smile. “ it looks
beautiful baby. Thank you. ” I tell him. “ you had along day and so you deserve some pampering.” He helps
me get out of my clothes then I get in the bath and sigh. “ aren’t you joining me? ” I ask him.

“ uh baby I don’t think that’s a good idea. ” I smile.

“ baby get in the bath tub with me please?. ” I beg him.

“ ok but I still don’t think it’s a good idea. ” I smile. He takes off his t-shirt off, shoes , belt, watch and then
his pants with underwear and his dick springs free. I sigh and my thighs squirm.

“ you still think it’s a good idea? ” I nod. He chuckles then gets in behind me. His thighs touch mine and his
chest on my back then his thick hard dick is on my back. My nipples get hard and I swallow.

“ baby are you okay? ” I nod. “ talk to me. ” he says.

“ uhm nothing baby. ”

“ ok. ” he says and I think he is smiling. He pulls me back, more closer to him. My body shudders when I feel
how long his dick is. My nipples are so hard right now. He snakes his hand around my waist I moan. I close
my eyes and take a deep breath and lay my head back on his chest. I feel his breath on my face. I swallow
again my body get really hot. It must be the warm water.

“ baby? ”

“ hmmm ” but it sounded like a moan. He opens his mouth and I feel warm air then he nips it and I definitely
moan this time. His hands go up and palms my breasts. He plays with my nipples and I feel like I want more.
I turn my face and look at him. His hand goes down and down. I open my legs and welcome him as he palms
my pussy. “ he looks at me and asks me “ what do you want? ”

“ You. ” I tell him straight not hesitating. He claims my mouth, his fingers find my sensitive nub and oh God
he… .

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LESEGO.
He slips his finger in me, killing me deeply and passionately. Our tongues dance together, out teeth clash for
a brief moment and I get lost in the moment as he moves his finger in and out of my tight channel. I open my
legs wider cause the sensation, the emotions he is evoking in me are something I have never felt before. I
don’t know what to do to myself. His lips are so soft and his kisses are driving me crazy.
I put my hand on top of his hand that is fingering me and I mimic his movement. His other hand wraps around
my throat and groans when I move his hand off mine and I put my fingers on my clit. He likes it. I rub my
sensitive nub and rub it softly up and down and all a round. God this feels so good. How did I live so long
without feeling a man’s touch on my skin and in my body?. He adds another finger and I move my hips as his
hand adds more pressure in me and pumps fast in and out. His thumb and my fingers both rub my clit in all
different directions and I feel my blood running to my clit. My vagina muscles clamp around his fingers
contracting. I move my hand off, his kisses get more hungrier, more harder and fast. He adds another third
finger, fingers me with his other three finger and presses the pad of his thumb on my clit and I lose it and
come all over his fingers contracting all around them. He swallows my cries and he keeps kissing and
fingering me until I come down from my climax.
“ you okay baby? ” I nod. He chuckles. “ move forward baby. ” I move forward and my body still wants
more. I want him. I want to feel him in me filling me up. He gets out of the bath, dries himself and his dick is
so hard and pre-cum is leaking out. I can imagine him getting that dick in me and fucking my brains off. I get
up, step out of the bathtub and he dries me. Is this it? Are we done?. I am disappointed.
“ Baby ” I call him. He smiles and gets up from kneeling wiping my feet. “ yes baby?. ” he says and it’s like
he knows what I’m going to ask him.
“ are we done?...we are not going to……you know what? ” He laughs and pulls me to him. “ you mean make
love and then fuck each other? ” he asks me smirking. Heat creeps up on my face. Does he have to be so
crass though?. “ yeah. Are we not doing it? ” he laughs then puts his hands on my shoulders and pushes me
down softly until I get on my knees. I am directly face to face with his dick and I suck in my breath when I see
how massive it is.
I swallow and look at it ok I can do this. I did it once and I can do it again. I take a deep breath in and close
my eyes. I don’t have to think about it. This is different. It is not the same. I love this man and he loves me. “
baby are you okay? ” I nod. My eyes are still closed. My heart rate is changing and it is beating faster and
faster. “ lesego? ”
“ just give me a moment baby. I will do it. Just… . ” I can feel my tears streaming down my face. “ baby
look at me. ” he says and I shake my head no. I can’t look at him. He pulls me up to him and looks at me. “
hey it’s okay. You don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do okay?. You don’t have to cry baby.” He
says and I sniff and shake my head.
It’s not him it’s me. How do I tell him that the problem is with me.. “ I’m sorry for pushing you. I knew you
were not ready and I just let emotions get the better of me and I’m sorry baby. ”
I shake my head no again. I want to explain but my lips won’t move. I am scared of my shame. I don’t know if
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“ baby please look at me and tell me what is wrong? ” I wrap my arms around him and hold him. “ lesego
you are shaking. Did someone hurt you? ” I don’t know how to answer that because I’m not sure myself. “
baby please open up to me. You don’t have to scared.”
He picks me up, I wrap my legs around his waist then he sits down in the closed toilet bowl. My head is on
his neck and I breathe him in and I calm down a little. “ whenever you are ready, I’ll be here listening. You
don’t have to tell me now but know that whatever you tell me won’t change anything about my love for you. I
loved you yesterday, I love you now and I will love you forever. ” he says.
I look at this wonderful man and kiss him. “ I applied for the cleaners post at the kids school and when I got a
call that I was one of the few people selected to come to the interviews the next day, I was so happy and
excited. I thought finally I’m going to have a job and provide for my kids. I prayed during the night and the
following morning. I left with the kids to school and decided to wait there because my interview was at nine
am. The others arrived and one by one they went in and did their interview. I was the last one and the time
was around 12:15pm. I got in and the principal was alone. I was surprised that he was alone because I
thought the SGB members would be part of the interviewers. I sat down and did my interview. He was
professional and all then I went home after he told me they would call after he has made a decision. ” I take a
deep breath. He is brushing my back up and down.
“ I got a call from one of the clerks telling me that one have to come for a second interview because there
was something not adding up on my CV. I was surprised cause I did write that I have no work experience and
I didn’t lie about it. The interview was that day at 3pm. I left the kids alone and told them to lock up and not
open for anyone until I come back. When I got there, there was only the clerk. She told me to go to the office
and I did. When I got there again he was alone. I didn’t think it was weird or anything cause the last I was
here he was alone.
I sat down and he asked the same questions he asked before and I gave him the same answers. He then tells
that I qualify in all ways but I know how these things work. I was confused as to what he was talking about.
He tells me that I have to bribe him to give me the job. I was shocked but because I was desperate I asked
how much the bribe is and he told me it’s R2500 and I didn’t have that money and there was no were I was
going to get it. I asked me to give me five minutes to call my sister and he agreed. I called mapaseka, my
brother and my parents and they all refused. They said they had no money for me. I was devastated sicelo. I
really needed that job because it was going to make my kid’s life a little better. I told the principal that I’m
struggling to get hold of the money but I will go to a loan shark and borrow from there then come back and he
refused. He told me there was another way to pay. ” I have never told anyone what happened. What I did.
“ you don’t have to continue baby if it is hard. ” he says. I shake my head no. “ I have never told anyone this
sicelo but because I trust you, I want you to know what I did. ” he pecks my cheek and nods. “ I asked him
what is the other way for me to pay and he said I could… he wants me to give him a blow job. I looked at
him shocked as he unbuckled his pants and he took it out. I was so scared sicelo. I thought he was going to
rape me. I stood there shocked and watched him disgusted as he got himself hard. He asked me to make a
decision or get the hell out of there. I really wanted to leave but I thought about my kids and one lousy blow
job.” His chest is wet because of my tears. “ I told him that I will do it once and he must promise me that he
will not rape me. He agreed and pushed me to my knees and…. I did it. ” he curses softly and holds me
tighter. “ I didn’t want to do it but I thought of kids sicelo. I only did it for them. I hated every moment and I
hated myself more as he kept doing it. When he was done I got up and ran out. I couldn’t cry as I walked all
the way home and I thought everyone who looked at me knew what I did.
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When I got to my room, I made the kids food and they asked to go play outside and I agreed. All these
thoughts started playing on my mind that what if he is going to change his mind and not offer me the job and I
had already done something like this. I was disgusted with myself and I cried. I brushed my teeth until my
gums were bleeding because Icould still feel him in my mouth. I got the job and my family accused me of
sleeping with him for the job since I couldn’t get hold of the money. My mom once called me a slut and a
prostitute and I told her that I would do anything for my kids even if it means I must sell my body to provide
for them then I would cause no one will help me. I wanted to tell you this cause I know my family will tell
you lies about how I got the job. I was ashamed of myself sicelo but I was happy that I got the job and the
principal never asked another thing from me. I hate what I did but what I know is I would do anything for my
kids not to struggle and I would do it again for them. ” I choke up.
He takes a deep breath in and breathes out deeply. “ I don’t judge you lesego and I don’t blame you for what
you did. If you had your family’s support and thuto's supporting the kids, you wouldn’t have done what you
did. Your back was against the wall and you did like any other mother would do and that is to put food on the
table for her kids. You did not do this for enjoyment but for seeking security for our kids. You getting that job
meant our kids won’t have to go to bed with an empty stomach. It really hurts me to hear what you had to do
while the people who were suppose to be there for you didn’t help you in anyway. ” he sighs.
“ I love you and I am proud to call you the mother of my kids. The world has been against you for far too long
but now leave everything to me and let me take care of you and our kids. You will never again struggle in
your life for as long as I live and even after. You will always be taken care of. I’m proud of you baby. You
have come out victorious each and every time when life wasbhard and it wanted you to fail. Our kids have
one amazing woman and I love you more now than I did thirty minutes ago ” I giggle. “ thank you for trusting
me and telling me all of this because I know it was hard to share that with me. Your secrets are safe with me.
I won’t ever use what you have told me against you in anyway I promise you that. ” he pecks my cheek and
holds me.
“ thank you mapholoba. ” we hold each other and just sit silently. “ let’s go to bed. We have kids that must
wake up and go to school. ” he says.
“ I have to go to work tomorrow too. ” I remind him. “ you are no longer going to work there. You will tell
him tomorrow when we drop off the kids. ” he says and that’s final.
“ sicelo? ” I look at him.
“ not open for negotiation or discussion. Let’s go to bed. I’m tired. ” he says and picks us up. “ we can’t
sleep with the kids naked baby ” I giggle. “ fuck me!. Wear your pyjamas and I’ll look for my shorts and T-
shirt. ” he puts me down. I turn and he spanks my ass and I laugh.
“ I love you and your sexy ass!. ” he says
“ I love you but I think I love your dick more. ” I tell him laughing, he laughs too. He bought something to
wear from Woolworths and we wear our pyjamas. We go to bed and watch our kids sleeping peaceful. I
gently pick up kagiso and put him on the other side.
“ what are you doing? ” he whispers. “ I want to fall asleep in your arms.” He nods. I get in bed and he gets
in after me. His front to my back, kamo then kagiso.

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“ I love you lesego. ”
“ I love you sicelo. Good night. ”
“ good night baby. ” I sigh and sleep cause I feel like a huge loud has been lifted off my shoulders. I sleep
with a smile on my face.

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LESEGO.
The kids are very excited to be going to school in a car and with their dad. Never did I think that going to
Durban would change my life in a way I never thought was possible. You read about things like these in
romance novels and watch them on romantic movies on TV but here it happened to me and I’m still in shock
and happy too. The only sad thing is that my family burned some of their school books but at least they do
have books that stay at school. Bonga and Celeste came too to see the kids to school.
This family is something else because the closeness and tightness I saw between sicelo and his brother’s in-
law is something amazing. I wonder what it is going to be like to meet the rest of the family?. I’m scared
though because what if they don’t like me or like that sicelo loves a woman who already has kids?. God
please let them like me and make them see that I love their son and I want to be part of their family.
Sicelo did not judge me or look at me in a different way when I told him what I did. In fact it made us closer.
I’m glad that I told him my deepest darkest secrets because I know my family would have used that against
me. I hope they won’t cause problems and sabotage my happiness. I’m sure mapaseka told them what
happened and added flowers too to make herself look innocent and I’m pretty sure too that they told that good
for nothing sperm donor thuto. I swear to God if he tries anything, I will kill him myself.
“ baby? We are here. ” my man says. I look at him and smile. The back passenger door opens and it’s bonga.
He unbuckles their seats and they step out. We step out too. The parents at school dropping their kids off are
looking at me surprised and shocked because they didn’t except this. Well neither did I sisters. Sicelo takes
both of their hands and walks them to the gate. He pecks both of their cheeks. I do too “ are you going to pick
us again daddy ” kamo asks. “ I am princess. Now go to school. ” she smiles. Her friends call her over and
she goes to them and forgets about us. Kagiso fist bumps with his dad, his uncle and Celeste too, waves at me
and off he goes to his friends too getting inside the school gates.
“ just like that they have forgotten about us. ” their dad says. We laugh.
“ lesego? ” I turn and see that it’s the principal who is calling my name. Fuck me. “ principal Mabuza hi. ”
He looks at me then looks at my man, bonga and Celeste then looks at the cars and you can see confusion on
his face. “ hi I’m principal Mabuza and you are? ” he says wanting to shake his hand. What the hell is this
man doing?
“ I’m her husband. ” sicelo says and the principal looks at my left hand. “ principal eyes here, don’t look at
her. ” he says snapping his fingers.
“ you got married? Wow. Why are you not inside now working? ” he asks me. “ I told her to quit that’s why.
There is something we want to discuss with you principal. Your office? ” what?
“ oh yes sure. I’m sad to see you go lesego but should you need your job back, you know where to find me.
Gentleman follow me. ” bonga and sicelo look at each other. “ get in the car. We will be back. ” he kisses me
and they follow the principal.
“ what did you say to sicelo and what did the principal do to you? ” what?
“ What do you mean Celeste? ”
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“ the only way sicelo would want to talk with the principal in private is because he wants to talk about
something the principal did to you and I think it’s a bad thing. Now what did he do to you?. ” she asks me.
“ oh my God Celeste.” I tell her what I told sicelo. “ I’m sorry you went through that lesego. The principal
knew of your situation and he took advantage of that. Sicelo doesn’t let anyone get away with hurting the
people he loves. ”
“ wow.. Will they hurt him? ” she laughs. “I’m asking not because I care but because I don’t want anything
bad to happen to sicelo and bonga.” I tell her.
“ nah they won’t hurt him. If they wanted to he wouldn’t be here. ” she says. Wow. We wait for almost two
hours and then they come back laughing.
“ let’s go guys have some breakfast and buy furniture for your house baby. ” he says when they get in the car.
Celeste goes with bonga and we drive off.
“ What happened in there? What did you want to talk to him about? ” He chuckles. “ only that he must stop
doing what he is going to other women who are desperate and in need of jobs or else I would find all the
women he has done the same thing he did to you and get them to open a case against him. ”
“ thank you baby. I hope he knows you meant it cause you did right?. ” he takes my hand. “ I meant every
word mama. I could never joke about something so sensitive like this. ” I nod.
“ where are we having breakfast and where are we going to buy furniture? ”
“ you will decide. We can look at those furniture shops. ” he says.
“ I was thinking that maybe I could ask your sister to help me decorate the house cause I have no idea how to
decorate our big house. I wouldn’t know where to start. ”
“ oh that’s a great idea baby. Between you, her and Sims, they can make your house be as beautiful as you
want. Lets have breakfast first then we will call her. I was hoping you guys can meet first before you talk on
the phone but it’s okay. ” he says.
“ do you think she will like me? ” his face beams
“ she’s going to love you. She’s is an amazing person. You’ll see when you meet her. ”
“ baby who is khanyo? ” he looks at me.
“ it’s Lungi’s name given by her in-laws. She’s nokukhanya. They said she brought light and love in mbuso's
life. She’s his light. ”
“ wow that’s beautiful. ”
“ it is mama. I wonder what my aunts will name you ” he chuckles.
“ as long as it will have a beautiful meaning. ” I tell him. “ sicelo? ”

