Shadow Work Journal PDF
Shadow Work Journal PDF
Shadow Work
Journal
and Workbook
People often cringe at doing shadow work, but - What if shadow
work were viewed as the beautiful, freeing process it is?
And - What if you gave yourself permission to feel and cry while
doing shadow work? And then chose to forgive and love yourself
unconditionally?
This shadow work journal will help you to discover and heal your
shadow side with deep journal prompts, little-known shadow
illumination techniques (from the Teachers of Light), inner child
healing, and self-care.
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“By illuminating and integrating
our shadows, we make ourselves
whole.”
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Table of Contents
What is your Shadow Side? 5
Self-Care Exercises 68
Pros/Cons Lists 69
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What is your Shadow Side
We all carry a shadow side. These are the negative aspects and vulnerabilities of
ourselves that we’d rather pretend don’t exist. Often, our shadow selves are born
in early childhood as the result of trauma or repressing emotions.
When you ignore your shadow self, it holds power over you. When you do shadow
work exercises, the shadow is illuminated, and can then be integrated to give you
more awareness, strength, and stability.
In other words, you become conscious of what you’ve previously shoved into your
subconscious by doing shadow work.
As you use this deep shadow work journal to illuminate your shadow self, your
conscious self is made aware of vulnerabilities, fears, and unconscious habits that
have been directed by the negative aspects of your shadow.
To do shadow work is to uncover what your repressed qualities are and to heal
from childhood experiences or traumas that formed your shadow.
When you choose to ignore your shadow side, and remain largely unaware of it, or
unwilling to admit that it exists – The shadow gets darker, denser, and thicker.
For example, perhaps you were accidentally left somewhere as a small child by
your parents. Now, as an adult, you have an “unconscious program” of
“abandonment” running in your shadow self subconscious.
If you are unaware that this incident created pain that you simply shoved down,
but never looked at and healed, you may have issues of being too clingy in your
relationships as an adult, and ultimately pushing potential mates away.
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How to Get the Most Out of this Journal
Be kind, patient, and go easy on yourself. Your shadow has been hidden away for a
very long time.
It takes patience and compassion to illuminate and integrate your shadow for
greater awareness and wholeness.
Be kind, patient, and go easy on yourself. Your shadow has been hidden away for a
very long time.
It takes patience and compassion to illuminate and integrate your shadow for
greater awareness and wholeness.
Practice Self-Care
Be open and non-judgmental while figuring out what makes you tick and why. Give
yourself lots of grace and love when doing this inner work.
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Benefits of Shadow Work
Healthier Relationships
When you better understand your shadow and the qualities you’ve tried to hide,
you’ll be more understanding of others and their shadows. You also won’t be as
triggered by other people’s behavior. Exploring your shadow also makes you more
self-aware of how you are acting towards others, which makes you kinder and
gentler.
Finding and illuminating your shadow makes you aware of all the negative traits
you tend to show when triggered.
Knowing that you’re prone to angry outbursts when pushed in a certain way can
change the way you respond to those triggers in the future.
Getting to know your shadow may show you that you have a tendency to drown
your sorrows in a pint of ice cream rather than cry, because you were taught not to
express your emotions as a child.
Now, when you are sad, you can let yourself cry and express the emotion rather
than stuff it down with food.
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Stop Cycles of Abuse
Even if you don’t consider yourself abused as a child, examining how your
upbringing affected you and created your shadow, will help you be a better parent
to your own children.
Shadow work allows you to feel more whole because you’re accepting all the parts
that make you, you!
A healthy, balanced person understands their shadow well and accepts all the
aspects of themselves, without judgement.
Then simply seeks to choose their words and actions more carefully when dealing
with others.
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How to Integrate Your Shadow Side
This book goes deep with questions and exercises that will reveal your shadow self.
Remember that the shadow may not always want to be found and may lash out
when cornered.
We are shining a light on something that was told it had to stay in the dark and
hidden.
We may have even shoved our shadows down with alcohol and drugs. Our
shadows “think” they belong there because they’ve been stuffed down for years.
Forgiveness
When you come to a place of understanding yourself, you will begin to understand
and accept the negative traits in others.
