SEASONTWO

CHAPTERONE

《AYEARLATER》

KHI
THA

Lif
ehasbeengoodmyhusbandandIar eback
togetherandourki dsar egrowingxoxoi s
10years,Twi nsare4yearsandLubenat hi i
s1y earol
d
andbabyAhl umelostherli
feinacaracci dentwi t
h
hermot hershewasdr unkdr i
vingasshest ole
AhlumeatLunga' shousey estheyboughtt hem a
decenthouseper ksofhav i
ngar ichmot herand
brothersoi twasanor mal Saturdaymor ningwhenI
gotacal lfrom MamThokoi t'
sbeenl ongwi thout
communi catingwithhershesai dshewoul dli
keto
meetmeatt heMallar
oundTembi saItoldNdi l
e
aboutsohedi dapprovetoitwhenIgott othespot
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lmaybewho'
sinhert
eens
16/
17Imizedherandhuggedt
hem bot
h
Me:
It
sbeenal
ongt
imemommy
Her
:Ver
ylongi
ndeedyoul
ookbeauti
fulandy
ouhave
gai
nedsomuchweighti
t'
str
uethatZulumenknow
howtotr
eatawomanlookatyousmill
i
ngandhappy
Me:
Ohpl
easest
opi
tyoumaki
ngmeshy
Her:
OwkIknowt haty
ouareav er
ybusywomansoI
won'
twasteyourti
mei am sur
eyouseeIam wi
th
someone
Me:
Yesapr
ett
ysomeone.
.wegi
ggl
e
Her
:Thi
sisZusi
pheshei
syourl
i
ttl
esi
ster
?
Me:
Huh?Mysi
ster
?Iwassodamnconf
used
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om oneofy ourneighbours
backhomeshet ol
dmet hatiti
ssai dthatshewas
takenbyy ourpaternalgrandmothert otakecareof
herwheny ourmotherst ar
tedget t
ingsickshe
mov edtoQueenst ownandnev ercameback
becausetheydi dn'
thav emoneyandsheal so
disl
ikedyourmot hersoi thappenedt hatGod
remember edhersoshewast akenbyy our
neighbour st hi
nkingmay beyouwi l
lonedayshowup
butluthososhet hensearchedandf oundaboutme
from yourhomi esAthitheybroughthertomef or
what everreasonshedi dormay betheysawt hat
theycan' traisehermay beIdontknowt heypleaded
met of i
ndy ou..
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re
explanat i
ont imeHowcoul dthi
sbepossi bl
ey ooand
whenIt akeacl oserlookathery esshelookslikemy
mot herandIshewassobeaut i
fulandshy
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NUATI
ON1

Me:
Thisisal
lnewtomeIwasnevert
oldt
hatIhav
e
asi
sternotevenbymyownaunt
Her:Hayi
keNtombinazokeandIdon'tbl
amey our
auntthewayshewouldsayity
ourfather'
ssi
de
hatedyourmothert
hat'
swhysheleftherwit
hyou
Me:
Makessense
He:
Sonowy
ouwi
l
lhav
etor
aiseat
eenager
Me:
Idon'
tthi
nkIam r
eady
Her:
Xoxois10yearsbet
terber
eadyandnobodyi
s
everr
eadysweethear
t
Me:Trueanywayt
hanky
ousomuchmamaIr
eal
l
y
appreci
atei
t
Her:
Iknowyouareagoodmot
hery
ouwi
l
ltakea
goodcareofher
Me:Iwi
llt
rybyal
lmeanst
oandt hankyouonce
agai
n..
wehuggedasshel
eftZusipheandIwentto
mycarshehadasmallMrpri
cespor t
bagIguessi
t
hashercl
othesthezi
pwasconnect
edwi
thwool
GodIknowt hi
sli
fe
Me:Heyareyouok?
(shenodded)don'
tyouwant
somethi
ngtoeat
Her
:Nosi
sIhav
eal
readyat
eatMamThoko
Me:oksurelet
'sgo..
shegotint hebackseatasI
drovetomyplaceIprayNdileacceptherIknowhe
i
skindbutZusipheisoldtounder standev ery
thi
ngI
am j
ustscaredthatshewillbeexposedt otheli
fe
welivi
ngIdroveinouryardIwasst eal i
ngglimpses
ofherall
thewayshewoul dt akeselfiesam sure
she'
supdati
ngherf r
iendsandboy f
riendthatshe'
sin
SandtonandwhenIdr oveinmyy ardherey es
popped
Me:
Getof
fsweetcakes
Her
:oksi
si.
.Shesmil
l
edasItookherbagwewalked
t
othehouseNdilewasonthephonewhist
let
hekids
wer
eplayi
nghideandseektheyal
lrant
ous
Xoxo:
Mamawhoi
sthi
s?
Me:
Ngusi
si
Xoxo:
Hisi
si
Her
:Hi
boy
Sphe:
Hisi
si
Her
:Hi
gir
l
Si
ya:
Hisi
si
Her
:Hi
boy
Lube:
Sisi
Her
:Heybaby
Wowmykidsl
oveatt
enti
onIwal
kedtoNdi
l
eandI
pul
l
edhi
m byhi
sarm asIwal
kedtot
hegar
dens
Hi
m:Whoi
sthat
?
Me:
Myl
i
ttl
esi
sterZusi
phe
Hi
m:What
?!y
ouhav
eal
i
ttl
esi
ster
?
Me:
Ifoundoutt
odaywhenMamThokocal
ledmet
o
meether(
Isummari
zedt
hest
oryf
orhim)
Him:Wowsoall
thesey
ear
syouhav
esomeonet
o
cal
lasibl
i
ng?
Me:
Amazeme,
nownani
shedoesn'
thav
eany
wher
e
el
set
ogoso
i
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NUATI
ON2

Him:Idon'
tmindaccommodatingherbabyImean
wecan'texpecthert
omov eoutandbeonherself
she'
sstil
lyoungandIam sur
esheisalsoinschool
too
Me:ThankyounanibutIjustcan'
twrappedmyhead
outofallt
hismyparentsdiedwhenIwasso16all
theseyear
swel i
vedtheynev ert
houghtof
mentioni
ngitt
omeat leastjustt
oletmeknowabout
i
t
Hi
m:May
bet
heyhadt
hei
rownr
easons
Me:Anddiedwi
tht
hem f
orsur
eleav
ingust
ost
aya
confusedl
if
e
Him:Stopbeinghardony ourselfbabyev eryt
hingis
goi
ngt ounfoldandfall
intoplacefornowf ocuson
bui
ldingyourrel
ati
onshipwithyoursisterandi t'
sno
doubttheyouguy sarerelat
edy oulookal i
ke
Me:
Inot
icedt
hatt
oowhenIsawheri
twasl
i
ke
l
ooki
ngatmymom'
steenagepi
ctur
es.
.wel
aughed
Him:Let
shopeshe'snotoneoft hosedemoni
shki
ds
becauseyouknowthatIdon'tonlyusemybel
tinmy
j
eansandt r
ouser
sngiyasi
fakaisbhakel
a
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Xoxowasbusyhav ingaconv ersat
ionwith
Zuzu,Sphewascombi ngherhairusingoneifher
doll
sbr ushes,
Siy
awasj ustwat
chinghertalkand
Lubewasonherar mspoorgi rl
Hi
m:HeyZusi
phehowar
eyou?
Her
:Iam goodt
hanksandy
ousi
r?
Him:
Iam goodtoowel l
Iam t
hefatheroft
hehouse
andiwoul
dliketowelcomeyouinourhomef eel
fr
eetoaskeveryt
hingyouwanttoknowaboutand
pl
easemakey oursel
fcomfor
tablethi
sisyournew
homenow
Her
:Thanky
ousi
r
Him:
Cal
lmeBhuti<brot
her
>youar
emaki
ngi
tsound
asofam anol
dperson
Me:
Aren'
tyouol
d?
Him:ohpleasenanami
stopconv
inci
ngy
our
sel
f
l
ies.
.welaughed
Me:okbabi eslety
oursist
ergoandr estam sur
e
she'st
ired..
itookherbagsandaskedhert ofoll
ow
meshewasbusyl ooki
ngaroundthehousewegot
totheroom nexttoSphe'sbedroom ital
sohasit'
s
ownbat hroom
Me:
Thi
swi
l
lbey
ourr
oom
Her
:Thanky
ousi
siandy
ou'
vegotabeaut
if
ulhouse
t
oo
Me:
Thanky
ouZuzu
Her:
Andthankyouforl
ett
ingmei
ntoy
ourl
i
vesand
pl
easethankBhut
itoo
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ON3

ZUSI
PHE

Growi ngupwi thmygr andmot herwaschal lengingt o

behonestwel i
vedinaoner oomedshacki nsome
dirt
ysquat t
ercampwi thnor unni ngwat erand
electri
cityshewi l
lmizeandsomet imesbeatmeup
whenev erIaskedaboutmypar entsshenev er
want edmet omakecont actwi t
ht hem f orwhat ever
Godknowswhenshedi edshewasbur i
edbyt he
muni cipali
tythatmeanst herewasnodecentf uner al
atallokIwast akentoorphanagehomebutI
demandedt oseemypar entsandt heytracedt hem
formeandwentbackhomet oUmt ataonl ytof i
nd
outthatt heyar ealldeceasedokanei ghbortookme
i
nf oray earitwasal sonotsogoodbecausea
personwoul dal waysfavourt heirchildrensoIwas
alway satf aultineveryt
hingt heywoul dbeatmeup
eachandev erydayIwast henhel pedbysi siKhitha's
oldfriendandmadeawayf ormet ocomet ojobur g
nowt hatIf oundherIam hopi ngf ort hebest ,
My
dream wast obeadoct orandl i
v ei nMel r
oseAr cin
Sandt onbei nginWest cl
iffexcitesmet henumber
oneexpensi vesurbubIam happy ,
thebi ghouseIam
l
ivingi n,Ihav emyownr oom whi chhasabat hr oom
ofitsownt opsitallyouknowuski dsfrom less
fortunat efami l
i
esal waysdr eam ofhav ingadecent
bedr oom andal waysenv ieyingthel if
er i
chki dslive
butIpr omisemy sel
ftonev ergett oomuch
comf ortableIwantt ofocusonpassi ngmygr ade11
and12soIcangot ouni versit
yi don'twantmyki ds
togowhatIhav ewentt hroughnosonowIam i nthe
batht ubi t'
sbeenl ongaknockcomesatt hedoorI
quickl ystepoutanddr ainthewat ershe'salreadyi n
Me:
Siskhi
tha
Her
:OhIt
houghty
ouwer
edoneIbr
oughty
oul
unch
Me:
Thanky
oul
etmewearf
ir
stt
henIwi
l
leat
Her:
Okgetyourrestt
ommor owwewi l
lgotothe
mallt
ogetyoutoil
etr
iesandever
ythi
ngyouneed
andohwhataboutschool?
Me:
Ibr
oughtmyr
epor
tandr
emov
alIpassedgr
ade
10Iwi
l
lbegoi
ngt
ogr
ade11
Her
:Ohnicewewil
ltal
kmor
elat
erf
ornowhav
eyour
l
unch.
.shewal
kedout
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CHAPTERTWO

AfterIwasdoneeat i
ngItookt hetraydownstair
sI
askedxoxowher e'
sthekitchenbecauseIf i
rst
ly
struggl
edfindi
ngmywaydownonl ytofindoutthat
therearetwostair
sherehay iIgottothekit
chen
Godt hi
shousei sadream topbili
ngwi l
lgocrazyon
thi
si washedmybowl andglasssisKhithawalkedi
n
Her
:hav
eyour
est
ed?
Me:Iam t
ir
edofsl
eepingevenMamThokomademe
sl
eepthewholedayyester
day
Her:
OhIt
houghty
ouar
ri
vedt
odayf
rom East
ern
cape
Me:
NoIgother
eyest
erday
Her:
OhIam sorrybutyoucangoandwat chTVin
themeanti
meorj oi
ntheboysout
sidetheyare
play
ingsoccerorbet
teryetl
etmegiv
ey ouatour
Me:
Iwoul
dappr
eci
atet
hatbecauseIgotl
ostwhenI
wascomi
ngdown
Her
:OhIam sor
ry.
.shesai
dlaughi
ngatmesoshe
gav
emeat ourtoherhouseitisbeaut
if
ulguy
syoo
Me:
Sohowdoy
oucl
eant
hisbi
ghouse?
Her
:Ev
eryThursdaywedospr ingcl
eani
ngwit
hmy
manwedi vi
deitnowt hatwehaveyoui
t'
sgoi
ngt
o
beabiteasi
er.
.welaughed
Me:
Wowok
Her:
Yesandmnt asewhenev eryouf
eell
ikedoing
spri
ngcleaningpleasedon'tcl
eanmyroom anddo
mylaundryok?y ourbrot
herin-l
awbeli
evesthat
nobodycleansthosebetterthanme
Me:
Wowbutt
hat
'scut
e
Her
:Ohpl
easeboremeagai
nnowthat'
sall
wecan
got
othekit
chenandhel
pmepeal
v eggi
es
Me:Goodthi
ngyouhav
etvi
ntheki
tchenIwi
llbe
watchi
ngbei
ngBonangIal
waysheardmyfr
iends
t
alki
ngaboutit
Her
:Wel
li
tonl
yhascooki
ngshowsgot
othel
aungei
wil
lmanagedon'
twor
ryIwast
hinki
ngofkeepi
ng
youcompanynj
e
Me:
Oksi
si.
.iqui
ckl
yrushedt
owat
cht
heepi
sode

Itwasthenextdaywhi chisSundaywewer eall

goingtothemal lt
hankst othedr essesMamThoko
gavetomeat l
easttheyareboast ingmewewentt o
TheFix,
cottonon,H&M, Zarr
a,ThaBoot yfor
l
ingeri
e,
LegitandFoschi nimyt rol
leywasf ullbutwe
werealreadyheadingtoSpor tscenenowt hey
boughtmesneaker sandl abeledt racksui
tsand
sli
destheyalsoboughtmeHuawei P20Mat e
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ON1

Theyevenboughtmeuni form shesai dtheyalways

acceptpeopl
eitsneverf
ullatxoxo'sschool asi
tis
combinedsoIwi l
lbeinhighschool depart
mentI
wasont hephonesincetakingpicturesnonest op
andnowwej ustgotinahairsalonandIam sur e
theyknowhertheyevenof f
ereduschampagnebut
becausewearekidswewer edrinkingjuice
Her:
Sowhi chhairst
ylewouldyouli
ketohave?
..
she
askedsippingi
nhergl assIj
ustcan'
tgetov
erher
beautyandslayagethiswomani sl
ivi
ngmydream I
waslookingattheweav es
Her:
Bet
tershi
fty
ourey
estobrai
dsbabybecause
next
weekWednesdayyouar
egoingt
oschool
Bhuti
:
Sowhati
sthepr
obl
em dot
heymi
ndt
he
hai
rst
yles?
Her
:Yest
heyonl
yal
l
owcor
nrowsandbr
aidedhai
r
Bhut:
Okhowlongwil
li
ttakeIam t
ir
ednanami
..
sis
khi
thaki
ssedhermangaini
ngatt
enti
onfr
om t
he
peopl
et heybeenl
ooki
ngatt
hem t
heset
wol
ove
eachothermaarn
Her
:Don'
twor
rynani
justr
elaxwena
Theyf i
rst
lytreatedmyaf r
owiththei
rspeci
al
treat
ment sandt hentheyplai
tedmyhair1h30Iwas
donet heywer etwoandshechosenor malnail
sfor
meheyIwasf lameswedr ovetothehouseandi
wentt omyr oom toarrangemycl ot
hesandput
them intheclosetrhaaIam abouttoli
veabetterl
i
fe
nowmyboy friendcall
ed
Me:
Hey
Hi
m:Heybabyhowar
eyou?
Me:
Iam goodt
hankssoy
oudeci
dedt
ocal
l
?
Hi
m:IwasbusyZusi
hai
bo
Me:
Shaggi
ngherr
ight
?
Him:YouknowIdon'thav
et i
mef ort
hi sZusi
youare
i
nJobur gawayfr
om meandy oudeni edmethecake
babythoseJoburgboyswil
ldr
ibbleyouandtake
yourvi
rgini
tywhi
l
ey oudi
dn'
tgiveitt
ot heonewho
l
ovesy ou
Me:Idoubty
oudobecausesexisal
lyoutal
ked
aboutandgomadwheneverIsayIam notr
eady
Him:Sui
tyour
selfbyyousuchal owli
fe.
.hedropped
thecall
shei
ml owli
feyourbigheadIam aboutt obe
aFacebookcelebher
eIev encreat
edani nst
agram
account
Xoxo:
Sisomom i
scal
l
ingy
ou
Me:okIputmyphonei
nachar
gerandwentt
oher
shewaswatchi
ngtv
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ON2

Me:
Heysi
siy
oucal
l
edme
Her
:owwewantedt
oordersomepi
zzasowhi
ch
f
lav
ourwoul
dyouli
ket
ohav e?
Me:
Saucychi
ckenandmay
o
Her
:Oky
oucanpr
epar
ethebr
eadpl
atesi
nthemean
t
ime
Me;oksisi
..i
wenttotheki
tchenandthekids
fol
lowedmewewer ebusyhavingagood
conversat
ionthi
sist
helif
eIalwayswishedtohav
e

KHI
THA

Thegir
lsandIAreatthecl
ubi
twasKoket
so'
sidea
shel
ikespart
yingt
hisone
Me:
DidIt
ell
yout
hati
hav
easi
ster
?
Them:
What
?!/
huh?
!/i
ntoni
?!
Me:
Ali
tt
lesi
stert
obeexact
Tina:Don'tletthi
sGinandTonictur
nyouint
oaf
air
y
taletel
lermnt asesuyi
vumela<don'
tal
lowit
sibli
ng>..
i burstmydrunkl
aughter
Me:Nogirl
sIjustfoundoutabouthertwoday sago
MaMThokocal l
edmeand. ..
itoldt
hem howIf ound
outaboutherIevenshowedt hem herpi
ctur
e
Kat:
Wowexactcopykal
okusoy ourmot
herhada
photocopy
ingmachi
nedowntherehuh?
..
shesai
d
i
mitati
ngtheAmeri
caaccent
Pear
l:
Nay
eshehasi
tal
lBandzki
dsar
ethecopyof
hi
m
Me:
Ohpl
easenunul
ooksl
i
keme.
.t
heyl
aughed
Ti
na:
Uziconvi
serubuxokinaweuyay
azi
lont
o<you
ar
econv
incingyour
selfl
iesyouev
enknowthat
>
Pearl
:Butwhat
evertheysaybabyt
hatbodybel
ongs
toyou..
yassswetookourshots
Kat:
SomoGur
lishowmanyyearsandwhati
sshe
busywi
thmoLi
fingmo<wi
thli
fe>
Me:
Otl
otsenaGr
ade11moGur
l<shei
sgoi
ngt
obe
i
n>t
hel
aughedatmypoorPedi
Me:
Marakezami
l
echozaanker
<butIt
ri
edr
ight
f
ri
end>
Kat:
Bonnaosebol
ail
engwana<lookyouhaveki
ll
edi
t
gi
rl>wehyst
eri
cal
lylaughedandt
ookourshots
onceagai
n
Pearl
:
Okguy sIhavesomethi
ngtotel
lyouIj
ustcan'
t
keepthesecretany
moreit
'shur
ti
ng
Me:
Whatar
eyout
alki
ngaboutf
ri
end?
shewasi
n
t
ear
s
Pearl
:Ihav
ecer
vical
cancer
..
myear
swentnt
ii
ii
Igot
sobersameti
me
Me:What?!
Tinaj
ustcri
edohi
thit
shomebecause
shelosthermotherduet
ocerv
ical
cancer
Pearl
:
Phil
aniandIbeenhav
eusedsomuchmoney
tr
avel
li
ngtheworl
dlooki
ngforagooddoct
orand
Hospit
albut
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ON3

Pear
l:
Butwecoul dn'
tgett heoneweaf f
ordandthi
s
i
sspreadi
ngImi ght.
.ihuggedhert i
ght
lynothi
scan'
t
behappeni
ngandi t'
sgoodt hatwewereinaroof
top
i
nNdilescl
ubsoi twasj ustusasshesobbedi nmy
ar
msweal lendedupacr yingmess
Tina:
Ihatet
hisnoIhatei
tthi
sisanenemyofhuman
kindchommiehowf ari
sit
?nothat
'sst
upi
dwehave
tohelpyou
Kat
:Yeswear
eal
lfr
iendssof
ri
endshel
peachot
her
Me:Noit
'snotf
ri
endshi pit
ssister
hoodfri
endIwil
l
havet
ot al
ktoBandil
eandy ouaregoingtobe
admit
tedtoSwedenther e'
sagooddoct orthat
hel
pedoneoftheladiesinmycompanywewi l
lal
l
hel
pyoubabyyouwi l
l befine.
.wegrouphugged
Pearl
:
Ihavelosthopemyonl
yconcernaremykids
mysoni s5andmydaughteri
sjust2yearshowcan
uleave.
.
Me:
NoPear
lNonobodyi
sdy
ingher
eok?
shewas
cr
yingIcan'
ti
maginewhatsheisgoingt
hroughit
mustbetoughforheraft
erourheal
i
ngsessionwe
al
lwentseparat
eway s

PEARL

Itookanuberbackt omyhousei t
'ssadtobeinthat
housePhi laniisalwayscr yi
ngheev enwakesupin
themi ddleoft henightandgol ockhimselfi
nhis
offi
ceandpr aywhi st
lecryingIknowhemustbe
feel
inglikeal oserofahusbandaf ail
ourbutwe
can'tchanget hesituationwhenIgoti ni
twaspast2
am Phi l
ani wasinthel aungeIwentt ohughim
Me:
Munt
uwami
A<myper
son>Iki
ssedhi
m
Hi
m:Cher
ryy
ami
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SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTHREE

KHI
THA

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CONTI
NUATI
ON1

BANDI
LE

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lihadtogo

KHI
THA

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CONTI
NUATI
ON2

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CONTI
NUATI
ON3

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today
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oo
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERFOUR

Me:
Why
?isi
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《AWEEKLATER》

ZUSI
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CONTI
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ON1

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ON3

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KHI
THA

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m:Whydoy
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alki
ngabout
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sit
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fs
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ngi
stough>
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m:WeeehSamt
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..
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aughed
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ousbabythereareteenagepregnancy
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ectur
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ect
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om youshe'sprobabl
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ngt ogetitsomewhereelseanditmightbe
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sisadi
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erenti
ssue
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ceherli
keyouareadvi
singafr
iendbett
er
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that
ell
herthethi
ngsyouwish
somebodyshould'
vewarnedyouaboutwheny ou
grewup
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sewordsNt
shangasewenay
oudeser
vesome
goodhead
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m:Perksofsleepi
ngnaked..
hesai
dreveal
i
nghis
gi
gant
icdickIgavehim amindbl
owingheadandwe
madelovethewholenight
Inthemorni
ngi wokeuplazymybodywas
exhaust
edthankstomybel ovedIwentt
otakea
showerandworemyshor tmaxi dr
esswhenIwas
abouttogooutmymancamei nwit
hatrayfi
l
led
withmorni
nggoodiesIsmilled
Me:
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oMoodsey
oHusband.
.isai
dki
ssi
nghi
m
Hi
m:Onl
ybecauseIl
oveyouBabyandIdon'
thav
e
r
easont
oloveyouij
ustl
oveyounanami
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERFI
VE

AfterIhaveeatenIwentdownst ai
rsi
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cleanithankGodf ort
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twiththeki
dsI
foundZuzuwat chingtvIsatnextt
oher
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s
Her
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s..
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edIj
ustl
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eyour
eadyt
otel
lmeabouty
ourboy
fri
end?
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sIt
oldy
out
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thav
eit
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pleaseoram Inotapproachabl
eenoughfory out
o
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ktoyoursist
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yourli
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youarenotabadper sont
heproblem i
sI
seeyouasanadultt
hatyouareandyouknowus
ki
dswhower er
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ackparent
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oveandboy
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standbutt
alkt
omei
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ngy
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pMoGur l
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atst
eerswhenwewentt obuylunchheaskedf or
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edabout
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erdayIwentoutwithhim Iwewat chedmovies
andhealsopayedforthethi
ngsIbought
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nkIlovehi
m butI
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orar el
ati
onshipnow
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?
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vesme
money.
..
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t
Me:
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esy
ouwhat
?
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:Hedi
ditoncehenceIsai
dwemetMondayi
t
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ort
ranspor
t
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inue
Her:
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edthathe
wil
laskf
orsexwhichIam notr
eadytodosoIdon't
knowwhattodobutIlov
ehim
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stofall
youare17y ear
soldsti
lli
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schoolyouhavetofocusonyourstudi
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ngdat i
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i
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hinkheist
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Zuzuhe'soldJoburgmenusemoneyt otake
advantageofyounggir
ls
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Me:SoIwoul dhat emy sel

ff orallowi ngt hist o
happenNanaIam notj ealousofy oubei ngi nl oveI
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youragegr ouporifkey out hinki t
'sr eallov ei nv
ite
him ov erfordinnerwheny ouhav emadey our
decisionsweethear tBabyIam wi shingy out he
thi
ngsIwasdr eamingaboutt hatIam sur ey oudo
dream aboutt ooImeandon' tyouseey our sel fi
n
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lyouwhati fyoupasswi thflyingcol our st hisy ear
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ng
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ke
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apartmentcomi ngy ourwaynanaf ocusony our
studiesmakemeandourpar entspr oudpl ease
don'tletany t
hingdest royy ouok
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ousomuchsi
siIwi
l
lmakey
oupr
oud
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hert
hingIwi
l
lhav
etocutt
ieswi
thSf
iso
Me:
Sot
heguy
snamei
sSf
iso?
Her
:Yessi
si
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fyoulov
ehi m nanainv
itehi
m overokbutIwi
ll
adv
iseyoutoleavehim anywayletmegoandf ol
d
myhusband'
sclothestoodles.
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oggedupst
air
s

SPHI
WE

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lyIgota
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CONTI
NUATI
ON2

KHI
THA

It
'sMondaymi
d-dayIam i
nmyoffi
cewhenEnt
le
cameinIwasworki
ngattheot
herhot
elnotmi
ne
Me:
HowcanIhel
pyouMsDl
ami
ni?
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Wel
li
t'
snotwor
kr el
atedbutIwoul
dli
key
out
o
hel
pmewithsomet
hing
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Shoot
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yelacanyoupleasel
endmemoneyfor
t
ranspor
tIwi
llgiv
eitbackonmonthendpl
ease?
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sjustt
hebegi
nni
ngofthemont handy ouar
e
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eadydeadbrokeMsDlami
ni Iam yourbossnot
yourfr
iendsotomethi
sisaninsult
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ngindebt
spl
easehel
p
meIhav en'
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ghtbeon
t
hestreet
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ngenaphi
kanenemna?
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thast
o
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thme>
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snonofyourbusinessbutIam her
e
aski
ngforhel
pfrom myoldfr
iend
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iketheword'ol
d'sopl
easetur
nyourfl
atasst
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ceI'
vegotbet
tert
hingst
o
dothanli
stentoyouwhine
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peopleIdidn'tknowt hatitwi l
lchangey out oobut
whoam If oolingbecausey ouchangedt hemi nute
youmety ourATM. .
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ing
peopleyazibutt hisonehast osignherf i
nal warning
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i
fnotwhol eofi tandherbabydaddywasa
congoli
anhel eftherwi t
h3ki dsimaginesoshe
thi
nkbyemot ional blackmai li
ngmeIwi llsoftenup
manIam at oughcooki e

PHI
LANI
It
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dedicat
edthisdayi
ntospr
ingcleaningperksof
beingyourownbosswhenIwasf oldi
ngherclothesI
gotacallfr
om theSwedenhospital
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doct
or
Hi
m:MrMt
hembuhowar
eyou?
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hanksandy
ousi
r?
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fectIcall
edt
oletyouknowthatyourwif
eis
f
ittobedischargedy
oucancomeany ti
met hi
sweek
t
ogether .
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tedwhat.
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l
l
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CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Ical
ledBandi
l
etoletHi
m knowhesai
dhe'
sgoingt
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accompanymetoSwedent ommor
owIam ov
erthe
moonIwaswor r
iedsi
ck

ZUSI
PHE

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thetwinsandi wer
e
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verwhenSf i
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ati
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acceptedthecall
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ranger
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m:Heysweet
showar
eyou?hi
svoi
cedoes
wonder
s
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hanksandy
ou?
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m:Iam okt
ooj
ustmi
ssi
ngy
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psandcut
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ace.
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llhav
eti
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youthi
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hav
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m:Iunder
standbutwhenev
ery
ouar
ereadybaby
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deishereIhavet ogo..
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goodbyeaswegott othecarwepassedbyt he
daycar
eandt ookthehandfulLubenathiaft
erthatwe
wenttothehousewechangedouruni form andI
wenttocleanthekit
chen,
diningroom andlaungeI
andotherroomsweuseaf t
erthatItookthemeatt o
defr
ostIdon'tcooksi
sKhithaistheonewhoi s
al
lowedtocookf orBhuti
soIam doneIwasnow
watchi
ngt vwhenshegotin
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Hellofami l
y.
.t
hekidsrantohershekissedt hem
andIwentt ohughert hi
sistheli
feIwasintroduced
toIevenhav etowelcomebhut iwhenhecomes
homet oatfirsti
twasawkwar dImeanIam not
usedtothisbutnowIam get ti
ngtheresheask
aboutourdayonebyoneaf tert
hatshewent
upstai
rstochangewhenshecamebackbhut i
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antohim si
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numberone
Bhuti:
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lstartwithmywi fe(he
huggedandki ssedherIsawhi shandsqueezi ngmy
sisassheeet hi
sguy )
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rstbor n(
itwasmy
turnwehuggedandheki ssedmyf orehead
)Xoxo(theyfi
stbumpedandhel i
ftedhim andkissed
him)thetwins(whoooawi thachubbynunuhebot h
tookthem inhisarmsandki ssedt hem)thelastone
yooam t i
red.
.hethentookLubenat hiandwentwi t
h
him upstai
rsasnunuf oll
owedt hem
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERSI
X

BANDI
LE

Igott
omyr oom andplacedthel it
tl
emani nbed
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erNunuwal kedinshewassi ngingal
ltheway
shecl
imbedi nbadtooIwentt ot akeashowerand
woremyj oggerpantandov er
sizedv estt
hatIwear
wheneverIhitt
hegy m Khit
hawal kedin
Her:
Yheeey!!
!Yheeey !
!!
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haaaeBediniyam <f
uckin
mybed>t heywer ebusyapplyingherredli
psti
ckon
eachotherthecov erwasnowr edandwhite
ever
ythi
ngwasst ai nedtheybothjumped
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dyout
wodot
omybed?
Her
:Don'
tactsur
pri
sedaddyy
ouar etheonewho'
s
goi
ngtocleani
tandbuymylipst
ick
Me:
Buti
twasal
readyf
ini
shed
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yIwantmoneytobuyi
tbecausey
ou
ar
egoingt
obuyawrongred
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Redi
sredmoss
Her
:Notwheni
tcomest
oli
pst
icks
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ngsareconf
usi
nganyway
t
ommorowIam goingwithPhi
l
anit
oSwedenPear
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i
sbei
ngdischar
ged
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hat
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eatbabysoshehasr
ecov
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thcancer
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eahri
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nkofdoi
ngherahome
wel
comi
ngpart
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i
choli
daytommor
ow
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l
lfi
rst
lyaskPhi
l
ani
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m soIcanl
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heot
her
sknow
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em sweetheartcomeandkissyour
husbandthen..
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ledandwekissedaft
erthat
shewalkedoutasIt ookthecover
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readywej
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tal
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comegent
lemen
Us:
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ingsdoct
or
Phi
l
:How'
smywi
fedoct
or?
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ecoveredshe'
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stheonei
n
af
ewwhobeat scanceratst
age3
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ingand
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ti
onal
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bs..
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orgi
ggled
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icansar
estr
ongthatIsnosecr
etbutwehave
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ooperat
eheragain
becauseweonlyremovedherwombandf al
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opian
tubes
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:Oknopr oblem doct
orIam j
usthappyshehas
recover
ed.
..wewentt oherwardshewasal ready
donepackingshewaswear i
ngtracksui
tsshewas
readyfort
hej ourney
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

KHI
THA

Wewer eatPearl
shousepr epari
ngasmal l
.ny
ana
part
yforheri
twasj ustusherf ri
ends,
thei
rSpouses
andkidsZuzuwashel pingusi ntheki
tchenIcan
seeshegetsalongwi t
hKoket soIprayshedoesn't
getheri
nherdoggyway sKati sNaughtyokNdil
e
cal
ledandsaidtheyjustlanded
Me:Guys!
!Guy
s!!Ev
eryt
hingmustbei
nordert
hey
j
ustLandedsotheycanbehereAnyminut
e
Luu:
Yooot
hatwasqui
ck
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vat
ePi l
otisf ast..
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youeverhear
dofaf astestpl ane?amazemebutwe
werealmostdonewithev erythingin15minthey
drovei
nweal l
hidbehindt hedoorandt ol
dthekids
togoandplayinthekit
chenbecauset heywi
llr
uin
thi
ssurpr
isewhentheygoti nthehouseweshout ed
Us:
SURPRI
SE!
!!shewassoshockedandhappywe
al
lwentt
ohugher
Me:Wel
comeHomeMaMt hembu.
.isai
dhuggi
ngand
ki
ssi
ngherasIgav
eheragif
tbagtheyal
ldi
dthe
same
Kat
:Yousti
ll
gott
hebangerbodyhayit
he
competi
ti
onisst
il
lti
ght
..
.wel
aughed
Ti
na:
Iev
engav eupi
ngy
mingam sodoneIdogood
wi
thmyflatass
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tworryt heseni
ggaseatpancakest
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bur
stoutlaughinglolPear
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wit
hwidecur v
edhi psandhugeassandsmal l
waist
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:
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sisbeaut
if
ul.
.shesai
dsi
de
huggi
ngherhusband
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sonam heredoll
am here.
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l
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heir
spaceNdileandIdr oppedthekidsathismom' s
housebecausehewast akingmet oadoctorforpap
smearwegott ot heexaminingroom weexchanged
greet
ings
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sBi y
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dliket
oasky
ouaf
ewquest
ions
regar
dingyourheal
th
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l
e:I
tsf
inedoct
or
Dr
:i
sit
?
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Jasur
e
Dr
:Oksowhenl
astdi
dyouseey
ourper
iods?
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ebeeni
ncont
rapt
ivesIhav
ea3y
earonmy
ar
m
Ndi
l
e:What
?!t
heat
mospher
ewast
enseabi
t
Dr
:Okam sureyouknowt hatt
heyarenot100%so
wehavetotakeapregnancytest
..
hesaidgi
vingi
tto
meItookitasiwentpee
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Icamebackandgav
ethedoct
ort
het
est
Dr:Thankyouthenwehav etowai tfor5mi nut
es
fi
rst.
.iwasbusyaskinghim quest
ionsaboutCer v
ical
cancersoapparentlyi
tdoesn'tr
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cancomeaf tersomey ear
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gonewhooawwhatawor l
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'ssel
fandt hetestwas
readymyhear twaspumpi ng
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disappoi nt
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lthathe'smadsoIwentt obed
ast hedoct orscannedmet omakesur ethatiwas
notpr egnantsoi ndeedIwasnotsohecal leda
femaledoct ortodomepapsmearasNdi l
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tobedonebyhi m sotheydi ditvacati
onandt ol
d
ust owai tforthei
rcallwewentouti twasal r
eady
noon
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Nani
Hi
m:Nomkhi
tha.
.okhe'
smad
Me:
Canwepl
easet
alkaboutt
hispl
ease
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m:Iam noti
nthemoodt
otal
kaboutany
thi
ng
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..
itookmyphoneandscrol
lthr
oughInst
awe
wenttohismom'spl
acetotakethekidsaf
terthat
wewenthomeNdi l
ewentstrai
ghtt
obedroom
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Areyouguy
shungr
y?I
wantt
ogot
obedi
t'
sbeen
al
ongday
Them:
No/
cha
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sgoodnowl et
'sgot obathandyouare
goingtosleep.
.iwenttobatheLubeandSi y
axoxo
wasbusybat hi
nghi mselfnunuwasinZuzu's
bedroom shesleepswithhermostoft heti
mewhen
IwasdoneIwentt omyr oom Itookashowerand
wor emysexypy j
amas
Ndi
l
e:Ngi
l
ambi
l
eMaBi
yel
a
Me:ButIdi
daskyouifyouwouldl
iket
ohav
e
somethi
ngtoeatwhatdidyousay
?
Ndi
l
e:t
hatwast
henIam hungr
ynowIwantPapand
l
ambstew
Me:
Youcan'
tber
eal
nowBandi
l
eIam t
ir
ed
Ndil
e:Shoul
dIgoandcool
formy sel
f?f
uckt
hisi
got
outofbedandwor ehi
ssl
idesandwentout

ZUSI
PHE

Ithasbeenal ongdayIevenforgottodomy
assignmentsMat r
ici
shecti
cIwasnotwr i
tti
ngmy
Physicsassi
gnmentwhenIgotacal lf
rom Sfi
sowe
decidedtoSky pehewashalfnakedhehadhi sboxer
onhi sbodyyoooIswearsomet hingmovedf r
om me
andIhav eagreedtobehi
sgi r
lf
riendheevenasked
nudes
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Isenthim apict
ureofmewhensi sKhi
thatookme
whenshewasgoi ngonal ongweekendinZi mbali
herepli
edwithfir
eemoj i
sandr edhear
tsafterthatI
wenttobedi twasmor ni
ngt henIdi
dmyhy giene
processandhelpedsisKhithawitht
hekidsBhut i
wasgoneal r
eady
Her:
Sowhenam Iseei
ngmybr
otheri
n-l
aw?It
old
herabouthi
m
Me:Iwi
l
lhav
etoaskhi
mfi
rstt
henIwi
l
llety
ou
know
Her:
Ican'
twai
t.
..
whenweweredoneBabKhumal
o
cameandwewenttoschool
KHI
THA

《DAYSLATER》

Ndil
ehasbeenact ingupsinceespeciall
ywhenI
deni
edhi m sexImeanitwasst i
l
lpainingyouknow
howt heydoPapsmeari tpainsali
tt
lesot odayI
wantedtogi vehi
mt hepi
eceofmi ndIwasi nthe
bedr
oom whenhewal kedin
Me:
Youcamel
ate
Hi
m:Iam sureyouknowi hadbacktoback
meeti
ngs..
hethenwentt otakeashoweriwentt
o
warm hi
sfoodandbr oughtitwhenhewasdonehe
at
eitwit
hat owelwrappedar oundhi
swaist
Me:Bandi
l
eIam t
ir
edofhowwehav
etur
nedy
ou
know
Hi
m:k
Me:Seri
ousi
t'
sexhaust
ingi
meany
oucan'
tbemad
becauseofamereimpl
ant
Him:It
houghtwewer
eone,
onemeansIownyour
bodyandyouownminemaybet
hat'
swheremy
mist
akewas
Me:
What
?!
Him:Howwoul dyouf
eel
wheny
ouf
indoutt
hatI
havester
il
ized?
Me:
..
Him:exact
lykhi
thayouhavetot
alkt
omef
ir
sty
ou
can'
ttakethatdeci
sional
one
Me:buti
twasnotaper manentt
hingbabyIwant ed
tor
aisetheseonesfi
rstbef
orecarr
yingbecausewe
har
dlyusecondom and..
.
Him:What
everexcusesyoumaycomewithar
enot
goingt
omaket hi
srighti
fyouwantust
obeon
speaki
ngter
msgoandr emovet
hat
Me:
i
t'
sst
il
l2y
ear
sbabyIhav
etowai
t
Him:Soyouar
egoi
ngt
oremov
eitbyy
ourchoi
ceor
byforce?
Me:
it'
sfi
neIwi
l
lgot
ommor
ow
Him:Thanky ou..
hesaidgoingt obedt hisi
sshitI
neverappli
edf orthi
si wenttowor kform myof f
ice
andsentmydoct orandemai l bookingf orremoving
myi mplantIalsowanthert oinjectmewi ththeone
thattakes3mont hsi am notget t
ingpr eg
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERSEVEN

ZUSI
PHE

Ihaveadat ewithSf
isoatMuggandbeanst odayI
wokeupanddi dmychor esIaskedsisKhithaifI
shouldgoandsheagr eedt oitsheknowshowIf eel
abouthim andIknowshesgoi ngtolovehim Itook
ashowerwor emyboy f
ri
endsj ean,
bodysuitandf i
l
a
sneakersItookmyL. Vbackpacksi sKhit
hagav eit
tomei tusedtobeher sIrequestedforanuberand
wenttomuggandbeansmybabywasal r
eadyt here
andwehuggedandki ssed

BANDI
LE

SoIf
oundoutt
hatZuzuhast
hismy
ster
ious
boyfri
endIneverwanttobetwi
thherl
i
fei
loveher
l
ikemysi st
ersoIhir
edZiantofol
l
owhert
odayhe
walksinmyof f
icewit
hkhit
hawhohadatraywi
th
myl unch
Me:
Youcanl
eav
eus
Her
:NotbyanychanceIam cur
ious
Me:Butyounev
ertol
dmeabouthi
myoushoul
d'
ve
donethi
slongti
meago
Zian:
WellyouWon'tbel
iev
eyourey
es..
het
ookout
thepict
uresandgavethem t
ouskhit
hagr
abbedt
he
otherones
Her
:Shi
tno!
!!
Me:
Thef
uck!
!!
Zi
an:
That
'si
tshe'
sheadov
erheel
swi
thLukhozi
Hi
m:Nomkhi
tha!
!
Her
:Idi
dn'
tknowabouti
tbaby
Me:
ZianIwi
l
lseey
out
hanky
ou
Zi
an:
oksi
r.
.hewal
kedout
Me:Youknewt hathehasaboyf
ri
endbutyoudidn'
t
botherknowi
ngaboutwashowcany ouplaywit
h
yoursist
ersl
i
fe?Nomkhithay
ouarei
gnorantand
carel
ess
Her
:St
opi
nsul
ti
ngmebecausei
tisnotgoi
ngt
ofi
x
t
hemesswearewi
thi
n
Me:
Donty
oudar
erai
sey
ourv
oiceatmewena
Her
:Iam sor
ryandIam Nomkhi
thanotwena
Hi
m: Andyouaregoi
ngt
oactasi
fev
ery
thi
ngi
sokI
wi
lldealwi
ththi
s
Me:Noletmedealwit
hitNaniSphi
weusedmeI
hav
en'tfor
gott
enhi
m andanothert
hinghe'
snot
har
mful Li
onsmustbehungry
Me:Justbecar
eful
onwhat
every
ouwi
l
lbedoi
ng
baby
Her
:NoIwi
l
lnott
akehi
mtol
i
onspar
kIwi
l
lroasthi
s
bal
l
s
Me:MhhhIam her
ewonder
ingi
fIevercr
ossy
ou
whatwil
lbet
hecauseofmydeath
Her
:Iwi
l
lfi
gur
eitoutl
etmecal
lher
..
shepi
ckedup
myphoneandcal
l
edhersheanswer
edatherf
ir
st
r
ing
zuzu:
Hibhut
i
Her
:Buy
a
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

ZUSI
PHE

Igotacal
lfr
om sisKhit
haIwasinmyman'
shouse
wewerebusywat chi
ngmov i
eandhewasr
est
ing
hi
sheadinbetweenmyt hi
ghs
Me:
Ihav
etogobaby
Hi
m:Whyl
ove?
Me:
Bhut
ical
l
edsoIhav
etogoandhesoundedmad
Him:
okIwi
l
lseeyouaround.
..
weki
ssedandi
tgot
heat
edhepul
ledout
Hi
m:Iam sor
ry
Me:Noneedt o.
.it
rav
ell
edmyhandt ohispantsI
undressedhi
m andgotonmykneesandbr ushedhi s
manhoodhesmi ll
edi t
ookiti
nmymout hit'
smy
fi
rstti
medoingthisial
waysusedbananatopr act
ice
i
thewassobi gonedaywhenIam readytogivehim
thecakeheisgoingtoripmeapar
tIsuckedhim
caref
ull
yhewasgroani
ngandmoani
ngt
henhe
rel
easedIwassoshy
Hi
m:Shi
tyouar
egoodcakes
Me:Itr
yIhavet ogo..
wepassionat
ekissedasIwas
wait
ingformyr ideweeventookselfi
estogetheri
t
arr
ivedwesai dourgoodbyesandIleftwhenIwasi n
ouryardthekidswereplayi
ngwiththepugsmi ne
rantomeIpl ayedwithi
tforaminandj oggedinsi
de
thehouse
Si
si:
Ther
eyouar
e
Me:
IcameassoonasIcanIam wor
ri
ed
Si
si:
Yeahsur
eIcal
l
edbecausei
-i
..
Bhuti
:
Shewasmissi
ngyouandIwassot
ir
edofher
tal
ki
ngabouty
ouwhil
eIam her
ewit
hher
Me:Jealousebhut
i..
.welaughedIwentupstair
sand
call
edmymant oletHim knowthatIam safeItook
ashowerandwentdownst ai
rst
ojoint
of amilywe
ateaswewer ewatchi
ngsomeser i
esbutIwast oo
focusedonmyphoneasIwasbusysext ingwi thmy
boyfri
endafter
Bhut
i:
Wheni
shecomi
ngov
eragai
n?
Me:
Hesaidhe'
sst
il
lbusyatt
hemomenthewi
l
llet
meknow
Si
si:
Mhhhbusyt
omeethi
sinl
was
Me:
Ithi
nkhewi
l
lcomesoonsi
shawu.
.wegi
ggl
ed

KHI
THA

Ihavebeent hi
nkingofhowi am goi ngtogetri
dof
thisoafandIgotapl anhesint
obusi nesssoIf
aked
mynameandi nv
itedhi
m overforDi nneratt
he
rooft
opinBandi l
esPubit'
snoisyt hereIworemy
blackjumpsuitblackhi
ghthi
ghl eatherbootsand
mybl ackleat
hercoat
Ndi
l
e:Theef
emal
eter
minat
or.
.
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Iwalkedoutoft
hecarandwalkedt
othestai
rs
l
eavingNdil
einthepar
kingl
otwhenIgott
othe
roof
topSphiwewasfacingNor
th
Me:Longt
imestranger
..
hequi
ckl
ydr
oppedt
hegl
ass
hehadonhishand
Hi
m:Nomkhi
tha.
..
hewassoshocked
Me:Wemeetagai
n..
isai
dsurr
oundi
nghi
m Ipushed
hi
mt ot
hewal
landtookoutmygunandpoi
ntedat
hi
m
Hi
m:Whatdi
dido?
Me:YouusedmeSphiweandbetr
ayedmyt
rustIlet
youli
veandnowyouarerunni
ngbehi
ndmysist
er
whatdoyouwantfr
om her?
Hi
m:NoIdi
dn'
tknowshewasy
oursi
sterand.
.
Me:Shutup!
!.
iknockedhi
m downandst
eppedonhi
s
chesthewascoughingbl
ood
Me:
Nobodyf
ucksupwi
thmeandl
i
vel
i
fel
i
ke
nothinghappenedIwanty out
odieknowingt
hatI
don'ttakeshi
tIwasalreadypl
anni
ngyourdeat
hbut
noi hadtoactfastnowstandupiam notgoi
ngto
shooty ou
Him:Khi thapleasedon't(
hewassl owlycomi ngclose
tome) Ihaveadaught ertot akecar eoft hinkabout
herpl easey ou'vegotki
dst ooIbeggi .
.ipushedhi m
offthebui ldi
ngandIwat chedhi mf lyfr
om t he
rooftopIusedt hestai
rsout sidegoingdownhi s
bodywasont hesharpwi r
esbl oodwasf l
oodi ngand
peopl ewat chinganambul ancecameandi tdidn'
t
takehi m Ndilewasst andingbehi ndmeheki ssed
myback
Him:
Letsgohomeit'
sdone..
Forensi
ccameandput
hi
mi nabodybagpeopleweret
akingpi
ctur
eswe
qui
cklywentt
othecaranddrov
ehome

ZUSI
PHE

Icoul
dn'
tsleepwhent
hishappensIknowsomethi
ng
badoccur
redIwentdownstai
rsanddrankwat
erand
wentbacktobedIcall
edSfi
sobuthedi
dn'
tanswer
hi
sphoneitwentstrai
ghtt
ovoi
cemailIdr
ank
sl
eepi
ngpil
lsandslept
I
twasMondaymor ni
ngwhenIwasbusyeat
ing
br
eakfastandwat
chi
ngnewsandIsawsome
di
stur
bingshit
Me:
Wai
twai
twai
t.
..
si
si:
Arey
ouokbaby
?
Me:
Nowho'
sthi
ssi
si?
Si
si:
Sphi
weLukhozi
whatdot
heysayaboutHi
m?
Me:Hecommi tedsuici
deand.
..
nonosisi
thisisnot
Sphiweit
'sSf
isoifeltmyworl
dshutt
ingical
ledhis
fr
iendandheconfirmeditIbr
okedown
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

KHI
THA

Mylit
tl
esist
erwasnowamessIam feel
i
ngsor ryfor
herIt
ookhertoherr
oom andcal
l
edherteacherto
depar
thersick
Me:
BabyIwon'
tbegoi
ngt
owor
ktoday
Him:Yeahsheneedsy
oubaby
..
wehuggedand
ki
ssedhewentoutsoIwaswit
hZuzutheki
dsar
eat
school
Iwentt
oherr
oom
Me:
Isi
tsaf
etocomei
n?
Her
:I
tsoksi
si
Me:
It
sal
lgoi
ngt
obef
inemybabyok?
Her:
Whatamazemei sthathetol
dmeev ery
thing
abouthi
m Imeanhejustgothi
slif
etoget
herhe
l
ookedhappysisi
Idon'
tgetthi
s..
shewascrying
makingmefeelmoreguil
tynow
Me:Ever
ybodygottheirthi
ngsdi f
ferenceit'
showwe
handl
ethem youneedt opullyourselftogetherbaby
theJuneexamsar eapproachingIknowi t
'shardbut
youhavetobestrongf oryourfuturebabypl ease
for
givehi
mf ordoi
ngwhathedi d..i
comf ortedher

《DAYSLATER》

Me:NaniIneedtobookather
apysessi
onf
orZuz
u
sheneedsitshehasbeenmourni
ng
Him:
That'
sagoodi
deal
ovet
heexamsar
e
appr
oachi
ng
Me:
Truet
hat
..

《SOMETI
MELATER》
PHI
LANI
Mywi fe'sheal thgotcompl i
catedIhadt ot akeher
backt oSwedent hedoct orsaidtheCanceri snow
onitsfinalst agesomywi fecanl ooseherl i
fein3
mont hsbecauseal ltheorgansar eaffectedIam
ti
redofcr yingandbeggi ngGodt ohel pherIeven
l
ostmyhopei nGodi t'
sclearthatit
'sallami t
hhe
doesn'texistIwi llspendt helastday sofherwi t
hjoy
Iwil
ltakeev eryti
mespeci alIwil
lmakev i
deosofus
i
tjustpai nsmyhear tbleeds
Her:
Babypleasedon'
tdothatokGoddoesexi
st
babyweareallgoi
ngtodi
eonebyoneandt hatwi
l
l
happenunExpect
edlyber
eady
Me:
Nobabydon'
ttal
kli
key
ouar
edy
ingnow
Her:NoIam justlet
ti
ngyouknowGodi sgoingto
blessyouwithawomant hat
'sgoingt
ol oveyouand
supportyoudon'tpani
cmyl ove.
..
myheadwason
herthi
ghsasshewasbr ushi
ngmybacki can'
tthi
nk
ofmyki dsthi
sisgoingtocrushthem shesangour
favour
itesongsasshewaski ssi
ngmyhead
countl
esstimes
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

《6MONTHSLATER》

ZUSI
PHE

It
'sJanuar yt hingsar ehect iciwasatWi ts
registeri
ngandy '
all
knowt heli
nesar elongsi t
ti
ng
downandst andi ngdrainedmeOkgi r
lpassedher
Mat ri
csowel lIam sopr oudofmy sel
fr i
ghtnow
whoget s5di stincti
onswhi chareon
Mat hs,Physics,Engl ish,
LifeSci encesandLi f
e
orientati
onmysi st
erwasscr eamingandj umpingon
herbedl ikeshe' stheonewhomadei tIwasnow
sit
t i
ngint hebal conynextt omyr oom t hishousegot
alotofbal coniesi t'
snott hatwi deopent houghI
wasbusydr inkingSi skhit haschampagneshewi l
l
forgivemeIwantt ounwi ndnj eImeant heprevious
yearwasal otf ormeIf oundoutt hatIhav easi st
er
whohappenstobef i
l
t hyri
chandwhenIt houghtmy
l
if
ewaschangingtothebet terIgotaboyfri
endwho
l
ovedmet odeat
hbuthecommi tt
edsuici
deIdidgo
t
oMpumal angaforhisfuneralshei
mt hebaby
mamawascr yi
ngmay beshewashopi ngforthei
r
r
econci
li
ati
onorwhat everoknowi t'
sgett
ingchil
l
yI
wenti
nsi
de
Xoxo:
Yoosi
siyouar
edri
nki
ngmom's
dr
ink?
ndi
zokuxel
a<iwi
l
ltel
lony
ou>
Me:Say
ssomeonewhot earedhermom' sprepar
ed
pi
tchandIwrot
eitforhi
m sothatangabethwabut
mossusblackpeoplewedoforgetfav
ours
Xoxo:Mhhh.
iknowIknockedhim upIwenttorinse
thegl
assandwentt owatchtvunti
lthedoorf
ly
openedLubenathi
gotinholdi
ngabal l
oonwri
tt
en
myname
Sis:Khawubuyewenanani
tal
ktoy
ourchi
l
dwhowi
l
l
ruinthissur
pri
se<comeback>
Bhut
i:
youshoul
dn'
thavegav ehi
mt hebal
loon
nawe.
.hecametotakelubewhowasal r
eadyinmy
armstheyl
ookedateachotherandsmil
ed
Sisi
&Bhuti
:Sur
pri
se/
congratul
ati
ons.
.t
heyl
ookedat
eachotheragai
nandlaughed
Sisi:
okZuzuwear
esor
ryLubenat
hir
uinedt
hewhol
e
thing.
.
Bhut
i:
Andi
t'
syourf
aul
t
Sisi
:Ohpl
easeasIwassayi
ngkebabygir
lweareso
proudofwhatyoudi
dthati
swhyweboughty outhi
s
youdeser
veitshegavemeMercedesBenzcarkeys
nowait
Me:Si
siyou.
..
Not
hisi
snothappeni
ngndi
yaphupha
nehguys?
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERSEVEN

Iwentout sideandGodawhi t
eMer cedesBenzC-
classcoupèIj umpedit'
sagoodt hi
ngt heytookme
toadr i
vinginJunel astyearduringholidaysto
distr
actmef rom whatIwasgoi ngthroughIwentt o
i
ty eeeylif
ei sgoodandaf terthatIgotof fandwent
tohugt hem bot hIwasint ear
s
Sis:iknowIpr omi sedtwokey sbutZuzupl easehav e
anopenmi ndt othist omey ouarestil
lyoungokso
givingyouaper missiontogoandst ayalonei nthe
citywillbekindofr iskyImaysoundcr azybutIam
notr eadytol etyougoandl eavealonetomey ouar e
stil
l aki
dwhoneedssomebodybyt hei
rsideit'
snot
l
ikeIdon' ttrusty ouorsomet hingbutpleasewej ust
foundeachot herandIgotat tachedtoyoupl ease
babydon' tbemadatmeandv i
ewitonmy
perspect i
ve..
shewasnowemot i
onalIj
usthugged
her
Me:I
tsoksisi
itreal
lyi
sIwasnotr
eadytoosodon'
t
st
ressyour
selfaslongasIhav
earide
Si
si:
Ohmyt
ear
sal
way
ssav
emekey
azi
<youknow>
Bhut
i:
Andweallf
allf
oryourst
unt
ssembi.
..
Sisi
andI
l
aughedat'
sembi
'itwassaidi
ndeepZul
uaccent
Si
si:
Andwenay
oucan'
tst
andt
hem Ihav
eseent
hat
Bhut
i:
Youwi
shmybaby
Si
si:
Vele.
.shesai
dsti
cki
nghert
aungeoutweal
l
wentinsi
dethehouse
Sisi:
Iam noti nthemoodsoIam al l t
akingusoutf or
dinnersogohav eshower /bat
handdr esstoi mpress
becausey ouaregoi ngt omyhot elIdon'twanti zi
nto
ezihlebisay o<thatmakepeopl egossi p>wel aughed
mysi sterandst atusmnkIbat henunuandIended
upj oiningherandIwor emycut edr essthathugsmy
bodyj ustfineandmy6i nchheel si
t'sallsi
sKhi t
ha
puttingsomepr essur eonmeshewoul dsay" Idon'
t
arguewi t
hf emaleswhower e5inchedheel smy
standar dj ustdoesn'tallowthat"becauseshewear s
9inchhi ghandshecanev enrunont hem she'sthat
badi didmynat urallookmake- upandt ookmysl i
ng
bagandnunuwasbeaut
if
ultooi
nherpr
incessdr
ess
wewentdownst
air
ssisKhi
thawasnott
here
Bhut
i:
Oht
hef
ir
stonehasar
ri
ved
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Siskhi
thacamej
ustaf
termeourj
awswer
emopi
ng
thefl
oor
Me:
Youdi
dn'
thav
eto
Sisi
:Nobodycancompet ewi thmesweet i
eiseeyou
tr
ybutxei myoujustcan'tkeepup..shesaid
swingingherhi
pslefttorightandherasswas
mov i
ngupandupt henroundwaymysi st
eris
beautif
ulshewaswear i
ngasi mi
lardressbuthers
gotasl i
tandit
'sOpenatt hebacky huuubhuti'
s
mout hwasopenev ersincewewentout
Me:
Sbwl
dri
vermot
oyam <Isowi
sht
odr
ivemycar
>
Sisi
:Probl em iswewon'tfi
t.
.aargwelaughedi toff
thenwegott oherG-wagonandbhut idrov
eashi s
handwasi nbetweenherthi
ghscouplegoal s
kwedi ni<boy>wear ri
vedattherest
aurantandour
tablewasal readypr
eparedwesatdownandor derd
conv ersationwashadbutt herewaswi t
hy ummy
handsomeguyhewasl ookingatmet hr
oughout
dinnerIaskedt obeexcusedandwentt othe
bat
hroom sohef
oll
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m:Heybeaut
if
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scol
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eyour
number
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hi
sphoneIlefthi
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tdown
Si
si:
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uhlel
irOadi
es?<i
t'
sbeenso
manyyearssinceyouwenttoladi
es>wel
aughed

PHI
LANI

Lif
eissounf ai
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abl eyouknowl ast
yearSeptemberIbur i
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mal l
doingsomegr oceryshoppi
ngwhenImet
khit
haandhersister
Me:
Heyt
wins.
.isai
dhuggi
ngt
hem
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Khitha:
Ohpleaseam waytoool
dforbei
nga2k
twin..
shel
aughedasherli
ttl
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face
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separat
eways

《WEEKSLATER》

ZUSI
PHE

Ihavest
art
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l
enging
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ranger
Hi
m:Ohpl
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end
Hi
m:I
skonaf
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e..
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oundi
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al
waysdoest
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am:
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ready
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hemal
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unny
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?
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oo
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ethant
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if
ulI
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dslikebei
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puti
toutther
eforyoutoknow
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ani
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om arichfami
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ybutthatdoesn'
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emetheri
ghttolookdownon
anyoneok
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

SoIdecidedtogi v
eXol aniachanceourrelat
ionship
hasbeenabl astneverthoughti wi
ll
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elat
ionship
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helpussetthetabl
em..
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ustbecauseitsFri
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P;Thi
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t
Bhut
i:
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ayam Sbui
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ear
nerwheni
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l
aughed
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l
l
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rom y
ourbowl
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l
ani
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iL:
Thisi
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Phil
aniaskedt obeexcusedhe
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edeatingwewer eoutsi
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ti
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ngforme
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si:
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ther
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si:
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phe!
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Philani
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ki
ds
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hem t
osi
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or
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eadyt
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her
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ar
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odr
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erIam t
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edofor
angej
uice
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oudon'
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inkal
cohol
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onl
ywhenmydeput
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ear
ound
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iP:
what
?!Iwi
l
lsnit
chont hel
i
ttl
eZusidri
nki
ng
al
cohol
..
hesai
dmakingthosechi
l
dishcl
icks
SEASONTWO

CHAPTEREI
GHT

Yest er
daywasl i
tImeanitwasagoodni ghtBhuti
Philaniissuchamoodagoodper sontobewi thhe'
s
funny ,
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fulandhe'sagooddancertooIspentthe
nightinhiscompanybecauset heotheroneswere
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daymorningIam watchingtvat
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Si
si:
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l.
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ngherey
es
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ningsi
show'
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er?
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:
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nni
ngbutmyl
ovei
smaki
ng
somethi
ngt
otr
eatit
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hat
'sni
ce
Si
si:
Soy
ouandPhi
l
ani
arebuddi
esnow?
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'sbudybuthe'sagoodper
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ningZuzu
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eachot
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waysloveydov
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t'
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nto
Bhut
iPhi
l
ani
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i
Hi
m:HeyZusi
..
wehugged
Me:
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eyoudoi
ngher
e?
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m:At
tendi
ngcl
asses.
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dsar
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ical
l
y
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andPapaat
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l
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m:Doy
ouhav
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m:Andy
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Why
?
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ookedathim hecan'tbe
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eatt hepassenger
si
t
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Arey
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m:Asahear
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ossedt
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n
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m:Geti
nhowdoy ouwantpeopl
et ot
akeme?
a
manwhodoesn'
topenadoorforalady
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etvnov
elf
orj
ustt
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?
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m:Uhuh
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waysamazeme...hedrov
eust othe
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lbecauseIsai
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est
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ed
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m:Soy
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oleav
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thanot
her
guyIt
houghtwehadani
ce-
cream dat
e..
.ohf
li
pI
for
got
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

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ommor
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l
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t
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ng
toat
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ani
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butIam happyy ouunder st
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andIwasal readybor edIcalledLiam t
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:Sohow'
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elat
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pwi
thXol
ani
?
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tsbeauti
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if
ulhe'ssuch
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t
imeatrestauranttohel
phi sparent
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moneyisn'
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veal
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oubutlook
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sel
fnowall
inloveagai
n
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eist
ri
ckymnt
ase
Her
:Youcansaythatagai
n,
nowi
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heonewhoi
s
goi
ngtohavethecake?
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Ihav
en'
tthoughtaboutt
haty
ouknow
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Iam notpushingyoubabesiam j
ustaski
nglet
's
hopeheknowshowt olayi
tbecauseyour
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ati
onshi
pisgoingtodieadeadaskmeIwi l
ltel
l
you
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zanazo<br
ingt
hem on>
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ethisguyohgent lemanchozahe
wasagoodki sserhiskisseswoulddrenchyouone
dayIdeci dedonlett
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tyoohay imntase
umzukul wanaomnci ncioyokoyoko<asmal lweak
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,weakand
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et hem yooo
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snev eradull
moment
Me:
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dyoudo?
Her:
IhadtofakemymoanseventhoughIwould
for
getsometi
meandIvowedtoneverevergoback
tohim sot
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ir
stl
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l
aughed
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Youar
est i
l
lgoingtogot
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Xol
anii
syell
owy ouknowwhattheysayaboutl
i
ght
ski
nnedni
ggasbutletmedri
nkmyj ui
ce
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Me:
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aset
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omeIwantt
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:i
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nuedwiththegi
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KHI
THA

Sol astThursdayMyhusbandandIwer edoi

ng
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ecti
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ng
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ml ikethi
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madhewear saj oggerpant
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yel
a..
hesai
dki
ssi
ngmeandsqueezi
ngmy
ass
Me:Babywami .
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knowhewant shiscakesoIam goi
ngtogivei
tto
him Ir
espondedwiththesameenergyaswemade
l
ov e
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ngcameandwhenIwasaboutt
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gr
abbedmyarm
Hi
m:Babyl
et'
sst
ayi
ndoor
stoday
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ButIhav
ewor
ktodo
Hi
m:Iam y
ourbosswhywor
ryyour
sel
fIwil
lpayyou
f
ull
amountnowcall
insi
ckandbeinbedwit
hyour
manImissyou
Me:
Iam al
way
sher
eNt
shangase
Him:IknowIj ustmissedmakinglovetoyouthe
wholeday .
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lyohLordhave
mercyonmedon' tplaceanyhumanbeinginmy
wombbecauseIknowwhathei sonaboutIwokeup
andbat hethekidsforschool
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takethem
Zuzu:
Arey
ounotgoi
ngt
owor
ktoday
?
Me:
NoMrhusbandwantmeal
ltohi
msel
ftoday
Zuzu:
Mhh.
.shesai
dlooki
ngatmeandal
lsmi
l
es
Me:
Ohpleasegetoutofhereandohbuyme
mor
ningaft
erpi
ll
sony ourwaybackok
Zuzu:
Cool
..
Ndi
l
ecamedownst
air
swi
thaf
il
einhi
s
hand
Hi
m:Mor
ningZuzu.
.hesi
dehuggedher
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Me:
Andt
hef
il
e?hehadaf
il
eonhi
shand
Him:
OhZuzucanyoupleasepassbyPhi
l
ani
'
spl
ace
andgi
vet
hist
ohim pl
ease?
Zuzu:
Nopr
obl
em bhut
ipl
usIam t
hinki
ngofdr
ivi
ng
today
Him:
Thankyouwedon'
twantv
isit
orstodayr
ight
baby
?hesai
dhuggi
ngmefrom behindandbi
tti
ng
myears
Zuzu:
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.shej
oggedupst
air
sand
camebackwit
hherbackpackandcarkeysshe
wentout
Me:
Whatar
ewegoi
ngt
oeatf
orbr
eakf
astnani
?
Hi
m:Anythi
ngasl
ongasIam goi
ngt
otoeatpussy
i
nbetween
Me:
woow.
..
wewentt
otheki
tchen
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m:Babyit
'st
he1stofFebr
uaryt
odayweare
st
art
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hoflovewithaver
ydi
ff
erentl
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ti
tude
Me:Iseesowearegoi
ngt
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isf
orVal
ent
ine'
s
si
nceit'
sonSat
urday?
Hi
m:Doy
ouwantt
ogot
her
e?
Me:
Yes.
heki
ssedme
Hi
m:Iwi
l
lcal
lmyt
rav
elagentt
osetupev
ery
thi
ng
Me:
Andt
heywonderwhyIl
ovey
ousomuch

ZUSI
PHE

Idrov
ei nt
oBhut i
Phil
ani
'syar
dhi
shouseisso
beauti
fulIwenttoknockathi
sdooral
adyweari
ng
hi
sT-shirtopenedthedoor
Her
:Whatdoy
ouwant
?
Me:
UmmmhIam l
ooki
ngf
orBhut
iPhi
l
ani
Voi
ce:
Who'
satt
hedoor
?
Her
:Al
adysay
s..
Hi
m:HeyZusi
Me:
HeyBhut
iSai
dImustgi
vey
out
his
Hi
m:OhIwast
hinki
ngofgoi
ngt
ohi
mforbr
eakf
ast
Me:Hesai
dhe.
.(
hewasshakinghi
sheadbehind
mrs)hewi
l
lbewait
ingf
oryoudon'
tbelat
e..
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out
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tookmet oburgerki
ngforourlat
el unchandwe
wenttoplayarcadegamesaf t
erthatIwentt obuy
sisKhit
ha'
spill
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houseTheywer ebothwatchi
ngtvatt helaunge
Me:
Aft
ernoon
Si
si:
Ihav
ebeenwai
ti
ngf
ory
oui
t'
sbeenl
ong
Me:
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siIwasatt
hemal
lwi
thXol
ani
Si
si:
Mhhhwhopai
dfort
hedat
e
Me:
Wowwhy
?
Si
si:
Justaski
ng
Me:
Wecont
ri
but
edt
oit
Bhut
i:
Khi
thayouror
deri
staki
ngf
orev
ercanyou
pl
easecooki
nt hemeant
imeandwhatar
ethose
pi
l
lsf
or?
Sisi
:
Theyareher
snotmine..
shequickl
ygav
ethem
tomeIlaughedasIwentupstai
rs
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERNI
NE

KHI
THA

WhooawIt hinkIdidcatchbecauseIf or
gotmypi ll
s
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nZuzu' sbedroom Inevertookt hem butthe
fol
lowingdayIstartedatcli
ckscl i
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painIknowt heycanbepai nful
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ngwi
tht
heki
dst
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anni
es
houseoryouhav
eplans?
Her:
Ihaveplanswi
thXol
ani
buthehasn'
tcal
l
ed
si
nceyester
day
Me:May
beheissti
llgoi
ngt
ocal
lpat
ienceohguys
l
et'
sgotoThaBoot
yhowcanIbesocarelessnew
l
i
nger
ief
orPar
is
Her :
SinyiseSlayussi si.
.wel
aughedaswewer ebusy
takingpicturesandpost i
nghairandnailsonpoint
afterourshoppi ngwewentst rai
ghthomeNdi l
eand
hisf r
iendswer edrinkingbeersPhilanii
salway
sher e
l
atelyIwentt ogreetthem Zuzuf i
rstl
yhuggedher
budymnkandt henhuggedt heothers
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sandsomeofusar
e
l
eav
ingthisaf
ter
noon
Luu:
YeahI
biza,
Par
isandDubai
Phi
lani
:
AndHomevi
ll
edoyouguy
sknowi
t?we
l
aughedhemeantt
hathewi
ll
behome
Me:Hahahani
ceonebr
oIknowt
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aceandi
t'
s
bor
ing
Phil
ani:
Loadsandloadsofentert
ainmentfi
l
ledwit
h
fi
lesandlapt
opsit
'sli
t.
.hesaidmov i
ngbackwar
d
andrelaxi
ngasZuzuwassi tt
ingonthearm oft
he
couchhewassi t
ti
ngon
Me:
Hay
iasazi
Zuzucomeandhel
pmepackbabes
Her
:Iam t
ir
edsi
siy
oo
Phi
lani
:
Youl
ookgoodki
dthosedr
eadl
ockssui
ts
you
Luu:
Yeaht
heydobutIt
hinki
t'
spai
ning
Ndil
e:Asyoucanshethef
oreheadi
soutt
her
eround
andshiny
..wel
aughed
Sbu:
Afat
herl
i
key
oui
sfort
rades
Zuzu:
Nje.
.t
heyl
aughedaswewentupst
air
s
Me:
Idon'
tev
enknowwhatt
opack
Zuzu:
Sisy
ourbedr
oom i
sbeaut
if
ulr
haaa
Me:
Ohi
sity
ourf
ir
stt
imeher
e?
Zuzu:
Youmadei tcl
earthatwemustplayfarfr
om i
t
soIli
stenedyooososi sthi
sisamazi
ng..
shegotto
mybagscl osetandshewasbusychoosingf r
om my
ol
dbags
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