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“ mama? ” my heart melts when he calls me that.
“ why didn’t we continue having sex? ”
“ are you horny love? ” he asks me seriously. I blush so profusely like everyone heard what he just asked me.
“ baby man. ” I laugh.
“ well we didn’t fuck each other cause the things I want to do to you will wake the kids and they will catch
us in a very uncompromising position and because I want to fuck the shit out of you and make you lose
yourself in me. I want us to be alone so I know how loud I can make you scream and beg for my dick. Take
off your underwear ” I press my thighs together as he says that.
“ we are almost at the mall baby. ” he calls bonga.
“ brother? ”
“ brother I’m going to park at the underground parking. We will find you inside. You'll tell us where you are
at? ”
“ couldn’t you wait at least until you got home? ” he says laughing.
“ shut up fool. My woman wants me. ” he laughs then hangs up.
“ I can’t believe you said that to him. How am I going to look at him sicelo? ”
“ The same way you have always done. You smile. ” he grins. I shake my head. We arrive at the mall and be
goes to park at the underground parking lot. He looks at me and smiles.
“ Take off your panties mama. ” my God I get wet. I lift off my butt and take them off. He takes them and
sniffs them. “ you smell so sweet. I can’t wait to taste you. ” he says.
“ will anyone see us? ” he presses a button and my seat leans back and laying flat on my back and the seat
moves backward too. “ the windows are dark. No one will see us. We will see them though. Lift your dress
up and spread open those legs for me. ” I do as he says and I know he’s going to see that I am wet. He locks
the doors then gets up, jumps, I lift up my legs cause I see what he wants to do. He kneels between my legs
and puts my legs on his shoulders. “ thank God for German SUV machines and space. He hands run up and
down my thighs and I shudder.
“ are you ready for me mama? ” I shake my head no the yes and he chuckles. His hands go up and he cups my
pussy. I moan. “ you look so beautiful baby. ” he says then uses the pad of his thumbs and opens my vulva. He
leans forward then blows air in my pussy and I moan. “ sicelo ” I say then swallow.
“ yes mama. Tell me what you want and need. ”
“ I want you. I need you please. ”
“ where does it ache? ”
“ sicelo? ” I say frustrated and he laughs.
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“ tell me mama or I won’t be able to help you. ” he says with his amazing smile
“ it aches here ” I point at my pussy.
“ tell me where it aches baby. ” his mouth is very close to my pussy cause I can feel his warm breath.
“ my pussy… . Please!. ”
“ you don’t have to beg me baby. I am at your service. ” he says and I feel his whole mouth on my pussy and
he muffs me. “ yes! Oh God yes! ” I say and out my hand on his head. His tongue goes in and out as it fucks
me so sweet and good. It moves in, it moves out. On my clit, around it and I move my waist and fuck his face.
He muffs me like it’s the last thing he wants to do before he goes to eat his other meal. I moan, scream and
hold his head tight and call his name. I can feel his beard is wet with my juices and it’s pricking me so good
on the inside of my thighs. His hands hold me down and tight and the onslaught on and in my pussy by his
mouth continues and I feel my orgasm coming.
I want to tell him that I am going to come but the only words that come out of my mouth is me saying his name
over and over again. My blood is flowing in all directions, my nipples are hard and I want his dam dick in
me. He groans and I hear shuffling of his belt and oh God that big juicy thick dick I saw makes me lose my
mind and my body begins to shake. Sicelo quickly stops, grabs my thighs and pulls me down to him and I
realise his pants are not there. I feel something hard on my opening and I moan loud. “ sicelo I’m going to
come. I’m close ” I tell him panting. He rubs his dick up and down on my opening groaning and oh God if he
can just out it in and fuck me.
He doesn’t instead he lays on top of me as uncomfortable as it is he doesn’t seem to mind. His dick presses
directly on my clit and I moan and close my eyes. He claims my mouth, kisses me deeply and thrusts his hips
and his dick is pressing hard on my clit so when it moves it causes a wonderful friction. Our tongues and lips
dance as we continue to give what our bodies crave the most. His hands go under me and he grabs both ass
cheeks and continues to thrust. My legs shake violently and I can’t hold on anymore. I let go and let my
climax take over as I moan his name in his mouth over and over gain. He let’s my mouth go and buries his
head in my neck and groans deep. He stills then I feel his warm seed on my stomach as he cums until he
finishes. I am so wet and my clothes are at too and his also too.
“ mapholoba? ”
“ yebo mama? ” ( yes? ) he says.
“ I want more. The kids are at school we have the whole house to ourselves. ”
“ you want my dick in you? ”
“ please?. ”
“ let’s go home. ”
“ what about bonga and Celeste? ”
“ they will be fine baby. ” he kisses me the gets off me. Wipes his seed with my underwear then pulls my
dress down. He tucks himself in and buckles his belt but you can still see how hard he is. He starts the engine
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and off we drives home. We get there in 10 minutes. He parks, I get out taking my hand back. Open the door
then run to our bedroom and take off my clothes. He comes in after me and locks our bedroom door and I
help him out of his clothes too and my man is drop dead gorgeous.
“ oh fuck?!. ” he says
“ what? What’s wrong now? ” I whine.
“ we have no condoms!. Fuck!. ”
“ we don’t need them sicelo.. I trust you and I know you will never put my life in danger. I want to feel all of
you with nothing between us. ” he picks me up, I wrap my legs around him and we kiss deeply and
passionately.
“ I can’t wait. I have to be inside of you. I wanted out first time to be something you will always remember
but.. ” he says between kisses
“ Stop. Talking and fuck me ” I tell him
He lays me down with him and we continue to kiss. His hands are on my ass and I love the way he is
grabbing them. “ put me in you ” he says.
I snake my hand between us and grab him and he groans. I pump him up and down tighter and tighter and he
curses. I point his proud member on my hole and wait for him to thrust in. My heart is beating so fast because
I can’t wait to feel him in me.
“ Are you ready? ” he asks me I nod. “ look at me ” he says I do. He thrust in a little and I am panting like a
dog in heat.
I pull my hand off and wait for him. “ focus on me and our kiss okay. ” I nod. He kisses me slowly and I
focus on that. I didn’t know looking at your man straight in the eyes when you are being intimate can be one
of the most sexiest things. He thrusts in and gets his soft velvet mushroom head in and we both moan. I feel
my muscles expanding with pain but it feels damn good. “ you okay? ”
“ sicelo?!. ” why is he talking?. He chuckles then thrusts in hard and deep and I scream fuck that did hurt. “
you okay? ”
“ Aha ” I whisper. He almost pulls out but his dick is still in then he thrusts deep again and I cry out. It feels
so good with a little bit of pain. He keeps thrusting in and out slowly and deeply but I want more. I don’t
want him to handle me like I’m an egg. Does this man remember when was the last I had a dick in me? Or
maybe he is afraid that I will freak out if he gets a little rough?.
“ baby….ah ” he thrusts deeply and we both moan. “ yes baby? ”
“ I want it all. Don’t hold back please. Just fuck me!. ” he doesn’t say anything but lifts his upper body up.
Hands on either side of my head. Pulls out the thrusts in hard and deep and I cry out “ yes!. ” his thrusts get
more and more hard and he fucks me.
My boobs bounce up and down as he fucks the living day lights out of me. He grabs my boobs with both his
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hands and plays with my nipples, I bite my bottom lip to keep me from screaming. He hands go down and
grab my waist, lifting my ass off the bed. I put my hands on the headboard and push back on him and he
pushes in. It feels so good and wonderful and the way he is controlling my movement and his thrusts is the
most erotic thing I have ever seen or experienced. He knocks off my breath with every thrust and I love every
moment. I come calling his name but he doesn’t stop, he continues to fuck me senselessly. I didn’t know sex
can be so amazing and enjoyable. I love sex!.
Sicelo is the only man who has ever given me an Orgasm and I know he is always going to give me more. He
pulls his body down, I wrap my arms around his neck and let our mouths do the talking. I wrap my legs
around his waist and he approves because he groans and fucks me until my legs begin to shake again. He is
saying something but I can’t hear what he is saying because the greatest feeling I’m having right now is
making me go deaf. His pubic hair rubbing my pubic bone, the way his dick feels tightly around me hitting
every nerve drives me crazy. I grab his tight beautiful ass and feel it contracting and expanding on my hands
and I moan. He thrusts harder, still flexing his hips pressing deeper and that makes me cum hard!. My vagina
muscles contract around him and I scream and call his name. He pulls back then thrusts in again fast then he
groans deep and I feel him spilling his seed deep in me then I feel his whole body weight on me. I love it.
We hold each other tightly and listen to the beats of our hearts. I close my eyes then I feel him pulling out. He
chuckles then turns me then kneels. He is not tired? Doesn’t he need to prepare himself for another round?.
The moment I get on all fours he thrusts in hard and fucks me so good I regret asking him to fuck me. He fucks
me until I ask him to stop cause I am good but he makes me climax two more times before he cums and I
blackout and sleep.

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SICELO.
She looks so beautiful and thoroughly fucked. What we both shared just now is something I have never
experienced before. I want to wake her up and fuck her again but I can’t because her body needs to rest. She
hasn’t had sex in a very long time and her body has to get used to it again. I love this woman and I hope her
and luh would get close and because sisters like me and mbuso. I go take a quick shower then go to the
kitchen. We really need furniture in this house. We can’t live like this like how mbuso and luh lived in their
empty house.
I sit down then take my phone, send Celeste a message to being us food then I call dad. “ seen? ”
“ Mapholoba. Unjani? ” ( dad how are you? )
“ good seun. How are you?. ”
“ I could be better. ”
“ talk to me.. ”
“ I met this womam dad. Her name is lesego Motaung and she’s from Bethlehem. She has two kids. A boy
kagiso , he’s 8 nd a girl kamohelo she’s 7. I love her. I love them. All of them. She has had a rough and hard
life baba and her family had a hand on it. I have found her baba. ”
“ Ngwende called me to come and see him and he told me you have found your soulmate. He did say she has
kids too. So I guess I am a grandfather. ” he laughs.
“ you are. She is amazing baba and you are going to love her. She’s a great mother and a loving person. ”
“ I don’t doubt it. You sound happy and different son. I’m happy for you sicelo. But you haven’t told me what
is troubling you. ” my dad knows me so well.
“ I wanted to do things the right way baba but when I saw how much it hurt them when I took them back
home, it killed me. I have never cried like I did when they asked me not to take them back. I know I cried
when I found ulungile but this was different dad. I got to experience what it was to be a parent. ” I tell dad
how lesego lived. Everything she told me and what happened when I dropped them off.
“ She is so young to have lived such a life. What kind of parents are these son?. I thought we had finally
gotten rid of the mazibuko's but here are the motaung's also!. ” he sounds frustrated. “ traditionally what you
did was wrong and you disrespect their family but I understand why you did it and if I was in your shoes son,
I would have done the same thing. Sicelo you are a father now. Your past has to be the past including Zama.
You cannot keep calling that girl cause that will hurt maMotaung. What you did is enough and now she has to
stand on her own two feet. ”
“ I know dad and I will. There’s someone who owes me a favour and I will ask them to give Zama a job.”
“ You gave her security. A home and a car and that is enough. Mbuso got her a job. Call her and tell her it’s
the last time the both of you are going to talk or you do something for her because you have met your wife. It
will hurt her but she needs to know that it is over. You and her are never going to get back together.
MaMotaung has been through a lot sicelo and what she needs now it’s lots of love. Tell me again. What do
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you want me your father to help you with because I know you boys are capable of doing things on your own.
So this must be important. ” he says.
“ I understand baba and I will do what you have advised me to do. Baba I want to marry her as soon as
possible. I want to send a letter to her family and ask for her hand in a marriage and pay whatever price they
want as long as they will be all living with me. I want us to do everything they are going to ask. I don’t want
to kill them although God knows how much I want to kill each and everyone one of them but we can’t. I want
them to see how lesego and the kids lives are going to change. I want them to regret and be sorry for treating
her the way they have been doing. ”
“ I hear you son. We will send a letter after the weekend because we have to go to Pietermaritzburg. You
remember that they have to do a cleansing to name the child Buhle aborted.”
“ I had forgotten. Have they already left?. ”
“ I think they are leaving tomorrow. When will you come, all of you? ”
“ do you think it’s a good idea to come with everyone because I don’t want to take the attention away from
them. ”
“ son you know very well they are doing this because luh is pregnant and they don’t want the other child to
cause harm on luh and her pregnancy. If it wasn’t for that I doubt they would be having a cleansing and we
both know they will not at all mind but if you feel that you should bring them to the farm first then do that. ”
“ I think we will drive down on Friday afternoon then we will go on Saturday to bab Mnguni's house. I want
the kids to see the farm and animals. ”
“ you don’t know how happy I am to hear you sound so happy son. I can’t wait to meet my grandkids and
future daughter in-law. ”
“ thank you dad. I can’t wait for you to meet them too. Baba? ”
“ ndodana. ”.( son)
“ I want the kids to use my name. Our surname baba. ”
“ Sicelo. Are you sure about that because the family paid the fine and the kids use their surname right? ”
“ He paid one for kagiso and not kamo. Both the kids use her surname. She didn’t change it after he paid the
fine. Baba I don’t want him anywhere near kamo. I will kill him dad I swear. ”
“ We have to make sure that kamo never knows this. I will talk to your uncles and Ngwende about the way
we have to go about to get the kids to use our surname. You are doing the right thing about the kids to use our
surname because all the kids you will have with her will use your surname and it wouldn’t be fair to kagiso
and kamo to use their mother’s surname. ”
“ thank you dad. I was scared to ask you because I thought you would refuse. ”
“ I once told you sicelo that my children’s happiness is my number one priority and my happiness too. We
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will find a way to sort everything out son. Don’t worry. ”
“ Ok mapholoba. Enough about me, how are you? ”
“ I’m good. I met someone though.” We both laugh.
“ You did?. Who is she? ”
“ She’s a widower like me. She has three daughters and she lives here ”
“ Wow dad. I’m happy for you. Have you gone out and met her family?. ”
“ We have. She’s a good woman and her kids are good too. ”
“ I didn’t expect that. Have you told luh? ” he sighs.
“ I haven’t. I don’t know how she’s going to take it cause with her it’s different sicelo. Your mom died when
she was young and even though she has her pictures, she doesn’t remember her and I don’t know if she will
accept Agnes or what. You remember her and I hope when you meet her you would see that’s shes a good
woman.”
“ I don’t think luh will have a problem as long as she makes you happy then we will not have a problem with
that and honestly dad you have been single for years. It’s time you find someone to make you happy too.”
“ thank you son. I will talk to luh about her after she has given birth. I can’t wait to see her kids too. ” we
both laugh.
“ Me too dad. I’m going to spoil them and drive mbuso crazy. ” we laugh.
“ Preston told you what they are having right? ”
“ he did but ruined the surprise for everyone about the twins. ”
“ he was excited and drank too much wine ”
“ do we know who is the snitch? ”
“ you don’t think it’s Preston do you? ”
“ I don’t know dad. I asked Celeste to find out information about him and she hasn’t found out anything. ”
“ mbuso won’t let anyone close to luh without checking him out first. I’ll talk to him. ”
“ What if he’s not who we think he is?. ”
“ sicelo that boy spends most of the time with your sister alone when mbuso is working and has meetings in
Durban. If he’s not who we think he is then he could easily hurt her. Ey sicelo for his sake I hope you are
wrong son because when I investigated him, it showed that he comes from a Christian family and both his
parents are retired nurses. Ask Celeste if she has found out anything more about him. I’ll talk to mbuso. ”
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“ ok dad. ”
“ sure seun.” We hang up. I hope my uncles and dad will find a way for me to be able to change the kids
surname. I could adopt them then change their surnames but I want to do it traditionally first. I want then to be
recognized by my ancestors and be protected by them. I may have not birthed them but to me they are mine in
all ways and I want my family to know that also.
I look at the time and it’s 11 am. She is still napping and I’m hungry. I wonder what is taking Celeste and
bonga this long to come back with food. I call mbuso, he picks up when about to hang up.
“ Mapholoba ”
“ Phakathwayo. ”
“ How are you brother? ”
“ strong and better than yesterday. ”
“ good. How are the kids and Mrs? ” I chuckle.
“ she’s napping good and the kids are at school. They are good man. How are you guys? ”
“ ok man. We good but I want these people out of my house sicelo. ” I laugh.
“ How far are they?. ”
“ good thing is they split jobs. Others are almost done with the bathrooms and the kitchen is almost done. I
think by tomorrow they should all be done and out of here. I hope she is done with renovations. ” I chuckle
“ how is she? ”
“ she’s outside with Preston, you want to talk to her? ”
“ I’ll call her. Thank you for giving Zama a job. How did you know though? ”
“ when I saw you with lesego yesterday and the kids, I knew she’s the one for you and you can’t mess that up
by busy talking to Zama. So I asked luh to call her and find out how she’s doing and she told her that she’s
struggling to find a job and she’s still waiting for you cause you promised her that you will find something. I
called someone I know and asked him if he could give Zama a job and he did. Since she’s going to graduate
next year he offered her a job I’m marketing. I told her it’s from you, you’re the one who asked me to call
her. She will be fine. ”
“ thanks brother. How did dad know? ”
“ man you know him. He does his own investigations. ” we laugh.
“ I will call her and tell her it’s the last time I will be helping her and tell her about lesego. ”
“ brother what you had with zama wasn’t a relationship so you don’t owe her any explanations. I know you
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did her wrong but you have apologized and made it up to her. The money you gave her, gave her a chance to
start a brand new life which is what she is doing. You have to stop calling her and finding out what is going
on her life cause when you keep doing that, you are not breaking ties with her. You will hurt lesego in some
way when you keep doing that.. She’s your past and let her stay there and move on.”

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LUNGI.
# SorryNotEdited.
I hope things between my brother and lesego will work out and they will be a family because from what he
told me about her, she sounds like she is an amazing person. My husband is on his way back and I guess he
will fill me in about how things went in Bethlehem. I undress then go to bathroom and have a cold shower. It
cools my body down because I feel so hit and it doesn’t help that it’s way hot outside too. I stay in shower
until I feel like I’m a human again then carefully step out. I
take the towel and dry myself. Then go to the closet, find mbuso T-shirt and wear it. I take our clothes out
from the closet and begin packing them because we have to leave tomorrow morning and go to my in-laws
because we have a ceremony we have do before I give birth. I’m honestly happy that buhle and her parents
are out of our lives even though my family did a sloppy job when they got rid of them. Paul called me after
mbuso left, when I heard it was his voice on the phone I hanged up and blocked his number.
I keep going to the closet and back again to our bedroom because I can’t carry many clothes at once. I could
ask sis nonto to help me but I want to do it myself. I’m carry mbuso’s shoes when they slip and fall. Fuck, I
could leave them there but I could trip on them and fall. I place the other three on the bed then hold on to the
bed and bend down and take the one that fell. “ Are you done packing? ” it’s Preston. He’s been here the
whole time and I can’t remember when was the last time he spent a night a his place. I like him and all but
frankly I think I made a mistake but giving him a room at out house cause it seems like he has moved in and I
don’t like that. No I know I don’t like that now. I take the damn shoe them slowly stand and turn to look at
Preston. I almost gasp in shock but something tells to pretend that I didn’t see what I saw“ almost. Why? ” I
ask him.
“ because you have been here in your bedroom for too long and I was beginning to get worried ” he says like
he’s very concerned. “ I was just packing our clothes for the week. Are you coming with us? ” I look at him?.
He shakes his head. “ I don’t think I am mbuso's favourite person right now and I think it’s best if I stay clear
from him. ” good idea.
“ well you basically spoiled our surprise when you told everyone about me carrying twins. You took that
moment away from us Preston. It was wrong of you to say that! ” he sighs and sits on my bed. “ don’t sit on
my bed. Sit on the couch. ” he looks at me surprised by the tone of my voice. “ you are angry at me too?. I’m
sorry I did okay. I think it’s the wine that made me just blurt it out. ” he says and again I’m worried about him
blabbing stuff out.
“ hmmm, it makes me wonder if you have not spilled our secrets to other people we don’t know about. ” he
gasps at me shocked. “ you think that I have told other people things about your family?. ” I stop packing, try
to fold my arms on too my babies then look at him. “ well have you?. I mean you had four glasses of wine
Preston then you blurted it out. If four glasses of wine can make you spill secrets then imagine if you were
given something stronger?!. ”
“ well I have known this family for a few months and yes I have heard things and didn’t see many of them
because the guys always exclude me but even if they didn’t, I wouldn’t tell anyone anything. I thought you
knew me better than that. ” he sounds hurt and I still don’t buy it. “ do we really know you Preston other than
you are a doctor and your family disowned you because you are gay? ” he gets up from the couch looking at
me nervously.“ I think it’s best to go back to my place before we both say something that we will regret. ” he
says.
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“ what are you hiding Preston? Who are you? ” he looks at me and I feel the hair on the back of my neck
stand. He won’t hurt me can he? I’m not alone in the house and there’s security outside. If I scream, they
would come in here running. “ I’m going to go. I’ll see you.” He quickly leaves and I breath out deeply. I
wasn’t even aware that I was holding my breath. I sit down and my heart is beating fast. Could I be wrong
about Preston? And possibly have ruined our friendship?. I don’t know but my gut says otherwise.
I have to tell mbuso what I’m thinking and suspecting. He will know what to do and deal with it but one thing
I know for sure is he would never let anyone close to me without checking them out first. I take my phone,
leave the bedroom and go to the kitchen. Nonto is coming and the house smells amazing. “ what are we
having for dinner? ”I ask her.
“ it’s a surprise luh. ” she says smiling. “ Preston told me to tell you that, he’s leaving and he doesn’t know
when he will be back but he left a number here… for a doctor who will take over from him. ” what?, what is
he running away from?. “ok sis nonto, I’ll call the doctor thank you. ” the door opens and it’s my husband.
Nonto leaves the kitchen. He stands behind me then hugs me breathing out deeply.
“ love? Are you okay? ” he kisses my hair, forehead then turns the chair around and kisses me deeply.
Something is wrong. I push him off me lightly “ talk to me. What’s wrong? ”
“ are you hungry? ” he asks me. I shake my head no. “ let’s go to our bedroom and I’ll tell you. ” he says. “
phakathwayo, sit down and let me plate up for you then we will go to our bedroom okay?. Let me feed you
first. ” he goes to wash his hands and I get up and plate for him then put the food down in front of him. I take
his fork, roll the spaghetti around the fork and brings it to his mouth. “ open ” I tell him. He smiles and my
heart melts. He opens his mouth and I feed my husband, he feeds me too but I’m the one eating the most of the
food. We are just silent, willing water and enjoying the spaghetti and meatballs. Nonto outdone herself cause
the cheese just melts in your mouth. “ do you want more? ” he asks me.. “ no boo. I’m full. ” I drink my water
and burp then giggle.
“ Then you are going to fart the whole night ” he says chuckling and I giggle. He takes the plates back then we
go to our bedroom. I sit on the edge of the bed as he takes off his clothes. “ wanna shower with me? ”. “ I did
an hour ago. ” he looks at me legs and bites his lips. Heat creeps up from my neck to my face. He still makes
me blush. He goes to the bathroom and showers. I think things didn’t go as planned between my brother and
lesego. That’s why mbuso is like this. He must be worried about them. I look at the time and it’s almost
7:30pm. I’ll call sicelo tomorrow. I remove the continental pillows from the bed and duvet then leave only
the light sheets and sleeping pillows.
I undress then get in bed. I don’t know if I should talk to mbuso now about Preston or wait till tomorrow. He
comes in smelling really good and gets in bed behind me. “ how are my kids treating you? ” I turn and look at
him. I palm his cheek and he kisses it “ talk to me mbuso. What happened there?. ”
“ The woman your brother loves had a hard life. Her family is shit and they treated her and her kids like shit
love. The kids were crying and begging him not to take them back. They wanted to live with him. When we
dropped them off love it was hard. I have never seen your brother crying but today I did. It was hard. He has
this amazing connection with kagiso, the eldest. The boy loves him like he is his own father and kamo is the
sweetest little angel. They love him. ” I smile as I watch mbuso talking about the kids cause he’s smiling too.
“ I’m glad my brother has finally found his one true love. I think the kids have all of you wrapped around
their little fingers. ” I say giggling. He pecks my lips. “ you are going to love all of them. Lesego is not used
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to having people close to her love and she’s going to need you. Both her and sicelo are going to need you
baby.” I nod.
“ I’ll be there for them boo. I promise. I can’t believe he met her like a few days ago and his life changed
drastically just like that. It’s amazing how we meet our soul mates. ” I tell him. “ are they going to come to
Pietermaritzburg for the cleansing ceremony?. ”
“ I think so. They love the house you found, why didn’t you furnish it? ”
“ I didn’t because it’s her home and she’s the one who is supposed to choose what she wants in her house
and decorate it the way she wants. I couldn’t take that away from her. ” he nods. “ what’s really bothering
you?. ” he sighs and looks up in the ceiling. “ seeing lesego’s kids made me think about what kind of man just
leaves his kids just like that and not care what happens to them and their mother. How does he live with
himself everyday and he calls himself a man?. I could never live my life without you and our kids. ” he turns
and looks at me again. “ I will always protect you no matter what. From anyone and anything that threatens
our happiness. I will die protecting you even from the other side. The thought of anyone hurting you and our
kids makes me want to take you away from anyone so they can’t hurt you. I never want to experience what
sicelo experienced today because it was really hard to watch. ”
“ I know you would do that for me, for us. Thank you for being there for my brother because I don’t know
what he would have done without you not being there. ” he brushes my stomach. “ we are family luh. Don’t
thank me. I will go out for everyone you love. He’s my brother too. ” I smile. Now is the time to tell him
about Preston but he has already had a long day and I don’t want to add to that. I’ll tell him first thing in the
morning.
“ baby? ” he says.
“ hmm? ”
“ are you okay?, you are way too quiet ” I can tell him what’s bothering me but first I have to be sure. Did
Preston leave because of what I asked him or he left for good?. I mean sis nonto said he doesn’t know when
he will be back and left a number for a doctor to check me out?. “ I am okay, I’m just thinking about lesego
and the kids. ”
“ they have us now and they will be fine.” He says. “ can you tell me more about her? ”
“ I think it’s better that lesego is the one who will hopefully open up to you and tell you everything okay? ” I
nod. “ when are we leaving? ” he asks.
“ Tuesday. Tomorrow is the last day for them to finish the remaining bathrooms. ”
“ we’re you wearing only my T-shirt around them? ”
“ not if I wanted you to kill me. I wore it after they left.”
“ hmm. Where’s Preston? ” I shift and face away from him.
“ he went to his place. I don’t know when he’s going to be back ” he nods. “ did you guys have a fight or
something? ”
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“ No we didn’t. I am tired baby. ” I lie and I can feel his stare on the back of my head.
“ I’ll let it go for now. Tomorrow you’ll tell me what’s bothering you. Sleep love. ” I turn and face him. I
give him a kiss then lay on his chest and sleep.
I Pat the bed and it’s empty, mbuso is not in bed and I’m pretty sure he is working. I really don’t feel like
getting out of bed but I’m hungry and the noise is just driving me insane. The kitchen is the only thing left now
to be renovated. I want to take a bath but I can’t coz the last time I tried I almost slipped and fell. If mbuso
wasn’t there I could have hurt myself and our kids. I shower slowly, get done then wear my leggings and T-
shirt. I leave our bedroom and greet the workers. I pass by mbuso’s office and he’s not there. I go to the
kitchen and I see Preston having with mbuso. He’s back. “ good morning. ”
“ morning luh. ” president says.
“ Morning baby. ” I kiss him. “ I made you a fruit salad. ” I smile.
“ thank you boo. I’m going to sit outside. ” I tell him.
“ I will join you. ” Preston says. I look at mbuso and his phone rings.
“ I’ll join you outside. ” I take my fruit salad and go to the veranda and sit down. The wind is blowing so
nicely but I’m still feeling hot.
“ you don’t look good? ”
“ I’m fine. I’m just feeling hot that’s all. I thought you left? ” I tell him.
“ I did but then I came back because you think k I’m hiding stuff from you and I’m not. Running away would
mean that I’m hiding something. ”
“ hmmm. ” I say.
“ I’m going to get my back and check your blood pressure. When was the last time you felt the kids moving?.

