Monocular of thought

By Aaliyah K. Clemons
 Table of Contents

Dear great grandmother Dot (3)

LESS than HONORS (4)

Final edits (5)

Intro! (6)

Just they're (7)

The WE word (8)

Pain vote (9)

The first shoe (10)

Wallets (11)

NOthing to say (12)

Deep under (13)

Our reasonings (14)

Missing keys (15)

The Accidental poem (16-17)

Y? (18)

Talking Taboos (19)

More than commands (20)

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 Table of Contents

Part of My life (21)

My explained feels (22)

I'm not hungry (23)

Not written by A.K.C (24)

Pa-pa (25)

No good Advice (26)

Not Alot (27)

Mass (28)

Getting lost (29)

I would lose (30)

Knot a Magician(31)

Blue pen (32)

The Finals (33)

It won't work (34)

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 Dear great grandmother Dot

They tell stories about

you while worshiping you at the same time.

You spent well time teaching your children.

Lessons they didn't know.

Experiencing the hardest way while still staying strong.

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 LESS than HONORS

Let me honor you. Im mix with you in my blood.

I want to see parts of you that I have.

I know there's to many because I can see one of them.

We may not look alike but l know were the same.

Tell me something, give me a sign, so I can hear. I know you can see me.

Can I see you?

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Final edits

I am tired of breathing.

It feels, Ive been living for years.

I have a curse on me,

From the past back.

Somehow I feel, see something is there.

OVER ME.

To many others,

It feels mortal.

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Intro!

Let me dream.

Your ancient powers have driven over.

Fooled false dreamers.

Stupid greed.

Great scars.

Never seeked freedom.

Young hope.

I am the weak.

GOLD was NEVER ME.

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Just They're

Lies cut dust.

Very bitter.

Twisted living.

Still hope.

Dreams broken.

Teardrops pumping.

Terror gifts just weakened eyes.

Still hope.

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The WE word

We can't belong. We can work.

WE.

We can't be explained. We can explain.

WE.

We can't be, But We can see.

We.

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Pain vote

I vote to play

videogames right now

or choose to listen

to my sister tell me lies about her day.

Hmm.

It's so easy to see her ignorance.

It's to risky to whine.

Too tired to debate.

No new news about her lies.

She always could set the stage for herself.

Really good too.

When she's ready, It's usually one mic in the house.

I vote to elect a scary democrat

than

a fake republican.

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The first shoe

Im an other black in america.

Life is pressure.
Finding my panties in the locker room shower.
One four in me.
Blue is all I see.
Just family.
Trying to put on my grandmother's pad.
Smart women all around.
Hiding my feelings from the past.
None yet.
Only native and panamanian!

Psychopath is me.
Sleeping and video games.

Thus crazy inside.

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wallets

What's scarier than monsters.

A lie.

A secret.

An untold story.

The truth is important.

Yes or no.

You choose.

Ive chosen.

It's not that hard.

Decide don't criticize.

Don't be scared.

I won't tell the monsters in the room.

Tell me when they knock on my door.

Don't be scared.

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 NOthing to say

Without words we have thoughts.

Easier to cluster,

Isnt it?

If we're lucky,

They might teach us.

To do what?

Just to show us what?

Some simple things.

Like what?

Hello my name is

I have a name?

With all of my thoughts,

I never thought to remember.

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Deep under

Sometimes the gods don't know what to do with me.

Like bodies at the bottom of the sea,

I waiting to be remembered,

My stillness takes over the water in my body.

To close to call for an answer.

But my eyes know that nothing is there.

As I think,

I lose it.

Happiness.

Focus.

But not my thought.

The more I think the more I sink.

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 Our resonings

Sometimes even the gods don't know what to do with us.

By giving us strength,

Thinking that is going to help us.

By making evil finds its way out of someone,

Thinking what do u have to show the world with you work.

By letting that happen they attack only one piece of the world.

While thinking,

You see you worshipers leaving your side.

You watch them build camps.

Why didn't you stop them.

You had so much time to watch,

But not to save us.

The worst thing you can do is pray for us.

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 Missing keys

It's not my fault I lost the key to my feelings.

While being staded my loved ones they took it from me.

Now difficult to find,

I applaud to you.

Thrown to the ground by you,

I still somehow go around the wrong.

Finally finding a way to the end line.

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The Accidental poem

I am the confusion that is in the darkness.

The unknown.
I wonder?
If I was different,
Would things be easier.
Different?
What does that mean?
Do I have to bleach my skin?
Change my hair?
Act differently?
To be part of the normalones.
They take over, that's not me.
Control over futures, i'm the laziest person i know.
So I stay in the darkness,
To stay hidden,
In the unknown.