ZUSI
PHE

Xolanicalledt ot ell
met hathe'sinMpumal angawith
hisfr
iendshet houghtt heywer egoingtocomeback
warawar ahi sexcusewasbor inghonestl
yheal ways
doest hisFriendsbef oremeoknowIwasdr ivi
ng
from t
heai r
por ttohomewhenIgothomeImade
mysel fsomet hingt oeatbutIwasj ustpl
ayingwith
foodIt ookapi ctureofmyf eetnexttothefirepl
ace
andpost ed' Selfbondi ngt i
me 'faki
ng
happinessi sourt hingv i
asocialmedi aaft
erthat
BhutiPr eplied" aren'tyouwi t
hy ourman"
Me"Hecancel
l
edIam al
lal
onebor
edandscar
ed"he
sentl
aughi
ngemoj
is
Me"canIcomeoveryourpl
aceIwon'
tdi
stur
byour
peacethi
shousei
stoobigforme"
Bhut
iPrepl
ied"
Onmyway "Isenthi
m asmil
i
ng
emoji
thenIqui
ckl
ywentupst
airsIt
ookashower
andpackedmysmal l
.
anyanabagandwentt
owai
t
forhi
m heknockedIwentt
oopen
Me:
Yout
ookl
ong.
..
isai
dhuggi
nghi
m
Hi
m:It
oldy
out
ost
opwat
chi
nghor
rormov
ies
Me:Rememberourmov i
enightwit
hsi
sndbhuti
you
mademewat chitandIwantedtogoandsl
eepdon'
t
sayit
'smyf
ault
Hi
m:Youl
ikeshi
ft
ingbl
ameswena..
hesaidpoi
nti
ng
mynosewesmill
edateachot
heraft
ert
hathetook
t
hebagandonourwaytohishouse
Hi
m:Whatwoul
dyoul
i
ket
oeat
?
Me:Iam cr
avi
ngKFCbur
germeal
andt
hei
rmi
nt
cr
usher
Him:
Oklet'
sgotodri
vet
hrui
t'
sfast
er.
.wewentt
oit
andhedrovet
ohispl
ace
Me:
Paper
sal
lov
ert
hepl
acewhatwer
eyoudoi
ng?
Hi
m:Pl
ayi
ngdol
l
s..
.il
aughed
Me:Canyoupleaseshowmetheroom Iwi
l
lbeusi
ng
becauseyouarebusy.
wewentupst
air
sandhe
showedmear oom whichwasnotf arfrom t
hemai n
bedroom Iwentt oitt
herewasev ent .
v.si
sKhitha
skypedandshowedmewher eshewasshe' sout
ther
elivi
ngmydr eam Itol
dhimt hatXolani
cancell
edonmeandt oldhimthatIam atBhutiP
butIwillgotoCent ur
iontommor owshet ol
dmet hat
theywentt oKZNBhut iwill
callPhil
anito
accommodat emef orthewholeweekendaf terthatI
ateandsl eptl
ist
eningtomusi
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Iwokeupi nthemi ddl

eoftheni
ghtandwentt ouse
thebathroom af
terIhavepeediwipedandwentout
todrinkwaterIt
ookt heKFCpaperbagtothe
kit
chenwhenIgotdownst air
sBhutiPhi
laniwassti
l
l
focusedonhislaptop
Me:
It
sjustpast1andy
ouar
est
il
li
nthel
apt
op
Him:
Businessi
shardZusi
..
hesai
dtaki
ngof
fhi
s
spet
act
lesandstr
etchi
nghi
shead
Me:Yourbusi
nessi
supandr unni
ngmossorther
e's
somethi
nghappened?
..
iaskeddri
nki
ngwater
Him:Nothinghappenedt
omyengineeri
ngcompany
t
hingisIam wor ki
ngonbui
ldi
ngaheartandKi
dney
t
ransplantandCancercl
ear
inghospi
tal
Me:
Wowi
sit
?
Him:Yeahseebuil
dingi
tisnotapr obl
em okIcan
aff
orditandIal
readyhavetheplanbuttheprobl
em
i
sIneedbestdoct or
sandalltheseIseehereare
expensi
ve
Me:
Howaboutst
udent
s?
Hi
m:Theyar
emyt
argetbutIneedpr
ofessi
onal
stoo
Me:
Under
standabl
eIhopemyspacei
sal
readyt
her
e
Him:
Fir
stl
ygoandmakemesomet
hingt
oeatt
henI
cant
hinkabouti
t
Me:
Huhbhut
i!
!
Him:I
tsupt
oyoui
fyouar
eser
iousabouty
ourf
utur
e
ornot
Me:
okspaghet
tiandmeatbal
l
sthen
Hi
m: Per
fectandohIgott
hemessagef
rom y
our
f
ather
Me:
okandhowdoy
ouseei
t?
Hi
m:Hesai
dhewi
l
lpayr
entf
ory
ousoi
don'
tmi
nd
Me:Wowjustwow..i
laughedasIwenttomakehi m
somethi
ngtoeat20mi nutesIwasdoneIam
act
uall
yagoodcookj ustl
ikemysist
erIdi
shedfor
hi
m andpitj
uiceonthesideIwenttogi
vehim warm
watert
owashhandsf ir
st
Hi
m:weeehkhi
thai
sagoodt
eacherhuh?
Me:
wai
tunt
ily
out
ast
emyf
ood
Him:Ican'twait
..
igav
ehimthetr
ayasIwaseati
ng
onmybowl wewerenowwatchi
ngmusi
cvideoson
hiswallscreenandwhenhewasdonewit
hhishe
tookmines
Me:
not
hisi
sabuse
Him:Youdi
shesl
i
ttl
efoodf
ormesowhatdi
dyou
expect
Me:
Mhhhy
ouar
egoi
ngt
owasht
hedi
shest
oo
Hi
m: Idon'tmi
nd.
.wechit
-chatbef
orehewenttot
he
ki
tchent owasht
hedishesweusedandIf ol
l
owed
hi
m Iendeduphelpi
nghi m weweretal
ki
ngabout
everyt
hing
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Whenweweredonewit
hthedi
shesIaccident
all
y
dr
oppedhi
spl
ateandi
tcutmei
nmyf inger
Me:
ouch.
.bl
oodwascomi
ngf
rom myf
inger
Him:
OwIam sor
ry.
..
hesai
daft
ercl
eani
ngthepi
eces
ofgl
asshet
hentookhi
saidki
tandnur
sedmy
wound
Me:
Thanky
ousomuch
Him: Doesi
thurt?...
i shookmyheadwewer enow
l
ooki ngateachot herhi shandwasbr ushingmy
faceasIwasst andi ngnextt ohim andhewas
sitt
ingonthestool nextt othekitchencount erhe
broughtmecl osert ohi m ashewasbr ushingmy
faceandhi sfi
ngerwassl ightl
yopeni ngmyl i
psIfel
t
butterf
li
esinmyt ummyt hisisallnewt omeaf t
er
thatwewer ebreat hingt hesameai rourf aceswere
closebeforeIknowi thewaski ssingmeandhi s
otherhandwasonmyasshebr oughtmeev en
closertohim Ir
espondedhet ookmeandpl acedme
ont opofthekitchencount erasIwr appedmyl egs
aroundhiswai
stwekissedlongaspassionat
ehe
pull
edoutandshi
tiforgotwhoIwaswi thIqui
ckl
y
steppeddownandranoutoft heki
tchen
Hi
m:Zusi
..
hef
oll
owedmet
other
oom Iwasusi
ngI
l
ocked
Hi
m:Zusipl
easeopenupiwanttoapol
ogi
zef
or
whatIdi
dZusi.
.hewasknocki
ngi
nmydoor
Me:
GoawayIam notr
eadyt
otal
kabouti
t
Hi
m:Promisemeyouwon'
tl
eav
etommor
owIwon'
t
r
epeatwhatIdi
dok?
Me:
Wher
ewi
l
lIbegoi
ngGoodNi
ghtBhut
iPhi
l
ani
Hi
m:Goodmor
ningi
t'
sMor
ning
Me:
What
ever
Hi
m:Youar
enotmadr
ight
?
Me:
Idon'
tknowIam notsur
e..
ihear
dhi
m gi
ggl
e
Hi
m;okIam sor
ryseey
out
ommor
ow
WheeewGodWhatjusthappenedtrut
hisIalways
hadthisst
upi
dcr
ushonhim butIwouldignorei
t
becausehewasmarr
iedatfi
rstandhe'
swayt ooold
formet hinkaboutmysi sterandherhusbandt hey
willneveragreet othi
siam notgoi ngtoletmysel f
fallf
orhim noIcan' tbethatstupidandeitherwayI
heardBhut it
alkingthatPhil
ani hasagirli
nhislif
eor
l
etmewai tforhim andhearwhathesay sIcalled
Liam butshedi dn'tpi
ckupt hecallIam sureshe's
enjoyingherbaecat i
on
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTEN

Iwokeupat10geezIev enf orgotthatIwason

someone'shouset henwhenIwentt othebathroom
Igotanot esoBhut iPhi
lanileftanotesay i
nghe
wenttoameet inghe'sly
ingit'sValenti
ne'sdayhe
wenttohisgirlsoIwasal lal
onet hroughoutt heday
andnowIj ustgotoutofal ongbat hit'
sjustpast
8pm hesentmel unchbyubereat sbutnowIam
hungryIworemyl onghoodi elookinglikeadress
andsocksaf t
erthatIheardaknockIopenedt he
doorBhutiPhil
anihadat rayonhi shandshewas
weari
nghist r
acksuit
Him:
Icamebackagesagot
hinki
ngt
haty
ouwi
l
l
comedown
Me:
Idi
dn'
tnot
icet
haty
ouar
ear
oundam sor
ry
Hi
m:I
tsokaycanIgeti
n?
Me:
It
syourhousebhut
i
Him:Iknowbutnowt hisi
sy ourpr
ivacysi
nceIam
babysitt
ingyou.
.wegiggl
edhegoti nandclosed
thedoorwewentt ositonthecouchf aci
ngthe
windowhebr oughtmeRibs,sal
adandchi psand
ther
ewaswi neIthankedhim andate
Him:Zusiam sor r
yf orwhatIdidy esterdayandI
thi
nky outhinkthatIam t aki
ngadv antagebecause
youdonothav esomeonet ostandupf ory ouatthe
momentbutIdi dn'tmeant ofreaky ououtt ruthisI
fel
li
nlovewi thyouf rom thefi
rstt i
meIsawy ouI
havebeent ryi
ngt oignoreandbur ymyf eelingsbutI
couldn'
tIstoppedgoi ngtoyourf ather'
spl acebutno
i
twaski ll
i
ngmet henImademysel fyourf ri
endonly
yobenextt oy ouIlov eyoubutt hisseems
i
mpossi bl
e..hesaidl ooki
ngstraighti nmyey eswe
endedupki ssingeachot heragai nitgotheat ed
Him:Iam sorr
yIj
ustcan'
thol
dmy sel
f..
Icl
imbedon
topofhim emoti
onstaki
ngoverwekissedashis
handswer eonmyass
Hi
m:Wecan'
tdot
hisZusi
it'
swr
ong
Me:
Iam r
eadyIwantt
odoi
t
Hi
m:Ar
eyousur
e?
Me:Nev erbeenthi
ssur e..
wethenkissedashel i
ft
ed
met ookmet ohi
sbedr oom hecareful
lyplacedme
i
nhisbedt henheundr essedmethenheki ssedme
andatemycoochi eIwasmoani ngaf t
erthatI
rel
easedsomef l
uidIlookedathim hiseyeswere
ful
loflusthesmi l
led
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Hethenl ickedmecl eanmaki ngitcleart

hatImust
notbeembar rassedit
'snormal Iguessthenhe
camet omyf aceandweki ssedwhi lsthewas
undressinghisboxerIwant edtoseehi sdickasi
t
wasgi nglingbetweenmyt highs
Him:Don'
tlookdowny ouwil
lchangeyourmind..he
saidonhishunkyvoicet
hatdidthethi
ngsIfelthim
rubbi
ngonmyent ranceokIam doingthi
siclosed
myey esshut
Hi
m:Nobabyl
ookmei
ntheey
es.
..
.isl
owl
yopened
t
hem
Hi
m:Doy
out
rustmeZusi
?
Me:
Yesi
do
Him:
Ilov
ey ouok.
.inoddedhetr
iedent
eri
ngmebut
hewasstruggl
i
ngandi twaspai
nful
Me:
Noi
t'
spai
ningnow
Hi
m:Onel
astt
rybabyok?
Me:Okl..
ouchmanpushedhi sgigant i
ct hingand
fuckhewasst i
llpushi ngitini sitnotf ullyinIheadit
pokingmywombopeni ngy hii
iihest artedmov i
ngon
aslowpacewewer ekeepi ngey econt acthet hen
i
ncreasedhispacehewaspoundi ngandpoundi ngin
measIwasamoani ngmesst heywer el oudeven
am suretheneighbour shear dt hattoot henIfeltmy
bodybuil
dingupagai nIgr abbedt hesheet sagain
asIwasaboutt or el
easeagai nhecont i
nuedandI
rel
easedagainandagai nhewassosweat yont op
ofmeIam sur ehi sbacki sr edmynai l
sar edigging
i
ntohisskinhemadeal oudgr oanandt henhef ell
ontopofmeaf t erafewmi nuteshel ookedmeIhi d
myf acewithmyhandsher emov edthem
Him:Il
oveyouok..heper
kedmylipsacoupleof
ti
meshet henpull
edoutandwentt othebathr
oom
geezmycoochiewasbur ni
ngshithecamewi tha
towelwrappedaroundhi
swaisthecleanedmeand
tookmet othecouchashechangedt hesheets
becauseIbledalit
tl
eandhecamebackandt ook
met obedagain
Hi
m:Howdoy
ouf
eel
?
Me:
Idon'
tknowbutIdon'
tregr
etwhatwedi
d
Hi
m:Met
oobabysohow'
spr
incess?
Me:
Pri
ncess?
?het
rav
ell
edhi
shandt
omycoochi
e
Hi
m:Thi
sisPr
incessNaNy
amboset
hat
'shername.
.i
smi
ll
ed
Me:OwIli
kehernameandsur
namewel
lshe'
s
br
eathi
ngfi
re
Hi
m:Letmecool
herhet
henwentdownonmeand
at
eme
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Morni
ngcameandIwaswokenupbymynew
boy
fri
end
Hi
m:Yourparent
scal
l
edt
heysai
dtheywi
l
lbeher
ein
l
essthan5hours
Me:Ohshitok..
itr
iedmovingbutheyt
heburni
ng
sensat
iondownt herehechuckl
edbef
orecarr
ying
met ot
hebat htubhebatheme
Him:hellol
itt
lepri
ncesshopey ouwi l
l behavewhen
daddyi snotaroundokwheny ouneedsome
att
entiondaddyi sacallawayok? ri
ght
NaNy ambose? Yesthat
'sright.
.ismil
ledashewas
busywashi ngandmassagi ngmycoochi eaf t
erthat
hetookmeoutanddr i
edmeIwor emyt racksui
tand
l
impeddownst airs
Him:
Youar
emaki
ngmef
eel
gui
l
tymor
ethanIdo
Baby
Me:
Youwerenotgentleatal
ldaddy.
.hesmi
l
ledat
t
heword"
daddy"Iguesshelovesit
Hi
m: Iam sorrynoweaty
ourbr eakf
astdr
inkt
he
morningafterpil
l
sandIwil
ltakeyouhome
Me:
Thanky
ouf
orr
emember
ingt
hem
Hi
m:Youmustconsi
derbi
rt
hcont
rol
myl
ovei
hat
e
wear
ingpl
ast
ic
Me:
Wow
Him:Seri
ousespeci
all
ynowthatIknowt
hisonl
y
belongstome..
hekissedmeIateandaf
tert
hathe
drovemehome
Me:
Soy
ouar
egoi
ngt
oleav
eme
Him:NotthatIhav
eachoicewhenyoursi
sterask
aboutyournewlyfoundwal
kwhatareyougoingto
say?
Me:
Isl
i
ppedont
hest
air
sorbat
hroom.
.hel
aughed
Him:Idon'
twanttobeher et
henyouwi l
lgettaunge
coughtinmypresence..
wekissedandafterthathe
walkedoutIwentupstai
rscli
mbingthestair
swas
j
ustsomethingel
sePhi l
animustbeblessedmy
abdomenishurti
ngshitIwenttomybedr oom t o
takeanap
If
eltl
i
ttl
ehandsonmyf
aceandwhenIopenedt
hem
i
twasnunu
Me:Heyprincess..
il
ift
edherandtickl
edherand
ki
ssedherLubenat hicameinrunningandother
sI
huggedthem afterthatsi
swalkedinIstoodupto
hugherweki ssed
Her:
Youhav ebeensl
eepi
ng?howwast
heweekend
wit
hy ourf
ri
end?
Me:
Itwasf
inesi
sbesi
deshewasal
way
sbusywi
th
wor
k
Her:
Ihear
dhe'sworki
ngonsomethi
ngwellcome
downstai
rsandjoi
nusforl
unchIboughty
oua
weave
Me:
What
?Fr
om Par
is?
Her
:Yesl
ove
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Me:okri
ghtbehi ndyou.
.shewalkedoutwhuuugir
l
hastofi
rst
lypr acti
seherwalkhayiIgott
othugit
outxei
m Iwillnurseitt
ommor owIam notgoingto
att
endIwil
l l
i
eaboutsomet hi
ngelseIdidmybestI
gotdownstai
rs
Me:
HeyBhut
i
Him:
HeyZuzu..
hesi
dehuggedmesisKhit
hat
old
hi
m nott
okissmeanymorebecauseIhav
eaman
nowwow
Me:
SohowwasPar
is?
Sisi
:
Yooogur
litwi
l
l bel
ikeIam fl
exi
ngsot
ell
Xol
ani
tosaveupmoneyfory'
all
sbaecati
on
Me:Heeeokay
..
gui
lt
yconsci
ousobetr
ayedmy
boyf
ri
endhowam Igoi
ngtodothisweatelunchsi
s
gav
emet hethi
ngssheboughtf
ormeov erseas

PHI
LANI
Iwasinmyof fi
ceIcouldn'
tworkthankst oZusi f
or
runni
ngt hroughmyheadIhadt oSky peherinor der
formet obeal it
tl
ebitbett
erbutIsti
llneedherby
mysideandIam happyt hatIgotachancet ot el
lher
howIf eelaboutherbutIam notreadytot el
lthe
guysimeanIam 31andshe' s20Bandi leisgoingto
kil
lmebuthewi l
lunderst
andloveislove

KHI
THA

Iwaswi
thmysisteratthel
aunget
heki
dswer
eat
themal
lwi
tht
heirfather
Me:Sodidy
ouletXol
ani
hav
ethecakebecauseIdi
d
not
icesomechange
Her
:Hawusi
si
Me:
Wesai
dnosecr
etsr
ight
Her
:Oky
esIdi
d..
.shesai
dshl
y
Me:
Ihopey
ouar
eonbi
rt
hcont
rol
sweet
sidon'
t
wantnast
ysurpr
isesandy
ouar
est
udy
ingt
obea
doct
oryouknowbetter
Her
:Yessi
siandIam thi
nki
ngofnotgoi
ngt
ocl
ass
t
ommor owIjustneedti
me
Me:
Tomour
nyourv
irgi
nit
y?wel
aughed
Her
:Yessi
sipl
usi
t'
sbur
ningdownt
her
e..
il
aughed
Me:
Takemebackwheni
twasmyfir
stti
mewi t
h
Ndi
l
eIspentt
hewhol
e3daysbef
oreget
tingmy
wal
kback
Her:
Ihadt
oactstr
ongtooat
leastnowyouknowbut
Bhut
iisal
soobser
vantsoEi
shit'
shar
d
Me:Hardlucksi
sibuty
oucanr esttommor owplus
him andIAregoi
ngtobev erybusytommor owso
tel
lmeabouthowy oufel
tony ourfir
stt
ime..she
smill
edandblushedmysisterisheadoverheels
withXolani
shet
oldmeabouti
tal
lheeeee
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERELEVEN

ZUSI
PHE

It
'sbeenawhol et
woday swithoutgoi
ngt oschool
andtodayit'
sWednesdayIwokeupear l
yinthe
morningbecausemyclassesar est
art
ingat8It ook
abathewithnunuandIdecidedonwear ingashor t
summerdr essandsli
desandt i
edmydr eadlocksi n
aneatponyt ai
lwehadbreakfastIwasfullhealed
nownof unnywalksIwenttocampusandat tended
whenIwasdonewi t
hclassesImetwithLiam int he
park
Li
am;Heysweet
hear
t.
.wehuggedsheknowswhat
wentdownonweekend
Me:
Heyl
oveImi
ssedy
ou.
.isqueezedher
Li
am:Imissedy
outoobutZi
mbaliwas
awesome..
shesai
dtaki
ngaseatonthebanchesI
wassi
tt
ingon
Me:
What
eversot
ell
meabouty
ourt
ri
p
Liam:
Ial
way stel
lyouaboutthem mzal
atodayit
's
yourt
urntotellmeaboutthenaught
yBhutP..
.ohI
swearIblushed
Me:
Aar
gfr
iendt
hinki
ngabouthi
mjustexci
tesme
Liam:Heesoi
sitl
ovet
haty
out
wohav
eori
t'
sjusta
thingnj
e?
Me:It
slovebabyniggaconfessedhisl
ovetomeand
Ial
way sheardthathewasthewhitesheepoft
he
squadhenev ercheat
edonhi swif
etheywoul
d
al
way sprai
sehim abouthowwellhetreat
swomen
Li
am:
Let
shopei
twasn'
tforhi
swi
feonl
yit
'showhe
i
s
Me:
True.
.weweredi
stur
bedbymyr
ingi
ngphonei
t
wasBhut
i Phi
l
ani
Li
am:
i
sithi
m?Inoddedbef
oreaccept
ingt
hecal
l
Me:
Hi
Hi
m:Myl
ovehowar
eyou?
Ibl
ushedhi
svoi
cei
sso
manl
yandt
hat
'ssexy
Me:
Iam goodt
hanksandy
oudaddy
..
hechuckl
ed
Him:Daddyi
snotfineImi
ssy
ouar
en'
tyoudonewi
th
yourcl
assestoday
?
Me:
YesIam done
Him:
Canmysunshinedr
ivet
omyplace?
Iwi
l
lor
der
herf
avour
it
eSt
eersmealImissy
oubro
Me:
OkIwi
l
lbet
her
eint
henext30mi
nsorso
Hi
m:Ican'
twai
tIl
ovey
ou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo.
.hedi
sconnect
edt
hecal
l
Li
am:
NoIam goi
ngt
otakemeasur
esnogi
rli
t'
s
pr
omi
sing
Me:Right?Iheardmysi st
ergotmarri
edinGreecet
he
Ithi
nkIwi ll
getmar ri
edinMaldi
vesalsosaveup
money .
.wel aughedaswewentt otheparki
nglotI
bumpedi ntoXol ani
Hi
m:Hi
baby
..
hecamet
ome
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Me:
Hi.
.if
akedasmi
l
e
Hi
m:Leav
ingal
ready
?
Me:YeahIgotacal
lfrom mysi
sterunfor
tunat
elyI
hav
et obeatthehouseinthei
n30mi nut
es
Him:
okIjustwant
edt
oapologi
zeaboutwhatwent
downonweekendIam sor
ryl
ovebutIwil
lmakeit
uptoyou
Me:oknoproblem..
wehuggedandwal kedtomycar
Li
am andIhuggedaseachoneofusgoti nt
othei
r
car
swedr oveoutandwentseparat
eway sIdr
oveto
Bhuti
P'shouseIparkedmycarinhi
sgar ageand
wenttoknockatthedoorheopenedhewasonl y
weari
nghisshortj
oggerpantandsocks
Hi
m:iCher
ryyami
<mygir
lf
ri
end>hel
i
ftedmeashe
cl
osedtheusi
nghi
sleg
Me:Heydaddy.
.hesmi
l
ledhesatdownont
hecouch
andheplacedmeontopofhi
slap
Hi
m:Imi
ssedy
oubaby
..
hesai
dbet
weenper
ksandI
r
etur
nedt
hef
avourwesmi
l
ledateachot
her
Hi
m:How'sPri
ncessNaNy
ambose?hesaidget
ti
ng
hi
shandunderneat
hmeandwentstr
aightt
oherhe
massagedher
Me:She'
sper
fect
..
isai
dbi
tt
ingmyl
owerl
i
pwe
ki
ssed
Hi
m:Imi
ssherbabycandaddyhav
eher
?Inodded
Me: Yesyoucanhav eherdaddy .
.wet henki
ssedas
heunhookedmydr essandundr essedmehet ook
offmyG- str
ingandst art
edbyeat i
ngmeandhewas
usinghistaungeafterIhav ecamehet ookoffhis
j
oggerandhi sohshi tthat'
snotadi ckil
it
eral
l
y
scrawledupandsatst r
aighthelaughed
Him:
Babyt
hisi
swhaty
ougotonSat
urdaycomeon
now
Me:Thi
sissobi
gisi
tnor
mal
tobet
hisbi
gnowonder
Iwassoinpai
n
Him:Letst
ryi
tbabypl
easey ouar
eonlygoi
ngt ofeel
pleasur
enow..
hecarr
iedmet ohi
sbedroom aft
er
thatwemadeouthesl owl
yenter
edmeatf i
rsti
t
waspai nful
andhest r
uggledenter i
ngbuthepushed
i
tgent l
yandnowhewasf ull
yinIswearIf eelhimin
myst omachpothet henst ar
tedmov i
nginasl ow
paceeachandev erythrustwasj ustamazingy ou'
d
swearhewentt oschool forj
ustmaki nglovetoa
womanbecausehedoesmegoodhet henstarted
movingi nafasteroneoknowIwasbei ngfuckedhe
poundedmef asterwewer ebothmoani ng
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Aft
erwebothrelaesedourjui
ceshecl
eanedhi
s
pri
ncessandherdaddyaftert
hatwepull
edtohi
s
chestandki
ssedmyhai r
li
ne
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ouki
d..
wegi
ggl
ed
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oobhut
i
Hi
m:Whatdi
dyoursi
stersayaboutwal
k?
Me:
Itol
dherhal
ftr
uth
Hi
m:meani
ng?
Me:
Itol
dhert
hatIsl
eptwi
thXol
ani
sinceshef
orced
metotal
k
Him:Ohthere'
ssti
l
lhim onthepictur
esowhatdid
yourmom say?khi
thaisoverprotect
ivewheni
t
comestoy ouevenyourfat
herIam justdeadmeat
whentheyfindoutaboutus..
igi
ggled
Me:Shewasn'thappyicouldt
ell
from herf
acebut
sheplayedonitthensai
dImustconsiderbir
th
contr
olshedoesn'twantnast
ysurpr
ises
Hi
m:Tr
ueIwi
l
lhav
etobookasessi
onf
ory
ou
Me:
Awhol
esessi
on?
Hi
m:Yesy
ouhav
etobeeducat
edabouti
tfi
rst
Me:
Ohf
airenough
Hi
m:Yesdon'
tyouwantt
olear
nhowt
ori
de?
hegav
e
methi
snaughtsmi
le
Me:Ihav
ewatchedpornbef
oresol
etmeuset
he
l
it
tl
eknowledgeIhav
e
Him: Por n?t
hiski disnaught y
ooo. .
wel aughedaswe
kissedset t
ingupt hemoodaf t
erthatIcl i
mbedon
topofhi m andgr indedt hegiganti
ct hingandaf terit
wasf ull
yer ectIslowlydatoni tasi tent eredme
wheni twasf ul
lyinIleanedf orwardsoIcanbe
comf ortabl
eIt henbouncedmyassonhi sdickhe
wasgui dingmeasIwasbusymov ingupanddown
onhi m Itwerkedher eandt hereIgr i
ndedandmov ed
circlesmanwasmoani ngandencour agingmeon
some" fuckbabyr i
dey ourdaddy "andsl appingmy
assi nbet weent hismani safreakIf el
thi mt wi
tch
i
nsi deofmehe' saboutt ocomeandIf eltmy
orgasm t oowebot hcameont hesamet i
mehet hen
fl
ippedmeoverandwedi
ddoggyi
t'
spai
nful
but
damnenjoy
able
Him:Oh.
.shi
tfuckbabyyouaresogooddamn
whoaow( di
dhesayt hati
fitwasn'
tamomentlike
thi
siwouldhavelaughed)hethenslappedmybutt
cheeksagai
nandagai n
Hi
m:Shi
twho'
syourdaddy
?
Me:
Youar
emydaddy
Hi
m:What
?!who'
syourdaddy
?
Me:
DaddyP.
.isai
dinbet
weenmoanst
hatdr
ovehi
m
t
otheedget
hem webothcamehe
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Hethencl
eanedusandwehuggedsot
ightandt
ook
anap
Wewokeupatpast4
Me:
Ohshi
t!
!
Him:Novul
garl
anguagei
nmyhouseandanyj
ust
dontok?
Me:
Iam sor
rybutIam l
ateohav
etobeathome
Him:
okopeny ourl
egsam comi ng..iwasso
conf
usedhuhhecamebackwi thwi pesandcleaned
meafterthatwewentdownst airsIwor emydr essI
coul
dn'tf
indmyG- stri
ngsoIleftitthereanddrove
homeIgott heyardthedeput
yr entsarealreadyhere
fl
ipi
gotint hehouseandgreetedt hem
Sisi
:
Wherewer
eyou?
Xol
ani
lookedmi
ser
abl
etoday
atwork
Me:OhIwasatt
heli
brar
ypr
epar
ingIhav
ean
assi
gnmentt
hat
'sgi
vi
ngmeahar dt
ime
Bhut
i:
Iam happyyourf
ull
focusi
sonschool
wor
ks
Xol
anihastowait
Sisi
:y
oucangoandt akeanapIknowstudyi
ngcan
betir
ingiwi
ll
wakey ouwhenthefoodisr
eady.
..
she
saidsit
ti
ngontopofthetabl
easbhuti
wasbusy
eati
ngsandwichonit
Me: Thankyousisi
..if
ir
stl
ywentt
othekit
chenand
tookwat erandquickl
ywenttodri
nkthemorni
ng
afterpil
lIonceboughtforsi
sKhi
tha

KHI
THA

Iwasinthedinningroom wi t
hmyhusbandt hi
sman
hasbeeneati
ngandsl eepi
ngf ort
hepastfewdays
soIdeci
dedtot akeapr egnancytestandi
twas
posi
ti
veIwassomadathi m nowIam sitt
ingnextt
o
hi
m wearinghisT-shir
twi t
hnoundi es
Me:
BabycanIpl
easehav
esomehead?
Hi
m:nanami
Ijustat
enowmoss
Me:
Iknowbutst
il
lIwanti
torawuf
uni
?<y
oudon'
t
wantto>Iaskedki
ndofbl
ackmail
i
nghim hel
i
cked
hi
slipsandwentdownonmeandwhenIwas
sat
isfi
edIgavehim mymedi
cal
repor
t
Hi
m:Andnowwhati
sthi
s?
Me:uyazi
kakuhl
exakuf
unekaundi
Tri
ckt
omiss
appoi
ntments<youknowitver
ywell
wheny
ouwant
tr
ickme>
Him:Babywhati
swrit
tenher
e?hewashol
dinghi
s
exci
tementIt
ookthebook
Me:Mr sN.
NBiy
elai
s3weekspr egnantand.
..
he
di
dn'twantmetofi
nishhecar
ri
edmeandspi nned
mear ound
Siy
a:Namibaba<metoodad>whereishecomi
ng
fr
om thi
soneaft
erwhatwedidont het
ablemy
husbandoutmedownandweki ssed
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTWELVE

Aft
erourkisshepi ckedupSiyaandt heywenttothe
l
aungeandIwal kedupstai
rsIusedt heotherst
air
s
andIpassednextt oZuzu'sroom herdoorwasopen
shewasgul pi
ngdownmor ningafterpil
l
sIshookmy
headIreall
yneedt otakehertothedoct ormyself
andtal
kt oXolanitheyhavetogiveeachot her
someti
met ost udyit'
sobvi
ousshewaswi t
hhim

ZUSI
PHE

It
'sbeenamont hnowandt hi
ngsbet weendaddyP
andIAr egoodIam t hehappi
estgir
l i
ntheplanetI
haven'tbr
okenupwi t
hXolaniIj
ustfeelsorr
yforhi
m
helovesmesomuchIhav eseenthatbuti t
somet i
mesirr
itatesmebecausewhenev erhe
touchesmeIf eel l
i
keIam cheati
ngonmyol der
boyfieSot odayisoneoft hosemont hendswher e
thefamilyfriendsgettogetherf orbraaitodaythey
wereathomeIhadt of akeasi cknessbecauseI
don'ttr
ustmy sel
finBhut i
Ppr esenceespeci al
l
y
whent here'sotherpeopleokev ery
oneel seis
outsideandwai t
ingforabr aaimast er"Phil
ani
"
Sisi
:
HayiZuzuborrowmey ourphoneIwantt
ocal l
Phil
ani
wehav ebeenwait
ingforhi
m..
whathis
numberissaved"Daddy
"wi t
hredheartemoj
i
si can'
t
guys
Me:Myphoneisflatsi
sbutIcangoandputi
tina
char
gerandperhapscall
him?
Si
si:
Oknopr
obl
em how'
syourheadache?
Me:
Poundi
ngbutIwi
l
lgoandsl
eepaf
terdi
nner
Si
si:
Fai
renough.
.whenIwasaboutt
owalkupstai
rs
dooropenedandmydaddylookedl
ikeasnackhe
pi
ckedLubenat
hiandki
ssedhim
Hi
m:Sor
ryf
orkeepi
ngy
ouguy
swai
ti
ng
Bhuti
:Akunankingabaf
oaslongasyouaregoi
ngto
braai
.
.theylaughedastheybr
ohuggedhehuggedal
l
thel
adi
esandnowi
twasmytur
nIsai
dal
i
ttl
e
pray
er"
Godhel
pmebehav
e"
Hi
m:Heyki
d
Me:HeyBhuti
P..
wehuggedhetookmyhandt
ohi
d
hi
sandquickl
ysqueezedmyassandl
etmego
Hi
m:Youdon'
tl
ookf
inewhy
?
Si
si:
Per
ksofhavingaBudythati
sadoct
ornot
ices
ev
eryli
tt
let
hingevenheal
th
Bhut
i:
Nami
mossIdot
akecar
eofy
oubaby
Si
si:
Myhusbandl
i
kesbei
ngbabi
edNunui
scr
yingI
am sot
ir
ed
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ON1

Sisi
:Iam sot
ir
edofherdr
amati
cnaggi
ngsel
f.
.she
saidrest
ingonhi
sman'schest
Bhut
iL:Who'sgoi
ngtocheckherwhent hemother
complainsandst
ill
restont
hef at
her'
schest(
we
l
aughed)Njayam..
hesaidbrohuggingPhil
aniSbu
cameandt heybrohuggedalso
Bhut
iS:
Phi
l
ani
ist
hegodf
athersohemustgoanddo
hi
sjob
Bhut
iL:
Ewendil
ibel
ey azi
<yesIforgot
>theyl
aughed
bef
oreheadi
ngoutandchecki ngonhisgodChi
ldren
i
t'
ssummersoi t'
shotoutsidetheyal
lwentout
side
musicwasplay
edandev erybodywasdr i
nki
ng
al
coholsi
siwashavingajuice
Kat:
Whatwoul dy
ouliketodri
nkZuzu?sheasked
l
ookingatsisi
shewast easi
ngherusladi
eswere
chil
l
ingonourownspotandt heguyswerenextto
thebraai
standsi
tti
ngoncampi ngchai
rs
Si
si:
Makesur
eyoudon'
tgetdr
unkot
her
wisewewi
l
l
f
ight
?
Me:Fr
eedom!!(
theyl
aughed)canIhav
eBer
nini
cl
assi
cplease?
Ti
na:
Andhowi
syourheadache?
Me:Maybebeingti
psyisgoingtoeaseitabi tweall
dr
anksisKhithawassleepythi
spregnancyis
pl
ayinghershewenttosleepwitht
hekidst heguys
j
oinedusIwassitt
ingnexttodaddyeverybodyelse
wasbusywi t
hthei
rthi
ngsplusthemusi cwasl oud
Bhut
iP:
Let
'sgot
omyplace.
.hewassoti
psyand
howam Igoi
ngt
osneakoutandinagai
n?
Me:
NoIdon'
tthi
nkt
hatwi
l
lbepossi
ble
Hi
m:Why
?
Me:
Howam Igoi
ngt
osneakoutandi
n?
Him:t
akemycarkey sIparkednextt
ot hegateIwi l
l
fol
lowy oushortl
yandIwi l
lbr
ingyouint hemorning
yoursisterdr
ankpi l
lsthoseknockaper sonfor
10hourssoshewi l
lwakeupat10/ 11andBandi leis
sodrunkhewi llprobablywakeupmi d-
dayIknow
him..
ithoughtthisthroughiknowbhuti wakesup
l
atewhenhewasdr
unkt
heprevi
ousni
ghtokl
etme
t
akethi
sri
skit
ookt
hekeysandIst
oodup
Me:Guysgoodni ght
/mor ni
ngIam goingto
sl
eep..
weal lhuggedandi wentt
ot akeaquick
showerandwor emypy jamasmaki ngiteasytoli
eif
Igetcaughtinthemorningisneakedtoman' scar
andadjustedthepassengerseathecamet oo
CONTI
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ON2

Whenwegott odaddy'shousewesetandal ar
m hey
Idon'twanttomakeanymi st
akeanddaddyr oast
ed
met hewhol eni
ghtIwokeupat6am hewas
compl ai
ninghetookmehomeandIpunchedt hepin
atthegat eandi
topenedIr anthehouseandwalked
i
nIt i
pt oedtomyr oom andslept
If
eltsomeoneshaki
ngmei
twassi
si
Her:
Sur
eyoucansl
eepi
t'
spast1pm nosi
siwakeup
yoo
Me:
Ohdidntnot
iceletmet
akeashoweri
wil
lbe
wi
thyoudownstair
s
Her
:Thanky
ouIwasal
lal
one.
.shesai
dsi
tt
ingont
op
ofmybedgoodt
hingmyphoneisoff
Me:Wher
ear
etheki
ds?
Iaskedwal
ki
ngt
omy
bat
hroom
Her:
Motheri
nlawcametof et
chthem sheeven
hel
pedMecleanaroundthehouseKatpromisedto
comeIam sureshe'
ssti
l
l onherwaythatoneshe'
s
alwayslat
eandNdi leissleeping.
..
shekepton
tal
kingandtalki
ngi noti
cedt hatshewasmaki ngmy
bedandaboxf el
lowshi tthathadnecklace,
bracel
wt
andwat chdaddyboughtt hem formet heonet hat
cost10ksurelyXolanidoesn'thavethatki
ndof
money
Her:
AmericanSwisswhoboughty
out
his?t
hink
t
hinkthi
nkthink
Her
:Zuzu!
!IcoughedIwasst
il
lthi
nki
ngofal
i
e
Me:
Sisi
arey
out
alki
ng?
Her
:Yeswhoboughty
ouaneckl
aceandwhat
ever
wasinthi
sbox?
Me:Li
am Iwasmadathersot
hatwashersor
rypl
us
Ihavebeeneyei
ngt
hose
Her
:t
hat
'sni
ceofherwher
ear
etheyIwantt
osee
t
hem?
Me:Iwil
lshowy
ou.
.t
hedoorbel
lri
ngedoht
hanky
ou
heaven'
s
Her:
Iwi
llbedownstai
rs.
.shewalkedoutwhenIwas
doneIl
otionedwor
emyshor tj
umpsuitandti
edmy
dr
eadl
ocksandworemyslidesIwentdownst
airsI
metBhut
ihol
dinghi
sheadIlaughedathi
m hejust
l
ookedatmeandshookhishead
Hi
m:Iam nev
eri
nmywhol
eli
fedr
inki
ngagai
nyeses
Si
si:
Youal
way
ssayt
hatnj
elov
e
Him:y
oooZuzunev erdrinkwhi skeyeveni
fXolani
giv
esyouahar dti
mej ustletmeknowIwi l
lsorthi
m
yooocognacisshi
t..
sisicomf ortedhermanshe
ki
ssedhim Katwastherewi thTina
Them:
Getar
oom
Si
si:
Wei
nit
!!
Nani
letmegoandmakey
ousome
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ON3

TI
NA:
Thathast
obeourqueuet
hen
Kat
:Soy
ouar
enotj
oini
ngusf
orl
atel
unch?
Si
si:
NoIhav
eahusbandt
otakecar
eoft
akeZuzu
i
nstead
Kat
:WowIpr
ayIdon'
tgetpr
egnant
..
wel
aughed
Me:Letmegoandmakemy
sel
flookni
cesowecan
go
Ti
na:
Nicewantoni
?<whatf
or>youseewear
en'
t
sl
ayi
ngsopleasehavemercyonus
Sisi:
Bany i
semnt ase<sl
ayt hem>Ileftthem laughi
ng
andt alki
ngafterthatIwentt omyr oom Iwor emy
shortmi niski
rt,
bodysuitandheel sIdidmybest
make- upandt ookmyL. Vsl ingbagitusedt obesis
Khitha'sImeant hisbagcostR80kandt heyonly
spendR10konmei fi
tsabov et
hattheni must
forgetandi am notcompl ainingiam wayt oo
greatfulforev
erythingtheydoi t'
stoomuchi took
mycarkey sandl ef
ttheroom
Si
si:
YasssMoGur
l
Ti
na:
Youdi
dn'
thav
etoy
ouknow?
Me:
YesIknow
Kat
:Nowear
egoi
ngt
opaywi
thheratt
her
est
aur
ant
Si
si:
ohy
our
emi
ndmeofPear
l
Ti
na:
TheenaughtyPear
lmhlabaawonel
ikungcwaba
maar
n<thi
searthdoesn'
tgetenoughf
rom bur
ying>
Kat:
Shewouldcomplai
ningonhowt heyman
handl
edherandstopwantmor eeven..
.heeeso
daddyhasbeenabeasthuhtheykepttalkingabout
herunt
ilbhut
icompl
ainedwerushedout
Kat
:Ti
nababescanIr
idewi
thZuzupl
ease?
Ti
na:
Noprobl
em pl
usIwanttovideocal
lmy
man.
.wegi
ggl
edaswegott othecaranddr
oveout
Kat
:Sohow'
sschool
?
Me:
It
sfi
nebutexhaust
iong
Kat
:OhIcani
magi
ne
Me:
YeahIt
hinki
twi
l
lgetbet
teri
nti
me
Kat:
Yeahsowhat'
sgoingonbet
weenPhi
l
aniand
you?If
eltmyhear
tpumpingi
nmymouthIswear
Me:
Not
hingwej
ustbuddi
es
Kat:
Isawhim whenhesqueezedyourassandwhen
yousneakedt
ohiscaryest
erday.
.iwassweat
ing
nowwhatdoIsay ?
Kat:
Calm downIwon' tjudgeyouandIam notgoi ng
totel
lyoursist
ernorBandzi t'
snotmypl aceIam
j
ustcuriousImeani fyouguy sareguysareina
rel
ati
onshipIwouldadv iseyoutotel
lyoursist
erand
i
fyouar ejustf
uckinggirlPhil
anii
sgoingtodrain
youPear l
wasal wayscompl ai
ning
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTHI
RTEEN

Kat
:Shewouldal wayst
hinktwi
ceaboutl
eavi
nga
cl
ubbecausemanwantt ohavehi
scakeeverydayi
am sayi
ngthisincasei
thappenst
oy out
ooy oucan'
t
al
way ssneakouthowar eyougoi
ngtoli
ve?
yena
whatishesaying?
Me:Hesai
dwemustjustkeepitt
ooursel
vesf
or
nowwhenhe'
sreadyhe'
sgoingtotel
lBhut
i
Kat:
Plustheyarewayt oocloseandtightthosetwo
hewillmakehim under st
andPhil
anii
st heonewho
i
shumbl eintheirsquadtheyall
knowt hatsoIdoubt
theywil
lnotagreeoni tnaweyoudidy oursel
fPhil
ani
i
sgoingtochowy ouupwena. .
.welaughed...
Kat:
Iam seri
ouswhenwewer edrunkwewoul d
al
way stal
kaboutbedr
oom affai
rsPhi
laniand
Bandil
etakethecupIneverhear
dthem mention
aboutnotgett
ingsometheyarealway
st i
rednje
Me:
HahabutIdon'tbl
ameher.
.t
hatcameoutasa
whi
sperbutKathear
ditshewaslaughi
ng
Kat:
What?!soy
ougoti
ttoogi
rlam sur
eithi
tst
he
oasophogus
Me:Youhav enoi
deabutIj
ustlov
ehowhewould
al
way saccommodat
emehej ustknowsmybody
Kat
:Andthat
swhyy ouarealwayswi
thhi
my our
si
stercompl
ainsaboutyoubei
ngwit
hXolanikgant
e
noyouareinNort
hCl i
ff
Me:Andihavebeenthinkingofbreaki
ngupwi
thhi
m
Iam j
ustnotreadyIf
eel sorr
yforHim
Kat:
EywhateverIr
eall
ydon'
tfeel
sor
ryf
ormen
honest
lybutt
ellhi
m howiti
s
Me:Plushe'sbeenfuckingsomegi r
l3weeksi
nour
rel
ati
onshipbuteventuall
ystoppedthat
'swhyigav
e
him achance
Kat:
Heev encheat
edgirl
breakupwi t
hhim..
we
l
aughedshekeptontelli
ngmeabouther
rel
ati
onshipwit
hSbufrom highschoolt
il
lnowt
hey
beenvatnsit'
i
ngbecauseherparentsdi
sownedher
whentheyfoundoutt
hatshewaspr egnantsoshe
hasbeenli
vingwi
thhimfrom t
heirbr
okedays
stay
ingi
nashackbutnowt heyareinMelroseArc
l
ookatGodwear ri
vedthemallandIparkednextt
o
si
sTina'
scarandwecl i
mbedof f
Tina:
Iwasthi
nkingofchoosi
ngRocoMamasIam
sureit
'snott
hatpackedther
e
Me:
Ohy
espl
ease
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Whent helunchwasov erwiththeladiesIwentt oa

doctorforanimplantt
heyf i
rstcheckedi fIam not
pregnantthenIwasinsertedonmywayhomeI
call
edbhut iPhi
l
anihepickeditonaf irstri
ng
Hi
m:Mi
ssi
ngmeal
ready
?
Me:
Yesar
eyoubusy
?
Hi
m:Noy
oucancomeov
er
Me: Iam atthegate.
.andIwasr eal
l
yatthegateI
sawhi mlooki
ngatthewi ndowupstair
sI
disconnectedthecallanddroveinhisyardaf
tert
hat
Ipar kednexttothegaragecli
mbedof fandwentto
thehousehecamet omewehuggedashespanked
myassandhi ps
Me;
Katknowsaboutus.
..
isai
dsi
tt
ingdown
Hi
m;What
?Yout
oldher
?..
hewashal
fshout
ing
Me:Noshesawy ousqueezingmyassandsawme
sneaki
ngtoyourcary
esterdaysot
hat'
showshe
foundout
Hi
m:Thi
sishect
icbabysowhatdoesshesay
?
Me:Thatit
'snotherpl
acetotell
peopleabouti
tbutI
musttell
mysi st
erbefor
eshef i
ndsoutbyherown
sel
fitwil
lbeli
keIdon'tt
rustherorIam bei
ngmean
toherorwhatever
Hi
m:l
et'
smakei
ttommor
owbaby
Me:
What
?!.
.if
eltmyhear
tpumpi
ngon90°
Hi
m;YesIwill
comeov
ery
ourpl
acewehav
etof
ave
t
hem ei
therway
Me:
Nodoy
out
hinkt
hati
sagoodi
dea?
Him:babyIknowKatshetal
kstoomucham sure
Tinaknowsaboutusalr
eadytostopthi
sfr
om
gett
ingtoyourpar
ent
sbywr ongpeoplewemusttel
l
them
Me:
YoooIam soscar
edy
ouknow
Him:Iknowbutt
heywi
l
lunder
standsunshi
ne.
.he
sai
dki ssi
ngme
Me;
Isuppose
Hi
m:Don'
tyouwantust
omakel
ovej
usti
ncaset
hey
dontappr
ove
Me:
Pleasemay
bei
twi
l
lcal
m downmyner
ves
Him:cometodaddythen..hesai
dseductivel
ywe
madel ov
elongandpassionateitwasjustslowno
roasti
ngaft
ert
hatwet ookashowert ogetherandhe
helpedmewearmycl othesthenwalkedmet omy
car
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ousunshi
ne
Me:Il
oveyoutoodaddy .
.igott
omycart hi
nki
ng
aboutwhatwil
lhappentommor owit
'sgoingt
obe
hecti
cIam j
ustnotreadyIdrovehomeandpar ked
mycarwhenIgoti nsi
dethehouseIfoundXolanii
n
thel
aungewithBhutiandmanj
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Hewasal
lsmi
l
eswhenhesawme
Si
si:
Heeenani
let
'sgi
vet
hem pr
ivacy
Bhuti
;Nofunnybusi
nessthi
sismyhouse.
.t
hey
walkedupstai
rsIwentt
ohughim andheperkedme
Me:
HowdoIowet
hepl
easur
e?
Hi
m:Ihavespokentoyourpar
ent
sIaskedthem i
f
i
t'
sokifyoucouldaccompanymehometommor ow
wewil
lleav
eby8am andcomebacklater
Me:
Ohoky
out
hinkt
hati
sagoodi
dea?
Hi
m:YesbecauseIl
ovey
ouok?
Me:
OkIwi
l
lpr
epar
edmy
sel
fthen
Hi
m:Lookt
ir
edar
eyouokl
ove?
Me:
YesIam j
ustr
t
hatt
heel
evat
orswer
en'
twor
kingatt
hemal
l
Hi
m;okl
oveIhav
etogo.
.wehuggedandiwalked
hi
mtohi
sv wPol
owehadali
ttl
econver
sat
ionthen
hel
efti
wentbackt
othehouse
Si
si:
Youdi
dn'
tl
ookhappywheny
ousawhi
m why
?
Me:
Iam t
ir
edsi
simay
bet
hat
'swhy
Si
si:
Oky
oucangoandsl
eep
Bhuti
:
Phil
ani
sayshe'
scomingoverf
orlunch
tommorowandhadsomethi
ngimportstodi
scuss
wit
hthefamil
y
Si
si:
Whati
sthat
?
Bhut
i:
Odon'
tknow
si
si:
May
behewantt
opayy
ouback.
..
.

Iwi
l
ledi
ttommor
ownoIcan'
tam wayt
oosl
eepy
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

ZUSI
PHE

Idon'
tknowhowIam goingtodot hi
syouknowok
l
etmecal l
Daddyandt el
lhi
mt omakei tDi
nner
becauseIwil
lnotbeav
ail
abledur
inglunchIcal
led
hi
m andhepickeduponat hi
rdri
ng
Hi
m:Sunshi
ne.
.ibl
ushed
Me:DaddyhowaboutwedoitonDi
nner
?Ihav
etobe
somewheredur
ingtheday
Hi
m:Wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
Ist
ret
chedmyneck
Me:
IfoundXol
ani
wit
hsi
siandbhut
iwhenIgother
e
sot
herewasno
wayt
odi
smi
sshi
m
Hi
m:Ok
Me:
Iam ser
iousl
oveIdon'
tknowhewascomi
ng
Hi
m:Idon'
tknowwhaty
ouwantmet
osayZusi
I
hav
ee-
mai
l
stor
espondt
o
Me:
okdaddyIl
ovey
ou
Hi
m:il
ovey
outoo.
.hedi
sconnect
edt
hecal
lbutI
wast
heonewhocall
edhim smh

KHI
THA

I
t'
sSundayl
unchIam wi
thmyhusbandwat
eri
ngt
he
gar
den
Hi
m:Phi
l
ani
sai
dhewoul
dli
ket
ojoi
nusf
ordi
nner
t
oday
Me:
Owi
sitl
ove?
Him:Yesnanami
Ijustl
i
kehowheal
way
skeepon
spendingt
imewit
hus
Me:Justsay"
You"hawuweal
lknowt
hebond
bet
weent het
woofy oui
ssot
ight
Hi
m:Justl
i
key
ourcoochi
e..
hesai
dki
ssi
ngme
Me:
Ohpl
ease.
.isai
dbl
ushi
ng
Hi
m: BabyIam notcomfort
ablewit
ht hatboycoming
i
nourhousel i
kehehaspaidlobolaorsomet hi
ngi
j
usthateitaboyfr
iendmeetshisgir
latthe
r
estaurantoratt
hecornernotinherparentshouse
i
t'
sdisrespect
Me:Iam sor
ryNtshangaseIwill
tal
ktoZuzubuti
t'
s
notherfaul
ttooheaskedt ocomeseeherIdi
dn'
t
knowy ouweregoingtotakeitt
hatway
Him:NoIam notfi
ght
ingbutIj
ustwantyoutoknow
thatnextti
metheybett
ermeetsomewher e
else,
don'ty
ouwantafootmassagenanami?
Me:Idonani
plust
heyar
eswol
l
enuy
ayi
bona?<y
ou
seethem>
Him:Yeaht hat'
swhyIam of
feringi
tnjemyl ove.
.he
pickedmeupandwewentt ot hehousehet hen
wentt otakeabowel wi
thwarm waterthathas
bathingsaltsandoi
lshekneltdownandmassaged
them
Me:Iam abouttoor
derpi
zzawhatf
avourwoul
dyou
l
iketoeatnani?
Hi
m:IwantpussyMaBi
yel
anotPi
zzangi
yi
ndoda
mi
na>i
am aman>
Me:
Indoday
am ndodwa
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERFOURTEEN

KHI
THA

Icookedmycodemeal todayandIhadbat
hethe
ki
dsandnowIj ustt
ookashowerandwor emylong
maxidressandscandl
esIwentdownstai
rs
Me:
Zuzuhasnotcal
l
edy
etbabyIam wor
ri
ed
Ndi
le:
Itr
iedcal
l
ingt
herest
aur
antmanagert
ocheck
Xol
ani
'sphonenumber
Me:Yooletmegoandcheckatherroom maybeshe
hasthem wri
tt
ensomewhere.
.whenIwasaboutto
walkupstai
rst
hereewasaknockatthedoorNdi
le
wenttoopenitwasPhil
ani
Ndi
l
e:Baf
o..
theybr
ohuggedIwentt
ohughi
too
Phi
l
ani
:
how'
sthef
ami
l
ydoi
ng?
Ndile:
wearegoodbutworr
iedyourfr
iendhasn'
t
comebackf r
om herboy
fri
endsplaceandwecan't
reachher
Me:
Iam sowor
ri
edaboutt
his.
.isai
dsi
tt
ingdown
Ndil
e:Youweregoi
ngt
ocheckherdi
arybabynow
youaresit
ti
ngdown
Phi
l
ani
:
Icangoandchecki
tify
ouguy
sdon'
tmi
nd
Me:Pleasedosoherr oom i
sinthethi
rdcor
ridor
..
he
noddedandj oggedupstai
rsourhomelandl
inerang
Ndil
ewentt oanswerit
Ndi
l
e:Bi
yel
ahousehol
dhowcanwehel
pyou?
?
?:.
..
..
.hi
sey
espopped
Ndi
l
e:What
?!when?
!nev
ermi
ndwecomi
ng
Me:
Whati
sgoi
ngonnani
Ndil
e:Zuzuhasbeenadmi
ttedatNetcar
eshewas
i
nvolvedinacaracci
dent
..
.if
eltmyworl
dshut
ti
ng
down
Me:
Whatbabyar
eyouser
ious?
Iwasnowcr
ying
Ndi
l
e;l
etmegoandt
akemycarkey
s
Me:AndmyhandbagtheoneIwascar
ryi
ng
yest
erday
..
phi
l
anicamejoggi
ng
Me:Zusiphehasbeenadmi t
tedatNetcar
eshewas
i
nvolvedwej ustgotacal
lnowcany oust
aybehi
nd
wi
ththeki dsplease
Phil
ani:
What?!
Sunshi
nehasbee..
noit
'sokIwil
ll
ook
aft
erthem am sor
ry.
.hesai
dhuggi
ngmeNdi l
ecame
down
Phi
lani:
Nobaf
odon'
tsayi
tjustdr
ivesaf
elyIwi
l
llook
af
tertheki
ds
Ndil
e;Ngi
y abongabaf
o..
weranoutohmyGodIwas
pray
ingall t
hewaywhenwewer ether
ewewalkedto
thebuil
dingandaskedever
ydoctoraboutagi
rlwho
hasbeenadmi t
ted
Nel
:
Biy
elaf
ami
l
y
Ndi
l
e:How'
sshe?
Nel:
She'sst
il
li
nsurger
ytheyar
estil
lbusywi
thher
shealsohadabull
etonhercol
lar
bone
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Ndi
l
e:Yousai
dsomet
hingaboutbul
l
ets?
Nel:
Yesshehadi tandi
tlooksl
ikeshewasrapped
too.
..
.il
osti
tIsatonthechairt
hatwasnearmeand
cri
ed
Ndi
l
e:Okcanweseehernow?
Nel
:Not
heyarest
il
lcl
eani
ngherwombshewasa
weekpr
egnant
Me:
Whatdi
dyouj
ustsay
?!
Nel:
YesIam sosor
ryf
orwhatshei
sgoi
ngt
hrough
buti
titl
i
kethat?
Ndi
l
e:Sohewasadmi
tt
edal
one?
Nel;
Idon'
tknowbutasecuri
tyf
rom Hi
ll
browbr
ought
herhemustbetheonewithful
li
nfor
mation
Ndi
l
e:oki
t'
sfi
neIt
hinkhei
sgonenowbutIwi
l
llook
f
orhim
Me:
Iwantt
oseeherNel
..
isai
dcr
yingandhuggi
ng
Ndi
l
eti
ght
Nel
:LetMegoandcheckherf
ir
stt
henIwi
l
lcome
andcall
youok?
Ndi
l
e:makei
tsnappypl
ease
Nel
:
Goti
t.
.shel
i
ter
all
yrandownt
hecor
ri
dor
Me:
Thi
sisallmyf
aultnani
Zusi
phei
sgoi
ngt
ohat
e
meIswearshewi
ll
Ndil
e:Noshewon'thateyounanami
youdidn'
tfor
ce
hertogothatscum baghastopayf
ort
hisiwil
l
haunthi
m downhewi llknowme
Me:
Heev
enki
l
ledhi
sunbor
nchi
l
dthen?
Ndil
e:Idon'
tcar
emyloveIwi
lldeal
wit
hhi
m
accor
dingly
..
Nelcamebackr
unning
Nel
:
Iwil
lsneakyouguy
sinf or5minut
est
opsnot
moret
hanitpl
easeIam r
iskingmyjob
Me:ThankyouNel.
.sheledustoherwardshehad
bandagesonherarmsandheadshewasbr eathi
ng
thr
oughthemachinesIjustst
oodthèr
eandl ooked
atherifi
nal
lyf
oundstrengtht
owalknexttoher
Me:
Zusiphei
t'
smesi sKhi
thaIam sor
ryy
ouhadt o
got
hroughthatal
oneIam sosor
rythi
shappenedok
butIwil
lmakesur
ethatyouli
veandyoucomeback
heal
thyIlov
eyouok.
.iki
ssedherf
oreheadandt
hen
Ndil
etookmeout

PHI
LANI

Iwaslosingmypat i
encenowwhenar etheycomi ng
backiwantt ogoandseemysunshi nel ucki
l
yt hatI
worktheresoIwill
haveaccesst oherwar dIhav e
putthebabiestosl
eepi am j
ustwalkingupand
downt hi
shouseuntilt
hedoorflyopenedKhi tha
wascry i
ngshewalkedpastmeandj oggedupst ai
rs
Me:
Baf
o?!
Bandz:
Shewaski
dnappedbyhersocal
l
edman
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Me:
Huh?
!
Ndil
e:i
njal
obafohetookhert
oHill
browrapped
her,
shoothercol
lar
boneandsur
elybeatherup
becauseNelsaysshewasaweekpr egnantandshe
l
ostthebaby
Me:What
?!.
..
that
smychil
dshitthi
sXol
anibett
er
pr
ayIdon'
tgetholdofhi
m Iwil
lski
nhi
m ali
ve
Ndil
e:That
sitandletmecal
lRober
tsIneedtwo
guar
dsatherwar dtommorowmorningiwil
lst
art
sear
chingforXol
ani
Me:
Iwi
l
lhel
pyouont
hatBaf
o
Ndi
le:
okIwi
l
lcal
lyouBaf
oIam sor
rybuti
hav
eto
goandbewi
thmywi f
e
Me:OkIwill
seemy sel
fout
..
webr ohuggedandI
walkedoutIgott
omycaranddr ovetothehospi
tal
I
gotinandmetoneofthesurgeons
Hi
m:Youar
enoti
nDrMt
hembut
oday
Me:
IknowbutIwascal
l
edt
oat
tendMsNgxowa
Hi
m:Ohshehasbeenmov
edt
oVI
Pwar
dsatf
loor
11
Me:ThankyouPi et
.Iusedtheelev
atorandstar
tedat
myof f
icefi
rsttowearmywhi t
ewor ki
ngshortcoat
andwenttoherwar dwhenIgotthereherbodywas
l
ayi
ngt her
el i
fel
essshewasbr eat
hingthr
oughthe
machinesIwentclosertoher
Me:HeySunshi neit'
smey ourdaddy (Ismil
ledabit
andkissedherf oreheadtwice)babyIam sorryfor
whathappenedt oyouokbutIwi llneedyout of
ight
okBaby ?Ineedy ousunshineIcan'taffor
dtoloose
youtoonowIneedy oubabyf i
ghtforusIam
beggi
ngy oumunt uwami

《DAYSLATER》

Zusii
ssti
lli
nICUshehasn'twakenupwehav en'
t
foundXol
aniyetandwhatwehav egott
heleadSbu
i
sbusytraci
nghim appar
entl
yheisMike'
ssibli
ng
rememberMiket heonewhoganguponBandi l
e
withBroJoebuthemanaget oescapeandwent
AWOLandcomesbacknowaf tersomanyy earsI
keeponcheckingonmySunshi neandIpraytoGod
tosaveherandIcan'tev
eneraset hef
actthatIlost
achil
dtooIbetterfi
ndXolani
fir
stIwil
lbetheone
kil
l
inghim wi
thnodoubtIwasnowdr i
vi
ngt owor k
whenSbucalled
Me:
Mfowet
hu
Hi
m:Baf
oTheyar
einSwazi
l
andt
heyj
ustl
anded
Me:per
fectIwi
l
lfl
yther
etoni
ghtpl
easedon'
ttel
l
Bandz
Sbu:
Unf
ort
unat
elyHeknows
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Iwant
edt
opul
lthi
smysel
f
Me:
okNopr
obl
em Iwi
l
lhav
etot
alkt
ohi
m
Sbu:
CanIasky
ousomet
hingbaf
o?
Me:
Youar
eal
readyaski
ngmenj
e..
hel
aughed
Sbu:
Getout
aheremanwhyareyousoint
ereston
pul
li
ngthi
syoursel
f?hemi
ghtknowt
hatIam
sl
eepingwi
thZusi
Me:i
sitacr
imehel pi
ngoutafri
endbafoyouknow
Bandzcoul
d'vedonethi
sitwasmeorany onei
nthe
squadsoIthoughtpull
i
ngthisthr
oughbymyself
Sbu:OkIwil
ltell
himthattheychangedlocat
ionand
pl
easeactfasty ouwi
llhavetotakethem t
o
Mpumalangat heyhavetodieinthel
andoft hei
r
ancest
ors
Me:
Cool
Iowey
oumuchnj
ayam
Sbu:
Surenj
ayam..
idi
sconnectedthecal
landdrove
toworkIal
waysstar
tatSunshineswardtocheckup
onher
Nel
:
HeyIhav
ebeenl
ooki
ngf
ory
ou
Me:
Ohisit
?Isai
dlooki
ngatherj
ustt
obr
ushof
fthe
f
actt
hatIwasabouttoki
ssZusi
Nel:
Ther
ewasami st
akeoccur
redont
hescreeni
ng
wecheckedatheragainsoshewasnotr
appedbut
shewasPregnantandlostt
hebaby
Me:
Oht
hat
'sal
i
ttl
erel
i
efIwi
l
lletherf
ami
l
yknow
Nel:
Iwonderwhatwi
llBandzsaywhenhef
indsout
abouty
oursecretwi
ththeli
tt
leZuzu
Me:
Whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Nel
:Ihavebeenwat chi
ngyoudoct
orandyouguy
s
l
ookcutetogetherbuttheBi
yel
a'
saresoover
pr
otecti
ve
Me:Iwil
lcrossthatbri
dgewhenIgettoit
..
.ididmy
workhalfofitandcall
edtheHeli
copt
erIhir
edand
twoguystohel pmesoev ery
thi
ngwasinorderaf ter
workIwentt omyhouseandt ookashowert hen
changedtomyt r
acksui
tandwentoutwemetatt he
openspacej ustaft
erMidr
andandwef l
eeto
Swaz i
l
andwegott her epast3pm t heywerecamping
i
nt hewildIam sur et heyknewt hatwearecapable
ofsearchingt hem ever ywhereinthisworl
dwhenwe
gettothel ocationwesawt hetentandIinst
ructed
them t
ol andital it
tl
ebi tfarafterwehavelandedwe
tookourgunsandwentI nt her
ei t
'si
nthebusywe
walkedforabout40mi nutestowher et
heywer ewe
heardloudsnor estheycan' tbesleepi
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERFI
FTEEN

Theyweresleepi
ngeasyj
obweenteratt
heirt
ent
theyqui
ckl
ywokeandMi kehadagunathim
Me:
Youbet
terputt
hatt
hingdown
Hi
m:Whatdoy
ouwanther
e?
Me:Icametocatchrabbi
tsandIthoughtnol
etme
comeandaskf orf
oodorwat er
..
.isai
dslowl
y
get
tingtohi
m
Him:Gett hehel loutofherebef or
..
.ipunchedhi m on
thefacehebl eedandscr eamedXol aniwokeluckily
theguy sgothi m asIwasf ighti
ngmi kewewr estl
ed
unti
lhewast heonedownIt iedhim andwedr ag
them tot hecopt ermymout hwast earedabitbut
wehadi ce-cubest okeepourbeer sIt ookoneand
putitthereXol ani l
ookedli
kehewasgoi ngtopreon
hisselfwewer ei nMpumal angaby9pm andt ook
them tot hewar ehouseandwentbackt oJozi
Mor
ningcameIcal
l
edBandi
l
e
Hi
m:Baf
o
Me:
Njay
am
Hi
m:Anyl
ead
Me:
Gett
hetoyswehav
etogoandpl
ayi
n
Mpumal
anga
Hi
m:Nj
akaNy
ambosear
eyoust
il
labadass?
Me:
NoIt
hinkt
heyneedar
emi
nder
Hi
m:ThenIwi
l
lbeanaudi
ent
..
wel
aughed
Me:
Sowhatt
imear
ewegoi
ng?
Hi
m: Ihav
eanimport
antmeeti
ngandmywif
ecan'
t
at
tenditi
nherst
atesoIwi
llgety
outher
e
Me:Perf
ect.
..
.it
ookashowerandwor emyt r
acksui
t
anddrovetoMpumal angaafter3hoursIwasthere
whenIarri
vedtheyweret i
edonchairsItookmine
andsatinf
rontofthem puff
ingmyblunt
Me:Mikesoaft
erthesewhol
eyear
syouar
est
il
l
comingforr
evenge?
Mike:Wehadunf i
nishedbusinessyouknowmoss.
..
i
pull
edtwostrokesandr eleasedt
hesmokeinhi
s
faceaft
erIpunchedhi m again
Me:Whenyoucomeforr
evengey
out
aket
hel
i
ttl
e
gi
rlandabuseher
?
Mi ke:Ohpleasespareusthemov i
eli
nesweknow
thaty ouatetheli
tt
legir
l'
sassthat'
swhyy ouar
e..I
didn'tevenlethi
mf i
nishipunchedhim agai
nand
again
Xol
ani
:
Cam youpleasef
orgi
veuspl
easegroot
man
l
amiIwil
lmakesureist
ayawayfr
om herpl
ease
Me:Yazimysquadcall
smet hebr
aai
master
becauseIam goodatbraai
ngmeatandIam
thi
nki
ngsomet hi
ngint
erest
ing
Mi
ke:
Pleasedon.
..
isl
appedhi
m
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Me:Inev
eraskedfory ouropini
ony ouguysdeserve
t
odi easlowdeathnobodymessesupwi t
hwhat '
s
mineandi nt
opifthatyoukill
edmyunbor nchil
dso
whydoy outhi
nkIwi l
lletyouleav
eandt el
lthetal
e?
Xolani:
Wedi dn'tknowthatshewascar r
yingy
our
chi
ldgr ootmancam y ou.
.it
ookchainsandbeatthe
hel
l outofthem whent heywerepowerlesssl
eeping
onthef loorwithchai
rsontheirbacksImadefir
e
andt ookthosebedbaset hataremadeofwi r
esand
putitont heblazingf
urnaceBandil
egotin
Ndi
l
e:whoawwhoawwhoawar
eyougoi
ngt
obr
aai
t
hem Master
?
Me:
YesbutIt
hinkIwi
l
lhav
etodot
hisni
ceandsl
ow
Ndi
l
e:okhowdowedoi
t?
Me:Weuseknif
et ocutt
hepiecesoftheirbodyand
l
eavethem i
npainandcomebackaf tertwodays
anddothesamet hi
ngti
llt
here'
snothinglef
tinthei
r
bodi
es
Ndi
l
e:Ar
eyoual
way
sthi
shear
tl
essnj
ayam?
Me:
Nopeopl
emakemebe
Ndi
l
e:andli
tupthei
rhai
rwhil
stcut
ti
ngt hem ofwi
th
agr
inderbut
cherkni
vesar
egoingtotaketime
Me:Thatswhati wantNjakaNt shangaset heymust
dieaslowpai nfuldeath.
.isaidtakingthem Igav e
Bandil
eoneev enthoughhewasn' tapprovingtothis
westartedbyar msbot hoft hem t heywer egroaning
i
npainaf tert
hatwet i
edthem wi t
hanot herchains
andleftthem cryi
ngf orhelpIdr ovebackt oJozi and
wenttot akeashoweraf t
ert hatIwor easi mplejean
andtshirtandsneaker sIdr ovet othehospi t
aland
wenttoZusi '
swar dIgotint hereandsawhert ryi
ng
tomov et hemaskshewasbr eathingthrough
Me:Sunshine.
.hereyesmov edabitIwassohappy
sheslowedopenedt hem andfai
ntl
ysmil
l
edwhen
shesawmeshet henpointedajugofwaterIgave
heraglassandhel pedhert osi
tupanddrinkaft
er
thatIsatnexttoher
Me:
Yougav
emeAf
ri
ghtsunshi
ne
Her
:I
-I
-am sor
ry.
.shesai
dinal
ownot
e
Me:
Youdon'
thav
etomyl
ovei
a
mjusthappythatyouwokeupnowy ouhavet
o
sl
eep..
whenIwasabouttokissherNelpi
mpedin
herheadandaftert
hatKhi
thawalkedi
n
Her
:Zuzu.
.
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Shel
i
ter
all
yrant
ohugher
Me:EasymommyEasy
..
.shel
aughedbef
orel
ett
ing
hergo
Her:
Iam happyWhendidshewokeup?
..
shesai
d
ki
ssi
ngheront hef
orehead
Me:
About20mi
nut
esago.
.Bandi
l
ewal
kedi
ntoo
Him:
Hawui nt
ombiencanei
vuki
l
e<Heyli
tt
legi
rli
s
awake>hewentt
ohugherhewasallsmi
les
Me:
Okl
etmel
eav
eyouIhav
etot
akemyr
ounds
Her:
ThankyouDrMthembuweappreciat
eyourwork
whenisshegoi
nghomeIdon'
tfeel
likeshe'
ssafe
her
e?
Him:
YeahIwi
llhav
etot
alkt
othemanagementand
AskforDrMt
hembutol
ookaft
erherathome.
.we
l
aughed
Me:
Asl
ongasIam get
ti
ngpay
edi
t'
sok
Her
:Thanky
ouPhi
l
ani
youhav
ebeenagr
eathel
p
Me:Kubongami na..
iwalkedoutwhoooawIthought
shesawt hatIwast r
yingtoki
ssZusiIhav
et obe
car
efulbutIcouldn'
thelpitei
ther