“ this morning when I was showering, why? ”
“ and you’re uterus?, any pain around your waist? ” now that he mentions it I did feel slight pain. “ it was
little pain. It comes and goes. ”
“ Sharp or burning? ” hmmm
“ sharp. ”
“ we need to go to my surgery for a scan. You’re almost eight months pregnant and the kids are supposed to
be facing downward now preparing for birth. If not one or both of them could be abridged. ”
“ what?, no!. I want to give natural birth and it caesarean birth. ”

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“ Let’s go now!. ”
“ Let’s wait for mbuso. He will be done with his call now then we can all go.. ” he looks at me and smiles
and again the hair on the back of my neck stand. Why the fuck did I not tell mbuso about what I saw and my
suspicions?.
“ you are going to get up and we are quietly going to leave this house. If you scream or try anything stupid I
am going to shoot you and those damn kids you’re carrying. ” he says and shows me his gun, getting up. I
have never been this scared in my life. “ get up and let’s go. You’ll tell security at the gate that we are going
to get some few things at the mall. ” I nod then get up and we leave through the back yard. I tell the security
guys that we are going to the mall and we drive out.
“ where are you taking me? ” I ask him
“ far away. Where he will never find you. He doesn’t get to live happily ever after, after he destroyed my
family. I am taking you away from him like how he took her from me. ” what?
“ he took who away from you? ”
“ you’ll ask him that when we get to our new place. ” he says and continues to drive. What is going on?

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LUNGI.
We drive until we get to this house at the location. I have never been on this side of town but I did look at the
direction and the number of turns he took. I have never been where Preston lives and it’s going to be my first
time here. I am so scared of the gun he’s holding and pointing it at me. The house looks okay like people live
in here. He hoots and someone opens the gate and he drives in, I look back and the gate closes behind us. He
locks it. The wall is so far high that you can’t see beyond it and through the gate. I wonder who lives here.
“ get out of the car. ” he gets out and roughly closes the door with a bang. He comes to my side and opens the
door. “ stop pointing that thing on my stomach Preston.” I tell him as he roughly yanks me out of the car with
my hair. I scream and try to get his hands off my hair.
“ Don’t you fucken touch me, you fucken animal!. ” he laughs and the guy who closes the gate joins him and
they both laugh looking at me. “ so this is mbuso's woman. ”the guy says. “ I’m his wife. When mbuso’s finds
the both of you, you will regret the day you Preston came into our lives. ” they laugh like I’m crazy then
Preston drags me to the house. He opens the door and there’s a woman cooking in the kitchen. She gives me a
very sickening smile and the hair on my name stands. Who the fuck is she?. She reeks of evil and she hasn’t
even said anything to me.
“ My! My! My! Aren’t you just beautiful. When I was pregnant I was never this beautiful. Pictures and videos
don’t do you justice my dear.” She comes close to me and grabs my cheek really hard. “ I can’t wait for him
to find you gone. Dead! ”she says and my heart drops.
“ Wait!. We didn’t talk about you killing her. ” Preston says. She looks at him then gives him a deadly look. “
plans change. I want to make all of them suffer!. I am going to kill her but not before we take out those kids in
her. Go and take her to the room. Everything is prepared. ”
“ Please don’t kill me. I can give you all the money I have and you will never work a day in your life. My
husband will also give you whatever you need. Please just let me call him but please don’t kill me!. ” I beg
for my life.
“ I am going to enjoy ripping those kids out of your stomach and raise them as mine. But first I have to kill
you. I am going to slice your stomach while your watching” she says then laughs.
Preston looks at her unbelievably shocked!. No! No! No!. Not my kids!. “ Preston please don’t do this! Don’t
let her take my kids out of me. It’s not yet time please!. ” she laughs then slaps me hard on the face making me
bite my inside cheek and I taste blood. Preston goes to her and they argue. I look at the door and it’s open. I
don’t waste time I run outside and rush to the car cause I know they left the key in the ignition. I am almost to
the car when I hear a gun shot then I feel pain on my shoulder. I scream and fall down shouting mbuso’s
name.

MBUSO.
Luh goes to the veranda with Preston. I guess they are going to sort their issues out. I told sicelo to tell
Celeste to get here. I go to my study and take my electric device scanner and search around the house. I don’t
find anything in the guest bedrooms including his room. I find listening devices in the kitchen, living, dining
and lounge. I don’t have listening devices in my house. I only have cameras in the kitchen lounge and living
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room other than outside. I go to my study, search around and there’s a listening device too and no camera. I
go to our bedroom and search and I’m horrified at what I find. 4 Listening devices on all around the bedroom
and three small cameras that he planted where we wouldn’t see. Something tells me to go to the shower and
my worst fears is confirmed. He has cameras there and listening devices. I run out of my bedroom not saying
anything because I don’t want Preston to be alarmed. I go to the veranda and they are gone. Luh's phone is on
the table and the food I prepared for her. I run to the security gate and ask the security if he saw luh and he
tells me that they went to the mall. She would never leave without her phone.
I run to the house and go to my study and watch the outside camera. I see Preston taking out a gun and
pointing at luh. She stands up and they get in the car and leave. He played me!. He fucken played me!. I
scream like a mad mad and throw everything off the table. I take my cell phone out and call Sicelo. “ marn
celeste is almost there. You’re killing my vibe ” he laughs
“ I need you to come here now. ”
“ What’s wrong? ”
“ Preston took luh while I was talking to you on the phone. Come now with bonga! ” he hangs up. I call my
father and tell him then hang up. Now I have to call my father in-law and tell him that his daughter got
kidnapped in her own home. I dial his number and it rings “ son. How are you? ”
“ baba, I need you to come here. ”
“ what’s wrong mbuso? Is luh about to give birth?. ” he chuckles.
“ baba u Preston kidnapped ulungile. ”he sighs.
“ I’ll be there. Don’t worry we’ll find her. ” he hangs up. I sit down and try to collect my thoughts. I take my
car keys and run out to my car. I drive out and go straight to Preston's surgery. When I get there, there is no
sign of Preston ever been there. Instead I see a new sigh that says Laundromat. I cannot believe this. I get out
and open the door of the laundromat. “ sho, when did the surgery that was here relocate? ” I ask a young man.
“ Groot man, they relocated the week we started working here. 3 weeks ago. ” this mother fucker!. I get out
and drive straight home. My head is spinning cause I have no idea where Preston could have taken luh. I go
through the kitchen and mapholoba, his brother, his sister and frank are all there. Mapholoba gets up and
comes to me. He punches me right on my eye and I don’t stop him. I know, I deserve it.
“ I’m sorry baba ” he is fuming. He looks at me then pats me in the back. “ we’ll find her. He outsmarted all
of us. He made us believe that he was this….. Where were you? ” nonto gives me a frozen veges. I take it and
put it on my stinging eye.
“ I went to his surgery and it’s no longer there. He moved or closed it 3 weeks ago. Frank. Put out a bulletin
for Preston car. I want them to search the whole town cause maybe he is hiding somewhere or they are on the
way either to Durban or Joburg. So get them to watch out. ”
“ Sure boss. ” he says and leaves. I sit down and put my hands on my head. “ last night luh wanted to tell me
something and I think it was about Preston but she didn’t. I told her that in the morning she will tell me
exactly what happened cause nonto said Preston left and said he doesn’t know when he’s coming back then
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the next thing I find him here having breakfast. I asked him what happened between him and luh and he just
said luh's hormones are driving him insane. I let it go. ”
“ it’s not your fault son. He fooled all of us but he will pay!. ” mapholoba says typing on his phone. “ she’s
pregnant taima and I don’t know why Preston took her and why?!. He could hurt her and she could give birth
before time. ” mah is busy sniffing and she’s giving me a headache. “ nonto can you please bring my laptop
from my office. ” she leaves to get it and comes back. I take it and show them the video then get in my system
and type in Preston's number searching for his location. It keeps bouncing off then it says it he is on his way
to Newcastle. “ they are going to Newcastle, I have to go there. ” I get up but mapholoba stops me. “ I think
it’s best if you stay mbuso. You cannot drive in this condition you’re in. ”
“ that’s my wife he took. I need to be there when I find her. I swear to God!. I am going to peel Preston’s skin
off and shove his dick down his throat!. Fuuuuucccckkkkk!. ” I take the glass that’s next to me and throw it on
the fridge. Mah and nonto run out of the kitchen. “ mbuso calm down son!. Calm down. ”.
“ I can’t lose her, I can’t fucken lose her!. This was always my biggest fear. Someone kidnapping her and
then kill her. I can never live without her!. She’s my everything mapholoba. Her and our kids. I cannot live
without them. ”
“I’ll go boss. Stay here in case they are buying time and want us to chase a dead end. I’ll come back with her.
” frank says. “ I’ll come with you. ” luh’s uncle says. I send frank the coordinates and they leave.
“ boss ” I look up and it’s Celeste. “ Tell me everything you found out about Preston. ” she greets them then
sits down and takes out her laptop. “ so I once investigated him and there was absolutely nothing other than
he’s a doctor and he owns a surgery and works with hospitals. Then I asked someone to find some
information about him and last night they sent me this. ” she reads. “ Preston is from kroonstad. He’s a pure
white boy and his parents are hard core racist. Preston went to wits and studied there and met a black girl,
her name is… .. Uhm yes. Her name thembi zikode. ” what?!..... Fuck no!. I take out my phone and call my
dad. “ baba?...., how far are you?.... Okay. ” they look at me. “ continue Celeste. ”
“ they got into a relationship until one day she ended things with Preston and thembi suddenly disappeared.
Then 6 months ago she reappeared again and was spotted with Preston in Durban. That’s where the tail ends.
” she briefs me.
“ Oh my God!. Oh my God! Oh my God!. ” I dial sbusiso's number. “ brother?, long time. You miss me
already ” he laughs.
“ She’s alive sbu. Thembi is alive and she has luh. ”
“ what No!. I killed that bitch mbuso. What do you mean she has Luh?!. ” Celeste stops typing and mapholoba
looks at me frowning. “ Preston was once thembi's boyfriend. Preston kidnapped luh this morning and I think
himnand thembi have luh. You didn’t kill her sbu. She’s alive. ”
“ Fuck!. I’m coming. I’m going to kill this bitch for real this time. I swear!. ” he hangs up. I shake my head. “
who is thembi and why do they have luh? ” mapholoba asks. Sicelo, bonga and my parents come into the
house the same time. I look my parents and I am so angry. “ this is all your fault, you know. It’s all your
fault!. ” I say looking at them.
“ ungalinge uze ukhohlwe ukuthi ukhuluma nobani mbuso!. Senzeni thina?. ” ( don’t you dare forget who
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you’re talking to! What did I do? ).
“ Celeste tell what you have just told me. ” I get up and go to my bedroom and change. I wear all black
because I’m going to hunt and kill people. I don’t care how small they played a part on luh kidnapping but
they are all going to die. I come down and see sicelo and bonga have changed aswell.
“ I thought usbusiso killed her mbuso. You both said she died. ” my dad says. “ yeah well I thought so too.
We all did but the bitch obviously didn’t did die. She and Preston are working together. ”
“ Who is this woman mnguni?.” mapholoba asks again. I look at my dad and he looks down and sighs. “ I’ll
tell you who she is. You see my parents here thought that they can play matchmaker with me and their best
friends daughter. They wanted me to date her and marry her but I would hear none of that. She liked me but I
didn’t and she knew it. So one day I’m in Joburg and my parents show up with her at my house. That was five
years ago. They leave her at my house because they thought that if she’s there in a house with me I will
eventually like her and have a relationship with her but that didn’t happen. Sbu was there the very same day
they dropped thembi off. I kicked her out and sbu felt sorry for her and took her to his house. ” I fold my arms
on my chest.
“ My parents didn’t know that after they left thembi. Her and sbu began to date and he would bring her to this
gentleman’s club that we all went to. Sbu saw how sadistic, twisted, manipulative and evil thembi is after a
few months they dated. She would go there alone without him knowing. He kept thinking he would change but
instead she got worse. Thembi would go home to my parents and tell them how perfect we are, loving each
other and everything. I would tell them that she’s lying but they wouldn’t believe me because thembi was this
sweet innocent girl who grew up in front of their eyes. I let it go. She told sbu that she was pregnant with his
child and he was excited. Thembi went to my parents and hers and claimed that she was pregnant with my
child. Her family came to my family to tell them about the pregnancy and my parents accepted the child on my
behalf while I was not there to defend myself. I told them again that the child she’s carrying was not mine but
still they didn’t believe me so the weekend they were preparing to go pay the damages, I came home with
sbu. We all went there and she was shocked to see me and sbu there.” My parents look at me and I see regret
because we have never talked about this ever since it happened.
“ she then tells them that it’s another boyfriend of hers that got her pregnant it’s not us. My mom was
devastated not because thembi lied about me getting her pregnant but because she wasn’t carrying their
grandchild. Sbu and I left. He broke things off with thembi but the bitch didn’t get it. She tormented and
chased away every woman that sbu tried to date. She would somehow find out whom he’s dating. She would
kidnap and torture them to leave sbu alone. One day he’s girlfriend went missing and we tracked her phone
and we found her with thembi. It was then that we found out the reason why they would just disappear on
him. She had killed the girl in the most brutal and horrific way. Sbu shot her 5 times then he took her body
and went to dump it. He came back and we cleaned her apartment and took the girls body to where someone
would find it. That’s the last time we saw her and we never talked about her until today. We don’t know if
she really was pregnant and if she had the child.” my mom is sniffing and she’s annoying the hell out of me.
“ I’m sorry mbuso, we thought that you… . ”
“ save it mama. Uthembi is a cold heartless bitch and I swear if she has done anything to luh and my kids. I
will never forgive you. She is here because you forced her down my throat and look now. She has my wife
and kids!. This is all my fault! I should have killed her the moment you left her in my doorstep!.”