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I hear people say I am polite, respectful, and focused
With what?
When?
I'm not sure if I should show,
The true Aaliyah.
Respectful, yes. But not to all.
I have pretended to be something i am not.
And, it doesn't feel good.
It feels like it took me a generation to look for Aaliyah.
And i'm still finding more pieces to her puzzle.
But I have to remember,
Not to reflect my scars,
Which will make me mean.
And not Aaliyah.
I am the confusion that is in the darkness. The unknown.

I dream to be something only the normal ones can be.

I listen to my elders and hope and try with them.
But all I hear is the normal ones.
I feel I will become something great.
But it always goes too far in the unknown.
The darkness.
Again.
I say,
I must change.
I can change.
But this time it feels like it's not the normal ones.
It me.
No way!?
It cant be,
Me.
I healed i'm fine.
Right?
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No, I am the unknown part of the normal ones.
The fallen.
The controlled.
The tooken over.
The Darkness.

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 Y?

I come from a long line of strong women,

Whose future isn't grated the best.
Than there's,
DEAD men,
DRUGGED men,
FORGOTTEN men,
And
UNWANTED men.
But we only can remember the DEAD men.
They remind us of the good in people.

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 Talking Taboos

They say we shouldn't talk about Death.

Brings people down.
I surely don't think that.
More like a experience or a wanting of some sort.
Death is for black, Which is bad.
That's what they say.
So we sit quietly while people die.
They cry.
I don't.
I think it's a miss of an opportunity to be free.

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More than commands

A guide on how to be my slave.

Use your money to Buy me a video game so i can yell at the tv.

Go to ikes and buy me the pizzal NO tomatoes, sour dough bread, and the voodoo

chips.

Don't give me lip, i'll smack you.

Fetch my bed i need it more than ever.

Don't try to run

You can't.

Give me my phone, I'm going to by a tracker to put it in your skin.

So next time u think about running, i'll find un and whoop your ass.

Go start a fire so I can burn this poem.

It's not one of my good ones.

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 Part of My life

OW!!

I think something hit me in the face.

OH!

Yep it was life.

Again.

The only thing that brings me down.

And up!

But not so far up i'll die.

Again.

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 My explained feels

Confused I am.

Sad or happy am I supposed to be.

It's true I cry so and laugh not knowing why.

Am I trying to be happy?

Am I trying to be sad?

Confused I am.

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I'm not hungry

In this class,

We eat flies,

That go by,

With chopsticks.

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 Not written by A.K.C

I dream that I will become more powerful.

One day I will gain strength to overcome powerless Aaliyah kayla clemons.

One day i will not gain strength to overcome the brave Aaliyah kayla clemons.

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Pa-pa

While not see him for 18 years for mother.

Taking my whole life to find him,

My grandfather was seeking helping S.F.

Before, stuck in the drugged streets and alleyways.

To now, finally life hits him in the face.

But his heart takes the most hits.

Now closer to dying.

I see my grandfather almost everyday.

His being makes a difference.

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No good Advice

Stop

Drop

And roll

Away from me

So I can walk

Freely away

From

My problem.

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Not Alot

Black and gold

orange/tuna/chill cheese

Helplessness

Can i go home now or early?

What is the point of this class?

Sex on fire!

Taniya ann williams.

People

Comfort

My room

1010

54th street

I regret saying anything all the time.

Pesto, sourdough, turkey, red onions, tomatoes, swiss.

I don't care.

My life

english, Nothing, home, freedom.

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 Mass

The unknown is more clear than my future.

So close to falling in the darkness.

I can't control my future.

They've taken it over.

The normal ones.

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 Getting lost

I got lost in my thoughts,

They always find a way to wrap me up.

Make me think about the bad.

And worse.

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 I would lose

If I ruled the world,

I wouldn't be able to.

It's to corrupted.

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 Knot a magician

Its 2020.

Donald Trump is dead.

But the damage he put is still here.

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Blue pen

My negatives and positives.

Hmmmmm

Well,

I have a lot of negatives that drags me down

To the deep seas and see other people in my same state of mind.

Positives.

Hmmmm

Positives.

Too hard to touch,

Never can be reached.

But people say good things about me.

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 The Finals

I'm sorry but ,

I'm not sorry,

Lost a chance.

For use to be happy

And now I

Live with a turtle

And die alone.

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It won't work

I was cursed with the gift to breath.

When I was born the bay bridge was getting built, many tragedies happened. My

father was one of them.

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