KHI
THA

Zuzuwasdi schargedtodayshehassl i
ghtl
y
recoveredbutwehadt osignheroffbecause
BandileandIAregoingonaconf erenceov er
seases
for2weeksweaskedPhi lani
tolookaf t
erherso
she'sinhishouseshelookedhappybutsheal so
needt her
apyam sur eshe'st
raumatizedtoo
Ndi
l
e:Whatar
eyout
hinki
ngaboutwi
fey
?
Me:
Wher
e'sXol
ani
andMi
ke?
Hi
m:Phi
l
ani
Braai
dthem y
est
erday
Me:Oht
hat
'sgoodIwast
hinki
ngi
fdoi
ngt
hatmy
sel
f
Hi
m:Nobabywenayouaredoneki
l
li
ngpeopl
epl
ace
or
der
sIwil
lworkonthem
Me:
OkkeNt
shangasengi
yabonga
Hi
m:CanIhav
eacake?
Me:
i
t'
sint
hef
ri
dge
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Hel
ookedatmewi
thl
azyey
es
Me:whati
sitmyl
ove?
..
isai
dcov
eri
ngmysel
fwi
th
bedcover
s
Hi
m:Buty
ouknowwhatImeanmossnanami
Me:NaniIam t
ir
edcanwepl
easedoi
ttomor
row
pl
ease?
Him:Oknanami
let
'sdomi
ssi
onar
ykej
ustkany
enj
e
<once>
Me:NoBandil
eIam tir
ed.
.il
ookedt
heot herwayhe
gotundercov
ersandpull
edmet ohim hethen
pl
acedhishandinmycoochieandsleptcomplai
ning
Ij
ustgiggl
edandslept

PHI
LANI

Bandi
l
eandhiswif
elef
tthecount
ry3daysagoIam
l
eftwi
thmysunshi
newewer eint
hebal
cony
wat
chingsunsetanddr
inki
ngwinesshe'
snotf
ull
y
r
ecoveredt
houghbutIcansayshe'
sbett
er
Me:Soareyour
eadyt
otellyourdaddyaboutwhat
happenedt
hatday
?sheletoutahugesigh
Her:
NoIam notreadylove.
.shesai
drest
ingherhead
i
nmychestandsl i
dherhandi nmypantsIwasn't
weari
ngany
thingbesidesitmydickgotexci
ted
Me:Stopwhaty ouaredoingiwouldhatetocrazil
y
fuckapatientyouarenotful
l
yr ecov
eredbabyand
surel
ynotr ea.
.(
ohshitshewasmassagi ngtheball
s
nowandgi v i
ngmeahandj ob)babynoyou-shi
t-oh
fuck.
..
.shewasf ast
ernow
Her
:Doy
oul
i
kei
t?
Me:
Yessunshi
neohfuck.
..
shet
hem f
ull
yundr
essed
meandthenshegav
emehead
Me:Babywait(
shelookedatmeconf used)canI
pl
easehav emyprincessIwantherplease..
she
smiledasshetookoffherpantsandwi deopened
herlegsIgoti
nbet
weenherandIf ir
stlyrubbedi
t
betweenherthi
ghsshel etoutamoanherbut twas
offthecouchsear
chingf ormydi
ck
Her
:Daddyhav
eme
Me:
Say"
pleasedaddyP"
Her:
MayyoupleasehavemedaddyP?
Ismi
l
ledand
sl
appedherassshefl
inched
Me:
Iwi
l
lfucky
ousunshi
nedoy
ouhearme?
Her :
Fuckmeal rea-
Ouch!
!.
..
ient
eredherwithoutany
noticethenIfuckedherwewereinthebalconyI
forgothowl oudhermoansareIam surethewhole
neighborhoodiswatchi
ngIburri
edherheadonmy
neckasIwentdeeperandhar deronherIfelther
tensingupandIknewshewasaboutt ocum nowI
fuckedherst i
ll
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERSI
XTEEN

KHI
THA

I
t'
sbeenaweekandafewdaysmyhusbandandI
deci
dedonf
lyi
ngbackt
othecount
ry
Hi
m:MamaboIam sosot
ir
edal
lIwanti
sagood
sl
eep
Me:Iam happyt
hatwearebothshar
ingmor
ning
si
cknessesyazi
Ntshangase<y
ouknow>
Him:weeehandwheny ouhavet
ogivememycake
youstartact
ingupthat'
swhatIhat
eaboutt
his
pregnancyyouarebarelyi
nthemoodandyouknow
that'
skil
li
ngme
Me:ButbabyIgett
ir
edy
ourseedi
sdr
aini
ngmel
ook
atmyfeet
Hi
m:Excusesaf
terex
cusesMaBi
yel
aIdogi
vey
ou
f
ootmassageandi
t'
snotal
way
saboutt
hem
Me:SoIshoul djustfor
cei tev enthoughIam noti n
themoodonl ybecauset hemi ghtyBiyelawantt o
havemehay iBhutiwecansl eepinsepar ateroomsI
don'tmi n..
.isai
dgoingoutandIwentt osl eepi n
Zuzu'sr oom whenIwokeupi twaspast1pm t he
weat herwaschi ll
yImi ssedmyki dsbutIwi llfi
rst
pickupZuzuatPhi l
ani'
spl aceNdi l
ewasst i
llasleepi
drovet oPhi l
ani'
splaceandpar kedmycarnearhi s
garageIwal kedinthehousebutIwasdi sturbedby
thesoundsIhear dthedoorwassl i
ghtlyopenedI
peepedi nt heygotlouderandev entual
lystoppeddi d
Phil
ani bringhisgirlov
er ?ohpoorZuzumust 'vebeen
adist r
actiontothem whenIdeci dedt owal kedinI
heardt hem again
Man:Ohshi
tsunshi
ney
ouar
esogooddamnoh
shi
t!
!!
Lady:
Youl
ikei
tdaddy?
..
thegr
oansandnol
etme
heart
hatv
oiceagai
nLord
Lady
:DaddyIl
ovey
ouok?
ILOVEYOU
Man:
Ilov
eyout
ooSunshi
ne.
.t
heyst
oppedt
hisi
s
Zuzu'svoi
ceIthenhear
dfoot
stepsIacci
dent
all
y
droppedaglass
Hi
m:What
'st
hat
?
Her
:Idon'
tknow.
.t
heycamet
ocheckandSur
pri
se
Hi
m:MamBi
yel
a
Her
:Si
si!
!!
theylookedateachot
herIj
ustsatdown
ont
hechai rt
hatwasnearme
Me:
Goandpacky
ourbagswena.
.shel
ookedat
Phi
l
ani
Me:GOANDGETYOURBAGSAWUNDI VANDITHI
NI
KUWE?!!
<youdi
dn'
thearwhatIsai
dtoyou>sher
an
upst
air
s
Him:Khit
hacanwepl
easet
alkaboutt
hispl
easei
am
beggingyou
Me:
Tal
kaboutwhatPhi
l
ani
?huh
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Him:Am sureyoudowantt ohearwhatIwantto

say.
.Zuzucamewi thherbagsIwalkedoutasshe
wasr unni
ngbehindIopenedthedoorandgotinshe
wentt oputt
hebagsi nthebootandgoti
nthe
backseatIdrov
estraightt
omyhousewhenwegot
ther
eNdi l
ewaseat i
ng
Hi
m:Manj
e?<andnow>
Me:
SitdownZuzu.
.webot
hsatdownandPhi
l
ani
wal
kedinwedidn'
tcl
oset
hedoor
Hi
m:Bafowhat
'sgoingon?
Phil
anisatdownt
ooso
wewereal
lsi
tt
inginthedi
nnertabl
e
Me:Nani
didyouknowaboutt
hei
raf
fai
r?Ndi
l
e
chokedi
nhisjui
ce
Hi
m:What
?!
Me:Phil
aniandZusiphehavebeenfucki
ngforhow
l
ongGodknows. .Ndil
eplacedhisgl
assonthetabl
e
andtheatmospherewast ensenjehedi
dn'
tsay
anyt
hingtherewassi l
enceinthehouse
Hi
m:Car
etoexpl
ainBaf
o?
Phil
ani:
Welli
tistr
uethatZusiandIhadanaf f
airwe
star
tedseei
ngeachot herinFebruar
yandIhave
beenmeaningt ol
etyouguy sknowaboutitbutI
di
dn'tgett
heper f
ectt
imet obutrememberlast
weekIaskedtohav edinneroverIwant
edtotelly
ou
aboutit
Me:Wowsot hefri
endshipwasj ustacoverup?and
doessheknowsthatyouar ewayt oooldforher
Phil
aniyoushoul
dbeherbr othernotherboyfr
iend
thi
sissowrongandwai tsothechi l
dshewas
carr
yingwasyours(
henodded)wow. .
icl
appedonce
andBandil
ewassoqui etIstoodupandl eftt
omy
room

BANDI
LE

Me:Zuzuy oucangotoy ourr

oom Iwillt
alkt
o
MaBi y
elaok?shenoddedasshedr aggedherbags
upstai
rsitwasPhil
aniandIleftnow
Him:Iam sorr
yBaf obutt
hat'
showi ti
sandIam not
usingherasar eboundmyloveforherisgenui
neI
reall
ytr
iedtoignoreandbur
ythefeeli
ngsIhadfor
herbutitIf
ail
edIhopey ouwil
lunderst
andthatat
theendofthedaywedon' tchoosewhowel ovebut
ourheartsdo
Me:IdogetyourpointBafoyoureal
lyshould'
vetold
meaboutitkemay bethingswould'
vebeenbetter
nowIam notgoingt ost
andony ourwayifsheloves
youtoothenwhoam It ostopyouguysfrom seei
ng
eachother
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Hi
m:Ngi
yabongaBaf
o<t
hanky
oubr
other
>
Me:Iam onl
yall
owingthi
sbecauseIknowyouBafo
andpleasedon'
tchangeanddisappoi
ntmeItr
ust
you
Him:Igi
veyoumywordonthi
str
ustmeNjay
am.
..
we
brohuggedhel
eftokl
etmegoandtal
ktomywi
fe
now

Igotinourbedr
oom shewasbusyundoi
ngher
brai
ds
Me:
CanIhel
pyounanami
?
Her:
Don'tt
ell
mey
ouagr
eedt
othatmadness
Bandi
le
Me:
Sohowdoy
ouf
eel
aboutt
his?
Her:
Theyhavet
obreaki
tof
fIdon'
twantt
oev
en
hearwhatt
heysay
Me:
Soy
ouar
etel
l
ingmet
haty
oudon'
tcar
ehow
Zuzuf
eel
sabouthi
m
Her:
She'
sjustconf
usedthatoneshe'
snott
hinki
ng
st
rai
ghtPhil
animustfi
ndherpeersandNaniIdon'
t
wanttot
alkaboutthi
splease
Me:
Butl
..
Her
:Isai
dNO!
!shewal
kedout

It
'sEv eni
ngnowmymot herbr oughtmykidsIwas
playingwit hthem ont hef l
oorandIkeptonchecki ng
thepot sKhi t
hadi dn'
twantt ocooksoIdi dt hat
my selfafterthatIdishedupf orthekidsandf ormy
wifeandZuzut ookthepl atest othei
rbedrooms
PoorZuzuwascr yi
ngbecausehersi stermadei t
clearthatshemustbr eakupwi thPhil
aniandIdon't
thinkKhithaisgoi ngtochangehermi ndany ti
me
soonsoIwi l
lletherbebef oreshewoul dstart
maki ngcrazyassumpt i
ons

GUYSITRI
EDDELI
VERYI
NGBUTICAN'
TFOCUSI
'
VE
GOTABANGINGHEADACHE
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

ZUSI
PHE

It
'sbeenmont hsnowandBhut i Phil
aniandIar enot
togetherbecausesi sKhi thadidn'tapprovei tand
Bhuti Sai
dwemustj ustletitgobecausei tsstarti
ng
toaffectthefami l
yIr eall
ydonotgetherpoi ntI
meansheshoul dletmedat ehim andr egretitlateri
f
i
thappensherf earisf ormegethear tbrokenandI
reall
yunder st
andt hatshei slookingoutf orme
somehowbutt hi
si stoomuchnowwel lit
'sMonday
mor ningIjustbathenunuandInowwear eget t
ing
dressedit'
swi nterthatmeansi t'
scoldaf terIwas
donewewentdownst airsandf oundt hefami lyinthe
dinningroom
Me:
Goodmor
ninggoodpeopl
e..
.isai
dhuggi
ngt
hem
Bhuti
:Goodmorninggoodper
sonandt
omy
pri
ncess.
.hesai
dpicki
ngupnunu
Si
si:
Heyl
ovesar
eyour
eadyf
ory
ourpaper
?Iwas
wr
it
ingmyJuneexams
Me:Wit
hsomuchpr epar
ati
onandpr
acti
ceIdi
dthi
s
pastweekendIt
hinkIam r
eadyt
onai
li
t
Sis:
yassgurl
..
wel aughedandweat ebreakfast
madebyherandnowwehav eahousekeeper
becausesisKhi
thais5mont hspr
egnantandshe's
al
way sl
azyitamazemet hatshemadebr eakfast
earl
yinthemorningafterthatweall
wentonour
Separat
eway s
Aft
ermyexam ImetLi
am att
heparkwechi
l
led
t
hereitwassunnyy
ouknowweall
lovet
heheatof
wi
ntersun
Her
:Youknowfr
iendIhavebeenwonder
ingof
Xol
ani'
swher
eaboutstheysayhewentmissi
ng
Me:Idon'
tcar
eaboutthatbust
ardhecanmisst
il
l
JesusChri
stcomesbacki r
eal
lydon'
tmind
Her:
Aren'
tyouwor
ri
ednobakukanci
nci
?<ev
enal
i
ttl
e
bi
t>
Me:
No.
..
imadeabor
edpuppyf
ace
Her
:ngi
yakuv
umaIagr
eey
ou.
.(
wel
aughed)sowhen
l
astdi
dyouseey
ourdzaddy
Me:
Iwaswi
thhi
m Fr
iday
Her
:What
?!ar
eyouguy
sbackt
oget
her
?
Me:
NoIdon'
tknowwearejusthangi
ngouthecame
t
oourhomewitht
hei
rsquadsoja
Her
:Andy
oursi
ster
?
Me:Bhut
iPassuredhert
hatwewi
llnev
erbei
nlove
agai
nsoIthinkshe'
sokwithmehangi
ngoutwit
h
hi
m
Her
:Nohet
rusthi
m butdoesn'
twanthi
mtodat
eyou
why?
Me:
Becausehe'
sol
dforme
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERSEVENTEEN

Her
:Doy
oubuyt
hatwena?
Me:
Howdoy
oumean?
Her:
Ifeell
iket
her
e'smor
etot
hismay
besheknows
something
Me:Youreckon?butbhut
iIagr
eedunt
ilhi
swi
fe
changedhismind
Her
:Iam j
ustt
ryi
ngtomaket hi
ngssensenj
ebut
t
henagainweallgotourpr
efer
ences
Me:
Notwheni
tcomest
osomeone'
shappi
ness
Her
:I
fther
e'snot
hingy
oucandoj
ustl
etgof
ri
end
Me:Yeah.
..
tr
ut hi
siam l
owkeyst i
l
lmadatmysi ster
f
orwhatshedi dandPhil
aniandIaresti
ll
sleepi
ng
t
ogetherbehindthei
rbacksit
'scl
earthat
'showthey
wantustoliv
e
KHI
THA

Mommyi s5mont hspregnantandit'snotnicethis

oneisfil
ledwit
hsomuchcompl i
cati
onsone
momentIwantmyman' sandt heotherIam fi
ghting
him butserv
eshimr i
ghthe'stheonet r
ickedmebut
thatdoesn'
tmeanIdon' tl
ovethisprett
ysoul i
nside
ofmeIam i nmyof f
iceworkingwhenMrhusband
walkedincarry
ingmuggandbeanspaperbagI
j
umpedandwentt ohughi m Imissedhim
Hi
m:ok.
.hesai
daf
terIhav
ehuggedandki
ssedhi
m
Me:
Imi
ssedmyhusbandhai
bo
Him:Goodt
hingy
oust
il
lremembert
hatIam y
our
husband
Me:
Howdoy
oumeanbaby
?
Him:Babyy ouknowy ouar
eal
wayssnapping;
Harsh
andlashingatanyoneIevenr
egr
eti
mpr egnat
ingyou
real
l
yuy anginy
isastr
ong
Me:
Haabuty
oucan'
tbl
amemei
tsnotl
i
kewheni
t
happensIam alwaysawar enani
..
i saidst
raddl
i
ng
hi
m whenhef eltt
hattherewasnot hingundermy
dresshecursedIthenkissedhim andwemadel ov
e
onmyof f
icedesk
Him:Thatwasgoodal
way
sbeengood.
.hesai
dsi
de
huggingmeandgavemeapeck
Me:
Yeahrightnani
we'
vegotanappoi
ntmentwi
th
t
heDoctortoday
Him:Ohyeahi
t'
saboutt
imeweknowt
hegender
r
ightlov
e?
Me:
Ifs/
hedi
dn'
thi
dei
t
Hi
m:i
sthatpossi
blenanami
?
Me:
Ithappens.
.isai
deat
ingupmyf
ood
Him:
Yoothenwewi
l
lgeti
tbysur
pri
sei
nfacty
eah
howabouti
t?
Me:
Thatwi
l
lbegoodt
oo
Him:
Iwi
ll
comeandpi cky
ouupcal
lzuzut
ocome
andt
akeyourcarhome
Me:
Wil
ldo.
..
weki
ssedbef
orehewal
kedout
[
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Ical
ledZuzut
ocomeandfet
chmycarshesai
dshe
wasonherwaywhil
eagoandshewal
ksinIst
ood
tohugher
Me:
Ist
haty
ournewper
fume?
Her
:Noit
'sLiamsIwasatherapar
tmentswi
mmi
ng
soIhadtotakeashoweratherpl
ace
Me:
That
'swhyyout
ookl
ongokseeIwanty
out
o
t
akemycarhome
Her
:Whyar
eyougoi
ngsomewher
e?
Me:Yesmyhusbandi
scomi
ngt
ofet
chmewegoi
ng
somewher
e
Her:
Oknopr oblem Iwil
ldr
ivest
raighthomedont
worry.
..
shesai dthatwalki
ngoutBandilecame
30minuteslaterthenwewentt othedoctorand
checkedthel i
tt
lesomebodyandhi s/herhear
twas
beati
ngstrongerandt hatal
onebroughttoomuch
pri
deandj oyonBandi l
e
ZUSI
PHE

Mysi stercall
edwhi l
eIwasatPhilani
'spl
acesoIleft
mycal culatorthereImi
ghtneeditandit'
sgett
ing
l
atewhatwi llIsayIbegoi
ngkonjeLiam i
swayt oo
fartheywon' tall
owmet odri
vetoherplacemhhhok
l
etmecal lhimt obri
ngitwewil
lfi
gureitoutwhen
he'shere
Si
si:
Whatareyout
hinki
ngabouty
ouseem t
oodeep
i
nsomething?
Me:
Not
hingatal
lsi
siam j
ustt
ir
ednj
e
Her
:Yeahthatmeansyouspenttoomucht
ime
swi
mmi ngwaterdoesexhaust
Me:
swi
mmi
ng?
..
whatwasshet
alki
ngabout
Her:
Yeahyousaidy
ouwer
ewi
thLi
am swi
mmi
ngat
herpl
acedidnty
ou?
Her:
Ididj
ustthatitamazemet hatswimmi ngcan
drai
naperson..
i wasly
ingIt
otall
yforgotwhatIsaid
toherIwasbusyy awningdr
oppinghintsthatshe
mustleav
emyr oom andgotosleepi wanttosneak
outbecausePhi
l
ani
canbeher
eanyt
imehesai
dhe
won'tent
er
Her
:Sonunudeci
dedtosleepatherroom
t
oday?.
.wheni
ssheleav
ingagain?Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:
Yeah.
.iy
awnedagai
n
Her
:Don'
tyouwantt
owat
chamov
ie?
Me:Nosisam tir
edIj
ustwantt
osleep..
shelooked
sadasshesaidgoodnighty
oothi
spregnancyis
aff
ecti
ngallofushay
ishemustgoandnagher
husband+-40minmyr oomsdooropenedandnow
Phil
anigoti
n
Me:Howthehel
ldi
dyougeti
nhere?heclosedt
he
doorandl
ockedi
thepl
acedthecal
culat
or
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Heplacedt
hecalcul
atoratt
hesi
dedrawerandhe
undr
essedhimsel
fandgotunder
covers
Me:Wowyouar
ewayt
oor
iskymysi
sterwasher
e
j
ustnow
Hi
m:shenear
lycaughtmeIwasal
readyi
nthehouse
Me:
What
?!howdi
dyougeti
n?
Hi
m:Iparkedmycaroutsi
deandIknowt hepi
nsand
ev
eryt
hingthi
sismybestfri
endshouseandenough
wi
ththequesti
onsImissedmyprincess
Me:
Luckyy
out
hatt
her
oom i
ssoundpr
oof
ed
Him:Iwasgoi ngtof i
ndawayt ocoveryourmouth
eveniftheywer en't..
hesai dthatgetti
ngontopof
mehehungr il
ykissedmeashegothi shandsunder
myni ghtdresshet ookof fmyl acethongandhe
wentdownonmeaf terthather epl
acedhistaunge
withhisgiganti
ct hingwemadel ov
echanged
posit
ionsandmanIwasf uckedwesl eptineach
other
sar msbestf eelingev er
Iwaswokenbythenoiseandcr iesIquickl
yopened
myeyesaft
erIremember edthatPhi
laniwashere
andIf
oundthekidspl
ayingwi t
hmyt hingssoNunu
wascry
ingbecauseXoxodi dn'
twanttowearmywi g
soshecancombi t
Me:Okokandnownenzantoni?
<whatar
eyou
doi
ng>t
heyal
ljumpedandstandst
il
l
Xoxo:
Nunuwaspl
ayi
ngwi
thy
ourt
hings
Me:
Andy
oubusezant
oni
?<whatwer
eyoudoi
ng>
Xoxo:Bendibukelemnai nfactndiy
ov asa<Iwas
watching..i
am goi ngt obat he>hel i
terall
yranoutI
knowhedi dsomet hi
ngandt hetwi nsfollowedI
wokeupexhaust edhel lIdragmy selftot he
bathroom andt ookal ongbat hthenImademybedI
foundPhilani'
sboxerandsocksncooIl ookedat
them andsmi l
l
edandsmel l
edtheboxerIknowi t
'
s
naughtyofmet odot hatbutIdi daf t
ert hatIwore
myj ean,
t-shir
t,
blackleat herjacketandsneaker sI
tookmybackpackandcarkey sIwentoutIf ound
thefamilyinthedi nningr oom eatingbr eakfast
Me:
Goodmor
ningf
ami
l
y..
ihuggedt
hem
Bhut
i:
Alway
slat
eforbr
eakf
astandy
oul
ookdr
ained
what
'sup?
Me:Idi
dn'
tgetenoughsl
eepi
wasst
udy
ingt
he
wholeni
ght
Bhut
i:
Medi
cinemustbechal
l
engi
ngne?
Me:
You'
vegotnoi
deaandassi
gnment
sar
eal
ot
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Hi
m:Icani
magineandnowi
t'
sJunesoy
ouhav
eto
gi
vei
tyourbest
Me:
Yeahandguystheki
dsmessedupmywi
gand
make-
upiwoul
dliket
ohavenewones
Him:
What
'swi
tht
heseki
dsmessi
ngwi
thy
ourt
hings
kant
i?
Me:Idon'
tknowwhati
knowi
sthatIneedmywi
g
f
ixedbyFriday
Him:
Iwi
llgi
vemywi
femycar
dsoshecanhel
pyou
buyt
hem
Me:ThankyousomuchBhut i
..
weconti
nuedchit-
chatt
ingsi
siwassil
entt
hroughoutshewouldsmile
andgiggl
ehereandther
eafterwehavefi
nished
eati
ngMaPattycametotakethedi
shes
Si
si:
Cany
oupleasedr
opLubenat
hiatday
car
e
pl
easeZuzu?
Me:Nopr obl
em si
si.
.it
ookhim andplacedhi
m att
he
backseatanddrovetoschoolsotodayIwasn'
t
wri
ti
ngwehadtoatt
endacl
assaftert
hatImetLi
am
att
heschool
caf
eter
iawehugged
Her
:Whyar
eyoudr
aggi
ngy
ourf
eet
s?
Me:
Iwasi
nital
lni
ght
Her
:What
?!soy
ousneakedout
?
Me:
Nohesneakedi
n..
shel
aughedhy
ster
ical
l
y
Her
:Youguysar
esaucyr
eal
l
yImeanhef
uckedy
ou
i
nyoursi
ster
shouse
Me:i
t'
snotevent
hefir
stt
imeweoncedi
dint
he
bal
conythati
sneart
hepool
Her
:Isowi
shy
oursi
stercangety
oui
nact
iony
azi
Me:
andbyt
henIam ont
opofhi
mri
dinghi
m
Her
:Nodeept
hroat
ingmzal
a<cousi
n>
Me:
Shi
tIwoul
dbedeadmeaty
oo.
..
wel
aughed
Her
:Wi
l
lshebeangr
y
Me:Nowthatshe'
spr
egnantwear eal
lpay
ingf
ori
t
br
osoy eahshewoul
dli
teral
lycutmeoffmy
al
l
owancesandIam notreadyyouknow
Her
:Buty
ourdaddywi
l
ltakecar
eofy
ou
me:wit
houtadoubtandohfr
iendIl
i
edandsaidy
ou
i
nvi
tedmeaty ourhomeinKZNbroIam goi
ngona
weekendawaytoZimbal
i
Her:
Areyouser
ious?
andyouaretel
li
ngmenow?
and
besi
desIli
vei
nEasternCapenotKZN
Me:
6no9samethi
ngandift
heymaket
hei
rown
r
esear
chi
t'
snotmypr
obl
em
Her:Youareol
dhuh?..
welaughedaft
erwehav eat
e
ourlunchwedecidedtodr
ivetothemallanddo
windowshoppingatChannel
,di
orandL.
Vst or
esso
mysi st
ercar
ri
esaR80kbagmnksomuchmoneyi t
canbuildahouse
SEASONTWO

CHAPTEREI
GHTEEN

Afterhavinglunchwi t
hLi am Idrovehomei twasstil
l
earlyIthoughtIwasgoi ngt ofi
ndMamPat t
yall
al
onebutwhenIpar kedmycarIsawmysi ster
scar
she'sbackalreadyaar gletmegoandf aceherIpr
ay
she'singoodspi r
itsIwal kedinsidethehouseand
shewasbusyeat ingsamp, scr
ambl edeggsand
atcharshehat esatcharwhyt oday
Her:
Ungakheul
i
ngeundi
j
ongekanj
alomna<don'
t
youdar
elookatmeli
kethat
>wegi
ggled
Me:Don'
tworr
ysisIwil
lnotsayany
thi
ng.
.bhut
i
appear
edfr
om theki
tchen
Me:
Soy
ouguy
sbasi
cal
l
ytookadayof
ftoday
Bhut
i:Somethi
ngli
kethatbecausemommyher e
wantedtoeatthi
sfunnymeal she'
shav
ingnowand
aar
gt hi
satcharst
inksori
sitme?
Me:
ummm.
.Isawsi
sKhi
tha'
sfacechangi
ngIdi
dn'
t
wantt
oaddt
oany
thi
ng
Her:Nosayitguyssayitbuttel
ly ouwhatIlovewhat
iam eatingnowsogot ohell
...
shef i
nishedherpl
ate
andt ookablackcatpeanutbutterandat ei
tyooo
thatwasmyqueue

KHI
THA

Iwasnowcur ledupi nmybedr oom al onemy

husbandwaswor kingathi soffi
ceIt ookhisphone
andl oggedt ohi sInstagram IsawPhi l
ani'
sposti t
wasasel fi
eofhi m andZuzushewaswear inghist-
shirtandsockst henPhi laniwasst andingbehindher
thencomesa2mi nvi
deoofhert wer ki
ngtohi m and
theybot hhadsweetcapt ionsandt heywer epost ed
2day sagosot hatmeanst hei
rrelat i
onshipisstil
l
goingwi thoutmeknowi ngev enmyhusbanddoesn' t
l
etmeknowmay beIshoul dletthingsbeIwon' task
anybodyany thingIam j ustnotreadyf orZuzut obe
exposedt othel i
fewel iveIdon'twanthert obea
gangst ernorbemar r
iedt oonet hesepeopl ecan
l
ov ebuttheirl
ovecomeswithalotofemotiondrai
n
Idon'tdowishherthatIwanthert
ogetasimpl e
mansi mplemeanssomeonewhol i
vesaclean
l
ife,
educatedlovi
ngandcari
ngIknowPhilaniist
hat
buthe'sagangstersothatwhatmakesme
disapprove
Voi
ce:
Yourmi
ndi
sfaraway
?..
itur
nedandi
twasmy
man
Me:
Iam j
ustt
hinki
ngofmyhusband
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Hi
m:Wehavebeentogetherf
or7y
ear
sIknowy
ou
MaBi
yel
asooutwit
hi t
Me:OkBiyel
aIam justt
hinki
ngofthispregnancyt
o
behonestIdon'
tknowhowt of eel
aboutitIam
barel
y30butIhaveawhol erubysquad..
ili
ebutit
wasn'tal
iel
ieIal
way swantedtoletHim know
abouthowIfeel
Him:Ageisjustanumbermyl ovewheny ouwantto
dothingsandachi ev
et henwit
hnopr essureputage
asi
deandf ocusonwhaty ouwanttodoandbesi des
Ioncetoldyout hatiwant8kidssolet'
smake
babi
esnowt hatwear esti
ll
youngandf resh
Me:
Babydoy
oui
magi
nel
abourwar
d?
Him:Ihavebeenther
ewhenyougavebi
rt
hto
LubenathisoIdoknowl
abourward
Me:Iam t al
ki
ngaboutpainpushingthesebi
gheaded
kidsofy our
sisnotni
cet heyalwaystearmy
vagina.
.helaughedhyst
erical
l
yhisbackwasinbed
andl
egsf
lyi
ngdi
disaysomet
hingf
unny
?
Hi
m:Babypleasestopbei
ngadramarqueenpl
ease
webothknowt hati
tgoesbackt
onormalnj
e
Me:
Factr
emai
nst
hatt
hebr
eakmyVi
j
ay
Him:
Butitdoesn'
tchangewhenIhav
eiti
t'
sst
il
lti
ght
andhot
Me:
Tryconv
inci
ngme
Hi
m:DoIconv
incey
ou?
doy
ouwantt
obef
ucked
MaBi
yel
a?
Me:
Nonani
Iwassay
in.
..
.hel
aughed
Him:Youar
eafrai
dofitbutl
oveiti
nthesameti
me
Eishwomen..
hesaidshaki
nghisheadashekepton
talki
ngt
ohisunbornmemberofBiyel
achampions

PHI
LANI

Iwasatthehospi
tal
donewi
thmyr oundsallwas
l
eftwasformetogohomenotscratchthathouse
i
t'
snolongerahomeIknowIchangeditbut
someti
mesIwi shthingswer edif
ferentgoingback
homewi t
hnobodywai t
ingforyou,
nobodygi vi
ngy ou
hugs,
undressi
ngyouandhel pi
ngy ourel
axwi t
ha
massageandaskingy ouabouty ourdayi shur t
ing
whenyouwer eusedt oitsoit'
sreall
ynotni ceseeI
l
oveZusiandIseeaf utur
ewi t
hherbutt herear e
ti
mesthatmakesmemi ssmywi feandmymot her
cal
ledandtoldmet hatmyel destsonissicki t
's
been3day snowsoIhav etocancel t
heweekend
awaywithmysunshi neIjustpraysheunder st
and
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Iknockedoffanddrov
etomyhouseandwhenIgot
ther
eItookashowerandworemypantsandsocksI
thencall
edZusishepi
ckedi
tonafi
rstr
ing
Me:
Youwerethi
nki
ngaboutmewer
en'ty
ou?
Iasked
smi
l
li
ngtal
ki
ngtoherj
ustbri
ngmejoy
Her
:That
'sr
ightdaddy
Me:
Iwantt
oseey
ousunshi
neandt
odaypl
ease
Her:
Areyoucomi ngt
omynei
ghborgoodory
ouar
e
sneaki
ngin?
Ilaughed
Me:Didyoureal
l
yhavetosayt
hat?
wellIt
hinkof
sneaki
nginbutyouar
ewithnunuther
esoy ouwi
ll
havetosneakout
Her:
Iwasgoi
ngt
otakehert
oherr
oom butìwi
l
l
comeout
Me:OkIam comingbaby..
idi
sconnectedthecal
land
woremyhoodiethenItookmycarkey sanddrove
outwhenIwasinherneighbor
hoodIcal l
edhershe
cameoutlooki
nghotinhersil
kynightdresswesat
onthebackseatandki
ssedandhadar
oughqui
cki
e
nowwewer ecatchi
ngourbr
eath
Me:
Youar
ebecomi
ngat
iger
esski
d
Her
:Yout
aughtmet
iger
..
wegi
ggl
ed
Me:
BabyIhav
esomet
hingt
otel
lyou
Her:
Ohandpl
easedon'
ttel
lmey
ouar
ecancel
i
ng
ourt
rip
Me:
Iam af
rai
dbutIhav
eto
Her:
What?!babywhyIwasl
ooki
ngf
orwar
dtot
his
weekendawaythough
Me:BabyIgotacal
lfr
om mymom shesai
dmyson
hascoldfev
erandi
t'
sbeenday
snow
Her
:Soy
ouhav
etogot
oKZN?
Me:Unf or
tunatel
yy esIhav etoIknowMysonwi ll
taket i
met orecoverhei susedtobenursedbyhis
mot herandy ouknowwhatt heysay"youareheal
ed
bywhaty oubel i
evewill"soIhavetobet her
e
maki ngsureheseet hingsdiffer
entnowandIam
sorry
Her
:Andwhenar
eyouf
lyi
ngt
oKZN?
Me:
Iwi
l
lbedr
ivi
ngt
her
etomor
row
Her
:Andy
ouar
etel
l
ingmenow?
Me:BabyIhav ebeenworriedandIdi
dn'tseea
reasontotell
y ouabouti
tbecauseeveryti
meIbr
ing
myki dstotheconversat
ionitget
scoldsowhydi
di
havet obor
ey ou?
Her
:Soar
eyout
ryi
ngt
osayIam badatt
hem?
Me:Noyouarenotbutyouwi
llhavetoknowthat
thoseki
dsaremineandIam t
heironl
yparentsoI
havetoupandleav
ewhenevertheyneedme
Her
:ok
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

KHI
THA

ItwasweekendIwasatmyhousechil
li
ngNdi l
e
wentoutwit
hhisfri
endsandt
hekidsar
eatt hei
r
grannyandZuzuhasbeenonherr
oom since
WednesdaysoIdecidedt
ogoandcheckuponherI
knockedatt
hedoor
Her
:Comein.
.iwal
kedi
nshewasbusywi
thwhat
ever
onherl
apt
op
Me:Youhavebeenbur
ri
edt
oschool
wor
kZuzuy
ou
needtorel
ax
Her
:ButIhav
eassi
gnment
stowr
it
esi
si
Me:Iknowy ouarehavingissueswit
hPhi l
ani.
.(
her
eyesshoot)yesIknowy ouguysarebackt oget
her
andIdecidedtogivethatacoldshoulderiam sti
l
l
notapprovi
ngbutIwillletyouhavei
ty ourway
Her
:Ummhoh.
.
Me:Tel
lmewhat'
sbother
ingy
out
hen.
.isai
dget
ti
ng
comfor
tabl
einherbed
Her:
Hecancel
edourweekendvacat
ionbecausehi
s
sonhasf
lutel
lmewhocancelesabaecati
ont o
nur
seonesfever
..
igi
ggl
ed
Me:ZuzuPhil
anii
saparentyoumustalways
rememberthathi
slat
ewife,
hisfami
lyandki
dsar
e
alwayst
ocomef i
rstl
earntoli
vewit
hthat
Her
:But
..
Me: ButWhat ?!nothi
ngsisthiswasanot herr
easonI
didn'twanty outodatehim Phil
anii
swayt ooold
andmat uredforyousot ohim hewil
ljustsaythings
andexpecty outounderstandthem perksofdating
oldermanwhowasmar ri
edwi t
hkidsplusPhi l
ani
wasr ai
sedbyasi ngleparenthi
smot herishiswor l
d
thenhi slatewifeandthentherecomesy ounumber
3
Her:
IguessIwasn'
treadyf
oral
loft
hisi
didn'
tvi
ewi
t
t
hisway
Me:
Youthoughti
twasal
lgoi
ngt
obehoneyand
r
oseshoneyyouarei
nacommit
edr
elat
ionshi
pnow
noti
meformindgameswhat
every
oudoy
ouhav
e
tor
epor
titt
ohim
Her
:Morel
i
keaski
nghi
mifi
t'
sokgoi
ngoutwi
thmy
f
ri
ends?
Me:ubambeyona<y ougotitri
ght>andifhesaysno
youain'
tgoi
ngany wher
eandt obehonestwi t
hy ouI
don'
twanttobecaughtupi nbetweenyour
rel
ati
onshi
paff
airssisbecausewhateverIsayitwil
l
beli
keIam hat
ingwhaty ouhav esowelcomet o
adult
hoodsweetsIlear
nedi tt
hehardwayt ooI
meanMyhusbandandIl ovedeachotherbutgetti
ng
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Me:Butget ti
ngtoknowt hereal personisanother
sport
,Ihadt ostopgoi
ngi nt
ocl ubsandhewoul d
al
way sdi sappr
ovetheotherfriendsIchooseand
somet i
mesy ouhavetonursehi m becausehe'sy our
manandwenay ouhavet oplayni cebecausey ou
areast epmommynowl earntobeki ndtohiskids
andbeni cet ohermom Pear lusedt osayman
doesn'ttakeshitwhenitcomest ohismot her
Her:
WhoooawIdon'
tknowt
hisi
sIdon'
tknowbut
i
t'
stoomuchwaytoomuchforme
Me:
Doy
oul
ovehi
m ory
oul
ovehowhet
reat
syou?
Her
:Ir
eal
l
ylov
ehi
m si
s
Me:Lovealway sfi
ndawayi nthatwaydonotl oose
yoursel
fandendupset t
li
ngf orshitl
ear
nt ostandup
foryourownsel fbutr
especty ourmanmnt aseyou
arel
uckybecauseIam her eforyouimaginewhatI
hadt ogothroughmnai twasast r
ainbutIdecided
todowhati srightbymeev ent houghpeoplewould
sayIam pleasinghim becauseIwanthismoneybut
weallgotwayst
oloveandbeloved.
..
isawt
he
di
scomforti
nherbutIcheer
edherupweendedup
cooki
ngwhenNdilegotin
Him:
Ladi
es.
.hewast
ipsyhewasev
enchewi
nga
gum
Me:
Man.
..
iwentt
ohughi
m weki
ssed
Me:Aaaar
gareyousti
llsmoki
ngweednani?
Ilooked
i
nhiseyesandtheywereredhej
ustl
aughedtookan
Appleandwentupst
air
s
Zuzu:
Hawusi
siheal
way
ssmokemoss
Me:Cigarsorcigar
ett
esnotweedIthoughthe
st
oppedusi ngitanywaytheki
dsaresl
eepingat
Centuri
onsoy ouwillsor
tyour
sel
fup
Her
:yougoi
ngt
oyourhusband?
Me:
Ofcour
se.
.shegav
emebor
edl
ook
Her
:Ourmov
ieni
ght
?
Me:cancell
edmabhabhacan'twat
chmov ieIgot
somet hi
ngtoride.
.wel
aughedasIwalkupstai
rs
withat r
aythathadNdi
lesfoodwhenIgotinhewas
resti
ngontheouchnexttoourbedwearingonlyhi
s
boxer
Hi
m:Youbr
oughtmef
ood?
Me:Noi
t'
swat
er.
.isai
dpl
aci
ngt
het
raydownnex
tto
hi
m
Hi
m:ThatmeansIwi
l
lhav
emycaket
hendr
inkwat
er
af
ter
wards
Me:
Iam l
yi
ngbabyi
t'
sfoody
oo.
.hechuckl
ed
Him:Comeandfeedmet
hen.
.iqui
ckl
ydi
dsohe
knowsIlov
eit
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERNI
NETEEN

PHI
LANI

It
sbeen4day sathomehonest lyitsnicebeinghere
andi tstoomuchr el
axi
ngwel lmysoni ssol
wly
recov er
inghe's12hi snamei ssiphoandourl ast
borni s3yearshernameLi sat heyliveher ewit
hmy
mom andmyt woothersiblingst heygot oschool
mymot herisnotwor kingi takecar eofherandmy
sibl
ingsi t
oldhert oquitshewaswor ki ngasa
domest icwor keroktomyl ov eli
fethingsbetween
Zusi andi aretensebutnott hatmuchbecausewe
alway scommuni cat
esomehowandv ideocallimiss
herhonest lymyt houghtswer edistur
bedbymy
mot herwhohadacupoft eai nherhand
Her:
Yourmi
ndi
sfarawaysont
aker
ooi
bosand
dr
ink
Me:
Thanky
oumama.
.shesatdownnextt
ome
Her
:Sot
ell
mesonwhoar
eyout
hinki
ngabouthuh?
Me:
Nobody
Her
:Isawaglimpseofy
oursmi
l
esopl
easeoutwi
th
i
twho'sshe?
Me:
Mamapl
easey
oo.
.wegi
ggl
ed
Her:Wheny ouleftladtt
imeitol
dyout
oli
veyourl
if
e
totheful
lestPear l
must '
vel
eftwit
hapi
eceofyou
butyoustil
l hav
eal i
fet
oo
Me:
Iunder
standmom andi
hav
efoundagi
rl
Her
:Agi
rl
?.
.sheaskedl
ooki
ngmeov
erhergl
asses
Me:
Yesma
Her:
Ohthatmeansi
mustfi
xmyki
l
lerdr
esswe
aboutt
ohaveawedding
Me:Butmai
tsear
lyi
meanshe'
s20y
ear
sand
st
udying
Her:
What?
!youcantbeseri
ousa20y earoldgi
rl
Phi
lani
youarenotget
ti
nganyyoungerfindanold
andmatur
edwomant otakecar
eofyourneedsnot
onl
yinbedbutingener
alsomeonewho'
sgoi
ngt
o
l
ookaft
eryourbabi
es
Me:Idoheary
oumamabuti
tst
hemat
ter
soft
he
hearti
lov
eher
Her:
LovealoneisnotenoughsonLov ecantbui
lda
warm homeahomei sbui
ltbyamat ur
edwoman
Phil
aniiam waytoooldtolookaf
teryourkidsy
ou
know?sheaskedsmill
ing
Me:
Huhbuty
ouar
est
il
lfr
eshnj
emama
Her;
NottobechasingLisaever
ydayt
hinkabout
whatihavesai
dnopr essur
ebutiwouldli
ketosee
youhappi
lyi
nloveandmar r
ied
Me:
Okmom andi
thanky
ouf
ort
hat
Her:
Yesy
ouhav
eyocomet
ochur
chandchoosea
wif
eson
Me:
Haama!
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Her
:iam ser
ioussonunl
essy
oudoseeawi
fei
nher
Me:
Yesi
doyouknowni
hav
enev
erbeenaj
ustdat
e
f
orf
unki
ndofaguy
Her:
Yeahr
ighti
dontneedanydi
srepect
ful
spoi
l
t
br
atinmyhouseyouhearmePhil
ani?
Me:Yesmadam nodi
srepectf
ulspoi
l
tbr
ats.
.we
l
aughedandconti
nuet
alking

KHI
THA

It
sMondayaf t
erwor kmybumpi sshowingy eah
MakesNdi lemor econfidenthewoul dbebrushi ng
myt ummyany timehef i
ll
slikebr ushi
ngitandt hose
surpri
sekissesatthemal l
i knowhe' sajealoust y
pe
butthisi
st oomuchi am cur l
edupi nmybedr oom
wrappedinat owel andscrol l
ingdownmyi nstai
sawMi ll
anspicsgirlfoundher sel
fanoldwhi te
grandPapashemustbeaf terhi smoneybecause
l
adiesnowadayssel
lthei
rsoulstogetwhat
evert
hey
wantfear
lesshuhBandil
ewalkesinhummingheis
i
naj ol
lymood
Hi
m:Whoooawaitar
ey ouwai
ti
ngforme
MaBi
yel
a?heaskedwit
haseducingsmi
rk
Me:
YesNtshangase..
isai
dunwr
appi
ngmyt
owel
he
wasundr
essi
ngalready
Hi
m:iam goingtogivei
tal
ltoyoubabyniceand
sl
owohh...
hesaidsingi
ngandcomplet
elytaki
ngoff
hi
str
ousersaftert
hatthel
it
tl
ebutt
erdecidedtoki
ck
Me:
Ouch.
.isai
dgi
ggl
i
ngandhol
dingmyt
ummy
Him:hasbut
terst
art
edkicki
ng?heaskedscrawl
i
ng
tomehecallsourunbor
nchildBut
terbecausei
alwayscr
avepeanutbut
ter
Me:it
hinkso..
itookhi
shandst
omyt ummyand
But
terstar
tedkicki
ngagai
nNdil
ecal
l
edouthi
s
cl
ansandpr ai
sed
Him:
Ngiyabongangesi
phosanaphakade
MaBiyel
a<thanky
ouforali
fet
imegift
>hegav
emea
peck
Him:Iy
akuthandaindodauy
ezwa<Mnl ovesy
ou
ok>aargyoushould'v
eseenmeblushingZul
umen
areforkeepshisDeepcharmi
ngZuluaccentmakes
meweaki pul
ledhismanhoodandpraisedi
t
Me: Thanky ouformakingmehappyNt shangase
event houghsomet i
mesi feel
li
key ouar
er eaping
meapar tbutyouarenotonlyforpl
easurebutf or
maki ngthebigheadedBi y
elakids.
.hewasal l
smiles
afterthatiputiti
nmymout handdidthethingsafter
thatwemadel oveslowly
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

ZUSI
PHE

Iwokeupingoodspi
ritstodayibat
hetheki
dsandI
dressedt
hem t
hei
runifor
m andwentdownstair
s
andmadecerealf
orthem whileiwasoninSi
s
khit
hacameweari
ngagown
Sis:
Goodmorni
ngki
ds!!
sheshoutedasifshewason
assemblyl
olt
heki
dsrantoherformorningki
sses
shethencametome
Sisi:
Yessunshi
ne.
..
shesai
dspanki
ngmyassaar
g
thisonecanbecrazywhenshewantst
oowe
giggled
Me:Surenanami.
.isai
dsi
dehuggi
ngherand
squeezedherbut
t
Si
s:Youar
eki
nkywena
Me:
Notmor
ethany
out
hough.
.wel
aughed
Si
s:Thanky
ouf
orget
ti
ngt
heki
dsr
eadycakes
Me:
It
soksi
sii
wokeupi
naj
oll
ymoodt
oday
Si
s:Phil
ani
comi
ngbackhuh?
sheaskedwi
thasi
l
ly
smirk
Me:I
tdoesn'
thav
eanyt
hingt
odowi
thhi
m buty
es
he'
scominghometoni
ght
Sis:
owkgi rlmakesur
ey oudontspendthenightat
hisplacethenNdilei
ssoobsessedwithbeing
respectedidontwantconfl
i
ctinthi
shousenotwhi l
e
am stil
lpregnant
Me:Goti
t..
shemadebr eakf
astforhermanaswe
werebusytalki
ngabouthoingt
ot hesal
onthi
s
weekendafterweweredoneeat i
ngBabKhumalo
f
etchedthekidsanditookLubenathiwi
thmesince
t
heparentstookadayof f
Aft
ercl
assesiwenttohavel
unchwit
hLi
am at
RocoMamasaswewer ebusyeati
ngamuscular
guycametoapproachus
Hi
m:Beaut
if
ull
adi
es
Us:
Hi.
.wesai
dtwi
cebutt
hatsoundedbi
tchyt
hough
l
ol
Hi
m:Cani
joi
nyouguy
s?
Me:Wear
edoney
oucanuset
het
abl
eifi
tspacked
her
e
Him:Noyourbeaut
ydr
ewmeheresopl
easemy
beauti
ful
queenscani
seatwi
thy
'al
l
s?
Li
am:
Onl
yify
ouar
egoi
ngt
opayt
hebi
l
lwear
efi
ne
Him:Noprobl
em..welookedateachotherand
order
dforsomemor eaf t
erthatweatetheguywas
soniceandfunnybutlunchwasov eridr
oveto
Phil
ani
'spl
acewheni gottherehewasbur r
iedi
n
workiwenttohughim
Me:
Mywor
kahol
i
cdaddy
..
hesmi
l
led
Hi
m:Heyki
dimi
ssedyou.
.hesai
dput
ti
ngmeonhi
s
l
apiwasnowst
raddl
edathi
m
Me:i
missedy
out
oodaddysot
ell
mehowwas
home?
Hi
m:i
twasni
ce
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Hi
m: I
twasnicebutimissedmysunshi
neandthe
pr
incess.
.hesai
dsli
dinghishandi
nmypants
Me:Wemi ssedyoutoosohowi syourSipho?he
smil
ledit
hinkheli
keshowi call
edhim byhisname
notj
ustsaying"
son"ihavet
ol ovethem andshow
car
ei nor
dertosavewhatsminesisKhitha'
sadv i
ce
Hi
m:Si
phoi
sfi
nemyl
ove
Me:Andhowsthetalkat
ivel
i
ttl
eLisa?
helaughedand
si
l
encetookoffabithewassmi l
l
ingeartoearthi
s
manloveshi
skids
Him:Sheskippedschool Yesterdaybecauseshewas
keepingherey esonmeshedi dntwantmet oleav
e
butihadtobuyheral ol
l
ipopanddr iveherto
daycareearl
iertodayandi j
ustv i
deocall
edthem
honestl
yimi ssedthem
Me:Aar
gicani
magi
nebuty
oual
way
swi
tht
hem
ev
erymonthnj
e
Hi
m:Iusedt
obewi
tht
hem ev
ery
daysoi
hav
en'
t
adj
ustedf
rom t
henewli
festy
lebutanywayhow
aboutwemakelov
e?hesaidundressi
ngme
Me:Thatiswhyi am here..hegavemeashocker
Looki l
aughedthenweki ssedandt heclothes
star
tedflyi
ngaroundaf terthathetookmyl egsand
pl
acedt hem athi
sshoul der sandclosetomi nest hi
s
posit
ionissopainfulwithagi ft
edmanl ikehi m buti
gott
agi vei
ttohim afterthathesl i
dinmyal r
eady
wetheav enhepushedi tgent l
yslowlysowhenhe
wasal l
inhestartedthrustingindeeperstrokes

KHI
THA

Mrhusbandandi tookadayof
fitwashi
s
suggesti
onbecausehehadfev
ersoihavet
opl
ay
doctor
Me:
Sohow'
smypat
ient
?
Hi
m:Notsogoodmyheadhur
tsandmyt
emper
atur
e
i
shigh
Me:
Aar
gbabyi
hav
ebeent
ryi
ngt
ohel
pyout
houghi
r
anouti
fpl
ans
Him:Whatki
ndofadoct
orar
eyouMaBi
yel
adoct
ors
nevercompl
ain
Me:Iam t
hekindi
fadoct
ory
ouev
enf
uckgetoutof
her
eam sleepi
ng
Hi
m:Real
l
yokcani
hav
eteat
henwi
thl
emons
Me:
Thatwi
l
lbegoodne?
Him:somuchofbeingadoct ornakhenambona
uDoctorwhotakerecomendationfr
om pat
ient
s
whatawow. .
.il
ookedathim andhesmill
edncncnci
walkedoutandwentt omaketeaandlemonsi came
backandhewasont hephone
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTWENTY

Me:Whowascall
ingmynani
?iaskedplaci
ngt
hetr
ay
downadrawernextt
oourbedheletoutahugesi
gh
Hi
m:Ihaveapr
oblem.
.hesai
dcoughi
ngar
gthi
scol
d
f
lumessesupwit
hmyman
Me:
Whatki
nd?
Hi
m: Mydr
ugoperat
ionsourRussi
anenemyescaped
pr
isonl
astweeksoBertei
ssaysheispl
anni
ngtofly
i
n
Me:
Sohowdoest
hathav
etodowi
thy
ou?
Hi
m: Whi
chpar
tof"
He'smyenemy"di
dntyouget
Nomkhit
ha?
!hewashal
fshout
ingoki
will
lett
hat
sl
ide
Me:
Whatar
ewegoi
ngt
odonow?
Hi
m:IdontknowMaBi
yel
a
Me:
Youbett
erknowBaBiy
elabecausewegotalot
t
oloosei
can'tbur
rymyownkidsandiam notr
eady
t
obeawidow
Hi
m:Nobodyi
sdy
ingher
eokj
ustr
elax
Me:
Mhhhsoi
hav
etot
rustt
hat
?
Hi
m:Youhav
enochoi
cecani
hav
emyt
ea?
Me:Sur
e..
ipassedthetr
aytohim per
ksofbei
nga
gangst
erswifeyouli
vealuxur
ylavi
shli
fe,
bef
il
thy
ri
chandworryaboutyourli
fei
nthesametime
Him:PassmemyphoneNomkhi
tha.
.it
ooki
tand
gaveittohi
m hecal
l
edZai
n
Hi
m:Zainihavesomethi
ngseri
ousiwil
lsendyoual
l
t
hedetail
sviae-mai
liwanty
outokeepaney eto
t
hatpersonletmeknowhismovesareweclear
Zai
n:.
.
Hi
m:Good.
.hemadeanot
herphonecal
l
?
?..
.
Hi
m:Bafowehaveapr obl
em Loui
sisoutofjai
land
i
tissai
dthathe'
str
yingtomakehiswaythissi
dewe
mustbeal
ert
?
?:.
..
Hi
m:Sur
e..
.hedi
sconnect
edt
hecal
l
Me:
Whowast
hat
?
Hi
m:Phi
lani
canihaveanothercupofteamixedwi
th
Whi
skeythi
sti
mei wantsomethingst
rong
Me:
Iam t
ir
edofgoi
ngupanddownnani
hay
iyoo
Him:YouarealwayscomplainingMaBiyela..
hesaid
sl
appingmyassi fli
nchedinpainashej oggedout
wheeewi havetomakeapl anandhel pBandi l
ei
knowhedoesntwantmei nvoledbutihav etoknow
whatshappeningiwill
hir
emyownI .Tguyandhav e
aplantooitsnotl
i
kei donttrusthi
m buti can'
tlet
him dothi
salonethedooropensandhegoti n
Hi
m:i
madey
ouhotchocol
ate
Me:
Owt
hanky
oubaby
Hi
m:Yeahi
thi
nki
wil
lhav
etohi
remor
ebodyguar
ds
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Me:
Yeahi
thoughtaboutt
hatt
oo
Hi
m:Al
ltheki
dsar
egoi
ngt
oKZNt
hishol
i
day
Me:
Yeahy
our
ightnani
Hi
m:Nawef
uthi
<andy
ou>
Me:What?
!Mnai my
sel
fnof
reaki
ngway
siam not
goi
ngtherenev
er
Him:Iwasn'taskingyoui wastel
l
ingyouMaBi
yel
a
next
weeky ouandt heki
dsaregoingt
oLivewi
th
auntLizzyunti
lthedustsett
les
Me:Whyshoul
digot
her
e?orwhydoy
ouwantmet
o
go?
Hi
m: Youguy
sarenotsaf
eyouar
epr
egnantf
or
cr
yingoutl
oud
Me:
Iknowbuti
am notl
eav
ingy
oubehi
nd
Him:Nomkhi
thai
wontev
ent
ryt
orepeatwhati
hav
e
sai
dok?
Me:Oksal
ayoandi
yindawo<whatr
emai
nsi
sthati
am notgoi
nganywhere>
Hi
m:Wewi
l
lsee
Me:
Arey
ougoi
ngt
ofor
cemeBandi
l
e?
Him:Ifyoudon'tseet heimpotenceofyourli
fei wil
l
havet oshowi ttoy ouandy ouarenotalonest op
beingselfi
shNomkhi that
here'
saninnocentchi l
din
yousopl ease..
.silencet ookoverBandil
ebetterbe
j
okingi am notgoi ngany wherether
ewillbeguar ds
andi wil
lwor kfrom homei wil
lhavetoconvincehim
i
nal lwaysi cant hedoorf l
ysopenthekidscome
runni
ngt oourbedr oom
Xoxo:Goodaft
ernoonparents..
saysmyeducated
cheeseboywhowoul d'v
et houghtfr
om thedusty
vi
ll
ageofUmt at
at ot
hebi gcityandleav
inglar
gebut
Godwor ksi
nmy ster
iousway s
Me: Heybabyboy ..
ihuggedandki ssedhi
m ashe
passedt ohisfatherandi huggedthetwinsSiya'
s
temper at
urewashi ghi passedhimt ohi
sfatherasi
helpedLubenat hicl
imbsbedhehasbeenst ruggli
ng
ifi
nallypull
him ont op
Ndi
l
e:Heyki
dshowwasschool
?whatdi
dyou
l
ear
n?..
hai
keNunuandxoxost
art
edwit
hthei
rdai
l
y
t
het
ha
Ndi
l
e:Andy
ouSiya?..
honest
lyi
justhat
ehowqui
et
hei
shedoesntspeakmuch
Si
ya:
Kubuhl
ungul
a<i
tspai
nful
her
e>.
.hesai
d
poi
nti
nghi
shead
Ndi
le:
Real
ly?
!(hepl
acedhi
shandonhi
s
f
orehead)
hesreal
lyhot
Xoxo:
ohhisteachersai
dimustr
epor
thi
m he
(ewww)he.
..
Me:Khothethecheeseboyy
hini<speakup>.
.i
excl
aimaitedhewasbeingdramaticnow
Xoxo:
Hepukei
ncl
ass
Me:
What
?!boyy
ini
udl
eni
?
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Ndi
l
e:Xoxogoandt
akedaddy
'scarkey
stheonesi
n
t
hedrawer
Xoxo:
Thenav
ybl
ueone'
sdaddy
?
Ndil
e:Yeshurr
yupson.
.hesaidgoi
ngtothecloset
hecamebackwear i
ngatracksui
tandsneakershe
waslookingyummybutthi
sisnottheti
mef orthat
xoxocamer unni
ngwit
hthekeys
Me:
Andmyhandbagpl
ease
Ndil
e:Noyoucanst
aybehi
ndMaBi
yel
aandl
ook
af
tertheseones
Xoxo:
Ndihambanawemnat
ata?
<am i
goi
ngwot
h
youdaddy>
Ndi
le:Yaal
etsgotheyal
lj
oggedoutasNdi
l
ewas
hol
dingSiy
ainhisarmsifol
l
owedthem
Zuzu:
Isev
ery
thi
ngoksi
si?
Me:
NoSi
yai
ssi
ckt
heyar
etaki
nghi
mtot
hedoct
or
Zuzu;
Ihav
eseenhi
mtoosi
ncemor
ninghewasnot
ok
Me:Andihi
smot herdidntnoti
cebuthecanbore
mesomet i
meshehar dlyrepor
tswhatisbot
heri
ng
hi
mi can'
tbecheckinguponhi m ev
eryminut
e
Zuzu:
Seemsl
i
keweal
lhav
etoi
fit
sgoi
ngt
ocosthi
s
l
if
e
Me:
Yeahr
ight
..
wewentt
osi
tont
hecouch
Zuzu:
Iwasmaki
ngadesser
twantsome?
Me:Sur
eandohyouguy
sar
egoi
ngt
oKZNf
ory
our
school
hol
iday
Zuzu:
Reall
ysis?i
couldn'
treadherf
aci
alexpr
essi
ons
butiunder
standthat
snotherfamil
y
Me:Yesdaddy'
sorder
sandbesi
desy
ouareal
lgoi
ng
t
oAuntLizzyhousebutiwi
l
lcomeandv
isi
tever
y
weekendiguess
Zuzu:
Thatsbett
eri
thoughtwearegoi
ngt
othemai
n
homey ooican'
twi
thauntcebo
Me:
Adev
ilt
hatone.
..
wel
aughed
Zuzu:
Ther
e'saguyi
metatt
hemal
ldur
ingl
unchhe
askedf
ormynumbersandnowhecantst
opcal
l
ing
meandtext
ingi
sntear
lyt
oaskf
oradate
Me:Youaregoingaroundgi
vi
ng"guys"y
ournumber
ri
skythatt
hingzuzuandidontt
hinkPhi
lani
wil
l
underst
andthat
Zuzu:Butt
hisismyphonenothi
s(shemadeabored
face)andithi
ughti
wasgoingtobl
ockhi
mr i
ght
away
Me:
What
shol
dingy
ounow?
Zuzu:
hiscompanyi
guess
Me:
Cani
seehi
m?
Zuzu:
Sure.
.shegav
emeherphoneandi viewedhis
pichewasdarkandhelookedsofamili
arzuzuhad
hereyesontviqui
ckl
ysaveditandsentthepict
ure
tonaniandtol
dhimtonotrepl
yafter
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Zuzu:
Cani
hav
emyphonesi
s?
Me:Yeahsureiwaslooki
ngatyourst
atusmov
esso
who'syourdaddy
?shesmiles
Me:Noneedt orepl
yigotmyansweri wil
lgoand
cook.
.iwenttothekit
chenandst art
edwi thdi
nneri
waswithnunuwhowast ell
i
ngmeev ery
thi
ngshe
knowsshet ookaft
erherfathertheyalwayshave
somethingsayNdil
ecamet ot hekitchen
Me:
Wher
e'smyson?
iaskedl
ooki
ngbehi
ndhi
m
Hi
m:He'
ssl
eepi
ngt
heyi
nject
edhi
m
Me:
Why
?
Hi
m:Hehascol
dfl
u
Me:
Whatdi
disayaboutswi
mmi
ngl
astweekend?
Hi
m:Yousai
ditwascol
dforust
oswi
m MaBi
yel
a
Me:
Youseenow?
Hi
m:Iwi
l
ltakecar
eofhi
m don'
twor
rysot
ell
me
aboutt
hepi
ctur
e
Me:
It
'sthemanZuzumetatt
hemallhelooked
f
amil
iarthat
'swhyi
for
war
dedthepi
ctur
et oyou
Hi
m: Hedoeslookf
ami l
i
arletmegoandcal
lBer
tei
s
it
hinkioncesawhim athi
sclubi
nPret
ori
a
Me:
Oksodoi
bri
ngy
ourdi
nnerupst
air
s?
Hi
m:Yesmyl
ove.
.hewal
kedout

BANDI
LE

Ihatewhati
sabouttohappeni haven'tt
hought
aboutwhatiam goi
ngtodoyetbutmyki dsandmy
wifegott
obeawayf r
om t
hisplaceev enkhi
thadoes
notwanttol
eaveshehastoi f
or wardedthepict
o
Bertei
sandhecall
ed
Me:
And?
Him:heisoneofhi
sguysbutLoui
sissti
ll
inthe
countr
yi'
vegotaspyinhi
shouseshe'
sclosetohi
m
hesayshewi l
lhef
yli
ngtoS.
Anextweekend
Me:Okibett
ergetr
idofhismanornothatwi
ll
be
obv
ioustohimthatiam al
ertsonoi
will
keepaney
e
onhimthankyouBer
Him:
Aney eforaney
eletmeknowifshi
tgoesdown
iam st
il
lnur
singmywifeshej
ustgav
ebirt
h
Me:
Congr
atul
ati
onsmananot
heraddi
ti
ont
othe8
Hi
m:it
oldy
ouiwant10kidsam onl
ylef
twi
th
maki
ng2now.
.welaughed
Me:Youaretheman..
welaughedagai
nandi
di
sconnectedthecal
lkhi
thawal
kedin
Her
:Andwhowast
hat
?
Me:
ItwasBer
tei
sWifeyoukeeponchecki
ngupon
meevery
daywhathaveyoucooked?
Her
:Chi
ckenf
eet
sandpap
Me:
What ?!
..
shelaughedandindeeditwaschi
cken
f
eet
s,necks,
gizzar
d,papandatchaar
Her
:Youl
i
kei
t?.
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTWENTY-
ONE

Hi
m:Cani
pleasegetpr
operf
oodNomkhi
tha?
Me:
Sot
hisi
snopr
opermeal
Biy
ela?
Hi
m:Theseareforsnacksnott
odinewit
hsoyou
wantt
otell
met hatmykidswenttobedwhi
lethey
ar
eful
lwit
ht hi
sdontyoudareagr
ee
Me:
Wha.
.
Him:
Wheny ouarenoti
nt hemoodtocookj
ustsayi
t
iam notsomePr et
ori
an/Jozimeniam af
ull
Zulu
mani eatreal
food.
.iwasnowsniff
ing
Me:Howcany ouri
diculet
hefoodicookedwith
LOVEBandil
e?Youknowwhatl eavethefoodwhen
youdontwanttoeatitscl
earyouatesomewhere
else
Hi
m:What
?!
Me:
Yesi
tisandi
am sur
eiti
swhyy
ouwantmet
o
gotoKZNsoy oucanhav et
imewi
thy
ournewl
y
foundskanknx
xx.
.idenudemysel
f
Hi
m:Nomkhi
thawhatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Me: Youknow. .
iwenttotheshowerandopenedt he
tapsaf teriwasdonei wenttol ot
ioneventhoughi
wasst r
ugglingBandilewaseat i
ngmeatheusedt he
electri
cbr aaihewaspl ayi
nghi stupacsongsonhigh
volumeandpl ayingwithhisphoneaf tert
hatiwent
tobednakedandsl eptifelthishandsneaking
aroundmywai stheslidhishandi nmycoochieand
startedkissingmyneckhepr essedhisdickonmy
assandt henhet urnedmeandweki ssedhegoton
topmeandhebr ushedhismanhoodonmycoochi e
andi wassowetandhungr yforhim
Me: Pleasehav emenani .
.hedidn'
twaitf
ormy
secondr equestthenheent eredmet henhepounded
mef asterandhegav emedeeperst r
okesand
thrustsaf t
erourst eamysessi onhepull
edmet ohi
s
chestandpl acedhi shandonmyasswesl eptl
ike
that
Iwokeupandt
ookashoweraf
tert
hati
wor
emy
baggyj
umpsui
tandheel
sididmymakeupandti
ed
myafroi
naneatbunandtookmyG-
Wagoncarkeys
andmylapt
opbagandhandbag
Hi
m:Mor
ningNomkhi
tha
Me:Mor ningBandil
e..
weki ssedandiwentout
Lubenat hiwasreadymamPat t
ypreparedthem i
tookhimt odaycareanddr ovetotherestaurantand
call
edHal idmynewl yfoundITheknockedandi let
himi nandi gav
ehi mthedet ai
lsandhewor kedon
hislaptop
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Me:
Doy
ouf
indsomet
hingHal
i
d?
Hal
id:
Yesappar
ent
lyt
hemani
sst
il
li
nCol
ombi
ahe
i
sinthemall
Me:Keepancl
oserey
eathi
mi wanttoknow
wheneverhet
ri
estol
eav
ethatcount
ryyouhearme?
Hal
i
d:Yesmadam
Me:Youcanl
eave.
.het
ookhi
sthi
ngsandwentouti
conti
nuedwi
thmyworkBandi
lewal
kedin
Ndi
l
e;Youar
eher
etodayi
wentt
ocheckf
ory
ouat
t
hehotel
s
Me:
It
sThur
sdaysoi
am al
way
sher
e
Ndi
l
e:Icamewi
thl
unchnanami
Me:
Noi
wil
leatchi
ckenf
eetandpap
Ndil
e:suity
ourself.
.hewentt
oseatont hecouch
faci
ngt hebigglasswallt
hatfacesthecityist
ood
upandwentt oseatnexttohi
mi j
oinedhim
Ndi
l
e:Babyi
hat
eitwhenwef
ight
ingdoy
ouknow
t
hat
?
Me:
Buty
oust
art
edt
heconf
li
ctBandi
l
e
Ndi
le:
Itol
dyouthefir
stti
meyoucookedi
tthati
hat
edthatmealitr
emindsmeofhowi gr
ewupi
hat
eeveryt
hingt
hatremindsmeofit
Me:
Bandi
ley
ouneedtoconsul
tather
api
sty
ourpast
wi
ll
keeponhaunt
ingy
ou..
hewentsil
ent
Ndil
e:Ihav
efoundgaurdstheyareal
readyi
nmy
houseandi hi
reddr
iver'
sforyouandZuzu
Me:
Bandi
l
eiam notgoi
ngt
oKZN
Him:Whydoyouli
keconfl
ictNomkhithayouare
busycr
eati
ngthi
ngsKhit
hai am notcheat
ingonyou
Me:
Thenwhydi
dyouchangey
ourphone'
spasswor
d
Him:Nomkhithayouar
esounbel i
evabl
eri
ghtnowso
wenay ouhavetoknowev ery
thingital
kaboutwith
myf r
iendsbecauset
hemomenty ougetyourhands
onmyphoney ougostr
aighttomysoci almediaand
checkmyDMsbabycany outrustmeplease
Me:
Youar
eresponsi
bleoft
heper
soni
am y
ou
changedmey oucheatedsomanyt i
mesandi am
afr
aidofbei ngcheatedonbecausei tlowersagirl
s
sel
f-esteem,ifeel
likeiam uglyifeel
li
kei am not
worthyofy ourloveBandil
ei am notgoingtoKZN
andt hatsf
inal
Hi
m:Idontknowwhatyouwanttohearbutnext
weekyouwill
beinKZNandit'
sfi
nall
..
hethrewt
he
dr
umstickhewaseati
ngwippedhi
sfinger
sand
wal
kedoutandhepeephisheadin
Hi
m:Yourdr
iveri
sdownst
air
s..
hewal
kedout
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