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“ brother it’s not your fault, it’s not their fault either. Obviously someone found her before she died. Sbu must
have thought that she was dead. ” sicelo is about to make me lose my mind.
“ but mbuso they would have told us that thembi is alive and how sure are you that it’s her who took her?. ”
“ I would know that bitch even if she woke from the dead 10 years later. Mama, did her parents know that
she was dead?! Did they tell you and have a funeral for her? ” she shakes her head.
“ They thought that she was still ashamed of what she did. ” my mom says.
“ That’s right. You are still friends with her mother right? ”
“ Mbuso!. ”
“ Shut the fuck up bonga! You know very well what sbu and I went through with that girl. ” he shakes his
head. “ call her mom. Call her right now and ask her where thembi is. ” she cries. “ dad talk to your wife.
Time is running out. Thembi won’t hesitate to kill her do you understand that!. Can you once just trust me
when it comes to her mom can you do that?. ” my phone rings and it’s frank.
“ frank? ”
“ She’s not here in the taxi. They are both not here. The guy who had Preston’s phone say he sold him the
phone cause he was in need of cash and he never took out his SIM card cause he gets free airtime and data. ”
fuck!.
“ did he tell you where he was when he sold him the phone? ”
“ At the rank. 2 weeks ago. ” my heart drops. “ come back frank. He might be a doctor but he’s not that smart.
He’s not far.. He is around. ”
“ we’re coming boss. ” I hang up and sigh. I have this gut wrenching fear that something is wrong. I can feel
it. I can still see that girl with her eyes out of sockets. Breast cut and her uterus out of her vagina. Please
God!. Please God!. “ mom did you call thembi's mother?! ” she’s tapping on her phone crying.
“ mbuso calm down!. ” mapholoba says.
“ I’ll go out and look for her myself because standing here and waiting for nothing is a one minute away to
her death!.” I go to my study, open my safe and take out my big black bag that has everything I’m going to
need. I come back with it and pass all of them in the kitchen. I get in my black Jeep and starts the engine.
Sicelo and bonga get in the car with me.
“ It’s us against the world. ” bonga says. He grips my shoulder and sicelo too. I wipe the tears that were
falling. Luh needs me. I can’t breakdown now. I’ll break down after she is safe and sound in my arms. My
phone rings again and it’s sbu. “ brother ” bonga answers
“ I’m in Pietermaritzburg. I have my men staying guard in here in case that bitch is here or shows up. I’ll be
there in thirty minutes. I sent uMadoda to her parent’s house. I told him to do everything possible to get them
to tell us where thembi is. ” he says.

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“ I don’t even know where to start looking for here. I can’t find my own damn wife sbu!. Fuck!. ”
“ Bonga drive. Mbuso go sit on the passenger seat. ” he says then hangs up. He’s right I can’t drive, I feel
useless. I can find other people but I can’t find my wife? What kind of husband am I?. I get out and bonga
takes the drivers seat. Mapholoba comes out with my dad and Celeste.
“ Preston’s car was spotted going towards the location. We have to go and search there. ” he says. “ I need
you and dad to stay behind just in case. We can handle this. ” he comes to me and hugs me. I look at my dad
and he nods. I nod too.
“ bring my daughter back to me mbuso. I can’t lose her again. ” I nod.
“ I’m coming with you. I’m not staying behind because I want to bitch slap Preston. ” she says.
“ I’ll ride with her, sicelo come and drive. ” bonga says.
“ take the volvo. ” he nods. I get in the car and leave. I send frank a message telling him we are going to the
location. I send sbu the same message.
“ Well find her brother. No matter what!. ”
“ I’ll kill myself if thembi has killed her. I will not live in this world without her and our kids. ” I have
never been this scared and terrified in my life. I wipe my tears. We drive out.

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LUNGI.
Pain, pain is what I’m feeling right now all over my body. When the bullet hit me I fell on my stomach and I
am in so much pain. I am screaming in agony and I’m worried about my kids. Did I hurt them when I fell?,
I’m disoriented, I’m bleeding! From my shoulder? Yes, from between my legs? I don’t know but I am in pain.
I can’t stop screaming, my babies! My babies!. I’m sorry mbuso! I’m so sorry!.
“ Luh? Luh? Wake up… no! No! No!. Don’t close your eyes luh?. Why did you shoot her thembi? Why did
you do it? ” Preston is beside himself. I hear terror coming from his voice as he screams at thembi.
“ get her the fuck up and stop being such a nuisance. You have to take out those kids before she dies. ” thembi
says. Mbuso find me!. I can’t die like this! I really can’t!.
“ Preston please call… . ” I cough out. “ call mbuso. There’s still a chance for you… ” I cough again and
Preston screams. “ vuvu!, help me get her up, you too thembi!. ” they struggle to lift me up but they eventually
do and I scream my lungs out because every part of my body is in excruciating pain. They walk in the house
and place me in a bed that’s like a hospital bed. I close my eyes and open them and see the whole room looks
like a hospital room.
“ thembi?! this was not the plan. I don’t want her to die in my hands No!. ” Preston says. “ shut up you little
weakling!. You knew very well, what did you think was going to happen here when you helped me make this
room huh? ” she asks him annoyed. I can feel myself sleep wanting to take over but I can’t. They are going to
take my kids and run away with them and I can’t let them. Babies please hold on for mommy please!. I say
silently and my stomach begins to have cramps and I scream.
“ Preston please I’m begging you!. Don’t let her take my kids!. ” thembi laughs. “ how about I just shoot that
big mouth that talks a lot huh? ” thembi reeks of evil. It’s like she’s Satan’s daughter. I scream again cause
my lower back now is killing me. I can’t give birth now, not like this!. The pain on my shoulder and my
lower back is intense and excruciatingly hard. I cry and scream. “ she’s in pain thembi! Let’s take her to the
hospital, she’s going to die dammit! ” Preston is panicking.
“ stop being a little bitch and take out that bullet first.” She roughly pushes me to my side and I scream still
crying. “ give me that knife ” she says and I wail. Is this how I’m going to die? “ I’m sorry!, I am so sorry for
everything mbuso has done to you please forgive him. ” I beg her.
“ Bitch shut up!. Everything you have was suppose to be mine! All mine!. His mother sold me dreams and
promised me that he will love me but he didn’t and I loved him. I loved that man. You… . You have him but
he’s mine!. If I can’t have him so will you. You will not have him too. We waited and waited planning my
revenge and finally you moved here and I knew how I was going to get my revenge on him. When I’m done
with you? Sbusiso is next ” she then laughs.
I hear something buzzing on top of my head and I can’t see it but it sounds like it’s a machine. What is she
going to do to me?. “ thembi don’t do it. ” Preston begs her. She laughs then I feel it on my head, she shaves
all of my hair off and I can only watch my hair as it falls down in front of me. She stops when she’s done then
stabs me where I was a shot and God I want to die. She pushes the knife in deep and then digs. God I don’t
want to lose consciousness. Please God! Please God!. I scream and scream until she stops and takes out the
knife and something falls to the floor. “ good. The bullet is now out. Let’s get my kids out ” I scream and beg
her not to and she laughs. “ Preston? Vuvu? Cuff her hands and legs on the bed. ” she instructs them and I feel
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hands on my legs. I kick out screaming but I feel a huge punch on my face and I get dizzy. I can feel them
cuffing my legs and arms.
“ mbuso is going to kill us thembi please, let’s let her go!. I don’t want to be part of this anymore!”
“ oh my God! Can you for once just grow some balls Preston!. Have you forgotten that they took me away
from you huh?, they then killed me and left me to die at a dumping site!. Have you forgotten all of that?. Don’t
you want your revenge on them?. ”
“ but she didn’t do anything. It was them!. ” he says.
“ Oh now you say?. She matters to them. You told me that everyone loves her she’s this golden child
everyone adores and it would kill them if something unfortunate had to happen to her and we are about to do
that my love. You and me!. Vuvu keep watch outside for anything!. ” vuvu leaves.
I scream again and now my back feels like it is going to snap in two. I wail, I sob, I scream and cry my lungs
out but the pain is too much, it really is too much!. Mbuso please come cause I can’t do this! I can’t hold on
for too much longer.
“ she’s losing too much blood thembi, she’s going to die!. ”
“ hey voestek wena man!. Does it look like I fucken care what happens to her huh?!. Now give me that knife
and let me take out those kids! ” she's crazy, this woman is crazy!.
“ No!. I will do this!. I will take the kids out.!. ” Preston says and I scream and try to kick my legs but they
are cuffed tight on the bed.
MBUSO.
We are driving around Emnambithi and each minute going by feels like a minute closer to my wife’s death.
My fear grows with every minute. Sicelo is talking but I don’t hear a word he’s saying. I should have killed
thembi myself. I should have went with sbu and made sure that she’s really dead. “ mbuso! I need you here
with me dammit! ”
“ I have this fucken fear at the pit of my stomach sicelo. Something is wrong with her. It’s very wrong. ” I
feel like I’m losing my mind and why is this damn car going so slowly. “ stop the car!. ”
“ What? ”
“ you’re driving slowly!. Stop the damn car!. ” he stops and I get out and I begin to walk. I see two young
boys and they are talking. I take out my phone and stop them “ sure majita? ” I greet them
“ sure uncle. ”
“ kunabantu engibafunayo Lana. Anikomboni losisi somewhere lana ekasi? ( there are people I’m looking for
here. Have you see this woman around here in the township? ) ” they look at her photo and they shake their
heads no. I sigh. “ have you heard or seen something that doesn’t really happen around? ”
“ Eh uncle?, you know earlier like we heard something that sounded like a gun shot but I don’t know maybe
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it’s the taxi drivers fighting again. ” nope I don’t think so.
“ Can you show me where you heard it coming from? Take me where you were? ” they nod. “ let’s get in the
car and you can show me.” They look hesitant.
“ look guys, I’m only going to tell the both of you this. Someone kidnapped my wife and she’s pregnant. The
person who took her is crazy and I want to find her before she hurts her. ”
“ We will help you uncle. Let’s go. ” I nod. They get in and we drive down the road and pass two streets. On
the third Street they tell us to stop. “ we heard it coming from here in this street, somewhere around these
house I think. ” I get out of car and the first thing I notice is a house that has a very high wall. She’s there. I
know she’s there.
“ Sicelo, she’s there!. ” he nods. I open the glove compartment and take out notes and give it to them. “ thank
you uncles. ” they both say.
“ you don’t know us and you’ve never met us. This right here didn’t happen. Now go home or to town. ” they
both nod and run. My phone rings and it’s sbu. “ I found her. I’ll send you the location. ” I hang up and sent
him my location. Frank, luh's uncle, bonga, Celeste and sbu all arrive at once.
“ I’m so sorry man. I fucked up. This is all my fault!. ” sbu says. I shake my head no. “ we know how twisted
that bitch is. She has nine lives and unfortunately for her, she’s on her last one.” We bro hug.
“ what’s the plan? ” Celeste asks.
“ I need you and uncle to tell the neighbours to stay in the house and not come out. Tell them we are the
special police unit an we are looking for a fugitive.” I tell her. she nods and they leave. “ me and sicelo are
going to jump over the neighbours fence while you sbu, bonga and Frank knock on the gate. As a soon as it
opens get in. We can’t shoot anyone cause its daylight. So you will use stunt guns. Let’s go.” They nod.
“ Whatever we do please make sure that we don’t make noise and let thembi know we are here cause she
won’t hesitate to kill luh.” Sbu says. We nod then all go in different directions. I enter the yard of the next
door neighbour and Celeste is outside talking to a woman. I signal for them to keep quiet but there is a
teenage boy there. “ you need a ladder to jump. I’ll give it to you wait. There is someone screaming inside
there sir ” he says leaving and comes back with the ladder. My heart drops and I know it’s my wife. I climb
it and look over and see there’s no one outside. The windows seem to have been painted in black.
I jump in and I hear someone talking on the gate. Sicelo jumps in too and he tells me to go in the house. I nod
and he goes towards the direction of the gate. I can hear luh screaming in agony and I want to kick the door
and run inside but I can’t cause thembi will shoot or stab her the moment she sees us. I try to push the door in
fortunately for us it’s unlocked. My wife is crying and screaming in agony and I know those screams will
hunt me forever. I take out my gun and put on a silencer Sbu and sicelo do the same and stand beside me then
we slowly get in the house and I hear Preston’s voice say “ No!. I will do it. I will take the kids out.” My
Kids?! My fucken kids?! I look down the floor and see a trail of blood. It must be luh’s . The door of the
room they are in is open.
We slowly get in and their backs are to us. I look at luh and she’s covered in blood and she’s screaming in
pain. Sbu and sicelo shoot both Preston and thembi on their legs and they fall screaming and look at us
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shocked. Preston starts apologizing. “ luh? Baby? I’m here!, I’m here my love!. Bonga! Frank!. ” I scream
their names and I can’t see properly because my eyes are so misty, they get in running.
“ bring the car!. Luh? baby look at me! ” I lift her up and she screams like she has been hit and run over by a
huge truck. “ mbuso… ..my husband. You…found… me… babies… my babies… . ” she closes her eyes and
I scream her name. I can feel blood coming from her shoulder blade. I take the duck tape from my leg pocket
and cover the wound. Sbu and sicelo help me carry her out of the house and we get in the car backseat.
Bonga I know if he wasn’t an architect he would be a formula 1 race driver. He takes the wheel, reverses
then drives out like a maniac to the hospital. “ luh, baby?, love please wake up! You can’t leave me luh! You
can’t leave me baby what would I be without you?!. Lungile sthandwa sam. Mama wezingane zam, phakade
lam’ ungangishiyi!. ” I break down and cry. She's still breathing but it’s faint. Bonga stops outside the
hospital and they are already waiting for us. Someone pulls the door roughly and it’s a doctor. “ Mr Gumede
we have her now. Let go. She needs to go to the theatre for surgery right now!. ” I let go and they gently pull
her out and I follow them as they run inside with her.
Nurses stops me when we get to the I. C. U. I want to be there. I have to be there. She needs me. I failed her. I
failed her and my kids. What kind of husband am I?. “ Mr Gumede? ” the doctor calls my name from behind
and I see the whole family is there everyone. “ doctor is she going to be okay?, please save her and my kids
doctor! Please!. ”
I see pity all over his face and I hate it!. I don’t want anyone to pity me. “ Mr Gumede you have to sign this
first before we can operate. ”
“ you’re wasting time here busy telling me I should sign some stupid stuff!. My wife could be dying in there!.
” I scream at him. The doctor looks at me scared. My dad grabs my shoulders and looks at the doctor. “ I’m a
doctor Gumede his father. I am retired. What must he sign? ”
“ doctor Gumede. Mr Gumede you have to give us consent and tell us who to save in case things don’t go
well. We need you to tell us if we should save your wife or kids if need be. ” is this doctor crazy?, is he
hearing himself?.
“ doctor if you value your life and the lives of everyone you love, you will get the fuck off my face and you
will make sure that my wife and kids are all fine and they will come home with me!. If I lose anyone of them.
I will kill you myself. Go in there and operate!. ” I take the damn papers and tears them into pieces. He runs
out not looking back.
I look at those doors and I’m still haunted by her screams of anguish and agony. I fall on my knees and cry. I
don’t care that they will see me mbuso Gumede, a grown man breaking down crying. The only person I give a
damn about is fighting for her life and there’s nothing I can do. I feel weak, useless and helpless. My dad
holds me and I scream. I feel hugs coming around me and sniffs. “ I’m so… So.. Sorry my son. ” I push all of
them off me. I get up “ it’s all your fault. I blame you!. You were so eager to please your friends and play
match maker now look at me!. Look at what you have done to the woman who’s carrying your grandkids!.
You know ma. You better go to that chapel and pray to God that luh and my kids make it or else. You will be
dead to me! Dead!. ” she wails. My dad looks down and shakes his head.
“ mnguni, son. Ulungile will be fine. She’s strong and she’s fighter. ” I shake my head No crying. “ I’m
scared mapholoba. How many years has her mother been gone and you have never remarried?. She was the
only who had your heart and even know you’ll never love anyone the way you loved her mother but Mina
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baba?. I don’t want anyone. I want and need only her and no one else!. If luh dies, I’m telling all of you here
that I will kill myself. I will not live in this world without her!. ” I look at my mom and she’s sobbing on my
father’s chest. I look at my dad and I know he understands where I’m coming from.
“ where is she?!, where are they?! ” I ask sbu and sicelo. Frank, sbu and bonga get up and look at me. “ you
wouldn’t dare!. ” I tell them.
“ what’s going on? ” sicelo asks getting up too.
“ mbuso, don’t!. Don’t even think about it!. ” my dad says standing in front of me.
“ No!. I want to see them. I just want to talk to them. ”
“ mbuso don’t!. Luh needs you here. Now and you can’t leave your wife and kids!. ” my dad says.
“ baba please don’t stop me! ” I wipe my tears.
“ what’s wrong with mbuso wanting to go talk to thembi and Preston? ”
“ the last time he did that he turned someone into mince meat and sent it to his family nicely packaged and
wrote enjoy. ” luh’s aunt vomits on the floor.
“ who’s watching them while everyone is here? What if they both escape? ” I am so raged. I want to kill them
slowly and painfully.
“ we put them in the hole. ” sicelo says. The doctor comes out and looks at us.
“ Mr Gumede, your wife lost a lot of blood but we did a transfusion and we have managed to close the
wound on her shoulder but there is a possibility that her left hand might not ffunction properly or at all
because when the bullet hit her it touched a nerve and whoever took out that bullet did more damage to the
nerves but we will know when she wakes up.” I will not kill Preston. I am going to make him a vegetable.
Death is too easy for him. There are doctors all over the world and she will go through therapy and she will
be fine. She’s luh, she’s my damn wife!.
“ what about my kids? Are they okay?.” he sighs and this doctor is really trying my patience. “ talk doctor!.
What about my kids?. ”
“ We feel it is risky for her to have a natural birth and have to take the kids out now because they are not yet
fully in term. We are going to do a caesarean because the kids might be at risk since her body has been
through a very traumatic experience. ” he says and my shoulders shake.
“ Uh… okay, please make sure they alright doctor please!. ” why is God punishing me like this? Is it because
I have been bad and I’m now paying for my sins?. But why doesn’t God punish me and leave my family
alone?.
“ I suggest you go and clean yourself so you can hold your children. ”
“ uhm doctor can you wait until tomorrow or a few hours before you do a caesarean on her? ” what?

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“ Dad no!. My wife is in pain!.”
“ can you do that doctor? ” the doctor looks at me and I nod. “ Well I can try. He looks at the clock on the
wall. “ we can’t wait until tomorrow but I can give you four hours then after that, we will operate. ”
“ ok thank you. ” the doctor leaves. I look at my dad to explain himself. He looks at me then looks at her dad.
“ we have to do the cleansing and name the child before they bring the babies into this world and we have to
do it now. ” oh yeah, we were suppose to do that this weekend.
“ what do you need from us? ” her dad asks.
“ for now nothing. Mbuso has to come with me and her aunt, we’ll take Sims too represent Buhle then we
will be back with our traditional healer so he can prepare for the arrival of the kids. ”
“ can’t bonga stand in for me? ” I ask him.
“ you are here mbuso. You have to come and name the child. In our kraal. We’ll be back before they even
start. I have asked your uncles to prepare.”
I look at sbu, all of them. “ you call me if anything happens to her. You call me. Bonga… ” he gets up and
hugs me. “ we won’t leave her side. We’ll wait here until you come back. ” sbu gets up and hugs me too so is
sicelo and Frank. I look at mapholoba and be nods. I take Sims hand and she’s a crying mess. “ it’s going to
be okay. ” I comfort her and she can’t even talk. Dad gives my aunt money to buy the clothes for the child for
girls and boys and she doesn’t take long. We get in and my dad drives straight at home.
Two and half hours later we are coming back and I’m clean and I have changed clothes. I had to cause I
couldn’t enter the sacred kraal with blood. I named her smangele and for the boy name phumlani. Everything
just felt wrong because maybe I didn’t care and I wanted to be with my family. We walk through the hospital
doors again and everyone is just as how we left them. My mom looks at me and I look away. I’m still mad. “
mapholoba, how is she? ”
“ the doctor or anyone hasn’t told us anything. We know where they are keeping her. We made a plan for the
traditional healer to do his work before the doctor comes back. Sicelo and sbu will lock the doctor in his
office and well stay here and look out. You have fifteen minutes. ”
“ mapholoba?, the whole family has to come with us. You are needed in there too. ” he nods and hey follow
me, my dad, bonga, my aunt and uncles. We all go in and I see her with tubes that are connected to her arm,
stomach and a medium almost big one is connected to her mouth. She’s using it to breath. I don’t ever want to
see my wife in this kind of position ever!. The healer lights the sage and burns something else too and says
my clan names then her clan names and tells nomalanga/ phumalani to leave their siblings alone, not cause
any harm and protect them. He says many other things and I don’t hear cause my mind is focused on the
woman who’s my weakness.
She can say mbuso jump and I’ll ask how high. I take her hand and it’s soft and it feels fragile. I place my
hand on her tummy and I feel nothing. My kids usually move when I touch her tummy but now they don’t. I
wipe my tears then put my head over her tummy. I close my eyes and say my clan names and everyone gets
quiet. It’s only the machine that is making sounds.

