Wakefield: Heaven, Purgatory or Hell?: From Isolation, Via Education, To Harmony
Wakefield: Heaven, Purgatory or Hell?: From Isolation, Via Education, To Harmony
Wakefield: Heaven, Purgatory or Hell?: From Isolation, Via Education, To Harmony
Laurie Gilbert
If Heaven’s too Bright
What if deeds are never good if friends are really foes
if water’s thicker than blood if doors are always closed
if dreams should not be chased if sense cannot prevail
if there’s an end to space if trying always fails
if grief does not dilute if red hands never caught
if lies are better than truth if life is not too short
if no roads lead to Rome if clouds don’t have a lining
if nothing’s sweet at home if twice struck by lightning
if horror doesn’t frighten if no sights for sore eyes
if suffering doesn’t enlighten if cats don’t have nine lives
if prayers are never heard if two wrongs make a right
if blondes are not preferred if heaven’s too bright?
Angie de Courcy Bower
Purgatory: Education
At my other side were the shades in prayer This it seemed to me I heard in answer
who, through those dreadful seams, farther along from where I stood,
were wringing tears that bathed their cheeks. and I made myself heard by moving
I turned to them and I began: closer.
'O people assured of seeing light on high— Among the rest I saw a shade that looked
sole object stirring your desire— expectant,
'so grace may soon dissolve the scum and if any should ask 'how?', it was raising
that fouls your conscience, and the stream its chin the way a blind man does.
of memory flow through it pure, 'Spirit,' I said, 'who abase yourself to
climb,
'tell me, for I shall hold it courteous and dear,
if you were the one who answered me,
if any soul among you is Italian.
make yourself known by your city or your
Perhaps for me to know might profit such a
name.'
one.’
'I was of Siena,' replied the shade,
'O my brother, all of us are citizens
'and with these others here I mend my
of the one true city. What you mean to say is,
sinful life,
"who, while still a pilgrim, lived in Italy."'
weeping to Him that He may lend Himself
to us.’
(Dante Alighieri, Purgatorio XIII, 82-111)
Purgatorio
We kicked off at mid-day, me and my guide – And choked with laughter. Now it was like all
I woke, stiff as a bread-stick, on the floor – The walls, the ceiling and the roof were flames
With two Red-Bulls, leftover Southern-Fried Consuming us both. We just had strength to crawl
And after that two Fosters. Then two more Out to the nearest Offie. To our shames
While taking turns to play Assassin's Creed We bought some Spice and smoked it round the back.
On – was it the X-Box or the PS4? Whooosh! I enjoyed a hundred thousand Names,
Well, that was when we started on the weed – Was temple, crowd and Icon, was The Mack
My guide does, on the side, a little dealing – Returned – resplendent – for a few short hours
His dividend smelt very good indeed Then something in my body screamed Attack!
And I suspect we shared the same appealing And down I tumbled, like the Twin Towers.
Getting-It-On-While-Listening-to-Marvin-Gaye- Though hands came to assist me, I was sick
Singing-"Let's Get It On" - type of feeling, Half in a bin, half in a bed of flowers,
Descending in this fug for half a day My throat an abattoir, my brain a brick
Until we switched up to Oranjeboom. Thrown in a washing machine – I didn't know
After that we lost the easy way High from low, but I needed a pick-me-up quick.
And things got daft; I fell around the room,
Knocked over the TV, punched the wall,
Pretended to have anal with the broom
We found a club called Paradiso Meant something final came at me instead,
From which House music poured, dry ice and smoke. Connecting very neatly with my jaw
The bouncer never looked, said "In you go". As bodies clambered into the affray
It didn't take us long to find a bloke And that was me. Out. Stars were all I saw.
Dressed up like undercover C.I.D Laid on a plastic mattress the next day
Who sold my guide and I two bags of coke I tried to clear my head, to no avail.
And minutes later, noses straightened, we The Sergeant said "Step up, Cassius Clay" –
Emerged into a club where darkness glittered Reply to caution – None – and gave me bail
And the floor shook with a carnal ecstasy. To stand before the magistrates next week.
Everything fitted. Everything was permitted. My guide has vanished, possibly to jail,
Double Jack and Red-Bull in my hand My prospects looking either bad or bleak.
Told me that all was well – but then this shit-head Waiting is Hell. Unalterable Law,
Grabbed my neck and, barking some command, Only your power can change it now. Please. Speak.
Dragged me toward the doors. I should've said
"Excuse me Sir, you fail to understand…" Paul Crossley
But my glass was already swinging for his head.
It didn't land, though Newton's Final Law
Stop
Marooned at night. Pinned and drained;
Imploring distant light. in limbo, with a tortured brain.
Scanning places, All trust is crushed
strangers’ faces, and hope superfluous.
snared in icy line. This agony I must transcend,
Treading time. allow my febrile hate to bend:
And in our strife suspend such disregard
one unfurls the details of his life so injury cannot be carved.
as if to keep us warm. Become serene;
We are forlorn; become as glass just cleaned.
in box of sighs,
dehumanised. Suddenly an arm is thrust
To stay, or relocate? and heart revives beneath its crust.
I vacillate… Finally a sign for us:
all’s forgiven; here’s the bus!
But moving off might jinx my stake,
am forced to wait…
Purgatory: The Full-time Course
HND (top-up) in
Caring, industry-led. Now it seems to me I did know:
my words were arrows shot across sunlight,
I sit or stand in the classroom, falling blind, falling short,
sometimes one side, sometimes the other, falling wide, without point
sometimes the student, sometimes the teacher, in Margaret Street.
always the ignorant, always alone
in the Waterton Building. Level 4 certificate,
latest software.
Higher Diploma,
Guilt Management. With the help of self-assessment,
the mercy of a Personal Tutor,
And I stop and listen to my voice. I still dream I will graduate,
Working Life
Black phlegm
Coughed up streaked with blood
Something the suits never understood
Dust the killer
If you lived long enough
Widows, orphans for gain they make
Money down south; Only graft I see
Ah, but the camaraderie
Far apart from the ruling misters
Work place brothers and their sisters
You can keep your share of ill gotten gain
I would rather the suffering and the pain
For I am proud and justly right
A good days work and they take fright
Still not satisfied
Our work they steal
Sell us out for better deal
Laurie Gilbert
Community of Hope
Invisibility was the one skill he learned at school.
In maths he counted backwards until he was a zero;
in art his body disappeared behind camouflage paint;
and in music he occupied the space between notes
because if he could go from being a someone to a no-one
then he could pass unnoticed beneath the eye of tormentors.
When he graduated he moved to the anonymity of the city;
walked through narrow terraced streets and crowded malls;
sat in dive bars and coffee shops next to other social outcasts
where silence was the only communication needed for comfort
and where the potential to go from being a no-one to a someone
started to re-colour his life and lend strength to his voice.
Yet some threads can never be broken from afar.
It wasn’t until he finally returned to his hometown
that he found a knife sharp enough to sever the links
to his bruised teenage exile, and in this newfound release
he was ready to accept the hands of friendship he was offered,
knowing that at last he’d found his community of hope.
Susan Darlington
Purgatory: A Place of Pilgrimage
Ellen Barraclough
Stephen Bennett
Darren Briscoe
Barbara Butler
Rebecca Drury
Charlotte Harvey
Helen Jones
Christian McGrath
Lauren Salisbury
Richard Wainwright