PHI
LANI

Iwasatmyhousechil
li
ngwit
hZusishewaswr
it
ti
ng
herl
astpapert
odayshewassohappy
Her:
Babediditel
lyout
hati
wil
lbegoi
ngt
oKZNf
or
Junehol
idays?
Me:Noyoudidn'
twhyareyougoi
ngt
her
e?.
.iknow
ev
eryt
hingbutiwil
lactl
i
keonit
Her:
Bhutisai
dwear eal
lgoi
ngtoKZNforhol
i
days
hedidntevenwanttoknowifwewantt
oornotbut
at
leastwewi l
lbel
iv
ingwit
hauntLi
zzy
Me:Thatwomanissweeti
am sur
eyouguy
swi
l
l
enj
oyy ourst
aywi
thher
Her:
Yeahithoughty
ouwer
egoingtobemad
becausei
wi l
lbeawayf
oralongt
ime
Me:
Fory
ourownhappi
nesandsaf
etyi
wontbe
Her
:Saf
ety
?!
Me:Imeanyouwi
ll
besafemossi
nKZNasy
ouar
e
saf
eherebabyt
hat'
swhati
meant
Her:
Okkebutpr
omi
set
ocomeandseemesis
Khi
thai
snotgoi
ngt
oal
lowmedr
ivef
rom KZNto
her
e
Me:
Ofcozmyl
ovei
wil
lcomeandseey
ou
Her:
Okthentel
lmeabouty ourproj
ecthowfari
s
i
t?.
..
wellwetal
kedaboutbusinessandherst
udi
es
Lor
di pr
ayyouprot
ecther

KHI
THA

Aft
erworkidrovehomeandMamPattywasl
oadi
ng
herbagsatBabKhumal
o'
sfami
lycar
Me:Greet
ings..
isaybowingalit
tl
eidothatwhen
greet
ingolderpeopl
ei knowtheywor
kf ormebut
theyareoldihavetorespectt
hem
Them:
Sawubonamakot
i<gr
eet
ingsbr
ide>
Me:
mamPat
tyar
eyougoi
ngsomewher
e?
Her
:Umkhweny
anasai
dwemustt
akeanear
lyl
eav
e
hei
sgoingt
opaymefori
t
Me:Ohi
tot
all
yfor
gotabouti
tokwewi
l
lmi
ssy
ou
guy
sseeyouinsummer
Her
:Iam sur
ebabyBut
terwi
l
lbeher
e
Me:Wit
hnodoubt ..
welaughedasi huggedt hem and
bi
dgoodby eiwalkedtomycari t
ookmyl aptopbag
andhandbagXoxowasal r
eadyonhiswast ohelp
mecarrythem igavehim myhandbagi gott othe
houseandgreetedmyki dsandiwentupst air
sNdile
wasbusyonhi slapt
op
Me:
Aft
ernoon
Him:Af
ter
noon..i
wentt oundr
essit
ookashower
andworemyl eggingsandabaggyt-
shir
tandsocks
itookmysli
pperswhi chhewasweari
ng
Hi
m:Manj
eul
wel
ani
?<whyar
eyouf
ight
ingnow>
Me:
iwantmysl
i
pper
s
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Hi
m:Youshoul
d'
veaskedni
cel
y
Me:Askni
cely
?ngezihl
anguzam?qhunyi
wewena
<wi
thmyshoes? youmustbehigh>.
.iwal
kedout
l
eavinghi
minawei wentt
othekit
chentoprepar
e
di
nnerZusiwalkedi
n
Her
:Af
ter
noonmamakaNobutt
er.
.shesai
dki
ssi
ng
meandandcar
resi
ngmyroundbell
y
Me:
Aft
ernoonaunt
y
Her:
Thi
sshoul
dbethelastonenouy andi
gugi
sa
<youar
emakingmeold>..
.il
aughed
Me:Thatbi
gheadedZul
umanwant8ki
dssoy
ou
bet
terrel
ax
Her
:What
?!8y
onke?
li
ke1-
2-3-
4-5-
6-7-
8..
.sheshout
ed
8
Me:
Yesl
ovegetmar
ri
edandyouwillseef
ory
our
sel
f
t
hatmar
ri
agesameassel
li
ngyoursoul
Her
:Notany
timesooni
wantt
ost
il
lrockt
hecl
ub
wi
ththegi
rl
sandi am notr
eadyt
obr
eakmyv
jay
..
.i
l
aughedhy
ster
ical
l
y
Me:
Nobodyi
severreadysweet
hear
t,
arey
ouhel
ping
mepeelt
hevegi
es?
Her
:Yeahofcoziam sol
ooki
ngf
orwar
dtot
his
Dur
bantri
py ouknow
Me:
Ohy
eah?
Her:
Yesit
hinkBhuti
madearightdeci
sionj
ustt
obe
awayfr
om theci
tynjey
ouknow
Me:Yousoundl
i
kesomeonewhohaspr
obl
emsy
ou
know?
Her:Reall
y?butidonti reall
yneedt hisbreaknotit
sa
breather.
..
wecont inuedchi t-
chatt
ingandcooki ng
Bandilehasbeenupst air
si bathethekidsandput
them totheirbedsandi tookMymansf oodand
wentt oourbedr oom ifoundhi m sleepi
ngont he
couchi placedthet r
ayont hesmal lt
ablenexttohim
iwentt ochangemycl othesandwor emyni ght
dresswheni gotbackhewaswi ppinghishands
Hi
m:Whydi
dn'
tyouwakemeup?i
hav
ebeen
st
arv
ing
Me:
Youwer
easl
eepi
didntwantt
odi
stur
byou
Hi
m:Thanksf
ort
heFoodMaBi
yel
a
Me:Sure..
.heatewhi l
eiwasdoi
ngpi
gtai
l
sinmy
afr
oaftert hatigotunder
cov
ershet
ookt
hetr
ay
downst ai
rsandcamebackhedenudedhimsel
fand
gotundercov er
s
Hi
m:Doy
oul
i
key
ournewdr
iver
?
Me:Yeshe'
shandsomeandj
udgi
ngbyhi
swai
sthe
knowshowtofuck
Hi
m:What
?!MaBi
yel
ayouar
eoutt
her
echecki
ng
men?
Me:Sowhenyouaskedmeabouthi
m whatdi
dyou
expectmet
osay?
Hi
m:Tel
lhowy
ouseehi
m
Me:
iguessi
justdi
d
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTWENTY-
TWO

Him:
MaBiyel
aiwi
l
lfi
rehi
m andhi
reansol
dmkhul
u
yougett
hat?
Me:Therear
egirl
ssleepingwitholdmenjustli
ke
yourMil
lanandyourlateLel
ethuaftert
heydated
youtheywentforol
dpapasi thinkyouandthem ar
e
f
rom thesamewhat sappgroup
Hi
m: Thi
sconversat
ionsisbor
ingmeandi
hate
whereiti
sgoingusuyangij
wayel
amanj
e<youar
e
di
srespect
ingmenow>
Me:Sundi
buzaketatakaNoButt
er<thendontaskme
NoButte'
sfat
her
>..
Hepulledmet ohischestki
ssed
myf or
eheadhealwaysdoesthi
sev enifwearenot
i
ngoodt ermshi
sphoner angi
twasonhi ssideof
t
hebed
Hi
m:I
tsmyphoner
ingi
ngni
tyour
ssosl
eep
Me:
It
smaki
ngnoi
sei
am pr
ett
ysur
eifi
twasmi
ne
ngesi
kuwor
ldwari
vngoku<wewoul
dbe.
.now>
Him:Mxm..
.herej
ectedthecal
landswit
chedof
fhis
phoneandsleptandhestil
lwantmetoleav
ehe's
probabl
ysl
eepingwithsomeoneelse
Me:
Babycanwepl
easehav
esex?
Hi
m:What
?!
Me:i
sitt
hefi
rstt
imeyouhear
ingt
hatwor
d?!
..
he
gav
emet hi
sboredface
Hi
m;Angi
funi
<idon'
twantt
o>
Me:
What
?!si
ncewhendi
dyour
efuset
osl
eepwi
th
me?
Hi
m:i
guesswewal
ki
ngnowormay
bej
oggi
ng
Me:
Bandi
let
hehoey ouaresl
eepi
ngwit
hwi
l
lcur
se
t
hedayshel
aidhereyesonyouiswear
Hi
m:Cani
sleepnow?
Me:
Sowenay
oudon'
twantt
omakel
ovet
ome?
Hi
m:Cany ourespectmydeci
sionasi r
espectyours
whenyoudeny i
ngmepussyNomkhi thaiam ti
redi
wasbabysit
ti
ngLubenathi
andSiyatodayiwentt o
shoppi
nganddidlaundr
ytheoney ouwer
e
supposedtodo3daysagosopleaseiam t
ir
ed.
.i
wassniff
ingnowhowdar ehespeakstomeli
kethat
Me:Youdidn'thavetoshoutatmeBandi l
ewheny ou
dontwantmei t
sfineiwontforcemyselftoyouand
ipr
aysheal waysgi v
esityouforev
er.
.hepull
edthe
cover
sandexposedhi snakedbody
Hi
m:getontopandpleasur
eyour
selfNomkhit
ha
makeitf
astpl
easeiwanttosl
eep..
.il
ookedathi
m
i
ndisbel
i
efisheforr
eal
Me:
Arey
ousur
e?!
Hi
m:Yesr
apemet
hat
swhaty
ouwantangi
sho?
<isn'
t
i
t>
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Me: Ok..
ist
art
edki ssinghi mi gotont opofhi m and
bendt osuckhi snipplesf asterwayt ot ur nani gga
onokhi sbreathingpat ternschangedaf terthati f
elt
hismanhoodr egaini ngitsst r
engt haftert hati l
etit
sli
deandf oundacomf or t
ableposi t
ionf ormy self
theni st
art
edr i
dinghi mi didthatslowl yand
carefull
yhewashi ttingt heG- spotthemost
uncomf ort
ablewaysoi didmywomanont opand
wecamet hesamet imei wantedt ocum f i
rstand
l
eav ehim wantingf ormor eafterthatiki ssedhi s
foreheadandf acedt heot hersi degiggling
Hi
m:Howdoesi
tfeel
srapi
ngaman?
Me:
Feel
sgood
Him:k.
..
ifelthi
shandpar t
ingawaymybut tcheeks
andhegr abbedmei ntohim heli
ftedmyonel egand
ifel
thim enter
ingmeandhi sotherhandwas
holdi
ngmyupperbodyandmani wasfuckedi was
evenbegginghi m onsome" iam sorr
yNt shangasei
wontdisrepectyouagain"and"iam sorryf orhurt
ing
yourfeeli
ngsand. ."ashethrewdeeperandhar der
strokeswhatthehel l
wasi doingi am bei
ngt orn
apartherehet hrustedandthr ust
edi sweari came
20t i
mesam l yingbutwasal otmyt earsweref ul
lof
tearsnowi t
'sbeen20mi nutesormor eandy ethe
hasn'tcamei am sur ehesmokedweedbef or e
bedtimei wasloosi ngmyv oicefrom moani ngon
topofmyl ungshet henfi
nallycameandl etouta
l
oudgr oan
Him:Fuck!!
!!ar
eyounotint
olabourmami ?
..
.he
askedr est
ingweweresowetf r
om oursweatlooked
l
ikesomebodyt hr
ewaf ull
backetofwateriwas
shi
veringmycoochiejarwasonbreathi
ngfirei
couldnt
Me:
Your
appedmeBandi
l
e
Him:It
joughti
wastheonewhowasbei
ngr
apped
heregi
v emeadoggyMaBiy
ela
Me:
What?y
oucr azy.
.hepi
ckedmeandwenttoput
meonacouchandt urnedmearoundandhefucked
meagai
nandagai niwasoutofmyv oi
cenowand
wecameafter15minhetookmet obed
Hi
m:Ar
eyougoi
ngt
oKZN?
inoddedqui
ckl
y
Me:
Yesy
es
Him:That
sri
ghti
hatear
guingwit
hawomanhe
spankedmynowredassitwasspankedt
hroughout
thesessi
on
Me:
ihat
eyour
ha
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Mor ni
ngcameandi wassotir
edmycoochi
ewas
breathi
ngfireiwokeupaloneili
mpedt
othe
bathroom topeeaftert
hatij
umpedandscr
eamed
theburningsensati
on
Ndi
l
e:Yhi
ni?
<whati
sit
>
Me:
Youhur
tmycoochi
eBandi
l
e
Ndil
e:Iam sor
rybabyidi
dn'tmeantoo.
.itookal
ong
bat
handwor emyjoggerpantandoversi
zedhoodi
e
andslidesiwentdownstai
rsandallt
hesquadis
her
e
Me:
Didy
ouguy
sski
pschool
?
xoxo:
Theyar
ecl
osedr
emember
?
Me:
ohy
eah?
xoxo:
yebo
Me:
Wher
e'sSi
ya?
xoxo:
He'
swit
hdaddyintheki
tchen.
..
.inoddedand
wenttot
heki
tchenandwheni gott
hereNdilewas
f
eedi
nghi
sson
Me:
Fat
herandson
Ndi
l
e:Heyl
ovemypat
ienti
srecov
eri
ng
Me:IseeandNanii
wil
lbel
eav
ingf
oraweekkeand
comebackafter
Ndi
l
e:wehav
espokenaboutt
hisMaBi
yel
apl
ease
Me:
iwontl
eav
eyoual
oneBandi
l
eful
lst
op.
Ndil
e:St
optreat
ingmel
i
keaki dNomkhit
hayouar
e
goi
ngt ost
ayinKZNunti
lical
landsaycomeback
youhearme
Me:
Bandi
l
eiam t
ir
edofal
lthi
sit
sfi
nei
wil
ll
eav
e
Ndi
le:
Canyoustopcryi
ngyouarescar
ing
Si
yabonga.
..
.hewascomfort
inghi
m
Me:
Buti
tsy
oumoss
Ndi
le:
stopbei
nginsecur
eNomkhit
haandtrustme.
..
i
di
dntsayanyt
hingIstar
tedwi
thbr
eakf
astandwe
at
e
Dayspassandt odayweareleav
ingf
orKZNBandile
haspackedall
mymat er
nit
yclot
hesandever
ythi
ngi
wil
lneedevenmymedsal l
ourbagswereatt
hecar
weallwenttothecar
xoxo:
Daddyuzoshi
yekawedwa?
<ar
eyougoi
ngt
obe
l
eftal
one>
Ndi
l
e:Yesandi
wil
lmi
ssy
ouguy
s
xoxo:
Youwi
l
lmi
sseat
ingouri
ce-
creamst
oo
Ndi
l
e:Youri
ce-
cream?
xoxo:
Yesr
ememberatt
hemal
lwemetsi
s..
..
Ndil
e:Ohnxxxiwil
lmakeitupt
oyou..
.hewasso
uncomfort
ableiknewhewascheati
ngonmexoxo
i
sgoingtotellmeever
ythi
ngheknows
Me:
Arey
ouf
inenani
?
Ndi
l
e:y
esi
am nanami
Me:mmmh. .
..
iscr
oll
eddownmyphonehesl
idehis
handundermydressandcar
essedmyi
nnerthi
ghs
Siy
acameinbet
weenusandsl
appedNdil
eshandi
sawagli
mpseofZuzul
aughi
ngattheback
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Wearr
ivedatAuntLizzyshewassohappyt
ohav
e
usonherhouseitwasbigandbeaut
if
ul
Aunt
L:It
houghty
ouguyswer
ejoki
ngandy
ouar
ri
ved
i
ndeedit
sgoingtobeal
ovel
yhol
iday
Me:
Wel
licantwai
ttor
etur
ntoJobur
gaChr
ist
ian
Aunt
L:i
fnotaPast
or.
.(
wegi
ggled)
letmegoand
showyouyourr
oom..
wewalkedbehindher
Me:
Wowar
eyousur
ethi
sisn'
tyourr
oom?
AuntL:
Noit
snot
..
welaughedshel
eftmewi
th
Bandil
eit
hrewmysel
finbed
Him:Nanamiihopeandprayyouwontshowupi
n
Joburgbef
oreLouisdeat
hisconf
ir
med
Me:i
havenof
ightl
efti
nmeBandi
l
esoi
am not
i
nter
est
ediny
ourdeali
ngsany
mor
e
Hi
m:Babycanyoupl
easet
rustme.
.iwokeupand
l
ookedhi
mi nt
heeye
Me:
Arey
oucheat
ingonmeBandi
l
e?.
.heswal
l
owed
hardandi
fel
tsomethingi
nmemysoul was
unset
tl
edandtheansweri
syesbuthe'
sgoi
ngt
o
denyit
Hi
m:Whyarey
ouaski
ngNomkhi
thai
hav
ebeen
f
ait
hful
toy
oumoss
Me:Youdontanswermyquest
ionBandi
learey
ou
cheat
ingonme? .
..
hel
ookedmestrai
ghtinmyeyes
Hi
m:No.
.he'
sly
ingi
knowhei
sly
ing
Me:
k
Hi
m:Babyi
sthi
saboutwhatLi
sesai
d?
Me:Noijustneededassur
ancethat
'sal
lwear
e
aboutt
ospendamont hwit
houtsei
ngeachot
herso
ithi
nkineededthat
Hi
m:Okbabycanwet
akeabat
h?i
wantt
ogi
vey
oua
massage
Me:
It
sok..
wedenudedandwentt
otakeabat
hhe
wasmassagi
ngmeandkissi
ngmyback
Hi
m:y
oul
i
kei
t?
Me:
Yesi
do.
.hepl
acedhi
shandonmybel
l
yand
st
art
edtal
ki
ngwithButt
erhe/shestart
edki
cki
ng
Ndi
lewasbusyencour
aginghim cal
l
ingal
lBi
yel
a
cl
ans
Me:Noi
tsenoughBut
terpl
easest
opi
tit
shur
ti
ng
now
Hi
m:I
Jeal
ousy
ani
?
Me:YouknowSi
yaandLubenat
hialwayspl
aywit
h
mybell
yasiam goi
ngt
osleepwiththem t
heywi
ll
abuseme
Him:Ncooaam sor
ry.
.wegotof
fthebat
htubandgot
dressedi
nourpij
amasbuthewaswearingajogger
pantandhishoodi
eandsli
deswewenttothe
ki
tchenevery
bodywasinPij
amas
Ndil
e:myfav
oir
it
euncl
eisbackhome..
.t
heybr
o
huggedandhecametohugmeandt oo
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTWENTY-
THREE

BANDI
LE

I
tsbeenaweeknowandLouishasbeenin
Col
ombiathi
dgamehesplayi
ngisbor
ingnowhe
wil
lmakemewanttost
artmakingamov easi
was
i
nmyof f
icel
ooki
ngatt
hev i
ew
Voi
ce:
Ihavebeenknocki
ng.
.it
urnedar
oundandi
t
wasThatooneofmyoldfri
ends
Me:Mannev
erthoughti
woul
dseey
ouagai
ngeez.
..
i
wentt
obrohughim
That
o:Mani hadtocomebecauseourenemyi
sout
ofpr
isonicatrel
ax
Me:Browhatbor
esmeisthafwehavebeenwait
ing
forhi
mfortwoweeksnowthisgamehe'
splay
ingis
bori
ng
Thato:
Trueandwhataboutt
heguyt
hat
'swal
ki
ng
Joburgstr
eets
Me:iknoweachandeverymovehemakest hatonei
am thi
nki
ngofsett
ingatrapf
orhim Sbuisa
di
tecti
vesohemustarresthi
m andthatwil
lmake
Loui
sshake
Thato:Fai
renoughsohow'
sthi
ngswithy
ourwif
e
aft
erthegateawayyouwentonlastt
imeyouwere
i
nCol ombia
Me:
Pleasedon'
tremi
ndmei can'
tbel
iev
ethatgi
rl
f
oll
owedmet oColombi
ashe'sabsur
d
That
o:Soar
eyoust
il
lsl
eepi
ngwi
thher
Me:i
twasaonceoft hi
ngBafobutshekeepson
cominginmylif
ei don'
tknowhowt omakeher
di
sappearbecauseifKhit
hafi
ndsoutshitwi
ll
go
down
That
o:Yourwifei
sabeastandf l
amest ooimean
she'
severymensdr eam i
dontgetitwhyyou
sl
eepingaroundorshe'
sstar
vingyou?
Me:
I'
vegotheal
thi
ssuescausedbyhowi
grewup
t
heyal
lneedsomeonetohel
pmeeaseiwanttogo
t
oCubaiheardther
eisamental
doct
ort
hatdeal
s
wi
thev
eryil
lness
That
o:Soy
our
sisLust
?
Me:mightsoundcrazybuty esitr
ytoi gnorethese
womenasi havest
oppedgoi ngtoclubsmor e
fr
equentl
ybutsomet i
mesi gettof i
ndt hem atwork
i
tseemsl i
keit'
ssomesor tofademonf ol
l
owi ngme
aroundandhonestl
yBafot hisbothersmenow
Thato:
IthastoNjayam andsometimesal
lweneed
i
spr ay
ery ouandyourwifehardl
ygotochurchno
praysothedev i
lwi
llalwaysf
indwaystodestr
oy
whatyouhav econsultGodman
Me:
Say
sat
hugi
nahol
ysui
t
That
o:i
am t
ryi
ngt
ohel
pher
eandi
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

TI
NA

Iwaswi
thKathav
ingl
atel
unch
Me:
imi
ssKhi
thay
oo
Kat
:Metoohay
iaf
tert
hispr
egnancyshemustbeon
bi
rt
hcontr
ol
Me:
Yooowiththatmanofher
snev
ershamewe
mustf
orget
..
wel aughed
Kat:
Buthonest
lysheshoul
dst andhergroundi mean
she'
stheonecarryi
ngthepregancyorisitbecausei
am awomanandi f
eelsor
ryforher?
Me:Famil
iesarenotthesamebooandbesi
des
Khi
thabowst oeverythi
ngBandi
l
esayssoit
sso
har
dt oconvi
nceher
Kat
:Andaf
teral
li
tshermar
ri
agenotour
s
Me:Yesgi
rlandiheardtheguy
ssay
ingBandzi
s
backtohi
soldselfcheati
ng
Kat
:Youl
i
e
Me:Iam t
ell
ingyouwai
tami
nut
eMi
l
lanandy
ouar
e
younotfr
iends?
Kat
:Wear
ewhy
?
Me:Youshouldknowthatlastmont
hshefoll
owed
BandztoColombiaandtheyendedupfucki
ng
agai
n..
katwasshocked
Kat:
Gir
ldisappearedforaweeksothatexpl
ainsi
ti
tol
dheratf i
rstt
hatidontt
akehershitshewasbusy
badmouthingKhithaandist
oppedher
Me:
May
beshedeci
dedt
ost
opt
ell
i
ngy
out
hen
Kat:
Mehlolo(
clapsonce)
butBandzdoesn'
tl
ear
n
aft
erev
er y
thingKhit
hahasdoneforhi
m sohesees
herasababymaki ngmachine
Me:
Andapunchi
ngbag
Kat
:What
?!
Me:
Hesl
apsherev
eryt
imeshedi
sagr
eeswi
thher
Kat:
Yoooiam lef
twi
thnowor
dshay
igot
atha
ngwanakogae
Me:Ijustf
eel
sorryf
orhery
ouknowandnowt hat
she'
si nKZNam sur
eBandzisbusysl
eepi
ngwith
Mill
an
Kat
:Noi
will
conf
rontMi l
l
annoway
sshe'
swr
ongand
ar
ewegoingtot
ellkhi
tha?
Me:
Nowear enotgoingt
otel
lherbutwemustdeal
wi
ththi
sloosepant
y
Kat:
Truewemustpanelbeathersurel
yshedoesnt
l
ist
enYooonomar r
iageisperf
ectthough
Me:Andthat
'str
uebabesrememberi
foundout
aboutLuu'
ssideaf
terayeari
magi
ne?
Kat:
Yoootobehonestnnaihar
dlycheckuponSbui
dontwantt
obeunhappyi wi
llt
akewhathesays
Me:Exact
lymoGurlonceyouinvest
igat
eyouwi
l
lbe
unhappyfort
herestofyourl
i
f e
Kat
:Yoooi
cantgetov
ert
hisMen!
!!
Me:
Wil
ldi
sappoi
nty
oushame.
..
wedr
ankourwi
nes
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

BANDI
LE

Iwashav
inglunchwi
thPhi
lanii
noneofmyCl
ubsi
n
Melr
oseArcwhenweheardfunnynoi
ses
Me:
Whatwast
hat
?
Him:IdontknowBaf obu. .
.weheardagunshotand
anotheroneandsobul letscomef l
oodinginny
off
icewef i
ndar i
ghtposi t
iontohidelucki
lyihave
my4gunsi nt hi
sclubal l
loadediopent hesafe
coveredbytheWall ki
thaspor t
rai
tandputt hem
backi t
ooktwoandgav ePhilanit
heot j
erswe
cockedthem andwai t
edf orthem toshootagain
Guy
:Oursour
cesai
dhewasher
ewi
thhi
sfr
iend
Guy
2:Whati
cantev
enseem t
ofi
ndhi
scarkey
s
Guy1:
Notheyar
est
il
lher
ehi
sphonei
sint
he
char
ger
Guy
3:Letmecheckt
hebat
hroom andi
washi
ding
onacupboardnexttoitsoobv i
ousl
yhewi llseeme
whenhewasappr oachi
ngi pull
edhim andst ood
behindhi
m asistar
tedshootingandPhilanithe
bul
letswerefl
yi
ngandt her
ewasasmokei nt hecl
ub
wecouldntseeeachotherandaper sonwalkedi ni
shootedwit
houtchecki
ngwhoi twasi heardal ady
voi
cescreaming
Me:Ohshit!!
wheni wasaboutt ogoandcheckt he
othermencamesowedef endedourselv
esandshot
backmybul let
swer efi
nishedsoi havetohi
deit
wasonlyPhi l
anishoot
ingi sawagundownand
wentforitbutiandstart
edshoot i
ngbackaf t
erthey
werealldowni wenttocheckont hel ady
Phi
l
ani
:
Who'
sshe?
Me:
Mimi!
!Mimi
!!
Baf
ocomeandcheckher
..
hecame
t
ofeel
herimpul
se
Him:
Wel ostheritdoesn'
tbeatandshescol
d..
my
hear
tachesi f
eltbad
Me:
iki
l
ledherPhi
l
ani
Hi
m:Whatwasshedoi
ngher
ethef
ir
stpl
ace?
Me:Doesitmat
ter
?thi
sisal
lmyfault
..
iknel
tdown
andcall
edoutt
oherbutitwasal
readylat
e
par
amedicspol
icecamerunni
ng
Poli
ce:
Stepbackwewantt owor k.
.Theyall
took
them i
nabodybagi ncl
udi
ngMi ll
anitsconfi
rmed
she'
sdeadandit'
smyf aul
ti cal
l
edhert ocomeand
seemesowecoul dtal
kaboutwhatwedi di nev
er
wantedustopartthi
swayy esididn'
tloveherbut
deathi
sanothercase
Phi
l
ani
:
Best
rongBaf
o..
itookmyphonemyt
hingsan
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Idrovetomyhousenoti nagoodst
ateiwi
llf
orev
er
blamemy sel
fforherdeathandy
esiki
ll
edheri
droveinandwenttothehouseiwal
kedinandwent
strai
ghttomybedroom and..
Me:AwukodwaSimakadeNkulunkul
uongcwele<Oh
MightyGodHol
yspi
ri
t>.
.isai
dthrowi
ngmyt hi
ngson
t
hef l
oor
Khi
tha:
HeyNani
..
.shewasl
aughi
ng
Me:
Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?.
.iaskedsi
tt
ingdown
Khi
tha:
itol
dyouwear
eint
hist
oget
herr
emember
?
Me: Ohiam notinthemoodtofi
ghtletmegoand
takeashower .
.iwemttotakeashowerandwr apped
aroundatowel iwentt
oourbedroom andfounda
traywit
hgoodf ood
Me:
Andi
missedt
hisThanky
ousomuchMaBi
yel
a
Khit
ha:Youwel
comedmynani don'
tyouwantmeto
feedyou?youl
ookexhaust
ed.
.shest
art
edfeedi
ng
me
Me:
Beal
i
ttl
ebi
tfast
eri
am hungr
y..
shel
aughed
Khi
tha:
Ohpl
easecomeon.
Me:
Ther
ewasashoot
ingatt
hecl
ub
Khi
tha;
Whati
sheher
e?
Me:i
don'
tknowZai
nhasn'
tcal
ledbuti
wasat
tacked
i
tscl
eari
havetohi
reanewIT
Khitha:hehasbeencal
li
ngyouandhewasn'
t
reachingyouthenhecall
edmeandt ol
dmewhathe
wasseei ngandthati
swhyi am her
e
Me:wowiguessi
twasboundt
obet
henandi
shot
someone
Khi
tha:
Who'
sthat
?
Me:
Mil
l
an
Khi
tha:
What
?!whatwasshedoi
ngt
her
e?
Me:Youknowshe'
sanopport
uni
stsoshepr
obabl
y
heardyouwer
eoutoft
ownsoshewasgoingtotr
y
herl
uckandshewascaughti
ncrossf
ir
e
Khi
tha:
Whooashewil
lrecov
erwet
huopeny
our
mouthwidekal
oku
Me:
idi
dmossandnoi
shotherdead
Khi
tha:
Bandi
l
e..
Me:
Ifeel
badbabyi
do
Khit
ha:Butnay
ewhatwasshedoi
ngt
hereand
maybeutwasherdaysonobodyr
unsawayfr
om her
deathdateanyway
Me:
Yeahi
guesshowar
etheki
ds?
Khi
tha:
Theyar
egoodandSi
yahasf
ull
yrecov
ered
Me:
goodnews.
.weki
ssedandmadeouteven
t
houghmymindkeptonpl
ayi
ngthescenes
Khit
a;Youar
edist
antBandi
let
ell
medoy
ouneed
counsell
i
ngforki
l
li
ngyourex?
Me:
Noy
oudo.
..
Khi
tha:t
hat
sitdon'
tbor
emePl
easeany
waygood
ni
ght.
.okshe'
smadnowwheew
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTWENTY-
FOUR

KHI
THA

《WEEKSLATER》

Loui
sdeat hwasconf i
rmedlastweeksoPhi laniand
Thatowentt oColombiaandkill
edhim andhisdogs
sonowwer einpeaceagainbutthekidsarestil
lin
KZNNdi lei
slikeawalkingZombi ei
ftheydontwal k
buthelookslikeacreatur
ehewaswat chi
ngt vorit
waswat chi
nghi m hehasfeverbeenli
kethisbeforei
wenttositnexttohim
Me:
Baba.
..
hel
ookedatmewi
thagenui
nesmi
l
e
Hi
m:Mami
..
hesai
dwr
appi
nghi
sar
msar
oundme
Me:Youarewor
ryi
ngmenowIcan'
tbar
etoseey
ou
l
ikethat
Hi
m:Thati
swhyi
hav
epl
annedt
ogot
oCubaf
ora
mont
h
Me:
What
?!
Him:Mypastishaunti
ngmeMaBiyel
aandit'
snot
hurt
ingonl
ymei taff
ectsyoui
dontwanti
ttoaf
fect
thekidst
oosoi havebookedf
oramonthinMental
heal
thhospi
tal
Me:
Foramont
hormor
ethant
hat
?
Hi
m:Idon'
tknowhowl
ongitwi
ll
takemamii
thi
nk
Mi
ll
ansdeathwasawakeupcal
l.
..i
rol
l
edmyeyes
Me:Okiwil
ltakeyoutoCubat
osuppor
tyou
becausey
ouwi ll
needme
Hi
m:Youknowyouar
emybackboneMaBi
yel
aiwi
l
l
al
waysneedyou
Me:
It
sonlyforaweekort wotheschool
are
r
eopeni
ngthinkaboutourki
dsandcompanies
Him:Yeahyouri
ghtnanami.
..
hesai
dki
ssi
ngme
several
timesi
wasgi ggl
i
ng
Me:
Stopi
t.
..
.wel
aughed
Hi
m:MaBi
yel
ail
ovey
ouok?
Me;
il
ovey
ouM.
..
Him: NoIl ovey ouMor ey oucamet omel ife
unexpect edlyandchangedwhoi wasforthebet teri
mi streatedy oubuty oudeci dedt oov el
ookt hatand
stayi l
osty ousomanyt imesbutwewoul dalway s
fi
ndeachot heri am notper f ecti wi
llneverwillbuti
am wi l
li
ngt otryi promiset onev erhurtyiubecause
wheni doi endupbei ngtheonewho' sbei nghurt
yourki ndness, love,
comf orti dontdeser veanyof
thatt hatswhati woul dsayt omy selfbeforeimet
yout hatswhyi woul dcarelessaboutt henext
per sonbuty oucamei ntomyl i
feandchangedt hat
youl ov edmeandr espect edmewhi l
ei di
dn't
deser v
ey oui justfearthedayy ouwoul dwakeup
feelingcompl etelynothingf orme
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Him:Onlybecausey ourheartwillbetired-t
ir
edt o
l
ov emewi thmymi stakes,
ti
redtof or
giv emeand
ti
redtoev ent r
ylovi
ngmenanami iwoul dbeamess
withoutyout hati
swhyi am doi
ngt hisi am not
selfi
shormay beihavebeenbuti t
hinki havetaken
yourloyaltyandki ndnessforgrantedi justneedto
fi
ndmyr eal selfNomkhi t
hai am sorr
yt osayt hi
sbut
canwepl easesepar ate?
Me:.
..
.idi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ngi
wasj
ustbl
i
nki
ngnon-
st
op
Him: Iknowi am acorwar dbutweneedtofi
ndour
selvesf i
rstbabybef
oret hisl
ovetur
nsint
ohate
please..icr
iedishebreakingupwithme?
Me:
Youcantdot
hatBandi
l
enoy
oucan'
t!
!!
!
Hi
m:Babydon'
tcr
yyouar
ehur
ti
ngt
hebaby
Me:idon'
tcareaboutsomeonewhoi haven'tmet
Bandil
eicareaboutyouican'
tbeseparatedfrom
younoi r
efuseaft
erever
ythi
ngBandil
e
Hi
m:i
knowt
hisi
snotsomanl
ybut
Me:Butwhat ?
!yousaidnotbr eakupnodiv
orceso
separat
ionmyy ell
owassi willtakey
outoCubaand
iwill
li
veyout othathospitalandcomebackasf or
mei wil
lfi
ndat herapisthereinJoburgmaybeafter
thatwewillbebothf i
ne..
.hest oodupandhugged
me
Hi
m:idontknowwhattodeci
deonanymorebut
what
everyousayiwi
ll
doitMaBiy
elai
loveyouso
muchandi wantt
oseeyouhappy
Me:Metooandipr
aythati
fyoumustneverev
erf
ind
happi
nessunl
essi
tswit
hme...
hechuckl
ed
Him:isecondthatandi hav
edecidedtol
eavethe
drugoperati
onst ooihavealott
olooseican'
t
gamblewi t
hy ourli
ves
Me:
That'
ssweetmyl ov
eplusal
lourhot
elsand
r
est
aurant
sareint
ernat
ional
now
Hi
m:Andt
hankst
oyoumyl
ove
Me:Nomarr
iagei
sperf
ectever
ybodygotthei
rown
pr
oblemswewill
passthr
oughthi
smyl ov
e
Hi
m: Withyoubymysi deidontdoubtt
hat(
ismi
l
led)
I
yakuthandaindoda.
..
thatal
onemakemewet
Me:Namingiy
akuthanda.
..
weki
ssedandhuggedwe
st
ayedli
kethatf
oraawhi le
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

KHI
THA

Wesl eptineachot her

sar msy ester
dayaf terour
heavyt al
ki am happyt hatmyhusbandi swill
i
ngt o
l
eav ethedr ugoper ati
onsbuti dontthinkitwillbe
easyliket hatheoncet riedbuthewentbackagai n
asweal lknowt hatmoneyi snev erenoughsoi am
onlyprayingf orhisment alhealt
honl ynothingelsei
dontwantmyhusbandt oendupi nloonybi nsi
wouldgomadsoi waswokebyt henoi se
downsat airsitookmyr obeandwal kedoutNdi l
e
wasst il
lsleepingwheni gotthereiwentst rai
ghtto
thedoorandmetMaxoneofourgaur ds
Max:
Mor
ningmem
MeMor
ningMaxwhat
'sgoi
ngon?
Max:
ther
earej
our
nal
i
stoutsi
det
hegatedemandi
ng
t
ocomei nt
heyar
eevenf
orci
ngthei
rwayi
n
Me;
escor
tme.
..
wewal
kedt
othegat
e
Them:MrsBiy
elawhati
syourcommentonwhat
happenedt
oclub23inMelr
oseArc?
Me:
Goodmor
ningguy
s
Ladyj
:morni
ngmem wehear
dthatMrBi
yel
aresi
des
hereso.
.
Me:
Bri
kanetl
aphoWhot
oldy
out
hat"
MrBi
yel
a"
r
esi
desher
e?
Lady
j:
Oursour
ce
Me:Gotothatsour
cenorMay onnai
set
ot el
lyou
abouti
tal
lsinceheknowswher ehest
aysthat
meansheknowsev eryt
hingaboutmyhusbandnow
moveyourdustyassesoffmygate
Guy
;Wewontl
eav
ewit
houtget
ti
ngpr
operanswer
s
wewantt
oseeMrBi
yel
a!!
Me: Iwillsuey ouwenaLi ndo(hi
sey eshoot)y
esi
knowy oul ousyjour
nali
stalwaysbehindourli
vesbt
whatcani getfr
om sueingapersonwhocantaf for
d
agat et hathe'sbusypushingittr
yinghiswayin
niggat hatgat ecostyourannum paynowl eavemy
si
t e.
.iwal kedbacktomyhouseandt herewas
si
l
encet
hesepeopl
ewi
l
lbor
eyout
odeat
h

ZUSI
PHE

Iwokeupandmyf amilywast rendingont wi

tt
er"t
he
ownerofclub23MrBi yel
aandDrMt hembushoota
womanwhowascaughti ncr ossf i
re.
..
ididn'
teven
fi
nishreadi
ngitwhatt hefucki scroll
eddownt oit
andholyMar r
ymot herofJesusbhut ihasaclub?
whataboutPhilani
?myboy fri
endhasgunneddown
peopleincl
udi
ngbhut iwhatisgoi ngonher e?Maybe
that'
swhysisKhithaleftrunning
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Idecidedtocal
lPhil
anii
twentstraighttovoi
cemai
l
andcal l
edsi
sKhit
hai tr
angun-answer edwhati
s
goingonhere?itr
iedcall
ingBhutihepickedi
tona
thi
rdring
Hi
m:Zuzu.
..
itwassi
sKhi
tha
Me:
Hisi
sunj
ani
?<howar
eyou>
Her
:Al
lgoodandy
ou?
Me:
Notsosureij
ustsawsomethi
ngdi
stur
bingon
t
wit
terandnewschannel
what
sgoingon?
Her:
iwil
ltel
lyou(nani
stopi
tshegiggl
ed)
iwil
ltel
l
youwheni seeyouzuzuandthatwi
lbenext
weekend
Me:Ohoksisiij
ustgotcuri
ousthat
'sal
lidi
dntmean
toint
rudeorsomethi
ng..
isai
dthatbecauseshe
soundedrude
Her:
it
soksweet siunder
standbuty
ouwill
know
abouti
tandpleasedontpayanyatt
ent
iontowhat
themediasay
sok?
Me:
Oksi
sigety
ou
Her
:Sur
eki
ssmybabi
esf
orme
Me:Oksi
sby
e..
idi
sconnect
edt
hecal
landPhi
l
ani
cal
l
ed
Hi
m:CanwemeetatLaLuci
apl
ease?
Me:
Hihowar
eyou?
Hi
m:Myphoneison0%sunshi
nei
senty
out
he
l
oc.
..
hedi
sconnect
ed
Me:
wow.
..
icl
eanedt
hehouseandaunt
ygoti
n
Her
:Heyl
ala
Me:Heyaunti
sitoki
fidr
ivet
oLaLuci
awi
thy
our
pol
o?
Her:
Useitsweet
sihar
dlydr
ivei
tsi
ncemyhusband
boughtmeaBenz..
wegiggl
ed
Me:
Thanky
oui
am goi
ngt
oseeaf
ri
end
Her:
Bebackbef
orei
not
icet
haty
ouar
enother
e..
i
wenttoki
ssher
Me:
okl
ovey
..
irant
omyr
oom t
ookashowerand
woremyt rackpant
,cropi
eanddenimjacketi wore
mygr eenai rf
orceandt i
edmydreadl
ockspuf fedmy
perf
umeandi wasreadytogoidrovetothelocation
Phil
ani sentmeandi twasahugebeautifulhousehe
wasst andingatthegateheopenedformei drovein
andpar kedaftert
hatheopenedthedoori cli
mbed
outandhehuggedme
Hi
m:Imi
ssedy
ou
Me:
imi
ssedy
out
oodaddy
Hi
m:iknowlet
sgoinit
schi
l
lyouthere.
..
wewal
ked
t
othehouseandheledmetothebedroom
Me:
Who'
shousei
sthi
s?
Him:
mymom'sbutshei
sintheVi
ll
agenowshe
comesher
eweekday
sbecausei
tsneart
heschool
s
Me:
under
standabl
eandwhatabouty
ou?
Hi
m:i
am sor
rysunshi
nei
wasbusy
Me:
busyshoot
ingpeopl
e?
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTWENTY-
FIVE

Hi
m:Andwher
edi
dyougett
hat
?
Me:t
hemedi
aandt
henewschannel
cantbel
yi
ng
r
ight
?
Him:wewereatt
ackedsunshineandwehadt
o
defendour
sel
vesyoucantblameus
Me:
Sobhut
iownsacl
ub?
Him:Cl
ubsandbar'
sbutthatsnotmypl
acetotell
youaboutyourf
amilybusi
ness..
hesay
staki
ng
pil
l
owsandbalanci
nghimselfhelay
edonthem and
pull
edmetohischesticar
essedit
Hi
m:Ouch!!
..
.hef
li
nchedi
qui
ckl
ysatupst
rai
ghtand
l
ookedathim
Me:
What
'swr
ong?
Hi
m:Iwasshotbabybuti
am f
inenow
Me:
l
etmeseet
hen
Him:
iam fi
nesunshi
ne.
..
igav
ehim ashar
plookhe
unzi
ppedhishoodi
eandshowedmethewoundit
hadaplast
er
Me:
Baby
..
.isai
dbr
ushi
ngi
t
Hi
m:i
thashealedbabyrel
axcomegiv
eyourdaddya
ki
sswekissedanditt
urnedi
ntoal
ongpassi
onate
ki
ssipul
l
edout
Hi
m:Andnow?
Me:
wecantbei
nti
mat
e..
..
hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:Why
?
Me:
Iam onmyper
iods
Hi
m:What
?!ar
eyounotinbir
thcont
rol
kant
i?.
..
shi
t
whydi
dil
ethim knowabouti
t
Me:
Yeahbuti
-i
-uhmmm
Hi
m:Zusist
opstut
ter
ingandspeakpr
oper
lywhati
s
t
heprobl
em it
houghtwewerefine
Me:Noitsj
ustthatidontf
eel
likehavi
nguhm y
ou
know.
.isai
dplayingwit
hmyfingersandl
ooki
ng
down
Hi
m:What
?!.
..
hesai
dsar
cast
ical
l
yso
Me:iam ser
iousbesi
dest
hisi
syourmot
her
shousei
ca.
.
Him:
Stopgivi
ngmeexcusesZusiphei
knowt hi
sis
mymot her
'shouseandwhat
everwhenyoudont
wanttoint
imatewit
hmethenit
sf i
neiwon'
tfor
ce
youtoit
Me:
Babypl
easeunder
stand
Hi
m:underst
andwhatZusi
?youdontwantt
otel
lme
t
hereasonbehindi
tmossandwealwayshadsexi
t
houghtyouli
kedit
Me:
Yesi
didbuti
justdontf
eel
li
kehav
ingi
ttoday
Hi
m:anddi
dyouhearmesayany
thi
ngawf
ul?
Me:
No
Him:Exact
lyihavee-mai
lestolookatexcuse
me...
hewalkedoutleavi
ngmei nawei dontget
Phil
aniimeanev er
yti
mei am wit
hhim weal ways
havesexisthiswhatthi
srel
ati
onshipisallabout?
i
am afri
adofaskinghimthoughi am notbrave
enoughbuti
wil
lasksi
sKhi
thaabouti
t
:
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Af
ter30minut
esofwonder
ingal
oneinhi
sroom he
wal
kedincarr
yingat
raywi
thgoodfoodandjui
ce
Him:Youcangoandwashy
ourhandsi
nthe
bathr
oom
Me:
Thanksbuti
am f
ull
..
.helookedatmeandhe
t
ookfor
kandknif
eandstart
edf eedi
ngme
Him:openyourmouth(idi
d)wi
derpl
easeasi
fyou
deepthroat
ingsunshi
ne..
..
igi
ggl
ed
Me:
Youar
egoi
ngt
ochokemewot
hfood
Hi
m:it
sal
lyourf
aul
topenup.
..
hef
edmeunt
ili
was
f
ull
Me:
Thanky
out
hatwasdel
i
cious
Hi
m:I
tsonl
yapl
easur
e..
hel
ayednextt
ome
Me:
!Ar
eyoudonechecki
ngy
oure-
mai
l
s?
Hi
m:Yeahsur
e..
hepul
l
edmet
ohi
schestandaf
tera
coupleofmi nutesi heardhim snoreohheisasl eep
andt hentherewasav ibrati
ononthedraweri went
tochecki tandi f
oundanoki aphonethoseones
withbut t
onsthenameoft hecall
erwasTer minator"
whatki ndofanamei st hatifel
thi
mt urni
ngiqui ckl
y
putitbackandf akedmysl eephet ookhisphone
andwal kedoutoft her oom heclosedthedoorand
thstwayi wouldn'thearat hingshi
t

KHI
THA

Iwasnowpackingcl
othesf
ormyhusbandhe'
s
fl
yi
ngtoCubatomorr
owmor ni
ng
Hi
m:Munt
uwami
<myper
son>
Me:
Ndoday
am <myman>
Hi
m:Iwi
l
lmi
ssy
oubabywami
..
.hesai
dsquezzi
ng
me
Me:
Nam f
uthi
buty
ouhav
etodot
hisl
ove
Hi
m: Yeahiam notchangi
ngmymindiam j
ust
l
ett
ingy ouknownjeandiwantt
obeherewhen
But
teri
sbor
n
Me:
Thatwi
l
lbesol
ovel
ymnt
uwam y
azi
Him:
Yeahbabyl
eav
ethosecl
othesi
needsome
goodbyesex
Me:OhLor
dhaveMercyonmycoochie!
!!
babypl
ease
keepi
nmindthati
am pr
egnantok?
Him:
iknowlov
eplusihear
dthatiti
sgoodhav
ing
sexwhi
lepr
egnanti
tmakesiteasytopush
Me:Maybet
oother
snottomeyourbi
gheadedki
ds
par
aly
zemeeveryt
imeigi
vebi
rt
h
Hi
m:Cany
oust
opcal
l
ingt
hem bi
gheaded
Me:
Nawey
oudocal
lthem moss
Hi
m:i
syoume?
ismey
ou?
..
.il
aughed
Me:
iwi
l
lmi
ssy
ounekhanda
Him:
iwil
lmissy
ouneFi
rengquza<coochi
e>.
..
i
coul
dn'
thel
piti
wasinsti
ches
Me:
Saywhat
?!soy
oul
ear
ningXhosanow?
Hi
m:y
es
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Myhusbandi
sleav
ingt
odayLor
dihat
egoodby
es
Hi
m:Dontcr
ynanamipl
easei
dontwantt
ochange
mymind.
..
hesai
dhuggi
ngmet i
ght
ly
Me:
Tel
lthedoctor
stospeedupt
hepr
ocessbaby
t
woweeksisfineican'
tgoamont
hwit
houtyou
Him:
Okmyl ov
ei wil
ltal
ktothem butnowyournani
hastol
eav
eok?. .
.wehuggedandki ssedhegotint
o
thej
eti
tur
nedt othecarandordedMaxt odr
ive

It
sbeenaweekwi t
houtmyhusbandweal
way
sskpe
call
ever
ydayany
timeiwaswit
hZuzuchi
ll
i
ngit
s
Fri
dayni
ght
her
:Sosi
sbhut
ihasacl
ub?
Me:
Yeaht
wooft
hem andt
wobar
's
Her
:ohandt
heshoot
ing?
Me:
it
sprobablyt
heroober
smaybet
heyweregoi
ng
t
otaket
heirchancesandi
tsnor
malf
orabusi
ness
mant ohaveagunZuzul ookNani hasalotof
enemiesthatwhathappensinthebusinessonce
youstar
tgoingwellpeopl
estarthati
ngony ou
i
nsteadofpull
ingthei
rsocksandbet t
eri
ngthei
r
busi
ness
Her
:Wowt
hat
'scr
azyy
oo
Me:
Yeapbusi
ness

ZUSI
PHE

Phil
aniandi
haven'
tbeenoklat
elysincei
deni
edhi
m
coochi
emen,,
iwassleepi
ngwheni gothi
scal
l
Hi
m:Iam out
side
Me:
It
slat
e
Hi
m:i
am awar
e
Me:
Noy oucancomeint
hecoasti
scl
ear
..
.af
ter5
mi
nutesorsoihear
dopenmydoor
Hi
m:Inear
lygotshotbyMax
Me:
ifor
gotaboutt
hegaur
dswehav
eiam sor
ry
Him;i
tsok..
..
hewasonl yleftwit
hhi sboxernowhe
gotundercoversandweki ssedheundr essedme
andthenhet ookof fhi
sboxer si l
ethim dowhathe
wantsplusimi ssedfeeli
nghi m hepushedhi sshaf
t
onmycunti scr eamed
Him:i am sorr
ysunshine..
.hesai dalr
eadyt hrust
ing
i
nmehewassodeepandf ucki
ngmehar di sweari
l
ostmymi ndhegavemeami ndblowingor gasm he
thenmademekneel ihatedodyi t
spainfulbuthe
l
ikesi tandhewasal readypoundi ngmymoanswer e
soloudnomat terhowi tr
iedsuppr essingt hem but
noi couldntholdbackPhilani hadmef orhoursandi
wasnowshi veri
ngandy enahewassl eepingand
snoringafteroursessioni sweari wil
lspendawhol e
3day snur si
ng
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

《Meanwhi
l
einCuba》

Bandi
l
ewasi naDroff
icei
tsbeenawhil
esi
ncehe
wasgivent
imetounwindandbereadyf
ort
hetal
k
Dr
:MrBi
yel
aar
eyour
eady
?
Bandi
l
e:Yesdoct
or.
..
hesai
dlooki
ngaway
Dr:
Wecanst
art
..
.Bandi
l
esni
ff
edt
hedoct
orgav
ehi
m
ti
ssues
Bandi l
e:I
twasonaWednesdaycomi ngbackf rom
school iwas8y earsoldeverydaywheni comeback
atschool iwoul dchangemyuni form andgot oplay
soccerandcamebackt akeabathesot hisotherday
myst epf athercamet omyr oom whilei was
l
otioningi wasbut tnakedhecameandbr ushedmy
buttandsqueezedi tiwassoconf usedmyemot i
ons
wereupsi dedownday sgobyandt henhest art
ed
mol esti
ngmeandt hatconti
nuedfory ears
Dr:
Tellmeaboutthef
irstt
imehedidit
..
Bandi
l
ecr
ied
andthenhedrankwaterandcont
inued
Bandi l
e:Iwasoutoft heshowerandhecamet odo
whathewoul ddol i
ket ouchmesexual l
yhe,,bentme
onbedandpenet ratedmef r
om behinditwasso
painfulicriedhecov er edmymout handtooka
vaselineandnour ishedmybut tholeandhi s
manhoodhet henf orcedhi mselfonemehet ooka
l
ongt i
mehumpi ngandwhenhewasdonehel i
edt o
mymot herandsai di wassi cksohewasev enthe
onet akingcar eofmeorsat isf
yinghimselfonme
for6y earst heni ranawayf r
om homei was14y ear
s
oldandi wentt olivewi thmyuncl ewhoi ntr
oduced
met ogangst erism het aughtmehowdocookand
selldrugswheni was16i wasar r
est
edi spent8
yearsbehi ndbar s
Dr:oki t
hinkitsenoughf orthedayyoucangoand
restwewi l
lreSumet omor r
ow..
Bandilewasso
messeduphewentt ohisroom andcr i
edhisphone
rangitwashi swif
ebuthei gnoreditandthoughthe
willcall
heragai nhef acedthecei
li
ngbuthef el
tso
l
ightlikehej ustof
floadedaheav yburdenonhis
shoul
der
shet
ookanov
elanddi
str
act
edhi
msel
f
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTWENTY-
SEVEN

KHI
THA

iwasatmyhousecl
eani
ngjusttodist
ractmysel
fi
hear
daknockandiwentt
oat t
enditBandil
e'
smom
camewit
hsomeothergi
rliwelcomedthem
BMom:nodontbothery
our
sel
fsi
siwear
enother
e
tost
ay.
.t
heysatdown
Me:
Oki
am notf
eel
i
nggood
BMom:
Pleasej
usthav
eanopenmi
ndaboutt
hisok?
Me:
oki
tsf
ine
BMom:
Tal
ksi
si.
.shesai
dref
err
ingt
othel
ady
Her:
okfi
rstofall
iwouldl
i
ket
osayi
am sor
ryf
or
whatiam abouttosay
Me:
Cont
inue
Her:Iam Mi l
lan'sf r
iendandwedi dsomet hingthati
am notpr oudofr ememberwheny ourhusbandwas
i
ncol ombi a?(inodded) Wef lewtoseehi mi twas
Mi l
l
an'sideawegott ohi sroom andfoundhi m
eatingsowesai ditwasaf ri
endlyvi
sitbutwe
druggedhi m andwepl easeuredourselveswi thhim
Mi l
l
ansai ditwasar evengesoshewef oundout
thatshewaspr egnantwi thBandi l
e'
sbabywhenshe
died..
.if
eltli
ket hiswhol ewor ldiscl
osingi nmei
didntknowhowt of eelhonest l
yBandileal waysfinds
awayt ost urbmyhear theal wayscutitintopieces
wheni leastexpect edit
Bmom:ibr
oughtherher
esoyoucanknowt
hereal
tr
uthi
meanhewasnothi msel
fwhenhedi
dthat
Me:
Cany
oual
ll
eav
emyhouse
Her
:iam sor
ryi
d
Me:isaidleavemyhouse!!
!.
.t
heyt ooktheirbagsand
l
eftrunningidontbuythi
sBandile'smotheris
coveri
ngupf orhi
m hedoesn'twantmet oseehim
wrongi walkedupst
air
sandt ookhi swhiskeyand
gul
pedi tdownandwentdownst airsifoundMax
Hi
m:Mem ar
eyouok?
Me:Yesi am callBabKhumal ot
of et
chmybabies..
i
wascr yi
ngMaxcal ledhi m andcomf ort
edmemy
aft
ereverythingthati hav edonef i
rthi
smarri
agealli
getisheartacheandemot ionalabuseBandi
lewent
toofarthatiswhyhewassomessedupbecausehe
kil
l
edhismi str
essexpl ainswhyhechangedhi s
passwordandgoi ngoutev eryt
imeheget sacal
lthi
s
explai
nsital l
iwil
l havet ofindthisl
adyshehaveto
explai
ntomewhat sgoi ngon
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

KHI
THA

Iwokeupwi thabangingheadachegoshi consumed

alcoholshitmyButterBandil
ewi l
lkil
lmei swearand
howdi digethereiwasi naguestr oom goodt hi
ng
thatisti
llhavemyclothesoni knowmy selfwheni
am drunki becomef r
iendl
ywithmycoochi efuck
Zuzuwal kedincarr
y i
ngatray
Me:Thatbet
terbeahangov
err
edemysweet
hear
t
am dyi
ng
Her
:Goodmor
ningsi
sorGoodaf
ter
moon
Me:
Whatt
imei
sit
?
Her
:Justpast3
Me:
Youl
i
e
Her:
Yeapandy est
erdayyouwereamessiam happy
theki
dsdi
dn'tseeyout heywer
easl
eepwhenwegot
here
Me:Owandthanky
oufordistr
acti
ngt
hem sweetsi
oweyouoneletmedr
inkthisandiwi
llgoandtakea
shower

Ical
l
edZaintohuntdownt
heladyandbr
ingheri
n
myoffi
ceandhedidiwasnowlooki
ngathershe
wasshiv
eri
ng
Me:
Youbett
erst
artt
alki
ngyoungl
adynobody
messsupwit
hwhatsmineandli
vetot
ellt
hetal
e
Her:
okok!!tr
uthisLi
ndi
weboughtmeandtobe
honestidontknowMill
anandidontev
enknowyour
husbandiam justamerest
udentwhodidt
his
becauseiwantedmoneytobuybooksand
cal
culat
or
Me: Goodthatwasn'thardnowt akeyourbagsand
l
eav emysi t
e...
shequicklystoodupandl ef
trunningi
placedmygunbackt omyhandbagi havetogot oa
doct orf
oracheckupasf orBandil
eiwi l
lnotsaya
thingtohimit'sti
mei playmycar dstooi fidieidie
i
fhe' snotgoingtodiefirstitookmycarkey sand
wentt oDrSmi thforacheckuphedi dcheckmeup
andgav emecertai
nmedsf ormetodri
nki drove
str
aighttomyhousei dontwanttoeverseeLi ndiwe
nearmyhouseandmyki dsshe'ssuchatrait
orhow
l
ongi ssheplani
ngtocov erupforhi
sdir
tysoni was
nowcr yi
ngigotacall
f r
om him
Hi
m:heynanami
Me:
Heynani
..
ifakedasmi
l
e
Hi
m:howar
eyouguy
s?
Me:
Wef
inewej
ustmi
ssy
oubabycomeback
Hi
m:Soonnanami
iwi
l
lbet
her
ewi
thy
ou
Me:
Oknanihav
eyouhear
dfr
om y
ourmot
her
r
ecent
ly?
Him:igothermisscal
liwi
l
lcal
lheraf
teri
hav
e
spokentomyf avor
it
ehumanbeing
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

I
tsMondaymi d-
dayidi
dntgot oworksot hatmeans
iam aloneinthishousemommyi s8mont hs
pregnanttodayaargcani giv
ebirt
halreadyiam so
ti
redofthisbigbell
ymnai wasbrowsingthroughmy
netfl
ixwhent hedoorfl
yopenedandBandi l
ebarges
i
ni didn'
tknowwhet hertoruntohim orjustsi
the
placedhisbagont hecouchi deci
dedt onotactok
whileiam not
Hi
m:Hi
sthandwasami
Me:Youarebackear
ly.
.isai
dashewaspul
l
ingme
i
ntohisembrace
Him:
Irecei
vedacal
lfr
om mymom y
est
erdaysoi
coul
dn'
tstaywi
nCuba
Me:
Mydeepestcondol
encest
oyourson/
daught
er
Hi
m:Babypl
easedontbel
i
ket
hat
Me:Soareyougoi
ngtobur
ryhi
ml i
keanyother
humanbeingorar
eyougoingt
ojustuhm gi
vehim
togover
nment?
Him:Thati
snotmycorncenri
ghtnowmycorncenis
youMaBi y
elawheni
trytodogoodbyyouif
ailnj
ei
dontknowwhattodoany mor
e
Me:i
fyoukeptyourpant
stoy
our
sel
fthi
swoul
dn'
tbe
happeni
ngBandil
e
Hi
m:Iknowbuti
twasbef
orei
gethel
p
Me:I
tdoesntsti
l
lmakeitri
ghtandwhatev
er
happensidontwantt
ibeinvol
vedandasfor
Li
ndiweidontwanthernearmyspaceandmyki
dsi
dontneedher
Him:Butyoucantdenyherki
dsy
ouknowshel
oves
hergrandki
dsnjenanami
Me:
Theseki
dsar
emi
neand,
,
ouch!
!!
Hi
m:Khi
thaar
eyouokwai
twhat
sgoi
ngoni
sthat
t
hewater?
Me:Stopaskingsill
yques..
OuchBandileit
hinkfuck
ouchhh...
hecarri
edmet ot
hecaranddr ov
et othe
hospi
tal iwasinlabourandwegotthereafter15min
iwast akentolabourwardandBandilewasbymy
si
dei gavebirt
ht oabeauti
fulbabyboywenamed
hi
m Qhawe
.
..
Iwokeupt
oaroom ful
lwi
thbal
lonsandgift
sbagi
wasinmybedr
oom whendidil
eavethehospit
al
agai
n
Ndi
le:
Aft
ert
heyweredonewi
thy
oui
askedt
hem t
o
di
schar
geyou.
..
wasil
oud
Me:
Ohokwher
e'smybaby
?
Ndi
l
e:Mymom t
ookhi
..
.igav
ehi
m ashar
plook
Me:
Sowhat
everi
saydoesntmat
tert
oyou?
Ndi
l
e:We'
vegotv
isi
tor
sbabypl
easej
ustl
eti
tsl
i
de
Me:
Getr
idofherbef
orei
causedr
amar
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Him:Babyididntcal
lhershej
ustcameandi coul
dn'
t
sayawor dtohertherearemyfr
iendsaroundsoi
dontwantpeopleknowingaboutouraff
airs.
..t
heevi
l
motherwalksin
Her:
Ohyouar
eawakei thoughtofgiv
inghi
m abat
h
andnomanithoughti
shouldasky oufi
rst
?
Me:Oryoushoul
d'
vehi
redast
udentt
obat
he
hi
m? .
..
shewassoshocked
Her
:Whywoul
didot
hat
?..
sheaskedf
aki
ngagi
ggl
e
Me:
Cani
hav
emysonLi
ndi
we?
Her:sur
e..
shegavememysoni tookhi
mi nt
omy
armsandLor dhelooksl
i
kehisf
atherwhenam i
goingtogivebi
rt
htoachildt
hat
sgoingtotakemy
l
ook
Ndil
e:mom i
thi
nkit
sbestf
ory
outol
eav
emywif
eis
noti
nagoodstatenowweneedt
obealone
Me:
For
ever
..
.iadded
Her
:OwbutNomkhi
thai
hav
emyr
easons
Me:
idontwantt
oheart
hem j
ustl
eav
emyhouse
Ndil
e:Iwil
lcomeandvi
sity
ousometi
mes.
..
they
huggedshestart
edsni
ff
ingcr
ocodi
l
etear
si am not
buyi
ngi t
Ndi
l
e:i
wi l
ltel
ltheother
stoleav
et ooiwi
llbeback
mami.
.inoddedafterhehadwalkedoutZuzuand
t
hesquadwal kedin
Them:
Nana!
!nana!
!nana!
!t
heywer
ejumpi
ngupand
down
zuzu:
youguy
sar
emaki
ngnoi
sey
oo
Me:Andhewasaboutt
osl
eep.
..
shet
ookhi
mint
o
herar
msandadoredhi
m
Zuzu:
hetookhi
sfat
her
'sl
ookandagl
i
mpseof
Baxol
ise
Me:
isawt
hatt
oo.
.wegi
ggl
ed
Zuzu:
Sowhati
shi
sname?
Me:
Qhawe
Zuzu:
AwuQhawel
ethuel
i
..shesai
dki
ssi
nghi
m
Nunu:
mulethengi
mbekela<gim hi
mt omesoi
can
pl
acehim her
e>shesai
dpoint
ingherback
Me:Nonunuuzomwisaumnt anam..shedemanded
hi
mi t
ri
eddist
ract
ingherbutgirl
letoutaloudsob
Ndi
l
e:Andnowwhyi
smypr
incesscr
ying
xoxo:
Shewant
sababy
Ndi
l
e:shehasonemoss
xoxo:may beshewantsarealone.
.hesaidshruggi
ng
hisshouldersBandil
echuckl
edtheyall
wentoutand
l
eftmewi thBandi
leandQhawewegav ehi m hi
sfi
rst
batheitwasahappymoment" buthebetrayedme"
mymi ndkeptonpl ayi
ngthatmymoodqui ckl
y
changed
Hi
m:Ar
eyouoknanami
?
Me:
Yeahi
justneedt
onur
semyst
it
ches
Hi
m:Needsomehel
p?
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTWENTY-
EIGHT

LI
NDI
WE

Idrovet omyhousei ntearsitreall

yhur t
sbecausei
thoughti wassav i
ngthei
rmar r
iageitpainstosee
mysonnotcopi ngi f
eelli
kei owehi m happiness
sincehewast akenawayf r
om mesoi wishi could
doany thingt
omakehi m happyi knowmay bei
crossedt hel
inenowbutBandi l
eadv icedmet hati
mustl etherbecalmf i
rstijustprayshef orgi
v esme

BANDI
LE

It
sbeenaweeksi nceQhawewasborn,
Iam happy
thatmydream ofhavi
ng8ki
dsissl
owlygoi
ngt obe
accompl
ishedbythewomani l
oveiknowiam or
maybewasajerkbutiam wil
l
ingtochangeoknowi
wasatt
heclubwiththeboysLuubeggedusto
showupbecauseit
sbeenawhi l
ePhilani
wasnot
wit
husthoughsoitwasjustt
hethreeofus
Sbu:Sonj
ayam howdoeskhi
that
akest
hiswhol
e
Mil
lanthi
ng?
Me:Idontknowmansheal
way
sbr
ushesi
tof
f
wheneveribri
ngi
tup
Luu:
Anddon'
tthi
nkshefor
gotabouti
tyouknow
womenareful
lofsur
pri
ses
Me:Iknowmanbuti
am gr
eat
ful
shel
etmebur
rymy
son
Sbu:
Soi
twasaboy
?
Me:
Yeap
Sbu:Squadbaf
o..
.welaughedt
henlateronwewere
j
oinedbyothergr
oupoff emal
estheywere8they
werealll
ooki
ngniceandall
Luu:
Hel
l
oladi
es
Them:Hi
/hey.
..
theysai
dint
hei
rsexi
estv
oiceswe
boughtmoreal
cohol
Lady
:Hi
arey
ouf
ine?
..
sheaskedf
aci
ngmydi
rect
ion
Me:
Yeahi
am f
inei
am j
ustt
hinki
ngofgoi
nghome
Lady
:I
sn'
tear
ly?
Me:
Ipr
omi
sedmywi
fet
obehomeear
ly
Lady
:Oh..
.shewassodi
ssapoi
ntedi
spentonl
y
30minut
esi nt
hei
rar
ri
val
Me:
Guy
sihav
etogonow
Luu:Ohyeahmani t
hinkiwil
lfoll
owsoon. .
.weall
fist
bumpedasi walkedtot heparki
nglottheni dr
oveon
mywayhomei boughtbr aai
dmeat (
steak)andchips
i
twaspast1am wheni gotinthehousei went
str
aightt
ithebedroom andkhi t
hawaspl acing
Qhaweonhi scoat
Her
:Youcamebackear
li
ert
hani
thought
Me:Yeahipr
omisedyouthatiwil
lbeher
ebefor
eyou
knowit,
Sodontyouwanttojoi
nmei boughtmeat
Her
:I
tspast1am ear
li
esthour
soft
hemor
ning
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Me:
IknowMaBi
yel
aiam j
ustcr
avi
ngi
tnj
enami
Her:
Okletmeeatt
hen.
..
shewenttot
hebat
hroom
andcamebackwipi
ngherhands
Me:
Didhegi
vey
ouahar
dti
me?
Her:
Nohe'
ssuchapeacef
ulhumanbei
ngsot
ell
me
aboutt
hecl
ub?
Me:I
twasokbabeweweredr
inki
ngandlatera
gr
oupoffemal
esjoi
nedusbutideci
dedtoleave
Her
:Whydi
dyoul
eav
e?
Me:
Stopchal
l
engi
ngmeMaBi
yel
a
Her
:iam j
ustmaki
ngaconv
ersat
iont
hat
'sal
l
Me:Ok.
..
.weateinsi
lencehonest
lyiam t
ir
edof
aski
ngforfor
giv
enessi wi
llwai
tforhert
obounce
back
KHI
THA

Qhawet urnstwomont hyheeyhmybabyi ssocut e

you'dswearhe' sagirlt
hisonei sgoingtobeal adies
manj ustlikehiscasnovafatheriwasdr oppingthem
offatday careitwashim andLubenat hiimadean
appointmentwi thadoctortodayi wanttotieupmy
fal
lopiantubesbecauseBandi lealwaysfindsout
wheni am incontr
apti
vessoi thinkthisi
sasaf e
wayonmywayouti mett hedoctorthatsneakedme
i
nOkuhl eswardlastti
mehe' swhi t
e
Hi
m:l
ongt
imemi
ssy
..
.igi
ggl
ed
Me:
HeyMi
ster
Him:Cani
hav
eahugy
our
obst
ar?
..
igi
ggl
edasi
huggedhi
m
Me:
Whyar
eyoucal
l
ingmel
i
ket
hat
?
Hi
m:Yougav
emewr
ongcel
l
phonenumber
s
Me:
OhmyGod.
.wel
aughed
Hi
m:cani
sti
l
lgett
hem?
Me:Yeahsur
e..
.ipunchedmynumber
sandgav
eitt
o
hi
m
Hi
m:Thanky
ousoyouar
e?.
.iusual
l
yint
roduce
mysel
fasMrsBi
yel
a
Me:
Justsav
ethem askhi
tha
Hi
m:That
'sani
cename
Me:
Andy
ouar
e?
Hi
m:ShaunMacker
s
Me:
DrMacker
s..
..
hesmi
l
led
Hi
m:Soundsper
fectwheny
oucalli
tyourvoi
cei
sso
ni
ceonewouldswearyour
ehear
sebeforeyout
alk
Me:
Ist
hatapi
ckupl
i
ne?
Hi
m:di
dimakei
tobv
ious?
..
..
wel
aughed
Me:
Ohmyy
ouar
esobad.
..
isai
dlaughi
ngagai
n
Him:Iam j
usthappyimadeyoulaughy
ouwal
kedi
n
asifyouwereheretofi
ght
..
.ismil
l
ed
Me:
Thanky
ouf
ort
hat
Hi
m:Let
'sdol
unchsomet
ime
Me:
Yeahsomet
imeev
eni
fit
sNexty
earr
ight
?
Hi
m:Noohnopl
easei
wontsur
viv
e
Me:am j
oki
ngwewill
tal
klooki
hav
etor
ush
somewhereok?by
eeee
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