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Mnguni,
Qwabe,
Mnguni kaYeyeye,
Osidlabehlezi bakaKhondlo kaPhakathwayo,
Abathi bedla, babeyenga umuntu ngendaba
Abathi “dluya kubeyethwe”,
Kanti bahlinza imbuzi,
Bathi umlobokazi ubeyethe kuyikhuni,
Sidika lolodaba,
Phakathwayo!
Wena kaMalandela,
Ngokulandel’ izinkomo zamadoda,
Amazala-nkosi lana!
Mpangazitha!
I lift my head and then put my hand again on her tummy and still nothing. I am about to take it off when I feel
them moving and luh makes a sound. She’s moaning in pain. “ ngiqedile manje. Sekazo beletha uMangcobo.
Mnguni bangamusiki, Kumele abelethe kahle ngokwemelo. ( my job is done now. She is about to give birth.
Mnguni the should not do a caesarean, she must give birth naturally. ) ” the traditional healer says. I wipe my
tears and luh screams again, hard now. They leave and I stay behind.
“ Nurse? ! Nurse? ! Doctor?! ” the nurse comes in running and the doctor follows too. “ we have to take her
to the surgery now! ” he shouts.
“ No!. She will give birth naturally, you can see she’s awake and in pain. You won’t do caesarean on her. ”
“ Mr Gumede sir, we talked about this!. ”
“ and I’m telling you now. She will give birth naturally! Help her!. ”
“ but we didn’t prepare an epidural sir! ”
“ doctor my wife is fucken pain and you’re busy talking nonsense again. Look at her she’s in pain!. ”
“ Ok fine. You have leave now. You can’t be here!. ”
“ I am staying here. I want to be there when my kids are born. ”
“ ok, ok!. Nurse go give him scrubs to change into. ” the nurse agrees and we leave and go to the next room.
The door opens and it’s my mom and some of luh’s uncles wives. I sigh. I wear the scrubs on top of my
clothes. “ mbuso. We know you want to be there when luh gives birth but you shouldn’t see such. ” my mom
says and I shake my head.
“ Oh so now you want to take away the most important time of my life? ” she looks down and sniffs.
“ mkhwenyana, ( son in-law) we might live in a mordent world but don’t forget your teachings and how you
grew up. You are a Zulu man mbuso. You cannot look at your wife when she’s giving birth ” she says and I
chuckle.
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“ aunty. I won’t look at her vagina. I just want to be there and hold her hand. She will kill me if she finds out
I had my head in there. Well I have had it… ”
“ oh my God!. ” they get out. The nurse laughs. “ served them right. Let’s go. ” we get inside the room and luh
is so red and is screaming bloody murder. I doubt she even knows that I’m there. I take her hand and she
looks at me. Then cries. “ push Mrs gunede, push!. ” the doctor tells her and she screams then pushes and
shakes her head. “ you can do it my love, I’m here. Push baby our kids want to meet you ” she nods then
pushes again almost breaking my hand off. I keep encouraging her to push and she does. “ yes Mrs Gumede.
Now give me one last very strong push ” she huffs looking at me. “ I hate you, I hate you! ” she says
“ I hate myself too baby push! ” she huffs again then pushes. Wow I didn’t know that luh is this physically
strong. She keeps pushing then I hear my little Gumede crying his lungs out, telling the world he is here. My
bay last born baby “ hello mommy, hello daddy I’m a boy ” the doctor says. They give me the scissors and I
cut the umbilical cord. The nurse takes him away to clean him and luh is still in pain.
“ push baby, push one last time. ” I tell her. She’s so red and is screaming bloody murder again and making
all kinds of promises about how she’s going to kill me then she says she loves me then I must come and push
the baby out. “ you’re almost there Mrs Gumede push!. The baby is here. ” she grabs my t-shirt like she’s
going to choke me then pushes hard screaming. Another little Gumede comes out screaming very loud like
he’s fighting, putting his mark in this world. Qwabe!. I kiss luh then cut his umbilical cord too. They bring the
first baby who is the last born and I take him and hold him in my arms delicately. I kiss his pink forehead.
The nurse takes him, takes the blanket off him and puts him inside luh hospital dress and she looks at me
cries. She kisses him. They bring qwabe too and I hold him, kiss him. The nurse does the same and luh kisses
him too. “ my babies. Mommy loves you. I love you very much. I love you too mbuso. ” I wipe my tears and
kiss her and hug her with our kids. “ I love you my husband. I love you Phakathwayo ”
“ thank you for making me a man. Thank you for giving me everything I could ever ask for. ” she looks at me.
Looks at our kids the closes her eyes. The machines go off and start making noise. What?! No!. The nurse
takes the kids from her and some try to push me out. “ LUNGI?! LUNGILE?! LUNGI?! DOCTOR WHAT’S
WRONG WHAT’S GOING ON?! ”
“ take Mr Gumede out. She’s going into shock!. Get him out of here!. ”
“ NO! NO! NO! LUNGILE! LUNGILE! ” two strong arms pull me out of the room.

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MBUSO.
They drag me out until we are at the waiting area. She cannot die and leave our kids like that. How the hell
am I going to take care of two kids on my own?. She has to live! She really has to. “ what happened mbuso?
Is something wrong with lungi ?” her aunt asks. How the hell do I tell them that luh might be dead?. I shake
my head and leave them just like that as they keep calling after me. I run out of the hospital and as soon as
I’m outside. I scream. I fucken roar so loud and hard and I still feel like it’s not enough. Someone would
probably think that I am crazy and they might be right because that is exactly how I am feeling. “ brother? ”
it’s bonga. “ leave me alone bonga. I really want to be alone and get some fucken air and breathe!. ” he sits
down on the pavement with me.
“ well too bad because you know I won’t leave you here alone. We are in this together. All of us are here for
you and luh. We’ll both get some air and breath too cause being inside there is suffocating me. ” he doesn’t
get it. He really doesn’t. “ Bonga please!. ” he shakes his head. “ no mbuso. I won’t leave you here alone and
make up all kinds of worse scenarios in that bead of yours. I know you’re scared. Hell I’m scared too. The
doctor came out after you left the waiting room. Luh is fine but she hasn’t woken up yet but she will. She just
went into shock but she’s not dead mbuso. She is still here with us and she needs all of us to be strong for the
both of you and your kids. Nothing bad will happen. ”
“ it already did bonga. She went into shock cause her body can’t handle everything that she has went through.
What happens if she goes into another shock and doesn’t come out of it and her body gives in and she dies
and leaves us what happens then?. I am so scared of losing her. I wish I can trade places and be there one
who is lying there. I can’t stand to see her like that. ” I wipe my tears. “ lungi is strong mbuso and she knows
that if she dies it will hurt her more than it will hurt you. She’s young and she’s very strong. You have to
believe and have faith man that she will wake up and you will take her home with your kids. Be strong
brother. Now is not the time for you to be breaking down. She needs strength from all of us but especially
you. She needs you to pull her out of that shock. She needs to hear your voice. That’s what she needs. ” I get
up and shake my head. “ I don’t have strength bonga. When I look at her I cry and I just want her to hold me
and tell me that it is going to be okay. How do I tell her that when my heart is filled with fear. Fear of losing
her. She has been through and what if she thinks it’s better for her to not be here. ”
“ you sound so stupid right now and I know you don’t believe that she could choose death over you and your
kids. Mbuso you and luh breathe and live for each other. I know that my sister is fighting tooth and nail to be
here to see her kids and you. Brother I know it’s hard and none of us can imagine what you’re going through
but we are here with you and we will go through each and every pain you’re feeling. You will not shut us out
and want to have some space to think or breathe. We will go to the toilet with you even if we must. We are
all in this together. We will not leave your side and we will come out of this much stronger than we were
before.” Sicelo says and I don’t know when he got here.
“ All we are asking you is to let us in and share your pain with us because it is hurting all of us to see you
like this and especially luh. She is your wife mbuso but she is also as important to me and she is to you
because I know if the roles were reversed and I was in your shoes. You would do and say the same. You
probably would have punched me in my face and told me to snap out of it and that I will fall apart when my
wife wakes up and when she is fine. So brother I’m saying the same thing to you. Wipe those damn tears. Get
in there and show them that you’re mbuso gumede. Go and talk to your wife then you come back and let us
see our kids cause the nurses are waiting for you to give them the go ahead But first we have to go to the
chapel and pray. Don’t look at me like that. One of us here has to know how to talk to God and I think Bonga
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is the one who knows how to do that.” Sbusiso says and bonga nods. He pulls me to him and we bro hug. We
all share a group hug then we head inside.
We go to the chapel and we kneel down in a line. We look at each other then we laugh. “ ok guys let’s be
serious. ” we laugh again. “ God is not going to take us serious because we are not being serious right now. ”
bonga says. “ man I feel weird in here. It’s like God is standing right in front of my face. ” sicelo says
looking around the chapel. “ close your eyes you fools and stop gambling with my wife’s life. ” they get
silent. “ uh father God. It is me bonga and my three brothers. The sinners. Uhm God we know we don’t have
a relationship with you but we are here to ask you for a favour. We are not mocking you or disrespecting you
and we are sorry about laughing just now and all the killing we have done and the killing we are going to do
tomorrow. I am not going to lie in your face because you know what we are going to do it. God. Please bring
luh back for all of us but especially for her kids and my brother. ”
I open my eyes and look at my brother. He is serious and his hands are tightly entwined together. I do the
same then close my eyes again. “ ever since luh came to our lives. my brother has changed for the good. He
changed because he found his soulmate and because he loves her and wanted to do anything to make her
happy. So bra God please don’t take khanyo away from us because my brother is going to be miserable
without her and I do not want that. He promised to kill himself if khanyo doesn’t wake up and I know he will
do that. But for our sake God don’t take khanyo away. Her kids needs their mother and our brother needs our
wife. She’s not only a light to him only but to all of us too. Thank you God and uhm I hope I made sense
amen. ” he says. We say amen and this has got to be the weirdest prayer I have ever heard but I am thankful. “
I feel guilty that when bonga started praying the only thing playing on my mind was sex. ” we look at him like
what the fuck sbu? “ yoh these kids will kill me man! sex while praying yoh.” Luh's other aunt says claping
her hands once and leaves. We look at her shocked because we thought we we’re alone. We look at each
other then laugh. I leave them then go to the room they are keeping her to and she looks like she is in deep
sleep. My sleeping beauty looks so beautiful. I love this woman and I will move heaven and earth for her.
I sit down and take her hand. It is soft and delicate. These hands have made me come undone. They have
loved me, supported me and most of they have built a warm, loving home for me. “ luh sthandwa sam. ( my
love.) I would like to think that you can hear me. I’ve heard about how they always say that when someone is
in a coma, you should talk to them because they can hear you so I hope you are hearing me right now. You
gave birth to two boys they are so beautiful and they have your beauty.” I chuckle. “ I can’t have my boys
looking like pretty boys because they will get teased at school but the girls will love them. I’m sure of that. I
thought that maybe we will have a beautiful girl who will look like you and drive me absolutely crazy but
that means we still have to have so much sex until we make her. I do want a mini version of you so she can
wrap me around her fingers like you. Come back to us khanyo. There will be no light in our lives without
you. I need you and our kids need you more.” He chest is moving up and down. She’s breathing, she’s alive
and that’s all that matters to me.
“ we still have a wonderful life to look forward to with our loved ones. I still have to show you the world
and…. I promise that when the kids are at least three months old. I am going to take you away from here with
our kids. We will come back when they are a year old and we still need to name them. I think dad will name
them but I’m not sure. I want us to name them though. I think I’m going crazy and I’m losing my mind. I need
you back khanyo. Come back sthandwa sam. Come back to us. ” lay my head next to her body. I continue not
talk to her like she’s is with me and she’s listening, laughing and watching me as we talk. Yes. I’ll keep that
image in my mind..

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LUNGI.
I can hear voices, people talking but I’m struggling to hear what they are saying. I want to open my eyes but I
cant. I try to lift my head and body but I can’t too cause the feel very heavy. My kids. Where are my kids?.
Someone touches my hand and it’s my husband. I try to open my mouth to speak but it feels like it has been
shut with glue. He’s talking to me. He’s crying. Mbuso don’t cry I’m still here. I want to comfort him. I try to
get up but I can’t. I can’t see anything because it is dark where I’m at. I see a light shining somewhere and
somehow I find myself walking towards that light. I see a figure of a person outside and it is sitting down on
the beach. I hear the waves and the birds chirping somewhere around. The sun is shining so bright and it is a
very lovely weather.
I walk towards that person and they get up but they have not turned to look at me. It’s a woman, she’s taller
than me on height and she looks like she’s older than me. She’s wearing along beautiful white dress and it fits
her perfectly. She has a beautiful body. Her hair that looks like mine. I stop walking and put a hand in my
chest. My heart is beating so fast it feels like it is going to jump out of my chest. No. It can’t be her. Does this
mean that I am dead now that I can see her. “ mama? Is that you? ” she turns and looks at me. My bottom lip
hangs in shock.. She smiles then opens her arms to me. I slowly walk towards her and she does to. He arms
are still open when we both stop in front of each other. “ mntanam. ( my child) ” she says. She is my mother.
She almost looks exactly like me. If she was alive and we had to go somewhere I think we would have been
mistaken for sisters and not mother and daughter. “ mama. It’s really you. ” I throw myself in her arms and I
cry.
She holds me tight and I feel her love and warmth. She is really here. I smell her neck and she smells like
cocoa butter. I pull back and touch her face and hair and she laughs. “ are you really real or it’s a figment of
my imagination? ” she smiles and kisses my cheek and forehead then she palms my cheek. “ come let’s go sit
down and talk. She takes my hand and leads me to the beach. We sit in the sand. “ it’s a beautiful day today is
it not? ” somehow that statement makes me think of mbuso. “ why are you sad baby? ” I take a deep breath
and look at her. “ it is here but I don’t think it is there. ” she nods. “ you are so beautiful and grown up. You
are a wife and a mother now. You know I held your kids before they were born. I kissed their cheeks. They
are so beautiful and handsome. Just like their dad. ” I smile. “ thank you mom. What do you think of my
husband mom? ”
Her smile is beautiful and it radiates from her face. “ at first I didn’t like him because I had thought that his
intensions with you were not pure. I was scared for your life but I slowly saw change in him and then I knew
he was worthy of you. The day you left that house and went to live with him was the day I found a little
peace. I know he loves you and he lives for you baby. He reminds me of your dad. His love is very intense
and sometimes it make you feel like your suffocating right? ” I nod. “ it’s in him and he can’t help himself.
It’s how you love him and how he loves you. The both of you are like that. He has walked the ends of the
earth protecting you and I want you to tell him that I am grateful and I am happy to have a son in law like him.