You will also be able to identify “cycles of abuse”, or “generational trauma”. These
are things such as, My grandfather told my father that he was “worthless” and
“real men don’t cry”… He then passed this verbal abuse on to me.
It is easier to come to a place of forgiveness for the people who passed unhealthy
generational beliefs onto you, if you understand where that belief came from.
Unconditional Love
When your shadow is uncovered, you may sense large amounts of guilt, shame, or
fear. This is where self-love comes in.
The world is ascending into the 5th dimension, and you cannot take your baggage
with you! Shadow work is an essential part of raising your vibration enough to
finally attract all the incredible things this life has to offer!
Hug your shadow. Smile at your shadow. Tell your shadow that it is not it’s fault. Be
the understanding guidance counselor to your shadow!
Pretend it is a small child who doesn’t yet know who to trust. Let your shadow
finally know that it CAN TRUST YOU.
Tell your shadow that it is okay, and that you love it and understand why it was
formed.
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The Rose Tool
If you decide to fight or run from your shadow, the more it will hide. Or worse,
chase you!
A red rose holds a very neutral vibration with its own grounding cord (stem) and
visualizing a red rose surrounding your shadow will demagnetize all the dense
emotions holding it firmly in place.
I have seen my shadow show up as a wailing banshee of fear that chased me.
Instead of running, I turned around and hugged it, until its fear subsided.
Other times the shadow shows up as a shaming voice in your head. I instantly
choose to picture a rose tool until this shame simply breaks apart.
Integrating the shadow self requires love, love, and more love!
You ARE worthy! You ARE beautiful! It is OK to be open and honest with others! It
is OK to cry and express your emotions!
As children we are told not to speak our minds, not to cry or express strong
emotions, that we are unworthy, not enough if we don’t live up to our parent’s
expectations, and so on, and so on.
Our parents usually love us and say they just want what’s best for us. But not all
parents understand that what they think is best for us, may actually be
detrimental.
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How to Illuminate Your Shadow
Remember that your shadow has been told it deserves to be hidden and to just
stay down in the dark for many years.
Go easy on yourself and your shadow side, for it takes a lot of courage to look at
the parts of you that you have hidden away.
The following shadow work activities will help you to illuminate your shadow so
that you can love, forgive and understand it.
I think the Imagine Dragons song is excellent at explaining Why to do the Mirror
Gazing Exercise:
Your “demons” ARE your shadow, and staring into your own eyes, as well as the
eyes of others, is a great way of illuminating the shadows.
Mirror gazing is uncomfortable for many, but is a very useful tool for facing your
fears, wounds, and especially your insecurities.
Grab a mirror that you can gaze comfortably into for 15 minutes. Time yourself if
you are short on time or worried about time.
You may begin to see your flaws. Things such as wrinkles, gray hair, a crooked nose,
or an uneven eye may begin to pop into your awareness.
If physical flaws come up, simply repeat these affirmations over and over, until you
can do this exercise without physical flaws blocking you:
“I AM BEAUTIFUL!”
“I AM SAFE!”
“I AM UNDERSTOOD!”
“I AM LOVED!”
“I AM ADORED!”
Now, delve deeper and stare directly into your own eyes. Note the color, the flecks
of gold, the sparks of light. Stay with yourself. Stare into your eyes.
Now, talk to yourself as if you were your own wounded inner child. You may want
to say things like, “It is safe to come out now”, or “You are unconditionally loved
and adored!”
What Emotions Came Up? How Did You Respond to Those Emotions?
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Working Through Triggers
A trigger is a person, place, thing or situation that causes you to have a negative
emotional or behavioral response.
Negative emotions where you react rather than responding to a situation or person
may show up as: Anger, running and hiding, crying, violent outbursts, inability to
speak your truth or communicate honestly (simply shutting down and being quiet).
When you feel triggered, use this worksheet to break down exactly why you're
feeling reactive, or reacted in a negative way…
My List of Triggers
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What Triggered You? Describe the Situation in Detail…
How Did You React to this Trigger? What Emotions Did You Feel?
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What Triggered You? Describe the Situation in Detail…
How Did You React to this Trigger? What Emotions Did You Feel?
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What Triggered You? Describe the Situation in Detail…
How Did You React to this Trigger? What Emotions Did You Feel?
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What Triggered You? Describe the Situation in Detail…
How Did You React to this Trigger? What Emotions Did You Feel?