It
hendr
ovet
otheof
fi
ceandf
oundBandi
l
einmy
of
fi
ce
Hi
m:Wherewer
eyou?
..
.ohshi
tidi
dntev
enhav
ea
meet
ing
Me:Iwentt
ohavebreakf
astwit
hadesi gneri
wantto
reDomyoffi
cei
tsbeenawhile..
.isai
dgoingtosi
t
down
Hi
m:Ohandi
camet
otel
lyout
hati
am headi
ngback
t
oCuba
Me:
Ohy
oudi
dment
ionsomet
hingl
i
ket
hatr
ight
?
Hi
m:Yeah
Me:Ohyesir
emembernowsoy
oul
eav
ingt
oday
?(he
nodded)wow
Hi
m:Nomkhit
hayouhavebeendistantt
omeamd
ev
ery
timeiwoul
dtal
ktoyouitseit
heryoumi
zeme
oryouswit
chmeof fsoidi
dntknowi
twi
ll
bot
her
youanywayical
ledbodygaur
dsandmamPat
tyt
o
hel
py ouwi
ththekids
Me:It
sokMenziwayourheal
thcomesfi
rst
..
.isai
d
huggingmeti
ghtl
yandallmyfeel
i
ngcameback
runnungismi
l
led
Him:
Iknowwearenoti
nagoodspacenowbutj
ust
knowthati
wil
lal
waysl
ovey
ou
Me:
Iwi
l
lal
way
slov
eyout
oonani
alway
s
Hi
m:Andforever.
..
.weki
ssedthenhewal
kedout
wheewthatwascloseiwenttositonmyt
abl
eand
or
deredi
ni havealotofworktodo
LATERi dr ovehomeandaskedZuzut ocooksi nce
Bandileisnotheresgewi l
lhavetoburnint
hepot s
andi wasont hephonewithMrdokotela<doctor>
he'sfunnyy ooandi l
ovehisBri
ti
shaccentilogged
i
nt oi
nstaandst alkedhi
m whoooawhehasav er
y
dulll
i
f ehehar dl
ypostonInstabutl
ooksgoodcant
standamanwho' ssoci
almediaobsessedthis
countsev eryoneonmyci r
cleso
iam sl
eepyi
foundmy
sel
fwr
it
ti
ngwr
ongnamessi
hayi
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

FRIDAYev eni
ngi am pr
epar i
ngformyl atenight
dinnerwithShaunt hedoct oriam inf
rontoft he
mi r
rordressingandundr essingican'tdecidewhat
towearbuti fi
nnalyt
ookmybl ackshor tti
ghtopen
backdr ess,Heel
sandi tookmyf urtotopi tall
and
myDGsl ingbagandt ookmycarkey si wentdown
stair
s
Zuzu:
Wowisitsti
ll
agal
adi
nnerori
ts"
Dinner
"?.
.she
askedwi
thasil
lygri
non
Me:Inbetweenthoseandi havetogo...
isai
d
l
aughingandwal ki
ngouti drovetothelocati
onhe
sentit'
soneoft herestaurantsBandil
etakemet oso
isaidwemustpi ckanotheronebecauset hatone
hasabor ingmenuwar awar aiwaslyingsowewent
totheonet hatspecial
i
zeswi thseafoodmy
husbandhat esitsowehar dl
ygothereweor dered
Hi
m:Youl
ooki
nggoodMi
ssy
..
.ibl
ushed
Me:Thanky
ouMi
stery
ounotbady
our
sel
f.
..
he
chuckl
ed
Hi
m:Comingfr
om you?
iwil
ltakei
t.
.welaughedwe
at
eourdi
nnerthr
oughatal
kandnowwewer e
st
andi
ngonabalconyathi
shousev i
ewingSandt
on
Me:
Sot
ell
meaboutt
hewomani
nyourl
i
fe?
Him:
Ohpl
easey
oudontwantmet
obor
eyoui
sn'
ti
t
r
ight
?
Me:Whyyouhar
dlyt
alkaboutherwhi
slty
ouaskme
aboutmyfami
ly
Hi
m:Let
'sj
ustsayi
tsanonandof
fthi
ng
Me:
Tel
lmeabouti
tit
'st
ir
ingi
know
Hi
m:Youar
esobeaut
if
uldoy
ouknowt
hat
?
Me:
Yesi
gett
hatal
ot.
.wegi
ggl
ed
Him:
iam ser
ioussweet
y..
hesai
dcuppi
ngmycheeks
ismi
ll
ed
Me:Thanky ou..
.welookedateachot
herf
orawhi
le
andafterthatwewer elosti
nthemomentwe
ki
ssedt hekisstur
nedi nt
osomethi
ngheat
yandnow
theclotheswer eflyi
ngar oundheybl amet hewine
yesthewi neitalwaysf ucksmeupsonowDr .
was
busygiv i
ngmeheadi wasi nmyownwor l
dgrabbing
thesheetsandf ollowingt herym afterthatiheard
him openingacondom andshi titsaliethatwhite
fol
ksgoti tsmal l
yesesi am f acingananaconda
herebutt helustkeepsmesanewel lhegotont op
ofmeandki ssedmyneckl eavingwetki ssestomy
breastistoppedhi m
Hi
m:i
for
got
..
wegi
ggl
edt
heni
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTWENTY-
NINE

Ohboyt hi
swhi t
emandi danumberonmycoochi e
shi
tiam evenshiveringandy enahei sfastasleepi
car
efull
yrol
ledoutofbedandt ookmycl othesi
worethem atthekitchenwentt omycaranddr ove
homewheni gotthereitwasj ustpast12am i drew
someairtheni wenttot akeaf ull
bathafterthati
wenttoZuzu'sroom andt ookQhawe
Her
:Nev
ert
houghty
ouwoul dcomebacki
wasabout
t
osendasear
chparty
..
.igi
ggl
ed
Me:OhpleaseiknowButt
erwasgoi
ngtogiveyoua
har
dtimeany waygobacktosl
eep.
..
iwal
kedoutand
wenttosleep
NEXTDAYIwaswokenupbyar i
ngi
ngphoneshi
tit
s
mid-
dayi
twasShauniaccept
edthecal
l
Hi
m:Fi
nal
lyshepi
cksupherphonei
waswor
ri
ed
si
ckhowareyou?
Me:Fi
rstofal
liam sor
ryf
orgi
vi
ngyouafri
ghtihav
e
aninf
antShaunandsecondl
yiam f
inet
hanksand
you?
Hi
m:am goodbutyoushould'
vewokenmeandl
et
meknowt haty
ouaregoing
Me:
Youl
ookedsopeacef
uli
nyoursl
eepnj
e
Him:
Aaargiwishi
canseet
hatbeaut
if
ulf
acewhen
yousay"
nje"
Me:
Saywhat
?!.
..
il
aughedhepr
onouncedi
tli
keaki
d
Him:getoutaahereandiwantt ot el
lyout
hatireall
y
dontregretwhathappenedy ester
dayandi would
repeati
tatanygivenday..
.iblushed
Me:
Iwi
shi
coul
dsayt
hesame
Hi
m:Noyoursi
tuati
onisunder
standabl
eki
ssmy
st
epki
dsforme...
il
aughed
Me:
Ohpl
ease
Him:What?
!iwasnotl
yi
ngwhenisai
dilov
eyou
duri
ngthedeedit
rul
ydolov
eyoukhi
tha
Me:
Youar
eput
ti
ngmeonav
eryakwar
dposi
ti
on
r
ightnow
Hi
m:i
knowbutl
oveal
way
sfi
ndsi
tswayr
ight
?
Me:
Yeahiknowandidontmeant
ober
udecani
t
akemyhusband'
scal
l?
Him:Yeahsur
ewi l
ltal
klat
erby ecupcakes..
.hemade
the"mncwaaa"beforehedisconnect
edi then
acceptedNdi
lescall
Hi
m:Sohowmanyt imesshoul
daper sonnoletme
r
ephr
asethatahusbandcal
ltoreachhiswi
fe?
Me:
iam sor
ryNt
shangasei
sleptl
atey
est
erdayi
wasbusywit
hwork
Hi
m:ohi
sit
?.shi
twhyi
shet
alki
ngl
i
ket
his
Me:
Yesnani
Hi
m:okmyi
missy
oul
ove
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Me:imi
ssy
outoomyl
ovewheni
sthatol
dwoman
l
ett
ingy
ougo?
Him:Sometimenextweeknanamiicantj
ustleave
wit
houtbeingful
lyrecov
erediwanttobeabet t
er
husbandforyounanami ihav
eputy outhr
oughal ot
ofshitandiam wil
l
ingtomakeitupt oy
ou
Me:iam happytohearthatNtshangasey
ouknow
whatwehav eisunbreakabl
e
Hi
m:unmi
stakabl
e..
wegi
ggl
edbutgui
l
ter
eng
momuGur
leng
Me:Comebackal
readyLubenat
hial
way
scomet
o
cal
lyouev
erymorni
ng
Him:Aargmyal arm Jehov
ahandpl
easedi
sci
pli
ne
hi
mi canthaveachildcal
li
ngmebymynamey ou
shouldstartcal
li
ngme" Baba"
Me:
What
?!.
.
Hi
m:yeshawuther
e'snothingwrongwit
hthat
Nomkhit
haiam 6yearsoldert
hany our
emember
?
Me:
Butthatdoesn'
tmeani
mustcal
lyoul
i
ket
hat
t
houghnani
Him:
Iam oldy
oudowhatisayokki ddo?.
..
.we
l
aughedandspokesomemor eaftert
hathe
di
scont
inuedt
hecall
shi
tipraythatBandi
ledoesn'
t
fi
ndsoutandihav
etoendthissoon
Iwokeupandt ookashoweraf t
ert hatIbathethe
ki
dsMamPat tyisonaweekendof fandZuzui sat
Phil
ani
'spl
acesoi will
justmakemy sel
fuseful
l i
heardadoorbellandwenttoattendi tt
herewasa
del
iver
yguyhehadf lowerschocolatesandabox
Me:
Thesear
efor
?
Hi
m:Khi
tha
Me:Oh...
hegavemeacl i
pboardtosignaf t
ert hati
gavehim aR100not etothankhimi wentt oopen
theboxtherewasaneckl aceandear i
ngsanda
note"
icouldn'
tresi
stthem it
houghtofy ouS. M"i
smill
edandt hecardontheflowers"thesear e
beauti
fulj
ustli
keyoucupcakeshopet oseey ou
soonS.M ♡"i wasallsmil
eswhenl astdidi get
theseimeany esmyhusbanddobuyt hesef orme
butonl
ywhenwehadaf ighttheyweresocuteand
wheniwasbusywi tht
hef lowersandneckl
acemy
ki
dswerealreadyf
ight
ingonwho' sgoingtogett
he
bi
ggerpieceonmychocol ate
Me:
Andwhogav
eyout
hatchocol
ate?
Them:
..
..
Me:Thebri
ngitt
omei tsminegoandgetyour
ki
nderj
oyshawu..
.iwal
kedupstai
rsl
eav
ingthem
di
sappoint
edandpuppyf aces
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

WEEKSLATERi wasinhospi t
alformycheckupi
ti
edmyt ubeslastweeksowheni wasdonewi t
hmy
gynecologisti
wentt oShaunsof fi
ceforaeveni
ng
quickiewhichlastedforhoursandi wasti
redidr
ove
homeandwheni gotthereisawPhi l
ani'
scarpar
ked
outsidethegarageImi zeditandwenti nAndholy
Mar r
yMot herofJesus
Ndil
e:MyWi
feishome...
hesaidpi
ckingmeupand
spi
nningmeyoooi wonderi
fiam notsmel
l
ing
anot
hermanscologne
Me:
Nani
pleasest
opitiwi
l
lpeef
ormy
sel
f.
..
heput
medownanswekissed
Hi
m:i
missedy
ounj
e
Me: i
mi ssedyout oomyl ov eletmegot othe
bathroom thenHi Phil
ani
..
..
i sai
dr ushingupstai
rsoh
shitifeelsorr
yf ormycoochi etodayBandileisgoi
ng
todemandf oritandi havetoot herchancei qui
ckly
ranmy sel
fabat handgoti nsidethet ubandsoaked
my selfaft
er20mi ni gotoutandl otionediworemy
dressandsl i
desi wentdownst airsandjoi
nedmy
familygordinnert herewasPhi lani,
Sbu,
Luu,Zuzuand
thekidswer easleepal r
eadysowewer etalkingnj e
whilsteat
ingNdi leslidhishandundermydr essand
massagedmycoochi eismi l
l
edaf tert
hatheki ssed
mewhent hedi nnerwasov ertheyallwentandwe
alsowentt osleepwhenwegott othebedroom
therewasnoconv ersat
ionatal lwewerekissi nghe
placedmeont opofourbednakedaf t
erthathewas
abouttogodownonmei hadtost ophim
Me:Nani
iwantuNt
shangasenotany
thi
ngel
se
pl
ease
Hi
m:Ohyoucan'
twaithuh?
..
hesai
drubbi
nghis
manhoodi
nmyinnerthi
ghsaft
ert
hathebanged
i
nsi
deofme
Him: Shi
tyouar esotightbaby .
..
yesitsswol l
en
kalokuhet ookmyl egsi nt
ohisshoul dersand
pinnedthem tomi nesohshi tthisisapuni shment
hewasdeeperanddeeperi couldntbearbuti l
ethi
m
behest art
edt hrust
inginmeandonl ythrowinghar
d
strokesiwasamoani ngmessandboyi feelsor
ry
formyabdomenhef uckedmef orabout3hour s
squareshiti
am abosstwodiffer
entdicksonedayi
am notproudofmyselfbecauseitpai
nsdownt her
e
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTHI
RTY

DAYSLATERt hingsbet weenNdi leandi weregoodi

spentthewhol el astweekwi t
hhim onlyhim so
todayisThur sdayspr i
ngcl eaningdayi j
ustgotback
from workandhol yshitmanhasdonespr i
ng
cleani
ngt hewhol ehouseexpectZuzu' sroom of coz
wer espectherpr ivacywheni gotinif
oundt hecar d
thatwassentwi thf ol
wer s,
boxofnecklacesand
chocolatesi st
aredatt hem andt houghtofr unning
outbuti cantrunawayf r
om thiswheewt hink
moGur lthinkithendr ewsomeai randwentt otakea
showerandwor emydr essBandilecamei ntothe
room whi l
ei wasbusybut t
oni
ngmydr ess
Hi
m:Ohyouback?
..
heaskedwhi
sltwr
appi
nghi
s
ar
msaroundme
Me:Yesmyl oveithoughty oumightwantsome
sexualdi
str
acti
onbef oretheki
dsar eback.
..
iwas
l
yingiam sexual
lydrainedbutihavetojustsof
ten
hi
m up
Hi
m:Wecanhav ethatl
aterMaBi
yel
afornowlet
s
t
alkaboutt
hesethi
ngs.
..
hesaidpoi
nti
ngatboxes
Me:Ohitsoneofthenewcli
entsatf
ourseasons
hotelhehasbeencrushi
ngonmeandi keptthem
becauseiwantedtoaskyouifi
tsoki
tiworet hem
Hi
m:Whatareyoui
mplyi
ngbydoingthat
?MaBi
yel
a
ar
eyoutr
yingt
osaythaticantaf
for
dthese
Me:
Nonani
idi
..
Hi
m:Shutthef
uckupandt akethesethi
ngsoutof
mysighti
magineotherman'
sgiftsi
nmyhousei n
my"BEDROOM"t hat
sdisr
espectNomkhitha
Me:Iam sor
ryNt
shangasei
didn'
tmeant
oof
fend
you
Hi
m:who'
she?
Me:
NoBandi
l
eyouar
enotgoi
ngt
ohur
thi
mri
ght
?
Hi
m:Whydoy
oucar
e?
Me:I
tsj
ustasil
l
ycrushBandi
l
eitsnotl
i
keweseei
ng
eachot
heroraomethi
ngandit
sokhavingacr
ush
i
tsnor
mal
hay
ibo
Hi
m:Whyar
eyoubei
ngdef
ensi
ve?
Me;Bandi l
eiam donewiththi
sconv er
sati
oni am not
i
nt hemoodt ofi
ghtorarguewit
hy ouicameear ly
sot haticanletyouhaveyourcoochiei
tsclearyou
dontwanti t.
..
isaidwal
kingawayihadt ocause
dramarandmyphoner angitwasShauni lookedat
i
tandl ookedathi m
Hi
m:Br
ingi
ther
e
Me:
..
.hesnappedi
tonmyhandandanswer
edi
t
Shaun:
Hey
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Heputt
hephoneonl
oudspeaker
Hi
m:Shaunhow'
sitman?
Shaun:
Iam goodandy
ou?
Hi
m:Iam goodhowcanwehel
pyou?
Shaun:
iwascal
l
ingMr
sBi
yel
aab.
..
Hi
m:Youal
readysai
dKhi
thawhyMr
snow?
Shaun:
Idi
dntwantt
odi
srepecty
ouasherhusband
Him:Conti
nuewhydidyoucal
lher?
..
iwaspray
ingoh
dearLordpleasei
am notr
eadytodiey
hii
i
i
Shaun:
Iam adoctoratMedi-
cli
nichergynecol
ogi
sti
wantedtot
ell
herthatmyschedul ei
sf r
eeshecan
pl
aceherappoint
mentfortuball
egonti
on(sp)
Hi
m:Appoi
ntmentf
orwhat
?
Shaun:
ater
m usedf
ort
yingf
all
opi
ant
ubes
Him:Okiwill
tel
lhert
hanksforthecal
l.
..
Iswal
l
owed
hardisShaunoutofhi
sfuckingmind
Me:
icanexpl
ainnani
Hi
m:Amal
egy
necol
ogi
st?whathappenedt
oKea?
Me:
I-
i.
.
Him:Nev ermi
ndNomkhi t
hadon'tsayany
thing.
..
he
sai
dt akingof
fhisshoesasheclimbedontopofhis
bedhet ookhisipodsandpal
yedmusicwhooa
Shauni sabutthole
Me:Canihav
emyphone?.
..
hel
ookedatmeand
pausedt
hemusi
ciguess
Hi
m:Mhh?
Me:
Cani
hav
emyphoneBandi
l
e?
Him:iam st
il
lbusywi
thi
tory
ouwantt
oconf
ront
yourdoct
or?
Me:
Noi t
smyphonemossy
ouhav
eyourownso
whyshouldi
str
uggl
e?
Hi
m:Whoboughti
t?
Me:
Youaresounbel
i
evabl
eyouknowy
oudi
sgust
meBandi
l
e
Hi
m:Youar
enotev
ensor
ryKhi
thay
ouar
enotev
en
sorr
ybecauseyouaretaki
ngdeci
soi
nsbehi
ndmy
backiam it
hattoxi
ctoyou?
Me:
NoBandi
l
eia.
.
Him:Nosav eitsaveyourener
gyMaBi yel
ai dont
wanttoloosei tiam t
ryi
ngbyallmeanst obri
ng
my sel
ftogetheryoucantakei
t..
.iwenttositdown
nexttohim
Me:Youwer enotgoi ngt oagr
eewithmenj eBandi l
e
youhar dl
ythinkabouthowi f
eelwheny oumaki ng
decisionsi t
slikey ouar eli
vi
nginmybodyi am
controlledbyy oui wantedtodowhati thinkisright
formenowIam t heonewhocar ri
esthebaby ,
give
bir
th,gy m andbr i
ngmybodybackt onormal j
ustto
keepy oureyesgl uedt omei sol
dmysoul t
oy ouand
nawey oumani pulatedmeBandi l
ei wanty outo
under standthati didthis
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Me:Bandil
eiknowyouweregoi
ngtoi
mpr egnat
eme
againwhisl
tQhaweisst
il
lachi
l
diam notreadyfor
thatdoyouknowwomengot hr
oughmotherhood
depressi
on?
Hi
m:I
--
i
Me:Donttakethi
sinarudewaybutthat
sityoumen
dontact
uallyknowwhatwegot hr
oughNaniidon'
t
mindgivi
ngy ou29ki
dsbutatl
eastwhentheother
tur
ns2/3yearswecandoanotheroneandyoudont
wantustousecondomssot hi
swasasaf eway
Hi
m:I
sitper
manent
?
Me:
Noi
tsnoti
tiedt
hem i
didn'
tcutt
hem
Him:
Oknanami phel
aminaididntgogoschoolal
li
knowisbusinesshenceisai
dtalktomeandmake
meunderstandy oucangoandseey ourdoct
ort
hen
Me:
Arey
ousur
ebaby
?..
.henodded
him:Yeahusemycar
..
.hewantt
isendsomeoneand
tai
lme
Me:oki
wil
lbebackbef
oreyouknowit.
..
iki
ssedhim
andwal
kedoutidr
ovei
nhisFerar
iical
ledShaun
Hi
m:Hi
Me:
mot
herf
uckerwher
ear
eyou?
Hi
m;att
hehospi
tal
Me:perf
ectiam comi
ng...
iwasfumi
ngigott
othe
hospi
talandwentstr
aighttohi
soff
icei
goti
nand
l
ockeethedoor
Hi
m:Youl
ooksexy
Me:
Whydi
dyout
ell
him aboutmyt
ying?
Hi
m:i
didntknowwhatt
osayandi
twasear
lyf
ory
ou
t
obehome
Me:it
oldy
out
hathei
sbacky
ouhav
etowai
tformy
cal
l
Him:am sorryiwill
keepthatinmi ndbutimissed
you..
.hegavemeapant ydroppersmilehecame
closert
omeandgav emeat ighthughegr abbedmy
assandpr essedmet ofeelhisbulgeimoanedwe
ki
ssedhepi nnedmeont hewal l
andi wrappedmy
l
egsonhi swai sthetookmet ohistableandgav e
meaheadaf terthatt
hepul
l
edhisdickandwor ea
condom andbangedinmeweandst artedthr
usti
ng
i
nmehepoundedandpoundedmef asterunt
ilwe
bothcamehet hentookawipeandcleanedme
Hi
m:i
missedt
hiscupcake
Me:
Met
oo.
..
weki
ssed
Hi
m:whenar
eyoudi
vor
cinghi
m agai
n?
Me:
Didi
sayi
wil
l
?
Hi
m:Noidontwanttosneakar
oundiwanty
out
obe
MrsMacker
sbeauti
fuli
needyoulov
e
Me:
Ihav
etogoShaunmyhusbandi
sadanger
ous
manwehavet
obecaref
ul
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

BANDI
LE

I
tsFri
dayaft
ernooni deci
dedtodri
veandseemy
wif
eatworkbuti gottothehot
elshealwaysworkat
idi
dntfi
ndhericheckedherintherest
aurantandi
wast ol
dthatshewentt otheHot el i
nCent uri
oni
drovethereiwast i
redhonest lyishould'
vecal l
edher
iwenttoherof f
iceandst i
llnolucki wentt ositi
n
heroffi
cechairtorelaxiopenedherdr aweri found
heripaditwason0%butt hescreenwasst i
ll
oni
swippeditandohi tseemsl ikeshewaswat ching
pornwheni playedititshutteddownandi sawt wo
belt
sandaboxeronherdr awerandmybl oodboi l
ed
what?andwheni thoughti haveseeni tal
l isaw
usedcondomsandi fel
tnakedsamet imei gulped
downt hewaterwhi chwasont het abl
ei t
ookt he
i
padandmycarkey sabdwal kedouti metherPA
Her
:MrBi
yelat
her
ewasacl i
entl
ooki
ngf
orMr
s
Bi
yel
abutshewentouthour
sago
Me:Tel
l hi
mt or escheduleorsomethingiam rushing
somewher e..
.idismissedherandidrovetomy
houseandwentt oputiti
nthechargerit
henwentt o
seewhati sawear li
eronandshiti
wasshi v er
ing
andgotangr ywhocheat sonherhusbandandmake
asextapewi thhersi deandshesleepswithhi min
myof f
icethatsmi neever
ythi
ngismineicr ushediti
wasmadi tookt hegolfsti
ckandbrokeev eryti
ngi
cameacr osswi t
hthemirr
ors,
Windowsand
everyti
ngi satdownandcr iediknowiwasnot
perfectbuti wascontr
oll
edbysomet hi
ngiwanst
my selfYenashegoesoutt hereandundressmehe
should'vedivorcedmethanbreakingmyheartthi
s
muchi giveherthecupiam damagedi am br
okeni
feelcompl et
elynakeditookmyphoneandcal l
ed
mymom
Her
:Heyboy
Me:Canyoupleasetakeal
lmyki
dsNomkhi
thaandi
gotsomethi
ngtotakecareof
Her
:ar
eyouokson?
Me:
Yesma.
.idr
oppedt
hecal
landcal
l
edzuzu
Her
:hi
bhut
i
Me:Angel
cany oupl
easegot
omomspl
acei
wil
l
comeandf et
chyoulat
er?
Her
:Notapr
obl
em bhut
i
me:sur
e..
.idi
sconnect
edthecal
landwentt
ogul
p
downmywhi skeyandcri
ed
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTHI
RTY

KHI
THA

LATERi justgotacallfr
om myP. Asayingmy
husbandcamel ooki
ngformeatt heof fi
ceHe
knowst hatonFr i
day'
siam atFourseasonssohe
drovetoCent ur
ionit
sobv i
ousthathelookedf
orme
i
nallofficesiwasshaking
Shaun:
Arey
ouokmami
..
.heaskedhel
pingme
butt
onupmydress
Me:
Noihavethi
sf eel
i
ngBandi
l
ehasbeenl
ooki
ng
f
ormeattheoff
ices
Shaun:
Youguy shavesomanycompaniesjustl
i
e
aboutacli
enthewil
lunder
standy
ou.
..
.hesaidgi
ving
meaki ss
Me:
Oki
wil
lsendy
ouat
extwheni
gethome.
..
.we
ki
ssedandhel
edmet
othecarwehadal
ong
passi
onat
eki
ss
Hi
m:i
lov
eyoumyQueen
Me:IloveyoutoomyKing.
..
..
yesi havecatched
feel
ingsiam notsur
eaboutthi
st houghigotinsi
de
mycaranddr ovehomeandpar kedmycaratt he
garage

BANDI
LE

Ihear
dKhitha'scarpul
l
ingoffy
essheishomei was
downstai
rsdrinki
ngbeeriwasnotdr
unkjustt
ipsy
shegotinallsmil
es
Her
;Heynani
Me:
Youcamehomel
atebabyi
tspast6pm now
Her:
Ihadbackt
obackmeet
ingsi
nPr
etor
ia.
..
ow
she'
slyi
ngtome
Me:
Whatki
ndofmeet
ingsorCl
ient
swereyoubusy
wi
thwasi
tadi
ckappoint
mentorsomet
hing?
..
her
ey
esshootl
ooki
ngl
i
ket
heywer
eaboutt
ofal
lof
f
Her:Bandi
l
ewhatarey
outryi
ngtosay?i
waswit
hthe
cl
ientrememberwewil
lbesponsor
ingt
hePr
otea
hotelnow
Me:Owi tsl
i
ppedmymindam sor
rynanamiar
en'
t
youhungryiwantust
owatchapornmaybetr
yto
upgradeoursexl
if
e?
Her
;Iwi
l
lhav
etot
akeashowerf
ir
st
Me:Nonosweet
hear
tiwantt otast
eyoursweati
ts
ok.
..
shel
ookedatmedefeatediwastry
ingbyall
meanstokeepmysel
fupright
Her:
ohok..
...
shewassouncomfortabl
ewesatdown
andatewithadist
antconver
sat
ionhereandt
here
aft
erthati
ledhertothel
aunge
Me:
Canwepleasegetnakedi
hat
ewat
chi
ngpor
n
wi
thmycl
otheson
Her:Surenoprobl
em.
..
weundressedthenerv
eof
thi
swomansoshedoesntcar eifshesmell
sanother
man' ssweatweundr
essedandi commandedherto
giv
emeahead
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

KHI
THA

Aft
eriwasdonegivi
nghim someheadhe
commandedmet oturnar
oundandtryanal
iwas
sweat
ywenev erdi
ditwhytoday
?
Me;Babyiam notcomf
ort
abl
ewi
tht
his.
.i
complai
ned
Him:isaidwear eupgr
adingNomkhi tharemember
nowbendov erdontwastemyt ime..
.idi
dandhe
chuckledafterthathenourishedmybut thol
ewith
thelubri
cantandt henif
elthim ontheent r
anceisai
d
alit
tl
epr ayeraftert
hatifel
thim pushinghisheadit
waspai nfulheheldmywai sttightandforced
himselfifli
nched
Him:Dontyoudaremesswi
thmeNomkhi
thai
sai
d
bendover!
!.
..
icr
ied
Me:It
spainf
ulBandi
l
e..
.icr
iedheslappedmybut
t
cheekssohardandfor
cefull
ypenetr
atedmeunt
il
theheadwasisthenhepushedi
tandst
art
pleasur
inghi
mselfi
wascryi
ngthewhol
eti
me
Me:Bandil
eit'
spainfulnoican'tbearthepain..
.i
screamedandcr i
edi fel
tli
keiwasbei ngteared
apartaf
terhedidn'tst
opunt i
lhecameaf ter10
minutesofpainisleptinmyst omachandcr iedso
hardaft
erthatheturnedmet ohi mi wasshaking
Him:Isai
dwewi ll
watchpor
nNomkhit
ha..
.he
swit
chedont hetvansdwai
tami
nuteiknowt hat
room helookedatme
Hi
m:Seei
ngsomet
hingf
ami
l
iar
?
Me:Bandi
l
epl
easeswi
tchi
tof
fBandi
l
e..
.iwasonmy
knees
Him:
Why?!Nomkhi
thay
ousav
edt
hisv
ideof
ormet
o
seei
tri
ght
?
Me:Bandi
l
ei canexpl
ainpl
easenanihearmeouti
ca.
..
heshut t
edmewi t
hahotslapicri
edheslapped
mecountlessti
mes
Hi
m:Yougooutt
her
eandbeahoewenahuh?
Me:
NoBandi
l
ei.
.
Him:Youwhathuh?(
hesaidopeni
ngmylegs)Iwant
togivei
tallt
oyouandtel
lmewher ei
am fai
l
ingto
sati
sfyyou
Me:Bandil
epleasethat'
snothowweshoul dr esol
ve
thi
spl.
.ahhh.
..
.heenteredmewi t
hforceiwasdr y
andnktreadyforhim hegav emedeeperst rokes
andthrust
siwascr yingididn'
tenjoyithefl
ippedme
overandwentf ormybut tholeagainhefuckedme
thenhecameandst opped
Hi
m:I
sheanybet
ter
?
Me:No.
..
isai
dhi
ccupi
nghet
ookhi
sgucci
bel
tand
gav
emeabeat i
ng
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Whenhewasdoneheknel
tdownandcr
iedhe
huggedmeandki
ssedme
Him:Iwi
llal
wayslovey ounanami..
.hekissedmy
t
empl eandhewalkedupst ai
rsiwasl ayi
ngont he
f
loorihadnopowerl efti
nmeaf terthathepi cked
meupandl ookedmei nt heeyesisawabr oken
manhewashur tbuti hatedhi
m sobad
Him:Thesear eyourbagsLeav emysi ghtNomkhi tha
idontwanty ouanymor eitsovergoandst aywi th
yourdoct oriam taki
ngy ourcardsandmy
compani esi workedhardf ort
hoset hi
ngsi cant
l
ooset hem ov eryoucallshaunt ocomeandf et
ch
you..
.hewal kedoutwi t
ht hesuitcasesfi
ll
edupwi th
mycl ot
hesi guessili
mpedouti tr
iedwalki
ngt othe
gateheal readycall
edanuberwheni waswai ti
ngf or
i
thehuggedmeagai nandcr i
edonmyar msi was
cryi
ngtooheki ssedmeandl i
plockedwithmef ora
l
ongaf ter
Hi
m:Ourl
ovei
sal
way
sandf
orev
erbuti
hav
etol
et
yougo.
..
myuberar
ri
vedt
hedr
ivercamet
oloadmy
bags
Ilookedathimforal ongti
meandgoti nt
othecari
toldthedri
verwherei wasgoingShaunismyonly
optionisatonmyhi psmyasswaspai nful
liwas
sobbingthewholedr i
veaftert
hatical
l
edShaunto
comeandopent hegat ef
orme
Him:
Whodi
dthi
stoy
ou?
oht
hatst
upi
dhehur
tyou
sobad?
Me:Yes..
isai
dcry
inghecomf
ort
edmeandt
ookmy
bagsinsi
dethehouse
Hi
m:i
wil
lruny
ouabat
hok?
Me:Ineedi
t.
.wewentupst
air
sandhedi
daf
tert
hati
denuded
Hi
m:Whatt
hef
uckt
hismani
sinsane
Me:
Her
apedmeShaun
Hi
m:Wehav
etocal
lthepol
i
ce
Me:
It
susel
esst
rustmei
tis.
..
igoti
nthet
ub
Hi
m:andy
ourki
ds?
Me:idoubtiwi
llhavethem hei smor epower
fult
han
anymani nJoburgbuti wil
lhavetot r
yandfi
ghtfor
them heeventookeveryti
ngi hadthecompanyhe
gavemehet ookitmycar dsev er
ytj
ingheonlygave
mecl ot
hesShaun..
.icr
ied
Him:Wearei
nthistoget
herokcupcakes?.
..
inodded
ial
waysknewthatBandil
eisheart
lessnowthis
yi
Lastnumberbutweallknowthatever
ydoghasi t
s
ownday
Hi
m:Iwi
l
lgoandmakef
ood
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Ithasbeendar kday sofmyl ifei struggledwal ki

ng
for2day sandi coul dn'tseatpr oper l
ybecausemy
asswast ornapar t
.Shaunhasbeenagoodhel pi
thankhi m ever ydayofmyl ifePhi lanitookzuzut o
KZNj ustt odist r
actherf rom what sgoi ngoni cant
hav eherseemei nt hiswayi am herr ol
emodel i
hav eseent hati nherdi aryshesay sshel ooksupt o
mel itt
ledidsheknowst hatwel ivebybl oodmoney
peopl elooset hei rkids,spouses, sibli
ngsandpar ent
s
throughdr ugsbutweov erl
ookt hatandst i
llmake
money ,
Bandi l
ei sal soi nhumant raffi
ckingbut
nobodyev ertalksaboutt hatiti salway sslidunder
thecar petohmyi am nowl ivingl i
kear atinahouse
fullofcatsbecauseShaun' swi feisbackf r
om US
shewasst udy ingi nHav ardthewhol etimeShaun
playedmeandnowi havet opl aymai dinhi shouse
yeskal okui don' thav eany thingandi dontknow
wher etogof r
om her eTinaandKoket soar emygi r
ls
buti dontwantt hem t oseemet hisslow,Shaun's
wifeabusesmeev ery t
imesheget sachancet oshe
evenmakemewashhercl
othesbyhandasi
was
cl
eani
ngint
hebal
conyshecametomeholdi
nga
gun
Her:
Youhavebeeni
nmyhousesleepingi
nmybed
wit
hmyhusbandandiam f
ucki
ngtiredofyoubl
ack
monkeyheshootmetwi
ceint
hebellyand
scr
eamed""
Me:
Aaaahhhhh
Voices:
Sisi
!!
/Nanami
!!
!!
/Mama!!
!.
..
ifel
thands
shakingmeandohshiticri
ed
Ndil
e:am sor
rymyl
ovear
eyouok?
..
.ihuggedhi
m so
t
ightandsobbed
Ndi
le:
i
twasjustadr
eam babyi
twasj
ustadream
Nanami.
..
hesai
dcar
essi
ngmybackasisobbedin
hi
sembrace
Ndi
l
e:i
am her
emyl
oveoki
am her
eam sor
ry
Me:
i
tfel
tsor
eal
nani
icantt
akei
t
Ndi
l
e:Zuzugoandmakehercof
feepl
ease
Me;Noiwanty
ounani
iwanty
out
ohol
dmet
ight
andpromi
setonev
erl
eav
eme
Ndi
le:
idopromi
senanami
let
'sgoupst
air
stheki
ds
ar
ewor r
ied
Xoxo:
Daddyi
smommyok?
Ndil
e:Yesboyshej
usthadanightmaretel
lsi
sZuzu
tomakey ousomet
hingtoeatok?.
.hecar
ri
edme
upst
airsit
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTHI
RTY-
TWO

Wegotint
oourbedr
oom andi
twaspeaceful
and
oursonQhawewassleepi
ngi
lookedar
oundit
Ndi
le:
Babyar
eyour
eadyt
otel
lmewhaty
oudr
eamt
of
?
Me:Nonani
ijustwantt
osleep.
..
hecomf
ort
edme
andki
ssedmyf or
eheadtwi
ce
Ndil
e:I
tsokmylovehowaboutwesl
eepori
wil
ltel
l
youabednightst
ory
Me:Iknowyouar
egoodatthatbuti
dontwantt
o
sl
eepmyl ov
eisl
eptenough
Ndil
e:Ohokmylov
e...
.wedenudedandwentt
obed
nakedandwecuddled
Me:
Imi
ssedt
his.
..
weki
ssedandgi
ggl
ed
Him:Babyihav
et houghtaboutthi
stubalnt
onnton
ofyoursandithi
nkniagreewithyouoktheres
absol
utel
ynor
ushwear
egoi
ngt
obet
oget
her
for
ever
Me:
Thanky
ouNt
shangasekaMenzi
wa
Ndile:
Yeahi wil
lhavetoswallowthi
sZul
upr
ideev
en
thoughitschil
lyi
yababaiPri
dey oot
hat
swhyihar
dly
swal l
owit.
..
.il
aughedhyster
ical
ly
Me:Aaar
gbutGodl
ovesmehegavemehismost
cr
azysontobemyhusbandi
am l
ucky
..
.wel
aughed
Ndil
e:Ihateseej
ngy
ouwor
kedupnanami
iwanty
ou
happyev er
yday
Me:
Thanky
ouonceagai
nBabBi
yel
a
Ndi
le:andst
art
ingf
rom t
odayy
ouwi
l
lcal
lmel
i
ke
t
hatiy
ezwana?
Me:
YeboBab'
Biy
ela.
..
.hesmi
l
ed
Ndi
le:
NextweekwehavetobeatKZNigotacal
l
t
hatther
e'sat
radi
ti
onal
cer
emonyandwehavea
meeti
ngtomorr
ow
Me:
ohy
eah?
!
Ndi
l
e:Yeahmom cal
l
edmet
hisaf
ter
noon
Me:
Soi
hav
etogot
oherhouse?
Ndi
l
e:Youhav etof
orgi
vehernanami
andf
reeher
f
rom yourheart
Me:
Nev
er!
!
Ndil
e:t
heny
ouwill
haveunnecessar
yhat
ethatwil
l
eatyouupf
orgi
vehernott
hatshedeser
vesitbut
fory
ourownpeaceandsani
ty
Me:
AwumeMot
ivat
or
Ndil
e:Icanmoti
vat
ey ouinanot
herwaythough
shawty..
.hesai
dwithhispant
ydroppersmil
e
Me:Ohpl
easei
needsomemot
ivat
ionv
ele.
.he
l
aughed
Ndile:
"Ohshel i
kesit(
hebr ushedhismanhood)oh
shewant sit"hewassi ngi
ngasweki ssedand
madesweetl ovedamnt hatdream gotmei hav
et o
breakthingsoffwithShauni cantl
oosemyf amily
overlustit
snotev enitit
srevenge
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

SHAUN

SUNDAYAf t
ernooni knowi tsnotwisebuti miss
Khithai thinki havefal
lenforhersodeepi havea
fi
ancèshe' spregnantandsomymot hersai dshe
mustl ivewot hherunt i
l shegivesbir
thokbackt o
myf eelsi havemademyr esearchaboutBi yelaand
shithe'sawel lknownbusi nessmogul he'ssaidto
bebr utalbutt urnedweakaf terhegotmar ri
ed
may bet hatiswhygangst ersareadvicednott o
mar rybecauseawomancanchangeani ggabuti
willfi
ghtf orwhati feelitcantbejustaf li
ngam sure
shef eelsthesameaboutme, maybethiswas
supposet obe, maybei am herrescuewhati fher
husbandi sabusi ngher?okmustbeabi ttoomuch
buti havet oshootmyshoti sawheronl i
neonapp
theni texther
Me:
Heycupcake
Her
:Shaun
Me:
Imi
ssy
ousobad(
andsentacr
yingemoj
i
)
Her:Wewi ll
meetdur i
ngtheweekam woththe
familynow...
sheloggedoutwowi st
hishow
sidedishesaret
reatedithur
tsdamni
t

KHI
THA

Iwaswithmyf amil
ychil
li
ngoutsidethekidswer
e
pl
ayingswingsandzuzuwasbusypl ayingmake-
up
wit
hSpheandmyhusband, IandButt
erwer el
ayi
ng
onthegreenunderatree
Hi
m:Whati
sit
?
Me:
Not
hingi
am j
ustr
epl
yi
ngt
omyDMs
Hi
m:Ok
Me:
igotat
extfr
om aunt
Cebosay
ingt
hatt
her
e'sno
f
oodandbever
agesfort
hecer
emony
Hi
m:Real
l
y?!
Me:I
maginetheypl
ant
odoaceremony
,setadat
e
butt
heydonthavemoneyt
ofundi
thownice?
Hi
m:Wehav
etost
epi
nnanami
Me:Theyshoul
d'v
esaidBandi
l
eandNomkhi t
haar
e
abouttodoceremonyandgui
deusonhowt o
handl
et hi
ngsi
tsobvi
ousitwi
llbedonebyus
Him:
Babyt
hisi
smyf
ami
l
yitseemsl
i
key
oudon'
t
gett
hat
Me:I
naddit
ionTheonet
hatonl
yknowsyouareal
i
ve
whentheyneedmoneyt
hesepeopl
ewil
lmil
kyou
nani
Hi
m:Canwenott
alkaboutt
hat
?
Me:
Sur
esohow'
stheoper
ati
ons?
Hi
m:Goodnext
weekendi wi
ll
beflyi
ngtoRussi
agot
abombasscli
entbabyzakazakazaka
Me:
ithoughty
ouwer
eleav
ingt
hist
hingmoss
Hi
m:Iwi
l
lwheni
hav
efi
xedmy
li
fe
Me:
Trustmei
twi
l
lnev
erbe
[
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

MONDAYj ustaft
erl unchi didn'thavewor ktodosoi
thougtletmegoandandseeShauni wantt obr eak
thi
ngswi thhi
m andaf t
erthati hitthegy mi know
wegotahomegy m buti justwantt oseepeopl eand
may bemakenewf riendst heonesi haveareal way s
busysoi tookmybagsandt oldmyhandbagandl eft
iwasdr iv
ingmybr andnewcary esiboughtabr and
newBMW i 8formy selfiam sopr oudi drovet o
Shaun'splacehewaswor kingni ghtshiftsoy eah
he'shomei gotinandpar kedmycart henwal kedto
thehouse
Me:
Knockknock!
!!
!
Hi
m:Comi
ng.
..
.ij
ustopenedhi
sdoorandwal
kedi
n
Me:
hi.
.isai
donal
owvoi
cebecausei
tlooksl
i
kehe
waswit
hsomeoneel
se
Hi
m:Ohidiďntknowyoucomi
ng.
..
.al
adywi
tha
r
oundbel
lywalkedtous
Her
:Hi
ladyhowar
eyou?
Me:
iam f
ine.
..
shelookedatmefr
om myt
oesupt
o
myheadbit
chilookli
kemoneystopi
t
Her
:Howcanwehel
pyou?
Me:Iwasher
etoseeShaunnowt
hathehas
companyiwil
ll
eav
e
Hi
m;Nonouhmm Al
i
shi
awi
l
lhav
etowai
tthi
sis
i
mport
ant
Me:
Nowecanst
il
lmeetsomeot
hert
ime
Hi
m:Nowecan'
t
Her:
Itscl
eart
haty
'al
l don'
twantmeintrudi
ngtoyour
busi
nessessoiwil
lleaveshetookhercarkey
sand
stor
medoutaargpregnantwomenwi thdramar
Him:Imissedyoucupcakes.
..
hesai
dfor
cef
ull
y
huggingmei pushedhi
m away
Me:Nostopi
tmanicameher et
obreakthingsof
f
whatev
erwehadisovershaun.
..
helaughed
Hi
m:That
sabadj
oker
ight
?..
.ikeptast
rai
ghtf
ace
Me:That
'sall
iwantedtosayby
ee.
..
iwal
kedaway
buthepull
edmet ohim
Hi
m:Youcan'
tdot
hatkhi
thanoy
ouwon'
t
Me:
Shaunletgoofmyhandbef
orei
dosomet
hing
t
hatiwi
ll
regretof
Hi
m:ohagangster
swifeact
ingal l
toughhuh..
i
wr
estl
edhimtr
yingtof
reemy selfbutnoluckhehi
t
mewithsomet
hinganditwaslightsoff

ZUSI
PHE

Lat
eronMondayi dr
ovetoPhil
ani'
splaceit
sbeen3
day
swithoutseei
ngmymani wenttoknockandlet
mysel
finhewasbusycleani
ngwi t
hhisipodsoni
wal
kedtohim andwrappedmyarmsar ound
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Iwr
appedmyar
msar
oundhi
swai
sthej
umpedi
l
aughed
Me:
Cowar
d
Hi
m:Yougotmet herebabyihat
epeopl
esneaki
ng
uponmemi ghthaveactedbadl
y
Me:Idi
dn'
tknowsweetdaddyi
missedy
ou.
.we
ki
ssed
Hi
m:Iknowyoudi
d..
.hi
sphoner
angandhewentt
o
si
tdownandansweredi
thewasonfacet
imei
st
oodther
eandwatched
voi
ces:Daddy
!!
daddy!
!daddy
!!
..
..
theyshout
edwit
hjoy
t
hesmi leonhisf
acewaspr i
cel
essisatdownand
watched
Him:Mybabies!
!mybabies!
!!
..
heshout
edwi
thj
oy
backandthekidsgi
ggledsohedid
Them:Daddywhenareyoucomi
ngback?
..
iguess
that
stheoldersonSi
pho
Hi
m:i
wast
her
ethi
sweekendboymoss
Voice:
Daddyngicel
aiSweetugogoakangi
niki
<cani
pleasehaveacandygrannydoesn'
tgi
veitt
ome>
saidali
ttl
egi
rl
yv oi
ce
Voice:Heey i
ninangizothathaleyophone
mani zophapha<heyy oui wil
ltaket hatphonewhen
i
fy ouar ef orward>.
..
theygiggledandapol ogi
sed
theirconv ersati
ontookl ongbuti wasn'tcomplai
ning
thi
smanl oveshiskidsandy est heyar el
uckysome
ofusnev erhadachancet ogetaf ather'
slove

BANDI
LE

EVENINGitspast7zuzuandKhit
haarenotbackyet
thi
sisstr
angedidtheygooutonagir
l'
snightbut
shealwayscal
ladooropenedanditwasZuzu
Her
:Ev
eni
ngbhut
i.
..
shesai
dsi
dehuggi
ngme
Me:
Eveni
ngangel
wher
e'sy
oursi
ster
?
Her:
Idontknowisentheramessaget
hatiwil
lpass
somewherebefor
ecomi nghomeshedi
dn'
trepl
yso
i
dontknowwher
eisshei
thoughtshe'
shome
Me;
Nothisissounl
ikeheri
tri
edcall
i
nghermany
t
imesbutherphonegoesst
rai
ghttovoi
cemai
l
Her
:Yoot
hat
'shect
ici
sshenoti
ntheof
fi
ce?
Me:noherPAsai
dshel
eftaf
terl
unchzuzucanyou
pl
easemakedi
nnerf
ort
hekidsandyoursel
fiwi
l
lbe
atmystudy
Her
;Nopr
obl
em wher
e'sQhawe?
Me:
He'
ssl
eepi
ngi
fedandbat
hehi
m dontwor
ry
Her;
ok..
..
Iwal
kedupstair
sandwentt
omyst udythat
l
eadsmet othebasementiwentt
omycomput er
s
anddamnhernewcardoesn'thaveatr
ackeryetand
herphoneisof
fdamni tmaar
n
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTHI
RTY-
THREE

Icalledallmyboyst owakeupandf il
lj
oburgstreets
andl ookformywi fewhil
stistayandguidemyki ds
am sur ethere'
ssomeonebehi ndthi
sial
way stell
Nomkhi t
hatobeawar eandcar r
yhergunandwhy
didn'tsheallowmet oputatrackeronhercarand
nomaar nletmecalltheBMW companymay bei t
willhelpmewi thsomethingsbutnowitslat
efirst
thinginthemor ni
ng

KHI
THA

Iwokeupi
nanunfamil
iarr
oom i
waschainedand
remember
edt
hatohfuckiscr
eamedShauncamet o
me
Hi
m:ohheysugarawake?
..
.hesai
dwi
thasi
l
ly
smi
rkonhisf
ace
Me:Whatt
hefuckhav
ey oudoneyouwhi
teass?
..
.i
askedt
ryi
ngt
of r
eemy sel
ffr
om t
hechai
ns
Hi
m: Thosear
echainssweet
syoucantbr
eak
t
hroughthem unl
essyouareSamson
Me:
Myhusbandoncedi
d
Him:
Whoooawam scar
edhe'
sabeastbutnowor
ri
es
wearef
arawayf
rom hi
m nowit
'sgoi
ngtobeyou
andi
Me:
NoShaunihavea3mont
hsol
dsonpl
easedon'
t
dot
hist
ome..
.ibegged
Him:Youshoul
d'
vet
houghtabouti
tbef
oretr
yingt
o
actsmartonmeKhi
thanobodyeverbr
eaksupwith
me
Me:
Okpl
easet
henl
etmegoj
ustf
ormyki
ds
Hi
m:Ni
cet
rybuthar
dluckf
ory
oui
wont
Me:Whatdoyouwant
?isi
tmoney
?iwi
l
lgi
vei
tal
lto
you.
..
isai
dcr
ying
Him:
Noi havemoneycupcakesiwantyouonlyyou
andihavecookedani
cedelici
ousmealfort
henight
youneedsomeenergyiwantyouatyourbeast
modetodayi t
'sbeenlongsincei
feel
thatt
ight
coochi
e..
.hesaidwalkingawayohheavenl
yfat
her
whathavei gotmyselfint
o?

BANDI
LE

TUESDAYical ledZaintocomeandt r
ackthecar'
s
regi
str
ati
onnumberandbi ngoitgaveusthelocati
on
wewer edri
vi
ngt her
ei l
eftthekidswit
hMamPat t
y
whenwegi ttherewefoundawhi t
epregnantlady
shewelcomedus
Her:
Hihowcani help?
..
.it
ookoutmyphoneand
showedherKhi
tha'spic
Me:Wher
e'sshe?.
.iwast
ir
edoft
alki
ngandaf
rai
dmy
voi
cewil
lcrack
Her
:iam sur
eshelef
twit
hShaunyest
erdayilef
t
t
hem hereandwentfi
radri
veandwheni cameback
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Me:
Howdoy
oumeani
sn'
tShaunadoct
or?
Her:
HeisoneatMedi-
cli
nicandhe'
smyfiancesoi
wasawaysoidontknowwhatbusinesshehaswit
h
yourwi
fe
Me:
Anypl
acespossi
blewher
ewecanf
indhi
m?
Her:
Hisfami
l
yli
vesinPret
ori
aMenloPar
kandt hat
's
al
liknowhedoesn'
ttal
kmuchabouthi
sident
it
y
Zi
an:
Buty
oust
il
lmar
ri
edhi
m?
Her
:Weengaged
Zi
an:
Tomar
ryr
ight
?
Her
:Yes
Zi
an:
Manj
e..
.t
hewhit
eladyl
ookedathi
m conf
usedi
want
edt
olaughbutnoigott
ofindmywife
Me:
Didshel
eav
ethecarkey
s?
Her
:Yesev
er y
thi
ngofherscomeandtaket
hem..
.we
wal
kedbehindherasshewasswingi
ngherhi
psi
can'tbechar
medsi
sam notthi
nki
ngstrai
ghtwegot
tothehouseandf
oundherhandbbag,
phoneandcar
keys
Me:Thanky
ouandwai
t.
.isawherear
ri
ngs,
heel
sand
br
acelet
Zi
an:
Whati
sitNgaml
a?<boss>
Me:
Look.
..
ishowedhi
m
Zian:
Whatwasgoingonhere?Wenaml
ungudoy
ou
havecamerasi
nthishouse?
Her
:idontt
hinkso.
..
.sher
epl
i
edwi
thanat
ti
tude
Zian:
iwi
l
lfi
ndbymyownself.
..
helookedar
oundand
sawwhateverhet
ookapi
ctureofit
Me:
Whati
sit
?
Zi
an;
Wewi
l
lfi
ndoutl
aterl
etsgo
Me:Iwil
l dr
ivemywife'
scarwegoi
ngtomy
house..
.wedr ov
etomyhouseandparkedthecar
outsi
dexoxoandt hetwinscamer
unning
Them:
uphi
mama?
<wher
e'smom>
Me:
Uyagul
asi
mshi
yeesi
bhedl
ela<she'
ssi
ckwel
eft
heratt
hehospi
tal
>
Siy
a:uzobuyanengane?
<wi
l
lshecomebackwi
tha
chi
ld>..
ichuckl
ed
Me:
Noangeke.
..
weal
lwal
kedi
nthehousemom
wast
her
e
Her
:And?
!
Me:St
il
lnol
uckbuti
thi
nkt
her
e'ssomet
hingt
hatwi
l
l
hel
pus
Her:
ok.
..
Zai
nandiwal
kedupst
air
sandwentt
omy
of
fi
cehedidhi
sthi
ng
Him:look..
heshowedmewhathesawi twasKhi
tha
andShaunf i
ghti
ngbutwhy?af
tert
hatshaunhi
ther
wit
hav asebackofherneckandshefaint
edhe
carr
iedhert othecarandwesawthenumberplate
Me:
Weneedt
henumberpl
ateZi
an
Him:I
tsusel
essbutthankst
otechnol
ogy
..
.hesai
d
punchi
ngonhislapt
op
Me:
and.
..
Hi
m:Thecari
spar
kedatNor
thwest
CONTI
NUATI
ON2+

Me:
okl
etmecal
lPhi
l
ani
Him:Iwil
lhav
etogowit
hy oungamlasowecan
keeptabsonhimifhet
ri
estomov ewhisl
tgoi
ng
ther
e
Me:That
'swi
se.
..
ical
l
edPhi
l
ani
hepi
ckedonaf
ir
st
r
ing
Hi
m:Anyl
eadt
hatsi
deBaf
o?
Me:
Gotsomet
hingweaboutt
odr
ivet
oNor
thwest
Hi
m:Goodt
hingi
wasonmywayt
oyourhouse
Me:Seeyout hen.
..idi
sconect
edthecal l
andwentt o
takeaquickshowerandwor emybl acktracksui
t
andmybl ackleatherbootsirancomf or
tablein
them i
wentt otakemygunsandl oadedt hem
Phil
aniwalkedin
Phil
ani:
Baf
o(webr
ohugged)Zi
an(
theybr
ohugged)i
gottheguns
Me:
ihav
emi
nest
ooZi
any
ouknowhowt
ouseagun?
Hi
m:Remembert
hei
nci
denti
nAngol
a?.
..
wel
aughed
hy
ster
ical
l
y
Me:
Ohboyy
oul
ear
ned
Him:
idi
dn'thav
eachoi
ce.
..
mymom wal
kedi
ni
qui
ckl
yhidtheguns
Her
:Your
eadyt
ogoi
wantust
opr
ay
Zi
an:
Yeahsur
e..
.wemadeachai
npr
ayert
hen
Mom:
Besaf
eguy
siwi
l
lcal
lthepol
i
ce
Me:
mom wespokeaboutt
his
Mom:
But
..
Me:nopoli
cet hat
sfi
nal
..
.wewalkedouti
nourbl
ack
tr
acksui
tsandbunniesibor
rowedZianminessi
nce
hewasnotr eadyandwedrovetoNorthWest
Phil
ani
:i
nesbi
ndi
lenj
ayazi
<thi
sdoghast
he
audaci
ty>
Me:Iam st
il
laski
ngmysel
fthatwhatki
ndof
busi
nessdoeshehavewit
hmywi fe?
Zi
an:
i
shenotanenemy
?
Me:Hecan'
tbeShaunhasbeenwor
kingher
efor
year
swhyactnow
Phi
l
ani:
Trueandi
hav eworkedwi
thhi
m somet
imes
hel
ookedli
keaninnocentman
Me:
Sohe'
snotagy
necol
ogi
st?
Phi
l
ani
:
Nohe'
snot
Zi
an:
Whyy
ouaski
ng?
Me:iam j
ustchecki
ngupi needt
opr
essur
emy
speednowar eyourseat
belt
sok?
Them:Yeahv i
ndiesel
..
.welaughedmymi ndhada
l
otoft hi
ngsonitwhatisgoingonher e?Hourslater
wear r
ivedatthel
ocati
onandwentt oknockona
houseanol dwomananswer edgreeti
ngswer e
exchangedweaskedheraboutShaunshesai dits
hergrandsonandheleftinthemor ningwi t
hsome
l
adyhedi dntsaywherehewasgoi ngi askedforhis
numbershegav ethem tomezi antracked
Zi
an:
Letmegett
oit
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

SHAUN

Iwasdr iv
ingtoSwazi landKhi thawasf astasleepso
idroveinpeacet hent herewasabushandi hadan
arguetopeei parkedonar oadsi deandwentt opee
onal i
ttl
edistancei unbluckedmyt r
ousertookmy
dickoutanddi dmybusi nessi heardacarbeepi ngi
payednomi ndandacarhoot i
ngandwheni looked
backi sawkhithar unningintot hebushesfucki
woremyt r
ouserandr antot her oadthecarswer e
runni
ngandwer esomanysoi tookmygunandr an
pastacarshewasi nadi stancei shotheront hel eg
andshel ookedbackandl i
mpedt othedarkf oresti
rantoitandi lookedf orherandnol uckfuckf uck
fuckitiwentbackt othecaranddr oveback
BANDI
LE

Zian:
Ngaml
angaml
ast
opt
hecar
..
il
ookedathi
m
andpull
edof
f
Me:
Whati
sit
?
Zi
an:
Thel
ocat
ionhaschanged
Phil
ani;
Nayi
lenj
a<t
here'
sthatdog>.
..
weclimbedoff
wewer eatt
hegaragewhichwasont hebushesi
walkedbehi
ndhim ashewasbusysmoki ngatthe
back
Him:wantablunt
?..
.iuncov
eredmyheadwi
tha
hoodiesbunni
ehewassoshocked
Me:ihat
eatt
ent
ionl
etsgotot
hecar
...
il
edhimt omy
carandwedrov
etoanopenspacewet ookhi
m out
andidraghi
mtothecent
eroft
hegroundhefellon
hi
sknees
Me:
Wher
e'smywi
fe?
Hi
m:Bi
yel
apl
easedon'
tshootme
Me:
Ihat
eexpl
aini
ngmysel
fihat
erepeat
ingmy
sel
f
sobet
terspeakup
Him:Okiwasonmywayt oSwazilandandi parked
ontheroadsi
dei wantedtopeeandl efther
sl
eepingiwal
kedadi st
ancefrom thecarandshe
escapedsher
ant oadarkforestisearchedforher
hoursandnoluckigaveuponher
Me:Fuck!
!!!
ShaunFuckyou!
!!
whatmadey ouki
dnap
mywi f
e..
.helookedatmeandbli
nkedishothi
sarm
hegroaned
Hi
m:Herandi
werehav
inganaf f
airsoshewant
ed
t
obreakupwi
thmesoi wentpsycho
Me:What?(
ichuckl
edi
ndisbel
i
ef)youar
etry
ingto
t
ell
met hatyouweresl
eepi
ngwithmywifeShaun
Him:iam sor
ryBiy
...
ishothimtwiceonhisl
egshe
groanediwenttotakealight
eribrokei
tandused
theparaf
in
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERTWENTY-
FOUR

Iusedt
hepar
afi
nonhi
sdi
ckandmi
xedi
twi
thspi
ri
t
Hi
m:Bi
yelaiam sor
rypl
easel
etmeseemyunbaby
f
ir
stpl
ease
Me:Nobodyf ucksmywi f
eandl ivetot el
lthe
tal
e,Nobodydisrepectmel i
ket hatyouki dnapped
herforwhat?tohav eherony ourown? Youmustbe
crazyipai
dLobol aforthatwomani cantshareher
withanybloodyasshuman. .
..
i l
ithisdickand
watcheditburninghewascr y i
ngi nagonybeggi ng
met ostopiticonnectedi ttohi shairandhewas
burningal
loveri shoothi
m 5bul l
etsiknowhewas
alr
eadydeadbutt osati
sfymy selfPhilaniandZain
wereatthecari wentt othem

ZUSI
PHE
DAYSLATERIam wi t
hmyf amil
ybusynur si
ngthe
ki
dsQhawehasbeencr yi
ngsisKhithabreastf
eeds
hi
m atnightnowthatshe'snothereit
shar dandmy
hear
tbreaksever
yti
mei thinkaboutherBhutiwalks
i
nlooki
ngl i
keaZombi ethekidsrantohim
Them:
Baba!
!baba!
!.
.t
heysai
dwi
thj
oy
Hi
m:Heyl
ovi
es.
..
hef
akedasmi
l
eandhuggedt
hem
Me:
Heybhut
i
Hi
m:Angel
Li
ndi
we:
And?
!
Him:Ineedt orestnowi wi
ll
hirepeopletodothisfor
mei can'tcope..
.hesai
dast ear
sf i
ll
edhiseyeshis
mom huggedhi m andtookhim upstai
rsicouldn'
t
helpitnomor eiwalkedtomybedr oom andbroke
downwher ethehelli
ssheiwanthert heki
dscr i
ed
tooitwasamessLi ndiwecomf ort
edthekidsandi
Me:Wherei
sshe?iwanthe!!
..
icr
iedican'
tl
ooset
he
onl
ypersonihav
ePhilani
walkedin
Him:
it
sokmamLindi
iwil
lst
aywit
hher
..
.shenodded
asshewal
kedoutwi
tht
hekids
Hi
m:Babywehavehir
edFBIhawksandev
ery
thi
ng
t
heyareoutt
her
elooki
ngforher
Me:
i
sshest
il
lal
i
vePhi
l
ani
?
Him:
Stopbeingnegati
vesunshi
nepleaseyi
uhaveto
best
rongandhel pMamLindiwi
ththekidsokmy
l
ove.
..
inoddedasi cr
iedi
nhisembraceLordProt
ect
mysist
erandbringherhomesaf
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

KHI
THA

Itr
iedmov i
ngandi
coul
dn'
t,
itr
iedopeni
ngmyey
es
andi coul
dn'
t
Voi
ce:
Babashe'
sawake!
..
.andnow
Manl yv oi
ce:Seri
ousshehasbeensl eepingfor4
day snow. .
.iopenedmyey esandt r
iedsitt
ingup
straightisawaol dermanwho' sonhi slat
e60s,a
younggi r
lwho'smay beonherteenagey earsandan
olderwomanwal kedinshe'
slookedlikeshe'sonher
l
at e50s
Hi
m: Kazigoandfet
chwat
eratt
heki
tchenf
orhert
o
dr
ink..
.iwasatt
hehutmadewit
hmud
Kazi
:
okbaba..
..
shewal
kedoutandcamebackwi
tha
j
ugtheyhel
pedmesitupanddrankwat
er
Me:
Thanky
ou.
..
isai
donacr
ackyv
oice
Kazi
:
itsokumuhl
e<y
oul
ookbeaut
if
ul>.
.ismi
l
led
Me:
Yout
oomyl
ove(
theyal
lsmi
l
led)
Woman:Wel
comet oKhumalohousehol
dBaba
f
oundyouatthef
orestl
ayi
ngdownandt houghthe
woul
dhelpyousi
si
Me:Thanky
oumamaandy
oubabat
hanky
oual
lfor
hel
pingme
Baba:Caret
otel
luswhyy
ouweret
her
e?.
.if
eltt
ear
s
fr
eeingthemsel
vesi
nmyface
Kazi
:
mamashe'
scr
ying
Mam:nowenagoandst
artmaki
ngpor
ri
dgef
or
her
..
kazi
rushedout
Me:iwaskidnappedbysomeonewhoi hadanaff
air
wit
hsohewast aki
ngmeawayf r
om myhusband
andfamil
ywhenhewentoutt opeeiescapedsohe
sawmebutonadi st
anceandshotmyleg
Them:
what
?!
baba:
umhlol
akel
osoy
ouhadaboy
fri
endanda
husband?
Mama:awumeGat
shenisi
sidoyouhav
eki
ds?
..
i
cr
iedwhenir
ememberedthem
Me:ihav
easonwho'sBaxoli
se10yrs,
twins
Si
yabongaandSphesi
hle4yr
s,Lubenat
hi 2y
rsand
Qhawe4mont hst
oday.
..i
cri
edmamacomf ort
edme
Mama:
ngxesesesi
aski
es<sor
rysi
s>
Kazi
:Ohy
oursonisQhaweiam Qhawekazi
..
.i
smil
l
edatthi
slov
elysoul
Baba:don'
tmindthi
soneshe'
sfor
war
dvel
eeatand
getsomer estnt
ombazanaok?
Me:
Thanky
oubadal
aandy
oukazi
Kazi
:
cani
staywi
thy
ou?
Me:
Yeahsur
eihav
ebeensl
eepi
ngi
needcompany
Mama:youcant
akeabat
handgof
etchwat
erwot
h
kazi
justt
oexer
cise
Me:
iwouldappr
eci
atet
hatmywoundi
sheal
edt
hat
wasfast
Kazi
:
trustbabaont
hat
..
.weal
ll
aughed
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

KHI
THA

Iwasnowonthewayt
other
iverwi
thKazi
thi
sone
i
stal
kati
vey
oo
Her
:Sosi
siy
ouownsomanybusi
nesses?
Me:
Yesmyhusbandandi
doownt
hem
Her:
Wowsi siy
ouar emyr olemodel y
ouknowi
meany ouarebeauti
ful
andy ouhavealav
ishli
feiso
wishtobeyourightnow..
..ohiwishicantel
lher
whathappensbehindcloseddoor s
Me:Youdonthavetomybabyal
lyougottodois
focusonyourst
udi
esandnailt
hem af
terthati
will
fundyourbur
sar
y..
shel
ookedatmewithabeautif
ul
gri
n
Her
:Real
l
ysi
si?
!
Me:
Justpassyourmat
ri
cwenaandi
wil
lhel
pyou
makeyourdr
eamscomet hr
ough
Her
:Ofcozi
wil
lWhoooaUKZNhereicome.
..
we
l
aughedaswehadourconv
ersat
ion

BANDI
LE

WEEKSLATERt hepeopl ei hi
redwer efai
li
ng
decimal lybuttheydeni edthati havetogobackt o
thatfor estmay bethere'sav il
lagenearitormaybea
towni doubtshe'sdeadi can'tdoany thi
ngwit
hout
hermysonhasl ostwei ghtam sur ehedoesmiss
hismot her'
stouchl ov
e, careandt endencywealldo
missi tsoi wasbusycooki ngdinnerwhenzuzu
walkedi nshelookedsodev astat
ed
Me:
Heyangel
..
iwentt
ohugher
Her
:Heybhut
i.
..
herv
oicewasl
ow
Me:Donotletwhati
shappeni
gaf f
ecty
ourstudi
es
angelok?
iwill
findy
ourmotherandbri
ngherhome
ALIVEok?
Her:
Buti
thasbeenl
ongnow?
..
shesai
dsni
ff
ingi
comfor
tedher
Me:Noshewill
comebackangeldontwor r
yjustgo
andrestwhi
l
stigetdonewi
ththi
s..
.isai
dpointi
ng
mypot s
Her
:oki
wil
lgoandr
estal
i
ttl
e
Me:Don'
tl
etPhi
l
ani
overwor
kyouangel
..
shesmi
l
led
shy
ly
Her
:huhbhut
i
Me:
yourmot hert
oldmeaboutyouraf
fai
rshe'
sok
wi
thitbutshedoesn'
twantyoutodoasyouplease
t
hat'
sall
Her
:ial
way
srespecty
ouguy
s
Me:
becausewear eyourpar
ents.
.shesmil
ledand
wal
kedawayy eahimeanitwehav etosi
gnherand
makeherourfir
stbornbutt
hatwontdecreasethe
amountofki
dsi wantwit
hKhit
ha
BONUSI
NSERT

KHI
THA

It
sbeenweeksnowi dontwanttosuf
focat
eand
abuset
hekindnessofthesepeopl
esoideci
det
o
call
myhusband
Me:
Kazi
cany
oubor
rowmey
ourphone?
Her
:Sur
esi
sil
etmegoandt
akei
t.
.sher
ushedout
Mama:
Youwantt
ocal
lhome?
Me:
Yeahi
thi
nki
am r
eadymama
Mama: Okmyloveyouhav etogoy ourkidsneedyou
andy ourhusbandiam prayi
nghef orgi
vesy oufor
whatl edyouheremenhar dl
yf or
givescheati
ngeven
thoughwef orgi
vethem butsisiiwishyouwellon
yourmar ri
ageandalwaysrespectyourhusbandand
yourbodyasawomanmar r
iageisnotforcoward
mybabyOk?
Me:
Thankyouforki
ndandwi
sewor
dsmamai
real
l
y
doappr
eci
atei
t
Mama:
ihear
dKazi
tal
ki
ngaboutbur
sar
y
Me:Yesmamai wil
ltakecar
eofherstudiesandiwi
l
l
al
way ssendmoneytohelpyouaroundthehouse
mamay ouguyshel
pedmeal otyousavedmyl i
fe
Mama:i
am happymychi
l
dbuty
oudonthav
etogo
t
hatf
ar
Me:
Noi
wantt
odoi
tmamapl
easel
etmedoi
t
Her
:okbabywet
hanky
ou.
..
wehugged
Kazi
:
okl
ovebi
rdsher
eisaphonesi
si
Mama:Hayiwenanokuphapha.
..
welaughedidai
led
Bandi
l
e'snumberandhisphonerangheansweredit
onafi
rstri
ng
Him:
Biy
elaspeaki
nghell
o..
.iwishedi coul
dclimb
andgostandonroof
topandt ellpeopleaboutmy
man'
svoiceimisshi
m
Hi
m:Hel
l
o..
.ikeptqui
etabi
t
Me:
Nani
..
.isai
dwi
thal
owv
oice
Hi
m:waitwhatMaBi
yel
a,
Sthandwasami
,
Nanami
is
t
hatyou?!
Me:
YesBabBi
yel
aiti
sme
Hi
m:Wher
ear
eyou?
icanev
enf
etchy
ounowbaby
Me:
Iam i
nSwazi
l
andidontknowthepl
acebuti
tsa
f
ewkil
ometer
sawayf
rom thedar
kfor
est
Him:isuspect
edthatfor
estbutnani
iwill
callZi
anto
dothet hi
ngstomorr
owmor ningiwi
llbedri
vi
ng
ther
eokt hekidswil
lbesohappynanami howare
you?
Me:i
am f
inenani
ijustmissy
ouguysespeci
almy
ki
dsohmylit
tl
eQhawe...
wegiggl
ed
Me:
iwi
l
lal
way
slov
eyounani
Hi
m:Al
way
sandf
orev
er
Me:okGoodnightki
ssmyki
dsforme.
.we
di
sconnect
edwhooawi f
eelr
eli
evedi
am goi
ng
hometomorrow
DAYSLATER

NDI
LE:
bewungi
j
olel
aNomkhi
tha?
<Wer
eyoucheat
ing
onme>
KHITHA:
whatBandi
l
enowher
edi
dyougett
hat
?..
.
Bandi
let
akeshi
sgunout
NDILE:
Youknowi haterepeat
ingmy
sel
fsobet
ter
speakup.
..
.hecockedthegun
KHI
THA:
Bandi
l
est
opy
ouscar
ingme!
!!
!
NDILE;
youbet
terst
artt
alki
ngori
wil
lscar
eyout
o
death.
..
..