Wow. I didn’t know that I needed to hear those words coming from my mother and that they would mean that
much to me. “ thank you mama I will. ” she pats my leg and sighs. “ I’m sorry about how you I left all of you.
How you grew up and experienced in the hands of those people. We are not here to talk about them but I want
you to promise me one thing baby. ” I look at her then nod. “ I want you to promise me that you will let go of
all the hurt they did to you. All the regrets you have. I want you to live your life without any regrets and be
happy with your family. You have been through so much my child and each time you come up stronger than
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before and that is what you must promise me. No one can take away your happiness but only yourself.
Believe in the woman you are, the mother you are and the wife you are.”
“ I promise you mom. I will do that. Are you happy here cause it looks like you are alone?. ” she laughs. “ I
am not alone baby. There are many people here. Thank you for honouring me at your wedding and always
including me in everything you are doing in your life. I will always be with you and I will guide you in every
way. All you have to do is come to me and talk to me. I am so proud of you my children and please tell your
brother that too. He has met a wonderful woman and she will make him happy. You and her are going to be
great sisters. Our family is growing and that makes me very happy.” She gets quiet after that and we sit in
silence “ mom? ”
“ Yes baby?. ” her eyes look teary and I think she knows what I want to ask her. “ why haven’t you asked me
about dad. ” she gets up and I get up too. We walk slowly and the sun is slowly setting. “ because I still miss
him and I’m waiting for the day that God will reunite us again. I was ripped from him. We didn’t live our
life the way we planned because of my mistakes and lungile. I want you to learn from my mistakes and stop
letting anyone close to you. You have to protect your family no matter what. Your instincts warned you but
you failed to listen to them. Don’t do that again because you almost cost yourself your life and your kids life.
That woman was going to kill you baby if your husband hadn’t found you.”
“ I know mom and it was very stupid of me but what happened opened my eyes and I will never make the
same mistake twice. ” she nods. “ trust the people you have right now in your life. You have my
grandchildren now and I want to see you grow old and them growing up to take care of you one day. ” she
wipes my tears. “ I wish you didn’t die. I wish I had you growing up. ” she hugs me and we stand like that. “
there are people I want you to meet. ” I look at her. “ who do you want me to meet mom? ” she smiles. “
you’ll see. Close your eyes. ” ok. I close them and I wait. “ open them. ” and I am hesitant. What if the people
she wants me to meet are the mazibuko's but I don’t think God would do that to me or my mom because pretty
sure she would have killed her then moment she saw them.
I open my eyes and I am shocked. I look at what’s infront of me and there stand two people who look like my
mom and dad. They look like me and sicelo. One is woman and another is a man. They are smiling and look
excited. “ these are your siblings lungile. This is your older sister mbalenhle and your older brother ntokozo.
” what? “ how come I don’t know about them and no one has ever said anything about my other siblings?. ”
they pull me to them and we share a groom hug and I cry. I hold them tight and cry my eyes out. “ you don’t
have to cry baby. Your father didn’t know about them too. He only found out when thuli confessed to have
made me lose them. I didn’t know I was pregnant and she made gave me something to lose them. ” that
witch! “ I’m sorry thuli did that to all of us. ” they nod. “ we are glad to have met you too. Please tell dad
and the whole family about us. Tell them we have grown and we are watching over all of you. ” my brother
says. He is indeed my fathers son and my older sister is just as beautiful as my mom. Wow. My parents
genes don’t play. “ I love all of you ” I hug them again and then they leave. My mom looks at me and I know
it’s time to say goodbye and I’m not ready. “ are you leaving me?... Again? ” I know I’m being ridiculous but
I’m still not ready. I hug her and cry on her shoulder.
“ It’s time for you to go back and be with your family. Your husband needs you and my grandchildren need
you too. Take of your dad and make sure he’s happy. I love all of you baby and I am always watching over
you. Tell your dad about your brother and sister. He will know what to do. Tell him what must he name them.
Mbalenhle and Ntokozo. Now go back before your husband kills himself. ” she kisses my cheek then gives
me one last tight hug and I hold her tight to me not wanting to let go. “ lungile!, Lungile!. Luh go back
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mntanam. ( my child.) Ngizohlala ngikuthanda thumbu kamama. ( I will always love you my last born ) don’t
you ever forget that you are favoured my child and lungile. Please go to church and christen my grandkids.
Now go!. ” she tries to lush me but I hold her tight and cry. She cries too but then she pushes me hard and the
light goes out. I don’t see her anymore and I scream her name. I keep calling her name but she’s not there
anymore and there’s no light.
Someone is calling my name repeatedly and I’m crying calling for my mom. They shake me until I feel a
sharp smell on my nose and I open my eyes and the first person I see is my husband and he looks like a mess.
His beard has grown and he looks very sexy and messy at the same time. He looks like he hasn’t slept in
months. He looks at me then takes my hand to his. He palms my cheek and his hand feels so warm and
comforting it feels like home. “ baby you’re awake!. Finally!. I thought you were never going to wake up. ”
what? Why would he think that?. “ nurse? Call the doctor my wife is awake!. ”
“ I sleep for a day then I wake up and your beard has grown to this size?. Baby did you eat and get some
sleep? ” he chuckles and kisses my lips. I wipe his tears. “ why are crying?.... Can you give me some water
to drink? ” he gets up and gives me water. The doctor comes in looking panicked then he relaxes when he
sees me. “ My God finally you’re awake. How are you feeling?. ” they look at me worried then the doctor
helps me sit up. And begins to check my heart rate, eyes and high blood pressure and my sugar level.
“ I’m fine. I feel fine. ” I answer him. “ what is your name and who is the president of this country?” is this
doctor serious. “ My name is lungile Gumede and Ramaphosa is our president and this is my husband Mbuso
Gumede. Where are my kids? ” he writes down then looks at me “ can you move your toes for me?.” He asks
lifting the sheet off to see my feet and my toes are still working just fine. He writes down. “ can you do the
same to your hands?. ” I feel my husband freezing. He looks worried. I move my hands and they are all
working just fine. “ do you feel any pain when you’re moving them? ” I shake my head no. Ok what is going
on here?. “ I’m going to list poke you with this needles here. I need you to tell me at the scale from 0 to 10
how does it feel?. ’ he does and damn that think stings. “ aaw that’s a 10. But it is cramping a little. Why do
you look worried. ” I ask the doctor then look at mbuso.
“ Do you remember what happened to you Mrs Gumede? ” I look at mbuso and my husband is still worried. “
I do remember.. Thank you for saving me. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you about my suspicions about Preston. … ..
” just think about what that woman said she was going to do to me and what my mom told me that she would
have killed me makes me tear up. I honestly thought that I was never going to see my family again. “ shhh. It’s
okay baby. You are safe now. Your hand is cramping because when you got shot and when thembi took out
the bullet she touched some of your nerves that’s why you are feeling it cramping. ” oh my God. “ does that
mean my left hand might not work? ” I ask the doctor.
“ We have to monitor it to see if it stops working or it completely heals. But for now I’m not worried
because it seems to be working. Congrats though for delivering two beautiful baby boys. The nurse will bring
them and your family is dying to see you. I will keep you for night and if there are no complications then
tomorrow morning you are free to go home with your kids. Do you feel pain anywhere else in your body? ” I
look at mbuso and smile. “ other than my shoulder no, I feel fine. Does that mean that there is nothing wrong
with my kids even if they were born before time? ”
“ You were already and fully eight months pregnant and you were on the first week of your ninth month. I
have never experienced something like this Mrs Gumede. You got shot and you were in pain but you still
managed to give birth naturally wow!. I have helped many women in very complicated situations but this one
was one of a kind and I’m happy to know that I helped you deliver your babies even though you gave us a
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scare. Congratulations you two again The nurse will come and give you your babies. ” he leaves is and I
look at mbuso. He looks so down and broken.
“ talk to me.. What’s wrong?. ” he sighs. He lays his head on my lap. “ you were in a coma luh for a week. I
was afraid that you were never going to wake up. I thought you were going to die after you gave birth to the
twins and I. .. ” oh my poor husband. I’ve been in a coma for a week. But if felt like I was with my mom for a
few hours?. “ I’m here now and I am awake. I’m sorry I put you through hell my husband. Do you forgive me?
” he looks at me and honestly I don’t like seeing him like this. “ there’s nothing to forgive baby. I just want to
take you home with our kids that’s all. ” he says. The nurse comes in and I see my beautiful babies. “ but I
haven’t bathed yet. ” I tell them and mbuso chuckles. “ Sims made sure that you looked beautiful and she
bathed you herself. ” that’s s like her. The nurse undresses them then she puts them inside my hospital gown
and they look so beautiful and perfect. Tears well in my eyes and I look at mbuso as he snaps photos of me
and the kids then the four of us.
“ can I feed them? ” the nurse smiles and helps me take off the gown off my shoulders and arms then places
each one on my nipple. At first it kind hurts then I doesn’t. I look at then as they suckle for dear life. Mom
was right. They look like there handsome dad. “ your husband will have to suckle on your nipples to open
them so the babies won’t have trouble getting milk. I look at mbuso and he looks at me smirks. “ you are a
beautiful family. I will leave you and come back when I have to bath them. ” she says then leaves.
“ I can’t believe I didn’t give them their first bath. ” I say regrettably. “ I didn’t too because you were fighting
for your life and love? We are going to give them many baths. ” he says snapping more pictures. “ what are
their names? ” I ask him. “ I haven’t named them yet. I was waiting for you to wake up. ” he says. “ which
one is the oldest cause they are identical mbuso?. ” I don’t know if I will be able to tell them apart. “ the one
who’s going to cry the loudest is the oldest one. ” he says and I giggle. “ it’s so nice to hear you laughing.
Don’t ever me leave me lungile. Promise me that. ”
“ I will never leave you mbuso. Ever!. ” he kisses me and we watch our kids. I think I know who’s the
oldest. His eyebrows are frowning like he’s already pissed at the world. Yep he is definitely mbuso’s son.
There’s a knock on the door and we look up and it’s my dad. He looks revealed. He comes and hugs us tight.
He looks at me and nods. I know he wants to say something but he’s feeling very emotional. I kiss him and
wipe his tears. My brother comes and he too looks like a mess. We hug tight. The longest and he cries. He
makes me cry too. “ don’t ever leave me. ” he says and I nod. Bonga comes too and hugs me too. Sbusiso is
also a mess. All these men look like they aged and haven’t bathed or slept. He hugs me too and apologizes. I
tell him it’s okay. Zipho surprisingly is here too. “ ave une drama!. Sowungaze ufuna ukusishiya kanjalo nje
ungakokotizi kahle ekhaya khanyo? Hay ngeke! ( you are so full of drama. So you wanted to die and leave us
like that while you haven’t performed your wifely duties at my parent’s house? No you can’t! ) ” he says. I
laugh through my tears as we hug.
Frank hugs me too then mah and she’s a crying mess. Mbuso’s aunt hugs me too crying. Sims gets in and she
looks hesitant. She has a bag with her then she pulls out a pyjama button up top “ uhm can you all turn around
and I want to dress luh. ” she’s avoiding my eyes but her face looks red and her eyes are so puffy. The men
turn the she takes one of the babies and gives one twin to aunt lwethu and the other to my aunt. She helps me
wear my pyjama top and as she’s buttoning it her hands are shaking. I stop her and holds her hands. She’s not
looking at me. Sims?. ” she wipes her to see are then quickly gets up and I sigh.
Sims is not the type of person that talks about her feelings easily. I know her and I know she’s hurting. She
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won’t talk now. She just needs some time. She tells them to turn again and they do. They give me my kids and
I hold the both of them. Mbuso's mom and dad come in too and his dad hugs me after deciding if he should or
not. His mom though hasn’t looked at me or is coming come hug me too. I look at mbuso and he’s having a
silent conversation with his dad. I frown. I Rembert what thembi said and I also remember what my mom
said about moving on and forgetting about things that hurt me. She didn’t hurt me I know but I feel like she’s
also responsible for thembi being in our lives. “ mah? ” she looks at me and cries.
“ I’m sorry my child. I never thought things would turn out this way and she would…. I’m so sorry. ” she’s
hurting and mbuso scoffs shaking his head. What happened between them?. “ mah, don’t cry and it wasn’t
your fault. Thembi had her mind set and she was going to do whatever she wanted to do. You did not tell her
to do all the things she did. It was her and Preston. No one else. Can I get hug please? ” she comes then sits
beside me and gives me a mom hug. We hug each making sure don’t hurt my little ones. “ I forgive you ” I
whisper in her ear and she nods.
She gets up and I look at all of them. “ sicelo where is lesego? ” I ask him. “ she’s at your house with the
kids. ” I nod. I was hoping she would be here too but I understand. “ zipho where’s your future wife? ” they
all laugh and look at him. He brushes his head “ she’s at her flat. ” he says and I nod. “ thank you for the love
you are showing me right now. I had doubts about Preston and should have told my husband what I was
suspecting after he told everyone about the twins and when I saw him getting aroused looking at my legs. ” I
look at mbuso and he looks shocked. “ I wanted to tell you at night but I just wanted to be sure and so I
decided that I will tell you in the morning but then he was one step ahead of me. I promise to never put my
life in danger and never bring a stranger into our lives and homes because it almost cost me my life and my
kids life. I hope you will all forgive me for putting you through this ordeal. ” they agree and mbuso takes my
hand.
“ baba. What are their names? ” I ask my father in law and he looks surprised. “ I thought you would want to
name them yourself? ” I shake my head. “ I thought so too but we thought it will be best if you two
grandfathers would name your grandkids. ” I look at my dad and he looks emotional. I think they deserve that.
We will name the next kids we will have by God’s grace. “ I wasn’t expecting that thank you my children. ”
his dad says. “ I will name the oldest Bhekumbuso Gumede and the last born is Bhekizizwe Gumede.” Yep I
did think he will probably go to that line of names. We look at my dad. “ bhekumbuso sibonelo Gumede and
the last born is Bhekizizwe siboniso Gumede. Our grand children. Thank you for giving us the honour to
name your children. ”
“ I love their names. Right baby ” he nods smiling. I look at Sims and she’s smiling but I know what
happened shook her. The nurse comes and takes my babies away but promises to bring the back because I
want them to sleep in the same room as me. The family hesitantly leaves and it’s just me and mbuso. “ how is
Sims? ” he sighs. “ she’s a mess. She hasn’t talked since you got here and bonga doesn’t know what to do. ” I
nod. “ she is like that. I will talk to her. ” he agrees. “ I think she got scared that if it happens that you die she
will be left alone.” I know because that’s exactly what I’m thinking. “ get in bed with me and hold me
please? ” he smiles. “ I thought you would never ask. ” he says getting in and holds me. “ ngiyakuthanda
mkami. Mama wabantwana bami. ( I love you my wife. Mother of my kids ” I kiss his cheek. “ I love you
husband. ”