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What Triggered You? Describe the Situation in Detail…
How Did You React to this Trigger? What Emotions Did You Feel?
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What Triggered You? Describe the Situation in Detail…
How Did You React to this Trigger? What Emotions Did You Feel?
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What Triggered You? Describe the Situation in Detail…
How Did You React to this Trigger? What Emotions Did You Feel?
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What Triggered You? Describe the Situation in Detail…
How Did You React to this Trigger? What Emotions Did You Feel?
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What Triggered You? Describe the Situation in Detail…
How Did You React to this Trigger? What Emotions Did You Feel?
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What Triggered You? Describe the Situation in Detail…
How Did You React to this Trigger? What Emotions Did You Feel?
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What Triggered You? Describe the Situation in Detail…
How Did You React to this Trigger? What Emotions Did You Feel?
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What Triggered You? Describe the Situation in Detail…
How Did You React to this Trigger? What Emotions Did You Feel?
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What Triggered You? Describe the Situation in Detail…
How Did You React to this Trigger? What Emotions Did You Feel?
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Little Known Shadow Work Hacks
Illuminating your shadow side doesn’t always have to be difficult or time
consuming.
In fact, I was having a difficult time illuminating my shadow side with traditional
methods.
As usual, prayer and meditation brought me to the following techniques from the
Teacher’s of Light and my own spirit guides I work with.
My spirit guides did NOT prepare me for Rainbow Bright’s Tube of Healing! They
simply said to “try it”, so I did!
This exercise brought my shadow to the forefront like nothing I’ve ever tried. Soon
after practicing this visualization, my shadow was easily accessible during dreams
and in meditation.
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Little Known Shadow Work Hacks
Another simple exercise for illuminating your shadow side is drinking water
charged with the cosmic diamond violet flame.
To illuminate and clear your shadow self, you need some powerful energetic tools,
tools that aren’t given in traditional shadow work journaling exercises.
Becoming aware of your shadow self is wonderful but clearing the sticky energetic
residue of the shadow with these powerful energetic tools will do so much more!
I have found that when working with these tools, it is very helpful to enter a state
of playfulness! Your rational mind doesn’t understand the energetics of light and
sound like your aura and Soul will.
So, for this next exercise for shadow work – play, pretend, make it up, and most
importantly, feel rather than overthink.
After doing this exercise, I immediately felt euphoric, however I had more fears and
pain brought to the forefront in my dreams for me to understand, heal, and
unconditionally love and accept about myself.
If you are not ready to do this, it may be best to simply start with the journal
prompts.
• Get a cup of clean filtered or spring water (Clean water is super important! No
tap water please!)
• Place the water in front of you.
• Ask (with reverence), the Cosmic Diamond Violet Flame to enter your water.
• Ask Ascended Master St. Germain and Archangels Zadkiel and Gabriel to assist
with infusing your water with the Cosmic Diamond Violet Flame.
• Now, close your eyes and visualize the a beautiful bright violet diamond
completely surrounding your glass of water.
• Make it as bright as you can! Imagine it shining as brightly as a violet diamond
sun would!
• Thank St. Germain, Archangel Zadkiel and Archangel Gabriel for their assistance!
• Now drink the water and then say the affirmation: “I AM the Cosmic Diamond
Violet Flame. I AM the Flame of Mercy. I AM the Flame of Joy. I AM the Flame of
Oneness. I AM Saint Germain. I AM Gabriel Zadkiel.” 28
• Thank St. Germain, Archangel Zadkiel and Archangel Gabriel for their assistance!
• Now drink the water and then say the affirmation: “I AM the Cosmic Diamond
Violet Flame. I AM the Flame of Mercy. I AM the Flame of Joy. I AM the Flame of
Oneness. I AM Saint Germain. I AM Gabriel Zadkiel.”
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Deep Shadow Work Journal Prompts
Journal prompts for shadow work are essentially questions designed to probe and
challenge the most negative traits of your subconscious psyche, such as: anger,
fear, doubt, greed, victimhood, lack, distrust, and jealousy.
Self discovery is the ultimate goal of shadow work and shadow work prompts are
an ideal way to get to the root of your shadow.