GOODMORNI
NG
SEASONTWO
CHAPTERTHI
RTY-
SIX

KHI
THA

LATERt hatdayifeltsorel
iev
edaf t
eri havespoken
withmyhusbandnowwewer echil
li
ngar oundt he
fi
reout sidewhenbabawast ell
i
ngusst ori
esabout
apartheidandhowt heysurvi
veditall
y ooKazi andi
werel aughinghysteri
call
yandmyst omachwas
hurti
ngandt henwesawa4doorMer cedes-BenzX-
cl
asspul l
ingoffwest ar
ed
Baba:Andt
henwhati
sgoi
ngon?
..
wel
ookedateach
other
Mama:
Babagoandcheckwhoi
tis?
Baba:
Kazi
goandt
akemyguny
ouknowwher
eiti
s
Me:
babay
ouhav
eagun?
Baba:
Yesi
boughtitforday
slikethese.
..
iwant
edto
l
aughandtheser
iousnessbutoureyeswereglued
atthecarapersongotofft
hecarwear
ingal
lbl
ack
tr
acksui
tswit
hwhi t
estri
ppesaar
gthat
'sBandi
l
e
Ndil
e:Siy
anokhalay i
khay
asicel
aukungena!
!!
<wear
e
knockingtothishouseholdweareaski
ngtobe
welcomed>..
i smil
led
Mama:
Youknowhi
m?
Me:
Yest
hat
'smyhusband
Baba:Ohmkhweny anabesengi
l
andaisbham sami
ngi
thi ngi
yakuchi
thaewwuKazi wozanokhiya!
!<Oh
sonin-lawitsyouiwasabouttotakemygunandki ll
yourightthereKazigoandtakethekeys>.
..
he
l
aughed
Ndil
e:Ngi
yaxol
isaukuni
fi
kelaebsukubadal
a
besengi
ngakhonimanje<iam sorr
ytoshowupthi
s
l
atebutiwasnotcoping>.
.theyl
aughedasBaba
wenttoopenthegate
Mama: Ngenaupakelana<dr
ivei
nandpark
i
nside>.
..
hewentt ot
hecaranddrovei
nBabal ocked
thegatehecli
mbedof ft
hecariwasal
lsmilesi
didn'
tknowifishoul
djump?runt
ohim?orscream?
Mama:
Indodayakhosi
si<yourmansis>.
..
.ismi
l
led
asi
walkedtohim wehuggedsoti
ghtandhegav e
meaperk
Ndi
le:
Nanami
..
.ohLor
dthi
sman'
svoi
cej
ustgotme
weakonmyknees
Me: Nani
..
.hesmil
ledandhuggedmeagai
nBaba
clearedhi
st hr
oatiwassoembarr
assedandhi
dmy
faceathischest
Ndi
l
e:Si
xol
isebaba<Weappol
ogi
ze>.
.hesai
dbowi
ng
abi
ttoshowrespect
Mama:
ubusudl
i
lebaba?
<hav
eyoueat
en>
Ndi
l
e:Yoooi
dontknowwhenl
asti
atesomet
hing
Me:
Ncccoooaawhol
efoodki
l
ler
..
.wel
aughed
Mama:
Makot
igoandpr
epar
ehi
m somet
hingt
oeat
Me:Kulungi
lemama<i t
sok>..
.iwenttodi
shupf or
hi
mt heleftover
sitwas
samp,beans,but
ter
nu,betr
oot,
potat
oesandtinned
fi
shheat eitandfi
nishediti
nlessthan5mins
Baba:
Hawuuy i
ndodakewena<Ohy ouar
eareal
man>.
.babaexcl
aimedweall
laughedashewasa
bitshyBandilehasashysi deTheytoldhim how
theyfoundmeandBandi lewassogr eat
fulforthei
r
kindsessandhesai dbeforewedr i
vetoJobur ghe
willTakehi
mt oCapit
ecandsi gnhimforalifetime
all
owancet heycouldn'
tstopthanki
nghim oknow
wear eonourwayhome

JOBURGwej ustdr
oveinouryar
ditwaspast8pm
becauseofthestopandgowedi diwassohappyi
couldn'
thol
dmysel fheparkedt
jecari
nsidet
he
garageandwegotof fandwenttothehousehe
openedthedoorandhewaswel comedbyBebe
Bebe:
Mama!
!!
heexcl
aimed
Me:Baby
..
.isai
dpi
cki
nghi
m uphewasal
lsmi
l
esi
huggedhi
m andki
ssedhi
m somanyt
imes
Others:Mama!!
mama!!
..
.t
heyallr
antomeisquat
ted
t
9t heirl
evel
andhuggedthem andki
ssedt
hem
Zuzu:
Sisi
!!
..
.wehuggedf
orav
eryl
ongt
ime
Me:
Shhhi
tsokl
ove.
..
shewassni
ff
ing
Zuzu:
ithoughti
losty
ouf
orev
eri
thoughty
ou.
.
me:
Shhhj
itsokmyl
ovei
am her
e
Ndil
e:St
opbeingacrybabyangel
theki
dsar
e
conf
used..
.wegiggl
ed
Zuzu:
ohpl
easey
ouar
ethel
astonet
osayt
hatBhut
i
Ndi
l
e:heyt
hisi
smywi
fezuzuy
oucan'
tbl
ameme
Zuzu:
Yeahr
ight
Me:Ihav
etogoandtakel
ongestshoweri
nthe
wholeworl
dwher
e'sQhawe?
Zuzu:
MamLi
ndi
wet
ookhi
m
Me:
oh
Ndile:
Letsgoupst
air
sandtalkabouti
t..
.wewent
upstai
rsandwalkedtoourbedroom t
hesquadwas
fol
lowingus
Me:i
tsoknani
iwontf
ighty
ouf
orwhaty
oudi
di
under
stand
Ndil
e:Thankyoumylove.
..
wekissedasi
denuded
andwentt otakeashoweraf
ter30minicameouti
dri
edmy selfandNdi
lel
oti
onedme
Me:
wher
ear
etheot
her
s?
Ndi
l
e:t
heywer
esl
eepysoi
tookt
hem t
obed
Me:Iwil
lspendti
mewit
hthem t
omorrow(i
saw
Lubenat
hiplayi
ngwi
thmyhai
rbrush)andthatone
Ndil
e:t
hisonehasbeenanightowlhesl
eepsaf
ter
9pm andbythelookshei
sn'tgoi
nganywher
ehe
ref
usedtosleep
Me:
Wowsowehav
eat
hir
dwheel
..
.hel
aughed
Ndi
l
e;Andyouknowhe'
snotaheav
ysl
eeperso
t
her
e'snochance
Me:
Plusi
am t
ir
ed
Ndi
le:
Tir
ed?notevenachancei
willdr
ughi
mto
sl
eepihaveBenil
ynandPanadoforhi
m
Me:HaaaNani
..
..
hewentt
othecabi
netweuset
o
keepQhawe'
smedsandtookoutBeni
ly
nand
Panado
Ndi
le:
Lubenat
hicomet
oBaba.
..
hesmi
l
ledand
cr
awled
Me:Ohigav
ebir
tht
oyouaphakhonandy
azi
ncoma
<her
eiappl
audmysel
f>.
.hechuckl
ed
Ndi
le:
NoLubenat
hist
opcr
awl
i
nghamba<wal
k>.
..
he
st
oodup
Lube:
mhhhhy
ababal
enababa<i
tschi
l
lyhott
his
one>
.
hesai
dpoi
nti
ngt
hemeds
Ndil
e:Heyangizuzwangawewena<iwontbetol
dby
you>..heplay
full
ypul
l
edhim hepl
ayedwit
hhimjust
tosoftenhimuphedrankthemedsandNdil
esang
him alul
labyandhewasasleep
Me:
wowt
hatwasf
ast
Ndi le:
Whoam i ?(
.hel aughed)takehimt obedwhi
lst
itakeashower .
..
.ipickedhi m upandwentt ot
uck
himi nhisbedaftetthati camebackBandi l
ewas
alreadyint heshowerandi madebedandi saw
dur excondomsatt hedr awerWhat ?!t
heywerewith
thesl ipandohheboughtt hem todaywhatdoest
his
means? doesheknowt haticheatedonhim?noi
doubthewoul dhav easkedmet hat
Voi
ce;
Oht
hose?
!.
.ij
umpedi
nshocki
twashi
m
Ndi
l
e:i
am sor
rynanami
idi
dn'
tmeant
oscar
eyou
Me:
ithoughty
ouwer
eint
heshower
Ndil
e:Yeahiam outnowandaboutthecondoms
babyi t
houghtmeshouldusethem si
nceyouareso
obsessedinnotgett
ingpr
egnantsowecan'tr
elay
onthetying
Me:
Ohi
sit
?
Ndi l
e;
Yeahbabyot herswisei wasn' tbitchingar ound
andasf ory ouotr eal
lydoesn' tsuityounanami
wenasl eepingaroundt hat'snonsensenowcomet o
daddyi havebeenmi ssingy ou...
hesai dpul li
ngme
tohim ohShi tBandi l
eknowssomet hingandby
doingt hishe'sgivingmeal ongropet ot i
eandhang
my selfhe'sgoingt otor
turemebywor dsi mustt ake
thistot hebackofmyheadandenj oybei ngr i
pped
apartbyNt shangasehepi ckedmeupandcar ef ull
y
placedmeont opofourbedheki ssedmeandl eft
mymout handwentf ormyneckhesuckedi twhi stl
hishandwascuppi ngmyboobandt heot hetone
wasgr abbingmyasshepr essedhi sgi ganticthing
onmycoochi eandi wast urnedonmor ethanbef ore
hedr yhummpedmeasi methi m hal fwayhel etgo
ofmyneckandki ssednymout hthenhet ooka
condom andopenedi
t
Ndil
e:PutitinMaBiyel
a..
.hesai dwit
hhishunky
l
ustf
ullv oi
cei t
ookitandbr ushedhismanhoodfi
r st
hesmi l
ledi t
hentookininmymout handgav ehi
ma
mindblowi ngheadwhenhewasaboutt ocomei put
i
nthecondom het henforcefull
ypenet
ratedme
Me:Ouchahhh.
..
itwaspai
nful
lhef
orget
sthathei
s
bi
gsohehast obegentl
e
Ndil
e:iam sorryhethenst ar
tedmov inginandout
hethenuppedhi spaceansst art
edt hrusti
nginand
outgiv
ingmedeeperst r
okesaf t
erthathet urnedme
overandigav ehim minniedoggyandmi ssi
onar yhe
poundedfasteranddeeperi couldntbearbuti l
et
hi
m bewef uckedanddi dsomanyposi ti
onst he12
packedcondomswer efini
shedgeezi am str
ong
SEASONTWO
CHAPTERTHI
RTY-
SEVEN

NEXTDAYi wokeupv erytir

edBandi l
esur edidhi
s
thi
ngonmei cri
pplewal kedtothebathroom and
preparedabat hithengoti nt
othebat htuband
soakedmy selfaftermyl ongbathi wasfeeling
betterandidriedmy selfandwor emymi nimaxi
dressandslidesi wentdownst airsandmadea
feastformyf amilyimissedmyki t
cheni missed
cookingaft
ert hatipreparedthetableandwhen
everybodywasawakeanddownst ai
rstheywer eal
l
smiles
Ndi
l
e:Af
eastf
il
ledf
oraKi
ng
Me:
Igweee.
..
.asi
bowedwel
aughed
Zuzu:
Yooosi
siwhenar
eweeat
ingam hungr
yyooo
Ndi
l
e:Nowwho'
sthef
oodki
l
lermyqueen?
Me:
It
shery
ourHi
ghness
Zuzu:
Haaahsi
si
Me:Yi
ndodam l
esisi
<thisi
smymansi
s>..
.we
l
aughedandtherewasaknockatt
hedoorandi
t
sl
ideopenedi
twasLi ndi
we
Li
ndi
:
Ohheykhi
tha.
..
shesmi
l
ledi
wentt
ohugher
Me:Heymaandt hi
sismyPr
inceMyher
oQhawe
l
ami l
eli
..
.isai
dpicki
ngupmylast
bor
nhecri
edat
f
ir
stthenher ecogni
zedmeandhesmil
ed
Ndi
le:
Youseenowmyboyt hediar
yisbacky
ouar
e
goi
ngtogai
nweight
..
.il
aughed
Me:Let
sjustst
opgi
vi
nghi
m br
eastmi
l
knani
don'
t
youthi
nk?
Li
ndi
:
Nosi
sheneedsi
t
Me:Yeahletmeeatf i
rstt
heni wi
l
lfeedhim.
.weall
gatheredaroundthetabl
eandatebreakf
astaf
ter
thatibondedwithall
myki ds
EVENINGcamei wasaboutt
ogettobedNdilecame
weari
nghisblackjeanandbl
ackl
eatherj
acketand
bl
ackl
eatherboots
Me:
goi
ngsomewher
e?
Ndi
l
e:Yeswi
feyi
am hi
tt
ingt
hecl
ubwi
tht
heboy
s
don'twai
tupi mightcomelate.
..
hesai
dkissingme
thenhejoggedoutwhooawt hispuni
shmenti s
kil
li
ngmesl owlyorheisnotsureandiam notgoi
ng
tosayanythingtoo
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Icouldn'
tsl
eepawi nkikeptontossingandturning
thewholeti
meandi heardthedooropenitwas
Bandilehewasnotev enti
psybutdrunkhewasev en
singi
ngdidheforgetthatwehaveachi l
dsleeping
hereheopenedthecov ersandgotundercoversafter
thathecameclosertomeandhuggedmef rom the
suckedmyneckandcuppedmybr easts
Me:
Bandi
l
eyouar
ecol
d..
.hechuckl
ed
Ndil
e:Soy
ouareawake?
..
aar
gthesmel
lofal
cohol
andweedinhi
sbreat
h
Me:
Cany
ouat
leastr
insey
ourmout
hke
Ndil
e:i
donthav
ethatt
imenanami
iwantmycake
canihavei
t?
Me:
iam t
ryi
ngt
osl
eepher
epl
ease
Ndi
le:
Youwil
ljustlayonyourstomachasi dothe
workpl
easenanami ievenboughtcondomsonmy
wayhome(hekissedmeandt urnedmeov eriwas
l
ayi
ngonmyst omach) pl
easeMaBiyela
Me:
Okbutdon'
ttaket
ime.
..
hequi
ckl
ygotupand
t
ookhi
scondom
Ndi
l
e:Iwon'
tbaby
..
.wemadel
ove

ZUSI
PHE

Phil
anical
ledandsaidhe'soutsi
deHaiboguy snj
ani
i
tsjustpast2am andhekeptoncalli
ngsoi gotno
choicebuttogooutasiwassl eepi
ngwi t
h
LubenathiandNunuisneakedoutandhi scarwas
parkednexttothegat
ei gottothebackseatwher
e
hewasseat ed
Him:Mor
ningdaddy
'sangel
..
hesai
dimi
tat
ingBhut
i'
s
voi
celaughed
Me:
Ohpl
ease
Hi
m:uBaf
oreal
l
ylov
esy
oul
i
kehi
sowndaught
ery
azi
Me:
Yeahr
ightandwhatbr
ingsy
ouher
ethi
sti
me?
Hi
m:Thi
s..
.hesai
dcuppi
ngmycoochi
e
Me:
Wowsoy
oucoul
dn'
twai
t?
Him:No.
..
hesai
dki
ssi
ngmeandwemadeouti
nthe
car
Me:i
tspast5nowyouneedt
ogodaddy.
.r
ubbedhi
s
ey
eswesl eptont
hecarf
or20mi
niguess
Him:Ohshi
tiwil
lseey
outhencomebymypl ace
duri
ngthedaywehavetot
alkaboutsomet
hing
Me:
Noy
ouscar
ingme
Him:Noi t
snotbadj ustcomewenai wantt
ofini
sh
youof f
..
.wegi
ggledasi huggedhi
m andweki
ssedi
sneakedbacktot hehouseXoxowaswat chi
ngtvat
thelaunge
Xoxo:
Usukaphi
?<wher
ear
eyoucomi
ngf
rom>
Me:Outsi
deineededabr
eat
herxoxoy
ooandwhy
ar
ey ouupthi
searly
?
Xoxo:
emot
weni
kamal
ume?
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Me:I
moto?
mna?
hay
indi
ncede.
.<acar
?me?
no
pl
ease>
Xoxo:
mhhhkhondiy
ekumama<l
etmegot
omy
mother
>..
.hesai
dgett
ingup
Me:
okf
unaBaxol
i
sewhatdoy
ouwant
?
Xoxo:
Homemadebur
gersi
singoku<now>
Me:
Yoooi
tcan'
tbey
ounowenai
alway
ssav
eyou
moss
Xoxo:
okkei
am goi
ngt
omymom'
sroom y
opl
ay
wit
hQhawe
Me:
oki
wil
ldooti
am hungr
yany
way
Xoxo:
mhhhok

MID-DAYi wasprepar
edtogotoPhil
ani
'shousebut
si
siandbhutihadplanssoiwasbabysit
ti
ngthese
handful
kidsandBaxoli
sewastaki
ngadvantageof
whathehasagainstmesohewoul dsnapaf i
nger
andihavet
oactandthat
'swhatwedowhenone
owestheot
herafav
our

KHI
THA

WewereonourwaytoTi
na'shousehol
dtheyinv
ited
usf
oraSundayl
unchwegitther
eandev er
ybody
wasal
readyi
nwai
ti
ngforus
Kat:
Theki
m andkany
eofJozi
..
.wel
aughedasshe
cametohugus
Me:Heyguy
s..
.ihuggedSbuandLuuPhi
l
ani
wasnot
her
e
Luu:Yousti
l
llookbeauti
fulnt
ombi
yol
ahl
eko
<vanishi
nggir
l>.
..
welaughed
Me:Ohpl
easewhere'
sNosakhel
e?Nosakhel
e!!
!.
..
i
shout
edforTi
nathat
shermaidenname
Tina:
Yoooy angat
hiungal
amagqwirhaakuQumbu
xayif
unaitea<yousoundli
kethoseQumbuwitches
whent heywanttea>.
..
welaughediknowshehates
thename
Me:HahaLuuy amvauthukaodabawobakho<doy
ou
hearhershe'
sridi
cul
i
ngy ourpat
enal
aunts>
Luu:
Decembersi
yaemgi
dini
she'
sgoi
ngt
opayf
ori
t
myeke
Me:
real
l
yam i
inv
ited?
Ndi
l
e:Weehwi
feypl
easedont
..
.wel
aughed
Kat
:whyt
hough?
Ndil
e:noshel
ikest
hingsandwhati fshegoeshome
andnevercomesbacknoi cantletthathappen.
..
we
l
aughedaswehadav er
ymat ur
edconv ersat
ion
Kat
:Sept
emberisapproachi
ngwehav
etodo
somethi
ngspeci
alforPearl
guy
s
Ndi
l
e:YeahPhi
l
ani
hasbeent
hinki
ngofat
ombst
one
Me:
Somet
hingbiggert
hant
hatorwemustj
ust
makei
tdi
ff
erent
Luu:
Yeaht
hat
sagoodi
deabuthow?
Me:
Nosakhel
eyouar
eaev
enthostl
i
ght
enusup
Ti
na:
Mamawesquadawume.
..
theyl
aughedandi
madeapuppyf
ace
Ndi
l
e:Ti
nangi
zokshay
a
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Thent herewasawkwardsil
enceKatwasl aughi
ng
thewhol eti
meBandilei
sfearedtheydon'
teven
recognisewhenhe'sser
iousorjustj
oki
ngmay beit
s
becauseofhi sdeepmanlyvoice
Luu:
Ntombiyol
ahl
ekothet
hanowakwakho<l
ongl
ost
daught
erspeakt
oyourman>.
..
igi
ggled
Me:Nosakhel
eli
l
onegwalana?
<Issheev
en
coward>.
..
wealll
aughed
Ti
na:
Didy
ouheart
hatv
oice?
..
.weal
ll
aughed
Ndile:Nawestopt
hrowingshadesonmywi fe
hawu. ..
wethenpr
oceededwot hourplansandwhen
i
twasev eni
ngTheguyswer edri
nki
ngal coholt
he
whol etimeandTi
naKatr ef
useditwedontknowt he
reasonsot heguy
swer edrunkandhigh
Me:
BabBi
yel
awehav
etogoi
t'
slat
e
Sbu:Awubakubi
zakamnandi
kanj
e<heyt
heycal
lyou
thi
snice/
sweet>
Ndil
e:Phel
asomeofusmarri
edrur
algi
rl
snott
he
ghet
tooneswhoevenspeakbacktoamaninpubl
i
c
Luu:
Yoobawoi havewit
nessedthatsothisother
guywashav i
nganar gumentwit
hhi swif
eatt he
mallyhooolavroushoutedathi
mi nfr
ontofphambi
kwabantuBafo.
.theguyswent"yooo"wit
ht hei
r
handsintheair
Ndi
l
e:Thatonedeser
vesahar
dpi
peandsl
aps
Luu:
TrueBaf
o
Sbu;
Bett
erpl
anbur
nherweav
esanddest
royher
make-up
Luu:
Andst
opgi
vi
ngherwi
feyal
l
owance
Ndi
l
e:Shi
tthat
ssav
age.
..
theyl
aughed
Me:Don'
ttr
ythi
sathomenanipl
ease.
..
theyal
l
l
aughedthenwesai
dourgoodbyesonourway
home
Ndi
l
e:Babywhenar
eyougoi
ngbackt
owor
k?
Me:
Uhm i
dontknownani
why
?
Ndi
l
e:Justchecki
ngIf
oundShaunandki
l
ledhi
m so
y
oudon'
thav
etowor
ryy
our
sel
f
Me:Youdidwhat
?..
hesl
idhi
shandundermydr
ess
andcuppedmycoochie
Hi
m:Iki
l
ledhi
mist
her
eapr
obl
em Mami
?
Me:Nonani
..
ifocusedont
her
oadasi
wasdr
ivi
ng
t
hisismessedup
Ndi
l
e:Ar
eyouokmyl
ove?
Me:
yeahi
justhav
eal
otoft
hingsonmymi
nd
Ndil
e:St
opt
hecarbythegar
ageiwanttobuymore
condomsidontt
hinkiwi
l
lhavet
imeitwil
lbeabusy
week
Me:
idon'
tmi
ndhav
ingy
ouwi
thouti
tnani
Ndi
le:
Nomkhit
hadoasi
saywi
thoutaf
ightj
ustonce
pl
easeyooo
[
SEASONTWO
CHAPTERTHI
RTY-
EIGHT

Wear ri
vedatourhouseandt heki
dswerealready
asleeptheniwentt
ot akeQhaweinZuzu'sbedroom
andwentt otakeashoweri wentt
obednakedand
Bandil
ewasonhi sofficei
guessikneeld
underneatht
hecoversanddecidedtogiveGoda
surpri
sewheni wasdonei sawBandil
ecomingf r
om
thebathroom
Me:
whendi
dyougeti
nher
e?
Hi
m: Idi
dn'tchecktheti
me.
..
hesai
dgett
ingint
obed
af
terunwrappingthetowel
hegotunder
coversand
st
artedtouchingmyass
Me:
Whyar
eyoudoi
ngt
his?
Ndil
e:What
?!ar
eyouaski
ngwhyi
am t
ouchi
ngy
our
assMaBiyel
a?
Me:Bandi
leifeelli
keyouareusingmeforsex
becauseeversincethi
sinci
dentyouhavebeen
tr
eati
ngmel i
keasexsl ave
Ndil
e:i
didn'
tknowbeingaddi
ctedt
oyourpussycan
causeaproblem i
wil
lsleept
hen
Me:Thisat
mospher
eaboveusi
stir
ingBandi
leit
s
Tiri
ng.
..
ist
art
edsni
ff
ingi
knowital
waysplaythe
tr
ick
Ndile;
Whyar ey
oucryi
ngnow?Nomkhi thai only
wanttomakel ovetomywi f
emi naunlessi am not
doingitcorr
ect
lyandbesi
desthatiwanty outostay
sati
sfi
edsoy oucannotgooutthereandundr ess
foranothermanwhisl
tiam her
eNomkhi t
ha...
the
angerinhisvoi
cewaslivi
d
Me:Nani
whyareyousayingthat
?whyar
eyou
t
reati
ngmel
ikethi
s?.
.iaskedcry
ing
Ndil
e:Nomkhit
hastopcr
yingi am bi
ttheonewho
sentyoutoopenyourl
egst oShauni dontwantt
o
thi
nkaboutitiwoul
dhateittoseeyoucr yi
ngmore
thanyoudo
Me:
What
?!Sot
hat
'swhati
sal
labout
?
Ndi
l
e:And.
.
Me:
Bandi
l
einev
ersl
eptwi
thShaunoki
woul
dn'
t
disr
espectmybodyandmar r
ieget hatwayi am not
youShuanhadast upidcrushonmet urnsouthei s
apsy chothatdoesn'thandleRej ectwel lsohesaidif
hecanthav emenobodywi lleverhav emesot hat's
whyheki dnappedmeandl iednani pleasedon'tact
l
ikethisiam sti
llt
ryingtorecov erfrom thetraumai
canthavey outr
eatingmel ikethat .
..huggedme
Ndi
le:
Itr
usty
oubabyandiam sorryf
oract
ingt
hat
waybutiwashur
tandfel
tdi
srepectd
[
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

ZUSI
PHE

MONDAYiwenttoschool
butqui
ckl
ycamebacki
ar
ri
vedt
othehouseandsisi
wasbusyonherl
apt
op
Me:
Gooddaymadam
Her
:Gooddayy
ouhomeear
ly?
Me:
Jaj
aLi
am i
sbusyandIhav
egotnopl
acet
obe
Her
:Phi
l
ani
isst
il
li
nKZN?
Me:Yeahsowhatswit
hthi
s?ar
eyoupl
anni
ngon
hosti
ngsomet
hing?
Her:
Kathascomewithanideaofcelebr
ati
ngour
l
atefri
endPear
lsoiam busychecki
ngonwhatwe
coulddotomakehertombstonecer
emonya
success
Me:
Tombst
onecer
emony
?
Her
:Yesmyl
ove
Me:
Wheni
sthi
shappeni
ngagai
n?
Her:
Septemberofcozdon'
ttel
lmey
ouar
ethatsl
ow
di
dn'tPhi
lani
tel
lyouaboutit
?
Me:Hedi
dmenti
onsomet
hingaboutt
ombst
onebut
sameweekendwehav
etogosomewhere
Her
:Somewher
e?meanswhat
?abaecat
ion?
Me:
yeahhesai
dwewi
l
lgot
oSpai
n
Her
:That
sni
cesisi
buty
'al
lhav
etopost
poney
our
t
ri
pthisi
saser
iousmatt
er
Me:
butal
waysourtr
ipsar
eal
waysdist
urbedwhy
?i
t
houghtt
hiswasgoi
ngtobeasuccess
Her:
Ioncetoldy oumosst hatyouar enothi s
numberone? hemi ghtsayitbutacti
onsdospeak
l
ouderthanwor dshei sprobablygoingtocancel the
tr
ipmylove..
.ouchnowt hatshurthav eyouev er
l
ookedforwar donsomet hing?iwouldev enpictur
e
myselfinSpaint aki
ngselfi
esatPar i
sEif f
eltower
spendi
ngqual i
tytimewi t
hmymani fhe'
snot
spendi
ngt i
mewi tht
hekidshe'satwor ki alwaysget
hi
m bychance
Her
:Ar
eyouoksweet
s?
Me:
yeahsur
eij
ustneedt
otakeabat
handsl
eep

NDI
LE

LATER iwaswor ki
ngl
ateonmyoffi
ceinMel
rose
Arcihaven'
tbeencomingheref
oral
ongti
mesince
theki
dnappingofmywifeihear
daknockatt
he
doorandmybar l
adyappear
ed
Me:Thebeaut
if
ulLi
yahher
sel
f.
..
shesmi
l
led
r
eveali
ngherdi
mplesshe'
scut
eandqui
et
Her
:Hi
siri
broughtt
his.
.shehandedmeanenv
elope
Me:
whati
sthi
s?
Her
:idontknowsi
rbuti
hav
etogetgoi
ng
Me:Surenoproblem..
.shelef
tandiopenedthe
envel
opeandt herewasanot esay
ing"iknowwhat
youdid"andtherewerepicsofmeburningShaun
whatthehell
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Whot hehel
listhi
s?andhetookapict
ureont
he
bushesanditcantbeZianandPhi
lanit
heyar
eni
t
thatdumbicall
edaliy
ah
Her
:Boss?
Me:
Whodel
i
ver
dthi
s?
Her
:adel
i
ver
yguysi
r
Me:ohoknopr oblem cakesy oucangobackt owork
it
ookmywhi skeyandgul peditdownf uckthi
s!!iam
socloseinsigningmycl ubsl egalandbeacl ean
mannowt hisphelaonemi st
akei am fuckedupasa
busi
nessmany ouhavet otakecar ei
fy ouri
mageso
nowev erybodyknowsam aki l
l
ernot hi
s
motherfuckerhast obefoundi cal
ledzianhepicked
i
tonaf our t
hr i
ng
Me:
Yini
uBusyl
apho?
<whatar
eyoubusyt
her
e>
Zai
n:Yeahi
am coughtup
Me:Cany
oupassbymyof
fi
cet
omor
rowmor
ningi
hav
eaprobl
em
Zai
n:okbozza
Me:Sur
entwanay
am.
..
idr
oppedt
hecal
lhei
ssmar
t
he'
sgoingt
ocomeupwit
hsomet
hingi
drov
ehome

KHI
THA

NIGHTihavebeenwait
ingonNdil
eit
s10pm nowok
l
etmecallhi
mi tr
angedunanswer
edipani
ckedthe
doorswi
ngedopened
Ndi
l
e:Iam her
e
Me:
iwaswor
ri
edNtshangase..
iwenttohughi
m and
smel
lhi
midon'
twantanyf unnybusi
ness
Ndi
le:
wif
eyi
wasworkingnotf
ucki
ngar
oundcani
hav
efoodaf
termyshower?
Me:Yeahsur
e..
iwenttowar
m hi
sfoodandt
ooki
t
upstai
rshewasal
readywai
ti
ngforme
Ndi
l
e:Don'
tlookatmeli
kethatNomkhit
haiam nota
woman2mi nshoweri
senough..
.igi
ggl
edheatehi
s
f
oodbuthismindwasfarawayhewasn'teven
concent
rat
ing
Me:
Babywhat
'sbot
her
ingy
ou?
Ndile:
Nothi
ngi canthandl
esthandwasami let
'sgo
andsleep..
.wesaidourprayersmor eli
ke"isai
d"he
wasdeepi nthoughtswegotunder coversand
drif
tedoffiwokeupby12mi dnighttobreastf
eed
Qhawehewaswi l
dawakeaf teriwasdonewi th
Qhawei wenttohughi mfrom behindashewas
standi
ngnearthewi ndow
Hi
m:Gobackt
osl
eepnanami
Me:
Notwi
thouty
ou
hi
m:Owsoy
ouwantmet
ohav
emycake?
Me:Noiwantyout osleepandfor
getwhat
'shur
ti
ng
youicantcopeseeingyouthi
sbother
ed..
.he
huggedmeandki ssedmyhairl
ine
Ndi
l
e:I
yakut
handai
ndoda.
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

ZUSI
PHE

TUESDAYaft
ernooni wasatPhil
ani'
splacehe'snot
backyeti
havebeenwai t
ingf
orhimf orhoursnowi
deci
dedtocl
eanandcookf orhim si
nceididntknow
whattodoit
rycall
i
nghi mforthelastt
imebef or
ei
gi
veuponhim hepickedit
Me:
Final
l
y
Him:
Iam dr
ivi
ngi
nmyy ar
dbabesandohi
seey
our
cary
oubett
erbenaked
Me:Hahanevery
oooi
wil
ldi
eoft
oomuchsexbaby
no.
..
.hel
aughed
Him:
Siesi
tdoesn'
tki
l
lmyl
ovey
ouwi
l
lnotage
qui
ckl
ynorfast
er
Me:Hai
sukawena.
..
wegiggl
edhedroppedthecal
l
andisawhim wal
ki
ngiwenttohughim andwe
ki
ssed
Hi
m:i
tsmel
l
syoucooked?
Me:
Yesdzaddy
..
.hehuggedmef rom behi
ndashe
wasl
eadi
ngmet othekitcheni
dishedupf orhi
m
Hi
m:Thanky
oumyl
ove.
..
hest
art
eddi
ggi
ngi
n
Me:Babyi
hear
dthatt
her
ewi
l
lbeat
ombst
one
cer
emony?
Hi
m:ohy
eaht
hat
'st
rue
Me:
whataboutourt
ri
p?
Hi
m:Wehav
etor
eschedul
emyl
ove
Me:
oh.
..
.hepul
l
edmet
ohi
sembr
ace
Him:sunshineminaipl
annedali
tt
lesomet hi
ngfor
mylat ewif
ebecauseiknewthatwebot hhaveplans
butnowherf ri
endswanttodosomet hi
ngextra
specialf
orherandicantmissi
tpleaseunderst
and
mylov e
Me:Iam al
way sunderstandingminaintothis
rel
ati
onshipPhilani
ifeelli
keitsonesidedbecause
weplansomet hingtogetherandagreethenl at
eron
yougetacallfrom homenowenay ouareleaving
ourplansarealwaysruinedbyt henextpersonandit
hurt
siwaslooki
ngf
orwar
dtot
hist
ri
pany
wayi
hav
e
togoit
slat
e
Him:Irealydontknowwhaty ouwantmet odo
Zusiphey ouknowi dofeelwhatyoufeeliwas
l
ookingf orwardonspendingquali
tyti
mewi thyou
foroncenj ebecauseiam alwaysbusythatiknow
butthisisimportantmyloveicantmissit
Me:
i
tsoki
under
stand
Hi
m:y
oudo?
Me:yeahi understandthatiwi
llalwayscomel asti
f
i
t'
snoty ourkidsi t
'syourmom ifnotherit
sy our
"l
ate"wif
esoi havetoshrinkmy sel
falwaysiam
going.
..
itookmycarkey sandleftiwascryingallt
he
wayf r
om hispl acetohome
SEASONTWO
CHAPTERTHI
RTY-
NINE

KHI
THA

EVENINGcamei wasbusycookingdi
nnerf
ormy
famil
yitendtoforgett
hatbei
ngahousewif
eis
exhaust
ingIheardthedooropenandzuzucamei
n
l
ookingli
keamess
Me:
Andnow?
Her
:ihav
eapoundingheadachet
hat
sal
lsi
si.
..
she
l
yi
ngbuti wi
l
llett
hatsl
i
de
Me:ohokgoandr
esti
wil
lbr
ingy
ouf
oodandmeds
ok?
Her:Thankyousisi
..
.shefakesasmi l
ebefore
walkingawayiwonderwhati seatingher.
Wheni
wasdonecooki ngidishedupandser vedmyki ds
andzuzuaf t
erthatibathethem andmy sel
fiwent
downst ai
rstowatcht vwhisl
tiwaitforBandi
leto
comebackhomei tspast9pm andhehasn' tcall
edi
watched"TheQueen"icanhearUncl
eBrut
us
thr
owingshadeshereandtherebutmymindisf
ar
awaythedoorswingsopenandNdi l
ecameiniwent
tohughim
Me:
Final
l
yhe'
shome
Hi
m:Yousmel
lni
ce
Me:Formyhusbandof coz. .
.hechuckledaf t
erthathe
ki
ssedmesopassi onat eandi tgotheatedi was
nowont opofthemi nit ableandmybackwasont he
col
dwal l
sBandilewashal fnakedhewasunbuckl i
ng
hi
strouserwhisl
tsucki ngmy neckwhenhewas
doneher ubbedhismanhoodonmyent rancebefore
penetr
ati
ngmewemadel ovesomadl y

MORNI NGitwasjustpast4am wheni

hear
dBandi
l
e
speaki
ngtohisphone
conv
o
"
Him:
Hav
eyouf
oundsomet
hingy
et?
?
?:.
.
Hi
m:Ohsoy
oudi
dfi
ndhi
slocat
ion?
?
?:.
..
Hi
m:Perf
ect
oZainMani oweyougobackt
osleepi
wi
llt
akecar
eofitf
rom her
eon"hedr
oppedthecal
l
whatonear
thi
sgoingonnow
Hi
m:Howl
onghav
eyoubeenawake?
Me:
l
ongenoughtoknowt
haty
ouhav
eanenemy
r
oamingar
ound
Him:Yeahigoti
tnowsoiwi
ll
star
tmovi
ngsl
owly
dependingonhi
spacet
hosenowgimmemycake
si
ncey ouup
Me:Ngazengal
ithwalaidombolo.
..
.hechuckl
edwhil
e
get
tingontopofmey oooishoul
d'veakksedwhati
am gett
ingmyselfi
ntowheni marriedhi
mO
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

BANDI
LE

WEDNESDAYi wokeupi nav er

ygoodmoodi dont
knowi fit
'swhatihear
dori t
'sMaBiyel
astreatbuti
am inagoodmoodi t
ookashowerdr i
ed
my sel
f,l
oti
onedandwor emywi fe'
sfavour
itesui
t
aftert
hati wentdownstair
st oj
ointhefamilyf
or
breakf
ast
Wi
fe:
Youl
ooki
ngbeaut
if
ulmyl
ove.
..
shesai
dki
ssi
ng
me
Me:
Youdon'
tuset
hewor
d"beaut
if
ul"i
nmen
MaBi
yel
a
Wi
fe:
oksowhatdoi
sayke?
..
sheaskedgi
ggl
i
ng
Me:
Youmustsayi
lookat
tract
ive.
..
.shel
aughed
Wife:
Ohpleasesi
tdownandeatit
sclearthaty
ou
arehungry
..
.weat
ebreakf
astaf
terthati
bidgoodby
e
tomyf amil
yanddrov
etowork
PHI
LANI

MID-DAYi hav ebeent ryingtogetr eachofZusi buti

cantiknowt hatshe' sangr yri
ghtnowandt hinking
aboutal otoft hingsbuthowdoi post -ponemy
wife'
scer emonyi meani tcomesonceay earsoi
havetomakei tspeci al andhowdoi event el lpeople
tochanget hei rdat esbecausei wantt odor i
ghtby
mygi rl
fri
end?t hisisall messedupy azi.May bei
mov edonf ast ert hani shouldbuti l
ov edZusi i
couldn'
tr esistbutmyhear tisalsoy ear ningf ormy
wifeifeel l
ikei owehersomet hi
ngt hi sissowr ong
thoughbuti thi nki shoul dletZusi gowhi slti try
fi
ndingmy sel fi can'tbehur ti
nghert hiswayi t
ry
i
magi ningt hisv i
cev ersaandi woul d'vebeenhur tif
i
twasmef acingt hissituati
ont osav ehert hisist he
onlyopt i
oni fwewer emeantt obewewi l
l be.i l
ov e
herbuti thinki ti snott her i
ghttimet obewi thher
now,ihav et omov eonf rom Pearlfirstbecausei try
toconv i
ncemy selfthati didbuttruthi si di dn't.
..
BANDI
LE

AFTERNOONi j
ustgotacallf
rom astrangenumber
i
twast hesameguywhosentmet heenv el
opehe
saidwehav etomeetanddi scussourwayf orwar
d
yazithesethirst
ymenwayf orwardyani wel
l i
agreed
tomeetatMuggandbeansashesai dhewanta
publi
cpl acesoi waswai t
ingforhimi kepton
checkingt i
mei hatelat
ecomer sawhi tebuffman
walkedi nwithBouncersohwai tthat
'sLewis
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Hi
m:Whydoy
ouhav
ethatbor
edf
ace?
Me:
ihavebet
tert
hingst
odoLewi
s..
.hesatdown
wi
thhi
sguys
Hi
m:Nohandshake?
Me:
idonthav
eti
mesost
artt
alki
ng
Hi
m:Youknowwhati
alway
swant
edBi
yel
a
Me:
30%ofmycompany
?
Hi
m:Youf
orgots
Me:
huh?
Hi
m:"
Compani
es"
Me:
Youcr
azy
?
Him:Bi
yel
aiknowthatimageandr eputat
ionplaysa
ver
ybigrol
einthekindofbusinessyouareinand
oncethi
sisl
eakedyouwillbedoomedandanot her
thi
ngthi
sisnottheonlythi
ngi hav
eagainstyou
Biy
elawehavebeenliv
ingonyourshadowi thi
nki t
s
aboutt
imeweshowy
out
hatweknowhowt
odo
bett
er
Me:Soy oucameallt
hewayf r
om Kr
uger
sdroopt
o
sayt hat
?ory
outhoughtt
hatnomanheisgoingt
o
draftupacontr
actandgi
vemewhatsduetomei s
thatit?
Hi
m:Itshouldbel
i
kethatBiy
elabecausei
wil
lcal
l
myjournal
istt
odothethi
ngs
Me:
Youwhi
teassbi
tch
Him:Thatswhyiwantedust
omeetinpubl
icyougot
angerissuesBi
yel
aifweweresomewher
eelseam
sureoneofuswouldbedeadbynow
Me:andyouknowexact
lywhothati
,
,,
moving
for
wardLewi
si wi
l
lhavetoseewhaticomeupt
o
onl
yifyougi
vemet i
metothi
nkabouti
t
Him: Ihopeitwi l
lbesoonenough. ..
.hestoodupand
wal kedouti bangedt hetabl
eshitiknowt his
mot herfuckerdoesn'tplaywhenitcomest o
blackmai l
ingi j
usthav etodecideifigivehim what
hewant sorl oosesomeofmybusi nessv al
ueand
thisisthedisadv ant
ageofgoi nginternat
ionalt
hisi
s
Khitha'
sfaul
tiknowshewashelpi
ngandmakinga
goodnamef orourcompanyandmoneybutnowit
s
fuckingmeup.Idrov
etomyhouseandshewas
busyonherlaptop
Her
:Youbackear
ly.
..
shesai
dwhi
l
eiwaski
ssi
ngher
Me:
yeahi
missedmyson.
..
isai
dpi
cki
ngupQhawe
Her
:Soy
oudi
dn'
tmi
ssme?
Me:
Comeonpl
ease?
Whatar
eyoubusywi
th?
Her:
Itseemslikeweaboutt
obesi
gnedonabi
g
deal
..shesay
swi t
habogsmi l
e
Me:
Uhhuh?
Her
:r
ememberourplanofbui
dli
ngfourseasoni
n
Mozambi
que?
(inodded)weareclosebaby
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

FRIDAYIwasatt
hemal l
doingsomegrocer
y
shoppi
nginWoolwor
thsfoodisawLewisoneof
Shaun'
scausi
n'
sohLordcomesav emehecamet o
whereiwas
Hi
m:Ki
t-
kat
..
hesai
dwi
tht
hissi
l
lysmi
rkonhi
sface
Me:
Hey
Him:Yougotacut esonher
eandi meanal
lyourkids
arebeauti
fulidi
dn'tknowt
hatyougot5ki
dsbut
yourbodyisfi
renowonderShaunwasheadov er
heel
swi t
hy ou
Me:
Lewi
syoursi
ghtdi
sgustmecany
ougetl
ost
?
Hi
m:Welly
ourhusbandandigotadealhe'
sa
st
ubbor
nmansoi wasthinki
ngthaty
oumayhel
p
me
Me:
whydoy
out
hinki
candot
hat
?
Him:Becausei
fyoudon'
thelpmeiguesswewi
l
l
havetoseehowstrongyourmar
ri
ageis
Me:
Ohpl
easebor
emeagai
n
Him:Hemightknowabouty oudatingShaunand
maybeheforgavey ou"
weakassman"butl et'
ssee
i
fhef i
ndsoutthathowwillher
eActwhenhef i
ndsa
sext
apeofthewi f
ehe'sbusypri
dinghimselfwi
th
Me:
What?!
..
.Hegavemeaphonewithavi
deoohmy
Godnonono!!i
crashedhi
sphonedown
Him:ooopssoyouthi
nkyouhavedest
royedit
?iam
notthatst
upi
diknowwhati wantt
oigotitonmy
l
aptop..
..
igav
ehim ahar
dslap
Me:
Yousonofabi
tch
Him;iam onlygiv
ingyou3day stoconvi
nceyour
husbandy ouloosecananotherwi
sethi
swhole
Joburgwillseeyouryel
lowassbeingfuckedbya
si
deni gga
Me:Lewi
si dar
ey out ol
eakitiwi
ll
visi
tyoul
ikey
our
worstni
ghtmarey ouwi
llcur
sethedayyoucame
acr
ossmeandt hinkofscamingme
Him:
Wewi l
lsee.
..
hesai
dpickinguphisphoneand
hedi
sappearedf
ucknoiquicklywentt
opayformy
thi
ngsandl ef
tidr ov etomyhouseandcal ledZainto
comet omypl aceunf or
tunatelyhewaswi thBandil
e
ohLor dthi
scantbehappeni ngi t
houghtigotaway
withthisshi
tno!!iwasgoi ngcr azynowi waseven
screamingnoist hismyni ghtmar ecomingtoreali
ty?
yoomanam scr ewedi havet okil
lLewisigotno
otherchanceyeaht hat'
sitiwi l
lconvi
ncehim of
somet hi
ngandki l
l himr i
ghtaway
Voi
ce:
Arey
ouok?
..
ij
umped
Me:
Youscar
edmenani
SEASONTWO
CHAPTERFORTY

Ndil
e:Iam sor
ryidi
dn'
tmeanto.
..
hesaidsi
tt
ing
downandpl aci
nghisbr
ief
caseonthesi
detabl
e
Me:
Youl
ookedwor
kedupbabyar
eyouok?
Ndi
l
e:We'
vegotanewCOOatMasakhane
Me:What
?!i
didn'
tknowweneededoneSt
afyi
s
goodmoss
Ndi
l
e:Yest
hati
knowbuti
thi
nkt
hisonei
sthebest
Me:
Who'
ss/
he?
Ndi
l
e:Lewi
sMacker
s
Me:What?
!anotherMacker
sbabyar
eyousur
eof
whatyouaredoing?
Ndil
e:I
'
v egotnochoicehehassomethingonmeand
ihavelearnedthathehasgoodconnecti
onswi
th
l
awsoi couldn'
tri
skit
Me:
Wowwhati
nfor
mat
ionnow?
Ndi
l
e:Theonet
hatcanl
andmei
npr
isonf
ormur
der
Me:Wow..
.idrewsomeairthisi
sgoi
ngtobehar
di
wantedt
ost r
ikehi
m onethingf
orsur
eBandi
lewil
l
knowaboutthetape
Ndi
l
e:Ar
eyouok?
Me:
Howdoy ouexpectmetobeBandi
l
ewhati
fhe
t
ri
estodowhatShaundid?
Ndi
le:
Hewonttr
ymeipr
omisey
ouont
hatandt
his
weekendi
am goi
ngt
oRussi
a
Me:
Tosi
gnadr
ugdeal
?
Ndil
e:Yest
hat
'showi
gett
hemoneyt
obui
l
dal
lof
t
hisremember?
Me:Iwasn'
tfi
ght
ingnam i
wasaski
ng.
..
hest
oodup
andwentupstai
rs

BANDI
LE

Ihavebeeni
nmyof f
icet
ryi
ngt
ofi
ndsomedir
tyshi
t
onthisLewi
sguyandmanheknowshowtocover
upbutiam surehegotsomethi
ngi can'
tj
ustlethi
m
havehi
swayonmei haveheardthathewasonce
arr
est
edi nRussi
asoaftermymeet i
ngiwil
lcalli
n
somefewf avour
sThismanisgoingtodestr
oymy
companiesthatiwor
kedsohardtobuildmykids
empir
enotachanceKhithawalksin
Her:
wehav
eameet
ingwi
tht
heshar
ehol
der
son
sunday
Me:
iknowkhi
tha
Her
:andy
ouar
est
il
lgoi
ngt
oRussi
a?
Me:
yesy
ouar
eher
emosssoy
ouwi
l
lat
tendi
t
Her
:iam sosi
ckofy
ourat
ti
tuder
ightnowy
azi
?
Me:Khit
hai fwet akeacloserlooktothisitisall
your
faul
tfi
rstofal ly
ouliedandsai dShaunisy our
gynecol
ogi standhewasasur geon,y
ousai dyouhe
waswor kingatNet -
careremember ?ifeel
likethere'
s
moretot hisandwhat everif
indmustnotbewhati
am
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Her
:What
everi
tisi
bet
terbenoti
nvol
ved
Me:Mhhh.
..
.isai
dlooki
ngstrai
ghtt
ohereyest
hey
aresogui
lt
yandi am ni
treadytof
indoutt
her
eal
tr
uthbehi
ndallt
his
Her
:whatwoul
dyoul
i
ket
oeatt
odayBabBi
yel
a?
Me:
Any
thi
ngasl
ongasi
am notgoi
ngt
obedhungr
y
Her
:k.
..
shesaidst
andi
ngupandmaki
ngherwayt
o
t
hedoorical
ledZaint
osendmethevi
deo
Zi
an:
arey
ousur
ebozza?
Me:yeah...
ifel
tastr
angef
eel
ingi
wasn'
tcomf
ort
abl
e
atalliaskedhimtohackonLewi
sli
fewi
th
technologyiseasy
Zian:
sur
e..
.af
tersomecouplesofmi
nut
esi
hear
da
beepsoundandKhithawalkedin
Her:
Wearewai
ti
ngf
ory
ou.
.icl
osedmyl
apt
opand
st
oodup
Me:
l
etsgo
KHI
THA

MrBiyel
ahasbeenbusytodaysoi deci
dedt oi
gnor
e
hi
m anddomychoresaf t
erthati
wentt otakeabath
andiwenttosl
eepaft
eraf ewhoursifel
thisstr
ong
armsaroundmehekissedmyneck
Hi
m:ar
eyouawakenanami
?
Me:
yeahi
am
Hi
m:wel
lithi
nkiwi
ll
bef
lyi
ngoutt
omor
rowi
justgot
al
eadaboutLewi
s
Me:mhhthat
'sgoodi
hopehedi
sappear
saf
tert
hat
aar
gheisapain
Him:iwi
l
lmakesur
ethathappenssodi
dyouknow
abouthi
m?
Me:
nobabywhy
?
Him:
thewayhespeaksaboutyouonewoul
dswear
heknewyoubutt
heni wi
ll
takeyourwor
dtoit
Me:youbet
ter.
..
isai
dgrabbinghismanhoodand
ki
ssedhimjusttodi
stur
bt hisconv
ersat
ion
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

PHI
LANI

FRIDAYi call
edZusitocomeandseemei am
shakeyaboutallthi
simeanitsgoingt
obreakher
thatiknowasmuchasi ti
sbreaki
ngmei hearda
knockatt hedoorandIwenttoopenandZusi came
i
nl ooki
ngal l
sexyandniceshetookof
fhercoatand
reveal
edhersexiestbody
Her
:heydaddy
..
.shesai
dcomi
ngcl
osert
ome
Me: heysunshine..
.iwasbreathingonmyneckshe
pushedmet ot hecouchandgetont opofmeshe
straddledonmeandst art
edki ssi
ngmyneckwhisl
t
shewasdr yhumpi ngmemychockgothar dandi
couldn'thol
ditshesuckedmyneckandl ef
twet
ki
ssesonmyneckchestdownt omymanshegav e
meami ndbl
owi ngheadaf t
erthatsherodeme
crazyandweendedupi nthebedr oom
Me:
Youal
way
samazemesunshi
ne.
..
.isai
dtr
yingt
o
cat
chmybr
eat
h
Her:
Learnedfr
om thebestandi
nyourcal
lyou
soundedveryser
ious
Me:yeahi missedyoubabyandal l
ogthi
sgotme
thi
nkingthattheceremonymustbeheldin
Decemberonherbi rthdayweekendandourpl
ans
sti
l
lstandswegoi ngt oSpai
nbaby
Her
:Babyi
knowt
hisi
swhati
want
edbut
..
.
Me;nobutsbabyithoughtaboutt
hisimeanyeahi
sti
lll
ovemylatewifedearl
ybutihavet
oletgoand
focusonrebui
ldi
ngmyf uturewi
thyoubaby
Her
:wowbabydon'
tspeakl
i
ket
hati
tswayt
oo
matur
edf
orme
Me:ohpl
easei
am ol
dsoy oubett
erbematuredyou
can'
tdat
emeandsti
llbechi
ldi
shgoandfetchyour
agemates
Her
:iwanty
oumoss
Me:
youdo?
!
Her:
yesido.
.igotontopofherandstar
tedkissing
herandpenet
ratedhershecuppedherbreasts
Her
:OhGod.
..
sheexcl
aimai
ted

KHI
THA

AFTERNOONBandil
eisi
nRussi
aal
readysoiwas
wait
ingf
orZai
nit
sbeenhour
snowhegetsin
Me:
yoooy
ousur
etooky
ourt
ime
Hi
m:i
wasbusywi
thBossmanMadam buti
am her
e
Me:
sot
hev
ideo?
Hi
m:isenthim avideoofLewi sescapi
ngpr
ison
i
nst
eadofy ourtape..
.ir
elaxedami n
Me:
oht
hanky
oui
woul
dbedeadany
waybynow
Hi
m:youhavetocomecl
eanonewayort
heot
herhe
wi
llf
indoutBi
yel
aisasmar
tman
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Me:
iam notst
upidZai
nBandi
lei
sgoingtoki
ll
me
t
hatiknowsopleasei
wil
lthi
nkoft
heotherpl
an
Hi
m:whati
fhef
indsout
?
Me:
Wil
lyout
ell
him?
Him:
Noifi
wantedtoiwould'
vesenthi
mthev
ideo
buti
deci
dedtoshutaboutit
Me:Goodhedoesn'
thav
etofi
ndoutLewisi
s
bl
uffl
i
ngiwil
lhandl
ehimtoni
ghti
tshi
m andi
Hi
m:okdon'
tgety
oursel
fki
l
ledt
hen
Me:
noi
wil
ldoacl
eanj
ob
Hi
m:ki
l
li
nghi
m?
Me:noiwon'
totwi
l
lmakeBandi
lemor
esuspi
ciousi
hav
et ogoihav
eameeti
ngtogett
o
Hi
m:sur
emygi
rli
spani
cki
ngnow
Me:Sendmyr egar
dst
oyourcut
ehi
ghschool
gi
rl
..
..
helaughed
Hi
m:iam notPhi
l
ani
idon'
tdeal
wit
hlear
ner
sand
st
udent
s
Me:onl
ybecauseshej
ustgr
aduat
edohpl
ease.
..
we
l
aughedaswewer egoi
ngout

idrovetoMasakhaneandwi t
hanewlaptopsame
asLewisoneiheardthathehasameeti
ngi t
oldhi
s
PAthatiwil
lwai
tforhim
Her
:okMr
sBi
yel
aiwi
l
lbei
nther
ecept
ion
Me: ok..
.if
akedasmileasshedisappearediquickl
y
closedandl ockedt
hedoorandchangedt helaptops
i
tsst il
lnewsohewon' tnot
icei
onlycopiedthewor k
relatedthi
ngstotheotheroneandt ookhiswit
hme
Me:
thatwentwel
l
...
itookmyt
hingsandwal
kedout
P.
A:Ohy
oul
eav
ing?
Me:Yeahigotacal
lfr
om myki
dsschool
somet
hing
ur
gentoccurr
edihavetor
un
P.A:
okgowell
..
..
iranoutanddrovest
rai
ghttomy
houseMamPattywasbusywiththeki
dsi wentt
o
myoffi
ceandopenedhislapt
ophispasswordwas
onthescreenBi ngo!i
openedi
tandwentthrough
histhi
ngswelllooksli
keigotmor et
haniwas
l
ookingfor#theEndOfLewisbi
tchagirl
gott
ado
whatagirlgott
adoBandi l
eisgoingtobowformein
thi
sone
SEASONTWO

CHAPTERFORT-
ONE

ItookLewi slaptopanddest r
oyedev ery
thi
nginitbut
tr
ansf eredsomei mpor t
antdocument sinmy
personal t
abletnowi havetothinkonhowi am
goingt oswipehi m onthi
sfaceoftheear t
hnowi
wasj ustpaintingmynai l
sidomi ssmyhusband
he'stheonewhoal way spai
ntmynai lsaargiwas
di
st ur
bedPhi lanihejustwal
kedi nthehouse
Hi
m:Hell
omadam.
..
hesai
dcomi
ngt
ohugmeand
wehugged
Me:
Heymi
ster
..
wegi
ggl
ed
Hi
m:Howar
eyouMaBi
yel
a?
Me:
nev
erbeenbet
terwena?
Hi
m:i
am goodt
oo.
..
hesai
drel
axi
ngi
nthecouch
Me:Howdoi
owet
hepl
easur
e?get
ti
ngav
isi
tfr
om
you?
Hi
m:t
her
e'snot
hingwr
ongaboutt
hatott
her
eis?
Me:
owpl
easecomeon.
..
.wel
aughed
Him:okiam her
etoaskyouguystoshiftt
he
cel
ebrat
iontoDecemberonherbi
rthdayidontt
hink
iwil
lbeavai
labl
eonthedateyouhaveset
Me:
mhhhsoy
ourbaecat
ioni
son?
Hi
m:huh?
..
.il
aughed
Me:
noitsokPhil
ani
iwi
l
llett
heot
her
sknowwe
r
espectyouri
dea

LEWI
S

ijustgoti ntomyof fi
ceandi canfeelthatt
herewas
someoneher ebutmyPAwoul d'
veleftamessage
formei wenttotakemylaptopitisfull
ycharged
yassihav etocontactMrsBiyel
atospeedupt he
processi wanttoseemysel fowningt hi
scompanyi
calledhersheagr eedtomeetupwi thmebuti went
tofr eshenupf ir
sttheniwenttotherestaur
antshe
wasal readythere
Her
:youknowi
tsr
udet
okeepal
adywai
ti
ng?
Me:
Idontcar
eyouwi
l
ltel
lthatt
oyourhusband
Her:
youaref
ull
ofy
our
sel
fsol
etsgett
oitwhatdo
youwant?
Me:
Iam l
osi
ngmypat
ience
Her:
Diwhat
everyouwisht
odoi knowmyhusband
wil
lnev
erbel
ievewhat
everyougotonme
Me:wewill
seei
fhowwi
l
lhef
eel
whenhe'
sseei
ng
yourassonTwi
tt
er
Her
:ber
eadyt
obear
rest
edt
hen
Me:
tr
yme
Her:t
hisisnoRussiaihavetightconnect
ionthi
sside
speakingaboutRussi
ai thi
nktheywilll
ovetohear
thatyouarehereandabusingy ourfr
eedom
goodnightLewis.
..
shelaughedandst oodupandleft
whatdoessheknowaboutRussi a?
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

KHI
THA

SATURDAYi wokeupanddidmyweekendhouse
choresandguesswhatif
oundinZuzu'
slaundr
ythi
s
chi
ldiam j
ustwait
ingf
orhert
ocomebackand
expl
ain
Xoxo:
mamay
ourphonei
sri
ngi
ng
Me:
who'
scal
l
ingl
ove?
Xoxo:
i
tsanunsav
ednumber
Me:
iwi
l
lcal
lthem backok?
xoxo:
socani
cont
inuepl
ayi
ngwi
thy
ourphone?
Me:Baxoli
seyouhaveanipadmntanam t
hatphone
hasbiggerthi
ngswaytoomuchforyourageso
pl
ease
Xoxo:
kodwamamai
..
.
Me:
Hey
ihambobekal
oPhone<goandputmy
phone>.
..
.kidsandpeople'
sphonecomboi mean
ther
espicturesofBandil
eandi evenoursextapes
arestor
edonmyper sonalphonesoi am notready
forhi
mt obeexposedt osucht hi
ngsplushehas
beennaggingmeofmepur chasi
nghim aphone
hayiiwontdot hatZuzuwalksin
Her
:heysi
si
Me:heyangel
faceorwhatmusti
cal
lyoui
meany
ou
ar
enotanangel
Her
:huh?
Me:y
eszuzuangel
sarei
nnocentandthere'
syou
Zusi
phewho'
sboxersar
etboseful
li
ny ourdrawer
?
Her
:wel
li
..
.i
..
Me:
you.
.y
ou.
.what
?
Her:
sisi
iam sor
ryi
didn'
tmeant
odi
srepecty
ou
and.
..
Me:St
opit!
!mamelaaphakesi si
thisismyhusband
houseamanwho' sobsessedwithtr
adit
ionlet
ti
nga
mansleepoveri
sanunder r
ateddisr
espectso
pl
easewheneverwenanoPhilaniwanttoplayhi
de
andseekandconnectyourur
ineor
gansont
he
processdontdoi
tundermyroofok!
!
Her
:si
sii
am sor
ryi
didn'
tmeant
odoi
t
Me: I
tmaybewr ongofmegoi ngthr
oughy ourthi
ngs
butthisismyhousei hav
et oknowwhat sgoi ng
on...
isaidwal ki
ngouti wasangr ytobehonestand
gottomyr oom t obewelcomedbyal lmykids
playi
ngdr essupwi thmycl othestheywentasf aras
usingasci ssoronsomeoft hem mymake- upwas
alloverididn'tsayathingilockedthedoorandwent
towetmyf acecl ot
handwi ppedt hehelloutofthem
especiall
yxoxohe' soldenought ost opt
hem not
assistthem theywer ecryi
ngi sentthem outsi
deto
goandcr ythere
ki
dsar
eexhaust
ingsomet
imes
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Iwentdownstair
stocheckiftheywerebacky etand
nomydearki dswerecr
yinglouderthanbeforeij
ust
wenttonursebabyQhaweandi heardthecri
es
get
ti
ngcloser
Me:Ni
ji
ke!
!<goback>(
adoorswi
ngsopen)y
heeee
ni
na!!
!
Voice:
andwhyaretheycry
ing?
..
.whenil
ookbacki
waswel comedbyBandi
lewhendidhecomeback
again?
Me:
Youback?
Him:y
eahit
oldyout
hati
wontst
ay.
..
hesai
daswer
e
huggi
nghegavemeapeck
Me:Yourbigheadedkidsr
uinedmythingsBabBi
yel
a
mynewmake- upisamessandthedressyou
boughtmel astt
imeNunuwast r
yingtobeDavid
tl
aleonitandthatal
oneisyourf
ault
Hi
m:hawungi
ngenaphi
mina?
<howdoesi
tconcer
ns
me>
Me:i
tdoesbecauseyouar
et heonewhol
eftt
he
sci
ssorontopofthesi
dedrawermoss
Him:i
forgott
oplacei
tbackmar
anawey
ou
shoul
d'v
ehidit
Me:i
wasbusysoar
ewebot
hgoi
ngt
otheGal
a
di
nnert
oni
ght
?
hi
m:y
esmylov
ebuti
needsomepamper
ingwher
e's
MaMPat
ty?
Me:
i
nherr
oom out
side
Hi
m:ohl
etmegoandt
akeabat
h
Me:y
ouandabat
h?t
hat
snew.
..
hel
aughedwhi
l
e
goi
ngupst
air
s

DINNERwewer eattherestaur
antnowi tl
ookedli
ke
summerawar dsitwasdr esstokil
liworemyone
armedr edvel
vetnumberwi thalongsl
itontheside
thatgoesupmyt highandsomeheel sthatwere
boughtbymyhusbandi didmymakeupandgi rl
wasl ooki
nghotli
keabossshei swhenwewal ked
i
ni twasalley
esonusandNdi lemadet hi
ngswor se
bypl
aci
nghi
shandonmysidehi
pandkepton
br
ushi
ngmyassunti
lwewentt
ositdownwewer
e
wel
comedbydr
inks
Me:
It
sper
kedher
eidi
dn'
ti
magi
nei
tthi
sway
Hi
m:Yeahr
emembert
het
our
sim newi
nter
ns?
Me:
ohy
eah?
Hi
m:y
eah
Lady
:ohheyMrBi
yel
a..
.shesai
donhersexi
estv
oice
Hi
m:HeyMi
ss
Lady:
Howareyou?
Godihavebeendr
eamingof
meeti
ngyou.
..
shesai
dbr
ushighi
sarm hai
boam i
bei
ngtest
ed
Hi
m:ohwhyi
sthat
?
Lady:
whowoul dn'
twanttomeett
hemi ght
y
Biy
ela.
..
theykeptont
alki
ngiwasn'
tevensurethi
s
gi
rlseesmeshe'sbeauti
ful
andall
butshepisses
me
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Iwr
appedmyar
msBandi
l
e'swai
standki
ssedhi
m
Me:
nani
iam goi
ngt
othebat
hroom ok?
Him:
ohokmyl ove.
..
hegav emeapeckt heladywas
soir
ri
tat
ederhai
bodidn'tsheknewshewasmar r
ied
toabadass?iwenttothebathroom j
ustt
of ixmy
hai
randmeetpeoplesi
ncemyhusbanddeci dedt
o
beagirl
'
scandymani metLewis
Hi
m:t
hel
adyi
hav
ebeenl
ooki
ngf
or
Me:
whatdoy
ouwant
?
Him:
Khi
thaidon'
tknowwhatgamey ouar
epl
ayi
ng
buty
ouwil
lgetburnti
nthepr
ocess
Me:il
i
ket aki
ngr
isksoi
mightaswel
ll
ovet
he
exper
ience
Hi
m:Whatdi
dyoudot
omyl
apt
opi
hear
dthaty
ou
wer
einmyoffi
ce
Me:Lewi
sihat
epeoplewhobet
hreat
eningnyli
fe
youknowandihear
dthaty
ouwantedthemine?
Hi
m:y
esi
knowt
hingst
hatcant
urni
tar
ound
Me:t
henbuildyoursthat
'smyson'
scompanyand
ever
ybodyknowsi gomadovermykidsand
anyt
hingconcerni
ngthem
Hi
m:Khi
thai
am war
ningy
ou.
..
igi
ggl
ed
Me:ohpleasewhatareyougoi
ngtodo?kill
meohi
am soscared.
.il
aughedBandi
l
eapproachedus
Ndil
e:what
'sgoi
ngonLewi
sar
eyout
hreat
eni
ngmy
wif
e?
Hi
m:Ohgety
our
sel
famor
esel
frespect
edwi
fet
han
t
hisone
Ndi
l
e:I
fwewer
en'
ti
npubl
i
cicoul
d'
vepunchedy
our
f
acenow
Hi
m: that
'sy
ourpr
obl
em y
ouf
ixev
ery
thi
ngby
vi
olence
Voice:
att
ent
ionl
adiesandgentl
emenwewer easked
tocall
MrMackersinfr
ont.
..
hewalkedther
ewithso
muchpr i
deandBandil
ewasallsmileswhenhegot
thetwowhit
ebuffedcopsappeared
Cop:
Lewi
sMacker
syouar
eunderar
restf
ordamage
ofRussi
agovernmentpr
oper
ty,
pri
sonescape,
fr
aud
andmurder
..
..
Me:
andnow?
Ndil
e:it
oldy
ouiwi
ll
dothi
sniceandclean.
.hesai
d
squeezi
ngmyassandthejour
nali
stwerebuzzi
ngin
ri
ghtnowashewasescott
edoutsi
detothepoli
ce
van
Ndil
e:Let
'sgohomemamiisawwhati
want
edt
o
seeiam exhaust
edany
way
Me:wow..
.ij
ustsaidthatiwaslef
tofwordsiwant
ed
hi
m deadheisstil
lgoingtoescapepr
isonandcome
backwhenwel eastexpecthi
m
Ndi
l
e:Ar
eyouokmami
?
Me:
yeahsur
elet
'sgo
SEASONTWO
CHAPTERFORTY-
TWO