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LUNGI.
We are on our way home and I’m sitting with sims at the back seat. She’s holding my last born who is
sleeping soundly in her arms. It’s like he’s hers cause she took him the moment she got in my room. My
husband was right when he said the oldest is the one that cries loudly and my baby, my last born is sweet and
doesn’t cry a lot. I can just see that Sibonelo is the one that is going to give us trouble. “ What are you
smiling about. ” sims asks and I laugh. “ that I love you and I’m happy that you’re here with me. ” she looks
at me and I see her eyes getting misty. Sims is really hurt and seeing her like this is breaking my heart. “ I’m
here now and I’m okay. I won’t leave you. I promise. ”
She shakes her head then wipes her tears. “ well talk about this when we get home. I need you to help me
with the kids. You know I’m new to this even though I have been with you when the boys were born it’s not
the same now cause I have to do most of the work and so I need you to be strong. Ok mamkhulu? ” she
giggles and I smile. That’s what I want to see. Her smiling and not crying. “ I can’t believe they are actually
here. They look so beautiful luh. My babies. I missed this new smell of babies ” she says smelling my son. “
please stop kissing my son on the mouth sims cause I don’t know what the mouth was licking last night ”
mbuso says looking at sims then laughs when he sees her shocked face. We laugh at her.
“ Well for your information. I didn’t kiss him on his mouth. I just pecked his little pink chubby cheek. ” she
laughs. We get home and I am so glad to be back. I notice though that it looks like there are new security
guys. “ are our security guys on leave or something? ” I ask my husband. “ no. I fired all of them ” he says
switching the engine off. Mbuso though. Why did he fire them cause it was not their fault. I will ask him when
we are alone. Right now I just want to be in my house.
I am so glad that they didn’t stitch me. My babies came out healthy and ohk. Mbuso though asked the doctor
when are we going to have sex and the doctor said we should at least wait 2 months. His mom and aunt
however told him that he must wait for 6 months and he laughed like what they were telling him was crazy. I
hope we will both wait before we have sex again. I have to talk to dad and sicelo and tell them what mom
said. I still can’t believe I had that encounter with her. I hope I am going to look as beautiful as her when I’m
older. I told mbuso about my encounter when I was in the coma and what my mom said about him. It touched
him deeply and thanked her.
My husband opens the door and my house smells amazing. I see 4 little people sitting on the carpet watching
cartoons. Sims boys and Lesego’s kids. “ hi guys, how are you? ” the kids stand up and sims kids run to me to
look at the babies “ good morning aunty luh. Wow you came with two babies? ” I laugh and then they follow
their mom to the kitchen I look at my nephew and niece and they are quietly watching us. “ aren’t you guys
going to come and give your aunt hugs and kisses? ” they look at each other then they smiles. “ I could really
use hugs and kisses right now to feel better. ” they shyly come towards me and stand next to me. I give mbuso
his son and he goes to the kitchen following sims who went straight there.
I pull the chair and sit facing them so we can be on the same level. “ I’m your dad’s sister and my name is
aunty Lungi. That means the both of you are my nephew and niece. So you want to tell me your names too? ” I
give them my warmest and kindest smile. “ is that you on that picture? ” kamo asks pointing at the potrait in
the lounge mbuso did for me. “ yeah that’s me. You like it? ” kagiso looks at his sister and shakes his head. “
aunty asked us our names kamo. My name is kagiso aunty and this kamo my little sister ” he says. Kamo pouts
looking at her brother “ but I was going to tell her kagiso. ” she folds her hands and pretends to be upset and I
giggle. “ do you like that picture kamo? ” she smiles her toothless cute smile. “ yes aunty. What happened to
your hair?, did your mommy cut it too? ” I giggle. “ no she didn’t. Someone else did. Do you think aunty
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looks beautiful without her hair? ”
She nods. “ you look like my daddy so you’re beautiful ” what? I laugh and I look at kagiso and he laughs. “
girls don’t look like boys silly. ” kamo looks at him confused. “ but aunty looks like papa and grandpa. ” they
are so cute. I love them. “ no she doesn’t. Aunty is beautiful and boys aren’t beautiful. ” kamo rolls her eyes
and palms her cheek and I laugh. “ aunty is still waiting for her hugs and kisses ” kamo opens her arms and I
pull her close and shower her with kisses all over her face and she giggles. I pull kagiso too and he laughs
and ducks my kisses when I try to kiss him on the mouth but I eventually land one. He laughs and gets shy. “
don’t you want me to kiss you on the mouth? ” he looks down shyly and shakes his head “ well I am going to
kiss you everyday until you tell me why you don’t want me to kiss you on the mouth. ” I tell him giggling.
“ no aunty. Girls won’t like me if you kiss me in the mouth. ” he mumbles it and I laugh. Oh my God. At 8
years old?. I laugh. “ I won’t kiss you on the mouth then. Aunty promises. ” he giggles. “ where’s your
mommy? ”. I turn around and see my brother. He was watching us the whole entire time. “ how long have you
been standing there? ” I ask him getting up. “ long enough. Thank you. ” he says. I cock my head to the side. “
for welcoming them sis. Thank you. ” he really loves them. “ well they are your kids and I love them too.
Where’s Lesego? ” I ask him. He takes my hand and pulls me to him and we hug. He is careful not to hurt my
shoulder.
“ I don’t ever want to experience what we all went through the past week. You scared me luh. You really
did. I can’t lose you again. ” I nod. We stand like that just holding each other. “ I have to talk to you and dad.
Where is he? ” he takes a deep breath then looks at me. “ he is at the farm, with mbuso's dad and uncle
Victor. He stayed at the farm so he can watch thembi and Preston. “ I’m sorry for what they did to you. We
were careless with your safety and everyone else’s. We won’t do it again. ” I nod. “ take me to meet your
future wife. ” he laughs.
We enter my kitchen and it’s my mother in-law, my aunt, sis nonto, Sims, sbu, bonga. My husband and my
future sister in-law. They are watching the babies, sleeping and they are cooing and taking pictures of the
babies. She looks up and smiles when her eyes land on my brother. That’s so sweet. “ love come here. ” she
comes and stands next to him. “ you have met almost everyone but you haven’t met one of the most important
people in my life. I respect her and love her dearly. When you see her, she’s a reflection of our mother. She
looks exactly like her. This is Lungi Gumede my sister. Sis. This is the woman who has my heart and my
soul. Lesego Motaung. ” I look at her and she blushes. “ hi lesego, nice to finally meet you and I’m sorry that
we are meeting like this for the very first time. ” I hug her and she hugs me back and she blushes looking
down “ thank you for welcome me and my….our kids. And for the lovely house you found for us. The kids
and I love it. ” she sounds so sweet and she’s very beautiful.
“ how are you feeling though? ” she asks. “ I’m just glad to be back home to my family. That’s all that matters
and I’m thankful for that. I thought I was going to die. I was terrified for my life and my kids life. I knew that
woman was going to kill me.” I move and sit next to my husband and I look at our kids. Everyone gets silent
and listen to me. “ you can smell and see evil from her face. She reeks of it. It felt like I was with Satan face
to face. She made my blood run cold. Her eyes had this cold and vacant look. I think Preston saw another
side of her that he has never seen before and he got scared when she shit me without thinking twice. He
begged her not to kill me. Their plan was that they were going to keep me until I have birth then she would
take my babies away but then she changed her mind. She wanted to give me a caesarean while I was
watching and then kill me after. Preston begged her not to do it but she was adamant that she is doing it then
Preston said he will do it cause he doesn’t want me to die because he doesn’t my blood on his hands. That
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room I was in looked like a hospital theatre room it have everything you can think off. I knew that if my
husband doesn’t find me on time, he was going to find me dead and our kids gone with that psycho.” My
husband looks at his mother and I can rage all over his face. They all look at me shocked. Sims comes to me
and hugs me from behind and cries. I really have to talk to Sims alone.
“ Mah, I don’t know what promises you made to that girl cause she said you sold her dreams. She said I was
living the life that was meant to be hers cause you made promised and sold her dreams. She wanted to make
both of you mbuso and sbu to pay and so I was collateral damage. She waited and waited until she found the
perfect opportunity when I moved here mbuso. She has been watching us right under our noses. Am I ever
going to feel safe?. I know I brought Preston into our lives but I honestly thought that he was just a person
who needed love and a family but they planned this. I got kidnapped by someone we lived and dined with. I
gave him a roof under my house. What if he did many things that we don’t know about?.” mbuso looks
frustrated. He looks like the whole world is on his shoulders.
Sis nonto takes my hand and wipes her tears. “ I’m back sis nonto and I hope no one is going to come into our
family again and try to kill one of us. You know while I was in a coma. I saw my mom and talked to her. She
told me that thembi was going to kill me. You were going to find me dead mbuso had you arrived a moment
later. She asked me to not let any strangers into our lives. She didn’t mean you lesego if that’s what you’re
thinking.” I tell her and she looks relieved “ all I’m saying is we should all be careful about the people
around us and the people who will want to come into our family. It’s going to be hard to trust a stranger
cause we won’t know if they will be here with true intentions or not.”
They all nod. “ well I’m just glad that your husband found you in time luh. Cause if you had died I think
mbuso would have killed all of us then himself. ” my aunt says and they laugh. “ I meant it when I said I was
going to kill myself had you died. I will not live in this world without you luh. I will follow you even in
death. Where you go. I go. ” he says kissing my cheek. I love him. “ since the kids are sleeping can you guys
watch them. I want to talk to Sims. Lesego we will have our time alone so we can talk okay? ” she nods and
my husband looks at us worriedly “ I don’t want the two of you crying in there. Sims, thank you for being
strong for us and being the best sister in-law ” he hugs her. Ok mbuso never touches another woman besides
me and his mother. I don’t know why he does that and I have never asked him why. Everyone looks at him
surprised. “ I was taking care of my sisters family ” she says. “ our family ” mbuso says. I’m blessed to have
them in my life. I kiss my husband then get up and we go to my bedroom.
“ let’s go to my bedroom ” she emphasizes the ‘ my ‘ part and I laugh. We close the door then get in bed and
lay down facing each other. “ how’s your coochie feeling? ” we both laugh out loud. I wasn’t expecting her
to say that. “ sis it fucken hurts. I’m even afraid of going to the look and I don’t think I want to get pregnant
anytime soon. Well I think maybe when the kids are like 10. I felt like I was losing my mind. Everything in
my body was hurting. You didn’t tell me giving birth hurts so much. ” she laughs “ I did tell you twice and
you saw me when I was experiencing the labour pains. ”
“ seeing and experiencing are two totally different things.” I tell her. “ but now we are both moms even
though it wasn’t exactly your time. How did we not see who Preston really is? ”
“ he pretended to be this gay and Fabulous person. He put on this persona and we bought it. We didn’t know
he had an agenda. ” she sighs. “ uncle Victor just came to my place and picked us up and drove here. He
didn’t say anything and I thought that maybe you were going into labour. Never in a million years did I ever
think that you were kidnapped by Preston worst of all. Mbuso lost it luh!. He was scary. I think he was close
to losing his mind. You know he only slept at hospital ever since you go there.” I am not surprised. “ I was
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scared too Sims. I really was. I saw my life flash before my eyes and I thought that my story can’t just end
like this. I thought that what happened to my mom was going to happen to me only this time I won’t see my
kids grow. ”
I wipe her tears. “ I was scared. I thought you were going to die and I was going to be left alone. First it was
thami then I thought it was going to be you and it scared me. I thought that why do the people I love the most
have to die by someone else’s hand. It broke me. What happened to you luh has left a scar in my heart in the
same place where thami left his…It grew and I am scared now. Why do bad things happen to you luh cause
you are a wonderful person? . Why do people always want to hurt you when you didn’t even do anything bad
to them?. It’s not fair. It really isn’t. ” she cries and we hold each other and cry. I am asking myself those
questions too.
“ You know Sims sometimes I think that I attract bad luck and bad people in my life. Sometimes I feel like I
have this dark thing that is always following me. ” she shakes her head and looks at me. “ no don’t say that.
Luh the man we love do bad things. They kill people but they don’t have bad luck and attract bad things. So
don’t say that about you cause if it was true, you wouldn’t have met your family, met the man who loves you,
you wouldn’t have all these people around you who love you. You are blessed luh and now you two have
wonderful boys that you were blessed with. So don’t say that. ” I hear her but I can’t t help how I feel. “ I
was hoping for a little girl you know. A mini me.. ” we both giggle. “ yeah cause Lord knows we need
women in this family. Too many men and boys. ” she says.
“ but we have little kamo now. She’s the only girl surrounded by boys and I think they are driving her crazy.”
She laughs. “ she came to me and told me that they didn’t want to play with her because they didn’t have time
to play girl games. ” we laugh. “ They are respectful kids. I love them and the boys love them too. ” Sims
say. “ are you okay though Sims. I don’t like seeing you like this?. ” I tell her.
“ and I don’t like seeing that bad things keep following and happening to you. When is it going to end luh?.
My aunt and uncle are dead but still. It’s like they are recruiting people from the dead to come and collect
from you. ” if she didn’t make sense I was going to laugh. “ it’s like they didn’t die. They multiplied. ” we get
silent. “ why didn’t you tell me that you were suspicious about Presto. ” I’m feeling sleepy. “ I don’t know. I
guess I didn’t want it to be true what I was seeing or suspecting. I was really hoping that I was wrong but
when I saw him getting a hard on when he looked at my legs.. I knew.. I knew something was seriously wrong
and I made a mistake of not telling mbuso what I saw. We could have avoided everything had I told him
when he asked what was wrong. ”
“ It doesn’t matter now. I’m just glad that your safe and back. Don’t keep things from me luh okay? ” I
learned that the hard way. “ I promise I won’t. Mbuso is not himself and I’m really worried about him and
his relationship with his mother. ” I tell her and she looks away away. “ what’s going on sims? Are they
hiding something from me? ” she takes a deep breath then tells everything bonga told her about what really
happened between thembi, mbuso and sbu. I am so shocked. That’s why mbuso is not talking to his mom and
now it kind of makes sense as to why thembi said that his mother sold her dreams. I never expected that from
his mom. Ever. But I don’t think it’s her fault because she didn’t know that thembi was going to do this..
“ Luh? ” I frown cause she looks like she wants to tell me but she is scared. “ why do you look nervous. ” she
sits up and I groan I will have to sit up too. “ I think bonga's mom doesn’t like me.” What?. No!. I sit up and
look at her. “ no simphiwe why would you say that? ” I don’t like this. “ I’m serious luh. Every time I’m
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making a conversation with her she will pretend to be doing something on her phone. It hurts me luh. ” she
wipes her tears.
Sims is dealing with a lot and it hurts me to hear that mbuso’s mom doesn’t like her. “ maybe you guys just
need to have something in common that will bring you closer. I don’t have that close relationship with her
too but from what I’ve seen, she’s a good mom to them and she doesn’t strike me as someone who will treat
you like that and I’m not saying that you are lying. I know you would never lie to me and say something like
that about their mother. Does she also ignore the boys? ” she shakes her head. “ from what I’ve seen, she
seems to like them and they love her. I’ve told bonga about this and it is creating this tension between us and
I don’t want that luh. I love him but I am scared that what if his mom doesn’t approve of our relationship
because I have kids from two different men?. What if bonga decides to end our relationship. I can’t lose him
luh. ”
“ hey look at me. You are an amazing woman, a fucken hot mom and the best sister ever. Your kids are a
blessing to you and you will not be ashamed that they have two different dads. Who ever judges you can jump
off the nearest cliff and kill themselves. No one has a right to judge you whether it’s their mom or someone
else. His mom will see that his happiness is with you and there is nothing she can do about that. If she doesn’t
like you screw her because bonga is lucky that he is loved by this wonderful person who’s funny and
fabulous. Focus on your relationship with bonga and let him deal with his mom. If bonga is anything like
mbuso then I doubt his mom would convince him to end things with you. He will tell her to ship in or ship
out. ” she smiles and agrees with me.
“ I think she would have preferred that his son falls for someone who doesn’t have kids like him.” I disagree.
“ if that girl didn’t have an abortion bonga would have 2 kids by now. Sims look at how she forced that girl
on mbuso and what happened later?. We almost lost our kids and my life because of her actions, so she
should take a lesson in there and just let her kids be happy. All she has to do is support them and be there for
them like a mother should. ” she giggles and I frown.
“ Look at you. Speaking like a true mom. ” she says “ so you want me to talk to her and find out what’s
wrong? ”
“ No luh don’t do or say anything. Don’t even tell mbuso please. ” she begs me.. “ I’m sure mbuso already
knows. Bonga maybe has told him and if there’s anyone that can talk some sense into her it’s my husband. I’m
here for you Sims anytime. I won’t let anyone come between us. Not even their mom. Whether she accepts
you or not, promise me it won’t affected our relationship. ”
“ I promise you. ” I get up and my shoulder is paining a little. “ I hate that she cut off your hair but you still
smoking hot. You don’t even look like you just gave birth. ” I laugh “ Well it’s courtesy of Sims mazibuko ”
she laughs. “ bitch please. I love spending rich people’s money. ” I laugh. “ ok I want my kids now. I miss
them. ” we leave her bedroom and go down stairs. I don’t see mbuso and our kids. “ where are my kids and
husband? ” I ask mah.
“ he’s in your bedroom sulking. You’d swear he’s the one that has just given birth. ” they laugh. I leave them
and go to my bedroom and find mbuso and our kids sleeping on the bed. He looks so exhausted and has his
hand on both of them I smile. I see his phone, unlock it then take snaps of them. My little ones are sleeping
peacefully but I’m sure they are hungry. I lift up siboniso and he opens his eyes and I fall in love. “ hello
nana, this is mommy.. Yes… aren’t you so handsome my sweet little boy….. Let mommy feed you then we’ll
feed your brother who is frowning like his daddy even when his sleeping but not you my handsome little
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man.” I see something that’s like a smile and I laugh. My hand is cramping though.
“ mbuso? ” he doesn’t hear me.. I shake him again and he quickly wakes up looking alarmed. “ hey it’s me.
Are you okay? ” he rubs his eyes then looks at me. “ we’re you having a bad dream? ” he shakes his head no.
“ can you take him. I want to feed him but my hand is cramping and I’m afraid I will drop him. ” he gets up
and gently takes him from me. “ you won’t drop him baby don’t worry. ” he assures me but I shake my head. “
what if my hand loses it’s functionality mbuso and I’m never able to hold both my babies? ” I take off my top
then sit on the bed. He gently places the baby on my arms and I breast feed him. “ your arm will be fine baby.
It is like this cause they had to operate and fix the damage that… that bitch did and so you still feel it paining
and cramping. ” I nod.
“ I need to ask you something and be honest about it. ” I nod. “ I want to deal with Preston and thembi. I want
to know that you will be okay with what ever I am going to do to them ” I knew he would want to do it
himself. “ I wish you wouldn’t do that but I understand. Do what needs to be done. I don’t ever want to see
the both of them in my life ever again.” I tell him. “ thank you. I promise to come home clean to the kids. I
won’t bring anything bad back. ” hmm it makes me think about me. Maybe I need to be cleansed so bad thinks
will stop happening to me. I have to talk to him about it but not now.
“ when are you thinking of dealing with them?. ” he gets up and undresses. “ tomorrow. ” my husband looks
sexy and he laughs. “ thank you baby” he says “ for what?. ” I frown. “ you said I look sexy ” oh my God. I
shake my head. “ the nursery is still not finished can the kids have to sleep with us. ” he looks confused. “
sims and lesego finished it and there is no way I am we are sleeping with the kids in here. ”
“ Why not mbuso?. My babies are little. They want their mommy ” he chuckles. “ your babies have been
sleeping alone for a while week and they will be fine. This big baby wants to cuddle. He is sulking “ just for
tonight only baby please? ” I give him my best smile. “ fine tonight only. ” I wink at him and he laughs. I just
to watch them sleeping all night.

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BONGA.
The relationship between my mom and his sons is not great at the moment. Mbuso doesn’t want to talk to her
and I am upset with her for the treatment she has been giving sims. She might think that I didn’t notice or
maybe I don’t care but the whole week I have been watching her and it is not good. Even before luh's
kidnapping when I introduced sims to them she was not very receptive of her but my dad on the other side
was very welcoming and he’s fond of sims. The guys left to go to the farm and left me and mbuso and our
mom. Luh is sleeping, her aunt, my aunt ntoo then Lesego, celeste are outside with sims and the twins and the
other kids are playing outside too.
“ what’s wrong brother? ” mbuso asks me and I look at our mother. She’s looking at me like daring me to say
something. “ you know ma that look would have scared me if I was still young but it doesn’t anymore. Ma
here doesn’t like sims. She doesn’t like the woman I love and it’s hurting me. I would like to know what
issue does she have with her? . Why doesn’t she like her? ” my brother shakes his head.
“ You know I thought that maybe I was stressed because of luh when I noticed that you tend to ignore sims if
she’s making a conversation with you. I then noticed that she would sometimes leave when you get inside the
room and now I know why. Why don’t you like sims mah?.” She looks at us and places her tea cup down. “
mbuso I am so sorry… . ”
“ hay kahle ma!. ( stop it right there!) We are not talking about me here. You have to apologize to bonga and
tell us why you don’t like the woman he loves. ”
“ I don’t like her because I don’t think she’s good enough for you bonga! She has two kids with different men
for God’s sake. Why couldn’t you meet a woman who has no kids and fall in love with her than falling for a
woman who has kids and being a father to those kids!. ” we both look at her shocked.
“ mah! I cannot believe you’ve just said that. What does sims having kids have anything to do with you?.
Their fathers support them and they do spend time with them. They are not some dead beats believe me cause
if they were that would have made things very easy for me. You did not raise us to judge other people and
look down on them. USimphiwe ma is a wonderful woman and a great mother. You would know and see that
if you got to know her ma cause the way you’re treating is really not good. It’s unacceptable. ”
“ Watch how you talk to me bonga!. I’m still your mother and you will not talk to me like I’m one of her kids.

“ no mah you are wrong. why are you bringing her kids into this. I don’t buy this story of yours that it’s about
her having kids. What is the real reason that makes you not like sims and please don’t lie to us?! ” my brother
asks her.
“ I don’t want her to be part of my family because she’s from that family. She carries the gene of those evil
people that did despicable things to luh. What if she is like all of them?. You might have forgiven her uncle
but I have not and I don’t want their blood line in my family!. ”
“ What?. Don’t involve my wife in this!. Don’t you dare use her and her past to make yourself feel better as
to why you don’t want sims!. Luh was raised by them not sims. Sims has her own mother mom and her mother
is not a violent person and she did a damn great job. Because of sims and Victor’s support luh accepted her
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life because there was at least people who were there for here. If there was anyone that was going to inherit
their cruel ways and evilness it was going to be my wife ma not sims!. Genes or not ma no person is born
evil. They learn to be evil. It’s either they are taught or something happened to make them that way. I can’t
believe you right now!. ” mbuso is mad and so am I.
“ One day you will understand mbuso when you’re kids are grown. You will see cause you are a father now.

“ yaz ma uyamangaza!. ( you are so unbelievable). If bonga's ex girlfriend the one that aborted his kid then
got pregnant again and then got a miscarriage because she didn’t tell him that she did an arbotion. If she
didn’t do all those things, bonga would have had 2 kids and let’s say what if he met sims and she didn’t have
kids. That the roles were reversed. Would you have had a problem with her? ” mbuso asks her?
“ No I wouldn’t have because… . ”
“ aren’t you being a hypocrite ma?. She would be expected to accept his kids and love them but when a man
is suppose to do the same it’s not accepted?. Why does society allow this to happen?. I wouldn’t be
surprised if you were going to o say to bonga that the only way you will accept sims into our family is if she
leaves her kids behind. Am I right ma? ” mbuso asks her and our mom looks at mbuso, looks at me and we
both see guilt written all over her face and we both curse. I cannot believe my mother right now!.
“ Mah! You would have asked me that and expected her to leave her kids behind?!. The kids she birthed and
took care of?. How could you expect that from her ma when you are a mother too?. ” I ask her.
“ it happens all the time bonga. She wouldn’t be the first woman to have given up her kids. She knows this
too. I want you to be happy and have your own kids that you will bring into this world. Why couldn’t you find
a woman like lungi or your brothers girlfriend?. You had to go for the that has baggage. ” she says and mbuso
loses it.
“ mah! Don’t being my wife into this!. You keep her out of this!. You know mah the honest truth is, lungi is
the one that came with baggage. She didn’t ask for it but it was hers the moment the mazibuko’s wanted to kill
all of them. Calling someone’a kids baggage is the worst thing you have ever said. I loved lungi with all her
baggage and I still do and I will forever will. If she had kids when I met her that wouldn’t have changed a
thing. I would have loved her with her kids. I am so disappointed in you ma. Never in my life did I ever think
that those kind of words would come out of your mouth!. ” my mother’s words cut deep. So deep and I don’t
think I would forget them anytime soon.
“ what about your kids ma?.. You know we kill people and we have done things you don’t know about and
you don’t wish to know. So do you think that her mother would be happy and accept me knowing that I have
killed people and we are still going to kill people?. You act like we are perfect but we are not. If someone
should be worried about their bloodline is her mother and not you. You know why you don’t like her and you
know what ma? I don’t care. I am going to marry her whether you like it or not. If you won’t support me and
accept the woman I love and want to spend the rest of my life with then ma I want nothing to do with you!
Nothing!. ”
“ over a woman that you hardly know bong?!. You would choose her over me your own mother?!. ” I laugh
shaking my head “ without thinking twice!. ” I tell her. I get up and leave them. I hear my mother crying and I
see sims opening our bedroom door. She heard everything? I thought that she was outside?. I open the door
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and I find her sitting on the bed crying. I sit down next to her and hold her. She cries in my arms breaking my
heart. “ I’m sorry baby. ” she shakes her head.