When you ask yourself shadow work questions, and answer as honestly as you can,
you illuminate the side of you that you have most feared and repressed.
Once you are made aware of your shadow self, you can fully accept and
unconditionally love it, which takes you off the “wheel of unconscious shadow self
reactions”.
You can then begin to respond to your life, rather than react, run, hide, reject, or
push away people or experiences that are healthy for you, or help you grow.
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What makes you angry? Why?
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What scares you the most? If your greatest fear happened,
what would be so bad about it?
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When confronted I…: A: Go on defense and lash back, B: Run
and hide, C: Calmly respond to the confrontation. Why do I
react this way?
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Think of a time you were wronged. How did that make you
feel?
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What lies are you telling yourself at this time? Examples may
be lies about your health, finances, mental stability, stress
level, happiness level, etc… How can you better face your
denial and reset your healthy path?
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Do you feel unloved or unworthy as an adult? What steps can
you take to give more love and self-worth to yourself?
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What is your biggest regret? Why? How can you make peace
with having this regret now?
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Do you expect great things? Do you know good things are
coming to you? Why do you deserve good, or why not?
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What main thing did you want in childhood that you didn’t
receive? Why did you want this so badly? How has this
shaped your adult self?
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What is your mother/caregiver’s worst trait? Do you share
this trait? Why?
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Do you believe you can accomplish any task you set your
mind to? Why or why not?
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What one obstacle is holding you back from achieving the life
of your dreams? Why? How can you overcome this?
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What one person let you down as a child? Do you share any
traits with this person?
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What was your biggest childhood fear? Why? How have you
overcome this fear in adulthood?
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Would you describe your childhood as happy? Sad? Healthy?
Balanced? Lonely? How have you overcome this in
adulthood?
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What is your most vivid memory of being disappointed as a
child? Do you expect to be disappointed as an adult because
of this?
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What task do you feel the best doing? I feel good doing this
because…
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What is the worst thing you’ve ever done to someone else?
Why did you do it? Do you still feel guilty for this? Would
making amends with this person make you feel better?
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Do you drink alcohol, or take prescription or recreational
drugs to escape pain? What pain or emotions are you trying
to escape? Can you allow yourself to feel this pain, accept it,
and let it go?
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Who are you jealous of? Why? How can you emulate the
traits you are jealous of, or work towards manifesting the
things they have that you’d like to have?
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Do you like or dislike pets? Does this stem from a healthy
love/untimely death of a beloved childhood pet? How can
you work towards healing this if needed?
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Cons of Most Painful Relationship:
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Have you experienced great grief or loss in your life? Do you
feel you could have saved this person/animal if only you’d
done this or that different? Why?
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Do you blame your mother/father/caregiver for anything? If
you put yourself in their shoes, do their actions make more
sense to you? Were they stressed, overworked, financially
burdened, had health issues, suffered from alcoholism,
depression, etc…
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Is it easy for you to ask for help? Does it make you feel weak
or vulnerable? Why do you think this is?
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I am grateful for these 10 things… Can be people, animals,
your work, etc. Really feel the feelings of how these things
bring you joy!
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I would looove to have these 5 characteristics! Write them
down and read them aloud for 30 days for best results.
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Inner Child Healing
As children, we long for unconditional love, support, and acceptance from our
parents or caregivers.
We may cope in adulthood with denial, pain, fears, repression (not fully growing
up), or develop co-dependent relationships with spouses, partners, or even friends.
It is time to heal and repair the wounds from past childhood pain by first
acknowledging them.
Remember to go easy and take your time. Childhood traumas and pain are often
the most difficult to identify, look at, and forgive. Many of these memories are
painful. It is 100% OK to cry, punch pillows, and scream at this pain!
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Was it okay to speak your mind in your home as a child?
Why?
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How often did the adults in your life spend time with you as a
child?
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Were you ever left somewhere as a child? Or did an adult
forget to pick you up? When?
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Were you shamed for how you look/act/your
interests/choices of future profession? Were you told you
weren’t thin enough, needed makeup, etc.
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Were you pushed into things you didn’t want to do? (Things
like sports, dance, chess club, etc, because your
parent/guardian wanted you to excel at their interests)
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Inner Child Healing Continued…
Now that we’ve identified this pain, we are going to look for generational patterns.