3MONTHSLATER

SATURDAYit
'saperf
ectdayIwasi
nthemallwit
h
Bandi
l
eeventhoughhewascomplai
ningsay
ingi
t'
s
beenl
ong
Ndil
e:Wehav ebeenhereforthepast20mi nut
es
nanamidoy ouwanttot el
lmet hatyoucan'
tfi
nd
whatyoulookingfor
?..
..SeeItoldy'
all
Me:noIhavetogoaroundt
heshopandmakesur
e
aboutwhatIam goi
ngtopi
ck
Ndil
e:ohnkosi
y am sohowlongwil
lthi
stake?
no
whatforgeti
tletmegoandt akeaseatonthe
couchesyouwi ll
callmewhenyoudonesoIcan
pay.
.Ijumpedandki ssedhi
m
ME:i
ndodayam Bo!!<MYMANt hough>.
.It
hen
wal
kedallar
oundthestoreai
sletoaisl
eIsweari
t
wasli
keIam shoppingf
orthelastti
meoknowIam
goingfortheshoesIsawaladyapproachinghim
shewassocut ewit
hhershortumbrell
askirtt
hat
showshert hi
ckli
ghtthi
ghsshewaswi thherfri
ends
Isawhergi vi
nghim aphoneIwentclosertothem I
gotclosertoo
Me:
nani
wecangoandpay
..Theyal
ll
ookedatme
Ndi
l
e:oht
hat
'sal
lyour
smy
lov
e?
Me:yesl
ovephel
ayourbi
gheadedsquadt
ornmy
cl
othes
Ndi
l
e:manj
eIam pay
ingf
ori
t?
Me:yest
heyare"
our
"kidsbutyout
hefat
hersopay
uphoneyIhav
etogetmyf ent
ymake-
uptooandoh
si
sihowcanwehelpyou?
Lady
:Iwant
edhi
mtot
akeusapi
c
Me:wi
thallt
heguysandladi
esinthi
sshopy ou
pi
ckedhim?Sisi
bett
ertakeyourl
eatherweaveout
ofmysighthawu
Lady:
yonkeintoinesphet
ho<everyt
hinghasits
ends>.
.Islappedtheatti
tudeoffherfaceIhate
bei
ngdisrepected
Ndi
l
e:MaBi
yel
anost
opi
t!
..
.Hesai
dhol
dingme
Me:not hatwasnot hi
ngwenaknowy ourst
andards
sundiqhela<don'tmessupwi thme>..bandi
l
etook
ourtrol
leytothet i
l
lsall
eyeswereonusnowandhe
wasf umingwi thangert hel
ectur
eam abouttoget
athomeori nthepar ki
nglotbecauseseemslikethi
s
i
snotgoi ngt owor kbutkewheny ouseeat hr
eatact
fastandnev erwi shyoucouldhavewheni t
'sl
ate
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Afterwehavedonewit
hourshoppi
ngwedr ove
homeandhewasqui etthewhol
edri
veIdecidedt
o
breakthei
ce
Me:
who'
sthatgi
rl
?
Ndi
l
e:awungi
yekeMi
nangi
mazel
akuphi
?
Me:
youl
ookbot
her
edmosst
hat
'swhyIhadt
oask
Ndil
e:noIdon'
tpr
oblem i
showy
oureact
editwasso
uncal
ledforwearegoi
ngtobet
het
alkoftown
Me:aaar
gtel
lmeaboutsomet
hingel
seandohIhav
e
beenthi
nki
ng
Ndi
l
e:ok.
.
Me:
howaboutwegoonaf
ami
l
ytr
ipt
oMadagascar
?
Ndil
e:ohIwasthi
nki
ngoftaki
ngthem t
oonottothe
samepl acet
houghbutIwasgoi
ngtoasky ouabout
i
tsowecancel ebr
atexoxoandl
ubenathi
sbirt
hdays
Me:ohthat
'sagreati
deababyandt
heybothlov
ethe
car
toon'Madagascarbei
ngther
ewi
llbet
heir
gr
eat
estj
oy
Ndil
e:Isuppose.
..wearr
ivedatthehouseandtook
thebagsinsideandthekidswer ewi
thmaLindi
we
zuzuwentonar oadtr
ipwithherboyfr
iendphi
l
aniso
i
twasmyhusbandandI

LATERwehaddi
nnerandhal
fwayt
hroughi
thegot
acall
Ndi
le:who'
scall
i
ngmenow?Heanswer
edi
tIwasso
cur
iousbecausehehadhi
sey
esonmeaft
ert
hecal
l
Me:
whowasi
t?
Ndi
l
e:Lewi
s
Me:
Bluf
fi
ngagai
n?
Ndi
l
e:hesayshehassomet
hingi
nter
est
ingt
oshow
meandit'
saboutyou
Me:
ohpl
easewhatmi
ghtbei
t?
Ndi
le:Idon'
tknowbabybutIwi
llpasst
ohi
m whenI
am goingtodeli
veri
nRussi
anextweek
Me:
ohokIcan'
twai
ttof
indout
..
.Isai
dki
ssi
nghi
m
andwecont i
nuedtoeatmymi ndwasalloverthe
placewhati sheevental
ki
ngabout?Doeshehav e
thattapetohim?ShitIhavet
ot hi
nkofsomet hi
ng
andactf astbef
orenextweekIam ti
redofplayi
ng
hideandseekgameswi t
hLewisit'
sti
me
Ndi
l
ewal
kedi
nhewasi
ntheof
fi
cet
hewhol
eti
me
Ndi
le:
whower
eyout
ryi
ngt
ocal
latt
hist
imeoft
he
ni
ght?
Me:
ZuzuIj
ustmi
ssedher
Ndile:andshe'shav
ingfunwheresheislet'
sjust
sleepbabyi t
'sbeenalongday5mi nuteshe'
s
snoringIheardhisphonebeepandIpeepi ntoit
therewasamessagef rom anunsavednumber
Ndi
l
e:cany
oust
opwhaty
ouar
edoi
ngandsl
eep
SEASONTWO
CHAPTERFORTY-
THREE

BANDI
LE

LastweekIwentt oRussiaformymeet ingand

deli
veri
ngandIpassedbyt hePr i
sonbuttomy
surpri
seLewiswasf ounddeadi ntheearl
i
esthours
ofthedaybutthismademeopenmyey esmore
widernowImeant her
e'sobsolut
elysomeonewho's
playi
nggamesher eandIbet t
erfindoutwheneverI
tr
yt oputmyfingeronwhat ev
erhehasbeent el
ling
meadi str
acti
onoccur sthi
shast obedoneandget
overit
stir
ing

ZUSI
PHE

WEEKSagoIwashav ingsomeassumptionsabout
myheal
thissuesthi
nkingt
hatIam pr
egnantsoi
mi
zedthatandliv
edbutsiskhi
thahasbeen
breat
hingdownmyneckandshedecidedt
ot akeme
toadoctorandweareatitaswespeakwejust
waiti
ngforther
esul
tsam shaki
ng
Dr
:i
t'
saboutt
ime.
..Hesai
dfet
chi
ngt
het
est
Si
si:
andnow?
Dr:
uhm MissZ.Ngxowais8weekspr
egnant.
..
.My
si
sterl
etoutaloughsar
cast
icl
aughandclapped
once
Sisi
:
weren'
tyouinbi
rt
hcontrolmadam? andwhy
di
dn'ty
ouuseaCondom wi t
hhim?Orar eyouguys
somehowmar ri
edtoeachothermhlawumbindi
m
l
ungaziy
o
Me:si
sit
het
hingi
suh.
.uh.
..
.if
eltahar
dsl
aponmy
cheek
Sisi:
thethingiswhat?Zuzubyaccept ingyour
relat
ionshipwi t
hPhilaniIwasn'tgiv
ingy oufreedom
todowhat everyouwantf ir
stl
yy ousleptwithhimin
myhouse, secondlyyouwentoutwi thhim without
mycor ncenZusipheIf eel
li
key ouarewayt oo
comf ortabletoapointof(slap)disr
espectingmear e
your eadyformar r
iage?
Me:si
siIdi
dn'
tmeanf
ori
ttohappeni
tjust
happenednj
e
Sisi
:Zusiphewheny ouarri
vedher eyourai m wasto
studyandIwast heret omakesur ethaty oudoand
gettoget heryourli
febeforey oust artl
ivi
ngIdi dnot
wanty out odateOKt hi
smi ghtsoundst upidbutI
alwaysf earedforthingsli
kethishowar ey ougoing
tostudy" MEDI CI
NE"wi thachi l
dony ourlapZusiphe
awucingi awucingituhandasf ormeIf eelli
keIhave
fail
edy ouIhav efail
edasapar entt oyoubei ngopen
andf r
iendlyisshitne..Shewasf umi ngandshaki ng
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Thedr i
vewast ot hehousewasv erysil
entIcoul d
seethedi sappoi nt mentinhereyeswhatdi dIdo?
WhatwasIt hinking?Whataboutmyf utur e?Icame
toJobur gwi thdr eamsandIal way spray edt onev er
getdistractedbutwhenIsawt hatli
fewasf ancy ,
niceandcomf ortableIleti
tsli
deIdr oppedmyguar d
downIf or gotthatt hesepeoplear enotmypar entsI
understandt hatt heylov eme,Iam ar esponsi bil
it
y
andIam br i
ngi nganot heroneont hepict ureIam so
ungrateful

Khi
tha

Zusi
phejustt
urnedmymooddowny azihowcan
sheevendothis?Aar
ggmaarnIparkedmycarin
fr
ontofthehouseandcl
imbedoffshefoll
owedme
wewalkedtothehouse
Andwewer
ewel
comedbymyhusband
Ndi
l
e:whati
swr
ongwi
tht
het
woofy
ou?
Me:hay
inaniIj
ustwantsomewi
nei
fnotwhi
skey
..
.I
sai
dsit
tingdown
Zuzu:
canIgot
omyr
oom?
Ndi
l
e:uhhmm(hel
ooksatme)yeahsure.
.She
wal
kedawayandNdil
ewaslooki
ngforanswers
Me:ubal
ekaindabaz
akhe<she'
srunni
ngawayf
rom
heri
ssues>
Ndi
l
e:y
ini
manj
e?
Me:
she'
spr
egnant8weekspr
egnant
!!
!.
.ibangedt
he
t
abl
e
Ndi
l
e:whooat
hat
'shect
ic.
.
Me:
i
sthatal
lyougoi
ngt
osay
?
Ndi
l
e:y
eahbecauseIdon'
tknowwhaty
ouwantme
t
osaynanami
Me:
yeahsur
ewhat
everIneedt
ogoandl
aydown
Ndi
l
e:who'
sthef
ather
?
Me:
am sur
eul
owaut
shongobamndei
ngat
hi
usebenzakwaeskom<it'
sthatonewho' stall
asi f
he'
swor ki
ngateskom>..
iheardhim chuckleIlooked
athim hethr
ewhishandsont heai
r
Ndi
l
e:am sor
rybutdoesheknows?
Me:
Idon'
tknownawenemi
buzowhat
'sup?
Ndi
le:
hay
ikeyouwil
ltel
lmewheny ouwantme
i
nvolv
edIwil
lbemakingdi
nner
..InoddedasI
wal
kedtothest
air
swowwhataday
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Eveni
ngIwasinmyroom busywi
thmychi
l
dwhen
Bandi
lecamecar
ryi
ngatray
Me:
ain'
tyouagoodhusband?
Ndi
l
e:comeonIam j
ustbei
ngf
ri
endl
y
Me:
owwow. .
.Heplacedi
tdownasIwentt
owash
myhandsandeat
Ndil
e:sowhenareyougoi
ngt
ost
oppuni
shi
ng
zuzu?..
.ir
oll
edmyeyes
Me:
ohpl
easeawume
Ndi l
e:Iam bei
ngseri
ousrightnowkhi
thaIf
eell
ike
thisistoomuchy esithappenedsowemustlookfor
planb
Me:
wowBandi
l
eyoudon'
tunder
standne?
Ndi
l
e:makemeunder
stand
Me:Bandil
ebeingasingleparenti
snoj okeandI
al
way stel
lzuzuaboutitsdi
sadvantagesandmake
herunderst
andthatbeingpregnantisthelastt
hing
sheneedtodobutnoshedidthewayaroundandI
knowmaybey ouar
ethinki
ngaboutmysit
uati
onbut
i
twasdiff
erentf
rom t
hiswaytoodif
fer
entBandi
l
e
Ndi
le:
Ithi
nky
oushoul
djustacceptt
hatshe'
sgr
own
now
Me:
whyar
eyousochi
l
ledaboutt
his?
Ndi
l
e:becauseIdon'
thav
ereasonst
osweat
Me:
wow
Ndile:
babylookphi
lanii
mpregnat
edzusi
pheandI
knowhi m heisamanhe'snotgoingt
oleav
eherbut
asy ouknowhowt hingsworkatmyhousether
e's
goingtobechange
Me:
whatchange?
Ndi
l
e:phi
l
ani
hast
omar
ryher
Me:
what
?!Ar
eyououtofy
ourmi
nd?
Ndil
e:Idon'
tknowifIam st
andi
ngout
sideofi
tornot
butthat'
showIdot hi
ngsyouknowmyt r
adi
ti
on
that
'sunnegotiabl
e
Me:
soy
ouar
eexpect
ingzusi
phet
ogetmar
ri
edat
herage?Andbesi
desshe'
snotaBi
yel
amoss
Ndi
le:shemightnotbebutshe'
sli
vi
ngundermyroof
sothatmakesheroneam sorrynanamibutt
hisi
s
whatwi l
lhappen
Me:
wowway
enzai
ntozusi
phe
Ndil
e:y
ouhavetotell
herthatt
henbabyandIdon'
t
knowwho'sgoi
ngt obetheref
oryourf
amil
ybutI
am j
ustasupport
ingmember
Me:
Iwi
l
lletLukhany
oknow
Ndil
e:gr
eatt
henIhavet
obesomewher eIwil
lbe
back.
.Hesaidweari
nghi
sleat
herj
acketandtaki
ng
hi
scarkeys
Me:
uyaphi
?<wher
ear
eyougoi
ngt
o>
Ndi
le:
somewhere.
..Hesai
dleav
ingt
her
oom wowi
t
bet
terbenotagir
l
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

PHI
LANI

EVENINGIjustgotoutoftheshowerandIrecei
ved
amessagesay i
ngthatImissedacallandi
twas
fr
om zusi
pheIv i
deocall
edher
Her
:whyungi
founel
angoMusi
cvi
deo?
..
.Wel
aughed
Me:
whydoesy
ourv
oicesoundwei
rdbaby
?
Her
:somet
hinghappened
Me:
am cur
iousandy
ourf
ace?
Her
:onequest
ionat
imey
ooo
Me:
answeral
ll
fthem pl
ease
Her:
okthenr
ememberwhenIsai
dthatIhav
esome
heal
thcompl
icat
ions?
Me:
yeahsur
e
Her:
siskhi
that
ookmet ot
hedoct
orandwef
ound
outt
hatIam pr
egnantsoshe.
.
Me:waitwhat?
!Youpregnant?
!W wereyounoti
n
bi
rthcontr
ol?Stupi
dquesti
oncont
inue.
.Sherol
l
s
hereyes
Her:
shewasmadcrazyovermeandsheslappedme
andshout
edatmewear enoti
ngoodtermsaswe
speakwomanisi
gnori
ngmyentir
eexi
stence
Me:whoooat hatwassouncal l
edforyoursisterhas
thi
stoxi
candsel fi
shsidethatkeepsonshowi ng
andIdon'tl
ikeitsuchthi
ngshappenbutasamot her
andparentIthinkshegotherownexpl anationforit
butpromisey ouwhatIwil
ltal
kt oyourfatherabout
i
tOKmyl ove?
Her
:yeahsur
e
Me:andpleasedon'tthi
nkofanythi
ngstupidIwil
l
neverl
eavey oualonetorai
sethatchi
l
dal oneIwil
l
al
way sbethereforyouandhim OK?
Her
:yessi
randhowdi
dyouknowt
hati
t'
sahi
m?
Me:
uNy ambosel
oyosoIcanf
eel
iti
nmyst
omach.
..
Welaughed
Her
:noy
ouj
usthungr
yman
Me:
hungr
yforf
oodandy
ou
Her:
andIwasthi
nkingofcomingt
oyourhousef
ora
sl
eepoverbutt
hishappened
Me:j
ustgi
v eyoursi
sterti
meshewill
comear ound
sheandherhusbandl i
keact
ingl
ikethoseol
dages
par
entsit
'snotli
keIwasgoingtodenyy oumoss
Her:
sheismor
ewor
ri
edaboutmycar
eert
hat
'sher
pr
oblem
Me:thatcanbesor t
edIwill
hireaf ull
-t
imenannyt o
assi
sty ousodon' tworry
..Wecont inuetochatuntil
shesleptIdisconnectedGeeezhonest l
yIdon'
tthink
Iam readyforthischangey etbutIhav enochoice
whenIencour agehert odoconcet rapti
vesIwas
fear
ingf ort
hingslikethi
sImi ghtbealreadyafather
SEASONTWO
CHAPTERFORTY-
FOUR

SUNDAYBandilecal
ledandsai
dhe'
scomingoveri
ts
j
ustpast8PM soIsaidi
t'
sOKhecancomeIheard
hi
scardri
vinginIwentt
olethi
minthehouse
Bandz:
heybr
o
Me:
hey
..Webr
ohugged
Bandz:
whatar
eyouupt
o?
Me:
not
hingmuchl
et'
sgot
othebal
cony
Bandz:sur
e..
..Wewenttost
andi
nther
ewithgl
asses
ofwhiskeyinourhandsl
ooki
ngatt
hesur
bub
Me:
youl
ookl
i
key
ouar
eindeept
hought
s
Bandz:
yeahmanIgotaloti
nmymindbutwhati
s
i
mpor t
anti
sZusi
'
sissuewhatar
eyourpl
ans?
Me:y
eahmanIam stil
lshockedbuti
t'
salreadydone
soIwil
lpaydamagesandtakecareofthem
Bandz:
that
'snotnecessar
y
Me:
whatdoy
oumean?
Bandz:
youhav
etomar
ryher
Me:
wai
twhat
?!Youcan'
tbeser
ious
Bandz:that'
sitmanthere'
snobetterpl
ant
hanthat
andbesi desthat'
showthingsshoul
dbeyougota
gi
rlpregnanty oumarr
yher
Me:nonoBafothisi
sallunf
airl
ookIlovezusi
phe
wit
hallmyheartokbutmarri
ageisabigdealnot
nowIam notreadyf
oritsopleaseBafo
Bandz:youshould'vethoughtaboutthatwhenyou
l
ay edherandnev erusedcondom t heydon'
tonly
protectunwantedpr egnancyandSTIstheysaveyou
fr
om get ti
ngmarriedinabadt imi
ngy oushould
knowt hisImeany ouhav eawholedoct or
ateand
MinaIonl yhav
egr ade11
Me:butBandi
leam sur
ewecanar
rangesomet
hing
nj
ayam marri
ageno
Bandz:
nowhenitcomestotradi
ti
onIdon'
t
compromi
se(hi
sphonerang)hel
lo
?
?:.
..
Bandz:
am comi
ngnowl
et'
smeetatmyof
fi
ce.
.He
di
sconnect
ed
Me:
i
sev
ery
thi
ngOk?
Bandz:
am aboutt
ofi
ndout
Me:
okdr
ivesaf
eIwi
l
ljhav
etot
hinkaboutt
his
Bandz:t
hinkaboutt helobolanegoti
ati
onswena
nothi
ngelsenicewhi skeytasteam onmyway
PEACE...Hesaidaswef istbumpedhej oggedout
whatamesst hatImadeormay bei
t'
showt hings
shouldbe?May bei t
'sabouttimeIhaveawi febut
honestl
yIam notr eadytohav eawifeawhol ewife
andhavingseparatehousesi sjustgoi
ngt obeodd
andIdon'tthi
nkshewi l
lacceptitsi
nceshe's
pregnan
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

KHI
THA

EVENI NGi
t'
sSundayIam att
hehousewit
hzusi
phe
thekidsar
ewit
htheirgr
anIwenttoZusi
room I
knocked
Her
:comei
n..
.Iwal
kedi
n
Me:
canIsi
tdown
Her
:yeahsur
e..
.Iset
tl
eddownont
hecor
nerofher
bed
Me:
howi
sev
ery
thi
ng?
Her
:i
t'
soksi
sinot
hingbi
ggerf
ornow
Me:oksureanduhm Iam sor
ryf
ormyact
ionsIki
nd
ofover
react
edanditwassouncall
edf
orIam sor
ry
zuzu
Her
:i
t'
soksi
si
Me:
noi
t'
snotIbehav
edl
i
ket
hosest
raatmadesbut
am sorryzusi
phemay beIam tryi
ngt omakey ouliv
e
howIwi shedIcouldhaveli
vedgr owingup,Ialways
makesur ethatyougetwhatevery ouli
kezusiphe,I
bendov ertomakey ouhappypregnancywast he
l
astthingyoucouldhavedonehowar eyougoingto
fi
nishyourmedicinebei
ngamot hernoawi fe
becauseitseemsl i
keyouaregoingt ogetmar ri
ed
toPhil
ani
Her
:what
?!Si
sinoIknowthatImisbehav
edbutt
his
i
sahugedesici
onmarri
ageam only21year
sold
Me:unf
ortunat
elythat
'showt hi
ngsworkatt
his
house(
Isaidwipingmyt earsIhav
ebeencryi
ngthe
wholeti
me)Bandi l
edoest hi
ngsaccor
dingt
ohis
rel
i
gion
Her
:butsi
siIam notaBi
yel
amoss
Me:yetyoul i
vei
nhishouseZusipheit'
snoteasy
goingagainsthi
sdecisi
onsisami ssi
onIdon' tagr
ee
tothisbutwhenhe'sdoneplanni
ngnobodycan
standonhi swaybutIwil
lfi
ghtforwhatisright
ZusipheIwantyoutogetthatdocrateweowet hat
toourparentsandIam heretomakei thappenOKI
am sorr
y..Wehuggedaswecr iedineachother
's
armsLordgrantmestrengt
ht oconvi
nceBandil
eI
knowhe'sstubbor
nhewi l
lnotagreetothi
sbutI
havetodefendmylit
tl
esister

I
tsint
hemiddl
eoftheni
ghtBandi
leisnotbackyetI
wentt
otakeashowerwhenIgotoutthedooropens
hecomesindr
unkashel
l
Me:
wowBandi
l
e
Hi
m:y
ini
wenadoy
ouhav
eapr
obl
em?
Me:
yesIdowher
ehav
eyoubeen?
Him:around.
.Hesai
dcomingt
owher
eIwashet
ook
outhisphoneandgavei
ttome
Me:
andnow?
Hi
m:wat
chi
tsi
nter
est
ing.
..Lor
dnononono
Me:
babyl
i
st

[
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Me:babyl
ist
entomeplease..
.Hejustst
oodt
her
e
andneversai
dathi
ngIstaredathim
Ndil
e:whydi
dyoudoi
t?.
..Heaskedwi
tht
ear
y
eyebal
ls
Me:babyIwasI
..
..Ibi
tmylowerli
pIdi
dn'
tknow
whattosayany
mor ewasblank
Ndi l
e:soitwasy ou?Yeahi twasy ounomkhi thay ou
kil
ledsomanypeopl epr otectingy ourf
il
thydeedsI
askedy ouandy oudeniedi tyoumademewast emy
moneymyMONEYbyhi ringP. IIflewtoRussi afor
thatshitkantiyouknowt hatIam goi ngtherefor
nothingIdr ovetoyourof fi
ceaf terIhavefoundout
damny ouev ensavedittoy ourtablett
hatmeans
youl ovedittel
lmehowmanyt i
mesdi dhefucky ou?
Me:
Bandi
l
epl
easedon'
t.
.
Ndi
l
e:Iaskedy
ouaquest
ion!
!!
Me:
i
twasf
ourorf
ivet
imes
Ndi
l
e:what
?!Ri
ghtundermynoseNomkhi
thashut
hi
t
hedaysyouneverwantedmetgodownony ouyou
werenoshi
t.
..Hetookaglassthathadwat
erand
t
hrewiti
nthemirr
orandhegr oaned
Me: youwi llwakeQhawecanwebeci vil
aboutt his
Bandi l
eandi t
'snotli
key ouhav enotbeenf ucki
ng
aroundnawey ouwer eahoemossbusygi ving
womeny ourdicky oucouldn'tkeepy ourpant sto
yoursel fnowt hathowi tfeels...Hecamecl osert o
meandl ookedmest r
aightint othef aceandst ared
straightinmyey eshechuckl edandt ookhiscar
key shewal kedt othedoorIr antohi m hepushed
medownandwal kedoutshi tIhitmyhi pont he
bedsedgehewentoutwhenIwal keddownst ai
r shis
carwasdr ivi
ngoutwher eishegoi ngt hatdrunkf uck
i
twhydi dInotdel etethatbutkuy afanahef oundout
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

2DAYSLATERi
t'
sTuesdayev
eni
ngIwashavi
ng
di
nnerwit
hmyfamil
ywhenPhil
ani
walkedi
n
Hi
m:goodev
eni
ngf
ami
l
y..Theki
dsr
ant
ohi
m
Them:mal
ume!!Malume!!!
...He'
swaytoogoodwit
h
ki
dstheyl
ovehim hegreetedthem andl
i
ftedt
hem
onebyonehewentt ohugzuzu
Me:am sti
l
lherey
ouknow.
.Theywerel
ooki
ngat
eachotherandhi
shandwasonherbel
l
yhequickl
y
removedit
Him:heybossl
ady
..Hesai
dcomi
ngt
ohugmewe
hugged
Me:
canwegoupst
air
sandt
alk?
Him:yeahsure.
..Wewalkedupst
air
sandmybody
guardLubenathiwasbehinduswewentt
ost
andin
thebalcony
Me:
and?
??
Hi
m:st
il
lnol
eadkant
iwhathappened?
Me:wehadabigfi
ghtitwasnotphysi
cal
butwehad
anargumenthef
oundsomet hi
ngaboutmesosi
nce
hewentoutonSundaynight
Him:sbuf oundthet r
aceofhi
scarandwhenhewent
therehewasnott herei
twasInthegar
agesohe
solditforcashsohe' spr
obabl
ysomewhereandI
don'tknowt heplace
Me:heevenlef
thi
sphonewhyi
sheact
ingl
i
kea
spoi
ltbr
at?
Hi
m:Bandi
l
ehatesbeingchall
engedandhehat
es
l
osi
ngsowhateverhefoundoutaboutyouf
ucks
wi
thhi
m butl
et'
sjustwaitf
orhisret
urn
Me:
yeahsur
ether
e'snoot
herway
Hi
m:andt
hel
obol
anegot
iat
ions?
Me:
ther
ewi
l
lbenol
obol
anegot
iat
ions
Hi
m:why
?
Me:
arey
ouhappyaboutal
loft
his?
Hi
m:nobutIt
hinki
t'
sther
ightt
hingt
odo
Me:
noPhi
l
ani
wecan'
tbel
i
vingaccor
dingt
owhat
Bandi
let
hinksi
sri
ghtwhataboutourf
eel
i
ngsand
Zusi
pheisnotr
eadyformarr
iage
Him:Ican'tt
rusty
oumadam wheni
tcomestoyour
mannowhenhecomesbacky ouwil
lbeonhissi
de
butIdon'tbl
amey ou
Me:anotherdisadvantageofmar
ri
ageyouhaveto
standbyy ourhusbandandnotfi
ghthi
sf i
nal
decisi
onsbutIwi l
ltrytomakehi
m seethewayIsee
i
t
Him:okIwil
lbewai
ti
ngfort
hatsoisi
toktouhmm-
takezuzuwit
hme?Iwil
ltot
all
yunder
standi
fyouwi
l
l
notagr.
..
Me:
noi
tsokPhi
l
ani
youmadeherpr
egnantany
way
Him:
ohpl
easedon'
trubi
tin.
..Hesai
dchuckl
i
ngas
hepi
ckupLube
SEASONTWO
CHAPTERFORTY-
FIVE

PHI
LANI

Iwasinthehousechil
li
ngwit
hmywomansi nceshe
washereyesterdayIl
ovel
ooki
ngathercut
eface
andherbell
yit'
snotshowi
ngyetbutIcani
maginei
t
Her
:sobabywhati
sact
ual
l
ygoi
ngonwi
thbhut
i?
Me:
about
?
Her
:whydoeshewantust
ogetmar
ri
ed?
Me: he'saBiyelasothat'
showt heydothi
ngsatthei
r
tradit
iony ougetagirlpr
egnantyoumar r
yherandI
knewt hathenceIencouragebirt
hcontr
olbutke
oNy ambosehadot herpl
ans..
.Isaidki
ssi
ngher
forehead
Her:
mhhhbutIam notaBi
yel
amossori
sitbecause
Ist
ayinhi
shouse?
Me:
fi
rstofal
lyouar
e21madam andy
oungbesi
des
thatIam ol
dandI nlovewit
hyouotherwisethis
wasn'tsupposedtohappenthi
swayImy selfwoul
d
bemadpapi faguyimpregnat
emyLi saandnot
mar r
yhersot hati
sourfearwebeli
evethatone
shouldmarryhisbabymamai t'
scal
ledtaking
responsi
bil
it
ymyl ove
Her
:under
standabl
ethenandwher
eishe?
Me:
whyal
lthesequest
ions?
Her
:Ican'
tasksi
siIf
eel
li
keIam st
il
lquar
ant
ined
f
rom speaki
ngwit
hher
Me:wowOKwel l
shesaidtheyhadanargumentt
hat
pi
ssedhim of
fsohe'
soutthereforabr
eather
pr
oblem i
sshedoesn'
tknowwher ehei
s
Her
:that
'shect
ickhonawhatki
ndofanar
gumenti
s
t
hat?Imeani t
'sbeen2daysnow
Me:she'
sly
ingt
here'smor et
othisbutitdoesn'
t
i
nvolvemesoIwi l
li
solatemyselfandhelpher
whereshewantsmet ohelpotherwi
seIdon'twant
t
obecoughtupi nbetweentheirshi
tnowcanwe
t
alkaboutsomethi
ngel se
Her
:oksur
ebutf
ir
stIneedamassage
Me:
thi
sisami
l
li
ont
imet
hough

BANDI
LE

Iam inEaster
nCapeatEastLondoncr azyrightbutI
j
ustfeltl
ikecomingherejusttoclearmymi ndImi ss
homeal r
eadybutIam notr eadytofaceNomkhi t
ha
yooitist
r uewhentheysaywomenwemencan
neverunderst
andwoment hosepeopleunder stand
eachotherandstil
lhateeachot hercr
azyrightbut
whatshedi dist
hewor stImeani wasreadyto
for
giveherwhenShaunt oldmeaboutt hei
raffair
..
.
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

OnlybecauseIki ndofbl amedmy selff

ori tIhav en'
t
beenagoodhusbandbutIal wayst r
ytocomeup
cleanandf i
xmyshi tbutwhatabouther ?Shel i
es
andcov ersuphershi tandt hathasmet hinkingand
askingmy sel
fwasi tthef i
rstti
me?Washet hef i
rst
one?Ican'tbringmy selftoimaginet hi
si magi ne
somebodyel sehav ingmycakeshi tthi
shur ts.And
onet hi
ngIknowi sthatwhenawomancheat sshe
doesn'tonlycheatf orsexnoshecheat sforl oveand
affecti
onsodoest hatmeansIwasf ai
l
ingt ogi ve
herthatbutIwasnoti nagoodspacet hatt imeI
wasbusywi t
hmyemot i
onal l
ifefi
xingmy selfforher
tobeabet terpersonf orherbutIt hi
nkshehasher
ownr easonstodot hatImustgohomeImi ssmy
kidsIshouldn'
tpuni sht hem fortheirmot her sdeeds

KHI
THA

THURSDAYi
t'
spast8pm Iwasi
nmybedr
oom
readi
ngabookwhenadoorswi ngsopenand
Bandil
ewalksinmyheartjumpedabitohhel
lmy
mani ssuperf
ineori
sitbecauseImissedhi
m my
heartski
ppedandthebutt
erfl
i
esinmyt ummy
Him:ev
ening..Hesai
dpl
aci
nghi
sweekenderont
op
ofthesi
det abl
e
Me:
eveni
ngnani
unj
ani
?
Hi
m:Iam goodt
hanksandy
ou?
..Wowt
hef
ormal
i
ty
Me:
Iam goodt
oowher
..
Hi
m:letmegoandt akeashowerf
ir
stbef
orey
ouput
meintocust
ody
..Ismiled
Me:ok..
.Isaidbi tt
ingmyl owerl
ipdammi thisbody
wasscr eami ng"khithacomeIneedy ourt ouch"I
waswat chinghi m undressi
ngwhenl astdidIget
l
ayedagai n?Yooi t'sbeenageshedi sappear edto
thebathroom andcamebackbut tnakeddr ipping
waterthataddt oitIhadmyt hi
ghspr essedt ogether
becauseIdi dn'ttr
ustmy sel
fnomor ewhenhewas
donehecamet obed
Hi
m:canwet
alkabouti
ttomor
rowIam sl
eepynow
andt
ir
edt
oo
Me:
arey
ounothungr
yIwi
l
lpr
epar
eyousomet
hing
t
oeat
Him:that'
slovel
ybutnot hankyou..Hesaidfaci
ng
theotherwaywowsonomor esl
eepingi
nhischest
todaynogoodni ghtki
sswowwhatabadt urn
aroundoft hi
ngsletmesl eepIneedtorestbefor
e
Qhawe' sfi
rstbr
eakfast
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Icoul
dn'tsleepawinki wasturni
ngandtossi
ngand
ij
ustcheckedt heti
mei t
spast2am shitam
sweati
ngi can'tt
akethi
sf eel
i
ngofnotbeing
unsett
lednotknowinghi sendgoalit
ookmyphone
andloggedi nt
ofacebookandscroll
eddown
Ndil
e:i
tsi
ntheear
lyhoursoft
hemor
ningwhatar
e
youdoingwit
hyourphone?
Me: i
didn'
tknowthatyouareawakeam sor
ry.
..
isai
d
placi
ngdownmyphonei knowourbedr
oom rulesno
touchingphonesaf
ter9pm ti
ll
6am
Ndi
l
e:mhi
tsoksohowl
onghav
eyoubeenawake?
Me:si
ncey
ougotunder
cov
ersBandi
l
ethisreal
l
y
worri
esmehowlongar
eyouwil
li
ngtot
reatmel i
ke
t
his?
Ndi
l
e:idontknowNomkhi
thai
am ataspacewher
ei
r
eal
lydontknowwhatt
odowhatnottodo
Me:
i
'vegotabet
terpl
an
Ndi
l
e:whatpl
an?
..
.heaskedsi
tt
ingupst
rai
ght
Me:wecangoandat
tendamarri
edcoupl
ether
apy
andtr
yworki
ngonourmarr
iagedonty
outhi
nk?
Ndi
le:
idonthav
eti
mef
ort
hatNomkhi
thai
donthav
e
moneytowaste
Me:
iwast
ryi
ngt
ohel
p
Ndil
e:t
hatsabetterideaf
orotherpeopl
enotimi
nai
dothi
ngst hewayi wanttoandifi
tfeel
sgoodamd
ri
ghttothenextpersontoothenthat
sit
Me:
andatt
hispoi
nt?
Ndil
e:comingbacksaysal otwhateverwedoaffect
s
theki
dsandt heyaresoy oungtoadopttheotherli
fe
thantheonewei ntr
oducedt hem towecanfi
xt hi
s
butNomkhi t
hajustknowt hatyoufuckedupmy
peace
Me:idontknowhowt oapologi
zetot
hisbuti
am
sor
rynaniididntmeanall
thattohap
Ndil
e:nodontsayawor
d..
.t
hent
her
ewasawkwar
d
si
lence
Me:
thanky
ouf
orgi
vi
ngusanot
herChance
Ndi
l
e:y
ouhav
ebeenwi
thmesi
ncef
orev
eram sur
e
weal
ldeser
veasecondchancer
ight
?
Me:y
eahev enthoughihavegi
veny
ouuncount
abl
e
l
astchances.
..
hechuckled
Ndi
l
e:comeon
Me:
oki
wil
lcum on
Ndi
l
e:what
?!
Me:
youhear
dme.
.isai
dget
ti
ngont
opofhi
m
Ndi
l
e:womanpl
easeam t
ir
ed
Me:
ti
red?
Ndil
e:y
eahi
wasdr
ivi
ngf
rom eastLondodownt
o
Jozi
Me:
soy
ouwer
einE.
L?
Ndi
l
e:y
es.
..
hesai
dki
ssi
ngmyneckt
henweki
ssed
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

DAYSLATERt hingsbetweenmyhusbandandiwer
e
goodi meanwet akingi
tonedayatatimewewere
atthebalconychil
li
ngandsippi
ngj
uicewhi
lehewas
dri
nkinghiscastl
elit
e
Ndil
e:i
cal
ledPhi
l
ani
yest
erdayhowar
ethi
ngsgoi
ng
yoursi
de?
Me: ohthatnanicanwepleaseuhm thinkofanot
her
plani meanZusi is21andbesidesshe'
snotaBiyel
a
surelywecanper f
orm al
it
leceremonyandaskfor
forgivenesstotheancest
orsam suretheywil
l
underst and.
..
helooksatmeandshakehi shead
Ndil
e:t
hati
swhyPhil
anisoundedsounsureabout
t
hisyoualr
eadyt
oldhi
mt ocancelev
eryt
hingri
ght
?
Me:noidi
dn'
tokmay beididbutir
eal
l
ydi
dntassur
e
hi
mt heyar
ebothnotreadyfort
his
Ndi
le:
nobodyhaseverbeenreadytotake
r
esponsi
bil
it
yunti
lthecir
cumstancemadet hem bei
meantheyarebot
hi nt
omedicinetheyshoul
d'v
e
beensmar
t
Me:
God'st
imi
ngisntl
i
mit
edwothanystudybaby
maybet
heybot
hneededthi
sev
enthoughanyofus
i
sn'
taware
Ndi
l
e:uy
azi
zwaukut
hiut
hini
?
Me:
HawuBandi
l
e?!
Ndil
e:iwasj ustaskingany waywenaBaba
walayikhayay ouaregoingt ofi
nancethecer
emony
angishoy ouar et
akingfinaldeci
sionsandpl
anni
ng
thi
ngswot houtmycor ncen
Me:comeonBandi
ledontbepet
tywehav
etodo
thi
safamil
yyouknowyourfami
lywi
ll
beonmy
neck
Ndi
l
e:Noi
wil
lseewhati
wil
ldo
Me:
howi
sthepr
ojecti
nDur
ban?
Ndil
e:ical
ledOyithei
nteri
ordesi
gnert
osendmea
vi
deooft hebuil
dingsoiti
sdonebutweareonl
ylef
t
t
opur chasethefurni
tur
e
Me:
Oht
hat
sbr
il
li
ant
Ndi
le:
yeah.
..
hesai
dsneaki
nghishandundermy
dr
essandcaressi
ngmythighshegavemethi
ssil
l
y
smir
kandbithi
slowerl
ip
Me:dontdot
hattoyoursel
fdontt
hinkabouti
tyou
cr
ippl
edmey est
erday
Ndi
l
e:Mxm ohot
hatwasnot
hing
Me:wowyouaresounbel
i
evabl
eyazi
sowhenam i
goi
ngbacktowork?
Ndi
l
e:doy
oust
il
lwantt
ogobackt
owor
k?
Me:si
nceiwashomeduri
ngt
heki
dnappi
ngsaga
babyineedt
okeepbusy
Ndi
le:
babyi
thi
nkbei
ngahousewi
fei
swhaty
ouwi
l
l
be
SEASONTWO
CHAPTERFORTY-
SIX

AYEARLATERThingsbeenokathomeam backt o
whatiusetobe"Housewife"zusimovedoutPhi
lani
boughtheranapar
tmentandhi r
edanannyforher
soam lef
twithmykidsQhawei staki
ngbabyst
eps
heisindaycar
e

AFTERNOONmyki
dswalkedi
nfoll
owedbythei
r
fat
hert
heywav
edatmeandwalkedupst
air
s
Me:
and?
..
iaskedhuggi
ngandki
ssi
nghi
m
Ndi
l
e:i
ref
usedt
otaket
hem t
othemal
l
Me:di
dyouexpl
ainwhy
?..
.het
hrewhi
msel
fatt
he
sof
a
Ndi
l
e:khi
thai
am t
ir
ed
Me:Babyyoushoul
dvetol
dthem mossandbesides
youhavebeenmakingexcusesaboutspendi
ngti
me
wit
hthem whatisgoi
ngon?
Ndi
le:
runni
ng8busi
nessedai
ntnochi
l
d'spl
ay
Nomkhitha
Me:it
houghty
ouwer
ecopi
ngsi
ncey
ousentmet
o
ear
lyret
ir
ement
Ndi
l
e:I
sthatanemot
ional
blackmai
l
Me:nobabyit
snotijusthatehowmykidsare
af
fectedbyal
lthi
stheymi sst
hei
rfat
herBandi
le
Ndi
l
e:i
wil
lmaket
imebutnotnow
Me:
k..
.isai
dlooki
ngt
heot
herway
Ndi
le:
babyimightbel
acki
ngfrom myduti
esbutyou
ar
enotgoingbacktoworknotaf
terwhatyoudi
d
Me:somet
hingt
hathappeneday
earagoser
iousl
y?
gr
owapairBandil
e
Ndi
l
e:Whatdi
dyousay
?
Me:youcantbepuni
shi
ngmeovert
hatBndi
l
eand
besi
desiam star
ti
ngmyowncompanyabeaut
yspa
Ndi
l
e:wer
eyouser
iousaboutt
hat
?
Me:
yeahbutiwil
lneedyoutofi
nanceitj
ustf
or4
momthsorsotheniwil
ltakei
tfr
om ther
e
Ndi
le:
ineedapr
esent
ati
onphel
abef
orei
inv
estso
whatsi
nforme?
Me:iwi
ll
paybackyourmoneyassoonast
he
busi
nessget
sreal
dontworry
Ndi
l
e;i
wantmyl
awy
ert
odr
awupacont
ractt
hen
Me;
huhBANDI
LE!
!
Ndi
le:
iam j
oki
ngnanamihawui wi
llhelpyououtbut
onl
yifyout
alkt
oourkidsandsoft
ent hem up
Me:
howdoi
dot
hatpl
easendi
khuphe?
Ndi
l
e:Why
?babycomeonpl
ease
Me:
andi
zi
ngeni
Ndi
l
e:okbabyi
wil
lpayy
ourbi
l
lsf
or8mont
hst
hen
Me;
promi
se?
Ndi
l
e:pr
omi
se
Me:andit
sforthel
astt
imemextt
imekeepy
our
pr
omi seordontmakeone
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

BANDI
LE

TUESDAYSar elessbusysoIdecidedtoknockof f
earl
ierthanmyusualti
meIwantt omaket imef or
myki dsIhavebeenmissingthem honest
lyIregret
giv
ingKht haaret
ir
ementIneedherIam al waysover
workedIam sureshemi ssesmetoo

WhenIgothomeshewasbusywi
thpl
anni
ngher
busi
nessIwentt
oki
ssher
Me:
heywi
fey
..Isai
dsi
tt
ingnextt
oher
Khi
tha:
heydaddyy
ouhomeear
lynani
Me:yesbabyImissedy
ouatt
hecompanyIhav
e
beenacti
ngtough
Khi
tha:
Ithoughty
ouwer
ecopi
ngnj
e?
Me:I
twasallanactIshoul
dn'
thav
eletj
eal
ousy
,ego
andmyinsecur
it
iesgetoverme
Khi
tha:
ist
hul
eyt
hiapol
ogi
zeIst
hul
eyt
hi.
..
.Il
aughed
sohard
Me:IknowbabyIknowIam notaski
ngy
oubackbut
Iam conf
essi
ng
Khi
tha:
whatevernanidi
dyoumanaget
ogetanew
manageratfourseasons?
Me:y
eahanewgi rlf
reshf
rom UKZNshegr
aduat
ed
l
astyearIhopeshegetst
hework
Khi
tha:Icanment
orherImeanthi
sisourcompany
andit
'sinmynamesoIdon'twantanymistakes
Me:youwil
lmaketi
meforhert
henletmegoand
changesoIcancomeandchil
lwi
thmynana
Khi
tha:
ohpl
easeai
n'
tyouhungr
y?
Me:onl
yhungr
yfory
oubaby
..Isai
dbi
tt
ingmyl
ower
l
ip
Khit
ha:
mhhh..
.Shest
oodupandundr essedandwe
ki
ssedasshewasgrindi
ngonmeIpi ckedherup
andwewenttothebedroom andmadeloveI
missedt
his
Af
ter
noonIwasgett
ingreadytogoandf
etchmy
ki
dswhenIgotacal
lfr
om oy i
thenewmanager
Me:
oyi
ntando
Oy
i:
bosswehav
eapr
obl
em att
heof
fi
ce
Me:
i
tcanwai
tIam busynow
Oy
i:
noBandi
l
eitcan'
twai
titne.
.
Me:
yousai
dwho?
Oyi
:ohMrBi
yel
athethi
ngi
sMrLi
khai
sher
e
demandi
ngt
oseey ou
Khit
ha:
Iwi
l
lgot
otheof
fi
cebabygot
otheki
ds.
.I
nodded
Me:l
ookOy
itel
lMrLi
khahe'
sgoi
ngt
obeat
tended
ok?
Oy
i:
oknopr
obl
em.
..Idi
sconnect
edt
hecal
l
Khi
tha:
i
shet
heoneoft
heboar
dmember
s
Me:t
hisi
swhyIneverwant
edtogoabr
oadIdon'
t
wantpeopl
etel
l
ingmehowt or
unmyowncompany
Iam myownbossnx
Khi
tha:
babycal
m downIgott
his
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

KHI
THA

Iwenttofr
eshenupandworemybossmodeki l
ler
dressandheel
sItookmyhandbagandcarkey
sI
walkeddownstai
rsanddr
ovetothehot
elIwal
ked
In
Recept
ioni
st:
MrsBi
yel
ahey
..Shesai
dwi
thabi
g
smil
e
Me:
heynonohowareyou?.
.HernameisNosi
pho
t
hat
'swhyIam cal
l
ingherNonoshe'
sanamazing
woman
Nono:
Iam goodyoooi
t'
sbeenl
ongsi
nceIseey
ou
canIgetahug?
Me:
sil
l
yyescomeon.
..Wehugged
Nono:y
ouhaveal
waysbeeninti
midat
ingMr
sBi
yel
a
youcan'
tbl
ameme..
.Wel aughed
Me:
Iam r
unni
ngsomewher
eIwi
l
lseey
ouOK
Nono:okbye..
.IwavedasIwentt otheel
evat
or
whenIgott otheboar
droom Ifoundabeauti
ful
youngladyshe'swaschubbycof f
eeincol
orand
shortnotsoshortt
houghjustnice
Me:
aft
ernoonmi
ss
Her:
ohheyMam MrBi
yel
aisnother
ebutIam sur
e
he'
sonhisway
Me:
wher
e'sMrLi
kha?
Her
:hei
sont
hephoneout
sidewhy
?
Bef
oreIsayawor
dhegoti
n
Him:
ohMr sBi
yel
aIdi
dn'
tknowy
ouwer
ebacki
n
busi
ness.
.Hegavemeahug
Me:
notr
eal
l
yIam j
ustf
il
li
ngi
nformyspouse
Hi
m:t
hel
ovei
sst
il
lther
eIsee
Me:f
oreverwi
llsohowcanwehelpyouMr?..
.We
gott
obusinessandtookal
ooktooureconomyand
unemploymentandandand

Me:
wel
lIam gl
adweagr
eeont
hesamet
hing
Hi
m:y
eahy
ouar
est
il
lal
i
onessi
ntheboar
droom
Me:
Iknowbusi
ness.
..Wel
aughedashebi
dgoodby
e
Me:
youmustbeOy
i?
Her
:yesIam mam.
.Shesai
dfi
xi
ngherski
rt
Me:
Soy
ouar
eOy
iwhat
?
Her
:oy
int
andomam
Me:mhhhthat
'sanicenamewellmyhusbanddi
d
menti
onthatyouaresti
l
lnewinthebusi
ness
i
ndust
rysoIwi l
lhavet
oteachyouathi
ngortwobut
whenIhaveti
me
Her
:nomam Iwi
l
lmanaget
rustme
Me:
nosi
sIdon'
tpl
aywheni
tcomest
owhatf
eeds
myfami
l
yandI
Her:
youandyourhusbandar
esost
ri
ctwheni
t
comestobusi
ness
Me:well
Igotthatf
rom hi
m ever
y bodyher
eisscared
ofhi
m andtheykeepdist
ancefrom himifi
t'
sbit
workrel
atedIwoul
dadv i
ceyoutodot hesame
Her
:noIgeti
t
Me:
okIwi
l
lseey
ou
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SEVEN

OYI
NTANDO

LATERIwasatt
hefl
atwit
hmyf ri
endandr
oommate
Ninadr
inki
ngwi
nesandwatchi
ngTVbutmymind
wasfaraway
Ni
na:
babeswhati
sit
?
Me:
not
hingf
ri
end
Nina:
thenwhyar
eyoubi
tt
ingy
ourl
owerl
i
pisi
tMr
bossagain?
Me:
ohpl
easei
t'
ssomet
hingel
se
Ni
na:
ohpl
easecomeonIknowi
t'
shi
m nowdi
dhe
makeamove?
Me:
comeonni
nawhyar
eyousonoseyy
oo
Nina:
butmogurly
ouhav etotal
ktosomeonebef
ore
youstar
tmakingdeci
sionsyouknow
Me: mxm butIwi l
ltellyoune?( shenodded)wel lyes
i
tshi m gir
lthatmandr i
v esmecr azylikec-r-
a-zyy!
!!
Hisbodyst ructur
ei sflamesLi tbaba! !OKhi s
fashionsensegur lformal hekil
lsit,
semi -for
mal kil
ls
i
tandcasual hemur der si t
,hi
scol ognehi tshardit
sceamsmoneyhi ssmi leandohhi sv oiceismagi cal
evetyti
mehest ar
tst al
kingIwi shIcoul dj
ustdenude
my selfandsurrender .
.Ni nawasi ntear slaughingat
howIwasdescr i
binghi m asIwaspi cturi
ngmy self
runningmyhandsonhi sBuf f
yar ms
Nina:
ohokaydoyouhavehi
spi
ctur
e?Ordoeshe
haveani
nstaaccount
?
Me:
sear
chBandi
l
eBi
yel
athat
'shi
sname
Ni
na:
oni
tmogur
l.
..Shepunchedonhi
sphone
Me:
doy
ouf
indhi
m?
Ni
na:
ist
hist
heone?
..Heshowedmehi
spi
ctur
eI
j
umoed
Me:
yesy
est
hat
'st
heone
Nina:
ohmygoshlookaty
ouallsmi
li
ngandgl
owing
youarei
nlov
ebabybutwegotasli
ght
lypr
obl
em
Me:
whati
sitnow?
Nina:
he'
smarriedwit
habeauti
ful
wif
eand1,2,
3oh
thesel
ooksli
ketwinsokl
et'
ssay4andthel
i
t t
le
cuti
e5kids
Me:Ial
waysknewhewasmar r
iedIdi
dn'
tknowthat
hehaskidsthat'
sawholesquadIcan'tbeastep
mothertosomanyki dsbutIam wil
li
ngtoImean
yooothei
rfatherki
l
lsmeheki l
lsme
Nina:
whoooamogur ll
et'
stakealookathi
swif
ea
beautylookathermanIam sor
rytosaythi
sbuti
t
doesn'tl
ookli
keyoustandachance
Me:br
ot hatmanlikeswomenIcanseethatbyhow
hewil
l bechecki
ngonhisstaf
fandIam surehehas
count
lesssidechi
cks
Ni
na:
soy
ouwantt
obeanaddi
ti
ont
othem?
.
Me:noatf
ir
stIwil
lagreethenIbecomeapsycho
whenwearealr
eadyinlov
eImeanwhowoul dwant
t
osharethi
s?
Ni
na:
andhi
swi
fe?Thi
smani
sint
imi
dat
ingt
oo
Me:
ver
yint
imi
dat
ingbr
obutImustmakeapl
anI
needthi
smanwellhi
swifei
sgoodwhenitcomest
o
busi
nessshe'
snotj
ustabeaut
ysoImustupmy
gameMi nake
Nina:
wheeemngani
youknowwhat
?Iam wi
shi
ng
youallt
hebest
Me:andhi
sisnotwor
kingatf
ourseasonst
omor
row
Aaarg
Ni
na:
howmanybusi
nessdoesheown?
Me:areyousireyouhavebeenhereforl
ong?
Everybodyknowsthe"Might
yBiyel
as"hehas4
hotels3LanaandenyeiseDurbanIheardhehas
restaur
ants,
clubsandbarstoo
Nina:
what?Ioncehear
dofthismanohy eshewas
onSundayt i
meshe'
salsosuspectedt
hathei
sa
gangstert
hat'
swherehegetsal
lthemoney
Me:
ohpl
easest
opbei
ngnegat
ive
Ni
na:
okdoeshehav
esponsor
s?
Me:noIdon'
trememberhi
mt al
kingaboutt
hem i
ts
al
ways"Iwil
ll
ookati
t"wheneverwehaveaprobl
em
Ni
na:
that
'si
the'
sfundi
ngal
lofhi
sbusi
nessesbr
oI
knowt
hismanhei
srunni
ngt
hewhol
ejozi
justpl
ay
awayf
rom hi
m
Me:
i
sthat
'sj
eal
ousy
?Sopl
easedon'
tki
l
lmyv
ibe
Ni
na:
okgoonbutdon'
tsayIdi
dn'
twar
nyou
Me:
mxm am goi
ngt
osl
eep

FRIDAYIwokeupi t
sabeaut i
ful
daymyGodIhav e
tobeflamesIam wearingmyshortt
ightdr
essthat
hugsmybodyj ustf
ineandmynudehi ghheel
sand
my36"weav eyesthat'
sitIt
ookashowerandwor e
myclothesthenIdr
ovemy1ser i
est
owor kIwentt
o
myof f
iceandworkon

Fewhoursl
aterIhear
daknockatt
hedoorMrBoss
camein
Hi
m:GooddayOy
i
Me:
gooddaysi
rhowar
eyi
u?
Him:al
lgoodthankssowhereist
her
epor
tmywi
fe
sai
dIam goingtogetitf
rom y
ou
Me:
welly
eahIt houghty
ouwereatCentur
ionbutlet
mecheckit
..Iwenttomydrawerandwentt ocheck
i
tIwasbusymov i
ngmyhipsandassaccordingl
y
maki
ngsurethatheseesthem wel
l
Me:ohher
eIfoundt
hem.
..OhwhowasIfool
i
ngMr
Bosswasbusyonhi
sphonehehast
hissmil
eonhi
s
phone
Hi
m:y
ougoti
t?.
.Heaskedl
ooki
ngathi
sphone
Me:y
eshereiti
s..
.Hetooki
tandwentoutowwow
whatawasteofeffor
ts
SEASONTWO
CHAPTERFORTY-
EIGHT

KHI
THA

sotodayIt houghtofsurpri
singmymanwi thl
unch
atwor kIknowFr i
daysaret hemosthecti
cdayssoI
tookabat handwor emydr essandsandalsIwent
natur
al noweav enomake- upjustmeItookmycar
keysanddr ovetothehot elIwaswit
hQhawehe
buncksschool onFriday
st hisonewegottothe
buil
dingandwewer ewelcomedbyNono
Her
:heymaBi
yel
aohmyy ouarewiththebigguyhe
i
ssogrownyooo.
..Shesaidl
if
tinghim up
Me:heynonoyoot hesethi
ngsgr
owupver
yquickl
y
andtheyfor
getthatweuset owi
pet
hei
rbutt
swhen
theygetol
der.
..Wel augh
Her:
hewil
lbebr
ingi
ngsomegi
rl
sinnoti
methi
sone
he'
ssuchachar
merhe'ssl
owl
ytaki
ngy
ourl
ooks
Me:
Iwi
shBandi
l
ewasher
egoshIt
ri
edt
ell
i
nghi
m
aboutt
hathe'
sindeni
alt
hisonewi
l
ltakemyl
ooks
abadl
ebonke
Her
:hahay
eahhow'
sxoxot
hebi
gbr
other
Me:
alway
sspeaki
ngaboutf
ootballsoget
ti
nghim at
t
hehouseisl
uckwehaveMessilaphaam tel
l
ingyou.
Her
:butt
hat
'sgr
eatImeanheal
readyhasahobby
Me:
yeaht
hat
'sagoodt hi
ngam j
ustwor
ri
edabout
mySiy
ahe'
ssoselfcenter
edt
hatone
Her:
hewil
ltakeaf
terhi
sfathert
hatone.
..Hesai
d
poi
nti
ngatBandil
ewithherheadashewas
appr
oachi
ngIgiggl
ed
Ndil
e:heyf
ami
ly.
..Hesai
dki
ssingmeandQhawe
cr
iedforhi
sat
tenti
onsohetookhi
m
Nono:
tr
ait
orwena
Me:
Judas.
..
wel
aughed
Ndi
le:
mxm leav
emysonal
onesohowdoIowet
he
pl
easure?
Me:i
sitacr
imev
isi
ti
ngy
ourhusbandatwor
k
awume
Ndi
le:
okthenlet
'sgototheof
fi
ce.
..Wetookthe
el
evatort
ohisoffi
ceandwhenwegetthereOyiwas
onhisoff
ice
Me:
heyOy
i.
..Shet
urnedf
astandl
ookedatme
Oy
i:
heyMr
sBi
yel
ahowar
eyou?
Me:
am good.
..
..Isai
dsi
tt
ingdown
Ndi
l
e:Oy
iwhatbr
ingsy
ouher
e?
Oyi
:
Ihadameet
ingwi
tht
hef
inanci
aladv
isorear
li
er
r
emember?
Ndi
l
e:ohy
oubr
oughtt
her
epor
t?
Oy
i:
yes
Me:l
etmesee(It
ookitandperusedit
)nani
when
l
astdidy
oulookatt
heFinanci
als?.
Ndi
l
e:uhm Idon'
trememberbabyIam al
way
sbusy
Me:
ther
e'ssomet
hingwr
ongher
ewher
e'sMrZi
tha?
Oy
i:
hei
sinhi
sof
fi
ce
Me:
okcany
oupl
easegoandcal
lhi
mformepl
ease
Ndi
l
e:nanami
what
'swr
ongnow?
Me:
ther
e'sami
ssi
ngr
epor
ther
e
Oy
i:
yooOKl
etmegoandcal
lhi
m..

OYI
NTANDO

WEEKENDandIam atwor kpecksofbei ngaHOTEL

managerweekendsy ouarei npublichol
idaysyou
areherebutthenwherether e'
smoneywecan' t
complainwellMrswasher ey est
erdaycall
ingall
the
shotsacti
nglikeabigbossmxm soIwaschi l
l
ing
withNosiphotherecept
ionistitwasn'
tthatbusy
Me:
soNonouhm Mr
sBi
yel
aist
heonl
ywi
fe?
Her
:yeahwhy
?
Me:Iam j
ustaski
ngy ouknowZulumenar e
obsessedwit
hhavingmor ethanonewif
eplushe
hasalotofmoneyt hatmeansheloveshi
swifene?
Her
:well
heoncehadasecondonebutshewasshot
ont
heirweddi
ng
Me:
what
?
Hef
:yesthenaft
erthati
twasal
waysKhi
thapl
usi
t
wassaidthatt
helatewif
ewasanarr
anged
marr
iage
Me:
ohsot
heyar
eroy
alt
y?
Her
:notexact
ly
Me:mhhhsodoeshel ooksl
i
kesomeonewho'
s
havi
nganaff
airout
sidemarri
age?
Imeanweal
lsee
hi
m he'
shot
Her:
youarenott heonl
yoney azibutpi
eceofadvice
pl
ayfarawayfrom himy enahedoesey eother
womenhe'shumanaf t
erallbutIdon'
tremember
hear
ingsuchthingsabouthimt hatmanloveshis
wif
eandkids
Me:
may
behi
sgoodhi
dingi
t
Her:
l
et'
ssaymaybethenbutshoot
ingy
ourshotwi
l
l
getyouf
ir
ednotonhiswif
ecompany
Me:
thi
sishi
swi
fehot
elkant
i?
Her:
yesi
tsher
ssheuset
oruni
tbutr
eti
redt
obea
housewi
fe
Me:
wowl
i
fei
sgoodhuh?Sohowgoodwassheon
busi
ness?
Her:shewast hekindofper sonthatdoesn'tdowel l
wit
hmi stakesper f
ectioniswhatshewant sshe
doesunder standthaty eahwehumanswemake
mistakesbutbei nghar donherwor ker
smakest hem
tobemor ef ocusedshewasf earedthoughshehad
afriendlysidet henthere'sherhusbandyooot hat
onei t
'sev enhar dtoCr ackajokeathispresencehe
hardlysmi les
Me:
that
'swhatIhav
enot i
cedhe'
ssosour4mont
hs
i
nthi
scompanyIhav en'
tseenhi
mlaughi
ng
Her:
thenheisafunnypersonandhelov
eslaughi
ng
buti
fy ouwantt
ohearthatbewithhi
m andhiswif
e
orki
dshe'ssokind
Me:
whooabosst
hings
Her:
yeahbutIdogetwhyt heyaredoingt
hisonce
peoplegetusedtothem t
heirbusi
nesswil
lgodown
becausetheywil
lfi
nditeasytobunkornotrepor
tr
toworkandcomewi t
hexcueses
Me:
ohOKsowhat
'sf
orl
unch
CHAPTERFORTY-
NINE

KHI
THA

IT'
SBEEN2MONTHSnowsi nceistart
edgoi ngto
wor kImeanIhadtogoandhandl ethi
ngsIcan' t
standbackandwat chourr i
chnessf al
lsonly
becauseIam try
ingt ospit
ehi mthisismychi l
dren'
s
futuresoIhavetomakeast andIam nowi nmy
officeworki
ngonsomet hi
ngst hatconcernsthe
Beaut ySpaandyesIam goi ngtocont i
nuebuilditI
wantmyownt hi
ngt heonet hingthatIl
oveIhear da
knock
Me:
i
t'
sopen.
..Oy
iwal
ksi
nwi
thaf
il
einherar
ms
Oy
i:
mor
ningMr
sBi
yel
a
Me:
Mor
ningOy
iisev
ery
thi
ngOK?
Oyi
:wel
lMrBiyel
aaskedmetodoi
nter
viewswit
hthe
newcandi
datessoIthi
nkIwi
l
lgowit
htheseones.
..
Shesai
dgivi
ngmet heCVs
Me:
wel
lOy
iIwantal
ltheCVst
obebr
oughtt
omeok
y
ouandMrBiyel
acan'tbemaki
ngdecisi
onsIwas
t
heonewhoadvert
isedthev
acanci
es
Oyi
:
butmem weal
readyt
oldt
heot
heronet
ost
art
worki
ng
Me:t
hat'
syourprobl
em notmineOyint
andothi
sis
mycompanyIt hi
nkyoushouldalwayspassbyme
andgiv
emeheadsupi nev er
ythi
ng
Oy
i:
okmem IWi
l
ldo
Me:don'
tforgettobri
ngt hoseCVs. .
.Shenoddedas
shewalkedoutshei salway str
yingtober el
ev ant
comingupwi thsolut
ionsanddeci si
onst hatonl y
benefi
therbecauseshebr oughtt hr
eeofherf riends
tothecompanynowt heyar eal
way slazi
ngar ound
that
'swhyIam ev enplanningtosepar at
ethem t his
companyislosingmoneyandt heyaremaki ng
thi
ngsworse

OYI
NTANDO

Iwasi
nmyof
fi
cet
ryi
ngt
ofi
ndt
heCVsbutt
hey
wer
enowher
etobefoundshi
twherear
etheyOni
ka
wal
ksi
nshe'
sthenew HrManager
Oni
ka:
whatdi
dshesay
?
Me:
shewant
sal
ltheCVst
obebr
oughtt
oher
Oni
ka:
whyi
sthat
?..
.Sheaskedsi
tt
ingdown
Me:
Iwouldn'
tknowmem shewasi nav erybad
moodtodaywhenshe'sl
iket
hatever
ythinghasto
bei
norderother
wisesomeonemightloosethei
r
j
obssoIhavetofindt
heCVs
Oni
ka:
Iwi
l
lgoandt
alkt
oher

ONI
KA

WellIam t
henewHRatFour sseasonsbutt
hat'
snot
whatIam hereforIam her
efortheBiyel
amoneyI
havestar
tedri
ppingsomemi l
li
onsbutnowthathis
wifei
sbacktobusinessitwil
lmakehim moreaware
anddigdeeperhegotav er
ysmar twif
ewho'
snot
shaki
ngandmaki ngmyJobdi ff
icul
tmyphoneri
ngs
andit'
smydadhe' stheonewhosentmeher eso
apparent
lyBandil
esf
atherandminewereenemi
es
Biy
elaseniorstol
emyfather
'sr
ichesssoi
t'
sa
rev
engethingie
Me:
baba
Dad:
Oni
kahow'
sthi
ngst
hatsi
de?
Me:
daddyit
'sst
art
ingtobeali
tt
lehar
dbecausehi
s
wi
fei
srefusi
ngtohir
eourpeopl
e
Dad:
whynoti
sshesuspi
cious?
Me:Idon' tknowbabashewant
stheirbackground
andall andwebot hknowt
hatal
ltheirqual
if
icati
ons
arefakeandwhatnow?Babawehav ebeenont he
hotsour cethesepeopl
ear
estar
ti
ngt onoti
cet hat
somet hingisgoingon
Dad:Goandconv i
ncehertohir
et hem buti
fshe
doesn'
tagreet henwehav etolaylowandIwi l
lthi
nk
ofanotherplanBi y
elasdon'
tdeservethesethi
ngs
theyar
eal l
cr uelpeopl
e
Me:
okbabaIwi
l
lcal
lyoul
ater
Dad:
kul
ungi
l
emntanami.
..Wheewthi
sisahard
gamebutwhatmakesi
teasyist
hatt
hesepeople
ar
eallmoneyt
heyar
eweakev
enIwentt
oknockat
Khi
thasof
fi
ce
Khit
ha:
comein.
.Iwal
kedi
nshwaswi t
hherhusband
theywer
elooki
ngatt
hebankst
atementsand
companyasset
s
Me:
GooddayMr
sandMrBi
yel
a
Them:
GooddayOni
kasi
tdown
Me:ohwell
MrsBiyel
aIcametotal
kaboutt
henew
candi
dat
esbutIdon'
tknowi
fIcameattheri
ght
ti
me
MrBi
yel
a:Oni
kaIwantev
eryone'
sCVsok?I
fyoucan
dot
hatf
ormet henwewil
lbegood
Me:
okbutt
heoneswehi
redseem v
erygoodf
ort
he
j
ob
Khit
ha:i
fyousaysot
henwewi
l
lhi
ret
hem butwe
needthoseCVsasap
Me:
okt
henIwi
l
lcal
lOy
int
andot
obr
ingt
hem
Them:
sur
e..
..
.Shi
tshi
twel
ostt
hisr
ound
S2
CHAPTERFI
FTY

KHI
THA

EVENINGmyhusbandandIwerebusywitht
he
paper
sandtheki
dswereatZusi
pheshousedayby
dayweloosi
ngmoneyhowcanthishappen
Ndi
l
e:babywhowasi
nter
viewi
ngal
lthenewi
nter
ns?
Me:
Oyisai
dyouaskedhert
odosowi
tht
hehel
pof
Oni
kasoitwast
hem
Ndi
l
e:al
loft
hei
rqual
i
ficat
ionsar
efake
Me:what?Howdoy oumean?.
..It
ookthei
rCVsand
checkedthem butnothi
ngl
ooksfakehereIl
ooked
athim
Ndile:
yeahtheyboughtallt
hosepaper
sbutIasked
forthei
racademicrecordsattheUni
ver
sit
ythey
clai
m buttheydonotknowt hem sowhatexpl
ains
thatMaBiyela?
Me:
Idon'
tknowbabyIwoul
dn'
thav
ewentt
hatf
ar
andt
hankst
oyousowhatwi
l
lhappennext
?
Ndi
l
e:wehav
etof
ir
ethem
Me:
butbabyt
hosepeoplearesohardworki
ng
may
bewecancutt hem someslackandmentor
t
hem weneedtogetthi
sbusinessgoi
ng
Ndi
le:
Nomkhit
hathesepeopleforgedthei
racademic
r
ecordst
hatmakesthem untr
ustworthysodoy ou
wantmetoconti
nueworkingwithsuchpeople?..He
wasshout
ingashewalkedtothewi ndow
Me:shouti
ngatmewon'
tsol
vet
heproblem athand
sowemustf i
ndoutwher
eourmoneyisBandil
ewe
ar
eloosing
Ndi
l
e:Don'
tyout
hinkIam notwor
ri
ednj
engawe?
Me:
nev
ersai
dso
Ndil
e:Atleastt
heyhav est oppedf ornowbutt hat
doesn'tmakemest opmyr esearchtoomyf i
nancial
advi
sorisnothelpingt ooIcan'tlosemyhar dwork
noIwentt ojai
lfor7y earsthat'
sl ongIri
skmyl i
fe
cooki
ngdr ugsanddi stri
butingthem sot hatIcan
fi
nancemybusi nessest hent hi
si tbet
terbe
somet
hinggoodbecauseshi
twi
l
lgodown
Me:canwegotosl
eepnani
am sot
ir
ed.
.Isai
d
st
retchi
ngmybody
Ndi
l
e:wi
l
lIbeabl
etosl
eepwi
thsuchpr
obl
ems
Me:andst
ayingheredr
inki
ngwhiskeywon'
tgiv
eyou
sol
uti
onslet
'sgoandsleepwewi l
lwakeupwitha
bet
terpl
antomorrowthiscan'
tbefi
xedoverni
ght
Ndi
l
e:whatwi
l
lIbewi
thouty
oukodwa?
Me:
youwi
llbemisar
rabl
eof
coz.
..Hecamet
oki
ss
meandhegrabbedmyass
Ndil
e:t
hat'
scorr
ect
..
..Hesai
dbrushi
nghisli
pson
mineandhelif
tedmeandplacedmeonhi sdeskas
hepartedmylegshepull
edhismanhoodoutand
penet
ratedmesexintheoff
iceal
waysslaps

Oni
ka

Iwasatmyapar
tmentdr
inki
ngwinesandwatchi
ng
myNetfl
i
xwhenIheardaknockIwenttoopenand
Zukooneofourguy
swal
kedi
n
Me:
i
t'
sst
il
lear
lyf
orhousev
isi
tswhat
'swr
ong?
Zuko:
that
'swhaty
oucar
eabout
?
Me:
Andt
hatat
ti
tude?
Zuko:MrBiy
elasentmeanemai
ll
astni
ghtsay
ing
thatIhav
etomeetwi t
hhi
m doy
ouknowwhy ?
Me:
Iam nothi
sri
ghtmi
ndnorl
efthowwoul
dIknow?
Zuko:mxm hei
sgoingtoaskaboutourr
esul
tsIam
surehemadehisresear
chplushehasbeenbusy
wit
htheassetsl
atel
y
Me:Noy ouarenoti
nthehostagewenaIcall
edi
na
fewfavorssorel
axother
swer efi
redsoweayouar
e
theonewho'slef
tsobey our
selfanddon'
tl
ook
suspi
ciousok?
Zuko:
Itseemsli
kewearepl
ayi
ngwi
thf
ir
eher
eand
wearegoingtogetbur
nt
Me:ohoyouworr
ytoomucham sur
ethesal
tis
ki
l
li
ngy oul
etsgoupst
air
sandl
etmemot i
vat
ey ou
Zuko:
nowy
ouar
etal
ki
ng
BANDI
LE

I
t'
sMiddayIwasintheoff
icewit
hZukoIdonttr
ust
hi
m atal
lbutwheny
ouwantt ocatchachi
ckenyou
havet
obeclosetoi
tsothat'
swhatIam goi
ngtodo
Me:Iam sorr
ytocal
landdemandtoseeyouona
weekendam sureyouhadpl
ansbutIreal
l
yneeded
youtothis
Zuko:
i
t'
sOKMrBi
yel
a
Me:sur
esowhatdoy
ouknowaboutt
hei
nter
nsy
ou
camewi t
h?
Zuko:
not
hingsi
rweonl
ymetatt
hei
nter
view
Me:okIwantedtomakesuresoIseethaty
ouar e
goodinaccount
ingIsawyourr
ecordsandalso
cal
ledyourl
asti
nsti
tut
iontomakesuresoIwould
l
ikeyoutoholdt
heFinancesf
orme
Zuko:
Oht
hat
'sahuget
hingMrBi
yel
aI.
.
Me:
pleaseatt
hist
imeandmomentIneedy
ouI
meanmycompaniesareloosi
ngmoneydaybyday
andIwantyoutot
racethem f
ormewouldyoudo
that
?..
.Hel
ookedsouncomfortabl
eandabi
tshakey
Zuko:
ohOKIwilllookatt
hem si
randIdi
dn'
tknow
aboutt
hatIam sorry
Me:Noit'
snothi
ngtoworr
yaboutIwi l
lgett
hem and
showthem asnakesbut
tocksbutfornowfindt
he
i
nsectthatar
eeati
ngmyhar v
esti
ng
Zuko:
okIwi
l
lsi
r
Me:
iwi
l
lgi
vey
ou4day
sfort
hatok?
Zuko:Iwi l
lal
way supdatey ousir .
..Weshookhands
ashewal kedoutIam suspect inghi m Iwanthimt o
provemewr ongbybr ingingthisf eedbackon
WednesdayandIcal ledsecur i
tycompanyandt he
Applest orebecauseal l
ofourcomput ersarethei
rsI
wantt hem connectedt omewi thoutbeingknownf or
suresoIwi l
lgetal
ltheemai lsandnot if
icat
ionsof
everyt
hing
CHAPTERFI
FTYONE

NDI
LE

LATERonwheni wassur et hatev eryt

hingissor tedi
drov etomyhousei wast hinkingaboutal lofthis
andwonder ingwhoi tmi ghtbesur elyhe'
swai ti
ng
formyr eAct ionbuti willkeepi tlowsoi gottomy
houseandt her ewasnoonedownst airsam sure
khi t
hai supst airssleepi ngordoi ngwhat eversoi
deci dedt ojustsi tdownatt hel aungeansandwat ch
tvi heardmyphonev ibrateandi twasamessage
from What sAppi loggedi nandcheckedi twasf rom
Luuohi tsbeenl ongi hav eseenhi mi havetomake
ti
mef ort heguy siwentt ov iewst atusessincei was
bor edi sawKhi tha'sf i
rsty oomywi f
eposteachand
ev eryev enthappeni ngi nherl ifeli
keev eryt
hingi
hav et r
iedtoconv i
nceheri ntokeepi ngot herthings
privatebutat leastthisi sWhat sAppnotsomeI nsta
soshe' si nthebedr oom r eadingabooki missmy
babi esmom t ookt hem f orahol i
dayi swippedt othe
nextoneandi twasOyintandosthisgi
rlsurel
ydoes
postnudesi meanifshe'
snoti nherswimmi ng
bi
kinissheswearingsomer eveal
ingdressesi
wonderwhathermant hi
nkal l
owingyourwomant o
walknakedf ort
hewor l
dt oseecannev erbeme
may bei am t
oomuchofaZul umanbutnoi
wouldn'tal
lowthat

KHI
THA

It
sbeenhour snowandmyhusbandi snotbacky et
whatskeepighimt hi
slong?aargbeingalonei nthis
housegivesmechi ll
ssomet i
mesi am usedtobei ng
withpeopleiwokeupandwentdownst airstostar t
cookingdinnerwheni gott
herehewascur l
edupi n
thecouchohwowsohewasher eallal
ongi lethim
bei wenttostar
tcookingdinner

Ifel
thi
sst
rongarmsar
oundmeandheki
ssedt
he
backofmyneck
Ndil
e:mhhhhhh.
..
hesai
dpr
essi
nghi
msel
fonmeand
sucki
ngmyneck
Me:
mhhhhnothat
sabi
tpai
nful
..
..
hest
oppedand
r
est
edhi
sheadonmyshoul
ders
Ndil
e:y
oulooksoyummymami
iwi
shi
canhav
eyou
r
ighthereandr
ightnow
Me:ohpleasestopwi
ththef
li
rti
ngsohowdidit
go?..
.her
emov edhi
sarmsandwenttoopenthe
fr
idgeandtookabottl
eofwaterandgul
pedi
tdown
Ndil
e:Icall
edZukototheoffi
cesi
nceheisact
ingso
j
umpyar oundmeandwei r
dthatmakesme
suspi
ciousofhim soiaskedhimtodosomefoll
ow
upwithal lt
heasset
sandjournal
s
Me:maybehe'sact
ingl
ikethatbecausehe's
i
nti
midatedbytheMightyBiy
ela.
..
isaidkisi
nghis
f
oreheadiknowhehatesithegav emet helook
Ndi
le:
angi
siwubabygi
rlmi
naangi
siy
iPr
incess<i
am
not
>..
..
welaughed
Me:y
oumakememi ssmynunusomuchgeezwhen
ar
etheycomi
ngbackagai
n?
Ndi
le:
maybenextweeki
misshert
ooespeci
all
y
whenshe'
smadandacti
ngall
dramat
ic
Me:j
ustl
i
key
ou..
isaidmovi
ngawayhequi
ckl
y
gr
abbedmeandslappedmybut
t
Ndi
le:
Awuphi
ndef
uthi
uthi
ngenzenj
ani
?<sayi
tyou
sai
diam what
>
Me:nothingjustt
hatndi
kubawelaetr
assi
ninani
<i
am cravi
ngy ouinbed>.
..
helaughedwhit
sle
checkinghisphone
Ndi
l
e:y
ouwi
l
lgetmeal
lni
ghtl
ongbaby
Me:
who'
sthatl
etmesee?
..
.hegav
emehi
sphone
Me:
Oynt
andoandt
henar
eyout
alki
ngt
oher
?
Ndi
l
e:i
twasoncewhenical
ledherr
ememberwhen
wewereatt
herest
aur
ant?
Me:
ohy
eah
Ndil
e:t
hat'
showshegotmynumber ..
hesaidwal
king
outiwenttohi
sstatusesandsawt heki
ndofshit
shepostandihavebeent ol
dabouthertr
yingt
oget
mymansat tet
ionsoi bl
ockedherwhil
eshewasst i
l
l
typi
ngbit
chgottoplayfar
OYI
NTANDO

EVENINGiwashavingthebesttimeofmyl i
fe
dri
nki
ngwineswit
hmyf r
iendsunti
ligotbl
ockedby
Bandi
lel
ikewhatt
hef uck!!
Ent
le:
andnowwhyar
eyouswear
ing?
Me:
wasi
loudkant
i?
t
hem:
dwi
i
i.
.t
heysai
drol
l
ingt
hei
rey
es
Me:wel
liwastryi
ngt
ostar
taconversat
ionwi
thMr
Handsomesincehevi
ewedmystatsbutiwas
bl
ockedwhil
ei wast
ypi
ngtoaskhowhewas
Ent
le:
Owoht
hat
snotgood
Nina:t
heysay"whenamanjustbl
ocky ououtof
thebl
uet hat
snothimit
shi
swife/
gir
l"so..
.shesai
d
shrugginghershoul
der
s
Entl
e:mi
ghtbepossi
blesomewomendogot
hrough
thei
rmensphone
Li
ndi
;
ber
eadyf
ory
ourwar
ningonMonday
..
.shesai
d
l
aughi
ng
Ent
le:
andshe'
scapabl
eofdoi
ngt
haty
ouknow?
Me:
buti
twasamer
e"Hi
"nj
e
Entl
e:wenayouspoil
edt hisbytel
li
ngNosi pho
that
youhaveacrushonMrBi yelaandever ybodyat
theoffi
ceknowthatNosi phoisMrsBiyela'slapdog
sherunstoherandtell
sherev eryt
hingidont
underst
andwhatactionsdoessheneedst obe
showncauseMr sBiyelaisnotonherlevel
Li
ndi:
shesbuy
ingherat
tent
ionandshe'
sgi
vi
ngi
tto
her
Ent
le:
i
tspr
etencebabes
Me:Whoooawhooaani kahl
eyooi
dontwanttohear
anyt
hingaboutyour"Mr sBi
yel
a"idontgeti
twhyis
ever
ybodyint
imidat
edbyhershespr ai
sedandtobe
honestt
hatgir
lisdul
l andugly
Li
ndi:
don'
tletjeal
ousyf
ool
youmydarh-l
ii
i
ing
MrsBi
yelaistheQueenofJozi
weallknowthatso
wenagof orhermanandstophat
ingonherbecause
she'
sonel oved
Nina:andithinksheshouldbetaki
ngtipstoheri
meant ryt
obeher" lapdog"andstar
tobservingand
t
akenot esont hewomanshei smay beitwil
lhel
p
youelevat
ey ourlev
elandMAYBEMrBi yel
acan
f
inall
yrecognizeyou
Me:
that
sthepl
anNinathat
sthepl
anwhooal
etme
f
oll
owhernowonInst
a
CHAPTERFI
FFTY-
TWO

NDI
LE

WOKEupi nadar
kroom wi
thnoli
ghtsonshitmy
headhur
tssobadwhatthefuckhappened?