“ why did you talk to your mother like that bonga?. She didn’t raise you to be disrespectful to her. It was
wrong, it was very wrong and you have to go and apologize to how you talked to her ” what? “ you want me
to go and apologize for what exactly sims?. I told her the truth and I won’t apologize for it. She can’t hate you
just because you are related to those scumbags who are dead. You didn’t choose this baby and she’s being
unfair!. ” she’s crazy
“ if there was maybe a chance that she might have accepted me…well it is gone now. She’s never going to
accept me because you chose me over her. To her I’m always going to the woman who came between her and
her son. She’s never going to accept me now because of what you said bonga. You broke her heart when you
said you want nothing to do with her. You gave her an ultimatum. She loves you bonga and no mother wants
her son to say those things. If my sons said the same thing I would be heartbroken and devastated. All
mothers know what it’s best for their children and they want them to be happy… . ”
“ kahle simphiwe!. Angisiyona ingane Mina! ( hold on a minute. I am not a child!.). I’m a grown ass man who
can make his own decisions and I don’t need my mother for that or to end our relationship with you just
because I want to make her happy cause I will not. If she won’t accept my decision that I love you and want
you in my life then after the wedding baby, it will be the last time I ever set my foot in my father’s house. For
you simphiwe I will.” I mean each and every word I have just said. “ you will not bonga because I won’t
come between you and your family. I will not be the cause of tension and fights. I am not that woman and I am
not going to start now. We have to end things. I am ending this relationship between us. I love you too much
to come between you and your mom. I am sorry but I can’t.” she cries and I cannot believe what she has just
said.
“ did you not hear a word I said to you. I love you and I want to spend my whole life with you!. How can you
just make a decision like that?. We are in this relationship together!. We both agreed that we will begin a
relationship so you don’t get to make that decision about our relationship!. Damn simphiwe! ” why is mother
doing this to me?. “ Lower your voice bonga. I have made that decision for myself. I will not stay in a
relationship where one of the most important people in your life and who you love very much is not happy
with our relationship bonga. Whether we like it or not she will always look at me as thuli and sipho's niece.
You can’t force her to accept that. I am sorry but I just can’t!. ”
“ simphiwe please don’t do this. I love you and I want you. Isn’t that enough for you? ” she can’t do this to
me. “ what hurts me the most bonga is that your mother called my kids baggage… .. ” she sobs and my eyes
get teary. “ my kids are not baggage and they never will. I know that I will never be happy with you knowing
that your mother doesn’t like me or want me to be part of her family. I need her to accept me and love me
bonga because she is your mother but what she said… calling my kids that is not acceptable and I will never
forgive her because those words will always hang on the back of my mind. ” she gets up to leave and I stop
her.
“ sthandwa sam, ( my love) you are upset and you don’t mean what you are saying. Sims please I’m begging
you. Don’t do this to us please!. ” I pull her close to me and she hugs me tight and cries. I comfort her but
deep down I am so mad at my mother. I am really mad at her. “ we will get through this baby. Don’t give up
on us. I won’t let my mother come between us. ” she shakes her head and my heart sinks. She can’t possibly
mean it. She can’t. “ it’s over bonga. I’m sorry but I can’t. ” she pulls away and runs out of the bedroom. My
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knees get weak and I sit down on the bed and my tears fall down. How can she just give up on our
relationship like that just because she wants my mother to accept her?!.
I know the real reason why she is hurt and angry is because my mother called the boys baggage. The door
opens and mbuso gets in and sits next to me “ I am so mad at our mother right now. I am so sorry brother.
Tell me what to do to fix this for you. ” I wipe my tears and shake my head. “ can you take back everything
she said cause sims heard everything. Our mother called her kids baggage mbuso!. Why the hell would sims
stay with me after my mother has called her kids that?. What other names does she call her and her kids when
we are not there?. When did our mother become this cold woman and not the loving and caring woman who
raised us?. ”
“ I wish I knew brother but I don’t know. Maybe she thinks that she is losing us because we have found the
loves of our lives. Maybe she feels like we won’t need her anymore. But what do I know cause right now I’m
in shock and feel your pain. ”
“ at least she loves your wife so you have nothing to worry about. ” I tell him and I hate the envy I’m feeling
right now for my brother. “ she almost made me lose my wife bonga because of her decisions. Thembi
wouldn’t have been in our lives if our mother wasn’t busy trying to get me married to her. I’m not ready to
forgive her for what happened to luh. You know mom has always preached that we are older and we have to
get married, have kids and live our lives but when you do the same thing she says she doesn’t like it and
won’t accept the person you love. What kind of fucked up a shit is that?. ” he asks.
“ we have to talk to dad. He will have a talk with her. Sims ended our relationship bro and she meant it. ” he
looks at me like I’m crazy. “ sims loves you bonga. She’s trying to protect your relationship with ma. She
might have said it but I think that she is hurt and angry and tomorrow you will see that she didn’t mean it. If
you love Sims the way I think you do then you won’t let her slip away from you. Mom will get over it
because you will not spend the rest of your life with her but with sims. She is the one you will go back home
to and sleep next to. So don’t let mom take away your happiness.”
My brother is right. If I just let sims go she will think that I agree with what my mom said when I actually
don’t. I have to prove to her and to the boys that I love her and I will choose her and the boys above anything
else. She is important to me. I love her and I love the boys too. I want sims and her kids to be my family. I
want all of us to live together when we get married. I will not let her give up on us. I know she loves me and
she wants to be with me as much as I do. I will not let my mother chase sims away from me. “ you are right.
Sims is mine and nothing or no one is going to take her away from me. Not even our mom.”
“ if I was in your shoes I would have asked dad to come and pick up his wife before I kick her out. Mom
could have said to me that lungi is a witch and I still wouldn’t give a fucken damn. You know why because I
love my wife more than mom. Luh’s happiness is my number one priority. Fuck anyone else. Do what makes
you happy brother cause you don’t want to be this uncle who is old, has never married and doesn’t have kids.
You love those kids and they love you too. Take them home brother under your wing and protect them. Like
how we do. They are family. They are the kids of the woman you love. They are your kids bonga. Do what is
right for your family brother. ”
“ ngiyabonga zalo ( thank you my brother.) ” he nods. “ Let me go check on luh and the kids then we are going
to let some steam off cause we had a long ass day. It’s time Preston and thembi died. I want to focus on my
family and so do you. Take sims and the boys on a holiday tomorrow. Just leave and don’t tell anyone. I will
organize the passports for her and the boys. Take them out of the country, she has also been through a lot not
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luh only cause most of the things affected her too. ” I know that no matter what happens. My brother will
always have my back. He’s the best big brother and best friend and I appreciate him a lot. I love him.

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MBUSO.
We are all standing surrounding Preston and thembi. Preston pissed on himself and he smells of piss. He’s
been crying and whining like a little bitch that he is, sicelo had to shut him up. This psycho bitch on the other
hand has been silent and hasn’t said anything. She is looking at all of us straight in the face and she’s doesn’t
look afraid. It’s like she’s bored with us. Never in my life have I wanted to kill someone like this and I know
I’m going to enjoy it. One thing about thembi that sbu and I know is this girl has guts. She evil to the core and
as long as she’s alive. None of us are safe.
Preston has been looking at me, pleading with his eyes and I feel sorry for him. I want him to tell me and
explain to me what did he do with the recordings of me and luh. What did he do to them and where is he
keeping them. “ Preston you were pleading with them not to kill you cause you wanted to talk. So talk I am
here. ” he sniffs and it’s getting on my last nerve. “ I’m sorry mbuso. I really am. Is luh and the kids okay? ” I
take the chair and sit next to Preston and look at him.
“ I’ve had one of the worst weeks of my life Preston all because of you. My wife loved and we all accepted
you into our family. You lied to us pretended to be not the person you are. You were living under my roof
eating my food and we gave you a room that is yours to show that we accept you as one of us because you
looked like someone who had no family. Where did we go wrong Preston. Did discriminate against you?,
did we make you feel like you were just an outsider? Tell me Preston what did we do to you for you to want
to hurt my wife like this? ”
He is literally shaking and I don’t know what is it that is scaring him. I talking to him nicely, not shouting or
angry. “ I know you all accepted me without any questions asked and treated me like I am one of you and I
have never felt like I didn’t belong there even though it was clear that I am not one yours. Not many families
would accept this white ga….. ”
“ Preston. We all know here that you’re not gay. So don’t lie to us. How did this plan of yours and thembi
getting together to try and take my kids and kill my wife come about?. ” he looks at thembi and she’s looking
at him like you better shut your mouth. Preston looks at me and shakes his head. I sigh “ You really want to
do this the hard way huh? ” I get up, open my tool box and take this big screwdriver then sit down and look at
Preston. “ please…. Please mbuso don’t kill me ” I take the screwdriver, make sure that I use all my strength
and stab Preston where I shot him and the mother fucker screams. I pull the screwdriver put and blood
gushes out. “ talk Preston or else I’m going to do the same on your other leg. ”
I guess he hates pain cause it doesn’t take him long to start singing like a canary. “ I opened my surgery 2
years back then thembi found me after1 year later. I don’t know how she found me but I got a call from her
and then I went to Durban and we met. I was happy to see her because I still loved her. She then told me what
happened to her and she wanted revenge against you sbu and mbuso and his mother. She’s the one that came
with the whole plan of how I was going get to close to all of you. She has been keeping tabs on the both of
you and she found the opportunity when you luh came to Ladysmith. She was following her and when she
found out hat she was pregnant she told me that she knew luh would contact me. I am legit mbuso, I am a real
gynaecologist, I didn’t lie about that. The only thing I lied about was being gay. ” this mother fucker thinks
I’m stupid
“ Preston luh told me that you helped thembi to set up the room where she was going to take my kids and
leave her dead and you know what I really don’t care about that now all I care about is why didn’t you warn
me that thembi was out to get me and sbu? ” I want this to be over and done with cause looking at Preston’s
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face is really pissing me off. I want to be home with my wife and my kids.
“ at first it was only a job that I was supposed to do but then I got to know luh and I realised that she is an
amazing person. A kind hearted person that wants what is best for the people she loves and I saw how
everyone loves her and I too started to fall for her. I was envious of her life and how much you loved her and
how her brother and father loved her. It made me feel jealous because I wanted that for myself. I have never
experienced that kind of love you all showed me. I told thembi that I didn’t want to do it. I wanted out and
that we shouldn’t hurt luh but she has something on me and she threatened me with it. So I had to do
everything she asked. She didn’t find anything that she could use on sbu so she focused on you cause you
have luh.i swear to you when I say that I didn’t want any part of it.”
“ I found listening devices in my house and camera’s in my bedroom and the bathroom. You watched my wife
naked in her private space. You were watching us the whole entire time and listening. What did you do with
those recordings? ” he looks at thembi and she looks at him shocked. “ you said you didn’t get a chance to get
the camera and listening devices. You fucking lied to me you idiot!. ” oh he did?.
“ wait what?. Preston had cameras and spied on you? ” sicelo asks and I nod in agreement. “ I found them the
day he took her. What did you do to them? Did you give them to anyone to watch and see? ” he shakes his
head no furiously. “ I couldn’t give them to her because she was going to upload them in the internet on all
porn sites. She wanted to do that to her and I couldn’t cause I love lungi and… . ” he doesn’t het to finish
cause I fucken punch him and break his jaw and his teeth come out. He screams. “ don’t you ever say that shit
to me. You fucken love my wife and yet you allowed something to happen to her! Don’t you ever say those
words to me ever! You hear me? ” he tires to nod. “ where the fuck do you live? ” he gives us his address
and bonga types the location. “ check every where and take everything electronic and take it to my house.”
He leaves with Frank. “ Preston is there anything else you want to tell me before I kill you that will make me
change my mind? ”
He groans and mumbles something and I can’t hear him. “ you better speak now Preston cause I want to go
and see my wife kids. You are taking so much of their time. Speak fool!. ” he so it’s out blood then looks at
me. “ I tried mbuso to protect her, I really tried but thembi is very scary and… . ” I laugh. I fucken laugh my
lungs out and look at him. “ you know Preston when I found out that you kidnapped luh, I actually planned
how I was going to make you watch me take off your skin while you’re still alive so you can feel each and
pain my wife felt. I wanted to peel it off you but I’m not. I think all these people in here have ways they want
to kill the both of you. I pity you and I’m scared of what all these here are going to do to you. You didn’t just
kidnap my wife. She is someone’s daughter and sister. Mapholoba welcomed you in his home and you chose
to betray her so then will all deal with you. All I’m asking from you brother is please, after you are done
with this bitch cut her head off and send it to her parents so we can be sure that she’s never going to reappear
again.” I tell sbu.
“ are you sure mbuso? ” I sigh. “ I almost lost the woman I love who’s my everything and it scared me to
death sbu. I don’t ever want to feel that way ever again. These two here don’t deserve to have my time that
they had already stole from us. My body is here but my mind is with luh and our kids. She just got released
from the hospital and I left her to come here and deal with these two? No. I should be at home with my wife
and kids. She needs rest and to be taken care of. I know you all can handle this you don’t need me to do that.
What happened to luh made me question how I live my life. I know we don’t go around killing people but it’s
people who come to us and ask for trouble and I’m sick of it. My wife got kidnapped in her own house and
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“ I’m very proud of you my son. For putting your family first. You have grown up mbuso and I am proud of
the man you today. You need your family too because you also have through a lot.” I look at my dad and he
pulls me until a hug. “ thank you for being the best father to us. I hope I will be the same to my children. ”
“ You will my son. You have always shown that towards your brothers and your brothers here. Go. ” he says.
I look at Preston and shake my head. I don’t feel sorry for him and I don’t care it they kill him. “ Can I use
your car cause I think bonga took my car. ” sbu comes outside with me followed by sicelo. “ bro are you
okay? ” sbu asks me.
“ I’m not okay. Bonga and I had this big fight with our mother. I’m still angry at her for bringing thembi into
our lives. She hates sims, doesn’t want her to be in a relationship with bongs. My brother threatened to cut
her out of his life and I’m close to that too cause she’s failing to realise that sims and luh are sistes. Luh
loves sims very much and what is hurting sims is going to hurt luh and that will hurt me because my wife will
be hurting. My mother is going to cause tension and problems between them and it’s going to affect them and
us brothers. I don’t want my brother to think that my wife is the most favourable daughter in law than sims
and zipho's girlfriend. She is making things hard for us and you would think after what happened to luh she
would change her ways and be more accepting of sims but she’s not. I won’t let my mother cause problems
between my brother and I and our wives. I love luh and my kids more than anything and if she continues this
thing of hers then she’s going to lose me too cause I’m this close to cutting her out of my life. ” I shake my
head.
“ fuck man that’s hectic. Did you talk to your dad? ” sicelo asks. “ I sent him a message on our way here and
told him what happened. I’m worried about my brother guys. I really am. ”
“ Go to your family and we’ll take care of bonga. He’s needs all of us. ” sbu says.
“ this is fuck hard man. First it was sicelo, then you and now it’s bonga. What the hell is going on guys? ” sbu
asks.
“ I wish I knew man. I wish I did. I will see you tomorrow guys. ” we bro hug and I get in the car and drive
off to see my family and my mother is still there and I don’t want to see her or deal with her.
SICELO.
Mbuso leaves and what I feared has happened. His mom is going to cause problems for my sister and I really
can’t have that. We have to find a way for her to accept sims so that my sister can be happy. I will and do
anything to make sure that luh lives the life she deserves and no one and I mean no one will come between
her and her happiness. I will do something. We get inside and our dads and uncle victor are talking. I have
never met a woman like thembi in my life ever. If this girl was a man then she would have done so many
damages in the world.
“ so what are we going to do to Preston before we deal with this mastermind? ” I ask the dads
“ let’s just kill him and burn his body. No one will miss him. ” sbu says and I laugh. “ Preston why did you
pretend to be gay?. Did you think we would accept you as you are or it was your way of getting close to luh
cause maybe we would have seen right through you had you been spending time with us right? ” he keeps
quiet.
“ you know the world is full of sick and despicable people Preston. Homophobes who hate gay people and
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here you are pretending to be one. That sob story you told my dad about your parents wanting you to marry
some girl. You lied to my dad. You lied to both of them and us. There are people outside this world who
wish that their parents and families would accept them as they are and they wished they have people like us
in our lives but you just think it’s a joke. A costume you can put on and make fun of it. ” I tell him.
“ you don’t deserve to call yourself a man cause you are not. You are a spinelessl coward that let thembi
play him. Was her pussy that good Preston?. The both of you thought that you were going to get away with
killing luh and taking her kids and no one was going to come after you? ” sbu asks him and Preston is silent.
He can already see that he is going to die. He shakes his head. He then looks at thembi and laughs. “ Oh
thembi. Back from the dead. You’re stalking us, planning and being invisible so we won’t know that you’re
alive. Are you happy now thembi?. Was every plan worth this moment now?. ”
The bitch laughs. This girl is fucken crazy. “ it was worth it sbusiso. Did you see how fucked up he looked?.
Who knew mbuso will be this down and broken all because is some stupid pussy…. ” a gun shot rings out
and it’s dad who has shot thembi on her shoulder and the bitch screams then laughs. I believe mbuso now
when he said that thembi is a sadistic bitch. Pain excites her but how much pain can she handle?. “ you don’t
geyt to talk to my daughter like that. ” she laughs.
“ Victor where is that acid? ” my dad asks. Victor brings this container that looks like a basin and it is filled
with acid. You can smell it. “ sbu, scelo, put her one leg inside there. I want to hear her screwing like how
my daughter screamed and begged for her life. ” we wear protective gloves then uncuff one of her legs and
we don’t waste time and we are about to out her leg in but dad stops us. I take a huge steel stick that has a
cup like holder, fill it with acid then I pour some on her thigh and she fights it and doesn’t scream but the
more the acid eats her flesh she fails and screams like the twisted bitch she is. Bonga and Frank come in and
I come and I see bonga that his mind is not here.
“ guys I know that you want to torture thembi and all that but the most important thing to all of us right now is
that we are supposed to be celebrating the birth of the twins and both my sons are not okay. I have to be there
for them. Let’s get this over and done with and kill these two. I want to go spend some time with all my
grandchildren and their fathers need their father right now. Luh needs all of us. You caught them and now it’s
time they died. They don’t need to have the last voice. ” mbuso's dad says. “ I agree this week we all went
through hell because of these two. What we need right now in this family is to be together. Thanking God and
our ancestors that my sister delivered healthy babies even though she was hurt. We are wasting out time
here.” They nod.
“ Any last words Preston? ” he shakes his head “ please tell luh that I’m sorry. ” he says. Good he has
accepted the fact that he is going to die. “ and you thembi?. ” she laughs and we watch her. She laughs like
she has forgotten that she is shot until she stops then looks at bonga and his dad and shakes her head. “ look at
you all playing happy families…. . ” she laughs again. “ you have never forgotten that you gumede's are high
and mighty. That you have this perfect family that has no secretes or anything but you’re wrong. You’re very
wrong. I know something that you don’t know. ” she laughs. We look at her confused. Bonga looks at his dad
confused. His dad steps forward then stops and looks at thembi.
“ what are you talking about thembi? ” he asks her. She laughs. “ oh now you’re talking to me nicely because
you want my me to tell you what I know?. I can tell you but you need to let me go and not kill me ” we all
look at each other and agree. “ uncuff me then. ” sbu uncuffs her and she hisses then stands up. “ you promise
you won’t kill me cause what I have to say is very big. It might destroy this happy family y’all got playing
around. ” again she’s looking at mnguni. “ talk thembi. I don’t have all night. ” he says.
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“ How do I know that you won’t kill me after I have told you? ” she asks. Bonga’s dad fishes for something
in his pocket then throws thembi the car keys. She catches then with her left hand and smiles. “ ok. I need you
to uncuff Preston then put all your guns down. ” we do without hesitation and she instructs us Preston to come
and stand next to her then she laughs. “ talk thembi. We have done what you have asked now tell me what is it
that I don’t know? ”
“ Well you know that my mom and your wife grew up together. So one day I was home and I heard them
talking and I eavesdropped on them. They didn’t see me obviously so your wife was telling my mother that
she didn’t know that she had a twin sister. Apparently they were separated from birth cause she grew up
thinking she was an only child. She found her twin sister and they began to have a relationship but they hid it
from everyone because they didn’t know who to trust. You got into a relationship with one of the twins and
you didn’t know that she had a twin. The other twin was jealous of the relationship you had with her sister
and she wanted it for herself. She fell pregnant with your child and when she gave birth you were not there
you were on the Eastern Cape at a workshop. You came back and continued your life with her mbuso and you
never suspected a thing until now. ” what the fuck is woman talking about? Fuck no!.
“ baba… .. ” my dad shakes his head at bonga. “ continue thembi. ” she smiles. She loves attention. She
craves it and I wouldn’t be surprised if she’s making this up. “ owami is not mbuso's birth mother. She stole
the life of her sister and killed them. ” what?!.
“ Oh fuck no!. Mnguni this bitch is lying. There is no way what she is saying is the truth.. Fuck no!. ” sbusiso
loses it.. “ she is a manipulator, a deceiver. You cannot believe her lies!. ” sbu is angry and were are all
shocked.
“ you can ask my mother if you don’t believe me!. How would I come up with something like that huh sbu? ”
“ you said them!. What does that mean. ” the bitch shakes her head.
“ mbuso is a twin. His mother was a twin. Why else would he be having twins?. It’s because he is also a
twin. ” oh my fucken God. No ways!. No fucken ways!.
“ What happened to them? ” mnguni asks. How can he be so calm and collected when thembi is breaking his
family apart. I would go ape shit in her.
“ she said to my mother they were on their way back from the hospital and on the road where they lives there
was a huge river. She told mbuso’s mom that they had to run away with the kids but his mom refused cause
she wanted you to meet them then tell you about her. Owami was carrying mbuso and his mother was
carrying his other brother when she accidentally slipped and fell into the river. They both drowned and that’s
how she took over and lived her life. ”
“ Bullshit!. This is fucken bullshit!. Our dad was going to know if my mom was carrying twins or not. Baba
you would have known that she was someone else and not the woman you love and married. ” his dad is still
looking at thembi shocked. Does he believes her? Or that bitch is lying like we already know?. Mnguni takes
steps backward then he rushes out. Victor and dad follow him then it’s the three of us left.
“ Bitch I know you’re lying!. Tell me that what you have just said are pure utterly lies! You are fucking
lying!. Say it!. Say it bitch! ” she laughs and looks at bonga. “ you’re mother killed your brother’s mother. I
am not lying. Your mother is a fraud and a fucken damn liar… ” I see bonga rushing to thembi and within a
minute thembi's head is flying across the room. Preston screams but sbu shoots him and empties all his
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bullets on his head and chest and he falls down dead. Everything just happened so fast. We stand there and
look at each other like what the fuck has happened!.

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