Oftentimes, your parents/guardians are simply regurgitating shame, fear, guilt, etc.
from their parents onto you unconsciously.
Perhaps you father was abused by your grandfather (which was more common
back then), and he inflicted this physical/verbal/emotional abuse onto you as the
only parenting skill he was taught.
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Which parent/caregiver/adult made you feel the worst? Why?
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Do you understand why this parent/caregiver/adult made you
feel this way? Why?
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Can you forgive this parent/caregiver/adult for treating you
this way in childhood? Why or why not?
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Are you a parent? Have you come across times where you
reacted, or were going to react in the negative way your
parent/caregiver/adult did to you that you disliked?
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Inner Child Healing
To heal the pain we felt in childhood from the adults who were supposed to
unconditionally love and protect us, we have to identify and feel the pain.
I encourage you to let it out. Cry. Scream. Punch pillows. Go for an angry hike/walk.
Take the time to understand what your inner child needed, and why you didn’t
receive it with these inner child journal prompts.
Maybe your mother had depression. Maybe she was exhausted, or sick a lot.
Maybe her mother shamed and guilted her, and that’s all she knew.
Whatever the reasoning for your inner child not receiving the love/support all
children need – We can go a long ways towards healing by identifying it.
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Letter to my inner child continued…
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Inner Child Affirmations
Now that we’ve journaled how we felt as children, identified generational
traumas/cycles, and allowed ourselves to feel any pain that may have come up
during the inner child exercises – We can now begin to rebuild/affirm what we
really needed as children.
The spoken word is very powerful. Our words carry weight, vibration, and
eventually create our beliefs and actions – Which in turn, creates our realities.
Imagine if you would have been told as a child that you could accomplish anything
and to keep trying at your biggest dreams? Imagine if you were told you were
capable, unconditionally loved, and could be anything or with anyone you wished?
Imagine if you were nurtured, supported, and cheered on by the adults in your
childhood? It is time to do this for ourselves!
These affirmations are powerful, and even more powerful when spoken out loud.
When repeated daily for at least 30 days, they will give your inner child the
strength it needs to rebuild/repair/let go of the past.
Simply crying out the pain can make your body feel like it’s been hit by a truck!
Self-care is soooo important during this time!
Take time for you to process and work through your emotions and pain from the
past, but don’t forget to take care of your physical body while doing so.
Here are some more self-care ideas/exercises that will be crucial to your shadow
work illumination and integration success:
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Pros & Cons List
Past traumatic events and relationships often cause us to relive the event over and
over in our minds. We wonder what we could’ve done differently or imagine
fighting our ex-partner while making better points. LOL!
Since emotions can only be felt in the present, reliving past painful events cause us
to feel sad, angry, or victimized in the present – Which only increases anxiety and
depression.
When making your pros & cons list, it is helpful to list exactly what the past painful
event taught you. This will help you to realize how much stronger you are for living
through the event and may help you view the pain or trauma with a new
perspective of appreciation for what you learned.
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Final Shadow Work Thoughts…
After working with my shadow side for about a decade, I have become a more
balanced, aware, loving individual.
But, I don’t think there is ever a “done” when it comes to shadow work. New fears
will inevitably “pop up” in dreams, meditation, or waking life.
Or, you may think that you looked at, forgave, loved, and therefore integrated parts
of your shadow, and suddenly it will be slammed into your face to be looked at,
and forgiven yet again.
But, now that you know how to do shadow work, you can turn to these exercises
again and again… Dealing with each shadow as it comes up, instead of repressing
or stuffing them.
However you choose to do shadow work, know that this journal is for you. Simply
meaning, you don’t have to go at anyone else’s pace, or show anyone your shadow
or shadow work.
The process to self-discovery and learning to love and accept all the parts of you
can be scary, draining, and overwhelming.
But, it can also be beautiful, amazing, and very freeing! I truly hope that this
journal and workbook brought you to a better place!
A place where peace, love, acceptance, and balance is found within yourself, and
will therefore be easy to give to others in return – Spreading more joy!
As always, choose to spread love, light, and kindness – Because it ALWAYS comes
back!
Many blessings to you and yours! It is now time to hide from your shadows no
more and step into the light where you’ve ALWAYS belonged!
Jamie
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