Fl
ashbacks

Khi
tha:
nanit
heki
dsar
ealreadyatt
heai
rpor
tyou
hav
et ogoandpi
ckt
hem up
me:ij
ustgotoutoft
heoffi
ceam hoi
nvdownt
o
par
kinglotbabyiwi
l
lfet
chthem
Khi
tha:okmylovebye.
..
.shedi
sconnect
edthecal
l
andthenextthi
ngiam l
ay i
ngdownseeingdoubl
e
andbluryv
issi
ons

Endoff
lashback
man:
bosshesawake
Boss:
tur
ntheli
ght
er.
..
theyturnedabr
ightl
i
ghtt
hat
st
rokemyiri
ssobadi t
riedshadowi
ngbutmyhands
wereti
edwit
hropes

Me:
whothef
uckar
eyou?
whatt
hef
uckdoy
ouwant
f
rom me?
Man:y
ouaremaki
ngnoiseshutup!
!!
..
.hegav
emea
har
dslapi
swearisawstar
s
Boss:Leav
ehi
mt ome(anol
dmanappr oachedme)
Bi
yelaomncanei
sikhul
usamisi
ngi
thumile<Bi
yel
a
j
uniormybosssentme>
Me:umdalakangakauneskhulu?
uyathuny
wayouare
nothi
ngbutaweakestman. .
.hepunchedmetil
l
i
coughedbloodandtheotheronewasgushingout
onmynose
Boss:
youar
estubbor
njustl
i
key
ourf
atherl
ookher
e
iwontwast
eyourt
ime
Me:
yeahr
ighti
dontdowel
lwi
thpeopl
ewhodoesnt
r
espectt
ime
Boss:
l
ist
eniam theonewhosgoi
ngt
odot
het
alki
ng
i
nhereunder
stand?
Me;
makei
tsnappy
Boss:
Yourf
atherdi
edowingmybossal
otofr
iches
sohe'
snownomor eyouhavet
opay
Me:niyangi
dakel
wani nasoy
oukidnapmej ustt
otell
met hatyoushould'
vecametomyof f
iceandletus
t
alklikegrownoldmat ur
edman
Man:Wetr
iedget
ti
ngreachofy
oubuty
oui
gnor
ed
andkil
l
edoursour
ce
Boss:andweknowt hatyouownami neam sur e
youusedconnecti
onstotradethediamondsy our
fat
herstol
einourBossesfarm soyoubett
ermake
arr
angementsnowt haty
oust i
l
l hav
etimeorel sewe
wil
lki
llyou
Me:makearrangement
s?manidontknowwhatyou
aret
alki
ngaboutok?canyoupl
easecally
ourboss
andletmetalktohi
m?
Man:
He'
sly
ingbossheknowsv
erywel
ll
et'
sruf
fl
e
hi
m unt
ilhespeaksout
..
.t
heykeptonpunchi
ngand
ki
cki
ngme
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

KHI
THA

Iwasi
nmyof
fi
cebusywi
thsomewor
kOy
icamei
n
Oy
i:
mor
ningMr
s
Me:
GooddayOy
iit
spast12.
.shegi
ggl
ed
Oyi
:am sor
ryiwasonmywayt obuylunchandi saw
youandthoughtishoul
dpassinheresinceyourPA
i
snotinmay beicangetyousomething
Me:t
hat
sni
cebutihav
ealreadycal
l
edMaZoshewil
l
br
ingmymeal
..
iwasdist
urbedbymyri
ngi
ngphone
Me:
hel
l
o
Call
er:
MrsBiy
elaitsbeen3hour
sy ourki
dshav
e
beenwait
ingforsomebodytofetchthem
Me:
myhusbandsai
dhei
scomi
ngt
ofet
cht
hem
Caller
:yeshecal
l
edusat9i
ts20t
o2nowandi
cant
reachhi m
Me:t
hanksforl
ett
ingmeknowi
am onmyway
..
.she
di
sconnect
edthecall

Oy
i:
Whati
swr
ongMr
s?
Me:IhavetogoOy icanyoupleaseexcusemy
offi
ce.
..
shenoddedandwal kedouti t
ookmybag
andcarkeysi dr
ovetotheairpor
titookmykidsand
drovetowherehewaswor kingattodaywheni got
i
nt heparki
nglothi
scarkeyswer edroppedr
ight
nexttohiscarandhisphone
Me:
Shi
t!
!
Xoxo:
Mamawhat
sgoi
ngon?
Me:Nothi
ngbabyyourfathermust
'v
edroppedt
he
key
s. .
myheartwasracingitookmyphoneand
cal
ledZai
n
Hi
m:Bozzay
am
Me:
cani
seey
ounownowi
wil
lbet
her
enow
Hi
m:yesiam i
n..
..
wegott
othecarandi
drov
eto
masakhane
Me:
Zianam i
nmyof
fi
ce
Hi
m:Bossl
ady
Me:canyoupleasehackt
hesecur
it
ycamer
asof
Bi
yelaHotel
inCenturi
on
Hi
m:i
sther
esomet
hingwr
ong?
Me:Ithi
nkther
e'ssomethinghappenedt
omy
husbandigothiscarkeysandphonenextt
ohi
scar
Hi
m:Shi
tletmegoandwor
koni
t
Me:
okMakei
tsnappy
Si
ya:
mamai
wantdaddy
Me:
Yeahhewentsomewher
ehewi
l
lgetushomeok
Si
ya:
ok
Xoxo:
Mamaar
eyouok?
Me:yeahiam...
iwast r
yingsohardtoputonafr
ont
butshiti
justcantunderst
andwhati sgoi
ngonher
e
whodi dt
his?whataretheiri
ntent
ions?
Zai
n:Lookatthi
s..
.i
twastwoguysweari
ngblack
mosili
um dr
essestheyi
nject
edhi
m andtookhimto
t
hei
rcaranddr
oveof
f
Me:
whot
hef
uckar
ethey
?
Zian:
ther
ewasnot
hingsuspi
ciousl
atel
ysoi
dont
getit
CONTI
NUATI
ON

KHI
THA

2DAYSLATERandst i
l
lnocontactfrom mymanam
dri
vingnut
st hisisnotri
ghtandthef actthatidon'
t
haveanyleadsi skil
li
ngmei havetriedtraci
nghim
butnoluckshi tiam i
nmyof fi
celookingt hr
oughthe
windowthinkingaboutthiswholethingandt henit
cli
ckedtomet hatBandi
leoncesuspect edZuko
yeahletmecal lhim
Zuko:
Mam y
oucal
l
edme?
Me:Yeahsitdown.
..
.hesatont
hechai
rnearmy
of
fi
cet abl
e
Zuko:
ok?
Me:ZukolwethuYawabor nandraisedinMot her
well
byasi ngl
eparentand6si bl
i
ngsat t
endedSiyakha
Pri
mar yschoolLuTukahighschool andNMUbut
yourrecordssayUKZNokf i
nethatdoesn'tmatt
erat
all
sot ell
mewhatbr oughtyouhere? .
..
hisey
eswere
shooti
ngl
ooki
ngl
i
ket
heywer
egoi
ngt
ofal
lof
fthei
r
socket
Zuko:
wel
lmam i
camet
olookf
oraj
obt
otakecar
e
ofmymother
Me:
Yeahiknowshesi
nMandel
ahospi
tal
fight
ing
f
orherl
i
fe
Zuko;
howdoy
ouknowal
loft
his?
whati
sitabout
?
Me:
Nothi
ngiti
smyj
obt
oknowwhoi
am wor
king
wi
thand.
..
Onica:
sorryt
odistur
by oubossladybutMrYawa
hasaclientwait
ingforhi
m...
thatwasOnica
di
sturbi
ngmyi nvest
igati
on
Me:whost
hepotent
ial
cli
ent?anywayy
ouandmeare
notdonei
needever
yreportbytheendoft
heday
Zuko:okmam i wi
lldoso.
..
.t
heybothlookedateach
otheryoucant ell
whenpeoplearehidingsomethi
ng
ineedt okeepmyey eont
hesetwomycompanyi s
fal
li
ngapar tandmyhusbandi smissingthat
s
bull
.*Phonerings*
Zai
n:Mr
sBi
yel
apl
easecomet
otheof
fi
cei
n
Cent
uri
onnownowi
thi
nkwehav
eal
ead
Me:
Shi
tiam onmyway.
..
idisconnect
edt
hecal
land
t
ookmyphoneandbagipassedtoNono
Her
:yougoi
ngsomewher
e?
Me:yessorr
ywehavetoreschedul
eandcancel
my
meetingsaswel
lsomethi
ngcameupi wil
lbeback
ok?
Nono:
okby
e
Me:Lockmyoff i
ceplease.
..
.isai
drushi
ngoutthe
dooriprayi
tsnotafalsealarm agai
niam ti
redof
l
yingtomykidsev er
ydayt heyneedthei
rfat
heri
needmymant oo
CHAPTERFI
FTY-
THREE

NDI
LE

It
sbeen2day stiedont hischai rit
sexhaust ingi have
beent r
yingtobr eakt hrought hisr opesbuti cantso
there'sal adywhoal way sbr i
ngmef oodandwat er
her eshel ookssodepr essedt hesepeopl ear ef i
lthyi
knowi am notasai ntbutki dnappi ngy ounggi rlsand
maki ngt hem Prost i
tutesf ory ourowngoodi sdump
l
owandsounhumansowhenshecameher ei st ol
e
at ablespoonsoi canusei ttount iethisropei ttook
mehour sweal lknowhowr opesar eandt hisi snot
akni fesoi struggledaf teriwasf reei walkedt ot he
doorandpi mpedt oseewhower einthenextr oom it
wasf ourbuffedguy spl ayingchessanddr i
nking
alcohol andt henextr oom nextt ot heonei wasi nto
i
twasaguywhowasbusyf uckingoneoft hegi rlsi
sawagunnextt ohi m andi twasl oadedi slowl y
wal kedtopi ckitbuther ecogni zedme
Hi
m:Whatt
heFuckar
ey.
..
ipunchedhi
snoseandhe
screamedi pickedthegunast heot her
scamei nt he
room west art
edshootingi hi
dont hetableandi
wasj ustshooti
ngwhent hegunshot sstoppedi
stoodupandshi tt
hegirl
isdeadi li
mpedoutoft he
room ast hegir
lswereont hecornerscaredfortheir
l
ivesi t
ookcarkey sandopenedt hedoorandwent
totakewhoev ercaranddr oveouti di
dntevenknow
wherei was

KHI
THA

EVENINGi waswithLuu,Phil
aniandSbuinmyhouse
theywerebusytr
yingtotracethecarwesawatt he
camerayoucannev erknowt heseI
Tscleverinev
er
thoughti
tspossi
bletotrackacarwithouti
ts
numberplateormay beseeingit
Me:
Anyl
uckSbu?
Sbu:
wel
lnobuti
tsst
il
lconnect
ing
Phi
l
ani:
It
sbeenhour
snowSbuIsntanyot
herway
wecandothi
s?HowaboutwepayZukoavisi
tit
hink
wehav
etot
akei
tthehar
dway
Luu:
Ihav
ebeensay
ingi
tbutKhi
tha.
.
Me:
ButWhatLuu?wear
enotsureokandZukoisnot
t
heprobl
em her
eormaybeheknowssomethi
ng
Phi
l
anj
:
didhebr
ingt
her
epor
ts?
Me:Yeshedi
dandt her
esnothi
ngsuspi
cioust
her
e
butyenahemightbehidi
ngsomethi
ng
Luu:
weneedhi
m
CHAPTER

KHI
THA

PHILANIandIwer
ebusyargui
ngaboutt
heZuko
i
ssuewhenwehear daknockatt
hedoorwel
ooked
ateachother
Luu:
whomi
ghti
tbe?
Me:
Idon'
tknowIwasn'
texpect
ingany
one
Phi
l
ani
:
letmegoandcheck
Sbu:
yesvel
egothi
sisyourhousesi
nceyouarethe
godf
athermay
begodhusbandasazi
..
.Wegiggl
ed
Me:Voet
sekSbusi
sot
akeagunPhi
l
ani
..Weal
lhad
ourguns
Phi
l
ani
openedt
hedoorandamanf
ell
onhi
sar
ms
Luu:
andnow.
.Weal
lrushedt
othedoor
Me:
Nani!
!!
!!
..
.i
twasBandi
l
eallbrui
sesandhadblood
i
nhi
sclothi
ngtheguyswentouttolookar
oundeven
t
houghwehadguar
dsjustt
odoubl
echeckwhi
l
eI
wasbusydr
aggi
ngBandi
let
othecouch
Ndile:
Ngicel
aamanzi<canIpleasehavewater>.
..He
saidwithavoiceful
lofthi
rst
,hungerandpainI
rushedtothekit
chen

Phil
ani
:Bafowhathappened?Whodi dthi
stoy ou?
..
Heaskedwhi lstt
aki
ngof fhi
svestasSburushed
upstai
rstotakethei
rfi
rstaid
Me:hecannotspeakpr
oper
lynowcany
ouj
ust
concent
rat
eonthewoundsplease?
Phi
l
ani
:
it'
sshockIknowi
shoul
dn'
thav
easked
Luu:Sbusi
sokhokhawul ezemf ondi
niHaibo!!
!<hurr
y
upmangeeez>. ..
.heexclaimedhecamer unni
nga
minuteaftert
hent heytookt hebull
etthatwasonhi s
bothribshewasgr oani
ngGodIhadt earsinmyey es
Iknowhe' satoughonebutwat chi
nghimi npain
painsmet ooDrPhi lani
cleanuphi swounds
apparentl
yhewasshot3t i
mesonhi sri
bsandhi s
anklehehadswol lenwr i
stinjuri
esbothsidesandon
thelegstoo
Luu:
hewaski
dnapped
Sbu:
andwhot
hehel
li
sfucki
ngupnow?
Phi
lani
:wehavebeenlay
inglowfort
ool ongi
tstime
tor
emindt hem whot
hekingsofGautengarethese
motherfucker
sarepl
ayi
ngadangerousgame
Me:Canyouhel
pmecar
ryhi
mtot
hebat
hroom he
sur
elyneedabat
h
Phi
lani
:
Sbusisongobaukhul
umel
asafuthi
car
rythe
ot
hersidewenanoLukhanyoIwi
llf
oll
owwbehind
Them:
yesboss
Me:
Iwi
l
lrunhi
m abat
hsol
ong
Sbu:
haaaal
omunt
uuy
asi
nday
ooo
Luu:khoyekebal
ivi
l
amfet
huHaibo<stopbei
ngalazy
ass>..Theychuckl
edast
heycarr
iedhimtothe
bathroom
Phil
ani
:
wehavetoleav
ebutwewi l
lbeher
eear
lyi
n
themorni
ngok?
..Hesaidhuggi
ngme
Sbu:ngi
shi
l
oMi
na<Isai
dso>.
..Wel
aughedasweal
l
hugged
Me:uyaphaphawena<y
ouar
efor
wad>.
..Isai
d
poki
nghischest
Sbu:
vel
ethi
sgodf
ather
sshi
tIdon'
ttr
ustt
hem
Me:ngobayouwoul
dn'
tqual
i
fybei
ngmyki
ds
godfat
hersopl
ease
Luu/Phi
l
ani
:
oooowouch!
!!
!.
..Theysai
dhol
dingt
hei
r
chest
Me:
uyaphaphaandi
thi
nowl
eav
emyhouse
Luu:
Ngobaumyeni
ifi
ki
lesiy
agxit
hwa?<youare
ki
cki
ngusoutnowthatyourhusbandhasar
ri
ved>
Me:
yougotwi
vesandbabi
eswai
ti
ngf
ory
ouguy
s
Phil
ani
:pl
uzi
keIhaven'
tget
ti
ngsomeassf
or3
hourssogott
abounce
Me:
huh?
??
Luu:
yoooomf
ethu
Sbu:
weeeehpoorZusi
phencncnc.
..
.Wel
aughed
NDI
LE

Iwokeupcomf or
tablyinbedGodIcant ellbythe
smel lt
hatIam i nmybedr oom shi tInear l
ydiedl ast
nightsoaf t
erIdroveoutoft hatf ar m houseI
realizedt hatIwasi nBushbar kridgeout side
Mpumal angaIf oundar oadl eadingt oJobur gbutI
thinkoneoft heguydi dn'tdiesot heycal l
edtol et
them knowIescapedsot heychasedmet heywer e
shoot ingandt hecarIwasdr ivi
ngl ostitandi tr
ol l
ed
tot hebr idgeandi twasbur ningi washi dingundera
huger ocksot heythoughtIwasdeadIt henwentt o
hickhi ckel uckil
yanol dwhi t
el adywho' spr obablya
nur segav emeal i
ftshewant edt ot akemet othe
hospi talIrefusedIwant edt ocomehome

Voi
ce:
nani
arey
ouawake?
..Thatwasmybeaut
if
ul
wif
e
Me:yes.
..Isai
dsit
ti
ngupshesatnextt
omeandwe
huggedsot i
ghtshewascr
ying
Khi
tha:
IthoughtIl
osty
oubabyIt
houghtIl
osty
ou
Nt
shangasewhatwoul
dIbewi
thouty
oukodwa?
Me:shhhhhhi
t'
soknanamiit
'sokIam her
enowand
youknowIalwaysf
ixshi
tthi
soneisgoingtopass
ok?
Khi
tha:
Iknowyoualway
sfi
ndsol
uti
onsbutIneeded
youtheki
dsneededyou
Me:
andnowIam her
esonomor
etear
sokbi
gbaby
?
Khi
tha:
ohpl
ease
Me: v
elemossyouare..
..Wekissedsopassi
onat
e
thedoorwideopenedQhawewal kedinPhel
alo
usenzaimbozayalay
indli
nihethi
nksheownsthi
s
place
Qhawe:
baba..
.Hi
sfacel
ight
enedupandhewasal
l
smil
esheclai
medtobedandcametome
Me:Qhawel
ababawalo(
Isai
dkissi
ngandt
ickl
i
ng
hi
m)butnextt
imelear
ntoknockok?
Qhawe:
mhhh...Khi
thaandIlaugheditsnotl
ikehe
hear
dwhatIjustsaidhe'
sjustagr
eeingthenNunu
cameincr
yingandt hi
soneisalwayscryi
ngnjal
o
Khi
tha:
Manj
e<andnow>
Nunu:
uBaxol
i
sey
enau.
.
Xoxo:
Yheey
hiunamangamamai t
'shersher
uined
mybookswithherwaxcr
ayons
Nunu:
noi
t'
sSi
ya
Siya:
hay
iMinaIwasn'
tusi
ngt
hecr
ayons.
..
.Andnow
theywerear
gui
ng
Me:
okOK..
.Theyal
ll
ookatmeshockedwowso
t
heydi
dntseeme
Them:
baba.
..
.Theyr
ant
ohugme

Mid-daytheguyscamet omyhouseandwewere
sit
ti
ngont hebalconytheywer
edri
nki
ngbeerwhi
l
eI
wasdr i
nkingj
uicebecauseDrPhi
l
aniMthembuwas
ther
e
Sbu:Manjeuthi
obani l
abadi
dy oumanageto
recogni
zethem? .
..
.HeaskeditwaswhenInarr
ated
thi
swholethingKhithawashuggingmefr
om behind
Imissedthecli
ngyher
Me:NoIdidn'
t(Iki
ssedmywif
e'scheekshesmil
ed)
butIt
hinktheywil
lshowupastheyWilt
hinkIam
dead
Phil
ani:
yeaht
hat
'st
rueandt
hatwi
l
lgi
veust
imet
o
getthem
Luu:
andnawekenj
akaNt
shangasey
ouhav
etol
ay
l
ow
Me:
Idon'
thaveanychoi
cenjakaRadebegott
ofi
nd
t
hesemorons.
..
.Welaughed

KHI
THA

NEXTDAYIwasi nmyof fi
cewhuuuhappyaftert
he
3daysoft
raumaLodi youaresogoodoooitwas
j
ustaft
ert
eatimeIwasj ustgoingthr
oughsome
thi
ngswhenOyintandocamet oknockinmyoffi
ce
Me:
comei
n..
.Shecatwal
kedt
omydesk
Oy
i:
howi
sMr
sBossl
adyt
oday
?
Me:
nev
erbeenbet
terwena?
Oyi:
fi
newheny
ouar
eihear
dthatMrBi
yel
ahasbeen
found
Me:
huh?
..
.Iwassoconf
usedwhot
oldhert
hat
Oyi:
well
newsf lybutIdi
dn'
twanttotal
ktoyou
duri
ngthoseday syouwerebr
eathi
ngfir
esoIgave
youyourspacebutIwantedtocomfortyouImean
MrBiyel
aisuhm ourbossandhe'sagoodperson
andtheinf
luencehehasinheresowehadt obe
concer
ned
Me:
mhhhi
sit
?
Oyi
:y
esman. .
.Shesaidf
ixi
ngher
selfheeet
hisgi
rl
sohejustdaydreamedofmyhusbandnowwhi l
eI
waswithhershewasevenbit
ti
ngherlip
Me:Noitsappreciat
edOyi
ntandobutnowt haty
ou
knowjustkeepy ourmout
hzippeddon'
tsayawor d
toany
oneaboutt hi
spl
easeandIcantrustyouri
ght
?.
Oy
i:
Uhm y
esmam
Me:
sur
ecanIpl
easehav
emyspace
Oy
i:
okmam
CHAPTER

AFTERNOONIknockedof
fandwentt
ofet
ch
Lubenat
hiathi
sgr
anni
es
Me:
knockknock!
!!
Li
ndi
we:Heymakot
i.
..
wehuggedt
hingsbet
weenus
ar
ejustf
ine
Me:
i
sev
ery
thi
ngOK?
Li
ndi
we:
notexactl
yLubehasn'
tbeenhi
msel
ffort
he
l
astf
ewdayssincehecamebackf r
om t
hev
il
lage
Me:huh?Whathappenedt
omysonLindiwe?
..I
askedmaki
ngmywayt ot
hehouseshegott
obe
ki
dding
Li
ndi
we:hehasbeenhotsi
ncehegothereIcal
leda
doct
orshecameandcheckedhim andsai
dit
'sjust
fl
ubutIthi
nki
t'
smorethanthat
Me:morethanthatbutheisst
il
lherear
eyouki
dding
me?..Iwentt
of eel
histemper
atureandhewasvery
hot
Li
ndi
we:
see?Iwasonmywayt
oMedi
cli
nic
Me:ok.
..Ididn'twantt
oarguewi t
hherbecauseIwi
ll
endupdi srespect
ingherItookLubenathit
omycar
andwedr ovetothehospi
talhewasr ushedtoI
CCU
thenIsawPhi lani

Hi
m:Bi
yel
aWi
ves.
..Hesai
dhuggi
ngus
Me:
cany
oupl
easegoandcheckonmyson?
Hi
m:Yourson?
Li
ndi
we:
yesherson!
!!
Hi
m:whathappened?
Me:
Idon'
tknowwhati
swr
ongwit
hLubenat
hihe'
s
t
akentot
hekidsI
CUcany
oufol
l
owup?
Him:okam oni
t.
..Hesai
drunni
ngt
hrought
he
passage
Myphoner
angi
twasmyhusband
Me:
hey
Ndi
l
e:andnowar
eyouOK?
wher
ear
eyou?
Me:
atMedi
cli
nichospi
tal
inCent
uri
on
Ndi
l
e:am comi
ng.
..Hedi
sconnect
edt
hecal
l
Li
ndi
we:
whatdi
dhesay
?
Me:
he'
scomi
ng
Li
ndi
we:
ohGodBandi
l
eissogoi
ngt
oshoutat
ev
ery
oneinher
e
Me:That
'sthel
eastofmyworr
iesr
ightnowIjust
wanttoknowwhathappenedt
omysont hat
'sal
l

.
..I
ntwominut
eshecamei
njoggi
ngt
heki
dswer
e
f
oll
owinghi
m
Ndi
le:whathappenedtomyson?
..
.Il
ookedat
Li
ndiwewhodi dn'
tsayany
thi
nganursecameto
wherewewer e
Her
:Goodev
eni
ngBi
yel
aFami
l
yar
eyougood?
Ndil
e:whathappenedt
omyson?
!!Hewasnow
shouti
ng
Her
:wel
luhm he.
.
Me:
huh?
!
Ndile:speakupdon'
tyoudar
efuckwit
hme!!
!.
..
Everyone'satt
ent
ionwasonusPhil
anicamet
ous
running
Him:Bafoever
ythi
ngIsgoodheisali
vebutwecan'
t
fi
ndwhati swrongwit
hhim westi
ll
needtotakea
personwhowaswi thhimthepastf
ewday sfor
questi
oning
Ndi
l
e:Dammi
tmaar
n!!
!Hesai
dbangi
ngt
het
abl
es
Li
ndi
we:
okIwi
l
lcal
lCebi
sil
e
Me:
Cebi
what
?!
Ndile:maaaahowcanyoubesocar elessCebosi
l
e
outofallthepeopl
einthi
splanet
?!.
..Shewas
shakingImeanhowcoul dshedothatl eav
emy
precioussonwitht
hatevi
lwomani sshewel l
Ndi
l
e:MaBi
yel
aareyouOK?.
..It
hinkIwaslosi
ngi
t
myvisi
onwasbl
urIcoul
dn'
tseeproper
ly

<<HOURSLATER>>
BANDI
LE

It
'sbeenquiteawhi l
esi nceIgothereIam j
ustt r
ying
tofigureoutwhat'sgoingononwi thmysonandmy
wifeisalsobeingadmi ttedIdon'
tgetathi
ngi tal
l
feel
sl i
keadr eam awierdonet obeexactItol
d
mamat odriv
ehomeandcal l
edZusiphetotakethe
kidswi t
hherwhi l
eIwai tformywifebecausemy
precioussoni sst
il
li
nICCU

Ifel
tmyphonev i
brati
oninmypocketandItookit
outamessagefrom anunsav ednumberwhich
reads*Youar
estil
lgoingtoloosemore*whatthe
actual
Fuck?I
sthisthesameper sonwhokidnapped
me?Whati st
histhatisgoi
ngon?
Voi
ce:
Baf
o..Heshookmei
twasPhi
l
ani
Me:
Baf
o?!
Phi
l
ani
:
what
'sgoi
ngon?
Me:
Look.
.Igav
ehi
m myphoneaf
emal
edoct
or
camet
ome
Dr:
MrBiyel
ayourwi
feisawakeshe'
singood
condi
ti
onandthebaby
Me:
YoumeanherandLubenat
hi?
Dr
:Uhm not
heunbor
nbabyshe'
spr
egnantr
ight
?
Me:
Nomkhi
tha?Pr
egnant
?
Dr:
well
inthatcasecongrat
ulat
ionsy
ouar
egoi
ngt
o
beafatheragai
n..
.Ij
ustsmiled
Me:
canIgoandseeher
Dr
:sur
eDoct
orMt
hombeni
wil
ltakey
out
oherwar
d
Me:
thanky
ou
Phil
ani:
weeehBaf oyouwereseri
ousaboutt
he
soccerteam kant
icongr
atul
ati
onsNdoda..
.Webr
o
huged
Me:Iwishwedidn'
tfi
ndoutl
ikethi
sit
'sev
enhar dt
o
cheerupIam t
hinki
ngaboutthi
smotherfucker
Phi
lani
:Sothatmeanshewentt
oKZNandmay
be
wenttovisi
tyouraunt
s
Me:
Ithi
nksobecausehewasmyf
ather
'sol
d
f
ri
enemy
Phi
l
ani
:
makesmor
esensesowhatf
rom her
e?
Me:Iwi
ll
havet
ohunthi
m downIdon'
thavet
imet
o
pl
anforhiml
et'
sgoIwantt
oseemywi f
e
Phi
lani
:Baf
oIam her
eokdon'texcl
udemeIwil
lhel
p
yougetri
dofthi
smotherf
ucker.
..Wefi
stbumbed

Igottomywiveswardshewasbusyputt
ingher
cl
othesonIwenttowrappmyhandsaroundherand
ki
ssedherIsneakedmyhandsonhert
ummy
Me:t
hankyouforbei
ngagr
eatwi
feandmot
herIwi
l
l
al
wayslov
ey ou
Khi
tha:
suret
henwhathappenedt
oLubenat
hi?
Wherearemykids?
Me:theyar
ewit
hAnathi
andLubenat
hiissti
l
l
unconsci
oussowehavetogoandrestbaby
Khit
ha:
IwantmysonbacktomeBandi
l
eitseems
l
ikeyoudon'
tunder
stand
Me:Iwanthi
m al
sobutIcal
l
edt
heguar
dst
ocome
andwatchoverhi
m he'
ssaf
e
Khi
tha:
am soti
redofl
i
vingt
hisl
if
eit
'sl
ikeam l
i
ving
i
nacalcul
atedti
menoBandil
ethi
sisnotri
ght
Me:Lubenat
hi wil
ll
iv
eokIcalledmyDoctorf
rom
Cubahe'scomi ngdowntotakecareofhi
m whi
lst
Phi
laniandItakecareofsomet hi
ngs
Khi
tha:
whatar
ethose?
Me:
not
hingt
owor
ryaboutl
et'
sgohome

#ToBeCont
inued
CHAPTER

KHI
THA

MORNI NGAnatibroughmybabi eshomeIwasso

notinthemoodforany t
hingIwon'tevenstar
t
bl
ami ngmypregnancyit'
sBandileIwokeupalone
hewasnoti nhi
ssideoft hebednotev eni
nthe
houseItri
edcal
li
nghi m buthedoesn'
tpickup
Xoxo:
mamay ourphoneisr
ingi
ng.
..
.Hesai
d
shout
ingfr
om thel
oungeheiswatchi
ngTVitmust
beBandil
eIhope
Me:Yi
zi
se<bri
ngi
t>.
..
ihear
dhim groani
ngandNunu
camerunni
ngsohesenthert
obr i
ngitsmh
Nunu:
Nayimama<her
eiti
s>.
..
ithankedherasI
answert
hecal
l
Me:
Final
l
yuphi
kant
i?<wher
ear
eyou>
Ndil
e:I
nKZNnanami Idi
dn'twanttowakeyouupso
Ideci
dedtol
eaveIthoughtIwouldhavebeenback
bynowbutIam st
il
lhere
Me:DoingwhatBandi
l
ewehav
etogoandcheckon
Lubenathi
Ndi
l
e:y
oucangoandcheckuponhi
m Iwi
l
lgety
ou
t
her
ebabyok?Ngi
yezanana
Me:
oknani

NDI
LE

Phil
aniandIdeci
dedt
ogoandpaythisol
dmana
visi
thewasoldtobepl
ayi
ngthi
sgameIdon'tknow
whatheisonaboutwegottohi
soff
iceandwaited
forhim
Phi
l
ani
:
whyi
shet
aki
ngl
ong?
Me:
Idon'
tknowhei
ssupposedt
obeher
ebynow
Phil
ani
:It
hinkweshoul
dgooutandj
oinhi
sfami
l
y
forbr
eakfast
..

Wegiggl
edandhear
dfootst
epscomi
ngtot
he
of
fi
cewewereintheol
dmangotinhewasont
he
phone
Hi
m:Isai
dfindawayt
oinj
ectt
hatl
i
ttl
ebust
ardI
wanthi
m dead
?
?:.
..
Him:Idon'
twantexcusesal
it
hil
i
shonal
ishonenaye.
.
Igotupfrom t
hecouchthatwasint
hedarkcorner
hewast al
ki
ngaboutmyson
Hi
m:noIwi
l
lcal
lyouback.
..Hedr
oppedt
hecal
l
Me:
yousur
edot
akey
ourt
imeIhav
ebeenwai
ti
ng
f
oryou
Hi
m:whoar
eyou?
Me:SowenaSi
ngwamey
oudon'
tknowy
ourenemy
ncncnc
Hi
m:Ar
eyout
heBi
yel
ason?
Phi
l
ani
:
cany
ousi
tdownandst
opaski
ngquest
ions?
Hi
m:andwho'
sthi
s?Wai
thowdi
dyout
oogeti
nher
e?
Me:t
hesamewayy ougottomybankaccount
sand
dr
iedthem outsi
tyourol
dassdown
Hi
m:whodoyouthinky
ouare?Tell
i
ngmewhattodo?
I
nmyhouse?
!!.
..Hesai
dsearchi
ngforhi
sgun
Me:Dontwast
ey ourt
imeoldmanIhav
eally
our
weaponssositdownandtell
mewhat'
syour
pr
oblem

KHI
THA

Istartedattheoffi
cejusttocheckonsomethings
becauseIcal l
edlubenathidoct
orandheupdatedme
andIav oidgoingther
eal oneIwil
lwai
tforBandil
e
i
nst eadsoIdrovet otheoffi
ce
Nono:
MrsBi
yel
a
Me:Mor
ningNosi
phocanIhav
eroi
bosandbanana
br
eadplease
Nono:
mhhhhwhyt
hose?
Me:pl
easedon'tquesti
onmey oooit
'sstil
lear
lyin
themorni
ngforGod' ssakehawu.
..Wegi ggl
edI
knowshe'
salway stheonetaki
ngcareofmycr av
es
whenIam attheofficefr
om al
lmypr egnanci
es
Nono:
oukay
...Shesai
dgi
vi
ngmethel
ookIbumped
i
ntoOyiwhi
leIwasatmyoffi
ce
Me:
Mor
ningOy
i
Oyi
:
Mr sBiyel
aIcamet
ocheckupony
oubutIsee
t
hatyoujustgoti
n
Me:mhhhwhydoyoukeeponcheckinguponme?I
meanwhythesuddeni
nter
est
?..Isai
dset
tl
ingi
nmy
si
t
Oyi
:Ij
ustl
ovebei
ngaroundyouIl
oveyourcompany
andyouareagoodpersont
obearoundwith
Me:mhhhhitsnotthatyouwantt
obeclosetoMy
Husband?
...Iseehergett
ingal
it
tl
ebi
t
uncomfor
tableandhereyeswerewonderi
ng
Oy
i:
whatnonouhm no
Me:
mhhhhi
sthati
t?
Oy
i:
y eahandIt
hinkIhav
etogobackt
omyof
fi
ceI
wi
llseeyouatl
unchtime
Me:
mhhhh
Shesay
srushi
ngoutIl
oggedi
ntomycomput
erand
checkedt
henoti
fi
cati
onsandther
ewasmoneyt
hat
waspendingandthedet
ail
swere
Oni
kaMzaziandherempl
oyeenumberwhatt
he
act
ual
fuck!
!!
!!
!

IknowIam abitdistantbuty
ouradminissti
l
l
deali
ngwit
habr eakupshitsoam notsogoodIwi
l
l
bouncebacksoon
LOVEAND

CHAPTER

Iwasdumpsterwit
halloft
hisImeanhowcoul
dshe
dothi
s?Actual
lywhyisshedoi
ngit
?Letmecall
Bandi
l
efuckitj
ustri
ngsunanswer
edIwonderwhat
i
sheupwi t
h

Iopenedmylowerdr
aweronthecabi
netnexttothe
wallandt
ookmygunItuckeditonmywaistl
ineand
pul
l
edmyblazerdownandheadt
oherof
fi
ceshe
waswi
thZuko
Me:Goodmorningyoutwoseem busyandwhatever
conver
sat
ionyouarehavi
ngisseri
ous.
..Theybot
h
l
ookedatmewi thashockandsmile
Oni
ka:
Goodmor
ningMaBi
yel
awhat
'sgood?
Me:
am f
inecanIhav
eamomentwi
thy
ou?
Zuko:
That
'smyqueue.
..Wegi
ggl
edashewal
ked
out

Oni
ka:
HowcanIhel
pyouSi
stabozza?
Me:Bytel
l
ingmet
her easonwhyyouarebusy
st
eali
ngmymoney..Shefrozeandl
ookedatm
Oni
ka:
what
?!Ar
eyouaccusi
ngmeoft
h..
..
Me:Shutthefuckup!!
!Isawall
thereci
ept
sandt his
hasbeengoi ngonforawhil
enowsonow( Isai
d
pull
i
ngoutmygun)ar eyougoi
ngtotel
lmewhyy ou
stol
efrom us?
Oni
ka:
MaBi
yel
aIcan.
.Idon'
tI.
..I
..
.
Me:arewestur
ter
ri
ngnow?Speakup!
!!
!.
..Isai
d
get
tingcl
osert
oher
Onika:
YouknowwhatKhi
thayoucannotscar
eme
underst
and?Youar
eanobodyincl
udi
ngyour
husbandwhatcanyoual
ldot
omeandmyf ather
?
Me:
Soy
ouwantt
opl
ay?
Oni
ka:
what
'st
hepl
an?
Me:
Iwil
ltakey
out
othepl
aygr
ound.
..Ihi
therwi
th
t
hebackofmygunshef
ell
downIcall
edZain
Hi
m:Bozza
Me:Canyoupl
easecomei
nmyof
fi
ceam at
Centur
ion
Him:onmyway..
..Idi
sconnect
edthecal
landIheard
foot
stepscomi
ngf r
om thecor
ri
dorIwenttopeep
anditwasZukoIwenttostandbehi
ndthedoor
Zuko:
wtfOni
ka!!
!!IguesshesawOnikaonthef
loor
whenhegotinItookt hevaseandhi
thi
mtoonowI
havet
hem bothont hefloor
Zai
n:Bossl
adywhat
'
sgoi
ngon?
Me:
wewi ll
usethebackdoorIwantyout
otakethese
t
wotot hewarehousei
nTembisaformeIwill
deal
wi
ththem lat
er
Zain:
okbozza.
..
..Ihel
pedhi
m withtakethem tothe
carandIwentbackt omyoff
iceIcouldn'
tfocus
nomoreIwastired

CONTI
NUATI
ON

HOURSLATERIwasseati
nginmyoff
icechai
rfaci
ng
t
hetownsviewwhenIfel
thandsonmyshoulder
s
massagi
ngmeit'
sBandil
eIcansmel
lhiscol
ogne
Ndil
e:Heywif
ey.
...
..Hesai
dki
ssi
ngandsucki
ngmy
neckIletasl
im moarn
Me:
heyhusbywher
ehav
eyoubeen?
Ndi
l
e:Iwasi
nDur
banIpai
dsomeoneav
isi
t
Me:
hhmmm okcanwegot
hehospi
tal
Ineedt
osee
i
fmysoni
sok
Ndi
le:
iwasi
nthehospit
alj
ustminut
esbackI
t
houghtIwi
l
lfi
ndyouthereasIsai
dwewi l
lmeet
t
heresohe'
ssti
l
lunconsci
ousbutoutofdanger
Me:
Howi
sthatpossi
bleBandi
l
e?
Ndi
l
e:am notadoct
ornanamiIdon'
tknowsocan
wegoandhav el
unchyoumustbehungry
Me:
that
'sagoodi
deabutIneededt
oseemyson
t
hough
Ndi
le:
wewi
l
lgol
aterandseei
fther
e'snopr
ogr
ess
on
Me:
ok.
..
.Het
ookmyhandbagandmycarkey
s

Ndil
e:Ihav
en'
tseenoni
kaandZukowhat
'sgoi
ngon
wit
hthem
Me:
wemi
ghtneednewcandi
dat
esnani
Ndi
l
e:Why
?Youf
ir
edt
hem?
Me:
Noy
ouwi
l
ldeci
de
Ndi
l
e:whatdoy
oumean?
Me:
l
et'
sgot
othewar
ehouseandy
ouwi
l
lfi
ndout
Ndi
l
e:Whatdi
dtheydobaby
?
Me:
Pati
enceBiyel
a..
..Wegiggl
esdaswewal
kedto
t
hecarhedrovetoTembisaandwhenwearr
ived
t
her
ewasal soPhil
anionthere
Me:
DrMt
hombeni
..
.Isai
dsi
dehuggi
nghi
m
Hi
m:Hell
opancakewhoar
ethosepeopl
eyou
br
oughti
nther
e?
Me:
let
'sgoin.
..
.Wewalkedtot
hehouseandthey
wer
etiedupinchai
rsbuti
twasthr
eeofthem
Oni
ka:
Whatdi
dyoudot
omey
ouBi
tch!
!!
Ndil
e:Whoar
eyoucal
l
inga"
Bit
ch"Oni
ka?Ar
eyou
t
alki
ngtomywife
Me:i
magi
nenanit
hedi
srespectaft
ershehasbeen
st
eali
ngy
ourmoneyourmoneyf r
om thecompany
i
maginet
hings
Ndi
l
e:saywhat
?!Soshe'
sthepr
eci
ousdaught
eri
t'
s
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Ndile:
soshe'sthepr
eciousdaughtery
oubet el
li
ng
meabout ?.
..Heaskedgetti
ngclosert
oOnikaandI
guesstheoldmani sherfat
herhe'ssool
df oral
l
thesenast
yst unt
she'sbeenpull
ing
Me:
Theonet
hat"
thi
nks"wenot
hing
Phi
l
ani
:
Whataj
okemydar
li
ng.
..
..Wegi
ggl
ed
Ndil
e:Zuko?
!!ManItr
ust
edyouhowcany ou
di
sappointmeli
kethi
syousoundedsogenerous
andhonestthel
astti
me
Me:
that
sXhosaniggasf
ory
oungamal
okony
aukuf
a
(
pat
hologi
cal
li
ars)
Ndi
l
e:shoul
d'
veknownbet
ter
Zuko:
nobozzaIcanexpl
ainIcanexpl
ain
Ndil
e:doIlookl
ikeIam i
nterest
ed?
..
.Hesai
dr ol
li
ng
hisj
ointandgrabbedachairandwentt
ositnextto
theol
dman
Zuko:
SisNomkhi
thapl
easet
alkt
ohi
m canexpl
ain
whyIgotmy
sel
fint
othi
ssi
tuat
ion

Onika:canyoustopbei
ngsissywenathesear
ejust
barkingdogstheydon'
tbi
..
.Ididn'
tev
enwaitforher
tofinisht
hatli
neIsl
appedhersohardandher
eyelashfel
l
Zain:mhhhham.Sur esheneedaf i
rstaida
professi
onaldoctorcar
etohelpherDr
Mt hombeni?
...
.Hesaidsarcast
ical
l
yt heybot
h
l
aughedherf atherwasfuming
Phil
ani
:
noMi naIam her
eforact
ionnj
ayam wej
ust
needpopcor
ns
Zain:
aStevenSer
gol
mov
ie.
..
..Theysai
dcr
ossi
ng
thei
rlegs
Oni
kasdad: Bi
yel
acanwepl easetalkaboutt
hisIwil
l
gi
veyouev ery
thi
ngyouwantal lmycompani esmy
moneymyhouseev erythi
ngj ustletmydaughtergo
pl
ease!!
!.
..Hesai
daskingformer cyashisdaughter
wasbleeding
Ndi
l
e:Cal
lyourP.
Aandl
awy
erIwantt
hewi
ney
ardi
n
East
ernCapeandthefarmsinDurbanam givi
ngyou
7hoursIwi
llbehere.
..
..Whati
shekiddingmeI
meanmoneyi snev
erenoughbutlett
ingthem goi
s
nott
heopti
on
Zai
n:sot
her
e'snomov
ie?
Me:
beat
sme
Ndile:
ther
esnomov ie"
Yet"am j
ustbuy ingy'
allt
ime
togoandpur chasesomepopcor nsMaBi yel
alet
's
got otheHospit
alandMjakesplugy oureyeson
theseMFl i
keyourli
fedependsoni t
Mj
akes:
youknowmebossInev
erdi
sappoi
nty
ou
Ndi
l
e:y
oubet
terl
et'
sgo.
..
.Wewentt
othecar
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

NARRATED

LATERTHATDAYt heBiyel
aswer
ebackf
rom the
hospit
altheirsonwasonagoodstat
eandreadyto
bedischargedthenextday
Bandi
le:
Nanami It
hinkyoushouldst
aybehi ndand
l
ookaf t
ert
hekidsIwill
handlethem..
..Hesai d
weari
nghispantstheyj
ustmadel ov
eatt heirhouse
Khi
tha:
isther
esomethi
ngy
ouhav
epl
annedandI
mustn'
tknowabout
?
Bandi
le:
nobabyIj
ustboughtcasket
sfort
hem Iwi
l
l
buryt
hem al
iv
e
Khi
tha:
that
'scr
uel
Bandi
l
e
Bandi
l
e:IknowNanami
butI
tmustbedone

ATTHEWAREHOUSE
Onika,herfat
herandZukower esti
l
lchai
nedonthe
chair
sunderMj akescarewhowasbusyf l
i
rti
ngwit
h
Onikawhilesmokinghisci
garett
e
Oni
ka:
whyi
shet
aki
ngt
ime?
HerFat
her
:don'
tpani
cmybabywegoi
nghomeas
soonashegetsherehe'
sgoi
ngt
ofr
eeus
Mjakes:
he'
sgoingtodowhat?
..
.Heaskedl
ooki
ngat
Onikasf
atherwit
hafunnyf
ace
Fat
her
:Igav
ehi
m whathewant
edsowhywoul
dhe
ki
ll
us
Mjakes:t
hethi
ngisBandi
l
ehasallthemoneyhei
sn'
t
t
hreatenedbyitsoni
nayoushouldbepr
ayi
ngto
yourgodstowelcomeyoubecauseshei
m
Onika:babahe' slyi
ngri
ght?..
.Shewassot er
ri
fi
ed
wit
hal l t
hisandt hati
saboutt ohappenwhil
stZuko
wassi lenthasi fhewasn'tintheroom hewas
t
hinkingabouthi sfami
lyhowhe' sgoingt
odieover
amer egi rl
fr
iendandhergr eedyfather
Mj
akes:
Ihav
ebeenwor
kingwi
thBi
yel
aforal
ong
ti
mesotrustmewhenIsayt
hatni
zofay
ouwi l
ldi
ea
deadbyt
heendofthi
sdayyouwil
lbehi
stor
y

Bandi
l
ewal
kedi
ntoget
herwi
thZai
nandLuu
Bandi
l
e:awNkosiil
i
kemanl i
key
ouwhodeliv
erI
havemetwi
thyourlawy
erandever
ythi
ngi
sfi
nal
i
zed
Nkosi
:
owatl
ongl
astmybabywaspani
cki
ng
Bandil
e:y
eahl
et'
sunt
iet
hem andt
aket
hem t
othei
r
fi
nalhome
Luu:
sesi
yocul
aamagugumanj
e
Zain:Ibroughtpopcornsandf or
gotmyf uneral
att
ire..
.Theysai dwhisperi
ngtothemselvesMjakes
l
ookedatOni kaandshr uggedhisshoulderand
whispered"itoldyou"theytookthem t
ot hecarabs
anddr ovetot hegraveyard
CHAPTER

Whentheyar
ri
vedatthegr
aveyar
dtheypar
kednext
t
otheopenholesr
eadytoswal
l
owt hedead
Bandi
l
e:Fi
nnal
lywear
eher
e..
.Hesai
dget
ti
ngoutof
hi
scarandother
sfol
l
owed
Nkosi
:Biy
elasonpleasewecantalkaboutt
his
pl
easemaar nlookatmydaughtershe'
sshaken.
..
Bandi
ledidn'
trespondhej
ustshowedhim acasket
andpointedi
nsideit
Oni
ka:noBiyel
ay oucannotdot
hisdon'
tdothi
s
pl
easewecanf ixthi
sBabakhul
umanay et
alktohi
m
nopleaseno!!
!!
!

Bandil
etookouthisgunandpoi nt
edNkosi andgave
hi
m adeadst areBabNkosi lookeddef eat
edsohe
gotinsi
dethecasketandlayedf aci
ngupl ikeareal
corpsether
ewer eguyshiredfrom Siyakhanafuneral
parl
ortoassistt
hem itstr
uewhent heysaymoney
canbuyy oueveryt
hingyouwantwhenhewasgoi ng
downLuu, ZainandBandilefir
edupanditwasrai
ns
ofbull
etsthat'
showt heybidhisgoodby
ehewasa
gangsteranywaywhenher eachedt
hegroundand
soilwasusedt ocoverupunt it
hehol
ewasf i
l
ledand
theycovereditupusingcementandconcrete

Bandi
l
e:Wozawenanondi
ndwa...Hesai
dpuff
inghi
s
bl
unti
twasdarkout
sidesur
elyaround9pm
Mj
akes:
Awukodwal
ezi
nqa
Bandil
e:yeahshegotacut ef atasspit
yit
'sgoi
ngto
befuckedbyunder groundinsects.
..Hesaid
spankingherOnikawascr yingherv oi
cewasn'
teven
l
oudnomor eshelayedfaci
ngupBandi l
eshother6
bull
etsdeadandshewast akendownt oo

Mjakes:
Bhozal
ent
wanahasnocasketwhat
'st
he
pl
an?
Bandi
l
e:Zuko
Zuko:Yesbhoza?!
..
.Hewasshakinghel
lhehad
tear
sanddr yfr
om cry
ingandbeggi
ngformercy
Bandil
e:Ihaveseenhowl oy
alandsmarty ouareand
IthoughtIneededsomeonel i
keyoubymysi deI
havemadesomebackgr oundcheckony ouandman
Icanusey ouattheclubandothert
hingsf r
om now
onIwi l
lbeyourgodar eweclear
?
Zuko:
nomay
ini
bhoz
aany
thi
ngIcandoi
t
Bandi
le:
butIhavetopuni
shyoufir
stMjakest
ake
hi
mt othewarehousekeephi
mf or3daysonl
ygiv
e
hi
m waterwit
hsugarandifhesurvi
vedthenyouwil
l
bemyman
Mj
akes:
shobhoza
Luu:
Thanky
ourancest
orsson

BANDI
LE'
HOUSE

Whenhegott ohi
shousehewentt otakeashower
hespentmoreti
mescrubbinghisbodykil
l
ingpeopl
e
hasn'
tbeenfunbuti
thastobedonesomet imes
aft
erhi
sshowerhewenttohisroom wherehefound
hi
swifereadi
ngabookwhilely
ingonherbackshe
hadnothingonherbodyhegotaboneri mmi di
atel
y
aft
erhesawherpussyhet ookoffthetowelthathe
wascov eri
nghi
slowerbodywit
ht henheclaimed
hi
sbedandgoti nbetweenhiswi
fe'sthighs
Khi
tha:
nani
noIf
eel
hoty
oohowdi
ditgo
Bandil
e:babycanIpl
easehav
emycakeandt
alk
aboutthebusinessl
ater
Khit
ha:nani
noI..
.I.
.Have.
uhmmmm. .
shemoanedas
herhusbandrubbedhi
sdickonherf
olds
Bandil
e:MaBiyelapl
easeletmehaveit.
..Shethrew
thebookont hesideandpull
edBandiletoherchest
andgavehi m adeepkissashewasmaki nghisway
toherli
ttl
ehav eanhegaveherdeeperstrokes
Bandile:
ohshitnanami shut.
..
.Hesaidthrowingeven
deeeperst r
okesthanev erwhenshehasr el
eased
herorgasm het urnedheroverfordoggyandt hey
fuckedev enmor ewhent heybothcamehet hrew
himselfnexttohiswi f
eandpul l
edhertohischest
afterafewmi nuteshewassnor ing
Khi
tha:
wow
CHAPTER

DAYSLATER

ZUKO

Ialwayst hankGodforprotect
ingmeIdidn'
tthi
nkI
willsur
vive3day soffast
ingnotbychoi
cethough
butImadei tsoBiy
elagavemeagr eatJobIcansee
thathelikesmebutonecan' tbesur
ewi t
hthatman
soIhav et okeepondoingmyj ob

MiddayIam busypl anningahei stforLuubutBiyela

i
sal soinvolvedsoasanmi li
taryqualif
iedinstr
uctor
Ihav etomakesur ethatall
theweaponsar eina
goodst ateandZai nisbusywi tht hedataand
comput ingthingiesasIwentt ot hekit
chentomake
my selfcoff
eej usttokeepstrongmyphoner angit
wasanunsav ednumber
Me:
Hel
l
o
??:
am Ispeaki
ngt
oZuko?
..
.Anol
dlady
'sv
oice
asked
Me:
yeahi
t'
shi
m
??:owfinal
lyGodisgoodZukocanwepl easemeetI
wantyourhelpIhavebeentr
yingt
oreachOni kaand
herfat
herbutnoluckIknowyouwereclosetoher
soIthi
nky oucanhelpme
Me:Uhm ei
xMAIam busyri
ghtnowwor
kishect
icI
don'
tthi
nkIcanhel
pyouandmaketi
meforusto
meet
Her:pleasemysonam beggi ngy ouIneedt hem i
t'
s
sounl ikel
yofthem tojustdi
ssappearwithout
contact i
ngmeandwenawhenl astdi
dy ousee
Onika? ..
.OhshitIdon'
twanttohav ethi
s
conv ersati
onIdon'twanttothi
nkaboutwhat
happenedt ot
hem itfr
eaksmeout
Her
:hel
l
oar
eyoust
il
lther
e?
Me:
Uhm yeahyesMAIam t
hethingisIam t
ryi
ngto
r
ememberbutnexIcan'
tmemoratebutIwi
llkeepi
n
t
ouchIhavetogobackt
owork
Her
:okt
hanky
oumnt
anami
Me:
okMA.
..Shedi
sconnect
edt
hecal
l
Ohshi
t!
!!Ishout
ed
Zai
n:arey
ouok?
..Wear
eint
hesamepl
acewor
king
onthispl
an
Me:
thatwasOni
kasmot
her
Zai
n:Whooa!
!Shi
tIdon'
twantt
obepar
tofi
tyou
bet
terf
ixi
t
Me:
hay
iboI
?Fi
x?What
?
Zain:
sodoy outhinkBandzisgoingtocometoyour
rescue?Sheim Ndodazi melehaveabackbonemake
aplanf ort
hismagogot ogetoffyoursi
debhoza
akazingeniunlessit
'sgetreal
bad
Me:
butIwi
l
llethi
m know
Zai
n:ok.
.Hesaiddri
nki
nghisCast
lel
i
teshitam
sweati
ngam notusedtot
hiski
ndofli
feIwasa
Sai
nt
CHAPTER

KHI
THA

Mysoni sbackhomehe'sali
veandkicki
ngam so
happyImeanIcouldhardl
ysleepknowingthatmy
chi
ldisbusyfi
ghti
ngforhi
sli
feinhospit
albutby
Godsgracehe'ssaved

Iam atmyhousebusycl eani

ngandtaki
ngasnack
breaki
nbetweenmyt ummyi sstar
ti
ngtoshowup
si
nceIam 3mont hspregnantnowIheardaknock
fr
om thedoorandIwentt oopenup
Me:ohmyGod!
!!
!!
..
..Iscr
eamedasIsqueezed
Zusi
phei
nmyarmsohmyl it
tl
esi
ster
.Zuzu:
Youhar
dlyv
isi
tSi
sKhi
thadon'
tactsur
pri
sed
Me:Sudi
ka( welaughed)ohmyGodImi ssedyou
howspunt shununu?.
.isai
dtaki
ngher6monthsold
sonfrom herarmsasshemadeherwayi n
Zuzu:
he'
sgoodnocompl ai
nswhat'supwit
hyour
housesi
sareyoucleani
ng?.
..Shesai
dsti
cki
ngher
fi
nger
sonmydust ycupboar
d
Me:YoomntaseIhavetocleanbecauseImi
ghtgo
backtoworknextweekasaziift
hemanofthe
houseappr
ove
Zuzu:
WhooaIdoubthi
sgoi
ngt
olety
our
etur
nto
workyouknowyourman
Me:Ri
ght(
Iroll
edmyeyesasIsatonthecouch
opposi
tehers)sohow'
syourf
amily

Shedr
ewsomeai
rbef
oreanswer
ing
Zuzu:
i
t'
sOKsi
sit
hanksf
oraski
ng
Me:
Stopl
yi
ngZuzuIcantellbyt
hatl
ookt
haty
ouar
e
l
yi
ngtomesoyoubetterspeakup
Zuzu:
Sisi
Ithi
nkPhi
l
ani
ischeat
ingonme
Me:whoaat
hat
'
saser
iousaccusat
ionwhydoy
ou
sayso?
Zuzu:
eversi
nceIgav
ebi
rt
htoLul
oIwasdi
stantI
wantednothingt
odowithsexsohecompl ainedf
or
thefi
rstmonthsbutnowhedoesn'
tcareImeanhe
barel
ytouchesmeandknowinghim notheres
something
Me:ButIthi
nkther
ightpersontotal
ktoi
shimright
nowImeanwecansi ther
eandt al
kaboutwhat
ever
wearen'tsur
eaboutsoconf r
onti
nghimist
hegood
golove
Zuzu:
whooaIwi
llt
ryhe'
sal
waysti
redt
o
communicat
ebutIwi
llt
rymybest
Me:
sowhenl
astdi
dyoui
nti
mat
ewi
thhi
m?
Zuzu:
whenIwas8mont
hspr
eg.
.(
.Igasped)what
?!
Me:that
'sl
ongbabeshowdoyoudoi
t?Ican'
tnoi
t
can'
tbemewhyt houghi
sther
eandexpl
anat
ionf
or
that
?
Zuzu:
Yest
her
eisandi
t'
snor
mal
Me:butt
heremustbeasol ut
ionmntaseyouar
ea
marri
edwomani ndodai
ngay
idl
aipapakodwa
ubudodaabudl
i papaify
ouknowwhatImean?..
.We
l
aughedhyster
ically
Zuzu:
Iunder
standsi
sibutIj
ustdon'
tfeel
li
kedoing
i
tnjesotel
lhaveyoufacedt
hiski
ndofasi t
uat
ion
befor
e?
Me:
uba:
mna?Mrs"BI
YELA"myhusbandwoul
dhav
e
madeaplanl
ongt
imeago.
.Welaughed
Zuzu:
aikodwauBhut
ibutt
henPhil
aniwoul
d'
ve
madeapl ant
oosothat
'swhyIt
hinkhe'
scheat
ing
Me:
tal
ktohi
mfi
rstbabeOK?
Zuzu:
oksi
si

BANDI
LE

AFTERNOONIwaswor ki
ngongett
ingt
hisot
her
dealdoneanddustedsoIcangohomeaknock
camef r
om thedoori
twasZuko
Me:
HowcanIhel
pyouZuko?
Zuko:
sircanahav
eami
nut
e?
Me:
Iam busybuty
eahsur
e
Zuko:
BhozaIhavebeengett
ingsomecallsfr
om t
he
Nkosifamil
yandMrsNkosii
st hr
eat
eningtosend
someguy stoi
nvest
igat
eaboutthemissi
ngofher
famil
y
Me:
Manj
ewhat
'st
hei
ssue?
Zuko:she'
sonmyt
alebhozal
omamaIcan'
tev
en
breat
he

Me:MakeaplanngayeZukoIthoughtyouhave
somethi
ngseri
ousandurgentIneedtofi
nisht
hisby
7ZukoIhaveawifetomakelovetosoIdon'thave
ti
metothinkf
oryou
Zuko:
oksor
ryt
obot
hery
ouBhozaIwi
l
lseemysel
f
out
Me:
oksur
e
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Season2
CHAPTER

KnockofftimeIwasrushi
ngtogethomeandseemy
beautif
ulfamil
yImissedmybeauti
ful
wifeIlove
stari
ngathershe'
s10+cutewhenshe'spregnantI
l
ov eit
..
.IpassesbytheMall
andboughtsomef ast
foodatRoccoMama' sshe'
sfor
everhungry

WhenIgothomeshewasal lcurledupi nthelaunge

andtherewasabookont opoft hecof feetabl
eand
aphoneonherhandIbendov ertokisshert emple
shedoesnotmov eIwentupst ai
rsandhear dmy
ki
dspl ayi
nginthenextroom Iwentt ost andinthe
doorandl eanedonit
sframeandwat chedmyki ds
play
ingtogetherthet
winswer en'
tf i
ghtingasthey
usedt obutxoxoalwaysmakesur ethere'speacein
hi
spr esencesoIguessit'
sbecauseofhi m

Ifel
tsoftar
mswr appi
ngar
oundmychestandit
's
noneotherthanmybeaut
if
ulwi
fesheki
ssedthe
backofmyneck
Her
:whydi
dn'
tyouwakemenani
?.
..Sheasked
hol
dingmeti
ght
Me:y
ouweresopeacefulinyoursl
eepnanami
I
di
dn'
twantt
owakey ou..Shenodded
Her
:l
ooki
ngatourbl
essi
ngs?
Me:
yesInev
ert
houghtt
hatonedayIwil
lbeahappy
manwit
hahappyhome..Isai
dtur
ningt
ohugher
Her
:Hawukodwananii
haba.
.Sheexcl
aimedaswe
wal
kedtoourbedr
oom
Me:
Iam ser
iousMaBi
yel
athere'
salott
obegreat
ful
f
orandi
t'st
hankstoGodforbri
ngi
ngustoget
her
Her
:Hi
swaysar
ebet
tert
hanour
s..
.Weshar
eda
war
m hug
Me:
Iboughtdi
nnerdi
dyo.
.
Her:
where'
sit
?Iam st
arv
ingt
odeat
hGod!
..I
chuckl
ed
Me:
Buty
oudi
dn'
tl
ookl
i
key
ouwer
einmyey
es
Her:
becauseIwaspr
etendingIdidn'
twanttonag
youatleasty
ouhadt
ot akeoffyoursui
tfi
rst(
we
sharedalaughter)Iwil
lbedownst air
s..
.Sherushed
outWomenar efoodiestheyshoul dstophidi
ngwi t
h
thepregnancythingi
etheyj ustlovefoodandnoiseI
thoughttomy sel
fIshookmyheadandwentt otake
ashowersoIcanj oi
nmyf amilyfordinnerwhenI
wasdoneIputonsomesweat pantsandsli
desand
headdownst air
s
Ki
ds:Baba!
!Theyr
antomeal
lsmi
l
esabsand
l
aughingIam sol
ucky
Me:
BoBi
yel
a..